#youre my future wife

[inkskinned]

it mattered because when my brother asked me what if this is the happiest you'll ever be? the best you'll ever get? the thing i felt was fear, not peace. everybody thought you were so perfect for me. even i thought you were "helping me grow". i had to challenge every internal clock. make myself more thoughtful, more kind, more beautiful.

i told my therapist it was good because i like the changes i made and there's something so strong about saying i did that. the problem is that i can like the difference all i want, but i changed for you. something akin to getting your name tattooed, all my progress is stamped with fuck you.

it was the happiest i'd ever been and also the best i'd ever gotten. i would still get in the car and think what the fuck just happened.

#warm up #writeblr #i spent a lot of time picturing our future #how funny to think: in each version of our future #i was never myself #i was someone smarter kinder braver #better adept. #who could navigate the way you shouted and got angry at small things and never fucking believed the best of me #i would never be needy and you'd never get tired of me #people usually talk about how we picture people as being “fixable”. but i assumed i was the problem. my idyllic picture wasn't of you. #it was a version of me that wasn't ill. that needed no extra help. that could be your wife and happy #the fact i wasn't happy was because there is something so wrong inside me. it's always been that way. i convinced myself: #if i stay i can change. if i stay i can make it worth it. i can apologize and fix this. and make us both okay. #for the last year i've been thinking about how you blamed our whole breakup on me. how it was my fault for whatever thing. #and i agreed with you. because of course i did. you'd trained me to believe everything was my fault . that you wanted to love me and i made #it far too hard. that i was always finding ways to ''set you off'. #a few days ago while i was doing something else #i realized that while i was in crisis you told me to fuck off and find someone else to get help. and you never fucking apologized . #you said i made you do that because i wasn't being sensible. i had been crying too hard to speak clearly. #you said: you're doing this to manipulate me. #you forgave yourself for that. i had to forgive you without apology. you said you were right to react that way. and then you were SO #SO annoyed. any time i said: i feel like you aren't nice to me. it is hard to trust that you love me. #i don't think about you that much anymore. but these days when i do: all i can think is that im not sure u ever really understood kindness #you were the cruelest to the people closest to you. and most of the time. that meant it fell to me.

[kirby-the-gorb]

we are about an hour into rare disease day in my timezone! (it's always the last day of february, whether that's the 28th or the 29th.) the true prevalence of mast cell disorders is unknown, as they are often misdiagnosed or ignored. and mast cell activation syndrome, the most prevalent kind of mast cell disorder, only had diagnostic criteria laid out for the first time in 2010. so whether or not it's truly rare is really up in the air!

(personally I suspect it is just aggressively underdiagnosed but I'm not a research scientist or diagnostician right now. and even if it is rare, it's gonna be a lot less so than it was 5 years ago as certain respiratory infections are known to trigger it into visibility. that's what happened to me when I got mono at the end of 2015, further compounded when I got covid in 2022.)

all chronically ill people face a lot of hurdles when it comes to seeking diagnosis, accommodation, and treatment (all of which can be severely complicated by any intersecting marginalities), but rare diseases present a special challenge.

for example, I have an immune disorder. my immune system does not like being alive, my mast cells are way too jumpy and throw a tantrum over every little thing. you'd think an immunologist would be the one to treat me, right?

I've had 6 immunology referrals rejected in the past 9 months alone. multiple major immunology clinics in my major city tied to a major research university outright refuse to see patients with "mcas" written anywhere in their chart.

after 8 years of being debilitatingly ill, and suspecting it was immune mediated for 6, and getting it confirmed beyond a shadow of a doubt by the bone marrow biopsy last month, I will have my second ever appointment with an immunologist. another 2 1/2 months from now. the first immunologist lied to me about the reliability of the one available blood test, when I first came up with the hypothesis by myself 6 years ago, and forced me to abandon my (correct!!! now proven!!!) hypothesis for 3 entire years while we wandered around lost and got nowhere other than even more thorough process of elimination.

okay, well if my immune system is attacking me, maybe it's technically autoimmune? that's the rheumatologists instead of the immunologists, what do they have to say? dick all my dude, I don't have rheumatoid arthritis so they just shrug at me and go "idk, fibro? I don't know why you're here" and send me home with nothing. (I literally had a rheumatologist say to me, verbatim, "I don't know why you're here." buddy it's your job to read the chart and decide if I get seen or not, you tell me. at least he had a snazzy outfit.)

being chronically ill can be a terrible struggle no matter what, but a disease that is perceived as rare, accurate or not, adds a whole new layer of bullshit. (and of course there are much much rarer diseases out there, with even more hoops and dead ends and struggles and all-new layers of bullshit that even I don't have to deal with!)

anyway I'm having a shit time and using this awareness day as an excuse to productively bitch about it 👍

#it is okay to reblog this btw! #I know sometimes ppl get skittish when posts seem personal #(but I also know a wall of text is not Aesthetique™️ which like fair it's your blog yknow?) #kirby #swearing #long post #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #rare disease day #mcas #mast cell activation disorder #one time my wife took me to a gathering with her (at the time future-)doctor friends #and they were asking me about what I do and stuff and I was like 'oh I'm disabled' #so of course they're like 'oh with what?' basically #so I had to explain that we didn't know #and *why* we didn't know #and they seemed deeply disquieted that it could take even that long to find answers. #(this was coincidentally 6 years ago.) #it's a good lesson for them to learn early.

[adhd-merlin]

S3 arthur trying to act normal around gwen while he had such a horrific crush on her was so funny. bumping into her like "you might have heard about my engagement. don't worry!! I called it off. wasn't feeling it. so I'm still single if you even care. its fine if you don't"

#me giggling and twirling my hair: that's your future wife you silly. #arwen #/ from my drafts #*

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#oh my god this is great #it fits them perfectly #i miss them #faves #i love them your honor #jonah x amy #amy x jonah #simmosa #jonah simms #amy sosa #superstore #superstoree #superstoreedit #gif #gifs #gifset #love #future wife

[thecottagecorebisexuals]

The phrasing here kills me.

Catarina saying that she's so used to picking up hoes that this one should be no problem.

#hamefura #marikata #katarina claes #my next life as a villainess #bakarina #maria campbell #catarina claes #jfc cata that's no way to refer to your future wife

[kinokoshoujoart]

30 days of Harvest Moon - day 16. mining / fight

LUMINA USED ROCK-ET LAUNCH!

honestly is it really a farming sim if it doesn’t have a girls gauntlet fight that activates at 4:44 AM in the mines through your doghouse where the girlies take turns trying to beat you to death by throwing their love interests at you 🤔

#my art #30 days of harvest moon #lumina gets to use rock as a blunt weapon. as a treat #woe be upon ye #i was absolutely CERTAIN that the defense item was the miracle potion #but alas… #bokumono #after marriage lumina seems the most likely to let rock scurry around the mansion grounds while she hunts him for sport with a flintlock #are you going to say she doesn’t? god forbid women do ANYTHING #(half joking 🙂) #hmds cute #story of seasons #harvest moon #harvest moon ds #harvest moon ds cute #’i think lumina yelling at me… is just her way of showing she loves me! :D’ #rock your wife is buying a shovel and a bag of lime as we speak #sorry! i mean. happy wholesome rival marriages in this game!! certainly not 4/5 cases of future homicide! haha! (this game hates all npcs) #rock (ds) #lumina (ds) #pony hm #hm rock #hm lumina #hm pony #fanart #again i went out of order yesterday WHOOPSIE!!! so day 18 tomorrow

[andthebeanstalk]

Betty is so relatable I would do the same shit for my wife

#simon petrikov #original #at #the moment where she declares that she's jumping into the future to save him. just pure save-husband impulse #and maybe she made the wrong choice but I felt the emotion in my gut and that's good tragedy baby #I would do the same thing and then be in the future and realize I probably fucked up but also what else could I do but #devote my entire life and sanity to saving her after I have destroyed every other option?? #it's not healthy necessarily but a fucking apocalypse happened and her wife is in eternal torment. what else could she possibly do?? #I'm just obsessed with the attitude she has towards saving him and how it turns from joyful heroism to unhealthy obsession #I have a much healthier relationship with my wife. but also she's never been driven mad by a magical crowd for a thousand years! #and Betty did it!! y'all can argue about whether Ice King was better than Simon and I think he must make peace with every part of himself #but it is extremely consistent in the original series that being Ice King is basically this existentially horrifying Eternal torture #so the fact that someone who loved him decided they would save him from that at all costs is very sad and very beautiful #beautiful because no one deserves to suffer forever. tragic because she was far to willing to take his place if she had to. #betty grof #fionna and cake #golbetty #golb #*driven mad by a magical crown #you forgot your floaties #edit: upon rewatching every episode with betty in it i will say i don't think i would be so hellbent on murdering the person she had become #betty does act selfishly and it makes her character more compelling #but i like to think if my wife went banana-pants ice-king-level bonkers i would be able to love that version of her too #but who's to say whether this story would be the reason I responded differently? #it's a good story

[foundress0fnothing]

Hello I am emerging from the Big Sad ™️ to post a feysand snippet 👀

My Nessian and Azris WIPs are next, in that order! Sorry it’s been a minute 💋

Three bottles of cheap wine deep into their good riddance to asshole boyfriends celebration, when she confessed to Mor that she missed feeling like herself, missing feeling in control of her life, she expected her friend to sympathize, to reaffirm that she was “better off without that scumbag, babe,” to maybe (assuming she was sober enough in the morning to remember) send a motivational tiktok about the importance of “self-care” on her “healing journey.” 

But Feyre didn’t think that this could possibly fall under the guise of “self-care.’ “Mor, I…”

“That doesn’t sound like trust, Feyre.”

Feyre snorted. “It’s just that—”

“No. You wanted to move past him and feel like yourself again? This is the best way to do that,” she said, grabbing Feyre’s hand and dragging her into the store. “Find one thing. One. We’re not leaving until you do.” And with that, she squeezed Feyre’s hand and let go, moving into the recesses of the store with enviable ease. 

Feyre rolled her eyes, not that Mor could see, and started following her into the boutique, passing racks of lace and silk that were loosely arranged by color and letting her hands graze the fabrics, buttery and slick beneath her fingertips. 

She stopped as her hand caught on a red bustier and she savored the feeling of cool silk broken up by delicately stitched whorls of black lace. It was nice, but more than that, it was exactly the kind of thing that Tamlin would have hated. He preferred to see her in pastels, floral and lacy and frothy and soft, meant to remind them both that she was delicate, feminine, fragile. But this piece was something else, something that felt more her. Or, at any rate, the version of her that she was trying to find again—someone self-assured and powerful and strong. 

Idly, she flipped over the tag and almost laughed aloud at the price. She had known it would be expensive, but $300 for so little clothing seemed ridiculous, even for someone as ridiculous as Mor. 

“See something you like, darling?” 

#feysand #Rhys is about to be such a menace #it’s not every day your future wife walks into your lingerie store #wips #my writing

[ackermental]

Daemon Targaryen, a hopeless fool when it comes to romance, not asking Rhaenyra for her favor after she stands up from her seat just for him 🤦‍♀️.

Don't you worry queen, you'll catch this clown sooner or later.

#hotd #house of the dragon #daemon x rhaenyra #rhaenyra targaryen #daemon targaryen #she was so disappointed when he asked Alicent instead 😭 #daemon my boy there is a time and space for provoking Otto get your priorities straight #that's your future wife mister what are you doing

[waywardsunlight]

You had somebody looking out for you for a while...

#SCREAMING CRYING- #buddy why DIDN'T YOU MOVE ON?! WHY AREn'T YOU WITH YOUR WIFE?! #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #the owl house #ftf spoilers #for the future spoilers #I'm gonna fucking cry there were other things in this episode but this was my first idea that i had to get down #still thinking about what I'm gonna draw for Raine fr

[feykrorovaan]

Romancing Gale on a sorceress is so funny because you have the ability to be so catty to each other and I'm just waiting for the tension to build until they finally kiss and start giving each other soft looks. It's fantastic.

#feykrorovaan #Fey's adventures in Faerûn #I'm still working on my main playthrough but I couldn't wait to start a new one ❤️ #Baldur's Gate 3 #bg3 #Gale of Waterdeep #Gale Dekarios #Mr Dekarios stop sassing your future wife 😆 #ooh the magic wielders are fightiiiiiing now kiss

[jennifersminds]

The problem Damon... you talk a good game but you don’t actually know anything. She’ll never forgive you, and never for a vampire? It’s a very long time.

#the vampire diaries #thevampirediariesedit #tvd #tvdedit #tvdu #elijah mikaelson #elena x elijah #elejah #elijahmikaelsonedit #elenagilbertedit #jennifersmindsgifs #tvdversegifs #mikaelsongifs #"she'll never forgive you (i'll make sure of it) #this scene is essentially elijah drafting his plans to fuck elena for eternity and if u think otherwise your wrong #'thanks for immortalising my future wife can't wait to watch her swallow you whole' #me drafting fics in the tag what else is new #but literally s2 elijah is so slutty and casually devoted #he was so twisted i miss him sm

[banrionceallach]

Can fully envision Shaun Temple telling people 'this is my wife Donna Noble and this is our daughter Rose and this is my wife's partner the Doctor.'

#doctor who spoilers #when your wife is in a qpr with a centuries old alien #brother in law? niece? #not in my headcanon #daughter and possible future husband/partner

[kenzie-ann27]

kendall and stewy break the news to rava (2004)

#it is your fault. in many ways. as my best friend's future wife. #kenstewy #succession #kendall rava and stewy in college must've been so annoying god bless #you're fighting over a failperson. i hope you both know that

[accursedvoid]

Not me listening to ‘No Longer You’ and thinking about how the latter half could parallel Anakin/Vader….

#epic the underworld saga #epic the musical #Star Wars #anakin skywalker #like specifically I can see this like an AMV/PMV in my head just: #‘I see your palace covered in red’ the temple massacre #‘faces of men / long believed you dead’ obi wan first seeing vader again #(and basically everyone who knew Anakin finding out he’s vader ) #‘wife with a Man who is haunting / trail of bodies’ that’s just straight up Anakin/vader specially with ROTS #‘’song of past romance’ padme and her death #‘I see you on the brink of death / I see you draw your final breath’ ROTJ essentially #‘’sacrifice of man’ could be a lot of things but maybe Ani making that deal with the devil (sidious) #‘I see portrayals of betrayals’ just Anakin turning on the jedi and especially obi wand reaction to anakin’s turn #‘and a brothers final stand’ could honestly be Anakin vs Obiwan on mustafar to Vader and Obiwan final duel #‘I see a man who gets to make it home alive / but it’s no longer you’ Anakin/vader #honestly though it’s a song in epic and obviously about odysseus future it feels like it could fit as a force seer speaking to #Anakin while he was out on campaign or something and happened upon them idk (or a force ghost apparition idk) #my post #GOD IF I HAD THE TALEN I WOULD DRAW THIS AS AN ANIMATIC OR MAKE IT AN AMV

[sqlmn]

OC RNG stuff.

-Lucinda is engaged to the oldest prince in a family of nine where there are 8 brothers and then the youngest is the only girl. She adores her future husband. -Ink Blot is a really dumb mage who acts as a street performer using fake magic despite being an actual mage. He just wants to be the center of attention. -Ruby and Luce are from the same plot (thank you RNG I love the dream wardens). They're part of different pairs and basically just patrol to keep dreams in check. Ruby and Luce also don't really meet each other in canon. Their routes don't overlap but they both interact with the main duo which is Colette and Marcus. (Ruby wants to beat Marcus up while Luce wants to kiss Marcus for what it matters.)

#i really love luce hes just so calm and collected in front of marcus and colette to try and look reliable #but hes actually one of the younger wardens who is made to replace his partner's old partner #so hes with sil and sil is just watching him for the first decade like why is he so awkward #when will he warm up to me or the other wardens he meets why is he always so tense #and then something happens and luce is sent into a panic because he learns that marcus used to laugh with sil and the retired warden #hes like ???? WHY DOES HE HATE ME ? WHAT DID I DO? and sil is like the guy is older than me and doesnt do change well #thats all there is to it he got used to my old partner and youre a wrench in the comfort zone hell get over it tho #and when marcus laughs for the first time in front of luce it is SO over for luce he would do anything for marcus #but then you get marcus who is telling colette i have to say things took an unexpected turn with sils partner #i went from fine with robert to being abandoned by robert to do you think luce is cute cause i think hes cute #and marcus is very much IM SO GAY which is fair cause colette is like MM YEAH SAME #and then you guys gotta realize i love my silly lil prince group where the oldest bro has a really cool future wife #and then the second oldest is like hey bro im stealing your wife for the afternoon and lucinda is like i see i see #and then the second oldest and lucinda just spend the entire afternoon dancing and shes happy to indulge him #then the third oldest is the original main one where he and the castle witch are on a mission to help another kingdom #but like the fact the oldest has an arranged marriage with a woman he loves #and the second youngest is in love with the son of two castle aids #who happens to be 40 and very worn out with stress from having to turn the second oldest down all the time #then the third oldest has a crush on a prince from the kingdom hes trying to help but the crush is on like an 18 year old #so the 2nd and 3rd oldest are constantly bickering over what the other sees in their crushes #anyway hi i love my ocs (gestures to them) #and ink was a really minor character in the plot bc it was mostly me paying attention to a dumbass vampire #and this thief who had to help the dumb vampire get home bc he has no sense of direction and had been abducted