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My ADHD meds have been out of stock for like 2 weeks now and I’m at the stage of being unmedicated where I start getting the urge to undertake new, slightly dangerous hobbies. I have 4 wood carving tutorials open on my phone and there’s a whittling knife in my amazon cart RIGHT NOW. It’s only a matter of time before my resolve crumbles.

#I’m just such a clumsy person #I should not buy a very sharp knife #but it looks so FUN #and I’m SO BORED but working feels IMPOSSIBLE #ADHD #focalin #where my focalin bitches at #how you coping #neurodivergent #hyperfixation

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Out of my ADHD medication rn and I’m trying to work and oh my god this is impossible. I feel like the gummy bears from that fucking 2000s song are having a party in my skull and they’re using my grey matter as a bean bag chair and they keep pouring Hennessy shots into my brain wrinkles

#I’ve been trying to send an email for 30 minutes #this energy drink is doing NOTHING #cvs please just refill my prescription already #adhd #neurodivergent #focalin #where my focalin bitches at #brain fog #vent #kind of idk I’m tired

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They’ve dipped into the devil’s lettuce

#warmup sketch #warmup drawing #50’s sketches #drawing #sketches #art #doodles #my doodles #420 #I actually drew this days ago lol

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So I’ve been on Celebrex for like 3 1/2 months now, had to stop taking it recently because it was giving me some GNARLY nausea and oh boy. Oh goodness. I did not realize HOW MUCH Celebrex was helping me until I had to stop taking it entirely.

Like it wasn’t completely curing me or anything, I was still having constant joint pain and fatigue, but it made my symptoms… semi-manageable? Kinda? Like I truly forgot just HOW bad it felt to have my pain go untreated.

Luckily after my last intense flare up I made sure to really build my work schedule around my pain and prepare things to run on their own incase I needed to take it easy for a while but holy shit. I feel Very Bad™️ right now.

#waiting for my rheumatologist to get back to me about a new prescription #wish me luck #vent #disabled #chronic illness #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #joint pain #disability #autoimmune disease #nsaids

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Totally normal warmup sketch that’s normal and cool and not weird at all

#art #my doodles #I didn’t take my ADHD meds today lmao #my brain is soup #drawing #sketch #warmup sketch #50’s sketches #what do I even tag this #nudist rabbit

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Bad news: My furnace is broken.

Good news: The landlord sent over a repair guy to fix it.

Bad news: The fix he did was temporary and the new part we need to fix it for real won’t be here till next week.

Good news: They sent over the hot repair guy.

Bad news: I did not know they were sending over the hot repair guy. I am wearing pajama pants and a gap sweatshirt my grandma bought me 3 years ago. I was not prepared for the hot repair guy.

#life shit #/j #/srs??? #he’s cute dude #resisting the urge to go on a rant about my landlord in these tags #gay #I mean bi but like gay energy

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Anyway don’t be like me, listen to your body and take breaks when you need to. That goes for stuff other than exercising too, like if you’re doing any type of activity and you feel your brain and body start to be like “heeeeeeeey can we slow down?” That’s a sign that you should take a breather, or dial it back, or whatever. Knowing how and when to listen to your body is your most important tool to manage your symptoms.

It’s also an important tool to help you like. Be a happier, chiller person.

Yet again stuck in the pattern of

Works out to help my fatigue -> experiences joint pain because I was too rough -> takes a day to rest because of my joint pain -> experiences fatigue because I haven’t been working out -> works out to help my fatigue -> becomes the chronically ill equivalent of Sisyphus, trapped in a self inflicted loop of being tired and achey all the time

#self care #lupus #mental health #chronic health #chronic illness #disability #disabled #joint pain #fatigue #chronic fatigue

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I know but stretching is BOOOORING /j

Yet again stuck in the pattern of

Works out to help my fatigue -> experiences joint pain because I was too rough -> takes a day to rest because of my joint pain -> experiences fatigue because I haven’t been working out -> works out to help my fatigue -> becomes the chronically ill equivalent of Sisyphus, trapped in a self inflicted loop of being tired and achey all the time

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Yet again stuck in the pattern of

Works out to help my fatigue -> experiences joint pain because I was too rough -> takes a day to rest because of my joint pain -> experiences fatigue because I haven’t been working out -> works out to help my fatigue -> becomes the chronically ill equivalent of Sisyphus, trapped in a self inflicted loop of being tired and achey all the time

#disabled #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #joint pain #disability #autoimmine disease #fatigue #I don’t think this is a #vent #but I’ll tag that just incase

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It really sucks when my symptoms have been mostly manageable for like 2 weeks straight and then out of nowhere fatigue just hits me like a sack of bricks. Like at least it’s happening on my day off so I don’t have to worry about work but like. Damn dude it was really nice being a functioning person for a while, not enjoying the possibility of another flare up happening rn and wrecking my ass for the next week and a half.

#idk though maybe I’m just having an off day #either way I’ll be alright #just gotta take it easy #but it do be annoying as fuck #vent #I guess #kinda #chronic illness #chronic health #disabled #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #fatigue #disability

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Been playing Ring Fit adventure and this tooltip is so funny to me

Me: What exercise advice will you give me today, Ring Fit? Maybe something about staying hydrated? The importance of good posture? Listening to your body to avoid pushing yourself too far?

Ring Fit Adventure: Hey, you ever worry about getting too MONSTROUSLY JACKED????

#like I understand what it’s saying #but the phrasing is just so funny #exercise #ring fit adventure #nintendo switch #working out #ignore the shitty quality #we don’t have a tv so I project the game onto the living room wall #it’s janky but it’s cheap and it works

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Help me settle an argument with my partner

#don’t even try and tell me he’s straight #he’s not straight #that’s not the question #twink #misc polls #poll #nesquik #nesquik bunny #gay

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My ADHD ass in 8th grade hyper-fixating on a book and reading 500 pages in a day:

Me @ my therapist in 10th grade:

#not actually calling adhd ‘brain rot’ btw #this is a haha funny joke #adhd #anxiety #joke #brainrot #brain rot #skyrim

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Me @ my therapist in 10th grade:

#I don’t know what to tag this #I just had to post this screenshot #this is so goddamn funny #apparently in Skyrim brainrot is a real thing?? #Skyrim #joke #brainrot #this is not a diss on my old therapist btw #she was great #even though when I told her I thought I might be autistic she suggested I watch the Big Bang theory #to see if I related to Sheldon #because that was the only autistic character she could think of apparently #but otherwise she was great I swear #meme #lol #random garbage #brain rot #mental health #anxiety #please don’t look into this joke too hard or it might seem dark #it’s not dark I swear it’s just haha Skyrim

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Okay, fellow disabled folks who get hot flashes, does anyone have any ACTUAL advice for dealing with them? Every time I try to look it up Google thinks I’m a 60 year old post menopausal woman and tells me to call my grandkids and use a fucking douche or something

#for the record I am not a 60 year old going through menopause #I am a 20 year old twink with lupus #disabled #chronic illness #advice #question #chronic health #hot flashes #autoimmune disease #autoimmune

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Bro the pizza is irrelevant, what matters is that you know you have inherent worth as a human being and that you deserve to be loved regardless of how productive you are or how hard you work. What matters is that you know YOU matter dude, like fr on god

Also yeah if you could pass me that last cheese slice that would be rad as hell actually

Dude for real though your worth as a human being is not dependent on how productive or “useful” you are. You could do nothing but lay in bed all today and you’d still be worthy of respect and care. Bro you are a living breathing human being and your life has inherent value. Like straight up you don’t have to do something impossible or world changing with your time on earth in order for you to matter. We are all specks of dust in the cosmos and the fact that you exist at all means you are important. Dude you don’t have to earn the right to live bro, like I swear bro, like no cap.

#I would kill for some za rn #positivity #vibes

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(Tags from @releasedfromhiscage)

THANK YOU THATS WHAT IM SAYING. LIKE. Your life matters because EVERY life matters. Because you are a living thing and your experience and existence has inherent value.

And you GOTTA fucking remember that, okay??? Like I know it’s easy to forget sometimes but I swear, you are not worthless, you will never be worthless, because you are a person and that means something and it always will. Being unable or unwilling to do certain things does not make your life less valuable than anyone else’s. Life is life, mothefucker.

Dude for real though your worth as a human being is not dependent on how productive or “useful” you are. You could do nothing but lay in bed all today and you’d still be worthy of respect and care. Bro you are a living breathing human being and your life has inherent value. Like straight up you don’t have to do something impossible or world changing with your time on earth in order for you to matter. We are all specks of dust in the cosmos and the fact that you exist at all means you are important. Dude you don’t have to earn the right to live bro, like I swear bro, like no cap.

#reblog #disability #disabled #mental health #positivity #like not to get too hippy dippy with it but #all lives have inherent value #and that includes YOUR life #okay????