deadpoetwilde

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writing fiction be like i hate my art i love my art i wish i never made art i am a mother i am a child i am projecting my insecurities onto figments of my imagination i am making a self-portrait i don't know myself i am psychoanalyzing myself in the shower i might be the next william shakespeare no one will ever understand me i am a magician of words i am a failure i will be famous! and everyone will love me and especially myself i wrote seven pages today i have been staring at the blinking cursor for two hours without typing a word

#being a wruter be like when am i going to be considered clinically insane #nothing happened i just analyzed my entire book while intoxicated #and now i'm having Thoughts #wrote this post thinking ah people will relate but will they ??? but will they ??? #anyways :) #writing #writer things #writeblr #wip #dark academia #am i relaly going to go yhere and tag this with #writer problems #there i did it #anyway #writers have such a complicated relationship w their books and actually that is kind of cool #bc ur essentially giving birth to urself #as a piece of language #what the FUCK #writing is so cool i love it

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whenever i feel insignificant i think about the fact that the universe is so vast and endless and infinite to the point where we can't even grasp its very concept ... and yet how intricate and beautifully accidental must it be for mangos to exist and for us to enjoy them and to be aware of the fact that we're enjoying them, or for two people's hands to fit together, or for someone to bake bread for someone else. there is no end to space, and yet we have favorite songs, and we tend to little plants, and we leave our footprints on the sand until the waves wash them away, and we help bees back outside with our silly cups and pieces of paper !! existence is so miraculous & we are here & small & coincidental, and so i love & love & love

#on this episode of jordan reads mary oliver #not dark academia #but idc !! enough about knowledge and murder it's time for peace and love #im so 💘💘 #i love being here #now it's time for nonsense tags #mary oliver #humanity #love #mine #i love you im glad i exist #and whatnot #my best friend knows that poem by heart n she recited it to be yesterday im 😭💘 #lovecore #bc i say so #friendship #friendship !!!!!!!!!! #peoplehood

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*uses difficult word i don't actually know the meaning of and hopes the other person doesn't know it either so i sound intelligent*

#i know Zero words #if i said a word. i didnt because i did. no i didnt <3 #we should make a community of like dark academia frauds #where we get to pretend we're very smart but we're actually really stupid and dont ecen know how to read #impostor da lol #be like oooh yeah i read that book totally haha #this is a joke i swear #but yes #dark academia #the secret history #omg this gives off such richard papen vibes im cryne #oscar wilde #dead poets society #and charlieee #kill your darlings #omg i once read this quote by allen ginsberg that was like #know these words and u know the lucien carr language : fruit phallus feces rimbaud #or something like that lmao #pretentious ass #anyways #good night

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i feel like adding that the reason this quote so appeals to me and encapsulates what i think about poetry is because i am convinced that poetry is not and can never be a product of mere solitude. even if you write to express loneliness, the feeling is derived by a certain lack of connection. even if you write only and completely for yourself, you are still writing within the world, you are still writing words that to even be able to weave inside a poem you have had to learn them from other people who have in turn also had to learn them from other people, words of which the precise connotation for you comes from a larger context in which you've heard then being used by those around you. your poetry is a product of so much history, of changes and little evolutions in language, of emotions caused by engaging with the world. and therefore, in poetry, you are never alone with the page. when you write a poem, you are of course expressing your own voice, but you are also expressing the voice of every person, tree, cloud, body of water, grief, animal and piece of art you have come across. poetry is a record of togetherness and of connection.

when remco campert said "poetry is an act of affirmation. i affirm that i live, that i do not live alone."

#which is so important #like how ocean vuong said that a novel is a product of a writer but for them to be able to write there have to have been people who #made them food and took care of them and supported them throughout the process of writing #and so a novel isnt a product of one person but eather a team effort #and that those silent voices are what even makes writing possible #what a wise man #yeah anyway idk just felt like adding this #on this fine morning #poetry #light academia #quotes #mary olivercore shksjsksj #you know what ?? yeah #mary oliver #also a thing !!! that like if you write about nature thats still connection and togetherness and if u dont recognize that #then thats because you only consider the inter anthropological side of togetherness as opposed to seeing the world as a moving living thing #not to be gilles deleuze or anything but we are not subjects acting upon a passive world !!!!!!! #dead poets society #and whatnot

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when remco campert said "poetry is an act of affirmation. i affirm that i live, that i do not live alone."

#yes i have a new obsession what about it #his poetry is so good :( #and so simple ! what the hell #poetry is just this thing that humanity has ?? and its like ?? #a record of human emotion ?? thought millennia ?? #can u even fathom that #the weight that that has #im so fucking emotional over this what the fuck #poetry #actually ! #dutch poetry #:) #one wouldve thought dutvh poetry kind of sucks but it rly slaps ngl #anywaaaaays #dark academia #light academia #kill your darlings #dead poets society #also for antone interested this poem is called poezie is een daad but like its in dutch

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i'm so obsessed with the idea of living in a big city where i can choose to be invisible and disappear between the crowds and live for myself and have my favorite little corner in a cafe and go to musea and galleries and appreciate art and architecture for hours uninterrupted and go to all the places where literary figures got inspiration for their poetry and their works and stroll down the streets by myself and look at people who pass by and invent little stories for them in my head and live in a small apartment where i can write by my open window until really late at night and sometimes stop and listen to the bustle of life on the streets below and i can also choose to be part of that bustle myself and part of a circle of artists who share a studio and support each other and go to social gatherings where i meet people who are as passionate about art and poetry as i am and exchange ideas and be inspired and have specific corners and monuments and cafes where we gather, and hold symposia stuffed in someone's tiny apartment and in general live as an active part of the urban creative scene ??? just ,,, living in a city where i get to see the entire assembled past and present existence of humanity ???

#i see how it is #i read tropic of cancer and im obsessed with living in paris by myself #and then i read a little life and im obsessed with living in new york with a tight group of friends #(but also beat poetry ofc lol) #whats next ???? london ??? rome ???? oh my god rome i love rome #i also Really want to live in tel aviv it's So Pretty #just #cities #i love cities so fucking much #they represent to me such a collection of humanity #and ykw ?? humanity kinda slaps sometimes #not the you know capitalism part but the art part lol #dark academia #the goldfinch #how could i forget the goldfinch it made me long to live in ny so much #kill your darlings #fuckin uhhh greenwich village omg #and AMSTERDAM #i literally live like half an hour away from amsterdam lol #a little life

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footnote to howl makes me crazy. thank you mister ginsberg

#when i tell u hes my favorite poet #lol my gf and i came to the conclusion it was lame that we call him by his first name but like #allen ginsberg is the only person who will ever understand me #not 2 sound like a dark academic lol #*is literally a da blog* #anyway yeah i love him

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well well well if it isn't the toppling amount of books in my room i've been trying to ignore because i bought them two years ago and haven't read them yet

#heehee #let's see #i havent started naked lunch yet even though i Really want to #i also got the art of loving a while ago bc i read one (1) anti capitalist thing abt it #wait omg whats the book ive owned longest without reading #i think probably something by rick riordan from my pjo days lmao #cannot believe im posting for the 2nd time in one week who am i #why yes my obly personality trait is being imconsistent at posting #do ppl even read these tags lol #dark academia #bookblr #when ur so gay u accidentally write booblr instead of bookblr 😭😭 #studyblr #chaotic academia

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It’s a little on the ridiculous side, but every time I see your profile I automatically think “Hmmm. Oscar Wilde.” and then, “Perhaps I will challenge God.”

I just thought you should know.

these are the only thoughts i wish to provoke with my blog, thank you

#if we're at it ?? these are the omly thoughts in my funny little brain at any given moment #ask #dark academia #oscar wilde #god ????? #is there like a tumblr community for ppl who stan god #like god followers #like #me to my mom on shabbat like lets light candles so god knows we stan him #are u ever busy tagging ur own posts when u realize how blatantly not funny u are #because i just did <3 #anyways #thanks for this i love asks like this

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like yeah i read poetry to understand rigorous analyses written by scholars who study a poet's work for the majority of their lives and draw conclusions based upon meticulous understanding of said poet in which they demonstrate the complexity of human existence and the profundity of human emotion but mainly i read poetry because i'm sexy and cool

#we DO read poetry because it's cute how about that #aaaaaa i printed my own poetry book and it arrived today and it's so pretty im litetally god #god WISHES he were me actually #i love poetry !!!! i love people do much oh my god theyre just out here creating #allen ginsberg just be out there writing poetry abt assholes and whatnot #frank ohara be out there writing abt small chameleons :') #is it controversial if I say beat poets > romantics #a hot take ??? #n e ways #dark academia #poetry #kill your darlings #dead poets society #the secret history #of we were villains #light academia

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chameleons just be out there

#they do be out there ! #also maam i love u

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every day i log onto tumblr dot com and read mary oliver and richard siken poetry excerpts and cry

#reading mary oliver be like enough murder i love the world now #ngl these could be my actual favorite poets #but wait ! nothing will ever surpass frank oharas lil poem about the leaf :) #i feel like i always make so many typos in the tags so im rly paying attention lol #anyways ! #does this count as like light academia or soemthing #light academia #dark academia #cottagecore #mary oliver #richard siken #poetry #also do stones feel? by mary oliver ???? superb #yearningcore #is that like a thing idk

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todd anderson

i would love to carpe diem but i also have anxiety

#dps

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oh to stroll through the old part of the city center wearing a long coat with a cup of coffee and a small volume of beat poetry looking for a bookstore to lose yourself in or a cozy corner to sit and write or just aimlessly admiring the architecture and making mysterious disappearances around street corners ,,, i miss it

#i was in the center of amsterdam yesterday and oh my god did i miss it #my dad had to drag me out of one of the only open bookstores there #anyway apologies for the incosisted posting schedule i have been : stressed depressed and my hair looks like a bird nest #wow im poet byron wishes he were me #anyways thats not the point !!! #the point is !!! i love amsterdam #dark academia #dead poets society #kill your darlings #if we were villains #the secret history #also ?? ive really been wanting to visit new york for the aesthetic #not the consumerist aesthetic but the cool culture bits #anyways it's been enough rambling i think #hope y'all have a wonderful day

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“𝐀𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐢𝐫𝐜𝐥𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡. 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐚𝐝 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞, 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐩𝐨𝐞𝐭.”

#rewatched this yesterday #my girlfriend and i came to the conclusion william burroughs is a very underrated character i love him #when he goes aaaaaim for the throat

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let's talk about shirley (2020)??? 50s typewriter & cigarettes dark academia aesthetic, centered around women and literature, lowkey homoerotic, and, most importantly, features elizabeth moss

#also the whole aesthetic is so beautofull unsettling #and like ???? yall know those studies in the 50s abt women feelimg like theyre going mad ?? exactly #the cast is also chefs kiss no ome could have portrayed shirley jackson better than elizabeth moss #anyways we need 2 talk more abt this movie as a community and thats on that #dark academia #shirley 2020 #english literature #dead poets society #kill your darlings

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if i may add, there's that great post about how you really don't have to like all classic books just because they're considered classics; i think it would be rather fitting here. not liking tolstoy doesn't make you stupid or even less of a literature lover than someone who has all of his books memorized! just because a piece of art is considered "objectively" timeless or genius really doesn't mean you have to like it. moreover, why would you spend time reading a book (or occupying yourself with any type of art) you find boring just to be able to say you've read it when there are thousands of books out there that might shake you to the core with wonder? the world is so delightful because of the abundance of opinions on art, because everyone creates and appreciates different things. let's not kill that!

My "friend" told me she found war and peace boring. Should I block her or feed her drain cleaner?

I think you should enjoy a nice cup of some calming chamomile tea

#oh the elitism #ngl i love kafkas ideas so much but reading the trial cost me dear days of my life due to the sheer indifference i had to the actual writing #idk about tolstoy tbh #wHat ?? deadpoetwilde has not read anything by tolstoy ?? #lol no jk I'm planning to #anyway even victor hugo who's genuinely terrific and one of my favs could tone it down a notch with the infodumping #okay anyway i just wanted 2 add this bc academics do be elitist sometimes #might lowkey make a whole post abt this #classic literature #dark academia