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sunlit-mess · 17 days

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I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.

#messyr #doodle #vent art #idk what im feeling but im just really tired- pessimistic and agitated lately #overthinking stuff about growth as a person LMAO. Envy that builds inferiority then dissolves into insecurity ew #ive yet to accept the truth that it will never get better- so i can only be there for others until i watch them go.#And I walk back to the same cage where I grew- bc the cage is all I know. I'd watch from afar and wait- wait for what? Idk #Genuinely happy and proud to those who worked hard for that success-- an ugly thought whispers to me thinking why cant I have the same #well- people w the same situations as me- knows how unfair life is so we work twice as hard. but sometimes... It's-- not enough.#And to an unfortunate fate- it'll never be enough. and it feels as if you amount to nothing.#I've been stuck for so long- I'm convinced enough that I cannot be helped. Still I cling onto the tiniest spark of hope.#bpd #abuse mention

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splatoon-confession-box · 7 months

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Friday the 13th Splatoween Announcement Copium

#splatoon 3 #I will dissolve if there’s NOTHING for October

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suntails · 1 year

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the prince’s sword

#fucking SCREAMING and WAILING #MAKE ME STOP WHY IS THIS ALL IM ABLE TO DRAW!!! WHY IS THIS ALL I THINK ABOUT EVER #SILVER ANGST NATION LET ME FREEEE!!! RATTLING THE BARS OF MY CAGE!!!!#do i know how i did those colors? vaguely. can i repeat it? who fckgn knows. answer is unlikely. kissing his head and sobbign. sacrifice #if my 'silver battery arc' theory is right i swear to u all now i WILL dissolve on the floor into a puddle. i will SOB. my SON my SON #ill shut up i have nothing else to say abt this. i am throwing it to the metaphorical silver lover wolves. enjoy #twisted wonderland #twst #twst silver #silver vanrouge #fuck it ill start using that too why not. bitch deserves a last name #diasomnia #suntails

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simcardiac-arrested · 1 month

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let’s put you back together! and then again, and again, and again!

#sorry what if i dissolved people around me but i didn’t really grasp the concepts of death and revival so i just reconstructed u #over and over like it was nothing. ok?#myart #gore #She is walking around giving people new mental disorders.. but it’s ok bc she’s a girl #oc: zavijava

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front-facing-pokemon · 9 months

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#mega garchomp #thanks‚ ironforest4. saving my ass once again #yes‚ i *do* read every comment i get. every single one. this blog is small enough that i can do that #i've seen “you got games on your phone” so many times that it's become like a sleeper phrase for me. i hear it or see it and i just dissolv #into nothing. my whole body is obliterated in an instant. it's horrid #anyway. uhm. upside down beard

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eruverse · 16 days

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Someday I will write 90s Amerus fic. That day isn’t now (biggest writing block rn), but someday. Many of the 90s fics in the English fandom are too incorrect in my opinion when it comes to historical contexts — and I know why, but it is 😄 grating

#russian and american/western perspectives are divided on the 90s #and my sources are russian bc duh theyre also the biggest losers in the 90s. so ofc I study them #i find western perspectives abt the 90s to be rly underwhelming #which. well. they didnt go thru the pains personally. so maybe #but for vanya it was downright traumatizing ptsd worthy #ptsd mine #many many thoughts abt this #such as: no vanya wasnt SAD per se abt ussr dissolving. he lit had a hand in this via Yeltsin #idk i hate it when vanya is only narrowed down to a communist and nothing else #gorbachev lit adopted democratic-ish measures nearing the fall of ussr #vanya was rather open to the whole idea bruh. he embraced independence as a federation #he wasnt happy kicking giggling abt it but he embraced the change. ussr also feel much less chaotically than the empire (revolution)#so he wasnt just… some proud power hungry commie mourning lost power #didnt say that side is absent completely but it is more nuanced than that yknow #also RF prob thought things would stay the sameish power wise just that it is no longer commie (gross oversimplification just for this post)#but most ppl lack nuance in thinking 😄#kinda giving the vibe of just ‘ussr/russia loser america winner’#not even founded in reality #also Yeltsin was America’s bitch but I can see this isnt a popular opinion in the other side #heyyy Vanya understood what Alfred was doing and was in a way compliant

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not-poignant · 2 months

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Are Sebastian and Alex going to learn about bdsm and safe practices/negotiation? Or do they keep fumbling around and doing what they're doing?

Hi anon,

People who learn about BDSM don't necessarily practice safe practices or negotiation.

And there are elements of negotiation in this story! It's not a black and white 'they're not doing this in a paint-by-numbers sort of way and therefore it doesn't count' situation, y'know?

They are two characters in their mid-20s who live in a tiny town, one of those characters is dyslexic to the point that he can barely read, and the other's method of doing things has worked for him all his life (or so he thinks), they don't have any reason/s to learn about BDSM, and it's not likely that either of them ever will.

That also doesn't mean that they can't enjoy their kinky sex life.

There has been a lot of discussion already, and there will be more and more going forwards. It might not be at the level most people want, but Sebastian has certainly obtained consent (more than once), offered and then insisted on debriefs and post-sex discussion, explained to Alex how to communicate if he hates something, and made it clear that what he likes is unusual and sadistic in nature. It's also clear that Alex likes being pushed, i.e. - not being forced to give consent in every circumstance when someone can take control and give him what he wants anyway. That's actually pretty common in some people with a child abuse background who become people pleasers.

If you want negotiation + safe practices at a certain level, you'd have to completely remake Alex's character into someone who can magically be a functional, communicative, healthy human being, and he's not that. Alex is getting better at communicating (that's how we go this far in the story in the first place), but if you expect this story to end on Alex being a perfect human who can do Instagram-level kink negotiation, then no, this isn't the story you want, anon.

If you look deeper and don't expect cookie cutter kinds of dialogue, there has been ongoing negotiation in the story since the early chapters. When Alex makes it clear through physical response and then verbal that he doesn't like yelling, Sebastian stops yelling. When Sebastian makes it clear that he has complicated feelings about hiring his ex-school bully as a cleaner, Alex makes it clear that he doesn't share those complicated feelings, especially in light of the pay rate. Sebastian consenting to Alex being his cleaner makes it clear that those terms are acceptable to him.

When Alex tries to undervalue himself, Sebastian makes it clear that he's not comfortable paying someone less simply because they value themselves less. When Alex then takes that pay, it's a form of consent to Sebastian's attitudes. Their relationship has been an ongoing negotiation since the beginning, and that's how they've grown closer. If you're used to only looking for very obvious signs of negotiation, it might be easy to miss the non-verbal and subtle forms of negotiation that are happening.

For example, it might not seem like it, but Sebastian - many chapters ago now - talking about how he likes control in the bedroom and that turning Alex on long before they'd ever shared anything sexual together, is a form of communication. Alex learns he likes the idea of it without it ever been forced on him, and Sebastian wouldn't have that conversation with someone he didn't trust (for example, Alex in the beginning of the story). They had to have trust to have that conversation, Alex had to have trust to ask Sebastian questions about it in the oblique way he did, and they had to share a common comfortability have a conversation in that direction in the first place.

In A Stain that Won't Dissolve, these things don't look like a psychologist's version of: 'Okay, what do you want, and this is what I want, and here's where we meet in the middle' - a lot of life doesn't look like this (but if you want that, I've written that in Falling Falling Stars - it still has dubious consent though, lol). Both Alex and Sebastian have poor communication on their side, and it's a growth story for the two of them.

But no, I have no intention of Sebastian ever learning terms like 'subspace' or 'RACK' or anything like that. A lot of people in the world, especially prior to easy access to the internet, figured this stuff out on their own and many of them made it work even without the rigid or codified structures of the world of BDSM (and some of those people went on to invent the world of BDSM that we take for granted today).

It's the kinks that make you kinky, not the knowledge of an acronym or the world it engenders.

There's also no reason to think that Sebastian has access to a healthy education about BDSM there, it's not like Elliott was practicing much healthy BDSM in my other Stardew fic, The Wind that Cuts the Night, :D Elliott knew all about safe practices, negotiation, and BDSM, and chose to ignore a lot of the safe stuff over messing around more dangerously.

The fumbling around is the point, basically. Growing up is messy, and dubious consent is hot (for some of us), and there are many ways we communicate with the people around us, especially when it's two guys in a town the valourises machismo and stoicism over emotional openness, and one of those guys was beaten by his father over not being macho and strong enough which makes him exceptionally resistant to communicating clearly even about basic subjects and needs.

That's the part I actually really love about this story.

#asks and answers #a stain that won't dissolve #thespectaclesofthor #it's hard to read intent in your comment anon because it's really just #two questions chained together with nothing else at all #but it feels very purity-wank coded #the tags of the story don't give *any* indication #that they're going to do anything more than keep growing the relationship towards a happy ending #but with tags like dubious consent and miscommunication #it's going to be my version of a happy ending #and not necessarily yours anon #but also if you don't see the negotiation and communication already happening #this might not be your kind of story #as i said above #the fumbling around is the point #the messiness is the point #it's in the summary and everything #it's a story about two boys messily growing up #not two boys fulfilling some psychologist's brief about communicating perfectly

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wikitpowers · 2 months

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BC I MISSED IT AT THE TIME NOW IS THE HOUR TO SCREAM ABOUT THIS AHHHHHHHHHH

i am losing my shit hold up

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todayisafridaynight · 3 months

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being daigo in january 2017 was probably the happiest month of his life because he just got out of jail Again for a crime he didnt commit Again and he's probably thinking how he has to keep running the tojo clan if he wants to respect kiryu even though hes """""""'gone""""""""" or whatever and then some bitch with the newspaper in his ear like 'the governor's trying to evict us what should we do' and i can only imagine the LOUDEST sigh of relief this man had to internalize as he began to flesh out his two-year plan then and there

#snap chats #no one touch this post fuck you im drawing this at some point but im too tired but i still cant stop chortling about it #like i just know daigo was tired as balls so imagine getting THAT kind of out from it all .......#NO MORE GUILT ABOUT IT HE GOT AN EXCUSE NOW #Oh Noooo The Governments Telling Us To Fuck Off :(( I Dont Think Theres Anything We Can Reasonably Do But Dissolve #genuinely the nicest thing aoki ever did in his entire life was give daigo an out of this sisyphean existence and he didnt even know #he just wanted to be a big ol bitch boy and accidentally made daigo the happiest man on earth #ending this post now before i think of IW's plot and get annoyed again vjlkJLKAJVAL GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE #AND ALL THAT PLANNING WAS FOR FUCKING NOTHING /SORRY/ IM STILL BITTER #IM GOING NOW FR BYE STAN DAIGO

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worstloki · 7 months

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you are a disgusting piece of shit like kill yourself or die along with those terrorists

Hope this helps 👍

#like do u really see nothing sus here #most of the world considers notable Palestinian groups to be resistance fighters #‘Israel’ was established by what like British mandate wow good thing they’ve never done any wrongs #and wow America supports them whew glad that makes it clear they’re on the ‘right’ side as the West always is #surely the European Union is interested in peace in the region #there is no way they would benefit by the region remaining in conflict due to literally the entire region wanting that state dissolved #literally no one anywhere else is surprised its America and allies(TM) making ridiculous claims in the media and in international meetings #wanting settlers off occupied land is good and Palestinians deserve their homes back actually #the ability to research information yourself is clearly available if you are sending random anons #your ignorance is willful #and your hate-mail is subpar #i couldn't even tell who you were referring to as 'terrorists'#''like die''#i read your message in a shaggy voice #Language!#L!

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archliches · 2 days

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haunted by the "we can't have nice things" reaction to the Dublin/NYC portal. first of all nothing I've seen come out of it was anything other than good ol' fashioned ribbing. a classic pisstake. and second of all like. what did they THINK people were gonna do? what did they WANT to happen.

#anyway saw a good one of someone bring a life size hozier cut-out to the NYC and someone in Dublin just immediately dissolved into laughter #nothing is funnier than 9/11 though but what would you expect from the Irish #i say stuff

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darlin-djarin · 8 months

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wait until star wars fans hear about the endosymbiotic theory

#the way a prokaryotic cell gets engulfed by a eukaryotic cell #and the prokaryotic cell doesn't get dissolved but rather stays functional and so the cells form a symbiotic relationship #that's mutually beneficial...#until slowly... slowly the prokaryotic cell loses it's independent function... slowly the cell loses more and more and more #and the eukaryotic cell takes and takes and takes and the prokaryotic cell loses and loses and loses as it gives up more of itself...#and slowly... the prokaryotic cell becomes a mitochondria or a chloroplast... a bare fragment of what it once was...#and it loses itself to it's symbiotic relationship until it's become nothing more than a small piece of it's past... nothing more #FUCKKKK i love biology holy shit #i was watching some videos about the endosymbiotic theory and they told it in such way that had me.. like. god. yeah #this is it #anyway #star wars #oil.

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ecoamerica · 1 month

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scratchface · 8 months

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me writing op fanfiction years ago: how physically intimate with each other can I make everyone before it's not longer based in canon

opla: there are no limits to the physical and emotional intimacy of crewmates at sea

#opla #which is very true #nothing dissolves the concept of personal space like living on a boat together

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lowlyroach · 4 months

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1143) starlight coffers

January passes through the quiet frigid

River wanders lazy, you didn't want to visit

Headstone stands like an obelisk

Heart sweats blood of obsidian

Tear the layers off of my skin

Construct for you endless monuments

Build a shape for every day left frozen

You'll see them in your wake, now I'm formless

What became of the fifteen hour days

Working tirelessly until you bothered to glance my way

Sprinting towards that gazebo charade

You tossed my question back as if I didn't pray

Your slobber dripping down my throat, I'm prey

Let me force the stars into crystalline coffers

Like the silver lockbox I still keep all your gifts in

I'll steal every constellation to see you grinning

Reflected in your eyes, their twinkling

Open wide and peer upon the night sky

I'm sure they breathe for you, don't ask why

The angels sewed the petals on the flowers

Glued wings onto honey bees

Crafted feathers to pin to birds

Made their song to reach you from the trees

Combined butter with the unwanted fly

Put them in your laugh and smile

The patter of rain on clouded days

The sun and sky, your eyes their shade

They built a world just for your hands

To touch the bark and sift through sands

To see the rolling world of Iceland

Tuned the rhythm of Earth to be your band

The taste of eggplant parmesan

Coldstone cake batter

The day at dawn

The blue of babies and pink's of periwinkle

Made until your face is wrinkled

I know it must be all for you

I'd destroy it all if you asked me to

Churn it all into ambrosial stew

Drink it down, It's what you're due

#0201 #poem #poetry #twcpoetry #poeticstories #Feb boys #you know what that means #everything we spoke about has dissolved into nothing

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bylertruther · 11 months

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moodboard for when you lose the idgaf war. or something. again

#when i started this post there was no one online so like. can u guys turn around or smth -_-#anyway. feeling like a chump like a weenie like a marshmallow that's dissolving in someone's hot chocolate feeling very um . Feely #and tht isn't said in a self-deprecating way bc there's nothing wrong with being a sensitive person i'm jus. yk. saying tht it's not always #very fun. like i would very much rather feel like a toasty marshmallow being smushed in a delicious s'more rn but instead i'm trying to #express in the least vulnerable way possible tht i've felt a series of human emotions in quick succession tht make my heart beat funny #bc i think if i were to be any more open abt tht then i would likely disintegrate and i mean tht in the most normal I'm Okay way ever 👍#and i jus think tht it Sucks tht u can be earnest n true n it won't matter bc if someone doesn't engage with u in good faith then there is #simply literally nothing that you can do but go ''Okay 👍''#like. goes taut n keels over dead like a cartoon character. then reanimates bc i'm not done #that is just The Worst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wdym!!!!!!#it should be enough. it should be but it isn't and i'm a little marshmallow melting in someone's drink they're stirring me and #i'm turning into foam like . There Has Got To Be Another Way Out Other Than Through Bro someone grab my collar and drag me out #this bitch like a cat on a leash someone hold their hands out or smth i just . *)%*^76)*%$^)%*43^rty)*%6$)6578^$%(*8796gk@$)*%$#it will be ok . it will 👍

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aprito · 4 months

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(English is not my first language, so I apologize if what I say is not very understandable).

It left me thinking what you said about some people only being interested in your account to escape reality through fandom.

Have they even stopped to think that the canonical history of the fandom they follow is full of wars, and children used to kill?Aren't we all worshiping Sasori, who lost his parents in the war and then became an active participant himself, being just a child?

Are they so oblivious to the fact that these characters made us see the gray of a world full of death and violence, that they cannot realize that all these stories are a representation of the real behavior of our humanity?

Don't delete anything, please say everything you feel necessary to say. These people have me in shock.

Naruto's ""darker"" themes has always been an analysis of how inherently evil militarism, feudalism, hyper nationalism and exposing literal children to the horrors of war and death can be and how these systems enabling these horrors shouldn't exist. It's not black and white like you said, but there are beliefs that will always be red flags to me. Take the Uchiha massacre for example, which would be the closest comparison we can make to current events.

Unfortunately, partly due to Kishimoto's shitty centrist writing and due to how predispositioned and pre-propagandized the audience is, all of these conclusions can get glossed over and lost. How many in this fandom defended Konoha's violent pursuit of Sasuke for the longest time? Saying that he wasn't allowed to deal with Itachi, and then reprimanding him for turning his hatred towards the village? Worse, how many fawn over characters like Obito, Shisui, and especially Itachi - who had no qualms about endangering their clan and ultimatively agreeing that none of them deserved to oppose their oppressors and live? Konoha, not just Danzo, in turn had kept up a heavily propagandized image of the Uchiha due to their own personal hatred and beliefs. In Danzo's case, an excuse to get access to their organs for personal profit. Worse, they (Itachi, Shisui) didn't bother being honest with their own people, ultimatively not allowing them to escape or fight back. Contrast this against the hatred for Fugaku, who not once decided to act on his own and correctly pointed out that they have been ostracised and dehumanised for things they didn't do and feared it would get worse. Sound familiar? People are correct when they call the Uchiha massacre a genocide because that's what it was, but those are the people who actually drew from real life examples to criticially engage with the material.

Analysing real world struggle and applying that analysis to the narrative is the reason I continously empathize that Sasori's hatred for Suna shouldn't be glossed over for cushy high ranking positions because he just so happens to be talented. It's integral to his character and his actions, and it's a valid hatred to have. I honestly wish Kishimoto would have a fraction of enthusiasm for exposing the systems of oppressions as Oda has (a lot of conflicts in One Piece heavily, I mean HEAVILY, draw from the Cuban Revolution), because Naruto as a story would be far better off and probably would have more to say.

This also means, of course, that I recommend the audience to engage with this subject, and not fall for the propaganda of their oppressors <3 Palestine: A Socialist Introduction is currently free as an ebook for a start.

#nonitxt #meta #sort of #escapism and genocide apologism? in my ninja show? more likely than you think #dont worry about your english its great!! english isnt my first language either!!#nothing gets me more mad than people thinking their beliefs exist in a vacuum #stop reading just fiction start picking up non fiction as well!!! look around you and speak up!!!#i have to admit tho 90% of my reading is literally just non fiction with some fiction sprinkled in #in an ideal world bort wouldnt exist as a concept because the mercenary ninja villages employing child soldiers were dissolved

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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