#Because I probably have autism

[quinn-pop]

let’s do some autistic meta knight headcanons!! over explaining my interpretation of meta knight yet again wooooo

this orb has NO idea how to talk to people!!! outside of work anyway. a lot of this is partially due to upbringing (suppressing his emotions all the time) but he does not know how to express emotions, like…at all.

this goes into a few things

1. yeah talking is hard. even after figuring out what he wants to communicate he will struggle. conversation can be so overwhelming, especially under pressure. he will need time lol

2. because of that, forming connections is hard. i really don’t think meta is much for shallow relationships, and certainly not early in the timeline. which also means he has very little experience with friendship. so a lot of the relationships he did have went kinda neglected, and issues that probably could’ve been worked on by talking became…*cough romk* escalated.

3. honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if meta convinced himself he couldn’t feel emotion (anymore) until like. katam-ish. he tried very hard lol

vulnerability is terrifying. (though this gesture here is also just comforting, like his little cape cocoon thing he does.)

unmasking—yeah im taking the mask thing very literally here—is a big deal and a very slow process for mk. i’m sure he has a lot of feelings on that lol. it served as a way to ensure no one could ever, y’know, see him.

i can’t say i think he’d ever fully ditch it—there’s always gonna be some days that are more stressful than others and if having it could help him get through it, it just makes sense. mainly when working.

it really is about vulnerability. granted, i don’t think he has the most expressive face (in my head every astral just tends to stare at things) but i doubt he has much control over it. can’t fake a smile but also can’t hide it. probably blushes easy because yeah, astrals; just look at kirby’s face.

just the idea that someone might be able to read his expression and know what he’s feeling before he’s ready for them to (or even understands it himself…) yeah he doesn’t want that

but emotional turmoil aside, i think his mask also hides a lot of his stims

remember that whole “suppressing your feelings” thing? yeah turns out that ignoring half your instincts isn’t a good idea. so in true meta knight style, he tries to stim as subtly as possible

1. he has the least control over his wings, so they will flick and twitch on their own. they’re usually a good indicator of how he’s feeling, not unlike the body language usually seen in cat ears and tails lol. flapping is also an extension of this of course, though he probably suppresses it more.

2. this also effects when he takes his wings out. pretty much every time he’s excited or nervous it just happens. kinda makes me wonder if his wing cape ordeal might also go into the suppression thing… (i’d say yes, but using a cape is also very comforting so it’s not necessarily a bad thing)

3. going back to the mask thing; he stims a lot underneath it. think like biting or pursing your lips. he bites his tongue and clicks his mouth. that sort of thing. his mask also makes it harder to notice that he is constantly sighing, humming, grumbling…all that

one nice thing about the mask though is that it helps a little bit with lights!!! woo

(look at him and his magically floating glasses)

sensory stuff—i think he’s mostly bothered by light and sound. maybe a bit of texture. he’s pretty sensory avoidant and perfectly happy standing off to the side not touching anything.

the one exception to this is physical affection, which is, despite all of this, most of how he shows affection. it’s a lot easier to hug someone than to try to explain your feelings for them, after all.

i think he would like pressure though. so that’s probably part of it. and i’m pretty sure there’s some connection in here to fighting (dang, is that the only way he knows how to get his energy out?)

anyway, pretty much all of this is in contrast to kirby, who i would gladly nominate as the champion of Doing Whatever He Wants. he might pick up a few bad habits, but he will never mask the way meta knight does. he might not understand how he feels, but he’s in tune enough to express it…usually.

this is a very good thing for meta because it helps him to do the same thing. kirby’s so energetic, it’s hard to not want to stim with him. it reminds meta to be kinder to himself and explore his own emotions. he can also help kirby understand themselves, so this connection is very important.

yeah, at the end of the day, everything kinda just boils down to kirby and mk as parallels

this is the conclusion i promise

to me, meta’s arc is about growing stronger by growing kinder, and this is mostly by learning to be kind to himself. letting himself be a person again, loving and understanding other people, and eventually, letting go of all the expectations placed on him and doing the things he’s always wanted to do…

autism headcanons are fun for me because it’s cathartic to write, but at the same time, it just makes sense in this sort of narrative. meta is, to me, inseparable from these things. and so is kirby! that’s a dynamic that’s a lot of fun to play with, and it’s at the heart of my kirby interpretation.

if you actually read all this WOW thank you

#i almost considered not posting this on a wednesday but then i wrote everything and uhhh yeah i think i gotta so #happy cringe day wednesday #for as many notes as i have on these characters i really don’t talk about it much #but meta knight is a special case because i am terrible at subtlety and he wouldn’t be meta knight without it #so this is to contextualize some things #because of what ill have in the next few days haha #basically these are just things i consider when writing meta #but a lot of it is subtextual and i dont know how well it comes across #kirbyposting #kirby #meta knight #headcanons #autism headcanon #this is practically an essay lol oops #i have like 2/3 of a fic that explores most of this in a way i probably won’t do again #but we’ll see if i ever finish it #god kirby concepts are so fun to chew on #i overthink everything i make so much lol

[canisalbus]

Would you classify Machete as neurodivergent at all? Like in an autistic way? Or is it just the overwhelming ambition, trauma, and anxiety?

I think I've projected so many of my own autistic traits on him over the years, chances are he's at least a little bit on the spectrum.

#your ocs tend to mirror facets of yourself more often than not #whether you want or intend it to be that way or not #I think #I'm a little hesistant to assign a whole bunch of specific labels on him though #because if I say “this character is ace” there are people who will start to view them as ace representation #or autism representation or gnc representation or italian representation or catholic representation #what have you #and if character x represents thing y #I'm worried eventually someone will show up and say “your character represents autism wrong/badly” #even though we're talking about one person's highly personal oc and not like a commercial product #I don't know I'm just overthinking probably #but yes back to your original question you're probably correct to assume he has some neurodivergency going on #he doesn't know #nobody knows #it's late 1500s #and he has learned to mask well #answered #ephemeralprince #Machete

[going-to-superhell]

Can we talk about the autistic people who were diagnosed as a child but labeled ‘too normal’ to qualify for any help so the adults around you never bothered to get you a formal diagnosis and just treated you like a neurotypical kid all while you struggled with being autistic and would get yelled at for acting r-worded or not doing as their told or just having sensory overloads and/or autistic meltdowns and now as an adult it turns out you aren’t ‘too normal’ and actually are ‘more autistic’ and now the people who labeled you as ‘normal’ have to slowly come to terms with your autism

#just me? #actually autistic #autistic #autism #unintelligible gremlin noises #kinda a rant #now I get to struggle for a proper diagnosis because my therapist no longer does autism diagnoses and I’ll probably have to go inter state

[gorillawithautism]

airpod baby

#swingset #my art #i don't go here #tf2 #tf2 pyro #pyro tf2 #team fortress 2 #yet another 'i drew this because i have a fictive friend not because i know anything about this fandom' #though i do have vague memories of watching my brother play tf2 #anyway #airpod baby #the autism eyes were on purpose btw #that's probably obvious but #pyro autism

[graveyard-society]

the sheer amount of headcanons i produced while i was drawing this is insane

#a few of them i might try drawing cause theyre scenarios instead of concepts #i would actually like try to list a few down in a separate post or scatter them around in other posts #but because of the clothing i put them in here #ill focus on that #yes in the tags #nagito's body temp is very naturally cold and also gets cold very easily #he needs to have like two layers on him at all times or else he'll actually freeze #maybe even 3 layers if its Just That Cold #hajime on the other hand is the complete opposite and is both naturally warm and heats up easily #i feel like he sorta doesn't really like wearing long sleeves that much cause it feels kinda stuffy? #that or he just cant find a decent article of clothing that is both comfortable and to his tastes #chiaki is relatively normal in body temperature but she also overheats easily much like hajime #except because i hc her with autism (as an autistic myself) i feel like chiaki wears long sleeved clothing regardless of weather #because she enjoys the weight of her hoodie even if its hot as fuck out and will probably stop functioning right if she doesn't have one #anyway thats my take on my favorite trial trio #komahinanami my absolute loves #question to you guys who's read the tags: how do you interpret this? #sdr2 #danganronpa 2 #danganronpa 2: goodbye despair #danganronpa nagito #danganronpa hajime #danganronpa chiaki #nagito komaeda #hajime hinata #chiaki nanami #komahinanami #aiden.png

[applebees4prez]

cooking show with four Kids Menu Autistic judges. making the most perfect bland meals. grilled cheese, fried rice and noodles, kraft mac and cheese, spaghetti, chicken fingers and fries… the list goes on. each judge gets to choose a food to sit out for. if you somehow balance the low spice tolerance with the need for stimulation then you get to pet one of their service dogs. there’s a spinoff where we go around the country rating restaurants based on how autism friendly they are.

#to be clear i have autism that feels extremely important to state #post inspired by going to arrirang and nearly dying of sensory overload #i am mostly pitching this show because i want to judge it #honestly the spinoff would probably be more useful than the original idea #but idc #nobody cares about our fucking needs irl so maybe if we make a tv show about it they will #this would eat and so would i #i hope i haven’t offended anyone #actually autistic #autism #audhd #actually audhd #autistic girl

[mossy-rot]

reading about autistic meltdowns is crazy. in retrospect maybe that time i ended up sobbing self isolating and lashing out at people because I couldn't figure out how to set up my laptop the same way it had been before might've been because of The Autism

#i cannot deal with changes to things I deal with regularly #i need to have my phone and comp exactly the same lest I Suffer bc i use them every day #also perhaps i would get so upset over my mom cleaning my room (although being a nice gesture) is because she would move shit to places- #i didn't know and messed up the system i had #also fuckin. executive dysfunction. that's some shit isn't it #i had to move to a new desk early in my job to run a different room and the desk setup was different and I Was Struggling A Bit #also people trying to calm me down during meltdowns is significantly worse and i read a bit that was like. #'trying to interject into the meltdown may cause additional sensory overload. it's most safe to let the person self-regulate.' well shit #that's about right huh #autistic burnout also seemed very familiar and its a little disturbing just how close everything hits #anyways im probably autistic. good night #mossy's rambles #text post #luci's rambles #autism #neurodivergent #autistic things #autistic adult #autistic experiences #if anyone would like to add to the pile and tell me im autistic feel free ig. ive already been peer reviewed

[caitas-cooing]

Okay so context to this question is that I was playing persona 3 reload and my littlest brother was watching me and I said something about how I have to level up characters as evenly as possible or else it made my brain itch, and he did not understand what I meant by that. So like do you know what that means or should I find another way to explain this

#because like #I thought the brain itch was a fairly common experience but the things people got that feeling about were different #but maybe I'm the weird one here idk #my brother tried to say that was OCD and I said that's not even what OCD is #maybe it's autism related? Max has adhd but not autism so maybe that's why he doesn't understand #Tumblr poll is probably not the best place to find an answer to this question #but I use the resources I have

[autisticlee]

it kind of sucks when all your friends and family, everyone you know, are all pairing off and getting married and havinf families, except you. you're the only one that doesn't have a partner and probably can/will never get one. especially if one around you has time for you anymore, they never reach out, never get back to you, because they're only focused on their partners and families. you're stuck alone and drift away from everyone through no fault of your own. you have no hope of finding your own partner or no motivation to look for one for whatever reason. the lack of connections while seeing everyone around you having their own can get overwhelmingly lonely at times....

#autism #autistic #asexual #aromantic #these are probably the two factors that put me in this position #im undateable because im too autistic to form any connections with people and cant even make or keep friends around for long #so how would i ever try to date anyone???? #and also asexual which makes it harder. and aromantic (not sure what kind if its like demi and i just need to meet “the one” #and form a connection first to actually have any feelimgs for anyone or not sure if I simply cannot experience romantic attraction #either way its a lonely existence in a world where 99% of people pair off or obsessed with trying to partner up #and theres less value/time/effort put on friendships #ON TOP OF being autistic and forming any connections at ALL is an extremely difficult task that seems to always fail on me! #lee rants #lee rambles #im actually visiting a friend and her gf (who is also friend but we are less close) so i know not everyone partners and shuns friends #but they live in another country and i cant visit all the time so it doesnt help this lonely shit feeling all the time D: to have ~1 friend #would be nice to have all the close benefits and of a dating partnership without the physical stuff and pressure of “dating” #if thar makes sense. best friends but life patners. the person is obligated to help me and bw there for me at all times #someone who chooses me first instead of others. someone that doesnt make me their last choice all the time #their very comfortable to be around and we relate and get along perfectly and make up for each others weaknesses #my favorite person and im their favorite person #they usually always say yes to me and include me and im their first choice for eveything #they respect my needs and boundaries and work with me if we have a misunderstanding or disagreement. #its so hard to find people like this. someone who matches me well enough to fit all these picky things i want #someone who would like me enough to be like this. someone im comfortable with and like who fits the energy i want #even if someone liked ME enough and was these thjngs if they arent comfortable or match my energy then i dont want them #im not desperate enough to take Anyone ans im extremely picky about it #being aroace makes any kind of datimg very hard because theres ~less fish in the sea~ #but being autistic makes it EVEN HARDER becuase i cant even make and keep FRIENDS so how would i have a /partner/ ????? #sighs. i think im meant to live a lonely life and need to learn to accept it

[lonelysa1lor]

Pre-Jenny leaving Ted is something that I need to see onscreen, I don't know how it would ever possibly happen but god damn. I need to know what he was like. How similar is he to the bastard we know today? Or does he feel like an entirely different guy? The sweetest and kindest parts of Ted Spankoffski were locked away forever after this moment and Oh my Tinky I want to see it.

He had to be a nerd, there's no way he isn't, he's a Spankoffski. what was he interested in? What did he excel at? Did he ever have interactions with the other Hatchetfield characters in school? Emma, Linda, Gerald are all confirmed to have attended hatchetfield high, I wouldn't find it too weird to assume that Ted, Charlotte,Sam, Tom and Becky attended aswell.

Its even worse when there's the HC that he looked alot like Pete.

#I have so many HCs for Highschool/College Ted its unbearable #Back to hc of Theatre Kid Ted probably means he interacted with Emma alot but they never hung out #Emma didn't recognise him in TGWDLM because he wasn't relevant enough in her life and he looks/acts so different from the guy he was #Im so normal about this guy i swear #the autism goes wild #ted spankoffski #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #theodore spankoffski #the time bastard #starkid #im ranting at this point im so normal ahwhwhavw

[steakout-05]

autistic coded men who have orange cats my beloved

#star trek tng #star trek #star trek data #garfield #garfield jon #jon arbuckle #jetpack joyride #professor brains #jetpack joyride 2 #this is my type. weird silly or otherwise quirky guys who have orange cats #brains being autistic is more just a headcanon i have rather than deliberate coding #but he's been shown to have a few autism-like behaviours and traits across the shorts and jetpack joyride 2 #it's kinda stereotypical but he's more of a logical simple thinker and he finds strings of numbers to be easier to remember than names #which i find to be interesting! he just has different thinking patterns from what i've seen in neurotypicals. and it's like. #it's the autism radar. i can always tell when a fictional character seems to be Not Neurotypical because holy shit they act like me- #-or another autistic person i know! #also all these characters are like. different facets of autism and i think that's so interesting #on the left we have highly logical direct and ''idk what to do with my face or my hands help'' sherlock spin autism #and then there's slightly unhinged dorky possible ADHD combo and complete lack of social skills autism #and finally there's the evil autism #and i love all three of them <3 #i just realised they're also all sitting in big comfy chairs! #jon's armchair looks so comfy though. like i really wanna sit in there #it's probably slightly dirty and most definitely scratched up by garfield but my god that's what make it more homely and comfy #i wonder how many armchairs jon has gotten over the years. i should count all the instances of him having a differently coloured armchair #anyway yeah. autistic cat dads my beloved <3

[the-nefarious-vampire]

neurotypicals are so weird. like yeah im sorry that our voices and the scraping of cutlery are physically painful to you but unfortunately its rude to wear headphones at the table :/ yeah i know you can still hear us but it looks like you cant which is rude. its like you're blocking us out. why are you still pressing the issue. why are you being so difficult just take the headphones off before i take them off for you. why cant you just exhibit basic human decency. what do you mean im being ableist.

actually i said neurotypicals bc this post is specifically about spd/autism (both neurological disabilities) but ive never met a single disabled person who insisted i remove a sensory aid out of this all-important need for good manners. its too loud and it hurts. my pain is more important than these ridiculous, made-up social rules. stop clutching your pearls when an autistic person wears headphones to dinner. you're being rude to us.

#there are loads of examples of this #for pretty much any disability too #but this is the example that just happened #so its what im talking about #other people are welcome to add their own experiences if they want #i say like i have more than 8 followers lol #autism #actually autistic #spd #sensory processing disorder #audio hypersensitivity #tw ableism #ableism #disabled #disability #sensory aids #hot take but me not having a meltdown is a slightly higher priority than you seeing visual proof that im listening to you #especially when i already told you i was #okay maybe im a little pissy rn #probably because my brain's still jarring #people with other disabilities are welcome to add to this btw!

[queerstudiesnatural]

being autistic is like. so nothing is ever going to be easy? it's always going to be this hard? no amount of medical appointments will ever make me better? my entire life i'm going to be told that it can't be that bad if i was able to get a job and get along with people and there's really not much they can do for me. that they can address the symptoms (depression, anxiety, etc) but i need to do a blood test first to see if it's not just anaemia, and have i considered that i'm just tired out from work? and i seem fine honestly it's probably not even autism, everyone gets a little bit overwhelmed sometimes. here, have some magnesium. if you eat more vegetables you'll be fine. there's nothing else we can do. my computer says you're not autistic because you were able to make friends and you show signs of empathy. no i haven't updated my autism research since 1996. you're making a big deal out of nothing you seem fine. we can't help you. you seem fine. we can't help you. we can't help you. we can't help you.

#guess who saw another doctor today #well she did diagnose me with depression which is something at least #but when i talked about autism and the possibility of it being an autistic burnout she was like #do you have friends? a job? ok then it's probably not autism #it could just be regular burnout why does it have to be about autism? #Because I Know Myself And It Is. #and the worst part is every time they ask me why i think i have autism i suddenly forgot all of the symptoms i'm just like umm i feel weird #next time i'm writing it all down beforehand so when they ask me i can just hand them the piece of paper #with all the (up to date) autism research and all the symptoms i have (which is all of them) #anyway i feel so defeated it's so hard to think that life is just never going to get easier #rain.stuff

[monochromereflections]

Anyway I let the Cowboy Brianrot ™ fully take me and I ordered a print signed by Roger for the Streamly event in February.

#I'm tempted to buy a really stupid and kitschy cowboy frame for it when it arrives #Because my brand of autism makes me love the absurd #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #roger clark #also i have shit short term memory so by the time it happens and shows up after i'll probably have forgotten about it #so it'll be like a surprise

[anxiously-sidequesting]

SPEAKING OF WHICH are there like any chill wizard101 discord servers or group chats that I could join. Or if anyone just wanna add me on discord shoot me a tumblr DM because I'm lonely and I like you guys :)

#ive had this thought for a while BUT IM JUST SHY. but after the soap opera morganthe dream i just had i need wizard friends to yell at #i got like one wizard mutual on discord already. if youre reading this you know who u are. love you /p <3 #other than that one person NONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS ON DISCORD PLAY THE GAME AND IM LOBELY #I WANNA TALK ABOUT WIZARDS AND SHIT #altho ill probably be a useless discord discussion partner because i have no literary comprehension- #-and i havent played the source material in years. okay #all my knowledge on wizard101 is either personal headcanons im now considering as facts or secondhand knowledge from the internet #also my ocs. i love talking about my ocs even though they have the depth of cardboard #ALSO LOVE HEARING ABOUT OTHER PPLS OCS THATS MY FAVORITE THING TO READ FROM MY FRIENDS #like you could dm me at 4 in the morning to talk about your ocs i would be so happy #altho fair warning i can suck at dms bc im an anxious little chihuahua so if ur gonna add me i must warn u. i text back 5 years later #either i send 200 messages in the span of 5 minutes or you wont hear from me until we're both 30. sorry thats just the autism for u #BUT YEAH if anyone wants to add me they can #this fandom is like the only fandom in the world im comfy with interacting with LMAO #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

[straight-to-the-pain]

I know I haven’t posted any original fic in ages, I’ve been a little burnt out from uni and placement and also all the scenes I’ve been wanting to write either need research (historical fiction) or require too many emotions (everyone is traumatised) but please do bear with me there will be content… eventually… I hope

#though going into my third year as a nursing student probably not soon sorry #i have so many thoughts in my head Al the time #but yeah no I legit just need to do research about planes and also Soviet prisons which is fun because autism but hard because adhd #i also want to write about my characters having a bad time for personal reasons but then I start having a bad time for personal reasons #but I swear I am not abandoning my works #maybe I will even branch out into some spicy content Hm #just some low stakes violent smut wouldn’t that be nice #okay well done if you made it through my sleepy rag ramble #s talks