#Dysphoria fucking sucks

[femboty2k]

I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body

#holy shit dude #dysphoria fucking sucks #fuck #FUCK

[the-yearning-astronaut]

I wish I could be agender the way Murderbot is agender. Right down to the lack of biological sexual characteristics. So agender that the term agender comes with too much associated gender to accurately apply. You know what I mean?

#help the dysphoria is kicking my ass again today and everything about me looks and feels wrong #demigirl still feels like it is applicable but also i wish i was more masculine but NOT in that way only THIS way #am i uncomfortable with my curves because of internalized fatphobia? because of the association with being feminine? both? #is it my actual curves themselves or is it the very reality of having a physical body that will be gendered some way no matter what i do? #i hate it I hate all of it #Murderbot #agender #gender #gender dysphoria #body dysphoria #dysphoria #fox thoughts #'maybe if i dress more masculine that will help' #nope no thats still leaning into gender #how do i do both at once so that they cancel each other out? #i don't want to be masculine but i don't want to be female lite™ either #I don't want to be perceived as having any gender at all and its not fucking possible #fuck i don't even want to deal with pronouns 80% of the time and i don't care for my name either #why does physically existing suck so bad sometimes #☉

[uncanny-tranny]

If I am honest with myself, I think one of my biggest sources of internalized transphobia is based on my desire for a "typical" bottom surgery, something along the lines of phallo, even.

I think I truly only wanted a "simpler" bottom surgery because I was inundated with comments for six years straight about how disgusting phallo is, how it is "barbaric," and no trans person should ever want it, and the desire for a phalloplasty is shameful. Those things burrowed its way into my mind because it wasn't just dyed-in-the-wool transphobes saying that it was also other trans people. It was other trans guys and transmasculine people saying those things.

The point of this post is that when you are talking about transitioning, surgeries, or hormones and such, you aren't talking about ideas or nebulous concepts. You are talking about real people and their real in-the-flesh bodies. Be careful that you aren't carrying water for people who want to see them dead.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #i had such a hard time being in trans spaces because they inevitably got to the Phallo Talk where they talked about how phallo sucked... #...and there is a DIFFERENCE between 'it is not for me' and 'this is a BARBARIC surgery'... #...oftentimes i see the former and it fucking sucks. what distinguishes some of y'all from transphobes when you say that? #it is FINE to not want phallo and you are just as trans + your body is *yours*. the same goes for people who get phallo #i just feel like the way people interact with phallo is needlessly cruel and it is only hurting those of us who *need* it #dysphoria tw

[zuuriell]

the gender euphoria from the fact that i can keep my body hair without being questioned cuz it’s cold outside 💪

man i love my hairy legs

#body hair #body positive #you are valid #gender euphoria #dysphoria can suck my balls #transgender #transmasc #genderfluid #lgbtq #bisexual #body hair is beautiful #body hair is natural #fuck gender norms

[vyeoh]

Personally I fucking love it when trans people say stuff like "when I was still a boy" or "I used to be a girl" etc etc because yeah I'm a trans guy and I lived a huge part of my life as a girl and experienced the world as one and I love my pre-trans 13 year old self and the sisterhoods I formed and the "girl" hobbies and experiences i had and I refuse to give up my childhood because I didn't know I was trans yet. Like yeah I was a girl at some point and that was lit as hell and now I'm not

#like yeah the dysphoria sucked #but im so proud of my self for reaching a point where i can love my pre-trans self #vio.txt #transgender #personal #fuck terfs fuck transmeds

[milkymooshi]

Genuinely going thru a gender dysphoria crisis bc I can’t look in the mirror anymore without wishing I was Oswald Cobblepot bc I want whatever he has going on. Like whatever he was that made him dress the way he did? I want it. I want it melted down and injected straight into my bloodstream like black tar heroin. I know it would fix all my gender dysphoria immediately. Being NB/genderqueer is not enough. I need to dress like an 12 century monarch who got lost in the Ross clearance section and be percieved as a man.

#tw: drugs #gender dysphoria is actually kicking my ass rn tho I wasn’t joking abt that #like shit why was I born AFAB this fucking sucks. I hate this. #I wanna go on T but I don’t think I could bc I have a chronic illness and idk how my body could react to that change #kicking screaming crying throwing up #oh to be Oswald Cobblepot…the dream… #oswald cobblepot #gotham penguin #gotham #moo.txt

[weedle-testaburger]

i hope someday i get to wear a fabulous dress and feel pretty in it to make up for all the times I've had to wear suits and felt like the ugliest thing that's ever existed

#personal crap #dysphoria talk #in my experience of wearing them suits are constricting af and look really fucking bland #whereas dresses are way more flowy and comfy and pretty #it fucking sucks how people society sees as women get to choose and ones it sees as men don't #if people see you as a man you Have to wear a suit to formal events and it has to be dull coloured and uncomfortable

[scrambleseggy]

“Aw you shouldn’t be afraid to transition! People will still find you attractive and love you! No one will make you feel gross! You’ll be more confident I promise! De-centering the opinions and standards of cis straight men isn’t that hard!”

Anons on tumblr:

#transphobia #i hate people #this wasnt sent to me but ive gotten a varient of it #im so tired #dysphoria sucks so fucking bad and so does everyone else lol #anti transmasculinity

[afarcryfrommymain]

So as someone with a Trans Deputy I find Johns Wrath scar horrifying.

Imagine- especially post transition (whatever that may look like)- finally looking in the mirror and feeling proud and excited. Finally seeing you and being at peace with your body. Shaping yourself into someone new and spending time and energy and money on hrt or surgery or both! You feel comfortable showing your chest in public you get comfy with this idea of you.

And then this asshole permanently marks you.

At first maybe it's not so bad. It will scar. But then the bombs drop and the Deputy becomes so wracked with guilt and pain and grief and now this Wrath is marked on them forever. Their sin, permanently scarring their body in a way that marks what probably is one of their worst memories. Then they have to live with it.

In the bunker there's no way to avoid the mirrors, they see themself and this ugly thing that's ruined the body they worked so hard on making for themself.

It's fucking awful to think about

#im talking now #far cry 5 #john seed #fc5 deputy #transgender #trans deputy #im having a bad dysphoria day and was drawing aphid bc he makes me feel better #and i was doin anatomy and went 'hey! fuck john for doing that that would fucking suck!“ #and had to make everyone else feel that too. #no bombs is just as bad tbh

[goblingirlpicnic]

Dysphoria rant

I wanna rip my face off, I feel so incredibly dysphoric today. I know I’m further along than I was before but the things that helped my dysphoria only make it worse now

My bangs used to help a lot but now I just hate how weird and thin they look. Makeup like makes me feel awful because it became a crutch but now I can only see like the mistakes. The hormones I’m on feel like they just stopped working and I just feel like they haven’t done enough for people to notice.

I’m just so upset and frustrated that even though I’m trying so hard to move forward I feel stuck, like I’m doing all this work and I’m still just a guy to most people. I get called “sir” atleast like once a day by folks.

I’m feeling so tired and like hopeless

#tw dysphoria #Dysphoria #trans #trans fem #transgender #queer #I’m so fucking upset it sucks #I tried to dress up nice and do my makeup but It made it worse #I’m just feeling like giving up

[doodlboy]

Pride psa:

Hey, fic writers? Please for the love of whatevergod *DO NOT* write "gn afab reader" when you're just going to write a cis woman with they/them pronouns slapped on bc you want to appeal to trans people without doing anything to actually make it be inclusive. Similarly, don't write "gn amab reader" if you're going to write a stereotypical man and, again, slap they/them on it to try to broaden your audience without putting in the actual effort.

If you're going to write a cis male or female reader, just say it. It is incredibly easy to tell when you wrote it that way and just changed the pronouns to be more "inclusive."

#pride #fics #x reader #<-so all of you see this #elliot rambles #saw something that was advertised as gn afab and wouldn't you know. a quick skim showed that op slipped up and wrote she instead of they #4 times maybe more. had them wear typically feminine clothing. called them feminine pet names. I could keep going #it was fem reader. just- just fucking say that instead of getting ppls hopes up on something #only 2 then turn around and hit them with extremely gendered terms and situations like a fucking steel chair to the face #its genuinely sickening honestly. ppl write afab and amab now to just mean women and male readers when that isnt the point of the terms #actually frustrating as hell #since its pride month i am no longer asking nicely #ppl who do that can trigger dysphoria in some trans people and that shit fucking sucks so like- do better.

[popfishjr]

Basically a vent about fucking transphobes and gender roles inspired by the song SCUMBAG by NOAHFINNCE

#fanart #art #vent #fishy business #transphobes fucking suck #and dysphoria is killing me #and i just got denied the right to buy a t shirt i like by my dad #just cuz it's 'for men' #i'm fucking fuming so heres some art #trans #transgender #transmasc #transmaculine #trans rights #Spotify #also t shirt that the guy in the drawing is wearing was the t shirt that my dad wouldnt allow me to wear #so theres that

[dragonspleenistasty]

I fucking hate fatphobia can it die please

#vent #experiencing fatphobia and it fucking sucks #not only that but experiencing fatphobia and gender dysphoria at the same fucking time

[faithatmy]

Do I need to finish tma to understand tmp?

#the magnus protocol #Like... Tma is connected to a moment of my life with so much time distortion and derealization and body dysphoria #It was like what I imagine being constantly high would feel which kinda slaps and fucks but also sucks a ton when it went bad? #Sometimes is just “oh. I lost Time. Ok.” or “right. I'm supposedly human. If I get rid of my flesh I won't transcend. Gotta remember that.” #But sometimes was like “fuckfuckfukc it was 19h but it's still 17h but I don't remember anything post 14h” and #“i gotta fit my nails through my skin I gotta get rid of the bones who caged me in meat will get run by a car solve it?” so... Not cool

[poems-of-a-lover]

im so jealous of cis guys. being able to grow up how they want and being confident in themselves and just. im so fuckin jealous. it is so hard. SO hard. to feel comfortable with someone else in a relationship when im not comfortable with myself. i hate it.

#i know this is stupid #im supposed to be proud of being trans and love myself no matter what and be proud of my identity but #fuck man sometimes id just give anything to be cis #like this shit sucks #i dont wanna fuckin do this anymore im tired of it #'nick ur only 18' YEAH I KNOW AND ITS STILL BAD #god im pissed off #i just. i hate that i cant be proud of who i am bc im not someone else. #im losing my mind i think #i wish i was cis so fuckin bad u guys. i wanna have the experiences of growing up as a boy that i missed out on. #i wish i couldve went to school dances in a suit and not had to worry about being stared at #i wish i could dress how i wanted and present myself how i feel comfortable without hearing those goddamn whispers behind my back #im sick and fuckin tired of it #anyway <3 im done <3 im gonna go watch youtube and pretend like i dont exist <3 #vent #dysphoria mention

[alicethebard]

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#vent #ignore or don't I'm not a fucking cop #dysphoria is a fucking bitch and a half #I don't talk about it much on here but I am genderfluid and I have days that are fem masc both neither etc #and most days I don't mind that I look very masc #but I just opened my camera and it was front facing and I almost burst into tears because I saw a man looking back at me #I was feeling very very fem and just the sudden reality slapping me in the face fucking sucked #FUCK I WANT TO START HRT SO FUCKING BAD BUT I CAN'T FUCKING SUPPORT MYSELF SO I HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY PARENTS #and I'm not out to them about being bi let along trans #and though I HOPE they would be supportive #if they aren't I'm literally fucked #I hate it here