#I was six

[thetorturedchairman]

When I got my heart broken for the first time I cried myself to sleep to dbatc after watching something great and baking brownies (and naming them ‘crestfallen brownies’, and it became my go-to for when I’m sad) and watching taylor perform that song last night and then going on to play clean, on the first year (since I met, dated and lost that boy) that I don’t think about him or feel anything when I hear his name is so so so so so important to me. I’m finally clean from that when, at the time dbatc came out, I felt like today would never come. And it just goes on to prove, time and time again, how Taylor has been a crucial and substantial part of my life for so long now that I can’t remember a time before her songs. I loved her before I truly understood what love felt like. I loved her when I dreamed about turning a teenager and fully expected it to be like the movies. I loved her before I even understood life and who I was or who I wanted to become. I loved her when I wanted to become an astronaut and had plans to play at school the next morning. I was a child when I found out what would get me through the rest of my life and one of the most important parts of it. Life is so so so crazy

#I was six #how is this real #alanatalks #I love Taylor so much I just wished she knew that #I’m emotional stop

[glass-expanse]

This is a bit of a weird thing to observe but Ima do it anyway.

For as long as I can remember, whenever pregnancy appeared in my dreams, it was always in a nightmarish setting and was itself part of the nightmarish plot.

Last night was the first time it wasn't nightmarish, ever. I don't know what that means, but maybe it's just one more example of how God is working on my fears.

#Not that the fear of pregnancy particularly has a reason to be worked on right now #Considering I'm virgin and shunning romantic engagements more or less #But who knows lol #And yes #Pregnancy has been one of my MAJOR fears for years #Right up there with rape and sex trafficking #... probably because I found out about the truth of them and how they're connected on the same night #All because my dad was annoyed with my sister and I for playing in his car #I was six #I didn't need to know about sex trafficking at 6 #But I did and it has seriously impacted my view of sex and pregnancy #It's taken a lot of studying the Bible and praying to deal with #It's encouraging that it's paying off

[arctic-hands]

Anyone remember like in the really early two thousands when McDonald's was selling cassettes/CDs that were half Britney Spears and half N*SYNC? That was my first time getting a CD (for the Britney, I only pretended to like N*SYNC because my sister was obsessed), even tho I only had a cassette player. My father tried to insist I get the cassette but I threatened to tantrum in the McDonalds line because cassettes were for babies.

#I was six #I ended up getting a CD boombox for Christmas that year and thus began a CD collection #no idea what happened to all my CDs they cease to exist in my memory past freshman year of hs #mecore

[duckysnowflakes]

i was six when i first had the misfortune of experiencing death. i watched as my grandfather was lowered into the ground and felt nothing at all.

- inspired by a quote from @sparkysparking101 :)))

#death mention #photography #moonlight #windows #not my image #not my photo #my writing #writing #quotes #i was six

[doccywhomst]

#i’ve been thinking abt that cringe post #i think the latent feelings behind ‘cringe’ are shame and sometimes envy/bitterness #same vibes as when six year olds say ‘those toys are for babies’ if they’ve been shamed for their age by older kids #anyway. i think part of the healing process is realizing that shame puts you at war with yourself bc part of yourself is a social being! #and that part of you wants community and acceptance (maybe love). shame is the absence of acceptance #unlearning shame means learning self-love and gaining the confidence to find your people #jerma #cw jerma #(someone asked me to tag lol)

[catmask]

my mom loves to lie and like she always swears she was NEVER homophobic or anything to me as a child “i even have a gay work friend” but a really funny memory resurfaced recently where i asked if i could use birthday money i had to buy a rainbow flag when i was like ??? 7?? because i LOVED rainbows. and she said no that means something Evil and god will hate you . so what did i do. but ask my grandmom for a rainbow sweater for christmas and proceed to only wear that sweater for three years when it got cold because i didnt like the idea that god hated colors and i wanted to challenge him

#id also stare really hard at the sky when i wore it because i wanted to see if he would #acrually strike me with lightning because i thought it would be a cool way to fie #die*** <- and no i didnt realize rainbow = gay for another SIX YEARS #that was AFTER years of g #‘google images girls kissing’ #scratchpost #txt

[aholefilledwithtwigs]

I once had a landlord offhandedly mention that his mother had set this house on fire before. He and his wife lived on the first floor, and i rented the third.

Apparently his mom didn’t like his wife. So she set their house on fire. The house i was living in.

He assured me that everything was fine now and that this was years ago, just kinda laughed, smiled, and said ‘You know how moms are’

Yes. I know how moms are. I know how fucked up moms are as well. I have known many fucked up moms and fellow children of fucked up moms.

Attempted murder through arson is not typical mom behavior, even for a fucked up abusive mom

Oh, and his mother lived next door 🙃

#story time with sair #i might follow up with more #that was a wild living situation even for me #family owned #two neighboring houses of six units total #all of them one family/lived there decades #except the one unit rented out to me

[fluentisonus]

☞ THUS

#i feel like this one has huge potential #going on a six paragraph rant & right before the conclusion pulling out ☞THUS! dot jpg #thoughts

[rabbiteclair]

i have a brain problem that prevents me from understanding people who need so much specifically newly-released TV shows that they're upset by the prospect of going a few months without new ones being produced

like they could stop making video games and books today and I wouldn't notice until sometime in 2026. honestly if they'd stop making new video games for a while that'd be kinda convenient. everyone take a break and let me catch up. I still haven't even played Persona 5.

#this is somewhat less applicable to movies #i can at least get why you'd care about a lack of new movies #because that's what theaters show #but your tv will show you whatever tv shows you feed to it #there's at least six or seven tv shows you haven't seen i bet

[mylittleredgirl]

okay tumblr’s exclusion from the twitter social media ban list is hilarious but genuinely we do not belong on there. if a real human person asks “where can i find you on social media” and your choice is a swift death or revealing your tumblr, most of us would simply expire. half of y’all change urls every week like you’re in witness protection. just imagine for one second attaching your wholeass government name to your latest two am clownposting and tell me that didn’t send a cold chill down your spine. the only place i ever want to see the words “connect with me on tumblr!” is on the ao3 profile of an author i’m actively stalking. anyone in the world can follow me except anyone i personally know. antisocial media.

#with apologies to beloved mutuals ekjohnston and adibkhorram but this post had to be made #you are braver than any marine etc #i revealed my url recently to some very nerdy lifelong blood-oath level friends and lost feeling in my hands for like six hours #we read each other's livejournals during our peak Dramatic Feelings And Bad Choices years and it still gave me pause #rip twitter #that tumblr lyfe #containment breach

[zenithpng]

it is ALWAYS morally correct to draw a man with a soft stomach instead of a six pack. in fact it is ENCOURAGED.

#i dont wanna see six packs anymore i wanna see fuckgn. TUMMIES. #the softer the better tbh note of that visibly muscular shit #jet's talking again

[memesandmylife]

it really is insane to me how in the mid 2010s netflix had a reputation of making cool, inclusive series as well as saving tv shows after their networks cancelled them, and now here we are today with every halfway decent netflix original show getting cancelled after 1-2 seasons and a bajillion episodes of bigmouth

#netflix #shadow and bone #six of crows #inside job #the get down #(the get down was a long ass time ago but that cancellation ripped my fucking heart out and i never trusted netflix again) #winsome’s wailings

[paintsandquests]

An evening in Ketterdam

#back on my Kaz Brekker bullshit #I miss six of crows #soc #fanart #my art #digital art #six of crows #grishaverse #wow look kaz brekker art that doesn't have freddy's face it its a christmas miracle #kaz brekker #ketterdam #amsterdam is my ref here #god do i love kaz brekker #sketch #art

[celestialcass]

cancelling Shadow and Bone right before they were going to do the Ice Court Heist and with a WHOLE SEASON of Six of Crows fucking WRITTEN AND READY TO GO and scrapping that too is evil incarnate netflix you deserve to go out of business forever

#shadow and bone #netflix #i guess fuck me for getting invested #six of crows

[elainiisms]

y'all are always complaining about how gay rep has to be perfect and unproblematic like speak for yourself i personally love it when they try to murder each other

#like.... look i recognise that these things can be harmful BUT I DESERVE SOME FUN TOO #like im so sorry but i have the most intense love hate relationship with the death trope i could never let it go #i love tragedy #hannigram #villaneve #catradora #tamber #tryst six venom #a lesson in vengeance #the handmaiden #evervale #rhaenicent #gallavich #fuffy #hizzie #wlw #mlm #loustat #iwtv

[movedtodykedvonte]

*Spidey and the Sinister Six having their usual fight*

Doc Ock, landing a hit: You’re getting slow Spider-Man! Age finally catching up to you?

Spider-Man: You wish! I haven’t even hit my 30s! From those costumes I can already tell I failed to save you guys from those midlife crises! Sorry by the way.

Vulture: Watch it wallcr- wait… Did you just say your not in your thirties yet?

Spider-Man: Surprised that this spiders so young and spry? Well-

Electro: Dude I’ve been fighting you for at least 5 fucking years! How old even are you?

Shocker, joking cause he’s the only one who picked up no grown adult acts likes Spidey: Don’t swear in-front of the boy you don’t want him to pick it up.

Rhino: Christ! You’re tellin me I almost crushed some 12-year-olds skull all those years ago?

Spider-Man, regretting his quipping: I was not that young! Like just starting freshman year but-

Sandman, horrified as he’s the only one with a kid and dad instincts(as of my iteration): I could’ve killed a kid…

Shocker, genuinely curious: Are you even old enough to drink? Cruel to kill a man who ain’t had his first drink yet.

Electro: Please tell us you’re at least over 25 as of this fight. Hell, I’ll take over 21!

Spider-Man:….

Sandman, realizing just how young he really is: Oh my god.

Spider-Man: My birthday’s coming up soon so I guess it counts?

Doc Ock, exacerbated: It. Does. Not!

Vulture: What would your mother think if she knew her son was out here risking his life telling poorly constructed jokes?

Spider-Man, offended cause it quips slap: 1. My jokes are great 2. She and my dad are dead so-

Sandman, hysterical cause holy shit he almost killed a kid orphan: OH MY GOD!

#they now think he’s some homeless orphan fighting crime cause it’s the only thing he has #my fav hc are the villains earlier in spideys career are completely against harming kids #so to figure out the hero of New York was like a child they plan to torture before unmasking and killing is well #not great on their minds and little sense of morality #I wanted to write a fic about this but ao3 is dead so take this flash dialogue fic instead #I need to sleep for work #doc ock #sinister six #doctor octopus #otto octavius #the ​sandman #flint marko #the rhino #Alexei Sytsevich #the shocker #herman schultz #electro #maxwell dillon #the vulture #adrian toomes #peter parker #spider-man #spiderman