#I’m just repeating myself

[quibbs126]

I don’t know why, but I’m just not feeling that great today

Not in like a sick way or that I’m tired, it’s just that like, I can’t properly distract myself/make myself happy, I just feel kind of miserable

Maybe it’s the realization I have to go back to college in two weeks (and I think at this point this place has just become somewhere that gives me nothing but anxiety. Not because of the actual place, but because I always have something big to worry over, usually because of my own inaction. And I don’t want to talk about it with my parents and I’m terrified that it’ll come up)

Maybe it’s because of the drama that was going on here earlier today and someone I like here is leaving (not saying they can’t leave, if they feel that’s what’s best for them I wish them nothing but the best going forward into the next year, it’s just that now I’m sad because of that)

Maybe it’s because I can’t get my brain to come up with ideas to think about and work on in general. I know someone’s gonna tell me I don’t need to work on my stuff 24/7, I can take a break, but that’s not what I mean (though I would like to work more on my stuff). My brain just needs something to think about throughout the day to function properly, and not much is coming up, or at least, not much that’s of any quality

Maybe it’s because one of the things I posted elsewhere just completely flopped despite me putting a lot of hard work on it (it’s doing completely fine on here though). Sorry, I’m a bit of an attention whore and I get sad when something I put a lot of work into and maybe I was feeling a little proud of after being unsure of myself just gets absolutely no attention. Granted if my posts get attention there is more of a coin toss, I’m not that well known there

Maybe it also has to do with the fact that I keep messing up this one rescue mission in Pokémon Mystery Dungeon because it’s an escort and the Pokémon I’m escorting only has 12 HP and is Level 1, so literally anything in this dungeon will kill it, and every time SOMETHING happens and they die, so I have to turn off my DS and restart AGAIN because I don’t want to be defeated in a dungeon and waste my in game day

I don’t know, I feel like I’m being repetitive. I just am not feeling that great today. I’m not really enjoying the games I’m playing and at the moment I don’t feel like drawing. Maybe I’ll see if I can do that later, I dunno

#I don’t know really #I’m just repeating myself #sorry #real life stuff #random stuff

[comradekatara]

“the southern raiders” is such a crazy (good) episode for so many reasons but the fact that it subtly reframes katara’s entire relationship to kya’s death is incredible. throughout the course of the show, you hear katara state that the fire nation killed her mother. but at no point, until she confronts yon rha, does she tell anyone why they killed her mother.

they killed kya because of her existence. kya died for her. it wasn’t just a senseless act of brutal violence, it was a targeted and deliberate act of systematic persecution. katara doesn’t just survive her as her daughter, she survives her as the sacrifice made in her name. she doesn’t just wear kya’s necklace as a memento, an heirloom passed down across generations as a testament to the courage of the women in her family (although yes, the fact that it was originally kanna’s is of course also hugely significant). that necklace is a reminder of what her mother gave up to protect her. it is the physical reminder she wears so that she can properly honor her memory every day.

even when she messes up, loses control or makes the wrong call, she is always acting in the name of what she believes is right. injustice shaped her, and her guilt and knowledge that she survived against impossible odds out of pure love wills her to act in the name of love at all times, to reproduce that love and that heroism and that unshakeable courage to do what’s right even when it seems impossible.

katara’s determination and hope is never not sensical, and never not inspirational, but in the eleventh hour of the series, we learn something shocking yet simultaneously unsurprising about the formative trauma that defines her. another layer is added to her grief and her driving motivation. it’s not just that she’s the only one who can carry on her people’s heritage. it’s not just that she is a victim of genocide and demands justice for the perpetrators of these grievous sins. it’s not just that she wants joy, adventure, friendship, strength, and revolution. her mother died for her. katara is only alive because the person she loves most in the world is dead. and she cannot let her death have been in vain.

#okay yeah I’m still thinking about it . so much #and yes again I know I say this all the time #at this point I’m just repeating myself as infinitum #but I SHALL NOT apologize #you will read my katara posts AND YOU WILL READ THEM AGAIN!!!!! #katara #katara&kya #analysis #ughhhhhh #best girl best girl best girl

[fauxbia]

thoughts on iterators and divinity. disclaimer it is after midnight and I am copy pasting this directly from a crazed discord dm ramble, so . it probably has a lot of repeating myself and general incomprehensibility in there. I’ve got my tinfoil hat on and everything

anyway me when. me when . “Godlike in comparison.” me when iterators. manmade gods trapped in cages of their own flesh. so completely powerless that they cannot be divine. so unfathomably powerful that they cannot be anything less an iterator is not a god and yet they are the size of mountains, and yet they level the land and fundamentally transform the environments around them an iterator is not a god and yet they know and see and hear and do more than we can ever comprehend, every thought that we can ever have in our lifespans can be ruminated on at length by an iterator over the span of a week, at most. more likely a day an iterator is not a god and yet they have an avatar and yet they decide the life and death of every thing within its domain and yet the only thing that can kill one is another, and time. and both are an incomprehensible feat. (and yet their death is inevitable, for they are no more immune to time than us)

but they operate and exist solely within the bounds set for them but they have no power beyond their concrete, limited domains but they cannot move or see or live in any way that we can define but even the escape, the ascension they were created to provide is completely beyond them by design

an iterator is not a god!!! but!!! they were made to resemble gods and act as gods to the world below. they are Gifts to the World made to enlighten it and bring it to ascension. they are beyond mortal comprehension. if that is not divinity, then what is? yes there are forces greater than them. obviously. but even the most fallible, the most innocent, the most shortsighted and impotent of deities is still a deity

an iterator is not a god. we have caught a glimpse of what might be the “gods” of rain world and they all dwell below, far below the iterators’ domains. but they were made in the likeness of gods and a facsimile resembles what it was made after does a being (however artificial) made in the image of the divine not inherit divinity?

like the ancients didnt make them to ascend themselves. they had the void fluid and clearly that was good enough for them. the ancients made them to enlighten and ascend the entire world in their wake even if they failed and were always going to fail because by definition that is a fundamentally impossible task, is being created for such a purpose not grounds for divinity in its own right?

how ironic that they are incapable of ascension. how cruel.

#rain world #idk sure i feel like this is a good enough ramble to be maintagged? #maybe? #zzzzzz….. I’m so sleeepy #there are absolutely no guarantees that this is even slightly comprehensible #I’m sorry if it turns out I was just repeating myself over and over for . too many words #I am sleepy. honk shop

[plaguedocboi]

I love writing nature articles but it is oftentimes so fucking depressing. Like I’m researching an animal and every paper is like “this beast is vital to the ecosystem and everything will collapse without it. Their population has declined 99% because companies are intentionally dumping toxic chemicals into their habitat and there’s nothing we can do about it. However, if you want to not feel entirely helpless, you could consider not using pesticides on your lawn” like alright. Great. How am I supposed to spin that so it’s okay to go in a family-friendly small-town newspaper and not make everyone sad as fuck.

#so much of being a biologist is just wow. everything sucks. #but I must remain hopeful for the future because otherwise all will be lost #I will make a change even if it is small #I repeat this to myself when I’m sad

[sunglassesmish]

https://x.com/scurtscurt/status/1764446978539438497?s=46&t=C_twoBlJmxDu2Nz9W99Q2A

look at this cutie pie 😭😭

🥰🥰🥰

#anon #ask #misha collins #he’s so pretty and he looks so cute and so happy and shshsdgsnzgwgdjdgshdhshdgsjdg #i cannot take all of this #i’m just repeating myself at this point

[gidle]

I read the lyrics of Wife and they're even worse than Queencard. I'm too afraid to listen to it, I can only hope that the rest of the album isn't like this nonsense. I miss their old music and lyrics, it was poetry in comparison to whatever they're doing now :(

Anon i wonder if you arrived at this blog in the past five minutes bc i have not been silent about wife. You’re barking at the wrong tree here.

I will always defend someone’s right to not vibe with the style of the song bc that’s personal taste. But if you say Wife has gibberish lyrics I’m assuming you rely very superficially on only English translations because KBS has deemed the song too sexual for broadcast, so it’s definitely not “nonsense”. It isn’t in English either. The mv, the styling, the lyrics, they’re all full of metaphor and satire (detailed here and here and here).

I don’t think you’ll like when you listen to the song because your mind seems already set. Honestly I don’t think you’ll like anything they put out because as you say, you miss their old sound and music, whatever you think that means. Nxde was just a comeback ago. Senorita and dumdi dumdi were terribly unserious. I don’t think latata and uh oh were that groundbreaking either. I do wonder if you’re the same anon I answered a while ago?

If you’re using pre and post Soojin as old and new I just think you need to be more honest with yourself about why you don’t like their new songs anymore. For the reasons stated above, I think it’s way beyond what you deem sensical lyrics and good music. Gidle has a wide range, they’re versatile and always with a new concept, to the point I’ve seen people calling them inconsistent. So if none of their very different to each other comebacks has been appealing to you, there can be other reasons than the ones you’re trying to rationalize. Soyeon will not produce gidle as it is now the same way she would as it were then. And I will miss Soojin in the group until I perish but it will never be because I want them to return to their old “better style”. I’d kill to see Soojin tomboying and queencarding.

I love the fun they bring to kpop. I love to see them act confidently “silly”. Even the silliness is debatable, as it is intentional, as it’s not mindless, because they ARE making statements, whether you recognize it or not, and also regardless if you approve of the way it is made. Gidle is thriving with a method a lot of groups can’t afford to. They’re grown women doing grown women business, they’re self made and self produced and paraphrasing one of the videos linked above, they’re not gonna say something unless they have something to say. They’re always innovating, they never follow a formula, there’s barely a pattern between comebacks except for the fact that it’s always them. It’s who they are and what they want to show. That’s what I love about them, that’s what makes every comeback interesting. And this has not changed, not even once.

#answered #anonymous #this is long and I hope in no way rude but I am at loss on how to reply to an ask like that (very similar to one I have gotten before) #it just feels like I’m repeating myself on a vacuum #gidle #fuck it im tagging for audience teach #reach* #ok to rb

[blended-ice]

little nibble 🤺🤺🤺🩸

(obligatory vampire au)

#peas n guac #man I just drew this in one sitting while listening to step on me (the cardigans) on repeat #something just came over me idk #listen #sometimes #I just gotta draw the boys covered in blood #sorry you had to find out this way #it’s not very much blood #only a lil itty bit u know #yeah #‘but blended’ you say #‘isn’t it lowkey cringefail of you to be posting vampire au’s?’ #and I say NO #I say cringe is DEAD babygirl (gender neutral) #cringe died when I decided to dedicate an entire blog to drawing 2016 anime blorbo fanart #I’m talking to myself too much rn I need to calm down #I am so!!! Tired!! I should be in bed!!! #yuri on ice #yoi #viktor nikiforov #katsuki yuuri #viktuuri #fanart #id in alt text

[moony-ghoul]

there needs to be some kind of aftercare after you set boundaries with your parents

#just repeating to myself i’m not a bad person i did nothing wrong it is okay for me to make my discomfort known and do something about it

[dezzytics]

Reminding myself that just because my tics have been calmer lately doesn’t mean I’m faking or that my struggles aren’t real

#repeating this to myself tbh #also of course I’m grateful to not be dealing with my tics as much lately I just keep gaslighting myself into thinking I’m making shit up #actually tourettic #dezzy tics #tics #tourettes

[quibbs126]

You know, I’ve just come to assume Red Velvet just has some way of not aging, because him being a child when Dark Enchantress was rebaked is like ONLY piece of in game material that says that the Dark Flour War wasn’t a long time ago (at least as far as I can remember)

Like literally everything else points to the Dark Flour War being at least several decades ago, he’s the one thing saying it isn’t since he seems in his like, mid to late 20s or something. And frankly I just can’t really accept that the Dark Flour War was only 20-30 years ago, when everything else points to otherwise

#maybe someday they’ll explain what’s going on with Red Velvet #that is if they plan to actually do anything with him in the story #because I just can’t believe that the Dark Flour War was so recent #sorry I’m repeating myself #maybe this can also be chalked up to early game stuff #where they didn’t think about this #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #red velvet cookie #random stuff

[gaylittleguys]

ok I know people have written/talked about Ginger Snaps (2000) as a trans allegory from Ginger’s perspective but when I first watched it I read it as a trans-allegory horror from Brigitte’s perspective. More along the vein of being a transmasc teenager and seeing female puberty and the transformations that come from that as horrifying, and fearing that happening to you too.

#go read Logan Ashley Kisners why did you feed the wolf #its writing is really good go read his work anyways #idk why this is on my mind tonight it’s been a while since I’ve watched the movie #I’m not being coherent but. #the vibes are there #I’ve got more thoughts on this but I’ve tried writing this out and I just repeat myself so #trust me bro I know #ginger snaps #horror #.doc #werewolves

[wrongcaitlyn]

yk what just kinda frustrates me a bit? it’s that whenever someone hates on taylor swift, i need to defend her, not bc i think she can do no wrong ever, but because they always choose the wrong things to criticize.

like if someone tries to say shit abt the i hate it here 1830s lyric to me? i’m obligated to point out that uh no it’s not racist, literally look at the next fucking line, you idiot. she’s saying the exact opposite of what you’re implying. nostalgia is a mind’s trap.

and if someone tries to call her a climate terrorist, then i’m going to have to point out that yes, she uses a private plane a lot, but she’s not even in the top 30 of celebs with highest carbon emissions. if you really want to criticize a celebrity and not the huge factories/companies that are polluting the air, then focus on travis scott

but like?? you could literally choose any argument that doesn’t have to do with literal false information. or better yet, you don’t even need a reason! say you don’t vibe with her music and that is literally none of my business. good for you. enjoy whatever music you like. but don’t try and put yourself on this moral pedestal for hating on this musician who doesn’t even know you exist and let me listen to the grand theft auto lyric in peace.

#wrongcaitlyn #both of these have been told to me at school bc i’m like the resident swiftie #and it’s just?? so fucking frustrating??? #like honestly even if they criticized the charlie puth or golden retriever line like i would have no defense #those are silly lyrics and i can vibe with them but if you don’t it’s fine #but when they go for such stupid arguments?? like really?? can you not think of anything better?? #oh right. you can’t. bc there’s literally not a reason i know of to hate this woman SO vehemently that you have to include it in every #conversation #i never bring up taylor swift at school #just bc i’m worried of coming off as annoying and obsessed (which tbf i am but i keep it to myself and online) #and yet i still end up talking abt her like 3 times a day because PEOPLE bring her up to ME #so am i (the swiftie) really the one so obsessed with taylor swift here? #honestly this may be incoherent i’m half asleep rn #but like i’m just sick of having to repeat the same arguments and coming off as some crazed fan just bc i wanna wear a taylor sweatshirt

[soullessjack]

new level of hatred unlocked for when jacks only fanon characterization is to say “dean and cas are gay and my gay dads and Sam is just the uncle guy because Dean and Cas are gay” and not have any personality outside of shipping his own fathers and being a gay little baby with gay dads and remember Sam isn’t his dad he’s the uncle guy because dean and Cas can’t be gay if there’s three dads

#literally can you people stop being this way about jack it is actually dealing damage to me #spn #supernatural #jack kline #spn fandom #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #deancas #sam winchester #tfw2.0 #spn critical #fandom critical #I’m not anti destiel I’m not anti destiel i repeat as reassurance but you can vaguely understand that I’m reassuring myself and not you #bonus points for sam erasure because we just can’t stop there can we #hate this place #can you people let jack be an actual fucking character for once jesus fucking lord

[werebutch]

I am told i am evil by my sister and father. Evil. They used that word sincerely. Im quick to anger but I don’t think I’m evil. I certainly would never tell my sisters to end their own lives, and I especially wouldn’t mean it, even in the moment like they do. I’d never threaten suicide to them either. It completely flip flops from me doing nothing in their eyes, and me doing everything, to which they react with thankfulness but never help. Not even when I beg for it. And when I do beg, I’m either met with zero compassion or guilt trips. I think after enough of that, anyone would get angry

#and if you really wanna know the secret. I’m only quick to anger because of the lack of real compassion my family shows me. ✅ #aka things build up after so many years and now there’s a really kind of horrible layer of resentment in my relationships w them #ugh I’ll delete this but I’m so tired of this. I go through this every couple weeks. u guys have seen. my sisters are just really good at #convincing me that we’re good. but they also always remind me that that is very conditional #I know I’m repeating myself I’m just so angry and sad to be honest 😭

[the-nation-of-today]

Final bleeders weekend count: 122 streams.

ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY TWO TIMES. IN THREE DAYS. GET A HOBBY GIRL.

#black veil brides #bvb #bleeders #maeve.txt #I got nothing here I’m just exposing myself #i was listening to it on repeat as I was working on my concert outfit so that definitely contributed

[garden-bug]

Your Thrawn takes (concluding the debate)

From a poll I did yesterday. You can check out the post on my profile. I’m tempted to do a longer one to get a more accurate result… but that’s it for now! Thanks for participating.

100% people

No character, unless they’re a pure villain, is fully immoral. It’s an interesting viewpoint to take on a character like Thrawn who has undoubtedly done moral actions. Perhaps you view something he did as so immoral it negotiated all of this for you?

Another thing that people seem to not realise: ‘good morals’ and ‘good character’ are not synonymous. If somebody tells you a character that you like has done bad things, don’t take it personally! Nuance is what makes characters interesting. I love characters like Maul and Mahito (jjk) purely because they are completely selfish and atrociously evil. I’m not gonna get sad if someone says, ‘how can you like them they’re evil?’ A huge reason why I like them because they’re evil. Duh. Characters like that are fascinating. That person does not understand the implications of characters as storytelling tools (another reason I would argue it’s so important to analyse critically - you’ll take everything personally otherwise and not be able to appreciate this). Maybe you can help them realise that the character isn’t fully immoral, but is actually an anti-villain or an anti-hero. By having these discussions properly (instead of just getting annoyed and shutting them down) we will realise that, wow, 80% of people have the same view (that’s most of you).

I’m repeating myself again here, but I’d also like to stress the importance of expectations when people post about a story or character. Somebody who makes a post about one particular aspect of a story or character that leans towards more moral or immoral is probably not going to give a balanced judgement of the entire work or characterisation. You’ll realise by responding that, oops, they actually do understand everything you do, it’s just this post was about one small thing and you took it as their entire bias. My post criticising the Ascendancy’s use of child soldiers received a response generalising the fandom as people who are obsessed with analysing morality and think Thrawn is this horrific pure evil character. No… that’s not what I said! (And the morality part, that’s a bad thing?)

This annoys me people

7 people picked the last option, which does make me sad if it’s because they’re frustrated by the type of arguments that seem to arise from this topic and don’t want to engage anymore. Having these better discussions would probably help this. Hopefully they do understand the value of morality in literature analysis in general. It can be an important tool to assess whether one character is more effective than another, to illustrate the themes of your story, and much much more.

Some people view stories are purely for entertainment and not for any intellectual purpose, but I disagree and don’t understand this. I would find stories unbelievably boring that way. If you disagree that’s your personal preference, and I will not change my mind because this is mine, so DNI please.

Conclusion of the debate

The conclusion of the debate is… well, critical analysis (including of the moralality kind) is required to understand what really makes a character a good character.

Thrawn is such an incredibly fascinating character, I think, because of his moral ambiguity. Why does Death Note fascinate people? Take the moral debate out of Death Note and you render the entire story meaningless. There would be nothing. There wouldn’t even be a story. I feel like this is obvious.

#you guys would love the death note fandom #I’m really just repeating myself here huh #this was a very enjoyable and entertaining topic so thank you everyone for participating #I hope this was helpful #thrawn #thrawn ascendancy #Ahsoka #Ahsoka series #thrawn critical #star wars #thrawn trilogy #thrawn treason #creative writing #grand admiral thrawn #mitth'raw'nuruodo #anakin skywalker #anakin critical #darth maul #star wars critical #fandom critical #literature analysis #kind of #ahsoka critical