#WELCOME TO ME SCREAMING ABOUT THEM.

[wcshedup]

@fizziifrxg ;;

{ don't be an IDIOT. } negative self-talk wasn't the most positive of tools -- definitely not the sort of coping strategy that near-sighted therapists pitch in the home stretch of rehab. but if she was being honest with herself, it was the only way she knew how to keep the YEARNING at bay. { don't be a FUCK UP, it's been 6 MONTHS. }

FUCKING BLITZ.

if he hasn't come along on some VALIENT mission to -- what ?? rekindle their relationship from the long-tepid mount of proverbial ashes ?? AS IF. now she was hard-up for work, and without some semblance of routine there was no WAY barbie could hope to keep her place in the halfway accommodations -- and then where would she be ?? { it was one thing to be sober inside, but out on the streets ? an ENTIRELY different moral struggle. }

the uncertainty is threatening to drive the imp right back to the BEST source of stress management she knows -- it would be so easy to wander out into the alleys, the next fix was always closer than the average denizen might realize.

in a last-ditch attempt to corral herself, barbie ACTUALLY takes some of that advice from her counselor. { CALL SOMEONE YOU TRUST. } and there's only one option in that department, only one who wouldn't encourage that destructive method of self-soothing.

the number is already on speed dial. { it rings longer than she expects, actually. }

" HEY fizz -- what're ya up to ? "

#WELCOME TO ME SCREAMING ABOUT THEM. #threads. #fizziifrxg. #addiction tw #relapse tw #drug abuse tw

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Does

Does Barnaby

Does Barnaby tell the others to get off his lawn when he's angry

psh, who do you think he is, an old man? he'd Bark, like any lively young dog

#serves them right for (playfully) arguing right outside of his house smh #hes got sensitive ears yall... probably... i wouldnt know... #i bet ya could hear that woof everywhere in the neighborhood #and feel it. its gotta be deep as hell. bass boosted boof #legend has it that a Single Can fell in howdy's store #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #many thoughts about barnaby and barking #id imagine that if asked if he can bark hed be like 'yeah but its a waste of effort / who has the time for That' #i doubt he ever really does it... #cause that would take effort and really when would he be in the mood to be able to do it #its like. i dont get how some people can just let out a real good yell/scream on command #if im not angry enough i Physically Cannot raise my voice in that way. just dont have it in me #and id also think that barnaby has a thick skin. takes a lot to make him That Peeved yk yk #but when he does bark. oof. thats gotta be the loudest shit ever #everyone runs out of their homes like 'what happened??? is there a thunderstorm??? did a fuckin Bomb go off??' #meanwhile barnaby is slamming his door behind him and frank & julie are speedwalking away from his house with ringing ears #thoughts thoughts thoughts Musings

[triforce-of-mischief]

Trypanophobic Whumpee ✨

Whumpees who hide their wounds to avoid medical attention, out of fear rather than pride.

Whumpees who scream and sob and plead when Caretaker brings them to the medic/doctor/hospital.

Whumpees who are too quiet and submissive, terrified to act out.

Whumpees who are jumpy and completely snap at the first sudden move.

Whumpees who lock themselves in the bathroom to delay the inevitable.

Whumpees who want to be sedated but not with a syringe/IV, anything but that.

Whumpees who can't stop reliving the trauma of being physically restrained in the past.

Whumpees who try to flinch back, to run away, and find themselves in Caretaker's gentle but unyielding embrace.

Whumpees whose hands shoot out in self-defense only to be grabbed and held by Caretaker.

Whumpees who have to tell Caretaker, voice hushed, about their phobias, and watch the horror and sympathy spread over Caretaker's face.

Whumpees who only trust Caretaker to get anywhere near them, even if Caretaker is holding a needle, not knowing why they feel safe when they should feel scared.

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Caretakers who can't decide if it's better to tell Whumpee where they're taking them or if it would be a mercy to keep the secret just a little longer.

Caretakers who know about Whumpee's phobias and feel the crushing guilt as they force Whumpee to live through their greatest fears for their own good.

Caretakers who don't know what's worse, the utter betrayal in Whumpee's eyes or the resignation once they stop fighting.

Caretakers who have to tell Whumpee to Don't look over there, eyes on me, you'll make it worse for yourself if you look.

Caretakers who know if they should stay quiet, tell Whumpee what's happening, soothe and distract with words, show them how to breathe deep and steady.

Caretakers who scream just as loudly as Whumpee when the medics/nurses have to hold Caretaker back from fighting the ones who are holding Whumpee down because Caretaker knows it's wrong.

Caretakers who apologize and praise Whumpee, even- especially- when Whumpee knows they were not brave, but they got through it anyway.

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Please reblog if you like these, and tag me if you use them or have any recs that use them! I would love to read! 💜

#trypanophobic whumpee who trusts caretaker with a needle is something that can be so intimate like w o w #i read one book that briefly used that and i havent been the same since #i also love using these and i want to use them more <3 #whump #whump scenario #whump prompt #whumpee x caretaker #medical whump #hospital whump #trypanophobia #trypanophobic whumpee #<- IS THAT NOT A TAG?!?!? #screaming crying throwing up if its not #whumpees who are afraid of needles/doctors/hospitals anything goes really <3 #you're more than welcome to talk to me or add on! im so normal about this <3

[armoralor]

Katee Stackoff has once again confirmed that Bo-Katan Kryze and Din Djarin do NOT have romantic undertones (from this article).

#do any of the people her sent me messages screaming & crying that Katee is a diehard d*nbo shipper want to send me an apology? #you are welcome to ship whatever you want #but can we officially stop with the homophobic rants on how Din/Bo is the “most likely ship to become canon” and so “obviously written" #because no. it is not canon and was NOT how the actors were acting in any of those scenes. have fun writing your fanfic and enjoy. #just don't act like you are the most right and canon and special when your ship is just as dumb and silly as the rest of them. #and there was NEVER any kiss scene or romantic shit filmed- some of you just don't understand when an actor is making a joke. #ALSO- FOR THE LOVE OF GOD please stop asking the actors about it at panels. #bo katan kryze #bo-katan kryze #the mandalorian #din djarin #text

[thedeadthree]

-`. 𝖚𝖗𝖑 𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖓𝖌𝖊 ❦

-ˋˏ .·:·. ⊱ indorilnerevarine ➵ THEDEADTHREE ⊰ .·:·. -ˋˏ

-`. baldur’s gate has my psyche and soul at the moment so in honor of that and the dearest (un)holy trinity i thought it would be cute to do a change as it’s been a bit!

-`. 𝖒𝖚𝖙𝖚𝖆𝖑𝖘 𝖆𝖗𝖊 𝖜𝖊𝖑𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖗𝖊𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖌 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘! ❦

#url change ♡ #leg.txt #url change !!!!!!!!!! url change! yay!!!!!! <3 #i am also at a con rn it’s been the loveliest 🥀✨🥹 #this has been in my drafts for a bit i wasn’t ready to let go yet 🥀✨🥺 but eeek i did it! #i will for sure return to the indorilnerevarine url one day the bestie and dearest protag will always have a special place in my heart <3 #and mutuals ​y’all are also always welcome to @ me or dm me things y’all make which may also be easier as my flea brain misses a lot 🥀😭✨ #tes always on my heart always on my mind <3 ye olde comfort hyperfixation!!!!!! #i will reblog this a few times for the morning and evening and besties <3 #THANK YOU THANK YOU THE POLL BESTIES I TRULY OWE YOU ALL MY LIFE 🥀🥹 #i love it iloveitiloveit I LOVE IT its such a lovely and i LOVE it ​🌸💕🥹 #like i was so so so happy that it was open as a url EEEEEK #but teehee bg brainrot has such a vice grip on me and envyana have the braincell <3 #I AM SO SO CLOSE TO THEM REUNITING I FEEL IT I SENSE IT IN MY SOUL RAHHH I AM GOING TO BE THE MOST NORMAL ABOUT THEM !!!!!!!! #i have so many thoughts MANY MANY i need to yell about them !!!!!! it is imperative! #(mo if i bolt onto discord screaming when they reunite SIZJZJZH 🥀💀) #(and besties and mutuals i am always happy to yell on here or on discord about bg3 🥀🥹😌 !!!!)

[sylvie-lee]

Ok here's my thoughts on the confession.

I think Crowley has been pining after Aziraphale for 6000 years, but always assumed it wasn't reciprocated (or, in the moments where he thought that it was maybe possible, he wasn't willing to risk what they already had), so he never did anything about it.

And then Nina assumes that they're a couple, even the "bit-on-the-side" part makes the assumption that Aziraphale is interested in him like that. Crowley allows himself to hope as he has scarcely hoped before. But he's still just a little too scared to make the final step. Plus, then there's the whole thing with Gabriel to deal with first.

But even before Nina and Maggie give him The Talk, he's talking about "us time" and breakfast at the Ritz and putting the bookshop back together the way Aziraphale likes it. He has complete confidence that Aziraphale will hear whatever the Metatron has to say, come home, and everything will go back to the way it ways. And then maybe from here he'll be able to, a few months or years down the road maybe, find the courage to tell him how he feels.

But then Nina and Maggie sit him down and point out to him how lacking their communication has been over 6 millennia. They give him that final push to finally do something about it. So Crowley went into this confession with at least some expectation that it would end well, because he has always been, at heart, an optimist. That's who he is. So that just makes the whole thing so much more heartbreaking that it just got thrown back into his face with what he hears as "you've never been and never will be good enough for me Crowley". So now I've just hurt my own feelings and I live in Neil Gaiman's walls.

#go s2 #good omens #ineffable husbands #this isn't even a fully formed thought #but nobody in my real life watches this show #and these thoughts have to go somewhere or I'll explode #send help #please literally anyone who wants to scream with me about them with me #you're very welcome

[jazzzzzzhands]

HI!!! I LITTERALLY ADORE YOUR QUESTION ANSWERER DESIGN!! I JUST WANTED 2 SAY THAT

Oh?? You like... Him???

Well He is a very very busy man, I'm not sure if he would notice your affection!! I'm sure he would be flattered if he wasn't tangled up in his work!

But word to the wise, I would be careful around him! He has been known to be quite...

~Obsessive~

#ooooh i'm so sorry AAAAA im screaming!!! #this is the ask that made me go absolutely FERAL #oooh you like him you like him?? #i like him too.... #i was so hesitant to add that last doodle #self indulgence at its finest #hahahah ofc everything i say and draw about the QA is speculation and head cannons #we dont know much about them yet #my interpretation of the QA #i ofc know what you meant but this gave me the excuse to explore what i think about him #oooh man i was zooming around my room wildly when i got this ask #so excited so excited!! #i went so overboard with drawing him ahahaha #i did not need to add the tsundere part but i DID #we love a dilusional man!! #i havent even put tags yet im sorryyyyyy #welcome home #question answerer #QA #whps #wally darling #ghost tagging him because the QA told me too #he's obsessed with wally right?? #same same my friend #oh! #jazzart #asks #i keep forgetting #i had to finish my lil clay man before i did this one ahahah #oooh i hope you guys like him!!

[indecisive-dizzy]

Any Howdy ideas to share? /nf

Oh I have So Many ideas. Pulled out my notes for this! Gonna start with family bc I've been wanting to share.

Howdy is The middle child. This man suffers from middle child syndrome big time, his parents hardly acknowledge him unless they're complaining about his career choice/comparing him to his siblings.

Speaking of! He has 15 siblings! They have names and traits and I wasted So Much Time on them! So here a list from oldest to youngest! as well their jobs

Heather- house wife w no kids. married big rich

Huntley- restaurant owner w multiple locations

Hailey- successful crafts/furniture business

Hayden- same business with Hailey

Heath- plane engineer

Hector- commercial pilot

Henry- big industry CEO

Hannah- chain store assistant manager

Howard "Howdy"- You know this one!

Holland- part-time job hoping

Harrison- college student

Harvey- college student

Harwin- college student

Harmony- student

Hope- student

Holly- student

3-4, 5-6, and 15-16 are twins. 11-13 are triplets. I don't have ages bc they need to be reworked. Yes all their names start with H. I thought it would be funny but it was Not Worth It. /hj

Back to Howdy! He loves all of his younger siblings. He's not as close to his older siblings with the exception of Huntley bc I love him. He actively dislikes Henry and Heather bc they belittle him a Lot.

Howdy, Hannah, and Holland were The trio of the family. Howdy is closest to these two.

He was also hugely involved in raising/taking care of the little ones. He was the only one that could get the triplets to take a bath in a reasonable amount of time with little mess/fuss. No one knows how he did it.

Stepping away from family!

It's so easy to make Howdy laugh. He makes a big deal out of jokes and having a good sense of humor, but he'll laugh at anything! He just hides this fact to save himself the supposed embarrassment. He almost Laughed Out Loud at one of Frank's jokes! Frank Frankly! The Unfunniest Neighbor! The memory haunts him. /j

Cuddle bug. Someone please hug the caterpillar. He just wants to give his loved ones a big squeeze and in some cases never let them go (cough Barnaby cough). If you fall asleep against him he will cherish the moment but will playfully complain later.

Cries if/when anything happens to the shop. Water leak? Sobs. Stain? Inconsolable. He loves his little shop so much.

He may scam people but he's really not in it for huge profits. He's just like that. Refuses to Ever open another store. There's only one Howdy so there will only be one Howdy's Place!

Oblivious but falls in love easy. He won't realize he's in love but he always falls first. Just give him time to realize it.

Will flirt with his partner but flusters when it's returned.

Despite being a workaholic, he gets plenty of rest and is pretty good with self care! He finds it very important to be well rested and healthy if he's gonna work so much. He also sleeps like a rock.

I have this idea to specifically contrast with Eddie! Who does Not know when to stop working. Howdy complains often of Eddie's sleep schedule (or lack thereof). This had led to Eddie being forced to nap in a big armchair behind the store counter on multiple occasions.

Howdy has essentially adopted the neighbors as family. Except for Barnaby I guess bc he's in love with the big blue dog.

One the youngest neighbors. He refuses to acknowledge this as he's had enough of being the baby brother thank you very much.

oh golly this got long very quick.. so that's all for now! 😅

#i could literally keep going #i have so many thoughts about his family and their dynamics #as well his interactions woth neighbors outside the shop #thsi caterpillar is just alfnsckajkdfjja <3 <3 #Fun fact! He's what got me into Welcome Home! #I was watching the first GTLive about wh (don't come for me plz) #and when he pulled up Howdy's character in the neighborhood page i Lost It #I literally heart eyed and screamed #I thought he was the neatest fella! The Character Design Ever #I proceeded to consume as Much Information as possible about Welcome Home #Then Eddie stole my heart- #srry Howdy but have you looked at the mailman? #anywho! Thank You for letting me go off about the big bug man. #im gonna go eat leftovers and think about him <3 #dizztalkstoomuch #neon child #welcome home #howdy pillar #Pillar Family #<- bc i may talk more about them #omg i forgot to mention everyone's a butterfly but Howdy. #theres lore to that but i don't want to make this post longer. #if u want the details and lore just send another ask! I can give angsty lore! #please ignore every typo. I'm on mobile and fixing tags is horrendous

[vioislit]

get you a joyfire that is about the emotional vulnerability and the learning to open yourself up to other people even though you're scared of getting hurt and slowly realizing that they have your back and would do anything (including put themselves in uncomfortable positions) for you...

#fanon not canon n52 rhato #this is about my fanon ship first and foremost #joyfire #jason todd #roy harper #koriand'r #starfire #red hood #arsenal #jayroy #jaykori #koy #??? #anyways #they!!!! they're so very #taken verbatim from me screaming at luce about them so. yall are welcome

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

sharing is caring <3

#KISS THE MAILMAN!!!! #they are waiting their turns!!! #this is so fucking indulgent & niche asdjaskjcnaskclak #eddie gets all the love!!! #im such a giggly lil bitch about this im- #yall dont even know how bad it was when i was actually scribbling this. commit me to an asylum #its soooo Unserious and its soooooo Fun #eddie is the perfect size for them to Hold and Cherish #screaming crying wailing eating floor tiles!!! #ok somebody take me out back and shoot me The Voices Are Winning #scribble salad #what do i even tag this with??? DO i even tag it??? #lmao imagine i toss it into the welcome home tag #woe! laughingletterstock be upon ye!! #im spicing up the soup... at least i like to think that i am!!! #i create silly mindless stuff like this so that i can Think later #alrighty im gonna queue this for the morning #there's like. 3 people absolutely frothing at the mouth to see this so!!! #morning queue! i could post it Now but like. lmao #ive posted enough today.... gotta space it out a lil

[deoidesign]

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#vent #man I need to scream about this so bad... #so just like ignore the tags if you dont wanna see me venting about the abuse and ableism and biphobia my bf and i are facing #A year ago me and my bf moved out together #for reference we were 24 and 25 at the time and wed been dating 8 years #my bfs parents absolutely flipped out. like complete meltdown #his mom called me and yelled at me calling me all kinds of names and saying she thinks im manipulating her son #screaming at me and anything I said just made her get more mad #His dad also hid his keys so me and my sister had to drive him to work #she called my parents too to try and have them break us up #which just made my parents say my boyfriend is welcome to stay with us if he feels unsafe #which ive never heard them offer to someone so it was BAD bad #well we moved out anyways and my bf has been way happier and healthier since leaving his parents #well new year comes around and they call him and have this huge conversation about how theyve realized they were wrong #and how they want to apologize to me and how theyre proud of him and they think he did the right thing #well my bf finally agrees to talk to them again after a year of no contact so he and his mom go to lunch #and immediately his mom says actually no i dont want to apologize to deo #she's weird and her art is weird and I dont like her #and i think she's taking advantage of you because she cant drive #she insulted my family and said he should break up with me because I'm disabled #she said i have no right to draw gay people and that it's weird I write gay stories #just. incredibly mean. #and the worst bit is that she's abusing my bf like this in my name #saying she wouldnt be like this if i were different. a different girl or a different person or less 'weird' #its been horrible and I'm so tired. at least we're moving again so she wont know where we live #a year of this shit man #delete later #sorry to the people who already know about this I'm just really struggling with it and having a hard time moving past it

[zan-the-second]

"Let us both go to hell, hand in hand."

#heaven and hell: soul exchange #welcome to the latest piece of media that has consumed me #zan's webs #zan screams #Expect more thoughts about them #Anyways shout out to Hidaka for being the queerest motherfucker ever #Mf really just swapped bodies with a woman an instantly went 'ok time to wear make up keep my hair down wear dresses and bang Ayako's bf #DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HOW HE FUCKING RAN WHEN HE SAW THE LIGHTS OF THEIR APARTMENT OPEN MEANING RIKU CAME BACK #BITCH THE GLOW IN HIS EYES MF IS FALLING #As you can see I've been very normal about them #web weaving

[ralseinumberonebiggestsupporter]

society if people didn't delete ralsei from existence in their deltarune aus

#not tagging this im joking this isnt a big issue lol #but as a ralsei fan. why is he always being replaced by a cool new oc. can't there be two of them i'm sure you have space for him somewhere #either that or they make him a crazy evil murderer responsible for every bad thing that has happened in universe #or they make him a side character who shows up once in a while to give out knowledge #why does everyone hate my boy. everyone needs to make a ralsei centric au NOOOOWWWW!!!!! #this is why i keep posting about my own aus. i will be the change i want to see in the world #welcome back to me screaming

[roma107]

ooo i’d love a rec for something with bruce and dick, or damian and dick please!

i’ve been really trying to pick apart their dynamics <3

ooo dear you've definitely come to the right place. i was just going through my dick&dami tag

bruce and dick

count the stars by emavee He doesn’t know what to do. It’s not like he can stop the storm. If he could wave a magic wand and make the sky clear—or even if he could call up someone from his large contact list full of metas who could control the weather—he would. He would honestly disrupt Gotham’s weather patterns if it meant Dick would stop crying. Or: Dick doesn’t like thunderstorms, so Bruce takes him somewhere where they can’t touch him.

Recogitare by lapsedpacifist A stranger shows up in the Batcave, claiming to be one of Bruce’s adopted children and a hero in his own right. Bruce has never seen him before, so why are his other kids calling the intruder ‘Grayson’ and believing that this ‘Nightwing’ really exists?

a home not yet a home by Mayarene Rose (Paradise_of_Mary_Jane) Dick just likes climbing to the roof sometimes. He doesn’t mean anything by it. He doesn’t. He just needs to be high up sometimes. He likes looking at the stars. Stars are hard to come by in the city and you need to be high up to even see them properly. He misses the strong wind, the clear air. Gotham doesn’t have either of those, but he sometimes feel a gentle sea breeze when he stands on top of the manor’s roof at midnight. And he definitely doesn’t need Bruce Wayne going after him. Or trying to. Struggling to fit out of the window Dick climbed out of and potentially break his neck. He doesn't need Bruce Wayne pretending he’s going to break his neck to guilt Dick into going back inside.

by all means rome by dustorange “Does this mean you’ll be joining us on patrol tonight, Richard?” Dick smiled again, eyes crinkling at the edges. “Maybe even the rest of the weekend depending on how long the case goes.” He glanced at Bruce, hesitating. “Assuming that’s okay with you?” “Of course,” Bruce answered—so quickly he nearly interrupted Dick.

" Sometimes I Think He's The Only Thing I Ever Did Right." by GallentKnight Injured and drowning in the depths of Gotham Bay, Bruce reflects on his relationship with his eldest son.

Almost, Nearly by CKBookish Dick was just supposed to go with him to lunch. He wasn't supposed to get shot. He wasn't supposed to be bleeding out in the pouring rain on the steps of Wayne Enterprises. But then Bruce hadn't expected that sniper and he had seen it far to late.

damian and dick

Even in the Midst of Grief by Ellegrine Richard Grayson has never hurt Damian. It’s unforgivable that anyone should believe otherwise.

the city without stars in its skies by Alienu “Gotham is filthy,” Damian says flatly, honestly. “I understand now why Mother sent me here instead of coming herself.” Nightwing’s face is turned to the left, but the smile on his lips is audible. “It’s not all bad,” he says. Damian thinks of Grayson, and the too-sweet donut he had given him, and the Chinese restaurant with the nice Asian lady and the park and the stray cat that had crossed through the grass in the darkness. “No,” he admits grudgingly, “I suppose not.” (Or, in a world where he was never sent to live with his father, Damian al Ghul is contracted to assassinate one Dick Grayson.)

Statera by HuiLian Moments in time, where Damian discovered who Dick Grayson is

Paint Cans and Sneaking Out by Batshit_Bogs Shadowed corners were far more dangerous to Damian Wayne than to Robin, and he didn’t know what to expect as a civilian. A year and half later and he’s grown used to it. Now, the promise of anonymity on the streets is enough to make his steps lighter. The buildings no longer loom, they invite. The city is full of blank canvases ready for him to paint. - Damian has picked up a hobby that he's determined to keep a secret. It's a good thing he has friends to back him up.

The Colours Are Illusions by Laquilasse (laquilasse) Wake up.

Choices by cadkitten A drunk driver almost kills Dick and Damian's having a hard time not falling apart.

damian, bruce, and dick

I Hope You Will Understand by lapsedpacifist What if after that shitshow that was Bruce's return from the death there was the last, brief moment of co-existence between Dick, Damian, and Bruce before they separated again. Dick didn't want to leave Damian behind, Damian was not as excited to meet his father again as he wanted to be, and Bruce… and Bruce could never seem to say the right thing.

Do You Feel the Way My Past Aches? by fishfingersandjellybabies Bruce finds a wayward Damian asleep on his couch. Dick then find them both. An unexpected conversation ensues.

Handle with Care by takadainmate Dick is sick. Alfred isn't around. Bruce and Damian do their best.

dick and jay fic rec dick and steph fic rec dick and tim fic rec

#i just realised you said you want *a* rec not all of that but oh well #i hope you don't mind #you should totally check all of the mentioned author's other works #a couple of masterpieces really #i have so many more recs if you liked those #and you are totally welcome to come and scream with me about any of them #you'll find more in my bookmarks on ao3 if you want to search by yourself #dick grayson #damian wayne #bruce wayne #fic rec #mine #mind the tags in all of them #just in case

[nightingalesighs]

What really pisses me off when people are like. No child should be friends with an adult; it’s (insert word/phrase that has been misused so much it’s kinda ceased to have meaning to me anymore) is… My older friends? Even though I’m 28 and yknow. An Adult. Have literally saved my life. Like not only do they have more knowledge about how things work (like Medicaid and food stamps and student loans and resumes and and and all the other shit nobody bothers to teach you and can be hella confusing/nearly inaccessible unless you Know but is hella important/can really fuck up your life if you’re not careful) and like…more experience so when they tell you “it’s gonna be hard, but you can handle it” or “I know it looks scary, but it’s not that bad and I promise you’ll get through it” or “it doesn’t matter if don’t graduate college, look at me. I didn’t. I’ve got a stable, well paying job. It’s not impossible to be comfortable without a college degree. And look at (other friend who is sitting right next to them), they worked their ass off for a double degree and currently not using it! You’ll be okay, you’ll figure it out.” your brain can actually believe them cuz yknow. They’ve been where you are. They have that life experience. And they’re not gonna lie to you because they love you and respect you too much to do that.

Like I don’t want to make it sound like friendship is a commodity, but older friends and intergenerational friendships can be so extremely valuable, especially to vulnerable younger people in abusive households. And I don’t even mean like in that they can offer you a place to crash cuz not every friend is gonna be able to do that and that’s OKAY. But maybe they can still help you in other ways. Even if it’s “just” holding your hand and validating your fears while you cry your eyes out but reassuring you that they believe in your ability to work through it. They believe in *you*. (And yes, I REALLY appreciate the same sentiment from friends my age and it’s also extremely helpful and I love them so very much. But it just sorta hits in a different way coming from an older friend. Not in a way that’s better or worse. Just different.)

Also something something seeing that you have a future when you can’t see past the next year or six months is just. So fucking reassuring.

Also. Older friends are just plain fun. I love my older friends and my life would be so much poorer without them. So yknow. Fuck people that condemn intergenerational friendships.

Also also something something something ‘fuck you for making me feel terrible/paranoid about wanting to offer my own experience to those younger than me. To help them in any way I can. As another fantastic and dearly beloved friend says. “If you start sounding like my mental illness, YOU are the problem and maybe need to re-evaluate some things.”’

#ignore me #im just all up in my feels about that time my friend twisted around from the passenger seat of the car to hold my hand and comfort me while #I was crying and terrified about the upcoming semester. that said it IS actually not good that you’re having panic attacks and chest pains #just thinking about going back. and was so kind and understanding and calm and she listened and held my hand. or the other friend who grew #up with little financial security. worked two jobs to pay her college tuition because her parents just didn’t have the means to help her. #and now she’s married to a surgeon and EXTREMELY financially secure and because of her own experience she is just soooo. im gonna pay for #your dinner because I can and it won’t affect me or stress me at all and I want you to save your money. and if you need money for some #reason just let me know and we’ll figure it out because I have the means to help in this way and I’m gonna do it dammit and if you need to #or the friend that sincerely told me to call her if I needed someone to talk to. even if it’s the ass crack of dawn or 3 in the morning. #or my friend (my Person) who when I asked if it was okay to tell my cousin her address while visiting her so my cousin could pick me for #dinner. said ‘of course you can. this is your home too’ (home as in your safe here and home as in you are loved here and home as in you will #always be welcome here.) #like…just. intergenerational friendships guys #they are literally lifesaving #don’t deny young people these friendships #but as someone who has also been the Older Friend #don’t make them feel bad for just loving and caring about another human being #that’s what we do. that’s what humanity is #i scream into the void #personal

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please tell me you've all read FletcherHonorama's A Story Is True / A Story Is Untrue?

I fully intend to write a proper review when i have finished this time (doing my third read to actually leave real comments on each chapter, and as a sort of bookclub with @granturn who is reading it for the first time)

But it's just... it's the perfect post-canon story for me? The show itself is sooo good i mostly don't have any interest in fic for it, but i did briefly hunt around for some as bedtime stories before i finished watching the series for the first time. It stood out for its romance at the time, but it has held up on post-series re-reads as a powerful look into what is, for me, Black Sails' most compelling thesis: that comfort and security are often gained at the cost of liberty, or that the struggle for freedom often demands suffering.

I really can't emphasize how well the author has captured the voice of both the show and of th characters that are included in the fic, and because of the choice to use thomas hamilton as the POV character, the author is able to work in a lot of high minded philosophizing that is both in-character and serving a narrative purpose, and that speaks through the fourth wall to the reader.

But what really hits home for me, that fills the small hole in what i wanted from the show, is that even as it acknowledges, as the show did, that freedom often requires sacrifice, it always comes down on the answer that freedom is always worth sacrifice.

#Anarchist™️ #black sails #black sails fic #in a response to one of my comments the author said they're not an but that im welcome to have my own take on it #and lawd is it an anarchist fic #if anyone reads it because of this post and likes it please DM me to scream about it or something #for anyone worried about the flint/hamilton of it all the relationship isn't about trying to turn them back into their london selves #and the author does a very good job reckoning with the ways that thomas' incarceration might have changed him #it's not trying to gas up thomas hamilton