#WHICH LED TO HER DEATH

[heavyhandedhex]

“i know you would forgive me because you’re so nice to me all the time!”

#im so so crazy about them actually #its not that lizzie WANTS to hurt joel #its just she knows joel would understand her #and joel knows lizzie didnt want to hurt him #theyre both so devoted to each other despite not being official allies #AND LIZZIE WAS READY TO KILL SCOTT FOR HIM IN THE END #WHICH LED TO HER DEATH #RGHHHAGHGHGHSKDKDK BITES THE CHAIR BITES YOU #jizzie #smallishbeans #ldshadowlady #secret life #trafficblr #life series

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: An animatic of Stephanie Brown as Robin set to Tears over Beers by modern baseball. The images are paired with the lyrics. Stephanie as spoiler staring longingly at Bruce, Tim and Cass on a rooftop is paired with "he needed more than me". A compilation of sketches of Steph as robin go with "im friendly and thoughtful and quite awfully pretty". Finally a redraw of Steph's firing as Robin is paired with "but he needed more than me". End ID]

been trying to finish a comic for. Weeks now (just been hitting a lot blocks) and quickly threw this together as a break from it! Do you guys ever think about Stephanie Brown…

#dc comics #stephanie brown #robin #batfamily #read the first issue of her run in the main robin book recently after mostly knowing it via her appearance as robin in the batgirl title #and via snippets of other issues #oughhh bill willingham when i fucking catch you #SHE WAS SO EAGER. THEY LEAVE IT UP TO THR AUDIENCE AS TO WHY BUT SHE WAS SO EAGER #ROBIN WAS JUST HER CONSOLATION PRIZE AND EVEN THEN IT WAS TAINTED BY BRUCES MISTRUST #WHICH ULTIMATELY LED TO HER DEATH #AUGH. THROWING UP EVERYWHERE #^ willingham gets not credit for that as far as im concerned they did not give a rats ass about steph in her robin arc #christ…it makes me wanna read early era timsteph or bg!era steph to just #heal for a minute. I mean those eras are complex in and of themselves w their own pros and cons (i mean i like both tho) #But they dont hurt as much as her robin era knowing whats to come… #sidenote i often see ppl praise the way stephs temper is portrayed in her robin era and while its nice to see her anger factor in #considering its like. A less consistent character trait in the modern era? Its there tho in bits and drabs #im just very cynical of it in her robin era knowing that they’re (partially) using it to set up why shes a doomed robin. Complex feelings #mine

[good-beanswrites]

If it's okay with you, could you write a drabble about the hypothetical aftermath of Amane getting attacked by Kotoko?

Welp thank you pal for making me absolutely insane with this request 👍 I ran through a few hypotheticals and realized I had to shift some things around since there were so many absolutely tragic outcomes. I worked something out but damn if it didn’t make me emotional to think about how uniquely rough Amane has it. Even making sure she's in a good place at the end, this got pretty serious, so warnings for child abuse and cult references. 

(So in canon, Kotoko goes in order and attacks Fuuta, but Kazui steps in. Then she attacks Mahiru while he’s distracted with his injuries. She’s about to attack Amane, but Mikoto gets in the way (my hc that he did it on purpose survives!). By the time they reach a draw, Kazui is back, and the two of them can prevent Kotoko from any further action against Amane. Sticking to this apparent system of three attacks and one rescue, I’m just shuffling around the injuries for this story. Fuuta’s attack went unnoticed, and he’s in the same state as canon Mahiru. Mikoto steps in before Kotoko can fight Mahiru, so Mappi’s the one who get out physically unscathed. While Mikoto checks on Mahiru, recovers himself, or discovers Fuuta, Kotoko is able to attack Amane next. Kazui comes to help, but not before she leaves Amane looking like canon Fuuta.)

Mahiru could practically feel her heart shatter into a million pieces when Amane finally cried in front of her. She hadn’t shed a single tear yesterday – it was the shock, Shidou said. Mahiru was skeptical. After all, she had been shocked, too, and cried plenty.

Amane woke as she came in with breakfast. She took a moment to survey herself, bandages peeking out from beneath her pajamas and an eyepatch securely over her right eye. As calmly as one might say “good morning,” she started to cry. Mahiru might have missed it, if Amane hadn’t wiped at her good eye with her sleeve.

“Oh, sweetheart…!” Mahiru rushed over to her. “It’s okay, I’m here.” She wanted nothing more than to wrap the girl in a secure embrace, but she remembered the mass of bandages that were around her chest. Shidou had mentioned broken ribs and bruises. It took everything in her not to cry along with Amane, at the thought.

“I can get you another ice pack, if you need. Or more medicine.” Her mind spun with ways to help with pain. Many of the first aid supplies had been used to keep Fuuta from the brink of death, but surely there were extras to spare for Amane. 

The girl just shook her head. 

She muttered, “I can’t… I…I’m going to be punished, I’m going to be punished…”

“No! You’re safe now.” Mahiru placed her hands gently on Amane’s arms. “Kotoko’s not coming back. We’re all watching over you. You’re safe. She’s not going to hurt you anymore.” 

“That’s not…” Amane pulled away. Her voice stayed level, despite hiccups interrupting her. A hand reached up to her eyepatch. “It’s this. It’s all of this. It’s sinful. I took it off last night, but he must have…” She started unwrapping it. “They’re going to punish me...” 

With a careful motion, Mahiru held it in place and took Amane’s hands into her own. She’d been picking up on the signs ever since they arrived here together, and a final wave of understanding washed over her. 

“I can’t let you do that.”

Amane’s expression twisted, though words came out far more frantic than fiery. “Let me go.” 

Mahiru didn’t. “I’m sorry. Amane, you need this treatment.”

“That is not your decision to make. That is not any human’s decision to make.”

Mahiru pressed her lips together. “I know. But I can’t watch as you… I can’t sit by again while someone…” She was careful not to apply any pressure, but she could no longer fight the urge to gather Amane up in her arms. “You don’t need to be afraid of those people, anymore.”

“I’m not afraid.” Amane hiccuped. “They love me, and I love them. I need to be good for them.”

“I love you, and I don’t want to see you in pain.”

“You just pity me because I’m young.”

“Why does your age matter? You are a lovely young woman – you are my friend – and I can’t bear to see you in pain.”

The two sat in silence for a moment. Mahiru doubted she would take that as an answer; Amane had refused to call any of the others her friend. At least she didn’t argue. In fact, it seemed she was leaning into the embrace a bit more. She sighed a shaky breath into Mahiru’s uniform.

“Listen, Amane. Can you do me a favor? I’m trying to be a good girl, too. To make up for something awful, I need to make sure you’re alright. Can you help me? Can we be good together?”

A long pause followed. Amane’s voice spoke up, ever so gently.

“I suppose I can consider it.” She added quickly, “for the sake of your redemption. Of course.”

“Of course.”

#milgram #amane momose #mahiru shiina #thank you so much! i dont want to be bubbly on such a serious drabble but i want to give an enthusiastic thanks because this one really got #the gears turning!! #i started making plans as soon as i saw the ask and it took so long finding something that wouldnt result in straight up tragedy :( #if i kept to the initial timeline and said kazui didnt step in until amanes attack then both fuuta and mahiru would be close to death #and given there seems to limited supplies i think one of them would have died if shidou needed to treat three critical patients #so i moved people around to make sure everyone survived #which brought me to the main problem of amane self sabotaging her medical care #even minor injuries could have resulted in death if she got her way and removed bandages/refused treatment #but the mental strain of keeping the treatment would be just as bad as the physical pain -- shed be paranoid 24/7 of #divine punishment and repeating the mistakes that led her here.... it would hurt more to be forced like that #so i needed someone to be able to get through to her gently #but the only one who shes been able to trust just got the shit beat out of him and is in no position to talk!!!! #everyone else would just make her more upset or not know how to convince her the right way :( #still - i think mahiru could do it the best! with her own trauma from allowing loved ones to die in front of her i think shed be motivated #so. yeah. #i know amane is supposed to be talking in the plural pronoun now but i couldnt get it to work - lets just say that kicks in soon after this #tw cults #tw child abuse #drabbles

[dangoarts]

unfortunately for everyone especially myself i am still thinking about minecraft story mode

#long rant in tags up ahead oops #I AM. NORMALLY UPSET ABOUT ELLEGAARD'S DEATH. #i feel so cringe screaming about the show that gave me so much psychic damage but liek #ellegaard was an influential character that led a whole city #you'd. you'd think there'd be a memorial service. #or like jesse would be more visibly upset and emotionally damaged over witnessing her death and indirectly being the cause of her death #but no #the best thing we got was a brief scene of them going 'oh no she died! :( anyway the wither survivors tho' #i get that they're good guys n all and they were probably like 'i'm devastated by this but i need to pocket that to process later to get- #-these people to safety' but COME ON #justice for ellegaard #the playthrough i watched had ellegaard die if you didn't figure it out through this ramble #i probably would've been as attached to magnus as i was to ellegaard if i saw his arc at boom town but the playthrough chose redstone land #which like yeah samesies #ANYWAY. MAIN TAG TIME SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE IN TAGS (not sorry) #mcsm #minecraft story mode #AND THE FACT THAT THE PIG GOT MORE OF A MEMORIAL THAN HER REALLY RUBBED SALT IN THE WOUND FOR ME #sorry reuben fans i didn't care for him at all #yes this is a kids show meant for 10 year olds yes i'm overanalyzing it what else am i supposed to do on a monday #if i ever make a fix it rewrite story you have full legal permission to ban my tumblr account /j /silly #blood tw #tw blood

[thunderboltfire]

Poor battering ram of a woman, how come you've chosen so badly who to follow?

#WIP #My first association was a large predator #bc a barbarian #but you know what #she has ram horn(s) #and I actually love the symbolism of her being a sheep #barbs rush headfirst into battle without a second thought and rely on the toughness of their body to tank damage #exactly like a ram would crash into anything with his head #Karlach's fault that led into her falling into servitude was her naivety #she followed wrong people blindly not knowing that they're going to sell her like livestock #also she's got so much devilish accents in her looks that depicting her as a sheep feels like flipping the script #and reflects more of what she really is - someone who lost her way and it cost her - than how she looks like #(also yeah I changed her pupils. Slit ones didn't truly fit here) #anthro #if You remember the ancient times I made anthro characters from Paladins yk I've got a long tradition of associating tanks with herbivores #which is coincidentally why I know that there are breeds of sheep in which ewes also have horns #she actually has a threatening grin on her face in the full picture but I like that if I crop it like this it looks like a death glare

[plantanarchy]

This is Margarita, she is a several day old white crested blue polish hen, and she has had some chicken butt issues but is looking better this afternoon!

#she had pasty butt when i got her and was inflamed when i cleaned her up #which led to pecky attention the other chicks and some inflamation but it's gone down! #baby birds come out just one part stupid and one part evil #they will peck peck peck anything to death trying to figure out if its food #margarita #i named her even though i said i wouldnt because she was stressed yesterday

[thefirstknife]

Spoiler question but do you think you know who from this week's quest will become a you know what?

Will Amanda become a Guardian, I assume!

I don't think so. I don't think it would serve any purpose. Her story came to an end; we learned all we needed to learn about her and she went out the way she lived and for what she believed in. There's also nothing really pointing to her being that relevant to bring back. Like, purely from a technical standpoint; they removed her as a vendor and gave her a send-off, complete with her entire backstory. Making her a Guardian would just be making a new character with her model, but new. I can't see them doing that.

One thing that I also feel like people are forgetting, somehow, is that if she becomes a Guardian, she will not be Amanda. Like, that will be a new character. Nothing she's done before will matter. Crow and Savathun were exceptions central to the story to go forward so they had exceptional stories where they got their memories back. Amanda simply is not. She died and even if she becomes a Guardian, there's no more Amanda. It would be a blank slate. No matter what, all of her conflicts and relationships are over.

I just don't think we need a blank slate New Light Guardian right now or that Bungie would keep her in the game like this currently. I think this season was centered on wrapping up stuff about her, giving her a full scope of the backstory and basically letting us say goodbye. It does not read like a setup for a new Guardian.

Obviously, Bungie could have something extraordinary planned out that we can't possibly guess and that would make Amanda returning as a Guardian really compelling. Who knows! Maybe this is something that will happen down the line. As in, after this saga ends and some new story in the setting begins!

But right now? Until the saga ends? I just do not think Amanda as a Guardian is a storyline that needs to be told while we're scrambling to wrap up loose ends before The Final Shape. She was a human face to the war and a victim of it, something to remind us about our mortality and the fact that we're not invincible. Despite Guardians and all our powers, we are fighting for people who are mortal and fragile and those people also have the right to defend their home. Amanda took that very seriously and helped a lot of people, but ultimately at the cost of her own life.

Bringing her back could offer some potential stories, absolutely, depending on how you want to take things in the future. But overall, I just think it's not likely for her to be planned to return as a Guardian, at least not within the scope of the current story. Of course we can't really know what's in store, but from what we do know (lore-wise and meta-wise), the likelihood of this happening is very low.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of defiance #season of defiance spoilers #amanda #ask #mostly it's like. they were able to write out a character and focus on the remaining stories. by bringing amanda as a guardian back... #they would just have to ADD a completely new character. which defeats the purpose of writing her out #I highly doubt they're looking to write a new light that will have to be included in the current plots #if anything. she might be rezed on the side and be a random guardian nobody knows about #i just don't think amanda was important enough to get that focus on her that rivals characters like crow and savathun #i've seen people saying that we can just give her the memories back and like. hello? that is incredibly cruel #guardian amanda would be a new person. forcing her to be what she was before is explicitly stated to be bad by the narrative #after crow's struggling and savathun's mistakes and clinging to what she was before which led her to her death... yeah. #'just give her the memories back!' you are the baddies #and without memories she's not amanda so idk what would be the point of a new light character with her model (but reworked)

[blimbo-buddy]

The difference in treatment between Tom vs SparkPelt by the authors should be a dead giveaway that The Erins fucking suck

#blimbo rambles #on one hand you got a guy who abused two women+kidnapped his ex's kids which led to her death #and on the other hand you got a lady with ppd who watched her husband die+have one of her babies die at birth #PLUS get mauled by dogs+exiled afterwards+have her son suddenly hate her for 'abandoning' him- #-even though he never joined her in exile while his sister went with her #So with those two in mind: Who do you think the authors actively demonize

[whorejolras]

yes there should be more valvert old man yaoi fics but also im a radicalised drug using queer hooker so am i gonna write about young gay revolutionaries or a cop?

#a cop who's criminalisation of a sex worker led to her death so yk #yes he's a gay cop #but still #he is the best cop to me tho bc he killed himself which is so true and real if him #that is the best solution to that problem #also 'i don't like e/r or les amis' at all? at all? #u don't like the lil revolution bois? #u dont oh idk identify with them about the state of the world #les mis #les miserables #write the old man yaoi u want to see in this world #BE the old man yaoi u want to see in this world

[stevenose]

loving cowboys is generational in my family. finally ready to embrace it in this one extremely specific circumstance

#this is gonna sound fucked up considering what i’m writing here but hear me out! #my grandma (her death anniversary was 3 days ago) LOVED cowboys. used to share cowboy stories w me when i was a kid #which led to me writing and telling my own little cowboy stories when i was younger #now yes my attraction for this random character has brought me back to cowboys but i’ve been rly getting back into + #the … aesthetic of it? been reading cowboy poems and stories lately and idk SO WEIRD considering this context but it’s made me feel close+ #to her. SPECIFICALLY in regards to my rediscovered love of cowboys and their lore #not. the p*rn. lmao #stevenose posts #also my mom wanted to fuck john wayne. so

[autism-criminal]

my dumbass when I finally realize that Rue was the mockingjay all along

#because #because her death is what started all of this #her death caused the riots in district 11 #which led to . all of it . #crazy ….. #anyway I’m sure this has been said a million times before

[amtrak12]

The idea that a god-like character with (supposedly) unlimited powers should snap their fingers at the end of a TV series and remove all pain and terrible things in the world so humans no longer had any suffering is the most BAFFLING thing I have ever heard. WHY DID THE SHOW EVER EXIST IF FIXING THINGS WAS THAT EASY??????

#It seems like this 'gotcha' card that overrides any argument someone could have #but it's actually the laziest zero thought behind it belief I have ever seen #And it complete ignores the function and structure of a story #Holy shit #Like... that's literally Adam and Eve before Eve ate the apple #That kind of utopia is literally in the Bible and in general is considered bad #It was certainly painted as bad in the show! Because Eve gave us free will and choice and the opportunity to self-determine who we are #And that's good! That's considered better than the Garden of Eden! #And yes choices have led to the godawful structures in place on Earth today and all the godawful death and suffering that goes with it #BUT THIS STUPID LITTLE TV SHOW ABOUT THE DEVIL WASN'T SPEAKING ABOUT ALL THE EVILS IN THE WORLD!!! #It was talking about how you always have a choice to do better! That everyone can be redeemed! #It's a much MUCH narrower scope because that's what story does! It picks one thing and speaks to it #And sometimes that thing is indeed Wow modern capitalism has completely fucked the world like The Good Place showed #But even The Good Place didn't use the Judge to snap her fingers and change Earth #She could have! She certainly had the power too! #But no instead they argued against wiping out the entire Earth and starting over in favor of revamping the afterlife instead #to allow people a second chance and support to do better #Which is EXACTLY where Lucifer ended up too with the titular character playing therapist in Hell #That is a strong ending! That is a hopeful ending! Because it's speaking to the audience as individuals and saying you have a choice #You always have a choice to do better. No mistake you make is too irredeemable so don't let yourself drown guilt #because guilt fixes nothing. Only your choice to try again can change things #God snapping their fingers and rewriting Earth is not a hopeful; realistic; or satisfying ending to a 6 season show about free will! #It makes no sense! #like jfc I don't want to drag one singular person through the mud but their opinions are just so mind-boggingly to me #It's like beating my head against the wall

[jennycalendar]

actually yeah maybe i am thinking about the fact that buffy absolutely perpetually holds herself completely responsible for jenny’s death and in particular the fact that giles literally never loves again in canon. to the point where i feel like it almost definitely colors how willing she is to forgive him when he pulls genuinely fucked up shit, because obviously she has no ground to stand on here when it comes to calling him out. because she iced ms. calendar out and now ms. calendar is dead and she had to hold her completely insensible and clearly suicidal watcher after he found that out.

#meta #like -- absolutely everyone in the periphery of jenny's death blames themselves for it i think #which while understandable is a little deranged because jenny made all of the choices that led TO her death #and i don't think she would have ever actually expected giles or buffy to blame themselves #girl knows she's got no common sense. that's part of the problem

[oatbugs]

thinking abt that psychology lecture where they taught us how thinking about good memories makes your life obiectively better over time

#personal #i think i subconsciously equated memory and nostalgia. and i dislike the feeling of nostalgia so i avoided so many memories #i asked the masters student if every love song he listens to is about philosophy and he said everything is #everything is about the thing you love if you love it enough. i saw a star through the london light pollution (caught in an eternal nightly #daylight) . i was with a friend and another friend who had just gotten an unexpected diagnosis #we told her congratulations you're autistic and that means you may now explore a revolutionary depth #inside yourself. and it was all still about philosophy. (you sent us back a letter in said in capital letters #THE UNIVERSE IS GOING TO CATCH YOU.) one day i grabbed my friends arm and we jumped over a rusted metal fence #the soap-beaten bleach-eaten clothes i was wearing at the time still smell like rust and metal #for a brief moment i sympathise with the rusted case of a computer i saw when i was 5. i wondered if it had died #violently. i am spending my life protecting their ability to learn. and each time i ask a neural network what led to its choice of #planetary object it gives me the same blank stare of a young child which is in truth a black box to drown in. #when i was too young and i used to think of death too often i imagined my body was a machine. i imagined #liquid gold around my joints. i could never hurt a machine. i could never hurt a body that was a machine. #my neuroscience professor paused after a long lecture and told us #your body is not a computer，it is a flawed and gooey and imprecise mechanism. your nervous sytem is an intricate machine. #is every song about philosophy? is every song about the way machines learn? on the weekend i ignore the parts of him that have #rotted and pull the passion right out of his nerves. he told me he needs a way to kickstart critical periods so that he may learn well agai #and i told him taking every drug on the planet wont make a clever brain cleverer. he confessed he didnt plan #on making it far enough for it to matter. i checked his pulse and i told him that his body is a liquid imprecise delicate machine. #sometimes you become terrible but you are not an exception to being a winged thing. if you hold me you will smell like metal for the rest #of your life.

[dreamertrilogys]

the raven cycle wiki / harrow the ninth

#THE WAY HARROW FOUND HER TOMB AT 9 WHICH LED TO THE DEATH OF HER PARENTS AND THEN IN ORDER TO MEET THE GIRL IN HER TOMB (WHO SHE’S IN LOVE #WITH) SHE TRIES TO BECOME IMMORTAL AT 17 WHILE GANSEY DIES AT 10 AND SPENDS THE NEXT FEW YEARS OF HIS LIFE TRYING TO FIND HIS TOMB AND WHEN #HE DOES FIND IT AT 17 HE FINDS IT EMPTY AND HE SORT OF WANTS TO LIVE AND THEN HE DIES AND IS REBORN AGAIN. GOD #this makes sense to me like in my head i think #.txt #htn lb #liveblogging #the locked tomb #trc #harrowhark nonagesimus #tlt/trc

[the-plothole-court]

allison *holding up a piece of paper*: in my hand lies the truth of whether or not wymack and abby are doing it.

allison: wymack wrote the answer down himself and gave me “permission” to do what i’d like with it. i’ve obviously decided to auction it off so, let’s hear some offers.

matt: i’ll let you style my hair in any way you want.

nicky: massage. allison i will give you a full-body massage.

allison: nicky going in the wrong direction and getting himself disqualified! interesting approach.

allison: crazy-hair matt going once, going twice…

aaron: i’ll show you a picture of me in high school. two words: emo phase.

allison: ooo aaron coming in hot!

matt: i’ll also give you full control over my wardrobe.

kevin: i’ll go on a date with you.

allison: SOLD!

allison: to matt, not kevin. that offer really freaked me out and i just want this to end now.

#wymack was already having a bad day but allison driving over to his apartment solely to ask if he and abby were a thing didn’t help #and when wymack looked up to find andrew sitting on top of his fridge looking like he’d broken in and been there for hours #he just grabbed the nearest pen and ripped a piece of paper and wrote one word before handing it to allison with a loving death stare #which then led to the auction #where allison stood in the lounge and made all the foxes sit down in front of her #she was intrigued by the idea of seeing aaron in all black with a terrible haircut and multiple piercings #but as someone majoring in fashion design she knew that matt was the obvious choice #also #allison will never miss out on a chance to crush kevin’s ego and let him know just how repulsive she finds him #or to remind nicky that not everyone wants to be within arms reach of him #aftg #all for the game