#aka pain

[fivekrystalpetals]

this story doesn't exist for me beyond this point in Retrace 92:

everyone is back home safe, the world is saved and they have another tea party, The End!

#friendship ended with ph #bsd s4 is my new best friend #pandora hearts #may-reads-ph #retrace xcii #aka pain #[EVERYONE READ PANDORA HEARTS AND FALL DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE OF ANGST WITH ME] #i am crying #for real i am crying #this is cathartic #i have never had a good cry in a looong time so oh well #i will read the rest of 10+ chapters later ig #deciding to read these last arcs altogether in one shot was a mistake #maybe some day i will make more coherent posts bc this story has truly plenty to write about #an incredibly beautiful and deep story will forever be on my mind #update: i made this post the other day when i finished till this point i don't have it in me to continue further lmao ;-; #i made a lot of screaming drafts while reading idk what to do with them #i think i will clear out the drafts and post them altogether maybe this weekend #so please block may-reads-ph tag if you don't want to be flooded #def not today bc waiting for another clown to be animated

[lesbianralzarek]

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw

#i originally posted this as just a 'hey remember how fuckin bad middle/highschool was? shit was wild' type post but now #there are a bunch of teens in the notes being like 'oh my god are you serious? it gets better? im not stuck in hell forever??' #and im reminded that the only people who told teenage ella 'it gets better' were speakers at mental health assemblies #aka the least relatable people alive who were seemingly born to lie to you #so. uh. yeah im a certified adult who isnt here to lie or sugarcoat the realities of being a teenager #the only thing more certain than the pain is the transcience

[bluemojave]

if your ship tag is a Mitski lyric just know i’m scrolling through it and crying

#it gives context to a relationship yk #aka pain #my post

[armageddidnt]

Welcome to My Collection of Random Thoughts during my nth* rewatch of Good Omens Season 2

*only amazon prime knows the exact number at this point but I’m fairly certain it’s in the double digits

Episode 1: Gabriel’s fly lurking in the box when Aziraphale first takes it inside 👀

Crowley’s promise of “two minutes” basically means that he’s been homeless and living in his car for the past 4 years strictly so that he can be within 2 driving minutes of Aziraphale at all times in case his angel needs him I’m not crying you are

So here I think the key word is “fragile,” Crowley knows they are ostensibly safe from their respective sides but that could change at any moment so he’s basically spent the last 4 years in anxiety-ridden terror hovering as close to Aziraphale as he can to try and protect him from heaven, hell, and anyone else that would want to bring him harm after all that business they pulled in season 1 with stopping Armageddon

Episode 2: I just happened to pause the episode while Aziraphale is lying to the angels about his miracle and LOL Michael really outdid himself here (Sheen, not the Archangel)

Gabriel trying to swat flies and almost smashing the repository of every single one of his memories

I’m cAckling

So if Good Omens exists in Good Omens, does that mean Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett exist in Good Omens?? Do you think they based their Aziraphale and Crowley characters on Aziraphale and Crowley??

Episode 3: So I’m trying to find any hints or foreshadowing of the Gabriel Beelzebub thing bc tbh I did kind of feel like it came out of nowhere which is really the only issue I have with them. I found this one scene where Beelzebub almost ?? seems to be concerned about Gabriel ?? But it’s blink and you miss it and there could be lots of other reasons why Beelzebub doesn’t want to fail in locating Gabriel (pressure from/leverage over heaven, etc) so idk

More Foreshadowing Fly content 🪰

Episode 4: So here we’ve seen that Shax can just appear inside the Bentley bc she did it earlier to talk to Crowley. Shax only pretended to be a hitchhiker so she could be invited in because Azirpahale was driving so technically she needed permission to cross the threshold of an angel 👀

This scene will never not destroy me the 1941 flashback is the absolute sOFTEST thing ever to happen on this show

We really need more context here I need to see the Crowley-Furfur Monkey Rides

Episode 5: ahahaha thank you google translate for absolutely destroying my sanity this evening

POP goes the Ziraphale

Okay I know you can’t hear it in the gif but just before Nina takes Maggie’s hand, there’s a very quiet miracle noise, like Azirpahale literally MADE Nina dance with Maggie, he said I’m writing a Mina Jane-Austen-Ball-AU and my otp will KISS godDAMMIT

Azirpahale seems lowkey kind of manic this whole scene tho, he’s controlling literally everyone to force Nina and Maggie together and whenever Crowley says anything that pokes holes in Aziraphale’s Magical Jane Austen Ball Fairytale, Aziraphale just straight up denies it. He wants Nina and Maggie to dance and he wants him and Crowley to dance and he refuses to acknowledge anything beyond that.

Is this just Shax insulting Crowley for how much of a nuisance he’s been or a reference to his former status as an angel ???

They’re both completely dismissive of each other when they’re trying to say something important and that’s the main issue they’ve been having this entire season tbh

Episode 6: I think it’s funny that Crowley describes the angels as bees here because in the book, Neil/Terry describe humans the same way. Guess we have more in common than we thought huh?

So the metatron was the one who originally decided Gabriel would be memory wiped and not sent to hell, and he was also the one that decided not to sound an alarm about Gabriel for some reason and said ‘just go find him yourself’ instead. The metatron has definitely got his own agenda and you can bet he doesn’t want Aziraphale up there in heaven because he’s a “leader” and he’s “honest” like that’s exactly what Gabriel was and look where it got him 👀

There’s just something I can’t quite put my finger on about the metatron bringing Aziraphale a coffee from “give me coffee or give me death” and then asking Aziraphale if he’s going to take the coffee he’s giving him…

I have not seen a single person talk about this since s2 came out but Nina literally calls Maggie “angel” because that’s the term of endearment they hear Crowley using for Aziraphale !!!! I’m still going fERAL over this and I can’t believe no one else is eitHER

Something about this part of The Final Fifteen compared to this scene from the first episode is so representative of the entire season. Azirpahale keeps saying “my way or get out” and Crowley finally hits a wall and can follow Aziraphale no further. So he does just that. He goes.

I’m sure a lot of us by now have seen this post that brings up how Aziraphale literally pushes the remains of Crowley into his mouth and swallows and it’s the only thing I see when I watch this now

We still don’t know for certain if Crowley queued up this song to play on their way to the Ritz or if the Bentley started playing it all on its own and it’s driving me insane

Basically how I am doing after my Truly-Alarming-Number-th watch of this traumatizing episode/season. WELP hope you enjoyed this garbage dump of my thoughts and feelings time to go cry for a bit again BYE

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #my season 2 rewatch aka: I Went Insane #i am unwell #I haven't slept properly in 44 days and counting #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #angel #demon #armageddidnt-blog #armageddidnt-gifset #armageddidnt-screaming #armageddidnt-pain #good omens 2x06

[petricorah]

zuko alone pt 2

lovingly inspired by this [ids in alt]

#zuko #sokka #zukka #zukka fanart #myart #sokka leaving aka the light in zukos life leaving #i imagine this is right before a confession but something happens and sokka decides to go home permanently and they both can't say how they #feel even though it's almost understood because it's too painful #when i first drafted this sokka's hair wasn't nearly as long but then i got carried away because of canon long haired sokka #after i drafted this i actually came up with a longer form one that's more faithful to the inspiration so maybe i'll do that someday. #where they're actually dating already but the love just. isn't enough for their duty #drawing sokka without his necklace is weird. like he's nakey #sokka fanart #atla fanart #atla #avatar the last airbender #can this be divorced zukka if they were never together? tagging anyway in case people have angst blocked #divorced zukka

[taddymason]

And way down we go

#just thinking. about Jay not even wanting to get his memories back. Bc he knows there are painful things he'd rather not remember. #(aka Skybound/Seabound) #Ninjago #jay ninjago #jay walker #ninjago fanart #ninjago dragons rising #ninjago oc #dad jay au #kaida walker #ninjago jay #ninjago nya #nya ninjago #nya jiang #Kaida don't ask your father these questions he already has enough trauma #This happens when I have too much free time

[somecunttookmyurl]

if doctors looked for hypermobility in children you could give them appropriate physical therapy exercises from a young age as their muscles grow, orthotics to correct leg/foot placement, and where necessary additional support like professional k-tape application or other mobility aids before you obtain essentially permanent overtraining injuries from your poor muscles trying their best to stop you comedically collapsing into a pile of bones

but no it's just growing pains. kids don't have things wrong. it'll go away

#i'm also bitter because i have tibial tosion (my tibias grew rotated instead of straight) #this makes my feet point inwards aka pigeon toe #and because kids don't have pain. or whatever. nobody even FUCKING noticed untl i was 17 #if anybody bothered before i could have had orthotics that wouod have gradually eased my bones back into the correct position #while they were still malleable #by 17 it was too late for that and the only option would have been breaking my legs #twisting them #and putting them back with a plate in the middle #and then re-learning how to walk #i did not do that

[hellomayu]

..but this is a dream, isnt it?

#when dreams feel too real but you're aware you're in it #gojo could only ever wake up disheartened #and i bet he gets dreams way more vivid bc of his heightened senses #aka more pain yay #stsg angst fr #jujutsu kaisen #satosugu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #stsg #jjk

[insomnya777]

boat boys coded

#....does this make sense #it does in my head #lovers lane. dead end. #aka double life #they know it won't lead anywhere #in the long run it will only end in pain #whether it ends in a screaming match or just one too many empty promises — it doesn't matter. it still ends either way #and that's the part that really counts #but they don't do anything about it because what is there to do? your only option is to live the story #even if you know how it ends #so they go along with it #what other choice do they have? #they fall in love and they kiss and they kill and they do it all together. they follow lovers lane all the way until the end of the road #until they can't deny it anymore #their time is up #double life is over #they're running on borrowed time - delaying the inevitable #it's a dead end #and it was always going to be #and somewhere in between they may have convinced themselves that it might be different #(it's not) #(it never is) #IS THIS ANYTHING GUYS... #maybe i'm just insane #nya talks #hermitblr #trafficblr #joel smallishbeans #boat boys #smalletho

[tangerineseed]

#ms paint you will always be there for me in my worst art blocks #this ones about my physical conditions which kill me when they flare up #aka me letting myself be a little dramatic for a moment #st sebastian #scoliosis #pmdd #chronic pain #art #blue #red #ms paint #nerves #internal organs

[moeblob]

Hello, can i have a modern sylvain pls??? PS: i love how you draw scrimblos

Finally another Wheel Spin and thankfully modern equals I get to draw someone with fish somewhere on their outfit. (Overlay layer my friend how I missed you)

#fe three houses #sylvain jose gautier #also shout out to literally everyone yesterday who backed me up and supported me on making sure i wasnt in pain #regardless of how others told me to take pain meds cause hoo boy #i do feel better today without the pressure of being a disappointment by taking care of pain as need be #esp since im making sure to not overuse it - like im still obeying the times in between the doses and not doing more than allowed #and so yeehaw managed to speed run sylvain aka it took 25 minutes and i know this bc i set a timer for 30mins #just to make sure i didnt overdo it from aiming to please too hard while still recovering #truly wheel rng and desktop timers my beloved #they really help me lmao................. i .... need the motivation to start too so setting a timer makes me have to start #instead of putting it off and off by scrolling here or staring at a blank canvas pondering nothing

[how-much-for-a-whump]

İnci Taneleri 5. Bölüm

Prompt: "Bullet wound"

source

#İnci Taneleri #Kubilay Aka #bullet wound #turkish #turkish series #whump #male whump #whumpedit #shot #pain #comfort #face touching #blood #makeshift bandages #barely conscious #hospital #checking pupils #emotional #tears

[anoiximera]

Part 7: Rethink

Arc 1: Reacquainted (Finished)

This part was 11 pages and I had to combine the last two pages to make it all fit but the quality suffered I sob. Anyways, first arc done! I've planned out the story/dialogue for the next arc but it might take a bit for me to get it out. Either way, thanks for sticking around so far. Appreciate it.

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#rottmnt fanart #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the turtles #rottmnt #save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise donnie #rise leo #villain donnie #aon au #will add links when im on my pc later promise promise #binged drawn all night #aka i haven't slept but insomnia we love/s #anyways next arc will hurt #and by hurt i mean we get some insight with the brothers #so expect pain #sorry in advance for not being sorry

[unearthlycat]

thinking about Spearmaster and Gourmand friendship…

Gourmand trying to figure out if this Weird Purple Spiky Creature is a threat to the colony or not, eventually realizing it is just a very weird and awkward slugcat and then wanting to sort of welcome them but Spearmaster is very poorly socialized and skittish and clearly unsure how to approach things…

Spearmaster who has no idea how to socialize with other slugcats and feels intimidated but wants so badly to reach out, bringing Gourm's colony gifts in hopes of winning them over like Scavengers, and Gourmand caaaarefully trying to coax them into sticking around like "we're fine, you should join in and have some of this too, there's enough to go around"…

(Spearmaster being self-conscious about their way of eating freaking out other slugcats and carefully restricting themself to only eating a tiny bit, and only baby centipede or eggbug or other foods that they see other slugcats casually eating, or not eating at all, because they're afraid of appearing too scary/creepy and being rejected…)

but just like. imagine please:

Spearmaster, laying out a pile of like 5 unused spears, two badly skewered bluefruits and a live eggbug: [please dont kill me please dont kill me please dont kill me please dont kill me]

Gourmand, grateful but increasingly concerned and bewildered: ... Do you want to join us to eat before the rain, stranger? I am sure there will be enough to share!

Spearmaster, stuck behind a language barrier, sweating nervously, continuing to produce more spears: [FUCK]

#for extra fun/pain: a possible bonus round of something similar some years later with hunter #aka feral slugcat befriending: extra spicy edition #anyway sorry im having fictional Scenarios in my head. it will happen again #rain world #spearmaster #gourmand #fj.txt #rw

[4virgil4]

#virgil van dijk #liverpool fc #liverpool #lfc #please #this has the vibe of like a cozy date at home binging and cuddling #I want to sob #the way he keeps looking directly into the camera aka my eyes #I’m in so much pain

[floef-likes-minecraft]

In my head Pluto is a Shetland pony and here are my reasons:

He's stubborn

He doesn't listen

He's probably bitten Grian more than once

The only reason he hasn't truly ran away is because Grian gives him food

#spoken from my very limited experience with shetland ponies aka my sisters one who is both a pain in the ass and an absolute sweetheart #but shetland ponies are generally considered to be stubborn so i think this is valid #if you have any other breed in mind for the hermits horses please let me know that would be cool #hermitcraft #hermitcraft season 10 #grian