#alcohol dependency

[smashing-yng-man]

I've done it all - attended Alcoholics Anonymous twice a day, five days a week. Memorized the fourth edition of the "Big Book" from cover to cover. Admitted myself into two different rehabs, staying 60 days each time.

What has ultimately kept me sober from drinking is confiding in my therapist and taking a combination of Acamprosate and Naltrexone twice a day to curb alcohol cravings.

I drank heavily for nearly two decades, and frankly have the experience and genetic predisposition to confirm that addiction is not a choice.

But sobriety and self-care are.

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[faofinn]

DAY 23: "you'll have to go through me"

@febuwhump

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Harrison had promised Tai he'd meet him after work, but he'd just not shown up. With the pair of them working, and Steve not, he'd picked the boys up from school so they were all sorted.

Tai bed sat in the car park for half an hour before heading over, concerned by his partners lack of replies. They’d changed over, Fao was still waiting for a bed on the ward, and Harrison was nowhere to be found. He'd apparently left a while ago, on time for once, and hadn't spoken to anyone. Tai gave Fao a crappy excuse about crossed wires, and rushed off, his heart pounding in his chest.

The house was dark when Tai finally skidded onto the drive, blinds still drawn. Harrison's car was still on the driveway, so he hadn’t gone far - Tai doubted he would have walked far after his shift; he always struggled after his block and he'd had a few pressure areas flaring recently, blamed on his massive fluctuations in weight.

Tai pushed the front door open, frowning as it swung without the key in. He'd been the last to leave and it had definitely been locked then. The smell of alcohol was so clear in the air, and Tais' heart almost stopped. Hars had been sober for years, he'd had his transplant, knew the risks. Knew how to reach out for help.

“Hars? Love? you home?” He called, flicking the lights on. There was the unmistakable sound of bottles clinking from the living room, a harsh sob following. Tai found himself swallowing past a sudden lump in his throat, dreading what he'd find as he pushed the door.

Harrison was on the floor, in the middle of the room, surrounded by bottles and cans. One of the bottles had smashed, apparently thrown against the wall. Glass littered the floor, but Harrison didn’t even seem to notice. He kept his gaze fixed on them, knuckles white as he clenched his fists on his jeans.

“Hars?” Tai hesitated, before slowly making his way to his partner, crouching by him. At least two of the bottles were opened, and a few of the cans, too. Tai sighed. They didn't need this.

Harrison slowly turned to Tai, tear tracks down his cheeks and eyes red. “Tai.”

He launched himself at Tai, curling tightly into his chest. For all the alcohol around, Tai couldn’t smell any on Harrison, and there was none on his breath. There was a small flicker of hope.

“It’s okay.” Tai said gently. “I’m here.”

Harrison couldn't breathe through the sobs, gripping tighter onto Tai. "I'm sorry."

“It’s alright.” He soothed. “Bad day, huh?”

"I didn't, I promise I didn't." He sobbed, his words catching in his throat. 

“It’s okay. Shall I get rid of it?”

"No." He said quickly, desperation hidden in his tone. 

“It’s not helping you feel any better being sat here staring at it.”

"I need it."

“You don’t need it.”

"I do."

“It’s not going to help, love.” Tai told him. 

"It will."

“It’s okay, it’s gonna be okay.”

"I can't keep doing this."

“Shh, it’s alright.” Tai murmured, kissing the top of his head. “We’ll get through this.”

"I just wanted a break."

“I know.” 

"I didn't take a drink."

“Well done. Honestly. Why don’t we throw it out, though?”

"What if I need it?"

“You don’t need it.”

"Might do."

“You don’t, love.”

"It would stop the pain." He said quietly. "I don't want to feel it anymore."

“You’d never forgive yourself.” Tai said. “I know it’s hard. It’s gonna be okay. I’ll get Steve to have the kids, and we’ll go to bed and get some rest.”

"I don't want to wake up." He murmured under his breath, sagging against Tai.

It broke Tai’s heart to hear him say that. “I know. But I want you to wake up. You’ll get through this.”

"It just hurts."

“I know it hurts. It’s horrible, you’ve had a shit day.”

"I just want to die." He admitted, pulling back to look at Tai. 

"Not a chance." He tried to joke. "You'll have to go through me to try that, and Steve, even Fao. The lot of us. Tomorrow will be better, we'll get through this."

"Can we go to bed?"

“Yeah. Come on, let me help you up.”

He gritted his teeth as he stood, holding heavily onto Tai. "Fuck."

“It’s okay. I’ve got you, lean on me.”

"I can't."

“It’s okay. Let me do the hard work.”

"No, I can’t. It hurts."

“I know, it won’t be long.”

"I just want it off. And a drink."

“We’ll get it off in a minute.” Tai promised. “Just get to the bedroom.”

Tai's lack of comment about the alcohol hadn't gone unnoticed, and he sighed. "Alright."

“Have you hurt yourself at all?” He asked. “One of the bottles was smashed.”

"I don't think so."

“Good.” He led him upstairs and into their bedroom. “Let’s get you into bed, then.”

With Tai's help, they got themselves sorted for bed, changed and into pyjamas and medications done. Hars took his morphine in the end too, hoping to have some relief. While Tai sat on his phone for a little while, he curled against his chest, needing the comfort. Tai's fingers were gentle in his hair, soothing him and just calming him down. Safe in his arms, he finally fell asleep. 

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[theawakenedalcoholic]

ENJOYING life

My sponsor put on a meditation today, and it took me a while to clear my mind of present life – people, problems, everything. But when I was able to release those thoughts and really focus on and feel the energy around me, my line of thinking became so positive! I thought I’d share some of the insights I had because I want to hold on to them. I want them to be put out into the world, in a place I…

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[creativewellnessconsultants]

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[tiborperformancebooster]

Panic attacks and alcohol dependence – which came first?!

Panic attacks and alcohol dependence can often be intertwined and one can be both a cause and a consequence of the other. While panic attacks are primarily associated with anxiety disorders, alcohol dependence can aggravate and contribute to the development of panic attacks. The relationship between the two is complex and multifaceted.

Panic attacks, characterised by sudden and intense episodes of fear and anxiety, can be triggered by a variety of factors, including stress, trauma or genetic predisposition. When individuals experience a panic attack, they may seek relief from overwhelming anxiety and discomfort. Unfortunately, some people turn to alcohol as a form of self-medication to provide temporary relief or relaxation.

Alcohol is anxiolytic and initially has a calming effect, which can temporarily relieve anxiety symptoms. However, this perceived relief is short-lived. Continued alcohol use can lead to a cycle of addiction as individuals rely on alcohol to cope with anxiety, including panic attacks. Over time, the brain becomes accustomed to the presence of alcohol, leading to tolerance, and increased consumption is needed to achieve the desired effect.

Ironically and counter-intuitively, long-term use of alcohol can actually worsen anxiety symptoms and trigger panic attacks. Alcohol upsets the balance of neurotransmitters in the brain, such as serotonin and gamma-aminobutyric acid, which play a crucial role in regulating mood and anxiety. When alcohol is withdrawn from the body, the brain struggles to regain its balance, often resulting in increased anxiety and panic.

In addition, alcohol can also negatively affect a person's overall mental health. It can contribute to feelings of guilt, shame and low self-esteem, which can further increase anxiety and increase the likelihood of panic attacks. In addition, the sedative effects of alcohol can impair judgment and decision-making, leading to increased stress and anxiety in a variety of social and personal situations. Alcohol can not only damage the nervous system, and notoriously the liver, but can also completely upset the delicate balance of gut flora. In the latter case, we are directly affecting our brain, since the gut is where a good part of serotonin, dopamine and many other brain communication compounds are produced.

Although panic attacks and alcohol dependence may be linked, it is essential to treat both problems at the same time to ensure effective treatment. Seeking professional help from health care providers, therapists or support groups can provide individuals with the tools they need to manage anxiety and overcome alcohol dependence. Comprehensive treatment approaches that include therapy, medication if needed, and healthy coping mechanisms can help break the cycle and promote long-term recovery.

Panic attacks and alcohol dependence can therefore be closely linked, with one influencing and amplifying the other. While alcohol may initially provide temporary relief from anxiety symptoms, prolonged use can aggravate anxiety and trigger panic attacks. It is crucial to recognise the interaction between the two conditions and seek professional help to manage both simultaneously.

#Tibor Kokeny #alcohol dependency #panic attack #focused panic solution #Fókuszált Pánikmegoldás #panic attack solution #panic disorder

[boyalasco]

Shedding Light on Alcohol Dependency: Recognizing the Impact on Families and Friends

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[empoweryoucoaching]

Healthy ways to deal with frustration.

Healthy ways to deal with frustration.

More than half of all Brits have family disagreements at Christmas. The average family has their first argument at 9.58am on Christmas Day morning.A quarter of all adults say their relationships with their partners come under pressure over the period.An eighth say a festive argument made them want to split upCalls to relationship advisors Relate go up 59% over Christmas Taken from BAAM (British…

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#alcohol dependency #anger #communication #frustration #lessons learned #old fashioned #old school #rage #resources

[canisalbus]

I know it's not canon, but every now and then I like to imagine Machete with bad food allergies, eggs, wheat, dairy, whatever it is that day, because I know Vasco would go to the ends of the earth to try and find something they could eat together. He seems like the type to really value sharing meals, and would be heartbroken if he couldn't share the same food with Machete

Aw, that's very sweet ;v;

It is it's own little tragedy not being able to accept food that is offered to you, social eating is such a significant way of bonding between people (sentences that sound like an undercover alien wrote them).

Just looking at him and his malnourished chihuahua vibes, Machete certainly seems the type to have at least some food intolerances. Should I give him an allergy or two? Or would that be excessive, he's already radiating big frail victorian child energy, I don't want to go so far overboard it becomes totally unrealistic.

#answered #anonymous #he's not fond of alcohol or seafood but those are more like personal dislikes #a lot of foods can make him randomly nauseous but that depends on the day #apples and pears always give him a little tummy ache

[sanduchengjiu]

a lot of people say that jiang cheng is a bitch and he’s mean and yeah I see that for sure but I just don’t consider it to be that bad bc if I was jc and all that shit happened to me I would’ve been worse

#at least Wei Wuxian was a necromancer with an undead army about his trauma #jiang cheng took his trauma and just became his mom #and did paperwork about it #and spoiled his nephew #he may or may not have killed Wei Wuxian about it depends on who u ask #he didn’t even try alcoholism like his cool dead brother he’s kinda lame idk #jiang cheng #mdzs #wei wuxian

[frogenthusiastt]

broke: legknives

woke: merylknives

bespoke: robertoknives

#trigun #meryl could fix him. roberto could give him the middle aged ride of his life and a crippling alcohol dependency

[smashing-yng-man]

#clearview treatment programs #alcoholism #alcohol dependency #alcohol use disorder #binge drinking #bipolar disorder #bipolar #addiction #mental health #mental illness #substance abuse #self medicating

[kaeyachi]

One of my favorite tropes/HCs is that Kaeya and Diluc have more than a year of age gap (around 2-3 years)

Kaeya would have always been smaller than Diluc their entire youth, maybe even up until Diluc's 18th birthday, because Kaeya would just have started his sudden growth spurt at that time.

Diluc must have started knights training young considering he became a captain by 14, so of course Kaeya would soon prefer to start training early as well just to be with Diluc more.

This would, of course, turn everything that occurs later even more tragic.

Kaeya, still in his mid-teens, would lose another father.

Diluc, in rage and disbelief, attacking Kaeya and immediately regretting it once he saw how young the other looked against his raging flames.

Diluc making the hard decision of leaving to learn more about their father's death (because no one else would, and who else better to do it than himself). Kaeya telling him when and how to go.

Diluc selling the manor, their childhood home, and Kaeya having no say in it simply because he is not of age.

Kaeya also having no say in business proceedings other than letting his opinions known

Diluc returning home only to see Kaeya who had become an alcoholic in his time of absence (and him wondering how this happened)

(note: With this age gap, at the start of the game, Kaeya would have just been 19/20 for Diluc's 22/23. Kaeya would be 15/16 when Diluc left.)

#kaeya #kaeya alberich #diluc #diluc ragnvindr #gi kaeya #gi diluc #the popular idea is that he and diluc are only months apart probably due to the fact that they are descibed as twins #i just wanted to spice things up #ive read that one fanfic where kaeya was only 14 when crepus died and tbh its one of my faves #not sure if kaeya changed his surname or if he kept the Alberich name the entire time but how angsty would it be if he was a ragnvindr #when diluc left and when diluc returned he gets slapped in the face with a kaeya alberich desk label #diluc when he sees kaeya as an alcoholic: which one of u brought my younger brother to the tavern enough times that he is alcohol dependent #the knights who kept bringing kaeya along once he was of age: *sweating profusely*

[femmetay]

still can’t believe this woman can’t call herself mentally ill and crazy and talk about hospitalizations in a very flat out honest way because her fans still only minimize and diagnose it as “heartbreak.” no, some people are just clinically insane without being driven by heartbreak, janet. no, we’re all not just as crazy-

#no one is listening to this album #this is like when this is me trying came out and I got yelled at for saying she’s a depressed alcoholic #self described In The Song!!!! #and y’all were like no it’s about a character it’s fiction #sure! #fiction 🙄 #Some People are mentally ill #even mentally ill and substance dependent!

[irregularbillcipher]

people seeing my lisa pfp and url on the "nobody understands these fictional characters but me and my mutuals" post and going "oh they're a lisa fan that tracks, they must have seen some awful takes" is so funny like yeah... this truly is a fandom with some abysmal character takes huh. leave buddy and lisa alone

#side note i saw someone say the other day that birdie was a bad dad because of his addiction issues #completely missing the fact that the loss of his children is WHY he has addiction issues #like. he was never a father and an alcoholic at the same time. his alcohol dependency literally could not have impacted his parenting #because he did not have a dependency until after his children had already passed #his alcoholism (and later joy addiction) were literally spurred on by his boys dying. there is no overlap #they were corrected pretty quickly but how do you even misinterpret some of the most morally decent side characters that badly #no wonder you can't understand the more complex characters if even the side characters trip you up

[fisheito]

thinking about how nu world dante seems.... chiller than original dante. like yes he's still annoyed by blade and rei but he's not going Fur Standing on Ends Defensive prickle mode. he's more like... hey guys. can you maybe, stop. now. that would be great. and i'm gonna pretend it's partially because dante's parents are still alive in this timeline and he's had more supportive family around him for a longer time and he doesn't have to carry the weight of an entire crumbling kingdom on his budding dorito shoulders and he feels more secure and hfgrfsekejdfkrse

#maybe i'm hallucinating his calmness. does he seem less angry? am i engaging in wishful thinking? #he's a rich prince!! and his parents are still around to tuck him into bed!!!!! he's a baby!! LET HIM BE A BABY #no ethically difficult decisions made on behalf of your kingdom's success. no developing alcohol dependence to cope with nonstop pressures #he has hired a funky robot assassin to kidnap the Hot Demon King #so they can have a private interview in his palace's Refreshments Lounge #and dante can throw money at him because he's Hot and requires his Services #journey to a nu world #dante

[gideonisms]

ngl having bad brain times. Can you ever physically FEEL the lack of the get things done chemical

#the advice for depression is to do the things that you used to enjoy and wait for them to help again #it's good advice and it does work to an extent but listen #i don't choose when i find things enjoyable i fixate on a topic and everything becomes enjoyable again #it's not like doing hobbies or reading or cleaning or eating meals helps THAT much #it just keeps me busy and sane and makes my body keep working until i get some good brain chemical shipped in #then I'll remember everything i've been putting off but at least i'll be relatively functional at that point #it's not that all the depression tips are useless. i'd be much worse if i didn't do any of them #as it is i've made it over 25 years without even developing a nicotine addiction or a crippling dependence on alcohol #my joints are even still fine mostly and i can tell when to get out of a situation so i can keep living #now i even know when i want to be around someone and when i don't! #i'm basically great at existing i've studied with the masters #still.