#also thank you for sending this message

[pretchatta]

I want you to know one of your fics have me close to tears in a toyota dealership

this might be one of the best compliments I've ever had??!

#ask #magical-gifts #aaahh I want to know which fic it was #also thank you for sending this message #it makes me so happy to know people still read my fics

[thebibliosphere]

Whenever I get a particularly nasty message, I always check to see if they're following me first. Nine times out of ten, they're not. But they're also, unfortunately, the same people who feel entitled to send me multiple messages in a row, most of them heavily steeped in the language of moralization and purity.

Like whenever I talk about painkillers or pain management, I always get a handful of well-meaning people who are maybe new to my blog or are just young, asking me if I've tried diet/exercise/meditation, etc.

Sometimes I'll respond to them. Other times I'll just ignore them because I get those kinds of messages so often it's like white noise, and maybe part of me hopes if they stick around on my blog, they'll learn it through exposure via my incessant bitching.

When you see me responding to someone offering that kind of advice, it's either because I'm at my fucking limit or because I'm hoping it's a teachable moment and an otherwise seemingly nice person might unlearn some harmful biases.

The people who don't follow me are not interested in any kind of conversation on the subject. They do, however, feel the most qualified to tell me, someone they didn't know existed until one of my posts crossed their dash, how to manage my life, everything I'm doing wrong, and why I'm a bad person.

And for them, my disability is proof that I am a bad person because they view health as a moral issue.

If you're sick, it's because you don't exercise enough, don't eat the right foods, don't pray enough, don't do enough. They genuinely believe that if they say and do all the right things, like a Good Person, they'll never get sick.

It's their security blanket against the harsh reality that anyone is one bad day away from disability. One faulty gene, one bad infection, one bad accident away from a life-long diagnosis. And if they do get sick, it's a test. A challenge to be overcome with Willpower as they learn the True Meaning of Life.

It can never just be a simple fact of life that sickness happens. That disability exists without a moral reason.

And it's suffocating.

Day in, day out. Folks who don't know me from fucking Eve telling me I'm being punished. Not always as outright as that. They don't always use that word. But sometimes I appreciate it when they do because at least then they're being honest. They're not couching it in the softer language of leftist circles. Not hiding it behind concern.

Because the truth is, there are just as many folks who think they're liberal and enlightened who'd be happy if disabled people just stopped existing. They don't like thinking about us because it makes them think about themselves. About their own fragility and mortality, and they hate that. They hate that there's something they can't control with their thoughts and actions. That they can't moralize their way out of.

Honestly, it's a relief when people are just cunts about it because I can hit the block button, safe in the knowledge that they were never the kind of person who would see me as a person. But when it's some 20yo kid with their pronouns, orientation, and "ACAB" in their profile spouting the same kind of moralization, sometimes even with the language of eugenics, it feels like such a betrayal. Like a loss.

And perhaps if I wasn't multiply disabled, I'd have the energy to pull them back. To tell them why they're wrong and hope like hell they realize what they're doing is harmful. But then, if I wasn't disabled, they wouldn't be messaging me, so I wouldn't be dealing with it.

I wouldn't be expected to use my existence as a teachable moment to spoon-feed them compassion. But I am, and I do. When I can. Not always with the grace that's warranted. Not always with the thought and compassion I ought to. (And I don't; I acknowledge that. I'm prone to anger and off-the-cuff remarks that are hurtful too. Though I try to keep most of it to myself or save it for therapy.)

Basically, if you've made it this far through the TED talk, don't be fucking cunts to disabled people. Don't tell chronically ill people to try yoga. Don't moralize pain relief. Suffering is not noble.

You need to kill the cop and the priest in your head telling you otherwise.

And also if you're the nice people sending me nice messages. Thank you. It helps cushion all of *gestures* this.

#chronic health tag #long post #ableism #thanks for coming to this huge rant I'll probably delete later #also sincerely #thank you to everyone who does send nice messages #you are the majority #it's just that the assholes are louder

[canisalbus]

I really appriciate how often Machete is depicted struggling and feeling like a burden, while still being loved and supported by Vasco. It gives the top tier angst of "i'm not good enough, I'm not worth it" but you frame it in such a way where it's clear that's just how he *feels* and is not how things really are, but also it's so nice to see someone who struggles quite often in a loving and unique relationship that suits them. The narrative of not being able to love or be loved unless you're consistently healthy is really tiring lol.

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#ah thank you! I'm so glad these themes come through the way I intended #this touches on something that I've been thinking a lot so sorry if this gets a bit ranty #but I have massive personal beef with the sentiment “you have to love yourself before you can love someone else/someone else can love you ” #I hate it with a passion #I know it's meant to encourage positive growth and I get that self-love and healthy self-image are something you should strive for #but it also sort of sends the message that people who struggle with these sort of issues don't deserve to be loved #not until they reach some external invisible standard of “okay I'm normal and well adjusted now” #“perhaps now I'm worthy of entering a relationship without the danger of dragging the other person down with me” #people who aren't in perfect health mentally or physically already feel like they're inconveniencing others with their mere existence #depriving them of the possibility or even the idea of loving and being loved won't make them better #it's just a stupid idiom it doesn't matter but to me it just comes across as unspeakably cruel way to think #and it rustles my jimmies #answered #anonymous

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hi I hate to be cheesy but I wanted to say that while a lot of people - very rightly!!! - point out how cool your art is and how inspirational it is that you showed art can be learned, not just a rare natural born talent, I also LOVE your sense of humor. The dialog and visual jokes are always so sharp and are guarenteed to make me laugh! Because I'm autistic as hell lol I like to bookmark things I can read through over agian when I'm looking for laughs and your blog is now high on the list! Thx!

Be not afraid to be cheesy; your genuine message has brought me immense joy B’*)

#ask #non mdzs #<-temp tag until i figure out a good sona tag name #I am currently living in a hazy state of exhastion so I cannot make my thoughts as clear as I would like - however #Thank you kindly for sending such a sweet message💙 #I am very glad to be the funny little creature that brightens someone’s day #Also very happy to have the autism brain brrrr seal of approval. A true honour B*) #I’d Love to know your favourites if you’re comfortable sharing. Sort of a cool littlt tidbit to know! #I hope you have a great day! Tha k you again for your support! #(meant to combine this with the jyl post - for the 27th- whoops! this is how far we have fumbled the ball these last two weeks)

[corrodedcoughin]

I have a head cannon that Eddie and robin have The most unpredictable relationship. One second they act like boyfriends in law, then they act like mortal enemies, 5 seconds later they’re crying together about robins most recent sad fun fact about animals. Steve can never keep up with where they’re at but I’d glad that his favorite people are so close. (Also when people ask them how they met Eddie will go on and on about how brave Robin is and she just says “we found him in a dumpster”)

Publishing this out into the st universe for everyone to be as delighted by it as I was/am

#also also I am so so sorry it’s taken me so long to see this #tumblr is hiding the majority of my notifications from me #so I only just checked my inbox randomly today #I am so so sorry #but I was delighted to see such a beautiful headcanon waiting there!! #love to you my child for this is a joyous message #hope you are having a lovely day and I really cannot thank you enough for sending this to me #it really made me happy so thank you ten times over #anon #eddie #Robin and Eddie #roddie #is that the platonic name????? #anon you are a gift to us all thank you

[shyghosties]

YOUR LITTLE GHOSTIE IS SO CUTE I JUST WANNA SQUISH ITS CHEEKS

Thank you so much!! They are very squishy!! :•)

#thank you for loving my little guy!! #thank you everyone who sends supportive asks u are all so lovely!!!! #my inbox is very full I’m sorry I’m so behind on answering!! I will reply privately to some when I have time #I really appreciate all your support thank you for the kind messages!!!! #I’m very busy and overwhelmed atm but when things settle down I will try to be more active here #thank u for sticking around!!!! #also thank you for reading my ramblings!!! if u see this u are amazing and I hope you have a great day!!! #gif #scribbles #ask

[galedekarios]

anon who asked me about my favourite gale quotes, i want you to know that this is me rn

#also thank you to everyone who sends me nice messages & questions & meta ideas #i truly do appreciate each and every one #even if i might not reply right away #i am going to answer #it just may take me a bit with work starting up again and the General Struggle of Existing #but thank you still 🖤 #text: personal #tbd

[smimon]

Omg how will Bojan react to giant k 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀. The more k the better (worse, he’s so gone) for bojan. He will die, cause of death overload of vitamin k. I mean they went absolute nuts about each other. 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

And mikke!!!!!! With his giant lil brother. As someone who is the oldest but also shortest (my lil brother is close to two meters and still growing) I feel that. No matter how tall he’s gonna be, he’s always gonna be my lil brother. 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹.

(Sorry for the spam) 😅

(Ask date: 24.09.2023)

Vitamin K overdose is no threat to Bojan! If they could, they would spend all their free time together 🥹

And yes, can relate, my little brother is like one head taller than me - but otherwise we look identical, to the point that some people think we are twins 😆 we are just like Daltons 😎😎

Now bonus time 👀 Giant K series #13: hey Bojan, could you come here for a second?

Annnd second bonus because Mikke deserves some appreciation too 😤

Do a barrel roll!

And also this one little victory for Mikke because he's worth it 😌

#giant k series #💛💛💛 #this ask was marinating in my inbox to serve as motivation for me to finish The Post #but you also stayed with me all this time and helped with everything 😭 thank you so much Jay 🥹💛💛💛 #and don't say sorry for spam 😩 I love each and every message you send me 💛💛💛💛 #käärijä #art by op #fanart #my art #bojan cvjetićanin #mikke #daltons #häärijä #that's the penultimate post in the first season! tomorrow we cry 👀

[awakenthebeing]

Hii!! I wanted to say that these two pictures remind me So Much of Totoro and Mei, although the mood is very different,, I'm picturing them in other scenes from the movie now and it's making me giggle /pos

What a Fella, so cool <3

Alsooo seeing the recent fake pep drawings and jusg.. how much love he expresses to those around me is making ME feel full of love, it is so sweet :)

NO BUT THAT IS A HUUUUGE COMFORT MOVIE AND WHEN YOU TOLD ME THIS???? I IMMEDIATELY DREW THESE,,,

They're of course!!!! Super heavily referenced images/screenshots from the movie itself and or arts from it!!!! These were very self indulgent but AUGHGHH that movie is such a Comfort!!!!!

#THANK YOU VERY MUCH for telling me this tbh #im bouta rewatch the movie again i havent watched it in a bit!!!!! #but thank you so much for this message!!! and enjoying the fake pep drawings too!!! #i appreciate your words very dearly... im glad it makes you feel full of love!!!! #make sure to be safe....!!! eat food and rest and drink water!!! sending LOTS of love your way!!!! #💘💓💖💓💖💓💘💓💖💖💘💓💘💖‼️‼️‼️‼️ #these were also a good excuse to make very slice of life feeling things... tho tbf i used the images from the movie as references!!! #i always wanna give credit where its due so i do wanna say that all the arts are referenced to the actual movie scenes and other arts!! #and that these were made for funs.... <:3 #Piepoe arts

[bogkeep]

my special skill is that i'm not afraid of emails. in fact i vastly prefer sending emails because i can do it whenever i have time... the alternative is usually making phone calls, and the phone call times are pretty much always work hours at work days, AKA the SAME TIME AS WHEN I'M AT SCHOOL!!!! this really sucks if the only time i have the opportunity to sit down and do Important Paperwork Stuff is the weekend or the evenings!!! Let Me Send A Written Message Please Please Please

#banging my head againt the wall #hi i found out that due to my address being set in sweden i can't Do Things through the norwegian healthcare portal #i can read messages and documents but i can't contact anyone or send in forms. great!!! great!!!!!!! i didn't know this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it's fine i'll just make the phonecalls but i wish i could get it over with NOW #i already feel bad for not doing any of this stuff in the past two days but ive been so completely depleted #im sure ill manage to solve this in time i just hate having things hanging over me #ALL OF THIS COULDVE BEEN AVOIDED IF IT HADN'T TAKEN THREE FUCKING YEARS TO BE GRANTED HRT #'of course there won't be any problems if you move to sweden :)' They Lied To Me #also this is a vent post please do not give me unsolicited advice thank you

[comfortyart]

Hey, I love your art. I love the comfy vibes and the poses are always awesome! Sorry to hear you are going through some art block but if I can request some Lemillion X Suneater I’d love to see them havin a date drinking some ramune or something or skinny all might cause I love that funky lookin dood

Anon, thank you so so much for your kind words, I'm so happy you enjoy my art!! Artblock is frustrating, but thank you for taking the time to send this request, gave me a fun lil idea for a warm up today!

Tamaki just wishing, even just once...Mirio would wear his costum when they practice together.

#Lets be real he likes it but can he HANDLE it #For real though like why do they let him wear the school gym outfit when they KNOW he's just gonna end up nude??? #Thank you so much anon I appreciate you sm #ALSO LIKE im sorry if you want something softer like a date send another message Ill do it 😤 #Also full disclaimer Ive never drawn tamaki or mirio so I HOPE THIS IS OK #mirio togata #tamaki amakiji #lemillion #suneater #miritama #art tag #forty speaks #bnha

[httpiastri]

Good morning babe 🥰🥰🥰

(I’ll take no responsibility of how you’ll react to this pic… I’m staring at his neck for days now and decided today is a great day to share it with you 🤭)

(The way I’m obsessed with his neck is insane, you’d thought I’m a vampire in disguise based on how much I want to bite and suck on that thick neck 😭 leaving marks behind, kissing & licking them better 🫠🫠🫠🫠)

(My horny ass can’t be stopped if it’s about him)

(when I say Silvo was my fav weekend, this is one of the reasons 😩 - and his amazing performance ofc.)

(His hair is sooo long here too I want to run my fingers through it, grabbing it gently also to move his head aside to have more access to attack his neck 🫠🫠🫠)

Okay I’m done, I’ve said what I said 🫣 sorry not sorry

ohooooooo noooo… this………………… this has made me feel so many things…….. i feel unwell

#what the frickkkkk #oscaaaaaar #this is just #w o w #the adams apple #just insane #I think you should take full responsibility of how i gasped out loud in class 😶 #i was so so tired this morning (miiiiight have stayed up very late to watch paul arom videos…..) but this made me fully awake #im now very #AAAAAAAA #haven’t been able to stop thinking about this #i too feel like a vampire #the hair is crazy too #I love this tons tons tons #thank you for sending it to me #(also bestie !!! do ur dms work now??) #(this is not in any way meant to tell you to answer me bcs i take too long to answer lmao i just wanted to know bcs i said something in my #last message) #okay bye <33 #asks! #formulola! #twinkodium! #osc hands osc neck osc arms

[mattodore]

Seven Sins Challenge: Which of your OCs fits pride, greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony and sloth. Then pass it on...

feel like i’m shamecubing matthias here but 🤷

#river dipping #asks #agena87 #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #dionte duval #echthroi #lykos #ts4 #oc extras #thank you for sending this to me btw <3 made me laugh just bc like. i knew matthias would be forced to look in the mirror for once #…too bad it just made him smile 🙄 #theo’s a little greedy too but it’s not like. enough to really classify him with it #also!!! mattodore didn't fit sloth at all… esp. not theo. so 🫵 forcing everyone to see one of my other ocs for once #dionte sleeps a lot… #even before he was turned into a werewolf and started getting prophetic visions he was still there falling asleep on subways #and he was NAWT meant for working. he was meant for batting his pretty little lashes and having things handed to him on a silver platter #AHHHHH!!!!!!!! this puts me down to only four more asks left in my inbox 😋😋😋😋😋 #this is so crazy icb how clean it’s looking in there…. #two of these are just the same tag game and idk if i need to answer them anymore bc i answered that message from morri that was similar #hm… #um and then the last two are oc questions abt mattodore 😁 one is spoiler territory tho so i don’t think i can answer it </3

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc. #so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously) #but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate. #and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic! #if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it. #like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is- #writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl- #will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of- #'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

[israel-palestine-bingo]

This blog is so funny, thank you for running it! I hope it doesn't impact your mental health too badly to be directly seeking out posts like the ones you find, though I imagine having the humor to deal with it helps. I'm not Jewish yet, but I am a conversion student, and the amount of awfulness I've seen from people I thought were my friends... man. I've seen some of the posts on this blog out in the wild and it's so much better to see them here where they're being laughed at. (I know that I'm not really one of the people they're targeting, not yet - but I can't help feeling kinship with the tribe and that extends to this as well, and it also makes me wonder if they'll really care that I haven't been through the mikvah yet when they make their attacks, so... yeah. I appreciate it.)

NO BINGO! squares found!

#answering this now because it is important #i appreciate your kind message very much #thank you for saying that #i do want to address something you brought up: mental health #the reason i post here only once every few days is because of that #i do actually read through everything you send or i stumble upon #and i actually tick off every square #you can imagine how... not good it can be over a long period of time #however #i do want to highlight your positive comment #and others like yours i have received here and on tolaat #how seeing the bingos just makes the hate go down a little easier #and this is why i do this #and why i won't stop doing this #even if i take a little longer between posts #i do love doing this and i know how important this is #so i also want to thank you for giving me strength #and reminding me of why i started this in the first place #thank you #not a bingo #ask

[animalsandskyyy]

I will forever stand by the thought that simply “being online” and consuming or even posting content, takes a completely different amount of energy than messaging or interacting with others online does.

but that’s something I had to train myself to acknowledge and learn. because it used to hurt and make me overthink when i’d message someone and they wouldn’t respond, but would still be active or posting. like I wouldn’t say that to them, but it overtook my thoughts.

then somehow I just stopped and realized- maybe they’re just tired. or maybe they’re scrolling on the phone in their 5 minutes of free time. maybe they’re in the middle of 3 conversations and are trying their best. maybe they’re in the middle of making a post and didn’t see your message. maybe they’re deep into searching a topic and can’t be distracted. or maybe they just don’t want to talk to you rn, and that’s perfectly okay and valid.

all that to say- it can still hurt sometimes, but giving people grace and thinking the best of them and their intentions, and sincerely hoping they do the same for you, makes life so much more enjoyable, and I highly recommend ♡

#is this a good take? Idk but it been in my mind A LOT lately #this was created by me having a really hard time messaging people back in a timely manner lately lol #but having energy to scroll and having to draft any posts I want to reblog #because I can’t reblog anything when I have unanswered messages because I feel bad and don’t want people to feel ignored. #hence my habit of ‘send message’ then going to my drafts and posting like 5 things lmao #because being ignored absolutely sucks #but it’s also fair and valid and sometimes social interaction is hard and takes too much brain energy #also I realized I really like thinking the best of people and their intentions (but in a safe and not naive way ofc) #and try not to take shit as personally- because everybody has shit happening in their life that’s consuming their energy #anyways that’s all #this will either go totally viral or make people mad at me idk #thank you and goodbye #also I have to respond to like 3 people before posting this lmao #grace is dramatic #grace is feeling unnecessarily insightful #online #online friends #social battery #social interaction #low energy #friends #long distance friendship #messaging #text #text post #personal text #shitpost #emotions #rambles #Tumblr