#and about mentally ill abled people using cripple

[thedisablednaturalist]

Sometimes terms mean certain things and belong to certain groups of people and are not meant to apply to people outside that group. And that is on purpose and valid. You can make your own terms to describe your own experiences, you don't get to take terms from other people, especially people more vulnerable/less privileged than you. If multiple people tell you that the term is not for you, respect that.

When terms get used for many different situations they get diluted and trivialized. Remember "trigger"? It was a specific medical term and is now used to mean "something that pissed or upset someone". Brain fog is now turning into abled people just being a little sleepy or out of it, not literally a clinical term for brains not functioning correctly due to various illnesses. I tell someone I have brain fog and they say lol me too XD no you fucking don't. "Spirit animal" was taken from indigenous peoples so white people could make funny haha relatable t-shirts. Two spirit almost got taken by queer white people as well (although I think most people have backed off on that hopefully).

Not everything needs to apply to as many people as possible. You don't need to and can't relate to everyone. We can still support each other while respecting differences.

(Edited ver)

#wrenfea.exe #this is about people using nonverbal for selective mutism btw #and about mentally ill abled people using cripple #like if ambulatory wheelchair users can come up with our own term then you can too #idk if its not as concise or it takes effort to get it to catch on #you dont get to steal the work other people have done to spread awareness of their term and its meaning #disability #nonverbal #selective mutism #spoonie #chronic disability #chronic pain #chronic illness #cripple #cripple punk #autism #adhd #readying my inbox for a wave of the stupidest people who've never seen any of my posts to flood the gates #i saw someone throwing ambulatory wheelchair users under the bus to justify why they should be able #to use the term nonverbal #pls correct me if you are from the relevant communities #i updated this to make it more accurate bc funnily enough brain fog made me forget about chronic illness triggers

[orcelito]

my toxic trait is work taking up so much of my mind that i think i should just be paid for every bit of work i do. unfortunately this does not translate well to schoolwork and housework

#speculation nation #like i mean it's nice to just be able to do as much work as i want for my job #i can just go in on a day off for a few extra hours bc there's always more to do #and i always make sure to log it so i get compensated :) #but now in my mind doing Extra Work is categorized as Extra Pay but it literally doesnt work like that for personal work #looks regretfully towards my built up dishes... #i at least put my clean dishes away today. i meant to do them today but i dont think that's going to happen lol #i'll at least work on them in the next few days. i'd like to not be living bowl to bowl anymore #(the old 'clean one bowl to use one bowl' phenomena lol) #but i literally opened up my school account to review what the lecture today was about & to prep for lab tomorrow #and somewhere in my mind i was like 'ok i gotta record when i started so i can get compensated for this' #like u stupid bitch it doesnt WORK like that #i wish it did tho. god i should be paid for studying. government pls subsidize my degree. pls #i know that Kind of exists in the form of scholarships but get this im mentally ill and thus cant get scholarships #and so i have to work my way thru school. ugh. #what i wouldnt give for a free ride thru school with living expenses dealt with. INFINITELY jealous of students with rich family #they always talk about how successful people are more often successful bc of Life Advantages (like family paying for shit) #and like. god i feel that #me struggling my way thru school bc i gotta work and pay rent & the amount of work that requires overall is quite frankly crippling :) #i'll get there eventually... and maybe one day i wont have to work so much. we'll see lol

[cistematicchaos]

If you don't know anything about eugenics beyond forced sterilization, or only define eugenics by forced sterilization, or by any one version of it, you're not only never going to understand eugenics, but you'll never be able to fight that ideology or keep it out of your spaces or unlearn it yourself. Saying you think disabled people just shouldn't exist in an "ideal" society is eugenics too, just like genetic engineering us out of existence, just like saying you wouldn't have a disabled child, or promoting the idea of us being completely separated from "abled society" in some sort of "separate but equal" supposed compromise.

Eugenics can be born simply out of believing our lives are nothing but suffering and that makes them less worth living, thus we shouldn't exist. But that's not true. I do suffer horribly in this ableist society, and I also suffer solely from certain aspects of my disabilities, but that doesn't mean disabled people shouldn't exist. Suffering doesn't mean I shouldn't exist. It means you should be working to eradicate ableism and people should continue working on science to help disabled people live with our disabilities. It means you should listen to us, ask us "how can we help", not eradicate us and the fact people move so quickly to that idea is scary as fuck.

And yet, today I had to talk with a trans person who told me people like me shouldn't be born, that mental illness' were "diversities" but cripples were disabled and lived their lives in suffering, so they should be engineered out of existence. This was all very leftist, mind you-No forced anything, just a dream of a mass program to genetically engineer cripples away until no disabilities were left at all, for "the better of our species".

It just makes me sad, things like that. I wish it made me angrier but no, people who should be my community telling me my people shouldn't exist is just sad, especially when it comes with the determined stance that it's not, in fact, eugenics. I mean, if you're going to be a dick, at least call your bullshit what it is. At least know what eugenics are! That's basic as hell!

So lesson of the day: learn your eugenics, listen to disabled folks, fuck ableism and never tell disabled people you don't believe people with their disabilities should exist.

#Sigh #chaos is speaking! #disability #ableism #actually disabled #disability stuff #cripple punk #mad punk #eugenics #forced sterilization mention

[headpainmigraine]

People with physical disabilities have cripplepunk

People with mental illnesses have madpunk

People with neurodivergencies have neuropunk

All these people are disabled.

It isn't a bad thing to have a space that's not for you.

Trying to push into a space not designed for you is either going to make you feel alone in your experiences, or is going to mean that you talk over the people who need that space for themselves. It's not fair to anybody.

There's a space for all disabled people to talk about how our different disabilities impact us, and it's needed.

And it needs to be segregated like that (I know some people are going to latch onto that word, racial segregation is an entirely different thing, and I mean it here) because it's so important that we find community, especially online.

So many of us live isolated lives, in terms of other disabled people like us, if not actually physically isolated. We have the wider disabled community/disabled tags to talk about our lives as people who aren't abled in anyway, but we still need those specifically differentiated tags for the specifics.

And yeah, there's so much overlap,

but sometimes I want to talk to other people who know the hell of your intrusive thoughts teaming up with your magical thinking, what are cane users going to know about that?

And sometimes I want to talk to other people who know what it's like to go out in a wheelchair and have your whole day ruined by a step, how can you relate if you're able-bodied and can just walk in?

Sometimes I want to talk about how crappy doctors are, and our whole community can get in on that one.

You don't HAVE to be able to call yourself a cripple in order to be disabled.

But you DO have to be physically disabled to call yourself a cripple.

Some spaces are just not for you.

#sorry #cripplepunk #neuropunk #madpunk #disabilities

[genderkoolaid]

Do you still believe HRT, which unless you have a messed up endocrine system doesn't hurt or sterilize anyone , and SRS, which often calls for reduction or addition of things and doesn't have to entail the removal of any genitals, gonads etc, are in the same vein as being trans abled, and wanting things like debilitating illness, removed limbs, and to use mobility aids etc when physically and mentally abled? /genq

It could've been a trollpost, but I saw someone posting about something that supposedly came from you about how it's the same as removing healthy gonads or to sterilize oneself intentionally to want a limb removed to disable oneself /g

Uh, yeah, at the very least I believe it doesn't make sense to support people's ability to choose one but not the other. [Also as a necessary disclaimer: I am physically disabled and I use both a cane and a wheelchair. It has had a major impact on my life. This is my opinion as a cripple who suffers on a daily basis from both my disabilities and systemic ableism.]

If you get healthy gonads or sex organs removed, you are essentially reproductively disabled. When it comes to phalloplasty, especially RFF, your arm can experience some nerve issues (which for most people is not serious, there are therapies you do to help recover) but you could, potentially, experience some kind of disability. None of this is a value statement about any kind of medical transition because disability is morally neutral. In fact for many people being reproductively disabled is an entirely positive thing! Even though for another person it could be deeply upsetting!

I've fought for a long time against TERF fearmongering about transmasculine transition, specifically HRT, and their warnings that "it will make your good pure body DISABLED!!!!!" which is both ableist and transphobic. It comes from the assumption that a disabled body is inherently lesser and tragic and a place of suffering, and that no trans person would ever take disability for the ability to experience euphoria and relieve their dysphoria. Many of us would rather be disabled and happy than abled and suffering. So why do we only get to apply this to medical transitioning for trans people?

Yes, obviously getting a limb removed or paralyzed or losing a sense is going to change how you live and you will have to deal with a lot of ableism. But it's not up to me to tell someone else that they shouldn't pursue happiness and relieve because oh no! They might be a DISABLED PERSON! The worst thing to be in the whole wide world!!!!!!!! Like disabled people already have to constantly hear "wow if I was you I'd kill myself." And while you shouldn't comment your feelings on someone else's condition unprovoked, I think it's way better to see people getting excited to live a happy and active disabled life instead of constant traumaporn. So yeah I think people should have the ability to pursue voluntary disability & I also think it would be cool to see people with BIID reclaim the label of transabled, since it was coined by a BIID activist to create a less medicalized and suffering-focused way of talking about BIID.

(Also, my stance as a mobility user has always been that the only criteria you need to fill to get a mobility aid is thinking it could help you. People already suffer unnecessarily because they are worried they aren't "disabled enough" to deserve an aid. So if someone w BIID feels better when walking with crutches I don't care! Especially if they actively fight against systemic ableism and inaccessibility! I am wayyyyy more concerned with all the buildings in my hometown with no goddamn elevator + crosswalks with no button or speaker than I am with someone using a wheelchair because it helps their dysphoria.)

#m. #ask box

[cripple-council]

welcome!

info about me & byf/dni under read more

[id: white text on a black background reading: “principles of cripple punk:

-cripple punk is exclusively by the physically disabled for the physically disabled

-cripple punk is about solidarity & is open to all physically disabled people

-cripple punk rejects pity, inspiration porn, & all other forms of ableism

-cripple punk rejects the "good cripple" mythos. cripple punk is here for the bitter cripple, the uninspirational cripple, the smoking cripple, the drinking cripple, the addict cripple, the cripple who hasn't "tried everything"

-cripple punk fights internalized ableism & fully supports those struggling with it

-cripple punk respects intersections of race, culture, gender, sexual/romantic orientation, size, intersex status, mental illness/neuroatypical status, survivor status, etc.

-cripple punk recognizes that there is no one universal disabled experience

-cripple punk does not pander to the able bodied

/end id]

[header description: black text reading: "cripple punk" on a blue background with a distorted screen filter. / end header description]

[profile picture description: the wheelchair disability symbol in black on a blue background with a distorted screen filter. / end profile picture description]

about us:

- council

- 24

- swedish

- physically disabled, ND & mentally ill

- fat

- cane/crutch/rollator/wheelchair user

- c-did

what is this blog about?

- cripplepunk

- physical disabilities

other info:

- my first language isn’t english & sometimes i mess up

- focusing on physical disabilities on this blog does not mean i value disabled able-bodied people less

- ‘cripple’ is a slur that only physically disabled people can reclaim

- spam liking/reblogging is okay and encouraged

DNI

- ableists

- terfs/gender criticals/radfems

- fatphobes

- queerphobes

- queer exclusionists

- pro eating disorder blogs

- people who use the term ‘narcissistic abuse’, and believe people with narcissistic personality disorder have the ability to inflict a “specific form of abuse”

- (no)MAPs

- proshippers/radqueers

- people who use the terms "sysmed" or "traumascum" for other systems, especially when it’s known they don’t like it

- people who believe that able-bodied people can be cripple punk or reclaim the slur ‘cripple’ in any form

- physically disabled bootlickers

disclaimer:

- i block freely, if you’re a nuisance i will block you

- hate anons will be laughed at and deleted, or posted with intent of making fun of you

- blogs that interact with me that encourage or promote eating disorders will get reported & blocked

[doberbutts]

I don't support everything he has ever said, but you should understand that this is coming from decades of abuse. Cripple course didn't start this year. Or the last. MIABs have been sending us death threats for a very, very long time. They literally stole our terms, closed their communities to us, and demanded we thank them for it. They called my friends ableist for wanting our own spaces and drove them to suicide. Let me ask you this. How many PD only spaces have you found? Compared to the numerous MI only, or even Autistic Only spaces?

Is one angry cripple really the bad guy?

I gotta tell you in 30 years on this earth never once have I thought that any of the various things wrong with me were properly accomodated unless I was specifically in a space that was intentionally curated to accomodate my specific needs. Including in so-called "disability-friendly" spaces. Sometimes it was the neurological. Sometimes it was the physical. Sometimes it was the mental. But without shaping my life around my needs, I was never really supported.

And for the record I don't love labelling folks as acronyms. It always seems somewhat combattive to me.

But I'm seeing some pretty bad takes on my dash, including "people with such severe sensory issues that sensory devices don't help them are rare and don't really go on the internet" (um. Hi?) and "at least you can get in the door" (yes I can physically move my body to go in the building but then I will vomit everywhere and pass out on the floor in minutes and that means there's accomodations that are lacking here) and "neurodivergent people are always coddled" (lmao yes I was literally beaten by my second grade teacher for having add symptoms in class but go off I guess).

Maybe it's because I was raised by a disabled man who was born in a time where the world was so hostile to disability that he didn't even know he was deaf until he was in his 20s, he just thought he was genuinely stupid because he interpreted it as "can't understand" instead of "can't hear". Because I was raised by his wife who specialized in teaching disabled children. Because I was born with multiple disabilities and from a young age was taught to fight for my rights and advocate for myself.

But, honestly? I think attacking other disabled people is wrong. Shouldn't really come as a surprise considering I say this about everything else 🤷‍♂️ there are some otherwise able-bodied neurodivergent people who are shitheads to both the severely mentally ill and also to physically disabled people. There are some mentally ill people who are shitheads to neurodivergent and physically disabled people. There are physically disabled people who are shitheads to neurodivergent and mentally ill people. But here's the thing.

I just think they're all shitheads.

[rjalker]

id call myself cpunk but i am scared the disabled community wont think im disabled enough even though i have chronic pain that affects my ability to live and do basic tasks......

im in denial lol esp w/ the discourse

You are 100% welcome, the Cripplepunk community is welcoming to all physically disabled people (it's just the ableists and ablebodied jackasses anyone has a problem with), and if you have chronic pain, you're physically disabled.

I'd suggest looking through Cripplepunk blogs who post about chronic pain, or just checking out the chronic pain tag, if you want to see what people are talking about.

Chronic pain is a physical disability, even if the rest of society makes it seem like you're just being lazy or a crybaby. The normal level of pain for ablebodied people is none, and especially if it's impacting your ability to function, you're definitely physically disabled, and you'll be welcome in the Cripplepunk tag :)

The "discourse" is people who aren't physically disabled in any way by any definition, who think that they can just "loophole" their way into calling themselves physically disabled, by pretending that physical disability is like...

Like, a riddle or something, and they're trying to be Extra Clever™ in solving it in the most obnoxious way possible, so they come up with "Well, I'm autistic and ablebodied, but the brain is an organ, and autism comes from the brain, so therefore, my brain is disabled, so that means I'm technically physically disabled! Ha! Checkmate, cripples!"

And completely ignore the actual meaning of the words being used, and ignoring the fact that physically disabled people can't "Well, actually--" our disabilities away. Physical disabilities don't stop existing because of a technicality in language that's purposefully ignoring the context.

You can't tell your chronic pain, "Well, actually, you're just a product of my brain, so you can stop now". Talking about your feelings and learning coping mechanisms for when you're feeling upset isn't going to stop your chronic pain, because it's not an emotional problem, it's a physical one.

But these people think that they should get an award for "loopholing" their way into claiming they're physically disabled, while suffering none of the drawbacks of actually being physically disabled. Like chronic pain, and the kinds of systemic ableism that only impact physically disabled people, like lack of access to 90% of society via lack of ramps, no sidewalks, no elevators, doors that are too narrow, and so much more.

Physically disabled people are welcome in Cripplepunk as long as they're not ableist, and if you have chronic pain, you are welcome. No one who belongs in the Cripplepunk movement is going to judge you or tell you you're "not disabled enough" by comparing your chronic pain to theirs, or anything like that. And anyone who tries is gonna be the one who's not welcome in the community.

Here I've copied the original principles and rules of Cripplepunk:

Principles of Cripple Punk:

Cripple punk is exclusively by the physically disabled for the physically disabled

Cripple punk is about solidarity & is open to all physically disabled people

Cripple punk rejects pity, inspiration porn, & all other forms of ableism

Cripple punk rejects the “good cripple” mythos. Cripple punk is here for the bitter cripple, the uninspirational cripple, the smoking cripple, the drinking cripple, the addict cripple, the cripple who hasn’t “tried everything”

Cripple punk fights internalized ableism & fully supports those struggling  with it

Cripple punk respects intersections of race, culture, gender, sexual/romantic orientation, size, intersex status, mental illness/neuroatypical status, survivor status, etc.

Cripple punk recognizes that there is no one universal disabled experience

[originally italicized for emphasis] Cripple punk does not pander to the able bodied

Rules of Cripple Punk:

Cripple punk is not conditional on things like mobility aids & “functioning levels”

Always listen to those w/ different physical disabilities & different intersections than yourself. Do not speak over them

Disabled people do not need to personally identify w/ the words “cripple” or “punk” individually to be a part of cripple punk

Able bodied people wishing to spread the message may only ever amplify the voices of the disabled

Able bodied people may never use uncensored slurs themselves, but never censor our language

Able bodied people must always tag things like reblogs with “I’m able bodied”

Physically disabled people wanting to be a part of the movement who are uncomfortable using the slur may refer to it as “cpunk”

#Cripplepunk #cpunk #cripple punk #asks #replies #anonymous #chronic pain

[crippled-peeper]

hey sorry im just adding on to what you're saying but

why do able bodied people want to be included in cripplepunk? (rhetorical)

like, what do they think they'd get out of it? what do they want to get out of it? they have madpunk and neuropunk. that's exclusive to mentally ill and disordered people. so why cant physically disabled people have their own spaces? its very hypocritical.

im sorry people are dickheads. cripples dont deserve this. stay safe

acknowledging physical disabilities as a uniquely stratifying marginalization would force them to accept they might be responsible for how they treat physically disabled people. saying physical disability is separate means they’re not allowed to call me “fucking Stephen hawking” even if they have ADHD or they’re bipolar or they have psoriasis. It means they can’t scream at me because they’re employed and I’m not

they think it’s some type of cool club they’re being “gatekept” from and not the everyday casual violence and ableism and eugenics we are actually describing. they use words like “exclusionists” because they can’t think of any type of oppression without making it about gender identity for some fucking reason

#ableism #cripplepunk

[thedisablednaturalist]

How to not derail a physically disabled person's post -guide for abled neurodivergents

Hey this is a huge problem and a ton of my and other peoples posts about physical disabilities have been getting overrun with comments making it about mental illness and completely derailing the post.

Here's some things to think about before adding a comment/reply onto a physically disabled person's post:

Is the person talking about disabilities in general? Or are they only talking about physical disabilities?

Do they say specifically that neurodivergent people are welcome to comment? Or do they have a banner or tag that says DO NOT DERAIL

Check the comments and reblogs that are currently there. Are they already overrun with people making the same points you are? Are physically disabled voices getting drowned out?

Is the post tagged with cripplepunk only? (Aka not neuropunk or madpunk)

What is your addition adding to the conversation? How is it related to the original post? Is it shifting the conversation or generalizing it?

Did you actually read and internalize the post or did you only focus on adding your point of view.

Who is the intended audience for the post? Is it you? Are you listening or arguing?

Are you using their language for yourself?

Could the addition stand on its own as a separate post? (If so it probably should)

Think about how you would feel if someone did that to your post and everyone only talked about their problems and ignored your original statement. Think about how angry you'd be if they then said "you're not allowed to get mad cuz I said I wasn't derailing! I love you people!"

Also these questions can and should apply to other posts made by people who are frequently talked over (people of color, fat people, etc.) No your adhd autism does not count. There is a long history on this site of neurodivergent people talking over and taking over entire disability spaces and the problem persists today. This problem is why cripplepunk was created in the first place.

Yes mental illness deserves to be talked about. I'm proudly neurodivergent and often reblog posts from neurodivergent blogs. But you are able to make your own posts, you don't need to take over ours, especially when we are specifically pointing out how our physical disabilities differ from mental disabilities.

Also respect when someone asks you to please delete your addition. Mistakes happen what matters is how you respond to them. Learn from it and move on. Don't cry about the meanie cripples "censoring" you.

#wrenfea.exe #im gonna end up on so many blocklists for this #cripplepunk #chronic disability #chronic pain #spoonie #disability #chronic illness #cpunk #physical disability #physically disabled #do not derail

[momett]

"cripple punk excludes the mentally ill!"

the thing is, we literally do talk about mental health. specifically, the intersection of disability and mental health. because, surprise, being disabled puts you at a higher risk for mental illness in general. any disability. including invisible ones.

don't you think it would take a toll on a person's psyche to have to give up things they once found joy in because of their disability? because they physically cannot do said thing anymore without severe consequences to their condition? losing friends because of it? losing partners because of it? losing people you once loved, who no longer care because you can't offer them what they think they're entitled to?

yeah, we totally don't talk about mental health. sure.

"cripple punk excludes the mentally disabled!"

there is a big difference between being mentally disabled and physically disabled. yes, we are both disabled, but the specifics of our disabilities are vastly different. so why would we allow able bodied, mentally disabled people into a community focused on the struggles of the physically disabled?

mentally disabled people already have their own communities. some on this very website no less. they already have their own organizations. give me a good reason why the mentally disabled need access to a community based in the struggles and solidarity of the physically disabled, if they themselves are not.

just say you want to call yourself a slur you have no right using because your entire personality revolves around labels and what you feel entitled to call yourself.

#p #cripple punk #cpunk #crip punk #good morning i'm still fucking mad about the MERF discourse

[haeflmz]

The Sin Eater.

Title: The Professor Is Weird.

Pairing: mark lee x fem!oc.

Genre: Horror occult, romance, fantasy, age-gap, slow burn, non-idol au, angst, fluff.

Summary: where an unexpected curse takes over baekhwa private school, jeong haelim gets involved into the world of occult.

Warnings: jumpscares, suicides, gore mention, hallucinations, mental health problems are spoken here, stress and strong language used.

Baekhwa institution. Private all girl school where students only care about one thing; grades. In this world of books and cramming for exam seasons it is nothing but overwhelming competition and criticism. Crippling at the young generation. Teachers putting high standards and expectations onto students. Only the most important people in society enrol their children to this private school.

South Korea’s most popular and successful institution able to only breed the most talented minds.

At least that’s what people outside the school think. Haelim has always felt trapped in this world they call ‘greatness’. There is nothing great about it. Don’t you think it’s ridiculous to be born into this world just to work a nine to five job in ten years time?

She wonders if there was another world out there, a world where routine doesn’t exist. A world where this cage wasn’t forbidding her from being her own person.

“Haelim mind getting the biology books from E21 classroom?”

No physical response from the young girl seated in the wooden oak chair with the hair tied up in a ponytail. Bangs covering the gentle fluffiness of her eyebrows while her dreamy eyes stare out the school window, finding the clouds to be more interesting itself than the book on the desk.

“Haelim!”

The girl’s voice brought her out of the dream-like state only to look back. She fixed her round glasses when the sight of a taller girl, long raven black hair and grey shaped eyes staring at her.

A sigh escapes from her lips. “You’re day dreaming again? Haelim what did I say about you doing that.” Kyujin clearly wasn’t happy knowing that the girl was ignoring everything around them.

She dismissed the scolding, her face turns to the girl once again once the glasses were fixed on the face.

“Sorry. What did you need?” She asked and earned a hand point to the chalk board in front of the classroom.

It showed in bold writing on it: ‘Bring biology books from E21.’ Written by the teacher that wasn’t in today due to an illness they were run down with.

Kyujin then saw the expression on Haelim’s face come to a realisation and without a single thought she stood up.

“I’ll get it.”

“Be quick with it, some of us have grades to prove!”

Coming down the hallways Haelim reaches the door knob opening the door to a very dark classroom. Searching for the light switch quickly, Haelim soon could see everything in the empty space.

The desks were all neatly set up. Chairs were on top of the desks, the teacher’s place was all clean and empty.

The background in the classroom was what Haelim needed. She walks over to the very back to find the biology books all piled up. The dust on them was obvious to the human eye.

Haelim lifts one biology book dusting it. “Ugh… dust.” She shakes it off one by one from each book until…

A loud thud from outside brought her attention. Following outside the classroom, many students started to pile around in circles.

The teachers rushing down the hallways in panic while some girls were starting to scream. Haelim was in panic wondering what was going on?

The whole school came over to witness one thing; a pool of blood sieving on the ground running the school courtyard to go red. Cries overheard with the overlapping of students recording. Haelim was shocked standing on the second floor looking over to the courtyard with everyone else.

From all four floors each student was seemingly looking down at the dead girl that fell from the high railings, down into the courtyard, squished by the concrete floor.

“Oh my god…” Haelim was shaken up holding her palms over her mouth.

The many teachers rushed over to identify the body. From the high view no one could really tell who it was…

The teacher turns the body around, the blood spilling was nearly as big as a puddle. The horrifying young dead girl on the floor looks unrecognisable from what everyone remembers.

“It’s upperclassman Joy!” Eunchae gasps crying.

Haelim’s eyes widen when a sign of a star crossed over with blood imprinted on the corpses’ hand.

Something wasn’t right about these reoccurring events…

The teachers dealt with another suicide event at their school. It only started two months ago. Another death after another which leaves the students becoming infected with fear.

Haelim wasn’t convinced that this was just a coincidence however.

In deep thought Haelim completed ignored her two friends; Chaehyun and Seoyoung.

They were discussing the suicide of Park Sooyoung — also mostly known as Joy amongst other students. It was unfortunate.

It didn’t even make sense? All the top students are disappearing one by one. Joy was a bright student, she was the most happiest person Haelim has ever saw. The most positive that is.

There was no way she had a reason to end her own life. Haelim was certain the previous suicides of the girls were the same.

“Is she day dreaming again?” Sighs Seoyoung while watching their friend in deep thoughts to the point of dissociation.

The blonde girl, Chaehyun, brushes the behaviour off. Haelim has always been a hidden reserved person who doesn’t even let a single person in that head full of thoughts. “The police are closing the case off as suicide again.”

Haelim breaks out of the haze, looking to Chaehyun. “Again? Isn’t that a bit strange that these reoccurring deaths keep happening in this school.”

The two girls shrug. Seoyoung goes back on her phone with a frown. “The teachers don’t want Baekhwa to get bad reviews and ratings.” Of course, it’s all about money at the end of the day.

It was selfish, the poor parents must be grieving the loss of their child and the police refuse to investigate.

Chaehyun saw Haelim’s upset and disapproved face, it was written on it that this was upsetting her a lot more than others. “Hey don’t get too worked up over something that happened. Joy was a stressed senior going through harsh exams, it was most likely because of that.”

“Still…” Haelim quietly turned around sighing. “Okay you’re right.” Giving into her friend she didn’t bother saying much else.

Getting up from the chair Haelim would go to the exit leaving the classroom, Seoyoung and Chaehyun give each other glances back shrugging off. They didn’t bother to ask where their friend was going because they know Haelim is in her own little world.

As usual, Haelim was the one left overthinking this situation. Heading out for a small walk to clear her head before any of the classes resume. She happens to catch a figure suspiciously entering a classroom. Raising an eyebrow, the figure was tall and slender. Black hair fluffed out with round glasses and loose casual clothes.

It doesn’t look like anyone Haelim saw around the school before. Following the same classroom entering it.

The sight of the man searching the desks underneath. Haelim stood there with a determined gaze.

“What are you doing?” Sternly calling out, the man lifts his back around to look at the young girl who was standing in front.

Haelim takes a step forward when the man was quiet. Clearly he was searching for something, and that something he didn’t find because his face was readable. He looks like he got caught red-handed.

“Who are you? I have never seen you around before.” Haelim tilts her head.

He stammers. “I— uh… uh…”

“Are you a pervert?” Haelim assumed. He looked a little weird, like he was doing something inappropriate.

She checks under the desk for any cameras. Previously in the school there was camera footage and many girls were recorded under the desk without notice.

Quickly at the assumption he flinched. “No! I’m not anything like that.”

“Oh yeah? That’s what they all say!”

“jeong haelim?” The voice coming through was an elderly woman. The man and Haelim break their eye contact to look back at the teacher going in the classroom.

“Oh miss song.” Haelim said back in confusion. The teacher looks back at the man. “Mr Mark? What are you doing here.”

Mark was quickly flustered and he gently laughs it off by rubbing the back of his neck.

He clears his voice. “I must’ve got lost in the wrong classroom, Miss Song.”

Haelim didn’t understand, was this guy not a pervert who got into the school by chance? She felt awful and embarrassed for assuming that the new enrolled teacher was a pervert. She even accused him of it too…

Haelim saw him turning to her with a smile. “Nice to meet you Haelim.” She awkwardly nods her head with no words.

Mark walks out with the box of his teaching things following Miss Song out of the classroom. Haelim’s widen eyes were full of surprise as she watched him leave.

‘dammit jeong haelim what a way to make a first impression on your new teacher…’

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[neuroticboyfriend]

yeah i don't know what i think about the cripple reclaimation/abled bodied neurodivergent discourse. like technically, since the mind is part of the body, neurodivergent people are not abled-bodied. however, we still live in a society that has separated the mind from the body, and categorizes disability in to "physical" and "mental"... which affects how people experience ableism and sanism (and thus what slurs we're called).

like, it's entirely possible for someone with a typically "mental" disability (like autism or depression) to experience symptoms that are considered "physically" disabiling... and vice versa. but also, there are people who, by and large... don't. and i don't think any of us know strangers on the internet well enough to discern whether someone has the ~right experiences~ to reclaim a slur pointed at "physical" disability.

at the end of the day, i think i'll just trust people to know themselves best and ykno, if any misunderstandings/misinformation come forth, work on that then. i think i'd rather bond with people who are crippled by things like catatonia or chronic fatigue from mental illness over our shared experiences, rather than invalidate them for not fitting into an ableist and sanist binary. especially since i am also mentally ill/neurodivergent and understand that my mental health impacts my physical health.

so yeah. love to cripples everywhere - especially mad cripples. solidarity is punk.

#this isn't a vague im just thinking about the topic and want to share what i think #cripple #crippled #cripplepunk #mental illness #mentally ill #neurodivergent #physically disabled #chronic illness #madpunk #mad cripple #mentally disabled #neurodivergence #ableism #sanism #slur reclaimation #bodymind #discourse #disabled #disability #disabled community #softspoonie

[disabledunitypunk]

A post reading: Shout out to people who are sleepy guys because they are physically disabled!!!! Life is a game and we are winning sleepiest guys on earth ever. /Pained but light hearted

Also shout out to people who are just dead fucking tired because of their disability. Not everything needs to be a cute little joke, you still deserve recognition <3

(This post is about physical disability do not derail)

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This post was PERFECT... until that last line.

Are you aware that significant and even extreme chronic fatigue are HALLMARK symptoms of MANY mental illnesses, to the point that for many they are part of the DIAGNOSTIC CRITERIA?

Are you aware some of us can't TELL if the chronic fatigue is because of the anxiety, depression, autism, ADHD, schizophrenia, etc etc ad nauseum, or the POTS, fibromyalgia, MCAS, severe vitamin B12/d deficiencies, gut health/absorption issues, or malnutrition secondary to those others...

Are you aware that some of us also CAN tell that in fact it's BOTH, COMPOUNDING each other?!?! That our fatigue would be lessened if we had "only" physical or "only" psychiatric disability.

Are you aware that calling it DERAILING for mentally ill physically disabled people to DARE to talk about their experiences is VILE behavior?

ARE YOU?!?!

Y'all talk about how cripplepunk is about being angry, about not taking shit from anyone about your physical symptoms of your disabilities.

Well I'm fucking furious. You're massively fucking ableist for calling it derailing to take something that is a predominant symptom of ALL disabilities and to say it's "derailing" to talk about anything other than YOUR disabilities because it's all about YOU YOU YOU.

You're literally derailing discussions of a near-universal disability symptom because something being about someone other than you, who has a different experience of their disabilities than you, who is possibly as physically disabled by their neurological and neurochemical conditions than you are by your physical ones in the exact same way - oh but that's not possible, right, because it's not the way YOU experience it.

Just shut UP. Just leave off that last fucking line and turn off reblogs if you're so fucking autocentric that you can't acknowledge experiences other than yours EXIST.

It's not DERAILING that I can't separate my mental illness fatigue and physical illness fatigue, and that in fact they combine into something larger than the sum of their parts, that multiply disabled people EXIST. That we're refusing to toe the party line and be good little crips within the community, because for all you talk big game about standing up to abled people, you're too afraid to tell other disabled bullies (or admit to yourself) how disabling your own mental illnesses are because of how they treat those of us who do.

Or you're just one of the petty bullies who can't understand their experiences are not universal.

Either way, you know how they treat us, because you've facilitated it. Bully or coward, you need to fucking STOP treating other disabled people like they're your fucking oppressors, like we have any fucking systemic power over you. We're over here being locked up and killed by police and killing ourselves over the lack of power with have and specifically the way our autonomy is TAKEN from us, and y'all have the nerve to accuse people who are as or more PHYSICALLY crippled than you of "derailing" by acknowledging our own disabilities.

Fuck off. You're not punk, you're pathetic. You're like that gay republican that was surprised when his party turned on him. You're helping leopards feast on faces by cannibalizing your own, then being shocked when you feel teeth start to break your own skin.

Like sorry, spikes and stickers telling abled people to fuck off on your mobility aid doesn't make you punk, in the same way that being a "mean lesbian/bisexual" isn't activism, it's just being an asshole. You actually gotta walk the walk, and you can't even talk the talk. Punk includes community building, it includes coalition building, it includes fighting AGAINST ableism, not fucking for it.

Might as well start calling yourselves cripplefash, because that punk mask you wear is coming off.

(Userbox with combined wheelchair/rainbow infinity symbol in black and white, says "This user is PHYSICALLY DISABLED *and* neurodivergent.")

Oh, and btw. If you're wondering why this is tagged unitypunk. Paradox of intolerance, assholes. We don't tolerate ableism in disabled spaces. Not against neurodivergent physically disabled folks, not against solely neurodivergent folks, and certainly not excluding ANYONE from a primary symptom of their disability based on having the "wrong" diagnosis. That's the kind of behavior I'd expect of ableist DOCTORS, not our own fucking community.

You know how the queer community says "don't be a fucking cop"? Don't be a fucking doc. Pieces of shit.

#angry #unitypunk #exclusion

[othersidedisc]

so- i don't have amc. amc, for those who don't know, is arthrogryposis multiplex congenita. it's a genetic condition that develops before birth and results in limited movement of the joints, as well as many many other issues. it's a birth defect, one that my brother has. im disabled, not always 100 percent visible, but i do use mobility aids like crutches and a cane. and it just- feels incredibly unfair. that all of the representation i see in art and everything, is always with people who look like me. wherein if they didn't have their mobility aids they would look completely abled. there needs to be representation for invisible disabilities sure (mentally ill people that doesn't mean you sorry), but it's one of those things where we've started pushing such a "see? cripples can look normal too!" narrative that it's still impossible for the person i look up to and know is a fantastic person to feel even relatively like people care about them. so this is a bit of a call to PLEASE start creating stuff with people like him in it. look up references of people with amc, down syndrome, cerebral palsy, other people that get gawked at in public and treated like they're dumb, who have been put in freak shows for years and are still treated like that in their day to day life. please.

[crippl-hacker]

Let's review the manifesto for Cripple Punk again! [Addressing the discourse]

With all of the discourse I see about who is/can identify with Cripple Punk or Cpunk I think it's time to take some time to reaffirm the basics and take some time to shine a spotlight on the Madpunk movement.

You can find the original manifesto here but I copied it down below

principles of cripple punk: -cripple punk is exclusively by the physically disabled for the physically disabled -cripple punk is about solidarity & is open to all physically disabled people -cripple punk rejects pity, inspiration porn, & all other forms of ableism

-cripple punk rejects the “good cripple” mythos. cripple punk is here for the bitter cripple, the uninspirational cripple, the smoking cripple, the drinking cripple, the addict cripple, the cripple who hasn’t “tried everything”

-cripple punk fights internalized ableism & fully supports those struggling  with it

-cripple punk respects intersections of race, culture, gender, sexual/romantic orientation, size, intersex status, mental illness/neuroatypical status, survivor status, etc.

-cripple punk recognizes that there is no one universal disabled experience

-cripple punk does not pander to the able bodied

———————— other rules:

-cripple punk is not conditional on things like mobility aids & “functioning levels”

-always listen to those w/ different physical disabilities & different intersections than yourself. do not speak over them

-disabled people do not need to personally identify w/ the words “cripple” or “punk” individually to be a part of cripple punk

-able bodied people wishing to spread the message may only ever amplify the voices of the disabled

-able bodied people may never use uncensored slurs themselves but never censor our language

-able bodied people must always tag things like reblogs with “i’m able bodied”

-physically disabled people wanting to be a part of the movement who are uncomfortable using the slur may refer to it as “cpunk”

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The thing is that there *is* an intersection between mental disabilities and physical disabilities but they are very different in my personal experience. That doesn't mean that one is worse than the other; just that their experiences are very different.

As someone who struggled as an adolescent with Ulcerative Colitis then spent my teenage years struggling with Treatment Resistant Depression, General Anxiety, PTSD, ADHD, and Bipolar Type 2, followed by my twenties being taken over from having to deal with Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder and GI issues again I have experience with both sides of the coin.

As a teenager my mental disabilities ruined my life. I struggled with motivation, suicidal ideation, hygiene, classwork and more. I found it hard to get out of bed most days. I struggled with insomnia. I failed half my classes freshman year due to undiagnosed depression. I cannot go to some places due to the loud noises, bright lights, and more that cause sensory issues.

What I have found to be useful for my mental disabilities is Madpunk. It actually talks about ways to cope with my mental issues and solutions. It talks about the negative and positive impacts of psychiatry.

However dealing with my physical disabilities is a completely different game. I have to think about whether public events will be accessible to me if I am using my rollator or a wheelchair. I get harassed by strangers for having a disability placard. I have to gauge my stamina and weigh the cost/benefits of going shopping. I am constantly using the bathroom - missing class time. Some days I cannot physically move out of my bed due to the amount of pain I am in. It can take me days to recover if I push myself past my limits. Sometimes my knees give out on me and I collapse.

Both my mental illness and physical illness have left me bed bound before - but the experiences are completely different. The treatment for mental and physical disabilities are different. The overlap of having a physical disability and then getting a mental disability is very common.

The cripple punk movement accepts the intersection between physical disability and mental disabilities. The definition of able-bodied is not having a physical disability. But if you only have mental disabilities and are able bodied there is space for you in the Madpunk movement. Mental Disabilities can be just as debilitating as Physical Disabilities - that is not in question. Just please don't be trying to take up space in a movement where we want to focus on our physical disabilities.

The Madpunk movement is under recognized and more people should help join in and further their cause. There is so much good discussion happening there - please go check it out! Talk about your personal experiences and help develop more theory.

The end message is that all disabled people are harmed by our current system. There should be more accommodations for mental disabilities. We need to focus on uplifting all of us rather than fighting each other and missing the real enemy.

#cpunk #cripple punk #cripplepunk #madpunk #mad punk #cripplepunk discourse #actually disabled #physical disability #mental disability