#and im living in a world where they never got to see their lives improve but somehow i fucking did

[forsaken-gay]

i still think about zander and leelah a lot & i find that really strange. not from the perspective that it's strange i remember them, but when they died they would never have known it would gain the reach it has and that people they never knew would think about them, even 7 years later.

i was still in the closet at the time as a trans man and both incidents really impacted me. i don't know why i'm reflecting on it now, but im remembering people i didn't know, 7 years after their deaths, and thinking how fucking unfair it is that they didn't get to see things through.

#idk this is all very self indulgent. just being back on tumblr made me remember them again #it feels really fucking unfair that i got to transition but two of the only trans people i knew of being discussed in the media never did #and im living in a world where they never got to see their lives improve but somehow i fucking did #it just sucks to think about #but also its like?? my god #they would never know when they wrote that stuff that it would have such a wide reach #that people would still think about them and remember them so many years on #i just think about it a lot more often than i want to #because i remember reading their notes and sobbing at 13 because they were both older than me #and how could i ever live in a world people older than me in my position couldnt #man. #suicide mention #transphobia mention #vaguely

[xan-izme]

Crybaby (Sully fam X daughter!reader)

Summary: Reader has always been a crybaby. Sensitive and had a soft spot for all living life. Jake disliked how sensitive you always were, he sent you out on your own for a month and came back a cold-blooded killer.

Warnings: Death, gore, mentions of death, mentally unstable reader, violence, Trauma

You were kind, sweet. Always looked on the bright side, you were on the same path as Kiri, training to become Tsahik. But it was clear you weren't as good as Kiri, which you were quick to admit.

That lead to Jake placing you with your brothers, training to become warriors. He wanted to tough you up, Jake loves how much you cherished love, he loved seeing the world through your optimistic eyes.

But ever since the sky people came back, he just needed his eldest daughter to be strong. Be there just in case he would leave this world a little too early.

"How many times do I have to tell you? Y/n, I need you to keep your balance! keep tripping like that you'll get killed." Jake's words hurt you, but you remember how upset he was the last time you nearly cried.

You inhaled sharply "Yes father." You stood up from the ground and faced your twin, Neteyam. He gave you a knowing look that wanted to know if they should stop, you shook your head lightly, not wanting to seem more of a wimp to your father then you already are.

You were an average hunter, your skills in fighting weren't that bad either.

But that wasn't enough for Jake. He needed to know that you were as skilled as Neteyam, as skilled as your mother was. So, it was always.

"Be faster"

"Hit stronger"

"Not good enough, try again!"

You would push your limit. Till you couldn't keep your eyes open. Your father would say words of gratitude here and there. Like small nods and a "Good work"

Your brothers sometimes feel like that's not enough for how much he makes you do. But just the smallest amount of approval from Jake made you feel like you were on cloud nine, causing you to do more, work harder.

Then one day, you were having a hard week, you were getting frustrated at the simplest things. Even your fathers nagging was annoying you.

When it came to training, you slipped up and made multiple mistakes that Jake just could not take it.

"Y/n, come now." Jake spoke calmly. You and your twin glanced at each other. You stood up with the help of Neteyam and followed your father.

The two of you walked through the woods.

"Baby, you know why I push you and your siblings so much, right?"

You nod your head, feeling a little nervous even if Jake was using his usual soft tone. "Then you understand--" Jake held you by your shoulders "--That this family, this clan is our fortress. And protecting this family is everything"

His words were deep to you, it was clear this was important to him. "And I need you to be strong. And training here hasn't been helping. So, Im sending you off. Away from here, so you can improve more on your own" Jake saw how your expression dropped "don't worry! It'll only be for a month. Ill check in every few weeks." He tried to reassure you. It didn't really calm your nerves down, but seeing how desperate he was to make sure you and the family was safe?

there was no way you could say no.

So, you left, you were on your own. The first few days were hard. And there were multiple times when you got seriously hurt and cried. God, you cried so much. All that crying made you hate yourself.

Hate every flaw you had. You even hated the soft part of you. Scolding yourself, knowing that kindness and your crying will not protect the clan, your family.

Jake did try to visit you. But you never stayed in one place. The two of you talked a little over the inner coms when you two would be miles apart. But those convocations didn't last.

You were training harder than ever. Perfecting every little thing down to the bone. In all honesty, you did go a little off from the safe zone, where you ran into a few sky people. You made it our alive, as for those sky people?

Well, you only let one live, still having that small kindness and mercy in you. Which was a big mistake.

You received a message from Norm and Max when they wanted to check on you, that a sky person bombed up a small part of the safe zone close to the high camp. No one was killed, but a lot were majorly injured.

Gaining all the details of the incident, you realize that it was the sky person you let live.

Cursing yourself and beating yourself for being so foolish, so naive for thinking nothing of what that sky demon after setting it free. So, you vowed to not give your enemy's any type of mercy, to kill all those evil demons, to protect you clan, your family.

Because this family was your fortress. And you were determined to be theirs.

Your month was over, and you were just so excited to go home. To hug and smother your siblings with kisses. To show your dear parents how strong and skilled you've become. To make your father proud of you. To officially be seen as enough to help protect everyone.

Norm gave you an inner com that was connected to your family, being told that your parents and dear twin brother were on patrol at the moment.

You decided to fly your Ikran to where you were told you parents and twin would be at. But when you were a few clicks away from them, you heard Lo'ak's voice. Saying he has gained sight of intruders. Ones who were carrying guns.

Dreamwalkers

You spoke into your inner coms.

"I'm closest to their location. I'll engage."

"Y/n-- wait, no! Y/n you better not!" Jake shouted.

"Y/n te i'tri Mo'ata Sully. Stay down! that's an--"

You turned your intercoms off. The safety of your baby siblings was the only thing you had in mind. It was almost eclipse, and telling by how the winds picks up and the clouds, it was to rain soon.

Your Ikran felt the panic and determination you were feeling and speed up to get to the location faster.

.

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.

.

You made it before your parents and twin could. You killed off every single dreamwalker. And that demon who took your mother's home away, who took Kiri's mother away.

The demon who caused so much harm to your clan.

"Any last words Demon?" you say, tilting your head as you held the sharp dagger to Quritche's throat. The Demon growled and spat in your face.

You weren't very pleased with that; you turned your head towards your siblings who were huddled against a tree.

"Spider"

The small human boy flinched by the way your voice sounded.

"Close your eyes." You said with a small fond smile. But it felt nothing like that. Kiri quickly brought Spider close to her and covered his eyes.

You looked back at Quaritche. The moment you slit his throat and began to detach his head from his body, was the moment Jake and Neytiri entered the scene.

Neytiri was quick to go by her younger children's side. Your ears perk and notice Jake. Once you laid eyes on him. Your face lit up.

"Father!" Youran to him and hugged him. Jake was in utter shock at the scene in front of him. He slowly hugged you tight. You pulled away, smiling, unphased by the amount of blood that was on you.

"I did it. I saved them. Look!" you pulled Jake to where Quaritche's dead body was and grabbed the head of the demon.

"I have killed him. I did it!"

Neteyam slowly entered and looked over what you had done.

"Mommy!" Tuk whined and was quickly embraced by Neytiri.

You were smiling, happy that you've finally rid your father of the nightmare that had burdened your family.

But when you began to see the look Jake had. You started to notice that was not the look of approval you hoped for.

"Y/n . . .What have you done?"

Your smile dropped, being replaced with confution

"Wha-. . .what? what's wrong? what did I do wrong!?" You didn't understand. Did you not put them down fast enough? Should you have taken out the leader before the others? What was it that was wrong??

"Y/n, baby. This--" He was pointing out to the bloody battle around them "--Is wrong. You tampered with their body's. Some of them are still bleeding out!"

"N-no! it's okay you see! I made it for them to not move at all and suffer their punishment." You tried to defend yourself. Tried to make your dear father know that it was okay. And that you did a good job.

Neytiri hurried the children to exit this part of the forest fast, including Spider. Neytiri didn't like Spider, but the boy didn't deserve to see all of this. None of her children did.

"That is not our way!" Jake yelled. Frustrated, worried and scared for his daughter in front of them.

Your ears pinned back. Feelings of sadness, betrayal and anger infecting your heart.

"Well, your way didn't work for me. You said so yourself! Why can't you just be happy!?" Your nose scrunched up in anger.

"I did this for the clan, for our family-- For you!" You were getting upset. All you wanted was the feeling of being called a Sully, worthy of the tittle as Toruk Makto's daughter.

"You can't do this. Your way will bring unbalance to the clan. And if you can't do that. . . then I'll have to strip your tittle as a warrior of this clan." Jake's words caused everyone to stop.

"Ma jake." Neytiri spoke, her eyes glancing between her mate and child.

You felt your bottom lip quivering. But your eyes refused to release the tears. You slowly backed away from Jake, nodding your head a little. Your eyes found its way to Spider who kept tripping, his legs still shaking from what he witnessed.

"Spider." You spoke up. The boy forced himself to look at you.

"Keep tripping like that. . . . . and you'll get killed."

#jake sully #neytiri #neteyam #lo'ak x sister!reader #jake sully x daughter reader #kiri avatar #spider #tuktirey #na'vi x reader #death mention tw #animal death

[yermes]

After two hours of sleep and a mental break down pick a card and reveal how you can grow in a magic space. 🌻

Pick a meme

1: The Universe 🫐

Represents Yesod to Malkuth, the completion of the great work, if the fool is the beginning this is the end.

You as an individual found your truth so to speak. Theres always room for improvement but your technique is stable. You have as much of an understanding as ever for what you do and how you do it. The one thing is when you have all this vastness ahead of you it can cause somewhat of a depression. However, the end gives birth to the beginning and with the end of whatever you got going on its setting you up for newer paths. Take your wisdom, knowledge, and experience and go off on another adventure! Grow by simply growing more. You are doing amazing but never settle theres always more to learn even after you think you mastered one aspect.

2: Knight of Cups 🫖

Represents 21° Aquarius to 20° Pisces, represents Chokmah, is called “The fire in the waters of Briah”

Deciding you need help is a great step. A big part of this card is the sexual, holy, escapist imagery. I know its a lot but thats okay, if you don’t like a lot go find less. At this point you seem unstable, at times its like you don’t know WHAT to believe with so many conflicting sources and at times bad guides. This card represents trying to reach medium out of every extreme and you may just need to sit back, ask for help, clear your head and get a little boost to that holy grail queen. For growth I would talk! Bounce ideas around, maybe ask for help. The world is your oyster yeah things can be scary and confusing and extreme but you can make this experience all your own and reach the grail your own way.

3: Pleasure 🍷

Represents six of cups, Tiphareth, Sun in Scorpio

You are not all the way full with your personal Journey you still have a ways to go. However, you reached a certain level of success and while enjoying the fruits of your labor is amazing be careful at becoming that guy.. like you pop up in the chat and everyone leaves because you decided its your life and they’re just living it. Be happy with your growth and progress but do not become vain, realize everyone is on a personal journey and you are not always right. The more you learn the more you realize we know nothing. Take time to think before you speak and act! But keep growing you are flourishing!

End.

I just want to add this to the end because I wanted to say I wasted a lot of time in magic or occult spaces. I wasted my time arguing and starting fight but while the community definitely has draw backs its also a great resource! Instead of attacking off the bat I slowly research and see if I can understand their point of view but also stay at arms length to keep my energy relatively safe. Im a tired bitch. I kinda came back to be more social in these spaces when I realized that when in moderation and being safe they can have so many studying benefits and I don’t have to conform to a space to be a magician or to be who I am as a whole. I also saw some bullshit on tiktok pop up and instead of losing my mind over it I researched it found where they may have misunderstood and moved on. Thats character development.

#suitlifeofgerm #askgerm #pick a card #pick a picture #the magic or occult community use to piss me the fuck off but now that im less salty #its not that bad its just kinda like junk food its fine but in moderation

[poopingonthefloor]

youu sshhould tell some headcanons u got for jack dave n henry if u want ofc

OK SURE! *glass shattering sound* (Some of these are not "headcanons" or are technically implied to be canon but im just going to list all of my specific perceptions regarding the character)

Long list down bellow. vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

-Dave and Jack both have adhdtism and borderline personality disorder. (((I also want to use this opportunity to apologize for any previous ignorance/rudeness i may have responded with before I'm a bitch but erm I am improving. so yeh also yeah i can definitely see Jack being autistic now too which i know i said i dont really see. it turns out my symptoms i projected onto him were also autistic symptoms so um...))) -Jack is a dog person, Dave doesnt have an animal prefrence but dogs suit him the best because he's dependent and sensitive and dogs love unconditionally, Henry has no feelings about animals however he dislikes dogs in particular. -Henry likes cartoon bears the best though. only cartoon versions.

-I imagine Dave as a child wasn't necessarily BULLIED by other orphans but he was treated poorly and excluded. Adult carers would try to befriend him but he was a "problem child" as a kid and didn't comprehend human boundaries (he never learned) so he made adults uncomfortable too. -I stole this one but if Dave was a cat he'd be a lykoi. henry would be a maine coon (jack is a default shorthair but i give him folded ears sometimes for fun) -My Dave was born purple (and also Henry is born pink) for reasons similar to Doggo's "why is henry's eyes evil" explanation. It's just different ways of their "evil" manifesting -- Dave's eyes are normal as a child however because obviously he isnt "evil" as a child, I imagine his soul is just weird and that he's never been fully normal. (because I'm not a fan of "x character if bad thing never happened" worlds where the character is basically just a normal person. Like its just more interesting if they were always an outcast/unusual from birth. Also it just makes more sense for Dave's character since he is never shown to be normal in any way even in the flipside LOL....also because Dave is often described as "not exactly human")

-Henry however just quickly grew to be jaded and resentful of anyone and anything living. Either from his dad or just that being his personality (but I prefer both). He wasn't outcast and he got along with people when he felt like it but he just hated everyone. -However I imagine Henry always had a childish side to him that enjoys more cartoon artistry and performance. -Henry and Dave gesture similarly when expressing excitement/enthusiasm, though Henry gestures very little most of the time. Henry either expresses exaggeratedly and cartoonishly (but comes across condescending) or not at all.

-Jack likes to watch TV but Dave does not and finds sitting still and watching pictures on a screen boring. (Though certain movies/shows are an exception) -Back when Dave still had simple desires/pleasures (before the lobotomy) he always wanted to have a pet but animals always hated him (because he didn't know how to handle them gently).

-Henry has no romantic or sexual desires whatsoever. He had a wife and child simply because Martha confidently expressed interest on him and he decided to lie to her. The only motive really involved was the societal standard of having a family/having a kid to continue his legacy (but henry didn't really need that to spread his didnt he lol..)

-Alongside that Dave is pansexual and Jack is bisexual (with a prefrence to men) but those are obvious -Dave appears stiff however can contort his body disturbingly (flexible), Jack is normal and appears in great condition for a corpse... (mostly due to makeup (nail polish emoji))

Ok thats all for now so I don't make this post longer than LONG. thank you for asking my headcanons though. ^__^ I love being crazy and sharing my opinions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#feel free to ask for more whenever #or if you have any suggestions you can send those (though i wont answer them unless I am particularly interested by it) #Dsaf #davesport #dave miller #jack kennedy #henry miller #william afton #old sport #dayshift at freddys #dayshift at freddy's #ask

[thecultofmalcom]

So. Its out. This is obviously pretty awesome sauce (sorry not sorry jas) and like.

wow.

so it started, middle/late 2011, almost 12 years ago. Some silly little university kids making a stupid horror puppet show. Becky Sloan and Joseph Pelling, creating Dont Hug Me Im Scared. What a way to start of the 2010s huh.

After a series of short videos, created for the Kickstarter, the sequel was created. Tony The Talking Clock was he spectacle of 2014 tumblr, eventually winning the most coveted title a fictional outcast could probably get, ‘Tumblr Sexyman.’ The fandom at this time was WILD, with the whole IceHell genre and the ‘Paige x Tony’ fanatics. Not to mention that kids react video.

At this same year, my personal skrunkle scrimblo came around. The Love Cult was introduced by the ringleader Shrignold, worshipping a stone who they fed gravel. Nobody knows why or how the living FUCK they managed to start a cult like this, but here we go. This was the first time the gang was seen outside, and this circled around Yellow Guy (whos a pig??)

Along comes 2015, introducing the absolute LEGEND, COLIN. THE. COMPUTER. Legend in the making, stupid self absorbed fucktwat, and the computery guy!! Also, the outro was a bop. By now, the DHMIS community had grown a fanbase, the watch count of the series so far over 3 Million!!1!

AND NOW. THIS IS WHEN SHIT GETS REAL!!

dhmis five. the talking point of every internet kids trauma. This episode was about being helfy!,2 Joined by the silly goofy Healthy Band, duck guy and yellow (red guy, whered he go?) learned all about why you shouldnt eat food from a strangers plate!! What made DHMIS special was its unsettling gore, which was shown perfectly in the scene where duck gets his. organs took out! graphically! Awesome!

then the finale came. dhmis 6, 2016, 6. years ago now. 6 whole years. introducing the harsh reality of the real world, the absoloute CHAD which we call Larry, Lars, Larson, Lamp Guy, THE LAMP1!11 Teaching (drunk, on drugs, sleep deprived, who knows?) yellow guy all about the wonderful dreams you can have, including eating a drink, buying a hat, losing your friends and drowning in oil of course! This episode was what made this whole puppet show a real nightmare. skrunkle yellow guy gets (unfortunately) mind-tortured by all the teachers, including the saxaphone. still really wanna know how to buy a canoe. At the end, we finally found out who was the brains behind all of this, none other than yellow guys DAD himself, ROY. This is why, perhaps, this whole fever dream nightmare was based around June 19th Fathers day. This is what, we all though, the end was. 5 years of youtube wonder, Becky Joe and Baker created a phenomenon that shocked the internet in perhaps a million different ways. But the positive feedback was overwhelming, woohoo!

By now, the improvement was MASSIVE. as shown below :

And now. This is when we all thought it was over. Until 2 years later, in 2018, all hope was lost. Until those 2 words,

WAKEY WAKEY!!

this was a 30 second short trailer for the DHMIS Pilot, showing at the 2019 Sundance film festival!

This is where it gets a bit weird, because not only is the original Wakey Wakey deleted, the full thing was never shown anywhere else. the only surviving footage of this was the bad quality pirated videos , with those 2 girls laughing thunderously in the background. A new sexyman, MEAN STEVE (🤤, sorry not sorry) WAS INTRODUCED! WE ALL WANNA SEE HIM IN HIS FULL METAL STICK GLORY! But nah we didnt get that. We didnt get a show, which we all because suspicious of.

well. thats what we thought.

2020. the year of the corona. no hope, isolation. until a lovely woman named Becky Sloan posted a lil thing on her instagram. ‘Were making a tv shooowwww! 📺👀📺👀📺👀📺👀’ AND THIS IS WHERE IT GOT WILDER AWESOMER EPICER!!! WE WAITED AND WE WAITED AND WE FINALLY GOT SOME CONFIRMATION! THIS WAS AWESOME! it got picked up by a charity project by the name of BFI YAC,, hoping to pick up on small industries work! AND IT DID!

time went by, still no show. we all thought it was over, cancelled, whatever.

2021 ROLLS PAST.

FILMING WAS WRAPPED! IN THE TIME WE WERE ALL GRIEVING AT THE THOUGHTS OF NO TV SHOW, THEY WERE WORKING ON IT THE WHOLE TIMEEE!!

‘WAKEY WAKEY’ as the fandom called it at the time, was coming!

now we wait. until FEB 25 2022. They finished the final sound recording. It was all done, we were all waiting for that special day, June 19th

, Fathers day. , 3 months ago.

and what did we get?

FLY.

THE TRAILER FOR THE NEW SHOW, PREMIERING CHANNEL 4 IN SEPTEMBER!! OH !EM GEE!

Now, we were all anticipating for the new series, we waited EXTREMELY PATIENTLY for this, 4-5 years no less. Honestly we shoulda won an award for the most patient fandom at this point.

SEPTEMBER 2022!

WE GOTTA GET THINGS READY FOR THS BIG DAY! BIG DAY! THE TRAILER WAS OUT! COMING SEPTEMBER 13TH!

but then, disaster struck! ohh no!

HRH Queen Elizabeth fell ill and kicked the bucket. Obviously , this meant not only is the country in ruins now lol! (fuck liz truss basically) But the show (we thought) was in jeopardy! (not really) The 10 days of mourning began, and the All 4 Website announced that the show would be slightly delayed, but coming this month.

THIS MONTH! NOW! FRIDAY 23RD, 2022. THE BIG DAY HAS ARRIVED! 6 SHINING BRAND NEW EPISODES, PREPARED FOR THE BIG TV DEBUT FRIDAY 30TH SEPTEMBER!

THE IMPROVEMENT, BY NOW WAS STUNNING AWESOME EPIC!! LOOKLOOKLOOK!

this new series, which is 1 day old!! fresh new awesome! is AMAZING! 3 WHOLE HOURS FULL OF OUR FAVE TRAFFIC LIGHT TRIO!

(Yes. we know, you still find red guy sexy.)

(AND COLIN. AND THE LAMP. AND A BIT OF TONY TOO!)

JUST THREE OF THEM! CLAYHILL HAD, UNFORTUNATELY, SHRIVELLED UP OR SOMETHING! (I RECKON)

this was obviously a sign that Wakey Wakey is now Lost Media. But we got this! all thanks to that one silly dumb stupid epic 3 minute long short on youtube, made by 2 people, in their free time, DONT HUG ME IM SCARED!

This post is basically, appreciation for Becky Joe and Baker, and the fandom, and everyone who helped in the making of this phenomenon!

Along the way, we’ve encountered our askblogs, most notably @sketchbook-and-tony-adventures !! And the awesome, probably most noted artists of DHMIS tumblr, the epic awesome amazing @amii-stuff @frootrollup? whats the username again? @hecklefreckled & @bernold ! Obviously more as well but i honestly dont remember the usernames :/ And our epic news sharer @creative-time !! Thanks you guys! And some awesome others, like @creechurfoundincheckerboardvoid @dhmispaint and the bezzie mate @xzumichannn !! Woohoo! Thank you guys so much, without this crazy massive fandom, we probably wouldnt have even got this far, crazy right!

So far, the best moments of this 2011-2022 era for me have been

- ‘Where are all you nasty clockfuckers! did you finally fuck that clock?’

- Sketch has a small face

- LisWeegee Adventures In Lurning dubs

- Whoever the heck that spanish dhmis gacha person is!

- That one ‘No bitches’ meme with shrignold :

- My amazing askblog i could never be bothered to do!

- Whoever that tiktok guy is

- “FREELANCERS DESERVE TO DIE!”

- Money Man. Deserves to be a sexyman fr!

- “BYE GUYS! I LOVE YOU!”

- Hearing the first few seconds of the first episode intro. those bells man. something, a feeling im never gonna feel again. ever. something i could experience only once.

The only bad thing. LAMPS SOBERED UP?? WHERED THE DRUGGIE INSOMNIAC VOICE GO?

Anyways. I love yall your all awesome, were finally trending on tumblr again, and we all have worms in our brain!

What have we got to look forward to now?

- DELTARUNE NEW CHAPTERS, 2023? The finale will probably be ready for 2027…

thats literally it. sorry. Hazbin Hotels coming to tv? i guess? lol.

this is obviously a national highlight of 2022 🥱 well no. Its internationally an internet milestone. duh!

LONG LIVE DHMIS!!

#dhmis #dont hug me im scared #bigday #dhmis wakey wakey #wakey wakey #2022 highlights #red guy #duck guy #yellow guy #traffic light trio #becky sloan #joseph pelling #baker terry #thecultofmalcom

[acesofspadess]

Live {2}

summary: after a silly little comment on Niall's live, who would've thought it bring you...well here....

a/n: so the drama begins.....

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“I choose Kelly.”

6 March, 2023

“Hi my name is Maia Quinn, i am 22 years old, and i'm from Dublin Ireland, but am currently living in LA”

Throughout the next 3 years, you released an EP titled ‘Live’ . It was an homage to the thing that really kicked off your career, the live with Niall. Niall had followed you and liked a few of your posts for the months after that, joining some of your lives and having small banter. But in reality, you hadn't had any interaction with him since. You texted him back and it was never answered for almost 3 years. It seemed it had all been forgotten, which you knew would probably happen. 

“I was born in Dublin, and later on moved when I was 5 to a small town. Coming from a well known small town doesn't really do much for you in the long run. I was constantly told I would never be a singer. That just because I was from where I was from didn't mean that I would go ‘hollywood’. That really does quite a toll on a young kid just finding out what her dreams are.”

The clip showed you walking down a hallway to the stage.

“Being here on The Voice today is to prove to me and all the young little girls that are told they can't do it, that they can if they want to. And that's what really matters.”

Next artist is walking on stage

“I can feel this one. They're gonna be good.” Niall whispered to his co-judges. 

You raised the mic to your lips and made yourself get lost in the music.

Summer after high school when we first met We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead And on my 18th birthday we got matching tattoos

The audience cheered slightly and you let the nerves dissipate

Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof

You opened your eyes as you heard the turn of a chair and saw Kelly looking at you

Talk about our future like we had a clue Never planned that one day, I'd be losing you In another life

You watched Kelly stand up and you felt all the nerves come back

I would be your girl We keep all our promises Be us against the world In another life I would make you stay So I don't have to say You were the one that got away The one that got away

You waited for your next part and saw the next chair turn…

Niall

You closed your eyes and continued.

Cause i now i pay the price

You held that note letting it merge into the next

In another life I would make you stay

You opened your eyes to see Niall singing softly with you and you quickly looked away

So I don't have to say You were the one that got away The one that got away

When you finished you turned around to let yourself not freak out and turned back around to face the judges. “I know you.” Niall spoke when the audience died down and you knew the look of shock and betrayal flashed over your features before you smiled and laughed awkwardly. “Wait what? How?” Kelly questioned from her chair. “I sang a cover of one of his songs on live once.” the audience cheered and you looked down. 

“Wow, that's crazy!” Kelly gasped. “Well tell us who you are.” Chance spoke up. “Im Maia Quinn, I'm 22 and I'm from Dublin, Ireland, but now live here in LA” the audience cheered and you saw Nialls smile falter. 

“Wait you have this small speaking voice and this giant singing voi- what just happened?” you laughed and apoligised before Niall spoke up. “I love voices with so much, like, character like you've got. It was incredible to see you up there after all this time, what 3 years?” you nodded softly trying not to let any feelings from the past show. “Watching you hit these powerful notes and seeing how much improvement you've gotten in 3 years, and still being so young is incredible.”

You thanked him as he kept going. “I can see you're nervous, gripping with two hands. But I've been there before, shaking on a stage. But you are gonna grow so much in this competition and I can't wait to see it first hand.”

You thanked him again and turned to Kelly as she spoke. “Hi Maia!” 

“Hi Kelly!” 

“Okay your beautiful eyes were closed, but i turned around like way before him.” she pointed to Niall and you laughed “and I was like okay, I don't know if that's nerves or if it's her just really loving this message and wanting to be the vessel for it. You had me in the beginning, when it was a beautiful whisper as for how you were sounding, and then it, like, exploded in the chorus. And i am great at teaching vocalist, like breath control, bubbling before you get out there, like really making sure that you are solid with your vocal ability, that by the time you get out, your not nervous. But I'm just a really big fan of your voice.”

You and Kelly both saw Blake pass papers to Niall and Kelly scolded them. “Kelly can't coach nerves. She admits it.” Niall read and everyone laughed as she confirmed it. Niall talked to you and praised you a little more, “truly has been a battle to death here.” Blake spoke up sarcastically as Niall and Kelly had gone back and forth praising each other. “Maia, who do you pick to be your coach?”

You were confused to say the least. You head was screaming Niall, but your heart was feeling heartbreak. You knew Niall would lead you down the right path, but you didn't want to be left at a fork in the road alone again.

“I choose Kelly.”

@youcan-nolonger-run @luxiorchive @maeflowers653 @ravenclawdirectioner

#nialler #cute niall #niall horan x reader #niall horan fluff #niall horan fanfiction #niall horan #niall horan smut #niall fanfic #niall one shot #one direction #solo niall #niall 1d #niall james horan #niall horan fic #niall the show #niall horan x y/n #niall imagine #niall horan x you #the show 2024 #live

[atomicmoths]

Fallout OC asks, dealer's choice of character: 1, 2, 9 and 31?

IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER....I got carried away and wanted to talk about all of my fallout OCs.... All of my characters include... Schaefer (Schae) Hartmann and her wife, Toni. Their descendants are my two characters Loretta (Rhett) Locklear and River Hartmann (they're cousins!) Jack and his granddaughter, Mariposa. The other non related characters are Claire, Sherry, and Danny! Answers, below the cut! It's a doozy. :)

1. All of my characters are human! The exception is Danny, a ghoul who's lived all over the wastes since the Great War. 2. Schae (pronounced Shay) is my 76er. She was born inside Vault 76. Rhett is my Courier 6, Jack is my Vault Dweller, his granddaughter Mariposa is my Chosen one, Claire is my Warrior (Fallout Tactics protag) and Sherry is my Lone Wanderer! Yes, I don't have a Sole Survivor! To me, FO4 is a little harder to come up with a character for as they feel a little more boxed in by an identity (ie, parent who is a soldier/lawyer depending if you pick nate or nora.) 9. Schae & Toni: Schae grew up in Vault 76, and on reclamation day set off into the Appalachian wastes. Toni grew up in WV but originally her family came from Nevada, where they decided to move back out to years later. They say Schae had some strange mutations from living in the wastes, and could "jump as high as a jackalope." Rumor has it, she lives ghoulified out in the world, still hunting for Cryptids. Rhett & River: Cousins who grew up on the same Brahmin far, they didn't get along until their adulthood. River left home young to pursue a music and radio host career, as well as to seek a medical transition, while eventually Rhett became a Courier for the Mojave express. River now travels all over the wastes collecting music holotapes and stories. Jack: My Vault 13 Dweller, being forced out into the wastes at 18 to find a new water chip for his Vault. His backstory is pretty straight forward from there, following the events of the game. At some point in his 60s, he suddenly left Arroyo, to never be seen again. Mariposa: A name chosen by her grandfather, naturally Mariposa was destined to become the Chosen One of her tribe. She's bright and spunky, but quick on her feet and witty. With her Highwayman full of companions, she set off to save her tribe. Sherry: Sherry was originally just a bit of a self insert character from my first Fallout 3 play through, but she's evolved since then. (IE, when I started new games, I typically just made the character myself) but she's pretty different now, and is named after the 4 Seasons song, Sherry. Claire: Claire is currently the least fleshed out, because I'm still working through my Tactics playthrough! But she's a BOS Scribe. :) Danny: Fun fact! Danny was my first and oldest fallout OC. She originally started as a Fallout 3 OC, but she's evolved since. She was living in DC when the Great War happened and has since spent her days as a wanderer. 31. River wants to leave a lasting imprint on people through his music and his radio Broadcast, Little Brahmin Blues. Both Mariposa and Sherry want to change and improve the wastes for the better, while Jack has a disdain for his legacy seeing as how it cost him his place in his Vault.

#fallout oc #fallout ocs #fallout series #fallout 1 #fallout 2 #fallout tactics #fallout new vegas #fallout 76

[herobrinna]

Well, considering im still mildly pissed about the toh finale, wanting a distraction from it, and considering todays date, I think its the perfect time to infodump my toh x homestuck au.

I hope whoever reads this suffers <3

Ok, starting chronologically (or attempting to at least) with the collectors' backstory, or as I've so creatively renamed them to "star people", to not confuse the species with The Collector (the character).

So, the star people's species originated very early since the universe's creation, some might even argue that they are the first sapient species to ever exist, although verifying that would be impossible, for the universe was a very chaotic place back then, with all the destruction happening let and right, pockets for life to emerge were very small and far between. But the star people got initially lucky, and got a very quiet space in the newborn universe.

Of course, relatively speaking, that quiet didn't last long (it lasted quite a few million years but like). The star people were just about discovering technology that would let them expand into the stars as tragedy struck, and for one reason or another their home world was destroyed.

With there being so few viable planets at that time they could settle on, they decided to adapt their bodies to survive in space. With a mixture of mechanical and genetic engineering the species redefined themselves. And with rapid improvements in technology they became almost immortal beings, who could change their bodies however they wanted to suit them.

And thus, they started expanding into space. First, only on the outskirts of galaxies, where things have already mostly calmed down, but with their pseudo-immortality they "soon" saw the rest of the universe reach an equilibrium.

And so began their empire. Though the star people didn't need planets to survive, and they could very much acquire materials from inhospitable worlds; they quickly gained a sort of obsession with discovering and cataloguing any new life form they found. And most of all using the lifeforms' genetics to change their appearances, a sort of fashion statement.

But there was a problem, see despite all their progress they never managed to figure out how to travel faster than light. This isn't that much of a problem for an immortal species of course, they are used to waiting, but the longer they lived the greedier they became, wanting to catalogue everything there ever was, and change their looks to be based of what they considered the coolest creatures.

But oh sweet luck came to them! As they discovered a species they called the titans.

The titans come from a highly oxygenated but also high gravity world, that ended up giving birth to buff ass giants lol. The titans might not have been the largest or strongest species that planet had, but they had 2 things unique about them, 1) they were sapient, and this was the first time the star people encountered another sapient species, and 2) their blood had magical properties.

Soon the star people discovered, that whatever magic, for a lack of better explanation, the titans had in their blood, it was a major ingredient in creating wormholes.

With that, the star people driven with greed, decided to attempt enslaving the titans to harvest their blood.

The titans of course didn't like that, and although they were a tribal species, it turned out their magic is really fucking good at fucking with technology. Thus a war broke out. Blah blah blah, too many details later that'll take me ages to write, the star people lost.

One of the main contributors to their demise was due to editing themselves so much they could only be "born" through artificial means, and due to their semi-immortal lifespans, children took thousands of years to mature to adulthood. So during their prime this species ended up having a very small population (relatively speaking) that was spread all over the place, then during the war they just weren't able to replenish their species in time.

Tho this war has rendered them technically extinct, as the few that remained weren't able to upkeep all the technology required to "birth" new members of their species, and thus the few remnants left decided to live the last of their life exploring the stars.

Overtime, even though their technology was literally designed to last millions of years, it, like them isn't truly immortal, and so with no one to upkeep it, they were slowly dying out one by one.

Some star people, in their final moments of existence decided to make a name for themselves, these are:

Caliborn and Calliope were the last of the species to ever be born. Due to an error they ended up sharing a body and the lab they were born in was long abandoned anyways, so they fended for themselves in their shared body, until they managed to figure out how to make separate bodies for each other. At which point they separated, both absolutely despising each other, with each having different outlooks on what they should do with their newfound freedom.

Caliborn hated everything and went out to destroy as much as possible. Calliope treasured all life and went out to protect as much as possible.

Both of them died way before either humanity or trollanity came into existence, yet they each had an affect on the respective species planets that ended up being factors in their developments.

Calliope found earth when the tragedy that extincted the dinosaurs happened, she used her last bits of life to help restore the planet. Caliborn, when he found Beforus¹, he used his last bits of powers to make the sun as harsh and hostile as possible, he did so to any nearby solar system as well, no longer able to completely destroy shit.

The Sufferer/Jesus were the same person, just a funky ass star person that decided to go around finding sapient species, disguising themselves as one of their own and fucking around.

Most other star people kept to themselves until they died, although 2 still remain:

Hooty was actually the star people's last resort, an attempt at making a weapon that will be effective against the titans. Sadly, he couldnt care less about the war and ended up just vibing on the titan's planet.

The Collector was a kid that was put in stasis, in hopes that he could be raised after the war was over, but forgotten cuz, well everyone died, and Belos found him later, so yh.

Now skipping a bunch of time forward.

Of course everyone know the Alternians manage to find a cheatcode to faster than light travel through the use of the slave labour of their own kind. Thus, with the rapidly expanding into space it wasn't long until they found the Titans as well.

And sadly there wasn't much the titans could do to protect themselves this time. Not only did their magic not do much against the trolls' biotech, but also the trolls greatly outnumbered the titans and could just throw a bunch of lowbloods to be canon fodder.

Thus with the titans enslaved the Alternians now had the much more efficient travel tech of wormholes.

This actually had one nice thing to it tho; giving lowbloods more rights²

With, as close to straight up teleportation as you can get, Alternians set out to conquer the galaxy now faster than ever.

This brings us to humanity.

The year is 2648³ and humanity has started its own space exploration age, having discovered their own way of efficiently traveling the galaxy, that I can't be bothered to make up.

Two brothers-

Actually this is way too long already, I'll do the Wittebrothers' backstory later.

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1 - So basically this au is actually an au of au, which is just a generic no-sgrub au were i re-did troll history. To summarise, trolls originated on Beforus but due to the industrial revolution and its consequences they had to relocate to what is now known as Alternia. Later all history on their origins and Beforus itself was erased.

2 - The Empress at the time⁴ didnt care much for anything other than conquering new planets, and Alternian owned space was already split into regions with sort of their own local governments, kinda like American states, quite a few of which had ...nicer treatment of lowbloods. But with wormholes goldbloods weren't needed as batteries anymore so they managed to protest for more rights.

3 - Yh, I'm just being lazy and setting their story a 1000 years from canon. "Oh but shouldn't it be in 2613 then?" you might ask, and I'm going to tell you that the show is wrong.

4 - The Alternian Empire had many leaders in the past, but the Condesce was the best at erasing history.

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Wow did anyone actually read all that?

Well if someone did, heres a shitty sketch of Belos' "redesign" as an apology for not actually getting to his backstory:

Uhhh, I need to really rework the colours, but it is what it is for the time being.

#Owlstuck au #philip wittebane #emperor belos #(<- just for the sketch at the end) #homestuck #the owl house #toh #the collector #toh hooty #(<- briefly mentioned)

[kimdokjas]

hi pal! we've been mutuals for a while but never really talked much haha. but I was wondering if you could give any tips or resources for learning german? (cus I think you speak it right?) I'm actually moving to germany really soon to finish my phd there. I have some very rudimentary knowledge from several attempts on duolingo in the past but I really want to learn it well, in the case I end up living there for a long time! anyway feel free to do with this message as you please

Hi dear! Ahh that’s amazing that you’re moving to Germany to finish your PhD, congratulations!! Thank you for thinking of me for this kind of advice, I’m honored <3 and of course, I’m more than happy to give you some tips! This got super long lol I hope you don’t mind!

Here are some of the things that worked for me, feel free to take them or leave them depending on what you think would work best for you! As with any language, I think the best way to learn is to try to get as much exposure as you can, so here are some tips and resources organized by topic:

MOOCs

There are a lot of online courses available for free! Here are some of the ones I’ve seen (some are borrowed from this post and I added some others I found!)

Learn German

Deutsch lernen

Deutsch Akademie

Getting Started with German (I, II, III)

The German Project

Intermediate German: The world of work

Advanced German: Language, culture and history

Deutsch im Blick

Podcasts

This depends on your proficiency level and areas of interest, but I’d recommend starting with those that are more focused on language learners! In particular I found those from Deutsche Welle really helpful.

Once you feel a bit more comfortable, you can slowly work your way up to more technical or specialized podcasts, such as those related to your PhD subject! For me this is a great way to keep my German up to speed, especially since I’m unable to practice it much where I live. Some of my recommendations are:

Slow German mit Annik Rubens, focused on everyday topics spoken slowly for easier understanding! There are even transcripts available so you can read along

Langsam gesprochene Nachrichten, news spoken slowly for easier understanding

Top-Thema mit Vokabeln, discussing current topics with a focus on vocabulary (~B1 level)

Wort der Woche short episodes focused on learning one new term per episode (~B2 level)

For more advanced podcasts, try filtering the charts for Germany and see which ones look interesting to you! I personally love science topics, so I usually listen to Spektrum der Wissenschaft and Wissen Weekly among others!

Pen pals

I think one of the best ways to improve your German is to actually practice it with other people. It might be scary at first but trust me you’ll see a huge improvement if you try it!

I particularly recommend an app called Slowly. It’s a charming concept, with the traditional pen pal experience where your letters actually take time to deliver depending on how far away you are. You can specify the languages you speak and your level of proficiency, so you will be able to match more easily with people according to your level!

(Also, I’m personally a bit shy so something I really liked about this app is that it’s practically anonymous, you can just use a nickname and an avatar and you’re all set!)

Fiction books

Here is a wonderful masterpost of fiction books in German! It contains novels such as the Lord the Rings, the Hunger Games, and even classics such as the Metamorphosis. You can find the link to the Google Drive folder here!

Audiobooks

I didn’t really listen to audiobooks when learning German, but I’ve heard they’ve really worked for some people! Here are some of the ones I’ve been recommended (although I haven’t personally used them). These are links to Audible for reference, but I’d suggest using your alternate platform of choice or try to see if your local library has any available!

Café in Berlin

German Short Stories for Beginners

Learn German with Paul Noble for Beginners

Educational books

This is the more traditional way of language learning, but to be honest this was what most helped me learn grammar! I think resources such as Duolingo are great for day-to-day practicing, but they can be a bit lacking in terms of grammar, which is where educational books come in handy.

I mostly used the Menschen books for the beginner levels and Mittelpunkt for more advanced levels. These can be a bit expensive, so I’d recommend getting used books or looking in your local library, or even online.

For example, in the Deutsch Akademie website you can practice some exercises taken from these books among others for free!

Social media

Try to incorporate German into your social media experience as much as you can!

Tumblr: some blogs I follow are @thatswhywelovegermany @official-german-puns and @inoffizielles-deutschland and you can also try to follow some studyblrs to focus on vocabulary and grammar such as @learngermanblog

Twitter/Facebook: DW Deutsch lernern, they focus on language learners and sometimes they even post simple practice exercises!

Devices

This is more of a tip than a resource but one of the first things I did was switch the language on my phone and laptop to German. This forced me to read the language every day and I even picked up some new vocabulary thanks to this! Even stuff like the directions on Google Maps were in German so it was a great way of practicing. At first I really struggled, but you just have to stick with it and eventually it gets easier, I promise!

Music

It really depends on your taste in music but here are some of the ones I listen to! I usually lean more towards indie pop/rock. But I’d recommend trying to find a specific playlist for your favorite genre, e.g. rock in German and so on!

Playlists: Deutscher Indie, Deutschpop Hits

Artists: Phela, Joris, Philipp Dittberner, Yvonne Catterfeld, Kenay, Mark Foster

Entertainment

Of course movies, TV shows, and even YouTube are a great way of practicing the language even during your downtime!

In general, what worked for me was starting out by watching stuff with German audio and English subtitles (or your language of choice), and then slowly try to shift to using German subtitles only! Anyway I’ll try to recommend one of each:

TV shows: Dark on Netflix, great show and there’s really not a lot of dialogue so it’s good for a beginner/intermediate level!

Movies: Run Lola Run (1998), a thriller movie with a time loop concept

YouTubers: here is a Reddit masterpost of German-speaking YouTubers! I personally started out watching Gronkh which is a gaming channel. His Life is Strange let’s play has the game in English and commentary in German so it’s a good way to start out!

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I hope some of these resources are useful, dear! As I mentioned, in the end you’re the one that knows what works best for you! But these are just some tips and resources that I personally found useful.

Either way, once you’re actually in Germany I promise you’ll see that your progress will increase exponentially just by simply listening and speaking the language daily in places like the supermarket, restaurants, etc. But you can always try to cover all your bases with additional resources such as these ones!

Again, hope this is helpful and please let me know how your journey goes! I’m excited to hear all about it :D

#if anyone has any additional recommendations pls feel free to add them!! #also ahh i'm so happy for u dear!! i'm sure your experience will be amazing #tbh the time i spent living in germany was one of the happiest periods of my life!! #i hope everything goes well for you!! <3 #languages #german #linguistics #language #langblr #studyblr #polyglot #studying #language learning #languageblr #learning languages #ask #chariotdunord #added a bunch of language tags bc this took me a long time to consolidate lol so i hope it can be useful for other ppl too! #long post for ts #text

[loosesodamarble]

The Roulacase Family

In a future where Finral and Finesse end up together, they also both want to start a family. Despite Finesse's weak constitution, she has enough strength to bring two children in the world: Caelum and Raphael.

..........

Caelum Roulacase

His name means "sky, heaven" in Latin but is also the name of the chisel constellation. He's called Cal by his family and friends.

Age: 18

Birthday: May 30

Magic Attribute: Star.

Appearance: Caelum's hair is dark brown like his mother's although he ends up styling it similarly to Finral's. He lets it grow out a little when he's older but it never reaches past his shoulders. His eyes are dark purple like Finesse's as well.

Personality: Caelum sees the world as neither inherently good or evil; good and bad things can happen to good and bad people. Whether it's fair or not isn't something that Caelum has figured out. Thus, he wants to be the good in the world at least. He treats people chivalrously but will withhold respect and trust from those who show themselves to be unkind. Caelum is courageous; he doesn't seek out trouble but he's not one to back down from the unknown or intimidating. Even when he is afraid, he pushes himself to face his fears because he knows he can trust in himself/his loved ones to get through it. Caelum seeks to improve himself, being hard-working and preferring to see his efforts through to the end. He can still be overwhelmed and knows when to quit to try another day. Caelum is too gentle at times. He'd rather endanger himself in a fight than hit too hard. And he might hide the truth to spare feelings only to cause misunderstandings. Caelum can also be self-sacrificing in regards to his own wants. He wants to make other people happy first and can wait for his own happiness, that's what he says. Caelum also has a slight fear of romance. He's heard about his father's past and doesn't want to end up like that so he just avoids romance altogether (sort of).

Caelum is good friends with Aecor. They're considered top candidates as future Magic Knight Captains and the public tend to portray them as rivals but they don't see each other that way. His actual rival is Avery; they can't agree on anything whatsoever and despite how calm both of them usually are, they set each other off. He and Cynthia are friends and have been mistaken as a couple, to their great displeasure. He goes to Sterling for advice often and though she can be mysterious at times, she always does help. Caelum's closest friend however is Dawn; he admires her and worries about her too and he... he hopes to see her smile everyday for the rest of his life.

Caelum joins the Golden Dawn squad once he's a Magic Knight. Between his father's and uncle's squads, he actually felt more drawn to the Golden Dawn.

It's through Asta's connections that Caelum gets a chance to learn how to use Star Magic from Yuno. Caelum appreciates Yuno's help and Yuno thinks Cal is a great student.

Caelum has a temporary position in Spade military. It’s a special arrangement for when he visits to train under Yuno.

Caelum got his ears pierced because Dawn wanted to but was nervous about the pain. He insisted he'd get his ears pierced to show her it'd be okay and found out he liked the look of them.

Caelum is really good with styling hair. The Faust girls will sometimes ask for his help with putting in hair ribbons.

Raphael Roulacse

His name has the meaning of "God has healed." His nickname is Raph.

Age: 15

Birthday: October 12

Magic Attribute: Spatial.

Appearance: Raphael's hair is a light, tawny brown color, similar to Finral's though not exact. It gets a little darker as he grows up. When he was younger, he didn't bother to cut his hair so he'd wear it in a low ponytail. He eventually cuts it though. His eyes are a lighter purple like Finral's too.

Personality: Like his parents and brother, Raphael is a kind-hearted person. He's already been blessed with a good life so he enjoys helping others and seeing their lives improved. He's a realist, always wary of getting his hopes too high or sinking too deep into negativity. He’s learned that those extremes can lead to disappointment or bitterness. His approach to live is overall light-hearted, as life for him is usually peaceful. He doesn’t always manage to take things easy but it’s his ideal in life. Raphael is studious as well, being of the belief that knowledge is power. He doesn't flaunt his knowledge either and chooses to only bring up what he knows when he deems it relevant; know-it-alls aren't endearing in his eyes. He's also an overthinker/worrywart and can explode with stress when pushed. He also really doesn't appreciate troublemakers like Soleil and Skylar or reckless individuals (with Ann being the one exception as she isn't completely chaotic).

Ann is his best friend in the whole world and he would go to the ends of the earth for her. Chalivas is a close second. Naru has a deep admiration for Raphael since "big bro Raph can do anything!" and Raphael feels so honored to be his role model. He appreciates Elana for helping wrangle Skylar sometimes but can also find her cheekiness bothersome. He and Kohaku are friendly though with a slight teacher-student dynamic. He and Vivian consider themselves friends too, though mostly thanks to their siblings and them being more sensible than them. Like Ann, he cannot stand Skylar, Soleil, and Jill. He's a little more scared of Skylar and Jill than Ann is but he can't abide by their mischievous attitudes.

When Raphael joins the Magic Knights, he becomes a Purple Orca alongside Ann.

Reading so much put a strain on his eyes and so Raphael has to wear glasses in the future.

Raphael is considered a great prodigy because his Spatial Magic functions for transport, attacking, and even healing (though only after he gets his grimoire). He doesn't like the praise though. He's just glad he doesn't completely overshadow Caelum.

Langris teaches Raphael how to use offensive Spatial Magic. Raphael is glad that Finral and Langris' relationship improved, allowing him to know and learn from his uncle.

Once believed he had a crush on Sterling but eventually realized it was admiration. He eventually comes out as aro-ace.

#black clover #finral roulacase #finesse calmreich #ralesse #black clover oc #next gen ocs #caelum roulacse #raphael roulacase #soda's ocs #in a linked universe with bel's oc mallory #which is basically the main canon for my ocs at this point #caelum and raphael still exist with finesse as a surrogate mother #cal and raph have other siblings in that universe #but for a universe consisting of my ocs only finral and finesse are together and their only kids are cal and raph #with bel's ocs caelum is the second oldest child while raph is third

[omegasmileyface]

may not apply to anybody else but

some notes from my experience gradually becoming more involved with the world immediately around me

(as someone who never got involved in a social life or communities of any sort as a kid and moved a lot and now lives in the middle of nowhere)

taking walks lets me see the houses close to mine and what sort of things they come with (sports team merch, outdoors equipment, political signs, food gardens, etc.)

it also lets me see resources around me. i wouldnt know that there was an open community garden and a storage center just down the street without lookin around on walks

(you can also look around while driving! less time to ruminate but still some)

my state's PBS channel does a ton of local news and documentary coverage! theyre available for free online! its a good place to start

newspapers can be hard to keep up with and also sad if theyre as political as the one here, but they still have relevant stuff

my town and the closest city both have websites, and event newsletters! like, by email!

sometimes things you have zero interest in on their own can be important in your community. .....specifically, im talking about sports. a lot of people like sports by their own right and thats great for them but personally i have never been able to give a shit. ESPECIALLY high school sports (or school spirit in general), which happens to be pretty much The Biggest Thing in a whooole lot of american communities. im currently learning that you can engage a little in the high school sports scene without meaningfully caring the vast majority of the time! ...i havent quite figured out HOW yet, but i know its possible. step one is small talk when people say something about the teams, i guess. or superficially saying you hope Local Team wins State or whatever. the community involvement can be more fun than the actual sport! i spent a lot of words on this one but its a big one to me idk

browsing little stores is one of my favorites. even if you dont actually care what theyre selling. just walking around, making small talk with the employees/owner if youre able to, stuff like that

see if there just happens to be what you want. i have a bad habit of just ASSUMING that they dont have anything here. "i live in the middle of nowhere, of course theres no food not bombs division / punk scene / parkour studio / improv theater" ... its worth actually checking lol. like, recently i learned that theres... well, ok, theres no public transportation. but theres this shuttle service that works between a couple stops a few hours a week thats KINDA like public transportation!

talk to people. its so hard its so hard if you have autism or social anxiety or no practice or a lot of fears or all of the above (hi) and im also sure youve heard it a million times but its usually worth trying

use cash if youre shopping locally. idk it keeps the community independent or whatever. also keeping cash on you is a good habit, since youre gonna want to be giving buskers and homeless people and such money whenever possible. and thats waaay easier with cash.

bank locally? and other such... necessary expenses. if possible! as everything tends toward monopolization its hard to have control over who does your banking or electricity or insurance or what have you. im lucky to live in montana, basically the only state where independent banks thrive. still, worth looking around and seeing what you can do

......i really cant overstate the power of the websites (town chamber of commerce website, local news station website, local radio station website) and newspapers as hubs for finding more stuff. a lot of the time, theyll have little 2 sentence blurbs that tell you that something exists, and then you can look that thing up on its own and maybe find a phone number or a mailing list.

last one ok i havent tried this one out on my own bc im scared (reminder that this is not an instructional post this is an observation of my own experience) but i have a theory that dating apps are a good place to find people your age in your area. they might be upset that youre trying to connect with them as acquaintances on a service literally meant for romance, but... well, they dont exactly have anything like it for friends. (nothing mainstream enough to actually work, anyway.)

also this is gonna sound dumb but look at posters and fliers

[cartoonrival]

im about to make a comparison then immediately refute it because everything poisons my brain if i dont get it out -> its very clear that naruto and sasuke HEAVILY inspired deku and bakugou, literally down to specific scenes like the one-on-one impromptu fight after all mights fall (where bakugou had to be rescued by deku [and company] and ended up blaming his weakness for the fall of his hero) and the fight on the top of the hospital (after sasuke, trying to save NARUTO, ended up needing to be saved by HIM because he got his ass handed to him by his brother after spending his whole life since the death of his clan preparing to fight itachi, then finding out that itachi literally does not give a flying fuck about him, after all these years, not even as an opponent), naruto/deku's need to be acknowledged as an equal vs sasuke/bakugou's refusal to GIVE that acknowledgement, even if its deserved, because the formers rapid improvement has made them feel like they havent grown at all, and acknowledging that they're now on the same level forces that weakness to be true.

HOWEVER i think that the messy history that bakugou and deku have significantly darkens deku's need for recognition and bakugou's refusal to provide it. theyre childhood "friends"; theyve been close since they were children, and bakugou made dekus childhood a living hell because deku was born without a quirk, whereas bakugou was born with a quirk that is widely and understandably recognized as being incredibly powerful and useful. bakugou grew up with a superiority complex. coming to UA, he was suddenly not the strongest anymore (everyone here is powerful, thats how they passed the exam, at the very least there are people who come close to rivaling him), and the kid who has been useless their whole lives was blessed by the man bakugou looks up to most in the world (acknowledgement that bakugou did NOT recieve and is jealous of), so an inferiority complex starts to fester as well, which is a paradoxical nightmare to be subject to. deku has looked up to bakugou their whole lives. finally he can stand beside him, and he wants to prove that. he wants bakugou to see that. he wants them to be friends, but bakugou fucking hates him for complex personal reasons.

for naruto and sasuke on the other hand, their history is pretty limited. theyd never really interacted before being put in the same team as genin, outside of naruto's imagined one-sided rivalry. their initial relationship is MASSIVELY less antagonistic than that of deku and bakugou. sasuke is aware of his strength and that being born into the uchiha clan makes him uniquely powerful, keenly aware, but hes also living in the shadow of his brother, who was much stronger than him and made fucking sure sasuke knew that. he isnt particularly interested in proving himself to anyone other than himself and itachi. naruto wants to prove himself to sasuke just because he recognizes sasukes strength and literally likes him as a person lol, instead of deku's need to prove himself to bakugou because bakugou doubted deku and put him down all his life. naruto has been neglected most of his life by everyone and no one in particular; it would make equal sense for him to insist on proving to, idk kakashi that hes strong and good and worthy, but hes fixated on that person being sasuke.

sasukes complex about his abilities come from a wildly different place than bakugou's, considering baku's come from a childhood of praise so reverent and constant that it lost all meaning until his view of "success" became something very narrow that only he was able to define it, while sasuke's comes from his horrible childhood in first his brothers shadow, first just as the second best son, then as the survivor of a massacre that he was only spared from because of how useless he is. he's very strong and he knows that, but he has to be better. if naruto is catching up to him, keeps saving him, is more valued by itachi than sasuke is, then sasuke's abilities are at a standstill. he isnt good enough. sasuke also does like naruto as a person, whereas bakugou never even liked deku outside of being like heh! another idiot who looks up to me. bakugou struggles to acknowledge deku because of who deku is and the exact events of their relationship, whereas sasuke LIKES naruto. if he wasnt hellbent on revenge, being saved by naruto would probably incite a pretty regular rival level of annoyance. lmao. no conclusion to this post just a comparison going nowhere

#txt157 #nrto

[2knightt]

so, it all starts with the world. in this world, there are people with and without powers. it’s any sort of powers, really, and it’s sort of super-hero-y. people with powers are much less vulnerable than those without, so those without end up relying on people with powers. because of this, it creates an unintentional hierarchy. now, in this hierarchy, there are some powerless people who wish to have some sort of power, and this results in them doing heinous crimes, such as kidnapping a small child.

now, the small child is the main oc, and she was taken away by scientists. these scientists promised to her parents that they’d make her healthy, since she had a few physical issues. this small child was literally five years old when it all happened. so, these scientists decided to use this vulnerable child as their test subject, resulting in her becoming an experiment. throughout her life in the laboratory, she would have various serums injected in her to give her “strength”. because of these injections, her appearance had changed and she no longer looked human. she ended up gaining powers where she could bend shadows and even fade into them. and, the kicker, is that her physical problems were never improved—rather, they were worsened. the strength of the serums caused her so much pain, that every time she uses her power, she has a phantom feeling that her body is being ripped apart.

at this point, she’s been in the compound for so long that she’s forgotten what trees actually look like and the memory of her mother reading her bedtime stories is something she’s completely lost. she decides that, no matter what, she will find a way to escape this compound. she didn’t want to die there, she knew she would have if she didn’t find her way out. she saw what they did to some of her friends. those friends never even got funerals, they were just tossed into some large body of water. so, she makes a plan on her own and successfully sneaks out.

after a few weeks of living on the streets of the nearest city she could run to, a kind-seeming man takes her in. this man sends her to school to give her an education, teaches her how to live a proper life, etc. though, after about two years of living under his guidance, he mysteriously passes away. in her grief, she starts going to the park every day, since it was a place this man used to always go to feed the ducks, and throws breadcrumbs in the water. one day, she ends up meeting my best friend’s oc, and they traumabond!!! hooray!!!!!

the friend’s backstory is that she has a power where she can reverse time, but it can be no more than one hour ago, and the downside is that she starts experiencing short-term memory loss if she goes back too many times, and also that if she has a wound, each time she goes back, her wound gets much worse. like, a paper cut would become a wound that might have her lose her finger. and, this one day, the school she was at (it was separate from my oc’s school) was attacked by someone with powers, someone bad, and that oc’s best friend ended up passing in this attack. the oc kept trying to rewind over and over again, but she just kept seeing her best friend’s death. no matter what she did, she couldn’t prevent their death. and, at some point, her head was slammed against the wall, so every time she rewinded, the bruise that would’ve been on her head ended up being a concussion. HUZZAH!!!

anyways, we made these ocs two years ago, so it’s like super edgy and shit but we’re emotionally attached so we refuse to let go of them and stop working on them.

OH EM GEEEEE I LOVE THEM??-!2!!/!-&-&/

i love the back stories too ofmfg theyre so cool im obsessed AND I LLVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCHUGH

#leo’s late night rambles #corvyes<3

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

my chase! lore under the cut: 

33-37, cis male (he him), gay (important to his character development), 6’1”

ah yes, chase. the community’s favorite quote-unquote sad dad. the protagonist of the canon jacksepticeye ego lore. and here he is, last but not least on my list. chase is probably the most complex out of all my versions of the egos. theres…a lot to this guy. i wont talk too extensively about him, but still, hang in there with me yall. major tw’s for like, abuse, suicide, addiction, age regression and trauma responses

so lets start off with backstory. its very upsetting, lets just say that, and im just straight up gonna say his life before the egos fucking sucks. he had a miserable, abusive childhood, he dropped out of school and ran away to live with his sister who then died of a drug overdose, he met stacy in college and just when he thought he had stability in his life, all the stuff he went through seemed to come crashing down on him and he became an alcoholic, depressed disaster. stacy couldnt take care of him anymore as he got worse and worse, refusing to see anyone for his issues, which led to a messy divorce and chase’s 5th suicide attempt. which is where we leave off when chase is brought into the world by jack.

now when an ego is created, they dont automatically have all their memories, and barely know who they are. so it takes a few weeks to get acclimated and “remember” their past life, if they had one. chase, well, he kept getting hit with traumatic memory after memory, especially at night, waking up the other egos with his literally terrified sobbing. even as the memories of his hard life kept seeping in, he was going back to old habits, getting blackout drunk behind jackie and henrik’s backs, getting in bar fights that henrik had to bail him out of jail for. there were panic attacks and screaming at the other egos, and he did this thing where he hid under his bed for hours that jackie and henrik began to realize was involuntary age regression. chase didnt want to deal with being alive anymore, if im being honest. jack wanted nothing to do with him, and jackie was scared jack was going to get rid of him like he did marvin.

and thats where jackie really shines in chase’s story. he was, in his mind, a fuckup that nobody wanted, and he assumed jackie and henrik would give up on him like everyone else. but the thing is, they didnt. jackie, despite his own issues and his own frustrations, never gave up on chase. even when chase kept drinking, even when he screamed in jackie’s face that he hated him, jackie stayed with chase, loving on him even in his worst moments. and really, it sounds cheesey, but all chase needed was someone to love him unconditionally. someone who wouldn’t leave him like everyone else. someone who gave him actual support through his ptsd and his addiction.

and yeah, it took time, but chase put down the bottle and started getting himself back in order. he started going to therapy for his issues (we’ll discuss that in a moment) and actually started putting in effort to be better, because he didnt want to keep hurting henrik or jackie, because he loved them, really he did. he started up a twitch channel, which gave him something to do at first, but eventually gave him a source of income. and he got a dog. very important. chase got an emotional support golden retriever named sunshine. and that dog brings him so much joy every day, just having something to care for and something to get out of the house to go on walks with. he loves that dog a lot.

but with the eventual improvement in chases life theres something else. his therapist. was anti. remember how i mentioned anti was a psychiatrist? yeah that really comes into play here. now ok, in some ways, dr. angus jackson quote unquote helped him. he talked about his trauma, he learned to understand his age regression, he was able to really work through his issues. but that doesn’t mean anti was messing with his head, or getting information about the other egos because he wanted to, or even forcing chase to cry about his past or age regress for antis own amusement, which is obviously very fucked up. chase eventually saw past anti’s manipulation and was able to recognize who he was, which was a terrifying revelation. and after anti…he had a hard time trusting a new therapist.

so in general, chase doesn’t have a lot to offer for the “plot” if you want to call it that to be honest. but i think hes still important, especially to the other egos. he’s constantly battling his mental illness throughout the story, but he has lots of support. he and jackie are best friends, and he loves his dog and his job.

personality wise for chase, hes a big ole softy. he used to be super mean and nasty when he was first born, but he was able to let down his walls and let himself be soft around the other egos. hes real sweet and chill. he likes hugs and is a guy you can hang out with and talk to.

#jacksepticegos #chase brody #my art #ego lore #ego posting

[eater-of-g3nders]

live-blogging my reaction to the bad guys

i love the music and the animation!!! and it’s only been thru the first minute

i love the characters already omg lol

i thought this would b a world full o furries but ok

“go bad or go home” fuck yeah

“best bud” ur gay.

SPOODER she’s so cute

I LOVE THESE GUYS OMG

wolf is incredibly gay for snake i know it when i see it

sick burn lmao

she definitely knows it’s a disguise tho

oh there is no way they’re pulling THIS heist off

it looks like he sucked his dick instead of beating him up hdbsjdkvmxks

WHAT WAS HE THINKINGGGGGG

HAHAAAAAAAAAA PRAISE KINK

OMG THEY DID IT WHAT

haha no they didnt

wolf is so cool

“i wonder who’s butt it is” ur mums

SHARK JUST FUCKING VORED SNAKE i just know there’s r34 of that

LOL WOLF GOT HIT BY A BUS

ok so what’s HER deal? why can she steal?

oh my god THEYRE FUCKING GAYYYYYYYYUH

piranha’s improv <333333

really? 12345

OH MY GOD THE DANCING FUCK YEAH

THIS SONG IS AWESOME

snaaaaaake ur bf is dancing with another person r u upset

shit everything is gonna go WROOOONG

fuckkkkkkk what the shit

“RAAHHHHHNNNNN” lmaooo

MARMALADE WHERED U GO

lmao it was him

“EHS NAWT A BAHTT” fucking brit

i fucking love this movie

“S.U.C.M.”? more like S.U.C.M.Y DICK

wolf describing his praise kink is gonna trigger a panic attack

THEYRE BREAKING UP NOOOO GAWD DAMNIT

oh hi diane nice to see you in prison

HOLY SHIT SHE HAS A COOL ROBBER NAME FUCK YEAH

they’re done they’re over they’re never getting back together 😭😭😭 (not exclusively about wolf n snake)

SNAKE NOOOOOOOOOOOO

wolf plz become the next carmen sandiego

wlw and mlm solidarity it’s canon i’m diane’s wife

snake go get back with ur boyfriend

SNAKE YOU DUMBASS

SNAKE YOU ASSHOLE

lmao they’re so fucking gay-snake is taunting his ex by showing off his new bf

at least they reunited

THE LITTLE KITTY N THE SUNGLASSES AWWWWWWWW

diane marry me please

OH MY GOSH DIANE AND WEBS <3333333

ranh stfu

“mostly Youtube 🫤” LMAO

give them a moment diane, they’ll return it

“SNAAAAAAKE!!!” GAYER THAN ME AND IM REALLY GAY

“i love you too, buddy.” LOVE STORY OF THE CENTURY

SNAKE U GENUIS

SNAKE I LOVE YOUUUUUU

also wolf x snake 4evs

“SHEES THA PAUHHHH :[!!!”

HAAAA WOLF SET SNAKE UP LMAO

awkwafina is soooo gr8

LILY SINGH WAS IN THIS MOVIE??????

dianeeee let’s gooooooo

KITYYYYYYYY

HIT THAT PLAY BUTTON WEBZ!!!!!

anywho i’m done i loved it

#long post #the bad guys

[sweetmastermind]

https://sweetmastermind.tumblr.com/post/706289515167399936/do-you-think-wonyoung-ive-will-proved-herself-more

The procedures thing is really sad, most of her fans really try to make her feel better about her procedures saying "wow I really need to know where she got them", I am glad they are just fans trying to make their idol feel better and not people who actually mean it (bc it would be sad if they were actually thinking about getting those procedures, considering her fandom is all teen girls who are around her same age), her face will have problems with aging correctly when she hits her mid 20s bc of all the work she got done, many people would think I am hater but it is just the sad truth for her future, and I hope that after seeing her career people understand why we dont like minors debuting(I seriously side eye Wonyoung's parents too), I dont really see any passion in Wonyoung to be an entertainer, and I get why, she never dreamed about becoming a celebrity, debuted at a young age and exprienced lots of traumas and she is under a shitty company, so I kind of get why may not have motivation to improve her skills despite the criticism she always got, also her fandom is very toxic, her fandom are those genz teens girls who are obsessed with relatability, they want to see other people their age being massively successful and doing fun things and wearing pretty clothes because that way they can project onto them, and that feeds the parasocial relationships even more to get inclined to stan as hard, but then when someone tells them about the not so cool sides of their lives they go like "you are just jealous of someone young and successful", like if they had personally attacked, she used to talk about wanting to be a normal person who studies for a job, so I hope she can that after she is finally free.

The thing about plastic surgery (invasive and non-invasive procedures) is the maintenance to keep it up (in the industry) and after a certain time the change in the beauty standard that, unfortunately, is set on these idols

Im not going to deny that the world works in favor of being young and pretty, and some changes might be a you thing, but i have seen so many ex-idols and people from the industry give statements about the constant "suggestions" other people give kids about their appearance and is sad that they are not considered enough

4th gen stans, the hardcore, and intense ones are all for the projecting and if you don't share the same view or show concern you are instantly cataloged as a hater. Her fans are not the worst but I can understand in a way where they are coming from, considering the amount of hate Wonyoung gets for simply existing

I don't know if she likes her career or any other job because she is extremely controlled by the company and barely has time to sleep, i think we need to see what she decides to do when she has more time and it would be fairer to give a "judgment" in that case and not now that she barely has input in her schedule

#kpop asks