#and my teachers wishing me luck and getting me gifts and telling me that I was BORN to do this

[theriverdalereviewer]

people of tumblr. i have made my stunning return.

#WHATS UP YALL? #I hope everyone is doing good and living their best life #so after what has felt like a decade I am finally officially graduating from my teaching program and inshallah becoming a teacher #I just finished my final year of internship and it was soooo sad #its crazy you don’t think your students like you or care about you and then.. you say goodbye and you realize.. like shit #seeing them upset and shocked and asking if I’ll come back man its the best and worst feeling :(( #and my teachers wishing me luck and getting me gifts and telling me that I was BORN to do this #and like these were teachers who were my biggest critics #im nervous for my first year but for once I feel ready. and ive waited three years to finally feel like this #im also just really sad that I’ll be saying goodbye to my friends who have been with me in this program for five years #like we went through some of the best and worst times together and our group has become so tight #theres one guy I’ll miss a lot cause hes just someone who has been there for me and has always understood me #like we lived in the same dorm building together and didn’t know it #we were in the same classes together and never spoke to each other #and then we ended up interviewing together #and then we student taught together #and then we were constantly partnered and cried our frustrations together #and we would always have these conversations where we just saw into each other’s souls #like I remember during student teaching we just talked about how we realized that there was so much it took to engage the class #than what we were led to believe and that somedays class just couldn’t be super fun and engaging because of factors out of our control #and it was crazy we had that epiphany at the same time #and when we were out looking for jobs we just felt the exact same way about the search too #feeling overwhelmed and like we needed to push this off and then also feeling #like we’re not good enough and that it would be easier #EVERYTHING LITERALLY EVERYTHING! #my favorite personnnn ugh

[tuliprry]

cloudburst 2

summary: preschool teacher!harry x special education teacher!yn; y/n and harry met while working together at a preschool, y/n is engaged but her fiancé has been distancing himself from y/n, making her spend more time with harry, wishing she was marrying him instead

warnings: mention of miscarriage, cheating, swearing, death, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it)

word count: 3.3k

part 1

it was 3am when tony got home, to his luck, y/n was in joey’s bedroom, dead asleep after mixing her sleeping pills with a shot of tequila to make sure she’s at least sleeping the whole night, joey in the other hand was tossing and turning, pickles, the tabby cat that belonged to the two sisters, was clearly bothered by joey’s lack of stillness, getting comfortable in between y/n’s legs. when joey heard the door she could feel her blood boil, she knew it had to be her sister to say something and yell but god she wanted to slap him and tell him to leave so badly.

but she didn't.

it was now morning, y/n yawned and rubbed her eyes, looking at her sister still dead asleep, she got up carefully to not wake joey nor pickles up, covering joey up after leaving the bed. the house was silent and her bed unmade, she assumed tony didn't sleep home and that hurt her heart, how her husband to be just completely changed his behaviour and she didn't know who she was marrying anymore. regardless, y/n got ready for work putting on black sweatpants that matched the black sweatshirt and her hair up in a ponytail, this wasn't usual for y/n, she likes dressing cute or finding clothes that would get the children happy like bunnies or cats, but today was just one of those days that y/n felt like a cloud was over her head and her head only.

as she got to school harry was already there, his moustache was more fluffy than usual and his hair messy and some curls covering part of his face, he is wearing a colourful knitted pullover and black jeans with his usual worn out beige from time trainers, his eyes immediately sparkled when he saw her, “good morning!” he says with a smile, “i got you something”, he hands her a paper bag with a red bow to her, “but my birthday isn’t for another 2 weeks harry”, y/n stated, “i know, i just um.. well, i know you love lang leav so i got a signed copy of lullabies for you” and it’s true, harry had searched he entire internet on how to get a signed copy of y/n’s favourite book for her, “oh my god harry… and you wrote me a note?”, “oh god don’t read it” but she did.

“y/n, thank you for being one of my best friends and always covering me up when i fall asleep on my desk. you’re the most special person i’ve ever met.

love,

harry”

“thank you harry… this is really special… like major special, i think this might be the best gift i’ve ever gotten after joey finding our cat pickles cosied up in waterstones” y/n embraced harry, “sometimes i wish i was marrying you instead” she whispered against his body, “did you say something?” harry questioned, “no, no.. sorry”, he heard it though, he heard it and for half a second he felt it in his heart… that he actually had a chance at y/n’s heart. their day went on as usual, divided the class in groups and focused mainly on art today, finger painting and shapes. for a moment y/n was at peace, her, harry and a bunch of sweet kids. when the classes ended, macy’s mum walked in with a frown on her face and walked up immediately to harry, that to every effect was macy’s teacher, “hello mr styles, i need to have a word with you and ms y/l/n if you don’t mind.” she was assertive, tall and looked like she was close enough to murder both harry and y/n. “oh yes of course, is everything okay with macy?.. um y/n can you come here”, y/n got up from her chair and walked towards them, keeping an eye on little macy that was sitting, waiting for her mum to grab her hand and leave. “so, my daughter tells me you two are together? is this true? because it’s very serious if you’re kissing in front of my daughter.” macy’s mum almost yells, “excuse me? as we told macy yesterday, we hugged because one of my special education students has a fear of hugging and i was showing him it was okay plus mr. styles is my friend and as we told macy friends hug each other, right macy?” y/n is the kindest person people will meet but she always knows when to speak up for herself and especially speak up for her students, “right ms y/l/n! keith hug u too”, the little girl speaks, “keith is a little boy in the autism spectrum that loves hugging his family but feared hugging me even though he wanted to. so no mr. styles and i are not in a relationship and if we were it would have been approved by the school”, harry has a stupid smirk on his face, proud of y/n for speaking the truth. “oh jesus i’m so sorry, macy just really made it sound inappropriate”, “she has a big imagination” harry adds.

back at home, as y/n steps foot in her bedroom she sees tony removing his tie, "oh.. hey", he says, looking in the mirror, "can we talk tony?", y/n requested as she sat down next to him in bed, "sure? i don't have much time i need to change for drinks with my boss”, tony replied, "listen, i don't know what changed, but i need you to be honest with me here tony, you barely spend anytime home, you barely touch my food when i cook, you don't touch me, we haven't had sex in two months, at first you said i was still fragile but what's the excuse now? you don't kiss me, you don't tell me you love me, you have stopped giving ideas for our wedding day.. do you even want to get married?" y/n snapped, she had those words stuck in her throat for a while now, "y/n.." tony sighs, "couldn't you have waited for me to come back from work?", the dismissal in his voice almost sends y/n through the fucking roof. "excuse me? who do you think you're talking to, antonio? i'm not some client you're upset with for some stupid reason i'm supposedly your future wife!" y/n hates raising her voice, but she's yelling at this point, “c'mon. let's talk after dinner.", his words sound even colder now, "no. let's talk now! look me in my fucking eyes." tony had never seen y/n like this and deep down he feared what she could do next. "y/n vamos a tener calma por favor (let's be calm please)", "don't tell me to calm down! i won't calm down until you tell me what the fuck changed!", "JESUS CHRIST I'M FUCKING SOMEBODY ELSE! THERE ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY Y/N? AND NOT JUST THIS GIRL BUT MULTIPLE OTHERS BECAUSE YOU LOOKED HORRIBLE AFTER THE MISCARRIAGE-", "get out", "y/n!", "don't bother coming back."

the house was silent for awhile, joey had heard everything from the other room but was too scared to approach y/n and worse, seeing her sister like that, joey swallowed her tears and gently pushed the door of y/n's room, y/n is sitting in bed cutting up all of tony's clothes, not even crying, just destroying everything of tony's that happened to cross her eyes. "in any other moment i'd tell u you should have done this sooner but.. um.. do you want to talk.. about it?" joey sits next to her sister, "he cheated on me... multiple times", y/n agonised, she was saying words she would never expect to say, especially about the man she was marrying in less than 4 months, "i couldn't even defend myself.. i just told him to get out", that's when the tears started forming in y/n's eyes, dreading that she had to go and live her life after finding out her soon-to-be-husband had multiple affairs, the house became silent again, joey, for the first time in her life, had no words to say to her sister and was just resting her head on y/n's, hoping silence would be the perfect answer on a moment like this. “joey… i’m gonna catch some air.. if you don’t mind” but y/n found herself following her usual route to school, almost unconsciously looking for harry, in the moment she didn’t want anyone else nor talk to anybody else, just him.

y/n didn't care anymore, she could feel her feet moving towards harry as his lips moved, he was worried about her but she couldn't answer or even think of an answer, she simply didn't care about keeping her decorum and being a good fiancé anymore, she likes harry, she knows she does. it's almost all in slow motion for y/n, the 20 seconds it took her to walk towards harry felt like 5 minutes, and the way their lips crashed felt like an eternity, but this time to both of them. harry's hands placed on y/n's lower back, and their tongues intertwined as one, harry's moustache was a good add-on to the kiss, y/n thought, it tickled but in a good way, harry's brain was almost empty, he couldn't actually process what was happening right on his desk but he didn't care either, he had been living this moment in his mind for such a long time he doesn't really give a fuck if it's a mistake or not, he has the woman of his dreams wrapped around him, all his.

"y/n." harry interrupted the kiss, his mouth opened as he hesitated in his next words, "as much as i'm enjoying this you... you're getting married-" y/n put her indicator over his mouth, shushing him, "harry.. i want this.. please" y/n whispered, "tony has been cheating on me and i'm done pretending i'm not into you and i don't crave you, i'm done pretending i don't wish i was marrying you instead", both of them remained silent after her statement, harry's thumb caressed y/n's cheek in disbelief, disbelief that she got cheated on, disbelief that she was there in front of him confessing some type of love for him, "harry... i'm sorry if i look like i'm using you that's totally not what i want, i can leave if you want" y/n added, "no. god no. please stay... with me"

our couple kept kissing, kissing like it’s the end of the world and they want to enjoy their last few minutes together, y/n's legs wrapped around harry's waist, he stood tall, one hand holding y/n and the other trying to find the keys of the nurse's office, they honestly had so much tension between them they could do it right there, but even in the middle of so much lust they hadn't forgotten where they were, in their workplace, where a kid who forgot a pencil or a parent picking a forgotten jacket could walk in at any moment. harry's eyes lit up as y/n suggested minutes before "we can always do it in the nurse's office" leading them to here.

harry finally reached the key handing it to y/n, he grabbed a condom as well putting him in the left back pocket of his black jeans. "good lord i don't think i can make it to the office" harry exclaimed, he could feel his briefs squeezing his cock, grunting and sighing with his forehead against y/n's.

the nurse's office is silent, the walls are painted in a light blue with multiple cartoon drawings sticked to the walls, as well as drawing's made to the school's nurse, harry tenderly placed y/n on top of one of the beds in the room, locking the door behind him. "y/n...are you sure you want to do this?" harry questioned, to harry consent was key, but this time even more considering they were quite literally homewrecking. "fuck me harry, please", her eyes were filled with lust, her hands now unbuttoning the white top she has on, as well as unzipping the midi light purple silk skirt, "such an eager girl aren't you? fuck, such nice tits" his lips immediately met y/n's neck leaving love bites all over her cleavage, her skirt fell to the ground, leaving her pussy barely covered by a sheer white lace, harry's hands travel all over her body stopping near the already so wet area, as his fingers placed directly on her clit she couldn't help but whimper, "is this good" harry's voice was slightly deeper than usual still caring but somewhat assertive, y/n couldn't pronounce any words already, harry's fingers attached to her clit, rubbing and pinching, she cried out an almost inaudible "yes" in the middle of the gasps and moans, "couldn't hear you sweet pea, what did you say? can't continue if you don't talk to me." he removed his fingers from the white lace making y/n cry one more time, the loss of touch worked wonderfully as a motivation for y/n to speak, “that was so good, please don’t stop” y/n purred, grabbing harry's hand, placing it exactly where he left off. "good girl" he crooned removing his hand right after, "actually... let me take care of you in other ways", he got on his knees pulling y/n's legs apart, having a perfect look of her pussy, glistening and swollen, sending shivers down in his spine and almost making him cream in his pants like an impatient teenager. before smoothly removing her panties, harry's lips were attached to her inner thighs, from little pecks to leaving marks all over, the white mesh hadn't even hit the floor when his fingers started stroking y/n's clit once more, his tongue joined not long after, running up and down on y/n's very wet entrance. "fuck, you taste like heaven", harry admired the image in front of him yet he was not able to detach his mouth from her juices more than a few seconds, his tongue swirled inside her like it was his last meal, y/n gripped onto harry's hair, pulling and tugging it, "harry.. harry" she cried out, "oh fuck", y/n's legs were shaking, she could feel her climax closer than before, "harry i'm gonna cum" she panted, feeling her pussy clench as harry continued to lick her folds and gently biting her clit. "oh princess... look at the mess you made" his fingers brushed against the already very sensitive cunt, "such a pretty mess... let me clean it up, yeah?", that almost made y/n cum again, "harry... harry please let me cum on your cock" she pleaded, placing her weight on her elbows so she can clearly see his face, "god fuck! yeah let me um grab that condom", he got up trying to take the packet from his pocket, "no.. no i need to feel you harry", the words ring in his ears, he drops his jeans on the floor and quickly takes his briefs off, ramming into y/n's pussy, kissing her to muffle the moans coming from the both of them. they still don't know what went through their heads, and harry's thrusts inside y/n made them forget even more the world out side the room they're in, y/n's pussy clenching around harry's length, "harry i'm gonna cum again", quiet moans echoed in the room, "fuck sweets i'm so close too", he grunts as he fills her up, none of them had such a aggressive, carnal, fervent affair like this one, so full of intimacy and honey flavoured words yet so mad and potent in the sweet turbulent heated and urgent moment, nothing else mattered to them.

they're getting dressed, harry can't stop himself from staring and interrupting y/n just to steal one more kiss, "you know it's funny, the only other time i had sex in a nurse's office was in my first year of university" y/n giggles, followed by harry buttoning the rest of her top, "really? that's a weird coincidence!" he said with a tone of surprise in his voice, "on my senior year i also had sex in a nurse's office.. she was likely from your class, she was a freshman i believe", "trying to make me jealous, mr styles?" y/n gave him a little peck, "is it working?" he smiled now buttoning his shirt, "but for real, she was a freshman and we were at this guy's off campus house.. bryan something, god she never even told me her real name, said it was aimee and then said it was a lie but she wanted something she could have fun and not get attached to it” he buttons the last button and then looks at a horrified y/n, “what? i didn’t mean to upset you i was 21 back then”, he says worriedly, “no.. harry.. god.. i.. i once told a guy my name was aimee and it was my first time and i wanted to get it over with and then my friend niall banged on the door and we both burst out laughing-“, “y/n.. you look very different”, “god harry stop how did we end up in the same situation again”, harry grabs her chin, “let’s say it was destiny” he whispers kissing y/n passionately.

harry drove y/n home, the ride was filled with giggles and reminiscing their affair from their uni days, they couldn't explain why they didn't recognise each other but it felt too much like a sign from universe, bringing them together again. "we're here", harry gets closer to give y/n a kiss and she stops him, "joey is for sure observing us from the window, i'm sorry" her voice trembles, "no.. don't be sorry. i'll see you tomorrow?" he asks knowing her answer but she still nods, whispering a goodbye followed by a smile.

"y/n!" joey exclaims running to the door to hug her older sister, "was that harry? why didn't he come in? i made coffee!" she says pointing to the alone mug in the kitchen, "oh um.. he just drove me home" y/n placed her bag on one of the hooks right next to the door, "i thought you left to catch some air.. you went to school?" joey rubbed y/n's back, not imagining what could possibly be going through her sister's mind, y/n started tearing up, "oh y/n it's okay tony was a jerk! you're better off without him", the younger sister says trying to ease y/n, "joey i fucked harry" y/n blurs out, she has never been good at keeping secrets from joey, especially now that they spend 99% of their free time together, "i'm a girl with a broken engagement that fucked her co-worker that happens to be one of her best friends, i'm horrible joey" y/n's crying made her sniffle in between words, some understandable and others completely inaudible, "wow.. wow let's go back, you fucked harry?" joey's eyes widened, "and i liked it", joey let a small laugh out, "i knew you liked him”, she remains with a silly smile on her lips, “and you’re not horrible, you kinda paid tony back.. by fucking your really hot co-worker/friend… please let me grab you a mug i really need to know what happened in that school, you fucked in the classroom?” joey questions semi horrified.

“no..no we did it in the nurse’s office”

“oh that’s interesting”

“and there’s more”

“more?? maybe i don’t want to know..”

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[spotsupstuff]

There are scary things, up there in the sky.

The birds whose screeches make my skin crawl, their shadows shunning me under the cover of trees. The sun, the moon and the armful of stars, all so terrifying from their thrones beyond the atmosphere, scrutinizing our struggles in these lives. And then the metal "gods". Those that pull sheets of clouds over the celestial eyes, keeping us for themselves and the ground, I suppose.

Selected few get to live on top of these mock gods. We toil away to create them, we toil away to supply them. All we get in return are the monsoons. Our hands bleed for them, and then our backs.

A lot of my family hates them. I cannot fault them. I consider that maybe I should fault myself.

Myself, who finds it invigorating to dive into the ticks of these creatures. I yearn to understand them, figure out why would they be so cruel as to beat us down each evening.

I search and I find it all when I am gifted the opportunity to learn. Sent away far north, into the insides of one of them, every piece of him industrialized beyond recognition- when compared to the farm fields I've grown within.

I learn what makes them tick. That they are a colonies themselves, hiding behind a face of an individual. I learn that they also breathe- and how. That it isn't their fault, that one of their exhales sends angry gales to sweep through streets such as where I've grown.

Predictably enough, considering how I've been raised, I end up forgiving them all.

With possibly a blessing from the forgotten and forsaken Gods, I manage to absorb all the information within myself seamlessly. It is a great achievement! All the people sing to us, who made it through. They praise our sleepless nights, the effort we put into knowing how to be kind and patient with things far too different from us. The teachers say the struggles won't stop here. That the job will be hard, possibly even maddening, if our charge turns out to have not been... *disciplined* enough, yet.

I didn't like the edge to those words. Haven't we just learnt that they are all living beings? Just as much as us? That what we are meant to be are doctors, consultants, caretakes- friends?

A hail comes to me from my home- the facilities, not my family. That they've heard of my successes. That they are proud of me- I've never heard any of these long long names, I don't even try to lead my life in favor of the religion and still- they are proud of me. The old Iterator Mechanic has retired and they search for another one. It would be a great honor for the colony, if its new Mechanic was one of their own.

I am not one of them. I refuse to be.

But of course, I accept. I hadn't expected to find a job that quickly- not to mention with such position I'll be able to visit my family. I haven't seen them in too long.

On my way to Ales, I stop by.

And there's cheering for that I've come back- somehow so much warmer than the one over my academic success. Hands leave their kind marks on my skin, fingers comb through my hair. Arms trap me in heartfelt and teary embraces. I could not imagine myself fighting it at all.

The calendar tells me that I have few more days to spend here. I spend all of them by someone's side- by my mom's, granda's, any of my siblings'- I give a kiss to my father's grave and wish him luck, wherever his spiritual journey had whisken him away to.

And as I'm drinking steaming tea at a window, watching the damning rain- breath- fall, one of my younger brothers approaches me with a mask in his hands.

"So you may fit in with those living above clouds, sister!" He tells me excitedly.

It's made of wood and not bone. Painted gold, in the shape of a face of the feeble bird I'm named after. It's too on the nose. It doesn't obey the holy dress code.

I put it on with pride. I wouldn't have it any other way.

#rw #oc tag #oc: three sparrows #my writing #wooooooooooooooooooooooo Sparrooooooooows #Sparrows studyin in Boreas' city making sure to always throw him a middle finger when one of his overseers shows up cuz hes MEAN- #-to the engineer students. hes an ASSHOLE. he doesnt WANT THEM HERE #the base design for ancients is finished so now im off to draw the ancients from the murals and then design 💞💓Her💓💞

[akesdraws-blog]

🏔️Immovable Mountain🏔️

Warnings: A little long, spelling mistakes and heartbreak

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"Fast as the wind, silent as the forest, rough and devastating as fire, motionless as a mountain.

Reference is made to chapter seven of "The Art of War" by Sun Tzu.

I heard that little piece of literature a long time ago, it seemed a bit confusing at first, but that changed when I met them.

I was friends with Abril, we started out as work colleagues who soon became closer, and one day she introduced me to those unusual friends, even though she knew that the word "normal" was not in Abril's vocabulary, so I It wasn't that unexpected, but of course it took me by surprise.

But as I slowly became familiar with each of the turtles the more I adored them, especially him.

The leader of his team, I don't even know how it happened, but when I saw him it just took my breath away, those beautiful blue eyes, his discipline for everything, and gosh, the times I could see him train left me with my head in the clouds.

And I think maybe it was a little obvious with my attraction to Leonardo, because his brothers kept pestering me with little jokes, although it didn't bother me at all, but it did make my face change color.

And I always believed that love is not a game to just watch, so I took a risk.

I knew I couldn't just tell him, I had my own well-structured plan... Although I might have had a little help from his brothers.

-Operation make the leader fall in love without fear, take action-

-Seriously? Is that the name?-

- Ó abbreviated O.M.L.F.L.W.F.-

-Brother, I don't even know how to pronounce that-

It gave me encouragement to know that his brothers agreed with him trying to win Leo's heart, I even asked his teacher and father Splinter for his blessing, because I know how important he is to Leo.

S. -It doesn't bother me that such a good young woman wants to be with my son, you have my blessing-

Y/N. -Really?! Thank you very much Mr. Splinter!-

S. -However, I must warn you that Leonardo can be someone very difficult and nothing is guaranteed... he is like an immovable mountain-

Y/N. -I know, but I'm willing to try to take that "Immovable Mountain"-

S. -Then I wish you luck-

And with Splinter's blessing it could begin.

Step one: -Warm Greetings and a special nickname-

Every day that he went to visit them at the lair, Leonardo was always the first one he greeted, he almost always found him meditating on that pedestal, so sometimes the greetings were accompanied by a surprise hug from behind the enormous shell, although it was not surprising that for him leader was not an act of surprise, because he could hear my footsteps perfectly.

First attempt:

-Good morning Le!-

-My name is Leonardo-

Second try:

-Hello Leon!-

-It's Leonardo-

Third try:

-Hello Angry Baby!-

-I passed the infant stage a long time ago for you to call me that-

Fourth Tried:

-Good morning Kanmi!-

-Do you know what it means?-

-Of course!-

-Then don't say it again-

And so the first step failed, but I didn't want to give up yet.

Step Two: -Special Gifts-

Then there were some special gifts, I knew some of Leo's tastes, and in others his brothers helped me.

The first attempt was a book of Japanese poems, Leo had one that was already a bit worn, and although it took me too long to find the same author, I finally succeeded, getting it in a Japanese antiques store.

-Hello Leo! I have something special for you- I speak excitedly to take the book out of the backpack

-"The bird and the flower"- read the title without having any expression on his face

-You don't like it? I know it's not a new edition- before continuing to talk, you just saw how he returned to his meditation, closing his eyes -I understand, you can't interrupt the meditation... I'll leave it here- you finished speaking to let him the book aside.

°First attempt: Failed°

The Second Attempt was a type of Jasmin tea and dried cinnamon leaves, you had investigated that the combination of both resulted in a pleasant infusion that allowed you to have a restful sleep, in addition to which you had asked donnie for help to make sure it was not harmful for the turtles, and for your luck it was not.

-I'm in the middle of something Y / N, what do you need?-Leonardo spoke while he paused his reading of that old book

-Did you hear me?- you asked and you only saw how he nodded his head -Well, I know you like tea, so I brought you one that will help you sleep well- you finished speaking to take out a glass jar that contained the herbs from the tea.

-He will help us after the patrol- he finished saying to go back to his reading -You can leave it on the kitchen table- he said the last thing while he turned the page.

Y/N. -Oh, yes, of course... Everyone will like it for sure- you said the last thing, a little disconcerted to leave the jar in the kitchen.

°Second Attempt: Failed°

The Third Attempt was a scented candle, it was a suggestion from the boys, and I wasn't looking for a specific one, I was looking for one that Leo liked and I found it, a candle with the scent of green tea, and the boys told me that they would also look for one smelling like melon, I had no idea why that specific smell, and honestly I was a little scared this time, I mean, it's normal after your previous attempts failed colossally.

-Hi Leo!- You spoke loudly but you couldn't see him anywhere

-I'm sorry Y/N, the boys left unexpectedly at the police station- April spoke from the sofa while eating a couple of peas with wasabi -Have you brought anything else for Leo?- I ask mischievously

-I understand, duty is duty- upon hearing that question you blushed, you were too obvious with your intentions -Something like that, can you give it to him this time?- you asked taking out the pair of candles and giving them to the redhead

-Seriously? I mean, there's no problem but... You don't want to wait for it?-I ask while he took the candles and smelled them lightly with a smile

-I must get home earlier, you know how the streets are later and the heroes are not on duty- you said amused to say goodbye with a smile as you left

-Melon, it smells like her- she said with a smile

°Third Attempt: ??°

Honestly on the third try you didn't want a total rejection like the last few times, you just texted the guys to tell them you were home, you got a reply from everyone except Leo, just those horrible “seen” moths.

You were considering abandoning the plan, if it weren't for the boys, the brothers always helped you keep your spirits up, you had become a very close friend to them like April, and something told you that the boys wanted you as a future sister-in-law

-We still have two more steps, remember?-

-Yes, it cannot fail-

-Do you still want to do it?-

-Well... A warrior doesn't give up without a fight, right?-

-That's how it is spoken!-

After Steps One and Two failed, we were now going to Step Three “Attentions”.

The next one wasn't that difficult, since it was something you started doing in the beginning, something simple like cleaning the bonsai shelf a bit, aka "Leo's babies", you cleaned the remains of candle wax that were on the shelf, pedestal where he always meditated, and now you were going to the dojo, although there wasn't much to do since Leo always kept it impeccable.

-Not the floors, neither were the weapons, was there ever a pinch of dust here?- You stared at the dojo trying to find something to clean and after getting closer to the weapons to see them, noticing that the leather on the handle was quite worn - Could you help me with this-

It only took you 5 minutes to go to the store to buy new straps, and you started with Raph's which was a maroon red leather, then you went through Mikey's nunchucks in which you used an orange leather with some small prints of smiley faces, then it was Donnie's that was the least worn since he often used the modified one that he always carried, and finally Leo's katanas, you could see how these were the most worn, you could tell how much I train with them, you came to think how many times he stayed up late to perfect his technique, until it was perfect, you began to remove the worn leather from one of the katanas to put the new leather on it electric blue like the color of his eyes.

-I hope he likes it- you murmured with a smile to take the other katana and be able to start removing the leather carefully

-What do you think you're doing?! - I shout loudly as he entered the dojo

You admitted that seeing Leo suddenly enter the dojo surprised you a lot, and even more so because you saw him agitated, it seemed that he had finished fighting with destroyer again.

But before I could ask if he was alright, he rushed over to take the katana from you.

-Who told you that you could take my things?-He kept his weapon behind him

-I sent them a message to see if they agreed, what's the problem?- you just got up while dropping the excess leather

-And did you see that I answered?- I ask with a serious tone

-Well... No, but I thought - you just started backing up instinctively

-Well, stop believing, a ninja's weapon is sacred and only the bearer of it can manipulate it!-He raised his voice while advancing at the same time that you backed down

-I just wanted to do something special for you- you had no idea why you felt that way, it was as if you were being intimidated by a huge predator

As you backed away and Leonardo got closer, you didn't notice that it was as if he was leading you to the exit until you only saw the entrance to one side of you, you didn't imagine one day feeling that way when facing Leo like that.

-I appreciate the attention you have, but I only put up with it for my brothers, I know they like you- I rubbed his forehead annoyed while he backed up a bit as if thinking

-I love them too, and I'm grateful to them, but everything I do has been for you- you couldn't keep quiet anymore, if you had to be direct you would be

-Well, I don't want anything from you!-I speak loudly when he turned to see you and hit the side of your head with force

You could hear how the blow on the wall resounded like a cold echo throughout the dojo, your body trembled from that cold and cruel look with which the leader saw you, there was not a single hint of those compassionate eyes and full of tenderness from those who fell madly in love, now you saw eyes that simply generated fear.

-Oh... I understand... I'm so sorry for the misunderstanding- you only forced a smile

-What's wrong? Is everything okay?- the redhead quickly entered the dojo to see them both

-We heard the blow from the living room, what's wrong?- the black-haired man came behind -or is it just me, or can the tension be seen right now?- I speak a little funny to try to alleviate the moment

-I think I'm not feeling well... Can you take me home?- you spoke to see April who understood immediately

A. -Casey, can you take her to your car?- he asked the black-haired man, who just nodded as he took you out of the place -Leo... I know his patrol was very tense this time, but you don't have to take it out on everyone- it was the only thing the redhead said to leave

Casey and April took you home, they both knew something was wrong with you but you still insist that everything was fine, but they could see through that bitter smile you had on your face, but despite everything and with a lot of insistence just you managed to get April to go home, and Casey stayed to take care of you, you gave her some sheets since it didn't look like she was going to leave soon, while you told her that you would go to sleep a little earlier and you locked yourself in your room.

-Y/N, are you okay?-

-Why did you leave like that? You didn't even greet us! 😭-

-Shut up mikey, April told us that you felt bad, how do you feel flea?-

-Do you need me to contact a doctor near your location?-

-I'm fine guys, I'll get some sleep, thanks for worrying-chat.

Seeing the boys' concern made me feel a little good, but I didn't like lying to them, when I turned off the phone I couldn't take it anymore, tears started to come out of my eyes and that smile that I tried so hard to maintain broke like a smile mask falling to pieces, he could only remember that look from the leader.

-Hey little girl, are you okay?- He spoke from the other side of the door -I heard you whimpering, your apartment gets very quiet and it was impossible to hear you-

-Don't worry... I'm fine- you tried to speak as normal as possible

-Can you say it again... Without your voice shaking?- the serious but friendly voice of the black-haired man was heard

-I... I'm fine... I... I'm not fine- you couldn't control yourself anymore and you fell into tears

After a while Casey was in your room, sitting next to you patting you gently on the back while you were lying on your bed, you had already told him what had happened, the fact that he had listened to you left you calmer.

-Don't feel bad... I mean, they scared me too the first time I met them- I was trying to cheer you up

-It's not that- you tightened the sheet -It's just... I've never seen that look in Leo and it scares me to think that I'm the cause for him to have that look- once again the tears threatened to come out

-he was just stressed and suddenly exploded- he began to wish that it was April who had stayed instead of him

-I made it explode- you muttered as you buried your face in the pillow.

After what happened, you were absent from the lair for a while, you never thought that one day you would appreciate the overload of work that your boss gave you, it kept you busy and it was the perfect excuse, but you missed your favorite turtles a lot.

A few weeks passed without her going to see them, until once she finished all the work and being dragged by April, she was back in the sewers.

-Guys! Guess who I brought?- Abril spoke loudly to get everyone's attention

-Baby Angel!- Mikey yelled to quickly hug you while she lifted you up in the air -Don't abandon us again!- He whimpered while rubbing her cheek on your head

-Okay, okay... I won't go away for so long- you thought Mikey's attitude was adorable and then you saw Raph and Donnie -I already saw them! Where's my hug?- you spoke to them while you extended your arms

You soon had the three turtles hugging you, standing in the middle of a huge pile of shells, as April left them to go say hello to Splinter.

-Are you okay?- I ask in a low murmur

-Yes, I am- you answered in a similar murmur

-Calm down, with the last step you will surely make it- Mikey spoke excitedly but he only saw how you shook your head

-What's wrong? We only have one thing left to try- Raph intervened as he looked at her

-I understood some things, and it's best to stop with this- you snuggled into the arms of the three huge turtles -Maybe I'm not their sister-in-law... But what about a sister? I can still bother them like this- you spoke to show them a big smile

-Oh yes! I always wanted a sister!-

-You would be the least of all-

-That's obvious, she is a flea is perfect as the younger sister-

-Of course, I'll be the biggest huge baby Red!-

Soon they started a small fight, you were only able to free yourself when you proposed a night of video games, while they were getting ready you were able to go say hello to Splinter, and although you thanked him for the previous blessing, you also informed him that you would stop trying to be something else with Leo, although the idea Having a new daughter didn't bother him either, you were able to leave the dojo to go with the rest.

But as you walked you saw Leonardo on that pedestal, meditating as always, still taking your breath away but you were ready to accept it, ready to accept something that wasn't going to happen.

-Good morning Leonardo- was the only thing you said to pass by his side

-Baby Angel, hurry up! - Mikey shouted from the living room

-Yes, hurry up for your defeat!-Raph spoke loudly while he had one of the controls in his hand

-Give me the control to make Baby Red swallow his words!- you spoke with a smile to go with the rest

Love is not a bystander game, you must learn to take the first step to try, but you must also learn to stop when necessary, otherwise you could damage your own heart later.

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These days have not been the happiest so to speak.

Have you seen the Pixar movie "Inside Out"?

It is as if now in my head who is in control is "Sadness"

So I needed to get this out of my mind, and you can't imagine how much I've cried imagining each scene while writing it.

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I was debating a lot on whether to add the tags or not, since this was more of a vent, but I liked the result.

Maybe later I'll do the version from Leo's perspective.

Tags:

@post-apocalyptic-daydream . @turtle-babe83 . @turtlesmakemehappy . @dilucsflame33 . @thelaundrybitch . @scholastic-dragon . @leosgirl82 . @tmnt-tychou . @mackbunny . @happymoonangel .

#TMNT #tmnt fandom #tmnt bayverse #tmnt 2016 #tmnt 2014 #bayverse turtles #bayverse donatello #bayverse raphael #bayverse leonardo #bayverse michelangelo #tmnt mikey #tmnt raph #tmnt leo #tmnt donnie #sad writing #heartbreak girl #tmnt heartbreak

[la-grosse-patate]

Pain in the ass (WIP)

@inafieldofdaisies, @yokobai, @cassietrn, @whatwouldvalerydo wow, I did NOT expect this level of interest 😆 thank you! apologies this took so long. also, english is not my first language, so there might be some errors

Isabel almost recoiled. “Absolutely not!”

If the pilot took offense in her unusual reaction, he gave no sign of that. Face serene as ever and eyes full of mischief, Roger almost begged.

“Come on, this is a crazy opportunity! We can’t let those fuckers get their greasy hands on those materials.”

The captain pondered the thought for a moment, then slumped her shoulders in defeat.

He had a point. Whatever the highwaymen had found on that ship had to be valuable, and that only made them stronger.

She fumbled with the loose thread on her glove and twisted it between her thumb and middle finger, wishing it was someone’s neck. “No, I guess we can’t,” she replied, tone deflated.

“And dis is why we need to go. Aweille,” Roger pressed, voice now softer, as if trying to reason with a rabid fox. “Tell me when you’re ready.”

Unable to stop her eyes from rolling, she feigned looking at the sky instead. “I’m not doing this, Roger.”

For a moment, neither of them spoke.

The woman didn’t dare meet his gaze. She knew that if she did, she would fold like a ping pong table. Roger had that gift, and those baby blue eyes that probably matched the harsh winters in Quebec he usually spoke about. And despite their color, they only made her cheeks burn brighter.

“Tabarnouche...” he finally murmured, sighed, taking off his aviators and neatly folding them before sliding one of the temples inside his breast pocket. “I thought we were making a good team.”

The tone sounded almost accusatory, like a teacher disappointed in one of his best students, and she hated how those words stung. Isabel knew he was using every trick up his sleeve to try to coax her, and damn it to hell, she was losing ground.

“You beat their ass last time, so why would this time be any different, hm?” the pilot inquired, tilting his head to try to meet her gaze.

Her heated cheeks could easily put the pink verbena flowers outside Prosperity to shame, but the vivid memories of dodging bullets and rockets swiftly drained the color from her face.

“Because last time I almost died!” she blurted, the sound of her own voice startling her. She didn’t mean to raise her tone, but she had to get her point across somehow. “You have no idea how lucky you are to be alive right now.”

Roger took her outburst in stride. “That wasn’t luck, ma cherie, that was pure skill,” a beat, then a chuckle. “And maybe a bit of adrenaline.”

Oh, how she wanted to strangle him, because, apparently, talking just didn’t seem to do the trick.

Yanking him by the sleeve of his uniform and dragging him after her, she crouched next to the helicopter to point at something that looked frighteningly similar to a bullet hole in one of the doors.

“What is this? What does this look like to you?” she demanded.

“That one was already dere.”

Isabel scoffed in disbelief. “Oh, don’t give me that bullshit.” She stood and spun on her heel, clearly done with the conversation. “If you really wanna die, find someone else to do it with you.”

She barely made it a couple of steps off the helipad before his hand closed around her bicep in a surprisingly firm grip.

“Ey, wait a minute,” Roger interjected. “Where you going?”

To hell, she wanted to snap at him, but it didn’t matter.

It didn’t matter, because whatever witty comeback the captain had for him, it froze in her throat when she realised just how close he was.

“Listen,” he spoke softly, gaze lowering to her lips for the briefest of moments before lifting back to meet her own. “Captain, if we do dis,” he squeezed her arm for emphasis, “we might put a huge dent in their operations.”

Maybe her mind was playing tricks on her. Maybe the tingling sensation creeping to her mouth was just her imagination. Maybe her blood sugar dropped again, she thought.

“Who knows,” Roger shrugged. “Maybe they give up altogether. Maybe we get rid of an entire highwaymen chapter, ah?” he ventured. “What do you say?”

At this, she right out laughed. “Did you smoke Selene’s magic tea leaves?”

“Maybe I did,” the pilot chuckled softly.

A subtle smirk tugged at his lips as he fixed her with his crystalline eyes once more. Waiting, watching for any type of reaction from her. It made her feel warm. It made heat creep up her neck and towards her ears. Slowly starting to realize it wasn’t her blood sugar acting up, but something else entirely.

Her free hand flew to her bare neck on instinct. “Why don’t you take Hurk with you?” she finally suggested, voice just as small as she felt.

Isabel could almost see the proverbial gears crashing instantly inside his head.

 “Quoi?!” he squeaked, finally letting go of her arm. “What are you saying?”

“He’s got more experience than me,” she shrugged, content to have regained her voice. “And besides, he’s always eager to go on your little adventures.”

With renewed confidence, she decided to meet his eyes, to assess the damage. But Roger stared at her like she’d sprung another head.

“Don’t do this to me,” he begged. “That guy is crazy, he's a disaster on two legs!” he protested.

“Perfect match for a crazy, flying disaster such as yourself,” she quipped, surprised with how mean that sounded out loud.

But Roger didn’t mind. In fact, he took her jab in stride, and she could’ve sworn his eyes started gleaming with something.

Was he enjoying this?

“You’re lucky I like you, captain” the man chuckled, voice low in his chest, almost threatening. “But right now...,” he shook his head, in defeat perhaps? In disappointment? Isabel couldn’t tell. “You’re a pain in my hass,” he concluded.

At his admission, the captain didn’t know whether to feel amused, offended or proud. All she knew was that it only fueled her fire. Gaining the upper hand over his fleeting glances and dirty tricks felt like a huge victory to her. It made her feel bold. Perhaps too bold.

“Then add more lube.”

The words flew past her lips before she could stop them.

Holy shit, she did not just say that.

Sweet baby Jesus, she did not just say that!

But judging by the stunned look on Roger’s expression, she did just say that.

Ears on fire, heart in her throat, she could only hope for thunder to strike her and vaporise her on the spot. But the sky was very much clear, in spite of her desperate prayers. Clear and blue, just like the eyes staring at her crimson cheeks. Eyes she did not dare meet.

“Rush needs me I g-gotta go” she blurted in one breath, nearly making a run for it.

#roger cadoret #roger cadoret x oc #roger cadoret x isabel #far cry new dawn #wip #fcnd #fc:nd #fc5 #my oc #my writing #work in progress #writing #fanfiction #isabel is so chaotic when she's flustered djkfhjf #god help her #answered #inafieldofdaisies #yokobai #cassietrn #whatwouldvalerydo

[cassiopeiasdaughter]

HI good luck on your exams, i’m sure you’ll do amazing!!! in the meantime, could i request a ❤️ with a harry potter boy? (preferably not a gryffindor)

i’m a hufflepuff (probably the most stereotypical hufflepuff you could meet), enfp, sagittarius sun, capricorn moon & rising! generally i’m a very happy person?? or cheerful at least. i’m always smiling and all that. i think i try to be the “sunshine” of the group if that makes sense???? i like when people acknowledge my happiness. with that i’m unfortunately an awful overthinker and always care SO MUCH about what other people think of me and its so annoying. oh and im super talkative, it gets annoying for other people sometimes! i don’t know if that means i need someone as open and extroverted as me or if i need an introvert who will listen to everything i need to say hahah

when it comes to my looks; my hair is brown, a-little-longer-than-shoulder length and quite wavy and i have bangs which i love love love with all my heart they’re basically my personality at this point😭 my eyes are blue, i have some freckles here and there. i’m 172cm (5”7 is that??) and quite slim. i should probably wear glasses but i definitely do not do that.

i love movies! like crazy, i watched over 250 last year. i write quite a lot and i think in the future i would like to be a film journalist or something. i also really really like learning new languages! i probably take it from my mom, she’s an english teacher (i live in europe, english is a foreign language in my country). besides my native language i know english, french, i learned german a while ago and now i’m learning italian 🕺 sorry i’m writing so much omg, i just wanna add that i love music - taylor swift owns my heart (<3<3 you are in love, gold rush & call it what you want) and i really love everything love-related like weddings, cute dates and all that.

SORRY I WROTE SO MUXCH BYE BYE LOVE YA!!!!!

First of all, I absolutely love your energy!!!

From what I understand you have a lot of love to give and you aren’t afraid to do that.

You are extremely precious and sweet and I bet you are a very good friend.

The ideal boy for you, would listen to you and chill you when you overthink and stress about what other people have to say about you.

That doesn’t mean that he would act like a therapist ,no you are perfectly capable of calming yourself (strong independent woman/man vibes only); it is just that his energy and his way of thinking would mute everything else- help you see the world differently.

You ideal partner would also need to care about learning, and encourage you as well. He would admire your passion and the thirst for knowledge. Also, he would be a softie-who would prefer to stay in and cuddle with you, while you’re watching movies together rather than being the party-animal type (although you would drag him to parties and gatherings and he’d come because he loves you)

He would also have to be artistic.

I don’t know if you can tell where I’m going with this but I think Regulus Black would be perfect for you.

He is emotional and sensitive, he is intelligent and quiet. He is so so soft.

You would help him come out of his shell and he would help you feel more present and grounded when your thoughts get the best of you.

If it weren’t for the War he would be a soft-painter and we all know it.

Not to mention he is so so gifted; has an affinity for anything artistic.

Also, his younger sibling energy would def match your personality!!!

The more I picture you two, the more invested I am ❤️

I wish you the greatest of luck and I look forward to one day reading your articles

I would love to hear what you think of this and mr Black

#shipping

[head1nthestars]

Ask game:

9, 17, 31, 44, 56.

9. favorite smell in the summer?

australian gold sun tan lotion, it smells soo good and reminds me of my childhood

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

my stone mayari birkenstocks! i wear them every single day unless it’s cold or a special occasion, and just got a new pair for christmas bc my other ones broke while climbing my childhood tree 😅

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

maxi skirt + tank top + shawl or cardigan when it’s warm. sweater + jeans + combat boots when it’s cold

44. favorite scent for soap?

recently realized i love ones with “water” scents, like birch water. not overpowering, very fresh and clean, kinda unique

56. favorite tradition?

i was in gifted in elementary school, and our teacher had this great tradition that’s stuck with me, my friends, and my family ever since. on the first day of every month, you try to tell everyone “white rabbit!” before they can get you, and it’s a way of wishing them good luck and happiness for the month. but the catch is if you get someone, they can’t say it back so it gets extremely competitive lol

thanks for the ask!!

#personal

[dufreydiaries]

Dufrey Diaries Chapter 7

Lucline and Rasina were enjoying breakfast the next morning when a Psjiic projection appeared before them. The mage standing there was an Orc named Lobamog Aglim, assistant to the leader of the Hammerfell branch of the Society of Magic. She smiled at the man.

"Good morning, Lobamog. Doing messages for Minrra today?"

He grimaced. "There's a meeting together with the other branches. Minrra asked me to summon you to the meeting as well."

Lucline and Rasina shared a look. Lucline was not high on the totem pole of the society, there was no good reason she would be summoned to such an important meeting.

"Did she say what she wanted me for?"

He shook his head. "She just said it was important and to hurry."

She got up and sighed. The sun was beating down on the sand already and it was sweltering outside. "Alright. I'll get changed and be right there."

"Much obliged. Good morning, Rasina. I see you two are finally moving things along. Congratulations!"

"Good morning, Lobamog. Thank you, it was a long time coming."

Lucline blushed as she rushed to don her clothing and put on her cloak to shelter her skin from the sun. She came out to find Lobamog's projection was gone.

"I guess working on the cooling machine will have to wait." Lucline said sadly as Rasina rose and stole a kiss from her.

"Well, we can still work on moving your stuff in here this evening when the sun goes down. I'll see you when you get back."

Lucline smiled and kissed her back. "See you soon."

*Elder-Scrolls*

Lucline rushed across the city and towards the old Mage's Guild building. It had housed the Society of Magic for the last twenty years, but the people of Sentinel refused to call it anything but the Mage's Guild building. She waved back at a few of the passerby's that she knew and got waves or nods in return as she went. She saw a stall with fresh fruit for sell. She made a note to stop and by some on the way back. Soon, she had arrived and hung her cloak on a rack for that purpose. She was wearing her Society issued robe instead of her scant desert friendly outfit Rasina had gifted her. She sighed, wishing for the cooler clothing as she stepped into the meeting room.

As she entered, Minrra put a finger to her lips and motioned to a chair next to her. Lucline carefully made her way and sat down. There were other chairs around the table, each of them was filled with a Psjiic projection of the other branch leaders of the Society. The High Rock leader, her former mentor Arnlec Beatte, smiled as she sat down but said nothing. He was the oldest member on the Council, except for maybe the elf members. It was hard to tell with them.

On the center of the table, stands a Nord with his hands crossed. He was talking to the Council.

"I am pleased to tell the Council that the College of Winterhold has agreed to take me on as a teacher for the next term. They have declined to serve as the Skyrim Branch of the Society for the time being, but Archmage Arco told me she was considering it."

"Good," Arnlec spoke now. "The Arco family is well known throughout High Rock. I am sure she will make the right decision for the College."

Lucline chuckled. It would be hard to find a single providence where the Arco family was not famous to some degree.

Minrre nodded. "Thank you for your report, Henrick. You may go."

Henrick bowed and his projection disappeared. Arnlec spoke again.

"That will conclude the formal business for today. Minrre, good luck with that task we set for your young Dufrey. I trust my former pupil will be up to the task."

Minrre nodded as the other members started vanishing. She remained quiet until the last was gone. Minrre was a middle aged Redguard woman with a nasty scar running from her left temple to the right side of her neck. Her eyes were knd though, softing her tough looks.

"Thanks for coming so quickly, Lucline. I know you were wanting to start on that new project of yours but this takes priority. First, I got your report on what happened at the Dwemer Ruins. There was in fact a expedition planned for next week there. Some students to get their hands dirty on some Dwemer relics. We are looking into that. I figure you have a right to be in on dealing with that. However, a more pressing matter has shown up given that the trap has been sprung. I would like you to deal with it while we look into the trap further."

Lucline nodded. "Alright, what is the job?"

Minrre smiled. "We heard of a young child in Bergama that is exhibiting a level of magic that should be impossible. We don't have an agent there so we cannot easily confirm. We would like you to go to Bergama and confirm this. You can return after. We are arranging a permanent agent there soon."

Lucline pondered this. "Can I take an escort from the Fighter's Guild for protection?"

Minrre smiled knowingly. "Sure, you can take Rasina with you. We will cover your fare for the right to Bergama and will dispense a meal stipend and we will cover Rasina's hiring cost as well. Though I suspect you wouldn't need to pay, given Lobamog told me he found you in her house this morning."

Lucline blushed. "I would prefer if she got paid and was on a job. Work for the Guild has been meger lately as it is."

Minrre nodded. "I understand. We haven't gotten many contracts for magical assistance lately either. Please report to me the day after your return. I don't want you coming in here swaying on your feet from the ride."

Lucline grinned eagerly. "Yes, ma'am!"

She rushed out to go and fetch her cloak. She was excited to tell Rasina and get underway!

A/N: And another chapter down. We took Saturday off and I might make that the norm. See you in the next chapter!

#the elder scrolls #fanfic #sapphic

[arleneworld22]

Today, yesterday and other days

Today I decide to wear my favorite coat to be more comfy at work, it’s light and a little long and color gray, it reminds me of Harry Potter’s cap. I worked for first time in months at the pharmacy and at the beginning I made many mistakes but after the first hour I started to get it so it wasn’t too bad, I like my co-workers of there because they are very nice to me, there are 3 women, I like to think about them like the superpowerful girls, Betty is Blossom, red hair, kind of bossy, very communicative with the patients and focus on her work, Perla is Buttercup, kind of serious, carefree personality, calm and a little abrupt, but she is very patient with me, I think of her like a “senpai” she is very attentive with me, most of the time she trained me when I started there; and then America, she is the sweetest person I meet in the whole hospital, she has personality of preschool teacher, very kind, sweet voice, veeey kind x2, patient and loving, you really feel safe with her. Btw two patients gifted us snack bars to all the workers there… well thinking about it better, I think those were to America and she shared with us, well it was delicious anyway.

Today I listened your playlist when I finished my exercise, when I was cooking and that felt very relaxing, I like discovering this kind of new feelings in moments like this.

Yesterday my bro sneaks into my space at night and I know that when he does that it’s always because he wants to tell me something important; he told me about a classmate that it’s currently flirting with him and he doesn’t want to express how really feels because he is afraid to be hurt, but actually he likes him (oh btw he is gay) he told me he is deaf too so communication it’s not a problem, he told me about him and sounds like a nice guy actually, I hope they can be fine.

I forget to congrats you for finish all your homeworks the other night, now you have to keep that consistence, I wish you good luck with that.

Also, do you buy me something? I feel suprised, moved and speechless... oh God, what I'm going to do with you and your kindness? you really caugh me off guard.

Listening your playlist, and see that actually we enjoyed each other's, would you like me to expain you some of them to you?, would you like to explain me some of yours?, choose the ones you want and I'll do it, music is something that help us to connect more with our feelings, and the point of this is to get out what we feel, what we felt, heal and move forward. So if you want, can you explain me how Heaven's on fire make you feel? I feel that maybe I get it but I think I'm missing something, also with the bug collector, just if you want.

I have to confess that I never looked for Natalia’s albums before, as I listen her music most of the because my mom played it, so I never have the neeeded to look for them because my mom puts it, maybe I already listened all her songs and I didn’t know lol.

Talk to me about everything you want, I’m going to be happy for know more about you. I don’t have plans to watch OP for the next couple months, maybe neither this year but I want to watch it some day, tell me whatever you want, I’m going to feel happy to know about how do you feel with references and everything.

I noticed that yesterday you added “Sigo aquí” from treasure’s planet and my mind almost exploded for that coincidence because yesterday I watched that movie! Life is weird but I like things like this, I already watched but maaaaaany years ago, so this little coincidence… wow.

Hey, the second highest score and it was a 18/50?! WOW that’s hard, but amazing! congrats for that achievement, it’s not perfect but it doesn’t mean that you lose, enjoy this victory, you deserve it. I hope you really enjoyed that nap.

#this is the first time I listened Thalia she has such powerful voice. #good night #letter #see you in october #I hope you can sleep well #How is your brother? #How is your your mothers health?

[ch-postal-company]

Day 7 of Academy

Today is the day all of our studying and practice culminate to carry us, pass or fail, through the final test. At the very end of the day, we all meet up in the break room to get our results. Those who pass get their crisp new uniforms, while those who fail are escorted out.

I brought the instructor an apple today. The biggest, reddest one I could find. There are strict rules about giving gifts to those higher up or whose decisions could benefit us, so I thought an apple was a simple gesture to thank an amazing teacher. Turned out, it was her favorite variety of apple.

To take a break from morning study time, a classmate who works at this massive hub took us on a long tour of the building. It can seem like magic when you drop a letter in a little blue box and a few days letter it shows up in a friend's mailbox. Let me tell you, it is magic.

The technology that sorts 30,000 letters an hour, the technology that knows what door your package came in and what door it needs to go out, it IS very complex modern day magic. Watching it all work in real time, like hundreds of clogs and gears in a clock turning in sync, I thought that it's borderline miraculous how millions of mail pieces make it from sender to recipient every day.

📨📫

The test department announced that our entire class passed the test! They seemed surprised, so I guess it doesn't happen often. All of the students started cheering. My new friend said she saw our instructor step out of the room for a moment after the announcement. We found out a little later that this class, her 26th, was her first to have every student pass.

We took a class picture, received our new uniforms, and then talked excitedly amongst ourselves until it was time to leave. My friend invited me to come visit the island where she lives, this summer. We wished each other luck and said our goodbyes to classmates we had labored alongside for 7 stressful days, then headed back to our far-flung homes.

It's just now hitting me: I graduated! I made it!

#journal #academy #postal company #mail #postal service

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

UPDATE

MY BALLET LESSON GOT CANCELLED CUZ THE TEACHER GOT CHICKEN POX IM NOT EVEN KIDDING

I KINDA PANICKED AND TEXTED HER THAT i GOT HER A GIFT AND WAS GONNA SUPRISE WISH HER AND SHE HASN'T SEEN THE TEXT YET 🤣😭

my next ballet lesson is on monday lmao

btw this is 👒 anon

i feedbacked? the final chapter of pathetic but i forgot to put the hat lol anyway it was AMAZING AS ALWAYS

OH MY GOD IT WORKED OUT KINDA!!!!!

Thank you for telling me 👒 anon cause i’m being so genuine when i tell you i’m an idiot an anon once said like what if all the writers here are the same or something like WHAT IF YOU ARE ALL THE SAME PERSON if you just like so very clearly spoke like yourself and then put a different anon tag i would believe you like idk man I’m the kinda character that works in the superman universe

GOOD LUCK WITH IT ALL PLEASE KEEP ME UPDATED ON HOW IT GOES what are you gonna get her!!

#IM GLAD YOU LIKED PATHETIC #B: 👒 anon

[oraclekleo]

Hello, how are you?? Hope you're doing great! Since you're no longer doing FS readings, may I ask for another one please? I wanted to know about my first overseas trip. I got the opportunity last year at work but I couldn't take it due to some personal issues. Currently I'm not working anywhere and there are no plans for travel, I neither have the means to go through with it nor any idea where exactly to go. But I really do want to travel abroad atleast once. I wanted to know if there is any possibility that I might get to travel abroad in future and when? Thanks a lot for this opportunity! 💖 I'm C. 🙏

Hello!

I'm sorry it took me so long to respond to your ask and I'm very grateful for you being patient with me.

Let's have a look what awaits for you in regards to travelling, shall we?

Right from the first glance you can see it looks rather positive, right? 😁 Happiness and joy are suggested, same as new opportunities and peaks to reach. The Midheaven card talks about what others have taught you, your parents, mentors, teachers. Their words might serve you well as long as they are aligned with your soul's calling. But if those people are discouraging you from following your own path, then it might be time to release the wisdom that no longer serves you. You clearly have something big awaiting for you, some mountain to climb, some new unexpected opportunity as it's suggested in the Gift card. Follow your personal abilities, juggle your responsibilities and prove yourself competent in the world and soon you might be offered with unexpected opportunity to travel. It's likely to be a place filled with sunshine and (lollipops 😂) happiness. It might be at a sea shore or in a big city. The two doplhins might even signify a choice. Maybe you will be offered to pick whether you want to go to a city location or a tropical paradise. If you ask which one you should pick, I can't tell. You need to follow your intuition, guts and inspiration. Maybe this opportunity will come with a tiny bit of sadness. Maybe you might feel slightly sad about leaving what you know, your friends and family, but this shouldn't discourage you. All the cards are pointing to reaching a great happiness through the travel, personal accomplishment, definition of yourself as an idividual. As for when this offer might come... The Gift card suggest a winter month with the snowing. If it doesn't snow where you live, you might expect the offer to come in the colder season.

I include the cards so you can have a look and maybe find an extra message meant for you and only for you in them. Sometimes the cards will reveal a lot to me but there are things that are meant for the querent only. If you see any information in the cards, it was meant for you.

Thank you for being this patient with me and for your request. I wish you all the best of luck on your journey, wherever it will lead you. Make sure to make a proper preparation for your travelling as the 2 of Pentacles suggest. 😉

Any tip through KO-FI is purely voluntary but appreciated.

I'll be grateful for any feedback.

Be blessed!

Kleo 🦄

#oracle kleo #personal tarot readings #request completed

[letterstojori]

5.5

Dear Jori,

I forgot. I do have one other gay friend. We’ve only met in person 3 times but this is Phuc. I think I matched with him at some point when he was in NorCal but he’s originally from Socal. We added each other on IG and just liked each others posts and stuff cause he’s a teacher. And then he ended up moving up here and I helped him out with his classroom and we went on a hike once. I kinda had a crush on him but realized that he was more of just a friend. We haven’t hung out for awhile but I caught up with him today because he saw my post about my kids and me leaving for Japan and he hit me up.

It was kinda nice hanging out cause for the first time I didn’t have that crush feeling and was just treating him like a friend. I think I was acting more silly cause there was some banter. Banter that I would have with you. And I caught myself but twice I almost said Jori.

I told him about you. Honestly I need to stop because I need to get over you but it’s kinda hard when I’m telling people about how we met and all the cute shit we did. But maybe it’s also hard because I’m literally writing a letter to you every night. This is time we’re missing and I wanna tell you about it someday. But also it just helps. I used to blog/journal all the time and I stopped towards the end of college. I kinda wish I wrote more, especially during my teaching journey. But I always said there just wasn’t so much to be excited to write about. Kinda funny how you brought a purpose of blogging back.

Today was a little hard. Just feeling a little extra sad for some reason. Probably because you barked for someone else yesterday. Haha. Maybe a little sad that you’re streaming again and you’re doing a bunch of other games like you wanted. Well not sad that you’re streaming but sad cause I wish I could be a part of that. But I’m so proud of you! You were in the 20+ views at some points. That’s a new record. Soon you’re no longer gonna be able to use bbstrimmer as a tag.

I’m realizing more and more how important it is that I let you go right now. I think the first gift will have to be the cookies, a plush even if it is a bunny and makes sense might be too much at first. As much as I’d love for you to have a constant reminder in my room that I’m here waiting for you to catch up. Does that count as waiting for you? Haha idk I’ve been playing with the idea in my head. If I’m telling you to catch up does that mean I’m waiting? Is it copium if I just keep telling myself that I’m not waiting and I’m working on myself? Maybe it’s not copium if I’m actually doing that.

I wish I could talk to you. But I guess this will have to do. Good luck on your Valuo games. I’m rooting for you 400 miles away~

-bearbear

[shunshuntaiga]

Awww </3 stupid blue hellsite, eating my messages. whatever, it's not like you missed much, it was the usual suburra insanity lol. I really did, it's one of the best written english suburra fics. Tysm for sharing it. And I think it's normal to be a little unsure when finally posting any art because you, as the person making it, can always see it for what it can be, all the little improvements. But the readers see it for what it is, which in the case of your fic is: a goddamn beautiful story. <33 Ooo, you're absolutely right. The Adami family definitely takes pride in their legacy of always producing strong, commanding Alphas, or at the least Betas. And we can also tie Aurelia being an omega to his mom's death... Like, his dad makes him think that if he were born an alpha there wouldn't have been complications at his birth, so his mom would still be alive. And I know Livia loves him, but you cannot tell me that low-key she doesn't see him as her inferior because he is an omega. Classic, cheesy, who care? If it ain't broke, don't fix it. I got an idea... Ok, so Aurelia has been abusing inhibitors his whole life, so maybe he's never had a heat. So when he's alone with Spadi (maybe the ep with the mud baths) his supressants stop working for some reason (cough*fallinginlove*cough) and he gets his first one. And normally omegas can power through, but since he's supressed them for so long, it hits him as if he's having all the heats he missed. It's angsty af because it hurts him mentally and physically. Spadi doesn't know at first what's going on, but when he figures it out, he's afraid Aurelia might die. So yada yada, some denial later, they hook up. And of course Aureliano gets knocked up because the universe loves to fuck with them. And he doesn't tell Spadi because he's emotionally constipated and also so deep in the closet he has the right to vote in fucking Narnia. Which makes everything that happens in ep 9 sooo much worse. :') OH GOD, YOU'RE BIRLLIANT!! OF COURSE THEIR DAUGHTER WOULD BE RUBINA, OF COURSE!! also, in true wlw/mlm solidarity, Spadi and Angelica are each other's beards for Aureliano and Nadia. *Me, someone who refuses the last episode of the show because I don't have the emotional stability*: Ok, but what if we take the finale... and make it a THOUSAND TIMES WORSE?? 👀 At one point he wishes he would go numb, but Aure dying in his arms always hurts, no matter how many times it has happened before. And of course Spadi would blame himself, because he always sees any bad thing that happens as his fault (i hate his family so so much). And obviously the way out of the time loop is him finally accepting that the faith of the world is not on his shoulders and he deserves to be happy. But Aureliano needs to convince him of it once he starts also remembering the loop, which... easier said than done. Ooooh, now WHY would you do this to me??? Yes, sure.... let's add the angst of Aure dying in tears because he knows how much pain he is causing Spadi with each iteration, why not?? "But Spadì is almost praying that it’s not, because he can’t imagine any timeline where Aurelia isn’t by his side"-- *reads this*... *immediately starts building time machine so I can go back to kindegarten and stop my teacher from teaching me how to read* This is horrible... thank you <333 Awww, thank you!! High praise, coming from a genius such as yourself. 😌 OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!! YOU'RE STARTED WRITING IT, OH MY GOD!!! ILYSM 😳  duuude, lmfaooo.... istg i have a gift/curse because... for real, all my internet friends have at least once started writing insane/feral fics because of some idea I implanted into their heads :))) Good luck with the story!! I can't wait to see what you come up with. <33

Asksbfkdk I definitely would not say it's one of best English language fics for suburra, I mean, have you READ some of them??? Suburra fic writers go hard lol

Oh the mud baths being where it all starts is so good....... OR.... Hear me out, after Lele's death. When Aurelia has that heart to heart with Spadino about how he doesn't want to loose him. All those feelings he's repressed come bubbling up to the surface and his heat kicks in? Absolute disaster. Truth be told its just because I love Aurelia with the wing tattoos and beard the best, and that'd how I like to imagine him when I'm reading/writing.

*he's so deep in the closet he has voting rights in Naria* lmao yes he does. The poor sweet boy.

Oh OH but imagine if it did start at the mud baths, and then the 'hook up' could happen when Spadì kisses him for the first time (backseat, parking lot hook-up that leads to pregnancy?? It's so perfect in a slightly nasty way)

Season three finale? We don't know her lol we also can't forget the obvious time loop where Spadino sacrifices himself at the junkyard instead of Aurè. And IMAGINE if thats the loop where Aurelia starts to remember things...!!!

Also a scene where our poor Spadì gets drunk because he can't take it anymore, and spills everything to Aurelia

"No matter what I do it always ends the same way, where I'm on that fucking boat and you're dead in my arms!"

It's definitely quite the endeavor to write that's for sure, but the idea is just SO GOOD and there's so much room for perfect angst and hurt/comfort

I probably have to go rewatch the last couple of episodes to get the timeline right so I know where to diverge the plot.

#suburra #fanfic #anon you are truly a treat to get messages from

[fallen-angel-with-broken-halo]

I can't expect things to get better. So I won't.

School is hard. I gave up on it. I don't care anymore. I can't get better grades. Learning for things is a pain and when I have the worst fucking grade from my native language it's a sign that I messed something up. I want to be the gifted kid again, I really do. I'm just not mentaly up to it.

Home is okay. She sometimes tells me things that make me want to kill myself, but that's normal by now. She's a good person. She just doesn't understand. She just doesn't want to understand. However the more I live here the more I'm sure that men are trash :) And I'm never becoming a fucking alcoholic. I can become addicted to caffeine, but never to alcohol. That shit awful.

My mental health is as normal as it can get. A normal amount of suicidal thoughts and not many breakdowns, so I'm holding on. School anxiety kinda getting to me, but I'll survive. Ever since I don't really have anyone I can truly vent to life has truly been ups and downs, but at least now I have moments like this - sudden peace. Or rather, sudden numbness. It's fine though. At least it's not the kind where I want to cry but can't while staring into the ceiling. It's the kind where I just do not feel for a while. A nice change of pace.

I want to go to a mental hospital. I won't.

I read Heartstopper volume 3 and 4 yesterday. Charlie got help. ... I was jealous. I was so damn jealous. I wanted to cry, but couldn't.

I had to write an email for my english class today. I wrote a bit too much about older sister trauma. I hope the teacher doesn't take note of it.

... No. I want her to take note of it.

Anyway, school is hard. Life is okay, I guess.

I can't expect anything to get better if I don't do anything to change it, even with my attitude.

I've tried to change it. What did that give me?

Pain.

...

Deep breaths. I'm okay. School. Yeah, I need to get ready for a test.

Wish me luck. Maths is gonna be the death of me

#thoughts #vent #mental health #school #parents #math is hard #suicidal thoughts

[marmaladepicnic9]

Feel free to scroll past, just venting 🫶

Surgery is tomorrow, I’m gonna be alone in the hospital all day. The wifi is shit and data can get through the lead walls. Someone is playing pennys from heaven shoe bee do bee so loud downstairs that I can hear it through the floor. Every little thing is setting me off. My mom cut my hair today which was nice. My hair tie got caught in my hair when I was trying to take it down and I almost screamed and cried and lost it. I heard a podcast episode where someone died of leukaemia and had a guy crash her funeral to tell her “coffin confessions” and thought about righting something in case surgery goes badly and then cried in the shower about it for five seconds before realising that unless I’m allergic to anaesthesia, the worst that could happen is I lose a leg. And even then my boss would feel too bad about it to fire me, and I might get a free more weeks of summer before I move to officially start work. I had my mom turn in my geography project this morning, so now I don’t have to go to school until the exams in june, but I still have to give teachers gifts and attend graduation +the two classes earlier that day cus they are handing out yearbooks then. The head girl tm said we should learn the words to the graduation song (from hannah montana) because it would reflect badly on the school if we just mumbled,, its a mass, you had to choose hymms for us to sing too, no one is learning any words. Good luck. I ean into the principal in the office yesterday when I was dropping off some paperwork. It was really awkward. I dislike her. I wanted to throw up. Later that day she yelled at two of the few non-white Irish students about skipping class while literally every single 6th year has been skipping classes for weeks. So she’s gonna get a talking to abt her pattern of racist behaviour. From my inside scoop, I think she’s just plain ignorant, which is almost worse. I’m rambling, but I can’t tell my parents I’m worried or upset cus my mom will smother me and cry and my dad will have physical anxiety symptoms and bottle it all up. I threw away all my dried flowers when I moved, but I kept the daffodils from my last day of radio therapy and some orchids I grew. Its weird seeing them cus after radio therapy I felt like everything was done, but its never done, it just changed. My parents made tons of food so I have enough leftovers for a second dinner at 11 before I start fasting and a meal when I get home. I really wish my mom hadn’t told me I’d be getting a breathing tube during surgery. It scared the shit out of me and I wish I hadn’t known. She is a master of waking up during surgeries, and I had the nurse over the phone, Collette, write that down, but I’m still worried about it. When I get to the hospital at 10:30 I have a half hour of paperwork before scans at 11. Then the scans get analysed, which will take forever. I cant have any water past 8:30. There’s gonna be a long time between scans and surgery because a nurse let slip to my mom that mine was one of the last surgeries of the day, even though I get there early. I’m so angry in no particular direction but I downloaded some netflix so I won’t need wifi, 4hrs recovery with no guests. From there its unclear where I go, maybe a different room? Maybe home? I’ll try to remember to ask, but I’m not confident that I will. I hope I can talk to the Professor before he starts slicing and dicing. I wonder what pose they’ll have me take on the table. They are operating on the back of my thigh, but they couldn’t have me on my back with a tube done my throat. My throat hurts just thinking about it. I texted the spanish class groupchat that I have a cold so I’m not coming into class when the girl whose birthday was yesterday asked. She has the gift and card for our teacher, and I haven’t signed it yet. Our geography teacher loved the cactus we got her and I was very happy because it was my idea. I’m not sure if our history teacher will like his present because I’m not entirely sure what it is, but I wrote a nice note in his card at least. I want to get things for my ag sci, english, and

Biology teachers, but I don’t know what, flowers and a card? Maybe eggs but we don’t have any cartons. A book for english? Biology doesn’t want a plant because she hates having to water the geraniums in class. She used to be a health researcher, and she’s pretty health conscious? Maybe that could lead to an idea? I should really get a diary, or talk to a therapist.

I just know Deb would love to get me in a room and grill me. i sent her an email this week and she wished me good luck. I think she is reporting back to the principal or whoever because the principal brought up weirdly specific details about my health yo my mom. But I told my geography teacher all that too the day before, but surely she’s not that efficient. I trust her not to say anything more than I trust Deb. My mom did my hair up in a prom look today and I tried on my backup dress. I loved it. Renewed passion to make my dress, and extensions.

I need shoes for the debs, and something I forgot. If I wear the backup dress I will have to do something about the sideboobage its a little much.

Love you bye mwah