#anyway rant over i guess

[interclouds]

I feel like I can’t trust anyone’s opinions on what good anime is anymore

#maybe i never could who knows #maybe i dont even know what is good #i recently thought back to how much i liked flcl and how much i think it influenced me #or at least theoretically influenced me im working on it #but i did a rewatch and while the good parts i remembered were still good #there were issues for sure #i kept wanting to recommend it to my boyfriend but as i rewatched i kept feeling insecure like he wouldnt enjoy it #maybe thats kind of a bad example bc while flcl is as close to timeless as anime gets it does stills how its age a bit in small ways #the only anime ive watched recently that actually stood up to some scrutiny was mp100 #but i gotta be honest i only like maybe half of mp100 and probably less #whats good about it is great but so much of it i just have no stomach for #maybe thats me being picky but idk i feel like a lot of people wouldnt enjoy those same aspects #we did a watch of brba recently and like no show is perfect 100% but brba was pretty incredible start to finish #and i think most people would pretty much agree regardless of tastes #should i be comparing some anime about a silly little guy to one of the most critically acclaimed tv shows ever? probably not #but idk i want to like anime so much bc theres so much about it that what i want #but i just keep running into not just disappointment but like actual shock at how it fails to meet expectations other people set up for me #anyway rant over i guess #probably gonna delete this? who cares what i think about anime lol #this is probably the vyvanse talking and my boyfriend isnt awake for me to bother him

[onceandfutureoshainspector]

Danse: If you have the time to talk now, I'd still like to know what you think about Scribe Haylen. Cat: Is something wrong? Danse: No, not at all. Haylen's doing well. I simply wanted to talk to you about her, but I wanted to know what you thought of her first. Cat: She's as dedicated as they come. A real team player. Danse: I couldn't agree more. But I wasn't looking for an evaluation of her performance as a scribe, I wanted to know what you thought of Haylen... as a person.

- oh. ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh! i see what this is ;3

---- honestly? my thoughts on Haylen are mostly positive at this point, i don't think they'd make the worst couple.

-------- note to self: see if i can convince her to join the Railroad...

Cat: This isn't like you, Danse. Are you going to tell me what this is all about? Danse: I suppose I'm beating around the bush because I don't normally find these discussions easy to handle. I'll try and get right to the point. The truth is, I'm worried about her. Since you and I are getting along so well, I felt like I could confide in you about it... to get your honest opinion. Cat: She seems to be able to handle herself. Why are you worried? Danse: Haylen is a model scribe. This has nothing to do with her capabilities in the field. A few months before you found us, one of my men was shot multiple times by Raiders. Haylen stayed by that Knight's side for two days straight without sleep fighting to keep him alive... but he was on a slow decline. I decided that his suffering needed to end and ordered Haylen to administer an overdose of painkillers so he could die with dignity. Even though I'm certain she wanted to continue fighting for that Knight's life, she injected him without question. Cat: Are you asking me whether or not I approve? Danse: Of course not. I stand by every order I've ever given. That soldier was gravely wounded. Even if by some miracle he happened to survive, he would have been paralyzed for life. But the decision whether or not to ease that soldier's suffering isn't the point here. The point is what happened later that same evening. After what felt like an eternity, she collapsed into my arms, crying. I... didn't know what to do, so I just held her for a while. A few minutes later, she stopped, kissed me on the cheek, and simply said "Thank you", before heading back into the police station. Right then it hit me... maybe I pushed her too hard. I ordered her to ignore her instincts. To do something her medical training told her was wrong. That's why I'm worried about her... and for that matter, everyone under my command.

- yeah, these two would both benefit from getting the fuck away from the Brotherhood. like, tough decisions for tough situations, but ideally you don't send people into those situations, or at least without the resources and personell necessary to make it back.

Cat: Haylen will be fine. It's you that I'm worried about. Danse: Me? Look, four soldiers... over half of my team, are gone. Each one of them died because of decisions that I made. I understand the risks that come with the job, we all do. But how can anyone have confidence in me anymore? Hell, how can I have confidence in myself? Cat: Would it make you feel better if I told you that I believed in you? Danse: Actually, it does. Well, it looks like things have taken a turn. I signed up to be your sponser so I could teach you everything that I know, but it looks like I'm the one that needed the lesson today. All joking aside, I'm pleased that we had this discussion, and even with all the problems you're facing, you still took the time to listen. It's comforting to know that I can speak to you as more than just your commanding officer. Cat: I'm here anytime you need me, Danse. Danse: Anyway, thanks for letting me get that off my shoulders. I think it's been weighing on me more than I realized. I'm only sorry you had to see me at my worst instead of at my best.

- QUEST ADDED: convince Scribe Haylen to leave the Brotherhood of Steel.

#there was an option to flirt with him which 1: fuck no he's my son 2: he's literally asking me for advice about another woman #like maybe this was written with the intention of some kind of jealousy angle? somehow? idek #on a meta level i have doubts that he'll end up with haylen even if i don't romance him #just based on the fact that piper kept coming at me with her final dialogue until i took the plunge #tbh it'd be nice if romanceable npcs had a potential conclusion to their arc that didn't involve the player character #like if there was an option to set them up with each other or with a non-companion npc or just get them to stop asking or something #i'm not really a fan of the whole playersexual thing it feels like everyone you don't romance is just left hanging #anyway rant over i guess #fallout 4: the resurrection of osha #fallout 4

[dearreader]

i felt/feel the exact same way about the canon url. like i love my url so much and everything but it took a while to get used to it. idk if you've experienced this, but there was also a fair bit of imposter syndrome involved for me. it's very silly because it's literally just some words but i felt like i wasn't "legitimate" enough of a blog for a canon url and i compared myself to other canon blogs more than i'd like to admit. eventually i got used to not having my old url and realized that having a canon url didn't come with job requirements (which i always knew but i felt more comfortable with it). i still sometimes feel a little 😵‍💫 about it, mostly in a good way, but it's one of those things that i think just becomes more comfortable with time.

this is actually really real. i also talked about this a bit in the swiftie tumblr discord server because i noticed i was suddenly getting more followers because i had a “canon” url now, which i’m not complaining but it was odd since i’d been in the fandom for so long but was only now being seen as a big blog. and yeah you describe it well, having a canon url almost feels like you have a job title almost, that you have more to prove and do. i think part of that is how hard it is to get canon urls because so many are hoarded so when anyone has ones it’s like a sign of accomplishment and status, im such a big deal i have an elusive url. when in reality it’s just… a name? like i loved my TTDS url because me and anyone with a TTDS related url immediately followed each other, and having a dear reader url is nice because i love that song and i hope o can have that same experience. like, it’s just weird the level of power we give to canon urls when it’s just a url. it doesn’t determine status or anything. and even if it DOES the whole big and little blog discourse is silly because we’re all here at the end of the day and should treat everyone the same regardless of how “good” their url is

#anyway rant over i guess #sorry about that #kelly babels #foolishone #love letters #love letters from mutuals #lovely mutuals

[mercuriallily]

.

#basically I'm mad frustrated #why am I consistently ignored in conversation (real life and online) #I'll wait until there's an opening to speak and then...everyone ignores me and keeps talking #so I think 'what's the point' and stop trying #then they have the audacity to say 'oh you're so quiet!' #?? I have been trying to talk this whole time you've just been ignoring me #I've done experiments where I've left a conversation to see if anyone will notice #sometimes I'll say 'okay I'm going now' and other times I just leave quietly #when I return guess what? no one realises I was gone in the first place #and no I'm not exaggerating or lying #this is just a thing that's happened my entire life #I just want to feel included FOR ONCE is that too much to ask #anyway rant over I guess

[parrrty-poison]

it'd be great if i could not feel like i got run over by a truck and started crying every time i heard hayley williams sing

#these hormones be wack this month #to be fair hayley could make me cry while not on my period too probably #just wanted to listen to cinnamon while making cookies #and ended up listening to all of petals for armor for the first time in several months #and whooweee boi gripping the sink so hard trying not to start sobbing wow #petals for armor was my main therapy my first year of grad school #and now im watching videos of paramore on tour and!!!! #CANNOT.BELIEVE.IM.NOT.GOING #im gonna sell a kidney if it comes to that #i need this for my mental health #anyway rant over i guess

[aroaceleovaldez]

Here is a link to the Cherokee Nation's official site. Here is the Visit Cherokee Nation youtube channel. Here is a playlist for learning Cherokee (and here's one for learning Ojibwe, as a bonus cause i'm biased). Here is a link to Daybreak Star Radio, which is a radio station based in Seattle dedicated to showcasing international first nations and indigenous music that you can listen to online. Here is a pdf of various recipes, including references to which tribes they originate from. Here is a link to The-aila-test's buy native tag, and here is a link to Beyond Buckskin's buy native list (though some of the links are broken). Here is a link to the Cherokee Phoenix newspaper's official site.

now go take a minute and come back once you've done some research so everybody can stop being weird about Piper.

#pjo #riordanverse #piper mclean #this is directed towards riordanverse fandom but feel free to let this one breach containment #i see so many people draw piper with caricature traits and its like. guys... i thought we left that in 2016... its not hard to not do that! #just. go look at people for ten minutes. just take a minute. just look. at a photo. #also she's cherokee. dont be vague about her being native american. we have specifics. you can say it. #you can put it into a search engine even. and look. and research stuff. #like. Leo? Alex? we dont have specifics. we can make guesses but it's not really specified. Piper is very explicitly specified though. #anyways if i see one more person talk about piper with the phrase ''native enough'' i'm gonna scream #''native enough'' what do you even MEAN that's a WHOLE CONTINENT MY GUY #okay rant over i will retreat into my abyss once more

[carpathiians]

sketches

ref

#rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #javier escuella #john marston #jovier #uhhh its implied i guess #im working on other stuff but ill leave this here in the meantime #sorry for only ever drawing these two im not normal about them #thank my social anxiety for not letting me act crazy on here bc otherwise id be so annoying 🙏 #ive been taking it all out on my notes app it looks fucking BAD in there #anyway #john is so hard to draw I hate him and his stupid giant eyes </3 #gotta get better at drawing then both tbh #thats why its taking me so long to post #I keep drawing shit and then deleting it #ok weird rant over if anyone reads my tags im sorry #my art

[baeshijima]

bitches will still be crying over the high-cloud quintet at 2 am months later and never get over them

its me. im bitches.

#may the stars guide you <3 #once again reiterating how much i loathe and despise this game with my very being and entire soul bc of how emotional it gets me #i could make a full on analysis rant post abt them and it still wouldnt be enough to console me #theyre just so tragic and doomed by the narrative coded and i hate it so much like wtf hsr devs what were u cooking with this ;w;;; #anyway guess who ended up watching that jingliu companion mission cutscene and blade narative part again bc of that reunion fic in my docs #that acts as a kind of sequel to the jing yuan long fic... looking over it again made me sob and then i rewatched a flash and then i reread #what i have for the soulmate!blade fic and then i died #sighs i hate them i love hate them i love them i want them to be happy but they cant be fully happy bc they wont all be together

[anominous-user]

triple threat end card but with the honkai inpact trio. and also bald TT.

#the henry stickmin collection #thsc #honkai impact #bronya zaychik #kiana kaslana #raiden mei #do i tag. the thsc trio for this. i mean they are here as bald as they can be #i guess. #charles calvin #henry stickmin #ellie rose #a-u edit stuff #note that i edited them based on their poses/expressions this does NOT mean bronya = charles or mei = ellie cuz #characters flip around a lot in my edits there is no set standard except for maybe like one lr two characters and even then. #ok anyway i mainly edited this with the honkai trio cuz. they dont interact enough in the story. #like its funny when you think about it but like they separate in the early chapters and only reunite completely in the final arc of part 1. #and i wish there was more. just like how i wish the tt dynamic was more fleshed out #theyre nice and all. just. nothing for me to chew on #ok rant over #i actually am currently redrawing the end cards in the same vein as honkai cgs i jist needed to get this out of my system #i was also highly considering leaving kiana bald. jsut like her great-grandpa^44 kevin.

[linterteatime]

Sorry for this, but people have been really fucking annoying on the comments of my posts lately that I'm really really considering privating the blog for some days or something bruh💀

#like cmon now the people on my instagram and my twitter have been behaving better that tumblr thats wild #like okay ppl aren't comenting anything like horrible but it's so stupid like- #logging into tumblr truly is something #i limited comments on the blog for only ppl that follow me for a while so if tomorrow i get anything stupid im just packing up #just for a couple of days dw #anyways sorry for venting or ranting idk what this is #but like!!! i always hear people say that tumblr is the most chill social media site and like thats not true for me bruh #well to be fair i did have some really really chill months for a while this year but i guess that's over now with october idk #anyways maybe i will post art later who knows #not art #delete later #maybe #also this is not about the people that say nice things on my posts don't worry guys this is not about them #sorry if someone thought that

[beebatrnn]

whole server hates this. i think it's a masterpiece. idk 😄

#mushroom oasis fanart #mushroom oasis vn #he's so ugly #i'm gonna cry #i was gagging while drawing this #second one is ok i guess #HSUDHJAKENDMA #no but seriously #ppl dont talk abt the fact that he's a mutant mushroom man enough #like imagine how terrifying he'd be irl #so glad cheea prettyboy-ifies him #pretty privilege is REAL #anyways #tag rant over

[neotomiccccc]

tiktok stardew valley fans when they find out that you can be mentally ill or an addict or both and STILL be deserving of love and human affection: 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱

#some of them over there are so mean and dare i say ableist #the way they talk about addicts and depressed people is very upsetting #especially to me as someone who has been suffering with depression for a very long time #anyway. i love shane sdv and i think that he deserves to be loved despite his illness because he is still a person outside of that #maybe im still a person outside of mine #emphasis on the maybe #lol #anyway #they should leave him alone #not tumblr sdv fans though you guys are my favourites... <3 #tumblr forever... okay? #rambling #rant #i guess

[lockandkeyhyena]

So so sorry if you've answered this before [or if you just didn't wanna talk about this] but I noticed your part is absent from the Primadonna Spottedleaf map? Again sorry if this is overstepping bounds but I'm just curious if you knew about that

all good. got kicked for supporting bi lesbians i think. they just said ‘because of the drama’

#which is weird because they supported me previously #gonna say it. #tons of wc creators have no spine. i really tried to understand not wanting to get involved in ‘drama’ #and prioritising your participants #but it got to the point where people who agreed with me would still kick me from their maps to sate the rabid callout culture #anyway. can you tell i’m bitter? i’m very bitter. i put in free labour for so many maps and while it is within a host’s rights to kick #whoever they want. its also within MY rights to be bitter about it #sorry lol. rant over #ignore me #anyway it would be nice if people were this aggressive about the people who raided my servers calling me and my participants racial slurs #but i guess racism just isnt as big of a deal as random bullshit queer infighting #OKAY #SORRY #RANT ACTUALLY OVER NOW #yeen rambles #ask

[volvolts]

one piece doodles or oops! all crocodile!

#my art #one piece #sir crocodile #donquixote doflamingo #dracule mihawk #dofuwani #i guess if you squint lmao #the last one are screenshot redraws i found on google #cuz the curse of the favorite is you cant draw them easily or right #like i deadass almost always forget his damn scar until i'm fully finished with the face #which is weird! cuz ive been obsessed with my own ocs who have defining features on their face which i NEVER forget #anyway rant over

[hiatus-queen72]

You can’t tell me this wouldn’t be a cute hat on me.

#me #cute #girl #love #selfie #fashion #photo #brown hair #blue eyes #hot #cowgirl hat low key #getting one for sure this summer #I’m watching One Piece still (I’m a very I want to savor it kind of gal) and I’m in the land of Wano and I’m getting scared about not having #more episodes to watch soon #will I be starting it over and watching it again? yes #anyways that’s my rant #I touched a tadpole today #guess I wasn’t done actually #it was so cute! I wanted to hold it but refrained and just watched them swim around! #I saw two different species of aquatic snail also! all in one little pond! #I also got to see a bug walk on the surface tension of the water which was so cool #okay now I’m done

[robotsandramblings]

i would love to know the true internal thoughts of Rex in regards to Palpatine. like what Rex actually thought of him.

surely Rex met Palpatine in-person at least a handful of times, right? and while Anakin would've said only good things about Palpatine, i wonder if Rex believed them, or if he ever saw/sensed something else in General Skywalker's beloved mentor and friend

#did rex and ahsoka ever talk about palpatine? #i'd guess rex would talk to cody about him #did he ever get stories from Fox about palpatine? stories that made him shiver up the spine a little? #i know in-fandom it's a widespread ''joke'' that Fox bitches about his job and palpatine ... #but it'd be interesting to think about beyond just a joke..like if Fox did hate Palps or was brainwashed or #or maybe would never have the opportunity to talk to other clone commanders and captains regardless #maybe palps had him on a very tight leash idk #the writers certainly did LMAO we saw him like once on screen??? #anyways tag rant over #captain rex #palpatine #the clone wars #star wars