#as if my mom could do anything

[rosesradio]

day 2 of what i call the redneck convention aka a family function

#it just so happens there's two events that call for a cookout--we never hang out two days in a row--usually i get a break of a few months-- #so idk if i can handle it #not to mention my sister has work & my fave cousin brings her bf all the time & is busy talking with him #so it's just gonna be me & all these other family members i don't like :// #& okay let me say a thing #yesterday i was having a conversation with my sister--clearly a private conversation #& my weird aunt just literally barged in between us like 'what what are you guys up to huh what what' #& i just like nervously laughed & was like 'yeah we're just talking' #& then she just starts standing right next to me--like glued at the hip and literally says 'what if i just wanna stand right here-- #next to you and just follow you around?' #& i just kinda nervously laughed & tried to shuffle away but she literally started following me around like that #& i know it's ridiculous but i could feel my fight or flight kick in because she was in my personal space & not listening to me #but all i did was kinda laugh again & say 'no thanks i gotta go wash my hands so i can eat--the food's almost ready' #& i had to say that like twice & then she actually got pissed & huffed before storming off #& then later in front of everyone she told my mom something like 'you need to correct your daughter's behavior she's very rude' #as if my mom could do anything #(like don't get me wrong my mom could say 'behave a certain way or we'll kick you out because you're an adult' but she's not gonna do that) #& my mom & dad were both just like '???' when i explained it because i didn't do anything rude-- #like genuinely how The Fuck am i supposed to respond with some aunt getting into my space & refusing to leave even when i'm uncomfortable #my parents told me not to worry about it because she's just weird all the time (which i know) but because she's got nothing else going on-- #in her life she'll probably still try to make drama out of that little interaction today #idk i might just gaslight her by pretending i don't remember what happened. gatekeep girlboss etc #& don't get me wrong i have complete sympathy for people who aren't good with social cues--i'm one of the most awkward people at these-- #functions. but personal space is where i draw the line because you can't just get into someone's space & insist on being there even when-- #they're clearly uncomfortable #sigh anyways these tags are so long. wish me luck :// #rose.txt

[silkentine]

I want to live!

Here’s a really messy painting I made of Robin that’s been living in my procreate gallery for a while now and I’ll probably never do anything more with it so I slapped a gradient map on it and called it a day.

#nico robin #robin one piece #one piece fanart #one piece #op fanart #digital painting #ennies lobby #ennies lobby spoilers #I don’t draw a lot of robin franky or brook compared to the other strawhats #but it’s 100% because I don’t want to spoiled water 7 ennies lobby or thriller bark for my mom #I think they’d be her favorites and I didn’t know anything going into them and it was awesome #Robin very much could be my favorite OP character if I didn’t have the daddy problems that made me a Sanji kinnie or whatever #every character comes second to Luffy tho #he’s my ride or die #I’ll do robin justice in a future art piece for sure

[fettuwuccine]

happy birthday to me and my token italian 🎂 8 years ago today i had a breakdown in a rainforest cafe and I like to believe she would too

#drawing #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #marcille donato #dungeon meshi marcille #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi fanart #marcille dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi falin #dungeon meshi laios #laios touden #falin touden #dungeon meshi art #chilchuck #rainforest cafe #for me it was bc i spent the whole day getting dragged around doing what my sister and mom wanted and I just wanted to go home #but we went to rainforest cafe instead and it was sooo loud and overwhelming #i could not handle stimulation of anything outside being some in my room at that point so being in loudest restaurant ever.damn #for marcille it's because of laios

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

[sadisthetic]

hanbok!!! for fun!

#just because i wanted to see my favorite boys in them #ninjago #ninjago jay #ninjago kai #jay walker #my art #i feel like with the sheer amount of orientalism thats in the show i feel like i have full freedom to draw the fuck i was as an asian dude #for the record i actually dont headcanon either of them as korean i hc kai as japanese which like #i feel like he couldnt be anything else? as the one of the two characters in this show who are actually strongly japanese coded? #like waves hand he could be mixed but he at Least needs to be part japanese #but thats not my personal headcanon tho i just generally headcanon him as japanese #and ninjago doesnt have fucking countries and theyre just legos i know but like #the world is def still based on this one. so gestures very hard. #i do what i want. #and also i headcanon jay as a one fourth chinese wasian who never fucking realizes hes part chinese BC HE NEVER MET HIS MOM #this is funny to me personally #he will never know..... im normal about jay never meeting his mom i swear. #anyways all these tags are irrelevant to the art drawing them in hanbok was just sheer indulgence #lemme have this #(bc sometimes i think about s4 specifically and scream) #closes eyes. at least s4 had best episode ninja roll at least.

[raifuujin]

Anyone else feel like Kaito is almost becoming a secondary character in his own manga due to the heists slowly becoming DC clones of figuring out the tricks going on instead of just letting the heist happen and staying within Kaito's perspective.

#Like. I do wonder how much better things would have been if all we got #Was Aoko talking about her mom. And then Kaito wondering what will happen #Him picking up on the clues /he/ needs to deal with her and Naka #And us not knowing exactly what he's planning nor seeing Midoriko until the heist #I don't mind the other characters being there but. I don't need to follow the detective pov in my thief story #The DC-ified heists I do think could be fixed by just. Keeping the focus where its supposed to be; for the most part #Back when Sun Halo came out I even said it would have flowed better if we purely focused on Kaito and Aoko #And then when Hakuba shows up at the end; do a flashback to show how he got there #It doesnt fix everything; but itd make the chapters a whole lot more palatable #(But I'm sure that'd mess up Gosho's chapter by chapter structure somehow idk) #I miss old Mk's stories where anything could happen but you're always meant to support Kaito

[luck-of-the-drawings]

IMAGINE. working at ur stupid uhhh job or whatever. pulling into your drive way and ready to work on some crazy project in your garage. opening the door to the most unfamiliar silence. did your wife and kid leave for something? could you imagine knocking on your kids door, hardly getting an answer, and opening it to find the splattered remains of your wife across his room your child is scared! hes hardly consolable, in a state of shock and terror. you are too, but youre the adult here. you need to take charge. you need to protect him. you need to do something. you need to do something.

#cw gore #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd spoilers #ashe winters #LOOOORRRD HELP ME THIS IS A YEAR OLD AND I HAAAATE LOOKIN AT IIITTTT ALL I CAN SEE ARE MY MISTAAAKESSS RRAAGHHHGGG ITS FINE THOUGH #ITS FIIIINE ITS ALL FIIIIIIINE!! IM HARSHER ON MY ART THAN ANYONE ELSE ITS FIIIIIINE IIITTSFFIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEE #ANWYAY SO I THINK ALOT ABOUT THE FACT HE KILLED HIS MOM. FUUUUCKED UP. POOR GUY.. i wish i could learn more about what that day was like #the lil scenario wrote is my own silly little headcanon. but what really happened on that day? was mark there? or did he come home to it? #how violent was it really? was ashe awake the whole time? does he remember exactly how he killed her? does he remember? #who was mrs winters? what was she like? i like to think she was the one that gave ashe the book. taught him what she could before. yknow. #did ashe or mark try to destroy it afterwards? i could imagine mark throwing it into a fire. only for it to reappear with ashe #maybe ashe couldnt destroy it but i could imagine him hiding it. hiding away from it. and yet when we find him he holds it so close #its the only thing he can do! no super powers or anything. this was it. why would he ever throw away the only thing hes good at? #AND GOOD GOD MARK... TURNING TO MERCENARY WORK OVER IT ALL... SELLING HIS SOUL TO A LAbortory that changed him in immense ways #when did it get bad enough for him to start covering his face? what was ashe thinking? he knew his dad was up to something but what? #maRK HAS SUUUCH A CRAZY KILL COUNT TOO. I THINK THE HIGHEST IN THE SERIES IF WE'RE NOT LOOKIN AT THE GODS OR WATEV #MASS MURDER. MAN HAS COMMITTED MASS MURDER AND BROKE OUT OF SUPER VILLAIN PRISON WITH A PEN. MAN BUILDS IRON MAN SUITS IN HIS BASEMENT #OKay okay enough of my ramblin okayokay i just REALLY LOVE THIS SSHHOOOOWWW DUUUDEE EEUUGHTHTHHRHGHGH I LOVE THE WINTERS FAMILY...

[glownery]

wishing everyone who celebrates a happy easter and an even happier transgender day of visibility 🐣🪩🫶🪽

#went to church with my mom for the first time in years just because we thought it could be fun (it was!) and im thinking about. themes #resurrection and rebirth belongs to trans and nonbinary people and if i was going to pray i would thank god for making me queer !!! #the middle picture is from a disco themed university party we had on (holy) thursday where i had So much fun #(the crucifix earring was Mostly ironic and for the aesthetic) #been experiencing a lot of queer joy lately. as well as some new and complicated but Good feelings about gender. and maybe religion as well #anyway. #easter #religion #gender #tdov #trans day of visibility #lgbtq #queer #mine #💛 #religion mention #christianity mention #<- just in case people dont want to see anything to do with religion in the trans tags today (or ever) !! <3 sorry if i missed something #edit: i originally also had a quote from julian k. jarboe here about humanity partaking in the act of creation #but i didnt realize the quote was from a jewish person regarding judaism so i removed it from the association with easter and christianity #the quote itself slaps​ and idk to what degree different religions and discussions or art about them should be kept separated !! #but im not the authority on that and ofc dont want to make anyone uncomfortable !!

[batfamhyperfixation]

Jason: *just vibing, thinking his thoughts*

Bruce: What?

Jason: What do you mean what?

Bruce: You were smiling

Jason: Am I not allowed to be happy?

Bruce: You are, but that was just, like, an evil smile

Jason: *offended, turning to Dick* Bruce thinks I have an evil smile

Bruce: I don't think you have an evil smile, just that particular smile looked evil

#neither were smiling after this #based on the exact same conversation i had with my mother (ft. my brother in the place of dick) #incorrect batfamily quotes #jason todd #bruce wayne #dick grayson #idk why so many adults have a mistrust when it comes to me being silent #they all think im plotting something like dude im just thinking about hyperfixations im not doing anything #like my mom and my grandma both say to my face that they get uncomfortable when i stop talking for a while #ive had my brother come home saying past teachers apparently used to say that they could never tell what i was thinking cause apparently #they thought i had an evil smile too but dude you all were the ones that told me to shut up and the ones that got me in trouble for talking #so i dont know why you get upset when i stop talking like dude i got adhd i have 2 modes 'say every thought in my head' and 'dont say any #thoughts im having out loud' like adhd means I cant filter my thoughts so it is all or nothing so you cant be mad at both states #sorry for that rant #anyway thought that this interaction would fit well with bruce and jason

[boilingrain]

There’s something silly to me about Bluestar x Yellowfang

It’s just “yeah Firestar’s moms should date”

Old women with tragic backstories and the very orange boy they separately adopted

#it's a great ship I love it #listen you can claim Bluestar wasn't a maternal figure to Firestar & that she was just his mentor but you can't do that with Yellowfang #She canonically tells Fireheart that she wishes he was her son #That's not a thing left up to reader interpretation or anything. The direct quote (from Rising Storm) is #''I wished you'd been my son but I could not have borne a cat like you.'' #(there's more to the quote but I can't fit all of it in the character limit of the tags) #(or technically I could but it would have to be several tags and I don't feel like doing that) #she also says ''I only regret that I will miss watching you become what Starclan has destined you to be.'' to him in that same bit of dialo #that is his mom. Like you cannot reasonably deny that #I'm going to shut myself up now before I actually write an entire essay about Yellowfang in the tags of this post #because I know myself and I know I'd do it #Warrior Cats #yellowfang #bluestar #bluestar x yellowfang #blueyellow #(I think that's their ship name?) #(I'd make a joke about how we should just call it ''Green'' but I'm sure that joke has been made already) #and because I mentioned Starclan's most special little orange boy #wc firestar #firestar #honestly if I ever decide to do fun character tags that's what Firestar's will be

[silenthillbunni]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk

[jirachibaby]

xmas gift i made for my mom & my niece

#digital art #my art #original character #idk if anyone would be interested in seeing it but #i worked really hard on this haha #kinda burnt out before i could do any fancy shading or bg or anything but the characters are at least finished #this is my mom's dragonsona #i asked my niece for input on what she wanted to look like but uh she's 6 and didn't end up giving any sort of usable response lmao

[cerealmonster15]

Hello!! :D if you’re still taking art reqs for the drawing meme maybe 1A or 2A for Autumn Oak/Linda Stampler please?

THANK YOU!!! :] 

YES this is how i know i've made it as a dndads fanartist - the rite of passage of receiving the autumn/linda request jsklfjdsl MILESTONE ACHIEVED!!!

i had to kinda fumble around my brain a bit to come up w/some designs so maybe theyll change!! who knows!!!

[send a pose prompt!]

#asks #lex-the-lesbian #dndads #autumn oak #linda stampler #cereal tries to draw #<- btw is that her actual name or like a fandom given name?? #i was doing some research today to see if they had a canon appearance #[i couldnt find anything for either of them so my bad if they do and i missed it LOL] #but the transcripts just called her Rons Mom #and the wiki says she has no name but also the wiki isnt exactly accurate #[we ARE talking about Rons Mom here right fjkldsjfldsjf] #thats the context clues id gotten from skulking around dndads tags a while ago #anyway. ANYWAY i hope this is ok!! #again s o r r y i. need more practice drawing Older People fkldsjlf ILL GET THERE. EVENTUALLY 😭 #BUT this is cute FUCK their husbands they could learn to love again 2gether #mutual support... yea... #im p much always open to suggestions in general #may or may not do em depending on if im busy/comfortable/NERVOUS but #more often than not i will lol #it's good practice :3 anyway again lol THANKS FOR THE PROMPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #OKAY WAIT sorry i skulked ur blog i see the name linda came from a poll jksfjdsk #glad i wasnt missing Important Lore Somewhere ok carry on 🕺

[shopcat]

omfg people really need to calm the fuck down about people disliking some characters like it's not always a deep seated prejudice or an inability to empathise it's because we are human beings with our own experiences and normal biases and fictional characters are not real and it doesn't matter if you don't like them for pretty much any reason at all and doesn't make you suddenly x just because the character is y it just means you don't like them. obviously other indications of actual prejudice or a repeated pattern mean something else entirely but you can just dislike a character because get this they're a character and not a real person. you can dislike real people too even it's almost like we've got free will. please oh please can we get out of the torture chamber together.

#🐾 #just saw the dumbest post ever i wish you could take away someone's keyboard #saw someone say it was inherently misogynist to not like zuko's damn mom like omfg #she's literally a 2 dimensional nothingburger i'm sorry i don't give a FAUCK 😭 people are so damn annoying #i don't like her cuz of the way she treated azula and OBVIOUSLY!!! because my own mother hates me and abandoned me but loves her other #children. and OBVIOUSLY!!!! this means i seriously don't give a fuck about her and honesrlt wish she (ursa) were dead and You know what.. #it doesn't MATTERRRR SHES NOT REAL. GET A FUCKING GRIP 😭 FICTION IS A REFLECTION OF REALITY #obviously i would and do feel differently about complex family dynamics irl but you know what's not real irl either. FIRE MAGIC #YOU BRAINDEAD IDIOTS SERIOUSLYYY #every actually ridiculously insane motherfuckerrrr who claims all ursa ''haters'' are inherently morally Wrong just make me hate her more #like awww yeah it is so sad. it's so sad to abandon your children and favour one over the other and also enable all of your husbands #actions that's so sad #ngl i don't really care that much but people who act like the wife of the colonist is 100% innocent is crazy #and treating her like some sad trapped victim who also has no free will is like... Well it's not NOT racist #like she was not actually trapped considering she you know left and was always fully capable of doing so #okay this was obv a rant i won't delete it but like tldr harmless biases like this seriously don't hurt anything and don't make ppl who #don't like her Woman haters. esp bc most ppl who don't like who do it bc they Do love azula 😭 but for me personally it's just like sorry #she's a bad mother. and i have no mother anymore. So i'm allowed to hate her. ..

[unimaginativebepisenjoyer99]

the satrinyavas

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #fanart #the arcana #the arcana fanart #cat au #THERE i am done with these designs #ik some look ugly but idc its unlikely ill draw these characters again (as cats anyway?) #like i hate nasrin's but ill be dammned if i try to make sense of her hairstyle in my stupid cat style again. who cares #and i hate all of these braids they beat my ass #anywayz #i always had in my head the thought to make nadi's sisters (they're all sisters right i forgor. not that it rlly changes anything BUT) #different tabby patterns so she doesn't look so out of place #so we have classic. mackerel. broken mackerel n spotted + nafizah n nasmira who r solid (tho u could argue mira is like an abby cat) #and nadi is a smoke tabby (pictured in another post) #their dad is a sokoke and i like to think their mom has a secret pattern “underneath” her white to make all of these colors (like a tortie) #do u love my half-walls of text btw. can u imagine how much more i would ramble if there wasnt a char limit in the tags? #i could say all of this shit in the actual desc but whats the fun in that #i wanted 2 apologize 4 not posting in a week but thats content creator brainrot. happy new years anyway

[transmasc-wizard]

in case you're wondering how potent the fearmongering in a lot of true crime is, i told my mom (increasingly paranoid person due to the amount of TC she consumes) "your podcasts are super skewed, they know cishet middle class white women are their audience so they tell stories about that demographic to keep them scared and listening. you're statistically much safer than most people" and she responded, apparently having only Comprehended the last sentence, "well my podcasts say otherwise"

#nicola.txt #her paranoia could be dangerous to innocent people and I don't know how to get that through her head #bc like she's started seeing random people living their lives and telling me and my dad how she feels like they could be criminals #like. I understand being paranoid. I am mentally ill and paranoia is part of it for me. #but that doesn't give ME the right to potentially negatively effect other people #cause I'm not the center of the fucking universe #and im scared one of these days a mentally ill person or poc or poor person existing is gonna scare my mom enough #to make her call the cops or some shit and I can't even do anything about it. I've tried .