#avpd feels

[astrangerthatlovesyou]

Having AvPD is like: I’m so open, everyone knows everything about me. That’s terrifying, everyone must hate how much I share. God I feel so exposed I feel sick. And the last time you opened up to someone was October of 2021 when you told your mom you were a little stressed.

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[drifting-bones]

i'm just trying to think about what the fuck about me is so unlovable that some of my best friends decided it straight up wasn't worth it to try to save our friendship. is it because of all of the shit that i was already working on? is there something else i need to do? what the fuck do i need to do to stop being so fucking easy for people to abandon? what the fuck is wrong with me, why the fuck does this keep happening? i was trying my hardest and putting everything into this and somehow that still wasn't enough. am i just never going to be enough of a whole person for people to like me? why the fuck do i ruin fucking everything? i swear to god i'm cursed. or maybe i'm just too fucking mentally ill for everyone i fucking meet. i still hate how it always felt like it was okay for them to have issues and how even if they upset me "oh they have their own issues to work through so you know! it happens!" but when i have a fucking problem? "you need to do better and stop doing this and start doing that and listen to what i'm telling you to do and you'll just be better and i'll stop getting upset with you!" fuck this shit. how the fuck am i supposed to think i'm anything better than disposable when everyone who i love eventually decides i'm impossible to love and just fucking vanishes instead of even thinking i'm worth the time to speak to.

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[localintrovert18]

avoidants: do not perceive me. i am non-existent. i am mysterious as the dark side of the moon. no one knows me. i must be the perfect shadow and completely inaccessible to the world. it's for my own good.

also avoidants: ... why does no one wants me? it really must be something truly wrong with me, i must be the definition of hideous, inside and out. even better, i must be a monster using a human's skin, but incapable of fooling others to my disguise.

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[flowergirlmiwa]

#my post #avpd #avpd vent #avpd feels #actually avpd #avoidant personality disorder #no this is not a cry for help #might start posting more avpd content

[ask-me-about-therapy]

using ERP strategies to heal yourself from Avoidant Personality Disorder (AvPD):

Identify Avoidance Patterns: Take time to identify specific situations, activities, or social interactions that trigger avoidance behaviors and anxiety. Pay attention to recurring patterns and the underlying fears driving your avoidance.

Create an Exposure Hierarchy: Develop a hierarchy of anxiety-provoking situations, starting from the least distressing to the most challenging. Break down each situation into smaller, manageable steps.

Gradual Exposure: Begin exposing yourself to the least distressing situations or triggers from your hierarchy. Start with small, controlled exposures and gradually progress to more anxiety-provoking scenarios as you build confidence.

Response Prevention: During exposure, consciously resist engaging in avoidance behaviors or safety-seeking strategies. Refrain from escaping, avoiding, or seeking reassurance. Instead, focus on staying present and tolerating the discomfort.

A Helpful Tool for Those Who Want to Work on Themselves . https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0B86H2BCK

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[narcatsisst]

something ive noticed is my npd traits are noticeable online but my avpd/anxiety traits are noticeable in real life. online im like "im so cool and awesome i want everyone to pay attention to me" and then irl if someone just looks at me i want to Throw Up

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[itseattherich]

Weeirdly specific AVPD symptoms vol. 4

((I’m back bitches, and I’m finally getting a psych eval))

- You feel like a neon sign, a giant, everywhere you go

- You overcompensate with kindness, especially if you’re convinced someone doesn’t like you -  you’ll bribe them with kindness until they’re nice to you 

- You arrive on time when meeting up w/ someone and they’re not there? You panic and blame yourself, you double triple check that the time is right, until you realize the other person is late 

- You might be adventurous and curious to try new things and hobbies, but only on your own in your own room where there’s no risk anyone sees anything

- Sucking up to authority figures, to feel appreciated when you follow every rule and behave well

- Airport security terrifies you, because you can’t manipulate or make them like you, which hurts, even if they’re strangers 

- Rejection makes you want to implode on the spot 

- Day dreaming about your own funeral :) 

@tavpdfw

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[sadistic-softie]

you know what's fun? having a panic attack. crying and hyperventilating freaking tf out over nothing but you cant stop. all while also falling deeper and deeper into self-loathing and lonliness you cause yourself but you can't figure out how to fix. All I want is to be loved but im so afraid of it that i just keep pushing it further and further away the more i want it. All i keep thinking whenever i have a potential friend is, "Either I'm gonna hurt this person on accident or they're gonna hurt me on purpose" and i can't drop the thought. I just wanna be good enough. I just wanna be a good person. Instead I just feel like a pathetic crybaby faliure idiot piece of shit who fucks up everything and makes a fool of themself online by carelessly dumping it all over my shitty horny blog because I'm too coward to say it to anyone in my personal life. I only have one friend and I already hurt them just by being around them. I broke their heart because of unrequited love and I keep not talking to them and just fucking do the bare minimum to "maintain" the friendship. I wanna fucking kms

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[astrangerthatlovesyou]

If you have AvPD, something you’re going to have to face is that, yes, plenty of people are going to dislike you. They’re going to hate you, they’re going to reject you. It’s a fact of life that everyone faces.

There isn’t a form you can beat yourself into that’s going to change that. You can’t bully yourself into being palatable to everyone, you won’t ever even be that palatable to most people, nothing is.

But you won’t get the connection you want if you reduce yourself to almost nothing. There has to be something real for people to connect to.

In the end, you have to be a version of yourself you’re comfortable with when nobody is looking. You are the only person you can’t avoid, make friends with yourself, I promise the rest will come if you let it.

You are important! You deserve to love yourself. You deserve to be yourself. You do NOT have to do anything before you’re allowed to show yourself compassion. As long as you’re not hurting anyone, you’re allowed to be you. You’re perfect.

I love you, exactly as you are, I’m excited to love the person you are when not hiding.

You’re doing great.

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[drifting-bones]

if i don't get attention i'm going to fucking explode but if i do get attention i'll make it awkward and fuck it up or just get overshadowed and ignored again. i can never fucking win.

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[localintrovert18]

avpd: i really like this person and i would like to formulate a friendship with them.

avpd: *sees opportunity to raise the bond with said person*

avpd: you know what? it's better to keep it professional... probably they think i'm a nuisance.

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[ophelian-darling]

#traumacore #childhood trauma #ventcore #vent #avpd things #avpd feels #avpd problems #avpd vent #i was only an eight year old kid how can i explain myself? #it's silly when everyone tells my mom that she should involve me in more conversations as if that should treat my social awkwardness prob #as if that will treat my social awkwardness problem lol #tw: r slur #but almost censored

[narcatsisst]

my pds battling each other is like. i want attention and to talk to someone but the second i DO talk to someone on a level deeper than just like, asks or reblogs or comments, im like a frozen deer in headlights. its not that im scared of interactions per se (although sometimes i am) but i have such a deep aversion to it. i get overwhelmed after sending someone like. One message. and then i have such an insatiable urge to run away and never be seen again. i have to force myself to talk to people most of the time. and its not like its other peoples faults, its just the way my brain works i guess. but its super annoying. cuz i have this deep need for human connection, but i feel like im gonna throw up the second i get a message or go to hang out with someone. i need to have like a week of cool off after having One conversation

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