#but i guess that makes sense considering im always always in pain

[emerxshiu]

FORGOTTEN LAND'S SECOND ANNIVERSARY :3

I AM SOOOO BACK

I started this drawing yesterday around afternoon and finished it just a few minutes earlier.

I went with a messier type of drawing instead of more clean like the elfilin one from yesterday, i find it fun doing it like this, mostly cause i dont have to worry about making it perfectly so i dont get as frustrated as normal. Id place this one as my second best digital drawing. im pretty sure i havent posted what i consider my best digital drawing here, tho i do have it in instagram, i might post it here one day, tho these two are way too tied up, i love how this came out, its not exactly like how i imagined it but its really close to it, and also itd say that since i dont tend to play around lighting that much, this was such a joy to draw and i cant help but stare at it a lot, at least until i start hating it because i made quite a lot of errors. i also changed my elfilis gijinka just a tad bit from last time, but its not that big of a difference, mostly.

ofc i had to draw elfilis for forgotten land's anniversary, i tend to deny it in my head but yeah they're my fave of the kirby characters even tho i hate them a bit. I wanted to draw some more doodles, like, elfilis eating cake, kirby car, a bunch of other stuff (not elfilin cuz i already drew him yesterday) but when i tried i couldnt draw anything more, guess this drawing burned me out a lot, huh?

you can definitly tell i spent all the efforts on him cuz if you look a bit closer to the bottom part you'll see its almost barely detailed, but i mean, they're the focus so make sense i guess for me not add that much detail there. um also, maybe because i dunno i had OVER 130 LAYERS jeez no wonder firealpaca was slowing down so much, i need to manage my layers better next time, tho i did do something i keep forgetting, wich is naming them (most of them at least) that was a real life saver

Also, antares (fecto elfilis' spear/cadaceus), as always, was a pain to draw, but this time its probably been draw the most accurate out of every other drawing ive made with it in it, i didnt notice it was like, a little curved when it reached the blade

some close ups since his face is a bit hard to see

silly :3

fun fact! actually, this is technically a redraw, somewhere around between february and march i started a fecto elfilis drawing for the first anniversary, but i couldnt finish it in time, and i never finished it

thats...quite the improvement! (i remember being so proud of it)

also his wings are like that cuz i did not want to draw the pattern, its way too hard, i literally copy pasted it, wait, i was talking about the 2024 version but i looked at the 2023 one and i just noticed it also has the pattern copy pasted, i guess some stuff never changes since i still abuse the ctrl+c ctrl+v to this day

Also i ended up making a huge error there, i was planing to add the phantom spears from orbital pulsar (the attack he does first when you battle them at lab discovera) but theres an innacuracy, when they do the attack, they always close their eyes, i had actually sketched him (well i mean both these drawings are basically the first sketch (2023) or second sketch(2024) with some color, shadows and lighting. i didnt do lineart in the 2024 one cuz i wanted to be a bit like the og i made (too bad i sketched that one with black since the og was sketched with white due to me drawing the bg first)) with his eyes closed but them decided to make them open for a reason i cant remember, maybe i thought itd look nicer? idk

ive had the idea of redrawing this for quite some month now so it was kinda already planned

background cuz i think it came out really pretty

doesnt have the little stars since without elfilis and the structures it looks fucked up. the actual sky in game is more blue, but the clouds have some orange, in the 2023 ver. i made the sky orange, and in the 2024 ver i wanted it more accurate, but i didnt wanna loose the orange sky, so i did a gradient. pretty...

also here's a screenshot i took when i was like halfway trough it, its barely noticeable but i changed his mouth in the final drawing

I really love katfl, like a buncha whole lot, its basically almost my first mainline kirby game. 100% the demo, finished the game in almost one day, i literally play it monthly, like, every month i put the card in my switch, start it up, get morpho sword, and go shred elfilis in lab discovera. i would probably not even be here on tumblr and the kirby fandom if it werent for it. and i love it so much i genuinly cannot express how much i like it and treasure it with words or anything

Thank you for reading my unnecesarily long rambles lol

I hope i'll post tomorrow and dont forget like usual

Jambuhbye!

#art #fanart #kirby #kirby fanart #kirby gijinka #silly #digital art #firealpaca #fecto elfilis #fecto elfilis gijinka #my wife fecto elfilis and his new drip #yep changed them again #fecto elfilis lives in my head rent free 24/7 #fecto elfilis fanart #kirby and the forgotten land #katfl #katfl spoilers #katfl second anniversary #kirby and the forgotten land second anniversary #katfl fanart #kirby and the forgotten land fanart #please reach a lot of people i spent way too much effort on this drawing #kirby series #kirby elfilis #kirby of the stars #:3333 #:3 #digital artist #artists on tumblr #small artist

[frownyalfred]

hi res,, im a huge, huge fan of your fics and i've been scrolling through your tumblr for the last hours/day while falling in and out of a weird stomach pain that is totally ruining my winter break! i also don't really know how tumblr works but i had to express my love for you, I feel so much better reading your stuff 😍 your tumblr posts are also amazing, thank you so so much for all your contributions to this fandom AND to ao3/fandom culture in general!! (wow that was a lot of exclamation marks, i swear i know how to end a sentence with other punctuation 😃 namely emojis 😃😃)

I had a question about your opinions on some ships, IF YOU'RE AMENABLE, feel free to ignore; i know you're a super busy person and this is going to be a long message, I'm overwhelmed looking at it myself 😅

Firstly, shipping the batkids together??? I've seen a few fics like that, especially the robins (e.g. dick/jason, jason/tim??) but I generally avoid them bc they make me feel uncomfy personally, even if they're not characterized as brothers/sisters in that particular fic - cuz i cant kid myself into thinking that i'll ever see them as anything but siblings 🥹

then there's also the stephanie/tim thing?? my understanding of stephanie's dynamic in the batfamily is limited since i got into the dc fandom mainly through fic, but i'm under the impression that some canons have that, and stephanie is not totally considered part of the batfamily (as in bruce's daughter). while other times it's tim/kon, and I'm very supportive of the increasing inclusion of queer representation in the "dc canon", but i guess it's just that the batkids all feel like children, like babies even 🥺🥺

yea so that was a pretty long winded explanation for a quick question😭 my bad

and finally, my otp, ghostbat 🥹🥰 i've never really seen you post anything about them, it is definitely a much rarer ship, but i'd love to know your opinion 💙 i would absolutely recommend taking a look into it if you haven't already, their dynamic is so unique (imo) and heart-wrenching! i havent found that much content about them, so if there are any suggestions for content for them, i will take literally anything 🥺

yeah so thanks for looking through all of this mess, i love you and your beautiful brain so much, sending positive vibes and well wishes your way <3

Hi anon! Thank you so much, and sorry you're not feeling well. Some quick answers to your questions below:

People do ship the batkids together, in a variety of related/not related scenarios. It's not everyone's cup of tea. Some people like it. Some people get very squicked by it. All reactions are valid. I am a big proponent of ship and let ship -- people are going to write what they're going to write. If you don't like to read that, hit the back button. Like you said, you have already identified that you don't like it, and now you avoid it. That's awesome!

Tim/Steph vs Tim/Kon can also be a touchy subject in fandom. Steph's inclusion in the batfamily depends on the fanon and/or canon. People have strong opinions about this. My reaction is always, teens have relationships. Messy relationships. Tim and Steph and Tim and Kon can all happen and it doesn't make anyone more or less deserving of love or a relationship. They're kids figuring themselves out -- it makes sense that it's messy.

I like ghostbat! I will admit I'm not as familiar with the ship as I could be. I mostly consume secondhand info here on tumblr. @allgremlinart's blog is a great place to start if you haven't already.

Hope that helps! Feel better soon, anon.

#asks #anon #bruce wayne #batman #dc #batfamily

[rdbrainz]

nnoitra is my absolute fave and i adore your art!!! id love to see some kind of dynamic fighting pose of him in your style, but im also curious about any art or headcanons you might have about him if he had experienced the living world somewhat- like what foods would he like, or hobbies, or how would he spend time w others? sorry for the long ask love you bye!!!!

Thanks🤧❤ !!! And ohh that's a good ask! I have like a couple of answers for different turns of events on this one... Might as well also share some of the other ideas I have so it's a lot and even more.

But well if we're talking about regular hollow Nnoitra I think he'd be interested in all kinds of entertainment. Mainly music. He always struck me as a music person tbh especially since I firmly believe he'd be involved with goth subculture in some way or the other. I can see him collecting CDs as a hobby. Considering that my version of Nnoitra absolutely HATES thinking into things too much if they have something to do with his relationships, himself or the hollow existence as a whole I guess doing nothing when he's not asleep is hell for him because there's not much to think about in Hueco Mundo anyway. Maybe background music would give him some peace of mind while he's musing to himself. I mean even if his mind would wander back to these topics AT LEAST it won't be as painful to think about it as doing the same while you're surrounded by silence and lying on a hard surface locked up somewhere in Las Noches so no one would gnaw into your damn throat on your free time.

Him being a melomane/an avid music lover would work in any AU or story. I think he'd love A Perfect Circle. You know... considering the crescent moon and circle patterns and the music theme Kubo chose for him.

If we're talking about a bit worse turn of events where - let's say - he ends up in someone's home in the world of the living after he got his ass handed to him by zaraki, had to flee and now he feels worse than ever... watching TV is his other go-to. He'd be in front of it 24/7. It's stupid, sometimes even curious, sometimes confusing and he can either catch up on things or just complain about something to himself. His mind is occupied with something all the time either way.

I also think hollow Nnoitra would be very sceptical about trying human/shinigami food. It doesn't seem appealing to him, unnatural even. Especially if he has someone to feed off of. I believe that arrancars can work like vampires. Shinigamis are just compressed spiritual power so transfusing reiatsu would have the same effect as actually eating a shinigami. What's the point of choosing between flesh, blood and reiatsu if it's all the same in their case 😭. If he ends up living with a human then. Well. Blood sucking it is I guess lmao. Anyway yeah when it comes to food he's more prone to sticking to his hollow side. Though maybe he'd be tempted to try a soda or two.

If he's human/a shinigami then this guy would eat and/or drink literally anything. Especially if it's sea food, meat or something spicy. I had an AU where he was a captain in Gotei 13 and one of his hobbies was visiting karakura and other cities just to absolutely rob food establishments of their supplies. If a restaraunt has an "all you can eat" offer then it might as well be fucking bankrupt. If a cute cafe has a special Valentine's Day offer where couples only pay half the price then "Well I guess I could give someone a call". Cooking though..? Nope. Can't be bothered enough to cook something for himself.

Someone I know also had suggested once that in this AU he'd have a shit ton of hair products. And well it does make sense.

In a Shinigami Academy AU I had he's much younger and edgier LMAO. Goth enough to care about his appearance and wear makeup but too insecure to not stick out too much. He'd love collecting good cool-looking clothing but would literally bite off his own limbs if he had to wear something skin-tight or god forbid skinny jeans. Him and his toothpick legs could never!! Anyway there he wasn't so wary and disdainful towards other people. Desperate for some affection but sadly too air-headed to care enough. So he was sleeping around a lot just for funsies with Shinji as his partner in crime (sorry). I think that's about all I have on this topic!! Tnx again!

#bleach #nnoitra gilga

[chuurroez]

the day 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 me

ღ pairing: Sung Hanbin x gn!reader, set in non-idol verse ^^

ღ genre: angst, really bad angst.

ღ warnings: i'm not sure if there is any, if there is, please tell me!

ღ summary: you wondered where it went wrong, was it you? or was it him that went wrong? you wanted to know answers to your questions that you knew wouldn't be answered.

ღ notes: hi! this fic is inspired by laufey's latst release 'california and me', i suggest listening to the song before continuing to read this fic! tysm to the people who voted on my poll. this isnt in order of the actual song and i skipped a few lines for the fic to make more sense. do you guys want a part 2 of this btw? im sorry if this is rpetty short, the lyrics weren't as long as i thought. :(

ღ word count: 970

''Should've figured that you'd go back to New York Don't consider me when you run back to her"

Sung Hanbin was the perfect boyfriend for you, he was everything you'd want for a partner. He was caring, loving, respectful, kind, affectionate, he was perfect. almost. He became distant from you the past few weeks, you always wondered why. You tried to ask him why he was becoming more and more distant from you but he always said he was just stressed and busy. You knew he was lying, whenever he and problems, he would always open up to you about it. On the earlier stages of your relationship with him, he told you about his ex in New York, the same place he'd be going back to for her. You should've figured that he'd go back there anyways, your relationship has been going downhill ever since he became more and more distant from you. You knew you were just a distraction from her when Hanbin broke up with his ex, a distraction from all the pain he felt when she left him.

"You don't have to hide it, I know why you went Said you needed space, I know better than that"

He tried his best to hide the real reason he went back to New York, for her. He reasoned that he needed space for a while for his departure but you both knew it was a lie. You knew the actual reason of his leaving, he was like an open book that you read very well. He thought you were oblivious to his actions, but of course you knew better than that. You knew he lost his feelings for you, you knew he never truly loved you in the first place. His heart still belonged to her, the woman he first loved and still loved. He didn't care that you were a distraction for his aching heart, he waited and waited for her to come back. I guess she did so after all, huh.

"Could've fought for you but I just let you leave Hurt too much to consider you didn't love me''

You had a choice of trying to let him stay, but you just let him go. It would've been a failed attempt anyways, he never actually loved you. It broke your heart to think that he maybe never for once thought about you for you. He just thought about you as her. You wonder if you looked or acted the same way as she did, you would've been correct after all, right? You stayed speechless the time he waved goodbye at you, it gave you a glimpse of hope that he would come back, but deep in your heart you knew it would never happen. You wanted you to say something, but you stayed with your gut that said to just be quiet for the sake of it. You didn't want to ruin this moment for him just for you.

''I imagine you holding her in your arms Laughing 'bout how I thought that you were the one"

You tried your best to think positive and stay happy without Hanbin, but your mind said no. You imagined him holding her in his arms, laughing about how oblivious you were to Hanbin's plans. You thought how crazy it was for you to fall for his tricks. I mean, who wouldn't? He was charming in every single way possible, who wouldn't be able to resist his charms? Your mind clouded with all the thoughts of Hanbin and his ex living their best lives, especially Hanbin, he got to live his life without you, you were like an old t-shirt that was thrown away because it didn't fit the its owner anymore. You didn't blame him for that, you always thought she was better even if you didn't know what she was like. She should've been better than you for Hanbin to go back to her, right?

''Left me and the ocean for your old flame Holding back my tears, I couldn't make you stay''

Beach dates were Hanbin's favorites, or were it her favorites? Did he force himself to go on beach dates with you because they reminded them of her? You loved going on those beach dates as well, it made you feel as if you and Hanbin were the only people there, it made you feel...free. You tried your best to hold back your tears that were already on the verge of escaping as Hanbin went on the plane. You saw a glimpse of his face that somewhat looked...sad? You didn't care much though, all that was on your mind was the person you loved most in life just left, but he needed space from you, didn't he? You couldn't make him stay, you wanted to but you didn't have the courage to do so. Maybe it was the fact that maybe your were the problem in the relationship? Maybe it was actually you?

"Can't quit this, so damn wicked to leave California and Me"

It was so cruel, so damn wicked for him to leave you behind. He didn't even explain why he was so distant from you, but you didn't need it though, right? He left for her. The person he loved most with you being the next. You met Hanbin in California, in which your relationship with him bloomed more and more, but all flowers have to wilt in the end, California was the same place he left you. Who knew that your relationship with him would start and end at the same place? A part of you despised him for his cruelness, the other part knew he needed this and stayed hopeful that the negative things you thought about would never happen. I guess you were right after all, weren't you?

likes, comments, reblogs, and feedbacks are greatly appreciated!

#zb1 fics #zb1 x reader #zb1 imagines #yveesning writes ! #zerobaseone #zb1 angst #sung hanbin #sung hanbin x reader #hanbin x reader #sung hanbin imagines

[thesherrinfordfacility]

Fair enough! There's certainly no definite evidence, you can totally read it differently, but I don't think the trauma interpretation, unless you're trying to, wrongly, claim Hard Canon Facts, is this massive, wildly-out-there-impossible stretch either. There's a basis to build a case for it from, it's just that all the evidence is circumstantial and relies on interpreting inner thoughts, so you could build a completely different case from it too. Guess for me, personally, it's like when you look at the angel version of Crowley versus what he's like today, he's Been Through Things and I don't think all of that was only secondhandedly witnessed - doubt he's escaped entirely unscathed from who-knows-how-many thousand years under first one and then another dictatorial state - and of that which was firsthand, I personally don't think that was all only Hell (and whatever Hell does to him, another thing that, to be fair, is mostly implied and read into the between-the-lines, not outright stated or shown, is technically traceable to Heaven for casting him out in the first place) but hey, that's just my interpretation. What we can, I think, sort-of-conclude is that the Fall was in all likelihood painful i.e. physically traumatic (I def trust the pub scene over anything told to Aziraphale) and probably intended at least partially as punishment, seeing it's the undesirable alternative to being a good obedient angel used to keep the angels in line. Book Crowley took the maintenance lift or the back stairs, whereas TV Crowley's being, imo, taken in a more dark, dramatic direction, but I could be totally wrong, because what we've got in the show so far could go either way. However it turns out, it's wrapped in six millenia of hurt and rage and there's waaaaaay more to it then we know so far, so in essence, yes, seconded, we need a Fall scene in the 3rd season.

i definitely don't think it's a stretch, not at all!!! i definitely do not think that crowley emerged unscathed from the whole debacle, whatever happened between the pre-fall scene and eden, but because we don't know exactly what happened, im currently reading it that he's as i described - bitter, angry, upset, resentful - rather than there being any underlying form of trauma. i do also think that the flood, or some point between then and uz, is a triggering point; there's a big difference in crowley's approach to god between these two events:

crowley comes across as very innocent and trusting on the wall and in mesopotamia; the sheer act of the flood, and what aziraphale tells him about the motivation behind it, comes as a shock to crowley - now sure, to me, this could say many things, but for me the biggest among them is that he can't believe that after the fall, god would basically pull the same stunt again, and 500-odd years later in uz, he's fully unsurprised by what he considers to be an atrocious act that he's working independently to subvert and resolve (and notable that we see in uz the first in what appears to possibly be becoming a habit - what appears to be displacement onto the goats. whilst it's certainly a defence mechanism, i don't personally consider it to always be a trauma response... but look im not a psychologist).

again, that's not to say that he can't be experiencing trauma alongside this, not at all, but in line to what ive personally come to expect as a result of trauma, i would have personally expected some degree of... resignation? at the flood - 'yeah of course god would do that, why wouldn't she, she's done it before' etc. so again, whilst i don't dismiss the possibility that crowley is traumatised from the fall, it's currently just not quite ringing 100% true to me, not without (imo) the crucial information to give context to why he acts/speaks/behaves as he does. so at the moment, i feel like a good portion of his behaviour stems from realising that god is repeating history, not necessarily the first instance of it (hope that makes sense). and this, i think, feeds into his direct beseechment to god in his flat - again, that god is doing the same thing over and over again, and hasn't learnt.

i definitely take your point re: what the angel who crowley was (AWCW) was like before the fall, and the stark contrast between that and crowley as we know him now. but there is a lot in between those points; not only the fall itself, but the events leading up to it. all we currently know that is he asked questions, and that he hung out/was somewhat in cahoots with lucifer and his gang - i don't think that necessarily occurred in a short space of time after the pre-fall scene; if anything, i do wonder if crowley's fall (especially if we take the revelation about his wings darkening slightly in the pre-fall scene) was a long, drawn-out, and steady process... again, that doesn't mean he can't have been traumatised from it, but there is a heap of context that we're missing that i think will reveal what crowley's state of mind would have been in, in the lead-up to, during, and directly after, the fall.

im personally undecided about how truthful crowley was in the pub scene; i don't think it's inconceivable that, alongside skewing the details of his fall to aziraphale, crowley is capable of fudging the truth somewhat to himself. that's not to say that he deserved to fall, because i don't think that's going to outright be the case, but i do think that it's a possibility that he did something that he has refused to come to terms with or acknowledge, and has told himself half-truths over and over until he potentially believes that to be the truth.

crowley may not outright lie, but he's very good at speaking in riddles, withholding information (sometimes even subconsciously), and dancing around begrudgingly-admitted truths to make himself come across as, frankly, more impressive than he already is. to my mind, AWCW does it in the pre-fall scene, even, so we know it's not strictly crowley-as-a-demon thing:

and to me, this comes across in the pub scene too; i don't think crowley believes, in his bladdered state, that he's actually talking to anyone, but he's speaking as if he is, and as such what he divulges is once again danced around and played down. the bit where i think it does become truth is the account of the physical act of falling; that i can believe, because it's the face he pulls, and the way he twists the talisker bottle, that make me think he's actually being truthful here... everything else before it feels like he's playing to an audience (and he doesn't know it, but obviously he is - us!), and that makes me take it with a pinch of salt.

so yeah, totally with you that the physical fall itself probably wrecked some damage (i don't talk much about book!omens - i hold it close to my heart but i see it very separately from tv!omens, i have to admit - but i do think there was some element of playing-it-off in the description of his 'sauntering vaguely downwards', no different to how he tells it to aziraphale in 1862), but i still don't know how much i see it as having traumatised crowley.

to my mind (so, for clarification, this is entirely based on my experience of trauma, and may not be the case for everyone!), trauma takes away a good deal of agency, and i guess idk how much i see crowley without agency in this respect? i completely agree that the fall may have painful, upsetting, and rage-inducing, without a doubt, but does it stem from trauma? that for me is not yet clear!✨

#bear in mind that im trying to answer this without bias from speculation - yk the theory about metatron being behind #all of the things that we are led to believe god is responsible for (and that god isnt a completely amoral entity in all of this) #and the whole memory wipe theory etc #good omens #crowley meta #the fall/the great war spec #ask

[verxca]

Widowmaker X Fem!Reader

New Recruit Pt. 6 ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

Summary: While training, you and Widows conversation turns into something unexpected ₊ ⊹

Warnings: Suggestive content ₊ ⊹

"They are watching, don't do anything stupid when I leave." The guard said, shooting a cold stare at your direction before he exited the training area. Now, you were left alone, with only security cameras and training dummies to observe your every move. Naturally, escaping was the first thing that came to mind when you were left by yourself. But you figured that it would be too risky, considering your healing injury, the cameras, and more. You looked around the padded room, debating what to do now. After all, it was the first time you were left alone in here. Usually there were others training and or your guard positioned at the door. Though, you still felt like nothing changed. Talon is best at giving a false sense of security, and you were starting to catch on. The dummies positioned to the side of the room looked like they were staring directly into your soul, their lifeless eyes begging for something you couldn't quite put your finger on.

You walked over to one, observing the rubber doll. It resembled a girl, or at least that's what your mind pictured it as. Being stuck alone for so long, you knew that creating fake friends was something bound to happen. You pictured her with long, black hair, painted red nails, and dark brown eyes. Lacey, you named her.

"Sorry, Lacey."

You started to actually train, punching and kicking the doll. After a minute or so passed, you started regretting naming her to begin with. Your arms started to burn, not something uncommon, but then your stomach did. Your stab wound was healing faster than you expected, but that came at the cost of it aching more often than normally. You pulled back, placing your hand over the wound, sighing to yourself.

"Are you ok?" A familiar voice asked. You quickly turned around and were greeted by Widowmaker. She stood with one of her hands placed onto her hip, her hair in that signature braid, and of course, her yellow eyes gazing into yours. In contrast to your guys first encounter, you now really begun to admire Amélie. After that conversation with Sombra a couple of nights ago as well, you started to picture her in a whole different light.

"Oh, hey, yea Im fine, sorry-" You said in a hurry, slightly embarrassed for her to see you in this weak state. But again, you remembered when she helped you on that mission, and you begun to feel less tense, dropping your arms by your side.

"There is nothing to be sorry about, you are determined, training through the pain. I admire that."

"Thanks, Widow..." You said approaching her.

"I didn't mean to intrude, just came here to train on my own, what a pleasant suprise it is, seeing you here."

"You too, it gets lonely sometimes... You are very sweet."

You both smiled at each other, before beginning to walk back towards the dummies. Your injury started to feel a bit better, it now just stung slightly. You shook off the pain and approached Widows side, positioning yourself in front of the rubber doll, ready to commence again. But, it seemed like you couldn't concentrate when she was there. You were too focused on her presence in the room then on the task at hand. She made your mind fuzzy.

"Hey- Uh, Widow... Was it you who got me those books?" You asked seemingly out of the blue. Widow stopped what she was doing and looked your way, with a faint grin, like she was trying not to smirk.

"Hm. How did you guess?" She stood and stared at you, now smiling.

"I knew it! Thank you so much, its been keeping me occupied lately"

"Your brain always needs something to concentrate on, without it, you'd start to go crazy. And, reading keeps you smart. I just wanted to make sure you're ok."

"They've really been helping, I can't stress how much"

The room fell silent again. You kicked, you punched, but your mind always thought back to her. She was right there, watching you fight, watching you thank her, watching everything you do. You didn't feel like you had to impress her, which was a good break from the usual atmosphere in Talon. You felt comfortable, but still nervous. That tension in the air never seemed to dissipate when you saw her, or when she saw you. Widowmaker stepped back from her training dummy, once again staring in your direction.

"Want to fight each other? I think it would grant better results than this, if you'd like." Her offer definitely shocked you, but overall made you even more flustered.

"That’s a good idea"

You both hurried over to the open area, your heart started to race faster with every step forward you took. You had seen her fight, even seen her take you down before. Always with those graceful yet strong attacks, you had to adapt your fighting style to hers. You didn't care about the cameras, your wound, the guard, Moira, nothing. You were only focused on Amélie, and it seemed to be the opposite with her. She looked at your body, eyeing every inch, studying your movements.

"I'll try to go easy, I know you're still healing." You nodded, taking stance, readying yourself.

She approached in a hurry, trying to kick your stomach. You dodged her attack, but she kept getting closer. You moved back a fair mount, trying not to get hit before finally deciding to switch defence to offence. You threw a punch to her face, but she dodged. You tried to kick her, but she moved out the way again. You threw your fist close to her one last time, not putting in all of your force, assuming her to back away again. But, this time she grabbed your arm, firmly gripping it with her soft purple hand. Your heart skipped a beat, surprised by the turn of events. She pulled you closer to her body in a hurry, kneeing you in the chest. You let out a groan and fell to the floor, quickly collecting yourself before getting back up. You both looked at each other. You had to admit to yourself, you were turned on by her dominating actions.

...

You charged back towards Widow, kicking and punching, trying to get her down. She threw up her arms every time in front of her face, blocking all of your attacks. But, you could tell she was getting weaker. This time you aimed your blow to the side of her head, causing her to loose balance and fall on her knee. She got up quickly, you guys were now even in this imaginary battle game. You didn't know what the goal was, but you still were getting more exited for something to happen.

You both ran back towards each other, dodging and throwing attacks at the same time. Your body was so filled with energy that it seemed in that moment it was impossible to get tired. You threw your knee up, hoping to knock her back, but she swiftly moved to the side, taking her stance and throwing a punch to your side. You moved back and kicked her stomach, but again, she dodged. You hadn't even noticed that she had grabbed your leg, causing you to slip to the floor. In a desperate attempt to not loose, you kicked the back of her knee, causing Widow to fall directly ontop of your body.

The room fell silent again.

The only sound was coming from the both of your chests rythmicly falling up and down, breathing rapidly. Your face was completely red, cheeks, ears, and even nose. Widows hands that were propping her up above your fragile frame begun to slightly shake, her facial expression was one you had never seen her make before. She stared into your eyes, as you admired all of the features on her face. Everything was so hot.

Without warning, Widow leaned down and kissed you on the lips. It was slow, sensual, but left you feeling so desperate for her. Amélie slowly pulled back, smiling. The tension that previously intoxicated the air seemed to finally be gone. You felt so comfortable in her arms.

#verxca ❀˖° #widowmaker #widowmaker x reader #widowmaker x you #overwatch

[doctorguilty]

Baddddd bad bad bad very sad

My head hurts, the pressure makes me feel like it's being squeezed and crushed by rubber bands ... from sinus inflammation and dehydration and not eating probably isn't helping

I feel like I want to cry again but I'm trying to stop myself so I won't make the pain even worse

This is only, what, a week into dst? Not even winter yet.. Seasonal affective disorder is going in for the kill this year I guess. I don't know what im going to do because I'm so tired, physically and mentally and just tired of my life, there's no fight in me left. And no one will or can help me. I'm my family's least favorite and so i get the least help, doctors won't take my health seriously, my partner needs more time, possibly more than a year, before moving in with me with me somewhere. I can't afford to live on my own. I barely have energy to keep collecting scraps of money to show as income so I can continue getting food assistance.

I had a spark of hope for a while but it feels like it was a mistake to let myself have it. How much longer can I lie to myself and say "one more year until it gets better"? I mean, I can't. That illusion is broken. So what can I tell myself? It truly feels like there's nothing. Things keep getting worse. I tried so hard, I really did. I'm exhausted. Truly utterly exhausted.

Unless anyone out there (just like, the world not @-ing Tumblr dot com) has a spare 20 grand or something they'd just hand to me to live off for "one more year" (and then some) and detox from my miserable quality of life, surviving it barely even sounds appealing knowing that my physical and mental health I'll be another year WORSE than where it is now. And even then. There's not guarantee it ends there :''') its an estimate, an "if I'm lucky" estimate and it's not even considerably lucky to be in this position.

I genuinely don't know how I'm gonna keep living like everything is fine and normal while I continue losing steam to make money, make art, care for myself (I'm already down to roughly 2 showers a week and at best 1 real meal a day because I'm so tired), to keep filling out paperwork begging for assistance (I think I'm already overdue for my food stamp update), and watching other people in my family just be handed endless help while I'm patronized with "have you considered painting Christmas ornaments for a living" and interrogated about the validity of my disabilities (which I always fail to prove good enough)

Almost everyone around me is happier than me. Almost everyone else's life is on track and I'm at best simply left behind, and at worst I was someone they stepped on to get what they needed before tossing me to the side.

My life is not only painful and exhausting but humiliating. I don't feel like a person. I don't feel important. I feel like if i did die out of the blue, nobody would say they regret helping me more like people usually say, they'd just talk about how I should have done xyz better and it's my own fault (not a s*icide threat just being hypothetical like literally if i died for any random reason)

Most of everything that's happened in my life, I feel, has validated my chronic sense of worthlessness. Everyone says I'm not but prove it. Someone prove it. Someone put me first. Sacrifice something for me (and not complain what a burden I am on them!). For once. If I wasn't worthless, well, I'd be worth it, without strings attached.

It won't happen. It never happens. I have to dance like a fucking circus animal for people and then beg on my knees I'm entertaining enough to keep alive so I can do it over and over again

#seth speaks #neg #angry parts arent vaguing tumblr ppl its mostly irl stuff like thats the issue thats where i need the most help

[sometipsygnostalgic]

Time for more salt and violence :DDDD

7. Which character did you begin to hate not because of canon but how the fandom acts about them?

15. That one thing you see in fanart all the time

19. You're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

7. Which character did you begin to hate not because of canon but how the fandom acts about them?

I find myself VERY RESISTANT to this kind of shit so when the universe makes me feel like I want to hate a character I kind of go the opposite direction and love them harder than any of their fans.

For example I see so many infuriating takes with Catra and Hordak but I REFUSE to hate them. I insist on loving them more for all of their flaws, to be the one who loves them most for their character. I fucking adore those characters.

Maybe my opinion would be different if I was saturated by fandom like all the realtime watchers were? Like I'd be worn down.

I'm trying to think of other characters this DOES apply to.

For a show I'm genuinely obsessed with - The closest might be Lemongrab in AT fandom, he was super woobiefied by some people and some of those people were not particularly good to me or to the AT crew (talking events that happened over 10 years ago). I will be real it's nothing on the scale of what happened in shera fandom, and I still love Lemongrab as a character, but I avoid making anything with him in it because I don't want his fans to speak to me. Hoping the situation is different now.

There's also Simon Laurent from Infinity Train. I never particularly LIKED Simon, I find him interesting, but FUCKING HELL. TAKE ALL OF THE ABOVE CHARACTERS AND MULTIPLY IT BY 100. I was still getting messages from the "Simon Anon" A FEW WEEKS AGO SAYING THAT I NEED TO BOYCOTT INFINITY TRAIN because the creators said some stupid ableist about Simon, which they did, BUT IT'S NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY LEAVE ME ALONE. Anyone who is a Simon stan is usually completely terrifying, and is occasionally racist or sexist depending on their stance on Grace while defending their precious white boy. Once I entered a server and someone IMMEDIATELY asked me what my thoughts on Simon were, they were completely ready to start a fight with me over it and I've never felt more terrified in my life.

I also got sick and tired of Hunter quickly for pretty much the same reasons as Simon, though he's not written to be an evil incel like Simon, he REALLY IS the woobie boy that everyone considers him to be adn that's why I don't like him. I appreciate his character arc but ehhhhhh I couldn't stand him until the end of season 2 and during season 3 where it finally got past the "im going to be MURDERED by BELOS if i dont do EVERYTHING IMMEDIATELY" phase. The reason Catra never falls into this category for me is because she had supervillain energy and tried so so hard to regain agency and she kicked Hordak's ass and opened the Portal. Hunter meanwhile takes every hit, and I just... it is painful to watch, especially having been in situations of fear and psychological abuse. I don't enjoy it and I don't enjoy the fandom's TERRIFYING OBSESSION with him.

Zuko is almost a character I don't like. There is no anti-fandom for Zuko so I have no reason to stubbornly love him. People always compare every redemption arc to Zuko and I am fucking sick of it.

15. That one thing you see in fanart all the time

If it's a group it's ALWAYS Best Friend Squad 4 man, which makes sense I guess since theyre The Main Group but like... Q_Q i just want to include Entrapta and Scorpia and make it a BFS/SPT combo. Is that self indulgent of me? Especially when it's S5 fanart, I want more Entrapta because she was basically with them the entire time! Aaaaaaaaaa!!!!! I have a lot of thoughts on "4 man BFS" as an entity and why it works as an answer to s1, and why it doesn't work so well in s5, and why I am sad there was no s5 closure to sPT even if that is a dead sPT i just wanted one more scene--

wait that's not really what this question is about, we are crossing into canon wishlist but also fanfic modern AU territory and ALLLLL of my annoyances with how Adora and Catra's friend groups are treated in those. Like how Bow, Glimmer, Scorpia, and Entrapta are supposed to be their BEST FRIENDS but all become irrelevant and straight up absent once Catradora are together. Uhhh...

Okay more about Entrapta, a pet peeve is when people give her Normal Hair. Like, not absolutely insanely long rapunzel hair. Just normal hair. IT'S NOT RIGHT--- i guess people find it hard to draw her hair if they're going for a more realistic style?

I actually like most She-ra art I see though. It's very rare I see something that annoys me. There's not enough fanart posted in this fandom recently for me to have seen something that grinds my gears. All the catradora art is fucking gorgeous. I don't look at nsfw so I have absolutely no thoughts about any weird tropes like I would for other fandoms like AT where the fandom was a lot straighter and drew more demeaning stuff including the girls.

19. You're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

I can hear Kan yelling at me to post Entrapdak under this heading. Fuck you, Entrapdak is great!

I don't have any really wild out there crackships, I don't have any "problematic pairings", but I usually get self conscious and cautious when I post Catrapta, or any Entrapta x a member of BFS stuff, LMAO. Even the normal fluffy stuff but especially the sex headcanon post yesterday with Catrapta. The issue is a lot of the time people are like "she's way older than the others???" and either I have to say "actually, that was a post by a character designer with no evidence in the show--" and I look like an idiot trying to justify something wrong, or I just say "theyre both somewhere in their 20s" and get it over with.

But I ship all of the princesses with each other, I especially think Entrapta x Everyone is fucking hilarious, just go off girl. I'm not ashamed of that per se, it's just some people in this fandom have a stick up their ass with anything that isn't a Certified Canon Pairing.

Now if you want something I do enjoy and am mildly disturbed by that, it's Seadak. Sea Hawk x Hordak. And also x Micah. Just pair the dads together. They have never interacted but isn't it fucking brilliant????

#she ra #spop

[nekropsii]

Hi just wanted to say that I really like the way you think about Damara.

Like I really like her, but I kinda of hate her character because of the way Hussie handles her.

There is also the japonese/Asian stereotype thing, I don't mind Damara being like Japonese or whatever, In fact I kinda of like it?(Im probably bias cause Im japonese, but still) but the way that it was written makes it look so insulting and kinda of fetishy an uh its just gross...

Also I have a thing againt her desing, its just-

Idk how to explain it, it just tickles me the wrong way. I guess it has to do with the fact that her clothes look far more chinese than japonese and the fact that she has those sticks coming out of her hair and it looks like chopsticks(thats not a thing people please stop drawing japones people with that, like draw her with an kushi or a kogai or like something..)

Idk man it just makes me so sad and grossed out…

So uh, thank you for the refreshing takes on Damara?

Hey, I’m glad you like my thoughts on Damara! It means a lot, really! She, like all of the Alpha Trolls, has fantastic potential, though it was mostly squandered by them being written by… Well, Hussie. Genuinely, I think if she wasn’t written with such heavy-handed Fetishism and Misogyny, she would have honestly been one of the best characters in that specific cast! Alas, we can’t all have nice things, I suppose…

Her design always struck me the wrong way, too. You can tell she was designed without any due respect or sensitivity in mind- Hussie wasn’t designing her with “Japanese Woman” in mind, he was designing her with “Generic Eastern Asian Woman” in mind. She’s a stereotype in aesthetic, basically, and it’s written plainly and shamelessly across the entirety of her character design.

[DISCLAIMER: Take my discussion of this with a few grains of salt- I am a Westerner, and while I know a thing or two about some Chinese and Japanese history, I am not speaking from personal experience, nor am I an expert. I am guaranteed to get something wrong- these are just the thoughts I have on the matter from my own limited perspective. Feel free to correct anything I get wrong. Thank you.]

Hussie seemed to have been going for a “Pseudo-Traditional Oriental” Aesthetic for her, but it kind of just sucks, lol. Like, Racist execution aside, it’s incredibly plain, and nothing about it truly makes sense! Her shirt almost reads as Hussie halfheartedly making an attempt at drawing a Qipao, which could have been a very interesting display of her being a Time Player, considering those are essentially Flapper Dresses that are constantly evolving over time but… That doesn’t seem intentional. I am not about to give Hussie undue credit. Considering everything else about Damara, they probably just drew the most “Generic Eastern Asian” outfit they could think of and called it a day. It doesn’t even fold over the body- the neckline and the stripe going down the body aren’t folds, they kind of just look… Printed on. Even with all this aside, the Qipao is something that belongs more to Chinese culture than it does Japanese culture.

The hair hurts me in its level of stereotypicality, but it seems like a natural progression of whatever was going on with Aradia’s hair. I just wish the bastard didn’t complete the look with the Totally-Not-Chopsticks. Literally any other style of Kanzashi would have worked. Hell, it could’ve even been one hairpin that just splits off into prongs at the top to resemble the symbol for Aries, but… Nah, gotta have that chopsticks look! Painful, painful thing.

#for sov we’re definitely gunning for a more… cyberpunk style for her. very ghost in the shell. #japan’s cyberpunk is always gorgeous and cyberpunk is a pretty important genre for sovereignstuck as a whole #so… win/win! #homestuck #homestuck meta #alpha trolls #beforan trolls #dancestors #damara megido #damara.pdf #nekro.pdf #nekro.sms

[honeygrahambitch]

Another batch of questions :)

When Hannibal says to Will, "If I saw you every day, forever..." is his way of saying "I love you"?

Will smiles after these words. But then we have a scene at Will's house. Will says very hurtful things to Hannibal, why is he so blunt and harsh? After Hannibal confessed to him how he feels about him. If Will hoped he'd break free if he hurt him enough?

So Im taking ages to respond to these, but no worries, i love reading all the asks im getting and i can assure you none will be left unanswered ❤️

1) When Hannibal says to Will "if i saw you every day forever..." He means that this very moment holds a great importance for him and for their relationship. He is basically saying that he will always remember that conversation, that place, those circumstances. And they have a very deep talk as Will says that Hannibal is basically his past and present and that they have begun to blur so I really believe that kind of conversation is something one can hardly forget.

Both of them had to make a long journey about forgiveness and betrayal after Mizumono. Will goes to Lithuania to be able to understand Hannibal while Hannibal becomes aware of the fact that he loves Will.

So in those episodes up until Dolce, they are both going through transformations and challenges and many phases of love and grief. So when they meet in the gallery, they are both changed, they had both learnt a lot more about each other and about forgiveness.

Yes, you can think of it as an "I love you". I see it as a wonderful thing to say to someone. The fact that you will treasure that moment forever.

2) I think Will says very hurtful things because he has a lot of bottled up anger. He never got to let out his feelings about how much he had suffered because of Hannibal's games. And i guess that what happened at the Verger Manor was the last drop for Will. He says all those things because he is tired of being caught up in that web of manipulation and sick games that constantly make him question himself. The whole Verger thing happened because of Hannibal getting involved in some strangers' family drama. It could have been avoided. And i think Will didn't want to be involved in unnecessary drama which almost costed him his own life.

So he is basically like "in tired, Hannibal, go away, i don't want to do this anymore". And he is so valid. He is so right to feel that. But Im sure he regretted it. So sure. Cause he knows his life would be incomplete without him. And also by denying his dark side. Cause without Hannibal, Will tries desperately to "fit in" in the "neurotypical world". But yeah, he ends up crawling back to him cause he is lonely. They are both alone without each other

You could also consider a different scenario. Im not actually supporting it but i will explain later why. Will could have said all those harsh things to make Hannibal leave. But this time for good. This time Will wouldn't know where to look for him. That's maybe what Will hoped to do because he maybe thinks it's better for them both. Cause they are both consumed by each other's presence. They were carrying so much weight at that point.

However, i don't support too much this scenario because in my opinion, Will seems to be very genuine when he says those things. He really looks like he is fed up and in pain. So he is not saying that just for the sake of making Hannibal run away. He is saying that because he wants Hannibal out of his life because he needs a break.

But as i said, he was angry, and tired and distressed. He sure regretted it. I so hope i made sense explaining these.

#hannibal #hannibal lecter #hannigram #will graham #hannibal nbc #hannibal series #send asks

[stormyoceans]

Hey :) it is like half past one am in the night and I am totally NOT sober enough for this but you are the first person I've seen that made a post on Sean and Maithee from Star in my Mind (if there were others before, then I deeply apologise for neglecting that) and so I needed to unload some thoughts on them here (so sorry if this is weird or something and you can just ignore this ask but I love them even if we don't see enough of them and you already are the captain of one precious ghostship so maybe you also like other ghostships)

Because Sean is like really collected and calm and rational while Maithee is very open and generous in his actions and thoughts. And Maithee also screams "internal insecurities" to me. And I really like the thought of Maithee being a little defeated because he's the one that gets the least of Daonuea's attention but then Sean is always by his side and since Sean grounds him, he confides in him and then slowly but surely realises that that is the real thing that he seeks - comfort and closeness. And Sean might not be great at displaying emotions like liking someone but he is open in his communication and so they slowly find a rhythm that works for them until one day they just naturally get together because they're always gravitating towards the other.

Does this make sense? I don't know, I'm just a very invested fan-person that has had a little too much to drink. But I still wish you a nice weekend and hope I didn't bore you too much

let it be known you can always come talk to me about any ships you like and it will never be weird or bother me at all!!!!!!!!

i was actually so happy and excited to get your message because I LOVE SEAN AND MAITHEE SO MUCH OKAY and we're not getting much of them because sadly i don't think they actually planned for them to be a side pairing, but all the small bits and pieces of interaction we get between them are SO GOOD!!!!!! the way they bicker gives off such old married couple vibes and in this last episode they were literally FLIRTING WITH EACH OTHER?????????? like maithee asked phoon to show him what flirty people do and when he saw phoon feeding nuea not only he DEMANDED to be fed by sean but when sean was like 'it's my birthday, you feed me' maithee put the snack IN HIS MOUTH for sean to eat????????!? HE WAS INSANE FOR IT not even phoon, who everyone knows is going after nuea, had the guts to do THAT!!!!!!!!!!! i guess the writers just thought it would be funny but all im getting from this scene is that THEY'RE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER YOUR HONOR

also i agree with everything you said about them, especially about maithee having insecurities!!! he is such a goofball and a ray of sunshine, but usually those kind of characters are always the ones who hide their sadness and pain under a happy mask all the time, and i can definitely see him downplaying his feelings for nuea, acting like he doesn't care if nuea doesn't even consider him romantically and saying he wasn't even being that serious about nuea to begin with, but sean is the only person who sees behind all that and i can definitely see him taking maithee out for drinks to comfort him and tell him he doesn't always have to pretend he isn't hurting

and i mean, they're already great friends, but after that they just grow closer and closer until they realizes their own feelings for the other, and maybe at first they'd be afraid to mess up their friendship, but like you said sean is great at communication and he KNOWS (because he saw it with kluen and nuea) how messy things can get when you don't make your intentions clear, so in the end he would definitely confess to meithee and they'd become the most annoying boyfriends!!!!!!!! (they are definitely the 'aww babe you had a crush on me? that's embarrassing' 'we are married' 'still...')

ANYWAY sorry for rambling THE POINT IS!!!!!! that i love them and that if we can get a series about fah then i also need a series with seanmaithee as the main pair, papang moving on from nuea and falling in love with ting ting, and phoon getting the sweet boyfriend he deserves (maybe kluen's friend?? i.. cannot remember his name, my bad)

#im afraid im the one who's not making any sense and i also have not reread this so i apologize for my english #but yeah give me all the ghostships i will give them all the love #anyway hope you're gonna have a very nice weekend too and please remember to drink some water today!! #star in my mind #star in my mind the series #star and sky the series #seanmaithee #m: ask

[menalez]

oh strap discussion: im p much a virgin so take this with a grain of salt and im also mostly a touch-me-not i suppose. but to me fingers can be very hit or miss. i lack sensation so maybe thats why i need more stimulation in the times when i do want to get touched? idk but i also want to be the one using the strap. i dont get much out of clitoral stimulation myself due to health issues, so if i get touched i would prefer penetration. overall i try not to get touched because of pain.

also wrt gender roles, i can see it. for some unfortunate reasons, sex for me always has to have some level of power exchange or dynamics going on, no matter how vague. i dont think i can unlearn it fully, so it sticks with me forever i guess. i dont like male bodies but sometimes i like a more manly attitude from my partner, a masculine woman whos confident and rough, not violently aggressive but like, i enjoy seeing the lust and desire in her and her struggling to resist her attraction to me. maybe this is kinda cringe, sorry.

it’s not cringe lol also there’s nothing wrong w what u said at the end & i get the sense u think it’s weird? i also like women with a more “manly” attitude (well. i consider it like masculine & confident type of attitude rather than manly bc idk connotations of the word manly is diff). i like roughness too and i like when my partner is like really excited and seems to struggle to resist me & is consumed w lust. i feel like that’s normal? like we all enjoy feeling desired and esp when we see our partner’s desire for us is so extreme that they can’t contain it

but also that makes sense. i do think gender roles and certain roleplay & dynamic plays a major role in a huge portion of lesbians that love strap-ons but some are also touch-me-nots and prefer it for reasons related to dysphoria, or like u mentioned having some kind of pain. lots of lesbians who prefer penetration over oral in my experience also often find oral stimulation TOO intense or like. don’t feel it enough. i think i remember reading some of it has to do with like external vs internal clitoris or sth? in my case at least the whole external vs internal clit applies bc my preference is without a doubt oral (both giving & receiving, but giving isnt always possible depending on my sexual partner) over penetration & mine yanno is. prominent let’s say

#for me that’s like. automatic turn on for sure

[ghoulodont]

re: the tags on my last reblog. one of the things that surprised me the most is that as far as i can tell a lot of people consider the masks to exist "in-universe" i.e. the ghouls (as opposed to only the real-world human performers) wear masks onstage. their appearance is taken literally. but the ghouls are still ghouls, so there is necessarily a sort of complicated (imo) back-and-forth situation where ghouls are not human -> they disguise themselves as humans¹ -> on top of that they wear costumes to look inhuman.

my interpretation has always been that the meliora/prequelle era masks are (a somewhat stylized version of) what ghouls "really" look like. they are just some guys with little horns to me. anything else -- opus era hoods², impera era helmets³ -- are "real", but the masks are not. i came to this conclusion without any conscious logic or thought, i think mostly based on my expectation of what a mask would mean in a theater performance.

i do see the appeal of decoupling the ghouls "real" appearances from their stage appearances in that it allows basically unlimited creative freedom⁴. so i really have nothing against people who do this. the logistics of it⁵ just seems like way too much to me.

whats more interesting to me though is the psychology(?) of understanding masks, and conversely faces/facial expressions. personally im just abysmally bad at both reading and producing facial expressions, and i absolutely see this as connected. i hadnt realized it but i think i basically lose next to no information if a persons face is completely still. so the mask doesnt create any significant gap in immersion for me.

anyway, i think its fascinating what can grow and take a life of its own starting from very little ground truth. im far too much of a recluse to participate but i do appreciate that it exists.

in christian (etc) mythos demons are traditionally shapeshifters so this does make sense. i personally fall more into the DOOM school of demonology. i also know basically nothing about any religion and most of the catholicism references go completely over my head

there were masks in the early eras as well. i guess i consider them also to not exist, but would say they are not as "realistic" or representative of the actual ghouls faces due to the lower budget

yes the impera costume reveal initially threw my vision off somewhat but im sticking to my beliefs

the ghoul features people have created are really interesting to me as well. i honestly had not considered most of them. tails and elemental traits/magic are two that jump out. but also claws seem like they would be a real pain in the ass for the guitar ghouls

often theres also the idea that ghouls with ghoul features shouldnt be seen by humans, but honestly what would you do if you saw some guy with horns in public?

#ghoul philosophy

[shadowynn]

*breathes in* *breathes out* *takes a seat on a chair*

FAMMMMMM?!?!?!?!

Chapter seven was literally everything?! Like, we finally have answers and now the ball is sort of in OC's court. Honestly when you said there were reasons why HJ was so... Lenient with half-daemons, I had an inkling it would be this, but to actually hear it from him gave me goosebumps. That apart, omg more context as to why the humans have treated her the way they have oof— also I knew there was something sus about them. I mean of course we don't have all the answers about the war, but I wonder why humans don't just... Stop? Considering only very few cities remain where they can live safely. But then again, what little we've seen of the humans does align with them not wanting to work things out.

I low-key feel bad for oc. I mean... She just wanted a normal life but fate really had no plans for that whatsoever. I totally empathise with her. But at the same time I also feel sorry for HJ, the first time he truly talks to her... She says that to him. Like ouch, that must have hurt.

(Random, but I've been working on this whole idea of fate vs free will in one of my papers. And... It honestly makes me wonder how much of an effect both have on the daemons, half-daemons, and humans in the world of ILAL. Like I understand that daemons have free will, but at the same time certain things have been laid out for them by destiny (or maetha). Then half-daemons are probably somewhere in the middle, but like I think they have more agency unless they're in a situation like OC lol. Then come the humans. So, even if daemons aren't angels (figuratively speaking), the fact that humans choose to do things the way they're doing just makes humans crueler I guess. Idk if I'm making sense?)

Can't wait to see where this goes from this point ahead. 🥺❤️ Thank you for sharing this beautiful story with us.

Aaawwweeee, thank you so much!! I’m glad you enjoyed it!! I was struggling so hard, but when I came back with a fresh head after a few days, things really just started flowing.

And, ahhhh, there’s like so much more I want to say and explain then what I put in this chapter, but I have to hold back because it really isn’t the right time or place to say it. I think this is one of the first works I’ve wrote where things aren’t always what they seem and there’s more going on then you know and it’s so hard for me to not just spit everything out. I’m absolutely terrible at keeping secrets, especially with things that I know other people are excited for (like it’s been a pain ordering Christmas presents and having to wait to give them. I just wanna give now.) so Im like, excited for you all to know things but really have to hold back and be like, no, you have to wait.

And fate vs free will is such an interesting topic, but honestly a hard one too. Major props to you to writing a paper on it! I think when it comes to In Love and Lore, i feel very similar to you! daemons do lean much more into fate, based on their magic. And I see this as a major factor on why things went so horribly for them in the end, because hj doesn’t see what he did was wrong because mc is his mate, and like, of course he’s going to do what he did. But mc isn’t from that world, doesn’t comprehend the weight of it, so she sees as his choice led to her not having one. And let me tell you, this won’t be the only time this difference in worlds/traditions is going to be causing problems.

And then I’d say the half-daemons probably lean the way they’ve grown up. They’re not as into fate as daemons, but as we’ve kind of seen with mc, she knows she has less free will than humans because of her status. There’s just certain things she can and can’t do because she’s not human. And I really like what you said about humans. you’re right, it does seem to make them crueler! Knowing there was a choice and yet still deciding to do it anyways.

Thanks for your kind words!! I always enjoy having these long asks/conversations with you!! :)

#in love and lore #winnie speaks

[askfanden]

hello hello! (oﾟvﾟ)ノive just checked out the blog for the first time and im love. what a lovely way to explore culture. ✧☆o(^▽^)o☆✧ about questions- whats your favourite tale?

-sir ocean 🌊

((Aaw, that's sweet of you! I am just Norwegian person with a special interest, hahaw. It's been a thing I've wanted to do for many years now so I might as well just do something with my research and concepts!

Even if I don't get far, at least I would have made a few comics and taught a few concepts. :>

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Though I'm not sure if you're addressing me Out Of Character or In Character, so I'll just answer OOC.

I'm not sure if I do have a favorite? It feels like a cop out to say that, but I just blank out on it, but what I do love are the themes. The delicious themes.

I mean, I do really love basically every tale involving the devil, hence why I focus on them and why they're the main character. They're just so charmingly pathetic, wrapped in centuries of bad PR, with their story self being pretty different from their perceived ''theological'' self. Parenthesis on theological because folklore is it's own separate but mixed brand of folk religious Christianity.

You can't really take out the Christianity from Scandinavian folklore, that's pointless. But you can take the folklore out of Christianity, you feel?

And the delicious hypocrisies that wouldn't be considered such back in the day. The priest sells his shadow to the devil? That's moral and good actually. He still has his soul and can go to heaven, it's aaaaaall good. The priest bets away the souls of ALL the people attending his church sermon if he loses? It's aaaaaaall good, he always wins so it's not so bad.

And all of the themes of the devil trying to do their damnest to help people. Get food, get money, save a life, be a midwife to pregnant people outside of wedlock, gives people pretty good educations, generally being largely open minded and ahead of their time. For ulterior motives, sorta. Read below for the sort of reason why I guess. If any of my ramblings make sense.

And I also really love the pagan traces, even if they've been partially erased, they're still stuck in there as echoes since people still kept their traditions after the Christianization. It was just slowly replaced.

Like, the Hugr, the Viking concept of the multipart soul. It is basically the conceptual self, how you perceive you. But after the Christianization, it was turned into something evil that the devil and witches used to harm people. And if you summon the Hugr of someone else, it will cause someone terrible pain.

It survived, but it's changed. It's things like that that really fascinates me. The Christian soul is only one piece, a ticket to heaven. The multipart soul, with the pre-Christian perception had so many pieces and uses. They were all a part of you and the family. And afterlife wasn't decided on what your soul was or had.

So they are different things.

And I just... man... the devil is one of my most favorite parts about folklore. So much of it is tied to them, as the natural enemy of Christianity, and by extension, what people thought of as natural and a corrupting force of proper folk and so on.

#OOC

[homoeroticvillain]

uwahh im making up for the not great drabble yesterday by having wrote smth completely different. this is actually the first part of a crossover fic im writing. idk if ill post all of it on here or mostly just end up waiting 'til its done so i can post it on ao3 but whatever here it is

Victor stared at the plant Vincent had very carefully placed on the window sill of their dorm. It was obviously still growing and Victor watched Vincent faithfully water it every day. It was the only plant present in their dorm, considering that most of the belongings Vincent brought with him were thick legal books and Victor had always killed any plants he had when he was younger. He thought it was sweet honestly, that Vincent very obviously cared for the little guy but on the other hand, Victor was getting a little jealous. Not that he’d ever admit it under pain of death but sometimes he caught Vincent gazing softly at the plant and he couldn’t help the tinge of jealousy that ran through him. 

“Victor. Why are you glaring at Charley Jr?” Vincent strode into the room having just come back from a class. He set his book at his desk and leveled a stare at his roommate.

“I wasn’t glare- Charley Jr?” Victor halted his excuses in bewilderment and looked over at Vincent, who had perched himself on the side of his desk, just to see his cheeks flushed. He clearly hadn’t meant to let that name slip. 

“I- yes, his name is Charley Jr. Don’t change the subject, why were you glaring at him?” Vincent was trying his best to act nonchalant but Victor wasn’t blind. Victor couldn’t help but grin at Vincent attempting his usual glare while his cheeks were still flushed that delightful pink.

“I think you’re the one trying to change the subject here, my dear. I wasn’t aware our other roommate had a name. Care to expand on that?” Victor watched Vincent’s flush even more at the pet name, he was so getting out of having to confess that he was jealous of a plant.

“I- He’s- Uh…” Vincent looked over at Victor’s shit eating grin, and resigned himself to explaining this, “I didn’t choose the name, I just propagated it from the original Charley-”

“Charley Sr. you mean?” 

“I- I guess, yes. My sister is the one who actually proclaimed him Charley Jr. and it just stuck I suppose.” Victor watched as Vincent fiddled with the edge of his suit jacket during his explanation. The man really was so unintentionally cute sometimes. 

“Hmm, I didn’t know you had a sister. But really? I never knew you to be such a big plant guy that you’d be propagating them.” Victor had always thought Vincent was an only child but he supposes he was wrong. Him having a sister actually makes sense when Victor thinks about it, he wonders if she’s younger or older. Maybe he’ll ask later.

“Ah, I’m not really. But when I was young I realized that Charley-” Vincent sighed again, “Charley Sr. meant a lot to my family so I researched how to care for him properly, since I wanted to be helpful. I suppose it worked considering he’s been healthy for almost 15 years now.” Vincent was idly organizing his text books on his desk as he talked.

“You really are adorable sometimes, Vincent.” Victor softly smiled at his roommate and saw a soft look returned his way before Vincent forced a stern look onto his face.

“Stop that.”

“Stop what, dear?”

“Stop.”

Victor laughed as Vincent swatted at him. He had made his way across the room and was trying to plant a big sloppy kiss on Vincent’s cheek. Victor realized there was no need for him to be jealous over a plant. Although he was *so* laughing at Vincent if he ever saw him reading Leviathan to his plant, which was soundly like a pretty likely scenario at this rate.

#yes this a vtsom ace attorney crossover fic #its called having fun #its just going to be like a 5 + 1 type thing #probably going to actually write more today for it #i just wanted to get some feedback first #mostly on the characterization #then again im kinda the vtsom expert in my mutual circle but still #kinda just want to know if this is cute or not #love writing a fic who's audience is just me #not putting this in main tags ill wait til its done for that lmao #klepto talks to himself #klepto's writing tag