#feeling bad tonight

[pabulumm]

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#feeling bad tonight #like i want to drive my car into the nearest snowbank and just let the cold take me #which i know is dramatic and i'm annoyed with myself for even saying it #but the feelings gotta go somewhere #and i have nobody to talk to #which is part of the problem #another part of the problem is feeling so ashamed of my life that i close myself off from the few people left in it #and eventually i really will have nobody left #what i wouldn't give to have one day where i don't feel like a loser #i have felt like a loser every single day of my adult life #like how do i change that about myself now? #but then i guess it's like...what do i have to lose by trying? #it might hurt??? like *this* doesn't fucking hurt??? #idk guys idk #not getting into my car though in case anybody read this far #personal posts

[project-pleiades]

Not FOMO like I don’t want my friends to have fun when I’m not around it FOMO like I’m worried that everyone would be happier if I weren’t around or didn’t exist

#many thoughts #sad #feeling bad tonight #I love my friends and I want them to have the best lives #I just don’t think their best lives have me in it #because I’m not worth anything

[omatone-dnp]

the depression is depressing-ing lately

#:/ #feeling bad tonight #idk why I’m sad #i think I need to find a new job

[ewwww-what]

friendship so strong it grants you a sixth level spell slot. I have words to say.

#you aren’t always supposed to handle doubt alone. #even if you aren’t afraid of the dark it’s easier to navigate with someone holding your hand #Kristen said ​‘I just love my friends. I love my friends so much.’ #and Fig said ‘maybe I’m not an artist. maybe I’m just a really good friend.’ #and everyone in the world wanted me to be okay and normal about it #queerplatonic love comes in so many forms and this is one of them #fig and Kristen. fig and Kristen. fig. Kristen. #also also #I’ve been so emotional about the fact that all of the bad kids care so deeply about Cassandra despite not worshiping her #‘​I believe in Cassandra because I’ve seen her!’ like they have come eye to eye with a goddess and chose the mutual friends route #god I love it so much #also nonbinary fig believers how are we feeling tonight #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #d20 fanart #fh #fantasy high fanart #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #d20 fhjy #fig faeth #fig fantasy high #kristen applebees #kristen fantasy high #faebees #applefaeth #that’s important to me. that is an important part of this. #undescribed #my art

[eurovisionart]

I should have been drawing the last 1993 contestant today, but instead I decided to sketch some of this year's artists.

It pains me that this Eurovision will forever be remembered in a negative light. Despite all of the talented artists this year, the wonderful hosts and production, it is indeed very hard to stay positive. I wished that the contest would live up to its 'United by music' slogan. Without exaggeration, Eurovision has always been my favorite time of the year... But not this year.

I am Dutch, so I guess I will not be able to vote tonight. Regardless I hope we can show support for the artists tonight.

Because it has always been the artists that have made Eurovision into the wonderful show that it is. Not the EBU.

#esc 2024 #eurovision 2024 #eurovision song contest #I wish I could vote tonight... #it is a mess this year #I feel bad for the artists. The hosts. Everyone in the arena tonight. #eurovision

[rainbowsuitcase]

So much BTS lore feels like fanfiction and I can't get over it

Two of the members hated each other at first. They argued a lot and one time, they threw folded clothes at each other and the member who folded them had to come scold them. And now they keep reminding everyone how long they've known each other for. They wrote a song together where they said that "respect is a higher tier than love" and then called each other "my respect."

The smartest member of the group (one the previous two morons btw) didn't know how to tie his shoelaces until highschool. He doesn't eat seafood because he loves crabs. He's a literal geniues and he's so clumsy and such a dork (and I relate so deeply). And that body, guys, I'm telling you. This whole guy was made by a fanfic author.

Their company was near bankrupcy when they debuted. One of the members, who was getting offers from so many other companies, joined this one because he admired another member who was already a part of it. When these two met for the first time, member two was only wearing underwear and member one said "wow, thighs."

Another member came to an audition, not to audition himself but to support a friend. He was the only person from that audition round to get in. The friend did not.

Another member, who was studying to be an actor, was street cast on a bus.

One of them lost confidence and tried to leave before the debut, but another convinced him to come back, because they "needed him."

The whole industry hated them when they debuted and now they're arguably the best kpop group worldwide. (Arguably, read: argue with the wall)

(Add your own pls, I want to make a collection from this)

#in order #namjoon and yoongi #namjoon #jungkook and namjoon #taehyung #seokjin #hoseok #i feel bad there's nothing about jimin #but i'm literally just ranting off the top of my head #tf you want me to say about jimin #he's a prince?? #he's Tiny but Mighty?? #he's the perfect love interest?? #click clack of chelsea boots?? #bts #bts army #bangtan #like wow i really am in a mood tonight huh #fanfiction #kpop

[arsenicflame]

izzy getting adopted by them is EVERYTHING to me. fuck you youre part of our found family now, whether you like it or not. we have claimed you.

bonus: the way jim defends him here. theyre So mad:

#i didn't include it but the way they slide immediately into talking about how the revenge was GOOD #its like theyre implying. izzy was a part of that good for them #idk idk. feeling my izzy hands should not have to change to be loved agenda in this chillis tonight #it is very clear here that izzy is still izzy. he hasn't fundamentally changed. hes still a dick. hes still himself. #but. his actions are reframed. hes looking out for the crew #hes a dick. but he protects us. hes a dick but he teaches us what we need to know. hes a dick but that doesn't mean we don't love him #screaming crying rolling on the floor #i need him to be loved so bad!!!! i need them to stick up for him!!!! i need izzy to be treated Right!!!!!!! #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #jim jimenez #izzy hands #israel hands

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

#wish i could tell younger me that i wasnt fucked up i was just autistic #even if youre not nd i still think having things you enjoy around you is important especially for your space #so i make a notable effort to get fandom stuff for my younger siblings now #like my lil sister thinks getting demon slayer stuff is cringe cause anime and what not (havent read it sorry) #but her face still lights up when i get her a pin for her #or a blind bag with a character keychain #and very slowly the self hatred and whatever it feels like that youre not allowed to like anything and that anything you like is bad #starts to diminish #my qpp is obsessed with birds and chickens and has so many trinkets around the house for it #or my friend who loves how pretty stained glass looks that his walls are covered in thrifted stain glass pieces #i know an elderly couple who are obsessed with star trek and they have a room in the house purely for shelves stacked with collectables #my friend's dad is so obsessed with spiderman that he has 3 walls full of figurines and posters and collectables that prob amoutn to tons #like i dont get it but i get it #maybe its because im sick rn but im in my head tonight about human loving things and stories and cocepts to the point of comfort #sara shush #ramble

[hajihiko]

Trainwreck in double speed

#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Peko pekoyama #kuzupeko #super danganronpa 2 #sdr2 #an art #Fuyuhiko ruining himself with the pressure and violence and fitting into shoes he neither fits nor wants #Peko ruining herself by erasing herself and falling into a role she hates for someone she loves #Both of them shaving off bits of themselves until they're just not the same people at all in a bad way. Together through it all! #Both of them hate it but are powerless to change what they were sculpted into! #Anyway. How are we feeling tonight guys. I'm having weird feelings about family (not found but obligatory) #(Hiko and Peko aren't found family they actually are. Enforced obligatory family that's barely even family.) #(That's NOT as in they dont care about each other they care so much. But they didnt grow up as family or friends) #(They grew up through obligation) #OKAY time to stop talking

[virgothozul]

#Hi #idk why I got yelled at when I got home tonight #I should be patient and supportive and all #Bc honestly if I can’t be that what do I even bring to this household #Was just too tired. I guess clients are meant to make lame choices and ask for 1000+ versions of the same pointless detail. #Only a couple weeks of that and I’m bored already. Urgh it’s so silly. #I gotta be patient with : client. manager. and boss. each wanting their idea to win. #I was happily coming home. Then some shitty vibe poisoned the air now everyone feels bad. We are the stupidest thing istg #Wish yall a good time tho ! Anyways. Tags. #Wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #vashwood #Drew my soft star crossed lovers to snack on a bit of comfort

[flowerakatsuka]

nevermind, i'm over karamatsu now. i'm here for the bad bitches and the bad bitches only! 😤✨

⛔ BLMATSU / PROSHIPPERS DNI!! ⛔

#in a joshimatsu mood tonight i love these girlies #i messed w/ jyushiko's design a lil bit bc i feel like it's a lil plain for a gyaru #my girl deserves to be more flashy & show some cleave like god intended #she does kinda give off onee gyaru vibes in her actual design #but idk i think agejo tsuyome or amekaji would fit her better ya know? #ichiko's already perfect tho no notes #i'm desperately in love w/ her and want her so bad #i need to draw osoko too bc she's my other big fave joshimatsu girlie #osomatsu san #ososan #girlymatsu #joshimatsu #ichiko #jyushiko #mj draws

[half-oz-eddie]

Billy being naturally confrontational and combative about any and everything is so funny lol

He bursts into the room after Steve gets home like "what the fuck's your problem?" and Steve's sighing loudly like "c'mon babe, I had a long day, can we not fight—"

"No. you walked in and you didn't even give me a single kiss or a fucking hug. Where's my hug, Harrington?"

And Steve starts laughing "Oh my god you're such a baby, c'mere" and he hugs and kisses him.

"I'm not a fuckin baby." Billy would mumble into his shoulder. "I could kick your ass."

"Yeah, yeah. Okay, tough baby."

"Watch. After this hug, I'm gonna fuck you up."

Steve softly chuckles. "Okay."

"You know I can. I will. I'm gonna..."

"Mhm."

Then he just hums and melts into the hug. "You're warm."

And he gets babied for the rest of the night <3

#feeling bad tonight and wanted some fluff #harringrove #billy hargrove #steve harrington #ivy.doc #caliscoops.doc

[68spidey]

TW PANIC ATTACKS

"I can't-" Leo's chest was heaving like he'd run a marathon but hardly any air could be heard moving through his lungs. "C-can't fu- b-brea-the-!"

"You can, Leonardo," Splinter was soothing, familiar, but panic was making his old hands shake. The grip his eldest had on his robe was so tight he could hear the fibers creaking from strain. "My son, please."

Leo hiccuped, shook his head, turning more pale by the second. His eyes were terrified. Screaming silently for help-

"Da-d-" wheezed through a throat clamped tightly shut. "P-pl-ease-"

"Breathe with me." Splinter's old paw curled around his son's shaking hand, trying to ground him so he'd stop trying to rip the plastron from his own chest. Leo keened. "Follow my lead."

.

Waking up out of a dead sleep to find that you can't fucking breathe is never fun. Leo has been blessed with night terrors and sleep paralysis.. This is "go get dad" level.

It doesn't matter how old he gets, or how much larger he is than Splinter. After an attack like this, all Leo wants is to curl up into his lap.

#teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2k17 #leo #papa splinter #art of koi #yeah... yeah. #i was beating up leo tonight lol #bonus shitty little drabble #the shredder absolutely fucked him up and i feel bad but also . don't. #tw panic attack

[ex0rin]

Butcher & Hughie | The Boys S01E01: The Name of the Game

+bonus:

#hughie looks so vulnerable here #and butcher looks #jesus he looks so predatory #i'm so into it #careful babygirl he's gonna eat you up #butchie #cara gifs #billy butcher #hughie campbell #they're in a toxic relationship your honour #feeling ver big bad wolf about butcher tonight i guess

[onwhatcaptain]

so did seemingly every other spirk fan get assigned a spirk bestie to rant and be pals with when they got on this website or am I just awfully lonely?

#star trek #spirk #K/S #I'm just feeling unbearably lonely and sad tonight please ignore me lmao #I just see everyone around here has friends they work together with on their art and writing and darn if I'm not a bit lonely #and discouraged and bad at this website I don't know how to even use it #ugh

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply