#fights myself fights myself

[despairingethics]

everyday i experience stomach pain and atp i just tolerate it but today was sooooo bad

#personal #worst part is that it happened during a meeting #i mean yeah i always have those days but not today… when i have something important to do #or i should rlly say not everyday… please not everyday #but alas #fights myself fights myself #goodbye

[ddddd-pixels]

For International Asexuality Day, I'm hitting you all with the Ace Beam. ☺️

(This took a lot more effort than I thought it would, lol...)

Edit: 800 notes?! In less than five hours?! Thank you all so much!!

Edit 2: 2000... The most I got on any post before was just over a hundred, lol. You are all so nice!

#pixel art #sprite art #fighting games #neo geo pocket #street fighter #ryu street fighter #hadouken #asexual #asexuality #international asexuality day #i dub this move: museiai hadouken #i know i've not discussed myself on this blog much #but i am asexual! #i'm not really “out” but more in the sense that i don't really need to be #my family's pretty cool about all that stuff lol #and yes i personally headcanon ryu as ace #just hits the vibes ig

[stuckinapril]

don't stress about that opportunity that fell through or that friend you lost or that thing you really want to happen but isn't. as long as you keep your chin up and try try try again, better things will replace your losses. i'm looking at my life rn and actually marveling at how every single thing i stressed about, whether it be an opportunity or a person, got supplanted w another thing that is so much better. it really is true that loss makes space for better things. these days i don't get sad when something doesn't work out. i get excited that i'm now open to so many other possibilities out there, so long as i actively seek them. you never lack. you just transition.

#operating from an abundance mindset is changing my life truly #i used to fight to convince myself of it but now that i see it happening in real time? it's so true and i'm soothed by it #this isn't even coming from a manifestation or religious angle bc i'm neither of those things #i just believe that a good attitude and strong work ethic can get you places if you don't let failure stop you #and don't allow the noise (other people's opinions) to weigh you down #text

[esinahkabanjo]

Today at the thrift shop i found the best painting ever and i immediatly knew that she is coming home with me

#her name is Eunice and i love her so much my heart cant handle it #i had to fight my mom to get it bc i didnt have my wallet with me but it was so worth it #i wouldve never forgiven myself if i hadnt got it

[hazeleyed-fay]

i feel like im in a weird demographic when it comes to the percy jackson live action series because of the age i was when i read them. cause i read the lightning thief for the first time when i was in single digits, so percy being twelve seemed appropriately grown up. and then as i got further into the series and into heroes of olympus, percy got older with me, and was always kinda broadly my age or a little older. so like, the movie cast was too old when that happened, because they were way older than me. but now the series cast is actual twelve year olds (or so) and they are so obviously just little babies that im now forced to confront the fact that uhhh percy was in fact a fuckin child when all this started??? exCUSE ME???

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #boutta fight the gods myself on their behalf how can u look at their lil faces and think yeah im gonna kill them #anyway at least i have a couple months to come to terms with the inevitable passage of time and the skewed perspectives of childhood #before i lose my mind over the tv show in a completely different way

[leisi-lilacdreams]

i wonder if @somerandomdudelmao will touch upon the unique connection the donnies have with the kraang? hehehe

cass, think of the angst potential 🙏

i didn't mean to continue with the "twin senses active across space and time" bit, but i thought with the leos in the future, this would be a good chance for the donnies to talk and bond, but it gets derailed when they compared their kraang encounters and everyone's screaming and no one's happy

#tmnt #rottmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #my art #cass apocalyptic series #cass fanart tag #rise of the turtles #rise of the tmnt #uncle tello #future leo #future donnie #rise disaster twins #i wanted to add an image of the leos fighting some krang with head empty eyes #just whapping some krang critters #but it was getting late and i was feeling eepy #i feel asleep after writing a note to myself for a f!mikey and little mikey comic idea #i want all the counterparts to have moments together uwu #the leos are so silly #i love them your honor

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[ninjasmudge]

a downgrade really

#cotl #cult of the lamb #cotl narinder #narinder #cotl lamb #my art #its something abt black cat coded characters that take themselves too seriously that makes me want to make fun of them #i want to play through this game myself instead of watching play throughs but i dont have a controller #and im not joking im too bad of a gamer to play on keyboard ill never finish the fights #i wont get past leshy i know this

[myuminji]

Doodles of loser behaviour (he gets kisses)

Another loser behaviour (he gets kisses, again)

they bring Roberto a headache on a daily basis

#merylvash!! merylvash!!!!!!!! (yelling loudly on the top of my lungs) #you know when you actively avoid something because you know you'll inevitably fall into an endless spiral of it once you trip and fall? #that's me with meryl (points at girl crush) #it's too late... i've started another obsession I cannot turn myself back onto anymore. sighs. girl crush hits hard. #heads up tho my take on meryl is a bit ooc. like ''the most studious student that definitely has a wild college life'' kinda take. #i think she can handle them both. ''in a fight?'' you may ask. schrödinger effect ensues #trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #meryl stryfe #vashwood #vashmeryl #mashwood #myuminjiart

[creekfiend]

God I'm so tired of people acting like not wanting to attract a lot of (often negative) attention is somehow Capitulating To Bigots like. The other day I was talking to someone about my strategic deployment of pronouns based on how much of an issue I think a person is likely to make about it and they were like "oh I just do what I want I'm done catering to cis people" and I was like BUDDY. I LIVE IN THE RURAL SOUTH WANTING TO NOT HAVE TO CONSTANTLY GET INTO IT WITH PEOPLE ABOUT MY PERSONAL GENDER IDENTITY IS NOT CATERING TO CIS PEOPLE I HAVE A RIGHT TO WANT TO MOVE THROUGH THE WORLD WITHOUT CONSTANT INTERPERSONAL CONFLICT

Or like I was talking about how I hate swimwear options bc they're all revealing but if you choose to wear like, a t shirt and shorts, people still stare at you because that's socially unusual so it sucks either way and someone was like "I just do it anyway and if people don't like it they can die mad about it" and like... okay. I want to be able to go to the local pool and not either be uncomfortable with what I'm wearing or have people treat me weird about it. I would like for my presence and clothing choices to be considered neutral and it's fine for me to state that actually. This is not assimilationist or capitulating to people. It's going "hm I would love if stepping out my front door didn't have to be a revolutionary act!!!!!" Agghhhhh

#im visibly gnc all the time. i am not hiding who i am. but also???? #people making that choice are suffering for it and its an incredibly personal calculation and its FINE AND NORMAL #TO BE LIKE I AM SO TIRED OF DOING IDENTITY MATH #SOMETIMES I WOULD LIKE TO BE ABLE TO NOT MISGENDER MYSELF IN ORDER TO NOT GET IN FIGHTS #BUT THATS NOT THE LIVE I GET TO LIVE

[despairingethics]

i get so tired easily and it makes me feel embarrassed

#personal #like i’m sorry i can barely do anything #i really am trying #i’m not sad but i’d like a “good job” once in a while #or maybe i’m being too idk #idk the word i forgot #but erm whatever #my stomach hurts more than usual today #fights myself fights myself

[deafening-radio-silence]

NOTHING could have prepared me for the reality of letting a cat into my house

#bucky barnes #marvel #alpine #my art #digital art #recovery #for bucky #there is something about having 10+ claws in your leg that keeps you from deep dissociation #i really hated the last piece i posted #i need to stop fighting my art style #i understand experimentation is growth #but maybe i shouldn't always feel like i need validation for it #and should keep it to myself #but i will share my beloved sketchy style

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[tatck]

Spooky FIGHT OR FLIGHT

#sth #my doodles #fanart #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #eggman #knuckles #amy rose #tails #stvh #vagabond au #my late halloween picture... #i was in a state on fight or flight myself so i started this #I really don't think there's much at all that could make sonic scared like that. maybe a genuine horror of horrors of undefeatable horrors #but i love family friendly spooky episodes #eyestrain #tw eyestrain

[jangmi-latte]

FELLOW HONEST SHAKES

#twisted wonderland #twst #twst playful land #I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO FALL FOR ANOTHER EUROPEAN MF #LET ALONE HE'S A FOX #IF HE ENDS UP BEING A PIECE OF SHIT I AM DONE FOR #HE'S SO ..SO... MISCHIEVOUS LOOKING I WANNA PISS HIM OFF #FIGHT AND DEFY HIM Y'KNOW?????? #is his name really fellow honest #WHATEVER WITH HIM AND ACE IN THE SAME ROOM I CAN TAKE THEM #ORANGE IS MY FAVORITE COLOR 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ (IT IS NOT) #GOOD LOOOOOOOIRF it's 4am #fuck that damn smirk I WANNA PULL YOUR EARS #i need sleep but my mind is running wITH ALL THESE CIRCUS POSSIBILITIES AND #WHAT THIS MAN CAN DO #I KNOW YOU. I KNOW WHAT YOUR OG CHARACTER DID TO PINOCCHIO BUDDY #GRINDING MY TEETH ON HIS TAIL

[puppyeared]

obsessive

#did i put more effort into this than i needed to? yes. did i put myself through unnecessary pain drawing fighting scenes? yes #but i learned how to outline my strokes so maybe i won after all #i thought about it and i think it turned out ok drawing the eyes differently. like the way i usually draw em #although i dont know if that says much since i change my art style every couple weeks but eh #had fun playing with grayscale and limited palette. i want to do that more often dhghdg #although idk whens the next time i will have enough energy to commit to the bit and do.. this #theyre fucking stupid your honor. for every art we get of them acting dramatic and yearning (/pos) i make dumb shit like this #equivalent exchange girlies! #lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #lmk shadowpeach #shadowpeach #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #sun wukong #lmk macaque #lmk six eared macaque #six eared macaque #liu er mihou #my art #myart #doodles #comic #lmk monkey king #lmk fanart