#hahahaha i'm in pain now :'D

[clemencetaught]

a heart to heart with best gremlin child ( @mythvoiced from here )

It’s always the victors from the rebel districts who take it the hardest.

Oh yes, Patrick might be considered part of Snow’s council and among the victors, the inner circle most favored by the Capitol, but saying he’s ignorant is like saying Devora has lost her edge.

It helps, on hand, knowing someone who wades shamelessly amongst the rebel circles. Whether he wanted to or not is a very different story mind you- it still amazes Patrick to this day, Hyuk insisting that they keep their bond despite opposing philosophies. It also helps living in one of the strongest hubs for anti-Capitol sentiments. Sure, the districts have been at the mercy of the Capitol for more than half a century, but just as time can weaken sentiments, it can easily strengthen the very same ones. Even if the original holders of such resentments have gone to the grave, does not mean the anger follows.

Their descendants will carry it, cradle it alongside their own. 

It’s no wonder María’s so angry. A young victor, barely even twenty and expected not only to swallow her own anger, but also close to 74 years of anger from District Eight, a particularly rebellious district. Patrick wouldn’t be surprised if Hyuk had some kind of communication with the rebels from there. 

Joan of Arc was the Harbinger of Hope for an ancient kingdom under tyranny, they once said, but what they forget is that hope is merely anger, well channeled. 

“But that’s the reality, is it not?” Or so he says, a shroud falling over his eyes. Her touch burns and for a moment he’s on his last line of defense- if they can see past the facade then, he will make sure there is a chasm waiting for them beyond. It’s safer that way. Easier that way too. 

Sure, he doesn’t care much for what happens to himself, hasn’t for a long time- in comparison to her, if they call her Joan of Arc, then he’s one of the soldiers she’s slain in the name of her crusade. Something depraved. Less than human. But it doesn't mean that it still...smarts when he thinks about it. Hurts more than he'll ever admit to, looking back on the long line of deeds he's degraded himself with. “It doesn’t do to deny what lies in front of us.”

For all the rage that emanates from her very being, she’s a small thing. A tiny, fragile candle flame in the face of a long winter. Even if she wanted to grow into a wildfire, they’d snuff her out before she could even realize how far she could go. Maybe he’s using his height to his advantage here, staring down on her not too differently from a disappointed teacher at their student. There’s a reason he and Devora are considered two peas in a pod.

They both know he is right. That winning the games is only the beginning. That being hollowed out from the inside by the violence, the bloodshed of the games is only the first part and now the remaining husk is a mere plaything for the Capitol to lay their hands on. 

They say she is a harbinger of hope, but the reality is that she’s just the newest commodity of dissent that the Capitol’s youth so love to listen to. 

“Whether you want to believe me or not,” he continues, “This is the reality we live in now- whether you want to change it or uphold it, you will still have to adapt to it. The Capitol may have made the rules, but if you understand them, then you will know more about the Capitol than it does about itself.”

Fishing a handkerchief from his pocket, he leans down, sternness giving way to something…gentler, more sympathetic. Nevermind the fact that the handkerchief is as white as snow ( and that it was a ‘going-away’ present from one of his ‘very generous’ clients ), he wipes away the mascara that has trailed down her face. The makeup stains his handkerchief in ink black rivelets; her hair is next. He’s just glad she hasn’t ruined the dress the stylists have put her in ( yet ). Fixing a piece of clothing is not within his makeshift expertise- he picks up the brush on the dresser.

Patrick wouldn’t have seen this for himself, being scarily proficient at doing hair and applying makeup to others when he barely does neither on himself, but isn’t that who Patrick is supposed to be? The unofficial mentor for the victors and when words aren’t enough, then actions will bridge the gap. Tangible movements that make this hellhole just a little more bearable. He hands her the brush.

“Do you want me to do it, or can you do it yourself?”

#mythvoiced #mythvoiced ( maría. ) #the victor ( verse three. ) #interactions ( verse three — with the promise of a better world. ) #anger said her real name was grief ( maría. ) #hahahaha i'm in pain now :'D #i was planning on answering this for a while and i missed writing him in this verse ( even if it is depresso ) so uh....surprise?? #god i hope this was coherent bc he rambled and i said ' you realize the one who has to make sense of this?? is me?? right??' #BUT NOT ME JUST 👀👀👀 #at ur messages I WILL BE THERE SOON #take lots of care in the meanwhile however my dear lenny <3

[aeternallis]

Hmm, I’m having feelings about this scene again, so before I get back to fic writing, I gotta just get this stuff off my chest.

See, in a lot of reconciliation fics I’ve read for KimChay, most often times when Chay asks why Kim acted the way he did, the reason is almost always some iteration of, "I wanted to protect you." Which is, in and of itself, it's not totally incorrect, but in my opinion, that answer has always felt a little off, yknow? Because it gives Kim the luxury of time in thinking about his actions and coming up with an excuse to justify his own cruel behavior. It gives him a way out that honestly feels a bit unfair to Chay, so most often it's totally brushed off to the side.

I'm not saying that answer is totally wrong, since I myself have used it in a roundabout way in my own fic, but the way I see it, at that specific moment, Kim's motivations as to why he dodged Chay and pulled away from him had absolutely nothing to do with protecting Chay and everything to do with protecting his own pride.

It's definitely not a calculated move; it's more impulsive than anything else. Lol It's an interesting thing to think about, since a part of me can't help but wonder: is this just a really mean habit he has, or is it because he didn't want Chay's perfect image of him to shatter?

Either way, whether it's part of his personality or all about protecting his image (I'm personality more leaning towards the former, ngl), Chay's wellbeing is not at all taken into consideration in this scene.

As a fan of Kim's character and trying to remain loyal to how he's portrayed in the show, I gotta not give him excuses, yknow? XD Lol

I think part of the reason this scene is so hard to watch for me is because, at the very moment at which Chay had needed Kim the most to explain to him what's going on, although Kim returns his feelings, the latter cared more about his own feelings than he ever did about the person he's in love with.

It comes to a head with their next encounter at the club scene-which is also painful af to watch-because in this moment, they both care more about their own feelings than they do each other, since Chay didn't even stop to think that Kim had just protected him from making a big mistake. And Kim didn't take Chay's feelings into consideration that seeing him would be hard to bear for Chay, considering how their breakup had gone down. :'D

In terms of character development, it's not totally a bad thing. After all, who in the world ever likes being caught red-handed AND called out (in this case, both Kim and Chay to each other)? In the beginning of the show, Porsche had a penchant for calling out Kinn's shit behavior-even when they were both aware that Kinn was already falling for him-and that allowed for the Theerapanyakul of that relationship to learn that if he wanted to be in Porsche's life, if he wanted Porsche to want to be in his life, more than loving him, Kinn also had to learn to respect him.

It's the same theme with both VegasPete and KimChay: there is a difference between loving someone and respecting them.

And for men like Kinn, Kim, and Vegas, can anyone even begin to imagine how difficult it would be to learn to respect someone, when all of them have lived their entire lives up until that point turning their noses down everyone else? That it's second nature for them to think of everyone else as trash?! That to have that sort of arrogance is part of why their family has been able to climb their way to the top?!

(The VegasPete novel makes so much more sense to me now, because Vegas found it so hard to learn to respect Pete that he had to create an entirely different persona for it! LOLOLOL HE HAD TO DISASSOCIATE, BECAUSE HIS ARROGANCE IS SUCH AN INTRINSINCT PART OF HIS PERSONALITY AS A THEERAPANYAKUL! HAHAHAHA! And Pete is all, "my baby is trying his best, so points for effort" Lol)

Kimchay's scenes up until this point have been tender and poignant, but there are moments even in the beginning where although Kim was falling for Chay already, he didn't respect him whatsoever (ignoring his calls, giving him homework without any intention of following up, etc.)

The breakup scene was a jostling reminder to the audience that we cannot ever forget that Kim is a Theerapanyakul, and with that name, comes all the hubris and arrogance that being a member of that family entails. There is credibility to what Pete says when he states that out of all of them, Kinn is the most normal.

In other words, Kinn is the most "normal" because not only does he genuinely care about the wellbeing of the bodyguards in a way the rest of the family doesn't (Tankhun is tactless when he speaks towards them, Vegas uses them as meat shields, and Kim is dismissive and cold towards them, etc), but also because of the softness he genuinely harbors inside, he's more easily able to let go of that arrogance (case in point: the forest adventure with Porsche).

Is it any wonder to Korn WHY the bodyguards can easily be bought off? :'D

(Side note: We know Kim himself is somewhat aware of his own vanity, as he was able to perfectly say the line in the screenshot without hesitation. On top of that, this is a very loaded line; wtf has he done before that he would even be aware of his own reputation?! Haha! I know the established fanon is also that he's bad at playing detective, but I wonder if it's not necessarily that he's bad at intel gathering, and more like he was having an off day with this particular leg of his detective work, since daddy dearest is actively making sure he's a couple steps ahead of his son. Hmm.

In my opinion, it lines up more with Kim's subsequent actions later down the road, and the overarching theme of KPTS (falling in love is in and of itself a humbling experience), as this gorgeous fucker did not at all think about the consequences of his actions. XD

It isn't until Chay has completely cut him off that Kim begins to learn that simply loving him won't be enough-will never be enough-to get him back in his life.

#kimchay #kinnporsche the series #meta post #i'm ranting again #i love these two so much #even if they're hard to think about sometimes

[selineram3421]

In Your Control

Alastor & Mind Controlled Reader

Part 2

Part 1

Warning! ⚠

⚠ mind control in the process, being electrified, blood ⚠

Niffty stood in front of the hotel lobby doors, excited for your return. She asked for you to pick up some books she had on order and couldn't wait to read them!

"Why are you just standing there? You'll get hit by the door if someone comes in.", Husk asks, wiping down the bar counter.

"I'm waiting for Alastor's friend to come back!", the little demon says and starts bouncing in place.

The cat demon huffs and leaves it alone.

Hours pass and you still haven't got back, making both demons start to worry.

Niffty looks back to Husk but then there's a knock on the door.

"I've got it!", she says and opens the door, seeing a tall goat demon with a package.

"Uh, says for the Radio Demon.", they say and hand over the box, leaving quickly.

The cyclops takes the box and closes the door, bringing it over to the bar. Husk takes it and places the cardboard box on the counter, cutting the tape with a claw.

"Think he got some voodoo shit?", he asks.

"Alastor doesn't order things, he goes out to get whatever it is!", Niffty says.

They open the box and see books with a note, along with your ring.

Husk glares at the note for a few seconds before picking it out of the box, opening the folded paper.

"Forgot something."

That's all the note says.

.

It hurts. It hurts so much.

Every time you tried to fight Vox's mind control you'd get shocked repeatedly until you stopped.

Slowly, you were losing the fight. It felt like someone was forcing in pieces of glass into a wound, scratching at your brain. The headache got worse, the blood vessels pounding and making it feel like your head was going to explode.

"Stop fighting it~ You're just hurting yourself now.", Vox said smiling.

The bastard was enjoying your pain.

"F-fuck you.", you stuttered, tears going down your face.

He sighs boredly and presses the remote again.

You scream as if you've gone mad, the electricity not helping with your headache.

"You know, I don't want to keep doing this.", the T.V. Overlard says over your screams. "Oh, who am I kidding? This is the most fun I've had this week! Hahahaha!"

Your head falls limp.

Noticing this, Vox stops the volts and walks over to your tied up form.

"Done already?", he questions with a frown, leaning closer.

You jump up and head bud his screen, hearing a crack.

"You fucking little-!", he staggers back and presses at the remote.

"RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!", you cry, glaring right at him.

Vox wears a crazed grin.

"I'm going to have fun breaking you."

Just you wait Alastor. Your little friend is going to be completely broken.

His grin widens when your tears turn red.

By my hand or yours.

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"Niffty, where are they?", Alastor asks.

He's looked around the whole hotel but you're no where to be seen.

"I don't know but they shipped a box to the hotel and it had a note!", the little demon says and shows him the note.

Taking the note, Alastor examines it. Turning it on the other side he sees a poorly drawn t.v. with a V shaped antenna on top.

"￦h€n d¡d +Hi$ aRr/ve?"

Hehe Vox got head budded.

~Seline, the person.

Part 3

Taglist@

@c4rved-pumpk1n @ducky-is-dead-inside @stolas-thebirb

ML for Alastor🎙

ChL for IYC

#x reader #mind control #gn reader #platonic #hazbin alastor #hazbin vox #alastor hazbin hotel #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel vox #alastor #vox #alastor the radio demon #vox overlord #hazbin husk #hazbin hotel niffty #hazbin hotel fanfiction #hazbin hotel #fanfic #the radio demon #alastor & reader

[dzasterdumpterfire]

Heya!! :D

Was wondering if I could get links or a synopsis of your Dust's Lore? Wanna keep The Guy as close to canon as possible

Of course, don't feel obligated or pressured to do it at all! Just whenever, if ever, you feel like doing it :]

HAHAHAHA WHY DID YOU ASK

NOW I'M GOING TO THROW UP ALL THIS LORE AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE ART FOR IT-

fine fine, here ya go; ..

You might know this from the original dust list, But I have 2 Dusts, Quellow and CVDust.

They are connected by lore from one timeline. [Lore go]

Org.Dust is clinically failing. His timeline is empty, no kid to reset, the core has failed. It's been much too long for him to even try escaping to the surface, he's the only monster left after all.

After mourning for one last time, he searched for a place to do the deed and off his existence, finding the core entrance... And the void consuming a part of the bridge.

His timeline is dying, unable to hold itself up against the void... To avoid all the pain and agony of being consumed... He willingly jumps in, hoping maybe- just maybe- he'd be at the end. A resting place...

IF IT WASN'T FOR MEEEEE

[Dzaster struck]

Dust goes through unimaginable pain, as his conscience and soul are ripped from his body, which floats empty in the void...Quellow is born. Just conscious for now, a fragile soul all protected in a sphere of space void matter. He's terrified, he's in pain, but he also..hopes this might be slightly interesting.

The void fills his husked body with left over DT and monster Magic, a replica.. But much much more wild, dangerous.. More Exp driven. He is cast back into the Multiverse. CVDust is created.

Quellow is given a new, comfy form..an empty house in the void.. Desk, bed... A lot of paper and pencils..And most importantly;

A ruby red pen, with a Microsoft ™️ tablet.. Brand New.

(HELP I got all this lore just for A SELF INSERT)

Adobe fresco.

#askquellow #rant #cvsanses #copyverse #I may have a slightly toxic relationship #with my own self insert #HAHAHA #oopsie

[waterfallofspace]

HI!! same anon who asked about vnc here. i feel like your answer is enough of a go-ahead for me to be a bit more unhinged so first of all PLEASE SHARE YOUR VNC THOUGHTS. at some point. you must be the change you want to see in the world and whatnot. ive been on a skk kick but my bimonthly vnc rewatch is my sanitys single saving grace. vanitas is such a pathetic worm and he deserved to get stomped painfully into the ground /aff

also just letting you know that a second season is unlikely bc the anime adapted 55 out of 61 chapter (WHICH ON THE BRIGHT SIDE easy to catch up!!! :"D) the only time ive seen an anime get THAT close is with... bsd. which. well. sure was something. but i doubt theyd go that route with vnc

i have... alot of opinions on the ships. but its ALOT. however i will disclose that vanoe <3 SO JUST KNOW THAT IF YOU DO POST ANYTHING VNC/VANOE RELATED.... there will be at least one person (ME!!) screaming about it FHDJDJSJ

Oh it's completely a go-ahead, I'd love the chance to be deranged about them!!! Gonna stick it under a cut because it's gonna be long ahahaha~ (possible V/anitas no Carte spoilers under cut, so be warned!)

Augh I know, I mean look at this man!!!! He deserves to be wrecked in the most gorgeously affectionate painful whumpening <3 I want to bite him (and we know he'd like it LMAO)

I adore skk and satosugu, but Vanoe will always have such a sweet place in my heart~ gah tragic beloveds (that are at times, not tragic) are my bread and butter.

Yeahhhh, I did hear about thatttt, but I'm still hopeful that after... idk... 5-6 years... we might get more.... I just!!! They can't end it like that!!!! I mean it's an ending I can live with, but god I crave so much more!!!!

Omg if you ever wanna discuss the opinions I'd be so happy to listen!!! I have some opinions about dif ships in there too (Olivier and Roland are In Love and you cannot convince me otherwise).

So I adore Vanitas like I mentioned, but um... Olivier also owns my heart. We don't get enough of him I love him- the way he gets a headache every time Roland is there???? ICONIC OF HIM <333

He's just... he's so gorgeous. He has the aethetics that I adore, and a personality I find intriguing and fun~ Gahhh now I need to rewatch again hahahaha~

(also love Roland but in the same way I love Noe, just lil sweethearts <3 also also Chloé and Jean-Jacques <3 are so precious <3 to me and each other <3 )

Aaaand a little snippet as a 'thank you' and 'congrats' for making it to the end of this way-too-long response, here's a lil taste of what I had headcanoned for Vanoe

Vanitas: Soft, little rapid ones, 'iHh'tchiew! hiH'tchhue!' and he is so. mad about it. Will often try to stifle so no one hears them, orrrr add a yell/growl to try and unsuccessfully make them sound more 'fitting'. Truth is, they fit him better than he'd ever admit~

Noe: Harsh and (fairly) Loud, and it surprises literally everyone, Vanitas most of all (despite hearing it however many times now). Think something like, 'hHRZShh'ieh! ah'yieASHhuh!' You'd think someone this soft-spoken and sweet would have a dainty little sound, but nope~

#waterfallasks #waterfall snzcanons #should be tagging this 'waterfall talks too much' LMAO #can you tell ive been holding thoughts about this in my head for months bc its been MONTHS #genuinely im so happy to talk about them any time like i love them!!!! #im also sorry for how long this was ToT and for the recent spam of ask answering #but god non i love you for asking about them im so!!!!! about them!!!! #i do have more in my lil hc document and i may actually get around to sharing it/writing for them sometime soon #gotta finish a few other projects first (im SOOOO behind on requests im so sorry djsakgl) #and got a lil birthday thing to finish too~ but these are my beloveds and you know what i might need to hc for R and O now too

[residents-of-the-darkforest]

One of Us is a Killer (part 3)

First part: https://www.tumblr.com/residents-of-the-darkforest/738940160410058752/one-of-us-is-a-killer?source=share

Previous: https://www.tumblr.com/residents-of-the-darkforest/739047962939949056/one-of-us-is-a-killer-part-2?source=share

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Going solely on what kin say in Lifegen every six moons, we build a story, and, more importantly, a resident

Please feel free to comment your interpretations of what is happening or your thoughts on the characters!

Who are your suspects so far?

Main character: Burnetshriek -- Lonesome

Mother: Wetfish (deceased) -- Wise

Mom: Beaverspeckle -- Adventurous

Sister: Midgefreckle -- Calm

Brother: Yewstripe -- Strict

Brother: Privetdusk (deceased) -- Ambitious

Mate: Heathertree -- Loving

Daughter: Battumble -- Noisy -> Sneaky

Son: Yarrowpaw (deceased) -- Attention-seeker

Son: Rubblenettle -- Troublesome

Son: Jaggeddusk -- Honest -> Righteous

Son: Coniferkit -- Impulsive -> Fierce

Conifer is 15 moons younger than his older littermates.

Side note: [....] in speech indicates that Burnetshriek has said something.

Bonus side note: orange highlights previously indicated that something was not directed at Burnetshriek or didn't have to do with her. Now, it's for text that is a repeated conversation.

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MOON 78:

Mom: "Did you see Battumble earlier today, Burnetshriek? Oh, StarClan, it was the funniest thing ever! They mistook a twig for a fox and flew, like, five fox-lengths into the air! Hahahaha!"

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Midgefreckle: "Hey, Burnetshriek, are you....are you busy? [...] Listen I...I just need someone to talk to, and you're the only one I can talk to. I'm...Listen. What do you think happens when we leave the living, and we join StarClan? I wonder what that's like. [...] I'm less worried about the pain, and more...Will I be missed by the Clan after I leave? I'm not the most talkative cat in the world, and that makes me worry that I've never made an impact to anyone. [...] Huh? A mouse-brain? [...] You're telling me that I worry too much?.... Yeah, I suppose that's true. It's what I'm good at, I suppose, Getting caught in myself. [...] You'd miss me? Oh, Burnetshriek...thank you. You have no idea how much that means to me. It sometimes feels like you're the only cat who looks for me in a den. [...] ....Yeah, I'll be okay. I'm just in a little funk at the moment. Do you want to go hunting? I think that'd be better than me sitting here feeling sorry for myself."

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Yewstripe: "Get up, Burnetshriek! We gotta go on a special patrol to check the WindClan border! [...] Of course I'm serious, mouse-brain! Are you really gonna make me break it down for you? [...] Birdstar gave me this assignment, and told me to pick the cat in the Clan I trust the most to accompany me on it. Lo and behold, that's you! Now c'mon, lazybones! We've got a long walk ahead of us!"

Permanent Condition: weak leg

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Heathertree: "There are days when I wonder about the purpose of love...But then, I look at you, and I'm reminded."

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Battumble: "Hey, Burnetshriek, my buddy, my pal...Get this, Coniferpaw just asked me to go get more moss for the medicine den. There's this real nice place I like to go out near the edge of the territory, near this beautiful babbling brook...I was just about to leave, but then I figured 'Hey, you know who deserves a little break today? Burnetshriek. She just works so hard.' So, how 'bout it, ma? It's right on the ThunderClan border, these huge swaths of moss, you can't miss it. [...] You'll go? Perfect! Have fun on your walk, and try to enjoy yourself! You deserve it!" [Did Bat just trick Burnet into doing her chores for her?].

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Rubblenettle: "I love you, Burnetshriek. And...I'm sorry if I don't say it enough, either. Without you, I don't know what I'd do."

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Jaggeddusk: [A conversation makes Burnet realize, with a jolt, that Jagged is now old enough to face the enemy Clan in battle. She imagines her little kit torn to shreds at the claws of enemy warriors...Or worse, her baby's maw dripping with blood, forced to take another cat's life in the name of the Clan. She draws closer to Jagged and wrap a protective tail around him, much to his confusion. Burnet silently vows not to have anything bad happen to him, not ever].

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Coniferpaw: "There's too much to do right now. Let's talk later."

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MOON 84:

Mom: "Hey sweetie...You're looking a little small, there. Have you been eating enough? Doing the excercises I gave you? [...] You know, you might think that the shoulders are the most important muscle, but it's all in the hindquarters. You're gonna wanna do at least five sets of leg lifts every day then..." [Beaverspeckle begins to describe her workout routine in detail....."And that's all there is to it! It might seem excessive, but I swear, it all pays off in the end."

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Midgefreckle: "Oh, Burnetshriek, are you busy? [...] I...was going on a hunting patrol, and I was wondering if you wanted to come with me? [...] Huh? No, I don't mean 'pretend to go hunt so I can go birdwatching'....well. Not for the whole hunt. [...] Hehe, okay then, we'll go actual hunting then, I'll only do a bit of birdwatching."

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Yewstripe: [Burnet asks Yew if the rumours about them and Mouseshadow are true]. "What? Me and Mouseshadow? C'mon, don't be ridiculous! Why would I ever like Mouseshadow? Sure, I guess they're kind of pretty, and--and smart, and they make me laugh like no one else can...Not to mention talented...and hardworking....and their smile, great StarClan, there's nothing else like it....But--But it's not like I like them, or anything!"

Permanent Condition: weak leg

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Heathertree: "Sorry, Burnetshriek! No time to talk right now, I just got a task from Mouseshadow. I'll be sure to catch up with you some other time, though!"

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Battumble: "Hey, Burnetshriek, what was that one story you used to tell us in the nursery? The one about the kit who went missing about not eating all their fresh-kill?" [Burnet retells the story]. "Ah, yes, that's the one! StarClan, it was driving me crazy, not remembering...Kind of a messed up story, no?" [Burnet concedes that maybe it was a little morbid]. "But, hey, I guess I've always cleaned my bones since then."

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Rubblenettle: "Burnetshriek! Burnetshriek! Ever try balancing a pinecone on your nose? [...] Watch the master at work. [Rubble balances a pinecone]. Now you try!"

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Jaggeddusk: "Good morning, Burnetshriek, how are you today? Did you hear that rain on the den roof last night? [...] It was really loud, it sounded like hundreds of tiny paws slamming on the roof up there. I wonder if StarClan came to visit us, in the form of the rain?"

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Coniferpaw: "Hey. Bet I could beat ya in a fight! [...] Sure, I have no formal training, but once I let my inner dark warriors out..." [Conifer does an exaggerated growl, and he and Burnet both explode in laughter]. "y-you're lucky I'm a lover, not a fighter! *wheeze*!"

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Yarrowkit (daughter, 0 moons): Grr

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Tallkit (son, 0 moons): MROOW!

#one of us is a killer #long post

[tophat-cy]

It's that time of the year again, huh?

Hello everyone! Here is TopHat_Cy with probably the last Tumblr post of this year. Since 2023 is coming to a close, I'll just put down a little summary of the experiences I had this year. Let's get started ^v^ ✨💗!

⚠️CW/TW since there may possibly be some ranting and/or venting at some points⚠️

To be honest here, 2023 was pretty rough, and I'm not talking about that I had the baccalaureate in June, oh no. I was honestly waiting for that time so I can just do myself after that, right after I supported 4 years in that hellpit people called it high-school (or pedagogic college...whatever 🙄), just to get like over 3 months later on a worse hellpit called college, where all my personal issues has awakened...and felt horrible and lonelier like I've never been.

Despite being in overall horrible, high-school was great because mostly because I wasn't feeling the loneliness and self misery I feel now. Now that I'm at college I get almost hit daily by the fact that 1) I'm lonely and I'll always remain lonely (since who tf wants a little antisocial freak who literally draws all day lmao??) 2) I'm worthless, mostly because my French skills (at least) suck, and a good amount of my marks suck as well in comparison with other students (and honestly I wouldn't be bothered that much about this fact if it wasn't for my mom who haves the great habit to remind me by times to make sure I take big marks only to get the scholarship, hahahaha shut up bitch), which guess what, it makes me feel ✨horrible✨, and 3) Your life is a pure lie. This is sooooooooooo great isn't it :D ??!

*sigh*

I realized within my current college experience that I'm lonely not only in society, but with my own mom. I realized I'm even more of a worst daughter than I ever thought...I realized that I'm getting more horrible as the time goes by, or at least this is how I feel. I feel like losing myself slowly, becoming into nothing but a setinent shell of the former self. With those realizations, I'm getting hit in the face once again by the most saddest fact that I've encountered so far in my life but I always tend to forget it to make myself feel better (but you know how life is...it needs to offer you some lemons in the eyes 👁️👁️)...

...the fact that my life is nothing but a pure LIE.

But hey! Can we look into the bright side of what this year offered for some hot minutes?? It's not all black and misery! I had part of wonderful and fun times with my boyfriend (we did Whiteboards and rambled about our silly stuff like two neurodivergents that we are 😁✨), I had part of several fanart moments from people, I had Art Fight (yeaaaaah, our old pal Art Fight, which kinda started to become a pain in the ass every year when I have to bring my REFs up to date for this event...mmmmmmm 😊/pure af hot sarcasm, but honestly here, do I really care :D ???), I even joined my first Original Characters Tournament, Ressurection, in which I met wonderful people which appreciate my skills and also willing to help and support. And most importantly, I had YOU! All of you! If it wasn't for you guys, I definitely wouldn't been here, sharing this thoughts with YOU. And I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, once again ❤️!

As a mini conclusion to all of this speech, I'll admit that this year was still decent so far, with all it's ups and downs, along with the fact that I'm returning myself at being genderfluid (hence the Pic at the very beginning of the post lmao :')) )

The latest events from this year at least made me think that being feminine related makes me feel worthless about myself, and I don't want to feel like that anymore. I want to be strong at its full and I want to feel and be free with who I am. I'm not the most social person, yes. I'm far off from being a great daughter, yes of course, and I'm definitely far from being the best person out alive, or at least a great one. But at least I want to do something about it, so I can have the right to say that I tried my best for real.

So, that's it. I'm genderfluid. I go by he/they/cee from now on (although cee/ceer pronouns are most likely optional, like if you want to use them, go ahead, although I'll still be ok if you used the he/they ones, just don't refer to me with she/her or any fem aligned pronouns).

🌙⭐Plans for 2024⭐🌙

(aka my favorite part from this post so far 🤓)

Just like everyone else, I have prepared some future plans for the next year and which I'd like to share with you. Here they are!

I want to make EITHER an OCT or a world-building RP server somewhere around February-March or later (I would've done it sooner, but I have to prepare for the exam session in January). The OCT thing may take a while though since I want it to be good, so this plan might get extended for 2025 as well. As for the world-building RP thing, with some effort, it could be done next year.

Returning on developing some miscellaneous projects - those being Insanity AU and a somewhat game-like concept that my boyfriend made plans about it in this year and which I'd like to develop on. Insanity AU is a thing that I've made with dustyisegg back in 2022 but discontinued it for 9 months due to [DATA EXPUNGED] and resumed it's development, by remaking the characters and their plot entirely. (Dusty if you see this tell me if you still want to work on this, yeah yeah I'm a huge procrastinator lawl 👾✨)

JToH, JToH, JToH projects - my dear and beloved JToH...(I've been in this Fandom for almost 3 years...more than I've been in the Doll Eye one, can you believe that?). Most of those projects will consist on simply designing new towerhumans, respectively redesigning the old ones. Along with that I have a comic project which I will start making it's script soon enough, other side projects that I have in my mind...and JToHVerse, which I don't know when it's that going to be started (earliest date will apparently be around 2025, but let's see how the comic project goes 🤷🏻‍♀️)

Putting some content in Toyhouse - a thing that I should worry about eventually ;v;

GET YOUR ARTFIGHT SPIRIT BACK PSYCHE 😩!!!

The last but not the least...To start developing at least one of my original storylines FOR FUCK'S SAKE 😂😂😂!!!!!! I've been waiting for this for years already hajshshdvbssb :')) I'm not sure which of them is going to come out tho. Definitely not PK though, that one will most likely get an extend to next year.

So...I guess that's it??

I'm going to assure you with two things before I finish. First of them is that, again I think, I'm fine. I'm not upset or anything. I had hard times like everyone else (maybe) this year and I had to left it out somehow. But in rest everything is alright, so don't worry about me. I will keep existing for you and for what I love ^v^.

The second thing that I will say is about this blog. Starting with January 1st, I do not allow anyone below the age of 15 to interact. I have an age now, and at this point I want to entertain people, not to babysit them. So don't get upset if you possibly get blocked, that would be one of the reasons (I hope to remember to unblock you after you get the age hhgjgjfjf 😅)

That's it guys! If you read til here, thank you very much for the attention and time spent on reading this. Hope everyone haves a wonderful 2024 and nice days! See ya around 💗💗💗!

#blog #blog post #2023 summary #damn this shit is looooooooooooooong #haha 😅 #cw : ranting #cw : vent #tumblr post #2023

[polarisbibliotheque]

Sorry, I saw one post and a half of yours and I'm already a fan.

I still have to scroll down your blog to see more about you, but I saw that two-post-long answer you made for an anon ask (btw, you have such poetic vibes :D your style made me smile, seriously) and I couldn't holf myself to ask:

Hm, have you ever heard of... I mean, "whump"?

If yes, what are your thouhts on it?

(you don't need to answer this, specially if it makes you unconfortable in any ways or anything else XD)

However, I hope you have a wonderful day/noon/afternoon/evening/night(?) !

Hello hello!! First things first, sorry for taking SO LONG to answer, I had a ton of health issues the last couple of months >.<

Secondly, thank you SO MUCH for being so kind!! I saw all your reblogs of that huge answer for such a tiny thing I did and thank you. I'm really happy you like my style too, that makes me smile!

Now now, about your question on whump, I'm gonna be very honest, I had to Google it to make sure we're on the same page HAHAHAHAHAHA

Jokes aside, I know it's sort of a term for hurt/comfort fanfiction - but it's not really clear to me if it's a kink thing or not.

Because you see, if you're talking about hurt and comfort, I mean, that's basically what I write HAHAHAHA writing for the Devil May Cry fandom, inevitably someone will be hurt/tortured/mentally abused somehow.

Or impaled. A lot.

(I mean, that's all this bitch has done for the past 5 games)

And also there's the whole thing with Vergil, his twin brother, being kept as a slave in Hell for 20(?) years and coming back after dragging his crumbling body out of there to find out he has a son and being the peak of cluelessness in the Universe - and me being adamant he deserves love after all that.

So I guess everything I write has a LOT of hurt - and I even put some serious warnings before the fics, 'cause everyone is traumatized in this household - but despite of that, they still can find love, happiness and somewhat soothe all that pain and trauma.

(dramatic, real, horrible, but stil comforting xD)

As a kink, though, I don't enjoy it - and I also don't enjoy putting characters I love through pain and suffering just because. That's why I have a love/hate relationship with horror media: I LOVE horror, but I HATE exploitation.

Movies that have just people being abused, hurt, dismembered and all that kind of horrible stuff happening just because without a real reason to be on the plot - meaning, torture porn - just make my blood boil. And there's a lot of that in horror.

I like when things are more psychological and actually have a REASON to be there. So, in my writing, I'll never torture a character just for the pleasure of doing so and for the pleasure of the reader, I need a point out of it.

For instance, on my cyberpunk-style story, both main characters have gone through a terrible experience together and lost someone who was really dear to them. Both of them went through a lot of physical pain, lost some limbs and needed to install cyberprosthesis, and lost everything they had worked for til that point in their lives.

Horrible, yes. But they had to go through it so I could start the story: because of all of this, the guy made an anarchist/terrorist group and just wants to burn down the city along with the people in power who allowed all that to happen to him, while the woman becomes the best killer for hire so she can get enough money to live and, eventually, retire.

All that physical and psychological pain is a very important plot point and I can't take it away from the story, or else there's no story to begin with. Meanwhile, every time I'm writing I'm thinking "how can I make this as unpleasant as I can so the reader can understand the crushing feeling of all of this?" hahahahaha

That's why I'm not into pain kink - I respect everyone who is, but I can't do it, I feel no pleasure from it.

That's my opinion, I think. For pleasure's sake, I don't like it, but for plot, I really like it. I think it has a hopeful note to it - that even after the storm, the days will shine bright again, you just have to go on. That's what I enjoy from writing things like this, the hope.

Who would've known, I'm not 100% a bitter bitch hahaha

Reading my personal original stories, I think all of them have a painful background and many unpleasant scenes. But I like it, because it's human nature and how life is: bad things will happen, we can just try to make the good ones count even more :)

I hope that was a good answer to your question hahahaha

Thank you once again, and I hope you have a lovely week ahead!! Feel free to spend some time around and ask things if you'd like! ^^

#polaris speaks #polaris answers #answered asks #asks #asks and replies #I hope I managed to explain how my thought process works regarding whump hahahaha #I mean everything I write is painful as hell #that's why I always put thousands of disclaimers around HAHAHA #but there's something of poetic about finding peace and love after so much pain #that scene where Sam monologues at Frodo that WHEN THE SUN SHINES #IT'LL SHINE EVEN BRIGHTER #and they are all dirty in the middle of the war with people dying to wraiths and Frodo just SO fraking tired while crying #and Sam grabs him by his shoulders and reminds him there's something to fight for #for all the good in the world and strawberries with cream in the summer #I LIVE FOR THIS

[burnwithtears]

Not the same anon from before but, here are my worries tell me yours if you wish haha let's go midway together: Here is the deal 1) The director loves to cut scenes as if this was a craft and film different finales 2) He is definitely seeing the amount of buzz the love triangle getting 3) I think there is a 99% chance Ej is staying at school like Sharpay did 4) This match with the reviewer saying she doesn't want R&G together at the end of the season = love triangle still strong in season 4 D:

Hi anon!!!!! I feel your pain �� Even though this season has been great for us, the fear of them just tossing Rina aside will always remain. I call it trauma after season 2 HAHAHAHA

But listen, i feel like we already won? Not like, "win the ship war" kind of way, because who knows what might happen if they get 5, 7 seasons, but win like "there's a reason why we ship them together and this season is making it clear", because it's irrefutable that Gina and Ricky had/still have feelings for each other. Never in my wildest dreams i thought they would bring Rina back full force this season. And here we are!!! Because those feelings were never resolved, they never talked about it, they have the worst timing in the whole world and that's what angsty slow burn feels like!!! Everything us rinas talked about when season 2 was airing proved to be true. And that's such a relief, honestly.

Now, I personally don't think EJ staying on East High as Miss Jenn's assistant is a "loser” plotline, because I feel like he needs to figure out what he likes to do and the Frozen production might help him with it. But i do think it's weird in a shipping context, because there will be a clear power imbalance between him and Gina (we could argue that currently him being the director already solidifies this power imbalance, but they're both at summer camp, not really at school, so I'm willing to make an exception here). So to me it makes sense that PW breaks up this season. It doesn't have to be dramatic, they can reach a mutual understanding that neither of them is providing what the other truly needs, and that's okay, it happens.

Now, after a possible break-up scenario, what I think the reviewer is saying is that she doesn't want Gina to break-up with EJ to start dating Ricky, so naturally, since this season is so short, Rina should only get together in season 4. If that's the case, i agree with her. I said in a previous ask that Rina's main obstacle is getting together, so season 4 can build them slowly and nicely. And it creates a parallel, right? Season 1 = meet cute + first obstacle; season 2 = Gina pining, Ricky in a relationship; season 3 = Ricky pining, Gina in a relationship; season 4 = mutual pining, both of them walking in the same direction. Poetic??!??!??!

I hope this answer comforts you at least a bit. The fear remains, but we can be hopeful! We're not being delusional at all; the show is giving us hint after hint, and not in a subtle way anymore, so we might as well enjoy the ride ☺️✨

#hsmtmts #ricky x gina #rina #ricky bowen #gina porter #sorry for the misspelling mistakes im writing this during my break

[scoups4lyfe]

SCOUPS BAAAAACK *tackle hugs Scoup*

MY COMRADE IN ARMSSSSSSSSSSS

HAHAHAHA I **AM** back >:D

I feel great. (Ironically LOL)

☆⌒(ゝ。∂)

Update wise:

My psychiatrist upped my mood stabilizer dosage.

I was taking 50mg,,,, now I"m taking 100mg,,, and this Saturday It'll be upped to 200mg. (Wild.)

Hmmm. When I first started the 100mg --11 days ago-- I fell out of my manic episode like a jester falling down a steep cliff. (ghjnsdkghgsf)

And by that I mean I lost all of my emotions LOL!

......:D Calling it depression feels wrong. Like, I couldn't feel anything. Not sad, not depressed, just nothing 😛. It was to the point that I did exactly what I was NOT supposed to do and started drinking caffeine (which I never drink) just to feel alive.

I mean,,,,, it WORKED (LOL). But the moment it ran out, like a snap of the finger, BOOM. Immediately empty. The kind of empty where you can't even fake a smile. Honestly-- I felt like an empty glass cup more than a human.

This last for about 5 days, then I started to normalize and have felt normal (ish) since then. But while my mental health was stabilizing my physical health said:

So at like 7 PM today I went to the ER (as one does) and got home maybe 2 hours ago (it's like 4:30 AM rn); and apparently I have a kidney infection and what not.

The reason why I went to the ER: Eating 2 spoons of rice made my stomach feel like I had eaten burning knives. I ate 3/7th's a banana like ....6 hours later (mind you this is ALL I had to eat today, and I'm being literal about the 2 spoonfuls of rice) and the banana made me feel like my stomach was gonna implode or something. So I was like 'well well well. So it's come to this.'

(The stomach pain has been for like weeks LOL. I gaslight myself into thinking I'm bonkers and then it's like 'do I want a $20,000 hospital bill, for nothing?' 😛)

Took some medication for it (the infection) and I feel...fking fantastic rn >:].

Med wise --as I said above; this Saturday my dosage get's upped to 200 MG. And I have absolutely no fkin idea how this will affect me.

IDK if I'll become an empty shell again; or if it'll repeat what happened last time

(when I took 25 mg it did this same thing; but when I took 50 MG like...literally went manic LOL.)

Which means my 3 options Saturday onward:

Nothing happens. My mood is stable. I'm normal and human.

I tank and lose all my emotions and ability to feel anything.

I go manic (and at 200 MG????? dawg I'd just become literally not even on earth anymore).

Like if I wanted to eat / lick book pages when I was manic during my 50 mg arc,,,, wtf would 200 MG do to me if I went manic????? Lortd.

LONG a$$ recap. But yeah. Now that I'm being treated for my physical whatever-the-fvck; guess it's just on what these mood stabilizers do to me.

Either way I'd love to go stupid and crazy live-blogging again >:]]

#that and my older sis DID get into another serious car accident #with all the kids this time #got T-boned by someone going 70 MPH #AND the car hit the kids side. #No one got too badly injured. My niece had to be taken in an ambulance #just had a cut on her face (and half of her face bruised) ;'( #my thougts #fvcking moodswings ⚡️✌️ #bipolar disorder #a scoup of life 🔫🦆 #neurodiversity #manic depression #man my life literally sounds insane LMAO #but yeah all this happened. crazy my niece and nephews aren't badly injured #literally my nephew's car seat unattached from the thing and flew through the car....but he was fine (thank fvck) #kongu 992 #asks

[pricescigar]

Soap x OC angst prompt by me?

*in their childhood*

Scarlet, as a hero: Pew pew pew, I'm gonna shoot you!

Soap, as an enemy: Don't you dare, cause I'll destroy the world anyway!

Scarlet: That's it! You're gonna die! *takes out her Nerf gun and aims it at Soap*

Soap: Rawwwr!

Scarlet, shoots the Nerf gun at Soap, as he pretends to be shot and passes out:

Scarlet: Hahahaha! Got you, got you! The day is saved, thanks to Soldier Scarly!

Scarlet, runs towards Soap: Hey, I won, you can open your eyes.

Soap, doesn't say anything:

Scarlet: .. John?

Soap, still is laid on the ground, passed out:

Scarlet: Hey, cut it out. I know you ain't dead.

Soap, opens his one eye and looks at Scarlet: Of course I ain't dead, muppet.

Scarlet: Hey, don't you d— GAH!

Soap, who dragged Scarlet down the ground, and made her lay on the grassy area as they laugh and giggle:

Scarlet: You can never die, even if someone shoots you, eh?

Soap: I'm invincible.

Scarlet: Hahaha, invincible, eh? Like an iron?

Soap, looks at the sky: Yeah, no one can mess with me, anyway.

Scarlet, looks at him and smiles, but soon, the smile died down when now she sees Soap, all grown up but on the hospital bed, looking lifeless because of the attack at Hotel Lustig. She is completely devastated, and is crying her eyes out in pure pain and sorrow:

Scarlet, silently: Please.. you're.. you cannot die right? Open your eyes.. p-please..

I'M SORRY I CRIED—

NOW I'M CRYING TOO 😭😭��

#brooke answers #soap and scarlet

[myonlinejournal2020]

How the year 2023 ends.

The days goes really fast, and now I am at the end of another year there are things that happen so quickly. I found a job, I don't know if its really for me but then I am greatful. I ended my 4 years relationship and now we haven't talk for a month, I'm sad that things happened that way but maybe that is all we need. I just want things to be good but of course there is always a challenges thata will rise later on. I just hope that I can still carry it to the fullest. I am wrong at some point in our relationship and I know that it is not easy for both of us. Here I am still in pain but days are getting better and I know I will be fine. I hope that we both have a wonderful 2024.

This is year will be the turning point for every one, and I hope that the turning point in me will be great as I have been under the dark clouds for many years, I just want to breathe without thinking negative. All I want is days that will bring bad good things. I somehow felt that there is always holding me back and there are days that I am not my regular self. I know things will be worth it later I just need to do the hard things first.

I met 12 new people and it is amazing up to this date, because they are all good, I am greatful that I met them. They teach me new things and of course my naive personality is so bad. Anyway there is something happen that the table turns now. And I know that it is all for the best. I don't know what will be our 2024 I'm praying that it will bring prosper and new friendship.

About my heart? It is still healing, and moving on. I keep moving forward, though some days I hope that he will be my last, but not anymore, I just want my heart to find a better one that will see through in my eyes the kind of pain that I don't want to experience again and he will be careful touching it. I just realize that I am so stupid when it comes to love. Why I said it? Because I'm loyal like a dog. I experienced abandonment from my EX and it feels like someone scoop and some part of me was taken away.

Yeah, I admit. I like someone now, and I keep thinking of him everyday like crazy. When I open my eyes in the morning, in the middle of the day until I fell asleep, he is the only one I'm thinking. I don't know anything much about him, just a little bit and I am happy that I can see him after his visit last April 2023.

I first saw him April 2023 and I find him cute. Sure he is smart to know who to trust he should at least say something. Then the next one is on June 2023 the training in Thailand. Yeah I had a chance to travel abroad, that is crazy. Then the last one is on November 2023, he only stays for a week and I am so happy to see him. Well the thing is, he always looked at me and I do the same thing. The two of us have a little time, and also quick moments but I always remember that, I don't know if he likes me or not. Or maybe he just watching me if I'm doing my job, I know at some point I disappointed him, I don't want to assume but maybe that time he is. Then he always touch my shoulder when he walk at my back. He is older than me, isn't that good? I like a man that is older than me. He always treat us lunch. And one time he is checking something on my desktop and his hand in resting on my cahir so I can't turn around and just stay still. I like him, and him around I always found myself smilling even more.

But I am hoping next year will be good, while I'm healing my heart, and fixing myself. I will be waiting until he comes and confess. Hahahaha... I will not do anything without a receipt. I like him but I can't chase him around he is too busy. I hope I will be the best gift he ever receive next time :D.

I like you my warrior.

I need my 2024 with prosperity and love.

December 26, 2023

15:46 (Tuesday)

[suffering-with-fiery]

Rune translations and Bottom theories (I did my best!) (: It's long! I mean REALLY REALLY REALLY LONG!!!! You've been warned. (Potential TWs below the cut) yeah Hyoga doesn't have a good time here.

I should probably start calling Hyoga "Hyouga" instead since I'm pretty sure it's spelled with a 'U'... but I probably won't. Apologies.

Bottom English translation by Tackmyn Y! (I can't speak Japanese, again, apologies, though I was able to make my own version of Autophagy)

Potential TWs (I dont want to harm anyone by going on this rant): Autophagy (medical terms), nightmares, demons tormenting a guy, Hyoga being unhealthy in more ways than one, mentions of death/murder, self esteem issues, mentions of destructive behavior, manipulation, violence.

Yeah, my boy Hyoga ain't having a good time in this theory.

I feel the need to clarify that this is all speculation. So uh. Everything here is just what I've been thinking about since I hopped into this rabbit hole.

Sinfan (I'm not sure what order they go in, it's quite hard to tell):

["Death"

"I"

"Revive"

"Spirit"

"I"

"Something with shape"]

I'm not fully sure what "something with shape" means, but there's a possibility that Sinfan could be referring to Hyoga, (a doll/wax figure) or maybe that Sinfan needs something with a shape to be able to exist. Sinfan could need a vessel to stay on the mortal plain and go undetected while staying alive.

Sinfan needs a vessel. And with that thought, it launches into indecipherable theory crafting.

Hyoga summoned Sinfan when he was 12 years old. Thinking he found a vessel, he called upon Pabometh, another grey demon, to help torment Hyoga so the two could get their wish.

Hyoga, at the time, is young, dumb and susceptible to manipulation, meaning it could be easy for Sinfan to grasp the situation with an iron grip which follows Hyoga into adulthood.

"Revival" could also be referring to "Rebirth," symbolized by a butterfly. It could also mean that Sinfan/Pabo has the powers to revive people. Maybe as a last resort if they need it.

In Hiiragi Kirai's album trailer on Youtube, Hyoga shows up in a scene with 'D' and 'B' in calligraphy on each cheek. They could mean "Death" and "Birth" respectively.

Lines from Autophagy:

"I just wants a peaceful life." Likely means Hyoga wants the demons gone so he can live how he wants to. (Who wouldn't?)

"The voice inside my head? Huh... how odd." Also implies that the demons are still with him.

"My body pulses, memories from my past bringing pain." Means that in Autophagy, Hyoga remembers his past, but it hurts him.

""You can't avoid it in life, so it's best to just deal with it." You say, but you dont seem bothered." Is most likely Sinfan talking to Hyoga. It could also mean that Hyoga can't avoid the demons, so he should just deal with it.

"I can't stop now, so pretend nothing happened!" Could be Hyoga trying to ignore the demons, or maybe he did something he shouldn't have. (Always knew those were prison tattoos...)

"I want to wash my skull out! I want to say bye bye! But yet I didn't do it..." Could mean that the demons are still with him in Autophagy and likely still tormenting him.

"I won't stop, I can't look back." Might mean Hyoga is trying to move on, but with the demons still in his head, he can't, so the "Let me forget!" after the instrument solo might be him wishing that he never remembered in the first place and trying to get the demons to take them away again.

"Just stay away from me!" Could be Hyoga distancing himself from everyone he knows, or trying to get the demons to go away.

"Hello! HAHAHAHA Hello! HAHAHAHAHA!" Might be Hyoga as he slowly loses his remaining sanity due to constant tormenting and pressure from the demons.

"A A A A- 'Allo/Allow/Arrow" could all imply different things, so I'll give a short on all of them.

"'Allo!" Is just an abbreviation of "Hello."

"Arrow!" -According to a quick google search- is a common symbolism for peace and philosophical ideas, and used for protection and hunting. It could mean that Hyoga just wants peace and quiet, which is enforced by "I just want a peaceful life." in the beginning.

"Allow!" Could mean that the demons are trying even harder to bend him to their will and take him over as a vessel. They want Hyoga to allow them to posses him so they can do whatever they please.

Pabo only has 2 that I can see:

["Nightmare"

"Save (?)ime"]

It might be "time" but I couldn't make out the rune symbol there.

"Nightmare" hardens my thought that Bottom is just a massive nightmare set up by the demons to torment Hyoga, that the song is sung from the perspective of one of the demons (likely Pabo), and that Young Hyoga(tm) in the video is Pabometh playing the part of his repressed/forgotten memories.

This is all assuming the song is, infact, sung by the demons.

Lines from Bottom:

"You're keeping me alive! Today, today, you're killing me!" Could go both ways (Pabo/Sinfan and Hyoga) For Pabo it could just be another variation of the next line I'm about to talk about.

For Hyoga it could mean that he wouldn't be able to function if he didn't have the demons (Sinfan might posses him to make him fit in so nobody notices, keep him from dying from mortal wounds, and he's lived with them so long he might not know what to do without them), but with them he's slowly tearing himself apart from the inside out due to their constant tormenting. Metaphorically or literally is anyone's guess at the moment.

"Autophagy" (his songs name) is a medical term for "self eat" which normally happens when your body is starved, so it eats it's own cells to survive as long as it can. It can also correlate to certain diseases. Autophagy in these terms might also be referring to emotions. It's possible he's been stewing in any sort of negative emotions to cause such effects. (I.E: Guilt, fear, self worth issues,) which could make his resolve weaker, making it easier for Pabo and Sinfan to torment him/possess him. The longer it goes on, the closer he could be to self destructing.

"A wax figure/a doll is keeping me alive/killing me." Is more related to the demons in my eyes. "Wax figure/a doll" is likely referring to Hyoga. Hyoga could be their only tie to the mortal realm, (Sinfan being more prominent because he was summoned first, and by Hyoga himself.)

It could also mean that they need to inhabit his mind/body in order to survive and make it easier to torment Hyoga. If they both are in Hyoga's mind 24/7 while he suffers from nightmares (which cause lack of sleep, keeping his body in a perpetually weak state), no self worth, and a fragile mental state ("I wanna keep you out of my fragile mind!") while he tears himself apart, it would mean it would be harder to stay with him without something happening.

Due to that, it's likely that the very thing keeping them alive and in the mortal realm is also killing them at the same time.

It may be worth mentioning that a line in Bottom is "You think you're a god to me?" while 9lore translated Rinen's (Möbius') tattoo on his chest, which reads "Be still and know that I am god." It could a a coincidence, but I thought I'd mention it just in case (:

Throughout the entire song the demons are mocking and belittling Hyoga. (I.E: "Defying all logic, you're nothing but evil." "You're so stupid! You scumbag, scumbag, scumbag!") Most of the angry rant type of thing happens when Young Hyoga (tm) is on-screen. (It could be a tactic to make Hyoga not want to remember/manipulate his memories/tear down his resolve even more/or just plain upset him.)

"I mean, who, who, who are you?" It's been made clear that for the longest time (according to WOOMA) Hyoga didn't even remember his own name. "Who are you?" might be Pabo trying to get into Hyoga's head and make him question his own sanity.

"What the hell are you to me?" Implies that Pabo also want Hyoga to question why Pabo is here. Sinfan was summoned by Hyoga, but Pabometh was likely summoned by Sinfan to help tear down Hyoga. That means the two don't have much history, and Hyoga most likely doesn't know why Pabo is here for awhile.

It's "you to me" instead of "me to you" so Pabo could also be trying to get Hyoga to try and notice him in a positive way so that the nightmares stop. I'll expand on that some more a few (a lot) of paragraphs down.

"Inside my heart is- such a rage! Such a rage! So I'll grab you, grasp you, and crush you flat!" Is a line I find interesting. It also leads directing into another line; "The symptom of the unforgettable emotion is my burning intent to murder, which is absolutely right." Pabo would likely be talking about Hyoga, which implies that if he could, Pabo would murder Hyoga himself, but since the "wax figure" is needed to keep both him and his accomplice, Sinfan, alive, he can't.

It also implies that Pabo is extremely angry with Hyoga, for a reason I can't particularly pinpoint, except maybe for the fact that Hyoga's becoming more and more unstable and not safe for Pabo and Sinfan. The only problem is, it's Pabo and Sinfans fault he's like that. They're the ones that chose Hyoga as a vessel while simultaneously destroying him.

However, it's possible that Pabo's aim was to devoid Hyoga of anything and everything, (I.E: memories, emotions, etc. etc.) so that he was just that: a vessel. But with Hyoga being so destructive to himself, the whole plan could have gone awry and Pabo's only thought was how furious he was at Hyoga for messing up his chance to be in the mortal realm undetected for good, meaning he wishes he could destroy Hyoga and just get it over with so him and Sinfan could wait until someone else summoned them so they could take advantage of that.

""How deplorable you are! How deplorable you are!"" Is a line that has a chance of Hyoga himself having said it due to it having quotes on it. It also implies that he he could be fighting back, so his resolve might not crushed completely. However, a show of strength like that would likely just enrage Pabometh even more than he already is. It also doesn't help the positive impression he wants Pabo to have of him.

"You're involving yourself with me again like a clingy, clingy neighbor!" Sounds like Pabo, again, insulting Hyoga. If we go off of another part of this fever dream I've cooked up, (Hyoga not knowing what to do without the demons, but with them destroying himself), sounds like Pabo doesn't want to be with Hyoga anymore, going as far as hating him so much he's festering in it.

The "again" makes it sound like Hyoga's tried to communicate with them more than once, being unsuccessful each time. Hyoga could be trying to latch onto them, either to take them down with him or trying to get the nightmares to stop. Like I said, for a while Hyoga could have been trying to get positive attention and make Pabo like him.

"The low-end is going to manipulate me." Could be Pabo addressing that he knows what Hyoga was trying to do and calling him out for it.

"Brimming with momentary anger, rot away quickly, quickly, quickly!" Again, Pabo is talking about his burning hatred for Hyoga.

"I'm always losing! How, how dare you!" Implies that even with all the nightmares and torment, Hyoga has just enough willpower to keep Pabo from getting his wish, angering him even more.

And finally, a line from Autophagy:

"Oh, rise seeds of evil, bursting with malice!" Might be Hyoga finally giving into the demons and becoming their vessel if they take away his painful memories and stop hurting him.

Pentagram:

["-r Guide(A) N(?)E A(?)R"

"The ability to know wh-"

"Grant me the power to be strong in spirit-"

"Grant me the wisdom to understand-"]

With it over Pabo, it's possible that this was the one that summoned Pabo instead of Sinfan, although with it also under Hyoga, it could be Sinfan's. Who knows, it might also be boths.

In the ending scene with the pentagram, the colors of the other songs are visible, meaning that it's possible all of them are connected.

(I could go on for hours about the small loopholes that I think mean all the songs are connected in specific ways. Either way I know they're all from the same universe.)

With all their colors on it, it might mean they all have a demon of their own.

I'm still working slightly on the pentagram, I'll probably keep ya updated if I can find out what the rest of it says (:

If anyone can find the full version (preferably readable) of the pentagram, that'd be lovely (if it even exists)

(If you find more runes in "Bottom" or another Hiiragi song I'd be happy to see if I can translate it (: I'm not very good though, and I can't speak Japanese-)

English translation of Bottom used by: Tackmyn Y (I don't know where you are but you're a lifesaver)

Find any spelling errors, let me know! I'll see if I can fix 'em (:

If you read this far, what're you doing??

Have an absolutely amazing day!!! <3

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[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

Vol. XCVI

It was a love story from the very beginning.

The Destiel Reunion and the Cowboys Date

(13x06)

Hello my dears! We are finally here, in TOMBSTONE fanfiction 🤣

And of course, a whole unique volume for this delicious episode.

Dean is happy now

The reunion between Cas and Dean was really very beautiful. First of all we have Dean incredulous face, he can't believe what his eyes are seeing, he can't believe Cas is alive and in front of him.

DEAN: Cas, is that really you?

SAM: No. You're – you're dead.

CASTIEL: Yeah, I was. But then I… annoyed an ancient cosmic being so much that he sent me back.

Dean is hopes, Sam reality in this dialogue. Every inch of Dean wished Cas to come back. Now that he has him there, his eyes can't believe, but he really wants. And Sam brings back the fact that Cas was definitely dead.

SAM: I don't even know what to say.

DEAN: I do. Welcome home, pal.

(Gif set credit @gabrielokun )

This hug is beautiful, Sam is still surprised, but Dean react with a hug, he missed his angel so much, he is the one "running towards him" at first. The emotion in his eyes, and the relieved and happiness to have him back. The love of his life is back, after so much suffering.

CASTIEL: How long was I gone?

DEAN: Too damn long.

(Gif set credit @shirtlesssammy )

And here we have the difference between Family Love and Romantic Love:

When Mary Winchester comes back in 12x01, she makes the same question Castiel did. But Dean's answer is different. He can calculate the exacting days and years his mother had been dead. But with Cas is different, Cas represents the love of his life, his hopes, he was suicidale after he was gone, so... That time Cas wasn't there with him, it felt like eternal. That's why he didn't calculated, Because it was TOO DAMN LONG.

And he says it with the painful remembrance in his eyes, red because he wasn't sleeping well, and because he maybe had crying so many times.

After this angsty scene, we have a huge change in Dean. He is happy now, so happy, that he can't hide it. He is shinning again. Smiling. Hopeful. And in addition, he has a cowboy adventure, even when the data they have from Dodge City isn't that clear, he drags the whole team to it.

And just like in season 5, he rewrites TFW now 2.0, describing each member enthusiastically.

DEAN: Yeah, but we should probably check it out.

CASTIEL: Wait. Really?

DEAN: Yeah, we've done more on less. Besides Dodge City's kind of, uh, kind of awesome. All right, well… two salty hunters, one half-angel kid, and a dude who just came back from the dead. Again. Team Free Will 2.0. Here we go.

Before continuing with this happy Dean, let's check a mystery, that had been solved in season 15. Why Jack had power on the Empty or how is that Cas woke up. Of course it was Jack's power over the Empty, because he will be new god, but also, it was the Profound Bond, the deep love these men feels for each other the path Jack used to find Castiel. Is so freaking romantic I just can't...

Okay, coming back now with happy Dean...

And how Sam was trying to make him confess... Something else. Noticing the change in his brother, knowing what was the cause of it, it was so blatant, that the smart little brother confirms here Dean's true feelings for the angel...

SAM: Still can't believe you brought your own hat.

DEAN: Well, I can't believe you didn't.

SAM: You're in a good mood, huh?

DEAN: Yeah. And?

Sam was waiting some time alone to ask this to him. Imagine you saw your brother in so bad shape a day ago, suicidal, not having faith or hopes in life... An now, he's happy, shining. Smiling. Laughing. What could happen? Of course, CAS is back... But is Dean ready to confess what he feels for him to his brother? Or even, to recognize his own feelings for the angel?

(Gif set credit @deansplushy )

Dean recognize Castiel is not just the win he needed, but the BIG WIN he wanted in his heart. And he stops there. He can't say more, but is not necessary to say it. Sam is an insightful person, and he gets it. He understands and confirms Dean loves Castiel in that special way. But he is not ready to "come out from the closet" . And the scene that comes after this one, is Sammy, smiling crookedly and tilting his head, Because he knows the message behind those words. He turns back and closes a closet. Pure Symbolism.

Cowboys Adventures

Let's jump now to the "angry bear" scene.

What it means? Simply and perfectly, that scene means CASTIEL WATCHING DEAN SLEEPING OR EVEN TRYING TO WAKE HIM UP. Both of it reveals CASTIEL IN DEAN'S ROOM. INTIMACY. First hint of scene we've never seen. But indirectly pointing at a canon fact. And we love it.

Also, bossy, grumpy Dean that needs his coffee to function. And Castiel just submissively obeying his angry bear and sitting back in the coach... Damm these two... Their dynamic had always been like that, but we didn't have enough of it. We didn't have enough of domestic destiel.

Then, once in the car, Castiel is wearing a cowboy hat. So, it means they had to go to buy it somewhere. Just Imagine Dean looking for a cowboy hat to fit in Cas' head.

He fixes his boyfriend, because he wants him to look even more good.

DEAN: All right, listen, these Dodge City cops aren't likely to trust big city folks, so we're gonna have to blend.

CASTIEL: Which is why you're making me wear this absurd hat.

DEAN: It's not that bad. Well, actually, yeah, it kind of is. Hang on. [Dean reaches over and removes the hat band and tosses it in the back seat] All right. That's better.

CASTIEL: Is it?

(Gif credit @grumpycas )

This scene shows us again their intimacy and how Castiel just accepts to be part of his fantasies. He is willing to play Dean's cowboys game. Because he loves him. And this means to share a good time with him. But, CAS worries about how he looks. And he peeks into the rear viewer mirror, and if you look at Dean's facial expressions, I think he's having a heart attack for Cas' proximity. Hahahahss. Oh, Dean you're so in love in this date.

DEAN: [sighs] Yeah. Look, just act like you're from Tombstone, okay?

CASTIEL: The city?

DEAN: The movie. With Kurt Russell? I made you watch it.

CASTIEL: Yeah, yeah. Yeah. The one with the guns and tuberculosis. [in a deep cowboy voice] "I'm your Huckleberry."

DEAN: Yeah, exactly. Well, it's good to have you back, Cas. All right, follow my lead. We'll fit right in.

Gif credit @agusvedder

Okay i really think here is when Dean had a heart attack, an stroke and a bonner, at the same time, I will elaborate hahahaha

Another hint of their INTIMACY, is the fact that they watch movies together! Not just that, but Dean made CAS watch Tombstone, and who know how many other movies! (More domestic Destiel)

And then... Cas goes for it, because he knows how Dean loves cowboys, and because he is a sexy, hot, angel that knows how to seduce him, not just with eye fucking... But... Using the link over Dean.

And it works... Because the hunter closes his eyes, swallows and tries not to faint right there of arousal. And then, shamelessly, he just says IT'S GOOD TO HAVE YOU BACK, CAS.

And then, is so funny to watch Cas trying to follow Dean's lead. Oh gosh... Hilarious. Rom com.

Symbolism of the rest of the episode

Dean's bisexuality

Dave and Athena were a representation of Dean's bisexuality, just as in the Rocky's bar in 14x10.

In this episode we have Toxic!Dean mirrored by the monster, Dave and Innocent/Healing!Dean mirrored by Athena.

The dynamics between them was similar to te dynamics in the Rocky's bar, in which Dean's toxicity and AU!Michael, the monster, tried to keep Dean locked inside his emotional toxic prison.

DAVE: Athena, don't you think we have a good thing here? Why do you wanna go mess it up?

ATHENA: Whatever. I have to work.

Athena wanted to improve his life, to go to school and move to a bigger city. To be better. She had dreams. Innocent, is the best part of Dean.

Another important fact is Dave wearing another's man face, a very known bandit, adding to one of the topics of this season: masks, fake identity, as a foreshadow of Dean's possession.

So Dave is Toxic!Dean, his own monsters, trying to keep him in the darkness.

The visual narrative adds to this symbolism the red ascot I'm both characters, Dave and Athena, to point out again at Dean.

Jack and Dean

We will have Jack killing an innocent man because he couldn't control his powers. As a foreshadow of when he will kill Mary not controlling his powers again.

Jack carries with a green backpack, green is Dean's color, and the backpacks means guilts.

Here is when Jack starts feeling guilt for killing a man. TFW will connect with him trying to explain that's part of the job.

All the dead people and killing the monster

When Dave comes back with Athena, she discovers he is a monster, and rejects him. Because he killed someone. This is very symbolic because in Dean's head, he sees himself as a monster, a murderer, and he hates that part of him.

So, at the end of the episode, Dean says alone, helps the sheriff, the righteous man, saves him and saves the girl, his innocence, killing the monster, his toxicity.

This episode showed us the future inner battle Dean will have to win. And it will be successful.

To Conclude:

This was a very Destiel episode, they showed us hints of how intimate Dean and CAS are with each other. And how much Dean is in love with CAS.

The happiness after Castiel's returning alive, gives Sam almost a confirmation of Dean's true feeling for Castiel, assuming he is not ready yet to get out from the closet.

There was a foreshadow of AUMichael possessing Dean, and the inner battle of 14x10.

Dave and Athena represented Dean's bisexuality and part of his personality. Keeping in mind Athena is the greek goddess of wisdom, war strategy, is the good part of Dean and innocence.

Hope you like this meta, see you in the next one!

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Vol. XCIII, XCIV, XCV.

Buenos Aires January 17 2021 02:31 PM

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[curiouscarllee]

Hello, I'm making a list of my OCs with a bit of art and information! I am doing this because I feel as though I post a lot about my characters without ever providing any detail, so, here you go :) On top of this, I'd like to state that I am always intrested in hearing about your ocs as well, you are more than welcome to send me an ask about them or about my own characters :)

Fairlynn: My Main

Fairlynn is a bosmer, he is the Hero of Kvatch and also Sheogorath. He is a tad unpredictable and has some mental issues in regards to mirroring the mad god and myself. Fairlynn was 28 when he started with saving the world, only 29 when it ended and full of grief with Martin's passing. This drove him to the Shivering Isles in hopes that he could persuade a daedric prince to revive his beloved. That's not at all how it went down, upon noticing this realm was not one of a stronger prince, Fairlynn was tempted to leave the plane but found himself infatuated with it instead.

After a few years, the princes sensed a danger approaching, one in the form of an imperial male that had the possibility of defeating them. Therefore, they agreed to send one of themselves down to nirn in an attempt to stop it. Unfortunately, they chose Fairlynn to get the job done and yeeted him down where the bosmer began to gather enforcments in the form of other people which he thought would become allies when they grew older.. But what he didn't expect was the imperial managed to befriend every. Single. One. Of the people Fairlynn had set on course to hate the man, none of them truly did. That's the exact moment where he went, "if you can't beat em' join em'." And promptly joined the group in his mortal form without revealing to them who he was. Instead the group thinks he's just a skooma addict that is talented in the ways of fighting. They have no idea.

Ragnar

This is that imperial male stated in the last description. This man is destined to destroy the influence of the daedric princes on the mortal people, however, he has the intelligence of a box of rocks and everyone doubts this prophecy to be true. The only time one can possibly think this true is when he displays his power in the midst of battle, he was blessed by the divines at birth, each giving him power to defeat the evil of the world. He his bound to use it.. But he never uses it for good, I mean,, why would he? He could kill anyone he wants! No way he's gonna be the "good hero"! (Basically, this was my brother's character and he used mods to make him op so I had to improvise.)

Past wise, my brother and I decided to intertwine him with the lore. You rememeber the song Ragnar the Red? That was Ragnar's father. In truth, his name should be Ragnar the second or Ragnar Jr. but his mother, Matilda, said "hahahaha, no, your father was a mess and you shall not be him." and removed the second part. After his mother died of a sickness, Ragnar hesitantly moved towns in search of work. He missed his mother greatly and would give anything to have her back.

S'arra

Meet S'arra, she is a khajiit female and the heart of the group (along side another who you'll meet shortly). S'arra is the youngest, she may be sweet but she'll rob you blind if she sees a chance. S'arra came from a happy family in Elsywer, she was the child of F'awn and Ja'zaka, two khajiit with completely different sets of morals. Ja'zaka was a born bandit, he was wild and carefree, F'awn (My friends oc :)) was a gentle and caring woman, she loved to live. When F'awn got pregnant, her brother, J'ar, lost his mind. J'ar was fueled with anger towards Ja'zaka and at one point made an attempt at his brother-in-law's life. It was at that moment J'ar was kicked from F'awn's life, he ran from his home and joined a vampire clan/bandit group in Skyrim.

Only months after her birth, Ja'zaka disappeared. He ran and never came back. F'awn tried her best to raise S'arra, but one morning S'arra was taken from her by a rabid animal that invaded the town. The creature took off with S'arra and lead the small khajiit to it's den where a caravan traveling to Skyrim would soon find her and take her with them, raising her as their own on the roads of Skyrim. The caravan was killed and attacked by a certain bandit group/vampire clan (hahaha, yup, the one J'ar is in). S'arra joined the group in hopes of revenge, although, she'll keep that bit to herself. ;)

Adoren

Now this orc, oh he's amazing. He is an old man, a precious old man with a past of pain and betrayal. In order to introduce his past, we need to introduce his adpoted brother first:

Zanik

This is Adoren's adopted brother, Zanik (grandson of Nellie), a not so nice older man. Zanik was thrown out by his father a young age, more precisely, he was thrown in a river by his father in one of his father's crazed fits. Zanik can't swim, he hates water more than anything else in his life. The dunmer was washed to shore near an orc stronghold where he was picked up by Adoren and adopted by the orcs family. Zanik and Adoren lived happily for many many years, one day they went on an exploration to scout for different hunting grounds. It started to pour causing the two to take shelter in a dwemer ruin. That's when they heard soft groaning and sounds of pain coming from down one of the halls. Hesitantly, they explored. Only to find:

Kidawe

My most lore breaking character! Meet Kidawe, a small snow elf from one of the last remaining villiages of falmer! Now, yes, I am breaking the lore because, since when has canon lore stopped me? Kidawe lived on top of the mountains to the north of Cyrodiil and the South of Skyrim. His village is small and portable, in case they need to move, the tribe of elves is shrouded in mystery, they've managed to live this long and refuse to leave their mountain. Kidawe doesn't listen to that, he runs off each night in search for dwemer ruins, things he find more then interesting. The young elf holds no fear when he's in his element, and he loves to explore. One evening, while in a ruin he is attacked by a vampire/bandit named Raeferth (the leader) who pushes him to join the group, trying to convince the snow elf that his expertise is needed. Kidawe refuses and then engages in battle with the nord, he looses and ends up pinned under a fallen pillar that crushes his arm.

Upon waking up after falling unconscious from the pain, Kidawe is met with the sight of Adoren and Zanik standing over him. After many many months of trust building, the two get Kidawe to befriend them. Kidawe uses their help to fashion himself a new arm from dwarven parts found in the ruin. After a few years, Kidawe disappears. He was taken by force by Raeferth (the others do not know this). Adoren and Zanik are heart broken. They miss their friend greatly.

Adoren/Zanik Pt.2

After losing Kidawe, these two go off and join a bandit group.. Yes the same vampire clan group. Adoren thrives in the group, he his strong and more then willing to get his hands dirty. Zanik.. Not so much. Zanik is only kept around because of Adoren. They all know not to mess with Zanik or else they mess with Adoren.

After spending a few years with them, Adoren decides he can't continue this. Zanik begs him not to leave, trying to make the orc realize that this group will not let them go without hurting them. Adoren doesn't listen and leaves the bandits, later that day the stronghold is burnt to the ground. Adoren looses everything in the fire, his parents pass away, his friends and family. Instead of processing lose normally, he makes it up in his head that the reason Zanik was warning him was because Zanik had a hand in it. Therefore the two fight and Adoren punches Zanik, he's wearing a ring that catches under Zanik's flesh and pratically tears off his cheek leaving the dunmer with a horrible scar. Adoren warns Zanik never to speak with him again.

Which of course doesn't stand because after they grew up into old men, they cross eachother's paths once more. They both join up with the good guy group at different times, Adoren joins first after he finds them in his house, and Zanik joins when he is once again found washed up on the shore.

Zorlin

Not much on this boio, he was my first oc in the Elder Scrolls. He's an argonian heavy set warrior. Zorlin is silent and cut throat, he is a part of the Brotherhood and only joins the good guy group after his brother, Tu'ru is 'murdered' by Raeferth.

Tristane

There is so much on him. I'm just going to do bullet points:

Born in Skyrim 200+ years ago. He never knew his true parents and was instead brought up by a wealthy noble family. They more kept him around for labor.

He befriends 3 local kids, Mayrn (breton like him), Raeferth (nord trouble maker), and Lynik (Raeferth's brother).

They all cause problems and Tristane falls in love with Raeferth :D

One day Raeferth claims to have found immortality, Tristane instantly says "No, I'm not doing this." And leaves the friend group, trying to focus on himself.

He is then framed for a crime he didn't commit and sent to Cyrodiil's Imperial Prison. Then he is bailed out by the Emperor and sent to Morrowind.

Morrowind happens, Tristane changes from whining child to even whiner child with the ability to cast spells.

After Morrowind, Tristane travels to Solstiem where he is confronted with Mayrn and Lynik (both as bandit vampires).

Mayrn and Lynik try to force him back to Skyrim to see Raeferth and join them. Tristane, as he said before, says "no". So they kill him.

Now they don't really kill him, they use a method I made up called Soul Gem Reflection. This is something I completely made up but I like it so sue me. I can write an entire post on this alone so we're just gonne say, "Soul gem reflection is a method in which the targets soul is directed towards an object they held dear in life instead of dying. They're life essence is held in the soul gem, but they live in the object."

In this case, Tristane was reflected in his journal.

Lynik felt horrible for doing this to his friend, he felt guilty and returned the journal which he unknowingly relfected the breton in, and gave it to Tristane's family who in turn stuffed the journal in the basement.

Fast forward 200+ years and Adoren buys the manor, finding Tristane's journal inside and opening it. Surprise! Out springs a ghostly figure of Tristane who then convinced Adoren to take him along with the group!

Other Characters:

This is J'ar. He's mentioned above.

Also, here's some more character that aren't affiliated with the group:

-Baendil and Baendal are bosmer brothers, they were abandoned by their parents and instead found by cranky altmer father Kornan. They're bandits (not related to vampires at all). They're bad, not morally wrong but actually just bad at being bandits. They couldn't rob you even if you asked them to.

-I will add more later I'm sure.

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[fonulyn]

What do you think would be Piers reaction if he watch (maybe a video of the DSO, because they look out for the agents) that scene in Damnation when Leon is fucking thrown against that pillar? Honestly, I think he would be like "How are you even alive????" That scene was like seeing my niece play with their toys. Ps. I've never imagined Leon and Piers together, but now I'm in Piers/Leon hell thanks to you hahahaha Loving it.

oh my god that scene is so painful and it’s a wonder Leon could even walk after that!! I think if Piers saw that he’d go from :O to >:( and tell Leon exactly what he thinks of such things lmao. all “goddamn Leon is your skeleton made of metal???” I love Damnation but Leon gets thrown around a lot :’D

ahhhhhh welcome to this hell! 8D it’s fun here I hope you enjoy your stay! I’d say I’m sorry for dragging you down with me, but the truth is, I’m just happy to have recruited you to the cause ;D 💖💖

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