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piviani · 9 months

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what enhypen members needs to work on

to become the best version of themselves

( disclaimer: please do remember to take my readings with a grain of salt. i am in no way a professional tarot reader and all of this are alleged and is for entertainment purposes only. )

yang jungwon

ten of swords

somehow swords always shows up to him. what he really needs to work on is his are emotions and his charasteristic where he has no confidence at all. low self esteem. he tends to burden himself with responsibilities alot. so it would be better if he starts on working on himself not for the sake of others but for his own sake alone.

he may have the mentality to always feel or need to catch others for their own problems? i dont wanna cause issues, but whenever i do a reading on jungwon he always feels burned out, exhausted, and sad. it seems like he wants to crave validation from people. someone who could feel what he feels. he doesnt show his emotions alot. so it would be a really great start to befriend with a non-toxic circle and a non toxic environment that understands why hes like he is and why its hard with opening up.

lee heeseung

king of pentacles in reverse

oh what he needs to work on are his characteristics of being overly workaholic and stubborn at times. he may be too quick on his shoes especially if it involves his work without even roughly thinking about the consequences he might face and things he might lose along the way. as long as theres a starter lane he can run over its already enough for him. theres times he might leave things as it is if it doesn’t benefit him anymore.

heeseung has the tendencies to lose touch with the reality too, he might be overly intune with the idealism world he creates. sometimes losing touch with the reality has its side effects. (nothing bad about dreaming, he just might be into it that he might start to abandon it will actually need consistent hardwork) so he should work on these things to improve his life and become the best version of himself.

park jongseong

wheel of fortune - queen of pentacles

i was wondering what the wheel of fortune meant cause this doesnt seem like something that could be worked on. its one of the major symbolic cards. probably the only thing i could consider as slightly negative is where it will always have ups and downs. its a wheel after all—and in every transition, a big change occurs. so anyway, i pulled for confirmation and queen of pentacles came out. well—with the former card, it might be true in a sense that fate are always there for him. however we should take queen of pentacles into an account. he may take responsibilities for his loved ones too much so he should tone it down. things dont always look good just because it is for the external. best believe as unfortunate it sounds being a giver always causes troubles too. may tend to neglect himself while taking focus on the others thinking it could help him. so he should work on this :) hes too nurturing it backfires him.

sim jaeyun

two of wands

2 of wands, for jake to become the best version of himself—he should learn to focus on his personal goals. tha card shows a man standing holding an earth (or basically his world) with his right hand and a wand in his left, and with my own interpretation, it’s saying him that jake should learn to focus more on what’s infront of him than just standing. its the actions that matters. you cant be standing for so long or you could be left behind. he should learn not to settle for less with this. he may always be indecisive too—whether he should just stand and stay, or move forward by wanting more. he may be a thinker more than a taker. or like idealistic more than realistic. though there’s the passion, drive don’t do everything. he needs his own resolve so he could become the best version of himself.

park sunghoon

queen of wands

another wands, though queen of wands may mostly have an uplifting and positive meaning, this could also mean that sunghoon may have tendencies to be too self centered because of his confidence with his individuality. may be too independent as well. he should learn how to rely on others too as too much independence can cause you to isolate with others making it hard to open up his scars and wounds. he may be the type to be closed off yet helps with people with their own certain circumstances with his drive and force? just really not with himself which causes this destruction. so its really adviced for him to be communicative. (ive noticed most enha are not really great with communication and would rather keep it all by themselves, including sunghoon himself) like though they might everything’s alright already it might not be? sunghoon needs to stay still and allow others to walk through his inner. its not bad to be dependent sometimes.

kim sunoo

the tower in reverse

tower in reverse.. it seems like sunoo doesn’t face his personal problems because he believes walking through it causes more trouble than running away. so he turns his back instead. sunoo’s always scared to change that it becomes a toxic repetitive cycle. this seems like it will not change any time soon either. he will try and try to resist any transitions until it exhausts him. he may have low self esteem which causes this. sunoo doesn’t really see a light behind the darkness? neither would like to change this cycle. he would rather keep running instead of facing it. change are inevitable, sunoo should learn how to take this into an account and accept the undeniable transformations that needs to be taken for the future as this is a major part when growing up. (as much as i wouldve loved to deep dive more and pull a card but i dont think im allowed further. such heavy energy, this is all i can do.)

nishimura riki

the hanged man in reverse

the hanged man usually symbolizes detachment, discontentment and impulsiveness. these are what riki should take into an account for him to become the best version of himself. he seems to be the type to make his impulsiveness a mechanism to direct the fact that he always feels low, like just so he could feel thrill. he’s young so there seems to be days where impulsiveness takes over. im seeing impatience in his part as well. a bit naive. originally in the upright—we can see the man hanging there by his own free will, but this is in reversed—so im seeing some certain circumstances where he just let people control him rather than fighting for what he feels symbolizes him more. or hes standing in standards that doesn’t align with his will. this could also be the problem. he should learn how to let his thinking be aligned with his will. impulsiveness are not always the answer. he shouldnt retrain himself just because others said so. he needs how to form his own freedom of speech lol.

#kpop tarot #kpop #enhypen tarot #enhypen #tarot #park jongseong #sim jaeyun #park sunghoon #kim sunoo #yang jungwon #lee heeseung #nishimura riki #enhypen astrology #kpop astrology

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manicpixiefelix · 21 days

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thinking again about oliver's final monologue and the admission of 'i hated him' and how everyone's been discussing if oliver was lying/lying to himself/trying to convince himself/etc and honestly the more I think about it the more im coming to genuinely believe he was being honest. but in that same vein, he absolutely loved felix too, two things can be true. clearly - CLEARLY - he didn't only hate felix, he's spent the past two hours of screen time flashing back to his impossibly tragic summer fling with the man, giving us the most beautiful looks back on the boy in exquisite detail, because you know that's where his mind goes to often, but despite all of both felix and oliver's flaws, it's clearly such a lovingly looked back on memory. and he hates felix for ripping that away from him; for everything he comes to love and adore about felix, there's a part of him that hates him in hindsight for still holding all those qualities without ultimately returning oliver's affection the way he wants, being so wonderful and loveable and yet still denying oliver what he wants from felix. in hindsight he's victim blaming, in hindsight oliver chooses to feel as though felix lead him on instead of taking any kind of real emotional accountability for his actions. in hindsight, to oliver, felix had it coming. at least that's what he tells himself.

i don't believe he hated felix in 2007, i think over the years since he's built up a resentment as a way to cope, to justify himself and his actions, and he may even hate himself for how much of felix he still holds in his heart, and what that love pushed him to do in the end. he hates felix for what he became when felix didn't love him back the way he needed. two things can be true.

I loved him, I loved him, I loved him. By god, I loved him... but sometimes, I hated him.

#oliver quick #saltburn meta #felix catton #felix x oliver #felix catton x oliver quick #saltburn #saltburn 2023 #felix saltburn #oliver saltburn #manicpixieart

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mamasplat · 2 months

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Why do I care so much about deciphering character ages in Pokemon?

Simply put, angst. Or in long terms-

The art of storytelling is not so cut and dry, anyone with basic media literacy knows this. There is so much subtext and unspoken information that rings loudly in the implications of a story, something as simple as the age of an MC will dictate how heavily their experiences will affect them. Using the Gen6 games as examples (XY and Omega Ruby specifically)

By figuring out where to place Calem Serena and Zinnia in age, the story they live through gains added context. They all share the same bracket of 18-19 meaning they are in they’re late late teens and budding into the incoming subconscious weight of young adulthood, the subconscious urge to be stronger and reckless to prove yourself as capable in the real world; while still being young and having so much to learn. They have further motive to get involved in the heavy actions they take and will fall and break down even harder when they fail. Such is the right of growing up.

And for more adult characters, the same still holds true.

Doing the same thing I did with the kalos protags age by calculating off of a canon characters official age (emma) and then taking into account mannerisms dialogue and design; Admin Tabitha from team magma is officially 27, stated by himself. So going off of the work place hierarchy, Leader Maxie with his experience and status should be in his late 40s to maybe early 50s, making him the prime age for an early onset midlife crisis, linking that to his past relationships with Archie and the reasoning for making his team, his clear strong sense of justice even if misplaced, you have a man who can quickly spiral into a rather pitiful sight if pushed too hard in the wrong direction. First he bares his teeth, then he whines. Like a scared dog trying to protect itself and the image he has made for himself.

Meanwhile Courtney who is evidently more experienced than Tabitha is confirmed to have been with the team longer than him, as his paperwork is still seated on her desk, seems to be in her early 20s, I originally assumed she was in her mid 20s but then she released in pokemon masters and I was able to study her behavior more closely, she has this uncanny glimpse of childlike wonder at times that makes me believe she’s maybe younger than Tabitha, that added to the fact Tabitha seems to look out for her with her social struggles, almost taking on a brotherly role it seems.

Her being in her early twenties adds more weight to her codependency on Maxie as well as her reckless devotion, she’s younger and somewhat impressionable, she’s not against violent action to protect her passions.

And because I was able to gather Courtney had more experience while being younger I can come to the conclusion that it’s very possible Courtney was a science prodigy of some sort, as she is known in her field. And seeing she’s been with team magma longer and has evident close bonds with Maxie, it’s even more possible they worked together when she was younger.

Originally that led me to the thought she might have worked in relation to the Devon corporation, but with the art of visual storytelling in Sea Mauville, it’s not insane to assume Archie and Maxie may have worked together with the Mauville Corporation and that’s what makes them so jaded in modern day, a bad work environment being a stepping stone to their fall from grace. By Sea Mauville’s writings alone I don’t see them being against overworking a young teen prodigy. It’s possible maybe leader Maxie knew Courtney from his time there and brought her onto his team when the company went under. (This also means I need to retcon tf out of my in character Courtney blog.)

This also can explain Courtney’s role playing more into a team disciplinary, her time in Sea Mauville so young could’ve taught her to be more aggressive in order to earn her respect and get better outcome from rookie labor, as it’s heavily shown grunts seem to fear Courtney in some respects.

And ALL of this is merely the writing on the wall I can read when I take into account the age of our cast

#CAPTIALIST GREED BREEDS ECO TERRORIST IDEALS #this might just be an excuse for me to talk about Courtney….#we started off with canon but slowly drifted into fan theories #headcanon break down #character study #headcanon #team magma #magma admin courtney #magma admin tabitha #leader maxie #lorekeeper zinnia #trainer calem #trainer serena

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pochipop · 2 years

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＃ MYSTIC MESSENGER !! ♡ — WHAT KIND OF PERSON THEY WOULD FALL FOR.

#. synopsis! — who the boys would fall for the hardest .

#. characters! — jumin , yoosung , jihyun (v) , saeran (ray) , saeyoung (707) , hyun (zen) .

#. warnings! — none .

#. alt accounts! — @ddollipop (nsfw) @yyolkchi (reblog/spam) .

#. others! — navigation & masterlist .

𖦹. ━ JUMIN !!

Jumin needs both loyalty and compassion in a relationship. As someone who has been greatly impacted by disloyalty throughout his life, —Jumin seeks the love of someone who can be true to him at all times, even when things get rough. Just as well, he needs someone who can look at him and truly believe that he deserves all of the compassion he's denied himself (and subsequently others) for innumerous years. Honesty would be another key factor in the mix, as Jumin adamantly requests candid answers from those around him, not wanting their opinions to be sullied by worries that he may retaliate emotionally or out of spite. He would also be likely to give his heart to someone leaning to the introverted side due to his more reserved nature. Someone good with both problem solving and emotional regulation would be the cherry on top. Affection wise, Jumin would fall fairly quickly for someone who bounces between cuddly and needing personal space, as he's a bit like that himself, and it would likely be easier to manage expectations if his lover could relate to him in that way. When it comes to loving someone, Jumin is devoted and sincere, and would feel most comfortable in a relationship where that devotion and sincerity could be reflected back to him. Honesty is also crucial to Jumin's communication style, especially since he isn't always the best at understanding or empathizing with the emotions of others.

𖦹. ━ YOOSUNG !!

Yoosung is by no means picky. He doesn't have many requirements or needs and is the type of person to simply be happy that he's desired, making almost anything enough for him. Still, he wouldn't do well with a partner who was overly secretive, hiding things away from him, only giving vague answers to his questions. . . That kind of situation would turn him away quickly. Yoosung likes to be in the know, whether it's passive knowledge or active understanding. He also appreciates people who seek to understand the actions, motives, and points of view of others. As someone who tends to fluctuate between masking his feelings by being cheerful and kind and expressing his emotions perhaps too bluntly from time to time when the setting may prove to be inappropriate for such actions, Yoosung is thankful for those that don't judge him rashly and instead seek to understand his feelings. Instead of shaming him for his poor emotional regulation, Yoosung would prefer to have those around him acknowledge his mistake while also understanding his perspective. Communication is a big part of his needs, helping him to better understand what to do in the future when similar feelings bubble up inside him. Patience would likely be a good quality for Yoosung's lover as well.

𖦹. ━ JIHYUN !!

Jihyun, who loves photography and life itself, would be best suited to an artistic/creative partner, —someone who could share in his ideas about the world. He'd love to be able to show his partner a set of photographs and explain the emotion behind them, explain what he was feeling in the moments which he took them, and have that be fully internalized for all it's truly worth. Moreover, Jihyun holds a lot of guilt, both for things he had little to no control over and things he could have done differently if he'd chosen another path. Someone compassionate and forgiving would likely be better for Jihyun in the long run, especially on the days when he feels like he's drowning in his mistakes. To the same effect, a loving person would likely prove to make Jihyun feel more secure, no matter how that love were to be expressed. He sees the value in every love language and could adapt fairly easily to any of them. Someone willing to ask what he needs at any given time is a real selling point for Jihyun as well, —even when he doesn't have the answer, just being asked means so much to him. Despite seeing the value in each love language, however, Jihyun does prefer quality time more often than not, and would be suited for a partner who could actively be sure to make time for him.

𖦹. ━ SAERAN !!

Saeran needs a partner who is patient and willing to give him the time and space he needs to blossom. With everything that's happened in his life, Saeran has been left with many scars; —some physical, others metaphorical. Because of that, he may tend to push people away or act coldly towards those he loves, as he doesn't have another way to express his feelings. When he becomes overwhelmed, it's easier for him to put up a wall and make sure there is distance between himself and whatever is setting his heart on fire. Being patient and understanding of him is a must. Saeran wouldn't suit a pushy or overly physical partner. He much prefers someone who could either read his body language and get the hint or ask him what is suitable for certain circumstances. Just as well, Saeran would likely value a sense of wit in a lover, to make it easier to banter back and forth and not be hurt by his playful jabs that might not always come across perfectly. Moreover, Saeran can be incredibly sarcastic at times, so an overly sensitive partner may not be the best option of the bunch. Lastly, someone in it for the long haul is the preferable type for Saeran, because when he loves, he loves hard, —even if his affection tends to lean to silence.

𖦹. ━ SAEYOUNG !!

Saeyoung is best suited to a lover with a sense of humor, —someone he can banter back and forth and be silly with at times. However, because Saeyoung often uses humor to mask his more complicated feelings, someone perceptive who could see through him sometimes would go a long way for him. He has trouble expressing himself in any deep, complicated manner because he doesn't want to burden anyone else with his feelings. For that reason, a reassuring person would be a wonderful fit for Saeyoung's overall personality. Because he is no stranger to feeling both alone and isolated, a certain level of affection would be perfect for him, especially if his lover were to ask first, just to let him know that his feelings are being taken into account at all times. Being trustworthy would also greatly help Saeyoung in bringing his walls down and allowing himself the liberty of being vulnerable. If he learns that he can trust someone with both the troubles he faces due to his line of work, as well as the issues that arise from his hard to regulate emotions, Saeyoung will naturally gravitate toward that individual for both advice and comfort. Perhaps the most important trait his partner could have is empathy. It means a lot to Saeyoung when someone looks at him as a real, genuine person with his own feelings. Sometimes, between the genius level intelligence and the mask of constant clowning, it can be easy to forget that he has feelings and troubles too. Please keep that in mind for him.

𖦹. ━ HYUN !!

Hyun desires someone more overtly affectionate, —someone who will be happy to reciprocate his physical expressions of love. He values those that are less judgemental and more open-minded, as he's done and been involved with things in the past that he is not proud of, but wouldn't want his partner's current image of him to be sullied by who he was when he was much younger. When it comes to emotions, Hyun tends to stuff his down for a while before being honest about them, and he has a bad habit of drinking when he feels the pressure weighing on him. It would be great if his lover could encourage him to have healthier habits and even join him in doing so. Moreover, Hyun can easily match the vibe of an introverted or extroverted partner, making him the perfect candidate for an ambivert's significant other. Another crucial aspect would be actively supporting his work as an actor, —going to shows when you can, helping him run through his lines, offering criticism and praise when he asks for feedback, etc. His work is very important to him, it's an extension of himself in many ways, and his partner being sure to show him support when it's obvious he's been working incredibly hard would surely make Hyun feel genuinely loved and appreciated.

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scoobydoodean · 7 months

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I see this held up as major proof of Dean's badness, but couldn't it also be proof of Cas having faith Dean can get past anything without Cas having to change his behavior? The way it's structured the onus is on DEAN to work through it, not others to change or make amends. ---- CASTIEL: You know, Dean, he – he feels things more acutely than any human I've ever known. So it's possible he could work through this. One day, he may explode and let it all out and breathe deeply and move on.

I see what you mean in a general sense, and it's extremely possible that Cas is thinking about his own past fights with Dean and Dean forgiving him, and from the perspective of the critique you have in mind that you're refuting, I agree. But of course deancrit casgirls will forever insist that Cas has never in his life done anything harmful to Dean either accidentally or on purpose, so any time Dean might dare try to hold him accountable for anything, he's actually just making shit up and being toxic and controlling, so here Cas is just apologizing for his own abusive relationship. You can only get their take by being deliberately obtuse/disingenuous.

That said, the context of that line (from 15.13 "Destinty's Child") is Cas answering soulless Jack's question about whether Dean will eventually forgive him for murdering Mary.

CASTIEL: Hey, Jack. JACK: Cas, you know what's good about being dead? CASTIEL: Uh, as I recall, very little. JACK: Well, when you come back, you – you really get into all that life is. Hot, cold, sweet, spicy, funny, scary. CASTIEL: And are you? "Into it"? JACK: I want to be. But I don't... feel things the way I used to. Before I lost my... CASTIEL: Your soul. JACK: I used to feel things. In my bones. It was glorious, and sometimes unbearable. But I felt them. Now, I understand joy or sadness, but... I know those things aren't in me. I understand why Sam and Dean were angered by what happened to Mary... CASTIEL: By what you did to Mary. JACK: Yes. I see that I've caused them pain. And it's clear that things have changed. Especially with – with Dean. Will he ever forgive me? CASTIEL: You know, Dean, he – he feels things more acutely than any human I've ever known. So it's possible he could work through this. One day, he may explode and let it all out and breathe deeply and move on. JACK: How long will that take? CASTIEL: I don't know.

And yeah—I have seen people refer to Cas's little speech here as "condoning child abuse" and other bullshit. Because how DARE Dean not forgive soulless Jack for murdering his mother (something soulless Jack is unable to actually really acknowledge he did). I mean clearly any time someone murders your mom because she made them mad and threatened their sense of security by asking if they're okay and saying their concerning actions can’t stay a secret… That’s just natural understandable stuff! You need to forgive the person who murdered her instantly and if you don’t idk you’re kinda overreacting don’t you think? :/ I mean your mom probably deserved it kind of anyway for reading the room so wrong and talking about getting a person help. And I mean if you don't forgive the person who killed your mom or do anything trying to stop them from hurting more people you're really a child abuser... toward an adult... who murdered your mother in cold blood and is unable to even understand why it was wrong in any sense other than an intellectual one like he read it from a book... preferring to refer to it as "What happened to Mary" instead of acknowledge it as something he himself did because he was mad and felt threatened—which is what he circled back to in "Jack In The Box" too. It's only when Jack gets his soul back that he's able to actually feel true empathy, acknowledge his real actions and the gravity of them, and give an actual sincere apology. Because his soul is actually important—something this fandom refuses, by and large, to notice.

Anyway, this fandom's take on Mary's murder and soulless Jack vs. regular Jack is overwhelmingly a bag of wet third grader vomit and feces so what can one expect?

#mail #soulless jack killing mary is popularly regarded as an accident... but it's pretty transparent that it wasn't?#or rather it was on purpose but he regretted it the second after it happened. but that is still. Something he chose to do. Not an accident.#He saw her as a threat to his relationship with Sam and Dean and he acted.#This is indicated right before he kills her. He admits it outright also right before calling it an accident which unravels that whole idea.#It wasn’t pre-meditated but in that moment he wanted her to die. She was going to tell everyone there was something wrong with him.#And he did not want that.#It wasn't an accident and he can't handle his own culpability because it threatens his belief that he can make things be the way they were #before it happened. Which is why he killed her to begin with! He didn't want anyone to know/think anything was wrong with him!#And just like soulless Jack just wants everyone to forget about it and act like nothing happened and he's fine...#Many fans want Dean to forget about it. They want Dean to believe and say and feel and think that Mary did not matter.#And that being upset at her literal murder (even if it was an accident—which it was not) is bad and evil.#And Sam's great capacity for numbness (which we already saw in season 13) strengthen's their own lack of empathy for Dean #in a situation that in real life they would understand unless they're actual psychopaths.#It's only because Dean is a character in a narrative representing the need/capacity to be loved and accepted at all #that these demands that his thoughts and feelings bend to everyone else's emotional needs become so disturbingly intrusive #dont feed the stans after midnight #and cas is my best friend #hot girl cas

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nothing0fnothing · 8 months

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Im actually really thankful you've jumped onto my page because it's given me the opportunity to highlight exactly what I mean when I say narcissistic abuse and emotional abuse aren't the same thing.

I'm going to discuss DARVO (Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim and Offender) and how it relates to specifically narcissistic abuse.

See how this person holds me responsible for their own behaviour? Demanding that I beleive it is my job to block them to stop the abuse rather than theirs to stop abusing people? This is the abuser denying their responsibility in the abuse. He is saying "how can I be abusing you if you haven't yet blocked me?" Because the acknowledgement that he is an abuser is damaging to the narcissistic ego. He feels that if he can place enough of the blame for his actions onto me he can effectively deny his own abusive behaviour.

This is a conversation about ableism, but this person has opted to use the r slur to refer to my writing style. He brings my education into question, "so I don't have to try to understand the stupid shit you have to say". "You sound like you're trying to sound smart and justify ableism." He knows I am educated on the topic, and so attacking that credibility is his first instinct. He doesn't care about the irony of using an ableist slur to accuse a stranger of ablesim, he doesn't even care that he knows what he's saying is inaccurate and doesn't make sense. He only cares to attack, because he is when the narcissistic ego is bruised, that's all he can think to do.

Finally he reverses victim and Offender. He knows that he is the one coming to my page to leave abusive comments, he is aware that all he needs to do is stop and it will be over, but he can't bring himself to. The narcissistic urge to lash out when ones ego is bruised is too strong. He claims he is the true victim in this narrative as he has not yet been blocked by me, ignoring the fact that i have already blocked one of his accounts only to have him come back in this one. All the while, his narcissistic ego is incapable of perceiving any flaw in the self. So he begins to to use "I" and "you". "I am autistic" "you are ableist" "I have to understand what you have to say" "you sound retarded" "I have personality disorders" "you are a cockroach". all vile and obviously abusive statements used to frame me for my own abuse. Let's remember this conversation only minutes ago included him telling me I deserved the abuse my mother inflicted upon me as a child.

This is a great example why narcissistic abuse and emotional abuse, though have similarities, are different and deserve to be discussed separately. While the non narcissistic abuser may use some elements of DARVO to silence, confuse or further the abuse of their victims, it's only narcissistic abusers who consistently and entirely fall into DARVO every time the person they're abusing because it supports their delusional narcissistic ego.

Narcissistic abuse is real, it is different from emotional abuse and the perpetrators of it behave differently to other abusers. you've been the victim of emotional or mental abuse and you recall your abuser consistently relying on any of these tactics to further the abuse and hold you unfairly accountable, it's possible your abuser was a narcissist.

#narcissistic abuse #raised by narcissists #complex trauma #Narcissistic abuse #narcissism #emotional abuse #Narcissistic abuse awareness #Narcissism is not NPD

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just-late-roman-republic-things · 6 months

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Really enjoying Roma soy yo so far! I've just now finished Marius' account of the Cimbric War, and I like how Posteguillo is drawing parallels between the patience and planning necessary to win a war versus Caesar's fight against Dolabella in the courtroom.

What I said before about the book deliberately simplifying Roman politics still holds true. I suspect it'll still rely on the optimate/populare division for conflict, perhaps even for later books. It also portrays the Germans quite reductively, though I can forgive that since we're literally hearing about them from Marius, and his account in turn is being related through Caesar. Lots of stories-within-stories.

So far, those narrators seem like we're supposed to take Marius at his word, and find him and Caesar (who, again, is just a kid right now) more sympathetic than the optimates. But I'm barely 1/4 through the book, and there's plenty of time to show how horrifying Marius' career eventually got. I hope the author does show that, and doesn't flinch away. I've spotted several incidents that sound like they're foreshadowing Marius' downfall, and the structure of the book and its timeskips could work beautifully for that. Please don't let me down, Posteguillo.

Because it'd be a lot easier to write this as a straightforward good guys vs. bad guys story. Or even a morally gray vs. evil story. But there are several gorgeous character arcs at an author's disposal if they're willing to show how murky the Marius-Sulla wars really got. Marius himself is a tragedy - his greatest strengths becoming his fatal flaw. His misdeeds could really inform Labienus' motivations when he hears of Caesar crossing the Rubicon, and sides against him, perhaps fearing another Marius. Meanwhile, Sulla is...a Very Bad Man, but more complex than he initially appears, and he did care about more things than just his own power. And Metellus Pius is so much more than we've seen so far.

Above all, it'd be delightful to force a young Julius Caesar to confront a past much less clear-cut than he thought, to try to find a better path than either Marius or Sulla - and end up repeating their mistakes anyway.

I'm rambling. I may be biased by how Masters of Rome handled these arcs. But I can't help it. As a writer, I see so many opportunities if Santiago Posteguillo is willing to throw his favorites into the mud.

I think I'll still enjoy the book even if he doesn't. He's great at prose and suspense, and even his "simple" moral conflicts are still fun, in an action-hero sort of way. Not every book needs more shades of gray than a silent film.

But I like shades of gray.

#i'm also partly reading to find out if posteguillo inadvertently wrote a caesar/labienus subplot #it would not be the first time i saw a straight author write a gay romance by accident #at least. i think it's an accident???#roma soy yo #santiago posteguillo #jlrrt reads #jlrrt essays

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gghero · 9 months

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Do you think Caspar experience abuse from his father and brother as a child because I think so

I can't say what the situation was/is like with his brother since we know so little about him.

Caspar doesn't seem to particularly care about him either way. He agrees with Edelgard's criticisms of him which seems to indicate that he is at least aware of his brother's failings, but then doesn't talk about it like it's something that pains him. But we also know Caspar is not the type to hold grudges or dwell on how people have wronged him, so it could be anything from "Brother Bergliez mistreated Caspar but Caspar forgave him or ignored it" to "Brother Bergliez was completely indifferent to Caspar" in which case I feel like some degree of emotional neglect would be involved at the bare minimum.

My personal take? Brother Bergliez is the type to put others down to make himself look better (described as arrogant and reliant on the knowledge that he would inherit everything therefore he doesn't improve himself) in addition to perhaps not being the ideal warrior that Leopold ideally wants (he is described as lazy and we only hear about him getting his ass handed to him in Hopes) and this combination may have manifested in him tormenting Caspar in some way from an early age, but Caspar either may not want to unpack this or could have had his feelings dismissed and moved on.

Leopold, on the other hand, is a much more clear-cut case on both accounts.

First off: yes this is a fantasy medieval world, but we know that Caspar has been subjected to an insane training routine from an early age, which in my opinion definitely counts as physically abusive. Children need exercise, yes! But Caspar truly seems to be aware that his training routine that he has been doing for as long as he can remember is less... healthy exercise, and more like torture. He even warns others against it, but says he is used to it so "he is fine". Children's bodies are developing and extreme strain can be so harmful to them! So Leopold either didn't know any better (which is bad and neglectful and stupid) or knew what he was doing but just didn't care because it was more important to train Caspar to be a good soldier (which is also bad, malicious and cruel)

Speaking of which, Caspar has it ingrained in his head that being a soldier is all he's good for. Not just that, but the perception he has taken away growing up on House Bergliez is that as a Crestless second son he is "completely expendable" in his father's eyes. In addition, we know from his Hopes support with Ferdinand that this all actually leads him to have an identity crisis near the end of the war as he feels like he has no other purpose in life (and to be critical of the fact that this purpose he has been pursuing all along is not even something beneficial).

This is not to mention his self-esteem issues when it comes to his skills outside of his realm of expertise. He describes himself as being "useless" and "hopeless" at anything that isn't "tying his own shoelaces" which is just so, so sad, but we also know is not true! He has many dormant talents! He goes from being a terrible cook to being a really good baker in his support with Mercedes, for one! He says he is an excellent dancer!

Caspar also blames himself for his father's actions that he has an uneasy conscience about (Petra, Shamir...) and while these actions are not directly related to Leopold's parenting per se, the fact that Caspar is so predisposed to bear the guilt and weight of actions that aren't his says a lot about how he perceives himself and his place in his family. When he was brought up to believe he is not important or valued as an individual, it makes it much more difficult to separate himself from the consequences of actions he had no part in

Lastly: Caspar is deathly afraid of his father if he defects the Empire in Three Houses. It seems like he has no doubts that if he ever faces him in battle, he knows his father won't hesitate to kill him on the spot. This is something that can be said of many father figures in fire emblem too but just because it's the norm doesn't mean it's not fucked up!

In summary: I do not think Leopold was a good father to Caspar. His parenting was neglectful and incompetent at best (and this is being charitable) and malicious and cruel at worst, and in any case, it was wrong and harmful.

Caspar is lucky to have turned out as relatively well-adjusted as he did thanks to his support system, in the form of Linhardt since his early childhood, and other friends and allies when he enrolled in the Academy—which is incidentally why I think Hopes is the worse story for everyone since so many characters needed the Academy arc to meet new people and situations that challenged their perception of the world (but that's a topic for another day)

Sorry for the long answer but I hope my analysis makes sense!

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marshmallowprotection · 1 year

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I'm not sure if this has been done already, but how would Saeran cope/react with me, who has depression which really affects my mood? I get really low and even though I don't mean to, snap at people sometimes. I get annoyed so easily, and when I'm quiet people tell me I look cold-faced and (even though it's a joke) bring everybody down with me.

Sometimes I feel like I just don't know how to function with these feelings, and I have to run away and be by myself in my room.

And then hours later, I go and apologise to everybody I lashed out at. With so much shame.

...ugh. T_T

GE Saeran understands what it feels like to have mood fluctuations.

How many times has he struggled to talk about what's going on inside his head? It's a lot more often than people think. Even though he has figured out that it's going to take some time before he can look at himself in the mirror and be happy with the person he sees, that doesn't mean it's a cakewalk.

Even if you know everything you need to do to make things better, it doesn't mean that your mood is going to match that.

You can have everything you need to be able to learn from your struggles but that doesn't mean that your emotions and body can keep up with that. Self-awareness can make it rather hard to get to where you need to be. You beat yourself up because you know what you need to do, but your body and mind may not be fast enough.

Sometimes it's easier when you're not aware what's going on with you because then you don't have to deal with the acknowledgment that there's just too much to think about. But, a part of getting to where you need to be is becoming aware of what you have to work on. Holding yourself accountable for your actions when you have a bad day is also important.

What matters in this situation is that you are aware that you are struggling and that it may not be easy for people to be around you. But, just because you know that you have struggles doesn't mean that you need to throw yourself away from the rest of the world so that you never hurt somebody again.

We are only human. That means that we are bound to make mistakes and hurt other people whether we meant to do it intentionally or not. What counts is that you have people who understand you and want to be there for you even when it gets tough. Where would he be if you weren't willing to fight for him in the first place?

You gave him a chance so why wouldn't he want to work with you in the same way?

He isn't the kind of person who would judge somebody for struggling with their mental health.

He is the very essence of somebody who has struggled time and time again but has found out that he's worth fighting for. You are just as much worth fighting for as he is. It may not be something that you want to believe but it's true. You are worth the fight and the time and energy that goes into it.

Just because you make a couple of mistakes along the way doesn't mean that you don't deserve a chance to be happy even on the worst days.

He is the most patient person you've probably ever met. He doesn't rush you nor does he ask you to do things that you're not ready to do. He sits down and waits for you to do what you need to do. If you need time by yourself, he will walk away. If you need him to be there, he's not going anywhere.

Anything you need to accommodate the situation he will take care of. He knows that you would do the same thing for him so why shouldn't he put in the same effort for you? That's just the thing. When you're in a relationship where both people struggle with their mental health, you have to go both ways to work together.

Sometimes that means you're taking care of each other when you're both having a bad day or just one person to another.

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between-the-pages-ofa-book · 2 years

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The newest argument that I've seen lately that bothers me enough to make a post about is that the MCU is taking competent teenagers from the comics and making them incompetent so that an adult hero can take them under their wing and save the day. The first this argument was made for was Peter and then a few weeks ago, I saw that it was made about America.

I'll do America first since I have less to say about her:

America Chavez is a 15-16 year old girl who has been living on her own for approximately 8 years. She, by her own account, has travelled to 73 universes and survived them all. She may not be able to control her powers but if she was incompetent, like these arguments make her out to be, she would've have survived. In the end, she does gain control of her powers and she is the one who saves the day in the movie about Doctor Strange. Stephen even makes it a point that "this whole time, you've taken us exactly where we needed to go." Her meeting Stephen was chance and while he did protect her and make sure she lived long enough to get to that point, her saving the day was all on her. Stephen didn't tell her how to open the portal to the other world, she figured that out on her own.

Now, onto the hill I will die on: In what world is Peter Parker shown to be incompetent?

The argument is that Peter relies too much on adults--Tony then Mysterio then Strange--to save the day when that is simply not true.

Let's go back to Captain America: Civil War. Tony seeks Peter out because the spider kid is saving the day and he's impressed. Tony recruits Peter because of his abilities and his skills. Peter then goes on to hold his own against a team made up of 2 super soldiers, a trained soldier in a flying suit, the world's top marksman, a witch, and a man who can shrink or grow in size depending on what he needs at the time. Sure, our understanding is that Tony knew that Peter wouldn't have gotten hurt because none of that team would have hurt a kid but the point is that he still held his own and managed to beat 2 of this team. He even devises the plan to get Giant Man down.

Then we have Homecoming. Yes, he has the fancy suit that Tony made for him but the entire point of this movie is to show that Peter is more than the suit. Peter fights against Vulture and even has a building fall on him and has to get up. Peter did that all on his own. Peter saved the day without Tony.

Next is Avengers Infinity War and Endgame. Peter sees the action from the school bus and joins in. Peter then manages to stow away to space. Once again, we see Peter coming up with the plan to save Strange. Peter is an active part of this movie and helps to try to save the day. Yes, he has the Iron Spider suit to keep him from dying from not being able to breathe in space but once he's there, he doesn't necessarily need it. It's just an added bonus. When he comes back after the Blip, Peter is the one who keeps the gauntlet for a good bit of that fight. Yeah, he has help from Steve and the group of women along the way but Endgame was a team effort.

Next, we have Far From Home, the first movie directly dealing with the aftermath of the Blip and we see Peter grieving for Tony. All Peter wants to do is go on a field trip and ask out MJ. He doesn't want to do any superheroing because he's 16 and hasn't had a good time of it lately. Fury shows up and gives him orders, the same way he would have if that was Captain America or Black Widow or Hawkeye standing there. People argue that Peter turned to Mysterio as another sort of father figure, when in fact, it was Mysterio who sought out Peter because of EDITH and ended up using him. This entire movie was Peter needing to learn to trust his instincts rather than relying on the tech that he was given. In the end, it's Peter's own spidey-sense and instincts that saves him.

No Way Home is the movie that existed to break Peter down so we could see what he's made of. Peter sought Strange out to help with college not for himself but for MJ and Ned because it wasn't fair to them that they couldn't get into their dream school because of their association with him. Stephen felt bad for the kid and did the spell but he didn't have as big of a role in this film as everyone thinks he did. Sure, I joke about him adopting Peter but Stephen was really more of a plot device to bring in Raimi Peter and TASM Peter and their villains to our world. This movie existed to remind us that Peter is a good hearted, kind, superheroic person. It's why he wanted to help "fix" the villains and send them home rather than letting them go back home to die. Even after one of them directly kills Aunt May, he continues wanting to help them. He almost kills Green Goblin out of rage and grief but the older version of him stops him and we see Peter go onto make the ultimate sacrifice of letting the world forget about him to stop the rest of the spiderverse villains from coming through. It's Peter who saves the day, not Stephen, and while he had help from the older versions of himself, they didn't save the day either--Peter did. We even see that at the end of the movie, Peter is managing to be smiling and surviving. He's making it. He made his own suit since he no longer has the Stark tech to use. He's still going out and being our friendly neighborhood spiderman that we all know and love. And he did this on his own. Peter may have gotten help along the way but his own movies thus far have existed to show that he is competent on his own.

My question is: Why is it so bad for the teenagers to get help from the older, theoretically more responsible adults?

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