#heart back. maybe that's enough?

[lovinggreeniehours]

also also not to be unhinged about arifer but takahara in og s1 with the shard of the night dagger?? him swearing up and down that he'll do it if he has to. he'll kill luc.ifer if he has to. he holds onto that knife like a lifeline. he even gets close. the blade is just a hair away from his throat. he calls it a warning. in og s2, the time to use it actually arrives. he needs to kill luc.ifer and absorb his lifeforce into the blade, and he hesitates. he hates himself for hesitating, but is relieved beyond words when he is interrupted. in nb, he doesn't have it. in his hands is an unremarkable rapier he picked off a suit of armor in cocy.tus hall. that is what he uses to stab the perfectly crafted illusion of luc.ifer trying to kill him. he hesitates, but he is alone, and he doesn't have time. he needs to stab it again to see if it truly has eyes. to see if it'll breathe with holes in its lungs, to see if its illusion of a heart will beat or stop just to torture him a bit more. he doesn't have time, but he stops to look at it. to hold it. he can't help himself if he grasps its cold, seemingly dead hands like a lifeline, as if starving and desperate. as if he were clinging onto the real thing. he needs to know if there was even anything trying to kill him or if it was all in his mind. he never finds out, eventually overtaken by the panic of being chased and forced to leave. he comes out of the water covered in blood. he doesn't know whose it is. later on though, he discovers that he doesn't have blood at all anymore. after all the problems resolve themselves, takahara goes home. there, he finds enough peace and quiet for the nightmares of his delayed victory to seep through

#i think about them a lot........ #they are the knife and the heart. he has his heart but he Is his heart. these are very important themes in their dynamic #side note i guess but despite the nightmares and the trauma they are quite happy to be reunited again. he found nightmares but he got his #heart back. maybe that's enough? #ari.stuffs #it's too easy to hate you and hard to love.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i think i need a lobotomy

#weee single hued barn because i Couldnt Be Fucked! #also i Do love single hue things. it always looks tasty <3 #and its a fun little exercise in values! or something! am i making excuses! maybe! #anyway im back on my Putting Guys In Outfits bullshit #theres not enough barnaby art.... #theres not enough Handsome barnaby art.... #scribble garnish #welcome home puppet show #welcome home #barnaby b beagle #hes my everythinggggggg #cant wait to see him get Fucked Up 🕺 Fucked Up 💃 Fucked Up 🍻 #every day i wake up and look at the teeny tiny barnaby in the teeny tiny heart shaped locket In My Mind #Also. an aside. a Thought i had while doodling. #a Genuine Curiosity musing. #i wonder what kinda drinks the neighbors would favor... #what would they order at a bar if they could go to one... #im soooo fucking curious guys im. I WANNA KNOW #what drink should i have put in barn's hand. hm. This Question Will Forever Haunt The Depths Of My Skull

[lotus-pear]

regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :') #the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!'' #and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Been thinking about the X-Files recently. A show I have a hazy, but fond memory of.

#the x files #x files #fox mulder #dana scully #poorly drawn x files #is this going to be a thing? maybe? #iirc: The x-files is about two FBI agents who are trying so hard to be professional and not fall in love. And everything is a conspiracy. #...It *has* been nearly a decade since I saw the x files. I think I'd have a hard time rewatching for a few reasons but I did enjoy it. #This was initially just a work doodle I wasn't going to clean up #but the amount of x-files fans that Ive seen about + Lazycranberryart's wangxian x-files art got my brain too fired up. #Mulderscully vibes are like: "I'm her silly rabbit. she doesn't call me that outloud. But I believe in my heart it's true.' #Its about having faith and trust in each other! They might not always agree either but they have each other's backs! #Scully is 100% the one that kills the spiders in the relationship. Mulder wants to rescue them but his ideals aren't strong enough #Girl Daddy and Baby Girl Boy. That's who they are to me.

[quirkle2]

ritsu!

[teru] [mob] [reigen]

#qkdraws #id in alt #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #ritsu kageyama #mp100 ritsu #holding onto my space-motif ritsu very closely #i know this is very similar to my other piece of space-motif ritsu but consider . uhm. oh hey whats that over there go look at it #idk why but i like the idea of the ''arrow'' he uses not being sharp like traditional arrows #it is shaped like a rectangle at the end it is simply a shaft of energy. it doesn't need to be sharp it's created using psychic power #the center of the rings always aligns with his heart no matter where he's pointing #i like to imagine this thing makes a low airy humming sound when he has the arrow drawn back. energy building up waiting to be released #if he gets good enough maybe one day he can make the arrow a homing one !

[designernishiki]

it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now

#I think on another level he was sorta saying like ‘hey kiryu. you’re making it extremely clear that you don’t trust me and my intentions #and I’ve been trying to show you- over and over again- that I’d do just about anything for you and your safety #but I can’t just let my mask fall off in front of everyone- I need to keep up the unpredictable morally grey wildcard act for both my sake #AND yours. because disguising my helping you as crazy random violent outbursts and weird stalker behavior #is the only way I CAN help you. do you think it would go over well with shimano or literally anyone else if I was outright helping you out #of the kindness of my heart and fondness for you? stop being so fucking dense and look past the crazy wacky nonsense for a second and #maybe you’ll realize that all I do at the end of the day- really- is help you and put my own life and reputation on the line for you. #I am an honest guy when it comes to my real values and when I told you I wouldn’t let anyone kill you unelss it was myself- I meant it. #I’ve taken a knife and a bullet for you now. can you REALLY not see through the act yet? am I REALLY that unpredictable when you think about #it?’ #that was a longer explanation than i intended but. it was difficult to put into words #I basically feel like it could be read as him implying kiryu shouldn’t backstab the people who put themselves on the line to help him #and/or pointing out that he’s never actually done kiryu dirty and has stuck to his word protecting him in the ways he can #trying to say yeah all this is a crazy act and all but when it comes down to it you Can trust me #it really makes sense when you think about it that he’d have to help kiryu/show affection towards kiryu in unpredictable convoluted ways #at that point in time because. I mean. there’s a reason he was the only person who showed up to welcome kiryu when he got out of prison #and that’s because A) he sticks to his word and his loyalty to people he cares about and B) no one else had the balls or the batshit insane #mask to wear to ward off anyone asking real questions like majima did. because ANYONE associating themselves with the supposed #patriarch-killer was a HUGE NO-NO at the time. someone important showing up for kiryu and welcoming him back outright could’ve caused #all-out warfare probably. except majima. because majima was dedicated and smart enough to use his widely-feared wildcard persona #(that everyone tended to view as incapable of having any Real agenda to worry about) to his And kiryu’s advantage #does that make sense??? I feel like it makes a lot of sense if you get it to click in your head #kazumaji #majima #kiryu #yakuza #kiwami 1 #yk1 #rambling

[qqueenofhades]

The extent to which the tankie-lite "America Has A Magic 'Stop Everything Bad in the World' Button and Biden Just Refuses to Push It Because He Doesn't Want To!" mindset has infiltrated this website, even among supposedly sensible people, continues to be alarming.

#hilary for ts #politics for ts #i don’t know how to tell you that is not how things work #and that threatening not to vote for biden (you know the same as for the last 4-5 years) is yet again #not the Magical Progressive Antiwar Flex you think it is #everything will become uncounted orders more terrible for everyone if biden loses in 2024 #i cannot stress this enough #but when needing to perform for Progressive Woke Points in new ways #we get the “okay vote for democrats down ballot maybe but ugh i can't bring myself to vote for biden” #and i say this from the bottom of my heart: shut up ❤️ #read the 2025 project #and get back to me #cool? bye.

[quietwingsinthesky]

i do love canon amy & rory but god, does some part of me wish they really had gone with the idea of the doctor picking up a child as a companion (and then later, that child’s best friend with a huge crush on her.) with the rest of the season really not changing at all, except now it’s amelia pond with an angel in her head killing her and lost alone in the woods. it’s little rory who dies and is forgotten and becomes a toy soldier. if this is going to be a fairy tale, then let it be one. children have never been safe in fairy tales.

#it wouldn’t have to change any of the actual plot of the season. except MAYBE amy’s choice but even then i think amy’s choice would be the #one episode where they should be adults. if only for the half where they live in a village in that dream. #because that’s the kind of future that children would dream up. they live in a little cottage and nothing ever goes wrong and their best #friend visits them all the time even though they’ve grown up. #they aren’t actually adults there just children with an idea of what they should be as adults and acting accordingly #and it would still end the same way. #but idk its just. rory’s 2000 years waiting for amy inside the pandorica is already tragic. yes. #now imagine its a kid. a kid in a little roman soldier helmet who will never grow up. who will not leave his best friend. #he loves her and she’s more important than the whole universe and that sort of love is supposed to MEAN something in a fairy tale! #its supposed to melt the ice out of hearts and transform people from stone. #and what that love means here. is that he will have to wait 2000 years. a child and a box. #little rory and the amelia who followed the doctor’s letters to the pandorica. and she doesn’t recognize him again. #and amelia in the pandorica… 2000 years a child trapped in a small box waiting to be rescued. #s5 is already fucked for them but it could be worse. it could be so much worse. #and it would make the doctor choosing to take her place in the pandorica to save the universe later even better. #because who else but the doctor would put the fate of the universe on the shoulders of two children and realize much too late what a #monstrous thing he’d done. and still have to hope. have to hope. that amelia would remember him fondly enough to bring him back to reality. #the logistics of all of this would have been a pain lmao. child labor laws in acting and all that. #BUT. hypothetically. it would have slapped. #doctor who #amy pond #rory williams #<- also this entire time ive been referring to him in my head as rory pond so much that i fuckin. forgot his actual last name. #and then like if you want them to be adults in s6 or whatever you can just timeskip to them getting married and still have amelia remember #the doctor there. it would work. it would. #amelia pond au

[bylertruther]

society if the duffers had gone through with their original plan to have mike go to the upside down in s1 to find will

#byler #it's enough for me to know that he WOULD but i still would have liked to see it........ but i guess there's still s5..... sniffles n cries #when will's ankle gets caught in a vine n vecna goes YOINK n u just see mike's eyes go crazy wide as he starts sprinting after him faster #than he ever has tripping stumbling falling in a very mike fashion but he keeps going n he doesn't make it in time but it doesn't matter #it doesn't matter bc he's NOT going to lose will again he's NOT going to lose him on HIS watch a-fucking-gain he won't he CAN'T #and maybe it's a party affair so he looks back at lucas n dustin who are almost there and they're screaming after #him BECAUSE MIKE WAIT STOP MIKE WE DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT WEAPONS but mike just furrows his brow and goes in #bc he's the heart he's the paladin he's going to lead them and he's going to save will because will needs him but also he needs will #and. and um. well. then i fucking die of course #OR COULD U IMAGINE IF will goes on a solo mission and he thinks he's managed to sneak away but mike pops up like 'what are you doing? 🤨' #bc he always sees will and he always knows when something is up and it's a crazy plan but they did say crazy together and that they'd be a #team no matter what and that they would kill vecna so liek. do u see what im saying are u seeing my visions are u feeling my insanity rn . #they get surrounded or trapped somewhere and will casts fog cloud n saves the party like he did in a previous campaign. etc etc #dustin is their bard who has snacks n keeps things lighthearted mike leads the way n will is at his side n lucas is their eyes n ears n it' #almost like one of their campaigns bc the show started with that and those were their roles when will was missing and now it'll end #like that and so on n so forth. nods mhm mhm #takes deep breath ok back 2 studying i go byeeee

[kafkaguy]

character wrapped 2023 💥

tagged by @davidtennantpussytulpa ^-^ i didn't know how many to do so i copied tara and did top 10. i know the severance guys are Four Of Them but i can't separate them theyre all equally important to me

will graham (hannibal), em haywood (nope), aziraphale (good omens), mark & dylan & helly & irving (severance), hawkeye pierce (mash), martha jones (doctor who), ivan karamazov (the brothers karamazov), kim kitsuragi (disco elysium), stewy hosseini (succession), ruescott melshi (andor/rogue one)

i will tag... @fagician @britomart @libraryfag @roadwhores @majorbaby @globuspolski @hadleyfraserfaggot @tenderscience if u want to ^-^

#and now i will explain them all in detail #cos i started watching hannibal back in like. january or february and will immediately set up camp in my head and started to settle there #*I* pay rent to *HIM*. he lives there permanently. sweating and monologuing constantly #em was not only the character of 2022 but also of 2023 and of 2024 and the rest of the decade and all decades to come #she had such an impact on me keke palmer's performance will live with me forever and i love nope so fucking much #i almost didnt include her because nope was more of a last year obsession. but she lives on #aziraphale.........no comment #severance.......i love them all so much and at first i wanted just irving and then just helly and then i realise i cried over mark this week #and then i realised i couldnt possibly leave out dylan when hes probably my favourite character. so then i settled for all of them #hawkeye is my fucking wife. enough said #martha... well i knew i had to have a doctor who character. i thought maybe the doctor but then i thought their companions mean more to me #sometimes at least. i did have a fourteen icon for a while but then i was like but Donna..... and then i thought. well #these past few months at least martha jones has been eating away at my heart. i go batshit insane when i think about her #her impact. her grace. her power. so she had to go on the list.it was a toss up between her and donna for sure though #then i figured i had to include a karamazov since reading that book took up half of my year. and ivan was my favourite of the 3. so <3 #kim goes without saying. literally nothing to be said hes the character Of All Time. to me #stewy also goes without saying ive had so many Stewy Save Me moments since the beginning of season 4 all the way to the end of the year #i miss him every day. he is the moment. i wish there was more of him all the time #and the last one is a bit of a wildcard cos all my insanity abt melshi has been on my andor sideblog. #but rest assured ive been thoroughly Not Normal about him. he literally side appears in 4 episodes and has 11 total minutes onscreen #but i love him. so much. and hes occupied most of my thoughts since september. once again his impact his power his grace. his homosexuality #enough said. that's all. thanks for reading. this was a great year for autism and madness #tag game #🍪

[erdasmcnonsense]

Okay I know it's not guaranteed by any means, and it's common enough for reds to survive a good while after turning red, but wouldn't it be funny if Martyn were to also be the first out of the game in Secret Life? The canary curse broken by the previous winner because the Watchers are just that done with Martyn's shit by now or whatever

#also like. correct me if i'm wrong but i don't think anyone has so far managed to get a full like #first to yellow first to red and first out -series #like jimmy's the first out every time but i don't think he's ever been the first to lose each of his lives #so it'd be sorta funny from that perspective too to see martyn manage the full set y'know? #and again. i recognize it's not necessarily gonna happen. but i don't think it's that unlikely either #both from what i've observed of martyn's episodes and from what i think i've seen him say himself #i think the no heart regeneration thing is fucking him over in this one because his typical style of play is so reckless #like if you think back. in other games plenty of times he's survived shit with just a few hearts and been able to hide somewhere to heal #now those hearts are just gone until he can complete his task/unless someone gifts him (and even then they might not cover all his lost one #so like it's not guaranteed. maybe martin will now learn to be cautious because he has enough to lose #but then again it is possible that he just doesn't and has bad enough luck that he's out first #martyn inthelittlewood #trafficblr #secret life

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

had a human au thought of Barnaby and Wally. idk doing their taxes or going through bills together since they share a house & Barnaby going "hey we could get married for tax benefits and health insurance. wait no what if i want to marry Howdy someday? it's illegal to be married to two people." Wally goes "we could get divorced" and Barnaby gets legitimately sad like:

#wally: uhhhhhh. um. i think i left the oven running #barnaby: YOU DONT BAKE- GET BACK HERE AND ANSWER THE QUESTION #in human au barnaby's ideal world he can marry both his platonic life-partner And the love of his life #but the american government says No smh #my heart goes out to polyams everywhere #fuckkkkk getting unwell about this aus barnaby and wally again everyone #like i have so many different little plot lines and mini aus for the au #like what if there was a covid arc? #in my mind lockdown happens while wally is Elsewhere #so he cant exactly get back home! and obviously no one is happy about that but wally is dealing well enough #but barnaby's like 🥺 my lil buddys out there all on his own and im alone here so im gonna call him every day #(also i like to think that howdy spends lockdown w/ barn or vice-versa but this aint about that) #wally: vibing #barnaby: a bit of a wreck #absolutely unprompted #wh modern human au #but then also Angsty Thoughts of yo when they all get old uhhh who dies first #and In My Mind! they both die within a few days of each other #maybe barnaby goes first and wally just. pines away. broken heart syndrome babey! #also having soft thoughts of them when they first became friends #barnaby taking him to the farm and introducing him to the animals <3 #wally trying to help out with morning chores after a sleepover <3 #ms. beagle absolutely adoring wally and always having his favorite snacks In Stock for whenever he comes by <3 #that one time barnaby broke somebody's jaw for going a little too far w/ insulting wally & almost got expelled <3 #mannn they're so! honestly goals #oh and later on when they have their own place wally having his own lil art studio #and barnaby continuing to be his go-to muse <3 #wally probably has so much fuckign art of barnaby lmao #OHHHHH AND THE CAR CRASH ARCCCCC DONT EVEN GET ME FUCKIGN STARTED #EMOTIONS CENTRAL THAT IS

[the-darklings]

I had a thought for an AU for tibyim:

An alternate universe where whoever cursed the Wanderer- after seeing her do everything possible to save The Dreaming and numerous others- sees this as her redeeming herself and changing her curse into a gift where she can still walk dimensions but is able to do so painlessly and is finally able to have a home. Her moniker changes from The Wanderer to The Traveler.

#okay. #okay. okay #'we all change' and maybe they've done enough good helping thousands over her long lifetime to pay back the wrongs done #byeee. my heart. think about the sheer relief and happiness jsdsdhjdsksdhg #i'm biting my fist right now. your mind anon #asks #fic: today i bury you in me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Sorry I'm a bit late on this, but I just wanted to say congrats on finishing season 1 !! 🥳

LOSING MY MIND AT HOW PERFECT THIS IS!!!!!! THANK YOU PIO!!!!! B'*)

#fanart #This is so so so sweet...seriously thank you so much for everything pio #I'm ENTRANCED!!!!!! I've been ponyfied!!!! with the boots and cutie mark to match!!!!! #you're a huge inspiration in so many ways B'''*) #And the little creatures...they are so small but so perfectly shaped #Miss apple is PERCHED. Little Wangji is BRAIDING. Little WWX is living his best life (that face is..so cute) #little jing lin and fairy....aughh my HEART #and of course the lan junior duo.....standing smiling and standing silly. As they should be. #They are also height accurate to canon form <3 #I was wating for someone to point it out but...there's a reason everytime I draw them next to flowers they are small B*) #all pd-mdzs characters are ~5-7 cm tall. They are like little fairies. I was serious every time I referred to the little strands as antenna #Rather they are like little borrowers. They have little mouse paws and tails. little mouse noses. Fine little whiskers. In my heart. #the more you know! #(I will draw them as the creatures they deserve to be. One day.) #On a meta level they are also very small. Each square panel is 1/4 of a sticky note. about 8 comics fit on one page. #Scrolling back up to look at Pio's art again to remember what its all for. That living is worth it. #Kissing this art gently and accidently hitting the post button to let these beautiful creatures roam the world wide web. #Maybe I should draw my sona as a horse for a bit... It would solve my problems about not having enough horses to draw....

[catzgam3rz]

The Jimmy Solidarity blog that I rp with is a deepdark mooshroom hybrid with tiny little wings and that concept seems like something you'd enjoy (deepdark mooshroom+ u like moobloom him n all)

Right on the money with that dear anon >:D! This is a little Deep Dark Mooshroom concept I doodled a couple days ago! I'm planning on using it for Red Dlsmp Jimmy!

#rambles #my art #answered asks #minecraft #mcyt #mooshroom #deep dark #mineblr #to the jimmy rper mentioned you are so cool for making him a deepdark mooshroom I love you #also drawing skulk is the work but I think this gets the idea across well enough #rambles about the cow concepts ahead you've been warned #that is indeed a skulk shrieker on its back they are like moving alarms #idk concept wise I think they'd probably be attracted to sound but not make any themselves. theyre also not hostile themselves #i feel like they would have a rare chance of spawning in the deep dark and a slightly higher chance when killing a cow near a catalyst #but they'd only have like 1-2 hearts due to that they are concept wise literally kept alive by skulk #also maybe they could be healed? i like that idea. put a saddle or smthn on it to block the skulk shrieker lol

[lightasthesun]

merthur love confession but make it river song style!!!

When you love the Doctor, it's like loving the stars themselves. You don't expect a sunset to admire you back! And if I happen to find myself in any danger, let me tell you... the Doctor isn't stupid enough or sentimental enough and he is certainly not in love enough to find himself standing in it with me...

River is Merlin. Merlin is River. Arthur is the Doctor.

#River is the blueprint for dramatic love confessions that make your heart ache #obviously the word choice would be different but!!! #merlin already doubts his importance to arthur #now imagine merlin being held captive or smth and arthur (and maybe the Knights) showing up to rescue him #MEANWHILE MERLIN IS TAUNTING HIS CAPTOR THAT ARTHUR WOULD NEVER COME FOR HIM #hes just a lowly servant #the king might be his best friend but he's been told often enough Arthur does not feel the same much less anything more than that #and merlin is quite alright with just admiring his golden king in all his glory and wit and courage and burning love for his people #you wouldn't expect a sunrise to admire you back #he's as dark and endless as the night and whatever his existence may be worth its nothing in comparison to Arthur's #who's mere existence pushes merlin into the background like the night retreats to mske space for the sunrise #anyway #SOMEBODY'S DO SMTH WITH THIS #i need a semi love confession from merlin to an outsider and arthur listening in #merlin bbc #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #merthur #arthur pendragon