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luvsuperboard · 1 year

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lee felix, the fuck did you put in the brownies?

pairing: besties!ot8 x gn!reader

contains: crack, cursing, dramatic ass besties bc they’re skz, mentions of weed (mdni).

‼️: remember this is just an scenario and humor, don’t take anything seriously!!

note: I LOVE MAKING THESE, it’s so fun KDJD. btw thank you sm for all the likes and reblogs for “comfort meal” i really appreciate it <33

you were in your room, chilling like a villain –yes, like the movie descendants, what about it– and like the cool person you are when you started to feel dizzy. kind of nauseous although you still felt… relaxed? it was a weird feeling. your head felt heavy and your stomach was growling even though you weren’t hungry, you had eaten moments ago.

you quickly stood up and ran to the bathroom, facing the mirror you took a look at your face; your eyes looked tired and droopy, which was weird since you had gotten a good sleep the night before…

this could only mean one thing, well, you could either be turning into a zombie or you were intoxicated by food –yea let’s go with the second option. your thoughts about zombies and unexplainable things like aliens and stuff are for other story.

back to your illness. you walked around your room, from the bed to the bathroom, from the vanity to the window. still thinking about what could’ve gotten you sick. you decided to go with an elimination process.

“okay… let’s see” you sat on the edge of your bed, frowning as you looked at the floor “yesterday…for dinner, cereal!” yea that couldn’t be, it was normal for you to eat that.

“this morning i had a toast? yea that can’t be” your hand went to your chin as you hummed, your eyes squinting as you tried to remember what else you ate that wasn’t usual or inside your comfort zone.

“today the guys came over… hyunjin brought wine, han brought cheesecake and felix brought brownies but- hold on” finally, good lord.

“SHIT SHIT SHIT!” mhm, a gut feeling was telling you this had to do with felix.

you quickly grabbed the jacket that was in your kitchens counter and looked for your car keys in the cabinet they were usually in but oh right, you were dizzy, and yea that didn’t help at all. it only caused your head to spin more.

“fuck it, they’ll have to come” you patted your pockets looking for your phone, when you opened it you went straight to the phone app’s keypad type felix’s number.

“beep…beep…beep… hi, it’s felix! please leave your message-”

“AGH, YOU KNOW WHAT? FORGET IT, YOU STUPID ANSWERING MACHINE” okay this wasn’t that deep yet you were getting anxious. but it’s okay we have a second option again.

“i swear to god if this man doesn’t respond” you looked through your contacts and found him; ‘mf with the big ass’.

“HELLO, THIS TIME IM NOT CALLING TO ASK FOR MONEY OR YOUR WORKOUT ROUTINE. PLEASE TELL ME WHERE IS FE-”

“oh hey y/nnnnn~” oh god.

“UM, HI? ANYWAY CAN YOU PLEASE TELL FELIX TO ANSWER MY-”

“felix? oh my! you like him? wowww i always knew you did! i mean im lowkey better but- HEY GIVE IT BACK!”

“NO! WAIT HYUNG WHY ARE YOU CRYING, I JUST TOOK THE PHONE? EW IS THAT DROOL? OH, UHH HEY Y/N!” you sighed when you heard a voice that sounded normal. it was jeongin, your savior.

“LISTEN JEONGIN, JUST LISTEN. BRING WHO EVER I DONT CARE IF YOU BRING THE WHOLE WOLF GANG, JUST MAKE SURE FELIX COMES”

“ALL OF US? WE WENT EARLIER THOUGH. WAIT, OH LORD YOU TOO? DO YOU NEED WATER? DOES IT MATTER IF MINHO COM-” and you hanged up.

1h later…

not four, not five but about a hundred knocks on your apartment’s door, damn. you stood up from the couch – and yes, thankfully you didn’t feel as bad as earlier but the little dizziness was still there. “comin’!”

your jaw didn’t drop because you were too frozen when you opened the door for it to even move. seven men, standing in your home’s entrance, what could be strange about it? they’ve been there before.

oh well let’s just say that one of them was SUCKING ON HIS FINGER LIKE A LITTLE IPAD KID AT HIS GROWN AGE, HOPE IS CLEAR WHO ARE WE TALKING ABOUT. then minho had a mustache drawn on his face? is this even happening? like are you living or this is just a very high quality dream?

changbin seemed normal but he looked like a teenager being forced to be somewhere they didn’t want to be, and hyunjin was lost in his own world like always, yea those two were clean.

jeongin, oh god poor thing, was struggling to keep the furry squad quiet –he had been doing that since they jumped into the car and before you opened the door– otherwise your neighbors could’ve complained.

you decided to let them in before continuing to analyze their states. “where is he.” you sounded like some mafia boss talking to their hitman when you asked jeongin the question “where is lee motherfucking felix”

“I WANNA GO HOME!” oh yea we forgot to go over the way the rest of the literal kids looked like. seungmin was another victim, the mf looked like he always did, he just had one little problem, lets say the brownies made his voice a little… “OH MY GOD, Y/N, YOU ATE THOSE LITTLE BROWN SPONGES TOO!?” louder. he was literally yelling with his whole soul, like his life depended on it. what the fuck.

the rest were okay; minho, hyunjin, jeongin and jisu- wait “WHERE IS HAN JISUNG” you asked desperately. minho was looking at his nails like some sassy king who clearly didn’t want to be there when he spoke “yea don’t worry about him, let’s say he ate some of the brownies and was too… sleepy. yea too sleepy to come”

“that’s good. i wouldn’t be able to handle him right now, also, why do you have a mustache- you know what never mind”

you sighed in relief. now let’s go back to the main topic, lee felix.

there he was, smiling like a five year old after getting a kiss on the cheek from their crush, his cheeks were flushed and his hair was all ruffled “you, chick. couch. NOW!” you were scolding him like you were his mom LMFAO. you just had to stare at the rest for them to follow felix on his way to the living room.

we’re now presenting the sane team! (aka the ones who didn’t eat the brownies) starting with… yang jeongin, lee minho, seo changbin and hwang hyunjin!!!

and the rest (the ones currently in other galaxy) are… um chan, the puppy, freckles and jisung who didn’t even come, god, imagine if he was here.

“WHO THE FUCK MADE THE BROWNIES?!” you asked while they were sitting in the living room’s sofa.

“JUST FELIX!”

“THE FRECKLED KID MADE THEM YESTERDAY, HE WAS ALONE IN THE KITCHEN, I SAW HIM!”

“don’t know, don’t wanna know” very minho from him.

“ash, it was clearly felix hyung” jeongin was trying to act mature but you could tell he wanted to laugh at the spectacle.

“WHY ARE YALL BLAMING ME?! THIS IS SO UNFAIR!” felix threw himself on the floor as he fake-cried? actually cried? what was that mf on?

“you’re the only one that bakes.”

“…”

“moving on!” you said before being beautifully interrupted by a loud ass puppy.

“Y/N DO YOU HAVE BOARD GAMES? IF SO, LET ME KNOW WHERE THEY ARE”

“just go to my room, there must be a monopoly or something under my bed, TAKE CHAN WITH YOU!” you were happy they were going to be entertained for now. lord save chan’s ears though.

seungmin had to drag chan to your room, he pulled him by one arm while the elder’s cheek was flat against the floor, you could see the line of drool his mouth left on it as the puppy looking guy dragged him. ew.

“ALRIGHT SO, CAN SOMEBODY EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT WAS IN THOSE BROWNIES THAT GOT THESE HOES,” you pointed at chan, seungmin and yourself –even though you were in your mind now– “ACTING ALL WEIRD?”

crickets. fucking crickets bruh.

“NOBODY IS GONNA SNITCH? that’s lowkey cool, aww y’all not fake, BUT I DONT GIVE A FUCK, TALK”

“WHY ME THOUGH, LIKE OKAY I BAKED THEM BUT WHY AM I THE ONE THAT PUT SOMETHING ON THEM?” felix tried to defend himself.

hyunjin snorted “the last time you made lemon pie, FUCKING PIE BRO, i found tooth paste on my slice” this time the boys bursted out of laughter.

“SHUT UP I WANTED IT TO HAVE A FRESH TOUCH”

“MINT AND LEMON AREN’T THE SAME, MY GUY” changbin intervened and jeongin like the good maknae he is didn’t waste time on bullying his elder “my guy? what are you a frat boy?”

“SHUT UP”

“and let’s not forget about the time when i found one of jeongin’s toe nails in one of your cupcakes”

“HYUNJIN WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.”

“sorry.”

“how do you even know it was mine…”

“UM BECAUSE I LOVE YOU?”

“THAT MAKES NO SENSE?”

“oh wow i see, if you loved me enough you could tell which toe nails are mine too! from far away even! we’re done.”

“these hoes are nasty bye” minho covered his face with one of the sofa’s cushions. the room was filled with the discussing voices of the guys and now you could see felix getting overwhelmed, oh lord what it’s coming.

“WEED!”

it’s the way the room went quiet as the word left the bakery boy’s mouth, everything stopped, is not like you’ve never seen or heard about weed cmon, but felix? felix + weed?

“HUH?”

“PFT HELP” jeongin started laughing like crazy, but when he heard how felix was quiet and seemed embarrassed he stopped. “oh shit, YOU NOT LYING?!”

“i’m so sorry i must’ve mistaken the brownies, i made two trays! and i didn’t decore them or anything so they all looked the same and i was in a rush because i wanted to bring something to share earlier…”

“i knew that it wasn’t me! they were good but lowkey had a weird taste, sorry lix”

minho was hitting hyunjin’s arm with his elbow, knowing that he can’t control his laughter in the worst moments. “don’t laugh bro, don’t laugh. if you laugh i’ll laugh” minho whispered to the boy. if hyunjin were drinking water that shit would’ve already be going out his nose. this duo man.

“I DONT WANT YOU GUYS TO THINK THAT I DID IT ON PURPOSE!” he pouted like a little kid stop it, but you remember he was yk… flying in the air “I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH I COULD NEVER HURT YOU OR ANYTHING I SWEAR”

“I KNOW I KNOW, IT WAS A MISTAKE I LOVE YOU TOO FELIX.” you sighed and there was silence but “BUT YOU CANT JUST PUT WEED IN A DESSERT BABY”

“WHERE DID YOU GET IT FROM? asking for a friend..” minho is such a mood. changbin in the other hand was covering his mouth, he really thought nobody saw his ass giggling.

“why would you even mix that together, ew” hyunjin said as he continued to draw on a napkin, artsy king 4L.

“OKAY I’LL EXPLAIN, STOP ROASTING ME, DAMN”

“i should’ve brought popcorn for this, shaking my head” changbin said and hyunjin smiled, giving him a high five.

jeongin gasped “DID YOU JUST- did you just say… s-shaking my h-head?! AS IN ‘SMH’ LIKE WHAT YOU TYPE IN TEXT? you’re so 2016, couldn’t be me”

“LET FELIX TALK, DAMN!” thank you minho, we love you.

the boy took in a deep ass breath “okay so, jade asked me if i could help her by making some, ahem special brownies because she was throwing a party and-“

“jade who?”

“oh, a friend!”

“you have friends?” MINHO WHY WOULD YOU.

“i’m so done i’m sick and TIRED and SICK AND DONE BYE IM-”

knock! knock!

“ugh, who is it now, i’ll go get it” hyunjin ran to the door before putting his hair on a ponytail “HELP, HELP ME!”

when you heard the screaming, all of you ran to the entrance to find a short silhouette, it was around 9pm now, it was dark outside, cold and lonely. what could a random person be doing by knocking on your door at that time?

the person was giving you their back, you couldn’t see their face nor their body since they were wrapped around what seemed like a blanket or a big ass sweater.

they let out a growl? bark? was this the beginning of a horror comedy?

“you didn’t tell me…” the person said, the man. still facing the other way. his voice was low and deep, not even felix’s sounded that way bro. at this point you could tell hyunjin had peed his pants and the rest were just as scared.

“didn’t tell you what, sir? what are you?” minho said, his voice sounded firm, he wasn’t risking it so he talked properly and with respect.

“you didn’t tell me, that…”

“WHAT PLEASE SPIT IT OUT. DIDN’T TELL YOU WHAT?” felix yelled at the guy while breathing heavily.

all of sudden the man turned around, dropping the blanket that was covering his body, letting you see the tray his hands were holding. the man had a chocolate-stained manic smile on his face? wait…

you couldn’t believe your eyes.

“YOU DIDN’T TELL ME YALL WERE HAVING A SLEEP OVER! HANNIE IN THE HOUSE BABYYYY” the quokka like guy said while doing a lil dance “BY THE WAY! THIS BROWNIES ARE GOOD AS HELL, LIX”

“SHIT”

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clemswinecorner-socials · 1 year

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artanddaddyissues · 2 years

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Any interest in the main 6 living with a MC who's disabled? One who deals with chronic fatigue and pain maybe? And how they would accommodate and support them 💖 love ur work btw (〃^ω^〃)

Omg 🥺 I’m crying I love this request sm! HERE YOU GO <3

the M6 with an M/C who is chronically ill

Heads up: this could be sensitive to some but overall its not very angsty! gender neutral M/C, M/C text is yellow

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- "Oh my gods, twins!"

- Asra is also, always tired although he is not medically diagnosed he likes to joke around with you.

- It's draining and extremely tiring for you but Asra takes good care of you when you can't.

- He lets you know that you are still capable of being independent and strong enough to stand alone but help makes life so much easier and he doesn't hesitate to give it.

- Asra constantly tries new spells, potions and charms when they learn of your diagnosis.

- "Try this, it always works for me."

- Your body has adapted to using magic meaning that you don't use it often. Only on "good" days

- Asra often uses healing magic on you in hopes to take away the pain for a while and sometimes it works!

- Your illness doesn't phase him since he's known you since forever and he' is used to living with your routine of sleepless nights, or sleeping through the day.

- He knows what to do when you're in incredible pain or when you're uncomfortable.

- "wait wait wait... you just... sleep?" "It's complicated."

- He encourages you to open up to him about your every symptom, feeling, etc....

- "Okay, I know you're always feeling under the weather, I understand what chronic means but I think I found something that might help you." "Are there any-" "No. No leeches, my love."

- Some days are worse than others and he invests all his time into you on those days. Even though your fatigue never goes away when you sleep, Julian still encourages you to rest, and keep relaxed. "Don't use too many faculties and no magic! As least for today, alright? I'll be back with some tea and medication for you."

- Very much a caretaker whenever its a bad day for you

- He loves to surprise you with gifts and take you on "dates" at home where he does all the chores, brings a meal home and surprises you with flowers, especially since you don't always feel like going out

- He's sometimes a little over protective and it takes a while for him to learn how to change that. After all, he watched you defeat the devil.

-Julian admires you a lot more than you realize for having to live with a chronic illness. Few patients he's seen actually have illnesses like yours so whenever he sees you doing... anything, he's in awe.

- "Do not disturb them."

- Basically your bodyguard, bestie and wife all in one.

- She treats you no differently. She invites you everywhere, includes you in everything and makes sure you're kept in the loop.

- Nadia knows to well what it feels like to be left out so she makes sure you're with her all the time, included in the big city projects, in the boring engagements, etc...

- Nadia likes to make you feel special, so naturally she SPOILS YOU A LOT. Jewels? Furs? Food? A new palace? Sure

- She makes sure you have access to the best doctors of Vesuvia, actually no. She makes sure you have the best doctors on the continent.

- "Are you feeling up to a walk in the gardens?"

- She loves your willingness to not let your illness define you. Much of your routine is similar to hers, and you do many things most people dont even think of doing.

- Nadia is extremely inspired by you and makes sure you're treated incredibly well at all times.

- "Wake up! Oh wait- sorry..."

- It takes a little getting used to, especially once you live together but Lucio gets the hang of it.

- He isn't used to routine but makes an effort to stick to at least your morning routine, your medication routine, etc...

-Lucio doesn't mind at ALL and encourages you to carry on with life and stay strong

-In a way, you both suffered in your lives. Your illness is chronic and Lucio lost his arm! Many jokes are made between the both of you.

- "Hey, can we arm wrestle?" "No, I'm tired." "Thats fair."

- The dogs love to be protective over you whenever you fall asleep or are in pain. Lucio hates it but eventually gets around them, cuddling up next to you.

-Similar to Nadia, he makes sure you have the best doctors he can find. You deserve the best, always!

- Lucio loves and i mean, loves to spoil you. "Bad day? Thought so. I got you this!"

- He loves the reaction he sees every time he brings you a gift or takes you somewhere. It really warms his heart to know that he's doing something right, for somebody who needs it.

-He learned a lot from you like patience, willpower and strength. You are his role model, basically.

- "We are cuddling." "But-" "I'm waiting!"

- She smothers you in love and affection always, but especially when you really don't feel well

- she makes sure you know that you're safe with her and that you can be vulnerable

- she always helps put on your medical devices, even going as far as learning how they work and what they do for you

- "Do you want a snack?" She enjoys taking care of you whenever its a bad day, good day, any day!

- She has many questions and usually asks them tentatively, "If you don't mind... Can you explain to me why exactly you're in pain? It never goes away?"

- Respect 100 <3

- She will fight someone for you if they dare look at you wrong

- She knows how strong you truly are and that just makes her melt. She is completely in love with every part of you, even the bad days when you feel like absolute crap, you're moody and tired too.

- "I'll watch over you..."

- Protectiveness 100

- He makes sure either he or Inanna has an eye on you at ALL TIMES.

- He loves taking you on walks through the forest, he believes they help you.

- Protective charms? WAY TO MANY-

- "I'm sorry if i'm a burden." His wide eyes make you regret saying that at all. "Never say that again. You're not a burden, you're my partner."

- Soft cuddles always <333

- He makes sure you know that you are so much more than your illness. He encourages you to do things, but never pushes you out of your comfort zone.

- He's like your safe space. Constantly encouraging you, reassuring you caring for you...

- "Hey, M/C? let's visit Asra- if you're up to it-" "I am, lets go!"

- He loves your outlook on life and you both have deep talks, especially late at night when you're both sleepy.

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If I got anything wrong or misunderstood anything AT ALL. TELL ME!! I want to rep everyone fairly, so if I said something a little stupid let a girl know 😭

Much love and support to the strong people out there dealing with chronic illness. <3

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bbarican · 7 months

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october 08, 2023; 11:35 am - emotional

hi tumblr! happy sunday! how are you guys naman?

ive had a super productive weekend so far and im pretty happy about it; i decided to get some work in kasi nung friday, as in nasa one ayala na ko papunta sa sakayan, sabay sabay yung reminders ng boss ko for the rest of the year and how i have to make memos na din kaagad and i figured why wait for monday if i can work on them this weekend naman since theyre pretty easy to do so here we are

besides that i also finished our outing poster para tomorrow maannounce ko na talaga even though its an open secret as my office bestie would say but im just really excited din talaga to travel with them kaya anything outing related i dont mind doing sa weekend

besides that, my family and i went to parqal last night to let our dogs roam around and i feel like they enjoyed that alot kasi nga its been awhile since we last went out for a walk with them tapos nag starbucks lang kami for dinner since there werent much options pa doon but overall it was a lovely night

and today, since im done with the heavier tasks i have on my list, im just here prepping for my next tasks on my to do list while crying my heart out over my favorite musicals and songs and im really happy, genuinely too

happy sunday you guys! i hope everyone is safe and staying hydrated since it is a bit hot today and i hope we all have a lovely sunday and new week ahead of us!

#bbarican #thoughts #personal #writings #update #list #dump

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merinate · 2 days

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gonna yap a bit bc im fucking pissed and i wanna cry, feel free to scroll it

im so fucking angry rn, like my bestie met this guy and she developed a crush pretty quickly and like ofc i understand bc he sounds really cool even tho i only saw it like twice or something and today is the second time he came to our flat to spend time with her and i get it and im so happy for her and i hope they'll become a couple, but at the same time i wish they understood that she doesnt live alone and to get out of the flat you have to go through my room and im so pissed bc it fucking 3am and hes still here and i just want to go to sleep but i dont feel comfortable with changing into my pijamas and going to bed knowing that hes gonna see me later when he finally goes home and i literally asked my bestie if its possible for him to go a bit earlier than the last time but she was just like yeah but its fine if you wanna go to sleep just go and i was like🕴🏽🕴🏽🕴🏽 i am not gonna lay in bed in my pijamas and let a random ass dude see me later when im fucking asleep, i really dont wanna be the villain here but its so fucking frustrating bc surprise you dont live alone and it would be pretty nice if you respected me a little bit, im so fucking tired and i just wanna go to sleep but i cant and im literally gonna cry in a moment

#merin’s talking

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ivyuns · 2 years

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bet on you - sunghoon

genre: angst | fluff

word count: 1.9k

warnings: plot does make sense (thumbs down), reader gets bullied, threats, mentions of self harm, your mom doesnt like sunghoon, falling off a tree, childhoon besties, blood work, bets, lmk if i missed anything

summary: sunghoon is the most popular guy at school and dates y/n as a bet. after y/n found out, she broke up w him and gets bullied. having enough, she ends the pain but brings sunghoon into pain now.

note: I WROTE THIS IN SCHOOL AND NOW SEEING IT IT LOOKS MESSY WUUWFHFFH also, a little spoiler on sunghoons part in fever? enjoy ~

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“y/n? would you go on a date with me?”

sunghoon poked you, after running across the school to find you. “huh?”

“are you serious?” you asked him. parts of you hoped this day would come, but the other part of you was unsure about this question. is he messing with you? does he even like you? shoot, you guys never talked until today.

“sunghoon, were not even close-” “nah ah ah” he pauses and sits next to the empty chair next to you. “dont you remember me from our childhood days?”

ah. so that’s where it began— your feelings for sunghoon.

your moms has been friends since the birth of you and sunghoon. sunghoon had been a year older than you and started growing up together. only until your mom had moved work across the city.

you and sunghoon were devastated, knowing it’ll be your last day with him, your lover.

the last day, you two spent the day at the treehouse in sunghoons backyard, spilling secrets to each other.

“hoon! did you hear what happened to ronnie! she—“ “yes y/n, i know. i’ve heard it from 10 different people.”

you frowned. the past days felt like sunghoon was ignoring you for no reason. “hoon, what’s wrong?” you scoot next to him, resulting him to move farther away from you, not noticing the trapdoor that was open, he fell through it.

reaching your hand to grab him saved him from falling to the hard ground, but the weight pulled you down which resulted you both falling.

crying and sobbing was heard in the backyard. the moms came out of the house to see their babies crying, thinking they had a fight and hurted each other.

“i hope to never see y/n with sunghoon ever again”

now your last year in high school came by quickly and saw him again. hoping that he wouldn’t remembered you, but things sometimes never gets planned right.

“y/n? kang y/n?”

you quickly shut your locker and walked away, hoping to get the hint. “aye y/n!” sunghoon jogged up to you and grabbed your shoulder. “hello.”

and ever since that day, you tried to ignore him. from day one of returning to school and the girls saw him with you, they threatened you to back away from him. and you respected their decision, kindly.

“y/n? hello? you okay?”

sunghoon waved his hands in front of you after staring off to space. “huh? oh, yeah i’m okay.”

“so? are we dating or not?”

“but hoon-“

oh how he tried to hide his smile after hearing his nickname from you. how badly he missed it.

“yes? okay, meet me at your favorite restaurant tonight at 6, dress pretty” sunghoon winked, leaving you alone with your decisions.

the day after the date, you two got to keep up with each other. sunghoon had always got to say ‘i love you’ and you felt bad for not returning it. of course, he understood why and said to take your time with saying love words. buy it still made you feel guilty.

so today is the day. the day where you return the feelings.

you quickly ran to the cafeteria where sunghoon would be at with his friends. smiling with a heart shaped box full of chocolate to give to him. you saw his table and hid behind a wall before surprising him.

“sunghoon? did you make her fall in love with you?” you heard jay speak. “i-i think, i don’t know. she hasn’t said i love you yet but i can see her feelings for me.” “then you know what time it is right?” sunghoon looked up and looked at his hyung. “but h-hyung! i don’t want to hurt her! she’s been through a lot and and-“

sunghoon stopped speaking as soon as he saw your crying figure behind his friend who sat in front of him. “y-y/n i-“ before the boy could continue his sentence, “let’s break up.” you said and threw the box and ran away to the restroom.

he got up but jay grabbed his wrist. “you don’t love her, right?” “fuck off, i cant hurt her again” sunghoon told him and yanked jay’s hands off, tears escaping his eyes.

the moment you entered the restroom, the door was locked and saw the bullies from earlier of the year. “fuck” you muttered. “oh hi y/n! happy to know you owned his heart and broke it? you cheated on him didnt you?” “w-what? why would i-“ she cuts you off by slamming you on a wall. “you guys know what to do.”

and that was the last thing you heard before you saw black.

sunghoon ran across the school to find you. tear streaks were now stained on his cheeks and was out of breath. y/n. y/n. was all he thought of.

asking every student to see if they ever seen you, the replies were either “who?” or “no i’ve haven’t.” stress started filling up sunghoon and eventually worry. you couldn’t have left campus. the gates are closed.

he’s on the brink of giving up until he saw ronnie and her friends. “i cant believe she would cheat on sunghoon.” is all he heard from her mouth. anger was shown.

“what the fuck did you say?” “oh sunghoon! i heard about y/n. i’m sorry that she cheated on you but you have me you kno-“ sunghoon grabbed her collar. “don’t you dare speak that way to y/n. now tell me what happened to her.”

sunghoon ran to the girls restroom and saw you in a stall wirh blood all over you. “god y/n. sweetie i’m so sorry.” he sobbed and picked you up, rushing you to the nurse.

the nurse treated your cuts and gave you treatment. the nurse told him that you’ll wake up soon. soon turned into a day, and eventually took you to the hospital.

sunghoon sat next to your bed and held your hand, begging you to wake up soon. it’s been 5 days and he was desperate for you to wake up. “y/n, please. i’m sorry.” sunghoon whispered and placed a kiss on your lips.

the door opened and revealed your mom. “sunghoon. what are you doing here?” she was surprised to see him. he seemed nervous to see your mom for the first time in a while. “i-i-“ “can you get out? please?” she told him, tears threatening to fall from her.

sunghoon nodded and slowly left the room. before he could close the door, he saw your mother wiping her tears away and muttering “im sorry”. he closed the door and sat next to your room, hoping youll just wake up soon.

the next days felt hell to him. at school, he kept getting threats. nobody knew what really happened and just made up rumors of how he bullied you until your last breathe and regretted it.

after school, he’ll come to the hospital with dirt on him, but he didn’t care. he needed to see if you were awake. your mom noticed him too. she saw how tired he was after school, how breatheless he was to run to you, how much he cared for you. the never ending tears she saw because she knew he loves and cares for you.

“sunghoon, let me talk to you.”

“you know, ever since she came to this school and she came back home, she would never do anything. she wouldn’t eat dinner with us. she would always stay in her room for what reason. she always came home in a bad mood and i’m not sure, but can you tell me? please?” your mother begged.

she wanted to help you in the best way as possible but she didn’t want things to get worse beteeen the two of you.

sunghoon was speechless. at school, he always saw you in your happiest. he didn’t know what made your mood turn into sour. his head started to hurt.

was it all the teasing he did to you? was it because of him?

“i i think it’s me, m/n. ever since i started talking to her, i’ve heard from other student that there were our classmates bothering her. because they saw i was talking to her and assumed she was flirting with me. please m/n, i never meant for this to happen. i’m so sorry” sunghoon got on his knees, begging for forgiveness.

the two were a sobbinh mess, your mom made sunghoon stand up and gave him a hug. “don’t worry honey. i can tell you care for her a lot. i know you never meant any of this. but let me tell you something.” she paused.

“she might not wake up.” sunghoon felt like the world just gave up on him. he didn’t want to exist anymore. he wanted to run away and hide.

“they said she lost so much blood. her blood seeped through the bandages so now she’s feeling really lightheaded in her sleep. the only thing we can hope for is someone who’s willing to give her blood from them with the same type.”

he felt dizzy. he felt like punching the wall. but then he remembered you two had the same blood type. he didn’t care. he was healthy and wanted to save you. “i’ll be her donor”

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the blood work made sunghoon throw up. he hated to smell and look of blood and he just wanted it to hurry up.

the doctors told him that his blood would immediately get to you, and he hoped you’ll wake up this time for sure.

the next day, you opened your eyes with bright white lights and your mom beside you. you felt your body being tense and sore at the same time. you saw blood and other medical instructions around you. oh. you thought.

your mom turned around from the tv and saw your eyes open. “y/n? you’re awake! sunghoon! she’s awake!” you saw her get up and open the curtain to see him on another bed right next to yours. your mom left to go get the doctors and you stirred away from his figure and looked at the window beside you.

“y/n.”

he kept repeating your name until he saw down next to you. he saw the tears that kept falling and your lips red from holding in your sobs. “hoon” you whimpered.

before he could bring you into his arms, your mom came in with the doctor, so he just held your hand.

he checked in on you and told you updates on your body. and thanked sunghoon for helping you wake up. your mom saw your eyes widen and looked at the boy next to you. she smiled and left you two alone for a while to get food for the three of you.

“thank you hoon.”

he finally brought you in his embrace and gave you a peck on your head. “i love you” you blurted out. sunghoon pulled away, and big smile on his face. “you what?” he teased.

you scoffed and looked the other way. “heyyy im sorry okay? genuinely. for everything. i’m the reason why you’re here in the first place.” sunghoon apologized.

“was i really a bet?” you asked. he shook his head but mentally slapped himself. “at first yes, but! i realized i do love you days after. i do really like you y/n, and i do really want to date you. not as a bet this time.”

you saw how sincere he was. you saw the love he had for you. he knew he did really love you. and you loved him too.

end.

#enhypen sunghoon #enhypen #sunghoon #sunghoon angst #sunghoon fluff #sunghoon ff #enhypen angst #enhypen fluff #enhypen fanfiction #kpop #kpop angst #kpop fluff

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justagalwhowrites · 10 months

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I promise this is my last ask today haha but what do you imagine doll, bambi, and doc to look like? i know its a reader insert but what do youuuu think they would look like?

(aka i wanna make fanart but dont wanna make it be me lmaooo)

AHHHH BESTIE!!!!!

1) send me as many asks as you want I love getting asks they make my day

2) OMG YOU WANT TO MAKE ME FAN ART?!?!?! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I have literally dreamed about people making fan art of my work WHAT?? I already want to cry and I love you.

HCs below!

Doc I was never able to find a satisfying HC for so I made her in an AI thing (which is the worst but I needed a visual 😭) her core characteristics to me are: she’s small (5’3”-5’5”) but not tiny, slim but not skinny with soft curves without being thicc. She looks very very soft and feminine, like any extreme physical hardship would just wreck her. She also has a mass of curly hair and dresses like if Jess from new girl only had a thrift shop budget.

Doll is stronger looking, about 5’7” and a little racially ambiguous (she’d blend in on Alderaan or Coruscant or Naboo or Tatooine etc.) lots of lean muscle if you know to look for it, otherwise she might come off as delicate because she moves with such grace and poise. She dresses for the part she is playing, anything from bounty hunter to queen, and she pulls it off. I HCed her as Eiza Gonzalez.

For Bambi, she looks more fragile than she is. Her mom was a society lady and she looks a lot like her mom - a bit dainty and definitely pretty (Bambi deeply resents this.) However, she’s very strong when she’s in her usual condition and not coming off of years in captivity. She wears cowgirl clothes so you can’t really tell when she’s dressed but girl has MUSCLE (she competed in multiple rodeo events before the outbreak including trick riding, bronc riding and bull riding, girl is powerful.) She’s got dirty blonde hair she keeps long because she can braid it and keep it out of the way and is the tallest of them at 5’8.” Her eyes are one of her most notable featured and are almost too big for her. I HCed her as a bit like Kiera knightly but only when her eyes are a bit wider, like here.

I HOPE THIS HELPS!

OK love you!!!! Bye!!!!

#fanfic #lavender #beskar doll #yearling #send asks #kit answers

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uni333verse · 1 year

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I manifested a random cat out of the thin air lmfao

It happened!

Few weeks ago i was telling my mother how i wanted a kitten, we have lack of cats here in our area thanks to Street dogs 💀.

I wasn't manifesting it seriously tbh, i just said i want it not i have it ( hope you are understanding wt i mean) . I also remember telling my mother how i wanted a kitten last November,, i wasn't persistent...like whenever we talked about adopting an animal/bird...i recited "i want a kitten".

So on 17th March, me and my bestie went for her haircut...guess wt happened while i was waiting outside, i heard a stray kitten meowing lmfaooo ( mind my English, it's not my mother tongue). So the kitten was crying for her mama, it was alone very smolllll and petite 😭😭😭. I had a chance to take it home but i didn't. I knew kitten's mama went outside for searching food or a new shelter. Kitten was healthy, neat and clean. So i had a sense it's better not to take it home, i asked random people if they knew the kitten has mommy or not,they were not sure. i gave my contact number to the hairdresser lady ( i know her personally) i told her if the mamma doesn't come back till tomorrow..call me I'll adopt the Lil kitten. Well i am happy i didn't receive any phone calls. it's 19 March today. Mamma definitely took her baby with herself. Maybe she was changing shelter to shelter, it's kinda rainy weather nowadays.

But bro.. isn't it fascinating i wasn't persistent i had a feeling i wanted a cat even tho i wasn't sure...

Still i manifested! i had a chance, first it was in my 4d then it was in my 3d.. now do you understand how powerful your subconscious mind can be, even if you are not sure but you have feeling you want something, it will appear in the 3D.

So please don't take manifestation seriously!! persist, have fun dont cry if it doesn't appear instantly!! It will appear soon although it is already done in your 4d.

And please it's ok to have doubts,but be persistent with your desires don't give up!!

And one more thing, this is my first successful manifestation of this year 2023 #march

#manifestation #affirming #affirmdaily #neville goddard #law of manifestation #manifesting #self concept #successfulmanifest #successtory

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larabiatasstuff · 11 months

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Hey bestie! Guess who I have a request about today?....Taligaro! I was hoping you could possibly write a scenario where you and Taligaro and very much in love, and for a quest, you and his men have to travel across a dangerous and very misty looking lake....but there's danger! Not for Taligaro or his men, but for you! The lake is hiding a whole host of mermaids and mermen, and a merman finds you at night by the side of the boat, all alone. He flirts with you, trying to get you to swim with him, but when you dont fall for it, he starts hypnotising you. He is so close to taking your hand and dragging you into the water when Taligaro saves you at the last minute! Take all the time you need bestie 💚 love you 💚

Omg Bestie you can't imagine how excited I am to write that for you 🖤It's been a while since I wrote for my beloved warrior, thank you so much for sending this request 🙏 Love you too 🤗This is part one☺️

Since Tal and I were children we were inseparable. We did everything together, going on our secret little adventures, slaying imaginary monsters and building hideouts in the forest near our village. As we grew up our bond just got stronger and we both realized that we were more than just friends, that we loved each other deeply and that we were meant to be together. When Tals father wasn't able to lead his army anymore it was his turn to continue the family tradition but despite all the other women who stayed at home crying themselves to sleep waiting for their men to return always worried they might never come back, I refused to do that. Instead I trained with his men and earned my place in their midst and by his side. Of course there would be many dangerous situations and who knows which creatures would await us on our journey but we both knew if we had to die at least we were together. After a long day ride through dark and muddy forests we arrived at a lake. I got a weird feeling just by the look at it. Yes the sun was already setting but the lake seemed darker. "Varaek and Crolok you are watching the horses. Y/N, I and the rest of us are taking the boat, it shouldn't be too complicated to eliminate those trolls that attacked the village. We will be back tomorrow evening." With that one by one got on the boat. Tal held his hand out for me and helped me get on it. As the men began to row mist surrounded the boat that we could barely see our surroundings." You're freezing my dear. " Tal said, standing close behind me rubbing my arms. "No I'm not cold Tal it's just. I have a bad feeling." he was instantly concerned "What do you mean? Are you alright Y/N?" I turned to look at him "I can't really explain it feels like we're being watched as if there are a thousand eyes on us. Does that make sense?" he smiled softly "Come here my love. Probably it's just your imagination. Our mind is playing tricks on us when we can't see our surroundings.You're safe with me. "he took me in his arms placing a kiss on the top of my head "I know Tal. Maybe you're right. Thank you." he put a strand of my hair behind my ear and gave me a soft kiss.

#thomas ian griffith #sensei targaryen #general taligaro #general taligaro x reader

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tflaw · 1 year

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Hello!! Hi!! Where do I start? How do I start?? I'm feeling like a reader lining up in a book signing event, a fangirl abt to meet her idol in a fan meeting, I'm all nervous sending this. This is totally off season hehehe it's abt ur wt. Maybe I should share with you my exp just so u can imagine y I'm feeling this way.

-> Sooo, I only got back to Tumblr in Nov, left few years back after done w college and succumbed to modern slavery of the evil corporate world and torture of guilt to be a responsible adult, (oh, it was awful *putting the back of my hand resting on my forehead like a damsel in distress* ok that was dramatic) butt yess I return just for fun. Despite no longer reading fanfic on Tumblr/AO3 I still read original works from time to time.

-> So when I was in Tumblr the first week if, I remembered I saw an illustration and I was like woahhh nice!! I'm always so drawn to historical/period/royal au fics and I thought, oh cool concept for TR and ahh Mikey is always like a King for me. Silly me, I didn't know it was a fanart by one of your readers for ur wt!!! 2 days back I read this terrible fic from elsewhere not here, historical romance and I thought what was that TR fanart abt again? I felt so dumb, I lost the post I didn't even rb it, not sure the name/title/tag used/ until 9h ago. Found it, rb the fanart, read wt on AO3, and I'm blown away. It was 10000000000% wayyyy better than what I read goodness lawd, well for me, for me u wrote better than a published writer my love!! I felt the excitement of reading another Tolkien's and reminds me of asoiaf.

-> Oh but I had another silly episode of finding u back in Tumblr, from one handle to another my silly self did not realize I've already followed you the first week for a Genshin fic tbr and only now I understood that one person sent you some Asks as a knight or something following you. Long shall you reign hehehe. Sumtg like that abt ur handle. This also I was confused I thought it was someone else's acct. 😂

Ok there. That's why I have no idea where to start or how to start. But sweetheart,this is an appreciation msg. I'm so so in love with you and your writing, wicked throne. Gosh I wanted to just sit down w u in a coffee shop/garden and just talk abt this au. Hang on this reminds me of the two besties on IG wearing medieval dresses and walk around in some European gardens in modern day 🤭 lmao. I've read all of your TR on AO3, but I had no acct there to send Kudos so I'm sending from this Ask. I've been missing sooo much since you wrote it.sighhhh

Here you go babe ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ thanks for writing so well!!! Ok this def isn't enough for all the effort, blood, sweat and tears you've put into your babies.

FIRST I DONT RLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY OMG this is such a sweet message i'm honestly so happy!! it's been a while since wicked throne has been mentioned in any of my blogs so it makes me extremely joyous receiving this ask today!!

+ yep omg wicked throne has a lot of talented artist AND I SWOON EVERY TIME SOMEONE DRAWS A FANART FOR THE FIC!! just the effort of sitting down and thinking of wanting to draw fanart for wt makes me want to cry !!

+ thank you so much for reading!! if i could i would sit down in a coffee shop w you too to talk about it!! it's a story i've been cultivating during the last few years and it's forever in my system <33 i'm just rly sad that i haven't the inspiration to continue it but it's gonna be finished one day !! thank u for ur support and rly any kind of interaction is more than enough for me so u don't have to leave kudos or anything! this ask is already a treasure to me. again thank you and i hope you're having a wonderful day!!

#from swanphantasm.#✉️: hotmail.

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starswallowingsea · 1 year

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15, 20, 25, 30 for the ask game, I'm being a menace today, also...

Only nice things on those adjectives 🥺 you deserve it you amazing humanoid

Boo!!!!!! Hissing!!!!!!! But ily I hope you're doing well tell everyone I say hi!

15. 3 quotes that have a special place in your life

This quote from Code Name Verity is like my all time favorite quote. I desperately want to grow old.

Idk if I have any others but this one sticks out so much to me I will count it three times.

20. 3 adjectives that you’d use to describe yourself

Well-spoken, thoughtful, and sleepy tired (currently anyway)

25. 3 people you’d never get tired of

Theres more than three dont make me choose. You obviously. @nozomiicchii my beloved the light of my life, @clara-momence @girlbossminerva @transactinides my besties.... I will stop there before I get carried away

30. 3 moments you could never forget

In high school we performed An American Elegy and it has a trumpet solo towards the end that I had spent weeks working on to make sure I was in tune the entire time and on the night of the performance as I finished playing in the classroom I was standing in (the score calls for the solo to sound distant so I was off stage in a classroom with the door only slightly cracked open) I almost started crying at how overcome with emotion I was.

A few years earlier I was at Mount Olympus, the theme park at Wisconsin Dells and my friends had convinced me to go on Hades360 despite my protests and after standing in line for something like 2 hours, I remember my friend next to me asking if I was having fun and I told her I was going to strangle her when we got off just as we were about to go down the first drop and she just laughed as we tipped over.

And lastly, when Kiki and I were on the bridge in her uncle's hometown, it was snowing gently and the sky was cloudy as the city lights reflected off the water and we stared out in awe. I pulled down my mask and wanted to kiss her so bad in that moment and I didn't. I should have. She looked beautiful with the snowflakes in her hair.

#message in a bottle #lunardragonqueen #okay enough waxing poetic for me #no wait im not done. that last one. if i could freeze it and live in that moment forever i would #okay? i still think about it all the time. i want to see kiki in person again so bad

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ohnoanotherfe3hblog · 2 years

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Hi uhh 👉👈 would it be ok to request a scenario with Claude? like he and the reader are best friends, and have a standing routine where they sit in his room and read together for several hours in the evening a couple times a week, and then both sleep in Claude’s bed for the night and platonically cuddle. Except the reader has fallen head over heels somewhere during this process, heart pounding out of their chest every time he puts his arms around them, and is terrified he can hear it, because the last time they were in love they were rejected before they ever had a chance to confess and that friend left them, so they now feel like their affection is disgusting, and they’re afraid it’s going to happen again because Claude is so intuitive and they’ll lose him. So maybe like after they finish reading one day one of them brings the reader’s feelings up, and then Claude starts to understand and reassures them and they have a nice little kiss.

if this is too long no worries and my bad💀💀 Hope the vibes in your life are funky today

A/n : tumblr user its-claude-time your brain is massive. Also thank you for the funky vibes, I hope you also have a funky day!

Claude💛🦌💛

Its quiet in Claude's room in the dorm and, usually, that's welcome. But the silence stretches while your thoughts spiral. The soft smile on Claude's face, the light from the window, his slightly messy hair, you were a bit overwhelmed.

When you guys began this little arrangement it had been because you had stayed a little too late on accident, and didn't want to risk Seteth seeing you out of the dorms past curfew, so you'd stayed. Back then, you promised yourself you wouldn't fall in love.

But who were you kidding? You already had. You loved everything about him... his eyes, his smile, the way he truely cares about everyone at Garreg Mach, and mostly.. his laugh.

Before you even realise your staring with a soft smile on your face, Claude is waving a hand in front of your eyes.

"Hey there, have you been listening? What's got you sighing and huffing and puffing? Something wrong?"

You shake your head, frowning, "nono, it's nothing I just.. can't focus right now."

"Well, we dont have to read then. We could do something else, try to move around, you know?"

You shake your head again, thinking, "I just uh. Am caught up in my thoughts is all. I've been. Thinking about stuff."

Claude gives you that smile his gives when he knows you're hiding something and nods along, "stuff huh? Is it... a boy?"

Your face goes red and he laughs, "I knew it! Your face says it all. Who's the lucky guy? Please tell me it's not Sylvain or Lorenz I won't let my bestie date people like that."

You groan, even the thought of that makes you cringe to yourself, and you grab a pillow to hide your face in. You muffle out "no, it's not them."

"Is it.. someone in the deer?"

You pause, before nodding.

"Well if it isn't Lorenz.. maybe Rashael? Ignatz?"

You groan, "they're nice and all but.. not them."

"... hey bestie?"

".. yea?"

"You realise I'm the only one left after them right?"

"... I'd like a lawyer."

Claude laughs a little while you throw the pillow at him hiding you face in your hands before he calms down a bit, and leans over, tapping your shoulder, "hey now, why are you hiding?"

When you didn't respond, he frowned, then noticed your shoulders were shaking a bit, and he realised you were crying, "hey, I was only teasing, are you okay? Why are you crying?"

"I just.. don't want to lose another friend."

"Who said I was leaving?"

Another pause, before you look up, hiccuping, and see him smiling at you a bit, "I didn't wanna be presumptuous or anything, so I didn't bring it up but, you're pretty cute too you know."

"What..?"

He chuckles a bit, "come on, you look worn out. Let's just lay down tonight, no need to stay up too late reading." He kisses your forehead, and you lean into it, sighing.

"So uh.. is it official or..?"

"We'll talk about it in the morning when you aren't crying anymore."

#minish speaks #fire emblem three houses #mod minish #claude fire emblem imagines #claude von reigen #fe3h claude

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lucylesdreams · 1 year

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TW: CoCSA, voyeurism.

I am trauma dumping a bit here, hope you dont mind.

I must have been 10 when it happened. We are a small community, with few kids. Think we were 10-14 girls in my grade, and 8-10 boys. We had just started showering after gym class, always the last two classes of the week. I always took my bike to school. I was not particularly close to my classmates, nothing bad like bullying just not fitting in. The fact that we are such a small community did not help that, and many of us are related in some way. That did make it harder to fit in, but I also think it is one of the reasons why it did not escalate to more severe bullying and isolation. There were not enough showers for all of us. One had to shower alone. I did not have a bus to catch home, or any need to shower with a bestie like the rest, so it just had to be me showering on my own. Which never bothered me. While I was showering, the rest got dressed and put on make up. The girls in my class were very much into teen culture, make up and the tv-series "Glee", Twilight-books and boys. Maybe that is part of the reason to why I did not fit in.

Anyways, I was in the shower alone. One of the girls was a nasty piece of work, her cousin was too. He also was in our class. I feel no guilt for saying that about those kids, they both are still cruel today, 15 years later. They had planned a "little prank". When I stepped out of the shower, being the only one that was not dressed but for a towel, she opened the door and her cousin came running towards me. I crocheted in a corner, trying to cover myself. Crying, screaming. He did not touch me, but laid on the floor trying to see up under my towel. It felt like a long time. But the other girls finally had enough and pushed him away, and he left. Afterwards I got dressed. The other girls did not want to get into any trouble, and asked me not to tell the teacher or my parents. They did not want their friend to be punished. She said it was his idea, and was just meant to be a prank. And what good would it be to tell on the boy, he always got into trouble anyways. They did not want a teacher to stay with us while we changed and showered. And I was not hurt, so why make a big deal out of it. I did not say anything, I just stopped showering at school. And had nightmares.

I do wonder now how a 10 year old boy knew that looking on a naked girl would humiliate the girl, and how a 10 year old girl knew it was humiliating? When did he learn that? Who did he learn it from? Why did the girl help her cousin violate me? Must have been the same source, church, tv, his older brother, porn, etc. Not to be dramatic, but I still have nightmares of a male person laying on the ground trying to look up at my crotch. Where did I learn that I was so unimportant that I could let it go? Why was I too ashamed to get help? Why did I protect the cousins, that I did not even like? Did I already think of myself as less of a human than him?

Girls need to be protected from boys. Girls deserve a safe space from boys, just as much as women do from men. We need to talk about this more. Protecting girls from their male peers. Do you think girls have it better today than I did 15 years ago? And sadly parents, your boy may already been creeping on girls before you think he is old enough to understand what he is doing. He may already have given a girl nightmares for a lifetime before you have considered giving him "the talk". He may already be a pornsick misogynist before he start middle school. And this is not some stupid prank, or fun kid stuff. Stop trivializing boys sick and nasty behaviors. Protect little girls

#girls are humans #just some stuff i needed to get off my chest #female liberation #tw cocsa #tw voyeurism #just me trauma dumping #hope you don't mind

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