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animeyanderelover · 1 year

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Um hi its me again and i wanted to send in another request, and im sorry for bothering this is my first time sending request so i don't know if im doing this right, but i wish for another haikyuu hc with the same characters from my last request except suna is replaced by tendou: yamaguchi, hinata, kageyama,sugawara, kenma, akaashi, oikawa, kita, tendou, goshiki with a s/o gets in a fight? Basically the s/o finds out that this girl is trying to get with/flirt with their boyfriends and how the boys react to this is up to you but the s/o gets very mad, like going crazy mad. So they go up to the girl and started fighting. And not just some slapping or pulling hair, no i mean full on punches, kickes in stomach, black eyes and broken noses. Like this is a BLOODY fight and a big one at that. So how would react to seeing this fight? Would they try and stop it or cheer on? Would they be upset or would they feel honored that you fight for them?

Thank you and sorry for bothering you i and i just wanted to say that i love your blog it makes my day everytime time i read from here.

You don't bother at all.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, manipulation, violence

This is a bloody fight

Kōshi Sugawara

🤍Suga is one of the more pleasant ones to react to this, although he’s not happy. He’s just telling the girl politely at first that he already has someone else and asks her to leave him alone. If she’s going to be persistent, he might get slightly colder with his words and behavior, his face trying to carry the amicable smile before that last mask finally drops and he stares at her with a cold look in his eyes. He’s just about to drop it to her in a way not fitting for his usual sunshine facade but then his s/o suddenly storms into the scene, grabs the girl by the hair and yanks her back. This startles Suga, he didn’t expect this sudden outburst of violence and he will do his best to instantly stop his s/o from doing anything that could lead to troubles.

🤍He’s pulling them back, tells them in a raised tone to stop this, that the girl has surely learned her lesson now and that he could have handled this by himself too. He leaves with his s/o soon after, keeps a close eye on them just in case so that they don’t accidentally try to attack again. He scolds them thoroughly once they’re home again, expresses his disappointment with them with an upset look on his face, eyebrows furrowed. He’s not one for physical violence as he relies more on subtle manipulation and that for a reason. You could get into serious troubles for assaulting someone. He’s disappointed with you for days after, monitors you closely. He starts lecturing you a lot more too about how to behave and what not to do, treats you like a naive and impulsive child.

Tobio Kageyama

🌧️At first Kageyama just goes rigid when a girl suddenly starts flirting with him, clearly uncomfortable with the situation. After a while there is disgust bubbling up inside his chest though as he realizes that she wants something from him despite knowing that he has a partner. That’s when he gives her a harsh glare and tells her with a clearly agitated voice that he doesn’t want anything to do with her. When he suddenly sees in the corner of his eye his darling approaching, he feels scared. He fears they might accuse him of something which undoubtedly fuels his paranoia but before he can even explain himself, they grab the woman by the hair and deliver a punch right into their stomach.

🌧️Generally talking, Kageyama is a Yandere more prone to throw hands if the situation calls for it, tends to manhandle people who agitate him. Yet he’s never seen nor expected this from his darling and for a short moment he genuinely doesn’t know what to do, in shock as he watches the girl being beaten up. When he snaps out of it, he grabs your hand and pulls you back, flinches a bit when you give him a pissed off glare before your facial expression eases up. Tobio doesn’t know what else to say besides that you two should go now, warning the girl before leaving with you that she should keep quiet about it. He’s sort of in a daze for the next few hours as he still tries to process what he just saw since this is a side of you he didn’t know before.

Shōyō Hinata

☀️Hinata is completely overwhelmed when a girl actually starts flirting with him. That is once he actually realizes that she’s being serious with him. He’s not dumb, just really dense and initially he’s a bit flattered by the comments. The moment the girl actually stays and is proving herself to be extremely persistent is the moment where Hinata grows uncomfortable. He keeps on telling her to please leave him alone and that he has a lover but she doesn’t listen and that’s when he doesn’t know what to do. He’s trying to escape at this point and when he sees you, he quickly dashed past the girl to you.

☀️You on the other hand storm past him and confuse the orange-haired boy at first before he sees you kicking the girl harshly, bringing her down into her knees where you continue your attacks. Hinata is the type to idealize his darling a lot so he’s shocked to see them being so violent, even a bit frightened at first. He’s just standing there for a while and at one point averts his eyes a bit since he isn’t the biggest fan of violence. He’s completely overwhelmed once again and for that he doesn’t do anything until you deem it enough, threaten the girl to better never get near your boyfriend again before you turn around to Shōyō, smiling sweetly. He looks at you with different eyes afterwards, after he’s come to terms with what he saw. It isn’t bad though as he starts seeing you as a really strong person someone shouldn’t mess with.

Tadashi Yamaguchi

💕Yamaguchi is a loyal soul and the moment he notices what the girl is trying to do, he tries to avoid her, clearly uncomfortable with her actions. He’s incredibly awkward, body pose stiff as he tries to somehow escape her persistent attempts to flirt with him. Yamaguchi is trying to be polite though as he tells her over and over again that he’s already taken and happy, doesn’t know what else to do. He’s also terrified that you might walk in, is constantly looking around and when he sees you storming to him, his heart drops a bit. Oh god, are you assuming something? No, instead you nearly throw the girl away from him, getting even more triggered when you see just how nervous she’s made Tadashi.

💕The boy in question has a small story of somewhat joining Tsukishima’s rude comments but besides that he’s never been a fan of violence or bullying, mainly because he was bullied in his past too. So he’s terrified when he sees this new side of his darling, somewhat frightened to initially step in before he gains the courage to do so. He pleads you to stop since you’ve probably gone too far now, worried that the girl might go to the police although she certainly looks too frightened of you as she runs away. He’s somewhat uncertain for the rest of the day. His love is still there of course but it’s the first time he saw you acting so severely. Tadashi will at one point talk with you about it since it makes him a bit uncomfortable and also very concerned since you might be arrested for your actions.

Tōru Oikawa

👑For Tōru this is a daily thing, getting being flirted with. Forming an obsession and getting together with his obsession has changed things for him though. Whilst he’s initially still polite, there’s a hidden glint of annoyance and even disgust in his eyes, not to mention that his smile isn’t sincere. Daring to continue though and implying that this girl thinks she’s better than his darling though sets him off slightly, his eyes narrowing and causing him to indirectly start humiliating the girl whilst simultaneously gushing about what he loves so much about his love. He’s already putting her down and his darling takes this to the physical level.

👑Obviously Oikawa is initially frightened a bit but when he realizes that you’re doing it because someone was trying to take him away from you, there’s a twisted feeling of happiness and satisfaction inside of him. He’d go very far if someone would try to take you away from him and there’s elation knowing that you’d do the same. He lets his darling go on for a while, a grin on his face that has the girl’s stomach churning as she sees the unparalleled sickening obsession inside his brown orbs. He eventually suggests to you that you should stop and that he’s sure that the girl has learned her lesson, tells her with a voice laced with poison that she would better keep quiet about it. He’d be the type of Yandere who would appreciate a darling showing similar tendencies as he does so he really won’t scold you unless you’re not careful enough and might get in troubles for your actions. He’ll help you though, he’s your partner in crime.

Keiji Akaashi

🍁Akaashi deals with things more calmly than some other guys and if someone gives him a compliment, he normally just quietly accepts it. He always clarifies though that he is taken and usually people respect that instantly. Meeting this one girl though who still bothers him despite knowing that he’s taken isn’t something he witnesses every day. Akaashi can’t help but think that the girl is quite a bit disrespectful though by not accepting his boundaries nor accepting it that he is already in a happy relationship and doesn’t want to do anything with her. He’s not carefully choosing his words though, he’s blunt and tells her what she thinks, sadly without much of a result which slowly tests even his patience.

🍁Your entrance certainly changes things though as you kick the girl harshly to the ground, a dangerous look on your face as you’re about to launch at her again. Only for Akaashi to react instantly and stop you. He can read from the look on your face that you plan to hurt her but deems it as unnecessary and also dangerous since someone might hear you. Causing a scene would be quite troublesome and it’s better to stop you now before you seriously hurt the girl instead of when she had proof that you attacked and hurt her. Luckily he knows what to say to calm you down enough so that you go with him and he consults you later on about your actions. He’s going to scold you, warn you to not let your temper get the better of you in such a way since it will end in problems for you.

Kenma Kozume

🐱Kenma is introverted as it is, you two specifically chose a place where not too many people would be to enjoy a date together yet luck doesn’t seem to be on his side today. He knows what the girl’s intentions are instantly when she starts flirting with him and calling him endearing names which only make him want to disappear. He makes himself small, doesn’t look at her or pay attention to her as he hopes that she’ll leave if he ignores her. Sadly that only seems to fuel her more and by now he’s panicking quite a bit, doesn’t know what he’s supposed to do in such a situation. His darling comes to rescue him though, more or less at least.

🐱The first wave of relief is quickly replaced by shock and a good scare when you start punching and hitting the girl though for daring to flirt with your boyfriend and making him so uncomfortable in the process. Meanwhile Kenma is looking around him in panic, afraid someone might see you and cause a scene. So he stops you, a churning feeling in his stomach whilst asking you if you two can just leave since he has lost all interest and excitement for the date planned today. He mumbles something to the girl before he leaves, most likely a threat to not report his darling. He’s hesitating a bit to bring this up for a lack of even knowing how, eventually you two will have to talk about it. He’s rational enough to know that you could be brought to jail for such behavior and therefore he asks you if you could try to control that side of yours since it stresses him to think that you might beat someone again. He’ll just stay more inside so that you won’t have to hurt anyone.

Satori Tendou

❤️Satori is definitely not used to being flirted with, he’s far more used to be called a weirdo or creepy or all sorts of rude stuff behind his back. He’s used to it by now though, he only cares about what his darling thinks about him. Due to the lack of genuine praise, he’s completely overwhelmed when he’s one day being flirted with. He doesn’t even believe that the girl means him until she speaks to him directly. What is at first awkwardness and telling her that he’s happily together with someone already turns into sudden anger when she still continues, suggests that he can cheat even which triggers him. The girl certainly gets startled when she notices that Tendou’s previously hunched form is now towering over her with a creepy glimmer in his eyes.

❤️If that isn’t already scary enough, your reaction certainly is and the first kick you deliver causes Tendou to flinch as he wasn’t expecting this. He’s watching you for a few seconds with a mix of shock and, to his own slight shame, giddiness since you’re fighting for him in a way, defending what you see as yours. He snaps out of it though and stops you before you can cause too much damage, leans down to the girl and whispers to her that she shouldn’t tell anyone about this for her own well-being. He’s clingier after as the experience of being flirted with in such a way is alienating for him. He’ll probably reprimand you mildly to be more careful but can’t go harsher since he secretly liked it a bit too.

Tsutomu Goshiki

🌟Goshiki enjoys compliments. He enjoys them the most from his darling though and is constantly trying to impress them and being praised. When someone compliments him besides his darling, he feels proud of himself too and initially the flirting feeds into his ego as Goshiki isn’t aware of the true intention yet. He just thinks that he wants to tell you that he was just complimented as soon as you come back, gets surprised when the girl stays though and continues. The confusion soon turns into shock and a bit panic as he finally understands what she wants and quickly tells her off in an urgent tone that he already has a partner and wants her to leave. He won’t risk you getting any wrong ideas.

🌟To the poor luck for the girl you return in that moment and even Tsutomu sees the dark look on your face, he starts spitting apologies before he’s silenced by your sudden violent attack on the girl. His brain doesn’t even fully register the visual information he realizes since he’s in a state of shock before it finally clicks in his mind. Anxiety is heating up his body as he starts getting paranoid that someone might watch, pulls you back without trying to get hurt himself and asks you in a pleasing tone if you can stop and leave with him. At first hesitant, he feels later on a tiny bit flattered when he thinks it through and realizes that you’ve started fighting so aggressively for him. It doesn’t stop him from developing a frightened reverence for you.

Kita Shinsuke

☁️Shinsuke is also more polite, even in the face of being confronted with such a persistent girl who thinks that she can flirt with him even if she knows that he’s already in a relationship. Kita knows immediately where this will be going when she approaches him, he can read the look on her face all too well. He might be mildly taken aback when she brushes off his statement that he already has a partner and loves them very much but he will stay collected. She certainly isn’t earning any of his respect though since it’s in his eyes rather rude and insensitive what she’s trying to do now. He’s not aggressive, just really cold and honest with his opinion about her and that is what stuns the girl so much, he makes it obvious that he’s not interested nor really impressed in such a honest and polite way that it’s almost humiliating again.

☁️Kita is also bound to react very fast when your fist connects the first time with the girl’s cheek and knocks her off her feet. He doesn’t appreciate violence and avoids it as much as he can and is already admonishing his darling for their action but packages his words well enough to not agitate them more. He’ll try to bring you to apologize to the girl since this level of aggression was a bit too much and leaves with you shortly after. He’s going to sit down with you and force you through a longer discussion where he counts down all the possible troubles this could have caused you, tells you that he wants you to control your temper better or that otherwise he might not be able to take you so carefree outside.

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garlimcbread · 15 days

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The gang + Tim meeting m!greaser whose like SCARY. Big, strong, resting bitch face and deep voice. Also m!greaser smokes cigars

What's each of the gang feelings/reactions to this guy?

OFC POOKIE!!! THIS LOOKS SO FUN WHAT....

Ponyboy

TERRIFIED.

Almost ran but thought maybe you were like a mountain lion and you'd go after him so he was just frozen in fear 💀

Just about SCREAMED when you talked to him

"Hey-" "PLEASE DON'T HURT MEEEE!!!! 😭"

Eventually came around...... eventually meaning years 💀

Sodapop

ALSO terrified

He probably saw you at the dx though so he couldn't even run or anything

he was SWEATING.

was polite bc he was at work and also bc he didn't wanna make you mad 💀

made Steve talk to you next time you came in

Darry

He's a man........ a man who is really scared 💀

Doesn't show it but he's for sure sweating

"If he threw a punch rn would I be able to win in a fight....."

on edge around you

BUT when you're under his roof you MUST follow the house rules...

you WILL get yelled at otherwise

Johnny

nothing to say he runs every time he sees you 💀

but fr though he would move as far away as possible and not even look at you bc he's scared

He thinks MAYBE Dally would kill you if you hurt him but Dally is low-key a little twig.....

If you talked to him??? He's shutting down he can't even scream........

If he's with Dally Dally puts him behind him

He'd hate it any other time but he's scared of you sooo

Dally

Has probably fought guys like you but he's still scared like??

doesn't let it show bc he's Dallas Winston but he's scared

As I said he puts Johnny behind him

I think he knows Johnny can defend himself its just???? YOU??

Avoids you tbh

Two-Bit

does NOT care 💀

This man smarts off to the cops he is ABSOLUTELY smarting off to you

He is SO lucky he's actually funny and you aren't beating his ass

I think he'd steal cigars for you as a peace offering

Steve

Gets forced to talk to you at the dx bc Soda is scared of you

Genuinely TWEAKS everytime Soda runs off to work on a car and makes Steve talk to you at the counter

Like he loves Soda but DAMN.

Respectful ONLY bc he's at work

He knows damn well he'd get his ass beat if he wasn't which is why he avoids you 💀

Tim

Like Dally but like...... he's a gang leader so it kinda balances out??

Asks you to threaten to beat Curly's ass if he doesn't behave

Buys/steals you cigars as payment

You're probably in his gang lets be honest

I think you guys are like?? cool with eachother??

You're not best friends but you're also not like enemies

#the outsiders #ponyboy curtis #sodapop curtis #darry curtis #darrel curtis #johnny cade #dallas winston #dally winston #two bit mathews #steve randle #tim shepard

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zippverschluss · 7 months

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i think i finally understand shin-yu

where i ended up after a week of pondering

normally, i drop a drama or start disliking it around the 8 episode mark. you know, when the funny antics and original premise give way to the melodrama, the tropes, and the stupid desicions. i thought destined with you would suffer the same fate, especially as i didn't really understand where shin-yu was coming from in episode 7 and 8.

don't get me wrong, i understood that we were watching him struggle coming to terms with the fact that his feelings for hong-jo might be real and genuine. i just didn't understand why it was such a struggle for him. i understand hong-jo much better because i share a lot with her, but i think i get him now too.

i didn't understand his confession at the end of ep 8, or rather, i misunderstood. i just really didn't understand what he was referring to when he said he really didn't wanna believe in temporary feelings.

I didn't get it and it was driving me crazy. i had promised myself to not obsess a whole week over this show like i did the week before, but alas....

so i read about every review, recap and discussion on the episode i could find and the unanimous consensus was that he believed his feelings for hong-jo, while no longer spell-induced, to still be temporary (hence why he didn't wanna break it off with nayeon). and there was only one person on reddit who then had the same question as me - why would he believe his feelings for hong-jo to be temporary? because of the neural coupling? i thought episode 7 & 8 were supposed to show that he moved past this explanation as well.

but then i read his character description (see post below), which really focuses on his illness and how he is a cool-headed, rational person. and that brought back to mind that dude has been having hallucinations and feeling a non-existent hand on his body / face for we don't know how long. so it is absolutely understandable that he doesn't quite trust his own feelings and emotions. especially when the attraction comes so suddenly (i do believe that happens) and make him act so uncharacteristically.

uncharacteristically referring to the fact that he can't control his actions when it comes to hong-jo, not the desire for these actions themselves, as we can all tell from his comments that he has a nerdy side. (apparently he has a 'secret greed for comedy'. lol)

and shin-yu prides himself on his (self-)control. understandably. right now, himself is the only thing he can control. he's cool-headed with the haum CEO and won't take his bait, with kwon (everytime kwon raised his voice at him, he always stayed calm) or when gi-dong antagonized him in the beginning. my man didn't drink for 33 years. and hong-jo makes him loose that self-control too. that must be scary and annoying. especially if you can't be sure your body / mind is playing tricks on you again.

so i think when rewatching the episodes tonight in preparation for tomorrow, i might look at him with kinder eyes. i'll still shout at hong-jo to kick or punch or slap him or preferably do all of those things, but i'll try to empathize with his struggle a bit more.

#destined with you #kdrama #netflix #jang shin yu #ramblings #zippy can't zip it

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ayakamiyuiii · 8 months

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May I ask for dom xiao?

Like the reader runs away and she accidentally calls his name- IK ITS DUMB BUT PELASE LIKE REALLY

What.....! Omd laying in bed at 11 am nd thought of something!!

It's been awhile since you've seen Xiao, you have heard some rumours about the Yaksha helping the (in)famous blonde traveller, it was odd you thought, it isn't in Xiaos nature to really travel along with others unless he feels safe with them. It didn't help much that you haven't even met the traveller but now you hear your boyfriend is.. basically ditching you and your plans for her? AND would let her call out his name if she ever needed him? Well that was the first few punches to your gut, you understand Xiao doesn't think this as much, he's a Yaksha, Mortal feelings don't.. occur to him often. And him being him he can't read social cues, or take signs or hints. He doesn't know what he's doing could temporarily hurt you, and well you'll let it slide, maybe your overlooking it.. your totally overlooking it, right?

Of course he stills comes to the inn and of course you do see him, bug everytime it feels like you see him less and less, your time with each other shortens, and before you knew it he kind of stopped showing up to things you'd planned out. You were upset, honestly your heart was crushed, you knew maybe the reasoning was stupid, and you knew you should let it go and stop feeling so jealous, there's nothing more to it then them helping each other out. You wanted to talk to him about it, not sure how to bring it up. He's always stern, and doesn't often give long enough answers, always short and straight to the point. Maybe.. you'll just wait it out for now?

It's been a bit over a few months, his absence has seriously taken a toll on you. You find yourself wondering.. strange things, is he maybe happier travelling with her? You think about the traveller, how pretty she must look, how many men she's had swinging their heads abruptly to get a glimpse of her. It became horrible, you've started seeing so less of him. you cry, but you know better then to call out his name for your selfish desires. He has his own duties to fufill, he can't be by your side all the time. You felt lost, so incredibly lost it was genuinely mind maddening. Maybe, maybe you should bring it up, maybe you'll let your selfish desires rise, let them take control for awhile.

You waited a few nights, hoping Xiao would make a stop to the inn, you'd think he'd know better to at least let you know where he's going. It's been about 4 night with no sign of him, your tired and this time you can't ignore the heavy pang of hurt in your chest, you waited another night, praying to the archons above he'll make a stop, but it wasn't too any use, so you thought. You decided it was late enough you needed rest, it was difficult staying up so late, you were turning your back when you heard swift movements, turning back and seeing Xiao. You looked at him, his face slightly tinted red, with.. tofu in hand, meekly staring you called out to him, his name sounding more like a question. Unsure if he heard you or not you continue looking at him, noticing his ears perking to your voice. "y/n ? Why are you up. It's late." He questions, though his question sounding more like a statement. Taken aback by what you'd just seen you take a moment to compose yourself. " Xiao, can i please talk to you ? I've been waiting for you to come back for awhile, and- i- I just wanted to talk to you before you go... again"

Hi pookie um idk if this is anything similar to wut u want but Like I'll continue it later I AM TIRED AF

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khaleesiofalicante · 6 months

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Hellooo! I just got back from a trip with my friends, we went to Barcelona and let me tell you, trips are therapeutic I had no idea but now I feel better and ready to face the work I left behind (not really, I want to run back to Spain). How are you?? Congratulations for tackling down most of your work, and I'm sorry people are giving you more work, that sucks. Let us know if you need someone to uhm handle them, I know some people🙃

Also, we went to Sagrada Familia, I don't know if you know it but it's this beautiful church, I mean I'm not even religious but I felt a shiver when I went in. And it had this beautiful huge glass stained windows inside and the moment I saw them I was like "Oh my god I have to take a picture with them like Lance and Arthur!". Long story short I took many, I'm so happy about that! The colors also fitted my dress so they're pretty aesthetic😌 And when I post them I want to write "Mavid" underneath but no one will get it😔 How I wish I lived in the IALS universe right now

And let's not forget the highlight of the week, the race. We were out when the race was happening so I didn't get to see it but when I saw Lewis was leading at some point I wanted to cry! And then if course Mercedes bottled the strategy, honestly what the hell were they thinking? I mean Lewis gave it his everything and they ruined it, they need to get their act together. Everytime I saw how nervous Max was when Lewis got closer I swear I giggled. P2 was a great result and I went to bed happy and then I saw the disqualification in the morning and what the hell was that?? What on earth is wrong with the FIA, seriously?? I want to punch them. Could they at least try to sabotage him more discreetly? And I read somewhere that they checked like half the cars after the race and not all, wow really fair. Please tell me you also want to sue the FIA.

Okay, I'm done for now! I kinda missed Mavid so my notes app got super filled again and I will drown you with my thoughts later🌷

PS: We saw this Lewis poster on one of the streets and I didn't see it at first but one of my friends did and she stopped walking and went like, let's get a picture of you with your man and I swear to you I almost cried from joy, my friends really know me🥰 And then I took like a million photos😅

Vickyyyyy!

Barcelona sounds amazing and I'm so happy you had a fantastic time with your friends! And ahhhhhh stained glass mirrors for the win! everyone needs to take a pic in front of it!

What the fuck was that race? I am equally mad at the FIA and Mercedes because this is getting ridiculous at this point. I genuinely don't know how Lewis is putting up with all this bullshit because I WOULD BE SETTING SOMETHING ON FIRE AFTER ABU DHABI 2021.

Freaking out when you randomly spot a Lewis poster and then taking a photo with it is a very personal experience (i saw a cutout of him at the gaming arcade and tried to steal it loool)

Hope you get to rest and recover from your trip bebe 💙

#oh vicky you're so fine

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purplerose244 · 3 years

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My thoughts on Ninjago the Island!!! 🏝🏝🏝

So, gotta be honest... this is not a Blind reaction thing, I actually watched it in French first so I know most of the stuff already 😅 It's entertaining, it got great animation, but nothing more than that in my opinion 🤷‍♀️

Still there is stuff I liked or I want to point out, and finally I'm seeing the English version so I can actually understand what the HECK they are saying 🤩

Alright, nothing else to say, here we go!

UNCHARTED

I haven't actually seen anything Clutch Powers related before Ninjago, is he always like this? I love that he is a jerk honestly, just wondering 😂

Press F for respect for intern Dwaine (at least he seems to like being... used?)

Clutch: It's just a bunch of rocks! It's not alive!

Totem: I'm about to end this man's whole career

Wait, Misako is part of the explorers club? ... that would have come in handy in season 11 to get the scroll of Forbitten Spinjitzu from the club instead of begging uncle Powers for it... *sighs* I don't mind plot holes in Ninjago like most fans I think, but if you wanna make Misako relevant again at least pay attention to the details 😅

Wow, after the end of season 13 I would've thought Wu was going to go through a midlife crisis, not Misako 😂😂

Oww, everytime I hear I get 😢 Bless your soul Kirby, always in our hearts 🖤🖤🖤

Well hello Brian

Always nice to see you 😊

Twitchy Tim must have been pretty interesting to voice 🤔 I like him enough, he's fun and all, maybe not at the level of the characters we got last season

Okay, the place is called the STORM belt, there are LIGHTNINGS, and the sand of the beach is BLUE. Are we gonna address any of these similarities to our Bluebell here or not? 😅

Wait, Tim was giving a hot air balloon tour, does that mean other people where with him? What of them? Are they dead? Did he let them die on the island?... am I reading too much into this? Probably 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Alright, the part of the boats? SO COOL 🤩🤩 I literally can't say anything bad about the animation at this point

Why did they think leaving Kai, Jay and Cole on one boat was going to be a good idea 😂 Also Zane just randomly doing sick tricks on his vehicle, love that nindroid

I'm guessing Nya is keeping her water abilities for her season 🤷‍♀️

Yep, yep, this is why the creators try to keep Pixal out of the adventures, with her everything is way too cool and easy to access to 😎😎

Twitchy Tim: There are statues that become alive!!

Lloyd:... so it's a season 2 stone army ripoff, we've seen worse

It's a cute episode overall 👍

THE KEEPERS OF THE AMULET

OKAY THE INTRO IS SO FREAKING COOL 🤩🤩🤩🤩

So Twitchy Tim has temporarily taken over Jay's role of spazzing out and complain about worse case scenarios... in another occasion they might have bonded over this, maybe 😂

Okay, survival position? MOOD

Nya: DRAGOOON 😱

Me: DRAGOOOOOOON 😍😍😍

Why am I not surprised that Jay was the one that named him Zippy? 💙 Also HE'S SO CUTE 💕💕💕 Love how in every adventure, we always get very different types of dragon in this show 👌 I'm a simple person, I see a dragon... 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

Oh-oh, it's the "Lloyd's done with this crap"'s face

This means serious business... am I that used to LEGO characters that this way of crossing arms on the chest looks almost normal to me? 😅

Soooo, Master of the Mountain clearly gave Cole too much development... because now he got demoted to "the one who is always hungry" 🤦‍♀️ I'm all for Cole's endearing love for cakes, which is super relatable, but if you're gonna push it on his fun side, at least be coherent 🙃

Is it just me or it feels like the writing of this special was made by someone different from the one of season 13? Like, it's not bad, just less engaging and witty. For now. Maybe I'm being premature 🤷‍♀️

New way of nerfing powers, we got... weird, sucking power totem thingies... OKAY

My gosh I really can't say anything about the animation, look at that! It's all cinematic with such a light! YES!! 🤩

I'M SORRY

WHY ARE WE LOOKING OVER THIS??? IT LOOKS LIKE COLE'S LAVA PUNCHES BUT THEY ARE JAY LIGHTNING FEET??? IT'S A GREAT IDEA AND I WOULD LOVE TO SEE IT AGAIN??? WHY ARE WE IGNORING THIS??? 💙💙💙💙

So they at least addressed that lightning isn't a Jay's thing only anymore 😅

Alright, Jay having a mental breakdown because of a bridge because it always breaks, that's the Bluebell I know and love 😂😂 Nya telling him to keep moving was cute too 💙❤💙❤

Okay, I'm sorry but this really bothers me, what kind of lightning can instantly knock out the MASTER OF LIGHTNING??? Like, my gosh, really??? I hope they give us an explanation, like it's some sort of special lightning, because this really doesn't sit right with me. Jay is lightning proof, we've seen it in Skybound, we've seen it in Sons of Garmadon, I DON'T BELIEVE HE WOULD JUST BE KNOCKED OUT LIKE THAT 😡😡😡

Soooooo, storm amulet? Being one with the lightning? Is that the reason why Jay got to be the sacrifice? 😅

THE GIFT OF JAY

Alright, I am kinda looking forward for this one, what did Bluebell actually say or do to get him into trouble this time 😂😂

Oh, he just... introduced himself... well that was underwhelming

SENSEI👏YOU👏ARE👏A👏FREAKING👏GOD👏STOP👏GETTING👏KIDNAPPED👏BY👏RANDOM👏VILLAINS👏

Bring ooooon Lloyd Grills 💪

Okay I did like the little speech, definitely resonates with how Lloyd survived this long even though everything wanted him to give up, even his father... I'M NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING 😭

Jay out there making the real questions 😂

Awwww Edna used to call him gift of Jay? I can totally see it, so cute 💙💙 Makes even more sense if Libber actually left Jay at the Walkers' door...

Pff, Jay made the connection I would've done honestly 🤷‍♀️ Like, him being the master of lightning really didn't give these dudes any impression or inspiration? Any cool idea, full Road of El Dorado style? 🙃🙃

Lloyd out there abusing of the animation budget 💚💚💚

Somehow these ninja never actual sneak in, it's always a huge mess everyone knows about beforehand 😂 It's familiar though, I'm used to it and happy with it 👍

I might not be the biggest Misako fan, but you know what I am a fan of?

LEGO HUGS 😍😍😍😍😍

Dang it uncle Powers, you just got here to make a mess did you 😅

Not the first person of the fandom to say this, but Jay looks absolutely lovely with that flower crown 🌺🌺🌺

Oh poor greenie

Lloyd just has the worst luck 😓

Jay: Why would I be the gift?

Kai: Yeah who would want Jay?

Nya: Huh, me?? 😡

Got some very good Jaya for this little special, can't complain 💙❤💙❤

I mean, not matter how big of a snake Wojira might turn out to be, we've already seen the biggest and the second biggest snake of all so 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Whoa, at last... IT WAS THE FIRST SPINJITZU MASTER THAT HAD SOMETHING HE SHOULD'VE TOLD WU A LONG TIME AGO!! 😱 Wu, you got pulled a Wu, how does it feel? 😂

Again, Jay freaking out, kinda my jam it's too funny 💙💙

Wow Kai way to be hominous offscreen 👏👏 I miss talking about my flame babe, this really isn't his time 🤷‍♀️

THE TOOTH OF WOJIRA

So when I first watched this I was genuinely, really excited about knowing the truth behind all this. It turned out very different from what I first thought, but at least in this case it's okay (besides I was pushing with the lightning meaning just to see Libber again 😅😅😅)

I feel like the guys get their powers stolen or blocked so much it takes them a minute to remember "Oh wait I can literally burn my way out" 🤷‍♀️

SPINJITZU YAY 🤩

I... forgot that Misako knows how to fight 😅 She knows how to do spinjitzu too if I remember correctly...

NYA BEING LIKE "OUT OF THE WAY IMMA SAVE MY BOYFRIEND AGAIN" ❤💙❤💙

Gotta love how they were all crazy worried about Jay, like, this is something that never changes through the show. They really care so so much for each other 💕💕💕

Ooohhhh, okay, so Wojira does seem to be the main villain of next season according to the story. I remember Tommy saying that we needed to have faith and this is probably why. The special was okay, nothing too much, and hopefully that too much we will see in Nya's season 😍😍😍

What the- pff, I didn't notice this the first time 😂

At this point I can't tell if that one short with the chicken of the movie carried a hate or a love for chickens in the actual show 😂😂

Nice to see Jay standing up for himself at least for a little while 💪 Also Lloyd being "He's our trouble", aww family 💜

THERE IT IS

MY BRUISE HEART IS SOARING 🖤💙🖤💙

Gotta give props to the voice actors, voicing an explanation while fighting must be pretty hard! WE ARE BLESSED WITH AN AMAZING CAST!!! 🤩🤩🤩

And there he is, our favorite jerk... shaved Ronin 😂 He does look a little weird, but it's fair, new animation and all. Not the weirdest until now 🤷‍♀️

I genuinely had to make a mental check to see where we are with Ronin now, like, he started as a villain, then a partner, he betrayed us, became an ally, he hunted the ninja, then joined them, that timeline was erased, he was around in SoG and... wow this man is chaotic 😂😂

Yaaaay, Twitchy's last minute redemption act! Lloyd is too good at motivational speeches 👏👏

A bit of Lava OTP/BrOTP

Cause it's good for the heart ❤🖤❤🖤

Okay, Scooby doo reference, why not? Also honestly, I'm confident Ronin has seen A LOT of jails and prisons... probably won't stay behind bars for long 😅

Mammatus: sorry for imprisoning you and almost killing your friend

Kai: no biggie, that's how we make friends in this show

Alright the "And Clutch Powers" gag made me chuckle 😂 ... wait where is he- DANG IT UNCLE POWERS

Okay, this is the last time I say it I promise, but I mean. I MEAN

THE ANIMATION GUYS 😍😍😍

Aaaaand sensei you jinxed it 😅 But you apparently awakened Nya's season so I'm gonna forgive you on this one 😉

FINAL THOUGHTS

There are a few little details that bothered me a little, and it wasn't as exciting as I maybe hoped it was going to be, but it was fine. Enjoyable still. These characters make me like the show, even when it got nothing too impactful 🤷‍♀️

But I got triggered about that lightning thing with Jay 😅 I guess I'll just fanfic whatever I had in mind...

Don't have to repeat myself about the animation *chef's kiss*

The writing was really less engaging, a little normal in a way? Idk just a feeling. Nice to see Ronin again though, I really like him. And nice to see Jay freaking out, I really like that too 😂

To be honest I wanted to put down my thoughts on this one because I REALLY wanna do the same with Nya's season 🤩🤩 I already know that Maya is gonna be there and I am so HAPPY already!!! 💙💙💙

So that's it from me! Thank you for reading me ranting, see you next season! 😊

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wooyoungscftie · 3 years

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Ateez After Your Death

Genre: ☁️angst☁️

Summary: You got into a car accident and passed away a few days after being in coma.

Hongjoong

This boy is more than devastated.After he found out that you're no longer there,his life changed.He basically lives in his studio now,barely eating,barely going to practice,not even going outside.

Hongjoong had hope that you will step trough his studio door, engulfing him in a hug and pecking his lips,like you always did.But looking back at the last message you've send him two weeks ago,he knows it won't happen ever again.

"Hongjoong,she won't come back." Seonghwa tried to tell his friend after Hongjoong tried to call your number ones again.

"That's the sad part about this.I know that she won't come back.And it hurts hyung.It hurts so much" his voice is only a whisper as he started to tear up again.He can't live without you.

Seonghwa

Seonghwa couldn't focus on anything.The time he wakes up in the morning to the time he goes to bed again he's being reminded that you're not there anymore.

As the oldest he should be the responsible one,the strong one among his members.Everytime he's with them he didn't shed a tear.His cheeks started to have a thin,wet line on it as soon as he's alone.

"Where's Seonghwa Hyung?"

"He's in his room.Probably crying again."

"I feel bad for him"

"So do I.But sadly we can't change that he lost his fiancée"

Yunho

Devasted little puppy.The moment he got the call that you've passed away,tears started to stream down his face.He couldn't form right sentences to explain the others what was going on.

As soon as the members knew they felt bad for him.They knew their usually happy and energetic member won't be the same now,even with Yunho's attempts to be happy around others.

"Yunho,are you sure you want to perform now?We know that Y/N would've-"

"I'm alright hyung,don't worry about me."

Yeosang

Sad little baby.He wouldn't even try to hide his pain while screaming and crying in his room.Yeosang punched the wall so many times,he wanted to destroy everything around him.

He missed you dearly.He wanted nothing more than being in your embrace after a long day of practice.But Yeosang knew he couldn't have that,and he got angry again.He took his anger out on his members,when he actually mostly was angry at himself.Angry that he wasn't with you,to safe you so you could be in his arms now.

"Yeosang you should-"

"Go away hyung"

"Please just-"

"I said go away!"

San

The members knew something was wrong as soon as quite whimpers left San's lips.A few seconds later he broke down completely.This happens everytime he got reminded of you just the slightest way.

Most of the nights he's crying himself to sleep,knowing you weren't in his arms cuddled up to him.After he got used to you sleeping with him at night,it feels more than strange for him to only have Shiber in his arms.He was blaming himself.What if he would've stayed with you?If he would have been the one to drive you home?

"San,do you want to come with us for a walk?"

"Is she going to be there,waiting for me,hugging me,telling me that she loves me?"

"No,San.You know that she can't do this ever again."

"Then I don't want to."

Mingi

Everyone knows that Mingi would do anything for you,he loves you with his entire heart.Knowing that you've passed away broke him inside,but on the outside he tried to remain happy.

He knows you wouldn't want him to be sad.You've always said to him that tears don't look good on his beautiful face.Sometimes he faked a smile,but sometimes he was genuinely happy,knowing that you are watching him,and that you are his guardian angel now.

"I don't really understand how you can be happy Mingi.You lost-"

"I didn't loose Y/N.She may not be here physically,but she's living in my heart."

Wooyoung

The way you played with his hair,the way you kissed his cheek,his temple and his nose whenever he was tired.He missed this.He missed you.He missed the way you were looking at him with so much love in his eyes.

Wooyoung barely ate anything since that day he found out you were dead,which caused him to loose a lot of weight,and it came to the point where his members started to worry even more.But Wooyoung can't help it.He can't stop the tears from falling down whenever he thought about you.

"Where are you going Wooyoung?And what's with the flowers?"

"I'm going to her grave.It's our two years anniversary,and I want to be with her."

Jongho

Jongho smiled a bit as he was re-reading the letters from you.It was a common thing for you to write letters for Jongho whenever you have to leave the dorm while he's still asleep. Sometimes they were just little notes you left on his bedside table,and sometimes longer letters where you tell him how much you love him.And instead of throwing them away,he kept them.

Every memory he had from you he kept in a little box on his wardrobe.The several polaroids of you two,the hoodie of his that you loved to wear even when it was too big for you.Looking back at those memories he started to tear up.He can't deny that he missed you more than anything,but he has to face the fact that you won't come back.

"Jongho,I wanna do the laundry,can you finally change your hoodie so I can wash it?"

"I won't change it hyung.Her smell still lingers on this hoodie,and it helps me to fall asleep."

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grey-eyed-menace · 3 years

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Like A Dame (Snapshots)

Mammon: *trying his best at being casual* ...so, uh, why're you and Flower-Girl in suits?

Sora: *looking down at her watch in vague interest, frowning at the time* Diavolo provided our outfits for the evening, I complied, Mio guilt tripped Lucifer and Satan into providing a mishmash of their clothes.

Mammon: *visibly disappointed* Don't ya still have a bunch of leftover dresses from the other times?

Sora: And deal with Asmo's appraising glare? No thanks, I get enough flack from him as is about my lack of taste in fashion. I mean, fuck the rest of the Devildom, but I live with Asmodeus. I have to deal with that shit, I'm not Mio, I can't just zone out.

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[Pan behind the refreshments where Leviathan, Mio, and Beel have decided to hide out for the night. The latter two of which are currently splitting what looks like to be an entire raspberry cheesecake, and the former seems to be playing a Gacha game on Mio's phone.]

(Luke stumbles upon them, wearing a rather pretty sailor dress, with his hair done up in pigtails. He puts his hands on hips, frowns cutely, and looks down on them in disappointment.)

Luke: Is this really how you spend every event? No variation?

Mio: *casually fork wrestling Beel away from her three claimed slices of cheesecake* Not every event, no. Sometimes, Belphie or Satan join us, other times Levi and I shack up in the coat room, or Beel decides too safeguard the entire refreshment table. There's plenty of variation.

Luke: That's not what I meant and you know it.

Mio: And you're hiding from Phenex, aren't you?

[In the distance, a rather high pitched call of 'Luke!' can be heard as an incredibly pretty female looking aqua haired demon traverses the dance floor.]

Luke: ...*sighs* Can you slide over?

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Sora: So that was Marchosias?

Satan: Yes, unfortunately, it seems she's not incredibly fond of you.

Sora: *blinks stupidly* Not fond? She's my lab partner. If anything, she loves me. It's just... Well, I'm hanging out with the guys she kind of... You know, followed into hell? It's awkward dude. Like... I think I've seen her vault out a six story building just to avoid Beel.

Satan: Truly?

Sora: *shrugs* Hey, a large majority of people avoid their family like the plague, others try to stay connected, and some, like Phenex, decide that they're gonna be said families problem. Whether they like it or not.

Satan: And you? What's your category?

Sora: *without so much as pausing to think* Reluctant orphan adoptee with five siblings, three cousins, and a really fucking weird extended family.

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Solomon: Ah, Diana!

[Solomon rushes over to his old student with a bright smile, clad in a black form fitting dress with white accents, paired with a gold sash, and silver heels. He also, rather inexplicably, has a rather modest set of breasts.]

(Diana, by comparison, is dressed in a rather oversized midnight blue tux with a grey bowtie, and a white sash around her hips, a large spade sewn over her heart.)

Diana: *blinks tiredly, presses a hand to her face, and sighs, preparing herself for an oncoming clusterfuck* Yes Solomon?

Solomon: *grin persisting* I'm calling in a favor, I need you to help me with something.

Diana: *closes eyes, breaths in, and then exhales* ...next time, next time, I'm taking Bridget and Eirny up on that fourth honey moon.

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Spade: Has anyone ever told you that you're infuriating?

Phenex: *humming as they drag him around the dance floor* Constantly, you?

Spade: Only my children.

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[As the party begins to wind down, Mio has decided to briefly venture out from behind the refreshments table, only to come upon a staring contest between Phenex and Simeon.]

(Simeon looks incredibly uncomfortable. Phenex is simply Smiling, it's not a pretty smile, no, it's the smile that got Diavolo to back down from including them and Luke in the butler fiasco.)

Mio: ...do I want to know?

Simeon: *still uneasily meeting Phenex's gaze* No.

Phenex: *still Smiling* It's just drama between siblings, you understand don't you Mio-chan?

(Mio raises an eyebrow at Simeon, then turns to Phenex, and back to Simeon, before casting her gaze to where Luke and the others were at before sighing.)

Mio: Right, uh, well, I'll be leaving then, see you guys at R.A.D. tomorrow, I suppose.

(Mio proceeds to speed walk back to where Beel, Levi, and Luke are without a second thought.)

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[By way of an escaped Lucifer, the Ubuyashiki-Shibata cousins are currently dancing with one another.]

(Mio is leaning against Sora's shoulder, as the latter leads her through the steps of a butchered slow waltz.)

Mio: How's day been so far? Well, I know mine hasn't been the best, Levi stole the last cupcake.

Sora: *sighing* I see you've been dreadfully bored.

Mio: Bored doesn't begin to cover it, I miss the more... Nerve wracking events!

Sora: Mio, we nearly die everytime those events happen.

Mio: Not always! Sometimes I get lucky! I got to hold Mammon's hand during that room by room puzzle!

Sora: ...Lord above *pointedly ignoring the scandalized gasps from passing demons* you two are pathetic.

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[After what seems to be an eternity, Diana and Spade join together on the dance floor.]

(Sora and Asmo watch from by the refreshments opposite to the one Beel, Levi, and Mio are hiding behind, Diana and Spade gliding right by them, completely ignorant of their presence, only focused on one another.)

Sora: *eyes following them* Please tell me you feel like your intruding, please, I don't want to feel alone.

Asmo: *humming, already going about fixing Sora's bun* I don't know why you're hoping to find solidarity with me Sora, I mean, it's cute, but honestly? This just excites me. To see something so intimate and gentle... Ah, it makes me ache for simpler times.

Sora: *whimpers*

Asmo: *pats her shoulder reassuringly*

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[It's the last dance of the night, and the Ubuyashiki-Shibata cousins are each dancing with their own prospective partners completely stone-faced.]

(Sora, dressed in a silver suit and black tie, with her hair up in a braided bun reminiscent of Arturia Pendragon, is dancing with Mammon.

Mio, by comparison, dancing with Belphie, and therefore helping support him, is dressed in an odd mishmash of Lucifer, Asmo, and Satan's clothes. A pair of navy blue slacks, a black dress shirt, dark pink tie and white blazer. Her hair is gathered into a short ponytail at the base of her skull, tied off with a red ribbon. Asmo is distinctly glaring at her from where he's dancing with Diana.)

Mammon: What's got you pissed off Girlie?

Sora: *still completely stone-faced* Fate, the world, Phenex's continued existence, an array of things. Most glaringly, perhaps it's the fact that you couldn't ask my cousin to dance so you stole me away from Beel and Belphie?

Mammon: *clears throat, as Sora leads him into an awkward dip* ...right, got me there Girlie.

(Across the floor, Belphie stirs enough to ask a question.)

Belphie: Why're you so stiff? Actually, why aren't you Sora, and where is Beel?

Mio: *pointedly smiling at Asmo as he passes by with Diana before answering* Mammon's a coward, and Lady Rose is genuinely convinced I'm a man.

Belphie: *already drifting off again* Got it...

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[After the ball ends, the brothers and the Ubuyashiki-Shibata cousins proceed with the trek home.]

(Beel has taken to supporting Belphie with his left arm, while Sora, on his right, proceeds to routinely supply him with snacks.

Mio has taken to trying to convince Levi to give her phone back before they arrive at the House of Lamentation, while riding on Mammon's back piggy back style, grin plastered on her face, with Levi arguing hotly about being in the middle of raid on a mobile dungeon game of some sort.

Asmo is on Mammon's left side, mumbling obscenities about Mio's fashion choices.

Meanwhile, Satan and Lucifer are at the back of the pack quietly bickering about something or other.

Phenex, as usual, is stocking the poor 'family' of nine from the shadows.)

Sora: It was a good night, you know.

Beel: *chewing around a candy bar of some sort, and shifting Belphie's weight slightly* Yeah, it kinda was, wish there was more food at the refreshments table though, it was good.

Sora: Meh, I'll take your word for it, all I had was some of that Blood Punch, which... Yeah, not really for me, I think Solomon spiked it with something for the lesser demons.

Beel: Is that why Diana looked like she wanted to drop dead every time Diavolo came by for a drink?

Sora: Mmh, that and I think it was because she was forced to dance with Phenex for most of the night, she and Mister Spade only danced once, even if lasted the rest of the night.

(They silent the rest of the way to the House of Lamentation. At which, they all separate, undress, and promptly pass out, well, except for Levi, who remains with Mio's phone held hostage well until early morning.)

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[The next morning, the household is rather groggy as they make their way down to breakfast.]

Mammon: Last night must 'ave been something else, my feet freakin' hurt.

Beel: You're one to talk, I feel like my ankles are planning a mutiny.

Mio: I woke up in a binder, guys, a binder. What the hell? I thought I wasn't going to be the Dame!

Sora: At least you didn't feel like you were suffocating the entire night, my chest still feels like it's about to cave in, fucking hell...

Levi: *shrugs* I'm actually fine with whatever happened.

Belphie: *head thunks against the table*

(Several moments later, there's an array of notifications from Asmo's phone. Loud shrill beeps are all that make up the next two or so minutes.)

Lucifer: *sighs* ...It seems I forgot about the social media ban, lovely.

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ma-gic-gay · 3 years

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Five times.

Five times she had woken up that night, thinking she was with Cyrus. Five times, she'd been screaming for him to help her. Five times, he'd reassured her she's in the hospital and that Cyrus is in a jail cell, where he'll be for the rest of his (very short if he had anything to say about it) life. Five times, she had felt completely helpless. Five times, she'd thought she was back in that little room above Jake's, with Cyrus. Five times, Jason had considered killing the ponytail clad mobster.

Five more times, they'd kissed.

That was something they'd have to talk about later. When she'd recovered from this, when they'd had time to actually think as opposed to just reacting and acting on whatever impulse they felt.

All night, he'd thought of his life's romances. The main ones were with Robin, Elizabeth and Sam.

Robin, who'd been his first love as Jason Morgan. It was still hard for him to fully forgive her for revealing that secret about Michael- no matter how much time passes, he couldn't help but be curious about what would've happened if they'd ended up keeping it secret for at least another year. There was the unlikely possibilty they would've made it, lasted through everything, but he doubts it. After all, as Carly once put it, if she wanted something, Robin would run to Europe as opposed to just telling him. It was exhausting.

There was then the possibility that him and Carly would've gotten together, raised Michael. Been a happy family. A tad bit dysfunctional, but happy.

Then there was his romance with Elizabeth. That one was, by far, one of the most bizarre things, now that he thinks about it. They were so different; it was doomed from the start. As much as he hates to admit it, Carly was right about that one. There was no chance of that relationship lasting.

And of course, there was him and Sam. Their end, their downfall, had been the same one he'd had with Elizabeth: she wasn't able to deal with the mob. But if he was being honest with himself, he knew that it was more than that; it was because, as Sam had said repeatedly, "I don't know if your first allegiance is to Carly or to me." To be honest, neither did he.

Sam would always question his relationship with Carly. It caused a fight everytime she brought it up, and when Sam had learned of their past, her head had nearly flew off her body. She hadn't exactly taken the news that her lover's best friend was also someone who he'd been in love with at one point well. The fact she'd been in love with him too didn't help matters.

As she'd tactfully put it one argument, "You'd die for her in less than a second and you're always going to her defenses! If anyone dares to speak a word against her, suddenly she's a fucking saint who's never wronged a soul! Carly, the same woman who wrecks your life at every chance and ruins all of your relationships! This is the same woman who you drop everything to help time and time again, even me! Carly doesn't feel bad when she comes in here, constantly, with all of her problems and needs you to solve all of them! Whatever the fuck it is you're feeling for her isn't friendly or familial."

That wasn't a fun fight for them to have whenever she'd brought it up. It always ended up with both of them fighting dirty before they'd inevitably forgive each other. It pissed him off that she'd question what he felt for Carly, that she'd try and make him admit something he didn't feel. She felt mad because of jealousy, feeling jealous of how much he cared for the blonde. Hell, they'd broken up because of his loyalty to her.

There was one common denominator in all of his breakups: Carly.

Whether or not he'd realized it at the time, she'd been the reason for all of them. Robin and him because he agreed to be Michael's father as a favor to Carly, Elizabeth and him because she didn't like the mob or his best friend, Sam because she didn't like his allegiance being to Carly.

He's surprisingly okay with that, considering everything. Shockingly, he's not pissed at her for, as Sam said, "Ruining all of his relationships every chance she got." The reason is because he knows she didn't mean to. She may have hated some of them, but so long as they didn't want to punch her, she remained civil. Truly, she just wanted him to be happy. Because he knew that, he's fine with the fact that she had caused their destruction.

All night, he'd stayed up thinking of his memories with Carly, trying to put her in a box in his brain. As usual, she refused. Even in his brain, she was too stubborn for her own good. Her name kept jumping from box to box until finally he gave up trying to categorize her and simply indulged in a bit of nostalgia.

Flashback

It was a cold day outside, even for New York's winter. She'd finally gotten around to letting the boys play in the snow and insisted he join.

"Jason, make a snowball with me!" Morgan had yelled, still too young to really make one properly.

Of course, he'd obliged his best friend's youngest and gotten in a snowball fight with Michael, who had a surprising knack for snowball making.

"I give up!" Michael shouted when Morgan flat out tackled him, covering him with snow in the process and earning a loud laugh out of both Carly and Jason. "Morgan, get off of me! I'm cold!"

"We won, right, Jason?" Morgan asks, smiling widely.

"Yes we did, buddy. Which means, we get a prize. What are you thinking?"

"Hot cocoa!"

"I want hot cocoa too!" Michael pouts, getting out of the snow.

"Morgan, how about we get you a new toy sometime this week? We'll go to the toy store and get you whatever toy you want," Jason bargains.

"Do I get hot cocoa too?"

Laughing, Carly says, "Yes, Morgan, you and your brother get hot cocoa. Why don't you go inside and have Leticia get you some?"

"Yay!" Morgan claps, going in the house with a soaked Michael following him.

"Can we come back out here after our hot cocoa and sled?"

"Sure," Jason answers before Carly, getting a smile out of a shivering Michael. "But you two have to be warned up first and the sun can't be setting in ten minutes."

"Deal." Michael agrees, heading inside. "Morgan! Let's sit by the fire!"

Carly playfully shoves his shoulder, "Now they're going to get freezing cold all over again. Thanks."

"Hey, the kid lost a bet. I'm keeping him from getting even more emotionally wounded. Besides, the sun'll set before they're warmed up."

"Mhm. This has nothing to do with the fact you feel bad for not seeing them when they're with Sonny." Bringing up his name darkens the mood, but he nods his agreement.

"It's better for them if I don't see Sonny right now. I know they know something's up with us and I don't want them picking a side-"

"Too late. My boys are always on your side."

"He's their father."

"You're their Jason," Carly counters, smiling.

"Big difference there, Carly."

"No, not really. Look, Sonny's being a pissy bitch because he knows you're right and he knows that I'm on your side. My boys are too, you know that. They know he fucked up and they know that you didn't. So while he's having a tantrum, you're helping me raise them like you always do."

"They're you two's kids, I don't want them getting caught up in all of this."

"To hell with my ex husband, Jason! He's throwing a tantrum and ignoring them. He doesn't give a damn about what they think about it either; he's just mad. They may be his kids, but you clearly care more about them," the blonde argues.

"He's upset because of me! He's ignoring the boys because of me, Carly! Don't you get that?" Jason exclaims, clearly battling himself mentally. "I caused it."

"You didn't do anything wrong!"

"That's not how Sonny sees it!"

"It's how I see it. It's how the boys see it. It's how anyone with half a braincell sees it, Jason! Don't you get it? We're on your side here, no matter what, because you're always, always on ours."

New flashback

"Give me my divorce, Jax!" Carly insists, begging him to sign the papers while Jason simply glares at her soon-to-be ex-husband.

"No!"

"Just give her the divorce. Hasn't she suffered enough?" Jason inquires, breaking his silence and putting an arm around his friend.

"Why, so you two can run off together? No," Jax answers defiantly. "What the hell are you doing here anyways?"

"To make sure you don't intimidate my friend into staying in a marriage she doesn't want to."

"I can't believe this," the Australian chuckles madly, "you really have him here for intimidation? What's Jason gonna go, shoot me? Good luck with that, buddy. Why don't you go leave my marriage and my family alone?'

"I am his family," Carly says, glaring at him. "And he's mine. Always has been, always will be. You knew that when we got married, that my first allegiance is to my children and Jason. If I were you, I'd suggest that you shut up and sign the damn papers."

"And give up my family?"

"Josslyn will always be your daughter and I like our custody agreement for her. She'll always be your family. But as for me and my boys, we're not," the blonde tells him, encouraged by the fact that Jax genuinely looks a little frightened.

"Fine," he relents, signing the papers and storming out of the office.

She feels a tear go down her face and Jason wipe it away. "Why are you crying? Isn't this what you wanted, a divorce from him?"

A chuckle escapes her, "Of course it is. But now, it's really over. I wasn't expecting to feel like this. I was expecting to feel happy or something, and I do, I feel relief, but now I also feel scared. I'm not even sure where I'll be living."

"You guys can stay at the penthouse, if you want. There's plenty of room and besides, it's quiet since Sam moved out." Jason offers and she smiles widely at him.

"Yet another thing I'll never be able to repay you for," Carly smiles, hugging him. "You sure you can handle two kids, a rebellious Michael, and me all at the same time?"

"Yeah," he answers quickly. "You're family."

"Thank you, for being there for me and them through everything that's happened. I love you."

"I love you too."

"It's nice to hear it."

"Yeah yeah, I think you've got to go tell the boys they're coming to the penthouse for a little while."

"They're going to be over the moon about this! Maybe Michael will finally stop being an angsty teenager." Carly squeals excitedly.

"I doubt living with me will change that," he says. "You sure Sonny's going to be okay with this?"

"I couldn't give less shit's if I tried about what Sonny thinks if I'm being completely honest with you, Jason, so don't you dare tell me that you're revoking your offer," she threatens loosely, knowing he'd never do that to her, to their family.

"Never. Just saying, it might be better if you're on good terms with your ex husband-"

"Well, I don't care. The boys, Josslyn, and I are going to be fine, living with you."

Back to reality

"Jason! Help!" She calls again, waking him from his memories and snapping him back into action.

"Carly, you're at GH. Cyrus is in police custody. I'm here, you're safe," he promises. "Nothing's going to happen to you. I promise."

It slowly sinks in and she breathes normally again before asking, "How's work stuff? Did Florence get home safe?"

"Yes."

"Shouldn't you be at the office or something?"

"No, I'm supposed to be here, making sure you're healing properly and nagging you," he quips, getting a smile. "Besides, nothing interesting is going on today. You're what's important here, not the business."

"The business is important too," she argues.

"Not as important as you."

A smile breaks out on her face at that, "Thanks."

"I'd say anytime, but I'm afraid it'd become a habit."

"When did you become so funny?"

"I've always been funny, you just haven't been paying attention."

"Sure. You're always so serious, walking around so stoic and never showing emotion until you're at your breaking point. Or think you're gonna die. It's sad, really. I mean, I love you and I know you love me, but it's sad you feel like you can't show emotion."

"I show emotion."

"Mhm."

"Sometimes. When I feel like it."

"Sure."

"You see my emotions more than anyone else."

"I know," Carly smiles. "That's just because I'm an amazing person and friend."

"You're also a tad bit overconfident."

"She wasn't last night," a sinister voice says from behind them. A voice belonging to Cyrus Renault.

To be continued after I pass out on my bed and don't wake up until school

@ryleighjosephine im not listening to school

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littlerockerao3 · 4 years

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I've never sent one of these things before but for that recent one maybe throbb with no,: 84 , 27 , 51 , 91 , 96 , 99 and 129? (You don't have to use them all though 😅)

Thank you❤️ I hope you like these!

84 “Come on, baby, up to bed.”

“Robb.” Theon says, shaking his boyfriend’s shoulder lightly. He’s been studying all day, the poor boy, and now he had fallen asleep with his face in the books, while still sitting on his desk chair. He’s going to have an exam soon and he just can’t help but being anxious all the time. Like he’s not motherfucking Robb Stark and won’t pass it with full marks, tsk.

Theon is proud of his boyfriend: he’s proud he’s studying, he’s proud he’s so good at college, he’s proud he��s going to be an excellent teacher, one day soon. But this is too much: it’s 1am and yes, it’s Friday night, but they both know he‘s going to wake up at 6 in the morning to study everything all over again as a “quick check up” as Robb uses to call it. And right now, he just needs some sleep.

“Huh? What?” Robb blinks a few times, then opens his big blue eyes. They look almost grey right now, blame it on the soft abat-jour lightening the books only.

Theon runs a hand through his boyfriend’s hair: “it’s late babe, you gotta go to bed” he softly whispers

Robb blinks again, once, twice, three times. Then he shakes his head: “No, I have to study” but he yawns, loudly, and feels the urge to rub his eyes.

Theon’s hand goes from his boyfriend’s hair to his cheek and caresses it softly: “What you have to do now is get some sleep, handsome”

Robb pouts, and points at his sheets and notebooks: “I just need to revise this one thing and...”

“Hush. You’ve been studying for days. I barely get to see my boyfriend anymore and we live under the same roof. If you want to study the best you can, you need to be well rested first.” Theon bows down lightly to kiss Robb’s forehead, gently.

Robb sighs, then looks up at him: “I guess you’re right” he finally admits.

Theon smirks: “Of course I’m right, I’m always right.” He ignores his boyfriend’s puff and stretches out his hand for him to grab it: “Come on baby, up to bed.” He whispers.

Robb grabs his hand, and lets himself being led towards the bed, a few steps away from the desk he’s been sitting in front of all day.

Theon helps him getting undressed, until he’s wearing his boxers only. They both crawl inside the bed and Theon is surprised by how hard Robb’s grip around his body is, despise his tiredness. He smiles, quickly brushing Robb’s curls away from his forehead and resting another kiss on it: “Goodnight, love of my life” he says, lovingly, caressing Robb’s cheek with his thumb. But the love of his life is already sound asleep.

27 “Oh, fuck off.”

“So let me get this straight” Robb begun

Theon shrugged: “There’s actually nothing straight about this but yeah, go on”

“This is really not the moment to be an idiot, Greyjoy” Robb scolds him, because he still can’t believe it. And he can’t believe how Theon can’t understand what he did wrong.

His fiancée rolls his eyes, and Robb would most likely slap his beautiful face, but he decides there’s still time for that and now it’s time to explain himself, since Theon can’t get there by himself, apparently: “So, you tried to hit on me while you were drunk at Sansa and Margaery’s engagement party.”

Theon slaps his hands on his tights in exasperation: “You don’t even remember this! Asha told you!”

Robb’s eyes widens: “So what?! You’re engaged and you were trying to get laid with someone else!”

“It was still you, you idiot!”

“But you didn’t know that!” Robb yells, just as loudly.

Theon’s dark eyes widens as well: “So what?! It was still you! It’s basically the proof I couldn’t cheat on you even if I wanted to!”

“Oh fuck off!” Robb snaps: so what if it was still him? Theon was so drunk he didn’t even recognize him, and that was because he just wanted to get laid with someone else. Someone that wasn’t his fiancée.

Theon runs both his hands through his hair and Robb almost slaps him again: he should be the annoyed one, the one who’s done with it. Because it’s Theon the one acting like a dickhead.

Suddenly, Asha comes thumping down the stairs, wearing only a bra and her brother’s shorts. She’s rubbing a towel over her wet hair as she asks them: “Why the fuck are you yelling? You’re supposed to be the cute couple”

Theon rolls his eyes: “Robb’s mad at me because I hit on him, yesterday”

Asha stares at the redhead, and all he can do is pout and cross his arms to his chest. A smirk appears on her face: “Seriously?” She says.

Robb opens his mouth to explain why he’s actually mad, but she speaks before he can talk: “You were perfectly fine with it, you were actually hitting back on him. I thought it was some kink of yours, at first”

Robb blushes violently, as Theon stares at him, one step away from bursting out laughing. Robb raises his hand, as if to say “don’t say a word”, but Theon grabs him by the wrist and shoves him close to him, until he’s holding him in his arms. He’s chuckling.

“Now I understand what you mean when you tell people you fell in love with an idiot.” Theon says, before kissing his lips.

51 “I’m your husband. It’s my job.”

“Robb, seriously, stop overreacting, it’s barely a scratch!” Theon shouts, but that doesn’t stop Robb from attaching the teddy bear patterned patch on his knee.

“You should be lucky it’s just a scratch, you could have hurt yourself bad!” Robb replies, shoving all the bottles of sanitizer back inside their drawer.

Theon rolls his eyes, his ass still sitting on the kitchen counter: “I was playing football with Rickon!”

Robb snorts: “Yeah about that: how is it even possible that you got hurt and he didn’t?”

Theon doesn’t answer, just stares at his husband as if to say ‘don’t you dare try to compare me to an eighteen year old horny teen’. But then, Robb shakes his head and mumbles: “You two should never be left alone for more than three minutes. I’m tired of always being the one patching you up.”

Theon grins: “Now don’t pretend you don’t love it” he grabs Robb’s hand and places a gentle kiss on it.

Robb shrugs, barely smiling: “I’m your husband. It’s my job”

“To love patching me up?”

Robb cups Theon’s face with his free hand: “To worry about you even for the smallest thing” he says.

Theon smiles, genuinely, just like he does everytime Robb’s in front of him: “I don’t want to imagine what you’ll become once we’ll have kids”

Robb smiles as well, and presses a small kiss to his husband’s lips: “Oh I’m sure that once we’ll have kids, you’ll start acting like me as well”

Theon doesn’t believe it at first. A few years later, he realizes Robb was right.

91 “Scoot over a little bit, please.”

“Oh my god, finally home” Theon throws himself over the bed, landing perfectly in the middle, his arms and legs spread all over the mattress.

Robb smiles at his boyfriend, shanking his head, then approaches him: “Scoot over a bit, please”

Theon grumbles something but doesn’t move, so all Robb has left to do is lay down on his boyfriend’s back.

“No, come on, get off, you fat ass!” Theon starts complaining right away.

Robb smirks, resting a few small kisses all along his boyfriend’s neck: “What? You don’t like me being on top?”

“Oh I’m so not answering that.” Theon hides is face in the pillow, though Robb knows he’s enjoying every kiss he’s giving him.

“You don’t want cuddles?”

“No”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes”

“You know who’d like some cuddles?”

He hears and feels Theon holding his breath: “Don’t you dare.”

Oh but Robb loves challenges. He turns towards the open door and yells: “Grey Wiiiiind!”

In about five seconds they’re overrun by the enormous dog, who jumps on their bed and starts licking his face with his big wet and, as Theon likes to remind Robb, stinky tongue.

No matter how loud Theon’s yells are, Grey Wind still plops down next to him, so that they are face to face and Theon can still get his nice dose of kisses both from Robb and their dog.

“Drowned God, I hate you two” Theon scoffs, but he’s smiling.

96 “Stop being grumpy. It’s lame.”

“Stop being grumpy. It’s lame” Theon says, sharing a challenging look with his one year old and extending his hand with the spoon full with banana slices once again. The toddler pouts and keeps his mouth locked, causing Theon to sigh.

“He still refuses to eat?” Robb asks, making his way into the kitchen.

Theon nods: “he’s been grumpy since I woke him up”

Robb shrugs and caress their baby’s curly auburn hair: “Well, you can’t always just get up on the right side of the bed: his older siblings are already fighting and it’s not even ten yet.”

Theon feels the annoyance at only the thought of their oldest two kids fighting, which has been a routine by now, just as he had predicted: “Does he still pull her hair for fun?”

Robb nods: “Yeah, I’m scared someday she might end up...”

The echo of a slap coming from upstairs reaches their ears, followed by their oldest son yelling: “Dad! She hit me!”

They both sigh, Theon is not surprised, Robb just shakes his head: “Yeah, that was what I feared. KIDS!” he begins, heading upstairs. Well, at least he’s gonna handle those two scamps: Theon’s not really in the mood right now. Getting a toddler to eat his breakfast is already stressing enough.

He turns to his baby boy, again, and frowns once he sees he’s smiling.

“Oh, so you have fun when daddy is mad at your big brother and sister, huh? You may look like him but these are all my genes. Now eat, please.”

99 “You got a cute butt.”

Robb punches Theon’s chest once the umpteenth smack comes down his ass: “Stop it!”

Theon pouts, faking sadness: “Why? You’ve got a cute butt.”

“We’re in a church, Theon! It’s my aunt’s wedding!” he whisper-yells.

Theon just rolls his eyes in response: “Yeah it’s her what? Seventh husband?”

If looks could kill, Theon would have been dead by how Robb’s eyes were watching him: “We’re still in public, okay? And it’s a church!”

“Yeah sure. And you want me to forget that time when we heard Jon and Satin having sex at your sister’s graduation party, sure.” Theon replies, and smacks Robb’s ass again.

Robb flinches and tries his best not to curse: they’re in a church. A motherfucking church.

“Let’s make a deal: you stop it and once it’s over we’ll go in the car and you can do anything you want to my ass.” He says.

Theon’s eyes lights up obviously, because he just gave him what he wanted. Or he’s about to.

“Like, anything?” He asks.

Robb sighs and rest a hand on his forehead, not really wanting to admit he kinda wants that too: “Yeah, anything”

Theon’s hand lands ungracefully on Robb’s ass once again, for the last time: “deal.”

129 “I’ll give you a massage.”

“Stressful day?” Robb asks his husband while his hands move to gently squeeze the space between his neck and shoulders.

“Yeah...” Theon mumbles, relaxing under the gentle touch.

“I’ll take care of you then, baby” Robb says.

Theon smiles lightly: “Oh yeah? And what will you do?”

Robb keeps moving his hands gently: “Well, first I’ll give you a massage. Then I’ll make your favorite dish for dinner... and what about a hot bath later, huh? Just me, you, and lots of cuddles”

Theon keeps his eyes closed, as Robb’s hands keep massaging him: “Sounds fun”

Robb smiles, bending over the couch to press a kiss to his husband’s nose: “It’ll be”

#kitchcat #asks #drabbles #throbb #parents throbb #just theon being theon #this was fun!#thank you for asking me so many!#though kinda didnt know what to write on the last one tbh lol #thank yoooou #if it’s good make it throbb

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buddha-in-disguise · 4 years

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This is how it's done

Episode 5.15 at last.

While the emphasis has been on Nia's story in this episode, the synopsis made it clear Alex, Kelly and J'onn had a secondary storyline running as well. So again we were eager to watch knowing they were finally getting more than a token few minutes together.

Did it deliver?

Oh hell yes.

You just have to look on Twitter to see the praise being heaped on it by fans.

But first let's get the elephant in the room out of the way. William.

The opening sequence as Kara is fighting with Nia, and Nia has to be the one reminding Kara she has a date? Already covered by me and others, but to reiterate: that does not give a vibe of someone excited to be going on a first date. You can't even use the excuse of her mind was on the fight, because so was Nia's.

As to Kara at her apartment with Alex prior to the date?

Those words, "Cancel it for me."

Lets say (for arguments sake) it is nerves again speaking. Maybe it is, but that she is even having those thoughts? That she completely forgot about the 1st date, and needed reminding? If Kara can't get invested in the date, how are the audience expected to become invested?

As for the date itself. Kara arrives.... having been told by Alex to wear the blue top because .... well reasons .... and she is wearing the purple? So, not wanting to go with the best look then?

I didn't mind the date per se, although I did wonder if Kara was simply trying to not show pool skills, because I can't believe for a second, with Alex as a sister, and the control Kara now has on her powers (worry over lack of control would be the only other reason for her hesitation that I can think of), Kara hasn't been pulled into playing many times.

Did I get a date vibe? No. I felt more bonding yes (like why has it taken until now to even vaguely have that much), but date? Nope. Still not feeling it. If any of the above was a one off instance, you could shrug it off. But all of them? Sorry but as I say, if Kara isn't that invested in a first date, then we can't be expected to be as invested. However, that isn't to say that William annoyed me. In truth having him more on the sidelines was a relief as it finally allowed others to get some much needed screen time.

The Nia storyline.

This is obviously one extremely close to me, as my husband is transgender, and we have other family who are also transgender.

Nicole's input was definitely felt. Some of the lines she spoke were ones we have said ourselves almost word for word.

This is a topic that is one I've been extremely vocal about, and one in particular I have spoken about (in the William and Kara at CatCo scene) is the figures for transgender people killed in the last year alone in the USA, but more importantly that this number is likely not a true representation as many who die are misgendered after death.

It was so important to show just how bad for the transgender community it is. And no, it wouldn't necessarily be a fact Kara would know. Even those in the LGBTQ community aren't always aware of these figures. As for William being the one stating the figures back to Kara, again in the context I had no qualms about it. In fact having a CIS straight man write the piece and be a supportive ally is an important message in it's own right. I was worried that wouldn't come across, but I felt it did.

If ever there was a line that spoke volumes in this weeks Supergirl episode it was this:

"They want us to be invisible because of their own fears, they want to erase us so...... we need to shine even brighter." - Nia Nal

And shine Nicole Maines (and Roxy Wood, because the additional line about being a Black transgender woman - take my heart, stomp over it, then expect me to function), did. Both deserve so much praise on the way they delivered their performances.

I genuinely cried at some of this weeks episode, because the experiences have been ones we have faced as a transgender household. Being white does afford us a privilege that Black transgender people (especially the women) don't have. But as I say, it has been something I've been vocal about for a long time.

Lastly Kara and Nia on the balcony. Holy mother of god (or goddess), tears. Again. Nicole and Melissa once again were so good it felt like a punch to the gut. Kara wiping that tear off Nia's cheek. Big ugly sobbing from me. Gah! Just ....

Now Alex and Kelly. While I'm still craving a nice intimate atmosphere at home with them, having had so little of Dansen (and Kelly) it was a relief that for once Kelly wasn't given diminished screentime. Not only that, she was instrumental in helping Alex navigate through the VR world.

Alex having that PTSD flashback to being in the tank. Whoa, finally acknowledging it affected her and obviously still does. I loved how Kelly is so good at helping Alex maintain her equilibrium. You could tell it wasn't just because of her training or profession, but as a girlfriend who knows and understands how to communicate to Alex in that moment of stress, much like Alex was able to realise Malefic was manifesting as Kelly in the earlier part of the season, simply because she knew her girlfriend well enough.

Watching Alex train to get used to the Martian weapon, felt very reminiscent of S1 where Alex was training Kara early on. It was good to see her off balance for once in her training, as she has always shown a confidence in her ability until now. For those who complain she brought up wanting to be back at the DEO, as someone who has heavy military presence in our family (for at least 4 generations on my maternal side), I can safely say, going from military (and remember the DEO is recognised and spoken about in canon as being a military operation), and suddenly and unexpectedly thrown back into civilian life is one heck of an adjustment. It's an adjustment for most even when they know it's coming. To be so abrupt, so unexpected? Alex is going to want that structure back, and have that support around her. It is absolutely not unrealistic for her to feel this way or to talk about it. I would've been more surprised if she hadn't.

"And this is my gun."

Alex giving no crap. The whole rescue sequence was a joy to watch.

If I had a complaint, as I mentioned, I would've loved just a moment of real quiet intimacy between Kelly and Alex. We've barely seen anything of that sort. I hope we get something next episode (which also looks amazing from the trailer).

I could go through the episode and pick up so many times on how good it was. It was so much, I know I will have forgotten something I wanted to say. But I'm exhausted (almost no sleep will do that to you, damn being in the UK and these stupid o'clock viewing times), and it was so much to unpack.

Brainy, was barely in the episode but damn, so lovely (& heartbreaking) to see him give the information to the NCPD to help against transphobic attacks.

Onto a side plot, but finally we have more about Leviathan.

Leviathan have those bodies suspended.

What if William dies in 5.19 and becomes one of those suspended bodies for 5.20 or was supposed to, as Nicole mentioned on her Instagram story they still had scenes to film, and a couple were pretty amazing? With Staz back, would it have involved him, possibly as a sleeper agent? I've touted this idea before. While I would prefer that a MOC isn't cast into being a bad guy again, or killed off, I would more than happily see him simply go back to London and The Times. But I guess we wait to see what happens there.

But if, like Russell in 5a, he becomes an unwitting agent of Leviathan & a bad guy, cue fight scene, possibly in a VR setting? Maybe? Who knows.

Last but by no means least - they killed off Jeremiah. Since we're not entirely sure if Cadmus operated in the same way on Earth Prime as they did on Earth 38, we don't yet know the circumstances behind his death.

Will we get more explanation about it? Honestly I'm not overly bothered unless it helps serve a current storyline. Merely because episode numbers are running out, and it does at least bring us closure on his character one way or another. Something a lot of us have questioned for so long now.

As for complaints, the only ones expressing any real disappointment have been fans who have either regularly attacked other fans (especially those of in the SC or Dansen fandoms), or the outright transphobic users (I won't call them fans), who as the episode makes clear, are everywhere. The transphobes come out in force everytime with Nicole, so it isn't a surprise to see them again. As Nia says, it what transgender people face on a daily basis.

Plus with no Lena in the episode, it helps show that fans didn't need a Lena/Kara centric episode for this to garner such positive reactions, particularly from the LGBTQ fans. In some ways, as many have been saying (yes even SC fans), this Lena drama has long since gone by its sell by date and not having Lena once more stuck in her laboratory wasn't missed. And god, I say this as a huge Lena fan. I still want her on screen of course, but we need progression on what is happening with her. Both Lex and Lena have felt stale of late, and while I know it changes as we get into the last few episodes, I can truly say neither was missed this time. And before anyone jumps in, no this isn't bashing SC (I still ship both Dansen and SC, as well as Brainia), or saying SC shouldn't happen, or Lena is evil, or not needed. I don't think that at all. I merely am getting tired of a merry-go-round on Lena in her laboratory that we've had of late, & the only interaction has been with Lex. Time to break her out of that cell!

I don’t know what they were putting in the water in Vancouver when they did the Batwoman and Supergirl episodes this week, but they both had me simultaneously laughing & crying! It looked ugly for a minute there.

Both were outstanding episodes.

As much as I've had my criticism over some of this season, when Supergirl get it right like they did here, they soar! This was one of my top episodes for the entire series.

And despite all the news in the world right now, Supergirl trended on Twitter again.

Gif courtesy of @ Daily_danvers on Twitter.

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jiwonsssi · 5 years

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- differences, pt. 2

I hate descriptions. Just read.

characters: Eun Jiwon/'you'

warnings: swearing

A/U: i tried into drama making but since i hate drama it turned out kinda cringey so yeah enjoy and OH its long

And the next week was pretty much normal. Practices, meet ups with friends, helping your mother on her work and other typical stuff for you. You even managed to forget what happened with Jiwon earlier, because there were no time to think about it; too much is happening, and, as always, it does make you feel overwhelmed. And of course there was someone who was fascinated with the idea on how to make you life worse. Sungha didn't even try, you don't know if it was his intention; but God was he successful.

He got suddenly fucking annoying; to the point you didn't even want to see him. He asked annoying question, joked annoying jokes, touched you so annoyingly that you flinched from him everytime. Perhaps, he didn't do anything wrong (as he, himself, claims) and to be honest you are not that angry with his actions on that damned night, but.. something is wrong. You can only feel it, it's impossible to describe it or put it in words; and that's, actually, one of the main problems - you have no idea what to tell him.

And he continues to ask. Annoyingly.

You read and heard somewhere that a simple gesture of a person could easily turn you away from her or him. Apparently, that happened.

And Jiwon. Somehow you see him tragically different now. This week made you analyze so many things about him; you spent hella time together, it wasn't that hard anyway. It's not like you are ready to jump on him screaming 'oppa take me' or something. Absolutely fucking not. Yet.

Anyway, among everything, you drastically wanted to be closer to him. Friendship seems like out of this world idea, but just talking to him feels better than with anyone else. Except, maybe, your mother. But perhaps it's because they are around the same age? We (you and your common sense) choose to ignore that fact.

The other thing you want to ignore is that you are very much disappointed in the fact that he stopped being late. Just a tiny part of you were hoping for another 15 minutes spent together in total comfort of the night drive.

And today was not different; Eun Jiwon was tolerably late and all the dancers waited for him patiently.

- We need to talk, - Sungha sits down beside you and you fight an urge to roll your eyes.

- Right now? - you are annoyed without any apparent reason. It's not right. You really want to talk; you know it's a need. But at the same time it feels so impossible; you know that there would be a fight. You just want to postpone it for as long as possible.

- Yes, because any other time you run from me like crazy, - he has a point.

- I'm not, - we will not accept it anyway.

- You are! But.. not a point. What the fuck is happening? Are you still mad at me? For just one shitty night? You made it safe! - he's not screaming, more like loudly whispering but you still see people watching you. So you stand up, taking his hand and shove him out of the room, standing in front of him with your arms crossed on your chest.

Rage starts to build up unexpectedly fast and you have no idea how to stop it. You don't want to, to be honest.

- Yeah, I hope you had great time as well.

- I promised them! What could I say? 'Sorry, I need to abandon something that has been planned weeks ago'? - he has a point, he really does. Everytime. But.. you just can't think straight. Whatever he says, you would probably still blame him.

- It would have literally took you about 20 minutes. But no, you didn't even think about it; the idea that your friends can spend 30 minutes without you didn't cross your mind. But the idea of abandoning me in the middle of night - on top of all, - you articulate dramatically at this point, but who cares anyway.

- Oh, now we are playing that 'could have been done' game? C'mon, quit it, I care about you and you know it, - did it make you more angry? Because it did.

- You? Care? My ass, how many times you dropped me over some shit? Buying me stuff to make it seems like an apology is not caring about me, it's bullshit, - you put his hands that he already had on your waist down, stepping back a little.

- Uhm, it's not like I'm the one who accepts them, - it's a war declaration.

You know he is right. You know. But at the same time, who said you should always think with you brain, not, for example, with ass? It will sound stupid, but your heart already gave up on him (if it even was considering him in the first place), your head's ideas don't really suit you and other parts of you just really want to punch him.

- Oh you know what? It's better to receive at least something from you, because otherwise I might stuck with only "amazing" conversations and even worse sex. I'm not your parent to teach you how to behave when you are guilty and if you want to shower me with gifts when you can simply apologize, I'm not here to complain, - aww, who's that angry little boy? He furrows his brows, breathing heavily and you shrug your shoulders, smiling the most annoying smile you can manage.

Everyone think that you are with him because of money, so why not play along?

- Fuck that, - Sungha goes straight back to the practice room again and you feel air in your lungs hurting. If that's even possible. You have chosen him for a reason and the reason is absolutely not wealth. And now.. it's kinda weird to be sad over something that you, yourself, ruined. You did ruin it, right? And over some, indeed, tiny fucking mistake.

You will not blame yourself for this, but maybe you are allowed to be a little upset. Break ups happen and.. it's upsetting. And when the adrenaline in your veins finally calms down, you inhale deeply, trying to calm that tiny crybaby in you down.

The thing is, you absolutely can't handle it right now. Just not in the middle of this mess with everyday practices and hella tone of work in general. You want peace and comfort, not all those nerves.

It's absolutely time to get wasted. And you're have absolutely no time for that.

Coming back in, you feel particularly everyone in this room watching you and it's so fucking annoying again. Why can't they just mind their own business? Is it that hard?

But most probably the biggest problem is that right after you, a mere seconds later, Jiwon comes in and you can swear he heard everything. Everything. You groan and stomp your feet, screaming at how life hates you. Internally.

You meet his eyes once, when Jiwon greets everyone and he just smiles, nodding his head a little. Maybe he will not think of you as someone who sleeps with men for money.

Just a tiny, tiny, tiny possibility. A girl can dream, right?

Hope dies last. All that shit.

It's hard to concentrate when all you can think about is your now totally fucked up relationships; it's impossible to pretend that you don't care. You do. And not because you are scared of losing him (somehow that is the last thing you afraid of), but to break up on this conditions. You truly believe that everything can be solved through conversation (even though you are the one who became angry but does it really matter?); you won't beg him to start over, because you simply don't want to. But breaking up without hating each other sounds better than what you have now.

The practice starts and you do everything automatically. Absolutely on autopilot.

- Hey, are you with us? I'm talking to you, - of course it's time to miss main choreographer speaking directly to you, right in front of your face. What a perfect day!

- Sorry, I.. sorry, - the music is already silent and everyone are out. For a break, probably. You feel like you are on crack or something, because you totally forgot what was happening around. And how much time passed by.

- Nevermind. What I wanted to say is that you are to dance with Eun Jiwon. I hope you remember choreography for 'Tipsy', aren't you? - you badly want to close your eyes, breath and whisper 'what the fuck' but you just nod silently, then shake your head.

- But I was dancing with Sungha as backdancer, so I..

- Not anymore. I don't know what is happening between you two but this is the last time I agree on changing partners in the last moment. Understood? - again, the exact same wish. What the fuck is going on? It feels like you fell asleep in one reality and woke in another.

- Yeah. But I..

- That's it, go and grab some coffee, I don't know, you lookin awful, - she smiles in the end so you don't feel offended, but she's totally right. Nodding, you turn around to leave. Coffee. Great idea. Would be even better with whiskey.

Unsuccessfuly trying to persuade coffee machine to not to add 5 portions of sugar, you also trying your very best to persuade yourself to stop fucking whining.

- Yes, bad terms. Yes, I look like a bitch now. Yes, he's going to shit on me everywhere. Yes, probably I will lose some people. Yes, I said awful things, - talking to yourself in public place is not a great idea but who cares, - But do I need those people? And sex was really not that great.. Fuck you!

You tap with a loud sound on a coffee machine who proudly presents you extra sweet coffee. Feeling your lower lip tremble out of pure rage, you shove coffee in sink and sigh slowly.

- Please, just once, sweetie, let's do it, huh? Just for me, c'mon, - now you try to persuade the machine nicely. It works with you laptop every time, so why not?

But yeah, life is a shit and that's exactly why you hear a loud giggle from behind and.. we're not in fanfiction. It can't be him. Right?

- After talking to yourself you started to chat with coffee machine. I genuinely want to know, are you okay? - it's absolutely not the right time for Jiwon to show up out of nowhere. The awful timing. Closing your eyes, you force yourself to smile and turn around, facing him.

- Yeah, just.. it's always nice to chat with someone smart, - he smiles again, nodding and comes closer.

- That's why you were talking to coffee machine? - you look at him, standing right beside you with his kind mocking face and he smirks, celebrating his win. Hell no.

- That's why I will not talk to you, - his face changes in seconds and he's now cutely mad. You could never count him as scary old sunbae, because it's so light around him. You can't be this free with the most of the men around there because every one of them don't know how to handle pure jokes. Jiwon does everything perfectly.

- Okay then. I'll drink that tasty fresh black strong coffee with no sugar from cafe nearby all by myself, - you don't realize that he's holding two cups and you honestly forgot how to say 'thank you'. He turns around very slowly, looking you in the eyes all the way and you put on your most exaggerated charming smile.

- Oh my God, I'm so sorry, oppa, you are the smartest that I have ever met! - you would hang on his arm or something but apart him being very open and comfortable with you, it's still obvious that he's much older. Literally twice your age. That would be crossing the lines.

Jiwon pretends to think for a moment and you smile as innocent as possible and he suddenly nods, with the same exaggerated satisfaction, passing you the hot cup.

- I saw you spacing out, thought coffee will help. Must be difficult these days for you? - he just stands here, leaning with one hand on a table and he looks.. stunning. His style is perfect without trying and you can swear the color black belongs to him. And you just broke up with the boyfriend. Stop. But maybe it's his care that looks stunning, huh. Sounds lame, but.. unless?

- Yeah, I just.. - actually you have zero fucking idea on how to answer his question. He wouldn't be asking if he wasn't interested in what you are going to say. Yet you also had no intentions on showering him with your problems so you look at him, trying not to look desperate and shake your shoulders, - You heard everything, right?

He nods and you sip coffee, trying to not to burn your lips.

- I did, sorry, - he places his cup onto the table, putting both of hands in the pockets of his joggers, - You broke his self esteem, not his heart. So don't worry about sounding like a bitch.

He's actually very right. But there is something that will eat you anyway. Nice, though, that he's trying to help you. Hella weird.

- But it will eat me a couple of months anyway, - you continue to drink your coffee, staring at the material of his black tshirt, not seeing anything anyway when he speaks again.

- Your words about sex will eat him at least a couple of years. So don't worry, you won this one, - and you choke on your coffee, spitting it everywhere, trying to laugh and feel ashamed at the same time. Jiwon wipes brown drops from his upper arm that happened to be on the way of your hysteria, laughing not so loud but any way very pleasing. No need to be ashamed, apparently.

It wasn't funny. It was just so weird to hear it from him.

- I won't ever again buy you drinks, - he's laughing, hanging you tissues and taking the cup out of your hands, throwing it into the trash, - C'mon. Break must be over by now.

And he's so light, just like that. Jiwon doesn't make you talk about it further, doesn't try to get into your head with advices; he said what he wanted to say and listened to you for as much as you needed.

Does being intelligent comes with age?

You wipe your mouth, making your way after him when you get this feeling again; why does your whole life feels like a fanfiction? Of course Sungha needs to stand in the dark corner near vending machine like a fucking anime antihero.

You couldn't see him earlier, but.. Jiwon did. You look at his back, being not just surprised, but absolutely fucking stumbled. Why? He didn't do anything extra, but he could have been silent about such an intimate detail, as sex. But he wasn't. He deadass joked about it. And it led you to one thought: was he angry at him?

No way. Probably.

After looking at him for a moment, it feels like all that joy and relaxation you got from talking to Jiwon disappears in mere seconds. You feel so pressured again. You fucked it up. Again.

Sungha follows you and you feel his eyes imprinting 'you will regret this' on the back of your neck; you literally can feel it. It's funny how you have been knowing every bad thing about him and his friends and still decided to say 'yes' to this relationships. It started as a mess, and it will end the same.

Position "I will make him better" was never intended to work anyway.

Jiwon holds a door for you and you enter practice room, slightly nodding to him as 'thank you'. Even though you are going to dance so close to him; so close to the point you never knew you wanted to, you had no intention to continue this rehearsal. Not even the slightest.

And when the choreographer was talking to Jiwon about changing partners and he was actually very surprised or even when the music started to play, you had absolutely no emotions on your face. And so the troubles begin.

Of course, that made choreographer perofm a very nice thing called 'I will fucking end you if you continue to ruin my pattern' and it made you even more irritated and you forgot how many times you clumsy bumped into Eun Jiwon's limbs with yours. He helped you. A lot. Messing it up himself, sometimes. Sometimes receiving your palm slapping his chest. You didn't see even a tiny muscle changing on his face to form an angry emotion. And it's all extremely touching and his patience is made of steel when he wants it to be like that, but.. you still can't concentrate.

- You know what? I'm tired, - you hear Jiwon nag loudly, after you stepped on his foot for the third time and music stops the moment after his words, - I can't work like that.

Was you ready to cry? Because you even feel your eyes watering. You never expected him to care about you more than he already did, but he clearly saw what was happening.

Though it's only your fault. You move away from him a little, brushing your hair back and close your eyes. There are three more candidates who can do that. Not a big problem for him to change.

Jiwon moves in the direction of the woman who's now particularly burns with flames of rage and you know that you are the one they are discussing and feels so pitiful. You really wish it didn't ruin your pride.

And it's not how they talk while looking around on dancers that made you feel like shit. It's how everyone know that you were declined and that it's absolutely your fault; and they feel like it's prior duty to stare at you so.. contemptuously. Everyone have their bad days. Yours just happen to be today. It doesn't make you worse or better, but it's hard to persuade yourself to think like that because you are already digging yourself in.

And his rejection is actually making it hundred times worse.

- So, I wanted to say that I'm extremely tired and that's it for today, - Jiwon stands in the centre of the room, looking at you all with such a sincere sorrow. You title your head, frowning. What the fuck? - I know that it's still a long way to go, but let's have an evening off today. We all are doing great and I am very thankful for all the hard work you do for me, - he speaks so.. slowly and thoughtfully. Like he really means it. It's nice, - And besides, I'm not getting younger so I need to rest. Let's pretend it's not the main reason, - you catch your 'what the fuck' expression in the mirror and he laughs, continue to talk like only he can. You have no idea how to explain that. It just hits differently, - So let's go, run faster until our very scary choreographer didn't change her mind. Go!

He claps his hands, bowing a little and continue to stand where he is, scrolling through his phone after politely saying bye to everyone who was addressing him. You don't move even a bit because now you feel like it's your prior duty to hail him. Of course people will know the truth, but he at least made an attempt to make it seems like it wasn't your fault.

You don't know how to feel about that. You really don't.

He stares at his phone and you wait until all the people are gone, clearing your throat to make him notice you.

- Shit, you scared me. I was ready to call you, - you title your head again, because what is wrong with him. He walks to the door, opening it for you again. What the..

- I am confused, but I still will say what I wanted to, - you come closer, letting the door shut and now it's his turn to be surprised because you just realized that you have a face that says 'I'm about to beat you up'. And you are not, - I wanted to say sorry for my work. I did a lot of mistakes. And I will understand if you are going to change me for someone else. I am truly sorry. And also I want to say thank you for what you did. It was.. great. Thank you.

Lowering you head, you look at his sneakers and sigh loudly.

- Look, I understand everything. I know what you are capable of and I will not judge you now, - he does it again. Sounds so mature. Reassuring. Calming. His voice is low and manly suddenly and you feel goosebumps running wild on your skin and you finally look at him, smiling, - But if you hit me one more time..

He pokes a finger at you and you laugh, murmuring short 'sorry' again, hearing how he chuckles softly. He's not mad. At all. You are so used to bullshit out of everything that when people actually treat each other like human beings it makes you lost.

- Okay. Remember when I told you I am not going to buy you drinks? - he looks at you mischievously and you nod slowly, making that "the fuck" face, - Lies. I will.

Now it's time to make that 'so...?' face and you do exactly it.

- Do you.. drink? - is he trying to ask you.. out? Like, is it.. no, it can't be real. It's ridiculous. No. Unless?

- I.. do, - the whole conversation sounds like two very slow idiots are trying to decide on something.

- So.. Me too, - you can't help but laugh shortly looking at his expression and then come back to the 'idiots' performance.

- That's... Nice. That we two drink, - you nod, trying your best to not to laugh again and he does exactly same. Hilarious to watch.

- So shall we.. do it together? - he stumbles for a moment then rolls his eyes and then smile, waving his hand in the air, - What I wanted to say is that I want you to relax and I don't know a better way than to drink. So let's go.

You know one that's better than drinking. But let's say he won't understand if you say it out loud.

Finally you just nod, exiting the room first.

This day is a fucking roller coaster.

#sechskies #eunjiwon #imagine

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topconfessions · 2 years

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Tbh Bts brought me here Army for life!!!i hv been foollowing for a couple yrs now and i did see a definite change for yr love of top. nw yr like a salty ex with hella mood swings.. haha😅

eh. I actually have a lot to say about this:

if I'm being honest with you? I generally am 95% over him. I don't hate him? but I don't have an over the moon love for him, on top of that I grew up. I really genuinely grew up as I was a stan and hardcore fan since I was teenager and now I'm nearly 30. A lot of you take my views on him very face value and seriously. I want him to succeed cause he did make an impact on my life in ways not traditional to how he's made an impact on you guys cause I could always objectively tell and see that he is a personality that never meshes with someone like me in real life or someone I'd be fit to date or take seriously if I ever met him or knew him in that dream world everyone has of celebrity what ifs games.

TBH I don't post my up & down opinions of him and not expect feedback cause that would be....weird or just stuck up not to expect that? but at the end of the day, it achieves nothing to me to point the behavior out. Am I going to physically cry over this? jump off a bridge and commit suicide? punch the air? delete the blog? idk. Maybe it's because I still vividly remember how things were during BB's rise and peak when communication across the board especially in fandom worship wasn't like this. I'm young but kinda old school? it just like okay, am I suppose to magically change my behavior?

the irony in what you and others are saying is, the extreme, very extremely unsettling IRONY is that a lot the fandom (this applies to all of us right now and in general) does not want to accept or realize if you think about it....not even trying to sound maniplative or strange when I say it...

think about it.

a lot of you don't like my undecided eeratic behavior on top

but does my behavior on top NOT reflect top's own personality and behavior in terms of how he presents himself? how he acts? how he posts? how he communicates and conveys himself on social media as opposed to interviews? he seems fairly if not above average in clarity minus the manner in which he presents his views & feelings in interviews, but when you look at him from an extremely objective outsiders lense on his social & internet behavior, his behavior is no different than mine truly. I'm saying this as if I was not me and observing me acting like, well me, lmfao. Do you get it honey? Point blank, TOP does not make sense in general. I'm keeping personal feelings out of this, there is no one wrong or right definite consensus about TOP. I do not care what anyone says just like we don't have a solid consesus about beyonce or kanye or britney etc cause now more than ever music is dead and personal feelings about a star will override the facts. many people see zayn as a washed up bum with issues and he is defined as just that despite the fact gigi hadid wouldn't be where she is minus the nepotisim factor if he didn't put her on and in a kanye like self destruction, he elevated her past his own relevancy and merit, but zayn has talent where gigi just has work ethic and above average looks for the runway that work. you get it? with zayn he's a bum now by default but we cannot scrub the fact mind of mine was a solid album and he had literal potential to be where harry styles is if he didn't give up.

In hindsight, it's like that with TOP. Plus, everytime I TRY to move on from him, an anon brings me back in. So what. Anyways, tbh? I don't pay attention to him anymore, I found about the comeback through my phone notifcation recommendtions as well as an account I follow posting about it. I probably know of more beyonce stuff than TOP and I am not really a fan or major follower of bey.

So that's my take on this whole thing.

You are not trapped here. Unfollow. If everybody words had weight, don't you think I would have deleted the blog by now? Let's get real. An admin is a reflection of the topic but....top...clearly as we know has been overcoming his mental health issues. We are stanning someone who isn't mentally well but is overcoming it in his own ways, even if it's confusing or "4D". Ask yourself if a random person who was not attractive or had any mysitque was just like TOP in real life and approached you? would you entertain that person? if yes, then keep at it. if no? then...yeah, you know the rest.

p.s didn't top say don't fucking follow me in his bio on his private account? he appreciates the fans photos and uses them sometimes, but does he NOT always notice a negative comment before the numerous positives cause he's numb to it? and did he NOT say he was done with korea and idol life? Just interesting to me, this is giving will smith slap teas where this whole thing even if it's organic in reaction, is a cover up for something more. A chunk of you will ride for top even if he were to post literal human shit on instagram, but don't dare send in recent asks discussing the fact literal REPORTS have circulated that he will be leaving YG and BB for good soon despite the comeback. So in retrospect, it's giving kanye right now. Instead a flood of asks focusing on discussing where his next path will take him and how we all feel about the elephant in the room being confirmed, it's now a direct discussion about my love hate relationship with TOP to cover up the fact he's LITERALLY LEAVING the damn group and the group is over with, period. Ri is out, TOP is leaving so late when he should have been left just strictly upon what;s right for himself & everyone involved, now we are truly down to 3 after this OT4 comeback.

I personally doubt they will carry on as 3 cause dae, tae and ri voices to me aren't exactly enough or a perfect blend to carry out a whole album or EP on it's own unless they blackpink they're way through i.e by just dropping singles. TOP is Korea's kanye whether you all want to accept it or not, only difference is one hit the camel's back at the expense of a rising sweetheart of the nation and the other hit the camel's back of the public's endurance with him by blowing the back out of a social climber groupie. I won't speak on will & jada incident cause it's too broad with racial elements at play, but it;s certain that Will's undying choice to stick with her despite the humilation it has caused even if he played a part in it has hurt his image. TOP willingly allowing a groupie too close ruined his image long term although his talent much like Kanye's will be there even if it's not the same. So trust, there are many out there like me who move on but have opinions on him cause he is not an average artist nor is he an average personality.

you can love him but don't tell me he exemplies the most perfect person when he isn't and you can love him for not being perfect as we all should for anyone we admire artistically, but don't shield him. Also p.s to other anons of past talks who used to get annoyed about the mark comments? if top was an american star he'd be high up in shawn mendes gay territory right now by the general public who isn't a fan or knows about him closely beyond his fame and general work that circulates on top40 radio. American tea outlets and blinds would be alledging they are lovers / sugar baby & sugar daddy, so let that sink in.

I've met many people over the years who's views and behavior align with the celebrity they hardcore stan or reflect the celebrity they stan. TOP is someone who dosent traditionally make sense, and neither does this blog. I bid you goodday with that.

Lastly, I am a Cancer zodiac so yeah, "moody" is in my name LOL.

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borathae · 2 years

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Hi!! This wouldn't really be about your fics and instead advice, so I would understand if you didn't respond to this because this isn't what you're about but, I have this friend that I personally believe is toxic/leaning towards becoming toxic and I don't know if it's in my head because my whole week has been off or if it isn't really considered toxic to do these things. But here's a bit of background:

This person, let's call them Alex, is somewhat new to my kind of friend group, my longest friend has been in this group type of thingy for about six years and my second longest has been in the friend group for three years and Alex I've know for about 1 year (almost two) but recently (about 4 months ago) Alex has kind of officially joined the friend group, (at least to me, it felt like all of the people in my friend group including me were officially comfortable with them) so I understand maybe Alex feels out of place, or maybe to make stronger bonds with others Alex has to put people down, or they just don't like me, but recently they've been getting on my nerves and it feels like they secretly despise me or (as cliche as this sounds) are somewhat insecure and a bit jealous of me..? And I think Alex might be a bit spoiled which is a HUGE pet peeve of mine because Alex I feel wants to be the best at everything and sometimes puts other people in my friend group down. Also, I still consider Alex to be my friend but there are some things that Alex does that I now find to be annoying whereas before I didn't. So some of the things Alex has recently done to me are:

• Everytime we take a picture together, I noticed, Alex looks good in each (Alex has more of a put together attractiveness, like you can tell they worked hard to look good whereas I don't really try at all because not to toot my own horn 😏😉 but I kinda have a natural attractiveness) while sometimes in the photos we take I look bad in, and I noticed that Alex only chooses the photos where they look good and I look bad to post on social media 😀

• They purposefully try to annoy me (sneakily) to make me snap at them and make me look bad (in one instance they made me so annoyed while we were walking down stairs that I push them, NOT down the stairs, but enough to get them moving faster, and I kid you not, we were at the end of a flight of stairs, 3 stairs left, and when I push them, they go down the 3 stairs as if they are trying to protect themselves from falling and to others it doesn't look like Alex does, because Alex falls to their knees after stumbling a bit, BUT I SAW THEM FALTER AS IF THEY THOUGHT FOR A SPLIT SECOND "OH WAIT LETS MAKE IT LOOK LIKE (my name) PUSHED ME"

• Alex keeps hitting me..? Like this is kind of recent but Alex randomly decided to hit the back of my head, and it wasn't super hard but it wasn't light, they punched me in the stomach multiple times, and sometimes Alex has been trying to cop a feel on my stomach, because I admit, I am not the slimmest and I wear baggy clothes so I feel that Alex is trying to feel for my weight to make themselves feel better, which is why I feel they are jealous of me.

• Alex is putting my other friends down. My oldest friend in the friend group is probably the nicest person ever, they never got mad, like one day while taking photos with this really kind friend, I asked them to do a mad face with me and they genuinely couldn't do it because they don't know what it's like to be mad. My oldest friend is somewhat of a pushover to the people who are close to them so it's hard for them to stand up to others (like Alex) but Alex has been rude to my oldest friend, by refusing my oldest friend stuff out of pettiness (Even after my oldest friend introduced Alex to this friend group and basically built their confidence) also this makes my blood boil to say this but one time Alex, two guy friends, and I were hanging out, and Oldest friend wants to tag along but Alex keeps refusing, saying stuff like "What are you still doing here?" And "Why are you following us?" And "When will you leave?" Which made my oldest friend super sad and the two guys uncomfortable, eventually my oldest friend leaves and I follow them in leaving cause I was fuming on the inside. Also today Alex pushed a heavy door on my second oldest friend, and keep in mind it was a heavy door and my second oldest friend was walking right behind Alex so it's not like Alex didn't hold the door, they just slammed the door on second oldest friends shoulder.

• And lastly, Alex is a bit attention seeking, and when I say a bit I mean quite a lot, Alex makes these crying baby noises that annoys EVERYONE but keeps their attention on them, superiors have had talks with Alex because of this unneeded yelling. Alex also bosses around people, even when Alex is in the wrong, or doesn't have the right to boss around them. And what annoys me so so much, is that despite Alex being in a relationship with someone that deeply cares about them, Alex stills needs to get attention from other people, specifically people who I am talking to and this one specific person I have a major crush on, (pretty sure this specific person has a major, fat crush on me too and we've known each other for 10 years but no one has said anything) now to be fair, I didn't tell Alex I liked this one person but it is kind of obvious and Alex still feels the need to keep all eyes on them and them only!!

I hope I'm not being toxic sharing this online because that isn't my intention, I know I would be shunned irl if I told anyone and I just need to vent, but I really hope this is just a faze from Alex because I hold them close to my heart and I can't stand anymore of them acting like this. I don't know if I am over reacting and need to be brought back to reality so this is me gaining perspective and maybe advice..? That is if you decide to respond to this, because as I've said before, I don't expect you to, nor will I force you to. I am just going a bit crazy over here.

Also CANNOT wait for the next SA chapter, this story is getting so intense that every time I realize a new chapter came out, my heart skips a beat and I panic a bit because I'm not ready to face anymore angst ☹️😭💖💗💖💖💗😊😊😚☺️ thanks for listening

Well my first question will always be. Have you talked to them? Have you asked them why they act strange all of a sudden? Have you asked them all those questions you are wondering about? If the answer is no, then please do. A stranger can not give you the answers about a person they are not, only that person can.

But if you did and they still continue acting the way they do then maybe I would consider putting some distance between you and that person & maybe consider if you really want to stay friends with a person, who very clearly emotionally drains you and your friends (I mean, if they wouldn't affect you, you wouldn't have written this very long message. you get the gist)

I don't like calling people toxic, because that word gets tossed around way too freely these days. But I do think that the behaviour of that person is not how someone decent acts. I mean. Slamming doors on people purposefully, very loudly wanting to exclude people, even pressuring people to "leave". Those are just straight up asshole behaviours. No excuse, that person is just being an asshole.

Stating just how much better they are, thinking they're always in the right, wanting to be the center of attention. Still kinda assholey, but more in a "dude stop being a narcissistic idiot for a second" kind of way and not in "you're an actual asshole, wtf you don't exclude people you call your friend" kind of way.

AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THEM EYEING UP OTHER PEOPLE EVENTHOUGH THEY ARE TAKEN this is personal lmao I was cheated on so cheater are my number one enemy. It's on sight for those motherfuckers. On. Sight.

So in conclusion, Alex sounds to me like someone I personally wouldn't want in my life.

You also said that you wonder if that is just a phase of them. Which. I get your thoughts and your sentiment and I also truly understand your wish for that statement to be true. But then, you also have to ask yourself. Do you really want to keep someone in your life, who just randomly decides to have phases where they act like an attention seeking, disrespectful cunt?

And omfg I get you SO MUCH about you not wanting to let them go because they are dear to your heart. And it sucks. It really FUCKING SUCKS to let go of a friend. People are always like "yeah no friendship break ups aren't real or they don't hurt wtf are you on about?" LIARS! They are very real and quite honestly they hurt like a fucking bitch, maybe even more than a romantic break-up. But sometimes they are what is for the best. Okay, how should I word it? Ask yourself this. If Alex was your romantic partner would their behaviour be a reason for you to want to end the romantic relationship? I would say yes, pretty big yes. Now, why would you consider your answer differently just because you are "only friends"? I know it is harder to let a friend go and it sucks, but a friendship is still a relationship and if that relationship starts to become burdening for you and if it makes you more sad and furstrated and depressed than happy then maybe consider asking yourself if you truly want to continue it.

I hope this could help you in any way hahahah I am terrible at advice, but I am trying to get better at it jafjdsj 💜💗

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