#i have an extensively long and complicated relationship with god

[saeranthis]

god there is truly no other sensation and feeling like being a young queer kid in the church. being surrounded and suffocated by a religion and faith that you don't really understand and never quite fit into, and to be so isolated. to be so cut off from your community and any type of true acceptance. to be 13 years old and yearning and pining over that pretty boy you saw once at pilgrimage, or church camp. he stands there effervescent and perfect, he's not from some backwater town like you are, he's shining and radiant and he's the obedient Christian child every parent compares you to. he volunteers for communion, and he's on the Jr choir band, and he's so far away from you that you learn to accept you'll never know anything more than his name. but then he sees you alone at Bible study, and, being the person he is, he plops right down next to you and says hi. and his voice is so soft and his eyes are so kind and just filled with warmth and you almost cave. you almost crumble and just tell him everything because part of you wants so badly to ask him how he does it. you think maybe if you tell him he'll have an answer, a way to fix you. or, that little voice in the back of your head will parrot, he'll tell everyone. he'll tell them all what a freak you are and how dirty you are. he'll look at you like all the others do with disgust and contempt disguised as pity as he tells them you came onto him. so you say nothing. and you chuckle at his little pokes and prods to make things less awkward, and you let him pull you into the group because even if he'll never love you, any attention is better than none. and it hurts, because you can't even hate him, not really. not in a way that matters. because he's just so damn nice, because, as long as he never finds out how you really feel. he'll reach out to you, and he'll keep spoonfeeding you little bits of sugar and honey, because, that's what he's been taught to do.

#religion #idk #church #i have an extensively long and complicated relationship with god

[godsofhumanity]

Could you please do a Hera hc with other Olympians too and please elaborate on Zeus

lol, at this point i'm just doing the whole damn pantheon hey ahahahaha!!!!!!!

ZEUS

i've written LOADS about Hera x Zeus, but somehow i don't have a single "pure" Zeus x Hera hc list. so, i'll save that for if i ever get a Zeus x Hera ask by itself, because i think that'll be cleaner and easier to read. i'll summarise here though.

the short of it: Zeus and Hera do love each other.

the long of it: their relationship is like, the most complicated thing ever.

now, this is about Hera, so i'm not gonna write about why i think Zeus does what Zeus does, but from Hera's perspective, i hc that she's always known that this is what her marriage would be like.

i don't think she got married to Zeus and then "suddenly" he just started having "affairs"--- both were very crystal clear that this would be the case.

but love is a bit complicated, and i believe Hera and Zeus had enough faith in each other that they believed they could make it work (and they do. sort of. with a few a casualties).

one thing about Hera that i feel is incredibly important to her character is that she forgives. not everyone, but those she loves. i hc that she has a HUGE heart-- i've said before that i believe she inherits this from Rhea-- and i believe that she does forgive Zeus every time he goes "out" because, as Queen of Olympus, she knows there's a much bigger plan out there.

POSEIDON

i've always felt that Hera's best friend, most trusted confidant, would be Amphitrite. not only are they sister-in-laws, but they're both Queens, and both wives to cheaters. so i feel like they have a lot of common ground-- a lot to bond over.

as such, i feel that Amphitrite and Hera would hang around a lot, so i think, by extension, Poseidon and Zeus would hang around a lot.

i don't really know if Amphitrite loves Poseidon, i mean she probably does considering that she stays with him, but i honestly don't know for sure... in any case, she does tolerate him, and i think by that fact, Hera also tolerates him.

now, i don't really feel like the elder Olympians maintain a sibling relationship the way other god-families do-- like, Leto, Artemis and Apollo are tight as hell and literally kill for each other-- i think Prometheus, Epimetheus, and that whole titan generation are also incredibly tight. but, between Zeus, Hades, Poseidon, Demeter, Hestia, and Hera, i don't think they're that close-- this is likely because they never grew up with each other. Kronos prevented that. they sort of all just appeared fully-grown, and that's not really the same as actually growing from childhood to adulthood together.

that's why i don't think Hera is that close with Poseidon-- they're brother and sister on paper, and they would consider each other brother and sister for sure, but i just don't think they're that close.

also, like i was saying before, since Amphitrite and Hera are very close (and by choice, too), i think that, if not for Amphitrite, Hera would be a bit more distant from Poseidon on account of him being so similar to Zeus in terms of behaviour... now with Zeus, i think his behaviour is explained by his role as King and Father of the gods, but Poseidon doesn't really have that same rank so i think Hera would be less forgiving.

anyways, even so. in the myths, there are a few times when Poseidon supports Hera in her rebellions against Zeus, so that's not to say they're hostile towards each other-- they're friendly, but not close.

DEMETER

see here

tl;dr -- they're besties.

HESTIA

i think Hestia and Zeus would be the only ones who are actually able to maintain proper relationships with their siblings.

Hestia, like i said before, is the older sister. and i do think she helps out all her siblings when she can, even if that's mostly just providing a listening ear and shoulder to cry on.

Hera, obviously, has a lot of crying moments. i think Hestia would be one of the few characters she'd be feel comfortable crying in front of.

i can imagine Hestia doing a lot of baking <33 Hera seems like a sweet-tooth, so i think Hestia would bake her a lot of sweet treats-- pastries, and biscuits, and cakes.

HADES

i think in a similar vein to Poseidon, Hera's relationship would be good but not really all that close.

i suspect that after Hades and Persephone's marriage, Hera and Hades would actually become closer because i think Hera would make it a point to help Persephone navigate the ways of being a ruler, so they would see each other more often.

PERSEPHONE

see here

tl;dr -- they're good.

ATHENA

see here

tl;dr -- they're good.

ARTEMIS

see here

tl;dr -- they hate each other. they do not interact if they can help it.

APOLLO

i think they're on better terms than Artemis and Hera, but still-- Apollo definitely does not like Hera due to the python incident, and Hera definitely does not like Apollo because she perceives him to be far too arrogant.

nonetheless,, i do believe that Apollo, at the very least, doesn't really go out of his way to be rude to Hera. i mean, i could see Artemis being intentionally unhelpful, but Apollo, if Hera asked a favour of him, i think he would do it, albeit, if only to have her owe him one.

one pretty pivotal incident to me is when Hephaestus loses his leg- i mentioned previously that i think Hephaestus, as a child, accidentally walks in on Hera and Zeus arguing, and Zeus, mistaking Hephaestus for a servant, tells him to gtfo and shoots him with a lightning bolt-- now, Zeus' lightning can melt the very heavens and rip through the fabric of time, so it delivers pretty permanent damage to Hephaestus' leg. still, i think Apollo is the first one who Hera and Zeus summon, and though he can't do anything to fix the damage, he can at least reduce the pain for Hephaestus, and i do think Hera remembers that.

furthermore, Apollo retains a good rapport with all of her children, so that puts him Hera's good books.

Eileithyia, Hera's eldest child, was the original goddess of childbirth until Artemis was born and also became associated with it-- while i don't think Artemis and Eileithyia are close, i like the idea of Apollo and Eileithyia being good friends. he's a healer, she's a healer (for women during childbirth especially), so they get along well. and importantly, i don't think Apollo tries to make her feel insignificant; it's the opposite. so Hera can respect Apollo because of that.

otherwise, yeah. they simply tolerate each other.

HERMES

Hermes, Persephone, and Athena, are the three children of Zeus not mothered by Hera, but still "loved" by her.

like i said a billion times before, Hermes has this very playful, childish, innocent attitude that makes him very cute and annoyingly adorable, and people can't help but like him. Hera is no exception.

Hermes is ALWAYS in Zeus' palace because he's the messenger boy. but i can imagine him also doing trivial things for Hera like filling her cup, or getting her snacks. and realistically, he doesn't need to carry out these silly errands for her, but he does it anyways because-- i think Hermes actually does like Hera. she's not his step-mum, but idk. idk how to explain it. he just likes her and respects her.

i hc that Hermes is always complimenting her. like he'll deliver a message and say, "Oh, Queen Hera, is it just me or are you looking more radiant than ever today?" silly, suck-up things like that. and Hera knows that he's just trying to earn brownie points, but she secretly likes the effort he puts in.

Hermes does kill Argus, Hera's prized "knight", and i think she would have been majorly pissed off with Hermes because of that, but i like the idea of Hermes being very respectful of Hera, and not flaunting it in her face.

again, like with Apollo, Hermes maintains a very good relationship with all of Hera's children, so this works in his favour with her too.

anyhow; all in all, they have a pretty good relationship.

HEPHAESTUS

her son!!!!!!!!!!! i think she adores him very much.

she's always in awe of his works. i think she visits his forge very often, just to chat with him and keep him company.

i don't really know what else to say here because honestly, they're about as tight as a mother and child can get.

ARES

the problem child.

Hera, i think, has always seen how much of trouble Ares has had fitting in with the other Olympians. he's too brash, too loud, too violent. but he's still her son, and i think she loves him same as all her other children.

i think it's very difficult to see him get sidelined against the others, but is always immensely proud to see him stand up and do well.

i think the worst moment was when Zeus gave Athena shared rights to the war domain.. i think this would have infuriated Hera a lot-- i mean, she summons Typhon partly because of this moment.

while she's generally proud of Ares, i think they have a falling out over Aphrodite.

as the goddess of marriage, as the wife of a cheater, as a mother, she recognises immediately when Ares and Aphrodite start having an affair while Aphrodite is still married to Hephaestus, and i think it just breaks her heart into a million pieces.

here she is, a woman who has being married for hundreds of years to a man who sleeps with so many others and EVERYONE knows about it and knows about her pain.. Ares has grown up seeing all the bastard children Zeus brings back, and knows the pain and distress it has caused his mother, and STILL he decides to enable that behaviour...

and i think that's very complicated because she still loves Ares, and of course she loves Hephaestus-- and as a mother, what is she supposed to do? i do think she tells Ares immediately that he should stop because it's going to end really really badly (and Hera is right of course).

nonetheless, it is a huge relief to her when Ares and Hephaestus make amends to each other and move on with their lives.

DIONYSUS

again, i haven't fully characterised Dionysus in my head just yet so i'm not sure where he stands with Hera.

on one hand, Semele's death was so ghastly, i cannot imagine Hera ever liking Dionysus. on the other, Dionysus was raised a bit by Hermes and i think they're similar, so by extension, Hera should probably be ok with Dionysus.

but i don't really know.

i think Dionysus tends to stay out of Hera's way. i do like the idea that Dionysus is Zeus' successor-- he will be the King after Zeus, so i suppose he probably has managed to warm up to Hera.

also, i think Hera would be one of Dionysus' biggest customers in his little wine business hee hee

APHRODITE

Hera HATES herrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't think Aphrodite hates Hera, but Hera definitely hates Aphrodite. always has.

when Aphrodite first comes to Olympus, Hera's biggest fear is that Zeus will cheat on her with Aphrodite. it takes a lot of promising, and oath-swearing to assure Hera that that won't happen (and i don't believe it does because Aphrodite and Zeus aren't recorded as having children together).

but then, when Aphrodite marries Hephaestus, she cheats with Ares. and that's awful. Hera didn't want to get cheated on, and instead her son is the one getting cheated on. that's awful.

to be clear, i think the story is a bit more complicated and i don't think Hephaestus is blameless,, and i do think Ares and Aphrodite were more genuine than Aphrodite and Hephaestus, but it doesn't excuse it. and Hera knows that. and i don't she ever really forgive Aphrodite for what she "does" to her sons.

even though that's not entirely Aphrodite's fault-- i mean. it takes two to tango.

anyhow. Hera's relationship gets better when Aphrodite and Ares get married for real, and even better once Hephaestus marries Aglaea because it's like, yes, ok, both sons are doing well and have moved on. so that brings peace of mind to Hera.

like i said previously, Aphrodite doesn't hate Hera. i think she completely understands Hera's feelings towards her, and she simply accepts it, and does her best to show Hera that she really does love Ares, and that she isn't malicious or evil. and i think it partially works.

#hera #hc #anon #anonymous #asks

[cdyssey]

Yellowjackets 2.02 Thoughts:

Shauna talking to Jackie’s dead ghost is so fucking haunting. The utter banality of the talk, and yet, at the same time, Jackie always urging Shauna towards some sort of precipice, whether it’s confessing the “truth” or acknowledging that she’s the one holding the knife. No one’s doing homoerotic fucked up besties like them. 😭

Tai and Lottie both caring for Shauna makes me tender.

God, I really appreciate Callie’s character. Her parents are really messing her up, and yet, even as she’s cognizant of this, one of the things she seems to be hurt by most is the fact that neither of them have registered that she’s gone. She talks about using the vape to numb herself into oblivion. And that’s exactly how Shauna feels every single day.

TAISSA POUNDING ESPRESSO AFTER ESPRESSO. REFUSING TO SLEEP. HER REFLECTION MOVING. MA’AM, SEEK HELP.

The fucking no-eyed man. I can deal with the extensive gore. I can handle the cannibalism. But THIS GUY. Every time he comes on my screen, I McFreakin’ lose it. What is his DEAL?

Also, why tf is this show so darkly lit? Showtime, do better.

Sophie Thatcher perfectly replicating Juliette’s cadence is always so incredible to me!!!!! Of the casting pairs, I’ve always thought they look the least alike appearance wise, but goddamn, Sophie nails the mannerisms.

“We are an intentional community turning suffering into strength.” Lmao, Lottie. Also, adult Lottie is so, so pretty.

“It’s heliotrope, it’s not purple.” AKQKWKDJWJS.

Lottie treating Lisa like an underpaid intern about the drink, lmfao. Loving adult Lottie’s vibes so far. Her entire enlightened act is so performative, but simmering underneath, is that same uneasy energy that the rest of our core four has. To take the analogy further, she’s seemed to take the Tai and Shauna route of trying to repress what happened in the woods and pretend like everything’s fine. She’s fine. Of course she’s paired with Nat, the perpetual realist here.

Shauna trying to reach out to Callie and being rebuffed at every attempt. It’s not necessarily that it’s too little, too late, and more that she’s ignoring the elephant of a body in the room, trying to move past it, like she always does. Hhhhhghhh.

Misty’s screensaver being a stock photo of ultra cute kittens is perfect. ANQKWOQWODJ, MISTY ANGRILY REPLYING ON “REDDIT” AND THEN REALIZING SHE MADE A TYPO. WKQKWKSJDJAJ.

THE MAKEUP ON JACKIE. GODDAMN.

Tai confronting Shauna is so fucking painful. Sophie Nélisse utterly shutting down. Lottie defending her. I’m so unwell. They both care for her so much, and there’s also this added element of Taissa trying to run from her own demons by making Shauna confront her own.

Taissa and Shauna’s relationship genuinely might be my favorite on this show in both timelines. Like, it is so complicated and raw and brutal and simultaneously so loving. Hhhggsghhhshhh.

Kevyn showing up. Oh, God. Oh, God. And Shauna fuckin’ lying. LISTEN, I objectively know they’re not going to stick Melanie Lynskey in jail (at least for long), but still, I can’t wait for this storyline to be resolved.

KEVYN CATCHING HER IN THE LIE. GODDAMN. BABY GIRL, MISTY MADE YOU A COOKIE TELLING YOU EXACTLY WHAT TO SAY.

AND SHE’S STILL LYING. GIRLFRIEND,THEY CAN SUPBOENA YOUR TEXTS OR SOMETJING.

Callie stepping in to help her mom. I’m actually so tender about their effed up relationship, it’s unreal.

“So you lied to be feminist?” KQQKKWEKDJDJEJEJNSWHAJS.

“At least go through the back in case he’s still out there.” I’m unwell.

Sammy showing up. Hhhhgh. As upsetting as it is that Simone is being so cautious and cold towards Taissa, it is so warranted after finding your beloved family dog beheaded in the basement as part of some fucked up sacrificial altar.

Elijah Wood!!!!!!!!!! AKWKDNNSS. THE KNEE HIGH SOCKS WITH THE SHORTS.

NAT FAKING JAVI’S DEATH, OH, MY FUCKING GOD. CUTTING HERSELF TO FAKE BLOOD. THIS SHOW.

Poor Travis. Oh, my God.

Adult Travis!! The fact that he calls Lottie as well… Simone Kessell is doing such a wonderful job with Lottie; her rage and fear in the Travis flashbacks are compelling.

GOD. TRAVIS INITIATING THIS RITUAL. Whether we can trust that Lottie’s telling the truth, that remains to be seen, but I do think the fact that they’re accompanying the story with a bonafide flashback makes me think that they want us to take it at least some of it at face value.

THE ZOMBIE FUCKING LAURA LEE HALLUCINATION. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. The tenderness in her eyes before LL stepped out of the shadows, though. Lottie/Laura Lee truthers rise up.

Also, adult Lottie/Nat have very good chemistry.

THERE BEING A CHAIN ON TAISSA’S GODDAMN DOOR. DID SHE HALLUCINATE HER SON? UM.

WHERE THE FUCK ARE SAMMY AND STEVE, TAI? 😭

Oh, God. The debate about Jackie’s clothes. So brutal. Like the earlier cabin scenes in this ep. showed, the tensions between the girls are reaching a fever pitch.

Lottie seeing the cut on Jackie’s arm, but not being judgmental about it. Giving her the necklace. 😭😭

Callie, don’t flirt with that grown ass man. Nooooooo.

Callie lying and saying she’s a student at Rutgers, the same school Jackie and Shauna were supposed to go to. ;-;

Shauna going to light the pyre when Nat was confronting Lottie. Hhhhgh.

“I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHERE YOU END AND I BEGIN.” NOT A BLURRED MARGINS LINE. FUCK ME UP.

Travis adding Javi’s pants to the fire. 😭 Lottie and Tai being the ones who escort Shauna away. Hhhhhshhhhhhgh.

I’m so excited to see the other adults interact with Lottie.

Nat having a clearly traumatic flashback when she lays down…

AWNDNSNSN, THE BLACKLIGHT NOTE.

THE DUDE CALLIE WAS FLIRTINT WITH BEING A DETECTIVE. JESUS.

Kevyn being soft on Shauna. ;w; I really do like him, and I’m glad they brought him back.

Not Travisnat having sex on the eve when he just found out his brother is dead. NOT HIM ENVISIONING LOTTIE. WOOF.

THE TWISTING AERIAL PERSPECTIVE. SNOW FALLING ON TOP OF JACKIE’S PYRE. OH, MY GOD. IT’S???????? IT’S SMOKING HER. IT’S FUCKING COOKING HER FOR REAL.

TAI HALLUCINATED SAMMY. OH, MY GOD.

“You are… very sick, Taissa.” I’m so sad.

“BAD ONE” TAISSA NOT LOOKING AT THE ROAD, GLARING AT SIMONE. A FUCKING WRECK. SHIT. SIMONE, PULL THROUGH QUEEN. SOMEONE HAS TO BE NORMAL FOR SAMMY.

OH, GOD. THAT FIRST SHOT OF JACKIE’S BODY IS SO FUCKED UP.

THEY ARE ALL GONNA FUCKIN’ EAT HER.

SHE WANTS US TO.

THE GREEK MYTHOLOGY FEAST. IT’S A SACRED COMMUNION. IT’S BACCHANALIA. IT’S STARVING CHILDREN EATING THEIR TEAM CAPTAIN AND FRIEND IN THE WOODS.

POOR COACH BEN. HELP AOQMWNDNJWJWJSJSJS.

#maggie blogs #yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #s: yellowjackets #THIS SHOW HAS EVERYTHING

[olympeline]

A few headcanons for Hetalia Scotland:

Is Alisdair a canon name? If it’s not, idc. It’s a good one 👍 If all the brothers are Kirkland then I like to think it was Scot’s surname first. England (and Wales by extension) took it when the Scottish James I became king of England and so formed the United Kingdom. That all his little(?) brothers took his name is definitely a feather in Scot’s cap.

No one knows if he or Wales is the oldest brother, including Scotland and Wales themselves. The first time they happened to cross paths during their wandering around Great Britain, they each saw another boy who looked the same age. Scotland insists he is the elder brother, Wales disagrees but more quietly.

Scotland has a favourite city out of Glasgow and Edinburgh. But he’s not going to start a civil war in his country by telling anyone which it is! (Psst, it’s Glasgow)

The Auld Alliance was a fiery, passionate affair between Scotland and France. The kind that was pure, mutual lust at first sight and got physical very quickly. Like, “we just met for the first time while our bosses hammer out details and now we’re banging against the wall in the antechamber” quickly. Sexy, sophisticated, continental France vs. wilder, rougher Scotland was just what the doctor ordered for both of them. Unfortunately, it didn’t really last. That kind of white hot, burning hunger never does. It didn’t help that a significant chunk of the non-physical part of their bond was built on their mutual hatred of England. You can’t build a long term love on something like that. Once Scotland’s relationship with his little brother started to improve, his affair with France simultaneously cooled. These days they’re better off as friends. Scot recalls their relationship more fondly and feels more wistful than France does.

And yes, that Scotland was eventually replaced by England as France’s soulmate does make his complicated feelings towards England even more strained. Thank ye for asking *Sound of Scottie teeth grinding*

Scotland holds his liquor best out of all his brothers and can drink most of Europe under the table. Only true heavyweights like Russia and the Balkans give him a run for his money

Like all the UK bros, Scotland has magic and can see magical creatures. Vistors to his country are often surprised to learn that Scot’s favourite isn’t the famous Nessie (though he is very fond of her) but rather his herd of unicorns. Hunted nearly to extinction in the rest of the UK, the unicorn’s last stronghold is up in Scotland. During one of their many wars, England slew Scotland’s oldest and most beloved unicorn (“The Lion and the Unicorn were fighting for the crown…”) and took its alicorn back to London. Even after the unification and a regretful England returning it, Scotland is still bitter.

Yes, Scotland does play the bagpipes. Yes, he’s very good at it. When he plays and Wales sings, it’s really something to behold…er, listen to

What’s Scotland’s least favourite thing about his home? The rain? The cold? No, you fool! The midges. Dear GOD the midges. Eat you alive in summer they will!

Scotland’s cooking makes the rest of his brothers look almost competent by comparison. He has the dubious honour of making both some of the most unappetising food (haggis!) and also the most unhealthy. Everything battered, deep fried, and washed down with fifty cans of drink so stiff with sugar it would make America blush. What’s not to love? Diabetes. Diabetes is not to love. Scot’s bosses have been on a health kick lately but their nation is as stubborn as any of the UK bros and it’s not easy persuading him to change his ways

Scotland wears his kilt like a true Scot: nothing below and god help ye if there’s a headwind 🍆

Kitain (Britain cat) was born in Scotland but doesn’t like spending much time there because of the climate. He still comes to visit Scotland in the summer, though. His favourite place to sleep is on Scotland’s feet. Keeping his toes warm like a living heater

Scotland is very proud that he was able to hold off Grandpa Rome and stop the Romans ever getting a real foothold on his turf. Though that pride is complicated by feelings of guilt that he couldn’t protect his little brothers. Even if they were enemies at the time, it still chafes Scot that part of their isle was occupied for hundreds of years. Seeing England and, to a lesser extent, Wales under Grandpa Rome’s boot and watching them be Romanised was painful

And yes, let’s talk about that elephant lion in the room: England. England, England, England. The golden child of the UK bros that Scotland can’t get away from or ignore no matter how hard he tries. To say Scot’s feelings towards his baby bro are complicated is an understatement. He’s so proud of what they achieved together, but wishes he could claim more of the credit. He feels guilt for not driving the Romans out of Britain, but a small, hateful part still gloats that only he could stop the invaders in their tracks. He’s glad they’re on better terms these days, but resents that the unification has eclipsed him so much in the eyes of the world. He knows in his heart of hearts that his relationship with France was never meant to last, but seeing France with England hurts him even so. Scotland was the older brother, not England. It should have been him. It all should have been him

Scottie has a lot of Nordic in him and gets on well with the Scandis. He could probably make a good case for being one of them, but nothing’s come of it yet. Estonia is very jelly

His favourite food is scotch eggs. His favourite drink is irn bru in the day and good old Scotch whisky at night

#hetalia #aph scotland #hws scotland #aph england #hws england #hws uk bros #hws wales #aph wales #hws northern ireland #aph northern ireland #fruk #scotfra #my posts #aph france #hws france

[smartzelda]

I'm really curious about your thoughts on zadr for the ship bingo!

Sorry it's taken me so long to answer!😅

(I hope this was the right bingo)

Haha I have read so many fics

There are a lot of Invader Zim ships I like but WOOF this one, man. It's just so fun and entertaining

Do I even need to explain? Constant drama. So much angst potential. They're at each other's throats, they're the only person either of them can actually rely on and yet they don't trust each other at all, they're the only people who understand each other and yet they just don't get each other. They'll be friendly for 5 minutes and one will backstab the other for no reason. It's not unheard of for their conflict to escalate to tbe point one attempts to kill the other, and yet neither can operate without the other. They have in a sense become dependent on the other's existence for enjoyment, for motivation, and have grown to crave attention from the other. They are a complex toxic mess (it really is no wonder why I flocked to lawlight immediately after thinking about zadr for months)

Listen LISTEN. Zim is nonbinary. Neither boy nor girl? Both? Gender apathetic? Gender fluid? It does not matter. He is Zim. Gender is queer. Dib is a trans man to me.

This is probably the most concise way to describe what their relationship is to me. I don't know how to explain that zadr, zadf, and zade are all true to me. At once. It's complicated! They want to kill each other and dissect and study and tear apart and ruin each other and yet they couldn't handle the other being dead. They could be friends while dating separate people and yet be so wildly close. They're possessive. They're the only ones allowed to be this close to each other as friends, they're the only ones allowed to hurt the other this way and try to kill them this way, they're the only one the other should desire to this extent. There is a minimum level of attention they should have on the other, whether friends or enemies. They've never hated a person so viscerally. They've never loved a person so passionately. They could live together domestically and be life partners without ever desiring what is usual in a romantic or sexual relationship. When they get older tension tends to snap and they swap kisses on the battlefield. They're scientists at heart, so romance and sexuality is an extension of their curiosity. And yet if they ever came to desire each other they'd never admit it. It's its own nebulous thing. They can never be fully platonic, fully romantic, just enemies. No matter what form their relationship takes (allies, enemies, best friends, lovers, etc) there's always SOMETHING that makes it different and sets it apart. And that is something that makes them appeal to me

Combining both unhealthy in a good way and a bad way here. Unhealthy in a bad way is clear. Kind of obsession and passion that makes them so much worse. Like you put them in the same room and you can be surprised how much more awful they can get. And yet it's unhealthy in a good way like...like that redit post about how they're toxic but they're better together than apart ("never involve anyone else in what you have going on"). And yet while they clearly make each other worse, they also have the possibility of making each other better at the same time. If they admit to themselves that they care about each other, it's sort of an irrevocable change to their personality. They will never be able to be ruthless in the same way. In every universe they exist, they find each other (canon to the comics), and they make each other better and worse at the same time with the relationship they share.

I may not be rotating them as hard as I was even a year ago but by GOD can I go off about them. They are so funky. Every time I get back on them again the microwave becomes a taffy puller

Sorry they've never dated but they have the vibes sometimes. Especially in aus where one of them leaves for an extended anount of time or they stop seeing each other for a while and feel as if the other has stopped wanting to oppose them.

🥲💖👍

Ahahaha would this ever happen in canon? Extremely unlikely. But I myself have bamboozled myself into Zim/Dib/Keef/Zib/Zim2, and if I'm being real with you, I could probably convince myself into any number of pairings between any different Zims or Dibs with those 5. This is an infinite possibility polycule that would never happen. But I love it

Okay, so for the record, this fandom understands them better than a lot of other fandoms I've been getting into understand my favs, but regardless. Their relationship is just so complex to me, so it’s hard to reduce it to any given trope or relationship type

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Thanks for the ask!! I hope you got the answer you were looking for

Although of course, if you want to ask specific questions on how I feel about them or what I think, go for it. I'm always happy to infodump out my (often complex and not always easy to understand) strings of thoughts

#ask game #ship ask #ship bingo #zadr #invader zim

[vatican3]

this is a long one and your ask box is a confessional now. to start off; im not christian. i was raised christian but thats just not the life for me. secondly; my name is judas. this makes christians uncomfortable as well. last thing before we get into the meat of it; i am also not a satanist but i do still dabble in it from time to time. so off the bat your more die hard christians would Not like me. like i said i have a very complicated relationship with christianity; i hate god and god hates me. i do things specifically to spite him and i call him out on his bullshit all the time. however; this does not extend to jesus. this is where the more complicated part comes in. i am not a christian, i do not worship god nor the holy spirit or any saints or anything like this, and my relationship and connection to jesus i view more as an extension of my worship of dionysus more than anything else. i dont know what this all entails, im still exploring this, but despite all my disdain towards christianity i cannot get myself to extend this to jesus. and its haunted me for years and years until i finally started to accept that. and more recently ive stopped trying to fight the nature of my relationship to jesus and lean into it. and my exploration of my worship of dionysus has helped as well; a lot of people connect the two in their own ways and i personally view them as two sides of the same coin. and through this ive just started to accept that my relationship with him is inherently queer, sensual and erotic even. god, to me, has always been rough, cruel, and uncaring, taking away whatever support he has given me at the drop of a hat if i do something that he doesnt agree with. a cold hand. but jesus was never like that yk? always kind and caring, a guiding hand, never let go even if i stopped and went back. a soft, tender lover. ive cried and hes responded to my pain with gentle touches. always forgiving, never judging. ive felt guilt over my sexual fixation on him; weight on my shoulders for years. trying to ignore it and bury it. but the second i gave up and accepted it i felt free. my name had no connection to its origin when i initially chose it; it just fit like a glove when i tried it. but the more i go down this weird path the more i realize that it fits more than i thought. its nice. but i dont think your average christian would appreciate my views.

This has been in my inbox for a day and I've reread it a few times, and I don't know if you're looking for religious counsel or maybe just to get your thoughts out (evoking the image of a confessional implied you were interested in a response specifically from my point of view, or some sort of direction, but if that's not what you want, stop reading after the cut?) So I'll try to answer as an anthropologist and theologian before answering as myself.

First and foremost, and the part I'm sure you're familiar with, you are far from the only person that has a convoluted and difficult relationship with religion--so the good news is that you're not alone! Even among the most devout Christians there is unrest, doubt, feelings of loneliness and despair. And those people seem to know what they're about. So for someone that has an unfavorable history with Christianity and no longer identifies with it, it only makes sense to feel such a varied and complex array of emotions about specific aspects.

I don't even necessarily think that it's abnormal to feel there is an erotic element to your relationship with Jesus. St. Teresa of Avila experienced her "spiritual ecstasy"--

In his hands, I saw a great golden spear, and at the iron tip there appeared to be a point of fire. This he plunged into my heart several times so that it penetrated to my entrails. When he pulled it out I felt that he took them with it, and left me utterly consumed by the great love of God. The pain was so severe that it made me utter several moans. The sweetness caused by this intense pain is so extreme that one cannot possibly wish it to cease, nor is one’s soul content with anything but God. This is not a physical but a spiritual pain, though the body has some share in it—even a considerable share. [Article on that.]

Your stance is, yes, unorthodox (haha). And it's true that many Christians would shy away from and admonish everything you have going on here--not all of them! I think you have some interesting concepts going on with your personal spirituality that don't necessarily speak to me as a human being but that I think would be interesting to do some writing about, if you care to.

The story of Jesus and Judas is a love story. What kind of love story it is can be up to interpretation, and that's a wonderful thing to me. And I think that's something that you have certainly considered between your name and your personal theology.

On an objective level, I believe that if this is good for you this is good for you and that it is then worth exploring. If you like what Jesus as a man and as a symbol encompasses, you should include that in your own spiritual life--and it sounds like you are! You can love Jesus without being a Christian. Many people do.

i hate god and god hates me. i do things specifically to spite him and i call him out on his bullshit all the time.

God does not hate you. God doesn't hate anyone, that's kind of the deal. You could do the most morally bankrupt nonsense and still God would be there for you. I think a lot of the other things I would want to say on this topic come off as though I would be trying to convert you (I'm not) and would be better in, like, an essay, so I'll leave that be.

This is a genuine question, not that you have to answer but if you'd like to please feel free: how are you, as someone that isn't Christian and doesn't worship a Christian God, qualifying what exactly God's bullshit is? What goes into that category? Is there something worth examining there?

my relationship and connection to jesus i view more as an extension of my worship of dionysus more than anything else. [...] a lot of people connect the two in their own ways and i personally view them as two sides of the same coin.

I'd love to know more about this. I don't know much about Dionysus as a figure nor Dionysian worship so I'm interested in how people make the connection/what that does for them and their spirituality. I know you said you're still exploring this and figuring out what it means for you so ofc no pressure to bare your soul or anything, but again if you have any specific thoughts to share go wild.

god, to me, has always been rough, cruel, and uncaring, taking away whatever support he has given me at the drop of a hat if i do something that he doesnt agree with. a cold hand. but jesus was never like that yk? always kind and caring, a guiding hand, never let go even if i stopped and went back.

Bizarre to me to so readily separate God and Christ. But I do understand that Jesus is easier to empathize with as a man, we have stories of his life, joy, and suffering. Jesus is also divine, though--you could even view him as a bridge between us and God, in a way. I don't know your personal journey. But it's easy to mistake, sometimes, God telling you the path you're on is wrong for you as God denying you or revoking support from you.

This was a really interesting message! I hope you feel that I've engaged with it fairly. Do you have any beef with the Holy Spirit or is it just the God/Jesus split you struggle with?

#mtxt

[mariamariquinha]

How about “You weren’t supposed to flirt back and make me feel these things, God damn it!” with Mike Duarte. Pretty please!

WELL, since you asked so nicely, honey bunny... SHALL WE?

(look at this gif dammit)

You and Mike were neighbours for years. Not for long, but long enough. Sometimes you chased salesmen away from his front door, other times he reminded Mr. Travis, the neighbor across the street, who wasn't supposed to let his dog shit in your flower bed. It was a relationship of natural complicity between two people who knew each other and lived close. Sometimes you could run into each other at a bar or a club, exchange a few words and even buy each other drinks, but every time you had someone or he had someone.

Sexually, of course.

Relationships have always been a little off the charts for you, but you've always made peace with it.

You didn't ask him about these things. As a cop, Mike had reservations of his own - living in the Bronx, they were even more extensive. What you did know was that he took down gangs, arrived late, and had periodic company. This he never hid. There were several nights when you were sitting on the porch and saw him with some woman beautiful and charming enough for him.

Because he was handsome. Charming. Attractive. And that was the beginning and the end of your sympathy for each other.

One night, however, you went to a bar and your only company, a friend from work, had to cancel at the last minute. You were already there, after all, so you sat down on one of the counter stools and ordered a drink.

"A little dangerous for you to be out here alone, don't you think?"

He slid in beside you, forearm on the counter as he leaned in casually to look into your face. Mike was smiling discreetly as usual, the ambient light giving his eyes a different glow, and maybe it was the little alcohol he had drunk because you didn't remember his biceps being that big.

"I was going to say the same about you, Captain. No overtime tonight?"

"Oh no, we just closed a case, so…"

"Celebrating, then?"

"Mm-hm."

"Congratulations!" You raised your cup, enough to make him giggle at your enthusiasm. "That's why I'm going out by myself, the cops are catching the bad guys."

"Not all of them," It was suppose to come as a warning, but you thought it was truly charming. Well, Mike. He probably didn't even notice his skills. "But what about you? Waiting for a date?"

"Pfft!" You frowned then, sipping on your drink.

"I'll take it as a no."

"Take it as a big no, man. Being honest, I don't remember the last time I got one of these."

"Now you're being a liar."

"Me? Lying to the police? I wouldn't dare," Your body turned to him slightly. "I was Girl Scout. Sincerity is my middle name."

"That dress doesn't look very Girl Scout to me."

Mike checked you out. Not discreetly, nor... trying to hide it, you know? He even tilted his head to the side to see your crossed legs and the scant fabric of your dress. It almost made you flinch - almost. But then you flipped your hair over your shoulder, smirked, and did the same to him.

"And I didn't say I was thinking about that when I chose my dress."

"Ugh!"

For a moment, Mike closed his eyes and groaned under his breath, lowering his head as if in defeat. It caught you by surprise, so you laughed at the mocking way he was reacting to your answer.

"What?"

"You weren’t supposed to flirt back and make me feel these things, God dammit!"

"Feel? Feel what?"

"See? You're doing it again," He tsked, giving one step closer while shaking his head. "You know I've been trying for quite some time, yeah?"

"... Nooo."

"Well, now you know. And I came all the way here trying not to be an ass because you're... You're amazing-"

"Okay...?"

"And you have those eyes that makes me sure that you're a liar. How could you not have someone to take you home? To at least make you feel good? Because I'll tell you somethin', we've been pretending for a while that we don't want this and honestly? Tonight is a good night. So this is my bid."

"You want to fuck me," You raised your eyebrows and he scoffed, licking his lips before staring straight at your face.

"I'm shooting my shot. Risking our friendship."

Which was true. If you weren't interested as well, this could be a downhill without precedents. You could say he crossed the line, that he was proving himself to be an asshole after all, but that's not what crossed your mind, or what came out of your mouth.

"Or making it stronger."

A silence followed this words.

"So," You shrugged. "Your house or mine?"

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A/C: I hope you like it! ❤️

#asks #prompts #mike duarte #mike duarte x f!reader #maurice compte #fics

[bunatee]

OC-tober 3 - Traditional Clothes

I should have drawn a map to accompany this piece to further illustrate where these different fashions come from within the world of Divine Rites. Ramblings about it under the cut!

Asha is originally from Tambrael, the largest country in their region which spans much of the south western coast and stretches eastward to the center of the continent. As such there are a array of 'traditional' fashions, but Asha's favorite would likely be the heavy dresses made from richly dyed fabrics that are common in the more mountainous parts of the country. While Asha would attest that the frilly lace covered garments of the east are her favorite fashion of all, she does hold the traditional dresses of her home closest to her heart.

Serenity actually dresses pretty closely to her 'traditional' style in her day to day life, an extension of the complicated relationship she has with her heritage. Her maternal family comes from an Ilyic clan, though they originate in Illior they are notable for their travels across the continent, visiting God-Trees and spreading their gospel about the gods and the sacred gift of magic. Women wear modest clothing when in the presence of any outsiders, ankle length skirts and they always cover their arms and chests. These clothes aren't strictly for modesty but to hide the tattoos that decorate their skin. The veils women wear are not mandatory and some clans are more likely to wear them than others. Usually these are made from sheer fabrics or lace. Unmarried women may wear colorful veils which correspond to the god they primarily worship (or because it matches their outfit, it's up to the clan and woman in particular), married women wear black and widows clothe themselves exclusively in white.

Azyr has the most complicated ethnic background of the entire cast. While his father is from Rahli, his mother has roots in both Illior and the Turique Islands. For the purpose of this prompt Azyr is dressed in Illiorian clothes. While not as large as Tambrael, Illior is also a large country with the eastern portion sharing much of it's fashion with Rahli and the west having more distinctive garments. The cross-body top is a shortened version of the long robes scholars would have worn in previous generations. This particular outfit was likely a staple for Azyr during his tenure as a professor but presents too casually to be worn for his work in the palace or even for social events. It is also notable that this is similar to what the men in Ilyic clans would also wear. (A small aside: Azyr generally only wears muted colors, and it feels wrong to have put him into such dark clothes, I might go back and change this at some point.)

#original characters #ocs #myart #divinerites #Asha (OC) #Serenity (OC) #Azyr (OC) #bunatee's oc-tober tag

[freshlybakedspiderbread]

I am sending you Aya Shameimaru. she is here in your ask box now. chirping

..no im kidding, i would never want to repel our pure and honest reporter despite her everything

General opinion/How much I care about them: so theres a strong bias due to the fact that my very first exposure to touhou as a whole was hearing pofv's Wind God Girl back in 2009, and by extension Aya herself was the very first character from the series I came to know. I dont think i immediately came to obsess over her or anything and probably only came to like her for real much later... That said i feel like ive known her my whole life and she's top contender for my single Favourite character. It used to be that she only competed with Seiga for that title but i guess there's a lot of characters i could go just as if not more nuts about given the right time of day...

her schtick as an earnest but kinda shady reporter of the ''''truth''' has never gotten old and im pretty sure she's only gotten even more despicable in her methods over the years, but i love all that about her. the tengu has a whole in gensokyo have gotten a whole lot of expansion but i still consider aya to be our main focal point of that group and its always fun to think about how role as an exceptionally long-lived youkai and her perspective on both tengu society and gensokyo as a whole.

Also how lucky was I that i chose Aya, an actual important recurring character who will reliably keep showing up in canon, as one of my favs? I'd be living so differently if i had latched onto like, Medicine or Yuuka instead 😛 (then again i did mention Seiga above and I kinda dont expect her to ever be relevant again so its a matter of context 😝)

A ship I love: There are a bunch of Aya ships I know of and even like, and the ones I most often think about are probably Hatate and Reimu.

But i'm gonna vary it up and talk instead about Aya/Nemuno, something I wish we got even a little more scrap of back in th16. I mean every other player character got some with their matching season character! I choose to believe that even after that one meeting, Aya still makes regular visits to that cave, having designated Nemuno as her go-to yamamba contact despite Nemuno gripping about their supposed non-interference treaty. But Nemuno doesn't mind that much (since she usually doesnt chase Aya away with a cleaver) and comes to begrudgingly kinda like her, which i guess is the reaction to Aya in every ship of hers?

(I also think she's got complicated layered history with megumu which i talked about a little in an older post!)

A non-romantic relationship that I love: actually maybe i should have talked about reimu or hatate above and then saved nemuno for here. i actually want to say ahead of time for this part of the asks that even if i might not immediately default to romantic in a relationship, it uh... wouldnt take a lot for me to see it that way if needed.

That said, i like the thought that both Marisa and Sanae are regularish visitors to whatever hidden tengu infrastructure is in the mountain. Sanae because shes a neighbour with a pass and Marisa because she goes wherever she pleases. Aya being the tengu closest to humans is typically the one tasked to handle their needs or deal with them, with which Sanae she probably gets along with fine, though with Marisa theres probably more hidden ire going on there with how she's typically intruding (the hypocrisy of how aya's always hanging around the human village is always brought up by marisa in response)

The NOTP: gonna say this regarding this part of all these asks, outside of questoinable stuff like incest or so on, there usually aren't ships that i am Against. At worst, i may just not personally see the appeal or much prefer a different dynamic of the relationship.

so um.... ive never really managed to get excited over Aya/Momiji? Like I think they have a very funny potential back-and-forth, but begrudging tolerance is the usual best i see from Momiji's side and i actually much prefer the angles you cold go with Momiji/Hatate. (aya/hatate/momiji love triangle...? 🤔)

My biggest headcanon about them:

she's Old. 👵 Like, thats not just headcanon to me but is actually vital to her character that she is not just long-lived by youkai standards, but shes one of the few tengu around who lived through their developing history, watched their society and gensokyo changed in real time, and adapted in turn with it all. This goes hand in hand with how she simultaneously has great pride as a tengu yet also holds bitterness towards some of the ways they have changed (or havent changed).

Also after messing enough with kappa-made cameras over the decade, she now also fiddles with custom models with her own self-made modifications 📷

An idea for a fanfiction I would like to write/read about them: Talking about ideas is kinda embarrassing for me because i mean... what if i never actually do any of em? 😅 well whatever gonna try not to let that bother me...

for a story about her specifically, there's probably a neat tale to be had like a few decades prior to her being assigned the odd role of 'reporter' and bitterly taking to it, but then gradually coming to make it into her own passion more than any other crow tengu... Imagine the first time she looked at a particularly nice photo she took and imagined the story it told, and her heart fluttering in a way it had never done so before.

Something that makes me thing of them: every journalist archetype in fiction i've seen since and even before 2009 😄 No but if i say i think of her every time i see like, a camera or newspaper, how insane am i going to sound? girls who only thinks about aya going "getting a lot of aya vibes from this"

#armormodekeeg #shameimaru aya #i think i used to have a tag just for ask games i have no idea anymore :p

[wifegideonnav]

VASKA. i need to know your opinions of her

VISPA 🥰

First impression

ok so going in i pretty much knew i was gonna have Opinions on her due to 1) the comparisons to ianthe and 2) her general notoriety. so i kinda tried to hold off on forming an impression until i got more info. honestly i think my biggest first impression was "that is NOT how i thought she would talk" lmaooo

obviously the way she's introduced you kinda go "well she sucks" but i love girls who suck so i was like theres gotta be more here. and i was right.

Impression now

babygirl. lmao. i mean i could literally go on for thousands of words with what i think about her but short version is that she is one of the best written hs characters and an incredible portrayal of a mentally ill teenage girl with an extensive history of being abused. she's my morally grey queen. my "god forbid women do anything" champ. failwoman of all time. yeah!!!!!!!!

Favorite moment

the vriska/(vriska) convo because i love pain. but i also love the entire saga of her going god-tier because lets be honest: letting an old enemy beat you almost to death with her bare robofists and then communicating with your "it's complicated" by mind-controlling him to write messages with your blood, begging him to finish the job is. cool as fuck. also terezi: remem8er. :(

Idea for a story

ok i made a like 3 note post saying this ages ago and never actually expanded on it but: vriska <> rose. i have put SO much thought into this. short version, they have both a lot in common and some pretty interesting foiling. on the surface, they're both fairly rash and destructive which would typically suggest that they would not be good moirails. BUT the ways in which they're destructive etc are fairly opposite: rose simmers, fumes, withdraws, over-intellectualizes, etc, whereas vriska is explosive, up-front, lashing outwards, acting without thinking. so rose pulls vriska back, makes her think, forces her to be introspective, and vriska spurs rose forward, prevents her from getting caught up in her own thoughts, makes her actually act.

i think rose would be very drawn to vriska from a psychology goldmine perspective, and i truly believe that vriska would benefit from having someone to talked to who did not grow up in alternian society, who can validate/explain how fucked up everything was, and especially someone she doesn't have history with, who's also strong enough to see the darkness in her without flinching.

also in the retcon timeline its as canon as anything retcon!meteorstuck that vriska is the reason rose is able to fix her drinking problem. which im fairly sure is something that any troll would view as being pale as fuck. anyway i could go on and on about this but this is already so long and i did say short version 💀

so i just think a meteorstuck fic where all 6 of the crew are forced to go through some actual on-page character development with vriska and rose at the center would be. good.

Unpopular opinion

honestly i dont think i have any super unpopular opinions about her? liking her is already unpopular enough lmao. so i guess i'll go with: shes a lesbian <3

Favorite relationship

vrisrezi. also my favorite relationship of the comic in general. something something soulmates. physically restraining myself from going off about this.

Favorite headcanon

im not sure this entirely counts as a headcanon but i love the idea of her slowly abandoning her spider/8 theme as she gets older and heals. like if you think about it it's pretty fucked up that her entire brand is based on 1) the guardian who would've killed her at any point in her childhood if she didn't do enough murder to satisfy her and/or 2) just the general role she was forced into based on her horrific society

#thanks for sending this omfg #i love the internet you get obsessed with something/a character and people go yes queen tell us more #op #asks #hs

[festeringfae]

A part of my brain wracked with C-PTSD is yelling at me not to "jynx" it by making this post, but: I've never been completely confident that two women who are explicitly, canonically lesbian and bisexual are going to survive and/or not be completely fucking miserable by the end of the finale of a teen show in my entire fucking life. And for all the misognoir and anti-Native bullshit towards and in the way Toni, and by extension, Choni, is written....I don't think I've ever, and I do mean ever, seen First, Most-Characterized love interest of the same gender get to be the endgame in a teen show.

I think about Willow and Tara, and how the first sex scene between women on broadcast TV was between Willow and...Kennedy. I think of Pretty Little Liars, how nothing I'd ever seen before was as electric as Maya and Emily, how it was so tender and alluring and full of longing even just in the commercials that at 18 I remember being surprised that I liked the show itself, because that wasn't what I was here for, I was here for Maya's doe eyes coaxing me out, gently, the way she did Emily. I think about how I don't even know who killed Maya, or if they ever confirmed it on the show. How they sent her away first, to a camp. How Emily's other two main interests were white, and abused her, and tried to drown her. How I don't remember much of anything about Emily's Black love interest, Samara, but I remember her name and the thrill of learning it in some scene in a coffee shop, or a mall kiosk. I remember she was beautiful and later on they revealed she was deceitful and pining after an abusive white girl. I remember she died both off stage narratively and off a literal stage, no discretion given to the image of her splayed across the floor-- a narrative distraction from the real plot of the episode. No funeral episode for her. I remember how the lesbian of the titular Pretty Little Liars was the only one who did not end up with her first love interest-- even though one of the other first love interest's was a high school sophomore's English teacher.

I think of how these were the two most generous depictions of lesbians available to me, as someone whose teenage years were 2005-2010.

There were others. South of Nowhere, a show that despite the utterly mind-blowing focus on a girl realizing she likes not only A Girl but Girls, was sabotaged out of a final season worth watching, of a final season that wasn't too patronizing for even a 16-year-old lesbian with Literally Nothing Else to keep watching. There was Literally Nothing Else because Paige and Alex had already broken up on Degrassi (again), even though they'd only gotten maybe 6 episodes focused on them across multiple seasons, even though I still know exactly what clip from The Lexicon of Love played in the commercials because my 15-year-old self found herself completely drawn in, focused, compelled, impatient for the new episode to air, every time it played. "Ever feel drunk without drinking?" "Is that when your shoes went AWOL?" [Jay somehow makes his presence known] "Ew! VIP does not stand for vastly icky poser. What are you doing here?" "My boy Mic did security on the movie," point at Mic Mic nods at the camera, some snide comment about the girls [in hindsight, incredibly chaste], snide in a way that asks Alex if Paige is why she dumped him but he doesn't say "Paige," Alex UP IN HIS FUCKING FACE IN A PHYSICAL THREAT you do not call her that. Ever." The close-up of Paige's arched brow, her glittering, pleased eyes. Alex will later hold Paige during a panic attack and she will be a lesbian who tells Paige "the word is bi" when Paige is making identity needlessly complicated and Alex will have a weird plotline about a strip club where everything is status quo by the end of the two parter except, conveniently, their relationship status.

Paige's actress will admit fondly that she forgot Paige and Alex ever dated, and that it meant so much to people. Naya Rivera, God rest her soul, will fight for joke-lesbian Santana to become a real girl, but not before I leave for college. My last year as a true teenager, there was so little of Santana and Brittany that the one-off joke that would inspire Naya Rivera to fight for their humanity made my friends and I cheer like it was an epic high of high school football, a touchdown after staring hungrily, longingly, defiantly at those damned pinkies for months.

I stopped watching Glee the moment they finally let those girls kiss. It was never going to get any better than that, I declared. Actually, what I said was that I can't watch Glee anymore-- because that was as good as it was ever going to get. And better to only have the dollop of affirmation I longed for, and live in purposeful denial, than face what I saw as the inevitability of their being broken. Not just separated--broken. Sabotaged. Punished. Thwarted.

(When I stopped watching Glee, I watched for gifsets of them. Youtubed their songs. Threw quiet tantrums in shitty apartments whenever I saw them with other people. Dropped everything and grabbed the remote when I heard they were getting married in the episode currently playing. Recorded myself watching it, because it felt like history, because I needed to see what it looked like-- finding out that we could make it real. I had to WATCH, because if I didn't I WOULD NOT believe it-- SOMETHING would happen, no matter what the episode previews had said. Something ALWAYS did.

When they made it through the episode unscathed, I cracked the champagne that had been meant for New Years Eve. I cried my eyes out. I still didn't watch any more of the show. They'd still had to share their ceremony with two gay boys jumping on their coat tails last minute (Kevin Keller: thank you for 7 years of atoning for Klaine's sins).

I don't know what the fuck is going to happen in the Riverdale series finale. But I know despite the appalling misogynoir she faced, and having a baby, Vanessa Morgan still decided to come back and not only keep Toni alive but keep her kissing Cheryl in scenes where it wasn't originally written that she would. I know Madeleine Petsch looked at a character I looked at and went "that's a high femme" and fucking agreed, and fought for it. I know we went from "it's okay because it's self-aware" faux-lesbianism and creepy stalker lesbian trope to being soulmates in multiple dimensions without even having to die and if you DO die you're resurrected. And you get to have sex. And you look like me and my high school crush-- something I'd never thought to want to see in high school.

I'm not worried about Toni Topaz or Cheryl Blossom dying or being intentionally tragic in the Riverdale series finale. I just really wanted to let you know that. I want to be brave enough to jynx it. We all deserve the feeling of crying on the couch with a bottle of champagne-- safe, no take-backs.

#riverdale #cheryl blossom #toni topaz #brittana

[lopunnears]

new & improved about me

hi. you can call me a (it stands for whatever you want it to, send me your guesses if you want). i like fighting type pokemon, music, and traveling, so you'll see some posts about that. i'm an adult and any pronouns are fine.

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warning: i'm wordy. you don't have to read this whole thing, but i'd appreciate it if you at least skimmed the bold parts!

i've been meaning to update this blog with a fancified account for a hot minute since i got a (frankly surprising) amount of followers from this post--originally, when i started pokeblogging, i was mainly just intending to interact with my friends and they more or less know what i'm about. i think that, since i'm planning on kicking this blog back to life with an event, it's fair that everyone have some basic information about me, what i will and won't interact with, and my character.

for me: hi, i'm eve. i'm also an adult (21) who uses any pronouns, like my character, but that's where a lot of our similarities end, lol. as i'll elaborate on a bit later, this blog is sfw and i don't care if minors follow/interact, but i want this info out there so people can set boundaries as they feel they need to. i'm not excessively familiar with pokeblogging but i've been roleplaying on and off in various places for a long time! i'm wordy and i can be a bit blunt but i promise i'm friendly and would love to rp or talk :3

general boundary-setting:

like aforementioned, anything to be posted on this blog is sfw. for clarifying purposes, this refers to sexual content exclusively, and not necessarily violent content. any interactions of explicit natures will be ignored, and i would rather not extensively interact with any predominantly nsfw blogs; i'm happy to write with sfw sideblogs though! i want this blog to be safe for all ages; generally, i aim to maintain a pg-13 rating, so (for other adult muses only, please) mildly suggestive flirting that fits within that rating is fine!

i'm not familiar with all of the pokeblogging terms, but as a general rule of thumb, i'll interact with any kind of rp blog. canon protagonists, oc protagonists, fallers, sapient pokemon, it's all cool with me. however, i'd rather not interact extensively with any non-rp blogs, because...

i do my best to keep ic and ooc interactions purely separate. i am not generally comfortable interacting ic to ooc, ooc to ic, which means i politely ask you not to reblog my posts (with additions) on non-rp blogs because i will ignore them. asks from non-rp blogs are fine on or off anon as long as they aren't intended to be long-form interactions. i just need it abundantly clear that i am not my character and my character is not me.

about the character:

all of this information below is ooc and most muses have no way to know it. there will be hints for attentive muses but please don't pull anything revealing on him without letting me, the mun know beforehand.

a is an oc protagonist for legends arceus. he is alive in a day close to the present, primarily hanging around in paldea. he looks like a particularly haggard thirty-something, and that's the age range he claims, but he has lived for over a century. he has protagonist-level knowledge of the base game canon and will interact with legends arceus characters with that knowledge in mind. also, warning for a canon-typical complicated relationship with arceus/god figures in general.

a is not his real name. i would say she wouldn't give out her real name, except an attentive muse might notice this blog's connection to @snowpointmailguy at some point. the connection is that they're the same person, from two different points on the timeline. snowpointmailguy is drew pre-hisui timejump, lopunnears is drew many years post-hisui timejump.

various heavy content warnings may apply; i will tag to the best of my ability but feel free to ask if something is showing up frequently that i'm not tagging. if i start any major arc that will have frequent sensitive material, i'll make an announcement post warning for it!

if you got to the bottom, wow, i can't believe i actually wrote that much. i'm no good at being succinct, lol. thank you for reading and i look forward to writing with you!

#pokeblogging #pokemon irl #rotomblr #about post

[therollinkaagenda]

Well I can't just NOT make a post during pride month so... Rollinka Time shift AUs, why not.

Maverick Hunter Roll/Navigator Kalinka au (X era)

-exactly what is says on the tin

-they are both adults in this au

--either the two have been steadily dating as long as anyone has known them, or are just married in this au, I can't decide

-Roll would give mavericks a chance to surrender, but only one (I liked how Archie's Roll was more skeptical and less forgiving than Dr. Light and Rock, that carries over here)

-Roll uses a lance-shaped Saber as her primary weapon, but also uses improvised weaponry when applicable

--Kallinka uses a broom, as a callback to Classic Roll

-both are very knowledgeable about robots in general, and give advice about how best to deal with enemies when navigating

-Kalinka has her father's notes on hand and will refer to them when needed

--Kallinka seems to be the only one who is able to read the notes (apart from, presumably, Dr. Cossack himself), due to the combination of messy handwriting, disorganization, and mix of Russian, English, and Japanese they are written in

-they work best as a pair, and are considered difficult to work with when appart

-Roll is a B rank hunter, it could be far higher but she has a lot of disagreements with other hunters- including her superiors- and doesn't particularly care to improve her rank anyway

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Destruction Deity Roll/Cyber Elf Kalinka au (Zero era)

-Roll is revived during Copy X's reign of terror, and Kalinka is there to watch over her girlfriend while she kicks Copy X's self-righteous arsenal

-see, given that Zero is considered the god of destruction in this era, and Roll is the Classic series equivalent of Zero, She is, by extension, a destruction deity.

--before anyone tried to argue with my perfect gay prosecutor logic, I already ran a Tumblr poll on my main to check this. I love democracy

-how is Kalinka a cyber elf, you may ask? I mean I guess technically she isn't, she is running off the life extension tech Dr. Cossack made for himself (I mean both Light and Wily did so that's not a stretch) but couldn't quite finish so he gave it to Kalinka instead

--But functionally she's like the elf in Zero 4

-Roll lost her memory like Zero did, but don't worry, Kalinka remembers everything so she's not completely in the dark

-gotta love the mental image of Neo Arcadia losing their minds over the resistance reviving ANOTHER destruction deity

-and don't think Roll is about to be proven outdated tech so easily, because not only is the broom a timeless masterpiece of a weapon, but she has a bunch of Classic era weapons to fall back on

--most of them aren't nearly as strong as what Neo Arcadia's forces can dish out, but they are still stronger than the lemon shooters that have become standard, and the variety can be used to more effectively exploit weaknesses and design flaws, and catch foes off guard

---there's also the fact that many of these are forgotten, or their equivalents in this era are unrecognizable. For instance, shields that both protect from all directions and can be used for offense, screen clearing attacks, and especially stuff that freezes all enemies like the flash or time stoppers are practically unheard of. It really can add up to a death by a thousand cuts, and Roll, much like Zero is a relatively small target that's more than good enough at dodging to make up for her comparably small health bar

----Yes, there is a Sans joke to be made here, and the joke is on Copy X

-Kalinka is very much her guide similar to Cyber Elf X, but also stays by Roll's side and buffs her like the Zero 4 elf

-once Roll does get her memories back, she begins to take Copy X's actions personally. She does NOT take kindly to what he did with/too her "baby brother"'s good name

-famililal relationship with guardians status: very, very complicated. So they are each a piece of X's soul, right? Does that make them X's children or his siblings? Or some other third thing?

--Either way, Roll can't bring herself to actually kill them - She already has two and a half dead brothers too many at minimum, forget whatever the number becomes if you could ALL of Dr. Light's robots as her siblings.

-because of their backrounds, they are quite good at crafting items and can be found helping develop weapons when they aren't on missions

-Smol Kalinka, very cute

--i know Cyber Elves aren't necessarily the size they are shown to be in game, but I also don't care. Kalinka is smol anyways

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Mega Man? Kalinka/biometal Model r au (ZX era)

-A role reversal, or should I say a ROLL- *gets shot*

-Model r was a third party hired by Tomas's unwieldy attempt to create a new biometal without Ceil's research or model W, using a soul of beyond ancient and unclear origin because a large amount of mysterious (justice) energy was detected in it.

-however, Model r was unable to Mega Merge with with anyone, even the ones with Albert's DNA- and all telepathy could tell them was cryptic hints as to the one person who could

--Determined not to let the project be a failure, they would eventually revive Kalinka without her memories - only the knowledge (well, feeling) that she could, and should trust Model r, and together they break out of the lab

- Model r is not the strongest biometal, and since Kalinka isn't actually a 'mega man', isn't compatible with the other biometal's either. She does, however, have the variable weapon system, and a broom.

--given that the Psudoroids are complete [YouTube]s, I think that will be enough

-certain memories can be found by going to certain places - the met theme park and e-tank shop, for instance

-Roll does remember everything - her memory wasn't wiped because of the aforementioned search for Kalinka - but she doesn't tell Kalinka all that much because... Well, she's sorta 'not supposed to be alive' right now and it would be difficult to explain that everyone Kalinka cared about is dead, and the one exception, her, is the reason she has to live with that

--and then Tomas tries to use that to make Kalinka doubt Roll and give up right before they fight and it works about as well as the last two times a ZX villain tried that, who would have thought

-the male alt ZX has for some reason is either Rock/Bass or Protoman/Tempo, take your pick.

#rollinka #megaman #roll #kalinka cossack #roll x kalinka #you don't deserve context

[dragonchamp-moonandstar]

Meet Áine , my (oc) Breton Champion of Cyrodiil! 🗡️📜✨

I'm currently playing Oblivion with her and I decided to post here about my rambling fanfictions (and next, time , about my Skyrim and Morrowind characters too!)

~ Áine, Hero of Kvatch

Race: Breton 🏰

Birthsign: born under the Shadow 🌑

Family/origin: She was born in a lesser noble family from Daggerfall. She is a descendant of Medora Direnni ✨from her mother's side

Class: Battlemage ⚔️🪄

Age: 22.

Physical traits:

She has a very pale complexion, and is a short, petite woman (5'1 ft / 1,54 m), with reddish lips. She has green eyes and ashen-brown hair, to her shoulders, styled in windbraids.

She prefers to be clad in her Arena armor (s), her Kvatch armor has a souvenir, and also the Dark Brotherhood's suit when on stealth missions. When not in battle, she enjoys to be clad in her purple finery obtained in the Shivering Isles.

Current Weapon: Fine Amber Sword from the Shivering Isles 🗡️ 🍯

Deities/spirituality:

Aedra:

- Áine's father, a full-fledged Mystic, worshipped Julianos, god of wisdom, so she has a bit of devotion to him as an extent.

- Áine's mother, an alchemist with some knowledge of Restoration magic, worshipped Mara, goddess of marriage & motherhood. Áine has some devotion for her, and knows about her rites.

- Because of romantic misadventures, Áine has a complicated relationahip with goddess Dibella. She prays to her after meeting someone she likes but secretly she's praying to be pretty enough for that person. She feels like Dibella has not smiled upon her yet.

Daedra:

-Nocturnal: Born under the Shadow and since having joined the Thieves' Guild, Áine respects and worships Nocturnal. She's got her Skeleton Key currently.

- Sheogorath: Áine is an aspirant to his Court of Madness and is resistant to the weirdness of the Shivering Isles. However, while she has not a bad relationship with Sheogorath, she fears that he will discover she lost his Wabbajack at the Cloud Rest Temple [[🤣 perhaps the Blades threw it away (? ]]. She fears his (probably crazy) reaction.

Strengths:

- Born under the Shadow, she has special afinity with invisibility spells and is a resourceful thief with increasing sneak skills.

- She excels using most types of swords, short and long. She is practicing her blunt skills with the Volendrung currently. Does not fear to use a short dagger.

- Has an extensive knowledge of Conjuration and Destruction spells. Is currently raising her Alteration skills.

- She's skilled at Restoration (or to be more specific) healing spells.

- Uses both heavy and light armor.

- She economizes the use of scrolls and potions in case of need (in Battle)

- Enjoys horseback riding, even on difficult terrains is very skilled on it.

- Collects and makes good use of Daedric, Ayleid and Dwemer artifacts. Or magical items in general.

Weaknesses:

- She's better fighting 1v1 or ambushing, than fighting against more than three enemies.

- She does not work a lot on her Personality. As such, she has difficulties raising people's opinion of her, since she is kind of clumsy and awkward trying to socialize with most people.

- She doesn't know how to use Illusion spells correctly. She finds them confusing or stupid sometimes.

- Enjoys Mysticism but she hasn't done a lot of Soul Trap spells. She forgets about it on battle itself, and rarely remembers.

- She's totally horrible with bow and arrow. Won't even try to get better, she simply van burst a fireball or throw Finger of the Mountain at some enemies !

- Forgets to use or activate Nighteye vision to avoid traps.

- Not a Journeyman in armoring, she still cannot repair magical items and depends on other blacksmiths.

- Strangely, even as a Breton she has difficulties using a magic staff, so she prefers to don't use them if not needed or forced to.

- She has been mistaken as a Vampire for her pale complexion.

Loves :

- Alchemy, doing potions in general, and cultivating the garden on Frostcrag Spire. She enjoys that since a child in Daggerfall.

-Buying new spells.

-Sword-fighting and Sword duels. -

Finding nirnroots and collecting them.- Amber weapons and armor.

- Welkynd stones.

- Exploring dungeons with lots of gold and magic items.

-Finding skill books or magic tomes.

- Arena duels.

- Walking around the Imperial City.

- She loves Cheydinhal's unique architecture.

- Assasination quests.

- Sneaking in castles and not being detected.

- Unicorns (her heart was broken because she had to kill one, but she kept one of his horseshoes as a souvenir).

- As a race, her favorites are Khajits. She wants to be a Khajit on her next reincarnation, if there's such thing...

-She becomes quickly smitten by a young, good-looking tall man. That has happened with a Nord: Jayred Ice-Veins, and two imperials: Martin Septim and Fadus Calidius .

- She also has a thing for Dunmers like Othrelos and Ulen Athram.

Hates:

- Ogres.

- Zombies.

-Grummites

- Ghosts

- Frost atronachs.

-Daedroths.

- Being the leader of the Fighters Guild. She just leaves almost everything to Modryn Oreyn.

-Hates to talk to counts, countesses or any noble, because of a undisclosed past event in her natal Daggerfall.

-City or legion guards getting on her way during a mission.

- Rude people.

- Fighting with Vampires.

- Running out of potions.

- Paralysis spells.

- Paying taxes or fines (she prefers to pay in her blood).

- Searching something or somebody at Bravil, it's confusing for her.

- Skooma-smelling people. Or the smell of skooma in general.

- Snobbish High Elves. Unpolite Dunmers. Violent and Illusion-magic oriented Bretons. Rude and foul-mouthed Nords. Treacherous Argonians. CRAZED BOSMER LIKE GLARTHIR.

-She really really hates sewers. Or being imprisoned.

-Getting hemophilia, because does not want to become a Vampire. Because of this she used to carry a lot of "Cure Disease" potions, and now she can can the verbal spell too.

If you made it reading up to here, I hope you enjoyed ! Please let me know if you liked it, I will upload content soon 🐝

~Dragonchamp-Moon-and-Star

#elder scrolls #elder scrolls skyrim #elder scrolls oblivion #tes oc #tesblr #sheogorath #the elder scrolls #hero of kvatch #dagoth ur #martin septim #dnd oc #oc rp #original character #elderscrolls oc #fanfic #elderscrolls fanfictions #shivering isles #knights of the nine #akatosh #morrowind #tamriel #hero of kvatch oc #female oc #breton #breton elderscrolls #daggerfall #elderscrolls daggerfall #elder scrolls art #skyrim #blog

[thestobingirlie]

also a couple days old lol but this is now about the whole r/nance being max’s mom things.

yes oh my god the fandom is absolutely so weird with labeling the teens as parents! i swear the teens could just give a member of the party a compliment and people will scream ‘look at them mothering/fathering them’ - it’s just gotten sooo ridiculous and exhausting.

omg yes about them bring robin’s ‘kids if anything’ and yes for calling out those people for ignoring erica.

yes yes yes! about in fiction the parents not being there because it’s something that’s so common. so the audience doesn’t have to worry about it but this time people do! and they ignore every single interaction in this show with the parents and the kids! like maybe it’s not all there but there is some heavy stuff with their parents. and yeah about it looking silly if people ignore the parents because it is silly! people just want to erase the parents meanwhile it’s just not good at all and is just incredibly silly.

gos i hate when people write over the fact that max have steve a letter because it’s sooo important. i feel like people just want to write steve off no matter what now. oh he was the person that dustin looks up to - never mind dustin looks up to eddie so much more now (to be fair canon also started that). oh steve is robin’s best friend - let’s give that role to jonathan or nancy or eddie. oh max gave steve a letter - never mind she looks up to nancy of robin so much more than steve. oh steve is the babysitter - never mind let’s just give that role to eddie. lol that for long but i’m just so fucking frustrated with the fact that it seems like EVERYONE wants to write steve off.

the st teens being called ‘mom’ and ‘dad’ is just an extension of people being unable to see found family as anything other than a nuclear family. the oldest in the group will end up being called ‘parents’ even if they’re still teens.

and i love and miss scoops troop every single day and yet this fandom just ignores them. and it makes me sick.

honestly i find the parents really interesting in st, like i have so many headcanons about steve’s parents, and we’ve never even met them! it’s cool to think about the kids relationships with their parents and how that informs who they are as people. and i get not wanting to involve adults in fics because it can make them a bit more complicated, (and tbf the adults aren’t that involved in upside down stuff) but it also just makes the world feel more full. it makes the characters feel like they have real history’s and lives. instead of just getting plopped down into a fic.

it is funny because for the people that don’t like steve, he really is pretty involved with most of the story and a lot fo characters (though they like to pretend he isn’t) so, to try and get rid of him he just ends up getting overwritten a lot. he isn’t important to max anymore because… female power? and max’s relationship with nancy and robin is more important (even though she literally has no relationship with them lmao). he’s too much of a jock for dustin to look up to, dustin has to look up to a nerd, so let’s shove eddie in there. (even though just being steve’s friend gave dustin confidence, and they were nerdy together, and steve has clearly watched the star wars in s3, so he watched them with dustin? that’s so cute). it’s just weird that it seems like even people who like steve (like in steddie fics) feel the need to get rid of him a bit, take away some of his importance and give it to someone else.

#steve harrington #stranger things #asks #lovefrom-theother-side

[marshmallowprotection]

I don't know why am I like that but I always feel so emotional about V. Whenever I think about his fate in different routes, about his complicated love, about the way he thinks and feels, his suffering, his pain, his broken relationships and life; about the way people hate him in the fandom, the harsh words they say... everything.

I love him so much but loving him for some reason always means feeling pain. Whether from reading a certain AE or a hateful comment on the internet or even seeing his absence on a new CG.

I know it all sounds pretty stupid. I know he's not real, but these feelings just don't go away. They eat at my heart very very painfully.

I just want to shield and protect him from all the cruel things thrown at him. I want to hug him from behind, bury my face in his back and cry, whispering "Please, don't betray me. Please, don't leave...".

That's when I remember MC's quote from his route: "Stay. Stay and find a new path". Part of me starts to feel better, remembering his route, his happy or even normal ending, but then I remember it's the only timeline where he is okay and I feel that gnawing pain again.

I can always say to myself that MM is an otome and every route can be a true one depending on who plays the game, I can imagine different scenarios in my head or read fanfics, but it never seems to ease that pain. I don't know why.

God, I feel so stupid. Pathetic even. But I guess that's the price I have to pay for indulging into fictional character's story TOO much.

Sorry for such a long and cringey message. I got too much into explaining those complicated feelings. I wanted to ask whether you experienced something similar. And if yes, any tips how to deal with this?

It's not stupid nor is it pathetic. You care greatly about your favorite character. That's not a problem. Don't let anybody tell you it is. A lot of people are super passionate about the characters that have helped shape the way they are. He feels like an extension of yourself in many ways, I guess. So, if somebody insults him, it almost feels like they're insulting a piece of you because he is a huge part of you. It stings, and it’s not silly to admit that. You don’t want him to hurt horribly when you know he’s capable of change and shaping his life into something he’s deserving of.

It comes with the territory of liking complicated, complex characters. You’ll get a lot of discord and disdain when you really just want to enjoy yourself. It’s a real shame, too, because Jihyun Kim is a character rich with opportunity and chance encounters. The more you learn about him, the more you realize he’s smart and unbelievably capable. So, never feel pathetic, silly, dumb, or stupid. Don’t think of calling yourself those things because you’re not that way. V would never want you to insult yourself. Not now, nor ever.

You inspire him to want to be better. You helped him remember what he wanted as a child... as a young man... and as an adult. That’s freedom to figure out the best way to smile and he has it thanks to you. No matter where he is or where he goes, your heart follows.

#ask #anon #mod kait