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itsjustbyler · 2 months

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If the byler actually happens, it will be rushed. The GA won't understand, they should have done this before. They've been building Mileven for so long that they couldn't change everything last season.

Sorry, but it's the truth.

Well hi there... (this is going to be a big one, sorry)

See, I'll never understand this argument that it's going to be rushed and that the last season doesn't have time to build Byler or whatever. You've never seen films or series with a single season in which a couple meets, falls in love and ends up together?

I can give you the example of Eyewitness. Several people in the fandom like to talk about this series and I have to thank the bylers for presenting it to me.

The show has 9 episodes, at the beginning we meet Lukas and Phillip. Lucas suffers from internalized homophobia. This series managed to introduce us to the characters, make us understand them, make us understand the reason for each one's actions with just 9 episodes and still in the middle of a murder plot, with several horrible things happening and other characters developing.

And the series is simply wonderful. I highly recommend it, so that people can learn about internalized homophobia (which we theorize Mike has) and how far it can go. Maybe you even recognize some parallels with Byler. Remembering that eyewitness was on the inspiration board for one of the seasons, i think it was season 4.

"They have been building up mlvn for 4 seasons", well... they also did that with byler. The advantage of Stranger Things over eyewitness is that we already know the characters, we already know the dynamics between them, we know the problems in each relationship, there will be no need to waste time on that. The building up for byler its at its peak by the end of season 4!

The season ended with:

Mike and El not talking to each other after the monologue that was supposed to save the relationship

The truth about Will's painting yet to be revealed

Will confirmed to be in love with Mike

Mike is still oblivious to Will's feelings

Eleven didn't say anything about the monologue and what she thought of it all

Will is already sure that Mike doesn't like him and he tried to help Mike and El's relationship, which didn't work.

Mike doesn't know that Eleven doesn't actually feel what Will said she feels and that those were his words

As I said, we already know these characters. We know Will lied, we know El doesn't feel that way. We know that Mike feels inferior in the relationship because El doesn't seem to like anything he likes and ignores his interests, which is why he thinks he's just a random nerd. Mike only knows how to praise El by associating her with her powers, something El doesn't feel comfortable with. We know about the ambiguous relationship between Mike and Will and that Mike seems to separate Will from all the other members of the party, including El. We know that Will is in love with Mike. Everything is waiting for it's conclusion.

Also, we still have some questions hanging in the air like: Why write Will in love with Mike if he already has a girlfriend? Why not give him a boyfriend in Lenora, which seems to be a freer place with mlm and wlw couples going on public dates in the middle of Rink o Mania? Why not have Mike reject Will in season 3 so Will can move on, like they did with Dustin and Max? Why the painting and the meaning behind it? Why constantly separate Mike and El throughout the seasons while strengthening Mike and Will's bond? Why, instead of having Mike the whole season saying that he needs to find El and telling her that he loves her and that she's amazing, they decided to have Mike complaining about his relationship and how bad he feels about it? Why did this love triangle reach season 5 still without a clear solution?

They just need to pick up the pieces. If you think they can't do that in a single season, remember that St*ncy ended the first season together but we clearly knew something was wrong and in the second season they perfectly managed to end St*ncy's relationship and start J*ncy's even with Jonathan dealing with everything that was happening with his brother and everything else.

And hey... give the GA some credit. I clocked byler without even knowing it was a thing and I had never been in a fandom before. They are not stupid. They just don't engage with fandom disclosure but that doesn't mean they are oblivious to everything that it's happening. They just don't care or have heterormativity blinding them.

Now could the writers just ignore everything they had been building up and send it to trash? Damn right they could. However, we will have to wait and see...

ty for the ask, sorry for the big one <3

#byler #ask #ty for the ask <3

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celestialexxperience · 1 year

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deserve.

Daisy jones x fem!reader

Warnings: cursing, a little internal homophobia, SOPILERS FOR EP 9, NICKY SLANDER, use of Y/N

A/N: OKAY YEAH I FINALLY WROTE A FIC AND ITS SUPER LONG!! okay bc it's my first fiction be nice also I love daisy jones and the six AND I JUST GOT THE BOOK! Request stuff!!!

How could he leave her like that? Not even just leave her. Period. But leave her in the fucking shower! Epecially When she was like that. What kinda of evil person would you have to be to leave someone there like that when you were basically the whole reason why that happened in the first place, and then you leave! "THAT GOD DAMN ITALIAN ASSHOLE!" That was the first thing that came out of my mouth when daisy told me what happened the night before the band and I, came barging out of are rooms after we all heard daisy screaming profanities at Nicky for leaving her there in the shower. "Y/N, please." The beautiful flower named girl said shushing me down from drawning any more attention to are seat in the crowded tour bus of daisy and the six. "Sorry," I said looking down quietly. "Come on Y/N, you're my closest, longest friend. You're the only one who truly knows me, and that's why you're the only person who knows the full story." "Well, I'm honored." I said with slight sarcasm making the fire head girl in front of me smile. "Anyway, I always got bad energy from Nicky, even when you invited me to the wedding. But, I didn't want to say anything because you were so happy." I said earning a strange look from daisy that turned to a small delighted smile. "I mean daisy, Those men didn't deserve you at all, Jesus-" "Wait Y/N what other men?" "All of them. Nicky, Billy, the guy who stole your beautiful Sublime, whatever song that he turned into a hit that should've been you're hit daisy!" "Y/N-" "You deserve so much better daisy." I said staring directly into her soul so maybe should would understand what I'm trying to say. That beautiful fiery girl scooched closer to me to look further into my soul. "Then who do I deserve Y/N?" Daisy said with that mischievous smirk she usually has on her face. I didn't need to say anything or so I thought. I thought we were on the same page but I guess I was wrong. I kissed her. Because I thought it was the right thing to do, because i thought it would change our relationship, because I thought it would change who I was, and where we were. But it didn't. I was still a woman. A lesbian. In the 70s. And she was still a woman. A straight woman. In the 70s. But, she didn't move. She didn't connect are lips like the puzzle piece that I thought desperately needed to be together. So I pulled away. I got up. "Y/N-" "Daisy, I'm sorry I shouldn't have. I-i- i didn't know what I was thinking, I know you don't feel the same, I'm so stupid!" "Y/N-" "-and- and look where we are I don't know what i thinking!" "Y/N!" "WHAT! NO! I mean no! I'm sorry I need to go." I stayed up all night. I couldn't sleep. I wouldn't sleep. My mind wouldn't allow me. My mind would only focus on her. My mind Could only focus on her. Around midnight I heard a very rushed knock on my hotel door. I was scared to open the door, but I was too tired and delusional to care less, so I just wanted to get this over with and tell who ever it was to fuck off so maybe I could get some sleep. When I opened a fiery red headed girl jumped on me and wrapped her legs around my waist and her arms slung around my neck before I could even get a word in. "Daisy-?" I said questioning why she was knowing full well she didn't love me how I wanted her too. "Daisy, what are you doing here?" I asked again. "Shhhh-" she whispered putting her finger to my lips. "I'm here for you." She said while jumping down from my body. "Wha-" "It's you. I deserve you. You deserve me." She send stepping closer to me almost filling the space between are body's. "I want you." She said sincerely. "Okay, but daisy, the way you acted on the bus, and all the men! I never thought you would feel the same way." "I know, I'm sorry. But you just freaked me out I never thought you would feel that way and in front of the band I just... froze." She said while looking down. "But know that I know it makes a lot of sense." She giggled. "Hmm, I guess I was wrong then." "Yes you were very wrong. You deserve me."

#daisy jones and the six x reader #daisy jones x reader #Daisy jones #Daisy jones x fem!reader #daisy jones and the six #Daisy jones and the six fanfic #daisy jones fanfic #70s

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aromanticannibal · 1 year

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Transfem Katsuki (edited as of Nov. 2023. Katsuki hadn't died yet when this was written so bear with me.)

In honor of "fuck I thought about transfem Katsuki and now I'm in love with her again" and also because of a shitty discourse post I saw. Enjoy.

She will NOT figure it out until at least second year of UA.

She's always been uneasy about the whole boy thing. Specifically boy. Like she's one of the guys ok sure but she's not a boy.

We know how kind Aldera is to anyone who's slightly out of the norm (ie Deku) and Katsuki is especially aware given she was part of the problem. So yeah, internalized transphobia (+homophobia) we love to see it./s

Getting into UA and quickly realizing that like more than half the class is openly and proudly queer in some way gave her whiplash, and as much of a bully as she still was at this point, she didn't say anything.

She tried to convince herself it was to not get in trouble and gamble her place at UA, but really she was just glad to not be somewhere as fucked as her middle school.

And if the trans ponytail chick makes her question who she really wants to be... well that's nobody's business.

As I am very subtly implying, Momo ends up being a big part of Katsuki accepting herself and her identity as a trans woman.

Katsuki loves her friend group (she'll never admit it but she does, so much) but she associates them with her old group from Aldera somewhat unconsciously, and is terrified they'll push her away, even if she knows she's just. Straight up wrong.

As in, so incredibly wrong. Sero and Jirou are non binary ("Whatever the hell that means") Kirishima is a proud trans man ("More of a man than any of the cretins at Aldera will ever be") Mina's dating a trans girl from another school ("Camie Utsushit or smth") and Kaminari is so many different flavors of queer its almost impressive.

Really, her friends are probably the ones that should be worried, she tries to remind herself, hammering it in her head. Katsuki was an asshole for most of her life, they should be the ones scared of her. They're not though. For some fuckin' reason.

So yeah, talking to her friend group is out of the question. Momo though.

Momo is a special kind of trustworthy. Momo is the kind of person you'd give your entire life savings, your child, your car and your wife to. Katsuki hates that, she hates trusting people, it always ends badly, so she prefers doing stuff on her own.

Except it doesn't always end badly. Especially not with Yaomomo.

Every early saturday morning, Katsuki's and Momo's workout sessions happen at the same time. Eventually, they start talking during that time. Katsuki eventually asks about Momo being trans, more or less convinced she'll tell her to go fuck herself (she obviously doesn't).

It helps, despite the fact that her experience isn't the same as Katsuki's at all. Momo always knew she was a girl, her parents always were supportive about it, and money really wasn't a problem to help her transition once she was old enough to make that decision. Hell, she can literally make estrogen.

Katsuki then comes to the realization that yeah, she's probably a girl. Not like I'll ever do shit about it, she thinks.

Things kinda stay stagnant for a time then. Katsuki has way more important stuff to worry about (like exams and also her and her friends almost dying etc etc) and the self-hatred that simmers in her head constantly doesn't make it really fun to actually think about herself.

Second year comes around.

Because this is me, and my blog, and I do what I want, I present to you my son, Shinsou. Most trans guygirl t4t lesbian of all time. In my heart.

So Shinsou is very trans in the most mysterious way you could think of, so mysterious he himself doesn't really know what is going on with his gender. He doesn't exactly care, he just vibes (any pronouns).

They're pretty knowledgeable on queer stuff because it loves to read wikipedia pages until 5AM when it can't sleep and got lost on multiple LGBTQ+ related forums when she was 13. (He also knows a lot about chickens and lizards.)

She can just breathe the queer coming out of Katsuki, but when they ask they're just met with "oh Bakugou? Yeah no, he's cishet. Our token straight man. To prove we're diverse, etc." (-Shouji, entirely serious). Shinsou's not buying it but she doesn't like assuming, so he shuts up.

Meanwhile, Katsuki has nothing to think about anymore now that things have settled and she's not getting attacked by her self-hatred constantly, so she unfortunately ends up thinking about her gender (truly tragic. Genuinely though, it's almost distressing because she pushed the thought down for so long that it's scary to think about).

Because early mornings and nights are a time outside of our world, it's again around 5AM that Katsuki talks to someone who might help her with her gender problem. Shinsou in fact, who's of course awake on a Monday morning after a sleepless night, eating cereal out of the box.

Katsuki finds herself chatting with the weirdo and eventually asks what the fuck kinda gender it is, if only to be able to call her something else than the weirdo in her head.

The realization that gender is a construct and doesn't really fucking exist so it doesn't actually matter is somewhat of an epiphany for Katsuki. Like she's silent for multiple minutes. Shinsou is getting scared

Quietly, she mutters a small "I think I'm a girl" to Shinsou. It smiles and says "Nice. There's not enough girls in this class." and goes back to its cereal.

Katsuki has no fucking idea how that fucker exists. He's an anomaly in the timeline. Katsuki adores them.

(Platonically. Girl doesn't have time for romantic love. Yes I'm also making her aromantic, because aro Katsuki is the loml and one of my fave hcs.)

After that weird but insightful conversation, Katsuki finally asks Momo for help, taking her up on an offer she had made one morning. ("If you ever need my help for anything concerning [your gender bullshit], come see me.")

Momo being the absolute QUEEN that she is, she assembles all transgirls and cisgirls of the class + whoever else would like to join (which ends up being Jirou, Shinsou and Aoyama) and they all go on a shopping trip with Katsuki to help her figure out what she likes.

Does she want to wear makeup? Does she want feminine clothes? Or long hair? Does she want boobs? Or thinner traits?

Does she just want different pronouns and to be addressed viewed as a girl?

Mina shortens that as "What kinda girl is Katsuki".

I'll do you the answer here so this doesn't take forever, because the process of figuring it out must be long.

Mainly, the verdict will eventually be that Katsuki didn't really feel comfortable in the box she, her parents and Aldera put her in, which is a sort of vague idea of a Boy, Man, Son. She's mean and a bitch and probably a tomboy and she's a girl. That's all. She doesn't want of any of that flowery pink crap and being "gracefully feminine" like Momo is, she'll still kick your teeth in. Being a girl isn't fundamentally part of her identity or her personality, but it's who she's comfortable being.

She does enjoy skirts once she feels comfortable enough to wear them. She grows her hair a bit too (because she doesn't wanna look like her mother at first, but she ends up liking the look) and puts it up in a ponytail.

Makeup is a bitch but it looks cool, so she lets Mina, Aoyama and Shinsou use her face as a canevas for their weird makeup experiments. She thinks she looks like a clown half the time though (she doesn't, she's really cute). She mostly does eyeliner, which she already knew how to do before starting her transition, and very rarely lipgloss.

She doesn't really care about having breasts or softer traits, mainly because her traits are already pretty androgynous when she looks at herself, and she's already got big pecs so like. Basically tits. It's the same, it doesn't really matter. She's happy with how her body looks, she worked to have a healthy body and she doesn't care if it's "not a woman's body" or whatever the fuck. She likes how her body is and she doesn't really care about changing it.

She thinks of using she/they (like Jirou) but doesn't exactly care about they/them? Like they're not bad to have used on her (way better than he/him) but she prefers just using she/her.

She doesn't change her first name. It means victory, so it's already perfect for her. It's her name.

Some of her friends (the ones who aren't scared of death cough cough Shinsou) call her Katsuki-chan (Kacchan is copyrighted) but most her friends call her Kats', because she let slip one time she thinks it's cute.

To end this because good lord I've been typing for some time, here's my Transfem Bakugou pinterest board. I actually have a bunch of transfem characters pinterest boards lmao

Also realizing I almost didn't talk about Izuku. Damn I've really betrayed myself as a bkdk truther. Rip.

#bakugou katsuki #transfem bakugou #trans bakugou #trans girl bakugou #bnha #mha #bnha headcanons #mha headcanons #shinsou hitoshi #momo yaoyorozu #long post #ciders mha hyperfixation

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ufonaut · 5 months

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look im not gonna proclaim to be very knowledgeable on alan scott but and feel free to correct me, but. the preview has him like nurturing this pride in himself in the face of homophobia - which seems entirely contradictory to alan “most repressed man in comics” scott. alan “took eighty years to come out of the closet” scott. Sheridan seems completely unwilling to explore the repressed side of alan, and turned alan’s doublethink and unwillingness to admit his homosexuality to himself as all externally motivated. All the conflict about Alan’s sexuality is externally driven, not internally. Maybe I was expecting too much, but I honestly thought this run was gonna be a hell of a lot more introspective than we’ve seen.

i don't necessarily disagree but i'm having the opposite issue? i think tim sheridan's take is too internally motivated because alan's own feelings on his sexuality seem to hinge entirely on christian guilt, which is not a trait that has ever existed in the past eighty years of publication. alan is not and has never been religious in any way. regardless of external factors like the army and the asylum, the foundation of alan's concerns and pride is still religion ("it's a sin"/"the way god made me"). that is entirely nonsensical to me.

the way i've always seen alan's approach to his own sexuality is based entirely around societal pressure, primarily because he's already historically & canonically hiding parts of himself seen as undesirable by society at large -- his much more pronounced gotham accent for one (as per the vast majority of his 1940s stories), his social class and the way he worked his way up to his present day status (a la 'scenes from the class struggle at jsa mansion' from golden age secret files among many other examples), and the fact that he's quite clearly not neurotypical. so much of the man alan grows up to be is just facades on top of facades, hiding his sexuality is just another part of it.

see, when i call alan repressed i mean emotionally repressed -- i think he closed himself off from the world after doiby left, i think he was significantly more honest with himself in the 1940s when he was very young. with doiby gone, with the HUAC after the jsa, alan's career became the most important thing in his life. he has to be the big shot ceo, with all that implies in 1955. hence: the lies. i don't think admitting his homosexuality to himself plays any part in it, not when we've got stories like comic cavalcade 1942 #23 or frankly alan's whole entire life in those golden age stories where he proudly rejected women and lived with his male best friend. i think he stayed a confirmed bachelor until it was no longer acceptable, i think he became whatever he needed to become to stay on top because he's always been so insanely driven & ambitious and a sincere workaholic.

point being i don't think alan was necessarily sexually repressed, he was certainly a 'man about town' like paul levitz puts it but it just seems unlikely to me that he would've ever formed long term relationships along the line of what we see with johnny ladd in the new book. he's not the marrying kind, in every sense of the phrase.

there's a lot of internalized homophobia at play, of course, because alan's a product of his time through and through but we must also consider the fact that he's not emotionally open & vulnerable with anybody about anything and the crowd he frequents is as much a product of their time as he is: his sexuality would not have been accepted so it became none of their business. i think the fact that todd had an easier time with it in terms of society at large made alan dislike him but it also proved to him that times had changed indeed, and he's not lying in dc pride 2021 when he says todd's the reason he came out. alan now had evidence that it was safe to do so.

i don't know, man, i guess more than anything my thing has always been that alan hiding his homosexuality isn't something that happens in a vacuum. he's hiding all of himself, the soft underbelly of his real self and that's not just being gay. i wish we got some of that! something that acknowledges alan's astounding complexity from all angles!

#well this got away from me. enjoy #alan scott #asks #anon

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honeysunzz · 2 years

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how likely i think it actually is for st characters to react badly towards The Gays™️ (and i mean will) because some of y’all clearly missed the whole point of the show:

el: probably doesn’t even know what gay people are, therefore homophobia does not exist to her. she loves her friends too much to let that change anything anyway.

joyce/jonathan: definitely already know and definitely don’t care, especially jonathan. like many of us, they just want their boy happy and safe lol.

dustin: he’s already a very sweet character and clearly open-minded and smart. definitely supports.

steve: himbo. doesn’t care for obvious reasons.

robin: it would be hypocritical. she would claim will as her own (and mike cough).

nancy: i think she’d be a little iffy at first simply because of the way ted is (bc let’s be honest that man is a total asshole) but ultimately would be pretty indifferent; plus, she’s dating jon and it’s her brother’s bestie, she’d prob give herself a “suck it up we have better things to worry about” pep talk.

lucas: he’d be a lil confused at first but he’s got the spirit. doesn’t mean any harm and has shown to really care about his friends.

max: she’d react a little underwhelmingly, but in a good way. kind of like “ok? what’s the problem?” but would come to defense if need be.

mike: oh boy. mike. yes, he’s homophobic, but it’s internalized 100% so he projects. would never do anything to intentionally hurt will.

hopper: i feel like maybe he used to be on the fence about it, but atp he doesn’t really care. that would take too much time and energy and bro just wants to Rest. also, joyce wouldn’t let it slide and talk some sense into him.

argyle: supportive, that’s all. would say something like “whatever floats your boat man😎”

murray: the love doctor of the st universe. he sees chemistry, not gender. the strongest ally out there.

#y’all are actually weird if you think most of them would be outright hateful #and especially after all they went through together? nah #will byers #byler #stranger things

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cinegeek237 · 7 months

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Is Adam Groff just an Introvert?

When it comes to film/tv there is a phrase: show, don't tell.

But, when a story is heavily influenced on character rather than being plot driven, dialogue is wildly important. This is the case with Sex Education.

Sex Educations - I'm focusing on season 3 - really wants to tell us that Ada Groff has internalized homophobia and is having a hard time coming to terms with being bisexual and coming it. But... I really feel like that isn't what they showed us. They showed us the poor dude is just a shy introvert (and possibly coded as neurodivergent - that's another post).

Adam and Eric came back to Adam's to find his mom Maureen with a man (who's name I don't recall). Adam introduces Eric as his friend which seems to hurt Eric. OK. so I grew up with a parent who dated and sometimes had flings. I would NEVER come out to some rando my mom was seeing. I probably wouldn't even talk to them... just wave awkwardly and go to my room. In terms of social etiquette it would be SO weird to just come out to said rando. That has nothing to do with how queer or comfortable Adam is. At. All.

When Eric returns home - from his visit to his Aunt's where he cheated on Adam which is never addressed at all in s4 but whatever that actor is charismatic AF so who cares in the character is a little sh*t -.- moving on - he asks Adam to go to a club with him. Adam seems reluctant.

Right... we've seen him crash Aimee's party in s1, sit in a corner at a dance in s2, sit outside a party in s2... this kid is always off to the side or outside... always by himself in the quiet. I don't think a party let alone a loud club is a place Adam would want to go to... period. It (again) has nothing to do with how comfortable he is with his queerness.

BUT everything Adam does that Eric doesn't like must mean that he's still not "out enough" whatever that means.

Really their relationship did not read in terms of behavior as a couple who are splitting because one is totally out and one is still kinda in the closet. It read as an extrovert and an introvert who just aren't meant to be.

Eric in s3 was just so gatekeepy regarding queerness...

*I am about to go off on a unrelated tangent*

But Adam in s4 was just SO DAMN poorly done. His entire storyline is separate except for one ep... which kind of didn't make sense for him to be in because we haven't seen him interact with Aimee since they broke up in s1.

They did the most stereotypical thing and had the bi guy start off with a chick, realize he's also into dudes, then get with another chick. THIS BOY NEEDS A FRIEND! But they wrote off Rahim and Ola... and eh didn't hang out with Ruby who also clearly needed a friend.

And guess we're pretending he didn't have a whole storyline in s3 about trying better in school... and also that awesome English teacher wouldn't notice he probably is dyslexic...

I got off topic. This is just bothering me.

#sex education #adam groff

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pulsedmaggot · 6 months

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reclaim myself ☣ chapter 1/??

the transitional period between sexart being a thing and korn scooping jd up like vultures is something that can be so personal. i made a whole post about the idea of munky feeling things™ seeing jd in drag for sexart and then i was like oh you could make a fic out of this. but i fucked around and now it's gonna be a multichapter! scary!!! | ship: jd/munky | words: 992 | warnings & tags: internalized homophobia, 90s-typical language, munky falling siege to jd's terrible flirting | summary: korn is in its prophase, and munky has a thing for their new singer that he doesn't have an excuse for. he'll find a way to cope. somehow.

for 18+ audiences only, minors dni.

munky knows what a drag queen is.

with that being said, he can't exactly tell if jonathan is or isn't.

not that it'd be a problem either way, because this is california and there's certain stuff you just can't have a problem with here. unless you're loud enough to express otherwise. munky wouldn't consider himself the other, he doesn't think. all he knows about the guy is that he can sing, that they need a singer, and the singer that they need just so happens to be something of a drag queen. he thinks. he might not be, but munky wouldn't know.

if jonathan dressed up just for shows then yeah, munky would tell you with a straight face that creep's- toy's, korn's, whatever- new singer is a guy who dresses up as a chick when he performs. therefore, that guy, is a drag queen. plain and fucking simple. except it's not plain at all, and it's far from simple, because some days munky'll see jonathan in dark red lipstick and a skirt that flows all the way down to his feet, and other days he'll see him in a tracksuit three times his size wearing sneakers with holes in them. on or off stage, too. pre and post sexart, too, if he can remember right. the days are starting to blur together, honestly, and it's fine because that means that they're doing it, that the days between doing shows are getting smaller, that they're so used to being on and off stage that maybe everyday's just one venue after another.

still. still.

munky has to figure it out soon, figure him out, because it's normal to see someone in short shorts and heels and hoop earrings and think 'wow, fuck me right now'. it's encouraged, even. he's pretty sure he's been taught to oggle girls before he was taught how to ride a bike. he's also pretty sure that he was taught to not even look twice at a boy, much less a boy that you and all your friends knew liked to dress up as a girl, in the way that he tends to look at jonathan from time to time. so he has to find out. he has to ask him- has to ask jonathan if he's a him who wants to be a her, or a him who's a him in a way that's unique to just him, or a him who used to be a her and is playing some type of longform psychological horror genre 4d chess just to fuck with everyone.

because it's fine if he's actually a she, because that means munky's looking at a girl with chest hair and broad shoulders and hey, so what, it's the 90s. sometimes girls have that.

but if jonathan's a boy, and just a boy, who just so happens to dress the way he does, then munky is so, so, majorly fucked up.

"hey, no problem, thanks for coming."

"no, really, you were great, uh-"

"jonathan."

"-jonathan. right. you guys were great, jonathan, really. i had a great time, uh- watching."

"oh yeah? liked what you saw?"

"okay, i'm- shit, that came out wrong. that came out wrong, didn't it?"

"nope. i think you were being honest…"

"munky."

"that's your name? munky?"

"well, no, technically it's- my real name's, uh, james. everyone calls me munky though. it's, like… it's whatever, y'know?"

"yeah, totally, i get that."

"don't fuckin'- laugh- c'mon. i'm- i came here to compliment you! cut it out!"

"you came to my band's show to compliment just me? that's fucked up, mr. munky. and here i thought you were honest-"

"jeez, okay. i really- i'm- i'm so fucked up right now-"

"-a gentleman, even. wow. where has chivalry gone."

"alright, well- i guess… i guess you're right because i didn't come here to just compliment you. someone wanted me to give you this."

"i'm- uh-"

"it's not like that, i promise. we're a band and we need a singer, and this guy- reggie- he's our bassist and he couldn't make it tonight but he's seen you before. says he knows you, or something. he wanted us to give you this."

"i mean… yeah, sure, i'll call him."

"you will? for real?"

"i guess i have to, right? if i wanna keep seeing you."

"i- yeah. okay. you- okay. okay."

"don't tell me i got you with that one, james."

admitting it to himself isn't easy, so he doesn't.

if he did admit it to himself, that jonathan happened to fit the requirements for the type of person that he's into, then that means he'd need a word for it. and really, as far as he knows, he isn't queer, or gay, or into dudes, like, at all. he'll have moments where he lingers on local bands as they decimate an audience, or someone at the skatepark, or the liquor store, or the street where him and brian used to smoke cigarettes, but he doesn't do anything about it. he just looks. and looking at a guy doesn't make you gay.

and jonathan still might not be a guy, so he's still in the clear, except…

everywhere they go, they introduce themselves as brian, munky, reggie, david, and jonathan. every time they end a show- a korn show, as they've all decided- some girl shouts 'i love you, jonathan!' at them when they're carrying their gear off stage. everyone they know, or meet, because now that they're korn they've been meeting up with a lot of people, calls jonathan he. even when he has eyeliner and lipstick on. even the guys from sexart, as hazy as they were in munky's memory, called him a he. and every day, jonathan comes to practice in an oversized shirt and jeans and listen, so what, it's the 90's, everyone dresses like that, but…

jonathan just might be a guy. a guy that munky wants, badly. and that might be a problem.

#yuck.txt #jd/munky #munkathan #<- target audience tag lol #rn i gotta say updates will not be consistent! just toying with the idea rn :3 #i'll probably jump between this and drawing from time to time 🫀 we shall see

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mitzyrose69 · 2 years

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hey gang here’s some of my byakuya headcanons that no one asked for

i love him so here we go

byakuya is gay. he loves men. men to him are like cráck

however he also had a lot of internalized homophobia as a child because of the environment he was raised in

byakuya also uses he/him prns, but has experimented w they/them with only close friends

potential spoilers? this is less of a hc more of a take on canon content- since pennyworth was his motive in ch 1 of thh i like to assume that he was more of a father figure than kijo was. he was the one who tried to help byakuya get through life and give him an even slightly normal childhood, even if he really couldn’t because of his job. byakuya really appreciated him for that, even if he didn’t verbalize it a lot

byakuya is autistic. he was raised in an environment where every little move he made was heavily watched and every mistake was criticized. he internalized a lot of it and, even if he realized something was up, he never actually spoke out about it out of fear of having something imperfect about him.

byakuya is fluent in multiple languages. japanese (obviously), english, mandarin, russian, french, korean, and spanish! since the togami conglomerate is global (and yk the whole council thing) his father was insistent he at least be trilingual.

byakuya has a very complex skin and hair care routine. keepin up that perfect appearance means perfect skin, hair, and nails too.

he also works out four or so times a week. a lot of it is for his own health but he also likes the physical appearance boost

but he doesn’t take care of his mental health so…

byakuya has very toxic masculinity regarding mental health. any weakness can be exploited so he should never show it, period. it definitely affects a lot of his friendships early on but he learns slowly to start letting himself express it.

he deals with very bad anxiety and depression too. a lot of it comes from his father being very overbearing on him and placing a world’s worth of pressure on his shoulders since he was just a kid, and he struggles dealing with it. however…

byakuya fuckin loves reading oh my GOD. he uses it a lot to cope and get away from whatever it is that’s bothering him. if he’s anxious? book. depressed? book (if it’s easily accessible). wants to unwind? book! he loves reading so much

true crime and cold cases are his special interest. he can and will infodump about whatever cold case you ask him about

these are just a few so pls go ahead and ask for more <3

#byakuya togami #danganronpa #togami byakuya #byakuya togami headcanons #headcanons #danganronpa thh #danganronpa headcanons #trigger happy havoc

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sundaemuddysucks · 5 months

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tdwt courterra is soo fucked up. ive been thinking abt it all day. picture this

ok courtney and sierra have like. No fucking reason to interact in tdwt despite being teammates bc i think out of all of them, sierra freaks out courtney the most bc courtney is like. Super judgmental right. and sierra has more interesting people (in her mind) to blog about. and i think sierra wasnt a very big courtney fan (she wasn’t ever really super obsessive abt her + she didnt seem to care that much abt duncney). but that all changes after the whole gwuncan shitstorm. Remember how sierra was the only one who actually sympathized with courtney and voted with her for gwen. yeah. heather did try to comfort courtney but imagine courtney realizes Hey i probably. should not rely on heather for comfort. so instead courtney decides to (very hesitantly) start hanging out with sierra since she’s her only teammate that isn’t a gwen sympathizer or a bitch (in her mind). at first she just kinda spends a lot of time bitching to sierra abt “gwen is such a bitch ohh my god i hate her so much” which actually kinda gives them common ground (sierra is also an aggressive gwen disliker and thinks boyfriend stealing is wrong etc etc) and courtney feels really validated which is special to her bc to me she is the type to be invalidated a lot when she expresses dislikes/concerns (since she is autistic. i mean look at her. and at least in my experience being autistic ppl never take you seriously when you complain about shit) so actually having someone enthusiastically agree with her and not judge her for the. odd things she says (like cmon she sang an entire song abt wanting to maim gwen) is a big deal. courtney is in a pretty emotionally vulnerable state at that time since yk she just got betrayed by her only real friend and cheated on. she starts crushing and shes like Man what the hell this sucks. and she hates herself a lot for being attracted to sierra of all people bc 1) internalized homophobia 2) sierra is. Sierra and 3) courtney realllllly doesn’t want to let herself get attached to anyone (especially a girl) bc of the fact that gwen just straight up stole her boyfriend. so while courtney has all that going on, sierra is having Thoughts of her own. the pedastal shes kinda been putting cody on starts to crumble bc she’s like What the hell. how in god’s name is he supporting GWEN right now!! and it’s kind of dawning on her slowly that she might not have a chance w/ cody if hes still so adamantly crushing on gwen. so sierra is feeling Troubled. and she vents to her new friend courtney about it. courtney listens bc she does really appreciate that sierra made her feel heard so even though sierra sounds. crazy. she still feels obligated to return the favor. sierra is like man idk if cody loves me after all 😭😭 and she rants on and on abt how ohhh cody is still crazy over gwen and he doesnt really pay attention to her and hes been trying to vote her off etc etc. which makes courtney kinda empathize with sierra (which is a strange thing to her granted the fact that she previously wrote sierra off as being Fucking Crazy) since in a way courtney is kinda in the same situation with her whole feelings abt sierra. sierra is still obsessing over cody. you see the parallel. anyways courtney does kinda feel bad for sierra so she comforts her and shes like yeah gwen really does suck (she’s probably also like “we should shove her off the plane” or something) but maybe its just time for you to let go of cody. and in courtneys mind she also telling herself “i need to get over whatever the hell im feeling for sierra this is Weird and Bad” or whatever. anyways sierra agrees and shes like ok 🤗 we are friends now. courtneys like sure whatever.

then sierra (with courtney’s encouragement) starts to let go of her obsession w cody which is great BUT she starts fixating on courtney in the process. her tendency to idolize people starts to come back up when courtney is helping her get over cody and everything. sierra is thinking Wow courtney is sooo nice and sweet omg,, and i relate to her sooo much like we feel the same way abt gwen and everything,,, (and also the autism symptoms but i dont think sierra would consciously pick up on that. she just notices the little things like them both having sensory issues [which isnt canon but in my head it is. ok.]) so now sierra has a weird obsessive borderline crush on courtney. kinda like how she was with cody but less extreme since sierra actually recognizes courtney as a person to a degree since shes had a chance to actually interact with courtney face to face and get to know her personally instead of by stalking her. rather than being really invasive towarss courtney she just Really wants to be around her and she’ll agree w/ anything courtney says/does even if it doesn’t align with her own thoughts. anyways back to courtney. courtney is still realllly fixating on how badly she wants gwen voted off (imagine all this goes down before picnic @ hanging dork. that or gwen is still here after that episode for whatever reason. idk. Gwen is here okay. the episode timeline doesnt matter) and sierra is kinda encouraging this by validating all her weird violent thoughts abt gwen. courtney gets her idea to start throwing challenges and sierra helps her w/ it (sierra probably doesn’t agree w throwing challenges but she also. fucking hates gwen AND shes inclined to agree with courtney sooo). they bond more over trying to get gwen eliminated (throwing challenges + trying to get heather to vote w them) and courtney starts to think of sierra more and more fondly. she sorta enjoys the attention she gets from sierra (even though it is Not Good) bc yk. people tend to not really like her. and again she is Extremely Vulnerable rn. and she starts feeling okay with putting her trust in sierra even though when she did that with gwen the trust got broken, bc sierra helping courtney get gwen eliminated and really clearly disliking gwen for what she did kinda shows courtney that sierra and gwen are Very Different and sierra wouldn’t betray her. so courtney’s weird crush feelings start picking up more but since she trusts sierra shes less violently opposed to it. still not a fan but she doesnt hate the idea. right. so sierra is like officially detached from cody and fixated on courtney atp. for whatever reason she thinks its a good idea to tell courtney she has feelings for her which freaks courtney tf out bc a) shes kinda oblivious and didnt realize sierra liked her in that way b) courtney is still Conflicted about her relationship w sierra and c) she just got out of a several month long relationship. Uh oh. but given that courtney isnt completely against letting herself like sierra, shes pretty close w her now, and shes really enjoying the attention she gets from sierra, in addition to the fact that she thinks getting in a relationship would make duncan jealous which she wants to do, toxic yuri wins and courterra is real ❤️

from there idfk how itd play out just know that they would break up quickly (it lasts like half a year at the absolute maximum..[this might seem like a long time but im a lesbian. 6 months is nothing to me when it comes to relationships]) violently and sorrowfully.

in conclusion: courterra. can anyone hear me.

#Help me im drowning in toxic yuri ahhh ahhhhhhhhh *fades away*#courterra #why did i just write so much about a random horribly unhealthy rarepair from a kids tv show? Well #please is anyone hearing me out on this ship please #this would work too as a platonic dynamic probably but alas i am plagued with yuri visions #someone talk to me about courterra i am losing my mind #being sick does crazy shit to ur brain man i never thought about them until the damned illness got me

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katnissgirlsmakedo · 8 months

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the thing of it is that nicholas galitzine is not necessarily Good at playing gay, because well at the end of it all you can tell he does it for attention. which i think is a feminist win but that’s neither here nor there. i mean that he has the like, vibe of a man who believes so deeply within his soul that he’s heterosexual so he thinks playing gay is fun because it’s Acting in a way that playing straight is not. bear with me, you’re about to get a glimpse of 2021 beth. and by that i mean i’m about to bring up pete davidson. actually maybe most of you should stop reading his post right now or possibly two sentences ago. anyway. what i mean to say is that he’s like if pete davidson was like. talented. if pete davidson could act and sing he’d be doing everything nicholas galitzine is doing, but he can’t so he’s doing mid comedy and like so much weed. god bless america. basically pete davidson is so deep in method acting as a straight man he doesn’t even know he’s performing. i don’t mean to suggest that he’s secretly gay i’m just saying if you analyze his behavior you can like. see within him where the staten island ideal of heteronormative masculinity took root inside his soul. you know. basically you can tell that his whole life is a performance and he thinks he’s winning but he’s not because he will never be happy until he can deconstruct the roles gender and sexuality have played in his endless quest to find acceptance. he needs a lesbian friend so bad and GOD i wish that were me. i had a point. hold on. so like. i don’t know shit about nicholas galitzine as a person but i’ve been looking at the man on various screens for months and there is something about the way he moves and the way he says certain things, especially while he’s playing gay, that gives pete davidson to me. so i’ve taken that similarity and extrapolated from it that he almost definitely has similar issues. i don’t think a lesbian friend would fix him though i think whatever his deal is is unfixable and we should probably put him down in a few years before he does anything crazy like date a kardashian or star in a biopic or something idk. my point was basically going to be that i think. actually i forgot my point. oh yeah i think he loves playing gay for attention but he’s not super good at it because he still has the last sliver of internalized homophobia you can’t knock out of a man until he tries gay sex or talks to a lesbian once or has a daughter who’s in middle school. it’s complicated. don’t argue with me about his ability to play gay i think i know more about the subject than you ok i watched the craft legacy i was there. ok i was half there i don’t truly remember that movie. but i remember the vibe ok i was there. basically. WHAT was i talking about. i love stream of consciousness posting i’ve been writing this post for like 20 minutes probably. basically it’s crazytown that this movie is being sold as a gay romcom but they don’t even make out sloppy it’s like what’s the point if we aren’t getting a little nasty. a little freaky. casey wouldn’t approve of this. ok well. casey did approve of this i’m pretty sure they’re a producer but they didn’t write the movie and i believe in my soul that if they had been more involved in this process there would have been freak shit happening. i’m reading this book ok i know henry is slipping alex so much tongue and it was NOT translated onscreen!! and i’ve chosen to blame that british man and also matthew because he has ras syndrome. which is when you’re gay and in charge of a movie or show and you’re fucking obsessed with the hot straight man who’s playing your gay little character that you like so bad. ras is not the first to do it but he is by far one of the worst offenders i’ve ever seen like goddamn can we free kj apa from his clutches. i forgot the point again. basically. i think if nicholas took a break from playing gay in movies and tried gay sex he would become better at playing gay in movies. or he would stop entirely. idk

#‘oh but who’s to say he HASN’T tried gay sex?’ i am. i’m saying it #he moves like pete davidson i can’t really explain it further dude just trust me #beth.txt

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the1975attheirverybest · 9 months

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https://twitter.com/MercuryJax/status/1682468577310576640?s=20

so i saw this thread on twitter and at first I got it but I'm a bit confused because while matty speaking up might make restrictions tighter surely that means no one is then allowed to say anything about what is going on therefore only leaving the very people who will get hurt to do the work??? and as much as the band have ultimately got out scott free they were not at no risk? like there was still a chance of imprisonment or violence? and I swear I saw someone mention how international awareness often helps push for change in these types of circumstances? and if he were to be an ally in the traditional sense by uplifting the voices of those in Malaysia is he not directly putting those people at risk? but I don't want to be like "you should be grateful he tried his best" but blaming him for speaking up seems counterproductive when the issue is the government?

also what you said earlier is so so so sweet genuinely 🥺 - 🐸

Yeah, I mean, like I said to the anon before, there was no damage-free option here. But I think the least acceptable option to the band would’ve been to say nothing at all. Like in no world was the 1975 going to perform in a homophobic country, take the money, do and say nothing, and walk away.

Also, like I said yesterday, if we only ever made acts of resistance when outcomes were 100% favorable (like nobody getting hurt, the band not getting blamed, no risk for any involved, etc) then nobody would ever do anything. But that’s not how the world works. Sure, as leftists or progressives, ideally, we would love for the band to have said what they said, and for the people of Malaysia to have been 100% exempt from any consequences, and then for the government to have said “ah yes we have now realized that we are oppressive and it’s bad and wrong and we shall change. Thanks Matty Healy, we truly needed you to knock some sense into us.” But that’s impossible and that wasn’t even the point of the whole thing.

Yeah, sometimes extraordinary circumstances like this do bring in international attention. Like, I can only speak on the U.S. but sometimes, a country will be struggling with health issues or with war or with systemic discrimination for agessss. And the US will be aware. And do nothing. Until just by accident, an American who happens to be visiting the country, ends up being caught up in whatever struggle or issue the country has, and then SUDDENLY! All the white people are horrified and up in arms about it. It’s a sad truth but it is how the world works. Cuz of white supremacy. So, yeah, Matty and Ross being dragged into the conversation has probably made it reach the eyes and ears of others who wouldn’t have cared.

I mean, all the people in my ask box degrading Matty right now, where were y’all all these years when Malaysians were being oppressed well before the 1975 even went there?

So, I guess what I’m saying is that the situation is probably somewhere in the middle of those two seemingly opposing possibilities. There’s likely some truth to both kinds of responses. But I think it wasn’t the intention behind this wasn’t to like fix homophobia once and for all. So it not being perfect means it’s fallen short. No. They never claimed to be politicians. Let alone Malaysian politicians. They saw an injustice. A group of people who are not as able to speak up for themselves. And they decided to do their part. It’s a STEP in the direction of having the conversation. But there’s still a lot to be done.

#🐸anon

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crazykuroneko · 10 months

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fyi most of the time its the actor who chooses what category to submit at the emmys. for example brian cox chose to be in lead even though his character dies early on this season but he insisted. there's 3 lead actor submissions from succession alone and they probably will all get nominated.

so i'm pretty sure sam himself chose to be in supporting so as to let jacob have the lead while he still has the chance. tbh this feels like a strong sign that they are probably not going to be equal co-leads going forward but rather swap lead/supporting. also im sorry but where the hell are louis's storylines going to come from?? they don't exist in the books after iwtv. are they gonna get rid of all of lestat's plots in the books and re-write the whole thing? cause even if you try to stick louis in those plots he'll be supporting at best. i feel like there's a lot of unrealistic expectations re: how they can adapt these books and keep louis a main character... they literally can't. they'd have to throw most of it out.

as for the audience for the show well honestly i think the fact that their own podcast host (who they obviously chose cause she has a background in stuff relevant in the story) isn't into the central romance is not a good sign.

"where the hell are the louis' storylines come from?" this is why it's called adaptation! this is why Rolin threw a lot of things on show Louis; on top of the Catholic guilt and internalized homophobia, they threw in the racial dynamic, they threw in Louis being more active in damning Claudia, they threw in whatever the heck made Louis still staying with Claudia's killer until know, they threw in the '70s interview. They did all of that so they could build something original for Louis for the seasons forward (Rolin said it in their podcast!).

This is why I keep saying "let's wait for S2" because S1 doesn't tell you anything about how or in what way they'll adapt the seasons after that. Adapting IWTV until QoTD beat by beat chronologically is still feasible I guess, but later books?? How the hell will they adapt Memnoch? Idek. Especially if the theory that the modern Dubai is on Merrick timeline/adjacent is true, it means they're mix-matching the books' plot points and timeline. And they have fucked the timeline already anyway 🤷‍♀️

Building a whole arc for Louis will be their biggest challenge, but we're talking about writers and playwrights who have years and years of experience creating original stories. And so far, the new things they have been doing for Louis as a character has been extremely good.

#moi.txt #the show is doing their own thing despite still respecting the books' points #it's very possible!

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Caustic for "send me a character" 👀

omg hiiii Mar :]

(you already know this is gonna be long lol)

First impression: okay to be honest, I kind of was neutral towards him. I just thought of him as some random old guy 💀

Impression now: now i am obsessed with him. I haven't talked about him recently, but i still luv him. He has so many problems and his superiority complex is kinda funny ngl. like yes, Alexander Maxwell Nox, we get it, you're like super smart or whatever. doesn't change the fact that you take yourself too seriously for your own good. also i think he is very attractive,,, i mean he's got dilf energy sdjsjdjsjdsd

he's tall and chunky and has a beard and has a nice voice (coughs included) like,,, UGH he has no reason 2 be that attractive.

and his voicelines oh My GOD,,,, he can literally use me for any of his silly little science experiments idc 😩

Favorite moment: hmmm, i found it SUPER funny when pathfinder caught him on his murder spree,,, he literally yeets himself outta there like:

(i tried 2 find a gif but you know what part i'm talking about)

this situation is also funny because caustic was like "give me humans 2 test my dangerous chemicals on" and his boss was like "no lol" and caustic got so butt hurt that he chose to manslaughter everyone in that facility lmao. like??? that's NOT how you deal with situations sir, but go off ig.

another favorite moment is when he told the apex organizers that he'd take care of the oil spill problem in the water on king's canyon but just,,, Lied(tm) about it. he got this whole facility and just started making gas??? he just goes off and does his own thing with regard to literally no one.

ohhhh, also that one time when he wanted to gas the entirety of solace city. like i have NO idea what was going on in that man's mind but wattson came over and knocked some sense into him (she literally just shocked him lmao). i think if he were to get shocked everytime he did something Not Good, then he'd turn out fine. give that man a shock collar/j

also, i found this comment when looking back at the secret message thingy:

-I have a plan

-My plan is to gas Solace city

-THE END

like???? JSDJSJDS that's literally it.

Idea for a story: i literally just want to see him and crypto become brothers. that is all i ask for. literally that's it. but he is just SO stubborn.

Another story idea is something to do with him and his mom. like,,, i would like to see more of what they're relationship is really like. I'm not saying that Mystik was a bad mom or anything, but I have a feeling that something happened between the two that caused some sort of falling out.

Unpopular opinion: the fact that,,, that i,, i find him handsome 0_0

(at least i don't think a lot of people like him in that way???)

Favorite relationship: hmmmm, tbh i have NO clue. i had hope for him when he was starting to become friends with wattson, but in true caustic fashion he messed that up for no good reason. and in all honesty? he 100% deserved that.

lol can i say him and crypto??? like they are SO mean to each other. again, for no good reason. bet, one day caustic is gonna learn korean just to spite crypto and to figure out all of the mean things crypto has been saying about him.

Favorite headcanon: hmmmm,,,

i like the headcanon that he is bi,,, but like he literally is just barely figuring this out

Caustic: "Hmmm, it appears that finding men attractive and admiring their features is not a common occurrence amongst other men. I shall study this phenomenon further..."

he is oblivious but also he's in denial maybe he even has some internalized homophobia idk

hmmm, he's lying when he says that he doesn't get lonely. he says he's too smart to be around anyone else but i think he uses that as an excuse. like sir, you need friends...

another hc is that he likes cooking and is actually pretty good at it! He often doesn't do it because it's a "waste of time". but also because he doesn't have anyone to cook for and he gets a bit sad when he sets the table for just himself

he also likes to look at art, specifically paintings. on very rare occasions, he allows himself a break from his lab to go to an art gallery or museum. there, he'll spend hours just analyzing the art pieces.

he's a cat person. he'll probably never keep one as a pet as he doesn't see the point in that. but he will admit that they are not as bad as most other animals.

okay one more- he often overthinks things. This isn't out of anxiety or anything like that. That's just the way he's accustomed to analyzing the world around him. He has to consider each and every variable (lol) and thoroughly evaluate anything and everything. that's just how his brain works

#asks #long post #i feel like i didn't write enough DSJDJSJDSD #i miss caustic where is he??? i gotta know what he's been up to #(probably up to no good if we're being real here)#anyways thanks for the ask Mar ^^#i appreciate it <3

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