#i miss him a lot and ive been meaning to draw something like this for almost a year now but it just never felt right

[spiderziege]

once upon a time, there was a player

#statue is based on the statue in the hypixel post about technos memorial #background is based on the farming area in the hypixel lobby - i just took a lot of creative liberties #technoblade #my art #i miss him a lot and ive been meaning to draw something like this for almost a year now but it just never felt right #happy birthday‚ technoblade‚ and thank you

[dizzybizz]

hai here is a sketch dump with too many fandoms :) sorry about the ungodly amount of men here i have been going through it and by it i mean gay

ok wait i ran out of tags??? it wont let me tag them all😭😭😭 im gonna have to be sparing with them uhh i guess i will have to ramble under the cut then cus i like rambling in my tags but i cant with this one 😭

(ok im back from the ramble: it is way too long.... proceed forward if you want to see some guy just absolutely talk nonsense for entirely too long)

no cus i swear i have tried tagging more stuff than this before and never hit the limit but whatever

hello i really use this like a fkn blog huh

i just wanted to provide some thoughts on the harper and rosé one first bc its important to me 😌 cus i was thinking abt harper and how in my head and heart of hearts she would be the kid who thought you get pregnant from kissing and i dont think she ever really grew out of that belief. <- this ended up spawning the idea of harper being a sex-repulsed ace and i will die on this hill actually. fight me or die, you die either way actually nvm

this is just a buncha blorbos i dont know what to tell you really. sketch pages like these always end up so weird for me bc for some reason my brain always wants the characters in them to interact in some way. whether that be talking or just reacting to what the other is doing... its something i cant stop with, its so stupid and silly and i hate it and i love it. where else would i see kabru slowly losing his mind with how loud phoenix wright is in court????

I THOUGHT I HAD GOTTEN OFF THE RAILS WITH THAT BUT THEN THE NEXT PAGE HAPPENED. and all i could do was laugh and ask "what the fuck am i drawing??? HOW DID WE GET HERE? WHY IS THISTLE HERE WITH LEOPIKA HELP" LIKE that page started with the big leopika and then i was like "man i miss thistle lemme draw him real quick" but the curse struck and now hes being homophobic so </3

i rlly like how the nic(k) page turned out ... i just have a lot of nicks i like drawing idk.. the lil guy is an oc,,, one day his ref sheet will be finished and itll be awesome but not for now, sorry baby, no can do. im weirdly happy with how the hands turned out for all of them tho?? so thats a W

yotasuke, murai, nick (youll never know which one im referring to. .. jkjk its hoult i love the pose there ehehhe), nic and the entire last page r my favs. i like em all but those rlly get me yknow- the olly too ofc but ive already posted him, dont mind him being here, hes part of the set. AND OVER ALL IVE BEEN HAVING SO FUN WITH SHADING BLACK AND JUST LEAVING SPOTS BLANK ITS SO ?`????

WHY IS THIS SO LONG PLS DONT READ ALL THIS THIS IS STRAIGHT UP EMBARRASSING AGHSDFGSDHJSGD im all like "yeah i dont like talking about myself or whatever" but as soon as i get to my process or blorbos or smth the floodgates fucking break open, not even burst man.

also dont mind how i havent even acknowledged pingas twink pokemon counterpart. hes just here for shits and giggles i dont know the guy like at all, i watched a handful of eps of horizons and that was it RIP

#blue period #yotasuke takahashi #yakumo murai #tiger and bunny #kotetsu t. kaburagi #yu yu hakusho #hiei #kurama #drawtectives #harperosé #witch hat atelier #arkco #olruggio #brushbug #trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #all saints street #nick hoult #bna pinga #dungeon meshi #kabru #ace attorney #phoenix wright #thistle #hunter x hunter #leorio paladiknight #kurapika kurta #leopika #my art #doodle

[syrupfog]

The first time Penguin sees him, it’s in the auction house at Sabaody, standing on the opposite side of the room. He’s hard to miss; tall and imposing, a mess of blond hair and a LOUD polka dot shirt. 

He leans over to Shachi. “Does this boiler suit make me look cool?”

Shachi smacks him upside the head. “No,” he says. “Stop making eyes at the enemy.” 

“He can’t even SEE my eyes,” Penguin sulks.

The second time Penguin sees him, it’s in Wano. And it’s, like, a whole thing. There’s a lot going on, and Penguin’s a bit BUSY, honestly, he’s got some other things to deal with. 

But he notices that the guy’s, like, seriously bulked up. It would be hard not to notice, really.

Penguin flexes his own muscles. He can’t see much of any change. Especially under the boiler suit. 

Shachi squints at him. “What’s wrong with you?” He asks. 

Penguin smacks him. “Shut up,” he says. “And give me those binoculars back.”

The THIRD time Penguin sees him, things are a bit different. 

And by a bit different, he means “SHIT SHIT SHIT FUCK SHIT WHERE DID BEPO GO? SHACHI— FUCK WHERE IS SHACHI—“ 

It’s HOT on this island, boiler suit stripped down and tied around his waist and Penguin is still sweating buckets as he runs down alleys and side streets with the sun beating down on his back. There’s only about twelve people running behind him, yelling angry-sounding things that Penguin doesn’t bother deciphering because WHERE THE FUCK IS EVERYONE?

The bundle in his arms isn’t helping the heat stroke quickly approaching either. He’s gonna need Law to give him a rehydrating IV or something after this and then he’s going to be in trouble for wasting resources. 

Racing around a corner leads him to a crowded market street — a good sign, maybe he can get lost between the stalls. Or maybe not— the angry mob behind him seems to be gaining and they’re yelling honestly very rude things. WHERE the FUCK are his CREW— 

That’s when he sees him. HOW they ended up on the same island is a mystery, but—

“Hey! Oi!” Penguin yells, making a beeline straight for him. 

Killer, of the Kid pirates, is at a stall perusing mangos. He looks up, blue and white stripes zeroing in on Penguin. GOD the guy has some wide shoulders. 

“Yeah, you!!” Penguin yells. “Offense or Defence??”

“Uhhhhhhh,” Killer says, tilting his head. Very calm for a guy who MUST see the mob behind Penguin. “Depends on the game.” 

“Now!!” Penguin shouts, getting within throwing distance. He can practically SEE the question marks popping above Killer’s head. 

“…Defense?”

“Then CATCH” 

Penguin throws the bundle at him and turns on a heel, skidding into place mere feet in front of Killer and facing down the approaching mob. He sticks his hands deep into the pockets of the boiler suit and draws out two brass knuckles, because god these outfits are NOT good for hiding larger weapons in. 

“Uhhhhh,” says Killer behind him, voice echoey under the helmet. “Maybe I should be offence, actually.” 

“TOO LATE,” Penguin yells, charging toward the mob that has been quickly thrown into confusion now that their target has turned around.

Honestly, there’s not even any burning pitchforks or anything. It’s just a dozen or so citizens with sticks up their asses (and in their hands), and Penguin, well, he’s had to fight Clione for the last ice cream bar. 

He comes away with one nasty scrape to the cheek and a bunch of blood splatters on his outfit that Law will enjoy testing for STDs. When he finally shoves the brass knuckles back in his pockets, he turns around to find Killer still standing in front of the mango stall (although the seller has long since run for it)

And the bundle squirming around in his hands. 

“You good?” Killer asks. 

“Are you holding her upside down?” Penguin asks. 

Killer looks down at the bundle in his arms. He flips it over, and the squirming stops. A head pops out. A small child with an unnervingly large mouth full of triangular teeth, and a head of shockingly blond hair in two messy tails, is looking bright eyed at Penguin. 

Penguin gives the small child a thumbs up. 

She giggles, showing off her many unnerving teeth. There’s a second set behind the first.

“So,” says Killer, conversationally. “She yours?” 

“Oh god no,” Penguin says. “Found her chowing down on some offering to a local god and the townspeople were getting all angry at her.” He walks over, picking up a mango and holding it up to her. She neatly bites through half.

“Cool,” says Killer. 

“You got parents, kid?” Penguin asks. 

The small child shakes her head, mango juice dripping from her mouth. 

Penguin frowns. “Family?” 

The small child shakes her head again. She doesn’t seem sad. She probably didn’t know them.

“Aww,” says Killer. Penguin looks up at him. He’s oddly expressive for a man in a helmet. 

A chill runs up his spine, though, and he turns away, recognizing the feeling of conquerors haki. Sure enough, the captain of the Kid pirates is walking through the center of the now deserted market street. 

“Killer!” He yells, stalking over to them and ignoring Penguin entirely. That’s fair. Penguin likes it that way. “What’d you fucking do??” 

Killer tilts his head. With both hands he holds up the fishchild. “Got a baby,” he says brightly.

Kid blinks at the child. “What the fuck,” he says. 

Killer lowers the child and then points with one hand at Penguin. “His baby,” he says. 

“Well,” Penguin hedges. 

“What the fuck,” says Kid.

“I’m keeping it,” says Killer. 

“Her,” says Penguin. 

“That makes you a grandpa,” says Killer. 

“FUCK no it doesn’t,” shouts Kid. 

The child laughs. 

“You can’t have a BABY with the ENEMY,” Kid yells. 

“Well,” says Penguin. 

“You can’t tell me what to do, Mom.”

“Fuck you,” spits Kid. 

“She has her father’s eyes,” says Killer. 

Penguin’s not sure which of them is supposed to be the father. 

“My hair, though.” 

Ah, Penguin is the father. 

“We’ll have to work out custody agreements,” Killer continues. 

“I’d like a date first,” Penguin says

Honestly it’s fitting that that’s the first full sentence he gets out, somehow. 

“You can’t date my second in command!” Kid yells. 

“I mean, we have a kid together,” Killer points out. “You’re a bit late.” 

Penguin is halfway to a genius response of some kind when he sees  blue light wash over them. It’s all he can do to mime “call me” at Killer before he’s shambled back to the ship. 

“You’re late,” Law tells him. 

“I’m an unwed mother now I think,” Penguin says. 

Law sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. “I don’t want to know.

#kilguin #kilpen #penguin one piece #killer one piece #my writing

[kaihuntrr]

If I had a nickel every time my sea prince au designs or ideas were predicted into actual skins and the like, I’d have three nickels, which isn’t a lot but that sure is an interesting coincidence!

I mean, I predicted (accidentally) that Scott would have ginger hair (both in New Life and in Pirates SMP) along with him having heterochromia of orange and blue in New Life! I am IMPRESSED!

Also Martyn being a pirate with scars. I am. I am so interested to what happened to him but I can GLOAT about predicting this-

I’m super excited to what Pirates SMP will give, I’ll definitely have the time to draw their designs together, I just have to at this point!

Here are the designs in case you were curious, I’ll talk about the state of the fic and the future of it after >:)

Alright, fic status!

To celebrate this AU existing for a few months now (starting April) I’ll talk about how it’s going and all that jazz >:D

Currently I’m slowly recovering from my artist’s block and my writer’s block, the announcement of Pirates SMP really is starting something back up again! The fic so far is being written as a summary, the lovely @mewhoismyself is helping me out!

The summary is at 44.6k words. Acts I, II, and III have been completed with IV a fourth done, and Act V is loosely scripted! There will be a LOT going on but I can assure you, you will not want to miss this.

In general, the fic centers around Martyn and Scott’s dynamic as they learn more about each other and the consequences that follow from their feelings. As someone who loves to rewatch the Life Series tho, I’d love to work in the other previous groups and dynamics; I know Scott and Pearl will have an interesting development along with Martyn and Ren.

I gotta be pretty vague about things but I’m excited to share more about these guys!

#the sea prince au #limited life #limited life smp #life smp #life series #trafficblr #traffic life smp #scott smajor #smajor1995 #dangthatsalongname #pirates smp #martyn inthelittlewood #martyn itlw #inthelittlewood #majorwood #mean gills

[thebatbites]

MORE random hcs that will potentially appear in my rewrite

not all of them are headcanons, some of them are lore drops that i decided to throw in for funsies

ive had this sitting in my drafts for so long

[ link to my last hcs post in case ya missed it ]

aphmau is obsessed with dating sims (this was inspired by me discovering blooming panic)

aphmau is a compulsive doodler. to the point where she keeps a little notepad in her bag so she doesnt draw on her hands

laurence is visually impaired/going blind

travis, garroth, and katelyn have all gotten their tongues stuck to frozen lightpoles in their lifetime

dante & travis are childhood friends and travis had a crush on dante in highschool

katelyn and lucinda met in middle school and have had a weird love/hate relationship since

cadenza, kiki, and zoey live in a neighborhood close to the main cast

nana goes by [kandi/honey/sugar] not kawaii chan (there was no way i was keeping that stupid nickname. havent picked which nickname shed go by)

aphmau loves dating sims and got katelyn and nana hooked on them too

nana is actually a magicks user just like in mcd

she uses her little maids to do her chores around the house (katelyn and aphmau hate her for it)

aphmau had a fnaf hyperfixation and infected the entire group with it

aside from nana, who hates anything even remotely spooky

during halloween on mystreet, aaron has dressed up as ghostface

everyone lost their minds

aside from aphmau and katelyn, who laughed at everyone losing their minds

nana actually has an intense fear of relationships which is why she obsesses over other people's relationships because she romanticizes them in her head

garroth, despite also being of the fruity variety, is the friend who buys anything rainbow and gives it to his gay friends

laurence has been and will continuously be the main victim of this

garroth also has no idea what a lot of the flags mean despite everyone reminding him

katelyn has bpd

and he frequently wears crop tops to show it off too

travis is a lil sleepy guy. if hes not doing something important, you can and often will find him curled up snzzing

and we love him for it

aaron is the friend that carries around shit for his friends

specific stim toys for specific people (chewables and clicky keyboards for aphmau, a puzzle ball for zane, soft weighted plushies for nana)

hes got a man purse /hj

aphmau has two long, jagged, faded lines on her back that she was born with. they look like were once deep scars

but theyve never went away and only seemed to have gotten bigger??

while not a big practicer of the craft, travis seems to be really good with witchcraft and magicks

no one knows what his magicks is though because both lucinda and nana have said it feels off

aphmau used to scare zane in a weird way. which is why (aside from just hating everyone and everything) he avoided her for so long before they got close

that fear is gone though

...mostly

travis has dressed up as spiderman for several halloweens in a row

aphmau and zane have gotten hyperfixated on beetlejuice together and dressed up as bj and lydia for halloween and cons

not at all inspired by myself and my best friend wdym

okay this hc list is even longer. i was supposed to be writing but i ended up... not doing that.

anyway thats enough for today!! sorry for my absence im focused on actually pushing out the fucking rewrite instead of just yapping about it

#aphmau #mystreet #aphmau mystreet #aphverse #aphblr #aphblur #aphmau shalashaska #laurance zvahl #travis valkrum #zane romeave #nana ashida #katelyn aphmau #aaron lycan #garroth ro'meave #zane ro'meave #aphmau dante #rise of the phoenix #rotp

[cabinetduo]

ctubbo characterization master post

Ok so I was thinking abt ctubbo and characterization and how a lot of the fandom doesn't rlly have a solid grip on him (no shade its not on here mainly) whether it's bcs of lack of interest or exaggeration and like fandom lense or whatever (he tends to kinda get fucked ovr in ensemble fics) and then I thought well we talk abt scary nuke violence tubbo vs uwu beeboy or whatever but I was thinking there's definitely more to it then that bcs sometimes when I'm writing even I'm super insecure abt my portrayl of ctubbo so ig this post is kind of like a breakdown using some of my fav ctubbo things for me that could b useful 4 others as well

(This might b a little unorganized and like unprofessional-!!i will misspell and abbreviate a lot srry!!-but it's tumblr so who cares just don't expect too much cohesiveness I am writing this to get my thoughts out mostly

[DISCLAIMER!! most of this is my personal interpretation of ctubbo seeing as that's what ctubbo is mostly, what u interpret him as, but also its a bunch of notes and common traits that I got from awesome ctubbo fans and I'm mainly making it 2 help me :) < I'm not linking canon examples and evidence bcs I'm lazy and fuck that alsooo I'll mainly b focusing on ctubbo individually and not his relationships and such

ctubbos humor

I'm gnna start w ctubbos humor and irony and that kinda stuff. So like w ctubbo and characterization a lot of times ppl will take traits or speaking habits from the streamer and apply them to the character which is common in the general mcyt fandom but w ctubbo it's esp common bcs of cctubbos whole "ctubbo is just me but if I was put into certain situations" which we've kinda moved past seeing as that thought process worked better in the earlier seasons before ctubbo was morw cctubbo and less a result of his circumstances, his experiences, and ctubblings drawing lines between things << this isn't my main focus rn tho there is a huge distinction between cc and ctubbo

To get to the point ctubbo is a pretty serious dude but also he's not, there's a fun middle ground that I like where ctubbos humor has definitely become darker as he's aged bcs of his circumstances. One of the best examples I can thing of is this line from elegy in eleven bars by ssootsprite

^^this definitely portrays ctubbos humor well imo, the dark irony and humor that often stems from taht fact that ctubbo will sometimes jsut do what he finds funny but usually those take form on a smaller scale if we want an actual cohesive character

ctubbo swiss army knife

Ive made a handful of posts abt this but one bit abt ctubbo that is often missed is the fact that he's been dehumanized throughout his story which led to him internalizing it not seeing himself as a person entirely, more like a tool for others or a means to an end. I love love dsmp au fics but something some of them miss out on is ctubbos urge to serve others which stems into two branches that I call safety and self

When in a dangerous situation or around someone that he's deemed dangerous ctubbo will instinctively shift to politeness and servitude occasionally its his follower instinct<<this is bcs of manburg specifically cschlatt though it was really instilled to him by cdream after the whitehouse fight (where he called him a follower) and the disc saga finale (called him a sidekick). This happens sometimes in canon but enough times for it to be a full blown like, thing my fav explanation of this is augustus evergreen by thatweirdguyinthebushes on ao3

The second facet "self" is more deep, it's ctubbos actual beliefs, that he's not worth anything if he's not doing something or his tendency to work as a means of avoiding emotion. He doesn't see himself as a person or a child, often forcing himself into the roll of an adult to meet a goal of serving others (his nlm presidency) < this also comes from Manburg but can also be tied to my fav quote "a good kid and a better spy" (not gnna go too into ctubbos spy mentality bcs that's a whole other essay LOL) after being repeatedly handed jobs that are not meant for kids, responsibities much larger than him, he internalized all of it and tied it to his self worth and how he sees himself

Fav FAVVVV example is this poem and art

by @/yellogazello which gets the point across by whacking u ovr the head w emotion and some ctubbo aesthetics that rlly do well 4 his character -> also I made 2 web weaves on all ^^^this if ur interested also I've got a bunch of analysis on it in #smpanalysis bcs it's my fave ctubbo is kind of naturally a follower but this isn't always a complete negative (see: the way he comfortably follows Tommy or the way he and Tommy willingly followed Wilbur- it isn't always an 100% bad thing but over the course of his life it's kind of been tainted

ctubbo logic brain

Tubbo "logic braining" something =/= him thinking logically it's him and his fucked up process that filters things through his weird logic that would make any stable person worried, his brain does flips to rationalize his own and others thought processes to make them make sense to him, it's the same kind of thinking that is responsible for his "safe people" its the same kind of thinking that makes him blame himself for things that were clearly out of his control. While ctubbo is often seen as a more "brain lead" character, most, hell, all of his core motivations are emotional >> the need to protect his loved ones, his people, the innocent, to live upto expectations, and so on. This ties into his protective sort of paranoid nature that he displays toward his loved ones that is sometimes misconstrued as controlling

A lot of ^^^^^ this can be tied to ctubbos relationship w attachments and belongings which is one of the dsmps overall themes, ctubbos logic being that attachment is irrational and only leads to being hurt but forming attachments and getting hurt against his better judgment

ctubbo and the nukes

One thing that is often lost in surface level depictions of ctubbo is the nuke plot. This is often used to characterize ctubbo as violent or immoral (which I won't deny he can be at times) but one key detail about ctubbos nukes is that they were always a last resort, no matter what he threatened or said he never ever wanted to use them, constantly emphasizing how crazy it was that he had access to so much power and how terrified he was of misusing it in the missing nuke stream w jack. ctubbo has always always been a peaceseeking character. Like w most things abt ctubbo there's a nice middle ground, though tubbo leans less towards chaotic and more towards solemn, esp when at an emotional low

The nukes hold a lot of symbolism for ctubbo and are often presented as an antithesis to the bee symbolism used for him > the nukes being him becoming more violent and straying from what is deemed moral as a defense mechanism, becoming worse than your enemies (stay soft by mitski etc) and the bees representing his innocence and the loss of it (a common theme w ctubbo and on the dsmp in general) tying to the more nature-y imagery that become professional/political in late s1 & 2 which then became technologybased and cold in s3 & 4

ctubbos emotional intelligence

Another thing that a lot of people miss about ctubbo is that he has very veryy little emotional intelligence. Post-Michael kidnapping and arguably pre-Michael kidnapping there was this (mildly popular) notion that ctubbo was together emotionally to the point where there were a lot of misunderstandings surrounding his actions but the thing is he isn't. When it comes to himself ctubbo is aware that he is effected by his trauma (he will often make references to it) but he never does anything about it, he views it as irritational and tends to compartmentalize and repress his emotions which often leads to him hurting himself and others. ctubbos responses to emotion range from pure apathy to overwhelming him to the point of tears (which we've seen once w the anniversary stream) He's also not very good with recognizing the emotions of others, while he is good at reading people and their intentions (mainly people he has close relationships with) he is generally extremely blunt sometimes to the point of hurting other people's feelings on accident which he usually apologizes for immediately afterwards. In fact, ctubbos bluntness and politeness are a fun contrast to experiment with if you're interested

With all of ^^^this stuff dissonance by shrugofgod does a rlly good job of this I'm just putting a small snippet but the entire fic is incredible w sm details and ctubbo intricacies it's so good

ctubbo survival and tragedy

ctubbo has survived a lot especially in comparison to other characters he is close to << that was badly worded, what I mean is a lot of the people in ctubbos life have died/were dead/are dead and he just isn't. Tragedy is a large part of ctubbo, if something is going right for him it will inevitably go wrong, things like stability don't exist for him, he doesn't trust it and why should he? His paranoia has consistently been proven to be justified over and over again. Dramatic irony is such a huge part of him, he's experienced so much and has survived through so much but its like he can't die and he has to live everytime.

I made a webweave abt this that pust cqs firey survival next to ctubbos cold survival, I think i do a better job explaining in the notes of that

And this post which is the best thing I've ever posted is basically a bunch of super talent tubblings who've written poetry abt this topic (and other ctubbo stuff but mainly this) if u wnna check it out

Most of these things can be heavily elaborated on (nature of the dsmp is to have incredible fleshed out characters that feel human and awesome and that make u crazy) but this is kinda a summary and I have others posts that kind of do that I just wanted to put all this in one place

More stuff ⬇️

This post is a succinct and well put ctubbo explanation/summary and a fave

And this post is wondas god tier dsmp characterism breakdown that will save ur life if ur a writer

This post is a fic recs post that has a lot of epic awesome dsmp writers but a lot of them write ctubbo bcs I'm biased

And finally here's a link to tubbo3091<3333 which a roleplay blog that has the most perfect ctubbo characterization ever in the world

#c!tubbo #dsmp #smp analysis #death ment tw #ask 2 tag lemme know if i missed n e thing

[jirachialien]

(// mentions of wilbur soot , /neg rant )

probably not an awesome idea to rant publicly about it but. i saw moot talk about this and honestly i am really missing the community behind w*lbur/tnt/ccrime like that was where i thrived and i felt safe. which is so bad because i swear to GOD that was on purpose to lure in younger mentally unstable people into one place 😭😭😭 in no means am i saying i would like to go back to being oblivious though , ultimately im growing as a person as a result of this loss …..

to be completely frank ive always seperated c from cc but i think drawing him kind of icks me out a lot more than say, cdream or cschlatt, because i dont really care about either of those ccs. i did care a lot more about cw*lbur than the real one because i was more passionate about the C because. writing is a form of art and im passionate about the art of character development ! (yes i say that even when i had an album of all the pictures i had of him in my photo gallery which totaled to almost 2k until yeah. its bad i know 😭 yes im starting therapy soon) and ctntduo is a big factor because they are the most important out of all to me, i was very intrigued by them because of their dynamics, literally everything is ctnt to me……….. i guess it can become a cdiscduo situation?? but for now im disgusted by even thinking of c!w, i keep saying this but i can only give it time

im slowly moving closer to ctommy and cquackity and other fandoms like splatoon more now though and you will see a lot more of them, it’s embarrassing to dwell on something like this and i can acknowledge this isnt about me but at the same time i can understand why im having such a hard time with this shift in my mindset, and i am genuinely mourning and grieving for a part of me and my identity as an artist that is kind of tainted and basically gone. a lot of media and art is about to become/has become lost to time which is even sadder

all to say if i do eventually draw him again, which im not sure about, designs will be changed, just wont be using tags like “w*lbursootfanart”. dsmp has long been dead and the creators do not profit off of me drawing the characters (which frankly most of the time dont even look like the creators). 99% sure people outside the fandom will never go watch present day ccs because of their c!s and art of it. that’s qsmp’s job

anyways wilbur soot should jump and he WILL be facing karma for his actions 💗 i cant believe men like him have the guts to hurt the most kindhearted people without remorse

#kae randoms #kae rants

[i-just-wanna-write-fanfic]

Hello Ellie! Ive haven’t get seen a ppb (picture perfect boyfriend) fanfic yet and I’m kinda losing my mind over it lol. Could you write some fluff between Ashton (not reboot Ashton) and MC? Like they found a way to be together and they just do silly little romantic stuff? Nothing specific do whatever your heart desires! Add some head canons if you want to! I’d love to read them. <3

-💕

EEEEE!!!! AHHHH!! BEEN IN THE FANDOM 4VR AND I FELT THE SAME!! THANK U HEARTS ANNON!

NOTES/WARNINGS no notes :3 warnings for mentions of Yandere-ish behavior, I couldn't think of a plot, so made some silly headcanons for the silly guy :>

ASHTON X READER FLUFF HEADCANONS! >:3

damnn... THIS BOI SO HAPPI

Do you have any idea how much he loves that you just care enough to even try????

sometimes he still misses his friends and regrets his past behavior. this may result in tears. please comfort him!!

he wishes he could cuddle you so badly... but at least you're with him! that's all he really cares about right now!

any compliment you give him will be the only thing he thinks about for weeks! He has very low self-esteem, so means a lot!

He just loves, loves, loves cats! and if you do too.. he wouldn't mind talking with you for hours about them!

if you're an artist, please draw something for him! He'd be over the moon!

really anything you do out of love for him is something he will love for the rest of eternity!

he's so happy you're with him!!

sorry if it was a bit short!! but I do hope you liked it!

#ppb #picture perfect boyfriend #picture perfect boyfriend x reader #headcanon #dating headcanons #ppb headcanons

[frecklystars]

Yknow even if it was really hard I’m really proud of you for being able to draw Starscream after a while. Having Plankton be there as a bridge to doing it was a really smart move. I def think you’re making a lot of progress! :)

oh my god 😭😭😭😭 anon thank you. im a fucking mess rn but, ugh thank you so much. thank you. indeed it very very hard!!! and i feel stupid for having these reactions, i know its an anxiety disorder and i cant control it, but still. i feel so dumb when i have a meltdown or when i get triggered. but i think this is the first time since ive been traumatized that ive actually been able to make some vent art about it... getting that out of my brain and off my chest was a big relief. i used to make vent art all the time before i left and before everything happened. my feelings eat away at me if i don't draw it out, and i think a big part of me feeling like im not healing is bc for the longest time i didn't have any f/os to make vent art with. im hoping the vent art of stsc will eventually turn into fluffy ship art again, even if it takes a super long time im trying so hard to get there and i appreciate you recognizing that

what you said is very comforting. i like how you phrased that, using plankton as a bridge. it felt so so so so SO much easier to imagine starlight missing me if i used plankton as his place of focus, which would make him also my place of focus. maybe i cannot yet fully believe starscream looking at me and saying "i love you, you know that right?" but i can somewhat believe him turning to somebody else that i love just as intensely, and saying "i love her, she knows that, right?" it definitely felt less intimidating to approach it that way and im really touched that you took the time to notice this. i want to rewire my brain into believing that he's someone safe, that everyone in TF is safe. i don't want my fear to be permanent and it's so frustrating trying to conquer this, it's like running laps around the sun, feels impossible and exhausting

thank you for telling me that youre proud of me. im not good at being gentle on myself when my ptsd is triggered and this has been a really, really, really difficult week in regards to that... i mean it's been nonstop flashbacks all week and i dont know if/when my life is ever going to get back to normal. but if you think im making progress, and you believe it enough to take the time out of your day to tell me... then you must be seeing something that i cannot. so i will take your word for it. i am making progress. i appreciate you. i love you and wish good things for you ❤

#anonymous #asks #keepsake #ptsd

[hex82141a]

[artist ask game thingie]

3 and 5 ?

3. What are your favorite subjects to draw? (OCs, your fan faves, etc.)

i love drawing Niki Shiina lots and lots... also i have been terribly neglecting the daily tattsun blog due to some stuff but i am obsessed with old school anime girl art style Tatsumi (hair vents obligatory)... sketch him in my notebooks a lot...

5. What piece of art are you still proud of to this day? (Show or describe)

i have a big problem of being my own old art nunber one hater (old meaning... over a week since I've posted it? i can probably only think about the flaws i see in it / am dissatisfied with the work ive done bc i always miss something), which i try to work on. so while its a bit silly to qualify the piece i want to talk about under "this this day" since its like. november 2023 recent, the fact that i love it so much still is a big step for me :D the shinobun!! its very fun and bright and i tried doing something different for it so im still plenty happy with the result overall :3c it was one of my first attempts at a lucky star-type art style and i wouldn't call it an unsuccessful one, and ofc i love the Silly Outfits etc

^ this one

[miracleqmusical]

its been a whole since ive written anything.. hello

life has actually been getting really good. im glad the world didnt end last month.

i started talking with a friend a lot, then we started matching pfps and talking everyday and then i developed a crush on him. we would kinda flirt back and forth in a sorta joking way but then things kinda escalated HELP. we officially became a thing 1-4-24 :3. i enjoy every moment spent with them

so i guess thats me revealing that the guy i was incredibly head over heels for isnt the one. idk why i loved him so much. hes a piece of shit :/ hes already been shit talking me LMFAO. like werent you in love with me a few weeks ago? its whatever. im not focused on him anymore. im focused on L! i heart L

something bad happened on the 5th, my online friend group split up. i knew it was bound to happen, but it actually made me horribly sad. i miss them a lot and its only been a few days. days have been feeling like weeks. and worst of all, my best friends left while i was asleep, so i woke up to the group falling apart. they were my whole world, my roman empire. i was dependent and attached to them. but i mean, its not like my best friends left ME.. we’re still friends.. but its not really the same. our server was deleted too. that crushed me, even though i hated that place. there were so many problems and flaws in our group that it was the best we split up. but i miss them so much :,(

im starting to realize i have a presence in the real world and i dont just exist online. i dissociate a lot of my life i think.. i need to wake up

okay whatever boohoo abt my life time to mpve on to how much i love L

i listen to his favorite music artists to feel closer to him, i think about him all the time, ive drawn him, i talk about him to my best friend all the time, i look for signs in his reposts

AM I CRAZY? crazy in love (praying he’ll never find this account)

i really hope we last, universe let me have this one. let this one work out because i loooove herrr

they are so pretty, i love their smile and the way they laugh. i love his drawings and freckles on her face O_o i love the way he talks about me and the way we joke around. i love them so much i dont believe it

this is so cringe i wanna die

whatever

goodbye 🖤

[xadoheandterra]

Series: Semblance Title: Patriciate Fandom: Jak and Daxter Chapters: I | II | III | IV | V | VI | VII | VIII | IX | X | XI | XII | XIII | XIV | XV | XVI Characters: Jak, Daxter, Samos, Keira, Kid!Jak, Ashelin, Torn, Tess Tags: Worldbuilding, Accidentally King of Haven!Jak, hurt/comfort, things go wrong, things get better, things get worse again, slow build, slow burn, slow to update, cross posted, fantasy racism, canon divergence, been meaning to share this here Summary: “It’s yours,” Jak said softly. “Keep it…remember where you come from. At least one of us should remember….”

If Jak knew the consequences of that one, selfish choice…well, he’d probably have made the same decision either way.

No matter where one looks, someone has an agenda. Even those whom are held closest.​

Jak bit into his sandwich absentmindedly as he worked through the written reports from the sage lines, curled up into what Tess called ‘Jak’s booth’ in a small corner of the Naughty Ottsel. Daxter sprawled over the countertop and munched on a few snacks Tess left him. Occasionally when Jak glanced over to his friend he found the ottsel calmly drawing dicks on a spare piece of paper. Often he found himself forced to repress a snort; a few of Daxter’s drawings were quite humorous, near political cartoons of the situation and the people involved.

A lot of his drawings featured Koray in increasingly terrible situations. Jak wasn’t sure the man deserved it, but, well, whatever helped Daxter relaxed helped him relax. Besides the reports were rather dry—only Torn’s report held anything remotely amusing in it, and Jak felt certain the man put the dry witticisms and commentary in there on purpose. With a huff Jak swiped a finger along the tablet and switched to the next page.

“Eco shortage,” Jak mumbled, and his brow furrowed. He focused on the words in front of him—Samos’ mind-numbingly boring writing matched the man’s mind-numbingly boring lectures—but an eco shortage could mean no end of trouble.

“Huh?” Daxter glanced up, and slapped his tail against Jak’s hand when the teen didn’t pay attention. “Jak. Jaaaaaak.”

Jak huffed and glanced to Daxter, then back down to the report. “There’s something up with the eco.”

Daxter sat up, ears perked suddenly. “How?”

Jak scanned a few more paragraphs, mouth moving soundlessly as he read the words. Daxter’s gaze snapped to the teens lips, and his eyes narrowed in thought. He wasn’t as practiced at reading Jak’s lips like he used to be, so he couldn’t be sure what precisely Jak mouthed, but it looked to be something about an unprecedented loss of eco that couldn’t be accounted for the Baron’s excessive giving it away to the metal heads.

“Green’s in much shorter supply than we thought,” Jak mumbled. “Unreported initial hospital shortage—issue with agricultural supply amounts—back stores not updated—undisclosed blockage in the flow—missing documentation—interruptions in the green…wait. This sounds like…” Jak cocked his head to the side and his ears twitched with surprised interest.

“Sounds like what,” Daxter said slowly. He had a bad feeling.

“Remember those old ruins?” Jak looked toward Daxter, eyes beginning to light up. “The one outside of Sandover with the blue supply that powered the town, and then the one over in Rock Village and the yellow one up in the mountain by all the Lurker’s and—”

“Yeah,” Daxter interrupted. “I remember. An’ I remember near dyin’ half the time beatin’ back all kinds of shit. So?”

“We never did find a green supply,” Jak pointed out.

“Never needed to,” Daxter shot back.

“What if it’s been turned off? Like the others? What if there’s a ruin nearby that can turn the supply back on?” Jak breathed out quickly. “If we can correct the shortage of green eco than we can increase the supply, which will help the hospitals and the agriculture district—there’s some reports of metal head activity and dark eco contamination in the area from what Torn mentioned—and we know how dark eco responds to green—”

Daxter sucked in a breath while Jak rambled on, and then snapped out a quick, “JAK!” to get the teen’s attention again. Jak jerked and blinked, startled out from his sudden rambling. He flushed faintly. He used to ramble all the time when they were younger, a rush of gestures and semi-sounds when he found something interesting, and while Daxter felt a bit ashamed to interrupt Jak now he needed to slow the young man down. Words were harder to follow than Jak’s silent communication—sometimes he spoke a little too fast for Daxter.

“An’,” Daxter said slowly, “what d’you think ol’ greenie’s gonna say to this? Jak, my man, as much as I looove our old adventures—and honestly I don’t miss ‘em one bit, dealin’ with the ruins and the Acherons was fuckin’ terrifyin’ and you can’t convince me otherwise buddy—we just got outta one mess of an adventure and we’re stuck in the fryin’ pan of another.”

“Nobody knows precursor shit like we do,” Jak pointed out.

Daxter huffed. “Jaaaaak,” he drawled out, “we don’t even know where to look.”

Out of all of his arguments, that seemed to get Jak to settle down. He frowned, nodded slowly, and tried to think of what they could do.

“We’d have to find it first,” Jak agreed.

“An’ we can’t,” Daxter pointed out.

Jak sighed and stared at the tablet in thought. There must be some kind of record about ruins, something to indicate where they were. Jak wanted to sit down and hunt the information—if he could he’d spend days doing it, they needed green eco according to these reports—and yet—and yet.

Daxter’s point stood, and Jak slouched down with a frustrated groan.

“I’ll ask Zoe to look when she can,” Jak mumbled. Zoe knew most of the legends and the stories that surrounded Haven better than anyone. Jak didn’t doubt she could unearth the location—time simply remained the factor. Nobody had time.

“We’ll have to reveal him to the public at large at some point,” Samos said tiredly. “They’ll want to know that Haven has a King again.”

Zoe sipped at her drink and stared just to the left of Samos. She let out a faintly disdainful snort at the idea that the public desired to know that the Monarchy found itself reinstated. The public didn’t decry Damas being removed from the throne, they rejoiced. She knew more went on behind the chosen removal of the House of Mar—back dealings, promises of support, shady agreements. Zoe didn’t doubt even Samos’ fingers dipped in a few pies, too. The entire mess leading up to Damas’ banishment involved a lot of political maneuvering including subtle propaganda.

“The public won’t care,” Zoe said. “Most of the adults now will remember when Praxis took over. They won’t accept it. The Council and Nobility barely do.”

“Yet you were the one to crown him King,” Samos harrumphed. “Nary a thought, no protest—everyone followed your lead.”

Zoe laughed and gave Samos a sharp, bitter smile. “Did you think I wouldn’t see Damas in the boy, Samos? Did you think you could hide him from me, or from Vin? Please. I babysat that man-child, I’d recognize his son anywhere.”

Samos pursed his lips.

“I don’t know how you got a hold of the boy,” Zoe set her cup down. “Honestly I don’t quite care. If you stole him from his mother or stole him from his crib it doesn’t matter. He’s here now, a little ignorant and broken perhaps, but finally Mar’s blood is back in Haven. That’s about the only right thing you’ve done recently.”

Samos frowned and tapped his fingers on his cane. He looked off to the side. “I didn’t steal him, Zoe. I may have…participated in the removal of Damas, but I didn’t steal his only son.” Samos sighed. “I didn’t know about the boy, I don’t know his circumstances, how he got here—I only found him on the streets with Mar’s symbol around his neck.” Samos sighed. “I don’t even know if Damas still lives.”

Zoe peered at him. “Your time in the past certainly aged you,” she murmured. Samos shot her a frustrated look. “But…is that why you don’t share the name of his father?”

Samos clenched his hands over his cane. “I didn’t know, Zoe.”

“You know now,” Zoe pointed out, but she didn’t push it beyond that. Instead she tapped her fingers on the table; her thoughts drifted through the ramifications of revealing Jak to the public at large. Reinstating the Monarchy looked all well and good, and Jak certainly kept his wits about him, but with the way the public worked—so soon after Praxis’ tyranny—Zoe feared.

“After the shield wall goes up,” Zoe said carefully. “After we clear out the heavily infested districts. After the recovery efforts prove themselves—then we reveal Jak. Until such a time he must remain as he is now.”

“With his hair the way it is, we won’t keep it secret for long,” Samos grunted.

“I didn’t choose to style it,” Zoe sniffed.

“We needed the physical reminder,” Samos pointed out sharply.

Zoe hummed in agreement. “There’ll also be rumors spread by the lesser nobles, those with money…anyone with an agenda, really. We’ll need to counteract them as best as we can. Keep them quiet….”

“Or let them run.” Samos leaned forward and tapped his cane against the ground. “If we squash the rumors the public will become adamant to unearth them. Part of the Underground’s success came from those very tactics, used by Praxis; it worked to our favor, and against him.”

“And what of the embargo?” Zoe quarried. “We’ve got Wastelanders in the city who demand to be let out.”

“Until the shield is functioning there isn’t much we can do,” Samos leaned back and sighed exhaustedly. “Then there’s the eco we have to worry about, on top of everything….”

Zoe frowned.

“I do not like this,” she said. “This waiting and sitting and plotting. I do not like relying on what-if’s and scenarios we can hardly predict. Without enough facts, without a concrete understanding of the situation—the players, the people—we’re running this blind. That…worries me.”

Samos sighed. “It worries me too.”

Veger frowned over his cup as he stared at the reports in front of him. He didn’t bother to glance over at Koray who shuffled through papers and his tablet with soft, frustrated growls, as he contemplated the situation before him now. The abomination—Jak—began to actually pose problems in the grand scheme of things. Enough problems that Veger now found himself contemplating if he could spin things properly in the direction he wanted.

“This…refugee plan,” Veger mused. “How set on it are they?”

“They’re recruiting out of the Hog for volunteers to move all the stuff in the stadium,” Koray grumbled. “The Green Sage’s tart’s already cleared out her own space and is supervising the stockpiles of green eco inventory. Alyín’s doing most of the recruiting in the Hog, publicly now ‘alive’ while Zoe and Ashelin work together for the best target plan to get things cleaned up and running.”

“So…they’re committed,” Veger mused. If the Sage lines were committed the moves Veger could make became limited. The people, ultimately, will rally behind the Sage lines. The council might initially object, but once the first few refugee’s arrive most of those objections would fall to the wayside. The fact that the abomination and his friends offered up the Stadium as viable space and left the higher end district primarily alone otherwise would instantly win them favor.

That, among a few other points, leaned toward Alyín or Ashelin’s influence. Veger could see the tactical hints from Zoe around the details of the plan, and Mar’s—Jak’s—the abomination’s—brash influence practically screamed from all over the place. If nothing else this mess would endear the boy to the public. The masses, once they finally learn that the one to implement this saving plan happened to now be their King and rightful heir to House Mar, well anything Veger planned to happen then would be moot.

“How to turn this in my favor,” Veger mused. He tapped his lip thoughtfully. Most of what he wanted became moot—the brat escaped, so any of his studies were ruined, especially now that he’d been tarnished with that blasted dark eco. The whole ‘prophecy’ nonsense put a crimp into everything but Veger found ways around that; ways that were becoming harder and harder to accomplish now.

“Not really much you can do unless they fuck up somewhere,” Koray huffed.

“Try and trip them up, won’t you?” Veger posed lightly, and gave Koray a narrow eyed smile.

“Alyín knows how I work,” Koray pointed out.

“She’s not been around you for years, Mr. Aksoy,” Veger chided. “Have I taught you nothing in that time?” Koray’s silent huff told him everything. “Oh, and dear boy?”

“Yes sir?” Koray looked up from his work.

“Find Onin. She and I…have some business to discuss,” Veger mused. He set his glass down.

“But—But she’s in the Market District!” Koray protested. “That’s—”

​“You’ll be fine,” Veger waved a negligent hand. “I merely said find her, didn’t I?” He walked from the room without another word, contemplating what his next move should be. Whatever Onin said would inevitably influence things as they always did—how to turn that influence into his favor merely remained.

#fic: patriciate #fic: semblance #jak and daxter #accidentally king of haven #fanfic #wip #crossposted #canon divergence

[sqtzworld]

sigh.

i realize i dont rant here enough like as much as i should. i should be drawing and not spending time being a fucking idiot ranting on TUMBLR at 2 am but shuake is just too serious for me

CUZ yall don’t understand my level of. crazy. my level of insane my level of obsession its been like 7 months of just straight up fixation and i always find the same things to feel the new feeling of love again for them. saw someone talking about their short film like a little summary on what its abt and the inspiration, a little love letter to their lover of sorts saying how the film is abt genuinely loving someone who is good to you for the first time, “This was the first time I would say "I love you" to someone, and it not come from a place of fear or a toxic one. This film is a celebration of vulnerability, and letting pure, secure love in without the constant impulse to self sabotage” I’ll quote and bc i cant think of love without immediately thinking of shuake (its a genuine problem lmao😭), i HAD to just think about them and yk what. idegaf their love is so beautiful to me. i think the idea of akechi having bpd and the same mental issues and disorders as me finding love in someone who is also very similar to him in some sense, like them both being autistic and such, just really speaks a lot to me.

im definitely not an opposites attract person, although they technically WOULD be opposites i think the whole troupe of “enemies” to lovers is the fact that they arent really enemies and actually have a lot more in common than first thought, at least when done well anyway so to me, they aren’t opposites when it comes to like. the things that matter like personality and the things that make people connect and become closer like the things u cant control ig lol but anywho, bc i hc (its basically canon) akechi having bpd i think thats why it means SO MUCH more to me and i love his character sm. he’s not my favorite, but bc that’s the first time i see a character like that be represented with something so similar to me and not be treated like a villain or just be really extreme like akechi is definitely. well. extreme but he’s not like, let’s say, like yuri level from ddlc like i wouldnt even consider that bpd she just straight up crazy😭 like idk, i just really relate to akechi so i really see him having bpd and bc ive always felt soo left out bc of my bpd even in spaces you would THINK would be safer, i always feel singled out somehow and although i still dont really know why, ig i see myself in akechi a lot and even akira too so the idea that parts of me could find that love and care like the fact that parts of me could find other parts of me, ig im not broken lmao like its all a little puzzle :)

okkk lore drop🔥🔥 got so hashtag emo there BUT that meant something i promise!!! that whole idea of feeling like ur missing something or theres just something wrong with u or ur unloveable or whatever, the idea that akechi felt that and FOUND it in akira makes my heart melt like a fucking fangirl i hate everything. i always think abt shuake and their love bc people always say how they are so toxic blah blah blah, and yk what, lemme not lie, that’s probably the truth! but i cant see them being soo toxic like that especially with how young they are like akechi was like. a few months of just turning 18, akira was 17 like they arent full grown adults even tho akechi was definitely aware enough to know what he was doing was wrong (even at 15 or however old he was when first helping shido i would say), you wouldnt understand the FULL severity of it like its a lot to explain but HOPEFULLY i make sense lol😭😭 and i think just being so young and growing through so much like im already. off. and i dont even live a life CLOSE to that EVER like of course he’s gonna be a little. off his rockets🤩 i mean what did yall expect😭 i keep using this phrase but yea!! so the idea of him meeting akira and finally being able to feel that youth and enjoy parts of life that typically teenagers get to live is si sweet to me.

mind u, im not saying that him living that “teenage life” is the way it HAS to be lived bc i think my life is better without those things as a teen myself and its most definitely not necessary but to me, akechi is just like. a very much stan twitter gay guy😭 he has his little bit of nerd (WHICH I LOVE^_^) but like anyone, of course he would want and need that friendship, that connection. do i believe he wouldn’t really care abt friends and shit? yea bc look, i dont really care for that myself but i wont lie to you and tell u i would love just ONE good connection in my life like yk, a friend i actually want but im not gonna be all friendless here so back to akechi!😊 he’s just very normal high schooler to me, ONE THING I LOVE ABT HIM AND SUMI ACTUALLY. i feel like with sumi, because ae doesn’t know like anything abt akechi’s past and what’s he’s done and stuff i feel like akechi just gets to live a “regular high schooler life” with sumi, yk? like everytime akechi and sumi would hang out (i like to believe they would hang out pre royal idgaf🥱) and akechi would complain or talk akira, sumi would just think “ah he’s on his crush thing again” like ae has NO CLUE he’s gonna shoot him in the head and yk what. that connection definitely means something bc that would be the first person akechi has ever met his age who ISNT involved in his “work life”?? like isn’t involved in his cases and shit like. a genuine healthy friendship🤯🤯🤯 and thats ANOTHWR reason i love sumigoro (make fun of me all u want but i seriously do not. gaf😜😝) bc i think akechi would really go and mess that up, he’d be like “wait. do i actually like sumi” all bc of the fact that they have a good connection and akechi isnt used to that

WHICH brings me to what i was GOING TO bring up (sorry for the crazy detour) but YEA, the whole idea of having a love and always feeling the need to self sabotage reminds me smm of shuake. akechi going and ruining their connection even though there was definitely ways he could’ve gone abt killing shido…. with the phantom thieves’ health possibly👀👀???? i feel like that was the prime explain of self sabotage, guilt and the fact that he wasnt even actually processing what he did and HAS done. like that one scene after 11/20 where he’s in the studio filming and their asking him abt the pts and he gets slient and thinks abt some shit like abt the pts and sorta feels guilty (idk if thats the undesirable child scene i think it is but im not sure lol) but yeah that, that is the PRIME explain of processing and guilt. after killing people and doing all that shit for so long i think that was the first time it actually hit him like “oh shit wait. i’ll never see these people again” like the idea that it hit so close to home, these were kids HIS age, even younger too and.. what EYE like to believe, people he thought probably deserved more life than even himself (like the after thought of it) bc u cannot convince me he really sent his ass over to shido’s palace just to tell joker some shit like girl. and getting himself killed too like naww that’s embarrassing as shit😭😭 like ik thats talked abt and thats what the whole scene is abt but like. EXACTLY he felt guilt for his actions and felt he needed to atone!! HE HADNT REALLT PROCESSED ANYTHING IF HE WAS FEELING THAT NOWW ofc he was going to get innocent people killed like. YEA😭😭 but he’s a fucking kid like what did u expect him to do, even if i had that power even with the current knowledge i have☝️🤓 i wouldnt even realize wtf im doing like yk ur doing something bad, but as a smart kid too.. its all abt competition lol, but in all seriousness tho and they show that in the game

ok sorry got off track again but yea, self sabotaging his love with akira all for the competition of it all, clearly i will never just flow into it naturally so ill state it plainly, self sabotaging his love and overall genuine connection with akira bc thats all he was ever thought to do, from his own mother and obviously, his own father. had to sabotage the love he had for his mother bc well. she ended up kwording herself😭😭 and had to sabotage the love for his father (which didnt exist to me idc) bc he had to kill him, i mean. he was awful😭😭 so having that constant battle between that, thats one thing i LOVE like ADORE ABOUT SHUAKE i love the idea that they could be vulnerable with each other i also love akira and his personality cuz he compliments akechi so well in SO MANY WAYS whoever wrote and made their characters and storylines personally ate with their yaoi deliverance😍😍 LMAO that was a joke but honestly. gave us such a good ship TY🙏 atlus at least for SOMETHING ur good at like like the thing i quoted said, THE WAY THAT IF ATLUS WOULDVE GAVE US AN I LOVE YOU BETWEEN THEM. aside from the fact i would’ve killed myself and died and then fell off a cliff and then kill myself again and killed myself a 3rd time just to make sure i also would’ve cried SO BAD, ik thats asking for WAYY TOO MUCHH but let a girl dream smh like IT WOULDVE MESNT SO MUCH AND HAD SM WEIGHT, it truly would’ve been akechi’s first ily that would’ve came from a genuine good place or would’ve been the first ily he ever heard that didnt try to manipulate or gain smth out of him!! which is. BEAUTIFUL ALL WAYS U LOOK AT IT like they definitely had their ups and downs (shuake i mesn) but the fact akira still wouldve loved him and seen him through everything is just so. something abt the unstable and the unstable but a little more stable dynamic😍😍 but seriously tho lol, i love their connection. again, it just speaks a lot to me SO PERSONALLY i hate everything

one thing i love abt royal is how we got to see akechi’s character a bit, i do like the royal writing a lot for this reason, some parts felt like aww yk lol and kinda reminiscent to the beginning of the game which felt a lot more genuine even tho royal’s writing felt more fanservicey, it had SOME sense of like, ok the characters arent written toooo bad here like the middle of persona so i appreciated it and u can tell atlus put a lot more work on the royal trio scenes (the fanservice was crazy in that part😭) so i also loved that too lol bc again, we got to see akechi’s character and the effect joker had on him and how like. less of an asshole he was like i wish we could’ve seen just a BIT more of him. again again i just LOVE dynamics like shuake and seeing characters grow and shit and shuake just does it so well UGH i hate them😭😭

[freyayuki]

Final Fantasy Record Keeper Daily Free Draws Part 5

Every day, you get 1 free single draw on the Final Fantasy Record Keeper (FFRK) mobile game. The banner you can do this on is extremely bloated though.

It has basically all the relics on this game and the rates are crappy as always and there are no guarantees, but there is a very rare chance to get something good from this draw.

More often than not though, you’re more likely to just end up with bronze or silver trash.

Sure, I’ve gotten some good pulls from this before but that’s few and far between. It’s so rare that it might as well be nonexistent.

Anyway, a short while or so after Final Fantasy Record Keeper announced that it was gonna end its service on September 29, 2022 (I talk more about that in another post), we also got the news that the daily free single draw will now be a daily free 10-draw until the game closes.

On one hand, this is great news because I want to be able to clear as much of FFRK’s content as I can before the game ends. I’m missing a lot of relics though, so I doubt I’ll be able to clear everything unless I can get more useful Soul Breaks.

But on the other hand, as far as I’m aware, Final Fantasy Record Keeper didn’t change or update the rates or anything. We may be getting 10 items instead of just 1 per day, but there are still no guarantees so you’re still really likely to end up with trash as opposed to anything useful.

In fact, that’s exactly what I’ve experienced. More often than not, whenever I do the daily free 10-draw, I just end up seeing a combination of 10 bronze and silver orbs, which just feels bad, man.

Sometimes, I get 1 or more 5-star items but these relics have been heavily powercrept by now and most, if not all, of them are now Lensable so it’s just completely and utterly disappointing to get these Soul Breaks instead of a 6-star or 7-star that could be of use to me.

Heck, there are even 6-stars and 7-stars that are also useless so I really wish FFRK had at least made it so the daily 10-draw guaranteed at least one 6-star item or something. Maybe they could have adjusted the rates too or something. I mean, really, why not? After all, the game’s ending soon.

Anyway, decided that I’ll only bother to take screenshots of the results of these pulls if I actually get something that could be classified as either good, useful, or interesting, or something.

One daily free draw actually gave me something good. It was a very pleasant surprise when I saw 2 disco orbs and they both turned into new Awakened Arcane Soul Breaks (AASBs).

One of them was the fire AASB of Amarant Coral from Final Fantasy IX. This is my first BDL relic for him.

My fire elemental team is already pretty stacked so Amarant won’t be replacing anyone there anytime soon but I could use more FF9 tech to help me with the Final Fantasy IX Dreambreaker and Dragonking Dungeons quests.

The second AASB I got belongs to Quistis Trepe from Final Fantasy VIII. It’s for either the poison or water elements.

This is my first BDL relic for Quistis but I’m really happy to see this because I really need more poison tech. 

My poison elemental team is basically nonexistent. Gonna need a lot more poison BDL relics before I can try tackling the poison Dark Odin and poison White Odin Magicite fights.

Another daily free draw gave me four 5-star relics, one of which was a dupe Burst Soul Break (BSB) for a Final Fantasy IV char. Pretty sure it belongs to Rubicante judging from the red cloak.

Also got a new BSB for a Final Fantasy II char and a new Super Soul Break (SSB) for a Final Fantasy X char. Judging from the blitzball, pretty sure this belongs to either Wakka or Tidus.

The last new item I got was the 5-star Legend Materia Relic (LMR) of Zack Fair from Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII and Final Fantasy VII (#ad).

Was so disappointed in the results of this pull that I didn’t bother taking note who exactly owned these relics. I only know that the LMR belongs to Zack because he showed up on the draw results screen.

Bursts and Supers are so outdated by now that they’re never seeing use. If they’re the only kind of relic you have for a char, then you never want to bring said char to any endgame fight because these Soul Breaks pale in comparison to the likes of Awakenings.

At least LMRs still have their uses. After all, each char can equip up to 2 Materias. Not all LMRs are good though. 

The one I just got for Zack is one of the good ones since it gives him a chance to dualcast wind-type abilities. I actually have a few BDL relics for Zack, so this LMR of his will see some use.

Nevertheless, still hate the results of this 10-draw. It really feels bad to see multiple rainbow orbs and not a single disco orb. Plus, all the 5-stars I got on this draw are Lensable. 

So if I really needed Zack’s LMR, I could have just gone to the The Record Lab and spent the Anima Lenses required to obtain said Materia. Since the game is ending soon, there was no longer any reason to save any resources for the future.

Anyway, got another 10-draw that gave me one 5-star. Normally, wouldn’t bother to take a screenshot but, although I really do hate the results of this pull, what I got was interesting enough that I decided to take a pic.

Ended up with a new Glint Soul Break (G) that belongs to Sephiroth from Final Fantasy VII.

Glints are useless. They cost 1 bar to cast so you’re better off just waiting until you have 2 to use an Awakening or something.

Glint Soul Breaks have been outclassed by Glint+ Soul Breaks. Glint+ Soul Breaks cost 0 bars to cast and have better effects than Glints. You can use them right before casting a BDL relic to further boost the damage of your DPS. If you have a G+, then there’s no way you’d ever want to bother with a Glint.

The reason I bothered to take a screenshot of this pull was the fact that the Glint Soul Break that showed up belongs to Sephiroth.

I actually currently have most of Sephiroth’s relics. After getting this Glint of his, I’m only missing 5 of his Soul Breaks. I can get 4 of those from the Lab using Anima Lenses.

The reason I haven’t bothered to Lens the relics I’m missing for him is because they’re all useless and outdated by now.

The only relic I’m missing for Sephiroth that I can’t Lens is his Awakened Arcane Soul Break 2 (AASB2).

This was all true a while ago but we just had the Summer Sun Festival 2022 event.

The Summer Sun 2022 Festival banner 3 included a couple of new relics for Sephiroth. I talk more about how my pulls on that banner went on another post. Here, I’ll just say it turned out to be a complete and total disaster.

The entire fest was a disaster, an absolute waste of mythril, and really made me hate this game. I mean, I don’t want it to end but man, the rates here really suck.

Anyway, the point is that, although I spent hundreds of mythril, I failed to get Sephiroth’s Dual Awakening Soul Break (DASB) because eff this game and its crappy rates.

I was able to get his other relics that were featured on the Summer Sun 2022 Festival banner 3 but now instead of just missing out on his AASB2, I’ll also never be able to get his DASB unless a miracle happens or something.

I know it doesn’t really matter, and it’s not like Sephi is even my fave char or anything but still. I hate this, especially since I already have most of his relics. If only I’d been able to get his DASB on fest banner 3. Sigh.

Another daily free draw gave me two new 5-stars - a Super Soul Break for a Final Fantasy XIV char and Sephiroth’s Super Soul Break.

Now I’m only missing 5 of his relics, 2 of which I can’t Lens. I wonder if I’ll somehow be able to get Seph’s AASB2 and DASB before the game ends.

Another daily free draw gave me one 5-star and one 6-star. Both were dupes and both were for Final Fantasy VII chars.

The 5-star was a Legend Materia Relic that most likely belongs to Rude. It’s useless to me because don’t have even a single BDL relic for Rude.

The 6-star was Zack’s AASB2. It’s now at Rank 7 of 15 because I keep getting dupes of this.

Really annoyed with this pull. The one time I actually get an Awakening after what feels like days of getting nothing but trash, why’d it have to be a dupe? Argh! So frustrating. Eff this game!

Another daily free draw gave me 2 disco orbs. I was all set to be disappointed yet again. I thought for sure I was about to get a dupe or a useless 6-star.

But to my surprise and relief, I actually got 2 new Awakened Arcane Soul Breaks. 

The first 6-star I got was the Awakening of Rude from Final Fantasy VII. This is my first BDL relic for him so, unfortunately, I won’t be able to use him with just this. Still, it was nice to see an AASB from this free draw and a new one at that.

The second 6-star I got was the AASB of Penelo from Final Fantasy XII. IIRC, I only have 1 of Penelo’s Ultra Soul Breaks. She’s a healer though so she can work well enough with just her AASB and one or more of her Ultras.

Penelo’s not gonna be replacing my usual healers anytime soon but she can be my healer for quests that require me to bring a Final Fantasy XII team. Overall, pretty pleased with the results of this free draw. I wish all my pulls could be like this.

Conclusion

So, what about you? What relics did you get from the daily free draws? What do you think about the daily free draw banner? Feel free to share your thoughts and opinions by leaving a comment below or by reblogging this post.

Notes:

screenshots are from my Final Fantasy Record Keeper game account

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[kyoomiii]

♡ Kiss and makeup [hcs]

-  ➣. . . ❝ Hey bby ~ ive got a request if its alright! A scenario for making up after a fight with Oikawa please! Tysm! 🤍🤍 ❞

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- ✎ 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 ❝ oikawa, atsumu, and sakusa ❞

- [ 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐(𝚜): heavy mentions of fighting/arguing ]

- ⚘ 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚛𝚎 ❝ fluff, angst ❞

❝ hi everyone, i’m not dead- c: ❞

-yoomi ♡

Reconciling with Oikawa takes time

He has a lot of pride and often refuses to admit he’s wrong

Hates apologizing first, but will begrudgingly do it if he has to

It may take time but when he does come to you, he comes to you completely raw and vulnerable

He’s someone emotional and speaks with his heart when it really matters to him

Overall, he’s stubborn and prideful, but at the end of the day he recognizes that none of it is worth losing you.

After making up he’s very clingy and wants to spend as much time with you as he can.

Expect lots of love and tears because he will cry if you cry, and even if you don’t he will still cry

.·:·.☽✧☾.·:·.

The little tap that comes from the window pane is the only thing that draws your attention at this time of night. Turning your head to look at the clear glass, you’re thoroughly surprised to see Oikawa’s face, his cheeks slightly puffed out as he struggles to hold himself up against the window sill. 

You’re quick to hop up from your bed, rushing to open your window as you hurriedly wipe away the trail of tears that have stained your face for the past 2 weeks. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t miss him or that you weren’t happy to see him. However, while that may be so you were still mad at him.

“What are you doing here Tooru.” You huff, arms crossed over your chest as you try to uphold your stern exterior.

“I came to apologize-” He freezes, eyes squinting as he scans your appearance with nothing but the small glimmer of the moon, “Have you been crying?”

Eyes wide and mouth almost agap you frantically shake your head, “No.”

Oikawa feels his chest tighten, guilt consuming his entire being as he takes in your exhausted appearance. It’s pure instinct, but he feels himself reach out to brush your cheeks, the slight tenderness left after so many spilled tears only breaks him further.

“I’m sorry y/n… You’re sad because of me and I promised myself I’d be the reason why you smile.” He scoffs, disappointment in himself evident in the way his eyes stare into your own. Crystal like tears welling up in pools of chocolate.

Sighing you offer him the best smile you can muster, “I will always be worried about you Tooru. You push and push until you can’t take anymore and it scares me. I know volleyball is something you love, and I support you in your goals. But you have to know your limits.” 

His tears finally spill, painting his cheeks in clear streaks, “I’m sorry…”He chokes out, the longing and desperation seeping into every word.

“It’s okay.” You hum pressing a kiss to his forehead, “I forgive you.”

...

“-Now that you guys are finished can you please get off my shoulders Shittyawa.”

Through grateful tears and a snotty nose Oikawa glances down at his best friend who is currently supporting said setter on his shoulders.

“Way to ruin the mood Iwa-chan you brute.”

“Shut up.”

Atsumu is childish to say the least. He has pride, and much like Oikawa he doesn’t like admitting he’s wrong

Arguments are one thing, but when Atsumu fights he fights with his whole being saying what he thinks only to feel guilty later

Him and Osamu argue and fight a lot, and when they apologize it’s always indirect or silent

He’s use to quickly sweeping things under the rug because of that

At first he kind of expects it to be the same with you, until he realizes that simply isn’t the case

Nevertheless it’s still pretty easy to make up with him because he’s not one to hold grudges. Plus he’s clingy and would probably die without constant affection

.·:·.☽✧☾.·:·.

Atsumu can’t help but wonder exactly how he had gotten into this position. Perhaps it’s his knack for being an asshole, or maybe it’s the jealousy he feels towards other guys despite the fact that he has fangirls trailing after him like lost puppies. Nevertheless, he finds himself missing your presence, craving your touch and attention.

“What do ya mean?”

“I said no Atsumu.”

He’s confused to say the least, why won’t you hold him? Are you still mad? It’s been awhile hasn’t it?

“y/n… Are ya really still mad?”

“Yes I’m still mad Atsumu, what you said really hurt me.” You can feel it bubble within you. The frustration and the hurt that has lingered, harbored in your mind for days on end, “I don’t care much for your jealousy. But it's the fact that you think our issues can just be pushed aside. You always ignore the problem, and I’m tired Tsumu… I’m tired.”

Your words set his body ablaze. Atsumu feels breathless as he hears the slight choke of your voice. He reaches out to you, uncertain in his touch as the pads of his fingers meet your uniform. His fingers grasp the fabric, desperate in the way that they curl so tightly around your shirt.

You miss him, you really do. His touch, his smile, his antics. Miya Atsumu’s presence is addicting and you find yourself craving him everyday, even more so now that you’ve spent so much time pushing him away.

“I’m real sorry y/n- I really am. I pulled a shitty ass move and I shouldn’t have treated you that way. I just-” He inhales tilting his head back to hide away the tears that build in his eyes, “I’m an ass and I know that so If you’re done with me, I’ll respect your choices...” 

Fighting with Atsumu isn’t an entirely rare occurrence but you always find a way to reconcile. However, this time feels different. A blooming fear settles itself in his chest. The thought of you leaving terrifies him, but for once he lets go of his ego, his pride. If it’s what you want he’ll live with it. Just as long as you’re happy.

Sighing, you turn to look at him, “I’ve missed you Tsumu.” You hum softly as you gently place your hand on his cheek.

Atsumu leans into your touch, basking in your warmth, as he feels a rush of relief flood through his body, “I’ve missed ya too baby…”He feels like he can breathe again, his body slumping against your own in his moment of shock.

“You’re such a jerk you know?” 

“Only yer jerk- I really do love ya y/n.”

“I love you too Atsumu.”

Much like Oikawa and Atsumu, apologies take time with Sakusa

Not because he refuses to admit he’s wrong, but simply because sometimes he doesn’t know nor does he realize that he’s being a bit much 

It takes time for him to register that he’s being an ass, because while he can be a bit dense he’s not completely oblivious

Reconciling is a quiet, long, and slow process, neither one of you knowing how to approach the other

But nevertheless, both of you are still there quietly mending things as you go

Though it’s a frustrating process. You don’t know where either of you are standing. It’s one big mystery that lingers in the form of tension as you sleep with your backs to one another

Touches filled with longing and days of silence grow tiring. One of you has to crack before things return to how they were

.·:·.☽✧☾.·:·.

Sakusa knows he’s not the easiest person to be around, and that only makes him that much more grateful that you love him so willingly, so easily. It makes him feel full, filled to the brim with the warmth that you give him. 

So at first, he doesn’t understand why you turn your back to him, why you won’t look at him, why you don’t speak to him properly. You’re there but you're not, and he admits he’s the same. It’s straining. Both of you are physically there, but it feels so empty and lonely, like falling into a void of nothing.

He misses you, more than he knows how to say. Especially now as he watches you get ready for another night of silence. 

And he’s right, the room falls into a daunting quiet. The tension in the air is so thick it’s almost suffocating. His body aches to hold you close against him- the only person he feels comfortable embracing so dearly.

“Do you plan on staying so far away?” The sudden break of silence is almost startling. It leaves your body tense, even Sakusa himself is shocked.

“I don’t know Kiyoomi…” And you really don’t. Granted even if you are upset with him you can’t bring yourself to resent him, you know you would be lying to yourself if you said you did. However, at the same time you don’t know if you could let yourself cave so easily.

Sakusa acts faster than he can think, shifting to face your back. Hesitantly, he reaches for you. Fingers delicately brushing against the fabric of your shirt, “I’m sorry.”

It’s overwhelming, all the emotions that flood through your very being. Your body begins to shake as you’re racked with tears, quickly turning to bury yourself in his much needed embrace, “I’m sorry too Omi.” You sob, soaking his shirt much to his distaste- though he can’t bring himself to comment.

And you stay like that for the rest of the night. Basking in the warmth of one another. Holding on so tightly as if to make up for lost time.

He wonders how he was lucky enough to find someone like you.

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