#i put a readmore on this because this one is a bit long for mobile lmfao

[duke-daemon]

hazbin hotel redesigns wooooooooo

okay so. i'm gonna discuss my thoughts about them n shit, putting under a readmore bc it's gonna get long and rambley. sorry in advance for the shit formatting, i'm on mobile </3

just some general shit about how i would rewrite it. i think the premise of redeeming sinners is entertaining but is executed horribly. i also am a fan of the "heaven isn't great either" idea but again, executed horribly. i'd make the hierarchy of angels more accurate because it's cool as hell and i have autism about it. the characters from hell would swear still (albeit not as much), but the angels would outright refuse to swear or make vulgar jokes ever. this would be partially to further the gap between heaven and hell and make the differences more stark.

hell would also be more like dante's inferno (again because i think its cool). the ars goetia would get a full redesign and would be more prevalent in demonic society.

now for the characters!

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VAGGIE VALTIEL:

starting off with vaggie, or Valtiel as i've renamed her because let's be honest her original name sucks. Valtiel (Val for short) was an aspiring power angel who wanted to be an exorcist. she looked up to lute and thought the idea of killing demons was really cool and badass. however when she actually was on the field for the first time she discovered how awful this actually was. she tried to help a few demons but lute figured it out and felled her right then and there. the rest of her story is relatively the same. personality wise she's more stoic and less prone to all-out aggression. she still get angry, sure, but it's in a quieter and more menacing way. you DO NOT want to fuck with Valtiel.

CHARLIE:

next up is charlie! i had two ideas for her. the first one (unsettling drawing) has her as a mannequin/doll type demon. lucifer and/or lilith was unable to conceive and as such they built a kid from scratch. she's overall similar to og charlie personality wise, very kind and cheerful despite her unsettling appearance. she struggles with empathy sometimes but really does mean well. her motive for rehabilitating sinners is so they get to see their family again. being able to see heaven from where they are in hell must make them sad, so she wants to help make them happy again!

the second idea for charlie has her as an angel. specifically i casted her as a dominion angel due to their reputation as holy judges. she was once a demon but has been rehabilitated and has risen into angelhood! she now wants to help her former kin do the same and redeem themselves in heaven's gaze. again, similar cheery personality, but a bit more prudish in this rendition

tangent time!

as a side tangent, valtiel and charlie would have a different relationship in this rewrite. their relationship felt shoehorned in in the original show, like it was just there for the hell of it. we didn't see much development between them and it just felt kinda bland. so in my rewrite, charlie and valtiel are amiable exes. they tried dating when valtiel first fell (when charlie was still a demon in the charlie-angel version) but realized their feelings for each other were much more platonic than romantic. they ended things off on good terms, deciding they were much better as friends. they are still besties to this day! later charlie ends up with emily (or 'ellie' as i plan to rename her)

back to the characters

Alastor:

note: i made alastor mixed-race, which could be seen as bad by some due to vivzie saying he's black. however, as many have pointed out, he has no ethnic features whatsoever and i honestly wouldn't be surprised if she said that just to get away with using voodoo symbols (a closed religion) in his imagery/design. like viv, i am incredibly white and have little to no knowledge of voodoo, and even if i did i would not use it for something like this anyways due to the stigma the religion already has and (again) it being a closed practice. as such i removed it from his concept altogether, but made him mixed race (white passing) because.. why not i guess, i forgor my actual reasoning

with that being said...

alastor is by far my favorite of the redesigns and i'm honestly tempted to turn him into a legally distinct oc. i imagine he's somewhat reserved, along the lines of norman bates albeit a bit more extroverted. during his life he was a serial killer with a day job as a radio announcer. he took pleasure in reporting about his own murders on the radio, but that is eventually what got him caught (ie accidentally letting slip info that wasn't released to the public). as a result he was sentenced to death. upon arriving in hell, he quickly rose through the ranks to borderline overlord status and is a feared presence by demons and sinners alike. why is he bothering to assist in the hotel project? who knows... his motives are a mystery, like the rest of what he does

(he isn't actually alastair crowley i just thought the naming convention was ironic. however he may have also dabbled with satanic magic in lifetime..)

Angel Dust:

TW: brief discussion of SA

this is definitely my second favorite redesign. i loooove insect themes and wanted to do more than just Extra Arms, so he now has fucked up legs and a lot of eyes too! story-wise, angel used to be a criminal mastermind, hated by both the mafia and the feds. he was a gentleman thief, arranging massive heists under the cover of night while also partaking in the occasional drag show. he ended up a cocaine addict later in life, which caused his work to become sloppier. eventually he was killed in a heist gone wrong, specifically shot by the police.

i'm not gonna go too in-depth on the SA part of his story, but he is hypersexual due to being assaulted in both his life and afterlife. it would be something he'd be working on in the rewrite. his reason for coming to the hotel in the first place may have even been for help with this trauma. underneath his sultry exterior is a broken guy who really just needs someone to care about him for who he really is and not for what his body can do.

LUTE:

so lute and adam are some of the characters i have the most gripes about. the biggest one being why viv chose adam as the leader of the exorcists in the first place. if she wants a biblical figure tied to demon killing, Archangel Michael is RIGHT THERE, aka the one destined to kill satan during the events of Revelations. if she wants the first human to die, that would be Abel, not Adam. and i kinda doubt abel would want to do the stuff that HH!adam has been doing. if she wants an angel related to torture, Dumah is her guy! an angel that rules over wicked souls and tortures sinners every day except sabbath. so many better options...

with that out of the way, Lute is still the lieutenant of the exorcist, who are a specially chosen group of powers sent to purge hell once a year. think navy seals. she's pretty much the same as in the show, albeit more muscular and visually different from other exorcists (seriously why do they all look exactly the same?????) she's a very repressed lesbian who hasn't had time to work on that due to her duties

i also redesigned the exorcist uniform/armor because those LED purge masks are fugly as hell and their clothes don't even look remotely like armor.

Adam + Final Thoughts

i did start a redesign of adam but got bored of it. regardless, i think he'd be the head of C.H.E.R.U.B. instead of the exorcists. he doesn't want his children to make the same mistakes he and eve did, so together they started C.H.E.R.U.B. to help lost souls stay out of hell

final thoughts uhhhh i'm tired. show sucks, it had so much potential but viv ruined it by being a shitty writer and an even shittier person. the designs are fine i guess but they all look exactly the same and are in desperate need of variety. the humor is dogshit, saying dick and balls and penis over and over and over again doesn't make it any funnier than the first three times you made that joke. anyways that's it, i hope you liked my inane ramblings. gonna go vanish for another forty years or so, adios

#am i gonna do more? idk. we'll see #oh boy sorry about the seventy million tags #i eat bees #artist #oc artist #artists on tumblr #artist on tumblr #hazbin hotel #hazbin critical #hazbin redesign #hazbin rewrite #hazbin hotel critical #hazbin hotel criticism #hazbin hotel critique #hazbin hotel redesign #hazbin hotel rewrite #hazbin hotel vaggie #hazbin vaggie #hazbin hotel charlie #hazbin charlie #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel angel dust #hazbin angel dust #hazbin hotel lute #hazbin lute #hazbin art #hazbin hotel art

[lacefuneral]

hi reddit. here are some tips.

i will be putting these below a "readmore" - which is the first lesson. on desktop there is a button for this. on mobile you type :readmore: followed by a linebreak. it is considered common ettique to shorten your long posts in this way.

by the way, are you reblogging a long post that isn't under a readmore? tag that as #long post so users can blacklist it and not have to scroll for five years.

(weird gaps in bullet points due to character limits lmao)

Title. Icon. Banner. blog description. (look around if you need an idea for what to put in your blog description.) Blogs without this information (ESPECIALLY the no icon + no title combo) gets you blocked immediately. This is because tumblr has always had a severe bot problem. Just grab a meme from your camera roll or a picture of a character you like from google.

also, because most users have their pronouns in their bio, it is expected that you will look there to check before addressing them, out of courtesy. don't just default to "they" - only do that if a person's pronoun's are unclear or if the pronouns listed ARE "they."

Disable public likes. the like button is for personal bookmarking. very often, people will like posts they have not read yet, so that they can read them later. a person's likes is not always reflective of their stances, and if your likes are public, people may use them against you in an argument. think of your likes as your browser history. tumblr users value privacy in this instance.

unrelated to the above point: likes are also used to show compassion for a user going through a tough time, or to say "hey, i thought this joke you made was funny." this use of likes is more for friend-to-friend communication.

Disable anything in your settings that is algorithmic including seeing posts based on other people's likes (one, because algorithms exist to make you mad and two, as part of respecting privacy)

set "following" to appear before "for you" (and overall avoid "for you")

Snooze Tumblr Live (sorry. you have to do this once a week bc tumblr sucks.)

Open your askbox so people can communicate with you. Decide if you want to allow anonymous asks and/or public DMs.

Enable the desktop version of your blog. This makes it so that when you use a computer and go to [yourusername].tumblr.com you can have a website with HTML and CSS. tumblr has tried very hard to kill blog personalization but you can find many helpful users posting in the tags, as well as pre-made themes you can install. tumblr users are the ones making the bulk of neocities websites, and in general tend to be friendly in redirecting you to resources.

enabling your desktop blog also allows you to insert links and do very basic editing (like inserting line breaks) in your blog description (we call "bio") which translates to the mobile version of your theme. you have to do this in the editor for the desktop on a computer. also, editing your theme on mobile (like changing color, font) will undo your HTML. your best bet is to edit your mobile theme first and THEN do the HTML/link stuff on a computer. i know it sounds a bit convoluted but you'll figure it out. (this website is made of duct tape)

also while you are on desktop: download xkit rewritten. it won't work on mobile but it gives you a lot of helpful features. also consider installing ublock origin if you haven't already, because tumblr will sometimes add annoying widgets to their website and that tool will allow you to block them. i also use "palettes for tumblr" to customize my dashboard color. tumblr DOES have built-in dashboard themes but i do not like them personally.

pinned posts. you can pin any post you make or reblog. some people use this to pin a funny meme, and other people use the pinned post as an extended bio (or otherwise an alternative to it). a tumblr post made on desktop can hold up to 30 images (the limit is 10 on mobile.) you can also embed links, a video, and even audio. you can change text color, have bullet points, and increase font size. as such, you can express yourself much more in a pinned post than in your mobile blog description. a typical pinned post may include information about the user, a link to an external website (like a carrd, neocities, or linktree), and sometimes an image or two. tumblr allows you to disable reblogs for a post, so most pinned posts are set this way so it just stays on a user's blog.

DNIs (also called "BYF"). not everyone uses them, and they can be divisive. it stands for "Do Not Interact" - and is a boundary set to keep people away. this may include age (example: "minors DNI"), political opinions (example: "prolifers DNI"), and sometimes deeply niche online discourse. DNIs are also sometimes a joke (example: "DNI if you like tuna salad"). there is actually a meme where someone will write a post with a very long, unreasonable DNI and users will count how many apply to them.

If you would upvote a post on reddit, you would reblog it here. If you see something and you think it is cool, you think it is funny, or you think it is helpful, reblog it. Some users have sideblogs (you can have infinite sideblogs attached to your main account) to organize all of the posts they reblog. Others simply use a tagging system for organizational purposes (and so users can blacklist ("filter") those tags in their settings if they don't want to see the post). For example, if I followed a user for Star Trek, but they also posted a lot of Star Wars, I might add "#star wars" to my list of filters. This way, I am only seeing the Star Trek posts. Tumblr's default way of handling this is to display a box that says "this post contains #Star Wars" and you can choose whether or not to open it. on desktop with xkit rewritten, you can have it hide those boxes entirely. please use filters. your sanity will thank you.

In a reblog, Organizational Tags are for /you./ I see a lot of confusion about this from new users. If you reblog someone else's post and add 500 tags..... it's not going to get picked up in tumblr search. You're not going to get any sort of exposure. Because it is not your post. Those tags are only for /you/ - if you want to find the post again.

tags are also used for commentary. most tumblr users do /not/ talk in post replies or in the comments of a reblog. most of them talk in tags. tags have a character limit so these messages are broken up in fragments. tumblr uses a comma (,) to make a new tag, so users often use either no punctuation or a period (.) or a hyphen (-) to break up thoughts. two apostrophes ('') are used instead of quotation marks (because they dont work in tags). this is also where "tumblr writing style" comes from. we all began to write in lowercase and use punctuation in. a weird way. like. for emphasis. there is also the Tumblr Comma, a special unicode character that resembles a comma and works in tags when copy+pasted or put there with a keyboard shortcut. but this is often not used. here it is: ‚

also here's an example of tags. you will notice that commentary goes before organizational: #GOD DHSHSKDDJDL #i cannot BELIEVE i forgot about this. what the fuck #star trek #spock

when leaving tags, most users talk to themselves. but please remember that tags can be seen by anyone, including the original poster. in general, it is discouraged to traumadump or be rude.

"prev tags" (which tumblr staff is trying their damnest to erase sadly) is when a user reblogs a post from another user and tags it simply ''prev'' or ''prev tags" (meaning "i agree with the previous user's tags"). sometimes it's because a thoughtful observation was made, but usually it's a way of saying "hey! that was a funny joke!" without putting the user on blast by screenshotting the tags. it's most common between friends and mutuals (users following each other). i would say it is equivalent to users whispering to each other and giggling rather than getting up on a table and shouting. "prev tag chain" is when users reblog "prev tags" "prev prev tags" - and so on. however, sadly, tumblr has removed the feature of moving backwards in a reblog chain on desktop. i have not updated my app and refuse to, so i so not know if it is gone on mobile as well, but it probably is. EDIT: the browser extension Xkit Rewritten has an option now, in "tweaks" called "restore links to individual posts in post header." it should be the first option. prev tags, on desktop at least, is saved!

screenshotting someone elses tags and adding the image in a reblog is known as "passing peer review." it is, however, considered to be Greatly Annoying to accompany those tags with unnecessary commentary (ex: "these tags pass peer review!" "WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE THIS IN THE TAGS" "LMAAOO THIS IS SO FUNNYYY"). the tags can stand on their own. the only instance in which this is different is during a serious discussion, when you want to build off of another user's perspective. in which case, you address them as normal. some people credit taggers, some people don't. crediting tends to occur in discussions.

when making an original post, do not use irrelevant tags for Exposure. this is Greatly Hated by the userbase and is also against the TOS. you will get blocked at best, reported or yelled at at worst. only add relevant tags, and do not go overboard.

reposting other people's artwork is highly discouraged and is considered the Highest Offense. if you do any sort of reposting, you should credit and link to a creator directly. however, tumblr loves reposted videos, especially ones from tiktok. there are entire accounts dedicated to posting those.

sideblogs! it is possible to have multiple blogs under one email address. tumblr treats these blogs as proxies of your main blog. this means that sending someone an ask/commenting in the replies of a post will always appear with the name of your main blog, your likes will appear with the name of your main blog, and that if you follow someone you will appear on their followers list as your main blog (so you may be mutuals with someone and not even know it because their sideblog interacts with you, but isn't on your follower's list... because their main blog is listed there instead.) however, DMs DO appear as the sideblog name. you cannot swap your main blog with your sideblog. and right now, there is a bug where deleting a sideblog will delete your entire tumblr account so. don't do that lol. anyway, the amount of sideblogs you can make is literally infinite and i think there's just a Daily Limit of creating 10 of them or something. some users make a sideblog for each interest they have. others have no sideblogs and reblog everything to main. and then you have people like me that do both. somehow. some users will make sideblogs to hoard URLs. also sorry i'm just introducing this now, but that is what our usernames are called. because when tumblr was more desktop-oriented, every blog was literally a Personal Website. so ya. we call them "URLs." anyway, if someone wants to hang onto a URL for later, they might save it on an empty blog. this usually pisses people off. a "canon URL" is when someone has a URL that is like One Word or a Company Name or a Fictional character. hypothetical examples: "ketchup" "burgerking" "lukeskywalker." these are highly rare, coveted, and you look cool as hell if you have one.

tumblr's /\/SFW policy (/\/ is an N. i've censored it.) is best described as ???. posts that are safe for work get marked as /\/SFW and hardcore p0rn somehow persists. in general, be very wary of posting even artistic nvdity (even though it is supposedly permitted.) never deliberately mark your own posts as Mature. this is essentially like walking directly into a bear trap and waving a big sign at tumblr staff saying "hey! make it so people can't find my blog and i'm far more likely to get banned!" also do not tag posts with "/\/SFW." too many of those will get your entire blog marked as mature (which makes your posts pretty much invisible to other users.) tumblr users used /\/SFT (/\/ot safe for tumblr) for a long time, but staff caught on. there is now no consensus and people use their own personal tags for it. just pick something and people will catch on and blacklist it if need be. (btw you CAN type whatever you want on this website. i am only censoring in the hopes that this will allow my post to appear in the tags. this isn't tiktok lol)

while it is possible to disable reblogs on a post, this is a very RECENT addition and most users forget it exists. as such, please use common sense. if someone has written a post about, say, how sad they are feeling because they got in a fight with their family... that's not a good post to reblog. a like would be better here, like a pat on the back.

we LOVE polls. we love them. they are like sports to us. most of them are popularity polls - who is the better character? but people also use polls for, say, making bug emojis "race" each other. or "lets build a cake." other people use polls to write poetry, or learn about regional differences, or even to draw a pen!s. if you tag a poll as "poll" it will most likely be seen and voted in, because users look in the tag to find buttons to click.

there is unfortunately a T3RF (this one censored specifically to protect my notifs lmao. 3 is E) presence here. report, block, ignore, move on. common courtesy for users to inform each other if one is accidentally reblogged from. it also helps to blacklist tags related to them to avoid them. use shinigam! eyes browser extension on desktop.

there is NO equivalent to reddit awards on this website. as the userbase hates the staff, it is considered blasphemous to spend your money on checkmarks, etc. - buying them as a gift for another user is seen as a hostile act. it's like receiving a "kick-me" sign. once owned, badges cannot be deleted. thankfully, tumblr now allows you to disable checkmarks and other badges from appearing publically. that said, some users also give checkmarks unironically to show appreciation??? and others buy checks for themselves???? so yeah. tumblr doesnt actually have a verification system - these exist to mock twitter and to make a quick buck.

tumblr blaze. essentially, tumblr has a system in place to showcase user posts instead of advertisements sometimes. this is done by the user paying money. the higher the amount, the more impressions. tumblr users can now also blaze OTHER PEOPLE'S POSTS. MAKE SURE YOU HAVE BLAZE DISABLED!!! blazing another person's post (without asking first) is seen as a hostile act. why? because most blazed posts result in rude comments from strangers who are annoyed to see the post on their dashboard. unless it's like, a cute picture of a cat. or something genuinely helpful. boosting your soundcloud or a selfie or a rant about fandom does not typically garner positive responses. you can blaze just like. watch out. and also always ask the OP if you want to blaze someone else's post. (there is a reason this feature is called "blaze pvp")

tumblr merch is also frowned upon, as tumblr staff steals ideas from the userbase and profits off of them without financially compensating or crediting the users. there was a meme on here, "vanilla extract", that tumblr turned into water bottles while the person who made the meme was having to fundraise to survive :(

BLOCK. LIBERALLY.

umm i think thats it for now. but like if you have questions feel free to launch them into The Void with some tags and users are pretty quick to help out! hopefully i covered some stuff that other ppl haven't

#reddit #196 #reddit migration

[thefallenbibliophilequote]

Today's writer's Ted talk:

How to make a readmore cut. Every writer needs to use it and you reading- you're not an exception.

Especially new writers on Tumblr or more importantly- new Tumblr ppl. Don't roll your eyes and scroll past. Read this.

To open up: i would never reblog a fic that is longer than 1k that doesn't have a readmore cut, no matter how good it is. Why? Because i care about my followers too much to do it to them. Whenever i see it i go and dm/ask the writer and ask them to add a cut politely, i even supply how to do it in case they don't know how. Wanna know something? More often than not- they do not know how to do it and thank me for informing them. Some times they ignore me or make fake excuses, one time someone blocked me for it. Sometimes they just forget/Tumblr isn't working- which can happen to anyone(so it's okay if it happens to you), they then add it.

This is gonna be a little long but I'm not putting it under a cut because this is an informative post and i don't want people having to go onto my blog to get informed- if they are lazy then they won't reblog bc of laziness which is valid. So no cut will be used. If you are a new writer trying it out: you are welcomed to reblog this and write your reply using a readmore cut! 🖤

So...

Why do you need to use a cut? Common courtesy. As simple as that. Be considerate and nice. If you know how to use it and don't use it just cause... then you are being not nice for no reason. Just be nice and use it. This is needed because no one wants to scroll through the dash and stumble onto a fic they do not want to read... And then have to scroll for soooo long just to get to the next fucking post. It wastes time and annoys ppl. This goes doubly so when a fanfic has sensitive elements- because i can try and scroll past but i might unintentionally read something that will trigger me- with all the right trigger warnings (i also have a post about that!) it still wouldn't be my fault because i couldn't protect myself from it properly which is why this would be on the writer.

When should you use a cut? It is best to use a cut if your fanfic's word count is over 250 words. However, if you write a drabble and it is below 1k words you don't have to use it, drabbles get a pass. Anything above it needs a readmore cut. I don't mind having to scroll once or twice through my screen but my finger would get tired if i have to do more.

Where should you put the cut? Ah excellent question my dear Watson, you should put the cut after all the informative things you have about your fic (summary, word count, warnings, a/n, header for no minors/reposts if you have one...). That is at the very least. You can also do what a lot of writers do- tease. Put the cut after the first couple of paragraphs of your story.

Now we got to the main thing: how to create a readmore cut!

On laptop: it's rather simple, make a new line where you want the cut to be, on the right side there should be either three dots where you have the option to add a readmore cut or simply a ~ line icon. Press on that. Congrats! You have created a readmore cut and made your fic more accessible and comfortable to have on the dash!

On mobile: this one is a bit more tricky and sometimes if your app isn't updated it won't work. You need to make a new line between the two lines that you want the cut to be in, and then write the following but without the quotation marks (only the highlighted part)

":readmore:"

And then you press enter/create a new line and it will transform into a cut! No spaces between the words and the ::

🖤🖤🖤

Congratulations dear Watson, you have now observed how to make a readmore cut! Use it wisely and there are no excuses- so please use it. I wanna reblog your fics.

To all the new writers that have joined Tumblr- if you are informed on how to do it and yet you still knowingly refuse to do it- you're an asshole and you do not belong on Tumblr bc this is Tumblr and this is a Tumblr rule.

You're on Tumblr, adapt to how we do things here or leave and don't complain when you get blocked and people don't reblog your fics.

To all the actually nice people here: thank you for reading, I'm hoping you enjoy Tumblr, it's okay if you forget to add it sometimes and it is okay if it doesn't work because Tumblr has bugs sometimes. Tumblr is hard to navigate if you are new and as you can see- you have to manually use actual code to actually do some stuff like add a link in your bio or make a cut. You're welcome to talk to me if you have questions, or just if you wanna chat!

I hereby bless y'all with writing inspo ✨✨✨ as a graduation bonus for learning this😘🖤

PS. This post is a scroll and a half. So it's okay 😂😝

#readmore #how to #writer's guide #writer lesson #tumblr #fanfic #writing #writblr #loki is posting #loki is writing #writing advice #readmore cut #loki's writer ted talk #fanfiction

[corrodedbisexual]

So here's something mildly terrifying. Anyone feeling nostalgic for the color of the sky? Tumblr polls have the goddamn color of the sky potential. There is a symbol limit on answers, but seemingly no symbol limit on the actual questions.

What's more, doesn't matter how long it is, it does NOT count as a long post, on mobile or on web, so it will display fully on your dash. Absolutely wonderful. You can really feel the 2013 vibes.

So here's a poll with the entire Bee Movie script in the question. Enjoy. I'm putting it under a readmore line because I'm not a goddamn animal. But believe me that I've tested on a sideblog without readmore, and it absolutely displays as an unshortened scrolling disaster on your dash.

@staff my dudes. What the hell. Don't you know your site is full of trolls and gremlins?

@staffs-secret-blog you guys are totally secretly running the hellsite so I'm tagging you as well.

#tumblr #polls #tumblr polls

[kalmeria]

hey kori! how's your cold? are you feeling any better?

soo if you're in the mood to answer... what about 4, 5, 11, 14 and 21 from the enstars asks? sorry for asking so many, but i'm curious, haha ^^'

hello!! i’m feeling better, thank you for asking. still a bit sick but the brain fog is mostly gone at least~

answering these is fun so i might ramble on a bit haha

okay i ended up talking a lot a lot. so much that i’m putting a readmore here lmao

link to the secret codes that enable me to ramble about ensemble stars (aka the ask game)

4. what got you into enstars?

short answer is: wanted to play a new rhythm game!

long answer (i have a whole timeline lmaoo): my first encounter with enstars was watching the first episode of the anime when it came out (summer 2019). but honestly i didn’t enjoy it. the fact that anzu, who is such a central character, felt like a prop the others talked at… it was weird! i get that it’s because of her being the player character so to speak, but it still bothers me, and i find stories where she shows up a lot difficult to read.

fast forward to early 2021 when i followed a person on here who later turned out to be a big enstarrie. through them i was exposed to some wataei edits that made me go “wait this is gay?” but i mostly tuned it out as stuff on my dash i’m not that interested in. one mention of vampires did get my attention, and i ended up reading the tv tropes pages for a bunch of characters? the oddballs, valkyrie, switch, alkaloid. i could not understand what this “war” thing was.

then last autumn i got tired of the power creep in starira, my previous gacha game, and decided to try bandori garupa. found out i really enjoy rhythm games, so then i started playing d4dj and project sekai as well.

and then, around new years i think, i was sick and lying in bed, and ran into some enstars music related videos. notably one that was rating different rhythm games. and then there was a video of a bandori fan playing enstars for the first time that really sold it to me because of the shared point of reference.

i was still fighting my curiosity because enstars fans scared me, and i knew the immense amount of lore could easily suck me in and i didn’t really want that. so i decided to just watch the anime and see what the whole deal is… and then i did binge the whole thing and soon after downloaded the game (there was a minor setback of figuring out how to get an app that isn’t available in my region). i read the main story in like a week in february, and now i’m here!

(btw enstars replaced bandori in my mobile gaming, which i had kind of lost interest in at that time, and had just had the worst gacha luck trying to get a 4* moca card)

tl;dr (which is totally fair): wanted a new rhythm game to play, have heard about enstars and seen people be really into it, watched the anime -> it captured my interest

5. what's your favorite headcanon about the character you produce?

umm well this is not a fun one but it’s kind of an important one to me. i see tatsumi as someone who has dealt with being suicidal in the past, especially during his hiatus after the reimei incident, but before that as well. i think he processed it through his faith and through devoting himself to others, but it is also wrapped up in feelings of guilt about not respecting the value of a human life (his own) properly.

11. do you have a least favorite character?

i don’t really actively dislike any of the idols. the ones i like less than others are the ones i don’t really know well because i haven’t really read their stories. either because they didn’t manage to capture my interest, or in the aois case, i’ve just found that a lot of the ways identity and self comes up in their stories makes me uncomfortable, so i kind of don’t like reading them.

but i love seeing people who love these characters i’m not too focused on talk about them and why they love them. it’s really nice how everyone has their devoted fans!

that said, no one has managed to make me care about the two teachers.

14. what card are you currently saving for?

funny story!!!!!! (it’s not)

i am. saving for getto spectacle tatsumi.

and fs1 kohaku.

which will happen at the same time.

(pained smile) i know there is months to go until then, but in the meantime we’ll have fs mayoi, aira and hiiro, as well as ibara event scout. so i will have to make some decisions. oh and ariadne is right around the corner too….)

21. do you have a favorite story?

well. obbligato might be an obvious answer. and it is very high up there.

but i think in general i prefer the shorter stories? because the pacing of the long ones can be absolutely all over the place!

i quite like princess kaguya and ariadne. they do both have that typical enstars thing of having a central conflict that gets dragged out for quite a while and then very suddenly solved in a previously unforeseeable manner. but i’m giving these a free pass for having that conflict be interesting, as well as the character dynamics they explore.

oh and shoutouts to feather touch! i hadn’t considered it before as a favorite but as i was thinking about this question i realized that it’s a pretty solid story.

and i do just really love reading idol stories! they have a lot of fun casual interactions in them! (jun kohaku hiyori teatime, rinne praying to kanata, the runrun calamity, the ones where tatsumi and koga hang out, hiyori giving idol advice to kohaku, etc!)

#slow answer was originally bc i needed to make lunch #then it ended up because of the sheer length of this thing (i am very slow when it comes to writing/reading) #thank you for the ask and sorry about my rambling #i enjoyed answering :3 #asks #umilily #im too tired to read this back now #i could give you a tag of you are okay with that #ive been doing name + an emoji #lily🌊

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happy STS, morri! is there any symbolism used in your wip? sending good ~~vibes~~ for a great day ahead! - 🔮⛈

Hi Enchant!!! Happy STS!

In ATQH there kind of is??? I’d like there to be more, and to be more intentional with it, but at the moment, all I can say is that the color red is very important, and that roses are symbolic for several reasons.

I’ll edit this post and talk more about it when I’m back at my laptop and can ramble with ease and reliably put a cut. (Readmores have been iffy for me on mobile in the past, and I don’t feel like typing as much as I would want to on my phone atm.). So expect an update to this post sometime tomorrow.

UPDATE:

long ramble about clothing and colors as symbolism under the cut

So, Anvia’s royal colors (and hence, most of Fallon’s wardrobe) are black, gold, and red.  As a child, Fallon dressed however she wanted, wore a lot of colors, etc.  When she was crowned after her mother’s death, she started wearing the royal colors a lot more, particularly black.  While she’s not dressing like she’s in mourning or anything, and because it’s one of her house colors, wearing black isn’t a mourning thing for her anyways, Fallon has definitely dressed in a more subdued way since becoming Queen.  She had to leave behind a lot of her innocence and freedom in order to become Queen, and her fashion has reflected that.  Additionally, she’s been struggling mentally and isolating herself a lot for the past 5 years.

Throughout the story, though, Fallon starts to expand her wardrobe.  She adds accents of gold, starts wearing a little more jewelry, putting more effort into her appearance in general.  Not just because she wants to look nice for her visitors (and for Kristopher), but also because she has the mental energy and willpower to care what she looks like, and to want to dress nicely.  It’s a subtle way of showing her growing happier.

After Lavinia’s attack, Fallon starts backsliding, and her appearance suffers for it.  Not just because of the growing dark circles under her eyes, either.  She dresses a lot more plainly, because even just getting up and doing things is a lot more effort for her. 

But that aside, let’s talk about the red.  The color red has a lot of meanings, beyond just being one of Anvia’s royal colors.  It can represent love, passion, happiness, etc.  Lots of things.  (also anger, obviously)  And as Fallon starts making her wardrobe more colorful and fancy, bits of red start to creep in.  And the scenes where she’s wearing even just a little red are all very, very important ones.  So, if you see the word red in ATQH, I hope your eyes perk up, ajdksajd.

Also, roses are not just a traditional symbol of romance, but also have a very special connection to Fallon’s family.  Obviously, her mother’s name was Rosalynn, and she was named after her mother (Fallon’s grandmother)’s favorite flower.  So, roses are important to Fallon as part of her family history.  I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to work them in as symbolism super well, but they are important.

#Enchant 🔮 #morrigan replies #sts #sts asks #storyteller saturday #wip: atqh #red is one of the Oakes family colors but Fallon almost never wears it #when she does it’s very important. #Idk how much more I want to explain it but yeah #important stuff

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#5

For those who, for some reason, don't want to read my fic on Ao3, I shall post it here as well. As I am on mobile, I cannot put a Read More, so I apologize for the length of this.

Edit: Finally added a readmore on laptop.

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Unova was different from Sinnoh. It was nowhere near as cold for one. Dawn liked that. She liked the way the people of Unova didn’t bat an eye at her swinging and jumping walk, and how the native Pokémon differed from home. Unova had so much to do, and during the entire vacation, she and her mother had been on their feet. Dawn liked seeing the museum in Nacrene City. The lady that ran it had been nice to her, and indulged her questions from start to finish. When she had noticed that Dawn had focused on the fossil exhibit, she even gave her a small book about all the different fossil Pokémon currently revivable. She spent that evening reading it front to back. Come next morning, when she and her mother started on their journey to Castelia City, she chattered at her mother about her new book. How Archeops had feathers that were extremely hard to reconstruct because they were so delicate. How Kabutops had had gills and were in the first steps of becoming land-dwellers. How Bastiodon and Rampardos had been engaged in brutal wars for territory, and that there were still fossils being found of them locked in battle. The road passed Dawn by, and she didn’t really pay attention until they stepped onto the giant Skyarrow Bridge. Dawn liked the way it swayed in the wind, and how massive it was. 

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They left Castelia soon after arriving, neither of them too comfortable with the size of the skyscrapers. It was different to have a mountain looming over you compared to skyscrapers. The road to Nimbasa is dusty and dry, so different from any place in Sinnoh. They just didn’t have that there. Her mom gave her a Pokéball with Glameow on the route. Apparently she wanted Dawn to get used to throwing Pokéballs for a bit, and how to battle. She was due to start her journey once they came home, and she still couldn’t really throw the Pokéballs yet. Most instruction videos were for right handed people. Dawn wasn’t right handed. Her dad hadn’t been right handed either, if her mom was to be believed. At this point, Dawn could almost throw with her right hand, a basic aimed throw. Her left handed ones had little more flair, but she was proud of being able to use both hands when aiming. Barry certainly found it impressive. The sand on the route was a bit annoying, and Glameow certainly mewled in complaint, but she also liked Dawn, and all in all they managed to travel down the stretch of road and sand well. Dawn even got to fight a battle, with her mom’s permission. The hitchhiker she fought was very nice to her, and gave her a bit more prize money than necessary when she won.

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Nimbasa was loud. So much louder than any other place, but it was a good loud. Dawn liked it. Liked the lights, the fairgrounds, the energy. After they checked into their hotel, Dawn had proceeded to drag her mom all over town. The queue for the ferris wheel wasn’t long, and Dawn spent the whole ride basically glued to the window. It made her mom laugh. It was over far too quickly for her liking. Still, onwards they went. The sports stadiums were massive on a scale Dawn only knew from recordings of the Galar League, the open ceilings daunting and in her eyes weird. Especially for Pokémon battles. The weather could interfere even without weather-altering moves. That didn’t seem fair to Dawn. She told her mom so, receiving a contemplative hum in return. Her mom apparently hadn’t considered it. In the end, they both declared the Galarians mad, before moving on to the Musical Theater. Her mom wanted to see how a musical compared to the contests back home. Dawn didn’t really understand why her mom liked those so much, but the musical was interesting. The choreography was neat, and Dawn even got to throw some flowers onto the stage. It was the last thing they did that day, and when they entered their hotel room, Dawn thought that had been a day well spent. Unova was so much cooler than Sinnoh.

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That evening, they put on the TV in their room, and cuddled up on the bed. They switched channels for a while until they found a program about Unova’s best battlers. It would prove to be the one thing to forever change Dawn’s classic plan of going onto a journey just to see her region. She didn’t really know what kind of trainer she wanted to be. Barry knew what he wanted to be already. He wanted to be the champion. And why wouldn't he? His dad ran the Battle Frontier as a Tower Tycoon. Dawn just… didn't know. Research was a possible avenue, but that didn't speak to her nearly as much. Now though, as she sat in front of the TV with her mom, she was treated to the best of the best. Unova's gym leaders, their elite four, and finally, the leaders of the resident battle facility. For a moment she was confused, when only two people were on the screen. After all, just about every battle facility she heard of so far had at least four leaders. And yet, Unova only had two. She leaned closer. The announcer spoke of them being residents to Nimbasa, and how Gear Station and the Battle Subway were open to everyone and not just league winners. Slowly, a plan began to form in her mind. A plan only reinforced once the battles finally started. The leaders (Subway bosses, the announcer had called them) worked together like a well oiled machine, and Dawn couldn't help the fascination that built. On the side, her Mom made appreciative noises as well. Finally, once the program ended, Dawn turned to her mom.

"Mom? Can we visit the Battle Subway tomorrow?" Her mom said yes.

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Gear Station was a busy place. Walking down the stairs from the entrance, Dawn saw so many more people than she thought possible. In one corner, people had set up instruments and were playing something that sounded like swing, with what looked like some employees laughing and dancing along a bit. Close by to that scene were the food courts and more people who milled about. Dawn took care not to let go of her mom's hand as they walked through the place, until they stopped at an information booth. Dawn barely listened, too much in awe of the place, as her mom asked if they would be able to enter the multi-line if Dawn didn't have a license, and if it would be okay for her to use her mom's team. The lady behind the counter set her mom's worries aside, and soon enough, Dawn got handed the Pokéballs for Glameow and Kangashkan by her mother, as they walked onto the platform of the multi-line. The resident depot-agent registered them after a short wait, before leading them to the subway train. Dawn palmed Glameow's Pokéball as the train started moving.

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Dawn had always thought her mom's contest stuff was mainly to look pretty. Now she saw that that wasn't really the case, and that both Glameow and Umbreon hit hard and fast, while making it look ridiculously easy. Dawn alternated between throwing styles, and which Pokémon she sent out first, never quite sure what would work best. She wanted to see all the ways she could fight, and her mom indulged her gladly. Dawn wasn't bad at battling. Sure, she had passed her license exams, and was due to get it on her next birthday since she had been born literally a day after the cutoff for this year's class, but that hadn't been a proper battling environment. The subway was more challenging, people didn't take it easy on her and her mom just because she was young. Dawn liked it. 

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Seven wins. Fourteen wins. Twenty. They had spent all day inside subway cars, and somehow had gotten so far. Dawn would have to brag to Barry about that once she came home. She looked up at her mom, a wide and toothy grin on her face. Her mom mirrored her, albeit with a smaller smile. They healed their team, before they proceeded into the last car. Two people waited for them. Black and white, mirrors in just about every way. One frowned, one smiled like Dawn did. Toothy and wide. Too wide, maybe. There was a glint in his eyes that the show on TV hadn't managed to capture at all. 

"Congratulations on making it this far." Oh. The black twin was loud. 

"I am the Subway Boss Ingo. The fellow to my left is Emmet." The white twin took that as a sign to start talking.

"I am Emmet. As Ingo said, I am a Subway Boss. I run the Double Train. Today I will fight together with Ingo." He fixed his cap, eyes focused on Dawn.

"What I do. What I say. Always the same." Oh. Oh. Dawn felt herself mirror Emmet's widening grin. Felt herself palm Glameow's Pokéball.

"Follow the rules. Safe driving! Follow the schedule. Everybody smile! Check safety. Everything’s ready! Aim for victory! " On his side, Ingo began to move.

"Let us see if you shall reach victory today." Dawn felt giddy. They were like her. She recognized how Emmet talked. She did that. She clenched Glameow's Pokéball in her left hand. Opposite of her and her mom, the twins pointed. And then, they called. A call that Dawn would forever remember.

"ALL ABOARD!"

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Emmet liked this girl. She had the look of someone who would go far. He recognized it from the mirror. He was reasonably sure she recognized him having it. She fought well, if clumsy. He remembered the way her registration had steadily climbed the leaderboard, until he and Ingo got the basic information on her and her partner. She was ten going on eleven. Sinnohan. No trainer license yet, born just after the cutoff date. She would start her journey at eleven. Her mother was a coordinator, officially retired. Emmet had an appreciation for contests. They used combinations. They used them well. This girl couldn't use them well yet. She would do so in time. For now, however, she would lose. Galvantula dealt the finishing blow. The Glameow her mother lent her fainted, and Emmet made a small note to himself that the girl had managed to make the Glameow last until it was the last team member still standing. She held out longer than her experienced mother. 

"I am Emmet. You lost against me and Ingo today. That isn't bad. You were really strong! This was a fun battle." He felt his smile grow, and clapped.

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#4

Submas Autistic Joy Week 2022, Day 6: Special Interest/Teaching

A group of school children and their teacher take an excursion to Gear Station

"Now kids, remember to stay in line and listen to what the people at Gear Station have to say, yes?" The voices of the teacher and her class of children are loud enough to rival Ingo. It makes several Depot Agents look up, one raising her hand in a signal to inform the bosses.

"Hello and welcome to Gear Station!" She calls out to the teacher, putting on her best child-friendly smile. "You are the group from the Nimbasa Primary School, right?"

"Yes! Thank you so much again for making this possible." The teacher replies cheerfully, keeping all twenty children in check.

"The bosses will come in a moment. Until then, I'll be your guide. Come, I can show you the way to the meeting room." The Depot Agents clasps her hands behind her back. "For you kids, I'm Depot Agent Hana." A chorus of squeaky voices tells her hi, before she leads them into a Ducklett's March. "Boss Ingo? Boss Emmet? Your visitors are here!" 

"We will arrive in a moment!" 

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Emmet claps his hands in delight.

"Alright, children. I am Subway Boss Emmet Carril. I work here, and I run the Subway with my brother Ingo." 

"I am Ingo Carril. It's good to meet you all." Ingo gives a quick nod, making the children giggle a bit. "Your teacher told us that you are here today to learn about trains and how to ride them."

"That is verrry good!" Emmet nods. "Ingo and I know a lot about them! So we will try our best to teach you." His eyes swerve around, landing on a child with a raised arm.

"Yes?"

"Why do you talk so funny? You stretched that word all weird!" The child swings his legs, gap-toothed grin on full display.

"Is it weird? It's how I talk. I have done it for a long time." Emmet tilts his head. "That was rude of you."

"Sorry." It's a bit flippant, still earnest though.

"Apology accepted. Now, we have derailed! Ingo, if you would?" Emmet's smile stretches further.

"Ah, certainly. Now, let me tell you about Gear Station. Tell me if I use too many big words, I am not always aware I do so." Ingo hits a button on a remote, activating a projector. "This is Gear Station. You entered here when you came here, right?" Ingo taps a bit of the image projected onto the board. "That is the entrance. I'm sure you saw it while Depot Agent Hana led you here, but Gear Station is round." He switches the image. "We did not build Gear Station, and we have worked here for a long time now, but even we don't quite know why it's round." He winks at the children. "We have a few platforms inside Gear Station, and it's easy to know which is which. Does anyone have an idea why?" A few arms shoot up. "You there, please." Ingo points at a little girl.

"Do the trains have different names?" Her question makes a few children snicker.

"Not a bad idea! Some trains do have names, but we don't usually drive them here." He nods. "How about you?"

"Are there signs?" A boy this time, with hair sticking up wildly.

"There are! Very good. We have eight platforms here, and every platform has signs. There is another helpful thing though. Do you see these stripes here?" He zooms in on the picture. "Every stripe means something different, and they help you find where you need to go." Ingo nods, before stepping back and allowing Emmet to take over again.

"Now, Ingo said we have eight platforms here. Did you know that the subways here are not just for getting somewhere? We also have battle trains." Emmet starts, hands moving about as he talks. "There are two trains that you are not allowed to battle on. The train to Anville Town, and the Blue line." He hums for a moment. "These trains are not able to hold attacks! It's verrry dangerous."

"Now even a tackle?" 

"No, not even that. Do you know why?" Emmet leans closer, a spark in his eye. "Pokémon are all verrrry strong! I saw a young Rattata defeat a full grown Charizard." Murmurs of awe.

"And that was only a small Rattata. Now imagine if a Bouffalant tackled the train! That won't be good. The train might fall over, and that will injure people." 

"And we don't like having accidents. It's very bad if one happens, so always be very careful." Ingo adds.

"Yes! Not just in the trains! Also in Gear Station, but that is for later." Emmet taps his foot. "I said there are six Battle Lines. In every Battle Line, you can find Pokémon Trainers to fight against while the train moves. In two, you can only fight single battles. Ingo runs these trains! I run the Double lines, where you fight with two Pokémon at once. And together, we run the Multi lines, where you fight with a partner." 

"So can you only ride those trains if you're a trainer?" 

"No! You can ride them even when you aren't a trainer. But you are not allowed to enter the battle cars." 

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#2

so, I've recently started reading this utterly glorious fic called "There's Blood on your lies" by HopeStoryteller on Ao3, where Cynthia becomes the protag of PLA. last chapter, Cynthia got mistaken for Volo due to having her hair tied back, and I had the urge to draw her, and that then became me drawing Volo as well, and their pokemon, togepi and Flint Jr. the Cyndaquil.

127 notes - Posted March 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I just had to draw fanart for @doodledrawsthings Shadow of Shady Shore. Peak designs, we all need big shadow creatures.

467 notes - Posted January 24, 2022

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RE: Number asks--4, 7, 8, 9, 10, 13, 14, 15, 16, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 28, 30, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, and 44. (Apologies in advance for the interview dump--and feel free to ask any back to me that you want! XD)

sorry this took a bit! my computer's been crap the last couple of days and answering this on mobile was a no-go :^) (if i already answers some, then i didn't re-answer them here!)

i am putting this under a readmore cause it's a little long, and there is a potentially triggering answer (with TWs on it)

4:Do you drink? - sometimes! not very often tbh, and when i do it's USUALLY just one drink tops

8:Want any tattoos? - YES!! the best tattoo idea i've ever had and desperately want is a tattoo of a grape on my finger tip so that when my fingers prune it becomes a raisin :))

but also i want this symbol tattood on in honor of alex <3:

but also also.... i want a bunch more too :) i want to get a cool sleeve tattoo that travels over my back and down the other arm

10:Want any piercings? - not really, i'm not big on wearing jewelry and the piercings i do have are empty for most of the year

14:Biggest turn offs - physical intimacy that isn't initiated by me. mansplainers. i dont really knwo what else to put here bc i don't necessarily even get turned on LMAO

16:I’ll love you if - this is a hard one because i already love everybody, i love all my little friends and followers here on tumblr dot com

18:Most traumatic experience - (TW: suicidal thoughts (not mine), knives) once when I was younger, i was home with just my older brother and my mom. out of nowhere my mom starts yelling and crying and me and my brother rush over to her and she's so obviously in pain and she's yelling about how her head feels like it wants to explode. (found out later she was having a really terrible migraine). my brother was trying to calm her down and we were trying to figure out what to do. i remember her saying, very clearly, that she wanted to take a knife and stick it through her ears to get the pain to stop. that she wanted to die because it hurt so bad. my brother kept an eye on her while he called our neighbors to come help. i went and took all of our steak knives and hid them. just in case we couldn't stop her. i was just a kid. i didn't know what else to do. but after so many years, that situation has stuck in my head, and it makes me extremely afraid of other people in pain. my mom's had a lot of health issues over the years and there have been times that she's in intense pain and i've always just froze up. and i would try to prepare myself to hold her down if i had to, like my brother was prepared to do back then. and sometimes i would wonder if i need to hide the knives again. (it never got so bad again, though, thankfully)

20:What I hate most about myself - i have a tendency to self-isolate when i'm feeling down or anxious and that only makes me feel WORSE and i hate it so much. im working on getting thru that tho

22:What I want to be when I get older - an artist and writer :) BUT!! also would be very interested in being an anthropologist still, too

24:My relationship with my parent(s) - strained a lot of the time, but it does a lot better when we're not living under the same roof. i love my parents, but they have a lot of room to improve, and i don't think they will. they love me, too, and they've helped me out a lot when shit has fallen apart, which i'm endlessly thankful for. but i don't know if they would love all of me if i came out which strains the relationship on my side which frustrates them and it's just. woof. we have stuff to work through lol but i'm not ready yet.

26:My biggest pet peeves - self deprecation as a form of humor, and refusing to take care of your body's basic needs even with a reminder to do so. neither one is funny or cute or quirky. it's annoying as shit. when my friends do it i want to throttle them (with love)

28:A description of the person I dislike the most - genuinely cannot think of a person i dislike the most

30:What I hate the most about work/school - i am taken advantage of because i'm a good worker and im a doormat so they just keep getting away with it >:(

32:What words upset me the most - when other people call me stupid or dumb or otherwise imply i'm not smart. when people try to control and box me in re: my sexuality as if they have any authority on that.

34:What I find attractive in women - everything :)

36:Where I would like to live - denver colorado! or really any place with mountains that gets relatively cold

38:My childhood career choice - volcanologist! (still kinda want that tbh) and firefighter, like my dad.

40:Who I wish I could be - i'm pretty happy being myself tbh

42:The last thing I ate - strawberry toaster strudels for breakfast

44:A random fact about anything - the plural of the word "beef" is "beeves"

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Hi Mushie! <3

I saw you rb'd a post about anons sending you questions so I am sending you some questions... except Im not on anon :P

If you don't feel like answering (all of) these thats completely fine too!! These were just off the top of my head! (Btw sorry for how long this ask is, you can't put readmore's in asks sadly)

1. What would you say is your fav color/ are your top three fav colors?

2. Sunrises or sunsets?

3. Fav animals as a kid vs now?

4. Current fav song if you have one atm/ how often do you listen to music?

5. Do you like to sing?

6. What do you like most about your art? What got you into drawing?

7. Whats the best season/weather?

8. Do you like thunderstorms? Do you like snow?

9. Do you have plants? If yes, how many?

10. Did you drink enough water today? If no, drink some rn this is a threath!

Juno 💗🥺 I love long asks so no need to apologize! For whatever reason mobile also doesn’t ever let me do the “read more” thingy so, I’m used to it 😂 The questions are a welcoming distraction so thank you, I appreciate you so much 😭

1. Okay my all time favorite color is like a teal blue-green? Like if you look up “blue green crayola crayon” that’s my favorite 😂 But second and third favs would have to be probably lavender and mint green maybe? Black also tbh

2. I am literally obsessed with the sky at any time of day, but I prefer evening / nights. I love cotton candy sunsets and starry nights ✨

3. When I was little I think it went in order from giraffe to elephants to wolves to cows to sharks to orcas….I still love all of them now but I’d say cats, orcas and sharks are my top 3. I have tattoos of an orca and a cat, I’m gonna get one of a shark too! (*an extra bit of mushie lore: I have a half sleeve on my left forearm that’s just all animals so rn I have the cat and orca, a moth, and a snake! My next one is gonna be the shark for sure)

4. OOF music related questions. More ~mushie lore~, I was a music nerd. I was in band, choir, advanced choir, music theory, marching band, theatre…..etc. I also was a music major in college 😬 So you can imagine how often I’m surrounded by music. I listen to it every single day, I don’t know how people go without it. I’d say right now, I’m currently just listening to Sabrina Carpenters new album “emails I can’t send” on repeat. But from THAT album, I’d say “because I liked a boy” OR “how many things” are the two I listen to the most! All time fav song…..that is genuinely so hard to pick but maybe “I love you” by Billie Eilish bc it always hurts me in the best way

5. I do be singing literally daily 😂 I used to get leads in musicals and stuff but I also don’t think I’m very good. BUT that being said I’ve had multiple people try and make me audition for shows like the x factor lmfao so do whatever you’d like with that information

6. So at the moment I’m not really sure there’s anything I like about my art. I’m kind of in a funk where I think everything I do just isn’t really that good. Which is dumb and not true! Because I know that I’ve been proud of things I’ve made. But yeah…I’m not sure. How I got into art was actually through my dad. He would always have canvases at his house and he would always encourage me to create stuff. So when I was younger and throughout like grade school I was really good, I was in advanced art classes and groups and in art shows and all that. But I kind of got out of it for a bit and just started up again in 2020. And I’m definitely more of a painter now, although I have been mainly drawing to try and get skill back

7. best season hands down is autumn. My favorite weather is stormy and cloudy, a little chilly so I can just wear a big sweater or hoodie and feel nice and cozy

8. Oop, I kind of answered the thunderstorm question. As for snow…..not really. I think it’s beautiful to look at and I love when it’s cold outside, but I don’t like being outside in it or driving in it

9. I have HELLA plants. Except they’re all fake 😎 I have probably around 20-30 in my room, I have an issue

10. It’s 9AM but I haven’t slept in like 36 hours so I don’t know what counts as today and what doesn’t….I have coffee currently and I have water!

Juno you are a lovely human and I am so grateful to have you in my inbox 💗

#cayjuno #asks #mushie lore #you guys learned a lot today #thank u juno srsly like #my brain hates me rn and this was a much needed distraction

[hornedrunaway]

The Rules of Play

1. Don’t metagame. Let characters learn about each other over time instead of just having them automatically know all of my characters’ secrets.

2. Anon hate will be flamed all to hell, where Asmodeus can deal with it accordingly. Seriously, though, don’t be an asshole or a coward. If you have an issue with something I’m doing, DM me so we can talk it out and reach a solution.

3. Don’t godmod. I play my character, you play yours, and we have a fun time. NPCs are fair game, though! This also means giving my character a chance to respond, defend, flee, etc. Don’t just assume they’re going to react the way you want them to.

4. This one is unique in that I have never done it for any of my other characters/blogs on here, but a lot of the time, I will be rolling a D20 to see how well my characters perform in certain scenarios, much like in D&D. I don’t expect anyone else to roll for their character’s actions, and no one else has to do it. I just want to because it puts a fun little spin on things on my end.

5. If you have an issue with my friends, you have an issue with me. I don’t do ooc drama. Trying to turn me against one of my other partners is an instant hard block.

6. I’m mostly if not entirely on mobile. If I can’t find your rules or about pages while on my phone, I probably won’t write with you. Nothing personal, I just need the accessibility.

7. I don’t play with FC hunters. If you only want to play with my muse because of the FC I use, we’re not compatible. I will block you if I see any tags like ‘wanted opposite’ or ‘wanted ship’ or anything to that effect.

8. Bigotry of any kind won’t be tolerated.

9. I’m down to play in any universe that I don’t already have a verse for, as long as I have an open line of communication with my partner as far as development goes. Could be an AU where Angel was born into that universe, or an Isekai where he gets shunted to that universe from one of my existing verses (tagged with that verse tag and an Isekai tag). Magic is fun to play with, after all.

10. I don’t send in passwords. It fucks with my anxiety. I always read rules and about pages, usually several times over. In fact, I tend to revisit them from time to time because I have a terrible memory.

11. This is an 18+ blog. Minors and blogs with no age listed will be blocked. Nothing personal, just legal shit, y’know?

12. I’m mentally ill and preparing to move out in the next couple of months, so if I disappear for a little bit without warning, I’m sorry. It happens, whether I mean to or not. I’ll come back, I swear.

13. Lastly, the Mun and Muses are all over 18, so mature and NSFW things will definitely happen, but I will not write straight up smut unless it’s with a partner I know very well and can trust. I use a readmore when doing so. I am more than happy to explore darker themes, such as addiction/alcoholism, blood/guts/gore, torture/body horror(to an extent. No removing body parts, please!), death/dying/near death, depression, etc. If you are uncomfortable with something, please let me know! I will do my best to tag trigger warnings.

#🎲sort of the dm🎲; ooc

[clericfication]

hello! this might be a bit of an overreach, and you can feel free to ignore this ask, but as someone with chronic illness/pain, how do you, for lack of a better word, function? i've never been in the position before where i've had to take things like advil or tylenol daily to not be in pain all the time and i'm absolutely going to speak to my physician about what to do but i thought that maybe as part of the community you could tell me what is common? i don't think it's good to do it long term?

hi - no worries! this turned out longer than i meant it to, so i’m putting the majority of it under a read more (or at least attempting to, i’m on mobile so let’s see if this works LOL)

i’ve had to adjust my definition of “functioning”. everybody’s different and my idea of functioning may not be your’s or the next person’s. so for me, functioning is just doing what i can on a day-to-day basis. planning for what needs to be done and allocating when to do it helps me.

:readmore:

so for a couple of examples - if i need to go to the store, i plan it for the next “high” energy day i have or i plan for it to be the only major thing i do in a day. if i have to lead a meeting, i schedule it in the mid-morning, since that’s when i have both the energy and the clear head most days. you’ll slowly be able to figure out what takes more energy and what’s easier to do as you go. (if you haven’t heard of spoon theory, i’d suggest looking it up! it’s tangential to this conversation)

but there are days where i can get a lot done and there are days like the day i had yesterday, which was a Real Fucking Bad Day™️. i was exhausted to the point of not being able to think straight, every part of my body ached, and the majority of my joints were giving me shooting pains that would happen both when i moved and randomly. my joints normally pop every so often, but it was to the point where one of my coworkers pointed out that my joints snapped and popped every. time. i. moved. i did what absolutely had to be completed and that was it - nothing more.

today’s an easier day and closer to what my normal is - my “normal” tiredness is back and it’s only my problem areas giving me issues, though i’m still struggling hard with energy levels because of how much energy i had to put into just existing yesterday. i’ve been able to complete more than just the bare minimum, but it’s not close to what i can do on my normal days.

on my normal days, where it’s just the tiredness and the pain i typically deal with, i still do the same things with planning and allocating where i put my energy because i keep learning the hard way that if i ignore my body and push myself too hard, everything will get real bad, real fast.

so maybe your functioning works like mine and it fluctuates or maybe you’re in a different situation, but i’d encourage you to define what functioning means to you in the way that best helps you in your situation and in living your day-to-day life (and your mental health, because societal standards certainly don’t help with the emotions surrounding chronic issues). i guess my ultimate advice is: don’t hold yourself to impossible standards and be gentle with yourself.

as for the tylenol/advil part, i’d first like to make a disclaimer: one, i’m not a medical professional. two, like a medical professional, i too can make mistakes XD i also can’t speak for the community at large, but i can at least say what i know for people i know

that being said, it depends on how much you’re taking and how often. most sources say that, as long as you’re taking less than the maximum dosage per every 24 hours, you should be fine. there are health risks associated with long term use, but a good majority of the people who i know who aren’t on a specific pain treatment plan take an otc painkiller on a daily basis (myself included at this point) - just watch how much you’re taking

granted, i don’t know your medical history, so i would definitely recommend following your plan of asking your physician - they’ll be able to give you specifics surrounding your history, situation, and what to do or not do!

i feel like rambled, so hopefully this helps in some capacity! i also feel like i’m missing something i wanted to say, so i’ll come back and add an edit at the end of this if i remember 😅 but my askbox is always open!

#health stuff #asks

[lorata]

Do Claudius and Alec still become close without Selene as a link in the injured-Creed AU? And would Petra be jealous that Alec "only" lost an arm and not his mobility?

the short answer to question 2 is no! they are kin in that regard. as for question 1 -- HERE HAVE FIC (under the readmore)

District 2 gets its first back-to-back Victors in 30 years, and that’s … fine.

Claudius is twenty-five years old, he’s not a baby or a jealous teenager who needs to sabotage what other people have just because it isn’t his. Petra and Alec won hard Games and came out scarred, he’s not going to deny they deserve to have someone their age who understands them. Be nice to know what that felt like, but whatever, the deaths didn’t fall in his favour, it’s fine. Petra hates him, but now she’s got a buddy, and he’s even missing a limb so she doesn’t even have to resent his privileged existence. Now they can go have tea parties and bitch about all the privileged able-bodied assholes who just don’t get what it’s like.

Lyme asks if Claudius wants to meet Alec, once he’s cleared for visitors, but Claudius begs off. He sends cookies along with everyone else, but he’s not going to put the poor kid in an awkward position of sitting through an afternoon playing nice with the weird dude from that year nobody talks about, and the thought of Alec going over to Petra’s and laughing about it afterward is excruciating. That really is the hallmark of getting old, caring what the kids think of him, but you know what, he’s allowed to have his feelings.

Sometimes Claudius wonders if this is how Enobaria felt when he won, but then he remembers bleeding out onto her hardwood while she stepped over him and went to bed and he thinks, ah, actually, probably not.

So the kids have a friend for life and Claudius is a loner and it’s fine. It’s fine. He’s got his mentor, and he has Misha, who must have some kind of weird emotional radar because she ramps up the harassment and stealth gifts of profane embroidery until Claudius snaps at her to fuck off and leave him alone. Except that later that night she climbs in his window with a loaf of soft, pull-apart bread and containers of Snow only knows to dip it in and turns on a terrible spy movie and paints his nails glittery black while they eat like he didn’t just bite her head off that afternoon, and okay, maybe he doesn’t need to be quite so tragic about it.

Around October, he runs into Alec in the apple orchard. Or rather, Alec runs into him.

There’s no way around it; Claudius is coming back from the mountain and there’s Alec on the path, feet planted, one arm wrapped around his chest. He’s got his head tilted, chin raised, and a stubborn look on his face.

Oh, Claudius thinks in a crackle of clarity. Thisis how Enobaria felt when he showed up at her house at three in the morning spoiling for a fight.

“Hi,” he says, because he’s the elder now and that means he has to be mature, but at the same time he probably should have checked with Callista about whether she’s okay with her twitchy baby Victor getting in knife-fights with the Village recluse.

Alec studies him for a long moment, eyes narrowed. “You’re avoiding me.”

He says it calm and matter of fact, and Claudius’ first impulse is to sputter out a denial. Instead he bites his tongue and rolls back on his heels. “Oh?”

“Everybody else has come by to say hi.”

“Bullshit.” By the Victory Tour, sure, but mid-fall is still way too early for the whole Village to make a personal appearance. At that point Claudius was still looking for knives when he rounded a corner. “What is this about?”

For the first time a bit of the challenge slips, revealing the tired kid around the mouth and the circles below the eyes. But it’s not just the long exhaustion of recovery, there’s something else in the curve of his eyebrows, the play of fingertips along his hem. “It’s not like I don’t know. I’m the same age. As — those kids. In your Arena.”

He — what?

Time for math. Claudius always sucked at reading but he can do Games calculations just fine, thanks, and yeah, Alec winning the 73rd would put him at twelve the same year as all the outlier tributes Claudius’ year. Suddenly Claudius feels very old and very tired and very much like he has not had enough therapy to identify what the fuck is wrong with this picture. “Uh,” Claudius says, intelligently. “Okay, I don’t know what you think is happening here, but — that is not it. You think I’m avoiding you because you remind me of the kids I killed?”

Alec flushes dark, but to his credit, he doesn’t back down. And yeah, okay, Claudius has his own issues, but the last thing a new Victor needs in his recovery is thinking his very existence is someone else’s trauma-bomb. This seems like the kind of thing Callista should have brought to his attention, but maybe Alec never mentioned it. Keeping it a secret from his mentor and confronting the possibly volatile, hostile, triggered Victor in the apple orchard seems like exactly the kind of dumbass strategy a young Victor would come up with, so … yeah, why not.

He also can’t leave it like that, and not only because Callista will gut him and feet him to her cats for breakfast. Claudius sighs and heroically resists the urge to pinch his nose. “We’re not going to solve this on the path. Come back with me and we’ll — something.”

Alec gives him the side-eye as Claudius brushes past him, but even Claudius can’t ignore the way he’s no longer holding himself like there’s a sword jammed up his spine.

‘Something’ turns out to be cookies, because Alec isn’t cleared for fighting and Claudius can’t stand the thought of sitting on the couch and staring at each other while the awkwardness fills the room like poison gas. Baking is … good, right, who doesn’t love baking, except he didn’t think about how many simple tasks use both hands and has to keep switching out what he’s about to ask Alec to do. Normally he’d give him stirring, that’s the baby task, but it’s a bitch and a half when you can’t hold the bowl still, and Alec can sit and trap the bowl between his thighs — or Claudius can trust him to measure ingredients without fucking up.

They’re Careers. Careers are good at following instructions with precision. Not everyone has a pathological need to reinvent the wheel like Misha. It’ll be fine.

“For what it’s worth, I never thought about you being twelve,” Claudius says over the bowl of butter and sugar. “It’s not even about the math, it’s — all of that is before. We are who we are when we walk through those gates, nothing else matters. Talking about a Victor’s life before Residential is super weird. It feels … not illegal, that’s a big dramatic, but … I don’t know the word for it. What’s the opposite of classy?”

“Gauche?” Alec suggests, and huh, okay, Claudius has heard Brutus use five-dollar words with military precision and ridiculous satisfaction precisely because he knows no one expects him to, but it didn’t sound like that. He’ll blame Alec for this given their conversation, but Claudius can’t help the tiny checkbox that appears in his head saying educated.

“I was gonna say rude as shit, but sure, let’s go with that. It’s gauche.” He doesn’t say it with a Capitol accent, which should earn him a reward, but instead he reaches out for the bowl of eggs. Alec had cracked them both one-handed with the kind of satisfaction that spoke to a hell of a lot of practice. Claudius imagines Callista rolling up with a bucketload of eggs — oddly charming. “Your life is your business, you know? I never even did the math before.”

“Okay.” Alec says it slowly, but he doesn’t argue. Which is good, because honestly, the thought of anyone imagining Claudius as a twelve-year-old is absolutely mortifying. “So then … why?”

Oh, boy. Here’s where Claudius will give it up for the new kid, he’s way braver than Claudius ever was. He might have knocked on Enobaria’s door in the middle of the night and demanded she fight him, but he never would have had the guts to ask her why she didn’t want to be his friend. In training they used to bark at candidates for leaving openings in their guard; Claudius has no words for whatever this is.

“I guess I just thought it would be weird.” The sun’s at the right angle to shine through the kitchen window, catching the light of the little prism hung from the frame and scattering rainbows across the ceiling. “I’ve been out a while, you and Petra are back to back. You didn’t need any third-wheeling.”

Alec wrinkles his nose. “We’re not dating. That wouldn’t even work.”

Claudius does not mention that only one generation is Misha, a woman who likes women, and Devon, a man who’s into men, who are in fact dating. He didn’t learn that little fact until at least a year in, and Alec isn’t anywhere near either Brutus or Lyme’s mentoring lines, so he won’t likely hear of that for a while unless Petra’s into gossip. He nearly hands Alec a knife, pauses, weighs asking a fresh Victor if he’s cleared for knives versus the likelihood that they’ll lie to get their hands on one, then passes over the chocolate block and snags a paper bag from the cupboard instead. “Here,” he says. “Smash this.”

“Smash —“ Alec blinks.

“Buying broken chocolate is stupid,” Claudius says, and Alec lets out a startled snort. “Hit it with a hammer, or throw it on the ground and stomp on it. It’s cathartic.” See, he knows some educated words, when it counts.

They get the dough in the fridge to chill and retire to the couch. Alec doesn’t react with surprise or disbelief like Claudius did the first time he learned that step, which puts him in a rare fucking box indeed, the ‘we made cookies when I was small’ box, where Claudius normally puts abnormally wholesome people like Emory or Devon. Even Petra, for all her issues, has the requisite fucked-up childhood. Alec tucks his feet under him and massages his shoulder absently; for his part Claudius isn’t sure what he’s supposed to do now. Misha needs constant entertainment, like a bored puppy, or she’ll decide to rearrange his furniture or plait his hair into dozens of tiny braids with ribbons on the ends, but Alec seems content to sit.

“Okay, so.” Alec stares intently at his feet. His socks have cats on them, holding hands in a circle around his ankle and singing at the moon, which Claudius didn’t notice before and now cannot stop looking at. “I don’t want to be rude or whatever, but you know you can have more than one friend? This isn’t the Arena, we’re not claiming Allies.”

“Have you told Petra that?” Claudius shoots back, because it’s better than pointing out that actually, in the Village, it has historically been exactly like that. Friendships are made or broken along hierarchy lines, he and Petra never gelled and now that she has Alec that should be it. He’d be an asshole to poach her new best friend. He’d even call precedent to defend his concerns, except that the decade above them has Emory, Misha and Devon defying expectations, and, shit.

Alec shoots him a look so dry and exasperated he may as well have peeled it right out of the Brutus photo album. Claudius is impressed. “See, this is starting to sound like a you problem.”

Claudius stares at him for a second, then can’t help a short laugh. “Did anyone tell you you’re a little bitchy?”

“Long history of swallowing bullshit, I don’t have to do it anymore.” Alec grins at him, sharp with an undercurrent of — something he’s not saying. Interesting. Maybe it wasn’t all cookies and five-dollar words after all. “Seriously though. I won the Games, I get to ask for what I want now. Callista says so.”

Okay, see, now, that sounds — Claudius slants a sharp look at him, but Alec seems happy enough to examine the fireplace, chin resting on his knee. He probably imagined it. “Okay, well.” He runs a hand through his hair. “We can bring the cookies over and see if she throws them in my face, how’s that.”

“She won’t,” Alec says, brightening, and yeah all right, fine, it’s not the worst to find that gnarled knot of resentment in his chest and let it go. “Not if you have nutmeg.”

“Oh, you’re one of those, I see.” Claudius nudges him with his foot. “Secret Emory under all that sass, I see you. Come on, let’s check the dough.”

#lorata answers #anonymous #oc: alec seward #oc: claudius #we must be killers: tales from district 2 #injured creed au #my writing

[boncorner]

Character Analysis: Karamatsu

Conclusion before we start:

So I've recently gotten back into Osomatsu-san after being away for a long time, and I have just finished season 2, season 3, and seen the movie. This means that my memory of season 1 is a bit fuzzy, and season 2 may have taken me some time to fully process again.

Yesterday I decided to try and get back into roleplaying again, and of course, I would first have to break down Karamatsu's character before I could do that.

This analysis will not contain details about season 2, and keep in mind that I have yet to rewatch season 1, there may be things I need to look over again to remember or draw parallels to. This is purely from memory! In time I'll deep-dive for sure. Also keep in mind that I did this privately just to solidify the character for myself, so if anything seems hasty, it's because I was kinda spit-balling

But yeah, spoilers for season 1, 2 to some extent, 3 and also the movie!

Also sorry for the lack of a readmore, mobile Tumblr lost the rights to have them I guess,,

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Season One Observations

• Karamatsu is flashy and bothering everyone with his fashion-sense and catchphrases.

• His behaviour could be seen as narcissistic, but much more so delusional;

- He seems to almost live in a different world from everyone else, even saying things that have no relation to the topic at hand at all.

- He talks himself up like he's irresistible and that everything he does and comes up with is genius.

- He carries around a pocket mirror and continuously wears clothes with his own face on them.

• His relationship with his brothers is very poor, where they continuously forget about him, dismiss him or ignore him. It does sometimes go so far as to escalating to physical abuse, many times for no reason at all.

• However, his own relationship with his brothers is much different;

- He continuously seeks their approval, going so far as to do insane and dangerous things for the sake of them being happy (to comedic extents mostly)

- Despite all the abuse, he just takes it, and will despite it all, still go on about how they're all precious to him.

- Also when push comes to shove, he doesn't always come through for them either... It's more like he looks for their love than actually trying to actively achieve it, in these circumstances.

• Despite the love he shows towards them, he never does conform to their wishes and expectations. He continues on dressing and acting however he wants, despite their complaints.

• At the very end of the season, he shows to care deeply for his brothers once more, and showing a more sensible and responsible side of himself. He cares about them all intensely, and since Osomatsu doesn't take his role as the eldest seriously, he feels the need to step in and act it out in his place. There's clearly a disconnect between him and his brothers, but he will still do anything for them. Even go between them. It's shown that there's clearly more going on in that head of his than he lets on.

Current Thoughts

[Spoilers for the movie]

This behaviour could be a response to his lack of confidence as a teenager, where he was a scaredy-cat that sort of lingered behind everyone and never got his voice heard. It is clear that he eventually tried to "reinvent" himself, as seen when he joins drama class, despite clearly being shy, fragile and introverted.

This could possibly be when he got introduced to the idea of acting.

Acting puts you in somebody else's shoes. It makes you feel less self-concious about yourself, if you can pull off an act that you're being somebody else. Roleplaying, living in the moment, feeling feelings that might not be your own.

However I don't necessarily think that he acts the way he does because he wants to pretend like he's hot shit. I believe that he truly believes that if he acts like he's got a great confidence, if he dresses in what he considers cool despite it feeling like a performance, and if he acts out a persona that is all those things he wishes he was... Then maybe he could truly become all those things. And maybe he'll become a happier, more fulfilled person this way, too.

He wants to be cool. But what he wants even more than that, is to feel good about himself.

Season 3 Observations+Thoughts

[ Obvious spoilers, I'm skipping 2 since this has been building up]

• Karamatsu in this season is much more toned down. We rarely see him dress up for the sake of being flashy anymore, and if it happens, it's not very often. Comparing it to season 1, it's almost like it's 2 different people.

• The narcissism is practically gone, it seems like he's completely given up on it all, save for occasionally wearing the face-shirts. Perhaps a habit that's hard to break at this point? He does claim that he's handsome and doesn't understand why he's not popular, which seems a little out of nowhere with how not... Painful he's been this season. But it could make sense if you take into consideration what I wrote in the earlier post; he just wants to feel good about himself, and if he tells himself these things, maybe they'll come true, and maybe he'll actually feel that way.

• It's clear that Karamatsu now does things without consulting the others, and will actively avoid getting involved in anything stupid. Quitting while he's ahead you could say, he seems to have realised that whenever he joins in on their bullshit, he always seems to get shit on, or maybe he's just tired of it all. Maybe it's the depression getting worse. After all, he doesn't find what he used to get involved in to be funny anymore, he lacks energy, preferring to just read instead of engaging in conversations, and walks off on his own a lot, which is a clear sign of your mental health getting worse, depression or no.

Pizza

A ton of the things I've spoken about up until this point could all come back to this episode, but really, it's just the episode where it all becomes a focus, even for just a moment.

• Exclusive-Matsu

His response to this nickname was just perfect, perfectly summarising all his feelings towards his brothers and what they dare to demand from him. They've never cared about how he feels before, they've dismissed him and hurt him so many countless times, the idea that he'd just willingly open up to them is an incredibly selfish and thoughtless one, just because they're on a roll of shitting on each other. Yes this begins to be about pizza, but they are the ones that change the topic.

"Let's talk about you Karamatsu".

Why? Why now? They just want to shit on him, and it's all pointless anyway. They're trying to decide what to order for an imaginary situation that they can't go through with anyway.

Again it comes back to his mental health steadily declining, and him just growing tired with trying when he doesn't get anything out of it. He tries to deflect and get away, but he fails, and he knows that them asking how he actually feels is not because they want to know how he actually feels, but rather just come down on him and criticize him. Criticize him for something that, let's be honest, they're partly to blame for. What goes around comes around, and this is the response they get.

Eventually he seems to calm down, and ends up changing the subject, possibly in an attempt to get away from the tense situation. The mood lightens up, and they end up fooling around. When the question about sushi comes up, he seems to have levelled enough with them to feel like he's able to relax and fool around again. Heartwarming? I wouldn't really say so. It's ignoring all the issues, not resolving anything, and it's a typical situation of an unhealthy family-situation, where you act like a fight just didn't happen and move on, because you have to, to keep the peace in your dysfunctional lives that you have to live together.

Again, he sacrifices himself for their sake. The things he was tired of doing, but perhaps some things just never change.

#karamatsu #matsuno karamatsu #karamatsu matsuno #osomatsu-san #mr osomatsu #osomatsu san #season 3 #osomatsu san the movie #character analysis #headcanons #long post

[spectralscathath]

What happened to Ruby in your reference sheet by being sliced in half for your Scorruby AU?! The scar and everything!

Okay so Ruby has a bad time in the au. But I can explain. So, the whole being 'sliced in half' thing, that was more of an idea I had about how Ruby's semblance works in this AU.

So I'm putting the image you were talking about under the readmore at the bottom of the post because it's potentially gore although nothing visceral is visible but better safe than sorry, and I'm gonna stress something off the bat: Ruby's not actually hurt and this isn't actually a literal thing. (Yet. Probably. Maybe. We'll see.)

The idea for the discussed sketch was as a way to play around with posing, expression, and what Ruby's Scatter might look like/how it might work, more metaphorical then as something that actually happens (so far).

Scatter, in my AU, is a Transformative semblance, in that it physically alters Ruby by turning her into a swarm of swirling rose petals. My idea was that this semblance starts from the inside out, which is why she was able to be hit in the first place, because she was already disassembling herself into her petal form. So she's actually completely unharmed, she just happened to be up against someone who was fast enough to catch her mid-scatter, mostly for visual flair.

I'm not a fan of the current canon semblance, I think there's too much going on and they've forgotten good ideas for plot relevance. So lets look at some quotes as the show's gone:

Volume 1: Pyrrha says 'Ruby has her speed'

Volume 4: Qrow says 'some people burst into rose petals'

In the vol6 hiatus coming up on vol7 the comics called it 'an ice cream sundae of speed with a little cherry of teleportation on top.'

Volume 7: Harriet said "I've seen other speed semblances before. That's different. I think there's more going on than you think."

volume 8: Penny explains 'Ruby is capable of traveling at an extreme velocity from one point to another by breaking herself down to her molecular components, thus negating her mass and then reassembling them at the destination.'

Basically, Ruby's semblance has, over the course of show, had these points:

short range dash that generated rose petals

able to turn herself into a swirl of rose petals that retained mass and had greater mobility

generated a slipstream if she hit a certain speed (seen in the vol2 food fight and the petal tornado she made in the vol4 character short)

was able to pick other people up, although their weight still mattered (Penny in vol2)

was able to use it for mid-air combat in short bursts, but it was finite and didn't have long distance

could somewhat manipulate the rose petals, able to separate her main mass into smaller masses for evading obstacles

after vol6, it turned into 'a bit of teleportation', and then 'no more mass', allowing Ruby to carry limitless people and go just about anywhere as long as she needs

And personally, I'm not a huge fan of this. I think that they could have handled it better instead of contradicting themselves. They also effectively took out Ruby's three biggest weaknesses: that she has to worry about the weight of people she carries, that she's still solid (just split up over a large swarm), and that distances are a factor. And it makes it less interesting to me.

Honestly Ruby's semblance was just treated weird in general, having it be like her splitting apart into separate parts mid-scatter was special in vol7 when she was doing it back in vol4 felt off. I have no problems with her upgrading her distance on it, I thought that was interesting, but then the teleportation made it weird. We lost the slipstream move she used, which was a complete shame because it was a cool way for Ruby to turn her evasive semblance into offence. And 'mass no longer mattering' was pure 'we wrote ourselves into a corner here's a bullshit 'oh you could do this all along' power upgrade' (coughs at Penny being heavy in vol2 and Mercury kicking her in vol3). Also just the name. Petal Burst. I don't like it, should have kept it as Scatter.

So, ScorpRuby. Her semblance is Scatter. It is a transformative semblance where she breaks herself apart into a swirl of rose petals for a speed/mobility boost that can go in any direction, but is short range with limited distance (though she does learn to hold it for longer, making it about endurance training). She can carry people, but their weight does matter, and more people are harder to carry. It is not teleportation, and she can still be hit, or grabbed, or knocked out of her scatter if she's not careful, because mass still matters (which means she still creates a slipstream she can use). And her petals pick up the colours of people she picks up, because we lost that visual.

I think I got off topic, but the point stands, I'm keeping more defined limits on Ruby's semblance, because then it makes the story about finding ways around those limits.

And as for the scars... (warning, getting into some real criticism of the show here that I'll put under a read more if you're not interested in that)

I saw Nora get scars in vol8 that managed to avoid the face because god forbid girls that aren't villains have visible facial scarring. There is a lot of lookism in the show about big scars being Evil and I'm not here for it. Weiss's scar is small and becomes less visible every volume, Blake's scar is also small and easily hidden, Winter could have had a scar on her nose but they were cowards and removed it, and Nora has lots of scars now but they barely touch her face, even though there would have been nothing wrong with that (and they're also quite neat and not visually unappealing and can be mostly hidden under her outfit).

Meanwhile the villains with scars (Ironwood, Tyrian, Adam, Cinder), have big and jagged scars that are very prevalent (when Ironwood's top is off, at least) and in the case of Adam and Cinder take up a lot of their face. It's like a visual shorthand, Adam and Cinder's scars are even given Big Reveals to shock the audience with how 'ugly' and 'deformed' their scars are (a missing eye and an SDC brand).

I think that scars, whether it's having them, or the visibility, placement and size of them, shouldn't be a signifier of if a character is a Good Guy, or not. So I gave Ruby some, because she is the main character of this AU, she is the hero, and she's allowed to have large scars that aren't easily looked over, and the fight where she gets them is both plot-relevant, and for character development. And I think that she still looks cute as hell with them, personally.

Also, yes, Ruby does go through the absolute wringer in this AU, but hey, it's for character development. I swear. (also image here)

#rwby #ruby rose #scorruby au #rwby au #rwde #I will not be silent about lookism in rwby nor about how dumb ruby's new semblance is #nonnie luv I am so sorry this got majorly offtopic but I hope I was able to answer your question anyway #also unsure whether to tag as gore or not because there's nothing visible so I'm not sure if it counts but just in case #tw gore #think Alice from the xbox games madness returns where she turns into butterflies for shortrange dashes or a vampire going bat swarm #asks

[maryellencarter]

Can't put readmores because I'm on mobile, sadly, but apparently "WIP Wednesday" is a thing, so have some snippets from what I've written recently.

(1) working title: There was a quietness in the hideout

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Damn, what he wouldn't give to be up in the vents with Lupin right now. Or better yet, flying a helicopter just out of radar range below the cliffs, ready to soar up and let his partners catch a rope ladder when the time was right. But he was only one man, and he had to make sure the road lay clear behind him for the trip out.

Jigen stood up and drew his knife. For a moment he thought about Lupin, bright and sunny, readier to kill through carelessness than by his own hand. He thought about Goemon, gleamingly precise, dealing death only when he chose to. He thought about Zenigata, who would be coming through here sooner rather than later, who could read a crime scene better than possibly any other cop on earth.

He thought about Lupin, chirpy voice grim and dark eyes glinting danger, ready to raze, burn, and salt the ashes of any organization that dared to steal one of his people from him. That's where Lupin was right now, pulling the strings, leaving Jigen to handle the business on the ground.

He thought about quiet Goemon, in who knew what shape by now, waiting stoically for rescue.

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(2) working title: starting polycule

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Goemon smirked and untied his fundoshi, freeing his now fully hard cock.

Jigen let out a long, low whistle, not even bothering to hide the hunger on his face. "Damn, Goemon. You just walk around like that?" He squirmed a little, looking Goemon up and down, a low flush starting to spread across his brown skin. "I... if..." He gulped. "Look, I didn't really expect to get this far right away. But I'd be *honored* to take that, whenever you feel ready."

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(3) working title: hat trick

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He thumbed over a couple of Jigen's mugshots, the oldest and newest of the lot. Surly face, aggressive beard, a pursed mouth twisted as if around a cigarette that wasn't there. The usually shadowed dark eyes glaring straight at the camera with an expression of *fuck you, give me back my damn hat*.

The differences were slight, but telling to Zenigata's practiced eye. The oldest picture, from the first time Jigen had been captured while working with Lupin, held an angry sullenness, a tension in the shoulders, as of a man who knows he's trapped and has nothing to do but berate himself inside his head for fucking up.

The newest one... Zenigata caught a fond smile creeping across his face and bit it back sternly. Jigen's newest mugshot was practically insouciant. He was still glowering at the camera, but his angular shoulders were relaxed, his head tilted a bit. Zenigata could practically see the familiar off-center stance, the hip and knee cocked, the relaxed posture of the hands. This was a Jigen confident in his rescue, simply waiting for Lupin to get him out.

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#wip wednesday #jigen daisuke #goemon ishikawa xiii #zenigata keibu #daisuke jigen #ishikawa goemon xiii #koichi zenigata #zenigata koichi #inspector zenigata #lupin iii #jigoe #goeji #jizeni #hat trick

[kicksnscribs]

I need to find a support group or something. Something that focuses on the fears of dying and how to cope when you’ve basically wasted your life away when you should have been out there doing shit.

No readmore since mobile I’m so sorry but I have to get it out somewhere

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I feel like everything has passed by me and now that I’m trying to be a part of that it’s making an effort to keep me out. There’s so much uncertainty that I feel like my stress is going to be the end of it all

The pandemic may have exasperated theses feelings quite a bit; what with the regulations, the horrid attempts at control, the selfishness shown by people, the fact that I’be been overworked with no money for rest or freedom to take vacations or house of my own to do with as I please (being restricted to basically a room) no social life, no pets, and my one form of stress relief put on hold due to these possible heart conditions

The reality of mortality is really hitting hard right now, I feel like my health will only get worse as I age and idk how to deal with that. The people in my life are creeping ever closer to the end and I don’t know what will come of that when it inevitably comes to pass

I don’t know how to live in the moment, because all of my moments are thinking about that one moment that will end it all. Having no one to turn to for support since my dad died years ago, which basically left me without my main source of emotional support, I can turn off that portion of my brain even without meds and help seems so far away

I need help. But because society is at a breaking point it’s next to impossible to find it in a timely manner.

I don’t know how much longer I can last living like this. I want to move back home but I need thousands of dollars to do that (not to mention all the money I owe my brother) but I hope I can make it long enough to achieve at least one of my dreams

#long ramble post #breakdown #mental breakdown #text post #mobile post #no readmore #sorry #death mention #thanatophobia