#i question myself sometimes

[gemini-sensei]

I've always loved and still love your writing. I'm usually one of the quiet readers, but your writing is so good. I always look forward to when you make a new headcanon and other imagines if you want to call it that. just remember you are loved and stay hydrated!

🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖 omg thank you 🥺 I'm glad you like my work 💓 💗 💖 💕

#gemini sensei #thank you omg #thank you for this #this feedback #this reassurance #its so needed #i question myself sometimes #🥺🥺🥺 #💖💖💖

[imchronicallydepressed]

Does anyone else just... laugh at violent shit? Like I've become so immune to it at this point that I just... I watch that shit for breakfast. Like it's not even a joke tbh. My 2nd favorite movie as a kid was Lone Survivor. If that doesn't tell you how fucked I am, then... yeah.

#I question myself sometimes #but its fine #judgment free zone #right? #Violent shit is just the best #Most of the games I decide to play are filled with violence and gore #I grew up playing Gears of War btw #so

[borkwolf]

After all we've only got

FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDYYYYYYY'S

IS THIS WHERE YOU WANNA BE

I JUST DON'T GET ITTTTT

WHY DO YOU WANT TO STAY

FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDYYYY'S, OH

#i question myself sometimes #fnaf #freddy fazbear #underswap #underswap papyrus #why #art #gif #borkwolf #bork's art

[bbyquokka]

im actually an idiot

electric callboy came out with a m video for mindreader about a week ago. i forgot about it until yesterday.

listened to it and wondered why it wasn't on Spotify because THAT SHIT SLAPS. (electric callboy made sick af music anyways. would like to thank blind channel for getting me into them. ty my Finnish men 🖤)

turns out; it's on their recent album. i– 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

#i question myself sometimes #lmao #. . ⇢ [nemu.txt] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ 📝 ꒱

[simplydowntown]

im so tired but its only 6:30 ☹️

#my moots are on the other side of the world 😭 #i question myself sometimes #i slept early yesterday too #florida 💔

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #plot twist he COULD be admitting angsty stuff but he’s pushing the less oof truths forward instead on purpose #raph: hey leo what do you want for dinner #leo: *about to bare his soul on all his internal torment but pivots* I’m afraid of snakes #(no but fr Leo’s stripes being technically more pink instead of red is cute ngl) #(a very reddish pink to the point that in certain lighting it looks red but at the base they’re p pink) #(i also am very fond of the idea that Leo doesn’t just have questionable taste in fashion he also just loves Raph a lot and looks up to him) #but yeah I think that something like this would be 99% Leo admitting to unimportant things or admitting to how much he values everyone #like they all KNOW Leo loves them and he’s talked them up enough for them to know but it’s different when he’s like #‘I just wanna read my comics with you guys around - it’s my favorite place to be’ #or again just random bs that doesn’t REALLY have a lot of weight like #‘I like using my portals to prank random people around the world’ #‘I’m worried about being a bad influence on hueso jr’ #‘sometimes I kinda wanna see hypno’s plans succeed’ #‘it’s been way too long since I found this out and honestly it’s embarrassing but I actually don’t have a di-‘ #SORRY COULDNT HELP MYSELF #(<-but did u know that that pink rather than red observation actually ties into this headcanon as well if u know about red eared sliders)

[callisteios]

I have a new uquiz for you, go on a pilgrimage with me. discover who you are.

#don't you want to go on a nice medieval pilgrimage? #don't you want to rest a little? answer some questions? learn something about yourself? #this was originally a pentiment medieval quiz and now it's this #it's pretty good imo though. i had a lot of fun researching it #yes there really is a biblio. ill write it up soon but its parts of the pentiment biblio plus some stuff i found myself #really thank you to everyone who made pentiment. you know how sometimes you find a piece of art at exactly the right time? #well i discovered pentiment just as my interests perfectly intersected with it. (those interests being history historiography and grief) #have fun etc. tag your results #that's always great #quiz #uquiz #pentiment #medieval #mine #sorry for being absent for a bit. holidays kind of suck #sorry abbie i couldnt fit the saw bathroom in thisone. i couldn't think of a way to do it naturally #i listened to SAVED! and SINNER GET READY the entire time i was writing this so yeah there's a ref. sue me

[houseswife]

#house md #greg house #gregory house #hatecrimes md #sometimes I ask myself this question too

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

EVERYONE SHUT UP AND LOOK AT HER

okay i know this is a Foul Legacy blog but listen. if anyone wants to ask me questions about Arlecchino and my OC Marine i will be so happy to answer (they are MARRIED and i WILL answer in character if wanted because i'm that obsessed)

#hush n shush wifi #not brainrot #genshin talk #well not brainrot of the moth variety #i have SO much brainrot about HER #ARGUHRHGHHGHGHHHH FATHER IS OFFICIAL SHE'S REAL #AND THEY DIDN'T CHANGE A THING ABOUT HER SUIT IM SO DAMN HAPPY #THE SUIT????? THE PANTS????? THE (you can't see em here sorry) HEELS????? #i need 4.5 to be over IMMEDIATELY #god this is giving me so much brainrot about arlecchino and my oc who is also her wife #listen i know this is not an oc blog by any stretch but PLEASE ask me about arlecchino and marine i will answer ANY QUESTIONS within reason #i must indulge myself sometimes #let me be a little cringe okay #if i was a good artist i'd totally draw marine and arlecchino together #anyways AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i swear i'm normal i promise

[notedchampagne]

last thought before i sleep i Do fear that reading nothing but fanfiction for 4 years when i was 14-18 severely stunted my brain. this is not to say that fanfiction is bad: theres fanfics that are extremely well written, which are markers of any good authors out there- but since it relies so heavily on building off of a foundation and reforming the same work over and over they tend to follow a certain flow and pattern in plot, the way characters interact, the way dialogue and action intersect, etc etc. ive been trying to read more books now but i still find it easier to read through fanfic because instinctively, i know what to expect going forward because of my existing knowledge of the characters and the fanon. you have to wash out your brain and prepare to engage anew when youre reading a new book, which takes more effort the longer youre away from it. but thats just me and i can write a fucking paper on the ways fic marketing has its own popular checks and standards as well

#i was thinking about this again bc i remembered this one twitter post of a teen struggling to read a book for class #so they word replaced the names with fandom names and they read that shit easily #like oooh please. i know characters can bring you comfort when you need it but reading new things sometimes Does make you uncomfortable #and the purpose is to have you question why... not to easily glaze over it because you have put on the Ship Colored Lenses over it #but im being some odd flavor of hypocrite im sure. whatever. everyday i bemoan myself #chat

[ironunderstands]

Don’t attack me but I really like radioapple, I think it’s so funny, but I could never see it genuinely becoming a relationship. However I must say that stupid rivalry, to stupid rivalry with begrudging respect is a top 10 character dynamic, and Alastor/Lucifer execute it perfectly.

#radioapple #alastor #lucifer morningstar #hasbin hotel #also I am on the aroace spectrum myself lol don’t come after me for that part #The appeal of a toxic queerplatonic but not really- relationship is ever present #don’t ask questions #Sometimes u just want a rivalry with a bit to much tension than what should be reasonable #Just adds a little spice in life #Firm believer that tension is what makes fictional relationships interesting anyways (either internally or externally) #And radioapple is pure tension I love it #I’m rambling whoops

[gottagobackintime]

From this lovely interview here

#james lance #ted lasso #I loved this interview #it's nice when they don't ask questions about his hair so that he actually gets to talk about trent like he clearly wants to #and don't get me wrong I love his hair #I'm in fact going to show a picture of him when I get my hair cut sometime soon as inspiration #but I want to know his thoughts and the work he put into the character you know #also I don't know what to do with myself until 3am when the new episode drops...

[skyloftian-nutcase]

Okay, well replaying Skyward Sword reminded me that I wrote this like a year ago buried in a reblog so I'm just gonna air it out and plop it here.

The first time Link had disappeared, it had caused alarm. Zelda had just gone missing, ripped from her loftwing by a treacherous tornado, and suddenly Link was a haggard mess, dressed in a knight’s uniform, and then gone. People feared that he had been hurt too, a search shouldn’t last after sunset; he wasn’t a full knight, after all. However, Headmaster Gaepora had managed to calm the academy students, and the news spread throughout Skyloft.

It took almost a week for Link to return to Skyloft. When people saw his crimson loftwing circling around the town, a collective sigh of relief fell over the sky island. If he’d been gone consistently for so long, then he’d only return when he’d found Zelda, after all. Not to mention it meant they were both safe.

However, that had not been the case. Link had been alone, tired, and filthy. His clothes had tears in them in certain places, he had strange silky threads wrapped around parts of his legs, dry blood stains were disturbingly evident on his tunic, and he practically had bags under the already constantly present bags under his eyes. He had landed just by the goddess statue and had not been seen since. However, another bright light had appeared in the cloud barrier, unnerving the Skyloftians, who chattered about it amongst each other.

The bazaar had been exceptionally busy that day, and the new red light in the sky caused people to gather there to discuss the matter. It meant there were long lines just to get inside, and Link had not seemed keen to stand among the crowds to get the supplies he so desperately needed. Instead, he’d sat on the bench outside, waiting for the townspeople to eventually spread throughout the island once more and give him the space he needed to prepare for his next trip.

The crowds did indeed start to thin, but as people trickled out of the bazaar with hot drinks and hot gossip on their tongues, they paused, finding the boy passed out on the bench. At first it was amusing; Link often fell asleep all over town. But then it was worrisome. He looked haggard. Everyone in town was invested in this boy’s well-being; they’d all welcomed him into their homes at one point or another, the adults all remembered the little orphan wandering the island aimlessly in the days after his father’s unfortunate death, they all remembered bringing him into their homes with promises of warm food and a pillow to lay his head on.

So it had been collectively decided that someone would fetch a pillow from their home and get Link a bit more settled. Wryna brought a blanket as well, but Greba had pointed out worriedly that Link was still a mess (with an emphatic “He stinks!” from Kukiel). Mallara had gotten Commander Eagus, who had promptly swaddled Link in the blanket and carried him to the academy to tend to him.

After that encounter, everyone on Skyloft had decided that they’d keep an extra careful eye out for the boy.

This new pact ended up saving the young knight-in-training’s life. The next time he came back, he had fallen off his loftwing entirely, caught only by Pipit, who had been notified that something was wrong when Orielle noticed the loftwing’s panicked screeches. He’d been unconscious before he fell into his classmate’s strong arms, and even Groose and his stooges had watched in concern as Pipit had rushed Link to the infirmary.

But today was not quite so dire. Link had been missing from Skyloft for two weeks after he’d recovered (his periods of absence continued to grow, much to everyone’s concern), but this morning Jakamar, his wife Wryna, and their daughter Kukiel woke up to a surprise green bundle curled up in their bed. He was on the edge, barely taking any space, but he hogged a majority of that side of the bed’s blanket. At first Jakamar nearly jumped out of his skin until he realized who it had to be, and he pulled the blanket back just enough to see the curved little ears and fluffy dirty blonde hair that everyone on Skyloft knew so well.

Blowing out a sigh, he turned away and held his wife as she peered over his shoulder. “Well, at least we know where he is.”

“He’ll be hungry,” Wryna commented. “I’ll get started on breakfast.”

Jakamar grunted in acknowledgement as his wife crawled to the bottom of the bed to climb over the wooden frame so as to avoid waking Link. Kukiel shot up and started to bounce on the bed in excitement, and Jakamar scooped her into his arms and also climbed out of bed in a similar manner. The house was silent as the family cleaned their faces and prepped for the day (though only because the parents constantly had to remind Kukiel to keep quiet with gentle shushes and fingers over their lips), and then Jakamar took his daughter out for a morning stroll while Wryna busied herself in the kitchen area.

When he got back to the smell of a delicious breakfast, he stretched and smiled, glancing at the bed to find it empty. He looked back to see Wryna’s disappointed face.

“He’s gone!” Kukiel exclaimed in her high voice.

“I didn’t see him step out,” Wryna said guiltily.

Jakamar put a hand on his wife and smiled reassuringly. “Don’t worry about it, hon. At least he got some sleep. Pack it up in a bottle, if we see him we’ll give it to him.”

Jakamar had the luck to find Link later that day as the boy was meandering around the windmills. Although Jakamar was getting ready to offer the now lukewarm food, Link instead started asking him about the windmill’s missing propeller. Jakamar helped him as best he could, and just as Link rushed off to find Gondo at Jakamar’s suggestion (he figured the robot, though broken, might be able to help), the man called out to him, waving the large bottle with food carefully packed inside.

Link stared at him, confused. Jakamar held out the bottle. “Take it, kid. You look like you’re starving.”

It was a bit of a slip up to admit it to his face. Link often would recoil at such remarks, would cover it up with an embarrassed laugh and then actively avoid whoever said it for a while, which then made it even harder to help him. But it was the truth - he did look gaunt and worn thin. Jakamar was usually a pretty easygoing guy, but this seemed like it was starting to get serious. He wished the headmaster would reel the kid in.

Link’s expression shifted, so easily readable on his face, and his confusion clearly became shame. He looked down at the ground, biting his lip. When Jakamar pushed the bottle into his sight again, he took it wordlessly, but as he locked eyes with the man he gave a grateful smile. Before Jakamar could get a word in, Link turned on his heel and headed for the bazaar.

Jakamar blew out a sigh as he watched the boy run. Hylia look out for him.

#writing #skyward sword #skyward sword link #ss link #skyloft #I like to think they all looked out for him #even if that did give it a bit of a bystander effect #so sometimes he probably didn't actually get the help he needed #but it meant he was familiar with all of them #and that's why he could sleep anywhere without an issue #legend of zelda #laughing at the fact that I told myself I'd take a break from practice questions and that was like THREE HOURS ago #why am I like this ugh #gonna get back to it now

[insertsomthinawesome]

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!! Okay so honestly I have been very very inconsistent over the years with just disappearing for periods of time due to various things 😂 So it probably seemed pretty normal to most people.

But it felt different on my side, so I'm excited to be back in business. I took a month long hiatus! 31 days of not drawing digital art. Its not something I talk about on here? But I've been suffering from some serious long term Art Burnout for.... a really really long time. Long enough that I should've taken a break probably years ago. It finally got so bad that I could barely draw. I was scared to do it (cause it always looked "bad" in my eyes [i'll come back to that]) and doing it was exhausting and disheartening.

I talked it over with somebody and realized that the fear and anger and frustration I felt towards my own artwork was uh. Not Normal or Healthy. And I finally committed to taking a real break for once.

I still drew a little bit by hand? Traditional art has always felt like it has lower stakes for me (i don't often share it online, and sometimes I don't even share it with friends) so I did some of that when I felt like it. But Digital art was completely off the table.

I had put such an immense pressure on myself to make my digital art perfect, to make as much of it as quickly as possible to satisfy something. It wasn't fun anymore. I'm proud of what i've made over the years! But for a long time now the stuff I've been making was made while hating every second of making it. With some rare exceptions.

I hated my art! It was a combination of Perfectionism, taking in too many external expectations, and the burnout. If you hate doing something its kinda hard to love it even when you want too lol. It wasn't "Bad" in the sense that the quality was low and it was ugly! It was "Bad" in the sense that it was unhealthy for me to keep doing it at that point in time.

I'm glad to report though, that with my hiatus officially over as of Wednesday last week: I am once again. In Love. With doing art, and being an artist :)

I put off taking a break for years cause I was scared that taking a break would mean that I would never achieve all the things I wanted to do with art. I was scared it was a stupid and lazy thing to do that would mean I'd never achieve my dreams. And Also even though I kinda hated drawing, I also loved making art. Its a weird duality that I can't even really explain??? I hated it but I also loved it. I wanted it but I also wanted to run from it. It wasn't until I was more mature and had more clarity and insight (and unfortunately also until the problems got worse) that I was finally able to let go of those fears and just do it.

And I'm really really glad I did. It was everything I needed. And I hope to strike a better balance in the future with art. Taking more breaks when I need them, or just when other things have my attention like reading or Video games (Some star rail got played during this time xD)

From the outside things probably aren't going to be that different?? At this point I don't really have any sure plans to post anything I've been drawing since my Hiatus ended. I might or I might not xD I'm still a hobbyist artist taking things at her own pace, but I hope that it shows how much happier I am :)

Whumptober 2023 is being officially put to rest by this post btw! I was in major burnout when that event started, and I'm ready to just, move on from all the past expectations I'd shoved on my shoulders. If I feel like filling any of the prompts or going back to any of the ideas I'd come up for it I will! But I'm not going to worry about doing it unless the desire sets in. Thanks to everybody who's been so kind to me throughout my time on here as an artist! Ya'lls tags and screaming and kind words, the fanfic, the asks and the responses? Its been fantastic :) You guys have made me laugh, smile, and cry tears of joy. I hope from here that things only get better and sweeter! And if I have bad days again, that's okay too.

Here's to 2024 and whatever it may bring ya'll :D 🎉🎉✨✨🧡💜

#isa screams #long post #gif #flashing #i think? Lemme know if I'm incorrect on that one alksdjfLKSJDJDSG #I don't normally talk this much so its kinda strange? #its kinda nice to be more honest about this stuff though #I'm a bit more of a private person so its hard to find the balance between wanting to discuss things openly and honestly #but with the fact that I don't owe the entire world an explanation for everything I do #its a tricky thing #but today I felt like doing this and I think that's okay #if i regret it I just won't do it again alsdjLSDJLFJSGSDG #thanks if you read this! I appreciate it! #I'm a pretty smalltime artist relatively. So sometimes it feels as though it doesn't mater what i say or express. #But hm. I doubt its really that simple or bleak #And if I don't respect myself then well. Who will right? #And I want to learn how to be happy with how little or how much I get #part of the reason I've done so poorly mentally as an artist is chasing numbers and outside praise instead of asking the harder questions #am i happy with what i do? what I make? Who I am #I'm going to probably be working on those questions and problems for the rest of my life. #But thats okay. Thats not a bad thing :)

[aceoffangirls]

Love how I am still going through an identity crisis, like I am just a bunch of things all thrown at a wall.

Like ace? Yep. Aro? kinda but also changes everyday into a confusing mess. Bi? Yeah woman are beautiful but I also feel more romantically interested in men but also why romantic relationships?

Like I know ya don't need to have an identity and you can be all these things at once but I swear my identity is basically: nah yeah nah

#asexual #aroace #aromantic #lgbtqia #ace #asexuality #aro #lgbtqia+ #bisexuality #lgbt+ #sometimes i even wonder if i'm straight #but also sometimes i worry by labeling myself one way I am holding my self back from being in a relationship #but also do i want a relationship #think i just want to be important to someone and society tells you that #mini rant i guess #questioning

[uncanny-tranny]

Look, politics are complex and nuanced, but if your view is simply that The Bad Guys should be dehumanized, I don't want you in my spaces. Quite literally, this line of thinking is reductive at best

#politics #watching somebody right now go through the dehumanization process because they're a minority with Complex Opinions about Being a Minority #and it's disgusting to think that these people could be the same ones i interact with - the same ones who would HAPPILY do the same to me #because it doesn't really matter if we're The Bad Guys just that they fundamentally aren't challenging the systems which dehumanize people.. #...when people play into the same systems that dehumanize people but also believe that they are Challenging The System - that does bother me #YES intolerance shouldn't be tolerated but i question what some people's definition of intolerance is sometimes #this topic is also very complex but i've been finding it harder to call myself a leftist in some of these spaces