#i said it was gonna be worse and i meant it

[vampiresbloodx]

Innocent eyes.

Summary: In a city where crime rate is high, murders, incidents and accidents, unexplained deaths start to happen as they all somehow have a connection, your boss signed you on to this case, a detective, and along the way you meet interesting people that may somehow be connected, or not.

They could be on your side or worse.

Pairings: Wanda maximoff x detective!reader(focus), Natasha Romanoff x detective!reader (more platonic)

word count: 1047

warnings for this chapter/tease: murder mentions.

a/n; welcome to my new series I been working on!, more chapters will come eventually, don't know when, but I'm excited for this one. This is just a teaser, I'm happy to hear feedback!.

Low music played from the car’s radio where you sat during your lunch break, shuffling through a pile of files you were supposed to finish yesterday, but that’s not what you’re looking for. 

“Ah, there you are,” you muttered, smiling to yourself as you reached for it. 

Much to your annoyance, you’re distracted by a knock on your window, turning your head, you try your best not to roll your eyes at the person staring back. 

“I know you can hear me, roll down the window” a woman’s voice demanded with authority, it wasn’t a surprise it was your boss bothering you on your break. 

As you did what she asked, she leaned forward. 

“Jesus christ its a mess in here” she commented, making you sigh, you can’t really hide it now. 

“You know what time it is?” you said, tilting your head to the side. 

“1:24 PM” she answered nonchalantly. 

“I started my lunch break at 1:15, I still have a few minutes, leave me alone” you groaned, others would frown at the way you’re talking to someone superior than you but they also knew you’re closeish friendship with her, and that neither of you gave a shit. 

She smiled. 

“Got a new case for you, meet me in my office in five.” 

“Couldn’t have texted me that?” you asked, watching as she turns on her heel to walk away with a proud smirk. 

“Nope.” 

Well, you knew the rumbling in your stomach meant you didn’t exactly eat yet, did you even bring your actual meal you were gonna eat today? No, you never did, coffee will do. 

Sighing, you stepped out of your car, turning off the engine as you grabbed your bag, keys, everything you needed and oh yeah, coffee. 

-

The building that was built in late 1870 and was founded by Ivan Romanov, who gave over his title as head chef of New York romanov agency, yeah, he basically named it after himself, Natasha, his daughter, who he handed it over to, always said he was a bit egotistical. 

But then she never denied her being egotistical either. 

As you walked back into the agency, several other workers, officers were there, scrambling at last minute deadlines or starting new ones. Most look like they haven’t even left their last shift and stayed overnight. 

Not like you could judge. 

Natasha romanoff, your boss, unfortunately, sat waiting at her office as she shooed away everyone else trying to get her attention but happily smiled at you when you finally entered after she had cussed out another employee for not doing his job. 

“What a bright, happy day it is to be working for you, Ms. Romanov” you sarcastically say, going to stand in front of her desk, she grinned at you. 

“Ah my favorite detective, remember when you weren’t such a smart ass but a nice rookie?” she said. 

“Nope, those days are long gone, ma’am.” 

“Don’t you dare call me that, rookie” she says with annoyance, you couldn’t help but grin as you know she hates being called that. 

Miss, ms, anything is fine except for ma’am. 

Because her father used to address every goddamn women as ma’am so it pissed her off. 

And so she tries to use rookie against you like it still bothers you. 

“No but I did bring you here for a serious matter” natasha said, standing back up as she grabbed her coffee cup, taking a sip. “We have a new case, and I want you to investigate it.” 

“Well that is kind of my job” you couldn’t help but joke. 

“Cut the crap, this one isn’t to mess around” natasha sternly said as she took a couple of steps towards you. It must be serious this time for her not to crack a joke every five minutes, you frowned, straightened up, knowing she hates bad posture. “Every other agency has turned this one down or couldn’t be bothered to touch it, it’s… new, different. I’m thinking it’ll get us big in the news, everywhere if I have you solve it.” 

“Why me exactly?” you asked, she raised an eyebrow at you. 

“Is that really a question you need answering?.” 

You shrugged. 

“Fine, I get why, but still, why is this case any different than to our other ones we always get?” you said. 

“Finally a goodish question” she smiled, looking pleased as she turned around to face the window that overlooked the city. It was stunning, really, of course she had the best view in the entire building. “You know you’re one of my best, and I mean that when I say that. You know I don’t say things lightly to anyone, I want you because we need you, this case, it doesn’t fit right with me, why would all the other agencies turn away this case if it could get them in the papers? Hell, I even know some old bastards in other offices that would kill for this kind of cover.” 

You stood there, letting her ramble, unsure of where exactly this is going but you have an idea. 

Natasha has taken after her father to be the very best in the world, not just new york city, but everywhere she wants her name known, and to not be fucked around with. 

You let her continue. 

“So, please, take this opportunity, to catch whoever did these murders, people are calling it accidents, but how is it an accident when they’ve all been found dead the same exact way? And in similar locations? God, you’d think people nowadays would know a thing about true crime shit. Fucking hell.” 

You smiled and she noticed that, her lips turning into a grin. 

“Come on, you can get a shit ton of money for this, and well, you’ll get a bonus if you actually catch the guy before the police put him behind bars” she tempts you, though she already knows what you’re gonna say, and so do you. 

“Funny you mentioned this case as I was already working on it” you say. 

“Good for you there’s a new crime scene that just opened up, you’ve got permission to go investigate, detective.” 

You nod, waving her goodbye as you exit her office, guess your lunch break is over.

#wanda x reader #wanda x you #wanda x y/n #wanda maximoff x reader #wanda maximoff x you #wanda maximoff imagine #stuff i wrote

[cursedvibes]

Shoko getting treated worse than the actual villains of the story. Fans better leave that poor girl alone she’s been smoking herself into lung cancer ever since the Shibuya Arc 😭

Yup. How dare she not sacrifice herself to bring back our glorious blue-eyed king 😤 after all being the third wheel to Gojo and Geto is all she's good for...

Certainly didn't help that TCB translated Gojo's words way more harshly than they actually were. He simply said he's a bit annoyed/irritated that she didn't object and it's clearly not meant as serious criticism. He's not that upset over it. TCB generally made people swear way more this chapter than they actually did. They even made Nitta talk casual despite him using formal です/ます style. Sometimes their creative liberties in the translations can be a nice addition, but in cases like these it's really not helpful and messes with the original intention and characterization.

But anyway, I think Shoko has a similar attitude here to when Geto defected and killed the people in the village. It's fucked up, but she's just gonna go along with it and do her job. She probably expected Gojo to not object to it. Like you can see throughout the chapter that she's not hell-bent on getting Yuuta into Gojo's corpse either. She wouldn't force Gojo to agree to this, she just plays her role. Maybe she thinks it's better they do it with her support than on their own and potentially mess up even more. She cares about Gojo, but they clearly don't have a very open or emotional relationship and keep their distance, not really talking about what they're currently going through. Might've been nice to see Gojo and her actually talk about this face-to-face, but I don't think this is ooc either. She's always been like this whenever there was some big dramatic shift in their trio. It still stresses her though, even if she doesn't say anything, as seen by the cigarettes she smokes while Yuuta is screaming about possessing Gojo's corpse.

#like when Geto defected she gives herself cheerful doesn't object to anything and just shows how much it affects her #by leaning onto her addiction #asks #jjk spoilers #jjk 261 #ieri shoko

[frankenjoly]

Surprise meeting

solangelo + apollo’s visit

Halfway through the movie, the doorbell rang, and since not only it was Percy’s place but he was also sitting the closest to the door, he was the one who stood up to open up while Leo paused the movie. Curious as they were, all heads were turned towards said door when it got open to reveal no one other than Apollo, and everyone’s eyes were fixed on him as Percy then closed the door shut quickly but not without care.

“Will.” Now everyone was looking at him instead, Nico himself included, when Percy spoke. “Please tell me your dad’s here just to visit, ‘cause last time I had him at my doorstep-- sheesh.”

“In my defense, when he said he’d be coming over to say hi and I agreed… thought he meant the camp or my mom’s place.”

“Don’t worry, man, I believe you.” It wasn’t until then when Percy opened up again, not without sighing, and the whole group got up to greet the visiting god.

“Hi Jackson, hi everyone!!! And hi, buddy!!!” Apollo basically threw himself towards Will, wrapping him in a tight hug and almost running over Nico in the process. “I know half the people here already, but still, mind doing introductions?”

Will nodded and, once released, grabbed Nico’s hand.

“Alright! You’ve technically met already, but– official introductions, I guess.” He shrugged. “This is Nico, my boyfriend.”

“Ah, yeah!!!” Mere seconds later, Nico found himself being the one crushed into an embrace, which he would have deemed uncomfortable if it wasn’t because what followed was considerably worse. “Nice to officially meet you, Rico.” Apollo then turned back to Will. “You like boys, I like boys, cool thing to have in common, amirite?” After a brief clap, he started whispering. “What surprises me is that you like that emo grunge guy, but--”

“I can hear you, sir.” Breathe in, breathe out. No matter how embarrassing that may be, he was still in front of not any god but his father in law. “And it’s Nico.”

“Right, Nico. Like, from Nicholas?”

“No.”

“Nikolaj.”

“No.”

“Then, from wh--” Leo started, and he might have entertained the question at any other time, but not right now.

“Who gave you a candle for this burial, Valdez?”

“C’mon, man.” Percy followed suit, because of course. “Are you gonna make us wait till your wedding to hear it out loud?”

His WHAT.

(Also on ao3.)

#solangelo #nico di angelo #will solace #percy jackson #leo valdez #pjo apollo #pjo #hoo #riordanverse #my stuff #clau stuff #ficlet #<3 #is this post-canon? is this an au? dunno you pick #if in doubt: canon divergence my beloved #(keep in mind i'm stil not caught up since mid toa) #(i do know apollo knows nico by name but a request spawned this joke sooo)

[autisticlancemcclain]

part one

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“Oh, wow…guys, I just had the craziest dream…”

“Hey, me too! There was this weird, like, demonic Steve Harvey —”

“Oh my God! With the pictionary?”

“— and the family feud! Yeah! Holy shit —”

Lance’s hands shake on Red’s controls. All of him shakes, really, trembling like the last dead leaf on a barren tree.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

As if he’s miles underwater, he hears the rest of the team chatter excitedly about the games they played. The drama, the excitement.

He hears them talk about the test.

He hears Coran say Bob is a god.

Mostly, though, he hears his blood rushing through his ears, and Keith’s words repeating over and over in his head. Again and again.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

No one attempts to drag him into the conversation. He’s not sure what he’d do if they did. It’s better that they ignore him.

It still manages to hurt his heart more, somehow.

(He wonders how many of them were relieved when Keith finally said what must have been on all their minds. What they’ve been feeling for — God, for who knows how long. Did they talk about it, when he wasn’t around? Did Pidge and Hunk make eye contact and roll their eyes over his head over every failed sim, back at the Garrison? Did Allura and Coran giggle in Altean about Lance’s idiocy? Did Shiro plan missions around him?

They must have. They must have. There’s no other — why else would they let Keith say that? Why else would they stay silent?

They all think it. All of them.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.)

He doesn’t bother getting out of his lion when they set up camp for the night. He stays right where he is, rigid and unmoving in the pilot’s seat.

Not unmoving.

Shaking.

No one comes. No one messages. He watches as they joke and laugh over the campfire. He can imagine what they’re talking about.

It was so crazy, they must be saying. Lance just kept fumbling! Man, I’m glad we’re heading to Earth. I didn’t know how to say it… but it’ll be easier to drop him off, you know?

He shudders. He thought — he can’t believe he thought they were fine. He knows he’s not great at reading people, but he’s never been this wrong before. He’s never — he’s never loved someone, before, who was disgusted by him.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

Why would they pretend? Why would — why would Keith pretend? It couldn’t have been easy. It couldn’t have been easy for him to smile, soft, promise that Lance was useful and had a place on the team, lying through his teeth. He thought — he always thought Keith was so honest.

He’s always trusted Keith. Even when he was jealous. He thought Keith was true.

He stays awake long after everyone else rolls out their sleeping bags. Long after the fire reduces to embers. Long after the lions power down. He stays, stuck in his seat, shuddering.

Thinking.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

They’re so far from home. Months, at least, of travel. Of close proximity with each other. And Red’s not always empty. It’ll be his turn to host, soon. For Shiro or Romelle or Coran or Krolia to stay with him.

To sit in the cockpit with him. Share the space. Share the air. Talk, probably.

(Will they bother? With pleasantries? With small talk? Would it be better if they did? Would it hurt less to sit in silence? To count down the minutes until they can be away from him?)

He won’t — he’ll be expected to bond with him still, will he? To share his mindspace? To form Voltron? To be connected, by their quintessence, as one?

(How did Keith do it, before? How did he pretend? Lance opened to them because he loved them. Because he trusted them. Because there was nothing he wanted more than to share with them, to save with them. How did they fake it so well? Lance didn’t notice. He didn’t feel their disgust. Their annoyance. He didn’t — he didn’t know.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.)

He can’t… he can’t stay here. Not for months. He can’t wake up every day to people who don’t want   him, who don’t even like him. How can he? How can he continue to take up space when they’re wishing so desperately he wouldn’t?

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

For the first time in hours, he moves. He stands, joints creaking, and walks over to the cabin. Slowly, meticulously, careful of his shaking hands, he takes off his armour, arranging it neatly, piece by piece, on the floor. The flightsuit is next, folded carefully. He shrugs on his jacket, pulling the hood over his head. Robotically, he opens a random bag, stuffing it full with food and supplies and water pouches. He walks quietly out of the cockpit, moving quickly down the hatch, letting the light of the moon guide him down the packed earth of the planet they’ve rested on. He walks until his feet ache, and until the only thing he can hear is the creaking of the bugs and the heaviness of his own breaths.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

He takes out his comm, scrolling until he finds the right contact.

Five lions, six paladins.

He drafts a message, quick and unquestionable, and then sits on the dry ground, watching as the stars blink in foreign constellations.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

When the pod arrives, autopilot making it’s movement just ever so out of place, he stands, wiping the dirt from his jeans, and boards it. It has been sent with no pilot, with supplies to last a month, and coordinates to the nearest solar system with a fuel stop. Lance sits stiffly in the pilots seat, smoothly and easily maneuvering the pod back up from the ground and straight through the planet’s small atmosphere.

I just don’t want to be stuck for eternity with Lance.

As the planet — as Voltron — shrinks to a speck behind him, his hands finally begin to still.

#i said it was gonna be worse and i meant it #FUCK the bob episode #vld #voltron #lance #lance mcclain #keith #keith kogane #langst #bob episode #klangst #klance #heartbreak #insecure lance #betrayal #hurt no comfort #autistic lance #autistic lance mcclain #angst #my writing #fic #fic fragment

[morallygreyandone]

Just like that

One fucking tweet derailed destroyed destabilized damaged the entire nashuri fandom on twitter

Now

I will unleash it here

LOOK AT WHAT HE IS WEARING

LOOK

SHURI WAS WEARING SOMETHING SLEEVELESS AND LONG TOO

WHAT DOES THE BRIDE WEAR??????

RYAN

RYAN I KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE

SHOW YOURSELF

COME OUT WITH YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR

#nashuri #namor x shuri #namuri #seaprincess #how dare you #ryan istg #im gonna die #gonna cry #let me run away and cry #wdym there was a wedding #Namor said it could have been different #what if he meant this #I think I made it worse #it makes it sadder #damnit nakia #I expect a lot of fanfics #fix this #fix this shit right now

[maddy-ferguson]

women will literally accuse women and esp lesbian circles of "not unpacking ""man-hating""" alleged ""misandry" sweetie xo" getting offended ppl aren't appropriately uplifting how "men are amazing and awesome and attractive and i won't be shamed for thinking so" as if appreciating men is a real counter opinion than blame whatever gave women of every sexuality instance to be jaded weary cautious and tired and who'll complain every now and then and continue on with her life until she dies putting up with patriarchy. just welcome to the "woke" internet where misogyny's over and "man-hate" "shamed for not hating men" is worth springing to defences for

yeah i've only seen people talk like men's rights activists and think they're being unbelievably progressive on tumblr it's kind of fascinating. like i can see how seeing people hate on men could mess with people and stuff but you can't demand men appreciation posts that's literally the whole world outside of idk your tumblr dash (or even on your tumblr dash because fandom misogyny from people who think they're not misogynistic at all is really something). men get praised for "babysitting" their own kids like be serious? it's very let men be masculine

i don't think being like men are soooo gross and we hate them is actually constructive and it can definitely veer into transphobia (you'll always be a man/"a male" and thus a danger to women/why would you ever want to become a man they're the enemy and the bane of society etc) and homophobia relatively quickly?

but the way people ON TUMBLR ""combat that"" is often so off to me like if the most basic feminist principles offend you then i'm not really sure where to go from here. i remember seeing a post that was like "men aren't your enemy. they're your friend/brother/father/colleague/neighbor" with a lot of notes and like i don't know how to tell you this but that's literally who's most likely to harm a woman, the men she knows?😭 and obviously not every system of oppression is exactly the same but would you say the same thing to someone criticizing white people like...just very weird

i think women who are attracted to men and dating them making jokes about how they only tolerate being attracted to men because they have no choice and especially the whole i'm bi so i love every woman and only find 1 in a 1000 men attractive (very often said while in a relationship with a man) thing is obnoxious and annoying for like everyone who has to hear it lmao but also when women who date men make jokes about it (not about them being ugly or unattractive or whatever but about them being bad partners in general) it's like. what else are they going to do like you said they're gonna endure patriarchy for the rest of their lives and as girlfriends/wives/mothers they go through the most it's very bleak? idk. it's not like you can date a better man yourself out of patriarchy

of course men aren't a all as bad as the worst guy you can imagine and they're not all out to get you or whatever but saying things like "men don't all benefit from the patriarchy rich men benefit from the patriarchy but jake, 23, is not oppressing you" is like. kind of insane. jake, 14, was oppressing me like have you never interacted with boys in school😭 and it's not like it was entirely their fault we all have to outgrow misogyny it's just you know society etc but some of them never outgrow it lmao and just...the takes you see on feminism on tumblr are astounding i hate it here

#and like i do think that young guys who feel bad about themselves only having people who make them feel worse and who actively make them #worse like incels and idk youtube algorithms to turn to is a problem but like. again it's the same thing as white people who feel bad about #being white to me in a way like are women and GIRLS supposed to coddle them and say it's gonna be okay you're great even when they're #like actually harming them by being misogynistic to them? that's already what they're taught to do always #the notes on that male loneliness epidemic post i reblogged a few weeks ago still haunt me like OH MY GOD #and if you think misogyny isn't as prevalent anymore you're very naive. and probably misogynistic yourself #i'm not even sure young men being more feminist is true (well it's probably true when you compare it to like the 50s) but even #when men ARE like yeah women shouldn't have to do everything i can help with chores (the use of the word help is already a red flag lmao) #when you look at what they actually do they still do way less like i don't have links because these are tags on a tumblr ask but i read #somewhere that men think chores are 50/50 when they're only doing like 30% of the work? like it just seems hopeless #sometimes i'm happy and then i think about the mental load #sorry for not uplifting men 24/7 you can just hang out on the steve harrington tag or something there's actually a lot of people doing that #when someone said um does the ronance fandom not seem terfy to you...because of a post that was like can the lesbian ship ronance #be about the lesbian ship ronance not about steve A MAN #like you can't make this up #i meant it when i said the average tumblr user would benefit from being exposed to more misogyny like i swear they forget it's even a thing #like obviously they wouldn't BENEFIT from it lmao but their posts wouldn't be as dumb and that would benefit me🙏 #ask

[monty-glasses-roxy]

In other news, I just picked up a plastic packet full of very old spools of sewing thread and thought "okay I'll eat this and then I'll go" and my brain short-circuited for a moment. Go do what? I've no idea. It cut off completely. I'm gonna eat some sewing threads now apparently. Good for me good for me

#pop rox talks #hsjdhdjdj these meds. i swear. they're meant to make me MORE coherent but they just sorta don't #i feel better on them don't get me wrong but i do NOT get all the helpful effects you would expect I'd get from them lmao #I've seen people say they can tell when they're kicking in because rasputin slowly fades away until it's gone #on these meds i hear maybe two notes of a ring tone or an alarm or an advert song and it loops in my head till something else comes along #like djdnjd yeah i dunno man that doesn't sound exactly right #friend said it sounds like i get worse on them and ya know what? I'd believe it! #anyway. gonna go get food and see about getting some stuff done today. for once. #it's my birthday on saturday i gotta prepare #and ya know. maybe not eat the sewing threads djjdjdj

[itslookingback]

:/

#my experience so far with uni has kind of been: #my mind shouting ''am i doing enough. is this normal. i should be doing more. i should be more extroverted'' #but unfortunately i am not more extroverted #guy who never did anything social on weekends before uni now realising that this might have been a bad idea #i don't want myself to become so isolated from other people #but i genuinely don't know what to do #i don't drink. i don't like going out in the evenings (unless there's a quiz). the other queer people i know are more extroverted than me. #i'm sure they're lovely everything just feels intimidating #it just feels like everything is happening a little bit wrong #did the people who said uni is meant to be the best years consider that i am just a bit too autistic for this statement to be true to me #i'm tired of feeling trapped tbh #it's so stupid. i know that the worst that can happen is having an awkward time #i knew i was going to have a worse time at uni than other people but augh. #i KNOW i'm bad at making friends and being in friend groups. i know. i'm just tired #it's not looking good for me when i'm not in uni anymore i'm not gonna lie. if i'm struggling a lot now #teehee #anyway. i should sleep. i'm tired and need to get up early #it's just the second month. it's ok. i'm sure other people are feeling like this as well #mumbles

[andthebeanstalk]

Truly I have been hardwired by having tumblr throughout my teen years and into adulthood to look for every single gay shipping opportunity no matter what. Often when it's not even there. I literally cannot turn this part of my brain off that begins looking for conspiracy-level reasons that the thing I'm watching is actually gay.

And like, I wonder what future generations will be like?

If you have real actual queer rep as a kid do you still spend all your time imagining it with your friends? Or is this particular brand of deranged a tumblr-specific thing?

I have no regrets. We had crumbs and made ourselves feasts in any way we could.

Anyway, this is just to say that I am not yet three seasons in to the 1980s absurdist British sci-fi comedy Red Dwarf about two chicken soup machine repairmen and a man-cat stranded alone in space and I am literally unable to stop my brain from forming an earnest and rabid argument for why the chicken soup repairmen are in the midst of an enemies to lovers arc. One of them is dead and a hologram. It doesn't matter. They are going to fall in love. I know it.

#original #red dwarf #arnold j rimmer #david lister #cat red dwarf #lister is like if fry from futurama was kind and hot idk how else to explain this #and rimmer is like if malvolio was in space and the same level of hot #and THEY ARE GOING TO KISS IN MY MIIIIIIIINNNNND #i am guessing this popular 1980s British tv show isn't gonna go canon #but if it did it couldn't be worse than destiel XD #tho i would die of shock #that said there is no heterosexual explanation for Spock and Kirk #and also a lot of things from the past really were gay in a genuine and intentional sense. I am just pretty sure this is not one of them. #and of course you can always find opportunity regardless of author intent. #I often wonder how aware the Star Trek writers were that they were writing a married couple when they were writing Spock and Kirk #I should clarify. rimmer is not the same level of hot as lister. i meant he is the same level of hot as malvolio usually is. #notice I am not making any quantitative statements there. #I know for an absolute fact that one of my dear friends thanks malvolio is one of the sexiest characters in theater #which is unusual. But valid. I just have a compulsive need to make sure my phrasing is completely clear #the actor is not a bad looking man. But he is basically playing space malvolio in terms of tone and personality. also I have decided he gay

[lynxalon]

gamers i feel fuckennnnnn terrible ✌️

#hm. #like. this particular situation feels hopeless like i cant salvage anything #its like when glass cracks and u know its broken and dangerous and all it would take is one lil push #and itd just fall #like. i always wanna be someone who tries but. i always try until im raw and bleeding and worse for it #theres trying and theres not knowing when enough is enough and i just dont know where the line is between that #is it really unsalvageable or do i just not wanna hurt over this any more #i know im cared about but. theres one person who i wish cared more. who i wish didnt say things and promise things #because now that its later down the line its clear none of that meant a thing which is exactly what i said then #promises like that dont last. especially from those with commitment issues. i would know. #its why i dont make those kinds of promises. only very rarely. and now im gonna be made into a liar #promise breaker. i hate that #i keep complaining about this and. i keep giving myself a few days. a week. over and over. #'maybe it'll change when my heads clearer. maybe i'll feel differently later' #and tbf i do for a bit. but it doesnt last. it lasts for less time each time i try that #im still mad and upset and hurt #i'll figure it out but. why me. why does this happen

[zukkaoru]

adding hopeful and happy love songs to my itfs playlist because i love dramatic irony and also crying

#'you know i meant it when i took your hand in mine and said i do / there's nowhere else i'd rather be than here with you' #'i'm gonna love you way after forever' #'we've come so far my dear look how we've grown / and i wanna stay with you until we're grey and old' #'i'll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year's day' #it's not blind delusion but this might in fact be worse #anyway this post is sponsored by my muse by owl city. after all we've been through there's nowhere else i'd rather be than here with you #i'm not one to worry much about the future. but because you're mine i've got everything to lose. #and if i'm the only one left in the room. there's nowhere else i'd rather be than home with you. #i;m ill no one look at me #i need to study for my german test. ich will megumi und yuuji ein glückliches ende geben or whatever #hello grace here #wait also i have not seen the leaks. dont show me leaks i do not want to see them or hear about them. dont think about them in my direction #iäm not kidding. also ig i still have mz german keyboard on

[no1ryomafan]

In my constant brain rotations of “why are people in the west so hard on mecha aside from the fandom can be a bit unfriendly” I think one thing I realized as much as I hate to say is how mecha is sometimes treated remind me of the constant hatred superhero stuff gets.

It’s such a weird comparison because with mecha I do not know what the root of it was-and I’d love to know why but I feel there’s either no clear answer or there is one and it’s stupid-where as for superheroes in the west while there’s still a dedicated community the mainstream audiences have become tired of them due to over-saturation, which I understand, but it’s caused such a massive dismal to the entire genre of it much like mecha.

People think superhero stories can’t have any substance because it’s all about fighting and not about the characters- yet forget the SIGNIFICANT impact they had to so much pop culture. How superhero stories were rooted within comic popularity, how superheroes inspired countless of stories, even so far as reaching japan since so much early anime was taken off of western media which birthed its own genre of superheroes. It’s no different to how mecha help started up the anime industry making it one of the most important genres to japans history, yet most people don’t know it and belittle it.

Yet in superhero story cases it’s even WORSE when people are against it yet then go to see one superhero movie because it’s animated and put it on a pedestal and don’t bother to try other superhero content even though they consumed is no different from the norm. It’s the exact same shit when people watch eva and then think all other mechas don’t compare to it, when the genre always had darker, mature and emotional elements, just only a select few decide to canter to a audience who doesn’t even accept what genre it’s from which makes it all the more frustrating to deal with.

I’m someone who’s hardly into superhero stuff even if some of it catches my eye but it sucks to see that the situation is pretty identical to how mecha is seen, that I can’t help to feel sympathetic whenever I see some comic book fans upset at the mainstream audience even if they too can be a little hostile.

#meg text #to clarify I do agree 100% live action superhero movies especially the MCU got really stale #but that doesn’t mean those movies being stale should single out all superhero content when the stuff before is still GOOD #I was in a server that wasn’t mecha but someone was like “I hate superheroes” yet the discussion was just about a old Justice league cartoo #again- what’s so wrong about the animated ones? when they were from a time pre-saturation and people praise shit like spider verse? #I seriously cant tell if this is also a factor of the ever growing issue of people don’t wanna check out old things despite their importanc #*me awaiting the day someone unironically saids the boys/invincible/spider verse is a deconstruction so I can sigh in pain with actual fans #I hope to god that doesn’t happen but it feels like it’s close to why people already say superhero movies don’t have characters #and maybe that’s true bc I haven’t watched a marvel movie in ages but also I think you more so mean “characters being expanded upon” #because… every story has characters… just some can lack dimension and depth… but their still characters… #oh and it’s funny how it’s always these two that get singled out for focusing on action but shonen gets a pass 😑 #action doesn’t equate to less characters!! How do people not realize this? #it’s fine if not your preference but fights can LITERALLY be CHARACTER DRIVEN #a lot of them are in fact because there’s always a purpose to these fights! Even if the meaning is sometimes barebone #also I know there’s gonna be a mecha fan who hates superhero who finds this post #and hate to break it to you but I’m pretty sure the super in super robot came from superhero and just not super powered #especially when a lot of the stuff Nagai made/worked on was him clearly tackling a superhero story from another angle #of course mecha isn’t entirely a superhero genre since we have “reals” but the 70s robots? Oh yeah meant to be superhero’s #and what I said above I think the comparison is warranted because the downplaying is unreal sometimes #will say between the two superhero’s probably have it worse because mecha honestly is more so “im curious but idk more then 5 shows” #because my god I can’t have some conversations irl where this shit doenst get unnecessary heated #had a whole English teacher who wouldn’t stop complaining about superhero movies last semester in college 💀 it’s that bad #that said mecha still suffers from people liking one show and shooting down the other it’s just not as prevalent bc mecha content is low #it’s not dead like others say but it’s mainly been gundam and people now just think gundam is every robot (which is PAINFUL but whatever) #moral of the story is don’t judge a book by it’s cover especially when that book is actually really important to fucking pop culture

[perrypixel]

Idk what's going on me but I confess to a guy, and he was really nice about it but didn't gave me a straight answer and I can't stop thinking about it

#also add to the fact that's he's the first person i ever confessed to #he just said 'im leaving in two weeks' #bc I was still figuring out my feelings #should i just ask him straight up what that meant #also I thought I would better after confessing #no I feel worse bc I feel like my feelings for him are growing and it's gonna hurt more when he does leave #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #personal #i. hate. feelings. so. much.

[creativebrainrot]

also kuras is very hot and i would like him to be soft at me alsoalso i would enjoy it ais was particularly protective/possesive thatd be hot i think alsoalsoalso vere's kinda hot about his nonsense. mhin has very good design but the tsundere ones arent my type. they are very Neat and Cool though.

💖💖LEANDER💖💖

#hey when i said i wasnt gonna shut up about this game i fuckin meant it #im being so fucking autistic about it rn #the second i got my grubby lil mits on early access. its gettin worse. #touchstarved #rotthoughts

[lilgynt]

i’m gonna blow my brothers up with my brain

#personal #i’m planning my dads funeral and going over costs with my brothers since we’re all paying for it #and my brother was like hey this is depressing can we stop talking about it for a few days #and he amended that he meant the money aspect not necessarily the planning #but in the moment i have never been more insulted like #okay. so it’s too depressing to talk about but it’s fine to leave me alone to plan it and still care for dad #like i’m not trying to dictate his grief or pull the i have it worse card #but for gods sake have some fucking perspective #so i say okay and leave it at that bc i don’t want to yell at anyone #and he’s not not trying to come at you but #he’s like* #and i’m like i don’t want to be mean but the above i’ll stop talking about this but please keep some perspective #and they both got butt hurt about it #and it’s like i’m not upset about the money - although thank you guys for the taking care of that now #i don’t know if i’m speaking fucking french i’m only asking you guys keep some perspective #i got really upset and was like guys you’re barely involed as is. i’m not asking you to wipe his ass with me but just AHHHHH #and i even said i can’t dictate ur grief and my other eldest brother said something like #i don’t even know it was so not related to the convo i was lost but now i have no idea if he’s gonna visit dad #which at this point don’t care never see ur father again i don’t know man #and the other one got mad bc he’s been helping financially and emotionally with my mom so i apologized for that one #which is fair that was out of line a bit but also it’s like i say a mean comment you guys actively ignore me asking for support for months #like. still bad on my side but i’m very bitter and am going low contact after this

[dreamcast-official]

hm.

#eli.txt #i think the reason i feel so shit over The Whole Deal is like. god. i just miss talking to them. #sometimes it felt like they were the only person who cared about what i had to say. they were the easiest person to talk to in my life. #and like. basically overnight. they were so distant for what i thought was no reason. and they did not care about me anymore. #i know they were justified in acting that way and its not like they suddenly hate me and dont care about me but god. #thats what it feels like. thats what it fucking feels like!!!! #i didnt just lose my boyfriend i lost one of my best friends and it fucking sucks. it feels like no one is going to put up with me anymore. #idk i dont feel nearly as comfortable talking to Anyone anymore. because when am i gonna know i made a mistake. #how am i gonna know i made a mistake and they suddenly think i hate them and it leads to something like this. how am i gonna know. #and like!! it looks To Me like their life got so much better without me being an active part of it. and i feel like i have just gotten worse #AND THEY WONT FUCKING TALK TO ME! I KEEP TRYING TO MAKE CONVERSATION AND THEY DONT TALK TO ME! AND LIKE. #I KNOW I FUCKED UP BUT IM FUCKING TRYING TO MAKE UP FOR IT CAN YOU PLEASE JUST LET ME TRY. TALK TO ME. I MISS YOU. #I LOVE YOU. NOT IN THAT SENSE ANYMORE BUT I STILL CARE FOR YOU. YOURE MY FRIEND. FUCKING TALK TO ME. #I KNOW NO AMOUNT OF SAYING IM SORRY CAN FIX IT BUT IM TRYING TO MAKE UP FOR IT. PLEASE JUST DONT IGNORE ME LIKE THAT. #god i just feel like maybe i meant nothing. maybe theyve just already moved on entirely and i was never anything. #maybe im the only one who still hurts. yknow. i dont think they care about me anymore. #which i could fucking deal with if they just said that instead of flat out ignoring me. #god i just feel like shit. what if i keep fucking up the same way what if i lose everyone the same way and in the end im alone. #i would probably deserve it. if i keep messing up this bad maybe i deserve to be alone. #i know thats not true. but i feel really bad right now. im not thinking. #no one is going to put up with me the way they did. they already dont. #god. im so tired. i wish they would fucking talk to me.