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huexuri · 4 months

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okay, first of all, I'M SO SORRY FOR SPAMING YOUR INBOX😭😭 anywayyyy

best friends reader and soobin where soobin has a crush on some random girl, but he's a total loser and he knows it, so he asks reader for help... and she totally misunderstood him and thought he's way after the flirting stage and now just wants to fuck with his crush... so she invites him over and decides to teach him how to finger a girl.......on herself. soobin doesn't have an idea what he's doing, but his long as fuck fingers are enough to make reader cum!!!! it all ends up with soobin confessing that reader is his crush lmaooo (omg i got carried away and wrote DEFINITELY too much)

FINALLY DOING THIS ONE🔥🔥 ur genius bro

· show me - fem!reader x soobin ·

SMUT, MDNI!!!

warnings: fem!reader, cnc, friends to lovers, dry humping, fingering, that's probably it

*ding!*

you're in your room, slumped in your office chair, rushing and stressing about the pile of assignments in your inbox that has been assigned by your lecturer since 3 weeks ago. so you almost lose your shit when you hear a notification followed by a buzz from the phone beside you. "who the actual fuck is messaging me at 2 fucking am?" you muttered to yourself. but your gaze on the phone screen — being the only thing emitting light in your eyestrain of a room, softened when you realize it was a text message from your boy best friend — soobin.

"girl, i seriously CANNOT." - soobie boobie, 1 min ago.

you look at the notification in utter confusion — this message without context could mean a bunch of different things.

you click on the notification and reply:

"what's up w u??????"

"there's this girl yhat i like bruh,.... and then like i need to get her to confirm,,,,,,,that she likesme u knwo???SOS????????"

you almost don't understand whatever the shit he's saying because of the typos, but you do know that he's a fucking loser, and that all he wants to do is lose his virginity to some girl he likes.

"u want tips?????" you replied.

"no shit, how tf do i get her to even think of me🙏🙏" soobin replies, followed by "ur a girl u should know what makes a girl like you happy"

"okay so like..... just come over rn and ill teach u everything u need to know to pleasure tf out of yo girl" you suggest.

"COMINGGGGGG" he texts back, so you continue your work while waiting for him.

"open ur door"

he texted you again after what felt like hours, and immediately you shut your computer and put ur notes aside — immediately jumping out of bed and running to the front door.

"come on, let's go to my room." you said to him as he nodded and followed you to your room.

you sat down on your bed and patted the empty space beside you, indicating him to sit down. he follows suit, and looks at you with expectancy.

"okay, soobin, so first thing to do is that you need her wrapped around your finger right?" you sigh.

"yes, obviously." he replies — thinking you didn't literally mean it by "wrapped around your finger" and assuming you were talking about the saying, so imagine the shock that replaces the expectant look on his face when you start stripping in front of him — looking at him with confusion as if you didn't just flash him with the sight of your bare pussy.

"what?? you wanted her wrapped around your finger, so i'm gonna teach you???" you replied.

"n-no, not like th–..... nevermind." he'd soon change his mind when he decides that he does prefer this much more than regular advice.

you sit, now facing him with your legs wide open and clit wide open on display for him. of course you're pretending that you have no idea why he's so shocked — you know he wanted regular advice, but who can say that he'd deny the view in front of him? you desperately needed someone to fuck you. wasn't this basically the perfect opportunity?

soobin, lips slightly parted — still looking up and down on you in shock, tent that wasn't there a minute ago growing in his pants. you grab his wrist—

"so, your fingers, preferably this and this finger — will go in, and then curl upwards, but make sure not to scratch the inner lining of the vagina." you tried to say as seriously as possible, "i'll show you, wait." you continued.

"oh, u-uh, okay," soobin replied, holding on back to your wrist instead.

using your free hand, you insert one finger up you, then the other and thrust it further in— letting out a loud, lewd gasp at that, then curling your fingers up and straight up moaning at the feeling.

"l-like that, do that, now.. haa.. it's your t-turn,," you slowly slid your fingers out of you, licking your arousal.

"okay, uhm,," soobin's face grew hot as he broke apart the grasp on your wrist.

his slender fingers hesitantly start to play with your walls, then slowly he inserts his middle finger into you — making you stutter as his one finger feels like two of yours, noting the size and length difference of his girthy but still slender fingers compared to yours who is half the length.

he slides another finger in, and that's enough for you to let out another heavy sigh.

he looks at you with concern, but when you ask him to, "now, curl, soobin." he doesn't hesitate to curl his fingers up and suddenly you start to moan for more.

soobin starts positioning himself so he can hump the bed while fingering you.

"a-are you sure i can do this to you?" soobin softly said, repeating the same move you taught him.

"please, fuck yes, soobin. play around if you want.." you sighed.

now as if soobin had years of experience– no, a fucking degree in fingering, he'd start to finger-fuck you, making this feel better than any of the times you'd finger yourself. your fingers feel so pathetic in comparison to what his long and veiny fingers can do to you — and soon, he's rubbing your wet clit with one thumb and fingering you with three fingers with the other, all while humping the bed, his sweatpants looking as if it's about to explode because of how big he is against the thin fabric.

"oh shit, fuck y-yyhh-yes... soobin, fuck... more... please, please,,, ngh—" your hips start to jitter, your eyes start to water and your knees are trembling as it's wrapped around his back.

"like that, like that? do you like it? feels—fuck,, feels good??" soobin softly asks, his cheeks glowing red and leaving a wet spot, maybe drool or his precum on the bed.

"fuck soob—you're doing sso...good.."

"mmh, is this what g-girls like? w-what you, you–y-ff-fuck, fuck.... shit.. you're really so... sso hot like this,," soobin's voice cracking and raspy, sounding like he's close.

"soobin, i'm cumming 'm ssso.. close."

"shit, i'm also... gonna... ngh—fuck—oh god—"

"you make me feel so fucking good, fuck,,!" tears streaming down the sides of your eyes as you slowly drench his entire hand in your slick, spurts of semen also seeping thru his sweatpants material.

you both pant loudly and fall on your backs against the mattress — his 3 fingers slipping out of you with a wet pop sound.

you immediately suck one of his fingers covered in your arousal, leaving him to taste you on the other two.

"soobin?" you tiredly turn your head to his direction, chest still rising up and down.

"yeah?" he swiftly says, almost sounding like a sigh.

"who's that girl that you like?" you say, now in more envy in your voice than ever before.

"it's you." soobin simply splurts out with no hesitation.

"oh.."

"what's with that oh?" soobin asks you, now slightly worried.

"honestly, same. i just didn't expect it to be me."

soobin softly smiles at you.

"can i say that i love you now?" soobin said in between heavy breaths.

"yeah."

"i love you."

"i love you too.." you smile back at him. he shuts his eyes, and the both of you doze off.

#xuri writes #xuri inbox #soobin smut #soobin hard thoughts #soobin hard hours #soobin x reader #soobin x reader smut #txt smut #txt hard hours #txt hard thoughts

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ghostgirl101 · 11 months

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hey, i really like ur writing and idk if ur working on something rn but when you can and if you want to, could you possibly write some ben drowned x reader kissing headcanons? (only if u r comfortable w/ that ofc!) ur literally my favorite writer on this app nd i literally read everything u post lol so even if u don’t do this ty anyway and have a nice day/night and take care of urself!!🩷

Kissing BEN Drowned Would Be Like This:

A/N: Sure, I'm comfortable with that; this is kind of a whole affection headcanon thing, which I've only just realised now I'm reading it over 🙃 I'm glad you like my writing, hope you enjoy this one, take care of yourself too 😀 Also, should I start making a taglist for my creepypasta posts? If you're interested, let me know.

🎮• So. If you're expecting BEN to be an absolute gentleman who asks for your permission before giving you any form of affection, or is a bit bashful to initiate it...

🎮• Haha. Sorry.

🎮• I mean, he'd never push your boundaries or deliberately make you feel uncomfortable when you guys are being intimate somehow, but he's not gonna be shy about it. That's because it takes a bit of time for him to warm up to the idea of physically coming out of the screen and materializing himself enough for you to hug him and everything safely, without getting electrocuted or whatever.

🎮• Another factor is that after all he's been through, the idea of letting himself be that vulnerable around people is a bit of a daunting one, even if it's you, someone who he's learned to trust and get close to until it gets to this point.

🎮• So, well done to you, for earning the ultimate sign of trust from this maniac virus boy. Chances are that after you hint at wanting to be able to kiss him or something, he's gonna act all teasing and dismissive about it, but what you don't know is that the thought stays in his mind after you've finished up on the computer and gone to bed. He watches you silently from the camera on your open screen (that he's insisted you keep open for him to check in on you) and lets the idea of it grow into a nice, tempting one.

🎮• So get ready for yet another burst of an adrenaline rush as BEN gives you the scare of your life when he comes crawling out of the screen as you wake up in the morning, scattering your desk trinkets and stuff all over the place in the process. BEN has very pale blonde hair in his humanish form, almost white, and even paler skin, with empty black and red eyes, sometimes glitchy... you probably know already. BEN's eyes bleed lightly even when he's not upset, but seem to gush blood when he is. But even with the whole horrifying appearance, somehow, he manages to make himself look handsome. Don't tell him, though, or he'll tease you about it and probably won't ever forget it.

🎮• When you get over the initial shock of him literally just spawning into your room, he stays completely indifferent, if not a bit amused, because isn't this what you wanted? It's not like he bites. Unless you're into that sort of thing.

🎮• BEN is a bit apprehensive at first, because, let's be real, you're his first kiss. His life was twisted into an electronic form when he was really young, and so human touch is almost a completely foreign experience to him at this point, so he will start slow. He might flinch a couple of times, but dismisses it and tells you to go on, that he wants to get used to it. And he does.

🎮• When he does, that's when you've got his chaotic bursts of affection energy to deal with. He loves catching you off guard; you could be doing anything, working or hanging around or whatever, and then he's suddenly there behind you, and you get the tiniest of electric shocks as BEN grabs you effortlessly and refuses to let go for a solid five minutes while you fidget in his glitching but strong arms and glare at him.

🎮• The first thing you'll end up doing is hugging, because he likes the feel of being close in somebody's arms in a way he didn't think he could be before. You're warm and he's consistently cold, leading to you having to slap at his hands when he slides a hand down your back or something bratty just to make you squeal and shiver. They draw out into cuddle sessions, another thing he likes, and will ultimately go soft over. There have been many times when you've managed to fall asleep in BEN's arms, and that's one of the rare times where he'll let all his guard down and fiddle with your hair or play with your jewelry or just stare at you with a newfound feeling of protectiveness and fondness.

🎮• Now for the actual kissing part 🙃 I need to say that it really isn't a first "kiss." It's the first of many long makeout sessions, because BEN will drag it out as much as he can, and then stop abruptly when you least expect it, just to be a tease and wanting more. I see it happening when you're rambling about something or other, and he's out in the real world instead of in a screen, when you realize that your faces are inches apart, and he has a blank, frustrating unreadable look on his face.

🎮• And, before you can say anything, he'll take the plunge before he can think about it any more, leaning in and brushing his lips against yours, but waiting for you to accept it and move in too. It starts off surprisingly soft and sweet, until BEN starts getting addicted to the new, intimate sensation, and tries deepening it. Then it's less sweet and more intense, and (sorry for the cliche lol) electric. He tastes kind of appley, and his lips are cold and soft. BEN will carry on going, further and further, to the point of you ending up breathless and him pulling away with a stunned look on his face. That look morphs into his usual mischievous smirk after he recovers in a few moments, and he raises a brow in amusement at your wide eyes and swollen lips, probably with a snarky little "Not bad."

🎮• After you've done it once, you're gonna end up doing it a whole lot more. There are hardly ever any proper warnings apart from BEN gradually moving in closer and being more teasing and flirty, or on sadder days where painful memories of the past come creeping back to haunt him, a source of comfort and reminder that he's still here and has another reason to be alive and basically immortal. It's not just to drive people to insanity and infect their systems with disturbing things until they crack, or whatever other motives he has. Now, there's you, someone who he's decided he needs to look out for and be with in any possible way.

🎮• Like I said, kissing BEN Drowned usually ends in suggestive makeout sessions and the like, because that's just BEN all over. But they're one way he's discovered he can show he cares, and so he'll keep doing it if you want him to, without any hesitation. Realistically, the boy is beyond touch starved, and so that all pours into the affections he gives you. To anyone else, he's a twisted, demon-like boy who makes peoples' lives hell by getting into their heads through ways they can't control, but to you and you only, he'll let himself become more and more vulnerable, until you see that really, he still was and is Ben.

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imrllytootiredforthis · 1 year

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Christmas Miracles

Pairing: Chan x reader

Summary: It’s Christmas Eve and Chan is still working, no matter how much you try to convince him to take a break

Warnings: Dom reader, sub chan, handjob, use of petnames (good boy, baby, etc), slight exhibitionism, probably more that I forgot

Word Count: 5.8k

A/N: This is way, way too reflective on my mental health rn, but really, who needs to actually confront your problems when you can just write an angsty, smutty christmas fic abt them?

That being said, 18+ minors DNI

It’s Christmas Eve.

Christmas fucking Eve and your boyfriend hasn’t left the studio once.

Not for food, not for water, not to simply say hi to you or the others, not for a bathroom or brain break.

Not once. In fact, you don’t even think he’s taken a break from working at all in there. You know because you check in with him every hour and half.

And-you guessed it!

Every. Single. Time. He’s. Working.

Headphones pulled over his ears, fingers clicking keys and eyes glued to that computer.

And frankly, it was getting frustrating. Frustrating because you and the others have been waiting out here all day, talking, chatting. You’d come a few hours early to the secret santa gift exchange you and Felix had set up, with your gift for Han.

You made sure that you were there extra, extra early. Made sure to give your workaholic boyfriend lots of extra time to finish up his work, giving him periodic warnings every half hour to let him know just how long he had left.

Every time he’d nod offhandedly, hum in acknowledgement but not really listen before he’d shoo’d you off, saying he knew and that you could stop mothering him.

And so you gave him some slack, getting off his back a bit as he requested, trusting that he would be able to regulate everything by himself.

And when everyone finally got there, gathered around on the floor, ready for the gift exchange, you stood up and said that you’d get Chan and the activity could commence.

You popped your head into his studio, gently asking if he was ready. “It’s time, you ready? Got your gift?”

He spun around on his wheelie chair, looking at you, confused. “My gift?”

“What do you mean ‘My gift?’, Chan? We’re doing a gift exchange. Everyone’s here, that’s what I’ve been bothering you about for all day!”

Blank. Not a single thought in that pretty head of his.

He did not.

“Huh?”

Your jaw clenched. “You did not. Chan.”

He rubbed at his red eyes, the bags under them prominent from the apparent lack of sleep despite how many times you’ve told him to stop working and get a full proper night of it.

“Wait-we’re doing a gift exchange-since when?”

You groaned, pinching the bridge of your nose. “The one that Felix and I set up like three weeks ago! We picked names from a hat!” You paused, remembering the day with a heavy sigh. “No, you weren’t there, but I gave it to you when you got home that night. I even remember-you had Hyunjin. You were asking me what I thought you should get for him.”

He nodded slowly, pursing his lips, eyes not meeting your’s. “...Still don’t know what you’re talking about. I have no memory of this happening.

“I remember, I told you that you were supposed to come up with it yourself, it was supposed to be special that way.”

Running a hand through his unruly hair that didn’t look like he had brushed in a while, he shook his head again. “Look, I don’t know, maybe it just slipped my mind, I don’t remember any of this.”

“Fucking hell, Chan! I told you about this, weeks ago! I told you last week. I told you a few days ago, I reminded you over and over and you told me you had it covered!”

Finally leaving the doorway you stepped inside, shutting the door behind you, hoping no one else heard the outburst. When you looked back to him, it seemed you had already lost his attention, his eyes turned back to the screen, fingers hovering over the keyboard. “Turn off the damn computer and listen to me!”

And that was the final thing to have his headphones coming off, hesitating for a minute over the shut off button before deciding your rage over fighting over this particular thing wouldn’t be worth it.

The screen went black and he turned to you. And it finally hit you, the extent of his overworking.

He looked tired-exhausted, pale and unruly. He looked as if he hadn’t eaten or slept or drank anything in days.

Rubbing a hand over his face, he groaned. “Look, I’m sorry! I’ve just been so busy with work-”

“And that’s it! All you ever do is work now! You cancel plans to work! We barely spend any time together because you’re working! The others barely ever see you because you’re working! Look at yourself Chan, you don’t look like you’ve even been taking care of yourself!”

“I just need to finish this one project and then I promise-I’ll take a break!”

“That’s what you always say! That’s what you said for the last project, for the one before that and the one before that and that’s what you’ll say for the one after this!”

He opened his mouth, but you cut him off. “You need to take a break and take a break now! No ‘one more hour’, no ‘one more day’, no ‘after this project is finished’! You are going to take a break now and you are going to not look at your computer until after Christmas.”

“But-”

“I don’t want to hear it.” You grabbed his arm, opening the door and pulling him out of the studio for what you could only guess and hope you were wrong was the first time in days.

The others smiled and greeted Chan happily when the two of you walked in. You smiled, pretending you didn’t see the obvious looks of concern passing between the boys. The walls were too fucking thin for this.

They began shouting exclamations about how they felt like they hadn’t seen their leader in forever, congratulating you for finally being able to get him out the studio for once.

You side-eyed him all the while as he looked down at his feet, rubbing his neck and apologizing sheepishly.

“Sorry guys, I’ll try to be more...present from now on...”

The others nodded and you clapped your hands together, gaining everyone’s attention with a “Well, anyway...does anyone wanna start this gift exchange?”

Cheers filled the room as you led Chan to the couch, sitting him down before taking your place next to him.

The rest of the night was fun, you received a spray bottle from Seungmin, telling you to spray Chan with it whenever he worked for too long. Everyone got a laugh out of that.

Chan got a ‘World’s Best Dad’ mug from Han and you could see him almost getting teary-eyed as he read it, pulling Han in for a hug and thanking him for the somewhat of a joke present.

Hyunjin seemed fine with the lack thereof of a gift but played it up a lot, pretending to be wounded by Chan, grabbing at his chest and falling to his knees in a fake sob of agony.

Truly, you enjoyed it.

You couldn’t remember the last time you’d hung out with all the boys and Chan, forgetting sometimes really how close they all were, how well they knew each other and how much more than coworkers they’d become over the years.

You also greatly forgot how loud they all were.

The laughing and constant clapping to accompany it, things shouted, so unhinged it had everyone laughing from just the absurdity of it.

Several times they got into ‘fights’ that were really just shouting with the escalation of someone trying to yell louder than the other until everything was incoherent screaming. It ended when suddenly the entire thing turned to laughter, all eight boys pretty much rolling on the floor with it while you sat there, very confused and slightly amused by it all.

It was the first time in a while you saw Chan so carefree and happy, so relaxed.

It was nice to see.

Well, it was nice to see until he wiped the tears from his eyes from laughing too hard and suddenly he didn’t look so relaxed.

He looked tired again, woozy like he might pass out or something.

You take his hand at look at him with a soft smile. “You good, Channie?”

He nods but his skin has taken on a sickly pale colour. “Yeah, yeah. I-i’m good, I think-I think I just need to go to the bathroom, yeah?”

“Okay...”

And like that he stands up, announcing to the others that he has to go to the bathroom, saying to not wait up for him as he trails down the hall in an almost unsteady manner.

You’re overreacting you tell yourself. You’re overreacting, he knows himself best, he knows his limits. He knows how to take care of himself.

You. Are...Overreacting.

And then he’s gone for ten minutes...

Fifteen...

Twenty minutes.

“Wait, where’d Chan go?” Han questions, popping his head up from where he lays on the floor, rolling around and gasping for air from something Changbin’s said.

“He went to the bathroom, remember?” Lee Know replies, not even lifting his head up from where he lays.

You sigh, standing up. “I think, uh, that I’ll go check on him.”

They all echo okays and laughter, jokes about how Chan can’t even go to the bathroom in peace anymore, but at this point you could care less about the heckling.

All you care about now is hoping that this wasn’t what you had an itching feeling it was.

That he isn’t doing what you think he is.

But perhaps that’s too much to wish for on this Christmas Eve as you knock on the bathroom door twice, leaning in in wait for his response. “Chan? You okay in there, baby?”

No reply.

“Chris?”

Nothing.

“Chan...I’m coming in, okay?”

You try the handle first, unlocked, then you slowly push the door open, looking in to see...that you were right. He isn’t in there.

He better not.

You rush down the hall, hoping-desperately hoping that you’re wrong and maybe...you don’t know, but hoping that he had some kind of excuse as to why he wasn’t in the bathroom and you’re assuming that he never was.

Well maybe, maybe...he needed to grab something from the studio. Maybe when he went to the bathroom it was already in use, so he went to the one on the other side of the building. Maybe he...went to get fucking take-out...without telling you or the others about it...

They were all lame excuses and you knew they were all wrong as your feet led you to the one place you knew he would be. The one place he would be, doing the one thing you knew he would be doing.

“Chris?”

Your voice is wary, tired as the door creaks, slightly screeching as you pull it open.

“L-look! I can explain!”

And there he was.

Sitting at his desk, his headphones pulled over his ears, his fingers hovering over the keyboard, on that goddamned computer.

The boys continued to laugh and yell outside but you still close the door, hoping that with their level of sound and the door it would be enough to mute your sounds.

Your voice is deadly calm when you speak, masking the anger burning inside of you. “Then explain Chan-because I am really hoping right now that you have a good explanation.”

He looks down, hanging his head in shame and you know he doesn’t. “I’m...I’m sorry, I’m trying, I really am...it’s just there’s so much work to do and so little time to get it all done. I wanna take a break, I wanna spend time with you and the boys...it’s just...”

“It’s just what! I get it-you wanna get this finished,” The calm in you is gone, replaced with a near hysteria, shutting your eyes and clenching your fists as your voice rises in pitch. “You feel rushed and you feel as if you need to get it all done as soon as possible but you can take a break! You need to take a break!”

You move toward him, turning that spinning chair so he’s facing you. You take his face in your hands, forcing him to look you in the eye. “This isn’t healthy how hard you’re working! It’s Christmas-it’s a damn holiday and, and you’re working! Do you not understand, do you not hear what I’m saying?”

He opens his mouth, trying to look away but you don’t let him, don’t let up on the grip you have on him. “I-I do, it’s just-”

“No, do you actually hear what I’m saying? Cause Chris, I need you to hear me right now. I need this to cement in your mind, I need you to think and realize that this isn’t healthy! This isn’t good for you and it isn’t good for us and if that’s really not enough of a reason for you, then it isn’t good for the company. They can’t have you passing out on-stage because you haven’t been sleeping or eating or drinking.”

You drag in a heavy breath. “So, do you actually hear what I’m saying?”

“Yes, yes, I hear you.”

You don’t notice the tears spilling down your face until his eyes are getting watery too and he’s wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you into him.

He buries his head into your stomach and shakes with heaving sobs. You pat his back, trying to soothe him the best you can as you cover your mouth with the opposite hand, trying to stay silent as you do the same.

And suddenly all of the energy drains out of you. The anger is replaced by pure exhaustion.

You’re crying and he’s crying and you’re clinging to each other, grasping at the comfort the other provides, the small cracks built over the past while finally breaking until a flood is released.

Everything that’s happened, everything that hasn’t happened, everything that had to be said and everything that didn’t. It’s all there, silent and unspoken in the embrace.

It’s all there and you both understand it without a single word having been said. With just the tears and the touch and the wet spot that you’re sure is staining your shirt now as he buries his head into you.

And suddenly you’re laughing, watery, hiccupy laughs that don’t really sound like laughs-and nothing going on right now is really funny but you can’t help it-because it’s Christmas Eve and you’re supposed to be happy, and it’s supposed to be the happiest time of the year, bright lights and warmth and family and you’re the exact fucking opposite right now.

Because you’re both so, so fucking burnt out, so, so fucking tired and you’re both really, really done and all you can really do right now is cry.

You don’t know how long it’s for.

Until the tears run out and you’re staring at the wall blankly, playing with Chan’s hair as he clutches onto you, the waterworks stopped with the after breakdown sniffles present.

You’re not sure and don’t really care if the others heard you but if you strain your ears you can still hear their distant laughter clearly.

“Y-you okay?” You whisper, snivelling in a way you’re sure is unattractive but in all honestly you’re much too far past that at this point.

He doesn’t reply, only pulls far enough away to look up at you with big, sad, red eyes and even redder cheeks...and...oh.

Oh.

He pushes himself against you and you can clearly feel the large bulge pressed up against you as he looks up at you with those big sad eyes.

And now you’re kind of confused.

You’re not really sure what this means.

Now?

After that?

Maybe you’re just reading the context clues wrong but he looks at you and bites his lip, looking away shyly.

You sigh and pull him up off the chair, pushing him over to the couch in the corner of the room. He lands on it with a small oomph, still holding you by the waist and pulling you in close to him.

It’s a weird transition, from what just happened to this. From the tearstains still prominent on either of your faces to whatever this is. Whatever this is turning into.

But if this is what he wants right now, what he wants from you. Well then you’re going to give it to him.

“You’re gonna need to tell me what you need baby. Verbalize it for me.”

He sniffles again. “I just...I really need you right now. Will you just...” He mumbles the last part, turning pink under your gaze.

You sigh, looking at him with gentle eyes before settling against the opposite side of the couch against the arm of it. “C’mere.”

He scrambles across the cushions to meet you, kneeling between your legs and tilting his head, waiting for you to give him direction. “C’mon baby, turn around,” He follows your lead until he’s sitting between your legs, his back against your chest, your resting chin on his shoulder. “Okay honey, ‘M gonna need you to tell me exactly what you need. Loud and clear so I can hear you.”

He shudders and you can tell he’s struggling to get out the words. “C-can you please...take care of me? Just wanna feel you.”

He paws at the sleeves of your shirt and you can tell what he’s asking for. Another time you might’ve teased him, played a little dumb, asked to elaborate on the request. But neither of you have the energy for that right now, so he’s granted that small mercy.

“Good boy, Channie,” He shivers at the words, squirming as you shift him slightly in order to pull off your own shirt, dropping it onto the floor to find later before feeling at the hem of his. “Can I take this off for you?”

“Yeah,” His voice is small and shaky as you pull it over his head, lifting his arms to make the job easier. And when it’s off and joined your own on the floor you’re already touching him.

You’re touching him and he’s sighing, relaxing, falling so quickly as your fingers graze his abdomen, tracing over his hard-earned abs and pecs, brushing over his sensitive buds. They harden quickly and he’s moaning, breathy little pants falling from his lips as his eyes slip shut-as you continue. Continue to touch and pinch and stroke and grope.

And over everything, it’s your voice that has every last drop of remaining tension in his body melting away, turning him into putty in your hands. Your voice as you whisper into his ear how good of a boy he is, how much he deserves this, how much he deserves everything and more.

He doesn’t think he could move even if he wanted to-and he doesn’t. Chan never wants to move from this spot-from this moment-here with you.

Your breath fans over the side of his face, leaving small kisses over his neck between every word. “Does it feel good Channie?”

"Nngh," he whines, not answering the question but this time it’s okay, this time you let it slide, continuing as his breathing quickens, moaning climbing higher in pitch as you gently ask the question again.

“Channie, baby? Asked you a question baby.”

He drags his eyes open just enough to look at you, pulling you against him into a short but sloppy kiss. “So, so good-please-please touch me, need it~”

For once you don’t ask him to clarify, if the bags under his eyes are anything to go by, he deserves this, deserves a break-a reward if you will-after working so hard.

Your hand fall to his hips and he whines at the loss. Chuckling lightly you kiss his cheek. “Patience baby.”

He nods breathlessly and gasps as you push his pants and boxers down, shivering at the cool air meets his heated skin and his cock slaps up against his abdomen. “T-touch me, please-please, need it so ba-”

His breath hitches, voice cutting off as you lick a strip up his neck, dragging your hand over his cock at the same time. You tsk him as he lets out an especially loud moan. “Patience, no need to get all worked up, s’okay.”

His is breath is gone, gone, gone, gone as his thighs reflexively shut at the sudden touch. You coo at him, placing your own legs between them and prying them apart.

His hips rock forward gently as you thumb over his slit, gathering his arousal and using it to slide your hand up and down him easier. “P-please.” He doesn’t know what he’s asking for but the words slip out instinctively, they feel right for the moment, for the desperation and need he feels, coursing, burning through his veins.

Your lips skip across the skin of his neck, nipping and licking at the unmarked skin. Hand starting slow and gaining in pace to match his pulse against your lips, squeezing the base as he loses more and more control of his body. His hips jumping up erratically, noises coming out louder and louder, higher and higher in need.

“Gotta be quiet, darling, the boys are still outside.” You breath.

He freezes for a second, horror crossing his mind at the thought. But then the way your hand feels...gripping him, sliding up and down him. Sparks of pleasure explode behind his eyelids and all he can do is dig his teeth into bottom lip to keep quiet.

His hand falls to where your’s trails, up and down, up and down his chest, teasing and stroking. He grasps at your fingers, pawing at them clumsily. “N-need you,” He whispers, voice light and airy. Cute. Adorable in the way his body squirms against yours, cock pulsing in your hand.

A small bead of pre-cum pearls at the tip, spilling over your fingers. “P-please,” he moans. “H-hold, nngh, h-hold my ha-hand.”

Your heart melts and you oblige his request, turning the hand over to intertwine your fingers with his. “Of course, such a good boy for me. Such a good, good boy.”

His body tenses, abs clenching and unclenching as he squeezes your hand tighter, almost painfully but you could care less as you continue, movements getting smoother and smoother due to the arousal leaking.

He whimpers out loudly, toes curling as his body convulses. “Please-please-please-please, can I cum, can I cum, can I please-please can I cum?”

You hush him, kissing up his cheek, his temple, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze.

“It’s okay. Cum for me Channie.”

With the words his body tenses, breath hitching in his throat as his legs tremble, letting out a high-pitched whimper and, with a last throb, he cums.

Sticky white liquid spills over your fingers as he falls lax into your arms, panting and sweaty. His body’’s energy used up and drained.

Completely and utterly boneless as you pull your hand away from his and use it pet back his sweaty hair. “How’d you feel baby?”

He sighs, “Great. Really, really great.” His eyelids flutter in a struggle to keep them open. “Thank you.” You hum, watching his eyes finally slip shut, lips pouting up. “Kiss me, please?”

With a small giggle you do, pecking those pouted lips once, twice, smiling while he pouts further, letting out an indignant whine. “Kiss me.”

You heart flutters in your chest and he moans as you claim his lips with your own, softly sliding your tongue into his mouth, kissing him breathless until you have no choice but to pull away.

Glancing over to his moniter on his desk the time shows clearly and you give him one more peck on the nose.

“Merry Christmas Channie.”

Tiredly, he whispers back, eyes already shut. “Merry Christmas, love you so, so, so much.”

You smile, pausing for a moment to hear that the boys outside have gone quiet-probably from having gone home if the time is anything to go by.

“Love you too baby.” You murmur back, but he’s already asleep, lightly snoring with a slight smile on his lips.

He’s sleeping. Calm and relaxed, and finally, he’s taking a break.

Maybe it is a Christmas Miracle after all.

A/N: My taglist is open now here, hope everyone enjoys this and has a happy holidays!

@imsolovelylovely, @hobihearteu, @lino-jagiyaa

#bang chan x reader #bang chan smut #chan x reader #chan smut #stray kids x reader #stray kids smut #stray kids #sub bang chan #sub chan #sub!stray kids #sub stray kids #dom!reader #dom reader

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poraphia · 7 months

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hellooo I was laying in bed and had an idea, what if the reader and Wilbur had been talking for a bit like flirting yk, and there streaming (reader isn't a streamer just visiting?) and they get on the topic of birthdays and Wilbur is like "oh when's your birthday I actually don't know!" And it turns out the readers a capricorn (I'm hoping u get this reference and I'm not embarrassing myself)

"A Capricorn, oh, Fuck That!"

➵ PAIRING! cc!wilbur x capricorn!reader

➵ CREATING! 10.12.23 | 940 words

➵ CONTAINING! reader is a capricorn, wilbur and reader being flirty, geogeusser, wilbs singing accoustic

➵ SAYING! poraphia finally doing her requests?? YUHHH im in class rn as im writing this LMAOO. sorry this isnt like my best writing but im tryna get back into the groove

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“Wil, help me!”

The tall man sat back in his chair, smiling smugly as he leaned back. I puffed up my cheeks in frustration as I had lost another round of Geogeusser against an annonymous user.

“I feel like at this point your viewers are stream sniping just to publicly humiliate me.” I sighed. Wil chuckled, now sitting up and scooting his chair close to his desk to examine the screen with me.

“Come on, I know you can do better than that.” He said, clicking the exit screen button. I turned to him, making a pouty face. After he finished adjusting his stream so that his webcam was now in full view, he turned to me. He tapped my nose with his index finger.

“Boop!” He giggled. My frown immediately curved into a smile as a small blush crept on my cheeks. He withdrawed his finger before tapping my nose again. “Boop!” He repeated.

I laughed, waving his hand away. “Okay, okay! I’m not mad anymore.” I looked at his other monitor to examine the chat. “Chat says they want to do a QnA. Should we do a QnA?” I asked. Wil placed his arm on the head of my chair, almost wrapping his arm around me.

“I don’t see why not.” He said, smirking. With his free hand, he reached over to his mouse and turned on text-to-speech donations. Curious, I scooted closer to him to watch his movements. He tilted his head toward mine, leaning into my prescence. “Alright, chat, I turned on donations. Ask away.”

I leaned my head on his shoulder as I watched the chat zoom by on his laptop. My eyes then trailed onto his computer monitor, realizing that his gaze was also on the monitor, admiring our position.

“Hey Wil and (y/n)—!” The text-to-speech voice filled our ears, making me holt back from the sudden noise.

“Ah! Wil that thing is loud!” I complained.

“Whoops, hold up.” He reached over and clicking on some things.

“—random question, but do yall believe in star signs? and what are yall star signs?” the text-to-speech finished it’s question. I tilted my head a bit, slightly thinking.

“I think they’re interesting, but I wouldn’t say I’m a total advocate.” Wil answered. “I like doing little jokey jokes with them though.”

“Oh yeah! That one bit with Charlie when you guys were sailing around in Origins?” I asked. Wil and I had watched the premiere of that video together the day it uploaded.

“Yeah— Oh you know what, that makes me wonder,” He turned his chair fully to look at me. “When is your birthday? I’m sure you’ve told me at least once but it probably just slipped my mind.”

“Wowww, and I thought we were friends.” I teased, crossing my arms.

“To be fair, I forget my own birthday!” Wil argued.

“That’s because you make up fifteen different birthdays for every stream.” I sighed. I turned back around to face the monitor.

“Touche.” He quickly muttered. I laughed, shaking my head. “So, when’s your birthday?” He asked.

“It’s in January, so I think I’m a capricorn?” I said, unsure. I watched Wilbur’s eyes widen a little from the monitor before a sly grin forming on his face. I turned my head to look at him.

“What? Is there something wrong with being a capricorn?” I asked, the confusion seeping into my voice. I looked back at chat only to be met with “A CAPRICORN??” and “YOOOOOOOOOOO”

“Can you give a moment? I need to get my guitar.” Wil said rather ominously. Without a space to talk, he got up and rushed to his bedroom to grab his instrument. In turn, I was left with thousands of people seeing the outright bewilderment on my face.

“Chat, I’m scared, what’s going on?!” I quickly uttered with a breathy laugh lightening my words. Wil came back shortly, clutching his guitar by the neck. I scoot my chair back for him and the guitar to fit back into frame.

“Sing it with me if you know the lyrics, chat, and I know you know the lyrics.” He quickly tuned his guitar as I stared at him dumbfounded. He played a few strings, testing to see if they were making the right notes before playing a familiar strumming pattern.

I bobbed my head to the words, listening to his breathy voice sing the lyrics he had written himself. His eyes fluttered close as he hunched down a little, feeling his music. He finished up the first verse, transitioning onto the verse.

“I’ve been scared of sleeping with the lights on. Know she’s not there. I know she’s going to his flaaat!” He tilted his head a little as he hit the high note. A smile unknowingly crept up on my face. “A capricorn, oh fuck that!”

“What the— Wil—!”

“They say sex sells I know that!” He ignored my shocked expression and continued playing.

“Wilbur!” I exclaimed again. I tried to sound upset, but in reality, my lips were pulled back into a wide smile. Eventually I sunk back in my chair, admiring his concentrated expression as his fingers grazed against the steel strings. His hair gently resting on top of his forehead, covering his eyes as he turned his face down to his guitar.

He could insult my star sign all he wants. As long as he does it in that pretty voice.

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mythgirlimagines · 10 months

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I’m at my computer rn and I’m going to make that everyone’s problem but especially Kanade’s

Kanade definitely has scoliosis but probably doesn't know it (or didn’t until Mafuyu went to nursing school and noticed the symptoms she had). idk how often japan screens for it but in America (at least my state) we test every year or so at school, so if Kanade hasn't been physically to school in the last few years there's a good chance it wouldn’t have been caught if it’s not severe

like me Kanade’s shoulders get a little more uneven when she's tired or sore or both from working for longer than she should (slanted shoulders/hips are common symptoms of scoliosis) which is sometimes how the rest of niigo knows that shes sore or has been working forever

doesn't really stop her from working that long, and she does not sit upright when she does or gets up and stretches while she's in the middle or something unless she’s prompted to, usually by Honami when she’s over or niigo during calls

when she does get sore, I feel like it'd show in how quiet she is. I already wrote a Kanade back pain fic and put it as "When it happened on call, it was usually shown to the others through uncharacteristic silence. Not to say she wasn’t normally silent, but at least when she was working, she still responded to her name being called by the second time. When it was anything other than that, it could take up to six." yeah

laying on hard surfaces would help her become more comfortable after that, as opposed to softer surfaces (I’m like this too, since it takes less time for my spine to settle, as I put it). She's also a fan of heating pads, since they work for her rather quickly and she can keep doing whatever she wants, and sitting with her arm between her back and her seat for more comfort (it looks kind of like she pins her arm behind her while sitting)

this is usually when she’ll go to Sekai and lay on the ground there for a while, or else she’ll just lay on the floor of her bedroom if she doesn’t want to go there

like niigo, Honami is pretty in tune with when Kanade's sore, because i highly doubt Kanade would tell anyone that she’s sore. She's offered to give Kanade shoulder rubs before to help when the soreness is more towards her shoulders as opposed to her lower back, but Kanade only sometimes (usually when its really bad) takes her up on it

when she’s sore, she has a hard time bending over to pick things up or tie her shoes totally not me and uses other surfaces to help her stand up straight again. Even then, she gets kind of stiff for a while after

if she does have a visible curve, it's hidden by her sweatshirt. I don’t know if she would or not, though

y’all don’t know just how much I have rotating in my head for this

#headcanons #kanade yoisaki #scoliosis #honami mochizuki #should i tag the rest of niigo?#project sekai #pjsk #just like my miu and angie back pain stuff this is incredibly self-indulgent #link

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ilykomie · 7 months

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proselfshiptember, DAY 16

step into my world ; past! tomura shigaraki/komie

or… komi is sick and tomura’s bored, and feeling deprived of the teenager experience, and neither of them know what time it is.

cw. incest (but also not really since they’re both adopted and afo isn’t really their dad), p/rn videos, tomura and komi are weirdos but in different ways, consent is real and true and shigaraki doesn’t believe in it (occasional non-consensual touches), shigaraki is 13 - komie is 12

⌒ ✦ ・。

“you’re sick again?”

i was sick last month, and the month before that, and every almost every month since i’ve known. i nodded.

“gross,” he sat back down on his bed, parrallel to mine across the room. “how come you’re so sick all the time? it’s gross.”

really, i was tempted to call back with an insult but i didn’t. tomura was annoying when his feelings were hurt, and i couldn’t take his whining with the headache. i loved him, i did, but he was a lot to deal with.

“tomu, can i sleep?” i rolled over to face the wall, pulling the blankets over my face. “play one of your games.”

he was quiet for a while after that, content to leave me alone and log onto his console. it was easy falling asleep, throwing my leg comfortably over a spare pillow and snuggling into my other pillow, the noise of strategic button pressing and sound effects lulling me.

it couldn’t have been more than an hour or two, i couldn’t tell. no windows and the lack of care to look for a clock to check the time, there was no way to know. not that it would help with the darkness of the room, only lightened by the glowing computer screen in the corner.

but it couldn’t have been that long when i felt fingers on my back. before— if it was still five years ago— i’d be alarmed, but knowing him now, i knew he wouldn’t hurt me. maybe that was a silly thought, because i knew he was a beacon of destruction— but he was also a thirteen year old boy, who as much as he hated sharing, shared his lunch treats with me and who let me play with him when i was sad.

i just mumbled: what is it, tomu?

“wake up,” he said. “i’m bored.”

bored? he had a catalogue of games to play, he was just playing dumb now. i would’ve shoved him off, but before i could he threw himself in the small space between me and the wall. he barely fit, but he squished himself, squeezing and pushing me to make room for himself. he almost pushed me completely off.

he laid there, curled up position matching mine, carefully avoided dusting anything, keeping his hands to himself. “i’m bored.”

i replied. “i don’t care.”

“master says you take care of me.”

“when you’re dying.”

“dying of boredom.” idiot.

i closed my eyes tight, burying my head into the mattress, glasses pushing against my face. they were definitely dirty. “i’m sick.”

he persisted, going on and on about how bored he was, and how he wanted to go out— sneak around and be like a real teenager like the ones he watches on tv. as if he would even know he was a teenager if i hadn’t told him before his birthday a few weeks ago. i shouldn’t have told him. he held it over my head for forever, about how i was still a baby and should listen to him.

annoying.

i had partially fallen asleep to his rambles. i liked his voice. usually i’d go to bed hearing his frustrated grunts, fed up at whatever game he couldn’t figure out. the bed moved, and i felt some part of him hit me, but i didn’t really care. i could still hear his quiet muttering and the creaking of the bed. (i hated the creaking).

he stopped though. and i opened my eyes. and i looked up at him.

“what?” i asked.

“do you want to see something?” he answered. it wasn’t really a question, because he would’ve gotten me up to show it to me anyways. ‘no’ wasn’t exactly an option with tomura.

a hop off the bed and a few steps to his computer, and he was whining at me to come sit with him. he was so annoying. i just wanted to sleep.

sleepy and slightly irritated, i got off the bed and walked over to my older brother, blanket wrapped around me. the cold was starting to get to me with just the sweatshirt and shorts.

it was a small room, really, it didn’t take too much energy to walk over. i stood next to him, as he looked up at me from his desk chair. there wasn’t another chair to sit. i just stood as close as i could without him kicking me off.

(he could be sensitive, and a jerk).

making sure that i was still there, he finished looking for whatever it was. i couldn’t see what it was, not through the smudged lenses and my sleepy state. i just blinked.

his mouth was clicking something for a while. scrolling and clicking was all i heard for a little, but i wasn’t really focused enough to see what he was searching for.

a long pause.

i shifted and stood up straight, rubbing my eyes to wake up, a little worried at his quietness. “huh.. tomu?”

“found one.”

a woman started talking, and i didn’t really get it, but tomura got impatient i think, and scrolled to another time and loud moans accompanied by ‘fuck’ echoed off the walls. obscenely loud.

it was clearer now, and i could make out a man and a woman making out, naked and the man—

“oh, it’s porn.”

tomu whipped his head back, i could barely make it out in the dim light from the video. “perv,” he said. “kids aren’t supposed to know.”

i’m just a year younger, weirdo, i wanted to say, but i resisted.

i shrugged. “if kids aren’t supposed to know, why would you show me—”

“that’s not—!”

“—perv,” i added.

he stopped. the woman was still moaning, quieter now as the man moved down her body, messy with white strings. i’d never seen a video, not actually. i knew what they and sex were, but this seemed so much different than the health books doctor gave me. it was a little weird.

i hadn’t noticed him leaving, too caught up in my own thoughts. when i turned around, he was sitting up on his own bed, cross-legged and crossed-arms, facing the door and probably (most likely) pouting. see? annoying when he was upset.

if i didn’t do anything though, he’d be a nightmare tomorrow.

“tomu,” i said, approaching him, going to stand next to him on the bed. “it was a joooooke.”

he huffed. i rolled my eyes.

“don’t be difficult!”

he turned his head to me. “i’m not, you’re an asshole.”

because i called you a perv? dramatic. but i crawled up to his bed anyways, blocking his view of the door and sitting in front of him. one leg dangling off the bed, blanket left on the floor next to it.

“come on, let’s just sleep.” he tch’d, looking down, scratching his arm lightly.

i was about to press him, tell him to stop scratching and i’d do whatever, but he stopped me, falling back and laying down. his arms were still crossed, but his legs moved, knees up in the air and feet planted on the bed, avoiding me.

happy his tempter tantrum was over, i started to get up, but he kicked me before i could get up completely.

“what the heck?!”

“what the hell,” he corrected. “lay down.” he didn’t waste any time telling me what to do, gesturing with a head nod to the space next to him.

it wasn’t like it was the first time i’d ever laid next to him, but for some reason i hesitated before complying.

in the video they were laying next to each other like this. tomura turned to face me, laying on his side while i stayed on my back. i didn’t like sleeping on my back, but i thought it’d feel weird to be so close, with our faces so close to each other.

we’d been close before. so much closer than this.

stupid video and it’s stupid ideas.

the blanket was underneath us— we couldn’t even cover up and my legs were starting to freeze up. tomu had a full set of pajama pants and a long sleeved shirt on, shielding him from the cool air of our conditioned room.

i only turned my head to look at him. the only light was the small light from his computer. the video was over by now.

“we can sleep now?” i was too cold to really fall asleep.

tomura blink. “can we—”

“no,” i shut him up quick. i didn’t really know what he was going to say.

i turned away, looking back at the ceiling. this was a really small and dull room.

tomura moved closer. his hair tickled my shoulder and i thought to myself that he needed a haircut soon. two fingers touched my arm. my breath hitched.

“i’m gonna kiss you,” he said. “because i want to and i need to because you’re my first kiss.” and you can’t say no or pull away.

i didn’t say no, i just whispered: “i don’t know how.” i don’t know why i whispered.

he scooted closer. i turned to him and mimicked his movements. up close, i could see him better. though my glasses were still smudged. i should’ve cleaned them before.

he didn’t say anything— he couldn’t say anything before i propped myself up on my elbow and leaned in. i just closed my eyes and pressed against him, careful to miss his hands. though i thought they’d be nice to hold.

the constant scratching and lip biting didn’t make it that nice, not at all. but i didn’t pull away, not fully, only briefly and a small distance to readjust and kiss him again. he made a quiet, whining noise at the small split, but contentedly exhaled as he felt my lips again. i hoped they were nicer than his.

if they were, then maybe he would kiss me next time.

i didn’t know what else to do but stay there. tomu moved, pressing his lips harder. he kept his hands away, but i felt the pull of the sheets from his tight grip. i figured he was copying his pornos now, pulling away and kissing me again, and again in short turns. it would’ve been better if i knew too, i thought.

but maybe that could be for next time.

he must’ve tugged too hard and slipped, because i felt something slip away from under me and pulled back, surprised.

“sheets gone.”

“so?”

“i’m cold.”

tomura looked at me. sat up. bended over. and picked up my blanket, abandoned on the floor. he tossed it to me. i wrapped it around me like before. he went back to his spot next to me, as close as ever.

he leaned in this time.

#( ♥︎ ) komi’s scribbles!!#char. tenkotomura #proselfshiptember #proselfshiptember 2023 #proship selfship #proselfship #i had fun writing him :)#hc that he’s a weirdo loser teen with zero social skills (basically canon)#cw shipcest #tomura :3

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calcrimthebreadgod · 2 months

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Rn I’m just working on making the bare bones of the main mechanics this game will have (office stuff, cameras, generator) and I think I’m just going to stick with this design for the office for now. This is my first proper attempt at building something like this in blocksworld so it probably won’t look great but I want to mostly focus on making the game feel alright to control. I’m using IOS blocksworld for this all so there’ll be buttons on-screen in most of the screenshots

I’m going to keep the barricades from Danger Keep Out and I’ll add the controlled shock system at some point later today, but for now I just wanted to show off how it’ll look. The longer an animatronic stands outside the doorway, the more planks will be removed. I’ll probably also reduce the number of planks on later nights, but tbh nothing in this is set in stone right now. I’m just gonna throw stuff at the wall that I think might work well and I’ll see what sticks with y’all

Probably the part I’m most annoyed by is the computer screen. I want to display the battery usage and time on it but the design of the monitor feels awkward, so if anyone else uses blocksworld and has any ideas for redesigns, please tell me your ideas. The screen’s just 3x3 units so it’ll have to fit to that size though. Also my plan for the game is for one animatronic to be introduced each night, so I think I’ll use the poster in the office to signal which one was just activated. I know I said this would be a reimagining of fnaf 1, but I’m honestly split on whether I should use the fnaf 1 animatronics or make characters based on the poster images in the game (I can’t upload custom textures so everything in the game has to use blocksworld’s textures)

Bit of a long, rambly post since this is the first one, but I’ll probably just make small posts about this afterward. Again, this is my first proper project on blocksworld so it probably won’t turn out great, but hopefully it’ll at least be comfortable to control and newcomer-friendly. Main priority is making sure the game isn’t easy to break just by pressing buttons too quickly

Also the screenshots look weird bc I’m using blocksworld’s screenshot button rather than taking normal screenshots. In the game the vignette is pitch black

#blocksworld #fnaf 1 #fnaf help wanted #curse of dreadbear #fnaf fangame

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giuliano-fan-account · 11 months

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happy pride mont

Well I guess I could share some drawings since usually I just dogpile everything I want to say into 1 post and don’t necessarily have room for the art which is sad.

So I decided for pride month I’ll just dogpile some of my art that I haven’t shown here relating to my favorites from hxh kind of being like those 60 color packs of crayons.

I draw kind of like a crazy guy and I have a fair bit of art so I’ll make a cut off line to not clog...

Btw so I dont jumpscare you the art is of Izunavi and Giuliano, Shalnark and Chrollo, & Muherr and hehe a not canon character (In that order)

Hehe i just have some portraits of Izu for fun here not necessarily ship or anything related but I just wanted to share them Since I made them a while ago and he looks very nice:

Ok but it gets a little gay here so urm: Happy pride moth:

I made this one because I wanted them to have a happy life that I knew they could never have!!!!!!

I made this one because THEY BOTH LOOKED SO GOOFY IN THAT ONE PANEL THAT I HAD TO REMAKE IT I COULDNT DO IT

just a funny little drawing for fun that I stayed up a little too late making 1 time because these guys just kind of carry me away..

On valentines day I was having a rlly bad time a really bad day and everything and then I made these guys and everything was better

MS PAINT BRO

I made this one in ms paint and it makes me so happy man... I have it as my background screen on my computer rn i didn’t intend for this drawing to bang so hard but also I kind of drew it intending for it to be like the only house that’s not on fire yet because that’s a song that’s perfect for these guys hear me out

I made that one at like 2 am and yes it was to this song and to me it is objectively about these guys

I guess it could be a projection bc i just wanted to squeeze that guy bc hes just so funny and silly and I love these guys and giuliano is just like me for real so it’s fine

I care about them a lot man I even made an article on the shipping wiki for them because I uhhh I uh help I urm

I have... another one that I ALSO made an article for... and it brings me extreme distress as well as extreme joy

we have our 2nd place to Shalkuro :100:

I have a lot of art for it I’ll make a post for it one day I swear and it will be insane in length because I really need help man ... If izugiuli is my comfort ship this is the REASON why I need comfort

proceeds to show harmless nice little drawings:

I saw that trend everywhere so this is a rlly recent drawing but I made them with the barbie and ken because I... well come on... its literally perfect okay

gooberish little drawing because i was bored

THIS WAS A REDRAW OF A GOOFY GARTIC PHONE DRAWING MY FRIEND MADE SO THATS WHY IT LOOKS KIND OF STRANGE I tried my best to replicate the essence

shalkuro as teens ig comfort (I relentlessly got called gay for this one Stop jules bullying 2023)

Im a little crazy so maybe I did make another omori hxh au and a lot of it is Shalnark in the au or Shalnark and Chrollo

Redraw of the sticker because hehe

THIS IS BASED OFF OF AN UNFINISHED FIC I HAVE thats not necessarily ship related but also is but also you can interpret it any way you want and imo it’s so cute

I’ll finish it one day.

Another ms paint art but it’s inspired off of bad apple for actually no reason other than that I think it would look cool and I went through 5 stages of hell trying to draw this but I made it out fine

God I want to talk so much about Shalkuro since Shalnark is ALSO just like me for real and I actually haven’t before on this account and it’s kind of my soundboard for talking abt whatever relating to hxh but I really think I should save it for a post of it’s own..

Anyways onto the next one its a little funny thing

I shipped my self insert with Muherr as a joke ok but now its kinda funny and I like it and I actually rlly like these drawings i made for it

dont ask why he looks drunk its a long story

I had to make this it was honestly too funny for me not too and I love it so much EXCEPT for the fact that I realized that my self insert looks so much like pariston in here

Im supposed to have dark hair but I just didnt feel like coloring it in there bc the lineart looked good enough to me

but yeah muherr x jules otp forever /j

hapy pride month whoever or whatever you are whether your gay or not!!!!

dont forget to have fun and be a kind neighborly person like me

#izugiuli #izunavi x giuliano #izunavi #hxh #hunter x hunter #fanart #pride month #giuliano hxh #juliano hxh #shalnark #chrollo #shalnark x chrollo #shalkuro #kuroshal #muherr hxh #canon x self insert #lol

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mushroomjar · 6 months

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🔥 about anything vocaloid/vocal synths!

I may have a couple, I'll just list some of the ones I can think of rn (lmao Utsu-P started playing on shuffle as soon as I started writing this)

I don't think the goal of vocal synths should be to try to sound as realistic as possible. That can be a part of it, sure, but like, you can have so much fun with vocal synths precisely because they're not real human voices and they have been synthesized by computers, so many different sounds and stuff you can't accomplish with real human singers. I actually really like it when the computers sound like computers

I see a lot of complaining about how all vocaloid MVs these days are just a drawing of a character/the vocal synth doing a funny pose and having the lyrics appear on screen, and while I also have my gripes with how often these types of MVs are used... I started thinking about it and it's just blatantly untrue that all vsynth MVs are like this nowadays? Mitchie M has never done this for example (if he has I'm unaware of it like I'm genuinely trying to recall a time he did this and I can't recall any), Deco*27 this year alone released at least 3 songs with either fully animated videos or multiple drawings that tell a story, Slave.V-V-R has his somewhat more recent songs with Miku like Eeeeye which use MMD, and those are just the ones I can think of off the top of my head, like there's still a bunch of more animated MVs for vocal synths and yet people don't talk much about them

Another thing people say about the "character doing a pose" MV is that it's more prominent now (I've even seen some people blame specific producers for this like Chinozo), and like, I get it, but at the same time, many of the classics of the vocaloid scene also used this formula. Romeo and Cinderella, Butterfly on Your Right Shoulder, World Is Mine, Luka Luka Night Fever, just to name a few, all used the "funky pose" formula, and many producers, like kiichi, have only ever done this type of MV (again, as far as I'm aware. Maybe kiichi does have animated MVs, but some of his more popular songs such as Love Love Nightmare and Virgo don't)

I think we just tend to remember it less? I don't know why that may be but I have some theories, like a lot of songs back then used to get fan MVs (eg Rolling Girl, World is Mine, Melt, etc), or just the way we listened to those songs was different, like when I was younger I used to listen to the songs by watching the Project Diva PVs and stuff, and now when I listen to songs I always try to actually link back to official uploads by the producers, which will inevitably not look the same

This one is an even vaguer theory, but it could also have to do with how often songs are released now? Like for example, Utsu-P releases new songs semi-frequently, so I feel like I can't fault him for not having fully animated MVs for every song (that and the fact that he has like five other music projects to worry about at the same time lmao), or Deco*27 and Inabakumori who I'd say release new songs with about the same frequency, it's like, idk maybe they don't have the time or resources to invest into more engaging MVs

I guess my TL;DR for my second unpopular opinion would be: yes, it's a bit annoying that so many vsynth MVs consist of "drawing of character doing funky pose", but like, we still get many animated MVs as well, and also this isn't something new it's always been present in the scene, so you can chill a bit

Wow this got so much longer than I expected! Anyway if anyone wants to add anything about any topics I mentioned please do, these are things that I'm really invested in talking about and I'd love to see other people's opinions on it

Ask game

#norstrume #cat answers #ask game #vocaloid #vsynth #vocal synth #vocal synths #vocal synthesizer #vocal synthesizers

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twilightarcade · 8 months

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the meg ramble

I'm the car rn 💪💪💪 going to talk about both The Meg and The Meg 2. Note that I'm no where near a movie critic and really just Some Guy on the internet. Also at it's core I think this is just a goofy little shark movie if anything I'm raining on some parades. I know I said shitty movies though that was actually misleading as this movie in particular wasn't Terrible. Working on watching worse.

Spoilers for both movies of course. Also really long.

preface / summary

Just as a quick summary, ill throw the Wikipedia summary in. I'm horrible with names so I'll be looking then up as I go please correct me if I'm wrong,,

The Wikipedia summary is as followed: " In the plot, a group of scientists encounters a 75-foot-long (23 m) megalodon shark while on a rescue mission on the floor of the Pacific Ocean."

And for the sequel "Like the previous film, it follows a group of scientists who must outrun and outswim the titular Megalodons when a malevolent mining operation threatens their mission and forces them into a high-stakes battle for survival."

so we're introduced with some guy (we later learn this is Jonas (he really should be dead)) who is rescuing some people. He leaves like half the people to die, in favor of saving who he can. Everyone hates him forever because of this. Cut to the research facility, we're diving into the trench because we think actually that isn't the bottom of the ocean. It isn't. We have scientist guy dj who mains computer type things, Minway who essentially stands around and looks important from what I can remember, but is the head of the operation. He has daughter Suyin and granddaughter Meiying. There's a few other people, but more importantly there's this guy named Jack who is annoying as hell the whole movie (his entire personality is being a billionaire and I love him for that). Blahblahblah, sub gets attacked AH! SHARK! Send rescue, Mr I'm a rebel Jonas goes down to save them, succeeds and were back on the surface. And none other than the meg came, because we blew a hole in the thermo cline. Sad. Then we run around a bit, get chased by a shark, kill the wrong shark, and eventually kill the shark. Yay!

first movie thoughts

I didn't. Hate it. Like ok I don't care about anyone at all, but it's a movie, I watched it, and it was fine. I think my biggest grievance (besides all the little things) would be the fact the meying, currently like. Eight. Was just wandering around. The billion dollar research facility. In the middle of the ocean. At one point, she ended up inside of a sub (she just waltzed in there)?? Like as a silly goofy thing. Normal activities. Idk if it's a trope but like "child that knows more than they should/is super perceptive/knows more about the adult's relationships than the adults" is what she falls into.

Its been a second since I've watched it and quite frankly I wasn't paying a horrible amount of attention. Annoying billionaire guy dies (hubris or whatever), we kill the wrong creature and the meg comes and eats said creature scaring everyone, and the meg is starving or something but like. Suspense of disbelief for a bit here, we need a hungry shark. Honestly it wasn't too bad. Solid movie I suppose. DJ (relevant later) serves as like. That classic large black guy comedic relief character. "I didn't sign up for this," "my friends are dying :(" etc. Also he can't swim (works in the middle of the ocean.) Another guy I forgot about who's relevant later is Mr Jonas' ex. She is like... the lead dive lady (only person on the team we really care about) and is all mad at Jonas or whatever.

Sequel thoughts

ok so we watched this on like. The Big Screen. Had my full attention. This one doesn't get a summary because I have a lot more to say. Also heres the movie blurb thing because I found it funny to read.

"Dive into uncharted waters with Jason Statham and global action icon Wu Jing as they lead a daring research team on an exploratory dive into the deepest depths of the ocean. Their voyage spirals into chaos when a malevolent mining operation threatens their mission and forces them into a high-stakes battle for survival. Pitted against colossal Megs and relentless environmental plunderers, our heroes must outrun, outsmart, and outswim their merciless predators in a pulse-pounding race against time. Immerse yourself in the most electrifying cinematic experience of the year with "Meg 2: The Trench" - where the depths of the ocean are matched only by the heights of sheer, unstoppable excitement!" Lots of buzz words or whatever. Literally every other word is unnecessary

first of all. The intro. We're like back in time, and there's a carcass (fairly fresh) conveniently sitting on the shore. There's some aminals (aquatic lizard dino dudes) eating it presumably (though they seem more preoccupied fighting with each other) till a T REX comes. Oooo scary. It yells at them, they run into the ocean. This is presumably to demonstrate their aquatic ability and throw them into the story. I don't actually know what animal they are so if they are a real animal lmk 👍 I had a bit of a problem with the t Rex deciding to try and catch these things it just scared away (now swimming) instead of the carcas it scared them away from but I digress. Anyways. What I really wanted to talk about. You know how beaches work right? There's a drop off like eventually but it's relatively shallow. Well. This t rex is standing in maybe 4 feet of water at best. Barely off the shore. Then this fucking GIANT ASS SHARK (the meg) comes out of absolutely nowhere and eats the t rex. I know that this is just like. Introducing the gang (weird water reptiles and megalodon) but oh my goodness. She would Not be eating t rexes standing in 4 foot deep water. It's going to get beached man.

I didn't like. Watch any trailers n such for this movie. But after skimming the Wikipedia article, apparently we're being funded by a new billionaire (this time she ISN'T being annoying as hell the whole time.) Also they make a really big deal about the SENTENCE CANCELED I WAS LOOKUNG UP THE TRAILER BUT I FOUND A DIFFERENT ONE AND THE SHARK JUST FREAKING. FLIES BACK INTO THE WATER. LOOK: https://youtu.be/dG91B3hHyY4?t=35 SHE FLIES BACK IN THERE...........ok anwyas ummmm.. forget whatever I was talking about let's talk about the kraken. There's a weird emphasis placed on it in the other trailer but it's super absent in this one. There's a lot going on in this movie hang on. Ok. There's the meg(s), illegal mining, and kraken. Also they kept a pet baby meg and it waits till this movie to escape, Of Course.

Kraken

Ok emrmremrmrmemrm!!!!!!!! I think it was introduced last movie....? Basically this lady almost dies to it but the meg comes along. Classic. Never really mentioned again. This movie though it takes like a massive backseat despite how important it tries to be. Like in the beginning we're walking around in some uncharted land, happy guy who is clearly gonna die dies to it, and we go about our way. It isn't brought up till like... the end or so. And all it does is kill a few people, be a minor obstacle, and eventually gets eaten by the meg. Basically she does nothing to the plot. I want to say like... last movie? We talked about Megs and krakens being enemies or whatever, though I forget the exact phrasing

Illegal mining

Ok so. I had gotten a bit lost at this part. But basically billionaire lady (name irrelevant and also she only appears via video calls till the end where she just dies) is funding both the illegal mining and Good Guys (I only found this out via Wikipedia but I miss things a lot.) Jess (Jonas' ex) is currently working with the Good Guys but SECRETLY is working with the illegal mining organization? This is also presumably why they never explored further into the trench but honestly that's really absurd. Unrelated but Meiying is like 14 now, snuck onto and rode a sub, and contributes nothing to the plot. But long story short the Good Guys get hit by a rockslide, end up in the evil mining organization base (completely empty for some reason?) And get trapped in this room. Jess reveals herself to be a hater and is like hey [girl I forget the name of] harpoon Jonas in the heart or you're all gonna die. [Girl I forgot the name of] doesn't and Jess starts filling the room with water slowly because that's a thing she can do. JONAS. Ok. We're like. Literally lower than the mariana trench. Jonas, Mr I'm gonna save everyone is like. Hey guys don't worry I'm going to SWIM TO THE ENTRANCE. Ok. So. Not to mention the immense pressure, it's also probably like... a bit cold. We don't care about the cold shhh ignore it. But don't worry about the pressure! Because you know fish right? Glub glub? How do you think they breathe? Humans have stupid air in their nose (and nowhere else in their body) so if we fill our nasal cavity with water, then we won't die from pressure. Also we'll be fine for a solid 30 seconds. So you know what Jonas does. He breathes in a bunch of water. And swims out there. In his stupid little wetsuit. And he makes it Of Course because Jonas has no respect for his health and is therefore immortal. The number of times this guy should have or could have died is insane but he doesn't because he's the main character and the "wildcard" or whatever so it has to work out in the end. You sure showed them Jonas. Good job.

DJ (he gets his own paragraph

Anyways like. There isn't much character growth going on (less here than the first movie) and they're sorta just running around doing stuff which I respect but also eh. My man dj!!!! He's still really a comedic side character but like. He learned how to swim. Got some useful survival skills. And like. Actually helps people. Generally speaking this movie sorta follows a "if you aren't helpful or related to Meiying you Will die before the end and no one will care" rule. Dj is an exception to this in the first movie. Though he contributes nothing besides being a warn body that watches computer screens (not helpful when they're stranded in the middle of the ocean). BUT THE SECOND MOVIE!!! HE CONTRIBUTES STUFF. Irrelevant stuff (side plot or whatever) but he does something and I think that was pretty cool of him. Also at the very very end he saves meiying. He's still the comedic relief black guy but he does something and I think that's pretty neat.

Final thoughts

this duo wasn't like. Bad or anything. Not particularly for me, but didn't make me actively homicidal [see: escape room 2]. If I like. Close my eyes. It's a pretty fine movie. I didnt care about any of the characters and was quite frankly actively rooting against jonas because I'm mean like that but that'd just a me thing. Would probably hit better with the "I just want things to happen and a giant shark to be there" crew though that is not me unfortunately. There were a lot of things happening and I didn't do a great job keeping up with the things, nor did they all get the attention they probably needed (coughs at kraken). Also i forgot to mention this but they just. Leave one of the Megs out there. Haiqi. The one they kept as a pet. It just.... swam away. And they let it. Top ten worst invasive species to introduce to society. I don't know if they take care of it in the future but as of the end of that movie, there's a BABY megalodon swimming around the ocean freely.

mom enjoyed it so that's all that matters. I love you mom.

#wordstag #thoughtstag #idk if I've kept that tag up I'll check later #really this is just an overglorified summary with me saying things in the background. That's ok I think.#unedited as always. If I accidentally dropped my home address said I hated puppies and rainbows let me know #next time you should just come over to my house and we can watch it together and you can watch me type into discord every 10 seconds #I could. Live blog the movies. That's a bit much though #both the meg and the escape room were recommended by my parents and well. They sorta missed.#not recommended moreso Hey!!!! We should watch this movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my dad at the least agrees that escape room sucked. Ass.#this got a bit long but whatever. I'm only capable of explaining my thoughts via thousand word essays #escape room 2 is going to be like. My metric for everything. She's absolute rock bottom to me.#like escape room tries really hard to be smart and misses horribly. It falls into its own special category of bad for me #there's probably worse but zoey...........#I didn't actually watch the beginning of escape room. Hang on.

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13tinysocks · 8 months

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i return with computers - aimed for 15.6in screens for your mole eyes. idk if you've ever used backmarket so just gonna say that I have and I'd say its pretty trustworthy. not sure if all of them are backlit but thats a pretty standard thing for a computer to have so I feel like they should be. good portion are refurbished

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If you look through 'em and decide you don't like any, I personally recommend Google Shopping or Backmarket for searching since they have the best filtering imo, Amazon is mid but tolerable for filtering

-Nina simp

This is so helpful! Thank you!! Im gonna be doing research on these and backmarket over the next few days-- I can't buy anything rn bc my dog broke my debit card 🤭 I appreciate your help :33

#nina simp anon #reply

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scoups4lyfe · 1 year

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Bipolar Essay Extra #4

A solid a$$ explanation of BD from Ian:

So, to add in some of my own experience here, I'll put in some of my journal entries, and then go a little in-depth:

[Friday, June 3rd 2022]

(20:54 — 8:54 PM)

Oh, great. The insanity is back.

Now, this type of insanity is hard to describe. Just…wired energy. Like anxious energy spazzing through me like I just took 9 shots of caffeine.”

(End of entry.)

My thoughts:

Okay--so I still vividly remember the energy. Ian said there's so much energy, so much ideas, and that it gets to a point where you start losing sanity, and that's the point I was at. I just had all this energy inside of me, my mind was going 200 miles a minute but with 3 different voices, my hands were trembling, and I couldn't do anything because the energy was too my mortal coil to handle 🤪.

...

[September 15th 2022 — Thursday, 2:24 AM. ]

Currently fvcking tripping right now. I don’t think my mood stabilizers are doing the thing that they should be doing. Like I am out of my mind right now. I feel inSANE. Not bad-insane yet, but I know I’m going to have trouble sleeping. I….want to write and draw and watch Donbrothers but all this energy doesn’t want to do any of this. Like for some reason I want to go out running and screaming maybe, like I could jog five miles— but? This energy does not want to write or draw or watch sh*t or liveblog. It’s frustrating, but I can’t even be frustrated? Because my mood is just elevated lol. I feel fvcking crazy right now.

The Moodswings movie (part 1) for this album [DPR Ian’s] is…something I greatly relate to. I see myself in that video. That’s me. Dude, it’s like looking through a mirror. Damn, it just reminded me of how shaky I was like a month ago when my thoughts wouldn’t stop racing and I felt like I was spiraling out of control at work. Dude that sh*t was hard. Right now I feel good, but I know this high isn’t….normal lol. These last few days have been somewhat like this, but this is the most energized and elated I feel. To the point that I can’t even get upset. Like, yoINks.

[End of entry]

Bro I hit that euphoric mania and got lost in the sauce And --warning ahead, the next entry I'm putting under this one was when I was deep into that euphoric mania. You can tell too cause my thoughts are all over the place.

[October 3rd, 2022]

Monday, 5:35 PM

Too Much, Too Much, All at Once, ah FvCK

Everything is glowing. Like all the light sources are especially bright and so it’s hard to focus on any one thing because all this light is shining at me and my eyes are going in and out of focus. Right now I can’t stare at the computer screen. I can’t focus on it, it’s like my eyes start seeing everything in this room at once, and it’s all so bright, and I can’t think when it’s like this. Tomorrow is trash pick up day, so I finally got the garbage out of my room and …now there is a lot more space— fvck. I feel like I’m trembling but it’s not my body—maybe just my eyes.

Man trying to gesture draw like this is going to be real sh*tty I can already tell.

Uh, I hope this entry is coherent, I don’t feel very coherent right now. Just zazzed.

I got a tab up, “Guide to Mental Health Acronyms,” because I want to finally know and remember what the fvckin acronym for “bipolar disorder” is. BitJazz borderline personality making everything all complicated. (Damn, mfer I am TRIPPING.)

[6:12 PM] WhOOPS—sorry, y’all. Got distracted texting J (and then this other acquaintance). Though all I’m inclined to text rn is just nonsense gibberish, occasionally in a nonsense rhyme scheme, and featuring a few thrown in completely-made-up words that just feel right. Man, on tumblr today — I was on the manic depression tag — I saw a post talking about grandeur delusions, but their delusions were “the belief that I could finally change for the better, start eating healthy everyday, working out everyday, cooking and cleaning everyday” and I was like—

Damn, holmes! I guess I was more fvcked outta my mind then I thought. (I remember, idk how many weekends ago, having that same exact thought process and feeling because DAMN was I capable in that moment—ah. )

[6:28 PM]

Sorry—was texting an acquaintance again. Wanted to share the above meme, and so I sent it once, and then a few texts later I sent it again. (Because it makes me laugh, LOL!!!!) Anyways, when I read tha— I need to get myself some more multivitamins lest I evaporate and die.

FVCK

[6:40 PM]

Damn I wish I could read. Right, right—that tab with the Mental Health Acronyms thing. Riiiiight. The Mental Health Acronyms tab ,,, the tab involving mental Health Acro—

(lol)

[8:28 PM]

I’ve done some gesture drawing. Decided to move the 30 second timer (since I’ve done 70 drawings with it) to 2 minutes. My mind is fireworks. AAhhHHHHLHH;hhHH. Just read a tumblr post that said, “Being manic is feeling stuck in a perpetual loop of vertigo” and yah. I’ll drink to that bro. (LOL).

I just found the perfect description. (Found, in my own thoughts, that is.) Right now, what I’m experiencing is like if I put on those red+blue 3-D glasses at the movie theater, except it's not red or blue, just light and so now I’m tripping tf outta my mind.

(Unrelated) But a solid description of how I’ve been with my money these last like 5 months, literally the equivalent of: “Wow! I spent $50 on buttons in a variety of colors because I saw them and thought, ‘aw those are such cute little fkin buttons! I can place them all over my house and every time I see one I’ll be filled with immense joy because they’re just so fkin cuteeeeeeeeeee.’ And then when the buttons arrive being like, “What the fvck???/ What tHE FVCK?????” But then buying $50 more like 2 weeks later.

Absolutely, 3 billion percent embarrassing behavior.

[End of entry excerpt ....it goes on for much longer LOL]

Anyways, I think these do a good job of showing what the mind of someone going through a manic episode is like--constantly switching thoughts, getting distracted, not all coherent, yada yada yada.

PPT Essay: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6]

PPT Essay Extras: (1), (2), (3), (4)

Visuals of a Depressive Episode: (1), (2)

Journal Entries: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

[Prev]. [Next]

#my thougts #bipolaire #bipolar disorder #manic depression #actually bipolar #mental health #neurodiversity #neurodivergencies #dpr ian #dpr we gang gang #christian yu #fvcking moodswings ⚡️✌️#a scoup of life 🔫🦆

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forjongseong · 11 months

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carmesi part 10 HELLO LMAO i thought i havent read 9, but i did!!! so part 10 LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO~

You continued to pout and stare blankly at the screen before coming up with an idea. “Can I just sit with you?”

“You mean on my lap?” Jay asked to confirm. When you nodded, he nodded too and swiveled his chair back to face the computer. “Hop on.”

HEHEHEHE i just started and im all giggles and butterflies rn djksaldjksa

“It looks great on you, that’s the problem. It makes you look older.”

Jay’s eyes squinted at you before he chuckled again. “Thank you?”

LMAO i can see his usual facial expression with his eyebrow raised too lol

“Sit on my cock?” He asked, his lips grazing yours.

SAY LESS! I AM SAT, SIR

“Do you have any more of these that I can ruin?” Jay asked, his fingers lifting the hem of your night gown.

@_@ SCREAMING! Why would he even ask? There's a whole wardrobe fhasjkdjkas

“Can’t wait to see them wrapped around my dick tonight. See you at home.”

NANA LMAO I didnt expect this reply omg i choked on my water BYE

“You say that like I’m not allowed to stare at you,” Jay commented, leaning back on the kitchen sink and gripping the edges with his hands. “You look beautiful.”

oh jay <3 he is just so squishable lol i wanna hug this dude and let him just stare at me forever :3

Jay shrugged as he leaned back on the counter again, a smug smile on his face. “I mean, if that’s what you want.”

JAY! YOU DONT GET TO SAY THIS! YOU DID IT FIRST! WTF JFKASDLFSDFS

At the sound of his voice, you calmed down.

i just love the trust ceoyn has in jay. his tone just calms her and its like no one exists after that. PERFECT COUPLE FOREVER

“I don’t want a single drop staining the car,” you whispered. “Don’t make a mess.”

SCREAMING BECAUSE I REMEMBERED WE TALKED ABOUT THIS OMG AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

“Is that a hickey?”

You fumbled for your phone and checked your reflection, craning your neck to see the spot Seungho pointed at. Nothing was there.

“Made you look,” he chuckled.

IM THE BROTHER LMAO!!! Me to my siblings tbh

“Is this the famous Park Jay? Oh, I love your hair. So nice to finally meet you!”

HAHAHAAHAHHAAHHA I DIDNT MEANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD, BUT I DID OMG LOLOLOL poor hwi!!!!!

“For making my sister happy.”

okay, sorry to be that emo person haha but i did this to my sister's fiancee and brother's girlfriend T-T and one day, im gonna say this to my baby sister's future s/o when she gets one. we all really deserve happiness <3

“Good,” Seungho said. “Because if you hurt her, I’m gonna have to unleash all the hidden knowledge I have gained from listening to a lot of true crime podcasts.”

HAHAHAHAHA I AM SEUNGHO FRFR! My siblings had to tell me to calm down and stop scaring their s/o dhsajkdhsajkdhjak

“You’re the prettiest when you’re naked for me, though.”

CHOKING AGAIN AHAHHA LEAVING FOREVER

“Matching mugs for us!” Jay said with a huge smile. “Do you think it’s cute?”

THE MATCHING MUGS T-T MY EMOTIONS ARE LITERALLY EVERYWHERE RN! we talked so much about the matching mugs AND HERE WE ARE

Jay shrugged, also admiring the green mug. “I just thought of you when I saw them. I figured, since you can’t hang out with cats because of me, I should make an effort to add more cat stuff to our daily lives.”

he loves her so much that it makes me love them so much and now idk what to do but cry some more because hdjsakdhjakdhak THIS IS JAY

“Damn it, I forgot what else I was supposed to say.”

me tearing up and then laughing hahahaha dammit JAY! DHJSAKDHASJ i love him so much PLEASE!!!

“Y/N, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”

ME, BRINGING HONOR TO MYSELF BY BEING HIS WIFE! HELLO!

“Don’t worry, I’ve got pictures and videos of the proposal. I’ll airdrop them as soon as my shift is over,” Jake confessed. “Now I gotta run before my manager sees me.”

JAKE! BEST MAN! he wins for best man category lmao jkjk

You looked at Jay for a couple of seconds before you blinked. “So, when you were frantically patting yourself down and searching for something in your pocket, it wasn’t the car keys but the ring? You left it at home?”

JAY BRUHHHH LMAO the way i freaken snorted out loud as well. he was slick af though, for lying that he was looking for the keys dhjaskdhsjak!

Jay took the jade roller from your hands and made you give instructions on how to use it on your face. You did the same routine on Jay’s face, and throughout the whole process he was closing his eyes and smiling.

THIS IS SO FUCKING CUTE, PLEEEEASE NANA T-T especially him closing his eyes and smiling! my heart is gushing out so much love rn!

Jay chuckled and booped your nose. “I kiss you once and you already think I’m trying to get in your pants?”

“Aren’t you?”

“I am.”

I AM GOING TO FIGHT HIM DHJAKSDHAKSHDSKA A DAMN MENACE TO MY HEART

ANYWAYS OMG I FORGOT THAT PART 10 WAS THE PROPOSAL CHAPTER T-T So much tears, laughter, and screaming dhjsakdhjak i missed carmesi so much! fuck school, because i missed out on my favorite couple T-T BUT ITS OKAY, i can catch up slowly and gush and cry and scream again with you! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS TO CARMESI PART 10

ngl reading this recap I felt like reading someone else's work??? I don't remember writing ANY of this HELP AKSHDHKAJSDAKSJ HOW LONG AGO WAS THIS PART RELEASED OH MY GOD

especially this part

At the sound of his voice, you calmed down.

what happened there? HASDHASH I GUESS I HAVE TO REREAD IT MYSELF oh but yes I did remember discussing the car sex scene with you BECAUSE YOU SENT ME THAT SNIPPET FROM THE COMIC AKSJDHKAJSDHSA

not me going to part 10 and rereading it now BHAHAHA thank you for highlightingg these parts, it makes me relive them again

#ilysb #nanaanswers #nanafeedbacks #from.genie #fic: mon soleil

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