Okay, it’s getting a bit ridiculous, at this point - I’ve really been wanting to come back on here, start writing again. Took a very abrupt break somewhere back in February, after trying to slowly come back from a burn out, and right as I caught covid. But it’s just -
Every time. Every single time I look at the document, or at a page. Every time I try to write something. It’s in my brain. I have an image, or a vague concept. Just enough of a basis that I could get somewhere, you know?
But it’s not forming.
Not in a distinctly burnout, writer’s block kind of way, either.
More like ‘oh, shit, covid might’ve done something.’
I’m so frustrated by it, because I want to do things again. Be able to write again. That’s been my main hobby since I was in middle school, an outlet, a place to explore, something to build. I have the loose concepts in my head. But I don’t have the ability to string together the words.
Genuinely, how the hell have any of y’all dealt with the cognitive, long-term side of it? Is there a way to just - work on it, maybe? Somehow? Dim it down? To get my brain to slowly piece itself back together? It’s a lack of memory, of words, it’s confusion, and fatigue. It’s like something’s weighing down my eyes, and stuffing my brain. It’s being able to see part of something, and maybe convey it, but then vaguely understanding the next and just not having the words for it at all or the comprehension for it when it should be there. It’s not the lack of ability, necessarily, but just a lack of those vital pieces that makes it happen and click.
I feel a bit like I’m going mad, honestly.
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Pov the cannibal overlords are judging your outfit (or discussing how they're going to cook you tonight, your choice 👀)
Based on very cool outfits for them I saw on twitter! Here's Alastor and here's Rosie
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Anyway here's the initial sketch of Farmer MalleYuu that inspired me to start developing a farming game. 🥔🥕🐮🐥 They just make me so happy tbh
It's my last semester in uni I'm trying to hold onto my remaining sanity
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Not as good as it could be.
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💀👍
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[REACTION SPEED - IMPOSSIBLE] Gracefully step OVER the cat
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No, but listen: what if Clark MF Kent writes SuperBat fanfiction as a way to deal with his feelings without having to come clean to Bruce?
And what if Bruce one day stumbles upon Clark's account (without knowing it's him), because he reads fanfiction FOR THE SAME DAMN REASON?
But then, he starts getting that strange sense of familiarity through the writing. First, he thinks it's maybe some accomplisehd author' secret hobby. Until, one day, he reads a sentence that is so quintessentialy Kent in its structure and turn of phrase that he knows, without a doubt, that Superman is writing kinky porn about them fucking on the hood of the Batmobile.
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You don't see this either.
Ngl, prob not going to get lbfd up this week either place. This migraine (yep, I' have've had one for nearly 4 months now) is still kicking my ass and I have 3 new classes starting up this week to settle into teaching. So I might share some little bitty bits from various fics wips. Since you're all enjoying the fic I'm not writing...
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“Red Hood,” Jason said as he collapsed dramatically onto Dick’s absurdly comfortable couch, “is apparently easy to seduce.”
Dick, the dick, blinked at him before collapsing in laughter.
“Oh my God,” he wheezed.
“Danny has— and these are his words Dickie— thirst trap shorts.”
Dick cackled. “Jay.”
“Itty bitty red and black athletic shorts that say ‘RED’ on the ass— like a fucking brand.”
“No.”
“Yes. And he never even got to wear them to sparing because, apparently, Red Hood gave in quicker than he expected!”
“He was seducing you,” Dick said with absolute glee. “Oh my God. Did he, like, have a twelve step plan or something?”
Jason actually paused to consider that. “You know, knowing him it’s and fifty-fifty shot.”
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All I know is I just want to spend the majority of my life with you
The actual very first doodle where I finally put my QPR Frans idea on canvas. Man I really love thinking about queer relationships
Please feel free to ask me anything about their relationship too
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About covid being over: are we just meant to put our entire social lives, our entire society on pause forever? My mental health plummeted during lockdown and will take years to recover. Now that there's vaccines and crowd immunity and less deadly strains we ARE meant to learn to deal with it as a given, the way we have with many deadly diseases in the past, and move on. So for the sake of life moving on at some point it's **normal** to treat it as a cold, and I'm saying this as someone who's lost people during the pandemic too. Please do not fear monger.
No, but you SHOULD care about other people enough to still mask.
I am NOT fearmongering.
Covid is still dangerous, especially to the many MANY people who are immunocompromised and people who cannot get the vaccines (for whatever reason).
I know several people who THIS YEAR caught permanently disabling covid, despite all being fully vaccinated.
I am not saying you have to quarantine yourself anymore. That was NOT a thing I said. There is a world of difference between wishing that other people cared enough to MASK, a thing that is NOT HARD AT ALL, and demanding that people still observe full quarantine protocols.
Plugging your ears and closing your eyes and refusing to listen when people are still justifiably worried, and not listening to experts that haven't been pressured by the government to say 'COVID IS NOT A THREAT ANYMORE YAAAY!!!' just makes you a fool.
I know that's harsh, but it's the truth.
Hospitals are no longer required to report covid cases and covid deaths as such. This is a GIANT RED FLAG that people are happily ignoring so they can feel safe.
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I ended up caving and making another gofundme. I'm praying that this will be the last.
This fund is just so I can start off the new year on the right foot, and be able to pay my bills without worry. If you can't or won't donate I completely understand, I just ask that you share this around. If you'd like to donate, it means the world to me.
You all have been incredibly kind and generous, and I can't thank you enough for that. I'm just hoping that this will be the last time I have to raise money like this. I'm sorry to be posting another so soon.
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For $5 USD stop making everything about that goddamn show for five minutes.
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Alicent and Aegon are so Virgin Mary and Jesus coded, in a sick and twisted way that it barely makes sense, but at the same time just... does.
a mother and her child born damned from the start, yet she loved him to her core, accepting her fate, accepting she would lose him and then herself.
she carried him, birthed him, raised him, loved him, devoted her very being to him... she lost him, grieved him, lost her mind in his absence. the gods her only respite, yet, when she needed them most, when she needed them to protect her son, her baby, her reason for being, where were they?
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the day people stop joking about "lmfao remember when people used to unironically think they were a reincarnation of nagito komaeda" will be the day my life knows peace
fictionkin were never the problem. tumblr's callout culture and rampant misinformation were the problem.
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GET UR #HORRORSWEEP ICONS FOR THE SANS AU SEXYMAN POLL
Vote for Horror Sans to win the 3rd round!!!
ALSO VOTE FOR RED AS WELL!! (very important)
If you want Red icons for #FELLSWEEP click here!
feel free to use these icons!
credit is not needed but would be nice :DD
but don't edit the drawing in anyway please!
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