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arminsumi · 2 years

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Hcs | More Armin things

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Another compilation of my headcanons for Armin!

Cws; mentions obsessive & manipulative traits

Kink cws; slight breeding kink

First part!

There's also one for Eren here!

He works at a bookstore (which his grandfather owns)

And he's pretty clumsy; drops books on his nose a lot

Definitely cries to Heather and you can't tell me otherwise

Exceeds the word limits on his essays lmao

Loves Kodaline esp High Hopes

His first kiss with you would be so awkwardly cute that both of you would just start giggling

Ugh bb boy def blushes up to his ears like they'd go all red

He loves oatmilk and I mean he REAAALLY loves oatmilk

(Lmfao sorry now I'm cackling at the idea of milkman Armin can you imagine him just putting milk bottles on ur doorstep)

One of his favorite movies is CMBYN, he's re-watched it about twenty times and would die of happiness if his crush (aka you) would watch it with him

I feel like he'd play along with conspiracy theorists just to fuck with them

Listens to ocean ambience on YT at night to help his insomnia

Compiles playlists for his friends on Spotify for sure he just seems like the type to do that

Has a special playlist of songs that remind him of you, def listens to it while daydreaming of you too or esp listens to it when he misses you

Sometimes he'll get too excited about something and practically yell "YEAH I KNOW RIGHT" then get embarrassed by himself lmao

Okay, listen, I know lots of people feel that Armin would be a good cook, but I think he'd be cutely awkward at cooking

Like he's the type to burn toast in a toaster which... how do you even do that

But the one dish he's mastered is pancakes bc he cooked them every Sunday with his grandfather as a child

Okay I think he'd be absolutely obsessed with pancakes esp those crepe ones that you roll up and fill with sugar-cinnamon

Def listens to Exist For Love while daydreaming of you. And it's for sure one of his favorite songs, idk it just gives me total Armin vibes bc it's such a sweet song

Okay and another of his favorite songs is Amour Armure

I think he genuinely believes in aliens

(Okay now I'm sidetracked by the thought of Armin in an alien themed hoodie oijhgvhj)

Def owns a satchel bag which he sewed patches onto to make it unique

Okay this satchel is probably falling apart bc he's had it for years and refuses to get a new one

And also you complimented it once so all the more reason to keep it

But he's also got this yellow backpack for when he goes on his lil' ventures

He totally had an origami phase

He'd be the type to practice winking in the mirror

Does lots of hand gestures when he's excited

Very tactical with his jokes, knows when to use them to lighten the mood or to shift the topic of a conversation

And Connie hypes him up sm and the two of them are often on a roll with their jokes and nonsense awh

Okay when he's around his crush (again, that's you, babe) his voice gets higher pitched and his brows raise in that cute lil excited way

Omg he'd journal for sure AND HE'D MAKE THE MOST AESTHETIC JOURNALS AND PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO THEM

Def into some indie bands that you've genuinely never heard of

Loves lighthouses and harbors like... a lot

You can't tell me that he doesn't make cute awkward doodles bc he totally does

Esp in class, he's the type to pass you a goofy doodle

Sucker for fairy lights. That's it. I just think he'd have them strung in his room in such a way that he can look at them when he's in bed

Omg he'd have an attic bedroom ijhsgshjs

(Okay, now I'm sidetracked by him blushing at his crush's texts underneath those fairy lights)

Has a huge shell collection because he's the precious ocean boy duh

Keeps any gifts you give him in a special place and practically protects them with his life lmao

Some things on his bucket list include snorkeling and whale watching

I feel like he wouldn't be squeamish with bugs, insects or spiders

Like he'd just help them out the house like "There u go lil buddy :)"

Cookies n cream/vanilla ice cream are his favorites

And ice cream is his therapist lmao

Takes super quick showers bc REDUCE UR WATER CONSUMPTION SAVE THE PLANET BABES

He's the type to get drunk in the shower while listening to sad songs and thinking about his crush (which, again, is you babe)

He's way too nervous to enter adult stores lmao

Uses exclamation marks in his texts

Omg he'd use old-fashioned emojis esp this one: =D like that's his thing

You can feel his personality in the way he texts like he ain't no dry texter

Lowkey paragraph type of texter tho

Gets sick rlly easily like his immunity just hates him or smth

Totally visits you with a bunch of 'sick necessities' if you're sick

Plans birthday gifts for his friends months in advance

Def has a geek shrine to Pokemon or Zelda

His favorite childhood show was Tom and Jerry

Carries a convenience bag in his backpack when he goes out so he can pick up any litter

When he's being a manipulative little bitch, he's got this go-to charm smile that he uses to get his way

And gives doe eyes to persuade you even more

Super obsessive, even if you haven't known him for long. He'd just grow really easily attached to you and get all hyper about being your friend

He'd be scared of the dark

For sure gets motion sick

Probably loves biology and physics but hates maths

He'd have like... THE best handwriting ever

Gives you dreamy gazes and hopes you understand his feelings just from his irises alone

Def sleeps with a plushie and wholesomely admits to it

Acts flamboyant with Connie and they goof around sm I love them help

Embroiders daises on his sneakers

Likes having his own little adventures at 2 AM, taking bouncy steps and spray-painting 'ocean boy was here' in sneaky places all over town

He's totally a daydreamer don't argue

Like you'll often catch him drifting off into a daydream; his irises get all whimsical and he looks like a distracted angel

Def had an edgy phase that he's never going to address

Has a huge map pinned up in his bedroom

Ooh he'd be a sucker for road trips

But he'd hate driving bc it heightens his anxiety

Def does the shaky leg thing when he's sitting down

Has a nervous posture, often keeps his hands tucked behind his back

He gives hardcore 'school sweater on top of white shirt' vibes

Omg he'd have a studious, dark academia-inspired style for sure

Ooh def loves oceancore and dreamcore aesthetics

He doesn't vehemently hate much, but he hates the wind... like nothing else can piss him off like windy days

(Okay but when the wind messes up his hair he'd look so hot omg)

He'd have a soft spot for koalas and elephants

Def organizes charity events

Tutors in his spare time bc he wants to help students understand stuff

If you're sleeping in the bed with him, he'll hug you in his sleep

And def wake up embarrassed lmao

He'd have a creaky bed... 👀

He's got a thing for nipping at your earlobe teasingly

Knows exactly how to... ehem... manipulate you onto his lap with cunning hands

Like one second you're making out tamely, then he gets you on his lap all the while distracting you with passionate kisses

OMG HE'S A SCORPIO WAIT

(I don't even believe in astrology rlly but my brain go brr for Scorpios)

He'd be hypersexual don't argue w me

Okay so like he gets jealous over Eren and compares his physique to him and ends up feeling unattractive or smth

So when you tell him through bold drunken giggles that he's hot, he dies of happiness (and um yk his pants get really tight and he has to hide his hard-on)

I think you'd feel how much he loves you in the way he rocks his hips into you

Mans got a sensitive dick fr

Yk what I'm gonna just say it I think his cum would taste better than most people's lmao

It's pretty thick too, like... not TOO thick but like... a good thick

Brain go brr again for Scorpio sorry let me recompose myself

Okay I feel like when he gets drunk enough he'll have the guts to say sum unholy hotboy shit

Like he'll just clumsily rest on your shoulder from behind and mutter something like "I wanna fuck you so bad"

And omg he'd smell like cherries and vodka

(I'm on my knees for this Scorpio mans can you tell)

Okay, he's got some insane intuition and sixth sense, so he'd immediately figure out if you're uncomfortable with any sexual endeavor without you needing to even mention it

Like nothing goes unnoticed

He's kinky asf don't argue w me

He'd probably have the best fucking tempo too fr

Okay you can fight me on this but I feel like he'd have a lowkey breeding kink

Like he just wants to fuck a baby into you or just fill you up with his cum

And he'd wanna fill you up enough to make it drip out deliciously

My brain is dying how long have I been writing lmao

Okay on this note I'll leave but his stamina runs out easily lmao he's def the type

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katnissgirlsmakedo · 7 days

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please talk about your fuckass book you just finished <3

ok yay :) i literally neeeeeed to talk about it in relation to other books i’ve read recently so that’s what i’m gonna do here i heart making every book a conversation with each other… so you’ll all have to forgive me for comparing call me by your name to the dream thieves of raven cycle fame but i need to. its a comparison that literally begs to be spoken about. to me. i also need to compare it to the secret history and the sun and the star and most importantly. well we all saw the timeless video. we need to get into that as well!!

obviously what sets it apart from all of my genre bullshit is that it is NOT genre bullshit, like it's just set in italy 1983 in the normal universe. which made it one of the most unique books i've read this year to be honest and real.... i have NOT been reading normal ass books... earlier i compared elio's narration to the great gatsby but i literally have just only read very few real world narrative novels i've got gatsby, richard, and this i guess. i'm working on it though!

anyway it was veryyy richard core in the sense that it's being narrated from some point in the future where elio is reflecting on that summer and oliver and what it meant to his life at large, where richard does the same thing with narrating his time at college with his greek class and bunny's murder. reflecting on two very different things unless you wanna look at it with the keen eye of a total nutcase and then i could say that they're both simply reflecting on what it was like to be seen and known by someone who turned out to not be what you hoped and you didn't end up with him despite it all. richard papen you would have loveddd call me by your name... wow. elio pearlman you would have loved the secret history...

it was ALSO very the dream thieves core in the sense that um. well me when i'm gay and having kind of a hard time working with that and there's a guy who's just like me in a bad way who wants to fuck me so bad we both look stupid as hell... but through it all there is the through line of intimacy that comes from being Recognized… rip joseph kavinsky you would have LOVED call me by your name!!!!!!!!!!! (would ronan lynch love cmbyn? well no!)

i ALSO only wanted to talk about it in relation to the sun and the star because they’re both like. ok Gay Representation is not a genre but they’re both books about gay people that i read recently so like. yeah. it’s crazy how glaring the difference between those two books is for things that both get tagged “lgbtq+” on storygraph or however many of those letters that website uses idk. like one of them is clearly written so some dude could pat himself on the back for giving the kiddos Representation in his stupid ass franchise and the other is just some fuckass book written by a totalllll freak that happens to be about gay people. in essence one made me so mad to read and the other was fine. i would never go so far as to describe a man’s work as great though. chappell roan voice i don’t think men make good art. !!! and i really believe that sorry. when a man impresses me i will let you all know but it is very rare…

which brings us to the timeless video. for everyone who somehow missed that that means (you’re fake btw 🙄) the timeless video is an amv i made last summer when i wanted to make an amv for my guys from my books but obviously they’re from books. so what i did instead was gather a bunch of characters from movies and shows that reminded me of MY guys and edit them to taylor swift’s timeless. because it’s like. other lives and i see them in everything. anyway so elio and oliver made it into the timeless video despite all the sort of mean stuff i’ve said about oliver lately (not even my fault he fuckin sucks btw) and the fact that their relationship is not like. Endgame. BECAUSE of my favorite scene. from the movie not the book. this scene was lame as hell in the book it’s the part that made me go wow i think perhaps the film is much better!! the “is it better to speak or to die” scene… i talked about it earlier but genuinely that happened to my buddy kit herondale…. and then he said something and it didn’t go very well!!!!

anyway. yay i <3 blogging on my break at work!

#asks #and also blogging on the clock!

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unlust-fvck · 10 months

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cym as coming of age movies

i’ve never done a cym before and frankly had no idea what it was before oat told me :’)

@slmlk — you give me breakfast club vibes. i have no clue why. the vibes are just there. i think it’s the color scheme of your blog just reminds me of the ad poster :’))

@d444zed — you give me juno vibes. something about the interactions i’ve had with you & the ones you have with others are just juno. (i wish i could say more but in my brain this just makes sense)

@zebonos — CALL ME BY YOUR NAME. IDK JUST YOUR NAME IS LITERALLY OAT. and the pic of fruit & fruit theme. the citrus stuff just reminds me of cmbyn for obvious reasons. also, every interaction we’ve had is just so queer coded :’)

#jays games !!#slmlk #d444zed #zebonos

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enqilras · 1 year

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Just a “parody” of call me by your name movie poster(idk if I can post it on tumblr)

I saw j2 doing this post on this photo(↓), and it reminded me of cmbyn, therefore I used my “ not so good” edit technique to make these fake movie posters.

The lines on the top of the picture come from the original TV series. (I tended to use Jensen & Jared' s words of spn before, but I soon found that is hard to collect...)

idk how to make a real movie poster so I just did it in my own way. (thus these two pictures are made in phone wallpaper size)

I think I mixed up j2 and S&D. Well, dont judge me,it's hard for me to separate them.

(I' m not native English speaker, sorry for my poor English)

看到j2在某个活动上的照片做了这个动作，我直接DNA动了，于是就p了个假海报😂，海报最上面是spn里的一些经典台词，本来想用j2的一些关于spn的评价的但是好难找，就算了...

因为只是粗劣地模仿cmbyn的海报，就很做得粗糙（我也不知道真正的电影海报要怎么做，于是就做成了手机壁纸的样子（）

乐乎上也有发哦

First time posted sth on tumblr,hope I did it right...

#jared and jensen #jensen ackles #sam and dean #jared padalecki #spn #supernatural #wincest #j2 #sd

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jlf23tumble · 3 days

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Did you see that people have dived into the Club Chalamet and discovered that her parasocial love used to revolve around Michael Fassbender, but she moved on after he got married and she discovered CMBYN? Reminds me of the journey of a few larries!

https://twitter.com/miacockucci/status/1783404102749180212

Oh, I sure did! Idk that we'll see that kind of pivot, tbh, but the foaming hatred for women (either as girlfriends or coworkers) sure feels mighty familiar!

#you're gonna hate on fucking ZENDAYA for nailing the brief pretty much always?#just say you hate women and go

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shinjaeha · 3 years

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itsay ep 4 (thoughts + spoilers)

idk even know how to even start this bc i feel like i’m just a big ball of emotions, and this ep was wild. so much happened. last ep was so wonderful and almost languid with how everything played out (esp since it focussed much more specifically on the shift in teh/oh-aew’s relationship). this ep had a bit more of everything, not just the two of them in their bubble anymore. societal forces at play, and hence much more angst. again, this isn’t a proper analysis, it’s just me ranting and raving as usual as i semi-rewatch this again. this is very long, and there are a lot more things i want to think about in more detail at some point bc i’m mostly just skating over a lot of what happened but i gotta get these thoughts in my head out of me somehow. and i’m not sure if what i’m typing will even make sense bc i MYSELF can barely make sense of what i’m feeling but here i go anyway.

so we start off with the both of them kind of awkward after the night before which is fair enough considering what happened. actually when oh-aew’s habit started playing up again, i thought teh wasn’t going to scratch his back bc he was trying not to ~go there again after the night before, but he did and i was pleasantly surprised like oh...maybe things aren’t that bad?? (YET). also, i can imagine that it would have been reassuring for oh-aew too. like things have changed, but it’s not like teh has completely abandoned him. the touch itself is comforting, like when they were kids.

teh’s mum talking about how she wants both of her sons to bring their girlfriends around (and hounding him about bringing tarn around again) is giving me war flashbacks to my own asian relatives and i can feel the way that must crawl under his skin. I HATE when family members do that (and they always do). but for teh it must be esp hard bc he’s already constantly feeling like he’s vying for his mum’s attention over his brother, and now hoon’s bought back a girlfriend so it’s yet ANOTHER thing he feels like he has to compete with his brother over. in the back of his mind, he knows that he can’t give his mum what she wants if he’s with oh-aew (he can’t ‘win’ over hoon bc heteronormativity). teh is def prone to jealousy fairly easily, but i always feel like his emotions on that base level are also very easy to understand. i’ve been in positions like that before where i’ve felt like i’ve constantly been compared to someone else, and it makes you feel like shit. but also oh-aew having to sit through teh’s mum telling him to let her know if teh and tarn are dating?? ouch.

cue teh trying to avoid what’s going on with them and oh-aew being sad :((( they’re both in so much pain and i feel it and thank god i am no longer a teenager that’s all i can say about this.

the guitar in skyline instrumental is just...making me feel some kind of way. they have so many versions of this song and they always use the right version at the right time how is that.

so the tarn scene!!!!!!!!!!!!!! first thought: holy shit she looks so cute i love her crop top where did she get it i want one. second thought: but why did they make her wear a dark bra under such a light top?? i love that i was thinking this and then it all unravelled in front of me and like...the brilliance. the contrast between the scene in ep 2 (i think?) where teh accidentally peeks at her bra through the buttons of her shirt and gets noticeably flustered, and then this one where she literally wears the same bra under a light shirt ON PURPOSE to get his attention, but he doesn’t even notice?? the way she expects him to colour the hibiscus purple, but he colours it red for oh-aew instead?? it’s so incredibly telling of where his heart is at, and how his feelings have changed. anyway, it doesn’t take a genius to figure out that he’s just not all there with her anymore, and tarn isn’t stupid...she’s been picking up on the signals since the beginning (why was he so weirdly obsessed with beating oh-aew at the start? why was he willing to wake up at 4am for oh-aew but not for her? willing to tutor the rest of his friends but not spend time with her?). the way she sees him colouring the hibiscus red and it’s her wake up call, like wtf am i DOING bc of this guy????? i love how she acknowledges that her feelings for teh have made it so she’s solely focussed on him and that she hates the things it makes her do (like wearing the bra to gain his attention). ngl i was slightly worried with how they were going to use her character during these later eps with teh being so conflicted (since girlfriends in BLs are usually handled pretty poorly), but i appreciate that she’s still as fleshed out and full of feeling as she ever was. she’s so sweet, and i just wish she had better than this, but i’m glad she called teh out on it. i know he’s confused af rn, and tbh i don’t think he’s handled this as badly (atm at least) as i thought it could have gone, but at the same time, if he doesn’t decide and set his heart on what he really wants, he’s just going to end up hurting them all. LOVE that she basically tells him to get his shit together first before coming back to her. i like her so much. and that scene of teh just walking around and around at the back feeling conflicted while she drew? really reminds me of the squiggly line timeline(?) of how ep 4 was going to go that nadao released before this ep went live. also cmbyn vibes were real in that one.

the devastation in oh-aew’s voice when he asks teh to at least reply his messages ;;; it’s like teh wants to go back to just being friends and oh-aew has kind of accepted that at this point, but at the same time, teh’s not backing that up. he says he wants to be friends, but he doesn’t know how to act ‘normal’ about it anymore, so he pushes oh-aew away instead. good on oh-aew for not taking that shit and standing up for himself too. i absolutely cannot stand seeing oh-aew sad bc pp’s sad face/voice is so good it actually pains me.

notice how teh ALWAYS uses studies/tutoring as an excuse to get closer to oh-aew again...hmmm...does oh-aew see it for what that is now too? that “you’ve never understood me” hit me like a fucking train. to think that they were so attuned to one another last ep, but now teh’s too caught up in he’s own world to realise just how much he’s hurting oh-aew. thanks, i hate it.

i know that he’s needs to figure himself out more and i absolutely stand by the fact that he needs to do that without messing around with either oh-aew or tarn (and also that he’s using studies again to get into oh-aew’s good books instead of talking through feelings and all that), but the chinese idiom book that he made for oh-aew was actually SO CUTE and romantic. all this stuff he does for oh-aew to show that he clearly cares so much, yet he can never accept it enough to get the words out...

I SWEAR THEY PLAY THE INSTRUMENTAL SKYLINE JUST TO CHOKE ME UP. the darting around each other after the neck kiss COUPLED with the skyline instrumental?? it’s like a sad beach scene 2.0. teh making the first (intimate) move this time. every time he’s trying so hard to convince himself he’s not in love with this boy, and every time he keeps coming back. i always feel such a weird mix of happy and sad when i see them together bc i love them but i know teh in particular, is just not ready yet. like the hug scene made my heart leap, BUT they did it in hiding (under the staircase). all their big intimate scenes are in hiding and that just :(((

teh saying that he loves the seawater on his back bc it holds him up, and oh-aew saying but you have to hold your breath in that posture and it gets uncomfortable so he likes letting it go and just sinking sometimes instead (obv paraphrasing but you get the drift)?? THE WRITING IN THIS. it says so much without telling the audience directly...so poetic. everything about this show is so poetic. the way they sink into the ocean and into that space of oh-aew’s where you can just let yourself go without holding back, and then and only THEN does teh finally kiss oh-aew. and it’s beautiful, after holding back for so long, but it’s also painful bc he’s let go but only within this tiny pocket of space and time. in hiding again. that bird’s eye view shot where you can’t see them at all sealed it for me. like you want to be happy, but you can’t really bc you know that they’ve still got so much more to go...like when teh’s hand grazes oh-aew’s chest and you see oh-aew realise again...like that’s partly what stopped teh the first time in ep 3. when his hands stopped at oh-aew’s chest like it hit in for him that he was a boy. anyway, love that they gave us a skam kiss but i’m also very sad. on another note, how the hell did they hold their breath for that long?????

love that they gave us a further 2 more seconds of teh/oh-aew being cute (CONSTANTLY thinking about teh’s fingers dancing across oh-aew’s face and smushing his face in his hands...oh-aew holding the back of teh’s head...just a brief moment of carefreeness) before they went for the jugular. watching teh fight against himself in this way is what hurts. oh-aew begging him to just let go and accept what they are (the way he keeps going “what did i do wrong?? you feel it too!!”) but he’s so tortured he can’t do it. it’s downright fucking heartbreaking. the “one day i’ll stop feeling this way”...could have just stabbed oh-aew and it would have hurt less. all i know is i’m hurting for the both of them. the repression is real, and it just sucks. this whole thing fucking sucks for both of them (and tarn and bas too at that). idk it just gets me that oh-aew is coming out of this having been rejected once again bc teh isn’t ready yet. and i know this but it doesn’t make me any less upset. not at any of them bc it’s hard i know it’s hard...just at the situation. sometimes it feels like teh’s taking a step forward but then he takes two more back instead. the look on teh’s face when oh-aew was like let’s stop being friends...total devastation. i’m done. don’t want to think about it anymore.

i’m glad that oh-aew’s parents are so supportive of him though. i wasn’t sure how close they were based on their previous interaction but they really love him and i’m glad he has that stability to help him through this.

THE SCENE WITH OH-AEW AND THE BRA FUCKING BLEW ME AWAY. this show is always keeping me guessing, and again yet another thing that i wasn’t expecting but it was so visceral. the red of the bra in comparison to tarn’s bra with the purple hibiscus flowers on it...everything connects. oh-aew looking into the mirror with that bra on and thinking about how things would have been different if only :((( and then his breakdown when he realises that it’s not and that’s the reality of the situation. the feeling that gave me sits so deep within my chest i can’t even begin to carve it out.

teh masturbating when he sees that picture of oh-aew and to that picture of yongjian on his wall (idk why it only now just occurred to me that yongjian is always in red too)?? the self-hatred in this scene. the internalised homophobia. my heart feels so heavy.

he KEEPS reaching and it’s going nowhere bc it won’t ever be enough, and that’s not fair on himself and it’s not fair on tarn. like i understand what he’s going through, and i get that he’s extremely confused and needs the clarification, but when he asks tarn to tell her she loves him and he can’t do the same back for her...i just feel so, so, so fucking bad for tarn.

oh-aew hoping that the worksheets left for him were from teh (which would be very on brand of him), but then seeing bas :( maybe in another world, in another life (like teh and tarn)...but he’s such a sweetheart. bas, best boy ;;;

legit as soon as the gang came to see teh off to bangkok and talk to him about how oh-aew was doing terribly (and wasn’t planning on going to the admission exams) i knew where this was going to go. there’s been so much foreshadowing leading up to this, and this was also one of (if not my main theory) with how things were going to eventually play out. but tbh for some reason i thought it was going to play out later in ep 5...but like damn. damn. the way i understand but at the same time i kept going OH TEH :( throughout this. the utter STRESS this bit put me through. THE MISCOMMUNICATION.

anyway, teh’s love language is clearly acts of service. but it can really be to his detriment when he does things impulsively (albeit with care and good intentions), but he doesn’t use his words so things get lost in translation. sometimes actions just aren’t enough and you really do need words to communicate.

the confirmation scene was so tense...even now i’m just sitting here thinking about it and there’s a hole in my stomach at the thought of what teh must be going through and what he ends up doing. like when that last person on the list shows up and you KNOW it’s going to happen but at the same time it’s like a punch to the chest bc there’s just no doubt that teh’s going to turn it down for oh-aew...OF COURSE he would. oh-aew’s split moment of happiness before realising what teh’s done...the absolute dread i still have in me at the realisation of this.

the tension really kept increasing from here on in...teh coming home and his mum just being so fucking proud of him and telling everyone in the restaurant about how happy she is for him (all while teh is absolutely depleted), then tarn coming in and everything bubbling over when she realises what teh’s done too. realises that teh’s in love with oh-aew (smile is so great in this btw like WOW). the “you hurt me and i’m alright with that, teh, but right now you’re hurting yourself” broke my heart. absolutely love tarn as a character and only ever want the best for her.

when he tells his mum :((((((((((( and his mum just goes on about how hard he’s worked and how much he’s already sacrificed only for him to throw that away. he wanted her to be proud of him SO BAD, wanted to not be compared to his brother for once, only for him to give away his place bc he loves oh-aew more than he wants his mother’s praise. more than he wants to compete and ‘win’ against his brother. when she points to hoon and goes “why can’t you be more like him?” and he just loses it. like rubbing salt in the wound. i’m so glad hoon finally hugged him the way i’ve been wanting to this whole time. the banner congratulating him that teh’s mum made with all his materials from before :((( hoon giving him money for uni :((( you ever watch some things and feel like you’ll never be happy again...

okay the way that everything spiralled during the ig story fight?????? what gets me is that teh sacrificed his place thinking that oh-aew wasn’t going to sit the exam at all (he could have just talked to him and convinced him instead but ughhh i understand i get it). oh-aew thinks he did it bc teh didn’t believe he could get in himself (which of course then spurs him to give it up so he can get in through the exam instead). and when teh sees that, it’s like a smack in the face, like he went through all that only for oh-aew to reject it (him). it’s just layers upon layers of miscommunication and the anxiety of it all absolutely guts me. and then the anger mixing into devastation when he opens his book and sees how it’s all cut up. the remnants a reminder of everything he’s done for oh-aew. this boy that he adores but can’t accept he has feelings for. it’s just this mix of anger and sorrow and what have i fucking done?????? and how could he????? the cast were all fantastic but billkin really had to go above and beyond in this one and i could absolutely feel his pain throughout this.

TO PIGGY BACK ON THIS, like i said before, teh has always used studying/tutoring as a tool to get closer to oh-aew, but seeing that book with all the words gone was in part also him realising he doesn’t have that anymore. he can’t use that tool to get close to oh-aew anymore. the only way forward would be to actually get close to oh-aew without the pretences. and the saddest part of this all is that oh-aew doesn’t even NEED all of that (the tutoring, the book of idioms, the relinquishing of his uni spot)...the only thing he wants is for teh to ADMIT his feelings out loud. to admit that he feels the same way about oh-aew that oh-aew feels about him.

it’s funny bc in the last ep, the conversation that had me feeling the most nervous was when they’re talking at the cape, and oh-aew’s telling teh that he’s a rival and inspiration to him. i always KNEW this was going to come back to haunt them. like a constant circle. friends to rivals to friends to more than friends(?) to rivals. it’s a fine line. narratively, it always had to happen, and now they’re back to competing against one another yet again, and it’s going to be so tough bc they’ll have so much more competition on top of that as well.

next ep is going to be very, very hard on teh, but somehow after this ep, i just feel a lot more hopeful about it? i’m pretty convinced at this point that it won’t end in tragedy (which was the thing that i wanted least of all). of course i want both teh and oh-aew to end up together, but i can understand if they don’t. if this ends with them rekindling their friendship again, that’ll be enough for me. their relationship has been so turbulent and passionate that it needs some stability, and hopefully when teh’s in a better state of mind, when he’s at a place when he’s finally accepted all parts of himself, they’ll get there. so if that means it ends on them running to the cape together (even if they’re not technically together) fulfilling their promise to one another in the sunset, then that’s fine with me. i don’t mind an open ending if it makes sense in the context of the story, and i think something like that would. it’s like after such an angsty episode, you need a slight reprieve from it. i have no doubt in my mind that ep 5 will contain darkness, but i do think that there will be light at the end of the tunnel. so for once i feel truly hopeful about it.

i can’t believe we only have one more ep left to go...

#i told sunset about you #itsay #like there's more angst to come but the real climax of it was in this ep that's how i feel anyway #idk if both of them will get in. i HOPE both of them do.#but i just think that when things get angsty at this point of the story there's always a chance for it to turn around #you just need to worry when things are too happy UNTIL you get to the last ep #tbh though i would like a kiss between them out in the open when teh's finally stopped repressing himself #just so he can show the character growth of his whole arc. so he can be free.#i would obv very much like for them to end up together but there's only one ep left so idk if they can get to that point when there's still #so much that teh has to learn to come to terms with #and he's going to be so so stressed with the exam too (i saw the previews and am bracing myself for more heartbreak as he cries)#i did not mean for this to be as long as it was but i was sporadically writing it as i worked and kept thinking of things to add #and it somehow became an essay #i wrote more in this than i've ever written in any of my uni essays GOD #if you read this whole thing you need some kind of medal or something idk man #also random note but teh's mum's kebaya looks like one that my mum owns #text

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jazajas · 4 years

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okay so i finished love, victor a while ago and i saw some other reviews and thoughts about it here so now i've got a pretty good list on my thoughts and feelings.

tl;dr: it has some issues, yes, but im gonna hold out and hope it gets better later on because the same thing happened with the first few eps, i wasn't that into it but then it got good, and nothing is ever great with the first season, because at that point we're getting used to those characters.

⚠️caution: spoilers ahead (im on mobile, i cant get an under-the-cut)⚠️

1. while a leah on the offbeat movie would have been amazing movie sequel (even tho i havent read the book yet, im just here for the wlw content) i am kind of glad we got this instead. mostly because I've seen book series where one movie was good, so they decide to do the rest, turn out bad (hunger games? divergent? percy jackson? the hobbit?) because so much was cut from the book-to-first movie writing, that other scenes wouldn't make sense to future movies if they had those in while cutting others. however, i am sad that i didn't get to make the choice of deciding whether what was cut was wrong etc. about future movies, but i'll take what i can get.

2. LGBTQ+ POC as a lead! that's amazing! as a ace/bi lantina that's close to home (it also is great that victor's from texas and so is ya gorl) and even then it's a mixed latinx family! i think pilar mentioned that at least the grandmother left Colombia and i saw the Puerto Rican flag in victor's room. also the salazar's are definitely from small town texas, even without knowing the name. (church barbeques, the use of the words "such a diverse city" in regards to atlanta)

3. a lack of actual lgbtq+ main storylines (so far) is kind of sad for a show like this. i was getting serious bi/pan vibes (as a lot of other people) from victor from the beginning, and when it was implied that victor was actually gay (while great, not shaming) as it has been brought to my attention, there was a lot of looking at a lot of straight relationship problems (please let us know more about benji)- edit 6/18: upon further consideration, it very much is a show about questioning your sexuality, I'm speaking about the other straight relationship issues, not mia and Victor's, its just the first season.

4. let us talk about cheating for a sec. never okay, in any circumstance. i feel sorry for mia that she saw victor making out with benji and the fact that he was doing any of that in the first place. victor made a choice to lie about the espresso machine and then kissed benji at the hotel and then when benji was fighting with derek, basically confessed his love and mistakes, then proceeded to makeout with benji after he broke up with derek, he built that grave and now he must lie in it. i get having feelings for a guy when you are in a relationship with a girl, and not accepting yourself enough to end that relationship but you really want it to work so you can be "normal". really, he should have told mia after he got back from the trip tho. i get being in highschool and doing stupid stuff and making dumb decisions, but for a show aimed at teens i think we should also remind said teens to make good choices even if we have to lose some realism within the character choices.

4. pilar and her decisions based off her brother pissed me off. because i honestly think that if she'd kept her mouth shut about what she knew or confronted victor about it in the first place we could have avoided a LOT of mess. did she not learn from snooping around her mother's business about her relationships that going behind a person's back doesnt end well? i did, however, like the pilar/felix friendship and was really kind of hoping that they'd get together during their coffee hangout (although now im glad that didn't happen) because they had a deeper understanding of each other. same with wendy/felix, although they do seem to much alike to work out in the long run but i still feel bad for wendy.

5. i don't know how i feel about lake and andrew, as people separate from each other. both seem to be the way they are from their upbringing (not confirmed why andrew is such an ass, but if his comment about his dad is anything to go by i bet it's got something to do with attention) but andrew seems to be less, idk, superficial? like he turned down mia because he didn't want to be a rebound, he didn't out victor, he actually stood up to early teasing the other dudes in the lockerroom were doing at victor (with teasing of his own obviously but that interaction had him on my nice list until much later). lake? lake. i honestly don't have an opinion of her? not really. i mean after hanging out with pilar i was hoping felix wouldn't go back to lake. is her name laken? i feel like her full name is laken. but they also played the "im only like this because my mom is really superficial about stuff and i do like the geeky nice guy but appearances" to "actually screw the norms im gonna makeout with him infront of the whole student body". i honestly thought she was gonna be bi because she kept hitting on mia when she was helping set up for her "date" and "big night" and there was one point where i saw her face fall at something mia said in relation to her and idk i was hoping she'd be bi (i figured early on that victor/mia wasnt gonna work and was like "oh mia/lake would be cute" but now idk.

6. okay on to the "big night", i have one word. NO. i didn't like the peer pressure into having sex. i agreed with felix when he said "your body your choice" but im also disappointed that victor made out with mia and when lake was talking to felix after victor left he didn't try to stand up for victor.

7. on to age gaps because i hadn't really thought of this at first. we'll start with benji/derek: WHAT GRADE IS BENJI?! because that determines my thoughts. if he's a sophomore that meant that he and Derek started dating benji's freshman year and thats eugh, don't do that, don't care if its a gay couple that shouldn't be happening because the maturity of the two characters is DRASTICALLY different (this is also a reason i am not a fan of cmbyn) but that would explain why they were so rocky. hoping the event at the gay bar was open to anyone not just for drinking, but not liking that fact that not one of the adults with victor were like: hey, this is a 16 year old, that's kind of wack when that dude was hitting on victor. that made me question some stuff. although i figure it might be making up for the lack of a gay bar scene in love, simon. but even then, in svthsa it's a restaurant with a bar that some people go to just to drink at, it wasn't just a bar, simon could be there but should NOT have accepted drinks from college kids, not matter how attractive.

8. i loved how bram and simon and their friends helped victor out though. i like how bram was like: hey i know my friends are a lot so here's a gay basketball league becaue there's no one way to be gay. i like how Simon talked about needing help himself just to help victor and how he said his friends were cool with it because it's a community. i like of justin(?) mentioned how being what his parents wanted was putting on a mask and pretending, not him doing drag. my favorite lines from that ep are: "and before you ask my pronouns are they/them/theirs" "'they're all gay? even that guy? he's like [insert really tall number]' 'yeah. you should see him in heels'" "or in simon's case: really unathletic" "and also because bram said that if i wore [the jean jacket] one more time he'd burn it". also katya was there. and the group hug too!

9. the back hand homophobia in relation to family is sad, but realistic and i sincerely hope his parents are kind enough not to be too harsh on victor because of it. anything they say that isn't positive or supportive of victor is bad but i hope they realize that there is more to him than that and that they can come to terms with it because it's not always that hard to be a part of that community and super religious. i am biromantic and catholic. and while there are some things i wont agree on my mom with, i know that it's more of a strike against God for kicking out gay kids from families than it is to be gay, because those parents were given trust by GOD to love those kids no matter what, and be good parents. so in the end, the parents are wrong and harmful and in the case of christians against jesus's teachings to love everyone.

10. this is fan speculation but dont think simon/bram are going through a rough patch? i honestly think it'd be a little cruel to the characters to have on of their actors be producing but then not have that relationship stay. and while it's not set in stone and obviously things happen in the real world, we have no proof script wise about there being a rift. all we have are bad photoshopped ig photos and scenes where two characters are never standing next to each other probably beccaue schedules never link up correctly for minor characters. who knows, maybe nick robinson was filming for a movie where is does have an even more major role than victor's gay guru in a series about victor so his filming time was around that. im gonna keep hope that things are okay.

11. that being said: we need more mainstream wlw content, because someone said it earlier and it really does seem to be catering to straight girls. i'll admit i did freak out when benji played call me maybe which is something i associated with him and victor but then kissed a guy because who wouldn't? we get that serenade and sweetness and then it'a ripped from us. but i did mellow out. if i flipped later it was because victor was making dumb decisions and i had to give myself a moment of compsure before i continued.

in the end, i'd say that there is a lot of growth this series needs to go through, but i also know that some people just aren't going to like it and i get that. but i also know that sometimes the best of stories have rocky starts, nothing is ever perfect from the beginning. and besides, further seasons are on hold until we figure out this covid thing, which means that you bet they're gonna be looking at our feedback. they saw what we thought before, they can do it again

i really did like it but we need more ACTUAL lgbtq+ relationship stuff from this series and better decisions on what we are teaching the younger generations, as well as what we want to focus on and realism within characters. i'm giving it an 8/10, because there is always room for growth and i really hope we get better things out of this than what we have been given in season 2.

edit: someone mentioned it really seeming like it was meant for Disney+ and i felt that. also to anyone who reaches the tags agter reading ALL OF THIS: i am sorry

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yeah but atleats some type of reperesantion. there's films like ma which is okay within itself but literally had a gay character introduced as this obnoxious dude who for no reason was like '' YEHA HI I LIKE TO SUCK DICK'' the first time we've seen him and it never comes into play. it's fine if he was gay just ... cause. but it was just so weird?have you meat a gay person irl? this reminds me of that meme '' i'm going to create lgbt represantion that is so homophobic''

A lot of gay representation is bad yeah so we can take Ammonite and Supernova and CMBYN which… are at least good idk.

#nat talks gay shit

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divorcedmalewife · 3 years

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show me your 4s

Logan, you have no idea how long it took me to get this list in a way that I could copy and paste and then alphabetize and then number it.

I hope you enjoy the various things I have blacklisted, I have 132 items, here is all the ones that have a four.

4.) Aaron Rodgers. He's the quarterback for the green bay packers and one of my old mutuals was obsessed with him

14.) bnha. I'm pretty sure this is that academia anime. idk I've never seen it and I don't care to lol

24.) cmbyn. Call Me By Your Name. Self-exlanatory. A shitty movie.

34.) Dean Winchester x Reader. I don't like to read reader-insert fanfic. I would guess that half of my blacklist is *Character* x Reader

40. dr:ae. Im gonna be honest, I’m not sure what that is.

41.) dylmas. The ship name for Dylan O’Brien and Thomas Brodie Sangster. I had to block it when I was big into tmr..

42.) Eastenders. I think this is a British tv show but idk.

43,) Eddsworld. Another maybe British tv show that I don't know about but U have one mutual that blogs about it.

44.) Emmerdale. Another tv show a mutual blogs about but I don't know of

45.) emo bands. its one of those tags that is usually associated with vague types of posts that people tag a million things like “omg i am so emo lol” and then tag like, fob and mcr and stuff.

46.) emo quarter. The emo quartet is fob, panic, mcr and top and tbh I don't need to be reminded of my top phase.

47.) emo trinity. much like the quartet, but without top.

48.) Eurovision. I have no interest in it lol

49.) Fandom. Much like “emo bands” its one of those tags that gets used on “fandom” posts.

54.) Game of Thrones. lmao never seen it, don't really care to.

64.) hlvrai. listen idk what this is. I think its another anime.

74.) John Seed X Reader. John Seed is a character in Far Cry 5 and I really like that game but I didn't want to read fanfic about gross cult leaders lmao

84.) miraculous ladybug. A show I don't care to watch.

94.) pew/die/pie. I don't think he's funny and I cant believe he still has a career

104.) rp meme. Somestimes I try to search for ask memes and then I see a bunch of rp memes and I'm not into role playing.

114.) Steve Rogers X Reader. Need I explain.

124.) tma spoilers. Listen I'm behind on the magnus archives and I don't want it spoiled ndjsk

#long post #sorry other followers smsnsjs #also there are some choice tags i have blacklisted

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cheap-pack-of-cigarettes · 4 years

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when I was watching the love scene in the special ep, this one part stuck out to me because it reminded me of something...

at first i couldn’t figure it out for the life of me, (on top of being floored by how incredibly mew and gulf did this scene) it took a while but them i realize it reminded me of when elio and oliver had sex for the first time in call me by your name..

well all know mew and gulf practiced a scene from cmbyn in the workshop (when gulf actually kissed mew instead of faking it) and idk i like to think that mew did this purposely to make their roles come full circle? it could’ve just been something mew did unprompted in the moment too- but i like to think this was a little nod to what started their chemistry to end this wonderful series.

#i love this show so much #tharntype #mew suppasit #gulf kanawut #mewgulf #thai bl #call me by your name #cmbyn #elio x oliver

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Hi! Could you maybe recommend some music, I keep listening to the same three songs and would love to find something new, doesn't have to be a specific genre. Also, you're blog is wonderful!

omg this is so sweet my heart is 🥺 rn but also, idk how much I can help because I also genuinely will listen to one song for an entire week straight and haven’t had a ton of time to find new music lately! but here’s some genre breakdowns of artists I love and some songs by them, or just individual tunes:

[edit: sorry this got insanely long!! I can maybe link spotify playlists if I ever get around to making some ‘:) but tl;dr my fave artists are frank ocean, sigrid, hozier, ben howard, cezinando, khalid, childish gambino, nas, lorde, the lumineers, rhcp, girl in red and travis scott]

1. guitar/rock indie-arcade fire: neighbourhood #3, the well and the lighthouse, we exist, afterlife, the suburbs, ready to start, SUBURBAN WAR!! (listen to the entire suburbs album if you want to feel rlly nostalgic about ur childhood)-ben howard (my favourite artist ever, I saw him live and it was phenomenal): rivers in your mouth, time is dancing, I forget where we were, only love, black flies, oats in the water, she treats me well, towing the line, follaton wood-rhcp (long time fave): under the bridge, by the way, californiacation, scar tissue, otherside, goodbye angels, dani California, snow (hey oh), tell me baby-city and colour (another old fave who I’ve also seen live and is amazing!! if you like hozier and the lumineers you’d like him, a bit of a less intense sound though): sleeping sickness, what makes a man, waiting…, constant knot, the golden state, killing time, wasted love, runaway, map of the world, blood, the grand optimist :’), northern wind, hello I’m in delaware-the scientist by coldplay.. if u haven’t been emo about this song since 2003 wyd-haven’t listened to her in forever but cosmic love by florence + the machine >>-girl in red (her music is great but her LYRICS r literally my soul): i wanna be your girlfriend, summer depression, i need to be alone, 4am, girls, say anything, bad idea, i’ll die anyway, we fell in love in october-harry styles: adore you, fine line, golden, sunflower vol. 6, sweet creature, lights up, to be so lonely, sign of the times, HIS COVER OF ULTRALIGHT BEAM-hozier (ANOTHER fave, fucking insane live too. sir ily): work song, in the woods somewhere, sedated, cherry wine, almost (sweet music) [song equivalent to a warm summer evening], movement !! holy f-, as it was, be, wasteland baby!-broken by lovelytheband-the lumineers (my guys!!!!): cleopatra, sleep on the floor, angela, long way from home, sick in the head, my eyes, white lie, donna, salt and the sea, slow it down, stubborn love-where’s my love by syml-mitski: washing machine heart, old friend, nobody, lonesome love-sam roberts band: bridge to nowhere, brother down, if you want it-saturn by sleeping at last-sufjan stevens: mystery of love, visions of Gideon (I don’t stan cmbyn but literally these two songs are the only thing I listened to from dec 2017 to feb 2018), the hidden river of my life, futile devices, Vesuvius-love will tear us apart cover by susanna and the magical orchestra-vance joy: mess is mine, Georgia, my kind of man, Saturday sun, we’re going home, lay it on me, take your time, I’m with you !!, like gold, crashing into you-remember when by wallows !!!

2. chill indie/pop-billie eilish: idontwannabeyouanymore, ilomilo, my strange addiction, bury a friend-cezinando (also my fave artist, and noen ganger is probs my fave album of all time): ingenting blir det samme men samme for meg, selv du, haper du har plass (if u can make it thru this song w/o crying on public transportation you are much stronger than I), tommolen pa vekta, er dette alt, usynlig-sigrid (the LOML and my other fave artist- seeing her live was the best day of my life no cap): dynamite, plot twist, fake friends, strangers, don’t feel like crying, raw, focus, I don’t want to know, her cover of sex by the 1975 changed my life fr, mine right now, BASIC !!!!!, in vain, never mine [this is highkey bc I’m a bonafide sigrid stan but I cannot recommend her ENOUGH she has one of the most incredible voices ever, is an insanely talented songwriter, and her music is so hype and beautiful and yeah :’)]-khalid (I love his voice sm, also the ceo of vibes): bad luck, cold blooded, 8teen, my bad, better, hundred, Saturday nights, suncity-run by elsa and emilie-lorde (my bby): bravado, buzzcut season, the love club, the louvre, supercut, 400 lux, ribs, white teeth teens, a world alone-fy faen by hkeem & temur (have been listening to this song for 3 yrs straight no cap)-btstu by jai paul-8896 by lapsley-joji: slow dancing in the dark, will he-moon by kid francesoli-aloha by mome (another all time fave)-karpe diem: hvite menn som pusher 50, lett a vaere rebell i kjellerleiligheten din, gunerius, spis din syvende sans-astrid s: 2AM matoma remix (one of my fave songs ever tbh), hurts so good !!!, such a boy-myth by beachhouse -mgmt: kids, electric feel-nostalgi 3millioner by tomine harket & unge Ferrari -lykke li: sex money feelings die (did I listen to this song for 5 months straight last year? hm), I follow rivers-one direction (ofc): story of my life, 18, night changes, drag me down, literally all of Take Me Home which is unequivocally their best album I will take no criticism on that-berlin by ry x-dancing with a stranger by sam smith and normani-taylor swift (not rlly a fan but wowww some of her songs): call it what you want !!!!, false god, begin again, all you had to do was stay, clean-kamikaze by Susanne sundfor-tame impala: let it happen (the og and the soulwax remix), the less I know the better, gossip-head over heels by tears for fears-somebody else by the 1975 (apparently I was the only one who only discovered this song in 2019 but it’s like all I listened to from October-December)

3. rap & rnb-brockhampton: rental !!!, face, bleach, sweet-childish gambino: ii. zealots of stockholm, heartbeat, les, the “hardbone with a hard r” remix of bonfire and redbone drooooool-drake (yikes dude but ngl. chill bops): feel no ways, u with me?, hold on we’re going home, passionfruit, you and the 6-vince staples: bagbak, lift me up, norf norf-frank ocean (LOML frank I’d die for you. also my fave artist *proceeds to list his entire discography*): SEIGFRIED!!!!, songs 4 women, nights, chanel, ivy, thinkin bout you, sweet life, pyramids, lost, bad religion, pink matter, forrest gump, in my room, swim good, dust, american wedding, provider-jorja smith: blue lights, february 3rd, on your own-ransom by lil tecca-nas (fave to end all faves): take it in blood, represent, the message, halftime, affirmative action, street dreams, one love, hate me now, cherry wine, new world-mobb deep: hell on earth, survival of the fittest, party over, shook ones pt ii-travis scott: (astroworld is the only thing I listened to summer-fall 2018 no cap) astrothunder, coffee bean, Yosemite, butterfly effect, houstonfornication, skeletons, stop trying to be god, stargazing, highest in the room-kanye (don’t roast me for this): can’t tell me nothing, ultralight beam, fade, hold my liquor-drip too hard by lil baby-(all a product of tiktok) bop, toes, suge, panini remix by da baby-migos (lmao): notice me, slippery, pure water-walk man by tmg sfdjhfkdjfsdfs-go loko by YG-the weeknd: reminder, as you are, hurt you, privilege, tell your friends, starboy, sidewalks, high for this

(I also love old school rock music but haven’t listened to it much since highschool- my fave bands are led zeppelin, CCR, boston, fleetwood mac, pink floyd, blue oyster cult, styx, the who)

#i am. sorry.#also me making this realizing how intensely my music taste is based off tv shows. ok one tv show fsdhsdfjfdshkjfd #asks #long post #music

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keriskz · 4 years

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yes, there's a peach scene in cmbyn but I wouldn't call it explicit. it's very brief and there's just a bit of grunting and panting, we only see his torso. idk why media obsessed so much over this scene. the intimate scenes where they talk and try to explain what they feel, dancing around each other, are way more important

OMG I know it wasn’t supposed to but it absolutely reminded me of the pie incident in American Pie!

CMBYN looks like it was such a beautiful shot and well acted movie. Well deserving of all the praise and awards.

#man oh man #i need to rewatch american pie now #anon #ask

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theloniousjagger-goodman · 4 years

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this probably doesn't have to be an ask, but it's something i just thought of. your header reminds me of call me by your name and i don't know how to feel bout that.

haha idk how to feel about that either?? I haven’t watched CMBYN and my header is of DOAFP. ajajkaakajkaj. Unless there’s a scene in CMBYN that contains a gay guy throwing a ball with his crush’s words????

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abigail-abridged-summaries · 4 years

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Find Me by André Aciman

After over a month of having this boom i finally decided to buckle down and finish it at 2am on a school night so here we go with the summary/review. At the end I finally realized that this was meant to fill in all the gaps in part 4 of cmbyn but it might just be me but I liked the tine skipping the long spaces of time that didn't exist.

Spoilers

So the whole beginning is about Elio's dad (Sami because I'm lazy) and this lady he meets on the train while on the way to visit Elio. I guess a traib ride is enough time to fall in love because they do and Sami kinda explains the "vigils". He and Elio and later Oliver a tie into this with holding vigils for lost loves. The girl onthe train, Miranda, seems a bit out there but whatever. They get obnoxiously close in under 24 hours and then they're like lets have a kid. (I'm still lost and pretty disgusted about that shit with Miranda and her brother though like absolutely the fuck not.)

The we move on to years later which is right before Elio goes to the USA to see Oliver at his university. Basically this part is Elio meeting up with Michael at a concert and they connect through music even though Michael has mininal musical connections. They get close and Michael reveals this family treasure that was a gift to his dad from leon (there was an accent in there but idk where so 🤷). It was some sheet music love note that Elio our magical protagonist decodes and essentially it leads them on this quest to find out more about leon which they do but they never find the whole story as both leon and Michael's dad are dead. Also idk but it makes me sad that Michael gave Elio the sheet music like it felt like he was kinda giving him his heart even though he knew he would never truly have Elios.

Oliver is hosing a going away party in New York and is essentially trying to find a non obvious way to get these 2 people whose nanes I believe were Erica and Paul to have a threesome with him (all of them were in relationships that didn't include eachother). Because aparently they hardcore remind him of Elio and then Paul goes and plays a song that Elio once did and he finally resigns himself to go back to Italy, to go back to Elio. This is aparently when he realizes that he wasted 20 years of his life in a relationshio with someone he didn't truely love.

Now part 4 really has me wacked out because I swear this hardcore contradicts some of the ending of cmbyn. I swear there was no mention of Miranda or Ollie in the end (although there might have been an allusion that I forgot about). My biggest point though is that I know Oliver was leaving at the end of cmbyn because I remember how the ending wrecked me like they finally met up back in the origin of their love and they still wouldn't acknowledge it. But in this timeline he doesn't leave, they stay together and go on this honeymoon trip around the sea.

Review: looking back I kinda could have lived without it like I liked cmbyn's ending I liked the pain and this didn't bring that energy. Also what was up with that half or twice the age in a relationship thing like was it meant to draw parallels between all of them or what because I know Oliver is older but not anywhere near twice Elio's age.

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my wips that i am pushing myself to work on during these times!

the sea and mountain belong to you; kl alternate timeline voltron fix-it ISH with religious undertones. slightly inspired by drowning knife (theme wise).

excerpt: “This ocean and these mountains!” Lance shouts and he feels reminiscent of the time they were on a foreign planet, young and blind, falling straight into curses, walking the line between humans and gods, “all belong to Keith!”

i really want to finish this but ? who knows... i was working on it w stacey (esbis) but i’m not sure the direction i’m going with it TT but i love the concept

Keith’s WikiHow Guide: How to Know if a Boy Likes You; vld kl romcom in keith’s perspective! i just really love romcoms and i think humor is rly funny and its really good lol i reread and i was like?? damn

excerpt: Keith doesn’t, in fact, ‘move on’. He goes to the bathroom. Look up on google: how to know if a guy likes you. Like yeah, they’re only on the second episode, but his heart is beating louder than the screen and his face is so hot it could probably cook at least two eggs.

how i missed you; vld keith-pov garrison to present day timeline. about how keith ‘missed / messed up’ his chance with lance? sort of. about how they loved each other but coulsn’t due to the war

excerpt: Four seasons pass, the stars are still constant, and he meets blue eyes again, that glare at him and says, “the name’s Lance,” he forgets about the phantom that haunts his original days of the Garrison.

it’s sort of like a Dual Perspective on let me melt but with a different timeline

i think this one is fun to finish because keith is usually easier to write during romcoms because he’s so direct and to the point and hilarious and it’s easier for me to explore lance’s mindset since i feel like i understand lance. so this one is a challenge yet still something i want to explore

midday, morning, night: ANOTHER vld keith romcom. basically keith is whipped and its funny

excerpt: “Did someone say infomercials?” Keith comes out, rubbing a towel over his head. In Pidge’s peripheral vision, she can see Lance flailing around like an octopus and various of facial expressions that vaguely remind Pidge of the lion in Madagascar.

i wrote this a while ago and i still wanna finish it TT why do i have so many vld fics PRES2

stays where he can see the sun: vld fix-it lance centric where lance leaves voltron

excerpt: The more time he spends on Earth the more he questions why he ever left. He becomes a bit daring with his adventures, sneaking out into town squares where the people are lively with music and soft lights and bustling laughter and begins flirting with pretty girls and boys again.

this one is lance pov and near and dear to my heart since i get to go back and explore his head and how much i miss him! it explores a lot about the holt family dynamics, etc.

me tangere: vld soulmate kimi no nawa amnesia ish fic

excerpt: “Look at me,” rough hands barely whisper across his face and are snatched away in a second. “Don’t you dare forget about me,” someone whispers in his dreams. He can’t place the voice, could be a figment of his imagination, a stranger on the street, or even his own. “Because I’m going to find you.”

timeline where the gang’s memory is wiped after helping in space, but the body doesn’t forget so they’re trying to

I WANT TO FINISH THIS SO BAD OMG

Junhoe is #Whipped; ikon junhwan fic(s) there’s multiple fics in this doc: chanwoo’s 3rd person view of junhwan, stan twitter au haha, and just some introspective jinhwan, there’s also a teacher AND convenience store au i wrotehaha

excerpt: Which is how they both found each other in coats and heavy scarves and face masks. They make their way to ‘their’ spot that they go out to when they feel like it. They started going there when Junhoe just wanted everything to stop, fuck, he was only fifteen and they were against the world. Jinhwan didn’t know what else to do so they went to the river and watched the stars and yell or cry or whatever they needed to do.

i think it will just be fun to do!

more than i am; spamano sort of cmbyn atmosphere inspired antonio is a charismatic traveler and lovino is looking for adventure but a lot of soulmate gothic kind of content

excerpt: “You’re me, we have the same feelings, same wants. But you’re just more. Everything I am, but more.” Lovino brushes his hands through Antonio’s hair. “I feel like you’re more me than myself.”

idk i just wanted to write soulmate almost dangerous dependency

in another life time, i was there; spamano nation verse with lovino and antonio exploring what it means to be nations as well as their history of being together and marriage

excerpt: But in the same note, to repeat myself. He is spending more time in between trips, he is tired, he is carrying the world on his back - I cannot help but see Father’s eyes in his. Today, the setting sun reflected such a bright orange similar to burning cinders.

i want to finish this very dearly! its sort of based on my time in Spain so and its really well written ;-;

#me #writing #my fics #my wips #i still have published wips ;-;#if u wana talk lmk ~

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