#idk why i keep getting up

[skellydun]

I'm curious because in my head you still look like you did in your videos. Do you have any recent photos of yourself?

i don't take selfies but please enjoy these pictures snipped by one of my coworkers as we tested out things for our summer program

#they sniped so many of them and then said i know why u keep ur camera off in formal meetings and I'm like yeah 😔 #no background bc not a real meeting ignore the soapghost pictue on my fridge ahsjakkaka #snipped* cause we use microsoft babey #idk HOW to get rid of that line of light even if i use a background it shows up and its all i can see during calls ahajak

[fishbloc]

this season i want to do my mining a bit differently. instead of mining horizontally, i want to mine vertically to maximize what you can get.

#omg ive redone this like 4 times but idk why the quality keeps getting screwed I GIVE UPPPP enjoy griam bc this guy never uploads on time #grian #hermitcraft #hermitcraft s10 #hermitblr #mcytedit #咸鱼.gif #its almos 3am im going to bed #i wanna design cherry blossom grian tmr.... #sorry this lopks bad but ive actually given up but i didnt wanna toss it in thr recycle bin

[puppyeared]

axolotl

#covers my face. this is dumb theyre dumb idk what was going thru my mind making this.h #i like this brush tho i think ill keep using it #i had this thought awhile ago that axolotls kind of remind me of macs ears. and i had a nice thought that if wukong ever saw one #he'd say the same thing. and thats why im sitting here with my head in my hands #macaque doesnt know if hes embarassed amused or straight up smitten. its all 3 #i have such a hard time drawing necks and shoulders.. mac is supposed to kind of hunch up his shoulders #the way some ppl do when they bow their neck down kind oflike. defensive-tucking in position when theyre making themselves small #i cant really get it to look right so it kinda looks like his head is sunken too close to his shoulders. so i guess ill keep practising #maybe if i brought his head closer to the collarbone it will look better. but i struggle with foreshortening so theres a chance itll #just look like his neck starts at the collar. ughhh #god have mercy if i ever draw hugs. i hate positioning the shoulder i hate hate hate it. 10 dead 17 injured #i have new design note ideas for em but ill post another time #myart #doodles #lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #shadowpeach #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk macaque #lmk six eared macaque #lmk liu er mihou

[blackkatmagic]

I'm always a little weirded out by just how much both the movies and the fandom gloss over how utterly uncomfortable Padme was with being around Anakin in the beginning of AotC. Like, this is a woman who grew up under a microscope from the time she was 14, but she still goes so far as to cover all the cameras in her room, knowing that a bounty hunter is after her and just murdered one of her handmaidens, because Anakin watching her creeps her out so much.

And yeah, most of that is because the movies forget about it too in favor of reducing her character to "girl in forbidden love", but still. It's so deeply clear in the first half of the movie just how much Anakin makes Padme uncomfortable. Like. to wild degrees.

#reason 13543 why I have to believe there was at least SOME mental influence going on to get her to ignore that many red flags #at least if we're trying to keep her characterization at all consistent with tpm #kat rants #idk man it just always stands out to me so starkly #maybe because i've been that uncomfortable around people before and ended up in bad relationships when i didn't listen to my instincts #it resonates #padme amidala #star wars #anti anidala

[puhpandas]

hi. beckory and fronnie parallel

#i think tony would look up to bonnie and ask him for guidance if they were able to have a relationship #not fatherly or familial like gregory and freddy but just. idk #mentor doesn’t sound right #but you get the idea #and i think he’d keep asking about fronnie and bonnie just knows exactly why tony notices them #because he sees himself with gregory in them #drawing tag #beckory #gregory #tony #freddy #bonnie #tony and bonnie #goddd gregory’s side profile is hard to get right #gregtony #this is like a scenario where gregory has his bond with freddy and it’s post everything btw #don’t know how bonnie would be back and this would work #like i guess ruin wouldn’t happen and the pizzaplex would just be okay #and bonnie would be back #whatever lol

[brekitten]

Bruce doesn't dream.

He never has, really - at least, not that he can remember. He never even had nightmares from the night his parents died. Maybe that's why; maybe he just subconsciously trained himself to not dream after that night, in fear of the nightmares that were sure to come. But the point is that he does not dream.

And yet.

The dream always starts out the same, every night, every time he closes his eyes and slips into the embrace of sleep. He's in a pitch-black room, one so dark that he can't see his hands even when he raises them right in front of his face. He knows, somehow, that he can walk for hours without coming into contact with anything - walls, furniture, anything at all to indicate that he was even in a room. Yet he knows that he is, although he's not sure why, as there really is no reason for him to know that.

The dream changes, after a while of walking. He knows that he won't find anything, no matter how far or how long he walks. This place is empty, desolate even. It fills him with dread every time. The change is never consistent, always bringing him to a different place each night.

(Once, it was a dusty old bedroom, one that made his heart ache, although he didn't know why. He had taken notice of the various space-themed decorations, the model rockets and NASA posters and stars on the ceiling. It was clearly a child's bedroom, but it hadn't been used in a long time. Another time, it was a darkened lab, illuminated only by the strange vials of green liquid lined along the many, many shelves. Bruce had wondered, after he had awoken, if it was Lazarus Water, but that felt wrong. It was something else. Something more. It had made him uneasy, and he got the feeling that something terrible had happened there. He didn't get a chance to investigate the gaping hole in the wall before he had been whisked away to another part of the dream.)

This time, he is in a brightly-lit white lab, and he has to blink stars out of his eyes at the abrupt change in lighting and color. He looks around; it seems like a typical lab, but everything is pure white, except for a green stain on the table. He can feel bile rising in his throat at the sight of the cuffs on the table, and though he still doesn't know what the green substance is, he gets the horrible feeling that it's blood. A lot of it.

He uses what little time he has to investigate the lab. There is an abundance of medical supplies, but many look unused, with the exception of the scalpels. The pit in his stomach continues to grow. Why were there so many? He reaches toward a vial of red liquid, wrong wrong wrong this is wrong, when the dream changes again.

Now he's in what is clearly a cell, except even the cells in Arkham aren't this bare. The only thing it contains is a familiar white-haired teenager, who is chained to the floor with cuffs that glow the same green as the vials of Lazarus Water that he's seen before.

Though Bruce has never learned his name, he has been in every dream, the one constant (besides the empty room, of course) in each one. The kid has never spoken, never done more than watch, but Bruce has always gotten the feeling that he was the reason for these strange dreams.

He knows that he should be more worried. If some kind of meta has managed to get inside his head, there's no telling what could happen. But he can't bring himself to be. Something is wrong, and it's not the teenager.

He can't help but think of his own children.

Something feels . . . off this time. The kid isn't looking up, isn't even moving - he seems limp, almost, as he kneels on the ground, weighed down by the chains keeping him there. Green blood - Bruce knows it's blood now, it has to be - drips from his still figure, pooling on the ground underneath him.

Bruce can't move. He desperately wants to, what could he even do? but it's like he's frozen in place. He can only watch as the teenager slowly, agonizingly, looks up at him, his bright green eyes dull and filled with fear and desperation and hope and -

Bruce wakes.

#dp x dc #dp x dc prompt #bruce wayne #danny fenton #dreams #angst #tw blood #it's technically ectoplasm but better safe than sorry #man it's been a while since i've done a prompt #it's a long one #idk where the inspiration for this even came from #thought it would be neat if danny keeps showing up in bruce's dreams asking for help #it turned into this #also danny got captured by the giw #idk why bruce is getting these dreams #he just is #so the big empty room is supposed to represent danny's thoughts and feelings of hopelessness and empitness #i think #it's supposed to be symbolic #idk if anyone got that but oh well #also that was danny's bedroom and the fenton's lab #which is more obvious than the big empty room lol #why is writing in present tense so hard tho #i guess i'm just used to writing in past tense #oh well #enjoy

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

.

.

.

" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

#kaeyachi randoms #kaeya #kaeya alberich #this is actually shorter than it originally was can yall believe? #kaeya with anxiety truther there i said it #kaeya cant stand being IDLE #get it? get it? #you see that is a play of words in reference to when he is stood idle on our screens. he is one of the more verbally impatient characters #and we also see it reflected on his actions both in fighting and at work. he has a speed boost bonus and if he isnt teleporting he is #actually moving so fast that he seems like it. this is what i also concluded that results him in large amounts of free time that only amber #seemed to be hardpressed about. the people of mondstadt find him reliable and approachable despite the lax attitude and frequent nights at #angels share. we also had lore tidbits before of kaeya straight up saying he finished all his work and jean saying that he also did the #backlogged ones. It is actually insane that we hear him relaxing frequently and i bet its not because of the lack of horses COZ LOOK AT HOW #BUSY THE OTHER CAPTAINS ARE. Also id like to think that he is a toned down noelle and that is why jean told him to watch over her training #give us noelle and kaeya interactions pls i kinda need it tbh #to all those that reached this far into the notes i actually have more to say so get ready #if it wasnt clear the only day he was late was when crepus died. everything fell apart for him that day so i can see some obsessive need to #just keep running around and doing things as efficient as possible. I also think that he found the knights slow and inefficient in several #occasions and he is willing to put them in the line of fire just to get their hearts pumping with adrenaline (and fear lol). idk kaeya is #just so anxiety-coded. impatience-core. Mr. dont waste my time type of guy. and also wow look i found a way to make his idles become angst #silly me ehe #oh youre still here? how about i tell you that kaeya-efficiency-alberich probably knows where everyone is at any time of the day? #can we honestly please give him more free time i need more of him tbh #fun reminder that bro is working around 3-4 jobs casually lmao #i also just realized that the notes is a whole nother post on its own #AND THE ACTUAL FUNNY PART IS I CAN STILL ELABORATE MORE ON THIS LMAO #wait let me add this one tiny idea too but he thinks time is so valuable. bro lost 2 dads and lost time with his bro + he significantly #lessened his time at dawn winery for quite some time. i can see why he is extroverted now.

[haterlain]

uhhhh.. i bet you can't draw dirkjohn. 🤨 (please please please.../silly)

IM SORRY. THIS IS ALL I GOT

#idk why dirk is so hard for me to draw now #(it’s bc I keep getting too lazy to pull up a reference) #John was actually so fun to draw tho #I think dirk thinks his attraction to John is rebound even tho John is like super different from Jake #and John is really clueless for a stupidly long time and is like jee wizz I’ve never felt this way about a bro before! #John is corny to me but like in a little more on an online bro way than Jake #they would go to the gym together and John would keep trying to make dirk laugh between sets #homestuck #dirkjohn #johndirk #my art #dirk strider #John Egbert

[shadow-the-crow]

I think i finally understand how the Distortion works. I mean, i don’t think it’s possible to ever fully understand it, and i don’t know the whole picture yet because i don’t know what Helen will be like, but i feel like i’ve just been granted a glimpse at the lovecraftian (as in ineffable) thing that is this being.

It’s not a person and a creature fighting inside one mind. There’s no Michael clawing himself to the surface to express his emotions and get his revenge.

Michael Shelley is dead. The Distortion became Michael. It sounds so simple, yet a least in my opinion it’s hard to fully understand.

I think what provides the best metaphor is a small thing the Distortion says after becoming Helen: "without a proper mind." The Distortion does not have its own mind. It’s only a what, but in order to really exist in this reality, it needs a who. It needs a body, but also a mind.

So if i understand this right, it’s like this: Michael Shelley is dead. His conciousness is not there anymore. And the Distortion got forced into that mind, an empty mind of a dead person. This doesn’t make it human, it’s still able to understand the impossible, it’s still the thing that was created to scare and kill. But in the mind it’s living in… the previous owner’s furniture is still there. It gets the dead person’s memories. It becomes Michael, in the sense that it has to be someone. Its existence got tied to being Michael, although Michael Shelley is dead.

When Michael got "emotional", that wasn’t Michael Shelley coming through. It was the Distortion grappling with the side effects of being someone - of living in a mind with all the memories and the human emotions that a human mind can’t fully turn off, even when the thing inhabiting it isn’t human at all.

The Distortion was Michael in the sense that it was thinking with Michael Shelley’s mind. When it became Helen, its consciousness, its being stayed the same, but it needed to adapt to this new mind. It could see clearer now, realizing that the windows of the previous house had been dirty, realizing that the wirings of the previous mind had driven it to do something that it actually didn’t want to do. The throat of the Spiral itself getting caught in the spiralling of its own, borrowed mind.

#here comes the first michael essay #this is only the start #i've still got so many more thoughts #i hope this makes sense #idk why but i think i get how the distortion feels #being forced to be someone who isn't you at all #like - it doesn't make sense but i get it?? #okay i haven't watched doctor who but maybe it's kinda like being the doctor? #you kinda change personality and become someone else but your true being stays the same? #(as if anyone of us knew what it's like being the doctor any more than we know what it's like being the distortion lol) #tma #michael distortion #tma the distortion #helen distortion #the magnus archives #tma podcast #tma spoilers #tma thoughts #mag 101 #another twist #michael shelley #i just realized i've probably spelled michael wrong in the tags before oops (i know how it's spelled but “micheal” keeps popping up so...) #you know what i'm gonna put the wrong version too for reach #micheal distortion

[celestialrealms]

barbatos letting himself be loved and cared for. barbatos letting himself be loved and cared for!!!

#obey me nightbringer #obey me barbatos #obey me #barbatos x mc #long post / #this card wasn't lore heavy like his other hard mode card from season one... but it was so GOOD? #why don't they put this energy into his cards we have to pay for? or the main story? #anyway time for some incoherent ramblings #..ngl i'm kind of obsessed with the fact that nightbringer keeps making mc trying to take care of and support barbatos just as much a theme #in at least his hard mode cards #this card and the scene from his other hard mode card where they insist he let them carry some of his bags just hit the spot so much? #and them getting mad at him in this card and them talking it out like grown ups? refreshing!! #idk . i liked this card. go read it #also he struck again with his barely concealed dressup kink. smh . embarrassing for him #not as embarrassing as mc offering both of their shoulders . but i digress

[gleamer]

Realistically, I can’t commit to a simblr story but like… what if I post random scenes and just write lil synopses under the cuts?

#every time i’ve tried to do a simblr story #it gets sloppy real fast then i give up once i realize its too much work #i think doing it this way lets me really focus on all the small details #nd every post will feel intentional n special yknow #i used to hate when i had to post filler bc of pacing reasons #this way i can only post shit that matters #nd keep the ‘filler’ in my silly lil comic posts #i mean im gonna do this so idk why i phrased this as a question lmao #g*

[stuckinapril]

.

#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children #In everything I do #Like legit #I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her #And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything #But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious #Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life #But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends #While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury #And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline #Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else #It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk #It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything #But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently #And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians #I’d be so mad #And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief #For losing their loved ones #This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit #This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow #And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything #Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal #And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just #Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off. #Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night #I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this #Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do #or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up #I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think #p

[svtskneecaps]

i should be sleeping but i do want to reiterate how much i love that our collective fan community and also the streamers are constantly like, so new members when? new language when? a teaser drops and we're all like germans???? german time????? asiatic language time??????? new faces??? new friends?? new communities????

i've said this before but it just constantly makes me feel all warm n fuzzy to see it. i'm really happy we're all so excited and united in this.

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #this was also why purg2 was great for me specifically #like goddamn was that such a chance for me (and others) to meet streamers in an accessible setting #i only really speak english and half french so this was the first time i actually got to watch any aldo and understand more than every like #tenth word out of his mouth lmfao i get SO LOST #also was extremely fun bc goddamn for a while i rly thought i just Did Not Understand French #bc hearing the qsmp french speakers i'm like. damn. i'm lost. i get lost after like a sentence or two idk i'm so bad at understanding them #but dude holy shit i had kenny on while i did work fully like 5 ft from my phone and i was FOLLOWING #I WAS KEEPING UP???? LIKE THAT WAS INSANE so shoutout kenny for speaking french i can understand i rly appreciate the confidence boost #anyway i hope hope hope to see new members soon yesyes #be it purg2 returners (i have my wishlist but the wishlist does have Everyone soooo i win) or a new language!!! OR MULTIPLE 🙏 WOULD BE NEAT #i have said before that i think it would be fun if they drop two+ languages in at the same time #have the new languages work together to do puzzles and get used to the translations before dropping the full force of like #20-30 odd streamers who are unbelievably loud and extremely excited to meet them #would mayyyybe mitigate some of the french arrival where everyone DESCENDED on them and it was SO LOUD lmfao #anyway i will now sleep it just makes me happy to see everytime i see it #i'm excited to meet (hypothetical) everyone too <3

[r0semultiverse]

You know what feature we need to bother staff for next? Other people’s posts getting flagged as counting towards “strikes” on our blogs.

#like I am so serious tumblr staff look at me #one: we can’t even see how many strikes any of our blogs have; side or main #two: this is as ridiculous as teachers not giving the class recess just because one dude misbehaved; it’s group blaming & unnecessary #three: we can’t delete flagged posts on tumblr mobile at least on older versions idk how newer versions are #you set it up so it’s nearly impossible to keep your blog from not getting shadow banned #saying as someone who was previously flagged due to posts being retroactively flagged from the content ban of around 2016 #this ‘feature’ literally makes no sense; why are we at fault for reblogging anything; we aren’t OP #why should flags on another blog affect everyone else?? it’s stupid #please fix this tumblr staff #this is without tackling all the issues with marginalized folks being flagged more I’m trying to make an appeal to the people in charge :/ #mine #op #tumblr #tumblr mobile #tumblr staff #tumblr glitch

[warriorfujoshi]

please see my vision

bonus: Heathcliff smile collection

#limbus company #heathcliff #dante #my art #i shouldve made Don speak more donlike but I just had to get this out there #I saw a post on twitter that talked about how like #maybe the reason why heathcliffs temper is so bad is because everything he hears goes through like #the filter of his inferiority complex #even if someone said smth nice to him he might get defensive about it #coughing bc I feel like dante is equally likely to be nice to him or to just keep teasing him back #yaoi … #what you don’t see in this comic is Dante probably thought for a long time about heathcliffs good points #how hes strong and smarter than he looks and how shockingly often he stands up for them #his strong sense of justice… #but they probably thought it’d be best not to say something like that. #one of dantes other things is theyre surprisingly… frivolous? in some ways. idk how to say it #like when they get called inhuman they basically just shrug it off #I feel like thinking deeply about heathcliffs strong points and then ultimately choosing to say something surface level is very dante. #and of course heathcliff thinks they’re fucking around. #sorry I put a lot of thought into the characterisation in this joke comic UAOHSOSI I need these two to have deeper interactions fr #yea. i dont self insert as dante im genuinely haunted by visions for this ship and idek why #they probably picked smth silly partially out of being hesitant to genuinely say something partially out of genuinely liking his smile #(it IS very cute. when you get to see it its like woah #heathcliff I didn’t know you could smile so brightly…) #and partially out of wanting to see how he’d react to (totally not flirting) being complimented on his appearance #opening up Dante’s brain to analyse their character I like them a normal amount #and… I really want there to be a moment between them where Dante genuinely speaks encouragingly to heathcliff #the same way they do to sinclair #I think heathcliff needs that too #and… it’d be cute to see him a little flustered.

[gideonisms]

this job has so far been extremely uneventful which also freaks me out because I'm like. What's the catch when is it going to start attacking me

#maybe the catch is i get up at 3:45 am drive half an hour and sort mail and lift boxes all day #idk i keep expecting someone to start harrassing me or yelling or having a medical emergency or an active shooter to break in #like i'm just waiting for it to activate my fight or flight but it's not yet and THAT'S activating my fight or flight #idk why i'm acting like some type of scared Creature like a shivering rodent or something #anyway. i'm waiting for the therapist office to start making calls back in January so until then y'all get to just overhear this #two days into this job and i have not cried on my way home! low bar but previous jobs have not passed it