#if this is incoherent i’m so sorry

[h2o2-and-baking-soda]

not to go back down my annual hxh rabbit hole but the zoldyck siblings fuck me up sm like the entire family’s fucked up because of the parents and grandparents and the siblings are just going with what they know.

like illumi is only able to love in the way he does because it’s what he was taught and he’s in it too deep, so the only thing he knows is to control and possess and keep things for himself. is he aware of this being the wrong way to love? does he care?

milluki is the way he is because the parents probably saw where they went wrong with illumi and tried to fix it but now they have a son who’s simultaneously dependent and murderous and has found his own niche interests in things that he can collect and love, but is unable to really love him back.

then killua. who was the first to actually leave and see that there is real love out there, that it’s attainable for him not just for his usefulness for the family but also for his own self, but then fell too hard and figured out that when the sun is too bright it can hurt you too.

then alluka, who’s loved and hated for her ability/self and only knew love from one source but that love was good and so technically she’s okay but she’s really also not at all okay.

and finally kalluto, who was so overlooked and saw killua leave and so followed his footsteps and made his own family of thieves and murderers out of his own free will.

idk how to end this but >:((

#if this is incoherent i’m so sorry #i’ve just been thinking about illumi being the de facto older sibling for all of them #and it made me really sad #illumi zoldyck #milluki zoldyck #killua #killua zoldyck #kalluto zoldyck #hxh kalluto #alluka zoldyck #zoldyck family #hxh #hunter x hunter

[carissime]

Literally no thoughts just Gojo after your wedding carrying you over the threshold of your hotel room. You’re not leaving for your honeymoon until the morning but he nearly trips on the doorframe in his haste.

“You really don’t need to carry me—”

“But it’s tradition, we need to consummate the marriage!” he insists. Within seconds his lips are against yours and he’s fumbling with the light switch, and you finally swat his hand away and just beg him to take you to the bed.

He works the zipper of your dress down, part of him sad that he’s not going to see you in this gorgeous gown again, but then it reveals your white lace lingerie and the groan he lets out is broken and guttural and desperate.

This is far from the first time he’s seen you like this, but there’s something about this moment here and now that makes it so much more intense, so much more intimate and he just never wants to let you go.

“Satoru,” you whisper, and his breath hitches.

He leans down to capture your lips in a kiss. “Shh, I know. Just lemme take care of you, like I promised.”

And when he sees the gold band on his fourth finger pressing into the skin of your hips as he sheaths himself inside of you, he nearly loses himself, sending up a prayer to whatever gods are listening that he can keep his promise to keep you safe and happy forever.

#I’m so drunk rn I’m sorry if this is incoherent #I just came home from a wedding and am feeling so sappy #also I have to be up tomorrow at 6am for work #can’t wait to be hungover 🫶🏼 #anyway marrying Gojo would be amazing #I love him and I just wanna kiss him and hold him and let him know how special he is #oh god I’m gonna be so embarrassed and might delete this when I wake up #so revel in it now I guess? #idk it’s probably not good lol #gojo x reader #Gojo Satoru x reader #gojo x reader fluff #Gojo x reader smut #Gojo Satoru x reader smut #jjk smut #gojo smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen #Gojo Satoru #jujutsu kaisen x reader

[the-crimson]

I am just - I am in love with the misdirect of Acceptance on Bad’s stream. Going into it we were all wondering if he was gonna accept the marriage proposal, that the eggs were gone for good, the he would take the happy pills… but no.

(About the character not the cc obviously :D)

Bad has been so incredibly restrained his entire life on the qsmp. Even in his moments of pure calculated rage he restrained his cruelty. He jokes about torturing and murdering people but he’s only gone through with it twice and neither were fueled by cruelty but pure practicality.

When torturing Foolish, he just wanted answers and he knew Foolish well enough that it wouldn’t actually effect him long term. When killing ElQuackity, he and Max were not frivolous but wanted to kill him as quickly as possible. It was practical and for the greater good, not personal pleasure.

Bad is cruel. He knows the depths of his cruelty so intimately that it terrifies him. He has to keep himself on such a tight leash that any slip could be devastating and irreversible.

We saw a glimpse of it when Bad blew up Quackity’s temple. The pleasure of seeing someone in pain. The pleasure of hearing the fear in their voice. The high of making someone else feel helpless.

Today, Bad accepted that in order to find his children and nieces/nephews he has to embrace a part of himself he’s been suppressing for so long. He accepted that he’d have to revert to a version of himself that would terrify his children and the other eggs and probably make some of them hate him.

Torturing an innocent - probably indentured - worker for information they would have no way of knowing.

Bad is embracing a part of himself that he had locked away so far down inside him that most people would never imagine he’d be capable of such a thing but as Bad walks erratically through his house, slowly lighting up the room as the worker stands there trapped and terrified. There is a deliberateness to the way he uses soul torches, a weak light source, to slowly light up the room before stepping into darkness again, placing the last torch at his feet to illuminate himself from below. The cold determination in his voice. Still restrained. Still calculated. But oh so much darker and you can feel the cruelty he is about to unleash oozing out of every word as he speaks

“Let’s try again. Where is my son?”

#qsmp #crimson speaks #sorry if this is incoherent #I’m going insane #lol #todays lord has been the biggest feast ever #everyone brought their A game #so good

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

so… i met miles last night 😭😭

i’m still trying to formulate the words to express how special it was to meet him and how unbelievably lovely he was. i mean, i obviously already knew how lovely he is - but getting to experience it in person is truly something else altogether. he just absolutely radiates good vibes and warmth and truly feels like sunshine in human form ☀️ i also loved that because i tend to be on the quieter side in these situations (after telling him how amazing the show was my brain went pretty blank lol), he actually asked me questions about what songs i’d most enjoyed etc and really engaged with me and also gave me the LOVELIEST hug 🥹

if possible, meeting him has only made me adore and respect him even more than i already did (truly quite an impressive feat), and i just feel so unbelievably grateful to have got to witness the smile on his face when i told him how much i’d loved the show 💖

#sorry this is probably incoherent because i am still absolutely GIDDY 😭😭 #also i’m going to share details/photos/videos of the show later because oh my godddddd #it was absolutely AMAZING 🤩 #SO much happened #but i need a little more energy to sift through all my photos and also type up a remotely coherent version of events lol #aghhhhhhhh #AHHHHHHH #i have lost all capacity for words #i literally can’t remember the last time i was so ridiculously happy 🥹 #miles kane #omb tour #mk glasgow 2024 #my show #lulu posts

[jerseymuppet]

There’s something about the way people say mcr was fated to happen that makes me go insane, because it’s real. before mcr they kept passing each other by, over and over and over again. It was mikey trying to join franks band, and ray and gerard being in a different band together before mcr. It’s the fact ray was mikeys friend before he ever even met gerard. it was frank being in the underground punk scene and never once hearing about any of the bands the others were in until mcr. There were so many missed connections, so many times they could have stumbled into each other’s lives. But it had to be then. It was four kids so desperate to make something in the wake of tragedy, reaching out shaking hands in a begging plea of you’re not in this alone, let me break this awkward silence. It was creating something so beautiful and blinding in its earnesty that it pulled in everyone around them like gravity. Everything fell into place, everything worked out against the odds. And continued to. Mcr was written in the stars I think, but even if it wasn’t I’m pretty sure they would’ve come together anyway. Stars don’t mean anything to a black hole, and that’s exactly what mcr is.

#I’m sorry I feel so emotional about my boys I’m incoherent sorry sorry #mcr #my chemical romance #my chem #jude.txt

[pinkwindowwithin]

do you have a timelapse or art process vid up somewhere to watch?

if not uhh- what's your drawing process? qwq

your line art specifically I find very cool and I want to understand how you do it :')

SO. I wrote up a really long response to this that tumblr decided to delete when I tried to post and I didn’t have any of it saved SOOO. If this comes off as rambly or incoherent I’m very sorry I tried 😭 ALSO THIS IS JUST HOW I DO IT, NOT HOW I THINK EVERYONE SHOULD DO IT!!! Do ur lineart in whatever way feels right and makes you happy!

I do most of my stuff in Autodesk Sketchbook, which unfortunately doesn’t have an automatic recording feature (and the recording option it does have is kinda clunky and distracting 💔) BUT. PROCREATE DOES, SO WE HAVE THIS

I focus more on the gesture and the shapes than trying to make it look “good”. Truly it’s a “going with the vibes situation”, because I tend to switch things up quite a bit when drawing (although that isn’t really shown here 💔). If there is a movement or particular shape in the sketch, I will try to capture its essence as much as I can (this doesn’t mean sticking close to the sketch, just means I’m trying to capture the general vibe or the line of action and trying to remain faithful to it)!! My favorite part of the process, and the part I focus on the most, is coloring so my lineart is really tailored to make coloring easier for me, so there’s not a lot of details or crosshatching or anything of that nature… I’m really just blocking stuff out to make coloring easier hehe

#SORRY IF THIS IS INCOHERENT WAA #i have a hard time explaining how my process works #because idk even know what I’m doing most of the time #I’m really just doing whatever is fun and feels good in the moment so #take that as u will #tips fedora #thank u for the ask ahehe #my art #asks

[sejjiplinth]

sejanus dying in the districts and marcus dying in the capitol. both of their executions and corpses being put on display after being tortured, both fatalized by their throats, all for trying to escape the capitol and the hunger games.

sejanus, who is willing to die for what he believes in—for the people who have suffered, who is willing to become a martyr and stands his ground, but still cries for his mother when he dies. and marcus, who accepts that he’s going to die after being reaped, who refuses to eat and turns a cold shoulder to any kind of help, but still runs from death as soon as he gets the chance to be free.

#we love you death parallels #i could add more onto this but!!!! another time <3 #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #sejanus plinth #marcus tbosas #sorry if this is incoherent i’m sleepy and thinking of them as always forgive me #if you need me i’ll be going on a walk/going insane #they’re so #i always think of the red string theory when i think of this relationship like #they were always meant to meet again #sejarcus

[housepilled]

sorry for the horrible screenshot but this line (said by house, directed at wilson, from 5x17) got me thinking about their dynamics psychologically!! (i mean, when am i not. they’re a psych student’s wet dream. but specifically in the context of carl jung’s archetypes because i had to do a presentation on this and i think it’s really interesting)

house is right — wilson’s all persona. he doesn’t have a developed sense of self; he’s built his entire life on being what other people need and now he can’t differentiate between his persona and his real personality. (high masking autistic <33) house is the only time he reveals his shadow, the side of himself he hides from the world. he’s snarky and honest and he drops the façade of a perfect kind person to tell the truth in all its ugliness to house. (he still performs a bit for house because like i said no concrete sense of self but i digress.) house is the one time he allows himself to better realize his self and indulge in his shadow.

but house is being a little hypocritical. he’s all persona too! on the surface, he seems like he’s the archetype of the shadow. he’s abrasive, rude, pushes people away. he’s animalistic, like a snarling dog snapping out at anyone who gets too close. but that in itself is a persona!! he puts up a front of rudeness to keep people at arms length because in his childhood, when our core personality traits are developed, he learned that he got hurt less that way. in reality, his shadow is most people’s persona; he is capable of empathy and kindness but he’s scared of vulnerability so he hides it. it’s easier if he can control how people leave him. but wilson’s the only time he consistently presents this kindness, and this episode (the social contract) is such a good example of it! he takes care of wilson and he’s sweet by all accounts and he doesn’t fear that wilson will hurt him for it. (just like wilson, he still performs his persona somewhat for his friend because just like wilson he is like 31 different kinds of fucked up and his persona, just like wilson’s, is a defense mechanism to make sure people don’t hurt him. wilson makes sure no one can hurt him by being exactly what they want. house makes sure no one can hurt him by pushing them away before he gets “close enough to care”. this is in quotations because it’s not an effective defense for either — again, 31 kinds of fucked up — but it’s their defenses nonetheless)

they’re each other’s inverse; wilson’s shadow is house’s persona, house’s persona is wilson’s shadow. (this isn’t to imply there isn’t some kernel of truth to each of their personas. house is not always a very nice person and he’s not always empathetic. wilson’s a kind and caring person. they have just exaggerated these traits to their extremes.) together, they can truly achieve unification of their persona and shadow and be the fully realized self but they are the only people that can do this for each other. they are like next level toxic yaoi dude

#sorry for the incoherence i have like one brain cell left rattling around in my head so idek what i’m saying #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #analysis #meta #carl jung

[kaseyskat]

sick as hell thinking about how normal assumed that the reason he feels unloved is because his dad has always blamed him a little bit for the falling out of his own family and that it’s always been normals fault so no wonder his dad isn’t proud of him. except sparrow already told normal the reason he said he wasn’t proud he said it was because he was just so worried for normals happiness and future it twisted into a negative thing we literally already know this. thinking about how sparrow tells little normal that one day normal is never going to forgive him for what he’s done nor does sparrow think he should and thinking about how sparrow says normal is too kind for their world and that’s why he’s so worried, because the world is mean and normal is kind and one day it’s going to destroy him. it has destroyed him. do you think sparrow knows that if normal had found out the truth in any other way he might’ve forgiven his dad for it? do you think that’s what sparrow was so afraid of, why sparrow held himself at an arms distance? what would be worse? the son that you doomed a world for finding out about you and hating you just as you knew he would, or the son that you kept at a distance finding out and forgiving you for it forcing you to confront the fact that maybe you aren’t the irredeemable monster you think you are and maybe that your parents were wrong? what would be worse? would it be easier to just never let yourself truly bond to your son not because you blame him for anything but because you loved him enough to doom a world for him and you’ve been told that was the wrong decision and now you don’t know what to do with yourself? and now your son doesn’t think you like him and he’s wrong you love him so much you tried so hard to protect him from this. and you never get the chance to tell him as much because the actual monster of the story stole your face. what would you do in that scenario? i don’t know.

#dndads #kasey rambles #this is incoherent i’m so sorry #i am so sick i have covid again i just also #love them. #sparrow oak garcia #normal oak #i think if they got the chance to talk they’d be okay #it’s just. sparrow projecting onto normal so badly #he’s so afraid normal will make the same choices sparrow did and be ostracized for them #it makes me so sick i need them to talk so bad

[vldsideblog]

Thinking about Keith being a martyr again. Most of his life he relied completely on himself, and when he found people that cared about him he lost them. With Shiro he found a brother, but Shiro kept disappearing, and then he came back different. Almost like a different person.

Keith was alone in the Blade, he thought Voltron didn’t need him. And if no one needed him no one could possibly want him around. He’s a tool in his own mind. A defender, a fighter. He does what he needs to in order to keep the war efforts alive, and doesn’t regard himself as anything more than a piece on a chessboard.

So he risks his life when he doesn’t have to. He trains excessively. He doesn’t try to make friends, cause to him this isn’t something that’s going to last. If any of them survive he’s just going to go back to his shack, maybe spend some time with Shiro or Adam if they all live through this. But ultimately, Keith doesn’t think he’s going to survive the war, and he can’t think of a brighter future than dying on the battlefield.

Naxzela should’ve been a wake up call, something to remind him that he is still alive. But no one ever brought it up.

He’s been a martyr since the beginning. And I think about that a lot

#sorry if this is incoherent #i’m just rambling #Keith’s martyr complex is something that can be so personal #vld #keith kogane #voltron #voltron legendary defender #keith voltron #keith headcanon #character headcanons #hcs #broganes #autistic keith #galra keith #martyr complex #naxzela #tw self sacrifice

[lettertoanoldpoet]

you could absolutely break my heart that's how i know that we're in love i don't need the symbol of a scar so put down the knife, we're not swappin' blood isn't it enough that we stripped down to our skin? cold and porcelain like bathers in a painting and i told you of your past lives, every man you've ever been itwasn't flattering, but you listened like it mattered i feel crazy in ways i’d never say will you still love me if it turns out i'm insane? i know what you'll say, but it helps to hear you say it anyway some october in the future, i'll run out of trash tv and i'll be feeling lonely, so i'll walk to karaoke sing the song you wrote about me, never once checking the words i hope that no one sings along, i hope that i am not a regular damn that makes me sad, it doesn't have to be like that if you rewrite your life, may i still play a part? in the next one will you find me? i’ll be the boy with the pink carnation pinned to my lapel who looks like hell and asks for help and if you do, i’ll know it's you i can't imagine you without the same smile in your eyes there is something about you that i will always recognize and if you don't remember, i will try to remind you of the hummingbirds you know the ones (i know the ones) and the baby scorpion and the winter lunar halo and the walk we took in the redwoods i could go on and on and on and i will go on and on and on until it all comes back. btw. if anyone cares

#i have brain damage #every single line of this song is just. it’s so special #i’m exhausted and wish i had something more substantial to say but alas. this is all. #also sorry for incoherent punctuation

[thormanick]

Just now realized that the first meeting of Kaveh and Alhaitham is mirrored by their tavern conversation, I. Am Not. Okay-

#took me. what. one and a half years. to see it #oh my god. oh. my. god. #I can’t I can’t with them I’m gonna cry #they approached each other during their loneliest moments (or what they perceived to be the loneliest moments of each other) I aM NOT OKAY #these two do things to me. tHEY DO THIGS TO ME PSYCHOLOGICALLY #I’m sorry it’s 2 a.m. and this is. this is a Big Thought for me that seems so obvious in hindsight now but I never had it before #oh these two. do not separate. they go together as a package deal. oh my god- #*incoherent rambling continues* #genshin impact #afinna explores teyvat #genshin impact thoughts #genshin impact sumeru #genshin impact kaveh #genshin impact alhaitham #kavetham #alhaitham x kaveh

[meggie-moo]

happy davekat week!! :) first prompt is canon 🕺

#this is very rushed 😭😭 i’m so busy now so they will all be doodles sorry in advanced #i forgot kanayas hand :( #davekat #davekat week #davekat week 2023 #homestuck #meg’s incoherent thoughts #meg’s more coherent drawings #dave strider #karkat vantas

[redscrawl]

Chanoey (Friends) and Macdennis (isasip) are two sides of the same demented coin for queer neurodivergent 90s/2000’s sitcom enjoyers

#this is incoherent i’m so sorry #i don’t even like friends but i grew up watching it so Chanoey 4ever #only original content i’ve had for a while #this came out of the rotten tomato i call my brain #friends #chanoey #chandler bing #chandler x joey #joey tribbiani #iasip dennis #iasip #macdennis #mac x dennis #dennis reynolds

[shsl-roomba]

the dr fandom cant handle wlw ships in any other context than background fluff with no depth

i like sakuraoi and tsumioda ect but they always get woobified and mellowed out like did they SEE 1-4??? aoi did not pull all that to get sidelined as a supportive background lesbian in your ishimondo fanfic

and don’t get me wrong. my girls need a break sometimes fluff is great i don’t have a problem with it. but it’s the constant sidelining of wlw ships in favour of het/mlm ships in pretty much any fandom that gets to me.

and how wlw ships are only acceptable in the community when they don’t have any dysfunction or toxicity, and if the ship does have even the slightest hint of the above qualities it is either mellowed out to the point of being unrecognisable or dumped on with thinly veiled misogyny and homophobia and when i say slightest hint i mean the literally slightest hint. like the girls will argue once and the fandom will label the ship toxic while shipping. fucking kuzupeko or something.

wlw ships are seen almost entirely as a way to get female characters out of the way of mlm ships. in het ships the female character is a tool to develop the male character. they show significantly less depth and probably dies to forward the male character’s development (sound familiar?)

in any situation female characters are characterised by their relations to male characters. a female character’s (usually romantic, or at least interpreted as such) relationship with a male character is their defining characteristic. if said female character is in a wlw relationship they are reduced to their most basic traits while male characters are explored and given depth, and exist in the story only to offer support to the male characters.

i haven’t even mentioned how female characters must be in a relationship to be even remotely relevant in a story, but that’s a rant for another time.

grrah the way that female characters mirrors how wlw ships are treated by the community, and that characters/ships that aren’t completely perfect and deemed acceptable by the community are dumped on by the larger dr community while worse ships or characters are welcomed because they happen to contain a male character is gonna be my 13th reason istg.

anyways this rant is getting long but in summary danganronpa fans hate women and they hate wlw relationships that they can’t jerk off to.

#apple chat #danganronpa #sdr2 #thh #ndrv3 #this post is incoherent i know i know #also as an add on #leaving this in the tags because my post is about female characters and wlw relationships exclusively #and what im going to say affects mlm relationships as well #but the despite the amount of queer fans a lot of the dr community esp the ones on reddit view heterosexuality as the “default” #and dump on queer ships simply because they happen to be queer #the dr community’s constant complaining about its queer fans drives me up a wall #yes a lot of them are annoying and i also hate the annoying komahina saiouma shippers who hate anything that isn’t pale twink yaoi BUT #we can dump on annoying dr fans and ships we don’t like without bringing up sexuality i believe in you guys❤️ #oh no the poor straights the shippers made their favourite characters gay💔 damn those homos ruining everything #is what you guys genuinely sound like sometimes #the tone deafness in this community #one day i will round up every dr redditor and set them on fire #I’m so sorry you had to see gay people on your dash as repayment you get one f slur pass use it wisely #i will shit on dr community again another day for now goodbye🫡 #psst btw i have no beef with kmhn and (most) of its fans but a bunch are Like That so yeah #on the other hand fuck saiouma all my homies hate saiouma (well *I* don’t like it but good for you besties) #ok this is getting long enough BYEEE #homophobia tw #misogyny tw

[luminouslotuses]

watched the video and. i have thoughts

the most glaring issue i noticed right off the bat was how he went through various controversies from the past first. clearly he’s doing this to make sure everyone knows what his intentions are, which– sure, would’ve been good after each issue had happened 1-2 years ago, but it’s just that this is completely irrelevant to the allegations. that’s what everyone is here for and wants his actual response to, which he knows, but he pulls this shit anyway; and he still acts self-righteous while going through them.

i’m not a liar– here’s some instances of me lying about things i’ve done in the past. this was a very good and detailed video, but he’s highly critical of me. i do not support nsfw art of minors, that’s disgusting (but it’s fine to make sexual jokes about minors in my own minecraft server!). i can’t post any photos without people saying i’m gross or weird!

the “examples” of fan & friend relationships that are shown in a following segment also bothered me. why would you bring these people, who– despite you being on good terms with in the past have clearly distanced themselves from you recently– into this dumpster fire of a situation?? again, dream with this recurring theme of constantly bringing up people he used to be friends with as either an attempt to garner sympathy or to make himself look better.

when he gets to the allegations, i feel like he’s taking a roundabout way to actually address them. at one part he says how it’s difficult to prove what actually happened without there being evidence, then gives an example saying “prove to me you didn’t sext [insert anybody here]”. thirty minutes into the video and he’s still managing to somehow sidetrack from the matter at hand, even if just for a moment.

then there’s the segment where he’s talking with his mom about him barely leaving his house between 2021 and his face reveal, which lasts for a minute and half. you’re not missing anything if it’s simply summarized as such: he rarely left his house. maybe, for the sake of clarity, he could provide a few examples and move on, but nope. he had to stretch it out for as long as he possibly could; and not to mention how despite the video being “SERIOUS” and “NOT A JOKE” he’s chuckling and laughing with his mother, which feels like such tonal whiplash compared to the heavy topics that are (and should be) being discussed.

i. don’t even want to get into the cantu situation too much or it’ll give me a headache but i do have a couple things to say. overall both dream and cantu aren’t good people and while it’s shown more clearly by cantu in this specific instance, it’s obvious by now that dream’s not a good person either. the other thing is that the editing in the video is very poppy and unserious, which– god, AGAIN, this video is supposed to be about serious topics! being discussed in a serious manner! and this is literally the opposite of that.

all in all it’s good to finally hear what he has to say that’s not in a rushed, emotionally-driven or standoffish tweet. and, yes, no original evidence was concrete. yes, dream might not be a groomer. but it’s fucking pathetic it took him this long to make a clear response. he’s not trustworthy, he should definitely not have the platform that he has, and his reputation is irreversibly damaged from this. there’s no going back now.

#i’m sorry this was so incoherent and messy ugh but i had to get my feelings out there #i think i’ve made it clear before but if you support dream. get the fuck out of my blog #dream situation #discourse