#it was agony

[yosh-iro]

playing modded terraria again and i just got an auto fish mod cuz i think between my vanilla getfixedboi playthrough and my other playthroughs ive manually fished enough :|

#literally my gfb character has almost 100 hours and about 10% of that is just from me fishing #it was agony #probably more than 10% ngl #terraria #yoshi talk

[hollow-jack]

playing overwatch is so much fun! i hate it

#overwatch 2 #overwatch #it's just because im in comp and i cant rank in tank because i keep losing #i play a mean tank but like.. yk #team game #i dont have enough friends who play this game as consistently as me #solo/duo queuing in comp sucks ASS #you get so many mediocre dps/supports #i had a mercy once who had 1k damage in round one #it was agony #suffering as ramattra has

[mysticeyeliner]

Hands of Gods- Throne of Glass Art

[ID: A set of twelve paintings of hands. Each hand is a mix of normal skin, and a glowing, streaked single color reminescent of magic. They appear to be part human, part ethereal, and represent various gods. Some have transluscent tendrils of magic winding around fingers.

1 (dark blue) Neith, Archer Goddess;  2 (orange) Lumas, God of Light, 3 (Red) Farnor, God of War, 4 (blue-green) Tehome, Sea-God, 5 (bronze, three hands) The Three Faced Goddess, 6 (Green) Temis, Goddess of Wild Things, 7 (blue) the Sin-Eater, God of Truth, 8 (gold) Mala, the Fire-Bringer, 9 (silver) Deanna, the Moon Goddess, 10 (violet) Anneith, Goddess of Wise Things, 11 (black) Hellas, God of Death, 12 (lavender) Silba, Goddess of Healing.]

#hand art #my art #hands #watercolor #colored pencil #marker #throne of glass #throne of glass gods #book-inspired #These are in reverse order of how i made them #I drew the first one when leaving for a week without paint #it was agony #i'm too tired to write out all of their inspirations #but i loved making them #big text tw

[lemonlurkrr]

hyperfixation sucks I think just a little too hard about a guy who isn't even real and I could start crying any second

#lemonspeakrr #AGONY #I WANT OUT!! #but also aha heeh hee teehee look they are my mental barbies I can make them kiss in my mind #agony

[bugsinthebayou]

rejoice! wolfwood's big naturals be upon ye!!

#captains orders #original post was: #[guy who hasnt drawn in a few weeks voice] yeah the world is horrible and life is agony

[eebie]

agony

#agony

[sno-ro]

Me, my boyfriend, and his 4ft sentient crow tail

A little warm up of Bella and Scullcrow before I begin the art grind again

#I couldn't draw for 3 weeks because of losing my pen charger then going on holiday #It was agony #original character #my art #digital art #They are in love :) #oc art

[devilcatdarling]

There is truly no greater love than taking your most adored fictional character and throwing them into the emotionally-devastating angst fueled trash compactor and pressing every single button on the machine just to see what will happen

#hollow knight #hollow my beloved #hmm yes I'm drawing pain and agony tonight #night rambles #night causes pain #night causes suffering #Feel free to apply to ur own blorbos #all blorbos must suffer :D

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[sketchy-scribs-n-doods]

the four horsemen of Queer Agony

#can you believe all four of these are canon and two of them have kissed. can you. #hannibal #supernatural #our flag means death #ofmd #nbc hannibal #good omens #good omens 2 #spn #good omens season 2 #good omens s2 #good omens spoilers #anyway. complex queer tragedy era go brrrrr #i mean ik that castiel got sent to superhell but bear with me #destiel #ineffable husbands #hannigram #blackbonnet #im also so incredibly unwell about the 'i forgive you' hannigram and aziracrow parallel i truly am #four horsemen of queer agony

[metamorphesque]

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

#in thousand of agonies i exist #quotes #literature #classic literature #fyodor dostoevsky #the brothers karamazov #russian literature #russian classics

[rathayibacter]

guess who made a wargame with thirteen thousand seven hundred and ninety-nine unit statblocks

#ttrpgs #:) #<- smile of unimaginable agony

[violetrains]

Instead of telling men to repress their emotions to appear stronger we should encourage them to sing incredibly dramatic ballads to process their emotions like in fictional movies. Maybe the world would heal faster. And also it would be very funny.

These are my personal favorites.

#frozen #frozen 2 #kristoff #tangled the series #flynn rider #eugene fitzherbert #tangled #into the woods #barbie movie #barbie 2023 #ken #i'm just ken #i'm kenough #the little mermaid #the little mermaid live action #prince eric #wild uncharted waters #agony #lost in the woods #high school musical #high school musical 2 #troy bolton #bet on it

[soranker]

HAPPY DUNMESHI DAY!!!!!!!!!!!

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #ERM sorry too lazy to tag all of them #me lying thru my teeth tho. the show hasnt dropped for me yet. #im pulling my hair out in agony waiting. HELLP

[i-am-the-rat-king]

So I lost my glasses on Monday, yeah?

And I don't have backups, yeah?

And I need to get my perscription redone anyway, yeah?

So I spent today calling clinics to try and find a place that will give me an exam, which I can't get. Everyone is several weeks out.

So I go to this place to get same day glasses, yeah?

Turns out eye prescriptions can go "expired" and be illegal to fill. Which is bullshit.

So I had to call my normal clinic and ask for my old prescription to be extended so that I can see and do my job, and yaknow, go to my work even in a few weeks.

It took an hour for them to fucking extend that. An hour! It tool half that to actually make my glasses!

I'm so tired

#personal #ughhhhhhh #it was agony #i almost started crying in the place that was gonna make my glasses

[luagi-the-bestest]

saw the word clap, it was in a normal sentence but i suddenly got fucking drop kicked by my brain bringing up the clown post… you know the one

#why #it was agony #i started gagging #and geniunely threw up #im not kidding #slapped me like a slipper