#it's been a Long Ass day

[witheringgflower]

being aroace and a hopeless romantic feels like an infinite cycle of unmet expectations and withering dreams.

i think the hardest part of accepting that i wasn't only ace but also aro was precisely burying the life i dreamt for me. burying that one dream that, at some point, i might find someone to love... romantically speaking. being aroace has taught me just why i always take friendship breakups so hard. why i always feel neglected within my friendships because i always put them first, but i will always come second because romantic partners will always come first. and don't get me wrong: i am beyond ecstatic that my friends, slowly, have come to find people that cherish them just like they deserve to be. i am truly, genuinely, so excited to see my friends being loved like that.

it's just also terribly lonely. because i know that's a love i won't ever experience. even if i dreamt at some point of getting married or just have someone i can rely on like that, it's just not happening. and grieving those experiences have exhausted me in many ways—ways that i cannot tell my friends because, even if they tried to understand, they can't. they can only see that i avoid relationships and dates like the plague. that i find comfort in fictional characters, and books, and videogames, and music, but never, ever, on a significant someone.

one of my best friends said to me, while on the subject of visual novels and otome games, that i didn't feel the need to look for a boyfriend because these pixels, these games, satisfied all of my emotional needs. maybe she was right. i haven't played an otome game in almost a year, but maybe she was onto something. we were both fresh out of highschool when she said that. maybe they did satisfy my needs for romance or whatever it is. maybe they also made me feel lonelier. maybe that's why i daydream so much of being in a world that is not this one—a world where someone loves me, and i love them, and maybe, if timing is right, i would love them so much that bringing a kid into this world wouldn't seem so much like a nightmare and more like the right choice. ♡

#dark academia #literature #natsu's rambling #aroace #asexual #aromantic #sorry for the rant #it's been a long ass day

[a-smol-gayologist]

My dogs (and Griffin!) may drive me insane at times but I am so glad to have them in life. Sometimes they make me want to put my head through a wall and other times… they're the sole things that make life worth living.

#It's been a long ass day #I'm so glad I brought Kimbo and Kenji with me to work #Working a double is hard enough but when the first 6.5hrs was done alone? #My dogs #Dogs are life #My cat #Griffin #Kimbo #Kenji #Rescue dog #husky mix #german shepherd mix #sato #Shiba Inu #Dogs #Cats #Mine #Personal #Tripod #Tripawd

[rendevok]

Bite me <3

#im not saying he said this. but it FEELS like he said this. #guy who is soooooooo getting what he wants rn #narumitsu #wrightworth #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #vampire nrmts owns my entire ass. there will be more /threat #its MY art and i say they’re BOTH vampires #wrightworth? more like frightworth ahahaha #or maybe even biteworth #narumitsu but naru-bit-u #ahahahahahhhahhahahahaa😳😳😳😳 #anyway sorry this took me so long to post but it’s friday the 13th and it’s been the best day ever so have a treat on me #also this was not INTENDED to be the server icon but it will be until halloween lol #if i dont have people biting me in the notes whats the point #fan art #aa #rendevok

[clownsuu]

I hope you feel better soon (if ur sick and like perishing like an old man or sumn)

Or whatever is going on turns out A-Okay!

Or you recover from art block death chamber 36

I give you this as a "get well soon" card but I forgot to write get well soon

LMAO Thank you gamer this really means a lot to me!

#It's a little bit of everything ngl #And really big major changes happening all of a sudden without being able to really mentally process it- #It's really hard to sleep at night man I kept waking up like every 15 minutes- #It's just been- really fuggin hard the past like 3-4 days #Thankfully I'm safe and somewhat well! I hope nobody has to experience the shid I'm goin through #I hope later I can somewhat recover mentally but that's probably gunna be a long while #Iv never done well under change- #But anyway AWE THIS IS SUPER CUTE;;;; #I love everything in this- from lovelie absolutely tossing Robbie's ass #To Stone being an actual stone BBDNDND #CUUUUUTE!!

[svtskneecaps]

lukewarm take of the evening: y'all care too much about being ""outdated"". fellas this smp moves inhumanly fast. it is ok to CHILL holy shit CHILL. y'all are like "(posts BANGER ART) super late guys sorry" friend i am hitting you with a blanket i am snapping you with my metaphorical towel WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY. "(posts BANGER FIC) rip this is outdated now" WHO CARES???? I LOVE YOU, OK. ohhhh woe is us as the fandom at large for having MORE HAPPY PILLS ARC CONTENT oh no how outdated!! how could you be writing speculative fiction about how forever felt during happy pills :( slash SARCASM!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY BANGER ARCS, WHAT, YOU THINK WE'RE COMPLAINING????? FOR GETTING MORE OF THE CONTENT WE LOVED????? oh no we're past the period where everyone thought green gay ninjas were like Dead Dead, my work is now outdated and noncanon :( WDYM. GIMME. A BANGER IS A BANGER IDC IF IT TAKES THREE MONTHS. you think rome was built in a day?? fuck you, baltimore, GIMME. my ass has been cooking a goddamn backflipo family fic since july when it was ALREADY outdated do you think i fear god??? "oh no, you're making an edit of slime's (attempted) egg murdering spree?? how could you, that was months ago it's irrelevant" SAID NO ONE EVER.

save your wrists kidlings ok carpal tunnel is no joke. CHILL!!!!! CHILL!!!!!!!! TAKE YOUR TIME SHEEEEEESH OK LOVE YOU <3

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #IT IS OK TO NOT ALWAYS POST SHIT THIRTY SECONDS AFTER IT HAPPENS!!!!!!! #for god's sake we have MONTHS of lore and bangers ok??? #i still have a mental image of an art i wish i could make from BOBBY'S NIGHTMARE #HE HAS BEEN GONE FOR M O N T H S and you bet your ass if i can make it I WILL BE POSTING IT #SO. MUCH. SHIT. HAS. HAPPENED. who cares if it was months ago!!!!!! #it's ok to be a few days late!!! it's ok to be a few months late!!!!! don't tell me sorry for feeding me!!!!!! #part of me still lives in I'M NOT HOLDING A FUCKING FUNERAL CHAT #part of me still lives in maxo's final song for his son!!!! #part of me still lives in the day we thought ramón was gone for good #part of me still lives in cellbit sprinting to his son only to be ripped away back to the feds just as richas turns to write a sign #part of me still lives in the flooding of the copacabana ocean #THESE ARE BANGERS. REMEMBER WHEN FIT FOUND PAC E MIKE IN PRISON. BANGER. #oh dear new work expanding on a canon moment i super liked that happened months ago how late smh SAID NO ONE EVER #TWO CAKES!!!!! TWO CAKES MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!! WE LOVE PASTRIES DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT #COME ON Y'ALL. METAPHORICAL KISSES. LOVE YOU. HAVE A GOOD WEEK. #long tags

[blended-ice]

A fun little sketch. Open wide!

#peas n guac #feeding each other is a quintessential love language methinks #u ever try to draw arms and be like. how fucking long are you supposed to be. #and then foreshortening is a thing #wild #college is done for the summer which means my ass gotta catch up on the things I’ve let slide #so I am SO!!! TIRED #I’ve moved like a bajillion (approximate estimate) bricks these past few days #may have ducklings in a few days though v excited abt that #mimi has been obsessively sitting on the nest #and attacks me when I make her leave the coop #but mimi unfortunately your stank ass gotta bathe #sorry ab rambling about my personal life in the tags #I get very excited about my birds #yuri on ice #yoi #katsuki yuuri #viktor nikiforov #viktuuri #id in alt text #fanart #food #tw food

[mattodore]

you belong to me and i belong to you and so on

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #have been editing this so slowly throughout the day bc this vaccine shot has been kicking my ass 😔 #but looking at mattodore kissing for so long is no hardship trust me i’ve been having a blast #ummm what else do i wanna say here before i go back to watching catfish and downing acetaminophen……. #oh!!! #i got an ask yesterday night that i wanna reply to once my muscles stop hurting so bad 🚶 #so know that i’m gonna work on it! #just… 🧎 it will take me a bit #i’ve just been sitting here staring at a wall thinking abt it but my brain is nawttt functioning v well atm lmao #i have started replying but didn’t get very far before i was like. none of this is any good jdgshdhhdd #so. will start over when i bounce back! #…i also just realized it’s pretty late uhhh so if you see this then <3 a little kiss #i love posting things when ppl aren’t online apparently #i do it so often jfhsjfhfj oh well #for the mattodore fans out there here u go 💐👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

[imjustapoorwayfaringgeek]

"I grieve for the boy he was."

"When the sun has set, no candle can replace it."

#asoiaf #fan art #a song of ice and fire #asoiaf fanart #asoiaf art #i have been working on this for MONTHS. #and it didn't have to take that long either i could've get it done in a few days i #but no my lazy ass decided no #zoom in btw there're details #renly baratheon #stannis baratheon #house baratheon #tw blood

[uncanny-tranny]

On the topic of hormones, the people who say that women, notably, are inherently weaker or less competent/competitive than men (especially physically) because of their estrogen are the same types of people to have said that women shouldn't run or ride trains because their uteruses would fly out of their bodies.

#feminism #in mythologizing hormones misogyny is not reinvented but reinforced #misogyny especially has been defended 'based on natural and inherent biology' since the dawn of time #and especially with a trans lense this is exasperated #you have people who simultaneously say that hormones are useless to pursue... #...but hormones are also SO powerful and potent that we shouldn't have the ability to consent to using them #i had a huge long talk about this with my dad and i think he's much more a feminist than he wants to admit #i love talking about hormones and bodies but holy shit there's no inherent holiness/mythos about it #my testosterone is wayyy higher than serana williams but she would kick my ASS in tennis all day every day #because (get this) hormones aren't this mythologized superpower. they're hormones. and they're found in all of us in different levels

[arcanegifs]

#BRUHHHHHH I NEED ANOTHER TEASER I BEG YOU RIOT #ITS BEEN THREE YEARS I CANT WAIT TO USE NEW CONTENT FOR GIFS LMAO #personal tag #dont look at me im just here to complain about content drought lmao its really not good in fostering a healthy fandom ngl #because ppl will just hyperfixate and consume media for like a month and then the fandom goes poof right after lol #i miss all the people scrutinizing media every week i miss all the essays pumping out when content arrives #these days its just.... nothing lmao i only really still have arcane in my mind because of fanfiction and a lot of fics have been inactive #ik we're getting new stuff in a few months #and ik we're not in canceled shows hell but like #i really hope that if theres season 3 we're gonna get it a bit more regularly #i really miss it when content was like weekly or every 2 weeks because ppl and the fandom are wayyyy more active during those times #binge culture and netflix sort of changed it lol #i miss it when fandoms were huge!!! i miss it when it was so CHAOTIC lmaooooooooo #I MISS WAITING FOR LONG ASS HOURS WAITING FOR CONTENT TO RELEASE EVERY WEEK!!!! I MISS IT!!!! that was like what 12 years ago LOL #I KNOW arcane is special with their 3 year drought because it takes time to make arcane #but like..... idk man i miss content lmao #iirc they took too long to make s2 bc they have no idea if s1 would be even renewed #so i hope s3 will be a bit more regular now #anyways im gonna go bye bye

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

#i rise from the dead once again!! #sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting #school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :( #ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late #its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself #even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better #but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time #so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better #man. that got really depressing :/ #anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D #ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3 #i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now #sonic the hedgehog #sage robotnik #AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING #anyways #sage sonic #hatsune miku #i guess #whoof im scared to post this #or maybe im just exhausted #probably both :/

[blorb-el]

dc comics presents 56, “superman and power girl: death in a dark dimension,” 1983, script paul kupperberg, pencils curt swan, inks dave hunt, colors gene d’angelo, letters ben oda

#kaoshahrodh #yeah i'm back on my dccp bullshit. its been a long day ok #if i had a nickel for every time clark thinks kara has been killed and immediately goes feral and tries to kick a god's ass in dccp #i'd have 2 nickels. granted one nickel is from earth 2 and the other from earth 1 but. i like this trope ok. foreshadowing #clark kent #kara zor-L

[izpira-se-zlato]

Not gonna do a full analysis but --

something something Jure "the band is my better half" Maček

Jure who's been the most outspoken (to my knowledge) that he's not looking for a relationship. That he doesn't have a girlfriend and doesn't want one. That he chooses hookups.

Something something sex appeal and yet here, half-naked, he's just himself, surrounded by the band

Something something Jan and Nace getting lost in each other, their shots mirroring each other something something Jure choosing the band but different from the way Jan and Nace chose each other in the photo shoot

#jfc this speaks to me #like #can't make statements about their sexuality #but #but aro!Jure headcanon is a thing #that I'm getting reinforced by this photoshoot #also today apparently is the day of half-assed analyses sorry guys #it's been a LONG day at work #jure macek #model!jure #jo model era #nace ja jan #the baker attack #nace jordan #jan peteh #model!jan #model!nace

[why-the-heck-not]

a productive all-nighter starts by making a clear to do list & getting to work spending an hour or so searching for the music that hits the vibe just right

#it’s important #for the morale #but I found a new band I rly rly like so it wasn’t time wasted (best thing for morale) #tho they have only 4 songs so far so can’t fill the whole night with just that #but it can fill The Void so it's a start #(love finding bands that are like somewhat new instead of my usual ''omg I love this band'' 'only to find out they disbanded years ago) #(after deleting other social media apps I've been spending way too long times browsing Spotify but at least it's bringing me joy) #(except why THE FUCK are they trying to bring short-form content there also?? I refuse that's the worst way to find music) #also don't ask me why I'm doing an all-nighter ik I do these way too often it's great (sarcasm) #i'm dumb and been too anxious the past days so haven't done shit and now am in deep trouble #but luckily for me the anxiety turned today to the ''I'll never sleep so time goes by slower''-mode #instead the usual ''will have billion naps as a form of escapism'' which sucks ass #april 2024 #2024

[mylarena]

god. ik usually its ghost who doesnt believe hes lovable but fuck does the thought of soap not thinking hes lovable get me.

like. he believes hes too much to love. he believes he isnt worthy of someones love. he hasnt worked hard enough or done enough to warrant it.

because all his life he's needed to complete a goal to be told hes done good, or needed to reach a milestone to be told that someones proud of him, or that he needs to make someone happy before they love him. and if he disappoints that person, its back to square one. hes only loved when hes good. and no matter how fucking hard he tried as a kid, he was rarely ever good enough.

when he hit his teens, he stopped trying as hard. mainly with the people he didnt care about. teachers, store owners, police- authority in general.

with people he liked, he behaved. he never disrespected the kind old lady who lived down the street from him. she always gave him a candy when she saw him walking home from school, accompanying it with a joking finger in front of her lips and a quiet 'shh!' as though she would get in trouble for offering the candy, instead of him for taking it. he was always nice to his friends and most of his peers, and they never took his sarcastic jabs as serious and they even threw their own back at him (though sometimes he worried that they were being serious about them.)

he could never fully shake the desire to try and make his parents proud, no matter how hard he tried to hate them. they were his parents, he had to love them, right? that was how it worked. everyone loved their parents, unless they were shitty. and his parents werent shitty! they were just raising him how he should be raised. they never hurt him or yelled at him, just gave him disappointed looks and asked why he didnt get an A+ instead of the A he had gotten.

even if he didnt like his teachers, he always tried his best to do good work. he studied and got good grades and never openly disrespected them. he always insulted them in ways that could be insults, ways that could be taken as them misinterpreting his actions or words. he was always nice to the cafeteria workers and the principal and the staff at the front desk, everyone who mattered, at least in terms of avoiding punishment. if the teachers complained, he could plead his case of not meaning it the way they took it, and the principal thought he was a delight, so they tended to take his side because seemed like he could do no wrong.

(he didnt think that the cafeteria workers could really get him in trouble- he just didnt think they deserved another rude kid picking on them when some of his schoolmates already did that. they didnt do anything wrong. and they usually gave him an extra bit of his favorites for being kind. they were nice.)

his disrespect carried him through the military. he barely managed to scrape by after he punched that one dickhead, but he lucked out.

then he met price, then he joined the taskforce, and then he had people he liked. people he wanted to make proud. so he was good. he treated price with respect, he joked around with gaz, flirted with ghost.

he wasnt sure that last one counted as good, but the man didnt seem to mind it and sometimes he got ghost to flirt back at him, which felt almost just as good as someone being proud of him, so he (selfishly) kept doing it.

he was ok with the light words of affirmation and the pats on the back from his teammates and the occasional hair ruffle he got from price. god, was he okay with the few "nice work, sergeant"s and the "good job, johnny"s from ghost.

but he could tell, he knew, he wasnt doing enough to be fucking loved. he kept trying. did the best he could on his missions, (every injury sustained by his fellow soldiers felt like a bullet in his own heart, another failure to the tally,) he trained the rookies how he was told, (he made sure to tell them they were doing good work after a hard day, even if ghost gave him a strange look he couldnt decipher every time he did,) he filed his paperwork, (even when he was frustrated to tears at how he couldnt fucking focus on the words and he couldnt figure out what they wanted from him-) he did everything right-

and it fucking got to him. hes gone years without it, hes been fine. but now he fucking cares about his teammates and he wants and he knows that he wants too fucking much but he cant stop.

he doesnt even bother with wrapping his hands before he hits the punching bag. he doesnt stop when his hands hurt. he doesnt pay attention when his fingers bleed. he doesnt hear the person speaking behind him, but he does notice when a hand grabs his wrists and turns him to face them.

ghost stares at him with eyes just as wide as his own.

#myposting #soaptag #mydrabbles #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #ghost x soap #soap x ghost #ghost/soap #soap/ghost #ghoap #cod mw2 #call of duty modern warfare 2 #myaus #sorry for the long ass fuckin post #its also just not finished #ive been writing this all day i just want to post it at this point #not gonna reread it or anything sorry for mistakes ghjdfhgh

[ghostpi22]

edward?? 🥺

Okay granted, however I cannot draw him for SHIT

#sonic hair ass looking mf #he always ends up looking like a ronaldo fan #this sketch had been rotting for so long i just decided to slap color on it and call it a day #i dont want to look at it any longer take it TAKE IT #ibvs #edward quinton #my art #doodles #jumpscare er er er