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ectoplasmer · 2 years
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rainy looked at pictures of her f/os for too long and is on the verge of tears. normal thursday night activities
#LISTEN LISTEN. they’re just too pretty for me to handle okay#i think this is like a major red flag but i also do not care right now#i don't think it's just their looks or anything#though i won't lie i do get overwhelmed by things i deem pretty way too much.#(totally do not pace around the room aimlessly for five minutes straight after looking at fanart)/hj#but like. i think it has something to do with acknowledging/knowing about all they've been through???#like I'm seeing these characters and I've known they've witnessed and been subjected to some pretty messed up things. i've seen them-#-unhappy and angered and upset. by watching this series i've watched them go through a ton of heavy things in their fictional little lives#but it's seeing them portrayed as happy that messes me up. it's seeing them live normal lives and being displayed as peacefuf-#-and being seen as semi-normal for a moment that gets to me#like... they deserve to be happy. they deserve to have normal lives. they deserve all the things canon didn't really indulge them in enough#(or even at all in some cases)#i get so hyped up on the idea of them just being able to exist without worrying about the problems of canon that it gets to my head#and then i get all stupid and emotional because i'm a sad sap#i dunno. i just think they deserve a lot of things. it makes me happy seeing them receive normalcy so much so i-#-get teary eyed over it or whatever#something about just witnessing these characters in their entirety and knowing them from the inside out... knowing all the things they-#-faced and never got to get. and then you see them get those things through other twists of fiction and ideas from the fandom#it's instant serotonin okay </3#idk what the whole point of this post was but#anyway. normal rainy behavior. do not worry#rainy.file
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OH MY GOD EVERYBODY IT'S HAPPENING?!?!?!?! ONE OF MY FAVORITE COMTE STORY EVENTS!?!?!?!? THIS IS NOT A DRILL MAYDAY MAYDAY MOD IS GOING DOWN!!!!!
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workingwhileidream · 5 months
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Okay Burrow's End had me thinking some thoughts... So here are my favorite Dimension 20 moments that rotate like a rotisserie chicken in my brain (in no particular order other than the order I thought if them).
- Riz goes into the butthole of the Corn Ooze Monster (Fantasy High). The first absolutely insane shenanigans move anyone makes on D20, setting the tone the show will have forever.
- Raphaniel kills Queen Pamelia (Ravening War). I think I saw Brennan's soul leave his body briefly when he got that How Do You Want To Do This from Matt. Time was an absolute flat circle that day.
- Hank convinces Brennan to let him role savvy instead of sneak (Mentopolis). Hank is one of the most famous content creators, having him on the show was phenomenal to begin with. Then right out of the gate, he pulls this move in his first episode. And it just works. Hilarious, instantly iconic.
- Jet Dies (A Crown of Candy). When Lapin dies, it is shocking but I wasn't attached to him as a character. Lapin was a bit antagonistic and his death happens early in the season. On the other hand, Jet is instantly likeable. Emily and Siobhan are amazing as siblings, their performances this campaign are some of my favorites. I have siblings and I am very close to them, so this hit me like a ton of bricks.
- The entire epilogue of Burrow's End. "Are you pitching and Air Bud ending?" is one of the instant hall of fame quotes from this show. I started crying I was laughing so hard.
- Ylfa's bottleneck and the TPK (Neverafter). There are so many close calls for total party kills in Dimension 20 history, but this is where it finally happens and it's only 3 episodes in. I was on edge, expecting another TPK at any turn, for the rest of the campaign.
- 3 nat one initiative rolls for the battle that literally opens the season (A Starstruck Odyssey). The beginning of a new season is always full of excitement. This season was extra special, having everyone back in the dome after the pandemic and the season being based off Brennan's Mom's comics. The zoom energy is still in the air and I still think about this season opener a lot.
- Mother Timothy Goose breaks Snow White's concentration with a cantrip (Neverafter). Only Ally Beardsley could and we all damn well know it. Still didn't stop me from being so far in disbelief that all I could do is laugh.
- Hob's "You will never know another lonely day" speech to Rue (A Court of Fey and Flowers). I will still cry about this if I think about it for too long. Rue and Hob's romance is the heart of this season to me. I won't be over it ever.
- Gertrude convinces Nyruth to give the Questing Queens very powerful boons after the Queens tried to rob them only a few hours earlier (Dungeons and Drag Queens). The fact that this season exists drives a level of serotonin into my brain that is unimaginable. This is the definition of a big swing and when Bob rolls well, Brennan has no other choice than to honor it. This is one of the moments I have made a meme of. I cannot wait for season 2.
- Wuuvy shows up to the duel and she did not come to play (A Court of Fey and Flowers). Aabria has talked about how Wuuvy is one of her favorite NPCs and I feel the same. Wuuvy and Rue's relationship has such a great arc and this moment is so pivotal.
- Fabian's no good very bad day (Fantasy High Sophomore Year). An iconic moment in D20 history that was truly wild to watch live. For everything to go so fantastically bad for Fabian and Lou was unprecedented. There is a reason why people still talk about this moment to this day.
- Amathar survives being pushed off the castle (A Crown of Candy). Brennan tried to kill Lou so many times in this campaign. I really thought Brennan had gotten him with this one, my stomach sunk. But Lou pulls it out and Amathar lives once again.
- Pib plays "Smoke on the Water" (Neverafter). "I stepped out to play 'Smoke on the Water' " is also a hall of fame quote to me. This list could be all Pib moments if I'm being honest, he's my favorite Zac character. And the fact that Zac doesn't roll well makes this moment funnier to me.
- Buddy Bear gets planted with the All Blossom (Dungeons and Drag Queens). Jujubee and Brennan owe me a therapy session for this one. I sobbed. My cat is my baby and I will be ruined the day she leaves me, so I get it. I really do.
- "Eat your dice, Brennan" (Fantasy High Sophomore Year). A great bit made physically possible by Siobhan. I hope Siobhan gives him gummy dice or something like that so that Brennan can continue to eat his dice for Junior Year.
- Orange Top Hat Fairy (Neverafter). It's a horror season and the cast is doing bits about how hot a mini is the entire finale and the Adventuring Party that followed. I felt the stress and off the walls energy through the screen. The Smooth Criminal pin was the first piece of Dimension 20 merch I bought.
- Viola's epic takedown of Phoebe (Burrow's End). Watching Rashawn absolutely crush it her first time in the dome was amazing. I loved Viola from the jump, her arc was so satisfying and fun to watch. Also the idea of a tiny stoat kicking a gun just the right way to get it to fire is hilarious. No notes other than please have Rashawn come back on every season she possibly can.
- Evan Kelmp warns the Rosemont student not to duel him (Misfits and Magic). Brennan's deadpan warning matched with the reactions of the other players and Aabria really make this scene. An underrated Brennan moment for sure.
- Stacey Fakename turns out to be real (Mentopolis). This was such a good reoccurring bit, so to have Stacey be real at the end of the story was too funny. In a season of bits, tropes, and puns - this one has the most payoff to me and is definitely my favorite.
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dp-marvel94 · 8 months
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(Not) Alone- Chapter 3
Summary: Consumed with worry and scared after watching Dani almost die, Danny begs her to come home with him and meet Jazz. He wants to see her safe and happy and taken care of more than anything. An important reveal also weighs heavy on him – Dani isn’t the only living clone… and the other is him. He needs to tell her the truth; maybe that will convince her to agree to the idea of telling his parents. And she'll stay in Amity Park with him, where he'll never have to worry if she's safe ever again.
Meanwhile, Dani has mixed feelings. Still reeling from the loss of her clone siblings, Danny’s unexpected worry and care make her uncomfortable. And her own guilt… she hurt him and helped get him kidnapped twice. How can he care about a mistake like her? But having clean clothes and a bed is wonderful. And things aren’t as simple as she thinks.
Will Dani accept the help she needs and let herself be loved? Or will she push Danny and Jazz away and run again?
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Note: New chapter!! I'm posting this a little earlier than I'd planned, honestly, because I need the serotonin, ya'll. I was supposed to be seeing BabyMetal right now but Blue Ridge Rock Festival freaking sucks. 😭😭😭
Also, at the end of the chapter, check out @lostrence 's art! I love it so much. 🥰🤗😭
Chapter 3
“Danny!” His little sister’s voice cried, panicked and desperate.
“Danielle!” His eyes wide, reaching towards the sound. “I’m coming! I’m-” A blast from Vlad, knocking him back.
Out of the corner of his eye, the Red Huntress faced off against Plasmius’ duplicate.
“Danny! Help!” 
“I’m here! I’m- Omph!” Another shot. The bookshelf fell onto him.
A flurry of movement. Ectoplasm. Electricity. Cursing. Maniacal laughter. 
“No!” Danny fought, two copies of Vlad holding him down. “Just let me help her!”
“No. I don’t wanna die. I don’t wanna die. Please!”
Dani was crying. Screaming. Begging. She was just in the other room and she was melting. She was dying. And Danny had what he needed to save her in his pocket. The ecto-dejecto. It would save her. But he couldn’t…. He couldn’t….
Danny thrashed, teeth bared. “Let me go, you bastard!” He kicked. He punched. He bit. “Let me save her!”
The maniac just laughed at him, twin fanged grins glaring down.
“Please! I can’t-” A bubbling gurgle cut off the younger clone’s words.
“Dani!” The ghost boy screamed, the sound shaking the room. A powerful shock wave threw both Plasmius’ back. 
Danny flew. “Dani! I’m coming. Hang on!” He burst through the door. “I’m-”
Desperate terror cut off his words, mind barely registering the sight in front of him. Danielle’s arms and legs were half gone, her torso an indistinct green blob. And her head….
A gurgled cry. Green-dripping eyes widened with hope.
In front of her in an instant, the older brother fumbled for the ecto-dejecto. How was he even supposed to use this?! Inject it? But where?
A snap-second decision. Danny jabbed the needle into what was left of Dani’s neck. “Come on! Come on!” He pushed down the plunger. And….
Nothing. “No! Dani! Stay with me!”
The green just moved faster, the clone’s legs and arms disappeared now. Her chest fizzled away, barely more than a head….
“We’ll figure something out! Don’t give up!” Danny reached out, arms desperate. As if… as if he could hold her together.
“It’s… it’s okay.” Dani half-slurred.
“No! No! Stay with me!” The tearful plea, hands cradling her head. “Keep your eyes open. Stay with me!”
“Danny, I’m sorry. I-” The words disappeared, melted with the rest of her. 
Green covered the boy’s hands, his suit. His fingers gripped his hair, the strands soaked with ectoplasm. Her ectoplasm.
“No. No. No.” Each word came out shakier, more distraught. An inconsolable sob. “No!” 
Danny jerked up in bed, chest heaving. “Dani. No.” A choked, broken cry. 
He whipped his tear-stained face, eyes frantically fluttering across the room. Where-
Oh…. The familiar posters and rocket models. The pile of homework on the desk. The window, soft morning light drifting through the gaps in the closed blinds.
His bedroom. This was his bedroom. And…. 
Danny sighed in relief, the realization hitting him. It was a dream, just a dream. The ecto-dejecto had worked. Dani had risen from that puddle of green. For just a second, that happiness, the joy at seeing her alive echoed in his core.
He smiled shakily. Yes, she was alive. Danielle, his baby sister, was okay. He’d convinced her to come home. She’d eaten with them. Right now, she was asleep in the guestroom, just across the hall from his room.
He needed to check on her. Danny’s feet hit the floor, body overcome with the drive. He had to see that she was alive, breathing, and safe. That she wasn’t still alone on the streets somewhere, cold and hungry. That she was really here, right across the hall. Right next to him, where she belonged.
The boy stood, purposefully walking across the room and opening the door. It was just a few more steps across the hall, another door in between. Danny carefully and quietly pulled that one open too, and-
In his chest, his heart froze. “Dani?” His voice trembled. Maybe she was just invisible…. “Dani?” 
No answer came. She….wasn’t in her bed. Dani wasn’t in her bed. His heart pounded, panic rising. Did she leave in the middle of the night?! She had been flighty last night, like she was uncomfortable to be here. No. No. Please. She couldn’t have left without a word. She did the same thing last time though. What was stopping her from-
Stop. Danny reprimanded himself, blowing out a breath. He needed to think logically. She could just be in the bathroom for all he knew. Maybe he could sense her….
The boy closed his eyes, reaching out with his core. At the edge of his perception…. the hint of a familiar signature. Dani! His eyes popped open. Dani was still here.
Danny followed his ghost sense. Down the hallway, stairs, into the living room…
There. On the floor, a pile of blankets and pillows cradled a familiar figure.
Relief washed over the boy, the feeling bringing him to his knees. “You’re still here.” Danny breathed, kneeling beside the girl’s sleeping form.
“Wha?” A tired grumble came from the head buried in its pillow.
Well, she had been sleeping. The boy frowned. “Sorry.” He softly apologized. “Didn’t mean to wake you. Go back to sleep.” He moved to stand.
Instead of doing as he said, Dani dragged up her head, looking at him. Through sleep-narrowed eyes, she grumbled. “Is it morning yet?”
“Yes.” Danny shook his head. “But you don’t need to get up yet. It’s still-”
“I’m up. I’m up.” The girl sat up ignoring his words. She rubbed her eyes, letting out a yawn. Then… she turned her head, side-eyeing him. “Were you watching me sleep?”
“No…?” The word came out as a question. Not because he was unsure of the answer; he hadn’t been watching her sleep! But because of her tone…. Yes, Mainly teasing but with more than a hint of offense. 
Danny’s brow furrowed. “I woke up early and went to check on you. And…” He smiled sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck. “I might have freaked a little, when I saw you weren’t in your room. But you’re down here and you’re fine.” He lowered his hand. “Why were you sleeping on the floor anyway?” 
Dani crossed her arms. “The bed was too soft.” Mumbling. “It felt like the mattress was gonna eat me.”
“Oh.” His brow furrowed. “You could’ve told me. I would have got you a sleeping bag or something-”
“Why are you like this?” The girl interrupted bluntly.
The boy blinked. “Like what?”
“Why are you so… so…” She huffed, blowing black strands of hair from her face. “So… worried about me all the time?”
For a moment, Danny stiffened, taken aback by the question. The clear annoyance in it….
With a sigh, he shifted position, moving from his knees to sitting cross legged on the carpet. “I guess you are right, I have been worrying about you a lot, especially since yesterday….” The word fell heavily, the memory a pressing weight in his mind. The boy shook it away. “Before that, you were on the streets, alone, for months. And you’re just a kid-” 
“I’m not just a kid.” The clone girl cut in, frowning. “I can handle myself.”
“Dani, you’re ten. Maybe twelve, physically at least. You shouldn’t have to handle it yourself.” A sigh. “And that’s not the point I’m trying to-”
“I don’t need your help.” Another interruption, Dani scowled.
Danny’s own core bristled, shoulders tensing. “Danielle. Please just hear me out.” He rubbed his head. Man… he had a new appreciation for Jazz and her ability to put up with an argumentative younger sibling.
“Fine.” His little sister begrudgingly agreed.
“Okay, listen. Even if you don’t actually need help, I’m offering it. You are family.” He emphasized that last word, as much conviction as he was capable. Please. Please let her hear him.
The clone girl did not. “Oh. So you only care because we’re related. Or you feel responsible for me-”
Danny glared, a pale imitation of Jazz’s Disappointed Older Sibling Scowl™.
Still, it had its intended effect. “Sorry.” Dani looked down, effectively cowed.
With a nod, Danny continued. “You are my family. And I care about you.” His eyes wide and earnest. “And yes, I’ve worried about you since that last day I saw you. Since you left at Vlad’s, I had no idea if you were alive or… or dead.” He tripped over the word, throat feeling thick. “You could have destabilized anywhere, and I would have never known what happened to you. I thought… I thought you were dead.” The words stabbed at his core. The memory….
Before he’d explained to his friends and sister about who he was now, he’d told them about the other clones, about how they had all destabilized. And Danielle….
He felt like he’d been stabbed, like his legs would collapse under him…..“No. No. She couldn’t have... she’s not…” The boy shook his head violently. It was unthinkable. “No. She’s…. Danielle’s strong... and she’s smart.”... His chest was heaving. “She’s... she’s smart. She knows not to use her powers, or she’ll melt. She can... she can turn human and she’ll be safe. She’s... she’s safe... she has to be.” Danny was full-on weeping now. Of course, he was. It hadn't... hadn't even occurred to him yet that Danielle might be de-. No. He cut off that cursed thought. She wasn't. She was fine. She was somewhere…
He’d broken down right then, unable to even think that she might have been… been gone. That thought, in the back of his mind…. It tortured him for months. But to his relief, she had found him again, just yesterday. And yet….
“I just…. Less than twelve hours ago… I watched you die.” His nightmare… 
The green just moved faster, the clone’s legs and arms disappeared now. Her chest fizzled away, barely more than a head…. “We’ll figure something out! Don’t give up!” Danny reached out, arms desperate. As if… as if he could hold her together.
A violent head-shake. Danny focused his mind back on the moment, his eyes back on her face. “I thought I was going to lose you again.” The words were so quiet, so pained. “But… I didn’t.” He reached, laying his hand atop of hers. He smiled, the feeling all the more bright for his previous grief. “I didn’t. You’re okay. You’re here. You’re safe.” 
He wanted to keep this moment, imprint it in his memory. Her eyes, round and wide. Her brow wrinkling in contemplation. She… she would hear him. She would understand….
His own eyes rounded, full of meaning and conviction. “We found each other again.”
Just like that, the moment broke. Dani’s dawning smile fell. “You don’t even know me.” She pulled her hand back, shoulders curling in on herself.
Danny felt like he had been stabbed. “Dani…”
“No.” The girl shifted awkwardly, backing away from him. “We’ve known each other for all of what? Two days total? And that first day, I tried to kill you.”
“Yeah…” The boy blinked, shrugging. “But you helped me in the end.” 
“Do you hear yourself?” She frowned, eyes narrowed disbelievingly. “I tried to kill you. I helped Vlad kidnap and hurt you.” She rolled her eyes. “Literally yesterday, I helped you get kidnapped. Again.”
“None of that was your fault. I’ve never blame you-”
“I don’t care if you don’t blame me.” The girl interrupted, glaring. “I do. I blame me. I shouldn’t have been so stupid to fall for Vlad’s lies. Earlier, when he had me on the freaking table, I asked if he was trying to find a way to save me. I thought maybe he changed his mind. Maybe he was going to help me but.. I’m so stupid. I’m a moron.”
Danny shook his head. “No, you’re not-”
“I let you have your piece.” Dani’s voice rose, a sharp edge. “Now you’re going to let me have mine.”
It was Danny’s turn to be cowed. “Okay. Sorry.” He looked down, shoulders falling.
“You don’t know me.” She spat out again. “You don’t know anything about me and what I’ve been through. You don’t know anything about the crap Vlad,” The word was more of a curse than name. “put me through, how he made me feel.” 
Each word felt like a stab, each one driving a nail through his core.  She couldn’t… she couldn’t really think this, could she?
“You don’t know what it’s like to have nothing, to be nothing. Just a stupid copy of someone else. Just a mistake.”
His heart was breaking, tongue bleeding from how hard he was biting it.
“And for some god-forsaken reason, you feel responsible for me. Taking pity on the stupid, broken little clone girl? Well, I don’t need your pity.”
Danny couldn’t let this go on. “No, that’s not it. I don’t pity you. I… I love you, Dani. I-”
“And another thing!” Her voice rose yet again. “Your audacity! Calling yourself my brother? I have…. I had plenty of brothers. And they’re dead. They’re freaking dead. I’m all that’s left. My family’s all gone. And how dare you…” She seethed, eyes flashing green with fury. “How dare you try to replace them?! You’re not my brother!”
No. This… this felt like being stabbed in the chest. Like a hot poker to his still newly fused core. “No. I’m not trying to… to…” His shoulders shook, tears threatening to rise. “Dani. I swear, I…”
“You’re not my brother!” Danielle yelled again, fist in her lap balling. “You’re just the guy I was cloned from. And Me? I’m just a stupid clone who’s not even supposed to exist. Just a stupid imperfection. A mistake. I’m supposed to be dead! Just like…” Her chest heaved, eyes shining, wet despite her anger. “Just like my brothers.”
“No. No. You’re not. You’re…” The tears burst, words unable to force their way through. 
Maybe it was part of him that was still so young, who had been barely out of toddlerhood at their fusion, at his creation. But Danny found himself suddenly crying and he couldn’t stop.
Dani couldn’t…. She couldn’t think all this about herself, and about him. She… she couldn’t. She couldn’t. His heart hurt. His core hurt. Deep in his soul… it hurt. Everything ached.
For the first time in months, his core twisted, body wanting to shrink without his permission. But…
No! No! No. He couldn’t do that! He couldn’t! He couldn’t talk when he was little. And… and he needed to tell Dani that she was wrong. That none of this was her fault. That she wasn’t stupid. That she was one of the strongest, most incredible people he knew. That she was supposed to be here. That…. That she wasn’t alone.
Danny tried, he struggled, he forced the words through his thick throat. “No. You’re not… you’re not supposed to be dead. You’re supposed to be… to be here, with me.”
Danielle just looked more angry. “I’m supposed to be with my clone brothers. They’re supposed to be here! Stop trying to replace Muscles, and Bones, and Daniel, and Tiny. Stop-” 
“I’m not! I’m right here!” The boy shouted. “I’m right here! In front of you! You’re not the only clone left. I’m right here.”
That silenced Dani’s rant; she looked like she’d been punched.
If he… if he could get her to understand…. “It’s… It’s me. It’s Tiny. I’m… I’m different. But it’s really-”
“Bull-Shit.” The curse was ice cold, eyes hard and dry of tears. “You’re not him.” This was almost worse than the fiery rage. 
“No. It’s… It’s me. I swear.” His eyes wide, full of pleading, desperation. Please, please not another rejection… “Just let me…. Just let me show you.” 
“What are you going to fu-”
Her word cut off as Danny transformed. He pulled on his core and shrunk. The half ghost felt his body condense, smaller and smaller. If he was closer to how she remembered him, then maybe, maybe….
The feeling of his limbs shortening, of his spine compressing eased as Danny, as Dami – That was clone-him’s name after all. That’s who he was now, in this moment – stopped. He let out a sigh, settling into his new size. He was all of about five inches now, a comfortable, familiar height.
In front of him, Danielle’s mouth fell open in disbelief, eyes popping wide.
For a long moment, Dami hovered in the air, nervously. His gaze flickered around, from her hand, to her eyes, and back. Silently, without a word, the boy drifted forward, one hand raised palm up in front of him. Dani’s own gaze moved, from him to her own hand, balled in her lap. Again, she just stared down for a long breath but…
Shakily, numbly, she raised her hand in front of her chest.
Danny’s expression softened ever so slightly, a dim hope. As easy as taking another breath, his legs fused into a long, serpentine tail and he darted forward. Hovering over Dani’s hand…
There was no hesitation. He wrapped his arms around her thumb, his long tail wrapping around and between her fingers.
For a long time, Dami just clung to Dani, reveling in the feeling of being held like this again. Of being safe in his sister’s hand. In his chest, the boy’s core purred. The feeling of his tiny body, close to her. The pumping of her blood through her fingers. The distant buzz of her core, so similar to his. This was their special hug and it was perfect. So right and good to be back here. 
Then… what he had just done hit Danny.
Shit.
The boy stiffened but he didn’t move, carefully listening. For Dani’s breath hitching? A sniffle? How was she taking this? 
Nothing. She didn’t speak, hardly breathed. Her fingers remained stiff, frozen in place. She hadn’t pushed him away at least. But…
Danny cursed himself. He and Jazz had a plan, damnit! After breakfast, they were going to sit Dani down and calmly, logically explain all this to her.  Part of him had been happy, excited at the prospect. It was a huge relief to finally have his little sister here. And he was nervous as well. Jazz and Sam and Tucker had… not reacted well to the truth about the fusion. Learning that, in a way, their friend and brother was gone, replaced by someone different but at the same time oh-so similar, was hard. But they had worked through it together. They accepted him and, in the end, they helped him accept himself. Not as solely the original Danny, or as just Damian, the Tiny size-changing clone. Nor as simply the combination of the two. No, he’d accepted himself as more than the sum of his parts, as the culmination of two lives colliding. He was their legacy.
But Danielle… that was different. She was the only person who really knew him as Damian. Months ago, when he’d realized he might never see her again, he’d thought… Dani was the only person who actually loved him.
That wasn’t true. His friends and sister loved him then, and they loved him now. Even the Dami part, now that he’d let them know that part of himself.
But Dani… she was the only one who would actually want Tiny from the start. She needed to know he was still here. That her smallest brother was still very much alive, within reach.
But… Danny wasn’t really Tiny. He was Dami- the clone’s shrinking power and his fire, his love of life and excitement to learn, his love for his precious little sister. But at the same time…. He wasn’t. Tiny had changed so much, in those last few minutes of solo existence; experiencing an entire lifetime in a matter of moments will do that. 
And then they’d fused. And he, the person thinking this thought, was not quite either of the people he’d been before. He was his own person.
And so, still in his sister’s hand, Danny fought off the dread, the panic. He clung to hope. That Dani would believe him. She would see. She would give him a chance to show her who he was now.
The hand holding him trembled, shakily drawing closer to Dani’s chest.
The word came, so soft, so tentative, as he was pressed, held close to his sister’s core. “Tiny?”
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As soon as the word parted her lips, Dani started crying.
This… this couldn’t be real. This couldn’t be happening. Tiny, her littlest clone brother, couldn’t be here. He’d… he’d died like the rest. He’d left her, left her behind. And she was alone. All alone. This had to be a dream. But… but…
A sob burst from her throat. Tiny couldn’t be here. But…
The small body, curled in her hand. The tiny core, pulsing against her own. The ectoenergy, swirling underneath her fingers. Different, but so familiar. She’d… she’d recognize it anywhere.
It didn’t make any sense. It was impossible. But…
“Tiny.” She sobbed. Not this time a question but a desperate hope, a plea.
This had to be him. It had to be. (Please, please don’t let this be a trick. She couldn’t….  She couldn’t be alone again. Not if this wasn’t real.)
But the little ghost clung to her fingers all the tighter, the purr of his core loudening. Dani’s own loosened. The seed of hope, planted in her heart, started to bloom. 
“It’s… it’s really….” The hiccupping sob stole her words.
Dani held the boy (her brother?!) close, chest heaving. The smaller ghost trembled as well, a rhythmic high-pitched sound following in time. (Was he… was he trying to talk through his tears too?)
The attempts at speaking stopped as both cried, gently rocking. Finally, finally close together. Core to core. Both bawled. But….
But…. it was different from the tears Dani was used to, from the tears that had been trying to overtake her just minutes ago. The girl shook. Her eyes burned. But…
Gradually, gradually… she started purring. The two cores, so close together, buzzed in time. The girl’s chest felt lighter, warmer, freer. 
This was real…. The thought rang with certainty. Joy sparked with it. A radiant, enrapturing joy.
Dani smiled through her tears. And so did Tiny.
Some unknowable amount of time later, the sobs quieted. The two siblings stilled, just breathing, content with their embrace. The girl gave a watery smile, peering down tenderly at the little body tucked under her chin.
Then, Tiny wiggled in her fingers. 
“Alright, alright.” Dani rolled her eyes, letting him go. This was familiar. Her littlest brother would get tired of being held, squirming like an energetic puppy. He’d dart off to poke around her room or go roll in the grass.
The smaller ghost flew a few feet away from her. Green eyes met hers, a miniscule smile on his face. Then, before her eyes…. He grew.
Dani felt like she had been hit in the head with a bat. White hair, black hazmat suit…. a familiar ghostly form took shape in front of her.
“See?” He wiped away his tears, spreading his arms. “Man… I actually had a plan to tell you. Jazz and me talked it through and everything.”
Dani’s mouth fell open. “You can talk…” (Of all the things to open with. Should she roll her eyes or laugh at herself for that?) 
The boy’s brow furrowed. “Of course I can-”
Frantically, almost unthinkingly, the clone girl scrambled forward, almost falling into the taller(?!) boy.
“You can talk! You’re stable!” She slapped her hands on his shoulders, balancing on her knees. “You’re not small anymore! But you just were? And now you’re not.” Her eyes rapidly flickered, searching him. “But your core! I’d recognize how you feel anywhere. You’re him. You’re Tiny but-”
“It’s Damian, actually.” The boy cut in.
Dani blinked, mouth snapping shut. “What?”
“Damian. Or Dami.” He blushed, cheeks turning green. “That’s what I named myself.”
“Damian?” The girl asked, trying out the word. “Dami. Dami.” She grinned. “I love it! I love it! I love it!” (He had a name too! A name like she did!)
He… Dami laughed. “I’m glad you think so.”
“I can’t believe you’re here.” Dani fell forward, arms wrapping around him. She tucked herself under his chin. “You’re… you’re bigger than me.”
“Yep. By a foot at least, I think.” He chuckled. Then, his voice turned more serious, full of tenderness. “I like it… finally being big enough to really hug you.”
Dami’s arms tightened, and Dani clung. “I missed you so much.” The words so soft, her ear pressed to his chest. “I can’t believe you’re here. You’re… you’re alive.” The sound of his core reverberated, that liquid, electric churning. It was music to her ears. “You’re alive.” And farther away, underneath the noise of his core…
Danielle pulled back, staring up at him in awe. “I can… I can hear your heart.” That impossible, rhythmic thumping….
“Yeah.” Dami rubbed the back of his neck. “I should finish telling you about…” He waved up and down his body, vaguely motioning at himself. “All this.” A bright white light flashed around his waist, the rings moving up and down to reveal…
“You’re human.” Dani breathed, reaching. She grabbed. A warm, solid human hand. “You’re actually human. You’re really alive.”
“Yes, I am.” His hand squeezed hers. His blue eyes crinkled, sleep-tousled black hair falling in his eyes.
None of her brothers had a human form. Dani was the only clone who had. “You’re human?! How?!” Excited questions poured out of her mouth. “You’re not small anymore? You can talk? And you’re not melting?! You’re… you’re a real stable half ghost!? But… but…” That excitement bled into distressed confusion. “Did... did Vlad stabilize you? But… you saved me from him. You helped me but….” 
Dani’s eyes darted around the room, suddenly processing where they were. The knowledge flooded back to her and the clone girl froze, ripping her hand away. She suddenly felt terrifyingly stupid.
“We’re in Danny’s house.” The girl’s hand gripped her hair. “Jazz called you Danny. You… you told me you were Danny.”
The words hit like lightning, shattering the boy’s relieved expression. 
Dani ignored it, the speed of her words increasing. “Did you replace Danny? Does Jazz know? But…” Her hands flailed, mind spinning. (No. No! This couldn’t be another kind of trick! No!) “She called you Danny. She knew you needed to talk to me about something. About this? But-”
“Hey, it’s okay.” Two larger hands suddenly enveloped hers. “I’ll explain.”
Dani’s stomach twisted, an icy fear stabbing her core. “Where’s Danny, if you’re here?”
“I’m right here.” The boy smiled. And somehow… somehow, the nonsensical words, the impossibly honest tone was a balm to her frazzled heart. “It’s complicated.” His arms lowered, bringing her own down, toward her lap. “The short answer….  I am Danny; you were cloned from me. But I’m also your clone brother, Tiny.” He let go, a hand patting his chest. “We, Danny and Tiny, our cores fused.”
“What?” Dani blinked, again feeling like her mind had hit a brick wall.
“Let me tell you everything that happened.” 
Note: So I'm going to rant down here. Blue Ridge in the worst run festival I've ever been two. Long, horrible, terrifying story short. I got stuck in the thunderstorm on Thursday (torrential rain, hail, lightning and all) with thousands of other people and waited 3 and a half hours in the dark to be evacuated because they didn't have enough shuttles. Day 2: the festival canceled the shuttles between the parking lots and the venue because of "inclement weather" while it was still sunny where we were. Security told us the show was canceled for the day. Meanwhile, they kept the show going and had the audacity to post about it on their social media. So I missed the Flyleaf reunion set, the band we specifically bought tickets for. And then, they canceled the last two days because of "the weather." Actually though, it was probably because they over-sold the venue by 10,000 people and the police shut them down. And/or most of the staff walked out because of horrible working conditions. No water, no food, no breaks, filthy potta potties; one of the security guards I talked to on Thursday had been working in the hot parking lot since 5 am and it was after 11 pm!! So yeah, I am pissed and hope Blue Ridge gets shut down.
Anyway, I hope you enjoyed the chapter. I'd really appreciate kind words in the comments, guys. 🥺
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fruity-phrog · 1 year
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ok hi i read ur anon post i agree w everything n now i NEEED 2 know allll of ur thoughts abt colinmichael + colin's arc and also if u have any colinjamie/ bi jamie or roy hcs. love love love ur blog!!!!!😌💓💓💓🫂
First off, the serotonin you two anons are giving me is insane, this is such a nice ask and I am very happy rn. Thank you for actively inviting me to discuss my hyperfixation.
So most of my thoughts are compiled in the aforementioned anon post, but I have more so here you go:
Since you mentioned Colin's arc, there's something I've noticed. Ever since Colin has been canonicalized as queer, and even before when people simply headcanoned him as queer, his entire arc and history has been pretty much erased. He's not just this closeted guy on the team. He was a dick to Nate for the most of s1 and maybe even some of s2, but then had an uno reverse card pulled on him and got bullied. His character was developed throughout the seasons, especially when Jamie left. He began to change and stopped being Isaac's cocky right hand man. This is something most people forget as he progresses, something I think we need to remember simply because it's a part of his character.
I think that when Isaac and Jamie find out Colin and Michael are dating they will not let Colin forget Michael's height. Isaac definitely makes fun of Colin's height even though he's the same height as Jamie, so for him to be dating a man smaller than him? Instant comedy.
As for bisexual Jamie... firstly, just look at that man. Singular dangly earring. Ridiculous sitting positions. Eyebrow slits. Istg if he turns up one day with black nail polish I'm gonna throw something at my computer. But also, I think he doesn't really understand attraction to men. Obviously, with a dad like that, he has his fair share of toxic masculinity hurting his chances of coming to terms with any kind of sexuality. But I feel like sometimes, maybe as a kid or maybe as an adult, he'll look at a man and feel something and immediately go "Nope this is jealousy I am jealous nope nope nope". Also he definitely had a crush on Roy as a kid. But I'm not to sure about Jamie x Roy in the present. They strike me as more big brother/little brother vibes, but I can definitely see where the shippers are coming from.
And since we're talking about gay Ted Lasso - Barbara 100% has a crush on Rebecca. It's just a fact. She has a crush on her. Maybe that will segway into bisexual Keely being brought back because even though it's already canon no one talks about it.
Actually, I'm going to touch on that as well. Keely is canonically bisexual. Colin wasn't the first queer character - Keely was. "If I'm going to dip my toes back into the lady pool, I can't think of a better body of water to do it with than you." I know it was played off as a joke but it's still canon. I'll actually be quite disappointed if they don't revisit that because the GA has completely ignored it. Keely. Jones. Is. Bisexual. This is a fact.
Okay I've once again diverged from the plot of the ask so I'll steer it back with a theory (kinda). I mentioned this briefly in a post but I really want Colin to stand up against Isaac and the team's comments. Nothing much, just "That's rude". And when Isaac jokes about if Colin's gay, he just says "Yeah. I am. And I want you to stop it". He needs to address the things he said to stay in the closet and I'd love it to be like that.
I actually wrote a random fluff oneshot for Colin coming out. I still think he'll be outed, but I'd love for him to have some control before that happens.
Okie that is my rant. Thank you for asking, and thank you for the compliment about my blog! Have a nice and gay day <3
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hotshot624 · 2 years
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Instant serotonin from writing the hc? Or from my feedback? Cause I can do more hehehe.
I can recommend something headcanony and then I can compliment it 😂
:3
HC for a neurodivergent little/reader in general?
You spoke to me with the ADHD comment and I think I may fall somewhere ever so slightly on the spectrum. To the point to where I am like 1 foot off.
And then I question am I actually on the autism spectrum or am I just a socially awkward weirdo with no excuse for why I am so weird? Anyways...sorry for the ranty ramble...
Okay so I'm gonna be honest here I'm a little nervous to write this one cause I don't wanna sound insensitive or write something that would trigger people so this is mainly gonna be self indulgent from things I've experienced with little things added that people with ADHD and autism have told me.
✨🍼Daddy!Eddie x Little! Neurodivergent Reader🍼✨
Okay but just to get started Eddie could not care less that your neurodivergent
Like I know some people think others will judge them or make fun of them for it and let me tell you Eddie is not one of those people
He was a little confused at first when you told him (him having no idea what that word even meant) but quickly rid of your worries and embraced you with a big hug
From then on, after you explained to him what it meant and the symptoms (is that the right word, I couldn't think of it, if it isn't tell me in the comments please) he was sure to avoid things that could trigger you
If your having a sensory overload, Eddie will be right there to help you
Loud noises bothering you? Eddie'll grab his walk man and place the headphones on your ears and play your favorite soft relaxing music for you or will just put the headphones over your ears to try and quiet the sounds
Don't like the feeling of something? He'll get rid of it so you don't have to touch it or he find a fabric your alright with touching and find some gloves with said fabric that way you can carry on what you were doing with out being bothered to much
A certain smell bothering you making you feel sick? He's already carrying you out the door on his hip leading you away from that nasty stench
A certain food making you want to vomit your brains out as soon as it touches your tongue? (This one's me) Eddie's got some smalls snacks that are your favorite to put in your mouth to rid of the gross taste or sensation
Are the lights bothering your eyes and making you feel icky? Eddie will just burry your head in he chest to calm you down a bit and try to get rid of the lights or just have you leave the area
Eddie rather suffer being bit by demo bats a thousand times then have you suffer for even a few seconds
Eddie is a big supporter of happy stims
Flapping hands, bouncing on the balls of your feel, jumping up and down, happy squeals, shaking of your head, anything Eddie will encourage you to do
I headcanon that Eddie has high functioning autism and also happy stims a lot so when something good or cool happens or y'all just feel like it, y'all will happy stims together and it's super cute
He has a bunch of stim toys for you in your toy bin as well as in his bag just in case you need it during school
Got to be prepared for his little Rockstar 😌
Does not care if you constantly bounce your leg
Home boy has a problem keeping still himself, so who is he to tell you to do the same?
You know that feeling when your body feels like it's Astro projecting off your body and you feel like you need to be crushed by a boulder to get any form of comfort but you can't and you have no weight to put on you and it's making you so upset that you want to pull you hair out and scream but it's like super late at night and your tired and just want to sleep but you can't because you don't want to be an inconvenience to anyone else so you just suffer in silence and cry? (No just me? I forgot what this is called but I think it's when your over stimulated or are having a sensory overload idk it's just happened to me and it was horrible)
Well don't be up set cuz Eddie's your new weighted blanket
My man's will take the job of laying on you seriously and not even the power of God will move him off of you until you say so
He will also get you a weighted vest if you need it (drug selling really pays well I guess cuz that's the only way he's getting all this money from to buy you stuff.....that or he's stealing it but like don't look to deep into it okay)
He understands that sometimes you just get irritated for no reason and will give you your space if you need it
It's it you fault and he won't blame you at all. He will correct you if you starts throwing things or have a tantrum but at the end of the day he knows you can't help the way you feel and wants you to talk to him when you feel like this to try and calm down
Eddie knows what it's like to not have the greatest people skills cuz his aren't that great at all some he never insults you or makes fun of you for it
He also know you can't always control your volume and usually let's you stay as loud as you want, especially if it's to tell him your excited about something, but if you get a little to loud he have you quite down a bit but he never asks in a discouraging way because he himself have a problem with his volume control and he hates how people get mad at him for something he can't control so he's not about to be that way with you
Depression can also be a gross, yucky factor in being neurodivergent and tries his best to help you through it even just by snuggling you and rocking you if that's all that he can do to help you at the moment
All in all, Eddie loves you so much for who you are and treats you with respect and love either while being little or big and that's all that you could ask for
"Send me more headcanons" I say. "Oh I want to write fanfiction for y'all" I say. How long has this been sitting in my inbox for? A ridiculous amount of time that's how long. It
still have fanfic requests I need to finish too so as y'all can see I'm on a roll. In my defense I haven't been sleeping well and I didn't want to half ass write something cause I want y'all to enjoy it. Still having a difficult time with the dialogue but I'm working on it so that's good. Anyways please tell me if y'all like this headcanon and if I got anything wrong. These were mainly my experiences as I said at the top but idk if that's my ADHD or if that's just me that I wrote. Also I tried to make it so some of the headcanons could seem like little AND big reader were involved and how he'd react but mainly it's little reader. So that's all, expect my fanfic to show up in the future, idk about tomorrow but hopefully on Saturday. Okay that's all,byyyyyyyyyyyye💜
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96crewlove · 2 years
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- the things you do that drive me insane.
itafushi, fluff & smut, >1k words.
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it was their regular saturday night. exorcise, shower, itadori comes over to his to watch a shitty movie, they make out during it, fuck til 2AM, and cuddle to sleep.
fushiguro is half asleep when he hears a wide awake itadori ask behind him, "fushiguro, what do you think of me?"
"i think you should go to sleep."
"oi, fushigurooo..."
fushiguro turns his head a little to meet itadori's puppy gaze. he all too quickly decides to give in. "yūji, there's honestly a lot to say about you. i can't think of it all in one sitting."
"oh..."
"yeah."
it's right then that itadori makes his absurd "i got an idea!" face. fushiguro is horrified before the words even fly out his mouth.
"we should make a list then! you write things about me that i do and how you feel about them and i do the same for you! it's perfect! ingenious! foolproof!"
"yeah, and kind of unnecessary." says fushiguro, but at itadori's frown, he tries to make amends. "i just mean that if we do this, aren't we like, judging each other a little bit? what if i put down something that you do constantly and say i hate it and that hurts your feelings? or worse, makes you wanna change yourself for my benefit?"
itadori contemplates his boyfriend's point, then he shakes his head like the unwavering spirit he is. "that won't happen. we can talk about it if either of us do feel that way, but i want these lists to be 100% honest."
fushiguro loves him so much. he reaches back to pull itadori towards him for a kiss. when they break apart, they are staring into each other's eyes. brown & green.
"okay."
"okay?"
"okay."
itadori gives fushiguro one of his big smiles before leaning in for another kiss. fushiguro moans into it, making sure to sound extra slutty so that when itadori slid his half-hard dick back inside him, their night (or morning, for that matter) could end on an extra positive note.
the lists start later that day.
THINGS THAT 'GUMI DOES THAT DRIVES ME INSANEEEEEE♡
when u tell me to "shut up😡🧍🏻" like YASSSS DADDY TELL ME WHAT TO DO
u order us takeout when it's been a rough day like CHRIST ur so perceptive and it just makes me wanna kiss u UwU <3
when u fix ur hair in the morning and look at yourself in the mirror cause u look like a total model (i'm so lucky to have u)
whenever you, me, and nobs are in the field and u get protective of us 🥺 like u go fucking crazy if even a scratch lands on either of us and that is so goddamn hot sir
when u wait for me to ask u if u need help because ur too shy/proud to ask
things that my dumbass boyfriend itadori does that drives me insane x
leaves all his goddamn hair on the bathroom floor after styling it HEY
his laugh. i like it. YOU LOVE IT
takes huge risks + always ready to put his life on the line like that won't affect the people around him, like nobody will care 'gumi🥺
him being a genuine and compassionate person :))))))))
when he throws me on the bed and then proceeds to rearrange my guts 🤷🏻
the fifth input on fushiguro's list not only got him a thorough dicking down but also set off a very horny chain reaction.
THINGS THAT 'GUMI DOES THAT DRIVES ME INSANEEEEEE♡
ur (rly rly pretty) eyes rolling up whenever i fuck u deep n slow
the way u look at me when we're on opposite sides of a room. bedroom eyes and pouting your lips into a frown on purpose because u know that shit turns me on
the sounds u make whenever i hurt u a little bit or throw u around
"shit. where do you want it, babe?" "inside me, yūji, please."
when you deepthroat my dick and look up at me with those eyes LIKE FUUUUUUUCK 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞
things that my dumbass boyfriend itadori does that drives me insane x
when i look up at him silently asking him to fuck my face...and he does. instant serotonin. I KNEW ITTTT U DO THAT SHIT ON PURPOSE
him using his muscles to put me into whatever position he wants :))))))))
him smoothing his hair back + leaving any type of jewelry on whenever we have sex. it is admittedly very hot. ALL THIS HOTNESS IS FOR U MEGUMI BABY🥵
him asking for consent for every little thing even though i ask for it :))))))))
him telling me that he loves me right before he cums. he says it every time. damn straight i love ur fine ass and and and ur actual ass that is also fine UwU <3 💞💞💞💞💞
"not that it was a competition or anything, but—oou, fuck—just because you wrote down more things than me does not mean you love me more than i love you. like, my stuff about you were way more descriptive—"
"why in the ever-loving fuck are you talking about this now?" fushiguro motions to their joined bodies. they are very much naked, and itadori has him bent against the shower wall with his cheek rubbing up on the glass like it isn't embarrassing.
"right!" itadori laughs nervously before getting back to work, resuming his onslaught in fushiguro's ass. "i just wanted to let you know in case! you know i love you—uh, jesus, you are so tight for me, megs—a lot, right?"
as if to prove it to megumi, yūji starts fucking him harder. the slapping sound of their skin meeting echoes off the walls. it is both very filthy and very hot. megumi can't help but moan despite wanting to roll his eyes.
"yes yūji, i know."
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extras!
at the beginning of their relationship megumi took a longer time to fall asleep with how loud yūji snored and writes as such. when yūji secretly sought out a way to quiet his snores, megumi woke up in the middle of the night fearful thinking yūji had died. again. needless to say, megumi cussed yūji out telling him that he would rather fall asleep to yūji's broken car engine snoring than think he had died on him again. (megumi had grown fond of used to the snoring anyway.)
yūji writes down that he doesn't like it when megumi helps people who are so obviously flirting with him ("yūji, that girl was just asking for directions." "DIRECTIONS TO YOUR DICK!")
megumi loves when yūji teaches him stuff in the kitchen. it really turns him on. yes, they make out in the kitchen a lot.
yūji loves how understanding megumi is to the sukuna situation. more than a dozen times has sukuna made obscene comments while the couple was having sex. ("i could fuck him harder than that. do better, brat.", "smack his ass again, brat, your handprint is fading.", "i swear his ass gets bigger every time.")
megumi likes that yūji is a crybaby sometimes and asks him for cuddles when the pinkhead has had a rough day
yūji loves that megumi is a power bottom
megumi loves to smack the shit out of yūji when he refers to him as a power bottom
in the rare moments that yūji sees megumi smile so big or laugh so hard that his teeth show, yūji is one step closer to getting down on one knee never mind that they're only eighteen
megumi looooooves it when yūji worships his body. he has developed quite of a praise kink because of it (and a million more kinks thanks to yūji but that is ASIDE THE POINT-)
yūji looooooves when he wakes up before megumi. these moments are of course rare because megumi is essentially an insomniac, but watching his boyfriend wake up and still be so painfully gorgeous doing it is literally one of yūji's greatest joys in life.
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lveclouds · 1 year
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💌 hiiii <3
malak!! (i hope it’s okay i call you that 🥺) !! your blog gives me instant serotonin :((( i love your url and blog theme <333 though we haven’t talked a lot, you give off such sweet and warm vibes :((( like i stg sunshine quite literally radiates from your blog 🥺🫶🏼!!
moots send me a 💌and ill tell you what i love about you
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g-bbzz · 2 years
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@sulfurcosmos happy birthday ti !! 🌟
getting on here and being able to interact with you has made me so happy <3 i hope you have the happiest of birthdays and the happiest days after that. i know it sounds hard to do so but you have such a kind and genuine soul i just know the universe has beautiful days in store for you.
it’s hard to meet someone so funny, smart, genuine, and sweet so i’m so happy to have bumped into you on here <3 running into your LoM AU was honestly such a highlight for me last year and you continue to shine so bright in my life this year too 🌟. truly i’m so happy to have someone like you in my life :)) !!
reminder : i know it’s hard but don’t overwork yourself and your brain okay ?? take things at your own personal pace until you can finally start running <3 love you and missed you so much !! (so happy i’m back to wish you a happy birthday🫶🏼) oh and know i’m here if you need me or anything 🧚🏼‍♂️.
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here are some of my fav channie pics for you 🤲🏼🧚🏼‍♂️ 🫶🏼
also this song with lyrics that always tends to make me happy and soothe me <3
ESPECIALLY this one !! instant serotonin boost from mr. harry styles 🌟🫶🏼
much love,
-🧃
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cartmankisser · 2 years
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Hello! I hope that you have a nice day :D, for the kin thingy c: My fave color is blue and my top 3 songs in random order is: 1. Sunroof - Nick Youre (legit instant serotonin), 2. Everybody talks - Neon trees, 3. Ashes - Stellar
YOURE MUSIC TASTE IS SO SIMPLE I LUV IT
okay okay
maybe this one js a bit obvious
but
STAN IDC IK IM RIGHT🙏🙏
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smiles-advice · 2 years
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hi! i hope you're doing fine :)
i know most people send serious asks, but i have a very silly problem that i've been struggling with for more than 2 months now and i'm just feeling very tired bc of it. like it's a daily struggle i feel like i'm going nuts
IT'S SILLY but look it's important to me. i don't want to talk about it with any of my friends or family bc i think they're just gonna to laugh at me. which would be understandable but no less hurtful. you can laugh too if you want to ig
ok anyways. i have an obsession with this piece of media. i'm not going to specify which one not bc it's immoral or awful or whatever i just don't want to say it. also it'd make things more embarrassing i think. it's a very lovely piece of media i promise
i was really looking forward to seeing the events of the story unfold and actually i think that may have been the only thing keeping me happy this year. that's bc i usually always have an obsession with a different thing every 2-3 years and they're usually the things that keep me motivated to keep going with my life and bring me instant serotonin. the problem is some months ago i got spoiled for some aspects of the end of it bc leaks are a big problem in the fandom :')
and it just ruined some of my excitement. the problem is i wish i could feel as happy as i did before it happened. i don't want to let go of something that made happy just bc of a spoiler but it feels like everything is just ruined ig. like the spoiler is out of context and i don't even understand the whole repercussions of it on the story but after lots of thinking I THINK that may be even worse bc if my brain keeps trying to make sense out of it but i obviously can't. and i also don't actually want to make sense out of it of course bc that would mean even more spoilers lmao my brain keeps catastrophizing it
i just wish i believed it when i try to tell myself that it's ok and that it's not a big deal bc ITS NOT (right?) but it feels like a big deal to me. and then i feel stupid bc this shouldn't be so hard. i know for a fact lots of people got spoiled and they seem fine so why am freaking out so much. i just feel so sad and no amount of reasoning with myself is helping
anyways you don't need to answer me if you don't want to! i just wanted to get it out of my chest with someone who doesn't know me. it feels safer that way
thanks for reading i'm going to cry a little now bc apparently yes my brain can make everything super hard for myself even tho i've been trying so hard to fix this for the past few months. i wish i could fix this
hello darling!
first of all, its not silly at all. if it matters to you, it matters to you.
secondly, youre allowed to be upset when something gets spoiled for you, its just human nature. sadly, there will always be people who enjoy ruining things for others, thats also just life. you arent stupid for feeling upset, your emotions are valid and i get it.
honestly, try to push past this. remember that this piece of media is something you love! and so its okay that its been spoiled, because you still love it.
and cry all you need! its a nice, healthy way to release some negative emotions.
lots of love to you doll, keep your head up 💛
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bensolosbluesaber · 2 years
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Okay so I just had to tell you this but I'm beyond in love with your Avenger!reader fics. All 3 of them. The way you write the characterizations of each of the Avengers is so on point that I'm simply dead from how much I love it. Your dialogue had me dying of laughter, it was so freaking amazing. I could not stop smiling while reading the interaction between the boys and all the Avengers. And the part 2 where you included the Moon Knight/Spider-Man meme was the most genius thing I've ever read and you wrote it perfectly 🤌😍
I don't really have a fic idea or request in mind but if you ever want to write a part 3 or part 2 or write the Avengers and Moon Knight together into another story, please know that whatever it is, I'll love it endlessly ❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰
When I tell you I keep rereading this for the instant serotonin rush, I'm not even joking. This is screenshotted and saved to my writing inspo folder. Thank you anon 💕💕
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Music ask!
3, 9, 15
19, 20, 23
27
(sorry for so many!)
Never too many, I love doing these because it helps me think about the music I listen to! Thank you for the asks!!
3:A song that reminds you of summertime
Too Hot in L.A. (Woody and Jeremy, of Vulfpeck)- That bassline grabs my soul and transports me to summer. Simple arrangement also makes me feel summerish!
(Barbecutie by Sparks also makes me feel very summery!)
9:A song that makes you happy
Suburban Homeboy (Sparks)- Instant laughter and serotonin. Need I elaborate?
15:A song that is a cover by another artist
Babe I’m Gonna Leave You (Led Zeppelin cover of Joan Baez’s song)- I didn’t even know it was a cover until recently! The emotion that Plant captures in the cover is phenomenal though, I think it really made it sound original.
19:A song that makes you think about life
What Do It Mean (Lord Huron)- God, this songgg. Absolutely existential but in a hopeful way? Like most Lord Huron Songs. Encapsulates the feeling that nobody understands life, but it’s gotta mean something. The line ‘So much to say but my words mean nothing/a life spent talking when my epitaph would do’. Ben. Ben, my friend, are you alright?
20:A song that has many meanings to you
Rock ‘n’ Roll Suicide (David Bowie)- Absolutely depressing listening to it when I’m happy, absolutely motivational and happy listening to it when I’m sad. A song where it really feels like Bowie is directly talking to you.
23:A song that you think everybody should listen to
Innuendo (Queen)- First time hearing it: ‘Okay this is something, that’s nice wait is this a classical Spanish interlude?? I think it is. I think it is! AN ELECTRIC GUITAR SPANISH INTERLUDE???’ The bridge part is heavenly. 10/10. Also slightly existential and about life.
27:A song that breaks your heart
All Dead All Dead (Queen)- Brian, are you okay? Depressing song, but the solo part around 2 minutes in, where the guitar sounds almost hopeful and then it just fades out, leaving the listener feeling this immense loneliness, CHILLS. Here’s another because I could not pick just one…
The Suburbs (Arcade Fire)- Heard someone cover this at an open mic in town and it touched me. Captures this weird anxiety and sadness and the lyrics really slice my heart open 🥲
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noodlesandpanic · 1 year
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♡ Just another day playing blogger girl simulator: ♡
Woke up like an hour ago and made a gluten free brekky sandwhich with an over-medium ish egg :s and some guac and it was soooo good. Minus the gf bread. I've only had one kind of good gluten free bread and it was from Sprout's, and even more expensive than usual lol. Now I listen to Kim Petras "Slut Pop" which makes my brain produce instant serotonin. I'm going to vacuum after a lil pink bloggy time, then get ready to see my boyfriend. I've had a super bad cold for like 3 days now, today is day 4 and I'm doing a lot better but still feeling coughy and congested.
I am beyond stressed about finances but I just have to trust that shit will come together just in time for March. I also have an interview for front desk at a massage place on Tuesday, I'm gonna have to work 2 part time jobs to make it by with school :c. I really want to work at the lash extension place the most though so I can get free extensions! Plus selling memberships for extensions is a million times easier than selling massage memberships, periodt.
My Latuda has been doing a really bad thing to my muscles, it's not quite as strong as the akathisia I experienced in the past with Abilify, but it's definitely still in that realm. I'm gonna stop taking dayquil/nyquil today and try it out with the full 40mg one last time to see if maybe the cold meds were causing it, or if it's just the medication itself taking full effect now. If so, I'll have to start splicing my pills down to take 20mg or 30mg because 40mg are the smallest pills I can get prescribed. I LOVE how it makes my brain feel, my body is just struggling a bit now.
Now I dance to my little girly pop spotify playlist which has lots of Gaga, Britney, Nelly Furtado etc and dance looking like an actual old sprouting potato. But it feels good to me, and no one can see me but maybe my ancestors so it's okay.
Also, I REALLY want to go to Disneyland ugh. Okay. I believe that's all I have to say now at this time. Thanks for tuning in or not, this blog is really just for me anyways.
Meow. (meaning "goodbye" in this context)
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hiimbloblos · 3 years
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I'm trying to catch up on HC8 episodes (there's already about a 100 of them send help) and I can officially announce that Mumbo's 3rd episode is, as kids nowadays call it, my comfort episode.
This is just something so special about Mumbo and Scar chatting and building a tree together (even tho Scar did all the work but shh 🤫). Scar basically took over the tree building and the whole interaction felt something like 'the cool uncle' thing where he's doing something and the nephew is asking about random things and tries to help. Scar even said something like 'You can place the dangly bits of the tree later', Mumbo was making fences and gates in the meantime...
Honestly the whole interaction made me kinda emotional idk why ;w;
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hongism · 3 years
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daily i love hongjoong post (ft wooyoung) 💙
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