#it's not what i signed up for

[secondbeatsongs]

for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal

before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"

and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"

#the truman show #sbs rambles #I keep thinking about how children on popular youtube channels should probably have laws to protect them #social workers assigned to them maybe #I dunno #they did not sign up to have their lives sold for profit #but here we are #tho #I guess none of us signed up for it #and our data is harvested more than ever #god #high-tech capitalism sucks turns out #OH WAIT because tumblr is bad at getting context sometimes #let me specify: #I am not saying that the movie The Truman Show is bad or that it normalizes this #like all good sci-fi (because it is kind of sci-fi) it's there to warn us of what the future could hold #and it did that in a very good way - it's a beautiful movie #I could see someone with a bad faith take assuming I meant that it was part of the problem #it absolutely wasn't. it didn't normalize this; we did #youtube did and social media #it's us that's the problem #or more specifically: big corporations and a lack of regulation #that's the origin of most modern problems

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[lazylittledragon]

do any other artists feel like. yeah you're a 'good artist' because you draw things that look nice, but like. TECHNICALLY? you're really not great

i really hate that i can recognise that yes, my art is good, but is it VARIED? is it dynamic?? is my anatomy good? is it full of texture and colour theory? do i know how to do This? can i do That? no, not really. and that's quite painful actually

#ramble #yes this is the artist's perspective bs and yes this is anxiety because it's 1am #and yes i'm forever learning and growing but also #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. #drawing my little guys is fun but i am not good enough for the industry right now and that fucking sucks #i really feel like if i walked into a studio with my portfolio right now they would laugh at me #one of those days where i wish i'd done a more useful degree y'know #i'm going back through the phase where i don't know what i'm going to be anymore and it's scary #some days i really want to give it up and never draw again and do something worthwhile because i Know my life would be easier #and i hate that something i love so much makes me feel so hopeless #signs that i should go to bed ^^^^ #i will resume my pity party tomorrow

[wasabi-gumdrop]

Kabru has a secret admirer in the castle!

#running from my responsibilities (drawing armour) by imagining post canon Kabru fashion #minor spoilers in the tags! #royal advisor Kabru’s office is probably overflowing with gifts from foreign dignitaries eyeing him up for marriage #and sacks of perfumed letters from Melini citizens #Marcille would be so sick of it #Laios also has his fair share of proposals #Yaad is like … boys spare us all and pick a suitable candidate already #well Yaad there’s a saying that goes two birds one stone #anyway lol #someone might have suggested to Laios ‘hey Kabru works so hard. you should show your appreciation.’ #Laios (blushing sweating): uuuh how do i do that #Marcille probably: i hear it’s customary to give your royal advisor flowers the same colour as their beautiful blue eyes #Laios: well if you say so #but he starts having second thoughts bcs what if the gift is too romantic #so then Laios is like oh i know i just won’t sign it (: #fool proof plan Laios good job #totally not taking into account that Kabru can recognize his penmanship at a first glance #so at their next meeting Kabru is like ‘i wonder who my secret admirer in the castle is 😉’ #and Laios sweats so hard he falls out of his throne #doesn’t Kabru of Melini have a nice ring to it #better yet …. Kabru Touden #much to consider #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #kabru #kabru of utaya #labru #if you squint #wasabi doodles

[royalarchivist]

Phil: Alright, are we gonna try and read these?

Phil discovers the (very long) Egg sign train made by Pomme, Dapper, Sunny, Chunsik, and Ramon! It took him ~7 minutes to read through every single sign in real time, but I compiled everything down into ~2 minutes because this was a funny moment more people should see.

#Philza #QSMP #QSMP Eggs #Dapper #Sunnysideup #Pomme #Chunsik #Sunny #Ramon #March 8 2024 #Edited #The picnic bit and coffee bit made me laugh a lot #I wonder what Ramon was up to during this since he only had a few signs

[suja-janee]

(Mostly) Harumi centric doodle page for a friend

#mortal kombat 1 #mk1 #mortal kombat #harumi shirai #tomas vrbada #mk smoke #kuai liang #mk scorpion #hanzo hasashi #I still don’t know how to feel about her and Kuai Liang #unless nrs releases more content #I dunno I think they have potential to be a cute couple but for now it’s still sus #also! I love to hc that harumi got Tomas to open up to kuai #cause uhhh the Lin Kuei kinda killed his family #so harumi is like ‘ey bro they’re not so bad when you get to know them… except for bi Han… fuck that guy’ #bi Han would highkey make a tree house and put up a ‘no girls allowed’ sign and she never forgave him for that #if bi Han ends up being the reason she dies in this timeline it would kinda be funny cause he’d be like ‘I never liked you’ #and she’d be like ‘me neither you stupid boy’ #and he’s like ‘yknow what this isnt even about kuai liang anymore- screw you’ #doodles #my art

[candlecordyceps]

Ok like I’m not really a massive analysis of film and story and stuff, but I’m trying to get more thoughtful when absorbing stories and just. GOD dungeon meshi got me with a heavy hitter this episode.

The raw emotion that filtered through me as I watched the backstory cutscene. Of Laois and Falin growing up, of her saving him. Saving him and when HE needed to save HER in that final memory she said to abandon her. How awful that was, something Laois commented on himself. That they couldn’t “Adventure together anymore”. The way she was so willing to fall, and for that to be the end of it, and for others to continue without her. Like UGHHHHH. The way that despite that willingness to be left to die forever, the others still took on the labor of love to go after her. To try. Because she matters to them and they’d do the same self-sacrifice for Falin despite her not minding being abandoned. Still, after fighting tooth and nail, it falls apart. It’s her staff they lift from the dragon. Her skull. Just bone. And while I haven’t read the manga, and I don’t know where it goes yet, it feels so utterly damning. I’m on the EDGE OF MY FUCKING SEAT.

I CANT WITH THIIIIISSSSSS. I CANT BE NORRRMMAAALLLL RRAAFGHHHHHH

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #delicious in dungeon spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #commentary #raw thought matter #i cant do this #i cant watch anime normally #i signed up for funny food show #what the fuck is happening

[kataraavatara]

dare I dip my toes into acotar fandom discourse….

#i am sooooo sorry followers ik this is not what you signed up for #anti rhysand #anti inner circle #hewn city #court of nightmares #acotar #a court of thorns and roses #a court of wings and ruin #rhysand critical

[spacebugarts]

Neurotypicals will never know the experience of seeing a person wearing big headphones or stimming with something at the store and taking out your own stim toy to try and gauge if they're neurodivergent too or just vibing, while also trying to telepathically communicate that you are also neurodivergent.

Thats true solidarity

#this just happened at the store and I was trying so hard to convey that I was a friend #like 'hi hello i am also stimming! i see you and i understand!' #but also the fear of misreading the situation or making them uncomfortable is. bad #i saw a tiktok where someone came up with a sign for that exact situation but i mean. what are the odds they also saw this one video yknow? #anyways that was my day #autism #autistic #actually autistic #audhd #actually audhd #adhd #neurodivergence

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

want some positive world news? yesterday, in a truly historic moment, Colombia elected its first left-wing president. after 20 years of far-right rule, the traditionally conservative country has elected the remarkably progressive candidate Gustavo Petro (and his running mate Francia Márquez, who will be the first black woman to serve as the country's Vice President!)

for context, imagine if the U.S. had successfully elected Bernie Sanders (after 20 years of republican presidents). that's how big a deal this is. amidst a dangerous global rise in conservatism, this is an enormous win and a cause for hope.

#not a shitpost #also I love that Francia Marquez got elected on Juneteenth #THAT is how you celebrate Juneteenth #i've been watching this election closely and i almost cried when the results came in #and to my american followers: VOTE IN THE FUCKING MIDTERMS #hurry up and sign up to vote by mail i am glaring at you #the last fucking thing we need is republicans gaining seats #that will directly affect what legislation does and does not make it through #it's already difficult enough to pass anything borderline progressive in this hellforsaken country let's not make it WORSE ok #repeat after me: voting is damage control #it does not erase the extreme need for radical and systemic change but it is damage. control. #it is the FIRST STEP not the last

[mickedy]

Bowser's fury is a great mario game

#make-dy #super mario bros #bowser's fury #gif warning #flashing lights #tw glitch #i like to think bowser jr didnt see what mario was signing and just told him to shut the fuck up anyway

[malzykins]

realized I never ever posted my fellas :[ it's been days...

#lethal company #lethal company oc #my art #personal #almost as many goop drawings on the buddy ref sheet than of buddy himself. is that a bad sign :sob: #I MEAN. his life at this stage is pretty much dominated by exterior forces #until he grows up anyway.... #this was also when I thought I was going to make him based on holly leaves. WRONG! elephant ear 🥰 #I think I wanted to wait til I had my jester/nutcracker done too but. idfk what I want to name them tbh LOL #or how I want to distinguish them from the run of the mill fellas!! ugh!!! i hate character creation!!!!

[phoenixmetaphor]

bonus:

#my fanart #resident evil #chreon #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #chris redfield #leon knew what he was signing up for #chris has been embarrassing since claire was a child leon stood no chance #wish i had this idea sooner so i didn’t have to haul ass to get it done before x-mas #but we’re here now #merr chrismas to those that celebrate #and domestic chreon holiday fluff for all

[samglyph]

I can’t be the only member of the unhealthily obsessed with gravity falls as a kid to unhealthily obsessed with malevolent as an adult pipeline

#yes these are some of the sketches that are old but I tricked you cause I did clean them up prior to posting #just so they like. make sense #the problem with these is that now I’m thinking about the implications and I’ve got like a whole au in my head #malevolent #my art #gravity falls #malevolent podcast #Arthur lester #John doe #dipper pines #kayne malevolent #bill cipher #anyway arthur and John circa season 2 get transported into the future and into Oregon and they wander into a shack in the woods with weird #signs looking for medical help because Arthur is once again fucking dying and dipper is like. yellow eyed BITCH oh wait no this is different #fuck what’s wrong with this British man

[xoxoemynn]

Honestly growing tired of seeing people add so many caveats and disclaimers when they express that they enjoyed S2. I've seen countless "I know X could have been better," and "I know Y was a bit hit or miss" and "sure, we needed more Z" comments all over the place.

Who the fuck cares. And since when does something need to be absolutely 100% perfect in order to love it?

I loved season 2. It was a beautiful season of television. I got to see my favorite characters in new situations. I laughed, I cried, I gasped, I marveled. It made me think and dream and imagine. It expanded on the story in rich and unexpected ways. It gave me so much new content to chew on, and also made me excited about what still is to come.

Seriously. Just loved it, and I can't wait to do approximately eleventy billion rewatches so I can love it even more.

#emynn.op #OFMD #OFMD Spoilers #OFMD S2 Spoilers #I LOVE OFMD SO HARD #WAKE UP #LOVE OFMD #GO TO BED #LOVE OFMD EVEN MORE #THIS IS WHERE I AM NOW THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE SIGNING UP FOR #ENJOY #😘✌️

[fiumedivita]

Enola Holmes 2 had no right to be that good, this was supposed to be a "I have two hours to watch a movie but no will to think" kind of movie and instead we got the depiction of a sexist society that will sacrifice its own children to maximize profit aND I WAS NOT READY FOR THAT REALITY CHECK

#Enola Holmes #ma'am this is not what i signed up for #but also #will we finally get a canon sherlock/watson? #enola holmes 2