#makes it so hard to choose

[inkskinned]

the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.

three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.

two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.

their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.

one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.

i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.

i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.

and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?

you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.

a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.

someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.

#writeblr #warm up #this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru #but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist #ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school. #like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it. #was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes. #but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create'' #when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work #part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just #like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent. #speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r #ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week #this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice. #''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism #imagine if we said that about literally any other profession. #''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt? #u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky'' #we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY #''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''

[choccy-milky]

(ominis is already on his family's plan but he's there to annoy seb anyway)

#the idea of ominis being rich and still leeching off of sebs netflix is so funny to me LMFAO #he mainly does it bc of anne since shes the one who wants help in annoying seb #hogwarts legacy #sebastian sallow #ominis gaunt #anne sallow #sebastian sallow x mc #sebastian sallow x oc #clora clemons #hogwarts legacy meme #also choosing ominis' pfp was hard i was so conflicted on what to make it #originally i was gonna do a super messed up blurry pic cuz hes blind but the dog filter won out #i like the idea of him deadpan just using all these whacky filters and it doesnt matter to him anyway cuz he cant see them LMFAO #also annes gremlin and trollish sense of humour has rubbed off on him

[psqqa]

yes, yes i know edgeworth’s big wet eyes and loser boy personality have captivated us all, but listen. listen.

phoenix wright

phoenix “genuinely unable to reconcile the girl on the stand with the girl he dated for eight months, a cognitive dissonance so profound it’s ultimately explained by them being literally two different people, but which he first sits with for five years and does not talk about at any point to anyone” wright

phoenix “don’t mention that name to me. i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to think about it. i am just going to keep myself in this state of perpetual crisis mode focus on other people’s problems until eventually i die and get to hang out with mia on the astral plane and never have to deal with any of these emotions ever again” wright

phoenix “overnight loses his career and reputation and sense of identity while gaining an adopted, probably pretty traumatized eight-year-old daughter, and rather than leaning on his friends for help, or getting therapy, or taking any time to process any of this, he *checks notes* spends seven years dedicating all his free time and energy to investigating the weird fucking circumstances around it and maintains a friendship with the guy he suspects was behind it all” wright

phoenix "runs across a burning bridge and falls through it, half a day after the game establishes that he is terrified of heights, because his friend is on the other side of that bridge" wright

phoenix “i sure felt surprised. maybe i had my poker face on” wright

phoenix “looking back on it that was actually a pretty dark period in my life” wright

phoenix “don’t ask me how i got started. i don’t remember” wright

phoenix “only you stood still, your eyes calmly watching” wright

phoenix “sometimes, life just sucks” wright

just

phoenix wright

crunchiest man in the world

and all i wanna do is chew and chew and chew on him

#ace attorney #where are all the people gnawing on phoenix's bones so white?? #i need to find the phoenix bone-gnawing corner of this fandom PLEASE #this is me asking for the Phoenix Fic btw #where is the fic meditating on phoenix's whole mental state in general? #where is the fic about how it's phoenix's cageyness and poker face and flat affect under stress that is the hurdle? #the relationship ramifications of being actually really fucking hard to read when it comes down to it? #where is the fic about the week of his disbarment? #the one detailing the panicked blow by blow of it rippling through his social circle while he stands in the eye of the storm? #the one that ends messy and anxious and unresolved because it's week 1 of 7 years? #where is the birth of phoenix wright: poker legend fic? #where is the art school/theatre major phoenix fic? #no not the able to art/act phoenix fic but the kind of person who chooses to go to art school/study theatre phoenix fic #where is the supremely disinterested in pop culture phoenix fic? #where is the actually incredibly meticulous and competent phoenix fic? #capcom can tell me all they want that he's essentially an adhd disaster flying by the seat of his pants making it all up as he goes #but that's not what they're actually showing me #they're the ones who created an in-fiction legal system that functionally necessitates that #and the nature of the game is that phoenix is almost always proven right so rather than him coming off as hare-brained #his opponents rather just come off as short-sighted. either negligently or maliciously so #and the choices the writing makes in service of retaining mystery and audience suspense in fact function to make phoenix a person #who is astute and puts the pieces together but is cautious in his conclusions #i will grant them that phoenix does tend to lose sight of his overarching goal in getting drawn into proving or disproving minor points #the fact that edgeworth on the other hand never loses sight of this or where the various arguments stand in relation to it #is his sexiest trait as a character by far #but those minor points are actually functionally critical to the ultimate argument phoenix makes #so even though i do read that trait through the game mechanics i do also judge the other characters for being dicks about it #my point is phoenix wright does in fact have the character of a lawyer and is conventionally good at his job fucking fight me #my point is that you all have had 20 goddamn years to Rotate this man #my POINT is that there should be Intricate Fucked Up Meditations On Phoenix that rewire my fucking brain and i NEED to know where they are!

[deadpoets]

@swsource​ star wars week: day 3 – Favorite non-Skywalker Saga media ROGUE ONE (2016) dir. Gareth Edwards

#rogueoneedit #rogue one #starwarsedit #swedit #star wars #sw #sww24 #tuserjyn #andorerso #usertina #userroh #oneawkwardcookie #tuserkayla #quicklings #usertiny #tusermira #flashing tw #*mine #*mygifs #genuinely movie of all time #jyn and cassian i love you so much <3 #also upon making this edit i realized that i do not make general edits very often #like it's hard choosing which scenes to use and all that bc there's such a vast amount

[forgettable-au]

What do we think? I think he's like the coolest scientist to ever science

HEY HAPPY 2000 FOLLOWERS‼️HOW DID THAT HAPPEN SO QUICK?????

I'm genuinely so shocked about that I'm so so glad you're all enjoying this AU so far hehehe:D

Also I just made the 1000 followers celebration post like a month ago or something??wow

Here's the guy ‼️‼️ I wanted to practice drawing him quickly and in different poses. I think I achieved that, all this was made with just the lasso fill tool it was soooo fun and I loved not being worried about details just SHAPE

ALL SHAPE (and colors)

#I AM SO GLAD I HAD THIS DRAWING SAVED ON MY PHONE ALREADY #I wanted to make a proper 2000 followers celebration drawing but got to 2000 too fast and didn't get the chance #so I'm just using this one drawing because I think it looks cool #he's so fun to draw #sometimes #sometimes he's so so hard to draw #especially from behind ahskajsskjs #man I thought about his design so much while making him #cyan/aqua/light blue with a greenish tint/teal is a very hard color to work with omg-- #and I have to stick with it because of the reverse color pallete thing Im doing but omg it's a hard color I should have just gone with #the color everyone always chooses for Gaster #purple #but I mean #the teal kinda makes him fit in with the CORE aesthetic so it fits #wait I think I'm rambling a lot in these tags #anyways let's cut to the actual tags #forgettable-au #undertale au #papyrus!gaster #papyrus is gaster #undertale #papyrus #gaster #undertale fanart

[mutantmayhems]

TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES (2012) requested by aeoix

#i'm a simple gal. when the turtles' eyes go white i go feral #BADASS TURTLES!!!!! #ahh this set took me so long simply because i had such a hard time choosing scenes #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2012 #2012 tmnt #leo tmnt #mikey tmnt #raph tmnt #donnie tmnt #tmntedit #may makes #tmnt 2k12 #2k12 tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles 2012 #2012 teenage mutant ninja turtles #animationedit #2012

[skunkes]

#trying to figure out how i wanna draw myself when i start my new sketchbook #+ i kinda do wanna learn lineless art bc theres a certain style of it that reminds me of gouache! and i love flat matte gouache #its so hard tho as someone who struggles with contrast. and LOVES lines. #i wish it was as easy as changing the lineart color at the very end of a lined and colored piece ykwim #but the line color i choose when im painting in gouache is different than the colors i choose when coloring already existing lineart #if that makes sense #anyway this was directly inspired by manaohu on twitter ^_^ they are one of my fave artists #a doodley #ok unlocked

[triple-pupil]

Because I think he deserves both sides of the coin.

#Also coloring was so fucking hard #I just don't know how people can choose colors and make them look good #I suffered three hours on a drawing with no shading or lighting #the great mouse detective #great mouse detective #basil of baker street #david q dawson #david q. dawson #Idk what tags he has- #doctor dawson #ratigan #professor ratigan #padraic ratigan #basigan #ratigan x basil #basil x dawson #my shit #I know it's not part of Basil's design but his pants are purple now because I say so #And now I hate that blank space down there- #detective basil #disney movies #disney #swearing in tags

[chrliekclly]

#frank reynolds #iasip #always sunny #just to show my thought process on the 'hmm which frank is th most deservedly unconscious' for that rb'd post #he's catatonic in th hospital but its on a bed which makes it feel too normal #in th booth its a good pose but he's awake and talking to th twins #sanitizer frank is obviously hilarious bt hes writhing around n it so....doesnt feel right #him on th ground w sausage links coming out of his pocket is so funny but hes just ACTING like hes dead.... #poison i went w he is @ least fully unconscious @ th time of photo evn tho he is halfway outta th frame #plus being on th floor trumps everything (xcept maybe th 'carousel') #was hard to choose! #screencap #sweet dee has a heart attack #charlie catches a leprechaun #the gang gets quarantined #mac and charlie write a movie #the world series defense #n e 1 else remember some? only othrs i can think of is th gang replaces dee w a monkey waking up on th bar #nd wen hes on acid in th trash can on th ground n th gang gets invincible #nd maybe gang turns black waking up on th couch but....none of those r worthy imo #frank aes

[ofalltheginjoints]

So Much For Stardust ft Jimmy Butler

#fall out boy #fob #smfs #jimmy butler #fobedit #userkam #it was so hard to choose which moments i wanted so i will honestly probably be making another set for this vid #so good im still screamin about it #brainrot

[inkskinned]

today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.

when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.

i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.

#and yet i NEVER DO REMEMBER IT #spilled ink #writeblr #i feel like due to tiktok ppl think > #deeply depressed & not having an emotional reaction to things MUST mean #you are cruel or uncaring #like girlie that is STILL a lack of mental illness awareness. it doesn't make us mean #it just means im like. ohhhh im not well. i don't really react to puppies. that's bad #Im still gonna be super nice to the puppy. like it just doesn't bring me joy. #bc the problem i have is CLINICAL. the dopamine ISNT being made. #but PLENTY of us are still kind #considerate. #GENTLE people. even if we're like '..........' all the time. #i actually think this is why i'm harsh on people who are so mean - you don't need to be emotionally attached to someone/thing #in order to be kind.... you just choose to be kind bc it's the right thing to do #not bc it's easy....... like it's extra effort sure. but it's worth it. bc ppl deserve kindness. #it's hard to describe this bc it's the ugly side of depression. the part that's like #not in netflix - the part where it's like ''i love this person. i just don't feel anything''

[mspaint-flower]

What if you drew Flower

But the lineart is colourful and the colours are just black

🌠

#vflower #v4 flower #v4flower #vocaloid #vocaloid flower #my art #ms paint #discovering that ms paint trick was useful after all #can make lineart literally any image without using other programs #just by using transparency #also choosing the gradients was so hard............there were too many i loved

[kyo-hiki]

I dreamt with kim so i had to draw him 😭

Bonus:

#i dreamt i sucked his dick btw lol #alakskjjf #anyway #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #de #disco elysium #fanart #i still dont know what brush to useeeee #dont know what to make of my artstyle i like everything so its hard to choose :((

[heynhay]

for if I am not yours, what am I?

#specifically forced myself to make something orange/yellow #klance #voltron #vld #keith kogane #lance mcclain #art #my art #5/6... only one more mitski album to cover #choosing one from Lush for klance was a bit hard bc that whole album is so. specifically feminine condition #but i think the inability to fulfill traditional relationship roles coming from Wife plays well into keith pining after a 'straight' guy #mitski

[jeonwon-wonwoo]

some of my fave wonwoo moments

960717: Happy Wonwoo Day!

#wonwoo #seventeen #svt #svtsource #svtcreations #forsvt #userngocchi #tuserose #sonafied #ftsummer #userirlvernon #emification #this is so rushed with coloring but i really wanted to make this since i wont have time on his actual bday #these are some of the many fave wonwoo moments i have #some are from going and inside seventeen #it was honestly so hard to choose #and i know there's more i like that i can't think of lol #but i hope you all enjoy it anyways #*mine

[totallynotsilversora]

So I had another head canon on twt about Uncanny Vash and basically what’s stopping people from drawing his pupils turning into slits or dilating whenever he’s about to snap?

Because trust me Knives canNOT be the only twin who can pull a thousand yard stare and scare the shit outta people like cmon:

Picture source here

#trigun stampede #vash the stampede #Tristamp #uncanny Vash #tristamp vash #you’re telling me this guy won’t use this to further his Diablo agenda?? #he could make his eyes do the sideway slit if he wanted to #seriously it’s so hard to notice if you’re not paying attention bc he looks so… disappointed #he can be outright mad if he wants to but no he CHOOSES to be disappointed in you #yes I’m thinking about episode 3 when he goes /enough already/ like he’s sternly scolding a child vs a grown adult #He got it from his bro