Welcome ✨ Madders ✨! It's time to play, do I actually like this piece of media or, have I based my entire daydream world and personal identity around it and have become so emotionally attached to it as a result that I feel like it's a part of me when in reality the majority of the things I see in it I have projected onto it...
Just some more maladaptive daydreaming content! We deal with this disorder daily. We are constantly daydreaming. We hope to make more content about this and spread awareness like more posts and videos about it.
here's a little reminder that no one can read your mind or see your "weird" or "bad" thoughts and daydreams! mind readers are not real, and your inner world is entirely private. your thoughts and daydreams are not embarrassing or bad, and they do not define your morality!
everyone who keeps saying shit like "sounds like something a mind reader would say" or "mind readers are real actually" i will eat you to death and enjoy every minute of it. not the time or place
"Wow, you're so self-aware! It takes most people years of therapy and dedication to get to that point." Thanks, I constantly feel completely disconnected from my physical being and the material sensation of my body, brain, and spirit/soul is so overwhelming that I often have to see myself as an objective third-party instead of an integrated entity. Father son holy spirit and all that.
more than 10 years in and i still can’t get enough of the idea of Derek courting Stiles the way werewolves do and Stiles genuinely enjoying all of it down to the simplest and smallest detail.
Your child is so lonely and emotionally numb that they cope by living in a dream world to the point where they are terrified of living in reality itself
Hi, sorry to ask you, but you mentioned something about being obsessed about media without actually liking it, and was just curious about it?
yeah no problem! For me it's not a matter of not liking the media at all, it's just when you separate your daydreams and paracosm from the subject matter, YOUR feelings about the media vs what they do for your daydreams (and the nostalgia you have because of it) are entirely different and it can be really jarring when you try to sit down and enjoy that thing without engaging in a daydream. It makes you question which parts of you enjoy it and which parts of you are just happy about it because it does feed your worlds and ideas.
It makes you wonder, if you'd never been a Madder whether you would have even given it a second thought which can be scary (at least for me). I feel like a big part of Madd and having it so early is a complete lack of identity, so it's hard to discern/cope with the idea that all these things you hold really close to you aren't in fact aspects of your personality. I don't know if I'm making sense lmao but daydreaming creates so many intense feelings that they feel like real memories, so when you look back all the years you used media for ideas and all the "good" times you've had with them, it hurts to pull all that apart and look at the media for what it is.
For example, I used to really love the maze runner movie series because it feed a portion of my daydreams when I was younger but since I haven't used it recently, I haven't watched it in years and it makes me realize all the times that I re-watched it, I was just daydreaming alongside the movie and I wasn't seeing any of the characters for what they were, I was just using to feed my paracosm. If i went back to watch them now I probably wouldn't find them that interesting (especially considering how many times I've seen them.)
I think overall, madd just creates a messed up relationship with various media, even the ones you like. I have shows and games I enjoy that don't feed daydreams at all, some that I enjoy that also feed my daydreams and others that purely work from a daydream perspective. Even the ones that serve both purposes can be affected because my madd creates obsessive behavior, once I know something can trigger a daydream I will rewatch until I physically can't anymore. Like I loved the visual novel Andromeda six on its own but I milked it dry for my daydreams until the point where I had to leave it alone for a solid year.
As I've been trying to quit (and have been failing miserably) I've just noticed more and more how split things can be.
Also, certain media are "firsts". I still remember what my very first daydreams were about and what shows inspired them and the bonds I have to them feel so strong cause I couldn't have been older than 11 at the time but as much as I love them, they are just kid shows. Great ones but still. Not to mention how those inspired Paras that I would probably sell a organ just to interact with once so it all feels very soul crushing.
Lmaoooo my parame said the funniest shit like it’s not that funny but it had me fucking cringing and laughing so hard because of it!!! ITS 5:30 in the MORNING!!!
Anyways let me just give you the dialogue and context!!
So y’all probably don’t know who Deucalion is, he’s the Demon Wolf in the show Teen Wolf, he’s blind when he isn’t using his wolf eyes 👀 and for me I’m a shapeshifter, I have 2 lives of living as a man and a women, I keep them secret from people I know and Deucalion knows that cuz he’s a stalker but yeah anywyaysyyyysss
D: “You have got quite the anger when in this form… some might even call you 2 faced.”
Kai: *slowly let’s go of his shirt and backs away*
D: “You wouldn’t punch a blind man would you?”
Kai: “Don’t worry I don’t discriminate.”
I’m screaming crying laughing why did he say thattttt!!!!! I truly love the human brain sometimes, I had no control over that😭🤣