#maybe im not making any sense

[squirmydonnie]

I don't think anything really bad has really ever happened to me

#cheeseburgerboy #maybe im not making any sense #church tomorrow #if i know what's good for me ill go to sleep now. i can't fall asleep at church tomorrow #my grandparents will be there #the service will probably be long because of Christmas

[snowychicken]

IN THE NIGHT IN THE NIGHT THIS IS HOW IT GOES

WE ARE ALL OR NOTHING

IT'S ALRIGHT IT'S ALRIGHT LISTEN TO YOUR BONES

CAN YOU HEAR IT COMING?

#neon brother #nothing but thieves #screaming lyrics into the void #I MISHEARD THIS LYRIC ORIGINALLY AND IM STILL UPSET #bc i heard 'pulse' instead of 'bones' and something clicked in my brain and it meant everything to me #like. 'we are all or nothing' okay sure i can see that #listen to your pulse. you can hear your heart beating and your blood flowing right now. youre not nothing then. are you? #and ig that point works with bones too but its not the same #plus it gives a new meaning to the lines about the wires humming like. you see it right? #just. god #and i was gonna post this last night but when i found out 'pulse' wasnt the right word i was so disappointed #maybe im not making any sense #maybe ill delete these tags later but i wanted to get this out #anyway. 'neon brother' <2

[bacchuschucklefuck]

while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best

#fantasy high junior year #fhjy #riz gukgak #figueroth faeth #sklonda gukgak #dimension 20 #this. mmmmhhh this is so. I did Not know how to draw this really. #I am very normal about riz (<- lying) #it's a brennan-dm d20 campaign the bad guy is always capitalism (I am saying this with clenched teeth) #riz out of all of them being aroace fucks with me SO bad. bc its also established that elmsville specifically and probably the #majority of solace is not. made for goblins. and that becomes sklonda being worked to the bone and pok dying on the job #and riz spending all his time trying to keep his friends together. maybe to the point of it being injurous #like. do u get what I mean. its an economy of time it takes your time it eats up your time #not just the gukgaks but everyone you have to spend time to get to live and you don't have a lot of time left in a day #and you have to spend it carefully. you have to prioritize #you're somewhere without an established community and companionship is bought with your time spent working #this place doesn't take care of you. at the end of the day who do you have who'd prioritize you. do you understand me #the evolved aroace loathing where if your friends and family are granted more time nobody would have to choose. we live in a society #holds ur hand we live in a society. idk if Im making any sense #anyway . uhhh riz is my favourite that's my statement thank you for listening. au revoir

[lovesaghost]

My favorite ship dynamic? People who constantly make fun of each other but will rip out the throat of anyone else who says something even remotely mean about the other

#does this make sense #hoffstrahm #lawrusso #klance #percabeth #coffinshipping #fluffybird #though im pretty sure if one of them heard yellow say something bad about the other theyd just agree so that #i cant think of any others lol #ronance #maybe?? idk #feel free to add more #reddie #johnlock #merthur #gallavich

[nandorsrelentless]

there seems to be far too many fans who can't seem to wrap their head around the fact that no relationship in the Vampire Chronicles is healthy. every relationship includes an element of abuse/power imbalance by normal standards. literally every single one.

they are all monsters who are no longer constrained by societal rules. so I don't think it's too crazy to expect them to do mosntorus things. the genre is Gothic HORROR. the show really prioritizes the HORROR element more so than other adaptaions, which i love.

i don't need louis to be a liar to enjoy lestat. if louis lied or misremebered things about the fight in episode 5, i literally do not care because it's never gonna make me hate louis. the baseline of what constitutes "evil" or "bad" is so different in iwtv because of the fact that they are NOT HUMAN. Claudia is literally a serial killer and she's still mother to me. ykwim?

the nature of vampirism is they have to kill to survive. so it would be really cool if people could accept louis, armand, and claudia as complex characters who are fundamentally not good people (because they aren't people!) without being racist about it. THEY ARE ALL KILLERS

im more interested in this exploration of the complexities of memory and seeing how the show integrates the other books into this story in a way that hasn't been done before than I am in discoursing about whether louis is a liar or not. who gives a shit???? grow up and realize that there are no good guys here and that's OKAY

#iwtv #tvc #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #interview with the vampire #amc iwtv #I pretty much cleansed all my feeds so i dont actually see much racism more so than i see people talking about it #just some random thoughts i guess in the wake of the new trailer just because i know things are gonna get weird #it would be nice if audiences could be trusted with complex and morally grey characters of color but idk #but i also think the fact that there are racists is not a reason to NOT make poc characters who are complex #same goes for the people who will interpret the portrayal of a morally grey poc character AS racist #there are certain tropes i think that are always going to have racist implications ofc and im not trying to discount that #but lets all be real here and realize that revisiting ep 5 to add more layers to it is NOT going to exonerate lestat by any means #add more complexity and layers and possibly show that louis was not AS helpless as he showed himself to be? maybe #but they are not going to exonerate the white character to make the black character look evil #idk if any of this made sense im just stream of consciousness rambling

[biting-blackholes]

I'm not sure if I'm otherkin, or other hearted, or just weird, but I know that I'm not human. Like yes, my physical body is human, and my spirit is "human," but there is a part of me that is connected to a wild beast. A beast that wants sharp teeth, paws, and fluffy ears, and to have a muzzle that sniffs the warm, spring air around me. Sometimes, i can even feel these parts in a way. I want to bite my friends and live in a pack, go splashing in a creek, and be wild and free. But I also know that the human part of me is ok too. Y'know?

I just feel like there part of me that's supposed to be wild. To run free.

#im a baby to this community #does this make any sense? #maybe thats why i feel drawn to WEREWOLVES and not full on wolves #Ah #nonhuman #otherhearted #alterhuman #otherkin #therian #canine kin #non human #rahhh #*bite* *bite* *bite*

[ty-bayonet-betteridge]

3l!grian is frequently depicted as a tragic figure and sometimes i wonder if we even watched the same series

#like yes he is tragic. every character in the series is tragic but i think hes easily the least tragic of the winners #(except maybe cleo. i have my own thoughts about how cleos victory plays into her core themes and why its not as joyous or triumphant as #cleo the players and the fandom at large make it seem that i will have to make a real post about at some point) #grian dies Laughing. he smiles and calls it a dual victory before the final fight. his last words are “its been amazing.” #to me Grians arc is about how he came in with this sense of mirth. had it ripled away by the reality when his joke gets Scar killed. #and then rediscovers it as he learns that the horror of their circumstances doesn't need to keep him from delight #plus also ive never seen a man more delighted to explode three of his friends #ill also bring up that Martyns lore has Grian involved in the games explicitly to COMBAT the angst #that Grians inherent silliness and joy makes the players less hopeless as they meet their endings #and theres obviously parts of martyns lore i can take or leave but this is one area where Eyes and Ears lines up very well with what actions #the characters take and so im happy to bring it up #unlike other parts such as “limlife pearl and cleo retained more trauma between seasons than any player has before” #which i do directly refute as it doesn't seem to line up with the way the characters act and the story plays out #thats for another post though #my point here is 3l grian was having the time of his life and i think there are some fanon interpretationd that disregard that #which theyre free to do im definitely someone who has ignored canon plenty of times in the past (glances at worm) #but i think this is the sort of thing that makes the canon more interesting and compelling #anyway. um. rambled longer than i meant to there #grian #trafficblr #3rd life #3rd life smp #3lsmp

[metukika]

ill say it before and ill say it again. hc that teru doesnt like serizawa at all.

#im gonna go into it here cuz im not confident in my hcs hi hello #so actually not cuz of the whole claw thing. i think that seri wanting to be a better person is like the one thing teru respects about him #and thats the thing. hes like !!! hes kinda like me!!! so he lowkey tries to make a connection thru that like haha we were both assholes an #arent perfect but trying! but see heres the thing. serizawa is an adult. he wants to act like an adult. so he treats teru like a child. not #in a bad way. normal adult to child. he respects him and all but see teru acts and maybe feels that he feels like an adult. so he sees that #as disrespectful. finally someone whos kinda ignorant like him... but hes treating teru like hes a child?! maybe legally serizawa is an #adult but after staying inside his room for years and then all that manipulation at claw.. mentally teru considers them the same. except #that seri wont act like it cuz reigen told him how to treat regular teenagers but teru isnt a regular teenager get what im sayin #ok and. then teru is kinda mean to him like ok man get outta my way but seri respects him and gives him more chances which makes teru feel #guilty which makes him dislike seri even more and try to push him away by being mean and its this hopeless cycle until one day teru snaps a #him and they have an actual conversation and he can see that hes actually the one treating serizawa like a child. and that hes like a shitt #adult in this scenario am i making any sense is anyone even listening #anyways sorry this is in the tags if u thought it was good and wanted to rb. hope i made u consider some dynamics

[hearts4juzi]

Idk why but labelling Vuzi as toxic yuri jsut feels incorrect to me. Juzi is toxic yuri, my friend. Vuzi is just enemies to lovers yuri. There's a difference

#ddoes this make any sense #idk i feel like juzi has that “we're still kinda enemies lolz” effect that vuzi doesnt #mmm maybe im insane #tzu rambles

[jenna-louise-jamie]

thinking about yassen gregorovich instead of sleeping (because i love him) and how he is a catalyst. yassen stabbs ash -> ash kills john rider -> ian rider raises alex -> yassen kills ian rider -> mi6 blackmails alex into becoming a teenage spy.

i have so many thoughts that i can't properly articulate. obviously this is a simplified chain of events, but yassen and his choices set off a chain reaction of the world's most unfortunate dominos. especially when you read russian roulette. to be clear im not necessarily trying to blame him for everything because that feels very mean. he was also just a 14 year old kid when everything in his life went wrong, just like alex. only difference being yassen literally had no one.

i think i should write an essay about this because i haven't even gotten into my thoughts about what yassen and alex's dynamic would look like past eagle strike. i would imagine it'd be similar to ellie and joel from the last of us part 2.

where obviously yassen loves alex and alex on some level cares for yassen back but struggles to reconcile that with the fact that yassen is responsible for his uncle's death. a very unforgivable act. it would be so messy and complicated and angsty, because on one hand here is an adult who truly cares about him and has a connection with him through his father. yassen could tell alex about john, and trust that yassen truly wants whats best for him. but he killed ian, and he cannot take that back.

while alex reels from those feelings, yassen is also trying to reconcile his love of alex with the knowledge that he on some level is responsible for the suffering alex endured at the hands of mi6. and possibly even the fact that alex's godfather is the one who killed john and helen.

#btw i think anthony horowitz killed yassen off so he wouldnt have to deal with this lmao #and sidenote ash is responsible for his own shitty choices but i think itd be difficult for yassen to cope with the fact that stabbing ash #led to some very bad consequences for literally everyone #are there any fics that are similar to what im describing?? ? #i read a ton of alex rider fics but i mostly read fluff because im actually too emotionally fragile to handle angst #i cried while reading stormbreaker and that book wasnt even supposed to be sad #if this is doesnt make any sense its because i woke up at 2 am and wrote this #its just word vomit; pure not proofread thoughts directly from my fucked up little brain #idk maybe someone will enjoy reading this #alex rider #yassen gregorovich #alex rider books #ian rider #john rider #chaotic ramblings #and final note i do not ship yalex #i was thinking of this more in terms of yassen having a weird guardian/parental relationship with alex #if it wasnt clear from my ellie and joel reference from the last of us #anyways im gonna go back to making shitposts and memes so i never have to feel anything again thank you goodnight <3

[dizzybizz]

meowzers

#hey guys i made a little freak. thoughts? #hes got ghost fish friends :) #and hes a catboy #ALSO WTF IS IT WITH ME AND LIKE.. #FISHERMEN LATELY. FIRST GUY NOW THIS FUCKER WTH #uhm but he basically came to be bc i was like “damn i rlly want to make more original art....” and the first thing that came out of my hand #was a catboy. not gonna read into it too deeply. #i dont have any proper explantation for the fish... the idea is that he ?? eats them and then magics them into big ghost fish and idk #its cool in my head!! im just so bad at formulating my thoughts in a way that makes any sense at all 😭 #my art #dizzyoriginals #oc #idk what he does with the fish. maybe theyre friends of his. maybe its like a they give him their life and he gives them new life or smth. #a give and take back and forth kinda thing- listen these r late night rambles. #also i just love the cartoony ass fish skeletons in cartoons n stuff. theyre so dear to me. i wanted to draw em #cw eyestrain #eyestrain

[bumpereatspants]

stories that express the fluidity of time and that your actions have an impact on the future and the past and the present and that you influence the world and people around you and that you are meaningful and

#and ​when you feel like you aren’t important and you have no impact you do maybe you just dont see it yet but #maybe your past self would be proud of you and care about you the same way you can care about your past self even when you’ll never meet the #idek if im wording any of this in a way that makes sense but time beign shown in a way that is fluid and not at all linear #just does something to me idk #like #interstellar #tenet movie #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #looper #anywhos #txt

[xzazu2002]

i figured if i don’t post these today, i’ll never do

sooo

hero dream continues B3 🔥

#mcyt #sketches #dream mcyt #dream fanart #hero au #dsmp hero au #dsmp fanart #also also guys - im not quite set on what powers to give this bud sooo i’m so open for any suggestions!! #daamn teleportation would be fun #or like i thoight with matter manipulation that maybe he could teleport through shadows #does that make sense? #i donnoo xD #oh and btw he’s still super fast but that just a result of his hard work and training #bcs it’s dream come on xD #my art #dream #dreamwastaken #dsmp fanarts

[donnydamakkk]

unpopular opinion: there is no point in the show in which jeid would have made sense. jj never seemed interested in him, and his feelings always felt misconstrued and misplaced. they never had that kinda chemistry.

#ro's takes #unpopular opinion #jennifer jj jareau #jennifer jareau #spencer reid #anti jeid #furthermore i didn't even realize they were actually friends until jj made him henry's godfather #even that decision doesn't make sense to me #especially considering she didn't trust him alone w henry until he was like what 5 or 6?? #what episode did they get drunk n hungover? y'all know the one #maybe that doesn't stand out to most ppl but idk #me? im not finna make someone my child's godparent if there's a point in time that i would b worried about them being alone together #like at any point #why would i make u a godparent when im worried bout if u can take care of them without me #the trust is the point n canonically it wasn't there #they always read as older sister/younger brother who love each other #are there for each other during hard dark times #but aren't really close cua they share no commonalities #i genuinely don't understand how ppl see anything but #that said yeah even jeid as best friends doesn't really make sense to me #she's never really interested in him enough for that to ever make sense #she doesn't even ever care to listen to his lil infodumps #which contrary to fandom beliefs she doesn't have to listen to him if she doesn't want to #her not wanting to doesn't make her a bitch either #criminal minds

[animangalover-writes]

So I had a dream about wincest(being obsessed with each other as always lol)

I was half asleep when I wrote this so bear with me

So I had this dream where some monster essentially got to sam and manipulated his world into his like ideal world. And his ideal world was him being a kid again with Dean taking care of him, just them in this little house. The same perfect day played over and over again, like a time loop. And somewhere outside this house is the real Dean, caught a time loop of his own, as he continously breaks into this little house to try to get to Sam and free him. But this monster always gets to him first and catches him off guard. It's like he doesn't remember the last time he was in the house, like it always feels like the first time setting foot in it, because the creature uses the same move over and over to kill him(but like, he doesn't really die, its more like this world is its own little pocket dimension and every time dean dies he wakes up outside of it again). And ever time, kid Sam hears something, but the monster/kid Dean tells him it's ok and they ignore it.

By the way, the monster in my dream is basically like this black-grey sentient goop(think Venom) that can morph itself into anyone it wants, and is hanging in weird strands all around the house that Sam doesn't notice. But dean does, and even though he tries to avoid stepping in it, it always catches his foot and essentially Webs his hands and gun in place, disarming him, then slams him against a glass mirror or a wall hard enough that it kills him.

Anyway, somewhere outside of this loop, Dean is vaguely aware that this monster always catches him with the same move, and the only reason he dies every time is because the surprise attack makes him too unsteady to shoot it, and catches him at a point where his footing is off, so he's easy to take down. But every time he enters the house again, he forgets what he learned, and it takes him down all over again. He admits to someone unseen that the reason it takes him down so easily/catches him off guard is because he's alone, aka Sam's not there to help him.

At some point, Sam starts becoming more aware that something is off, and that things are too perfect.

This is where the dream gets kind of fuzzy, but essentially Sam becomes aware enough and, still as a kid, sees adult dean walking through the house and calls out to him, confused. This time, Dean sees Sam and looks utterly relieved and says "Sammy..." like he's so happy to have found him. But this distraction causes the monster to catch him off guard again. It catches his foot and grabs his hands in its weird goo, but Sam is here now, and he sees this creature for the first time. So he yells out to Dean to move a certain way that gives him enough leverage to shoot the creature(this was mentioned as something dean always knew would help but always forgot when in the house).

Meanwhile, the monster actively tries to get into Sam's mind again and tell him, as young Dean, that everything will be ok so long as he let's him kill this intruder who's trying to hurt them. Finally it stops working on Sam and he becomes his real age again.

Some fight happens in between that I didn't really get to see, but the outcome was this: they managed to hurt the creature by working together, now that Dean wasn't alone, he doesn't die and actually gets some good shots in. At some point, Sam rushes the thing and the only reason it doesn't hurt him is because it grew some sort of attachment to him during the whole thing, and so he's the only one that it would let kill it(feels like a metaphor for Sam and Dean's real codependent obsessive relationship).

Anyway I don't remember much after this so that's basically all I have, so yeah.(also ignore any typos, I didn't edit this. I just woke up)

#also after they kill the monster someone mentioned something about it only letting sam kill it because he was like the mother to it #and dean was the father??? #i didn’t add that in cause it doesn't really make any sense but yk. it was a dream so. #anyway #i dont go here #ive just watched a few episodes and like wincest as a ship #so take this as you will #if i had enough creative energy i would write a fic about this in great detail #but i dont so #maybe one of you can write something about it #wincest #samdean #weecest? technically?? #weecest #i was gonna tag other main tags but i realized that would attract the wrong people #so im keeping it to the shipping tags #proship #for good measure #aml dreams #aml speaks #if my friends see this. no you dont. #pinning this post so i can come back to it when i write the fic for it lol