#me and my sibling: our WHAT

[bananonbinary]

today in: amatonormativity is fucking insane

i only just realized that months ago my uncle and cousins were so goddamn weird to my (found family) brother and disdainfully calling him "my....friend." bc they thought we were fucking and were trying to be homophobic about it

#my family: we are going to undermine and devalue your romantic relationship #me and my sibling: our WHAT #i was just like 'yeah friends isnt friendship great :)' #i brought this up and he also did not realize thats what they were doing at the time #and mom was just like 'uh yeah i didnt say anything i thought it was obvious sorry' #like. i call him my sibling. my MOM calls him her kid. #all three of us live together as a family unit #why would you possibly think thats a sex thing #what kinda weird ass kink do you think is happening here

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[lnmei]

The Prince of Tennis! 🎾💥

#my art #prince of tennis #I love prince of tennis ♥️ best franchise. to me 🫶 #my sibling is drawing the same teams and charas so we are going to compare our interpretations. we love prince of tennis! #we are the opposite. I find drawing cute faces and big eyes soo hard but that’s what my sibling is best at lol #my faves in seigaku are fuji and kaidou #hyotei is atobe hiyoshi and shishido #also yes I did yassify kabaji he deserves it I think. canon does him dirty -_- #rikkai is marui renji and nio #shitenhoji is shiraishi specifically bc his character songs are shockingly good loll #in fudomine ibu has my haircut so I like him. also I reject that tachibana is a natural blonde he is not #I also have most hated characters per team but let’s not get into that #ok I’m done for now excuse me…🚶🏻‍♀️

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

So, we have money set aside that we cannot touch for a place to live. We have incomes coming our way. We are simply trying to survive until we can secure housing. But we don't have the funds yet because we're waiting on approvals and such. We're going to try and stay at hotels until then, because sleeping in parking lots is scary with a car full of girls.

Especially when we break down and have to push the car. One of those nights we managed to get to a parking lot and most people kept their distance even with greetings. But while I was getting something out of the trunk, bend over looking for something, someone was trying to talk to me and calling me beautiful and it was gross. Saying things to me and my sister but she didn't notice. The only reason he left us alone was because some other guy shooed him away which I grateful for. But a lot of the times there aren't people willing to do that you know? And that was like at two a.m. or something, not an hour of politeness.

Plus it's been raining and that in itself has made me want to curl up in a ball and stay away from cars. Got too much car trauma for that shit.

Basically, trying to avoid more trauma for myself and my siblings, and my mother. If anyone could please help, whether it's a dollar or five, just whatever you can!! We appreciate it greatly!!

Paypal

Cash.app

Gofund.me

#Everytime we're just trying to make it just a little bit longer bc we have something to help #We go through absolute hell before and it sucks #Like I'm so fucking sick - my body is screaming at me to rest but I'm trying to get things done #Things that aren't guaranteed later bc we never know where we're going to sleep #If we'll get a place to rest our heads #Like it sucks and I wish so much better for my siblings #We're so close we just need to make it a little bit longer #That's what's keeping us going just a little bit more

[braxix]

Caranthir: Did you know that the entomological root of pencil, penecilin, and the word for a male body part is-

Maedhros: Which word?

Celegorm, whispering: pen- *laughing*

Caranthir: Maedhros, please don't.

Maedhros: No, really. I don't know what word you're talking about.

Curufin: Maglor was saying a word for it earlier.

Caranthir: I hate all of you.

Maedhros: Just say the word, it isn't a bad word.

#irl story at bottom of tags cause of course this is a crazy quote off of my siblings #lotr #lord of the rings #incorrect lord of the rings quotes #silmarillion #incorrect silmarillion quotes #incorrect quotes #maglor #maedhros #caranthir #celegorm #curufin #based on a true event between my two younger siblings me and our mom #our mom was acting oblivious to what word it could possibly be #my youngest sibling was trying to say it but kept laughing their head off #I was telling them it wasn't a bad word and was the one who “said” a word for it(it had been part of another word/wasn't actually saying it) #my younger sibling was the one who refused to say it and was embarrassed by our attempts to get them to say it(it wasn't in public at all).

[werewolfrevenge]

This this is their dynamic right?

I was originally gonna do this with like one of the villains and the turtles but uhhh rule of funny won so this is the one we made!

#bitch in this context means annoying I guess I dunno I’m just trying to be silly #side note this image and 03 raph and Mikey are so me and my younger sister coded lol #if you asked me what fictional siblings describes our relationship it’s 03 raph and Mikey…. #tmnt 2003 #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2k3 #tmnt 03 #raphael splinterson #michelangelo splinterson #03 Michelangelo #03 Rapheal #Rapheal tmnt #tmnt michelangelo #🌀my uploads🌀 #2003 tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles 2003

[cakeyouareoh]

All the talk about siblings has got me wondering if a certain experience is a common phenomenon or not.

Did you, providing you had younger siblings with let’s say an at least 5 yr age gap between you and them, have a younger sibling that was your “baby”? (aka you wanted to hold them all the time, dress them up, get them up from naps, basically just treat them like your own kid. Not necessarily in a kid-who-is-super-nurturing-and-into-baby-dolls way, just that you were super attached.)

A reblog to reach more people would be nice, if you’d like :).

#I have a little sister who was like this for me. she was born when I was eleven. #from birth to about two we were really close—and then she decided she didn’t like me as much. it hurt then and it kinda still hurts now. #to this day she clashes quite a bit with me unfortunately—but maybe it’ll be better when she’s an adult🤷‍♀️ #(For the record our parents were not pushing us or expecting us to be parent like in any way to our siblings.) #it’s funny to me because at no point was I into playing house or babydolls as a child. #nor when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up did I ever say “a mom”. #reading beanie babies playmobil and playing outside with my brother was much more my thing.

[bleaksqueak]

cw pet death under the cut

Well, I guess I largely vanished for the past couple of days for some people. We unexpectedly lost two of our ratties, one of which was one I had a close bond with, so that sure knocked me out for a day. I've been taking care of one of our little old ladies, Sammy, and we expected she would leave us fairly soon, but we lost Willow and Abbie within just a couple of days of each other instead. Have some cute photos of baby abbie and willow since they were Very Loved and had happy lives. Baby Abbie! When we saw how tiny she was (stunted growth, runt) and her little broken tail we had to take her home with us... somehow, miraculously, she could still move the whole tail! It's a mystery how it broke in the first place, and no one knew when we got her. We never had it amputated since it wasn't causing her any distress, and it just over time came to look like a little pikachu tail to us. She was my little heart rat and was glued to me near constantly.

all growed up button:

"FOUL TARNISHED...." And baby Willow!!

So cute in her pot pie the incredibly sweet /sadcute photos of her mommy, Bonnie (still with us!) protecting her the day we adopted them. They were adopted together due to their previous owners having to move and not being able to keep them. Bonnie was convinced we were going to steal her baby, so she kept sitting on her like this:

Willow was curious and wanted to make friends faster than Bonnie wanted, but Bonnie warmed up and finally stopped guarding so heavily. Part of her warming up included her adopting me, so uh... rat mom? She treats me like a baby rat. Mom, I'm a full grown Rat, thank you. Willow was ***fascinated*** sitting and watching Resident Evil 4. She sat through the whole game and any time a loud noise would happen she'd ZOOP back into a sleeve...then poke back out, ears perked and whiskers going. She did the same thing last christmas when we opened presents, so RE4 gets called "CHRISTMAS 4" in our house. also to the other ratty keepers out there, don't worry, the little cage is only a nursery/hospital cage and playtime cage, they lived in a giant critter nation with lots of friends. Anyway, I'm a little sad still so I wanted to share some cute photos and celebrate them instead. We're probably going to be looking around at the local breeders to see if anyone has any baby girls ready for adoption.

#photos #rats #cw: death #cw: pet death #cute photos and cute comments under the cut though #since this is to celebrate them #my sweet little ratties #it's part of owning little animals with short lifespans #the joy they give outweighs the pain of losing them to me at least #and I always look forward to getting to spoil a new generation when one generation leaves #we still have bonnie / lei lei / sammy / wednesday / gizmo and coco #we had eight total in our mischief before #so I suppose we might be looking at getting two or more new little ones #depending on what the local area has and if there are already bonded siblings #willow and abbie both named after two of the soli characters #in our house we have a little headcanon that when they leave they go to a little rattie afterlife train station #so we were saying abbie had to go pick willow up at the station

[kaylazer]

back on my bullshit (meeting men im in love with). Ben Schwartz is so kind and tall :-) I didn’t totally freeze like when I met the Jonas brothers but the selfies we took are blurry so 😔

(at least I have these bc I told sam to record the whole thing heheheh)

#also the show was great #I had to slap sam many times bc she was choking from laughter #ben schwartz #bro how did i forget my personal tag for ben #ben schwartz my beloved #me #also forgot me tag #editing tags after the fact to recount the entire experience #so we waited outside for about 10 minutes and I had no expectation of how long it usually takes for him to come out and take pictures #he comes out without a mask which is surprising to me and says ‘you guys wanna take some pictures?’ #we all just kinda form a non sensical blob (there’s maybe like 10 ppl total) around him #Brandon Katie and Eugene hang back towards the stage door unsure if anyone wants to chat with them #I’m gushing over how tall and handsome Ben is to my sister who is ready to record our interaction once he gets to me #as I listen to him chatting with the other fans I can’t help but smile and say to my sibling ‘he’s so sweet’ every minute #he meets someone who has a cool sketchbook of the skits from the show that he wants to take a picture of #but they need to write their handle so he says he’ll talk with some others and get back to them #so he does and then later I see the girl ready to talk to him again off to the side #so I tell her ‘you can go ahead and finish talking to him”’ and she’s like ‘are you sure?’ and I’m like duh! #finally it’s my turn and he looks at me and says ‘hi I’m Ben’ #yes Benjamin Joseph Schwartz I know #he sees me holding my phone and immediately sides steps to get into selfie mode as I ask him if he’ll sign my Jean Ralphio figure #he steps back to Be in front of me ‘yes of course!’ #what insane media training he has #he says ‘I’ve seen this! this is the first one I’ve ever signed’ #upon seeing the figure he says ‘it’s beautiful’ lol #he’s concerned that the sharpie I brought will not show up and I mention that it was probably a bad one to bring because it’s pastel #he signs and holds it up (as you can see in the first photo) to make sure it’s visible #he hands it back to me and I thank him and he says ‘do you want to take a picture?’ #and I say ‘I would love to!’ and then I hold the Jean Ralphio figure and he looks to my sibling assuming she’s taking the picture #she’s like ‘no I’m just here for moral support!’

[4esthetic-dissonance]

I'm working on a fic and was like 'how in the hell do you make LINGUANG JUN the least bit redeemable?'. I mean, /Linguang jun/ who tossed a developmentally four year old Mobei Jun to a pack of humans? The kid could have died. And then I saw a translation of the extras. It describes lgj as mbj's 'young uncle', says that he 'wasn't that much older than him (mbj)'. And I just- its a hell of a lot different, a Scar type tossing his nephew to the proverbial wolves than it is for a maybe dumb, maybe petty, maybe developmentally five or six year old to shove their annoying technically-nephew-who-in-age-and-context-is-more-like-a-brother-than-lgj's-actual-brother into a situation that the text implies was more frightening than actually /dangerous/. And that- well I can work with that.

#Yeah yeah yeah I know in text he doesn't have anything going for him #And maybe the translation i found is not perfect #But its what I'm going with #And I think its more compelling than 'I hate your dad and so I hate you' #And what the fuck is svsss about if not deepening the complexity of easily-written-off characters anyway? #Svsss #Mobei Jun #Linguang jun #Scum villain #Scum villains self saving system #Honestly I even like my version better than the 'mbj senior stole lgj's wife' story #Which I think is fanon anyway #But then I have five siblings and we spent most of our childhoods trying not trying to kill each other #And yeah uhuh a nice thoughtful person would feel bad for endangering their sort of little brother #But a person from the world and not from a morality tale (especially a little kid) would more likely grow resentful #And dig in their heels that they'd done nothing wrong and why was little bro such a crybaby anyway he doesn't even deserve to be king #It just makes sense to me in a way that other versions of it that I've read don't #Don't bug me if you don't like the translation #I'm working on fanfiction not on getting canon reprinted

[dark-elf-writes]

Okay so @musicfeedsmysoul12 got me thinking about metal shows and the hp/havenfall crossover and it’s eating my brain

Harry who has no idea about most music that isn’t magical (Petunia never was really into music much preferring to have her soaps on during the day and any music Sirius might have had was long since thrown out by his mother when he ran away) so other than a few off key renditions from Sirius and the one time the Weird Sisters played at Hogwarts he doesn’t have much to go on when he moves to Havenfall.

Something JD takes as a person challenge tbh showing him all of their music (much to Razi and Grace’s horror as Harry loves all of it) and when there’s a metal show in Indy they don’t hesitate to head out.

It’s just them and Teddy (Grace decided to hang back but promised to take Harry to a concert that was more her style) and JD looks right at home while Harry is in his usual “thrifted from my friends’ closets” style in an oversized sweater that is without a doubt Ron’s and a pair of ripped jeans that are definitely Ginny’s and Teddy has his hair grown longer than be usually keeps it so it’s a little past his shoulders and his usual bright blue mass of curls complete with his own ripped jeans and Jacket to match JD. And of course some specialty headphones that have little blue wolf ears to protect his ears.

Harry is having the time of his life in the middle of a crowd where no one knows who or what he is, screaming along to the songs and moshing. He doesn’t even flinch when someone compliments his “sick lightning makeup” feeling more alive than he has since he walked to his death at seventeen. Teddy is more often than not on JD’s shoulders because they’re taller (Harry is definitely pouting about it until JD offers to put him on their shoulders too) and they have gotten so many compliments throughout the night on their hair they are beaming. And if the color of their hair and eyes shifts during the show it’s really just a trick of the light they swear. JD is living the scene and the music as they normally do but what they love more is seeing the people they love sweaty and rumpled and bathed in the flashing lights of the show looking so happy and free. They kiss Harry in the middle of the pit both of them reeking of cheep beer and sweat and with Teddy groaning about them being gross as little finger tug gently at JD’s hair.

BUT this also has me thinking about how JD is also in a band in one (some? Idk. Going off of the wiki here and there’s not much info) of the routes and how they would definitely have little Teddy rocking out on stage with them whenever possible and has definitely dragged Harry out on stage with them a few times to kiss him for all the crowd to see. (Harry pretends to be annoyed by it but he is always grinning against JD’s mouth when it happens)

#the elf talks #harry potter #havenfall is for lovers #Metal shows are so much fun okay like I want to go to another one already #jd: what’s the point of beig stronger than a human if I can’t put my boyfriend and our kid on my shoulders in the pit? #jd probably has a half sibling somewhere that makes supernatural specific aids including headphones for werewolves right #they have a half sibling for everything #we all know I love a metal concert okay like this was going to speak to me

[sentientsky]

btw this is how my posts are vetted. just in case anyone was wondering (absolutely no one was wondering)

#i just send shit to my baby brother and make him tell me what he thinks #take a shot every time I say fuck #our conversations are usually more unhinged but eh #im coming back to add an image id in the alt text — i just have to go to class right now #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #good omens 2 #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable lovers #ineffable wives #good omens season 2 #go2 #shitpost #siblings

[wholesome-supervillain]

broke out the new prismacolors, i like em so far. unfortunately i do not have a pencil sharpener.

#we’ll fight for our trans siblings right? #idk how to help but i’ll do my part #just tell me what to do #🚗 🔨 ⚒️ 💥 #🚗🔨⚒️💥

[jasontoddssuper]

I JUST REALIZED THAT ME BEING A ZUKO KINNIE MEANS I'M ALSO A HUNTER NOCEDA KINNIE

#that post i saw years ago(about jason todd being your fave batfam member)was right i AM in a permanent state of 'going through it'💀 #my gf is even a lot like willow and i have two younger found siblings who remind me of luz and gus + they're an enby girl and a gay boy #time to break out that 'blackhunternoceda' url once pride month passes(and yes you can ask what my url will be on it) #toh #toh spoilers #huntlow #willow tag #zuko #maiko atla #ty luko #zukka #atla geekery #me and lisa #me and lovely #me and leo #letters from summer #OUR NAMES EVEN SOUND THE SAME HELP #hunter noceda-deammone

[girl-bateman]

How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?

#i keep going back and forth on it #bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister) #and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad #and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford #and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural #BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him #and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam #plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever #while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me #and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself #so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense #bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too ! #im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :) #so ???? #i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl #(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus) #i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails #someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭 #spn

[apostate-in-an-alcove]

I'm at a point in my life and where I feel the way I feel about my parents and I refuse to let anyone guilt trip me or shame me for it.

#abusive parents #venting #my parents had NO business being fucking parents #legit wish i was raised by my grandparents #they were always better parents me and my siblings than our actual parents #yeah I'm ungrateful #i don't give a fuck what my parents did for me and my siblings #They're disgusting horrible people who irresponsibly had three children and then abused and neglected them all their life #you people who blindly defend parents can kiss my ass