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anna-scribbles Ā· 6 months
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vive la rƩsistance and happy halloween!
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fireplceashes Ā· 16 days
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evan buckley + queercoding | part 1 / part 2
for @ice-sculptures ā™”
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volaenii Ā· 4 months
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Thank you all for your support and happy new year!
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I ADORE your design for Charlie. Itā€™s so adorable!!!!!!
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Iā€™m so glad yā€™all loved her design!!
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lizaisdrawing Ā· 2 months
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Thank you all! šŸ¤
Did not think Iā€™d reach this milestone when I first posted my Wally fanart on a whim one night haha
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macaulaytwins Ā· 1 month
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ā€œmy pussy has taken me places I wouldnā€™t go with a gunā€
the places in question:
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bratfiction Ā· 6 months
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18+ CONTENT ā€” MDNI. warnings -> f!reader, filming, m. masturbation, rough sex, light asphyxiation.
loser, college!kƶnig returns with his gf that has an onlyfans.
at first he wants nothing to do with it, says that he doesn't need anyone recognizing him but he's more than happy to support you from a distance. meaningā€” watching your videos on the off chance that you're staying the night at your own dorm and he misses you. he gets the unedited version, gets to see all the little bits and giggles you cut out.
all the times you accidentally moan his name because you just cant help it. heā€™s always running through your mind.
every time he indulges in your content, he finds his mind racing. wondering if it really would be fun if he joined you on camera, for startersā€¦ then his thoughts drift off somewhere darker, falling for the notion that your audience doesnā€™t even know that he owns every part of you. it makes him grit out curses. prompts him fuck his own fist even harder, going from a lazy push and pull of his strong hips to an angry pace, while imagining that your sobs and hiccups of pleasure are bouncing off of the walls. even though your cunt feels devastatingly better than his handā€” thereā€™s no faking that.
shamefully, he lets these thoughts fester. heā€™s not sure if there will be a boiling point. because after all he lets you do whatever you please. youā€™re able to make him forget everything with a few sweet kisses, but this. it lingers in his mind even during the most innocent moments, and comes to the forefront during the nastiest. like when he has your face smooshed into one of the couch cushions, nearly suffocating you, but the slight lack of oxygen makes everything feel better. you donā€™t mind admitting that. youā€™re clawing at everything and anything you can reach pathetically; the arm of the couch, kƶnigā€™s beefy forearms as they cage you in.
you babble every time his cock plunges into you. i love youā€” i love you, koko. it makes him feel insane. high, even. especially when you prop yourself up on your knees beneath him, making it easier for him to fuck you stupid. he chokes on a groan, thinking as carefully as he can about his next few words, ā€œwanna show them how much you love me?ā€
them? it takes you a painful second, before it all clicks. your cunt squeezes around him at the idea, nearly cumming right then and there before you two can even start recording. youā€™re nodding furiously and drooling out your pleas, and kƶnig still has enough of his brain left to laugh breathily and prop one of your phones up for the first of many times.
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flowercrowngods Ā· 3 months
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who did this to you. part 3
šŸ¤šŸŒ· read part 1 here | read part 2 here pre-s4, steve whump, protective (but scared) eddie. now with robin!
The number rings in his head, echoing off the inside of his skull and sinking lower and lower until his heart strings join the symphony that leaves him shaking as the memory of Harringtonā€™s slurred voice is drowned out by the dial tone that feels harrowingly like a flatline right now.Ā 
Said Iā€™ll go blind. Or deaf. Or justā€¦ die.
Eddie doesnā€™t really feel like his body belongs to him anymore, or like thereā€™s anything left inside him other than panic and fear and that stupid, stupid shaking that he canā€™t suppress even as he bites his knuckles. Hard.Ā 
The pain helps a little not to startle too much when the dial tone stops and a female voice begins speaking to him. Still he almost drops the phone, cursing under his breath as he pulls his hair to collect himself and get his voice to work.Ā 
ā€œHā€” Hi, hello, Mrs Buckley? This is, uh. I. Iā€™m. A friend of Robinā€™s, could you, uhā€”ā€œĀ 
ā€œOh, of course, dear,ā€ the woman says, and Eddie feels his eyes beginning to prick with how nice she sounds even through the phone.Ā 
Does she know Steve, too? Would she worry if she knew? Would she curse Eddie for not taking him to the hospital right away? Would she blame him if anything happened?Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry? What did you say your name was?ā€ she asks, repeating herself by the sound of it.Ā 
He blanks, for a whole five seconds, before he spots a note stuck to the fridge saying Donā€™t forget to eat, Eddie :-)
ā€œEddie,ā€ he croaks. ā€œUh, Eddie Munson.ā€
ā€œAlright, Eddie Munson, Iā€™ll see if I can grab Robin for you. You have a good day, dear, yes?ā€Ā 
No. ā€œThanks.ā€Ā 
The hand clenched in his hair pulls tighter and tighter until the tears fall and he can pretend itā€™s from pain and not fromā€” whatever the fuck is happening.Ā 
He waits, phone pressed to his ear with a kind of desperation heā€™s never really felt, and never wants to feel again. He doesnā€™t even know what to tell Robin; what to say. Itā€™s not like they ever hang out or have anything to say to each other, so why would sheā€”Ā 
ā€œMunson?ā€ Robinā€™s voice appears on the other end, a little too loud for Eddieā€™s certain state, and he does drop the phone this time, scrambling to catch it and only making the situation worse as it dangles by his knees.Ā 
He drops to the floor, pulling his knees to his chest and reaching for the phone again.Ā 
ā€œHi.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat do you want? Howā€™d you even get this number? I swear, if youā€”ā€œĀ 
ā€œItā€™s Blue. I mean, Steve. Harrington.ā€Ā 
That shuts her right up, and Eddie clenches his eyes shut for a moment, hoping to keep the tremor out of his voice if only he takes a moment to breathe.Ā 
The moment stretches. And Robinā€™s voice is wary and quiet when she speaks again.Ā 
ā€œWhat about Steve.ā€Ā 
Eddie rubs his face, leaving more dirt and grime to fill the tear tracks, and clenches his fist before his mouth.Ā 
ā€œEddie,ā€ Robin demands, dangerous now. Nothing left of the rambling, bubbling mess he knows her to be on the school hallways. ā€œWhat. About. Steve.ā€Ā 
ā€œHeā€¦ Heā€™s hurt.ā€Ā 
Thereā€™s a bit of a commotion on the other end, before Robin declares, ā€œIā€™m coming over. You tell me everything.ā€Ā 
ā€œYouā€” I mean, heā€™s in the hospital with my uncle, soā€”ā€œĀ 
ā€œI am. Coming. Over,ā€ she says, enunciating every word as though she were making a threat. Maybe she is. But the certainty in her voice helps a little, anchors him the same way that Wayneā€™s calmness did. ā€œAnd you tell me everything.ā€Ā 
Eddie finds himself nodding along, knowing intuitively that there is nothing that could stop her now. Knowing that he doesnā€™t want to stop her.Ā 
ā€œā€˜Kay.ā€ Itā€™s a pathetic little sound, all choked up and tiny. She doesnā€™t comment on it.Ā 
One second he hears her determined exhale, the next sheā€™s hung up on him and Eddie is greeted by the flatline again. He lets out a shuddering breath and leans his head back against the wall.Ā 
Breathing is hard again, but itā€™s all he has to do now, all thatā€™s left to do, so he focuses. Inhale. Hold. Exhale. Hold. His lungs are burning and thereā€™s something wrong about the way he pulls in air and keeps it there, desperately latching onto it until the very last second, his exhales more of a gasping cough than calm and controlled.Ā 
It takes a while. Longer than it should. But with Harringtonā€™s blood still on his hands, with his heartbeat in his ears so loud he canā€™t even hear the words Wayne used to say about breathing in through the mouth or the nose orā€¦ or something, heā€”Ā 
Heā€™s fine. Heā€™s home. Wayneā€™s got Blue, and Buckley is on her way, andā€¦ Heā€™s fine.Ā 
People donā€™t just die.Ā 
They donā€™t.Ā 
Heā€™s fine.Ā 
Eventually, Eddie manages to breathe steadily, the air no longer shuddering and his hands no longer shaking. Itā€™s stupid, really, being so worked up over someone he doesnā€™t even really know. Sure, everyone knows Steve fucking Harrington, and everyone sees Steve fucking Harrington ā€” whether they want it or not. He has a way of drawing eyes toward him even if all he does is walk the halls with his dorky smile and that stupidly charming swagger heā€™s got going on. Always matching his shoes to his outfit.
Eddie can relate.
Always reaching out to touch the person heā€™s talking to; clapping their back or shoulder, lightly shoving them in jest, ruffling their hair or chasing them through the halls, moving and holding himself like teenage angst canā€™t reach him. Like he belongs wherever he goes. Like heā€™s so, so comfortable in his own skin. Like the clothes he wears arenā€™t armour but just a part of him; a means of self-expression.Ā 
Again, Eddie can relate. He can relate to all of this.Ā 
Itā€™s almost like the two of them arenā€™t so different after all. Just going about it differently.Ā 
And now heā€™sā€¦ Bleeding. Slurring his speech. Wheezing his breath. And Eddie feels protective. Eddie feels responsible. Like he should be there, like he should get to know more about him. About Steve. About Blue.Ā 
But he canā€™t. And he wonā€™t. So he gets up with a groan that expresses his frustration and the need to make a sound, to fight the oppressive silence that only encourages his thoughts to run in obsessive little circles, and he hangs up the phone thatā€™s been dangling beside him all this time.Ā 
He needs a smoke.Ā 
He needs a smoke and a blunt and a drink and for this day to be over and for time to revert and to leave him out of whatever business he stumbled into by opening the door to the boathouse and, apparently, Steve Harringtonā€™s life.Ā 
But unfortunately, the universe doesnā€™t seem to care about what he needs, because just as he steps outside and goes to light his cig, he catches sight of a harried looking Robin Buckley, standing on the pedals of her bike as she kicks them, her hair blowing in the wind to reveal a frown between her brows. A wave of unease overcomes Eddie, an unease he canā€™t really place. Maybe itā€™s the set of her jaw, or the tension in her shoulders, or maybe itā€™s the worry and anger she exudes.Ā 
It never occurred to him before that Robin Buckley might not be a person youā€™d want to set off. And not because of her uncontrollable rambles.Ā 
ā€œMunson!ā€ she calls over, carelessly dropping her bike in the driveway and stalking toward him.Ā 
Almost as if summoning a shield, Eddie does light the cigarette. Pretends like the smoke can protect him.Ā 
She doesnā€™t stop at the foot of the steps, though, climbs them in two leaps and gets all up in his space with that unwavering look of determination ā€” so unwavering, in fact, that it almost looks like wrath. Cold. Eddie wants to shrink away from it, not at all daring to wonder what could make her look like that upon hearing that Steveā€™s hurt.Ā 
I donā€™t wanna die, Munson. I neverā€¦ I didnā€™t. With the monsters or the torture.
But those are the words of a semi-conscious teenage boy beat to a pulp, they canā€™tā€” Thereā€™s no way. Eddie misheard him, or Steve was talking about some kind of inside joke, using the wrong terminology with the wrong guy. It happens. It happens when youā€™re out of it, really! The shit heā€™s said when he was shot up, canned up, all strung out and high as a kiteā€¦ Heā€™d be talking of monsters, too, and mean some benign shit.Ā 
But the way Harrington looked, none of that was benign. The bruising all over his face, the blood still dripping from the wound by his temple or his nose, the way he held himself, breath rattling in his lungs, orā€”Ā 
ā€œHey!ā€ Buckley demands his attention, giving him a light shove; just enough to catch his attention, really, and just what he needed to snap out of it. Still the smoke hits his lungs wrong and he coughs up a lung, further cementing his role of the pathetic little guy today.Ā 
ā€œHey,ā€ he says lamely, his voice still croaking as he crushes the half-smoked cigarette under his boot. ā€œSorry.ā€ He doesnā€™t know for what. But it feels appropriate.Ā 
She shakes her head, rolling her eyes at him as she crosses her arms in front of her chest.Ā 
ā€œTell me,ā€ she says at last, and even though there is a tremor in her voice, she sounds nothing short of demanding. ā€œI want the whole story, and I want it now.ā€Ā 
And so he does. He tells her everything, bidding her inside because he needs the relative safety of the trailer even though the air in here is stuffy and still faintly smells blue. He pours them both some coffee and some tea, because asking what she wants doesnā€™t feel right in the middle of telling her how he found her supposed best friend beat to shit in the boathouse he went to to forget about the world for a while.Ā 
She stills as she listens to him, staring ahead into the middle distance somewhere beneath the floor and the walls, her hands wrapped around the steaming mug of coffee. Eddie stumbles over his words a lot, unsettled by her stillness, her lack of reaction. She doesnā€™t even react to his fuck-ups. People usually do.
He wants to ask. Where are you right now? What have you seen? Whatā€™s on your mind? What the fuck is happening?
But he doesnā€™t ask, instead he tells her more about Steve. About how he seemed to forget where he was. About the pain he was in. About the smiles nonetheless. The way he reassured Eddie.Ā 
That one finally gets a choked little huff from her, somewhere between a sob and a laugh.Ā 
ā€œYeah, that sounds like him alright. Heā€™s such a dingus.ā€Ā 
There is so much affection in her voice as she says it that Eddie canā€™t help but smile into his mug.Ā 
ā€œDingus?ā€ he asks, hoping for some lightness, hoping to keep it.Ā 
But the light fades, and her eyes get distant again. Eddie wants to kick himself.Ā 
ā€œJust a stupid little nickname. An insult, really.ā€
ā€œOh.ā€ He doesnā€™t know what to do with that. If he should ask more or if he should say that he has a feeling Steve might appreciate stupid little nicknames. Especially if theyā€™re unique. Especially if theyā€™re for him. But what right does he have to say that now? What knowledge does he have about Steve Harrington that Robin doesnā€™t?Ā 
So he bites his tongue and drinks his coffee, cursing the silence that falls over them as Robin mirrors him, albeit slow and stilted, like she doesnā€™t know what to do either. Or where to put her limbs.Ā 
ā€œWayneā€™s got him now. I took him here, after the boathouse, because I didnā€™t know what to do. He said he didnā€™t want the hospital, said thereā€™sā€¦ā€ He trails off.Ā 
Robin looks at him, her eyes wary but alert. ā€œSaid thereā€™s what?ā€Ā 
Itā€™s stupid. Donā€™t say it.Ā 
ā€œEddie?ā€Ā 
With a sigh, he puts his mug on the counter and stuffs his hands into his pockets. ā€œHe said thereā€™s monsters. In the hospital, I mean. He said that.ā€
Instead of scoffing or at least frowning, Robin clenches her jaw and nods imperceptibly, her eyes going distant again. Eddie blinks, the urge to just fucking ask overcoming him again, but with every passing second he realises that he doesnā€™t actually want to ask. He doesnā€™t want to know, let alone find out.Ā 
He justā€¦ He just wants to go to bed. Forget any of this ever happened. But he canā€™t do that, so he continues.Ā 
ā€œBrought him here and Wayne took one look at him and convinced him he needed a doctor. And, Jesus H Christ, he was right. Iā€™ve neverā€¦ I mean, those things donā€™t happen,ā€ he urges, balling his hands into fists even in the confined space of his pockets. ā€œRight? I meanā€¦ Shit, man.ā€ He bumps his shoe into the kitchen counter; gently, so as not to startle Buckley out of her fugue like state.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™d be surprised,ā€ she rasps, staring into the middle distance again and slowly sinking to the floor. There is a tremor in her shoulders now, barely noticeable, but Eddie knows where to look. Without really thinking about it, he grabs two of his hoodies heā€™d haphazardly thrown over the kitchen chairs this morning while deciding on his outfit and realising that it was altogether too warm for long sleeves today. But now, right here in this kitchen, the air tinged with blue, theyā€™re both freezing.Ā 
Because fear and worry will take all the warmth right from inside of you and leave you freezing even on the hottest day of the year.Ā 
She barely looks at him when he holds out his all-black Iron Maiden hoodie to her, freshly washed and all that, but she takes it nonetheless, immediately pulling it on. Itā€™s way too large on her, her hands not showing through the sleeves, her balled fists safe and warm inside the fabric. It would make him smile if only it didnā€™t highlight her stillness, her faraway stare, and the years he has on her. Sheā€™s, what, two years younger than him? Three?Ā 
It seems surreal. Everything, everything does.Ā 
Robin Buckley in his home, sitting on his kitchen floor, swallowed by a hoodie that is a size too large even for him, but it was the last one they had in the store and he doesnā€™t mind oversized clothes, can just cut them shorter when the need arises or layer them or declare them comfort sweaters for when he wants to just have his hands not slip through the sleeves on some days. And now Robin is wearing his comfort hoodie because her best friend was bleeding in his car earlier and then on his couch and now in his uncleā€™s car, and they never even talk, but he knows that Robinā€™s favourite colour is blue, but not morning hour blue because that makes her sad; only deep, dark blues.Ā 
Her favourite colour. Her favourite person.Ā 
Itā€™s so fucking surreal.Ā 
He drops down beside her, leaving enough space between them so neither of them feels caged, and mirrors her position: knees to his chest, chin on his forearms. Staring ahead.Ā 
And silence reigns.Ā 
ā€œYour uncle,ā€ she says at last, finally breaking the silence thatā€™s been grating on Eddieā€™s nerves and looking at him, really looking as she rests her cheek on her forearms crossed over her knees. ā€œTell me about him.ā€Ā 
There is a gentleness to her voice now despite how hoarse it is. Maybe sheā€™s just tired, too. And scared. At least the shivering has stopped.Ā 
Still Eddie frowns, confused as to why she should be breaking the silence to ask about Wayne when everything today has been about Harrington. About Steve. About deep and dark blues.Ā 
ā€œUncle Wayne?ā€ he asks. ā€œWhy?ā€
ā€œBecause,ā€ she begins, and sighs deeply, works to get the air back in her lungs. Eddie wants to reach out, but instead he just clenches his fingers a little deeper into the fabric of his hoodie. ā€œMy best friend is hurt very badly and the only person with him is your uncle, and I need to know that heā€™s in good hands. Or I swear to whatever god you may or may not believe in, and granted, itā€™s probably the latter, but still I swear Iā€™ll give into my arsonist tendencies and burn down this city, starting with your trailer if you donā€™t tell me that your uncle is a good man who will do anything in his power to make sure that boy gets the help and care he needs. And deserves.ā€Ā 
Her jaw is set and her bottom lip trembles, but it doesnā€™t take away from the absolute sincerity in her threat.Ā 
ā€œSo, please,ā€ she continues, her voice breaking just a little bit. ā€œTell me. Tell me about your uncle.ā€Ā 
Tell me about your favourite person.Ā 
Eddie swallows, and mirrors her position once more, so she can see his eyes and know heā€™s sincere. Because heā€™s learned something about eyes today, about how much in the world can change if only you have a pair of eyes to look into.Ā 
And he nods, looking for somewhere to start. ā€œHeā€™s the best man I know. Heā€™s the best man youā€™ll ever meet.ā€
She clings to his eyes. Searches them for the truth, beseeching them not to lie. He lets her.Ā 
ā€œTook me in when I was ten, because my dadā€™s a fuck-up and my momā€™s a goner. Took me in again when I was twelve after I ran away. Makes me breakfast and I pretends the dinner I make him is more than edible.ā€ He smiles a little, because how could he not? ā€œHeā€™s my uncle, but still heā€™s the best parent anyone could wish for. Writes those little notes that he sticks to the fridge, yā€™know, the one with the smiley face? Tells me to eat, because I forget sometimes. I tell him to drink water, because he forgets. First few years, heā€™d read to me. And the manā€™s a shit reader, has some kind of disability I think, and at some point I learned that he wasnā€™t reading at all. He was telling me stories all the time, conning me into thinking that the books were magic, and that every time Iā€™d try to read the book for myself, the story would change.ā€Ā 
Thereā€™s a lump in his throat now, and his eyes sting again. But Robin doesnā€™t seem to fare any better than him if her wavering smile is any indication.Ā 
ā€œThereā€™s no one,ā€ Eddie continues, ā€œwho will make you believe in magic quite like uncle Wayne. Or in good things. And dā€™you wanna know what he told Blue when he said he was scared of going to the hospital?ā€Ā 
Sniffling, Robin shakes her head.Ā 
ā€œHe said, Okay. Then we do it scared. And all of that after he justā€¦ with that patience he has, told him everything that was gonna happen. And that heā€™d be there with him through it all. That he knew the doc and wouldnā€™t let anyone else near him, and that thereā€™s no need to be scared at all.ā€Ā 
He sighs, breathes, stills. Swallows, before looking back at Robin.Ā 
ā€œSo, if thereā€™s one person whoā€™ll make sure that boy gets the help and care he needs and deservesā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œItā€™s uncle Wayne,ā€ Robin finishes his sentence, her voice still hoarse, but Eddie likes to think itā€™s for a different reason now.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s uncle Wayne,ā€ Eddie says, nodding along as he does.Ā 
There is something like understanding in Robinā€™s eyes now, and Eddie hopes itā€™s enough. Enough to calm the spiking of her nerves, enough to settle the coil of freezing nausea that must reside in the pit of her stomach, enough to let the next breath she takes feel a little more like itā€™s supposed to be there.Ā 
He wants to say something more, wants to reach out and reassure her that everything will be okay, but he canā€™t know that. He doesnā€™t feel like itā€™s entirely true, let alone appropriate right now.Ā 
Thereā€™s something in Robinā€™s eyes, in the way she holds herself, like sheā€™s waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like she accepts his words at face value but doesnā€™t really believe them. Like sheā€™ll only rest when sheā€™s got her best friend back in her arms and hears the story ā€” the whole story ā€” from him.Ā 
And Eddie doesnā€™t fault her, because the thing is, he doesnā€™t know what happened. Steve said that Hagan came at him, but thatā€™s really all he got out of him before he started talking about death and shit, and Eddie really didnā€™t want to ask any more questions then.Ā 
So they sit there for a while, the silence oppressive and unwelcome, clumsy and awkward; Robinā€™s mouth opening and closing a lot, like she wants to ask questions but doesnā€™t dare to ask them ā€” and Eddie doesnā€™t know if heā€™s glad about it or not. Doesnā€™t know if he wants to hear the kind of questions asked with that kind of stare.Ā 
It is only after a long while, when Robinā€™s shoulders start shaking again and she buries deeper into the hoodie and her own spiralling thoughts, that Eddie breaks the silence again, replaying in his head the last moment between him and Steve.Ā 
ā€œHeā€™s not gonna break,ā€ he tells her, aiming for gentle and reassuring.Ā 
What he doesnā€™t expect is the minute flinch, the jolt shooting through her body and the pained expression it leaves her with. What he doesnā€™t expect is what she says next.Ā 
ā€œYou know,ā€ she begins, her voice as far away as her eyes, and itā€™s like she doesnā€™t even know sheā€™s speaking. ā€œSometimes I wish he would.ā€Ā 
What?
Eddie blinks, swallowing hard.
ā€œJust for, just for a break. Just so he can rest. Let the rest take over for a while.ā€Ā 
Thatā€¦ He doesnā€™tā€” What the hell does that even mean?Ā 
ā€œLike maybe then the world wouldā€¦ snap back.ā€ She snaps her fingers, just once. This time itā€™s Eddie who flinches. ā€œAnd everything bad would disappear. But it wonā€™t. And he wonā€™t.ā€ She swallows. Then quietly, almost inaudible, ā€œHe wonā€™t break.ā€Ā 
And the way she says itā€¦ It was reassuring before. And now it feels like a burden. A curse.Ā 
Who the fuck are you, Steve Harrington? And you, Robin Buckley.Ā 
Eddie shudders, knowing he doesnā€™t want the answer to that anymore. He doesnā€™t want the questions either. So he buries his face in his hands, closes his eyes, and breathes. The adrenaline has worn off by now, the repeated panicking that added fuse to the fire has ceased now, leaving him worn out and strung out, tired and exhausted. He pulls up the hood, burrowing into the warmth.Ā 
And then he stills. His usually twitching, fumbling, fiddling body falling entirely still beside Buckley.Ā 
Itā€™s like time stops for a while there, even though Eddie knows that itā€™s dragging ever on and on. Heā€™s inclined to let it, though. Heā€™s too tired, too exhausted to really care about what time may or may not be doing.Ā 
ā€œWhyā€™d you call me?ā€Ā 
It takes a while for Eddie to realise that Robinā€™s spoken again, asked him a question out loud, the cadence of it different to the endless circles of questions Eddieā€™s got stuck in his head since the early afternoon tinged in blue against crimson.Ā 
He lifts his head, tucking his hands underneath his chin, and looks over at Buckley. Her hair is dishevelled now, her mascara smudged and crusty. Her lipstick is almost all gone, with the way he sees her biting and chewing on her lips.Ā 
ā€œIā€¦ It seemed like the right thing to do, yā€™know? He kept repeating your number. In the car, it was likeā€¦ Sounds dramatic, but it was like his lifeline, almost. Repeated it so often it kinda got stuck.ā€ He shrugs. ā€œSeemed important, too.ā€
Robin frowns; a careful little thing. ā€œHowā€™d you know it was me?ā€
ā€œWell, he just talked about you. Yā€™know. Tell me about your favourite person, I told him, because thatā€™s the thing you gotta do to keep people, like, talking to you. Not shit about what day it is, or what. Just, yā€™know. Let them talk about things they like. Things theyā€™ll wanna tell you about. ā€™Nā€™ he talked about you.ā€Ā 
Sheā€™s quiet for a while, letting his words sink in. And Eddie wonders if she knew. That sheā€™s his favourite person. If he ever told her. If maybe he took that from him now. Itā€™s a stupid thing to worry about, really; the boy was bloodied and bruised on his couch just an hour ago, there are worse things at hand for Eddie to worry about. But now he wonders if he just spilled some sort of secret. Some sort of love confession.Ā 
ā€œDid you, I meanā€¦ Are you guys, like, dating? Did I just steal his moment?ā€Ā 
Robin huffs, but itā€™s more like a smile that needs a little more space in the room, a little more air to really bloom. Itā€™s fond. She shakes her head, her eyes far away again, but closer somehow.Ā 
ā€œNah,ā€ she says, and the smile is in her voice, too. Eddie kind of likes her voice like that. ā€œWeā€™re platonic. Which is something Iā€™d never thought Iā€™d say. Not about Steve Harrington, yā€™know?ā€Ā 
And the way she drags out his nameā€¦ Eddie can relate. Like it means something, but like what it means is nowhere close to reality. Nowhere close to what it really means. Nowhere close to Blue.Ā 
Robin sighs, the sound more gentle than it should be, and leans her head against the cabinet behind her. ā€œWe worked together over summer break. Scoops Ahoy.ā€ Her voice does a funny thing, and her eyes glaze over as she pauses. Eddie waits, his lips tipped up into a little smile, too; to match hers.Ā 
ā€œWhat, the ice cream parlour?ā€Ā 
Robin hums, her smile widening at what Eddie guesses must be memories of chaos and ridiculousness. ā€œI wanted to hate him,ā€ she continues. ā€œBut try as I might, he wouldnā€™t let me. Or, he did. He did let me. Just, it turns out, thereā€™s no use hating Steve Harrington, not when heā€™s soā€¦ So endlessly genuine. Thereā€™s nothing to hate, yā€™know? And then heā€¦ā€Ā 
She stops, her mouth clicking shut as her eyes tear up a little. The Starcourt fire. Eddie remembers the news, remembers the self-satisfied smirk when heā€™d heard about it, remembers sticking it to the Man and to capitalism and to the idea of malls over supporting your friendly neighbourhood businesses.Ā 
Guilt and shame overcome him as he realises that they must have been in there when it happened.Ā 
ā€œHe saved your life?ā€Ā 
Robinā€™s eyes snap toward him, wide and caught, and Eddie raises his hands in placation.Ā 
ā€œIn the fire? Were you there?ā€Ā 
ā€œYā€”yeah.ā€ She swallows hard, avoiding his eyes. ā€œThe fire. He saved me. Yeah.ā€Ā 
Eddie nods, deciding to drop that topic right there; to lay it on the ground as gently as he can and cover it with bright red colours so he never steps on it ever again.Ā 
ā€œHe must be your favourite person, too, then, hm?ā€ he steers the conversation back away into safer waters.Ā 
ā€œHe is,ā€ she says, sure and genuine and true. ā€œItā€™s just. I donā€™t think Iā€™ve ever been anyoneā€™s favourite. He has a lot of people who care about him, you know? A lot of people he cares about. Even more numbers memorised in that stupidly smart head of his.ā€ She huffs again, burrowing deeper into Eddieā€™s hoodie, pulling the sleeves over her hands some more. ā€œItā€™s stupid, to be so hung up on this. Is it stupid?ā€Ā 
ā€œI donā€™t think it is,ā€ Eddie says, scooting a little closer to Robin. ā€œLike, I donā€™t even know that boy, right? But even I know that heā€™s got some ways to shift your focus or something. Give you a silver lining, or something to take the pain away even when heā€™s the one whoā€¦ I donā€™t know, thatā€™s probably stupid, too.ā€Ā 
ā€œNah,ā€ Robin says, scooting closer to him, too, until their sides are pressed together and she can lay her head on his shoulder. ā€œItā€™s not stupid. Youā€™re right; thatā€™s Steve for you. ā€™S just who he is.ā€Ā 
It is, isnā€™t it?Ā 
Youā€™re so blue, Stevie.Ā 
Sheā€™ll say something corny when, when you ask her, jusā€™ to fuck with you. Sunset gold or rose, jusā€™ to mess withā€¦ But is blue.
Blue. ā€˜S nice.Ā 
Yeah. Yeah, he is.Ā 
Eddie lets his thoughts roam the endless possibilities and realities that is Steve Harrington, the depths he hides ā€” or wonā€™t hide, maybe, if you know how to ask. Where to look.Ā 
Maybe heā€™ll find out, one of these days. Not about the terrible things that leave him scared of the hospital, not about the horrible things that have him speaking of death and dying like heā€™s accepted them as a possibility a long time ago.Ā 
He swallows hard and shakes off these thoughts, because things like that just. They donā€™t happen. They donā€™t happen to blue-smiled boys who trust you to be kind even when theyā€™re beaten straight to hell. And they sure as hell donā€™t happen when uncle Wayneā€™s around.Ā 
Nothing bad has ever happened when uncle Wayne was around.Ā 
And he wants to tell Robin, wants to make that promise. But part of him canā€™t bear the thought of being wrong. So he keeps his mouth shut and just sits with her, their heads as heavy as their hearts as they wait.Ā 
The sun is long gone when the phone above him rings again, spooking and startling them out of their timeless existence.Ā 
ā€œYeah?ā€ he answers, his heart hammering in his chest. ā€œWayne?ā€Ā 
ā€œHey, Ed,ā€ Wayneā€™s voice comes through the phone like a melody. Calm and steady. Robin is scooting closer, and Eddie shifts the phone to accommodate her so they can both listen. Somehow, they ended up holding hands ā€” and holding on hard. ā€œWeā€™re coming home now.ā€Ā 
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i really wanna, wanna, wanna just dance ā™”
for @senor-hoberto šŸŒ·| cr. 0613data
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The rock I cling to in a storm šŸŖØ ā›ˆļø
Celebrating 7 years with @fell-contract today šŸ¤
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the-habitat-sysblog Ā· 3 months
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no one should force you to:
switch.
tell them who is fronting.
give them your alter count.
tell them what trauma caused your CDD.
go to therapy if you are not ready yet.
list your alters' names, ages or roles.
change the language you prefer to use for your experiences (unless that language is genuinely harmful).
assign/have a host alter.
go searching for your trauma if you do not remember it.
forgive those who hurt you if you do not want to.
disclose an introject alter's source.
be open about your system/alters.
hide your system/alters.
use PK or SP.
use plural language when you prefer to be treated as one.
use singular language when you prefer to be treated as multiple.
if someone expects you to do something, you do not have to do it just because some other pwCDDs are fine with it. you deserve autonomy & the ability to choose what you will/won't reveal or do. no one should take that from you. šŸ¤
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god college!luke makes my emotions go haywire šŸ˜”šŸ˜© iā€™d honestly start dating someone else to spite him
you know what anon. ima need you to claim an emoji bc ur thoughts are TOO GOOD (also thank u sm for 1.5kšŸ’‹)
so weā€™ve discussed previously that luke castellan does not get jealous easily.
however.
he never thought you would go this far. sure, you had danced on other guys at parties to get a rise out of him, maybe flirted here and there in front of him, but never this.
getting into a relationshipā€”a serious relationshipā€”with his frat brother? that was a new low. so what if heā€™d purposefully lead other girls into gross bathrooms at bar outings so you would see? this was uncalled for. how dare you?
so naturally, at your new boyfriendā€™s birthday party, when youā€™re sitting on his lap, helping him unwrap your present of a jean-paul gaultier cologne heā€™d wanted, lukeā€”in classic luke fashionā€”thought this would be his chance. your sorority sister, drunk off of her witsā€”bless her heartā€”came up to you and whispered some slurred imperative about how you needed to get to ā€˜the squareā€™.
your eyebrows furrowed at her as her eyebrows raised, questioning the significance of ā€˜the squareā€™ and why the man who prompted her to ask chose there. you said no words, excusing yourself after finding her a water and alka seltzer.
ā€œyou really couldnā€™t help yourself, huh?ā€ are the first words you say to luke, button up shirt open and lying on his back on the false grass. ā€œme? youā€™re one to talk, sweetheart,ā€ you rolled your eyes at his use of the nickname, crossing your arms as you stand over him.
beneath the twilight, your exposed shoulder skin glistened like the moon, just a sliver of it visible in the northern night sky. luke had obviously had something to drink or smoke, or both, because he slurred his words as he patted the turf next to him. ā€œsit down. cā€™mon, like the good olā€™ days,ā€
ā€˜the squareā€™ was a small patch of land in the middle area between his fratā€™s and your sororityā€™s backyards. it was insignificant to most everybody else, but you and luke had claimed it as yours on drizzly nights like these, when the owl called and adolescence snored. it didnā€™t even hold sexual reminiscences, for each night you spent on the square was spent just talking. he would gloat about some things he did over the summer, interrogate you on your sex life, laugh at your offense and crack bad jokes. he was the worst person to spend valuable time with, but you returned every night, nonetheless.
ā€œiā€™m surprised, castellan. been here a full sixty seconds and you havenā€™t tried to fuck me,ā€ you remained standing over his lax body, crossing your arms over your chest. ā€œdo you want me to try to fuck you? because iā€™m down,ā€ he looks up at you with that smile of his. that toothy, million dollar, smile that reassures whomever it is on the receiving end that everything is okay and thereā€™s not a thing to worry about.
you snort, giving in and sitting down. luke pulls you into his lap before your butt can even hit the cool grass, eliciting a yelp from you. his lips press against your shoulder, strong, warm arms wrap around your waist and you canā€™t help but melt into the body beneath you. ā€œluke,ā€ your voice is meant to be a warning, supposed to remind him and yourself that you belong to another and this was not right, but he did nothing except for hold you tighter and smile against your skin.
ā€œhe doesnā€™t make you feel like i do.ā€ he spoke the words out of your mind, the voice of truth you swallowed down with a knowing conscience that it would rise to the surface eventually. this wasnā€™t what you wanted. your single goal wasnā€™t to make luke jealous, it wasnā€™t even to show him what he was missing. you just wanted it to be different. you wanted somebody to take you seriously enough to call you theirs.
but anybody who did wasnā€™t him.
ā€œluke,ā€ this time, you werenā€™t trying to ward off anything. this time, you were welcoming him and all his invasive, rude, luke-like, traits and the pain you knew would come with letting him in once more. ā€œi know, baby, i know.ā€ he said no further words before flipping the pair of you over and letting your back onto the ground. you focused on none else other than the feeling of his lips finally landing on yours, the trace of his fingers across your denim skirtā€™s hem. ā€œcan i?ā€ lukeā€™s fingers dipped past the fabric, drawing swirls on your skin. ā€œmhm, yeah,ā€ your smile is audible and spreads to lukeā€™s lips.
if there was one thing luke always did, it was worship you. this time was no different. his lips were everywhere, and when they werenā€™t pecking kisses all over you, he was breathing praises like you were a mortal saint against your skin. and when he entered you, he fucked you like he couldnā€™t believe he got the chance to feel you again. but he knew what the outcome of this would be; of course he did.
you didnā€™t know him as a particularly selfish lover, but the way he chased his high, rutting his hips against yours to the point of overwhelmed stuttering suggested that to be true.
and when it was all said and done and the past hung in the air like a wonder of the world, luke stood and looked down at you like you previously did him.
ā€œbreak up with him.ā€
ā€œwhy?ā€
ā€œyou know why.ā€
there was no denying that, so you did none else than nod.
ā€œyeah. i do.ā€
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jacqueline woodson, ā€œweightā€
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manifestingmatcha Ā· 2 years
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āœØMy Glow Up tips part 1āœØ
Drink a lot of water it benefits your body in every way bonus points if you add lemon. If you crave soda Olipop is a good alternative.
Eat little meals made with whole foods throughout the day it really does make a difference.
Go on hot girl walks get fresh air and sunshine every day.
Drink green juices and smoothies itā€™s the easiest way to get in all your fruits and veggies plus you can add supplements.
Skincare is self care itā€™s literally the canvas for your makeup so invest in your products. Keep it simple and be consistent with your routine.
Learn to read food labels ideally you want to know how to pronounce every ingredient.
Drink less alcohol bloating and hangovers arenā€™t hot.
Educate yourself on vitamins and supplements to target what you want to improve. For immune system you want vitamin c and zinc and for beauty you want a collagen supplement.
Lip filler research your provider make sure you vibe with them and feel comfortable. Start slow and gradually build to your desired shape and size.
Contacts over glasses is my personal preference.
Choose a signature scent for every season.
Keratin hair treatments they make styling so easy and your hair looks shiny and perfect for weeks.
Natural nail colors are the most flattering. OPI and Essie make the best nudes.
Invest in classic basics for your closet black and white t-shirts denim and shoes. Think about cost per wear quality vs quantity ect. Zara is my favorite store for inexpensive trendy pieces.
Wear signature jewelry mine are gold hoops diamond studs and dainty necklaces. Mejuri is my favorite jeweler.
Cleaning and organizing your home is therapy. Light a Fall candle and deep clean your space once a week and you will feel refreshed.
Exfoliate your face and body a few times a week
Ice roll and gua sha your face it instantly de puffs and lifts.
Plant medicine personally I love cannabis and itā€™s been a positive life changing medicine for me.
Therapy I believe everyone can benefit from it.
Never stop learning read often about whatever topics youā€™re interested in.
For improved hair skin and nails put collagen powder in your coffee or smoothies every day.
Put fresh eucalyptus and lavender in your shower or a few drops of essential oils for the best most relaxing bath.
Brush and floss often and occasionally use Crest white strips for whitening your teeth.
Journaling is so important on paper or even in your notes app on your phone.
Learn manifesting techniques your mindset is everything.
Get a professional bra fitting and match your lingerie it will make you feel confident and hot.
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simon x kitty girl bath time ?! šŸ«§šŸ§¦<3
warnings -> 18+, f!reader, hybrid!reader, suggestive.
your tail swishes in the warm water, flat ears twitching every time you hear a droplet from the faucet fall onto the soapy surface of your bath. this is something i can get used toā€” and as if he can hear your thoughts, simon chuckles before offering you a pat on the head.
his touch prompts your eyes to flutter shut and you smoosh your cheek against his beefy shoulder, soapy tits pressing up on his own chest at the same time. the warm feeling that blooms within him is enough to make him clear his throat.
almost nervously.
itā€™s been a week or so since heā€™s found you. since heā€™s saved you. the days just pass as you spend your time curled up in sheets that smell like him, fading in and out of naps until he finally leaves his office and snuggles up next to you. always using a hand to pet or caress you in some way.
and those same hands trail down your body at the moment, dragging suds behind them from your chest to your tummy before inevitably sinking under the water, being careful of all your sensitive spots that heā€™s already committed to memory. ā€œsuch a sweet girlā€, he whispers under his breath.
simon never imagined himself having a hybrid. not even after seeing how johnny is with his puppy girl.
it was purely fate when he found you on the street and couldnā€™t bring himself to walk past you. thereā€™s no way heā€™d be able to sleep at night knowing a cute thing like you is all alone on the sidewalk, all cold and pouty in a cruel world.
now you two are sat in the tub together, with his big hands squeezing your comparatively fragile hips and his hard cock pressing against your tummy. you canā€™t leave nowā€” not when heā€™s made room for you in his daily routines, when thereā€™s an indent in his mattress thats the exact size of your soft form. heā€™s never letting you go.
he kisses you once, and revels in the way youā€™re so greedy for more. messily trying to rub your tongue against his own, all eager and ready to please. easy, kitty. he mutters against your hot mouth, like he isnā€™t pulling you into him with a firm hand at your lower back, right above your tail.
he watches you arch into him perfectly. this is something i can get used toā€” he mimics you without even knowing it.
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