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jadespeedster17 · 2 years

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Itchy Feathers

I needed a prompt, so I found someone asking for this. Desert Duo preening feathers, Scar is a sweet and caring soul mate in this. He’s too good for Grian lol. @s1yfox14

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The feathers on his back were uncomfortable, Grian knew what this meant. It’s not too much his fault, between running from the red’s all day, he just hadn’t had time to really preen the feathers on his back. Now the dull ache and ichy feeling were very noticeable and very very uncomfortable. More so then normal. Normally he didn’t have to worry about the back feathers as he always did his best to groom them each day. But reaching them was hard being they were right at the center of his spine. Grian made a groan in this throat, sounding more like a whining chirp.

He wasn’t sure how he was going to do this by himself as he pounded on if there was a stick he might be able to use? He didn’t like the idea of asking one of the others for help, and Scar was currently asleep. Grian felt really bad for what all happened today, 2 lives lost in one day... because of him. Scar needed his sleep, Grian could do this on his own, he’d be fine. Even if the bird in his head protested and snarked back that they needed help. BigB once tried to help him, and Grian near clawed him. His human mind knew he could trust BigB, but the bird brain did not yet see the man as flock or even remotely close to mate.

Maybe that was something to do with the soulmate thing? Grian wasn’t sure, he really did like BigB as his secret soulmate, but his instincts disagreed with him. it was annoying is what it was. Could also be lingering effects of letting Scar get so close during 3rd Life. Only other person who ever preened his feathers was Mumbo, and Mumbo wasn’t here. His feathers ruffled again at the itch he couldn’t quite reach. Grian glared at the ground trying to ignore it, he was fun, nothing was wrong. He tried to focus on anything else but their angry chitter in his head. They would have to plan, they were red now, and he wanted blood. The urge to go burn something was strong, or just blow it up in general.

Grian must have been very lost in thought as he felt a hand run through his back feathers. For a moment his thoughts screeched to a halt, but the fingers felt so familiar as they smoothed out the bent feathers and carefully took out the ones that were broken. A relieved chirp escaped his mouth as he felt the tension in his spine fade away.

A hum behind him, “Could have just told me you needed a preening Grian.” Scar’s voice muttered, “I had noticed your feathers looking less shiny then usual.” the calloused fingers worked slowly through the mess of feathers and dirt. Scar’s eyebrows furrowed in concentration as he pulled out any seeds and grit from the back feathers, starting at the base and working slowly up to the edges.

For his part Grian had completely melted, a happy coo in his head that he found himself letting out. “Were sleeping.” he muttered through coos, Scar chuckled through his nose at that as he smoothed out another feathers, making the wings twitch happily. “Was sleeping, I could feel your discomfort.” Scar told him as Grian mumbled a sorry and he got a gentle scratch at the base of his wing joint, making him let out a series of chirps. “Don’t worry about it, I’m always happy to help you my bird.” the voice was soothing, gentle, and made him mind turn to goo.

Everything about this felt right as his soulmate preened the feathers, getting rid of the uncomfortable itch that had been there for what felt like days! Finally the bird was happy in his head, laying it’s head down to rest as well. Scar was humming quietly to himself as he let Grian lay on the blanket as he worked. No words were needed to be said.

And if Grian would whistle along, Scar didn’t say anything about it other than a small laugh and humming some notes again. It was moments like this both enjoyed, down time to trust each other. The hurt fading from days before, like a papercut, though painful the wounds felt so small here and now.

As Scar finished up he laid down next to Grian, it was still late in the night. And a wing came to pull him closer. Soft, now cleaned feathers pulled him to hold Grian close to his chest. A smile made his face to his face he looked at his soulmates tired eyes. “Get some rest Grian.” Scar muttered as he held the avian close.

He got a sleepy chirp back as Grian burrowed closer to his chest and was quickly fast asleep. Scar smiled faintly as he held him, petting the feathers and hair, careful not to mess up his work. And drifted off to sleep with him.

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IDK why but the song Papercut by Zedd really fits Double Life Desert Duo. Anywho hope you liked this sort fanfic.

#desert duo #goodtimeswithscar #grian #trafficblr #double life smp #hermitshipping #?#Not sure really #could be seen as platonic or romantic #preening #avian grian #winged grian

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zscyber · 2 years

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BkDk W.I.P. section/preview

Alright, so this is a fic I have no idea when it will be finished (especially since I'm planning to work more on my Nexomon fics for a while and the Spookfest event on the Creative Chaos discord server), but I have one section complete and figured I'd post it here. It's a really rough draft/barely edited, but it's also the scene that started the fic.

Title: Hearts in the Right Places

Summary: Bakugou’s and Midoriya’s secret relationship gets exposed on national television in a nine-second video. Thankfully, all of class 3A has their backs. Even if it’s not always in the most… conventional way.

(Basically, I wanted super-protective of BkDk class 1A family chaos)

*potential trigger warnings: Homophobia, previous forced outing

Middle school Katsuki would be screaming with rage, explosions, and death threats at the current situation. Same with first year U.A. student Katsuki. Second year Katsuki would have still been pissed as hell and die insisting that, no, he had no fuckin’ idea who these idiots were.

Third-year Katsuki was still more than a little pissed, but mostly content to sit back and watch.

Shitty Hair, Sparky, and Elbows had forced him to go on the weekly store run (mostly Elbows, because very few people could stop the other two from going fucking nuts and bringing back bags of only meat and shitty junk food, respectively). The group had made it through grocery shopping, but Sparky started bitching about being thirsty halfway back to the dorms. When Elbows joined him (just as they just so happened to be passing by one of those “extra-healthy”, expensive-as-fuck smoothy places), Katsuki decided fuck it.

Of course, the idiots wanted to sit and chat, playing the ‘but-you’ve-been-spending-all-your-time-with-Izuku’ card. And then the ‘be-careful-or-we’ll-think-you-like-him-more-than-us’ one.

The three morons got all pathetically dramatic when Katsuki pointed out that, damn straight he liked Deku more than them. That’s why he was fucking dating the damn nerd.

Only once Elbows promised to deal with Baker if his shitty two percent milk went bad (and Shitty Hair, Raccoon Eye’s overly-sweet ice cream that she just had to have) did Katsuki decide fuck it again.

So there they were, his idiots chatting away while Katsuki sipped on some green drink Elbows had plopped in front of him. If Sparky hadn’t noticed some bastards with cameras ‘sneaking’ around, they probably could have gotten back to U.A. home free. No villain attacks (take that, Deku).

“-and that’s why toasters are way better than micro- Isn’t that the gossip tabloid that first published that video of Blasty and Izuku?” Sparky pointed at the bushes that lined the juice shop’s patio area. Shitty Hair set down his drink to glance over his shoulder while Elbows leaned to the side to see around the redhead.

“Fucker’s been there for five minutes”, Katsuki grumbled. And the morons wondered why they failed Caterpillar-sensei’s last awareness test.

Sparky tilted his head like a dumbass puppy. “And you haven’t blow them up yet?”

Oh, Katsuki really fucking wanted to, but…

“That would just make things worse”, Elbows explained. “You know how those lowlifes would jump onto Katsuki blasting their cameras.” The lanky teen took a long, loud sip of his shitty-looking smoothy. “Even if they really deserve it.”

The leaves loudly rustled as the shitty pair of paparazzi ‘crept’ closer.

“So unmanly” Shitty Hair muttered.

Sparky suddenly shot to his feet, hands slamming onto the table. “You know what. They’ve been dragging two of my friends through the mud for shit. That’s it. I’m going to go put an end to this.” The boy downed the rest of his drink and marched over to the reports. “Hey, you! I-!”

“Wait, Denki!” Shitty Hair’s chair hit the ground as the redhead tried to grab the blond dumbass, but he missed. “Bro! You can’t just-!” The redhead darted over just as Sparky was pulling Camera Jackass #2 out of the bushes.

And that’s where Katsuki was now: ass still sitting on the ugly-as-fuck patio chair - scooted just enough for a better view of the upcoming shitstorm without looking too interested – and finishing off the surprisingly good whatever drink Elbows had gotten him.

Elbows was already half out of his seat when he realized the blond had no intention of moving. “You don’t think we stop them or something?”

Katsuki took a moment to check on the perishable groceries. Nothing looked ruined yet. “Nah.” Besides, as much as he wanted to shove the fucker’s camera down their throats in large, exploded pieces (and the rest up their damn asses), this was probably the closed thing to revenge the blond would be able to get without a fucking lecture.

The other boy slowly sat back down, his seat already giving him a front-row view.

“-don’t you have any sense of manliness?” Shitty Hair was attempting to guilt Jackass-with-a-cheap-ass-camera #1.

“Yeah!” Sparky jumped in. “Like, dudes, I get you need your clickbait-“

“Ah!” Cheap-ass-camera #2 cut in. “The video wasn’t clickbait, but real news. After all, the general public needs to trust potential pro heroes” (fuck him, Katsuki and Deku were practically already official pros!), “And if two of them are willing to engage in such explicit behavior in public-“

“ ‘Explicit?’” Shitty Hair quoted. “You wouldn’t call it that if they were a straight couple!”

“They weren’t even frenching!” Sparky added. “Like, sure, it wasn’t a peck, but freaking Disney has more ‘explicit’ kisses!”

Katsuki’s phone buzzed, the nerd’s name popping up.

Shitty Nerd: Kacchan!! Stop them!!!!

The blond frowned. Who was Deku talking about? He wasn’t back at the dorms ye-

“Uh, Katsuki?” Elbow’s phone was going off like the Old Hag when she saw someone wearing stripes and polka dots at the same time. “Are you seeing the class chat right now?”

Katsuki rolled his eyes, so that’s what was causing his friend’s phone to go off like a bomb. “I mute the damn thing”, he muttered as he switched apps. The one time he didn’t his phone almost didn’t survive because IcyHot had gotten into a rich person spat with Ponytail and Twinkles over fuckin’ tea at eleven-fucking-pm.

Ears: LMAO!!

Ponytail: She really is

Round Face: Deku-kun’s a strawberry

Round Face: He keeps ducking behind the couch but can’t help himself from popping back up to watch

Pinky: Like a whack-a-mole!

Twinkles: c’est magnifique!

IcyHot: Do they not realize that the reporters have gone live?

Another text from Deku.

Shitty Nerd: KACCHAN!

Deku.

Shitty Nerd: YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!

“Plus, you have no idea what you’ve done!” Sparky was still going off on Ugly Camera #1 and #2. “Do you? Do you have to live with the consequences of your actions?! No, no you don’t! Because people like you jacka- jerks never think about how their actions can make life a living he- heck for other people!”

Elbows had one hand plastered over his mouth, eyes darting between his phone and the two idiots ripping the two camera creeps a new one. “I don’t-“ the guy broke down laughing, “I don’t know which is better!”

Katsuki shrugged. “Like the extras aren’t recording this shit.”

“-any idea how fu- freaking single the rest of us feel?” The taller blond was ranting. “And I’m not even single! But that’s how disgustingly sappy they can be now because you jerks outed them and the rest of us have to deal with their PDA!”

Shitty Hair nodded. “And it doesn’t even count as that! They’ll just be sitting next to each other and you can see the manly hearts! Do you know how dang strange that is? I platonically love my bro, but Bakubro and hearts shouldn't be in the same sentence!”

“Especially Izuku”, Sparky added. “He’s way, way worse. And he was bad before they got together.”

Shitty Nerd: Do u hate me?

Nope

Should I clear that up on national TV too?

Shitty Nerd: WHY?!?!?!?!?????

Elbows finished his drink with a loud slurp. “You’re taking this invasion of privacy surprising well”, he commented.

“I’m gonna kill them later”, Katsuki promised.

Bird Brain: Revelry in the chaos

Octopus: Not ‘in the dark’?

Round Face: Chaos

Frog: Definity chaos

Ears: Pure choas

Ears: Fuck chAOs

Gloves: chOAs

Tail: ^

Rocky: ^^

Octopus: ^^^

Bird Brain: Revelry in the choas

Ears: that’s right

Ears: piss off the person who hears EVERYTHING that goes on in the dorms

Gloves: Wanna bet?

Glasses: WHAT ARE KIRISHIMA-KUN AND KAMINARI-KUN DOING?!

Octopus: Making fools of themselves

Pinky: Being themselves

Octopus: I was going to add ‘for the sake of their friend’

Octopus: But yeah

Ponytail: Guess we’ll be getting another PR class.

Eyebags: wtf is going on here

Eyebags: oh

Eyebags: nvm

“- should be family-friendly.” Camera Jackass #1 had something that was probably supposed to be a smug-ass grin but just came across as constipated; all full of shit. “Pro heroes are no longer only responsible for catching villains, but upholding society’s moral code and-“

Shitty Hair crossed his arms. “Says the same ‘journalists’ who plaster images of us beat up and bloody on magazine covers all the time.”

Grape: that’s just BS

Grape: the ‘family-friendly’ part

Grape: that magazine has the best spreads!

Pinky:

Ponytail:

Gloves:

Round Face:

Tail:

Octopus:

Frog:

Frog: Would you like to repeat that?

Grape: respectfully?

Grape: I KEEP THEM IN MY ROOM!

Round Face: … it’s an improvement

Grape: I’M WORKING ON IT!!!!!

Twinkles: And we are very proud, mon amie!

Pinky: -ish

Tail: Maybe we should get back 2 wtf those 2 are doing

Tail: Didn’t they just go 2 the store?

Baker: I swear, if the frozen go bad AGAIN

Pinky: MY ICE CREAM!

IcyHot: I could re-freeze it?

Baker: No

Baker: We are NOT doing that again

Ponytail: The flavor was severely diminished

Ears: watery

Ears: you mean watery

Shitty Nerd: GUYS!!!

Shitty Nerd: Kacchan’s ignoring me!!

Shitty Nerd: can someone else text him and make this stop?!?!?

Eyebags: Damn

Eyebags: that’s harsh

Eyebags: it’s like he lives to piss people off

Eyebags: oh wait he does

Frog: … Do you really want Bakugou-chan to step in?

Frog: I’ll text Sero-chan

Elbows: Don’t bother

Elbows: This is great

Gloves: LMIAO

Tail: whats the I?

Round Face: oh she does that in the girls chat all the time

Round Face: LM-invisible-AO

Glasses: Bakugou-kun! Sero-kun! One of you needs to step in and stop Kirishima-kun and Kaminari-kun from making fools of themselves!

Octopus: good luck with that

Eyebags: it’s like you don’t know your classmates

Round Face: can we all just appreciate Bakugou’s RBF in the background?

Round Face: I need a meme of that

Baker: I can assure you that someone’s already on it

Rocky: It’s already up, actually…

Tail: How do u no that??

Gloves: The HeroNet bird icon

Bird Brain: the laws of the internet

Bird Brain: and all their darkness

IcyHot: I think Hanta looking like he’s going to die from laughter would be better

Grape: Bias

Frog: ^

Gloves: ^

Gloves: trust me on this

Round Face: ^

Eyebags: at least he’d stop spamming that one of Yao-Momo drinking tea and the purse-snatcher

Ponytail: I caught him!

Shitty Nerd: KACCHAN! I SEE YOU LOOKING AT YOUR PHONE

Shitty Nerd: DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE OF EMBARRASSMENT?!?

Eyebags: …Have you met your boyfriend?

Round Face: ^^^^^^^^^^

Ponytail: We’re all very proud of you for not committing homicide on national T.V., Bakugou, but Sero should really step in at this point.

Ears: OH FUCK

Ears: IS HE REALLY GOING TO?

“Hey!” Shitty Hair’s shout reached Katsuki’s ears just before a damn microphone was shoved into the blonde’s personal space.

“You’ve been awfully quiet, Bakugou”, the piece of shit sneered. “No defense? Aren’t you worried about the effect this will have on your career, assuming you get your license in the first place. After all, you were one of the two students who failed to get your provisional the first time, right?”

Katsuki clenched his fist, stopping the sparks of his Quirk from blowing up. ‘Bastard’, he cursed. ‘Fucking extra who doesn’t know goddamn shit.’

But if he snapped, the fuckers would just use that against him and Deku. Mainly Deku. So the blond forced himself to breath out the righteous murder. “No fucking comment.”

“So close”, Elbows whispered before clearing his throat. “Actually”, he told Camera Ass #1… 2? Eh, Katsuki couldn’t remember which was which, and he really didn’t give a flying fuck.

Tail: That… actually went pretty well

Pinky: Good job on not doing murder on TV Blasty!

Eyebags: yay

Octopus: ‘Doing’ murder?

Bird Brain: You do remember that Bakugou is reading this, correct?

Bird Brain: He is literally staring into these dark depths as we converse

Capitellar-sensei: He’s not the only one

Katsuki choked, wheezing hard as he tried to swallow the last bit of his drink so they could fucking leave.

“Bro!” Shitty Hair was hovering over the blond as he coughed. “You okay?!”

“See!” Sparky pointily scolded the Camera Shits. “We’re just out and about, chilling, and you almost kill him!”

“What hap-?” The redhead was interrupted by Elbows as the latter banged his fist on the table, once again trying to cover his ugly snorting with the other hand. Katsuki, ignoring the whining extras, tilted his phone so Shitty Hair could read over his shoulder.

Shitty Nerd: Sensei! Shitty Nerd: please make them stop!

Round Face: bit too late for that Deku-kun

Eyebags: shit

Eyebags: who summoned the teacher?

Glasses: I can assure you all that it was not me!

Glasses: I gave up on receiving efficient help in these types of situations last year.

IcyHot: I’m pretty sure all he needed to do was turn on a TV

Capitellar-sensei: Not even that.

Capitellar-sensei: Mic just needed to turn on the TV.

Capitellar-sensei: Kaminari, Kirishima. Come to my office once you’re back on campus.

“Oh shit”, Shitty Hair muttered, causing Sparky to snatch Elbow’s phone off the table as well. The tall teen’s face paled faster than Deku’s would if he thought he missed out on rare All Might merch as he scrolled through the chat.

Grape: I want a meme of the paparazzi

Grape: they’re just frozen from the stupidity

Gloves: oh me too

Rocky: also already up

Ponytail: They really don’t appear to know what to do, do they?

Eyebags: Nope

Ears: Like Denki during math class

Gloves: LMIAO SO DAMN MUCH

Round Face: Damn

Round Face: straight for the throat

Shitty Nerd: If I apply for work-study in the U.S. do u think that’s far enough away?

Don’t you fucking dare

Their food is shit

Eyebags: Boyfriend of the year

Pinky: He lives!

Pinky: it’s hard to tell on the screen

Bird Brain: We are witnessing the descent into obvious darkness as seen by our elders

IcyHot: They’re just on their phones?

Octopus: Exactly

“O-kay”, Elbows told the Camera extras. He grabbed Katsuki’s empty cup, tossed it in the trash can, then used his Quirk to latch onto Sparky and Shitty Hair as he backed away. “We really need to get going.”

“Oi”, Katsuki grumbled, pocketing his phone and picking up more than his fucking fair share of the damn groceries. “I ain’t carrying all this myself.” He handed one bag in particular to Shitty Hair. “Racoon Eye’s melting ice cream.”

Deku, still strawberry-faced, ambushed Katsuki and Elbows right as they walked into the dorm. “You”, the nerd growled, “are horrible.”

Stepping out of the way while the crazy fuckers that were his classmates tackled Plain Face for the rest of the groceries, Katsuki held up the one bag he insisted on not only carrying, but keeping in the shade under the table during the shitshow. “Guess I’ll make something other than katsudon with this shit”, he grinned.

“Kacchan!” the nerd pouted. “You wouldn’t.”

The blond cackled. “Nah-“

Pinky’s horrified screech cut through all other conversations. Baker’s wasn’t far behind.

“Melted?” Deku correctly guessed as he followed the blond away from the murderous pink trash panda and into the kitchen. “Anyway, I guess it was nice that Eijiro and Denki were so supportive, it’s just…” The greenette trailed off.

“They’re a bunch of dumbass”, Katsuki finished, ruffling the nerd’s hair.

(And if the blond made enough dinner for the whole class, he had just been distracted keeping Shitty Hair and Sparky on a tight leash in the store and accidentally bought too many ingredients.)

#long post #w.i.p #this... might almost count as crack #Not sure really #work in progress #bakudeku #bakudeku w.i.p #class 1a #bit hesitant about posting this #but oh well #better than it sitting on my desktop endlessly waiting for me to finish the other sections #my writing #attempted fluff-ish and humor before the next chapter leaks #cause unless there’s a POV switch #we BkDk’s know angst shit is coming

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petre-chose-violence · 2 years

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Lmao we like to pretend we're different but we have the guard dog au. I love the guard dog au when I'm in the mood for it don't get me wrong but I'd be lying if I said I didn't think that and really angsty protégé aus don't scratch a similar itch. It's not just the guard dog au, we have a lot of angst & a lot of angst that you could draw a parallel to c!inniter angst with very easily, and with the similarities that exist between prison and exile it's bound to happen.

I've seen a lot of stuff on the Dream apologist tag on ao3 with villain quackity etc tags. (Wouldn't say much on its own regularly but in this fandom it can be more of a shorthand for 1 dimensional evil.) If I were a c!Quackity or c!Sam main I'd probably dislike a lot more of it.

I like prison angst, I like a lot of exile angst less, but that's more due to personal and character preferences than any like, moral issue. If people like Eburnean Tommy or something, good for them and I'm glad they're enjoying themselves /gen

I just wish this fandom used character bashing as a tag like some older fandoms do instead of having like 5 different tags to filter if I want a character to be sympathetic LMAO

Honestly, I don't much go to ao3 myslef. The only fics I read were the onses recomended directly to me, so I have no idea what AU you are reffering to here, anon.

But like, I've been on Dreblr for a while, and c!Dream angst is the main cource, the desert, the drink, the salad and the soup at this place, and I have seen nobody pretending like it's not.

And the thing about character bashing tags is that you are absulutely right on that front as well anon. It's just that some idiots misake their bashing for character analysis and the rest of us have to deal with that.

#dream smp #dreblr #I guess #not sure really #petrenocka answers

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pirateprincessjess · 18 days

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When I was a kid my family pretended to get raptured so I would think I was left behind on earth while they all went to heaven.

I was like 8 years old and my sister and mom had gotten really into the Left Behind novels (bible fan fic about the rapture). In the books when the rapture happened the clothes that people were wearing when they got raptured were left behind in neatly folded piles.

One day when I was getting home from school my family decided that they would leave piles of neatly folded clothes around the house, and then hide in the basement.

The intended effect was that I would get home and see the clothes then, think that my family had been raptured and that I wasn’t good enough to get into heaven… or something?

The problem was that I had never read these books, and didn’t really think about the rapture very often. There was no reason that I would see some laundry on the floor and think “The rapture happened and I’ve been abandoned by God! I’ll never see my family again!! Oh nooo!!!!”

I just sat down and watched cartoons and eventually my family got bored and revealed that they were all hiding in the basement.

It’s a good thing I didn’t understand the joke, otherwise that shit would have been traumatic.

#still not really sure what part of this joke was funny?#cuz if the prank had worked #then they would have made an 8 year old think she had lost her family and been rejected by god #which isn’t really much of a joke #Christian’s are weird yall #pirateprincessjess

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 days

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Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.

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shopcat · 11 months

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the baby has one parent's little face marking thing and the other's coat because they're a little horse family the world is a beautiful place

#☆#might become really obsessed with horses i'm not sure yet #maybe specifically mustangs and other feral horses... They intrigue me deeply #update i've been informed the thing is called a blaze but i just described it instead in the alt text bc i think clarity matters more than #erm. specificity??#also sorry if i don't know what colour the horses are. someone tell me if u like i like this stuff #🐯#domestic horse (equus ferus caballus)#equid #juvenile #top

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chaotic-neutral-knitter · 4 months

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I must not respond to the bad take. Responding to the bad take is the mind-killer. Responding to the bad take is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face the bad take. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the bad take has gone there will be nothing. Only I (and my good takes) will remain.

#my nonsense #surely someone has made this exact post already #I want to clarify that this isn't even really about anything I just thought of the joke and thus was compelled to make it

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theshadowrealmitself · 6 months

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I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’#who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field?#like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it.#it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks.#that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀)#liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

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adriles · 6 months

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when we’re done with our overwhelming grief we’ll eat i guess

#book 22 #im verh drunk #hi #greatest hits #not really sure why this one resonated. are u all ok #is everyone just at the shiva #yall need to stop saying you arent gonna eat then in the tags #i love that a lot of you are getting beautiful things out of this #but some of yall need to know i wrote this while incredibly drunk #this isnt meant to be all that deep this is just shitty iliad posting #more comments like this is just judaism. surprise surprise im jewish #but again this isnt about sitting shiva #this is me drunk talking about the last 3 books of the iliad #idk what to tell u man

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blargleblargleblargngek · 4 months

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i wish i had the same opportunities and things that i feel like everyone else has

longer messy vent under the cut with mentions of suicidal ideation, i'm keeping it here i guess just in case for other people who may feel the same. or not. who knows. i don't know who you are.

seriously. i'm so tired that i question how much longer should i even keep going. i just want to be able to live, simple as that. i can only do so much and expecting me to do more is just torture at this point. why even bother sometimes honestly if everyone else will end up happy in the end anyways with or without me while i have to deal with lugging my bullshit around while also pretending it's not there. i guess in a way i am wishing and hoping that I get some kind of support or consolation but the very little of it that i do get feels like it isn't enough as if there's an unconcious amount that needs to be compensated for in whatever area of emotions i have. that unconcious amount right now is deep in the negatives so it feels like no matter how much i'm sorrys or comfort i get given it either makes things worse and i have to pretend it has not or i just feel nothing at all. sometimes it helps a little but it goes back to an even worse amount at some point.

i'm very tired of not being able to live my life as my own. i do not want comfort or warmth. I want solutions and I am starting to run out of it and the fact that i have to keep going and going and going and going and going and going for everyones sake rather than my own because i have no way out and have no one to actually help me or give me some kind of solace while i'm basically going half insane and me not wanting to end it all due to guilt is eating me alive. like i'm being chewed on while life itself talks and laughs while it's at the dinner table all while i am conscious enough still to hear the vocals and noises it makes. i am very tired. very very very much so and i would like to not to have to push myself even more and i am wishing for an incredibly long break from worrying about things that don't even matter to anyone around me but myself it feels like. it's so hard to have fun and just enjoy even if i look and sound otherwise because i literally have no choice because i don't actually want to upset anyone how i'm feeling because they don't know how to deal with it and dwelling in it will just make it worse. i wish i had time to play games again. i wish i'm able to hang with friends and people more because i just can't due to where i am. i wish i had time to actually watch things and not have to pretend i have or have to quickly skim them. i wish i had my own space to be in. i wish i could dress and do whatever i want and not have to worry so much. i literally can only handle doing so much and i'm just so tired. i'm not sure about waiting for better days because that's what i've been doing for forever and i'm not sure how much am i able to keep going for. It's not like I've only been waiting for months alright or some years. It feels like it's been forever since I was a kid wishing and hoping things would get better. how much more waiting do i need to do to actually get out of here. I am slowly losing all my care for things and it's sad that i can't really even tell anyone about it. Frankly it's kinda scaring me. No one I know will actually sorta believe that if I told them and frankly i'm not even sure if i can even keep up to pretend to care about certain things anymore. Please, everyone i know will find their own happiness and support and I just want some form of freedom. I keep trying to find crumbs to live for tomorrow because living for the future just feels like it's gonna be heinous.

#lmao what's this #done crying #i hate how i can't take this seriously after #it's great i guess that it's out somewhere now.#the little guy in me that wants to whine and shout about this won't just let me journal it like how a normal person should #i guess it can be taken as a sign that maybe it needs to be out there in the public to see?#not sure really #we'll see #feels compulsive honestly but hey it's tumblr.#it's not like this will do anything other than provide for some unproductive reading material #mind ravings

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