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daz4i · 9 months
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btw with all my posts abt dazai surviving i do think it will take at least a few more chapters until that's revealed. maybe we'll get a continuation of chuuya's storyline but dazai needs to stay dead for a few more chapters for the pacing of the story as a whole (as frustrating as it is for those following it monthly)
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tonyspank · 8 months
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LOST IN THE FIRE
black!singer!reader x jenna ortega (they/them pronouns, but there’s mentions of them having a pp, lol)
warnings: fluff and a tiny bit of angst i guess, my poor attempts at humor again, social media w a bit of irl
a/n: i’ve always wanted to do a social media book. so this is just something fun i came up with, i hope you enjoy :) it’s also a way i can put u guys onto my fav songs 🤭
faceclaim: khalil beth
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Is Percy Hynes White Dating Jenna Ortega?
Jenna and Percy have yet to confirm or deny dating rumors, but they have posted many cute cast photos of one another on Instagram. On top of that, Jenna took Percy as her plus one date for the 2023 Golden Globes — and they're set to star in a movie together!
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3 talented artists + jack lani - kehlani jackie - jack tae - matteo
lani Y/N sweetie..
jackie 🙁
tae what'd i miss??
jackie Y/N's fav ex is dating an ugly man 🥺
tae JENNA? NAHH
tae let's hope she leave him too 🤞
tae she'll miss the bbc 🥲
lani omg wdf 😭😭
you ...
jackie now the dots was a lil dramatic
lani JACK 😭😭
you jack stfu before i shave ur beard
tae got his ass
lani LMFAOO
jackie 🤐
tae ok ok but Y/N how are u rn?
lani frr like talk to us
you wdym?
you we broke up why would i be bothered
jackie
🤨
tae 💀💀
lani i've never met anyone who still likes their exes posts
you it's called being mature
you i am able to support her regardless of what happened
tae it's called being delusional
jackie laughed at "it's called being delusional"
jackie i have an idea
jackie
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tae fam what is ur camera roll? 💀
lani what's ur idea jack
jackie i'm gonna ask demi for an invite to the scream 6 premiere
jackie then me and Y/N gon jump percy in front of jenna right
lani
side-eye…
jackie and then jenna gon be like
jackie oh my god not my mans getting his ass beat by my ex & their bsf tf
you please stfu 🙏
jackie bro
jackie i'm tryna help you save ur gf from a guy who looks like the definition of pervert
tae laughed at "i'm tryna help you safe ur gf from a guy who looks like the definition of pervert"
lani 😭😭😭😭
lani i can't breathe
you it's literally just a rumor that they're dating tho
you & i'm not going to the premiere
jackie mhm
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y/nhart what's your favorite scary movie? 🔪 #ScreamVI @screammovies
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screammovies You, of course. 🔪🩸 > y/nhart can we kiss?
jackharlow what did you say in the group chat? > y/nhart that jack harlow is a flop 🤫
user15 bro doing everything but dropping an album 💀 > user1 ong. right my wrongs ep was amazing but it's been 8 months 😭
mrmatteo where was my invite? > y/nhart drop a song then let's talk > user3 what a hypocrite 💀
user8 bite me
kehlani you could never be ghostface > screammovies Its always someone you know. 👻🔪🩸
user11 GO TO THE STUDIO
user992 i have $1,000 frank will drop before this mf
user90 MORE JENNA AND Y/N CONTENT??? > user78 i missed them :')
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            Your eyes were starting to water due to the number of flashes from the cameras that were going off around you. The bright lights made it difficult to keep your eyes open, but you knew that this was just part of being in the spotlight.
  Jack places a hand on your arm, slightly shoving you towards the exit. You ignore the yells of your name and continue to make your way off the carpet.
Your bodyguard, who had been standing nearby, steps in to create a path through the crowd, shielding you and Jack from the relentless paparazzi.
  "Did you talk to Jenna?" Jack asks, leaning close enough for his voice to be heard.
You send the bearded man a glare, shaking your head. "No. I don't even think she's walked the carpet yet."
Jack raises an eyebrow before turning his head to the carpet, which is still filled with celebrities and flashing cameras.
He scans the area, searching for any sign of Jenna among the chaos. He then turns back to you with a smirk on his lips. "I think you're just ducking her."
You roll your eyes at Jack's teasing remark.
"Please, like I have time to play hide and seek with Jenna. I'm just trying to avoid the relentless paparazzi."
You gesture towards the swarm of photographers jostling for the perfect shot.
Jack hums, his smile widening. A thought clicks into his head, causing his smile to drop.
"Oh, yeah! I talked to Melissa, and she is fine as fuck."
You thin out your lips. Jack probably didn't know she was married.
"I'll tell her husband you said that."
"You know what they say. Don't let your husband distract you from finding the love of your life."
You chuckle at his joke.
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"May I say you look amazing tonight?" The interviewer states, smiling as they admire your appearance.
You smile, bringing your hands together to calm yourself before responding.
"Thank you so much."
"Are you a big fan of the Scream franchise?" The interviewer asks, moving their microphone closer.
You nod, your eyes lighting up with excitement.
"Absolutely! Ghostface is such an iconic character, and I love the twists that they put in the movie. It just always keeps you on your toes."
The interviewer chuckles, sharing your enthusiasm. "I completely agree! The Scream franchise has definitely left a lasting impact on the horror genre with its clever storytelling and memorable characters. Speaking of memorable characters, whose is your favorite?"
You pause for a moment, looking up at the sky as you bite down on your lip.
"Uhh... It's hard to choose just one, but if I had to pick, I would say Roman Bridger. I didn't suspect him at all, and his reveal as the mastermind behind everything in Scream 3 was a total shock. Plus, Scott Foley's performance was absolutely chilling."
The interviewer nods, appreciating your choice. "I couldn't agree more. He's surely one to remember."
You nod again, smiling. "For sure. I've always wanted to play Ghostface. Taking off the mask and revealing your plan must be so fun."
The interviewer laughs and says, "I'm sure you'd do great."
Before you could respond with a thank you, the interviewer speaks up.
"Jenna! It's so nice to see you." You turn to see Jenna, your heart dropping at the sight of her.
You force a tight-lipped smile at the brunette. "Hey Jenna, long time no see," you say, trying to sound casual.
Deep down, you can't help but wonder if she still thinks about you.
Jenna returns the smile. "Yeah, it's been a while," she replies softly.
Memories of your past together flood your mind, and you can't help but wonder if there's still a chance for reconciliation.
"You guys are so stunning, I can't even!" The interviewer gushes, snapping you out of your thoughts.
Jenna chuckles, her eyes meeting yours briefly before she turns her attention back to the interviewer.
"Jenna, I've gotta ask. Are you a fan of Y/N's music?" Jenna nods her head, glancing at you again before answering.
"I am. They're very talented musically, and I'm waiting for another album."
You try to fight back a smile, but it fails miserably. The interviewer notices your failed attempt to hide your smile and chuckles.
"Seems like there's mutual admiration here," they remark, noticing the subtle connection between you and Jenna.
You tilt your head, shrugging a bit. "I guess you could say that. Jenna's very talented herself, both musically and in acting."
Jenna feels the butterflies in her stomach erupt as you compliment her.
She's missed you, and she wants nothing more than to reconnect with you. She blushes slightly and responds, "Thank you."
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You walk over to Jenna, interrupting her conversation with Percy. "Jenna."
Jenna turns towards you, a surprised expression on her face as she pauses mid-sentence.
"Come home with me?"
Jenna's eyes widen as she processes your unexpected request, leaving her momentarily speechless.
After a brief moment of hesitation, she nods slowly, her curiosity piqued. "Sure, why not? Let's go."
Percy furrows his eyebrows, watching you and Jenna walk off together.
When you arrive home, you take off your jacket and help Jenna with hers.
Jenna mumbles a thank you before making herself comfortable on the couch.
She looks around the unfamiliar surroundings, seeing as you've changed a few things since the last time she was there.
Jenna's eyes linger on a Polaroid of you and her, capturing a happy memory from months ago. Of course, Jenna still loved you, but was she ready to take the risk of getting hurt again?
She couldn't bear the fact that things might not work out between you two, causing more heartbreak.
Fame had always been a double-edged sword for Jenna. While it had brought her success and recognition, it also came with constant scrutiny and pressure.
It's what ruined you two. Jenna being constantly busy due to acting and you constantly being busy due to singing made it difficult for you both to find quality time together.
Despite the love that still existed between you, the demands of your respective careers created a growing distance that neither of you knew how to bridge.
You walk into the living room, two glasses of wine in your hand. "Actually," Jenna speaks up, and you raise your eyebrows in anticipation.
She continues, "Could we sit on your balcony?"
You nod, a smile tugging at the corners of your lips. "Of course," you say, leading the way to the balcony.
As you settle into the comfortable chairs, the city lights twinkling below, Jenna takes a deep breath and says, "I miss moments like this, just being together without any distractions."
You take a sip of your wine, pausing to savor the flavor before responding. "Me too," you say, gazing out at the night sky.
"I missed you."
Jenna's eyes soften, and she reaches over to gently touch your lap. "I missed you too," she whispers.
"I hope you know that I'm not dating Percy."
"I know," you reply, a small smile forming on your lips. "I knew you wouldn't downgrade like that."
Jenna chuckles softly, her dimples beginning to show. "That's hilarious."
A silence falls over the two of you.
"I couldn't imagine being with anyone other than you," you snap your head towards her, your heart swelling with love at words.
She always knew the right thing to say.
"You're the only one who truly understands me, Y/N." Jenna's eyes meet yours, her brown pupils glistening in the moonlight.
"I can't find myself being vulnerable or trusting with anyone else." She finishes off, breaking away from your gaze.
You don't say anything, you just place your hand over top of hers, which was resting on your lap.
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y/nhart 12...??...23...lost in the fire...earned it...all mine...confident...all mine...oui...greece...get me...kiss land...for free
➕➕➕.
meltdown...i'd do anything to make you smile...boyfriend,girlfriend...rambo...let em'know
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user12 OMFG BRUH
user99 AOTY
jackharlow deluxe 🔜
bnyx 👨‍🍳🔥🎶
theweeknd 🫡
user77 couldve had better feats tbh > user880 STFU
djkhaled 🔥🔥🔥 WE'LL NEVER STOP 🛑!!! 
>user14 TELL EM BRING OUT THE ALBUM ALREADY
user67 i'm about to cry.
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y/nsrealwife i stand by what i said
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user11 unknown? it's jenna😭 > y/nrealwife me when i'm delusional
user45 there's no misses on the album + they ate down in the deluxe > user89 came in my pants when they came on the track w that "t-time, t-time, t-time.."
user66 can we talk abt for free? bro had like 10 viagra pills before pulling up to the studio > user77 💀💀💀
jackharlowsbeard kehlani & jack on the album made me so happy.
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y/nhart mega christmas dump 🎄@jennaortega @jackharlow @mrmatteo @kehlani
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weebsinstash · 24 hours
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People keep asking me if I have any 'yandere Alastor vs. yandere Lucifer fighting over Reader' ideas, and I gotta say one of my favorite ones is uh
Ok so I just am trying to kick myself in the ass to write this in of itself, but, I really like the idea of Alastor just straight up tricking you into giving him your soul. "Oh what if Reader takes a deal from him" no what if he makes a deal for your soul and you don't even fucking realize what you're doing and it's completely unintentional. I'm talking, my specific idea, is that after a prolonged series of events where you both gain and then lose Alastor's respect, he then approaches you when you're just like DRUNK DRUNK and, you're being all social and slurring and honestly he's embarrassed for you but at least you're talking to him, and, he sets his trap: making it seem like just an innocent little game, Alastor suggests you two have some kind of drinking game, and the winner can take ANY ONE THING from the other, and he's even all "oh, you don't even have to bother yourself with thinking about it! I could simply JUST TAKE IT and not even inform you, so then you wouldn't even have to worry yourself about whatever it is I decided to... acquire for myself :)"
And here's your drunken delusionally confident ass, thinking YOU'RE gonna pull one over on HIM, YOU trick ALASTOR "oh haha there's definitely nothing I have he wants lol, what would he do, take my cellphone or some of my shitty clothes or collectibles, lmao, I'm gonna win and I'm gonna ask him for some sort of special power or cool thing or gossip, this is low stakes high reward for sure"
Cue you like IMMEDIATELY losing his challenge, and even then, you're all smiles and laughs, "aww, I thought I had you there! So what are you taking?" And he just "Ohhhh, nothing :) actually I... even already took it from you!" And he starts LAUGHING laughing and you're just like "oh, you bastard, you got me! >u< more drinks, yay!"
I like the idea that Reader wakes up the next morning STILL in compete ignorance but uh, eventually you find out exactly how terrifying having someone else own your soul is when Alastor gives you some sort of command of something you REALLY do not want to do and you can't even control your own body to stop yourself from doing it anyways. Just the... violations of privacy, the loss of autonomy. He can force every thought and secret out of your mouth, your head, and move your body to the best of its abilities, and also just, PLUCK you to his location at will
So. Lucifer finds you just absolutely BROKEN in bed, like emotionally devastated, you are as close to suicidal as you can be for someone who cannot die, and, maybe you've even self-harmed. And after some gentle prodding from the Devil, you reveal what Alastor did, but, even more than that, how it made you FEEL. Alastor had approached you as some kind of friend, then started to want to exert some kind of ... control over you, commenting on your lifestyle choices, wanting you to do things with him in HIS way, and then when you resisted, he acted like you were a disappointment, even stopped spending time with you, and THEN, after you thought he was done with you, TRICKS YOU into giving him YOUR SOUL. It's just completely destroyed your psyche. It's reinforced horrible things you've thought about yourself your entire life. It made you feel alone, and now, you don't even have your soul anymore
So naturally Lucifer is like, "That's horrible! I'm so sorry he hurt you like that, I won't let him do this!" AND JUST FUCKING UNDOES IT. Contract WHAT? Radio Demon WHO? this is HELL and Lucifer is, you know, THE DEVIL FROM UH, THE BIBLE, and he's just snapping his fingers and you FEEL your soul come back to you and now you're breaking down crying for entirely different reasons while Lucifer holds you
MEANWHILE ALASTOR, who is fucking off elsewhere, may or may not be lovingly gazing at whatever form your soul is taking within his grasp, HAS IT RIPPED AWAY FROM HIM AND STARTS LOSING HIS MIND. Some "Wait, what just happened? Ffffuck." shit for real, he's, abruptly jerking out of his chair so hard it's sliding across the floor and he's racing back to the Hotel. Charlie stands up for him and shouts down her father that he has no right to ask the Radio Demon to leave, but, Charlie "attempts" to give Alastor "a stern talking to" about how "friends don't take other friend's souls, taking other people's souls is not how we get into Heaven" which, of course, falls on deaf ears, but Charlie isn't the Morningstar Alastor is wanting to concern himself with
And of course, there's Lucifer, making sure he's standing close to you, maybe even between you and Alastor, standing in front of you protectively, MAYBE EVEN HOLDING YOUR HAND TO COMFORT YOU. Alastor just immediately putting two and two together what happened and all but grinding his teeth into dust. Not only has Lucifer interfered and taken something IRREPLACEABLE from him(which was something he took from YOU lol), but, Lucifer has driven a wedge between you ans the Radio Demon. Alastor is watching you regard him with nothing but anger and sadness and fear while clinging to the tiny fallen angel and just, ohhhh, if looks could kill, the staredown these two are having with each other over you...
You've got one yandere who had your soul within his hands and had it taken back before he even got to enjoy having it, didn't get to DO anything with it, and another yandere who, quite understandably, feels that it isn't safe to let you leave from under his protective wing, and BOTH of them are convinced you have to be protected from the other while ALSO being super powerful
You know, the perfect combination of dangerous abilities and dangerous minds :) obviously our favorite Appletini is the more powerful one, but I think our Bambi could give him a good run for his money through sheer trickery alone. If you thought it was annoying getting pulled into antagonistic musicals BEFORE--
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kanmom51 · 8 months
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Did you jikookers see that? Yes JK is a smoker just like tae,and it's obvious tae taught him to smoke,they now spend time smoking together as a real couple and nothing for jimin,or your delusional ship. He doesn't care anymore he wants the world to know that he too smokes like his boyfriend tae,When taekook are hanging our,enjoying each others company while smoking,jimin is busy going to museums with namjoon.poor jokers😂😂😂😂.You will always be losers at the end of the day,you can never have what taekook have jk just proved that they are the only real ship.You ALL SHOULD GIVE UP
I was going to just block this shit off but then, I felt like having a good laugh, so I decided to post this.
Do I even have to comment?
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And for the fun of it...
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And
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But finally, in case the message wasn't clear enough...
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And we are the ones being called delusional...
But seriously. Why the fuck do you assholes keep showing up in Jikook blogs trying to what? Convert us? Prove us wrong? This is utterly hilarious.
I guess that's what you do when you have zero interaction between the two people you are forcing on each other to be in a relationship they aren't in?
Do you even realize how utterly ridiculous you sound?
I guess that by your logic all social smokers are literally fucking each other. Ok then. Good logic. Does that apply to social drinkers too? Cause JK, he been drinking A LOT with JM. Does that mean they are fucking? Ooh....ooh, I guess we're on to something here.
I'd say that instead of coming with stupid ass asks to send to Jikook blogs @secretfurystrawberry you go and:
a. Get a life, cause stalking Jikook blogs is not a good look on you.
b. Stop trying to force a square into a triangle. JK and Tae are mates, good friends. C'est tous. Nothing else. And no matter which what way you twist it, it won't fit. And for crying out loud, start listening to JK you ass. He's made it abundantly clear.
c. I think you also need to go back to school. Although I'm not sure they teach common sense in school, so maybe not school. But you definitley need a lesson in common sense if this is what you can come up with to try and 'prove' just how 'real' TKK are (as a couple, cause friends, they don't smoke together now, do they?).
Bottom line dear asshole TKKer, is fuck back off to your fake account!!
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It's been a while since I've answered stupid ass asks like these. I tend to just block or delete.
Gotta say, it feels good to vent a little, lol.
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zizz-asdf-re-r-o-u · 2 months
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Headcanon time: Who might be on the aroace spectrum in a sex game?
I missed arospec week by... a few weeks lol. And hey look i'm making a Nukani headcanon post instead of a questionable theorizing analysis for once! If you have contributions for characters I don't have enough info on (especially Quincy), please add on!
Disclaimer: I'm aromantic but allosexual. For me, this means I experience sexual attraction, but not romantic attraction. In my local kink scene, I actually personally know several community members + friends who are asexual or aromantic or both, and some engage in sex while some don't. And lastly for demographic proof only, I'm in an unofficial discord server where some unspecified members are asexual, but they still play this porn game, so yes not everyone who plays this game are into romance or sex.
TLDR: someone can be asexual or aromantic or on the aroace spectrum and still have sex but that varies for everyone!
Now that that's out of the way, here are my headcanon times! None of this is true or ever will be true due to the marketing of a porn harem game, but I think it's fun to headcanon! Feel free to disagree cause I know how people reacted to that "Is Aster trans" reddit post.
Speaking of Aster. I think he's also aroacespec! In his SR room 5, we got text narration ONE time that he gushed or orgasmed or something with a vague hot rod behind Eiden's back. But we've never seen Aster naked nor involve his genitals with another body in the 5 H scenes we have with him. And unlike EVERY other character, he’s only described to have orgasmed once. He also constantly talks down on morvay’s sexual habits, and while it’s a running gag that’s played for laughs, isn’t it possible Aster actually thinks this way? But is still willing to engage in sexy times with Morvay because they're essence creatures so that's how you exchange essence, and they’re basically an old married couple & deep down they do care about each other. And remember what I said about aromantic or asexual people who still engage in kink or sex.
Next, Karu my beloved chew toy. At the time I wrote Garu/Karu analysis part 1, I thought both of them were firmly allosexual but also presented some evidence someone could use to argue Karu might be demi or aroace or something else. But the more I think about it, the more I think yeah, he might be. Or he’s just a tsundere. I swear I'm not delusional and am a logical canon-based theory fan. (Btw, according to google searching, it is possible for different alters to have different sexualities, so this does not apply to Garu).
Quincy- I have never watched a Quincy intimacy room (including his SR & R cards that I have unlocked) but my vibes based off all the other story content with him makes me think he might be in the umbrella, so Grey-ace, Demi, etc. From what I’ve heard other people say, Quincy has had a lover in the past but currently only has sex if Eiden begs for it. This might fit into the definition of people who don't really care for sex themselves, but is interested in it for their partner. If anyone has Quincy cards and has more information, please let me know!
Huey: ok so we have almost no information on him. But he didn’t have sex with his clan members. He was definitely not romantically invested in any of his clan members nor do I recall him having hints of being sexually or romantically invested in anyone else, which does not equate aromantic or asexual but its still possible. And that’s all I got. Anyone got additional input?
Eiden: ah our beloved Eiden. Let’s ignore that in meta, he’s supposed to be the audience self insert (even though he’s the least self insert type MC ever) and therefore he is not going to “prioritize” one ship over another.
Anyways, so I am 100% sure he’s not asexual. BUUUUT he has not expressed romantic lovey dovey attraction to his clan members. More significantly, he does not seem to pick up MULTIPLE clan members’ romantic hints towards him. Yes in Fateful Aegis, Eiden says “I love you too” back to Yakumo, but it’s prefaced with something like Your grandparents love you and I love you too-ish, which to me indicates found family love. Kuya has said the Chinese/Japanese equivalent of “I love you” (“the moon is bright/the moonlight is beautiful tonight”) and that totally went over Eiden’s head. Dante & Edmond are also intensely crushing on Eiden… but they’re tsunderes so it’s probably gonna take forever to get across. The other members are different types of dedicated but open relationships rather than traditionally romantic relationships (except for Rei, who’s still getting there). And I think this is a great thing! All these varying relationship styles that are given the same weight & importance & Eiden has such appreciation & care for all of them, despite not providing traditionally romantic affection back.
Aromantic people can still love their friends & family! We’re not heartless emotionless creatures. We just may not experience or be able to comprehend romantic attraction. And i don’t think that’s a defect nor a bad thing.* And I think it’s especially cool when we compare Eiden’s bad hookup habits in the real world with how he has multiple regular partners that truly value him and a new found family in Klein. If he was aromantic this whole time, it’s kind of a positive perspective, isn’t it? Some aromantic people do experience “squishes”, which is a term for when we feel emotional desire for a platonic relationship. Obviously none of Eiden’s relationships are truly platonic due to the sexual element, but they all lack the romantic element from Eiden’s side.
(Anyways, Eiden won’t ever “reciprocate” romantic love because it’s a harem game, but shhhhh. Also to anyone who says it’s an Asian game and the characters aren’t going to say “I love you”…. Well in their newest intimacy rooms, both Kuya and Yakumo literally just did. Heck one of Forest Night Kuya’s sprite dialogues repeats that!)
So yeah, I hope you enjoyed this pointless headcanons!
*Speaking from my personal experience, I’ve have several sexual partners over time, but I never had the desire to date them or be romantically invested in them. And a weirdly telltale sign, that Jaidenanimation pointed out quite nicely, is that when she listened to romance songs she was like “wait that’s what people experience when they’re in love???” I’ve read a TON of romance and have heard a TON of love songs, but I cannot relate to any one of them. I literally have not felt any of those feelings. And when I have sexual partners, the horniness is definitely the forefront compared to any “falling in love” feelings. I did have what I now realize were several “squishes” in high school/college. What squishes feel like to me, are like “I wanna be your friend & you’re really cool & I cherish you! Like a lot! And also I don’t mind if you fucked me!” which emotionally feels different from “I’m in love with you!!!” (Which yeah i still don’t know what “in love” feels like, and I’m fine with not knowing!).
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Have you considered not being massively aggressive to everyone who attempts to speak to you after you have your meltdown rants to a sizable audience that you intentionally cultivated, and whom you constantly decry as unwanted parasites or vultures who Just Won’T Leave You To Your Privacy (which you also complain impotently about, upset that you don’t receive quite as much attention as other vtubers?) Honestly, you’ve built an entire brand around being a vicious asshole to other people, begging for some kind of relief from the abject hell that is apparently your life, and now have the temerity to fucking caterwaul like a banshee every time someone so much as attempts to suggest taking literally any steps to improve things! You twist compliments from longtime fans into horrifying character assassination or cruel jabs at your fragile and yet somehow massive ego! When anyone reasonably brings up that your behavior is toxic to the extreme, you sic a legion of equally vile fans and “friends” (though with the way you describe them, it severely stretches belief to think you have any fondness for a single one of them). Hell, you get mad that people speak English to you because you’re Dutch, and then get mad they speak Dutch to you since this is an English blog! You know why you’re miserable? Because you WANT to be miserable, and can’t stand that anyone else ISN’T miserable. You are the most exhausting person on the Internet and I think you know that.
Ok so I went a ways into my inbox and just found this and it was apparently sent 3 days ago? And I know the person who wrote this won't see it cause the account seems to have already been deleted lol. But I'm just trying to parse this message cause none of it really sounds accurate to reality in the slightest and I'm trying to figure out how you could possibly reach the conclusions this person does without being very delusional. What reality did this person warp from? What about me could be interpreted this way?
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alitgblog · 1 month
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volume vii thoughts
as per usual I have complaints about the missed opportunities of casa
first things first, the casa boys' sprites looked bad to me when I saw that post fusebox made but after playing for like a minute, I was like nah actually they're quite fine. However, prettiest sprites they're competing with are Jin, Claudia, Oakley, Tyler, and Bea so the competition is rough. Also idk something is throwing me off with Shawn and especially Kyle's face shapes.
I think last post I made I said Hari at least got more of a chance than Tyler, but scratch that actually, it feels like they got the same chance because suddenly we're in casa and hardly any mention of him, even though he and my MC have kissed a few times already and she hasn't really rejected him fully over Jin yet? Don't know if anyone's in the boat of going all in with Hari but I'm curious what the gameplay is like for them.
So Emel has randomly decided to be annoyed at Oakley again (I'll replay for you next time Oakley 🥺) and it's clearly because the routes are merged now, which is such a shame because I do think Emel and Oakley could've worked it out and become a fun couple to watch on the real show (probably a boring one though that the audience would dump until after the show ended that their real personalities come out on social media and the public like them individually or at least understand why they were together so long). And I know it's not the most in character thing but I so appreciate it not being a complete 180 for the sake of plot because I'm trying to imagine this with all the couples given what I know about them from my playthrough and Emel/Oakley always have problems because she's uptight and wants more dramatics in their romance and he's chill so any little thing he ends up doing sets her off, sure, I can buy that Emel is a little delusional. Then Luna/Jin would have problems because Luna is less extroverted than Jin, serious, and irritable (which honestly, relatable) and so Jin does things for a laugh and she doesn't get it. So maybe he didn't wink at Bea or did it as a joke because he's being cheeky and she takes it as flirting and starts an argument. And from my playthrough, Sophie and Jack always feel like they're looking for an argument so that checks out too. It's not perfect, but I can feasibly see how one could justify this plot point.
absolutely living for flirting with Claudia in casa
pet peeve subjective raunchy races is back 😠 at least a couple of them are better, like they did have oldest boy in there at least. everything else though, I don't care that much to listen to them argue about who's the most well traveled or stylish.
I love Bea's personality, she's so fun. And tbh, I'm kind of liking her and Liam together. He's forward and she's into it, and it seems like he can keep up with her for now so I'm happy with that couple and I hope it doesn't turn to shit (it probably will).
also pay to win when losers are gonna throw a part anyway ok sure 🙄 I think I've mentioned this before but like personally I think if they're gonna do gem scenes, there has to be a logical ways out of it rather than just MC being like "nah I don't feel like it" and then they lose?? at least for other gem scenes it's like "tell Sophie off 10 gems" or "stay silent" like sure that's fine I guess.
anyway the chats with the boys were actually all pretty fun and short. I, as per usual, have immediately gravitated towards the foodie/chef character but I'll admit I see what y'all are saying about Kyle. Tbh even Max isn't too bad but I'm cautious bc I'm getting Eddie vibes (it's the blond and the gossip lol). And I like Liam, he's like a less cartoonishly silly Hamish (so he reminds me of Felix).
I really like the free party wear dress and this is the second volume in a row MC has accidentally matched with a boy not her partner lol
Bea first mentioning she was bi but not flirting, I just thought maybe they were setting her up to partner with Claudia/Theo depending on who you couple up with/if you're on one of their routes. But then oh the tension at the party when she's staring at MC saying she wants to turn heads and Claudia getting nervous??? loving that.
I don't know what it's like for the other boys but it seems like Shawn and Kyle are drama averse, which I think could be an interesting plot point for later coming back from casa of course, but I also don't know if I believe in fusebox's ability to incorporate that in the story. (once again, the day I write a fic and learn to code its all over for you fusebox)
I didn't pay for the Bea talking about Jin scene but I saw yall talk about Sienna and like I doubt it's going anywhere if it's behind a paywall? it's like the Brad and Christy stuff tbh like unless a bunch of dumped islanders are coming back at the end, I'm ignoring it.
anyway it truly is missing Jin hours again 😔
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giyubabe · 5 days
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This is super weird and awkward so you can ignore this if you want lol
I want someone to explain Giyushino to me. Like...this is so weird. Okay.
Like, I want to ship them, because I almost get it, and theoretically their dynamic is fun, but I don't really get it. I don't get why it's such a popular pairing, because I never really saw much potential for romance between them. (But I kinda want there to be?)
Basically I'm just asking why you ship them. Like is there a specific interaction that made you ship them?
This is such a weird question I'm sorry lmao
I don’t really have much to say to cuz I’m not the type of a person to force another to ship something they are confused about shipping or not,cuz to be honest,ships are NOT and they will never be all what matters in an anime.
Because when you watch an anime you are there for the characters designs, time line plot , the development of story and how it effects the characters personalities and actions as well as emotions and so on. Without forgetting the hidden problems that we all can see in our daily life that the author is trying to discuss by drawings and a whole written story of course.
However,yes ships is always a part of every single fandom,it’s seems like it a forbidden thing to not be including any type of ships in every single fandom that can be existing.
So to go ahead for the straight point cuz I yapped much (sorry) for me ,I’m a Muslim and I do not like non-straight ships that much all right,it seems odd to me so, I just stick up with my beloved straight ship, but to think about it with Giyushino it’s just the 11yo me who was watching kny for the first time and thought that Giyuu and shinobu were engaged ( nah I’m not sorry about that they gave me the old married couple vibes )
And to talk slightly serious and think with some sense, Giyushino is the most sense able fannon ship made in kny . Parts of official kny novels, official manga and anime arts, characters opinions, and Giyuu and shinobu’s behaviour towards each other and the way they act together is just such a big proofs for what am saying and explains it all ( that’s without including the indirect confession shinobu made and all the hints the studio gave us added in the official arts)
I’am not saying it’s canon ok,hey you ,yes you, the delusional Giyushino shipper that is reading this right now,STOP BEING DELUSIONAL AND SNIF AIR ,GIYUSHINO WILL NEVER BE CANON,SHE.IS.DEAD.( sorry for that but I had to say it)
Like I said it will not be canon sadly but that doesn’t mean that I can’t go and ship it.me personally,I’d rather die then shipping sanegiyu.(I SAID PERSONALLY)
But yeah it’s up to you if u wanna ship it or not.
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spilledsinnamontea · 3 months
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Hey, Ann!! Happy Valentines!!! 💚💚💚
I was wondering here: which ships are in your Top OTPs? And why you love them so much (if you want to share!)
OMG HI MONDO!!!! Happy (belated) valentine to you as well 💘💘💘 How are you?? I hope you are well!!!
Of course I want to share, I love oversharing about my ships HAHA. So here you go, a (short) list of my SNK OTPs:
LeviHan
(pretends to be shocked). No, but I'm not even kidding when I said that they live in my head 24/7 🤣 Everytime I do or see something, I would automatically connect it to Levihan. I just can't help it lol, I love them so much (both as a character and as a ship). Their relationship is mature and pure but fun at the same time. I mean, they embody all of my favourite tropes, so no suprise here. But idk, there are no other ships (that came before them or after them) that could alter my brain in the same way as them. They changed me fr, like something shifted inside me the moment I became a Levihan shipper. Hell, I even chose my uni major because of a Levihan fanfiction 💀 Not only that, my writings and English has improved a lot, and all of that merely because I want to write their fanfic LOL.
I've been a Levihan shipper since 2013 and I will continue to be one until I die. So yeah, expect to see more Levihan fanfiction for more decades to come 😚✌️
AruAni
They don't really live in my head 24/7 but I still think of them often. Also, they hold an important place in my heart since they are my first ship in SNK. Not only that, they are also special to me because they are THE ship that went from being considered as a crack ship to a canon one. LIKE IT WAS INSANE. I mean I've been an Aruani shipper since 2013 and so I knew how small the fandom were back then. Not only that, most of the SNK fandom saw AruAni as a crack shipper, but we were like, "No! They are not! (proceed to analyse the hell out of their interaction in the female titan arc)." 😀👍
So imagine how SHOCKED and ECSTATIC I WAS when all of these analysis and headcanons CAME TRUE. It took us almost a decade, but we finally got to say, "See guys? WE ARE NOT DELUSIONAL." I never been proud as a shipper HAHA. One of my biggest flex is to say that I've been an Aruani truther since 2013 😎
Okay now that I think about it, the only ships that I deeply care about are only the two above. I do like other ships, but only in a casual way (but I still gonna defend them though LOL), and those are:
YumiHisu
I used to be neutral with them but when that episode of Historia holding the passed out Ymir on her lap and said, "My real name is Historia", then they stared at each other eyes with such love???? BEAUTIFUL I SAY. Their dynamic and the way their characters arc intertwined with each other? Love it! I wished Isayama gave them a proper closure though :(
JeanKasa
Oh man, I actually have a lot of things to say about them but I'm gonna keep it brief🤐 I didn't ship them at the beginning, but as I grew up and as I tried to understand their characters, I found myself falling for JeanKasa and their potential. I feel they will have a healthy, mature, and loving relationship. I also like the way Jean showed his love to Mikasa (he's not selfish and he's not blinded by his love).
Well, that's all! But, before I end this ask, here are some honourable mentions: PokkoPiku, EreHisu, EreMin, and MikeNana.
Bonus: I actually like to play with the idea of Erwin and Marie, I even tried to explore them in my fic HAHA.
OK THAT'S ALL. SORRY IF THIS WAS TOO LONG MONDO 😝 Thank you for the ask!! You made my day!!!!! I love you 💖💖💖
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narutobad · 4 months
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Ok ok I'm normally not a person that would do this but I have thoughtts that have been eating me feom inside and I feel like ur insane enough (/pos) to understand this but like
Have ur ever got the energy Abt sasusaku being like tragic? I not really into them bc I never got the right vibes for them to really appeal to me so I never really cared or paid attention to them in a romantic sense but after seeing some ppl talking Abt them divorcing put this ideas into my mind of them clearly loving caring respecting and trusting each other but being together as in married or commiting ina relationship doesn't make them happy or it even makes them unhappy but the idea of letting go especially now it's so painful that they stay and even when they try to break it of they end up back together bc staying with each other is always a better option then being without the other even if they know it's not doing the good
But idk um a sucker for divorce and doomed tragic relationships and am being a bit delusional lol
i do think there is a lot of tragedy around sasuke and sakura's relationship, yeah. there is so much grief there, with sasuke's history and trauma and sakura's complicated feelings towards him, so many years of waiting and all of it festering.
i like to think that with time, patience and the love they undoubtedly share they're able to figure it out, and thats part of why i like them, how complicated their relationship is - but just as easily there is a possibility of them not being able work it out, of course. and that's also interesting.
i can see it going the way you're pointing out, especially if you consider how sasuke behaves in boruto, which i personally don't because i find it ooo. in that universe, divorce is the answer yup. god, they'd grow to resent each other so much, it'd be super toxic.
all in all, for sasusaku to work out, there has to be a lot of healing on both sides, so much maturity and grace in both of them. i could see sakura making herself smaller for sasuke, as she often did when she was a child, and sasuke being emotionally unavailable, and taking and taking from sakura. i could see them being stuck in that dynamic, loving each other so much still, unable to let go.
that is tragic indeed, but in my interpretation by the end of the manga neither sasuke nor sakura are those people anymore/they are well on their way of leaving those people behind, and that's why i place my bets on them figuring it out 😝
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yonemurishiroku · 10 months
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I've heard people say that it would've been better if Akhlys had been the villain, not Nyx... and you know what. They're right. Nyx is darkness (and not evil in mythology) and the book keeps pushing the false idea that darkness = bad/evil. And we've already had Nico's whole "I control the shadows, they don't control me" thing. He's always embraced his darkness.
Akhlys is the personification of misery and pain, though. And she was already shown to be haunting him in HoO and had called Nico absolutely perfect? But... he's not perfect anymore, now that he's found his place at CHB and is trying to move on and heal...
Wouldn't it have made more sense for Nico to face off against her, in a book about him coming to terms with his trauma?
Anon, you're absolutely right. I wholeheartedly agree with every word you've sent.
You've said pretty much everything really. Anklys is just so much of a more interesting choice for Nico's story. They have history. Her concept is like. half the morale of the book. She is half of Nico's story: trauma and misery. (To be told by the Goddess of Misery that you're the most misery being? I'd jump in the Acheron and die in despair immediately)
It makes a fuckton more sense for her to be the antagonist if we're seriously talking about Nico's traumas.
But alas. She didn't even make an appearance. Not even when they are fighting Nyx??
Shame. Really.
Anw. I suspect it having to do with
Anklys' concept - as it turns out - hardly poses any clashing dynamic with Will. As in: Nyx and Will's Apollo energy clashes vehemently. But Anklys - aside from the poison, which is kinda a side characterization rather than the concept, and still it hardly has anything to do with Nico (more like Percy) - has no intermingle field with him. And since TSATS is about Nico and Will, it might reduce Will's role to the story.
Anklys cannot win Bob? Idk even me thing this is silly LOL. But eh it kinda makes sense. (Or maybe I'm just delusional about Bob's strength ajdhak i'm kinda bias sometimes okay---)
Am I defending Rick? No. I refuse to. I'm saying I can see his reasons (which I vehemently disagree. But ya know. This is his story after all).
I hold Anklys and Nico's connection dear to my heart, you know? Ok maybe that doesn't come out right. I mean. I'm pretty invested in what their dynamic might be. Rick got me hooked in like one line - and it's even reported speech by Anklys! We have never even seen in the books! - and then decided to throw it all away.
I'm stay in my corner and wallow this lost unto eternity while simultaneously fantasizing what could have happened between Nico, Anklys, and all the Misery that follows.
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spacehostilityy · 10 months
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My NNT rewatch s1ep19-24
Ps these are backlogged lol I watched fast but then ran out of time for work. Posting this now bc I'm going to Appalachia to visit family and will have very little wifi lol
I know Elaine is pretty underdeveloped (nothing a little fanfic can't fix), but I do love how even in flashbacks, she's more serious and responsible than king
Why was Diane still like 6 after hundreds of years ?? Like why wouldn't they just show her aging?
ITS BEEN 500 YEARS? Meaning only a couple centuries before present?? WHY IS DIANE SO SMALL? HOW BAD WAS HER GROWTH SPURT???
Damn king rlly said mercy kill
The Druids having the technique Enslavement of the Dead is actually really cool because it shows us that the goddess race really was that fucked up from the very beginning. Like the characters realize that Ludociel and Nerobasta are not all there made out to be eventually, but we can see just from the types of abilities the druids (aka those closest to and led by the goddess race) possess
Hendrickson saying "bien, princesa" or EVEN BETTER "THAT'S A GOOD GIRL" LIKE ASDJSKFJSL hes evil and a little annoying but so fcking hot
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Ban telling Meliodas he loves him and then trying to kill him while meliodas is just like bitch I'm busy we can do this later is so funny
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this man gives zero fucks
Ban being the first to realize (after merlin obvi, but she always knew) that Meliodas is a demon and also being the first to accept him means so much to me. This is why I love their relationship. No matter how horrible the other seems to be (or is lol), they stand by each other. I mean not in this specific scenario, but Ban only cares bc the horn of cernunos told him to, so I don't think it really counts. (im delusional)
also I'm typing this on my laptop now and I forgot that I can type this fast ehehe AND i found a way to screenshot so no more taking pics of my laptop for meee
Something about characters begging for death (ban and meliodas) makes me become obsessed with them (i am mentally ill)
MELIODAS BEING WILLING TO LET BAN KILL HIM (if he can do so successfully lol)😭 I know he would just come back, but he would be stuck in Purgatory ASJDKFJSL I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCHHH
every day, i find out just how i much i am capable of shipping them and every day that limit is surpassed
straight besties that would literally die for each other is the ideal fictional relationship
esp bc melizabeth (my actual main ship) doesn't get rlly good until she regains her memories/is a flashback
AJSHDFKSDB FNFKS BAN PICKING UP GIL WHILE MARGARET AND VIVIAN SOB AND JUST TELLING THEM "im borrowing this"
bro i totally forgot dreyfus fucking dies how does he come back??
ok ban is having his MOMENT after finding out hendy has been using the corpse of the red demon HE killed 20 yrs ago
also I know ban is like 43 and the whole twilight argument is edward is basically just a 100 year old man so following that logic, Ban is middle aged BUT as someone who is close in age to Ban from before he became immortal, that man is the most 23 year old man to ever 23 year old man. He is chronically in his early 20s frfr
king realizing in that moment judt how wrong he was abt the destruction of the fairykings' forest is the biggest oh fuck moment lol
also i may have 🏴‍☠️ed the bandit ban ova to hurt my own feelings
hendy taunting ban by saying his demonic powers are all thanks to him and ban just saying he's "always happy to help" is such a mood honestly
hendy gets hotter with every demon transformation😔
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Meliodas and Ban mourning hawk actually makes me so sad wtf
elizabeth is such a bad bitch when she awakens her power i love her
also hendy being like wow such a powerful druid as if he himself is not a druid and should know this power (and her eyes) is goddess level 🤨
i bet meliodas was shitting himself trying to see whether or not re reawakened her memories tho like damn he was actually probably so scared he would lose her in 3 days without the chance to break their curses
Diane and Ban having the exact same expression is actually rlly funny to me
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LAST EP OF SEASON 1!!!!!
WAIT OMG IS HE GOING TO REVENGE COUNTER👀👀
wow i remember so little of season 1 lol
them all just beating the everloving shit out of meliodas is entirely too funny to me
HAHA i was RIGHT about revenge counter im literally a genius
😏 face down ass up babygorl
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this is one of the cutest frames in the whole show fr fr😌
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Diane: "Sorry we didnt come for you sooner!☺️" King: "Yeah we've never kidnapped a princess before haha :}"
so in the very last after credits scene, gil, howzer, and griamore are all standing around Dreyfus's work table staring at the drawing of meliodas's demon mark as. But as we know from other characrers later on, can have lots of different marks. Meliodas, Zeldris, and Estarossa all have the same one, but maybe this is a family thing? But if it is, why would demon!Hendy have it?? is the grey denon somehow a relatuve of the demon bros lol
anyway I FINISHED SEASON ONEEEEE
ill do a mini ramble over the ovas that netflix likes to call season 2 then move on to the read deal
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kanmom51 · 10 months
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OK then.
I find myself saying that a lot, now that I come to think about it.
Ok then.
We have concept photos from JK. And a short clip too.
And all those that had their pearls in a knot, are we starting to calm down?
Or are they in a knot now because of JK's overwhelming sexiness? Lol.
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Peeps (I love that one too), JK is in the building.
Well, copycat JK, that is.
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You are me I am you JK.
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If people cannot see that JK has mirrored JM with his concept photos then they are totally blind.
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Those are even literally the same pants.
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Down to the single silver chain over the white T.
Oh, and did you see this one?
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Would that be another coincidence you think?
NOT IN MY BOOKS.
And you know what? I am not surprised at all. Really not. I knew JK would not disappoint us.
Let's be real for a second here.
He NEVER does.
JK has been consistent for years now.
It's the fans that just are not willing to see it, or understand him. Understand what he's telling them.
No ring on the JM finger in this shoot.
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But when it was time to showcase the hands...
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2 things I have to say before I go:
First of all, god I feel like a genius. There, I said it. That enlightenment I had last night with the 2 silver rings... and I thought I was being delusional. With JK's copycat, you are me I am you stunt, I kind of feel like I might have been on the right path with that one.
Second, I'm left here sitting and wondering... did the powers of be not realise what JK was doing? Like, it's so friggin' obvious. Or did he just manage to slip this right under their non existent gaydars? Maybe doing this in LA and not Korea, perhaps different stylists, idk, it's just sooooooo obvious. If they did realise it, was it too late? I can't see them being happy about it. Not at all. Same people that didn't know about Letter until it was too late...
Can't wait for the song to come out.
Like I wrote in my previous post, the song isn't written by JK, but perhaps he connected with it, and yeah, with this shoot, this you are me I am you, I can't help but wonder what else he is trying to tell us. About the song. About himself. About JM?
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ask-serendipity-sky · 6 months
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Did you saw that video ? Not him literally fooling Jimin into believing he's busy af while having time to hangout with his freinds every other day. I didn't knew you will be with your friends every night when MS is approaching instead of being with your so called partner. Remember those times when they used to spend time together every time in their hotel rooms ? Or JK choosing to spend time with Jimin over and over again ? Yeah.. me too..but it's old stories, now JK just want to be as away as possible from JM. Even in latest live he was trying to ran off from Jimin lol. Atp, his friends >>>>>>>Jimin for him. He's out there enjoying with his friends in restaurants while leaving a poor Jimin alone at his home every night and you call it a 'relationship' if your bf act like this irl, you will be very concerned isn't it ?
Also I noted there was a girl sitting right next to him in that video but when she saw cam she walked away seeing we won't see lol. Funny how there was no woman near Jeahyun who was so polite and sounded gentle man in video but always near JK whenever some leaked content is out 👀👀👀
THIS IS THE ONLY ASK I WILL ANSWER ABOUT THIS BECAUSE THEN ILL END UP BLOCKING ALL OF YOU.
And I'm a bad mood so you all are pressing buttons.
Ok, you dont trust Jk. Got it. You think you know what he does every single second of every day so he can't possibly ever see Jimin. You think they never see each other. Jk wants to be as far away from Jimin as possible. Jk spends all his time with his friends.
Did Jk tell you this? Did Jimin tell you this?
How do you know what their schedule looks like?
Seriously, how?
Don't you realize how delusional YOU sound?
Do you think Jimin is a fool? Like is Jk saying he wants to meet up and he is lying publicly and leaves Jimin defenseless all dressed up waiting for Jk and Jk never arrives? So he's being played with?
What k-drama are you watching?
We would see jikook on screen before because the cameras were all up in their space. Now they finally get to breathe without all that and nonshippers are more insecure about jikook than shippers because nonshippers are not getting their content.
Some weird fan tried to set Jk up.
Have you seen the complete video? Look for it..or not? Both girls arrive and make them all uncomfortable. The girl wasn't there with Jk, Eunwoo (who she was actually closer to), or the other guy. They invaded their privacy.
If it wasn't for that invasive girl, you wouldn't have known Jk was eating with his friends...which is a normal thing to do even in a relationship.
Do you want Jimin's privacy invaded that much too? Just so you get jikook crumbs?
It's obvious you don't care about Jimin or Jk so making dramatic stories out of thin air and creating drama between jikook that doesn't exist is a good way to pass time.
If you don't believe they are together, that's fine! Leave the people that do alone.
How many times do I have to say this?
Hope that helps.
IF ANYONE COMES AND SAYS THINGS THAT DONT MAKE SENSE LIKE THESE, YOU WILL GET BLOCKED.
YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THEY DO 24/7. STOP BEING SO DRAMATIC AND ACTING LIKE YOU DO.
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arminsumi · 7 months
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ok i am very talkative rn sorry for spamming the dash but like
major jjk manga spoilers/panels run awayyyy !!
this panel, when Gojo wanted to reschedule it to the 24th and Kenjaku said smth about "oh how romantic" or smth
idk the rest of the context bc (you know i only see these panels bc ppl don't spoiler tag properly and just post stuff)
i think he knew deep down he was gonna lose so he decided to make his own death anniversary match suguru's. when i saw it and realized it i was like oh yeah he probs gonna die, gege that's brutal 😭
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also what the fuck is this i'm in pieces. IT HURTS.
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i want an afterlife scene with them being happy.
anyways even tho i'm hella sad over Gojo "dying" (i have a delusional spark of hope he's comin back lol) i think it's good that he died. so he can rest, because the other day i thought about how he is a very burdened man (basically mf Atlas) and deserves a rest. and death is rest so 😭👍
OK BUT LET'S ALSO TRY FEEL HOPEFUL GUYS (we're delusional lol) maybe he can come back
idk too much about how the jjk world works now that i think abt it, but could Gojo theoretically come back as a curse ? or smth like Rika to Yuta idek i'm grasping at straws here how does that stuff work someone theorize with me
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terra-feminarum · 6 months
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Hi. Sorry for the random message. But you seem really knowledgeable and I wanted to ask you a question. Or many questions as it seems from my paragraphs below lol.
I know you’ve stated transitioning is a capitalistic desire to become something you aren't in order to experience femininity, or whatever you desire to become, without the strings of being who you are, and that we are estranged individuals who run to fantasy when we can’t cope our reality.
I am an ace trans woman. I know it seems as if I'm a man, a man who wants to use femininity as a product to cure myself or to heal myself, just like everything else men use it for. Only I took it a step further because I wanted cheap approval.
Maybe I am those things, maybe I’m selfish, maybe I’m delusional. Maybe I’m no better than a drag queen who calls women “fish” or whatever.
But a part of me believes that it isn't that, that it runs deeper than that, and I would be lying if I said I didn't want this to be true. I've never wanted approval from anyone, and if I became invisible one day with no one to see me transition or change except myself, I believe I would be very happy. I remember reading a study that trans brains are more inherent to their gender than they are the predisposed gender attached to their sex. If I have the brain of a woman and the body of a man, where does that put me? Am I just a joke that God played?
I don’t know.
I know you mentioned that transitioning has always been purely physical. But for me it isn’t like that. I was already born with a body that overall, was feminine enough for me. Is it based off of stereotypes? Maybe. And maybe that makes me inherently selfish. But I’m ok with my body, at least for today.
I've always believed that I embodied feminine traits. I've always tried to be caring, I've always tried to give and receive. I've always tried to be emotionally strong, and I've always tried to be empathetic. Not tried in an imitation sense, but just really wanted to give it my all. Do what my mother and grandmother did in a sense, to follow in their footsteps. Maybe I have a flawed idea of what feminist is, but honestly who doesn’t? It’s been so skewed by societies expectations of women, that it’s like keeping track of an electric atom. But I have a deep feeling, that may or may not be flawed in of itself, but if anyone had a perfect idea on what things were we would already be on Mars in a utopian matriarchal society.
It's always been taken advantage of. A lot of men have called me gay, and when I tried makeup I was a drag queen. That always humiliated me, as if I wasn't really a woman, just a pale mocking imitation of one that men created. But maybe they’re right. I've always felt I had feminine energy. Is that too abstract? I really hope I'm right in a sense, but if I should give up now and go back. I don't know what to do.
Have I based myself on a lie?
Maybe this is the gender equivalent of chasing ghosts or taking pictures of UFOS. Striving for something that is ultimately pointless and fantasy. (Would you be surprised if I told you I believed in ghosts)
Are all trans women just strange offshoots of body modifiers who took advantage of femininity as a cure for their own self deprecation? I would be lying if I said I knew the answer.
All I know is that I’m not crazy. And I’ve never wanted to hurt anyone, or myself. All I’ve wanted is to become a vet, take care of my 4 dogs and 2 cat and make some difference in the world, and maybe pick up some gender along the way.
Sorry for the long read, thank you for your time. It means a lot. I think you have some of the most intelligent and nuanced tales I’ve heard in a while. Even if I don’t personally agree. Let me know if i misinterpreted what you’ve said. I hope this adds at least some sort of value to the conversation.
Hi, and thank you for your message. I like random messages.
I'm glad to hear you try to follow in the footsteps of your mother and grandmother when it comes to empathy and being caring. That's what all people should do, regardless of sex. Being like a good mother isn't a female virtue but something we all should strive towards. There have been times and places where striving to be like a good mother wasn't humiliating for men.
This is a bit of a tangent but I do have to disagree that in a perfect world we would have a matriarchal society on Mars. We would be here and our planet would be livable for all the future generations to come. Using valuable resources for pointless endeavors is a male fantasy. And by that I don't mean you believe that because you are a male but it's a fantasy of a male-dominated culture. I very much believe a good society wouldn't use natural resources and workforce like that. For most of our history humans were clever enough to live without leaving a trace. I think that is something we should also strive towards.
But this is off-topic. You seem like you're in distress. To me it sounds like you've had a lot of hardship with not fitting in and you're trying to find a way to make sense of that and find a way to feel like you belong. The way you've made sense of who you are is by claiming, or hoping, you're a woman.
You said you've always had feminine energy. You asked if that's too abstract. I have to admit I don't understand what is feminine energy. You wrote to a woman who is most of the time more or less dirty, has short hair, doesn't shave. I wear "men's" clothes and swear non-stop. Where is my feminine energy? Do you have it and I don't? Am I a woman? Or is my capability of empathy the feminine energy I have? Are men inherently devoid of it? How much empathy a man has to have before he stops being a man? These non-physical ideas of womanhood and manhood make me ask questions I've never found good answers to.
You also said you believe you might have the brain of a woman. This too, is a male fantasy, this artificial division between mind and the body. There can't be a female brain inside a male body. There can be an atypical male brain, sure, but it doesn't make it a female brain. I'm under the impression that those kind of brain sex differences have been debunked, anyway. But even if they weren't, our whole bodies are sexed. There isn't a separate soul that could be of different sex than your body. Women aren't oppressed for our souls but our bodies which are capable of creating life. A woman with a "male brain" would have been still forced to birth 12 children in the past. Our bodies are what the patriarchy controls.
Associating womanhood with certain personality traits or certain looks is harmful for women. We aren't a costume. The things trans women describe when they argue why they are women are stereotypes. If these stereotypes are a proof of womanhood, it hinders us from freeing ourselves of those stereotypes. To be free, women need to be able to be any kind of people. But now there's so many young women who believe they're not women at all because they don't recognize themselves in the stereotypes.
All this said, I don't think you've based your identity on a lie. Lying implies knowingly deceiving someone. I'd rather think you've based your identity on certain cultural concepts that help you make sense of what kind of person you are. I believe you find those beliefs comforting and have no bad intentions.
How I understand a lot of trans women are is that they are males who don't fit the social role that is expected of men. They feel more comfortable in the social role associated with womanhood. It's by no means easy to be a trans woman but it's easier to assimilate and think women as your peers, when compared to being a man who is everything a man isn't supposed to be and who is often very alone in his experience. As a trans woman you have a community, you have words with which to make sense of yourself, you have a feeling of sisterhood, maybe with other trans women, maybe with all women.
I'm all for gender non-conformity. Having a certain kind of body doesn't mean you need to act certain way, have a certain type of personality or prefer a certain kind of style.
So: What is a woman? A woman is an adult human female. It excludes males, like you. It doesn't mean I want you to change yourself. You have your personality, your values, your sense of style that fits you. Does it make you a woman? I don't think so, no.
We could, of course, broaden the definition of womanhood to include males. A lot of people like you find comfort in the idea. But we can't. We live in a patriarchy. It means male dominance over women. And we need words to talk about that.
Adopting an oppressed identity to fulfill your personal needs so you'd feel you belong hurts the oppressed people. Just a comparison: my values align a lot with what I've read about many indigenous peoples values. But I see those values through my western lens and can't even see the huge distortions I most likely have. My knowledge is second hand knowledge based on books and I have no idea what it's like to be indigenous. I have my own feelings of alienation as I struggle within my own culture and so I become attached to things I think I recognize myself in. But it doesn't mean I am indigenous nor does it even mean I understand those other cultures at all. I could be very mislead in my western fantasy. So what I need to do is to be in touch with who I really am and where I really am and create something genuine from that starting point. Something that aligns with my values and who I am. I don't need to appropriate an identity to carve a place for myself in the world, and to change the world.
You see where I'm going? People like you could do this. You could destroy all the rules imposed on you and become the kind of man you need to be, and maybe the kind of man the world needs, too. I know it's not easy. People like you are being mocked, even hated. It's not easy, of course it's not. But I believe a good feminist ally would rather use his energy to build new kind of manhood, rather than come to our spaces, claiming to be just like us, when you aren't.
I don't think trans women are inherently selfish or evil. I know many kind and nice trans women personally. I think a lot of you are going through the same process that caused me to believe I was a man. But to change the world and to be genuinely comfortable with oneself, the reality needs to be accepted.
I'd happily share spaces with kind and nurturing men, and might feel we are similar as people. I believe that is what many trans identified males wish, to be one of the women, so to speak. But being comfortable around women doesn't mean you have a right to forcibly claim our spaces and our attention and our resources. I believe many women would gladly share their time with people like you and would think of you as sisters. But I wished it wouldn't have to involve pretending to be us.
This is what I think about this right now. I don't know if this is my final opinion on the matter. I have no ill will for male people who feel kinship with women. But my priority is women's right to our own words which we need so we can tell the story of our oppression.
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