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furbyeggs · 1 month

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drew a thing or something i suppose

#art #robot #robot wires #robophilia #robotfucker #i dont rlly like the wires for hair thing but i decided to test it out for once #if it looks bad that's because i use kleki #i swear im such a good artist #one of my irl friends follows my on here and i will cry if she sees it #she already calls me a robotwhore and a roboslut soooo #would be very very embarrassing #i swear im normal guys #im normal about robots #i am to be trusted with machinery #machinefucker #i am but a humble robotliker who gets called many many horrid names by my friends #(i tell them i want to take apart sun fnaf and look and his insides and they act reasonably horrified)#im literally aroace and they act APPALLED when i say something SLIGHTLY odd abt robots #IM NORMAL #IM NORMAL ABOUT ROBOTS #i swear #when i was little everytime there was a fictional robot on screen id get sucked in. like i wouldn't be able to stop staring until they were #gone #like id just be staring no thoughts #brain completely empty nothing in my mind but “OMG ROBOT!!”#i still do this sometimes actually but its not as bad #i just think robots are neat! they're cool #(on screen as in whenever i was watcing tv)

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melshome · 1 year

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"happy birthday, you worm."

cw fluff characters scaramouche/f!reader a/n hehe, it was my birthday yesterday, so this oneshot is for a special occasion!! hehe this oneshot was kind of short, and i wasnt sure how to end it well, but i enjoyed writing this!

also note: you and scara are friends, but you two just don't talk irl!!

happy readingg~!

"Happy birthday Y/N!!" Lumine throw herself onto you, squeezing you tightly.

"Ah.. thank you.. But I'm kind of.. dying here.." You manage to say. She immediately remove herself off from you.

"Haha, I'm fine, but thank you!" you chuckle.

"Did you get any presents?" Lumine asks. Ayaka walks up, and also wishes you happy birthday.

"Thank you Ayaka~ And not yet. I ordered Enhypen's new album, and it's coming around the 22nd of may or something," you smile when Lumine and Ayaka smile, and starts talking about it with you, but you drift off into your own zone. You look around the classroom, when you notice Kunikuzushi staring at you from his group of friends.

You quickly turn back, right when Ayaka and Lumine ask you which photocard you want. The day goes by quite normally. The moment when you make eye contact with Kunikuzushi is still replaying in your head, but you go through most of the day. Your homegroup teacher, some of your elementary school friends and all of your friends from your class wish you a happy birthday.

Third and forth period goes by, and soon it's lunch. As you're walking to your locker, a bit behind as you were waiting for your friend, Bennet, you notice Kunikuzushi was looking up at your direction, but when looks back at his locker.

You just walk to your locker, thinking he was just looking for his friend. When you've put your books on the shelf in your locker, you hear your name being said from behind you. You have a feeling that it's Kunikuzushi, his voice is recognizable.

You turn around, and he's standing there, with your favourite kind of m&m packet in his hands, holding it towards you.

"Happy birthday you worm," he says, looking at you. He whispers the last part, but you heard him. You glance at him, and at the m&m packet. You smile.

"Oh, thank you.."

He walks off, and you turn back to your locker. One of your classmates, who's locker is next to yours, asks if she can have one.

You nod your head, but as you're putting the rest of your stuff away, you feel yourself tearing up.

He was the first one to give you a gift, even your parents haven't given you a gift yet. It was quite a surprise too, you weren't expecting him to give you anything, and since it was from him, you felt so happy. He barely talks to you during school, and since he gave the m&m's to you, you felt so happy. You wipe your tears, and open the packet. You pour some m&m's into your classmates hand, and she thanks you, and walks off.

You offer your friends some m&m's, and once you put it in your locker, you're still crying. As you're walking to the gate, you notice Kunikuzushi out of the corner of your eye. You turn to his direction, and notice that he's staring at you. Once he saw that you're looking at him. he gestures for you to follow him. You do so, and you two are standing there near the library.

"Ah, Kunikuzushi, thank you for the m&ms, they really made me happy for some reason," you smile at him.

He nods his head.

"I heard you cried? Your friend told me, what was that about? Are you okay?" He asks.

You're surprised from it. Him being concerned for you? That's.. You just fell for him even more.

"Ah, no no, it's fine! I'm okay, I don't know why I cried, I guess I cried for no reason," you chuckle awkwardly.

Kunikuzushi stares at you, before holding out his hand.

"Huh?" You ask, still wiping your eyes.

"Give me some m&ms," he says, looking straight into your eyes.

You smile, taking out the packet of m&ms from your bag.

#genshin impact #melshome #genshin impact fluff #genshin fluff #genshin #genshin modern au #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche genshin #scaramouche #wanderer genshin #wanderer fluff #wanderer #wanderer genshin impact #genshin highschool au #high school au

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timelessbibliophile · 8 months

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my irl friend and I finally hate watched through all of s4, and our watching experience was basically summarized in the following things:

Getting rlly sad at not seeing EJ every single second on screen

"This plot is so Glee"

"WHO ARE YOU WHY ARE YOU HERE" at random characters that appeared

Yelling slay every time Gina's mom opened her mouth

Ricky Bowen hate club (we realized we just love joshua bassett and actually hate Ricky)

Realizing this show has no real consequences for actions for anyone except for EJ

My friend (a casual viewer) saying Ashlyn likes Maddox and asking what happened to Big Red, me replying with "this hasn't been addressed, they're still together"

"Sofia Wylie is stunning"

Her: ARE YOU GETTING EMOTIONAL RN? Me: I HEAR JOSHUA BASSETT TALKING AND I CRY

Getting annoyed at the rina scenes

Googling the ai ej cover of scream after ricky's version (we usually love joshua's voice and covers, but this one did not fit his voice at all)

Random pause to search caitlin reilly's tiktok and google sofia wylie's height (she looks super tall 'cause we're short queens)

Agreeing the cheating plot sucked and ruined seb's and Big red's characters

#hsmtmts #portwell #anti rina #hsmtmts spoilers #Watching this season with someone who equally hates what this show has become was therapeutic #Loved the experience 10/10 #Will be replying tmrw to your asks on s4!

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xo-lesserafim · 9 months

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Enhypen as Kiss of Life songs.

DENI♡ — thank you to my pekpek quad/ people in @k-neighborhood for the plot/ideas, or helping me out! ily fam😊☝️ notes for the specific fic will be added under the notes. and synopsis might change for all of them!

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DISCLAIMER!

All of these fics are fake, and not ment to describe the following idol’s irl😊 some might be drabbles, some might be fics! It kinda depends on when i write. But i think hoons will be a smau.

NIKI — Shhh

synopsis: it was your friend’s birthday, and she decided to go to a club. While waiting , you saw a guy, who was just your type! Inside, you took a few drinks here and there, and found the same guy. Let’s just say, you’ve said something you shouldn’t had. A few days later, you see him as the other instructor for your dance class. What do you do during those classes? You try to one up each other, of course.

pairings : coach!niki x coach!yn

genre: e2l, love at first sight (well, for the reader,) fluff, possible angst😊 comedy

warnings: swearing, mentions of club, mentions of alcohol, more will be added! Everything in the fic is not the following idols mention life’s, it’s purely fictional!

ft: enhypen, minji and hanni; newjeans, and yunjin and chaewon from le sserafim

word count : ??

note — everyone in this fic is 22+

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JAKE — Bye my neverland

synopsis: All ago, you’re family has always been archrivals with the sim family. They’ve been fighting for the top spot for best company. But you’ve always had a crush on Jake, and finally confessed him when you were in high school . Neither of your parents accepted it, and you haven’t seen him since. You’re finally 25, and happened to see Jake again. Will you guys be in a relationship, with your parents accepting? Or lovers who will never get to be with each other?

pairing: crush/lover!Jake x fem!reader

genre: e2l, forbbidden love, fluff, angst, more to add.

warnings : swearing, yn's and Jake's parents have an obesseio for being on top, parents no excepting their children's so, mentions of alcohol.

ft: hyung line from enypen, and unnie line from new jeans

word count: ??

note — I suck at angst so be aware :)

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HEESEUNG — sugarcoat

synopsis: Heeseung, always seems to sugarcoat his words, even tho its always bad. This time you’ve had it, leaving him. Somehow he persuaded you into staying with him. Will he stay true to his word, or sugarcoat it once again?

parings : boyfriend!heeseung x fem!reader

genre : established relationship, fluff, angst

warnings: swearing,breaking up, toxic relationship?

ft: jungwon, jay, and sunghoon; enha. 04 line from

word count: ??

note: do we make this have a angsty or fluffy ending? (only my pekpeks get to know🥰)

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JAY — Before the “countdown”

synopsis: You’re done with him and his bullshit. Him always manipulating you to come back to him with, a sweet tone, carefully picked words, and a shopping spree. But he always cheats on you? Or makes comments on your weight, saying you’re too fat, too skinny, or what you’re eating every single time you guys are out. Or could it be he makes comments on what you wear out in public, or flirts with other girls infront of you.

pairings : verbally abus1v3!cheater!jay x fem!yn

genre: lovers 2 exes, angst with no comfort, lmk if im missing anything

warnings: swearing, fighting, verbal abuse, mentions of cheating, mentions on your weight, on what you eat, or wear. lmk if i’m also missing something pls😭🙏

ft: mentions of yunjin from le sserafim.

word count : ??

note — jungwon’s fic is pt.2 to this! The yn is the same😊

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JUNGWON — Countdown

synopsis: Crying at a park,late at night, Yang Jungwon notices you crying. Not knowing what to do, he decides to comfort you. Helping you feel happier in many different ways, and helping you make a “kickstart” and live your life.The only thing you guys didn’t know, the relationship awaiting.

parings: stranger!jungwon x heart-broken!fem!reader

genre: strangers 2 lovers, fluff, angst(?)

warnings: swearing, mentions of stuff from jay’s warnings, comfort.

ft: mentions of jay and yunjin(?)

note — thank flo for making me not do angst…😊☝️

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SUNOO — Kitty Cat

synopsis: You’re in college, living your best life! Going to partys, getting good grades! While at a party with Sunoo, a guy keeps on hitting on you, while you keep on rejecting him, luckly Sunoo protects you.

pairings: best-friend!sunoo x fem!reader

genre: college au! best friends, fluff

warnings: swearing, a guy non-stop hitting on yn, mentions of alcohol and drinking (readers doesn’t drink any.)

ft: mentions of enhypen members, and yunjin from le sserafim, and keeho from p1harmony.

notes : i actually think sunoo fits this so well!

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SUNGHOON — Play Love Games

synopsis: On a game called “Love games”, you were a pro gamer, being high level, until your account gets terminated. On a new your new account, you were leveling up quickly, until user @/ppenguin_101 asks you for tips to level up. Over time, you guys became gaming best friends, becoming so close! Telling each others your age, and glimpses their voice. On the day you guys we’re doing a face reveal, you found out the worst news of your life, @/ppenguin_101 was Park Sunghoon, your worst nightmare (who also has a girlfriend.)

pairings: enemy!gamer-best-friend!sunghoon x gamer!yn

genre: e2l, fluff, angst(?)

warnings: swearing, mentions of raging at love games, horrible humor, more to add.

ft: all enhypen members, mankae line in le sserafim and newjeans.

note — probably my favorite one…

enha perm taglist : @wonfied @misokei @cherrysvng

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glitterock · 3 months

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i’ve seen some people claiming you’re a terf or at least friends(?) with a terf. is this true?

i’ve answered this before and i really don’t want to talk about it again because it’s super upsetting to me that people would even think that with 0 evidence but i’ll lay it all out one more time:

a friend of mine from irl also just so happens to have a blog. she accidentally reblogged a picture from an apparent terf on here and didn’t know. since then someone on here made a post about my friend saying that since this happened she must be a crypto terf and that since i know her, i must be a terf apologist or a terf myself. this post included absolutely no evidence that i hold terf ideals except for the fact that i simply know someone who accidentally reblogged a picture. since this person has a following and once someone in here is called a terf it sticks to them, now a large amount of people who know nothing about me and have no real facts to go off of are calling me a terf, telling my mutuals im a terf, and spreading a huge fucking nasty rumor about me.

for starters, my friend is not a terf. me and her are a part of the same irl community so i’ve seen her interact with trans people and trans women in our community as well as my friend group which consists of trans people and she’s nothing but kind. we also have had conversations about transness in the lesbian community so i know exactly what her morals and thoughts are on this particular topic and she isn’t a trans exclusionary person. she says she just doesn’t check where she reblogs things from as many of us do because we have lives and don’t have time to research every single username we reblog from. I am believing her because i know her actions in real life and my real life friendships and relationships are more important than what ppl i will never meet on the internet think of me.

i don’t want to have to prove myself because it feels fucking ridiculous and weird and performative to have to make a list of reasons why i’m not a terf but since people keep saying this about me:

i have trans femme friends, i have lived with trans femme roomates and currently live my my best friend who is a trans man, and a i have little cousin who i adore who is a trans woman. When my cousin came out i sent her a huge box full of old clothes, makeup, books about queerness and transness, buttons, accessories, etc. and my aunt called me crying saying what a huge difference it made. When i am out at queer events and see trans women who are are by themselves i always try to make a point of saying hi or complimenting their outfits so they feel a little less alone. When creating my zine, i knew that it would be imperative for me to include trans femme voices in it to create a proper narrative of the lesbian community because trans women are an important part of our community and i have nothing but respect and adoration for them. I always try and do my best to be a trans ally especially knowing the privilege i have as an afab femme in the lesbian community, and I have never once in my life held any terf ideals and never will because that is genuinely not how i am. it’s extremely extremely upsetting that people have stuck this label to me without knowing anything about me and especially without having any proof that i’ve ever said anything against trans women, trans people in general, and tbh i don’t even know anything about radical feminism.

the person who made that post also claimed i was friends with 2 people on here who are terfs, one of them being the person that said something along the lines of: “i would only fuck a femme but i could only be with butches” and it caused a huge fucking mess on here a few months ago. I need to make this extremely clear that we are no longer friends and haven’t been in over a year and have been no contact, again, for a year. i was in an absolutely terrible toxic sexual friendship with them that made me feel genuinely horrible about myself and I spent weeks in therapy trying to unpack it all, get over it, and get out of it. having this old friendship that was so awful for me being thrown in my face as if i’m still in it also is super upsetting for me.

if u want to see the post, im pretty sure the user that made it is meansweatydyke or something like that and im sure it’s still up so u can see for yourself. i want u to pay attention tho to the fact that nothing in their call out post actually pertains to my personal morals or thoughts and only is about my proximity to people who have mistreated me/ or have done things unknowingly. it’s super fucking irritating and upsetting. I am 100% on board for calling people out when their actions show that they are bad people, but i have made 0 actions that show this besides being guilty by association.

short answer: no i am not a terf, have never been a terf, and will never be a terf. it says that in my pinned post, and i always strive to uplift my trans friends and trans voices in the community with the platform i’ve made for myself online and in my zine. anyone who knows me knows i am not a terf.

id really love it if people would stop spreading this horrible fucking rumor about me and stop telling people i am a terf now with absolutely no evidence to back it up

#anon #like i don’t want to keep talking about this but i need everyone to know this #this also isn’t the first time the person who made the call out post has said stuff about me #when i made that post about how queerness is messy they made an indirect saying i was lesbophobic? literally for what #that person just doesn’t like me. and it looking for a reason to validate that.#like you can not like me that is totally fine but to make up a reason as to why you don’t like me and that reason being that imma terf #with nothing ti back it up other than i know someone or used to know someone #is actually vile and fucking bully behavior tbh #especially since i’ve never interacted w that person ever in my life like just hate me from afar like a normal person pls #in the call out they were like ‘i’ve always had a bad feeling about her but never had any evidence to back it up!’ like yeah #that’s called just not liking someone for no reason #which you can totally do!!!!! that’s fine!!!! just don’t make up a fucking reason to go along with it

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rubywingsracing · 11 days

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About: RubyWingsRacing

Thought I’d make a little intro page for this blog now that it’s getting more traffic!

Hi! I’m Ruby, I’m 19 and I use she/her pronouns and I’m a second year art student studying painting, I love my friends my pets, my family going to the gym, as well as reading, crocheting and all other forms of craft lol

🧡 This is mainly an F1 blog I’m a loyal McLaren girlie and I love my boys Oscar and Lando, but I’d defend Logan Sargeant with my life, Charles Leclerc is lowkey my twin, and Max Verstappen is babygirl to me and I will take no criticism about him! 🧡

• Not a huge Danny Ric fan, or alpine/alpine drivers fan so do not come at me if I talk a lil shit abt them, I will roast you to the sky if you do, you’ve been warned don’t like it don’t follow me

• Currently trying to get back into fanart both digital and traditional, haven’t really seriously made much since middle school so any support is highly appreciated

Other fandoms:

- OMG Check Please! Nursey/Dex truther till the day I die, pls come scream at me abt them or anything else omgcp related

- ABC 9-1-1, I think abt Bi Buck on a daily basis now

- Supernatural, the only show I can guarantee I will end up with tattoos abt, come cry in my dms with me abt Destiel

- CrossFit!!! I honestly don’t know if there’s any sort of fandom surrounding it here on tumblr but it changed my life and I’d love to talk to anyone who’s interested in it or loves it like I do!

- Teen Wolf/Dylan O’Brien my love for that man runs deep

- Josh Hartnett, if anyone wants to ramble abt him with me I’ll actually lose my shit, I’ve seen almost evey single one of his movies and firmly believe he’s one of the most talented actors of the early 2000s

- probably more but can’t think of any off the top of my head, ig Wings of Fire since I’ll love those books till the day I die

Asks:

- ask me abt my more niche fandoms id love to chat!

- have an F1 fic that you might want fanart for?

- literally anything I’ll yap at you till the day I die

- ideas for f1 aus or any kind of F1 fanart you’d like to see, I’m pretty busy with school rn but I like to doodle a little when I can

Shoutout: @formulanni my irl tumblr bestie and the cool ass bitch who introduced me to the wonderful world of F1!!!

#about me #tumblr about me #blog disclaimers #f1 #mclaren #papaya army #lando norris #Oscar Piastri #supernatural #omgcp #teen wolf #dylan obrien #911 abc #evan buck buckley #wings of fire #f1 fanart #artists on tumblr

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kyros-tha-soldier · 11 months

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🏵️OP fathers day list🏵️

Hewwo, looks like I'm a bit late but happy father's day for all the dad's out there who love their kids (deadbeats Btfo we don't want you ugh) and a happy father's day for the actual one piece dilfs as well!

today i wanted to make a list for my beloved one piece papis!

Okay, let's go!

🦩 Doflamingo

i know, i know some of you are saying "ummm, who?" Yes, i agree, I'm a little biased on doffy, but hear me out. Doffy is a good dad, how? Why? The fact that he recruited kids is a bad thing, at least for irl standards, but he still cared for them, he knows that sugar is older than she looks yet he cares for her by assigning Trebol to protect her, also when he was making a toast, he gave Law, Baby 5 and Buffalo juice instead of wine. Now that's a good papi

🏰 Capone Bege

The Chad, the goat, the big father and the greatest mafioso daddy in this list, while Capone seems like a terrifying bloodthirsty gangster, he's an amazing husband and an even better father, always there for his kid, playing with him, entertaining him, and loving his wife, a real family guy!

🌊 Neptune

Cry-hoshi's (and her three brothers') father is also included in our list, yep yep! i figured that he needed to be recognized as a father more. What i liked about Neptune is that i liked how he's still loyal to his wife, but i kinda don't like how he sometimes looks weak willed, either way we Stan a mer-daddy!

🍊 Genzo

Most new OP fans may not remember him, but he's one of the Bravest civilians in one piece. He was there when Belle-mère and her daughters were attacked by Arlong and tried to defend them, making him get heavily injured resulting in his iconic scar and somewhat acted like a father figure for Nami when Belle-mère was gone (whomstdve make fun of him, he's precious and btfl 😤) he's now living his best life while following all of Nami's news and achievements.

💊 Hiriluk

Dr Hiriluk, one of the earliest father figures in OP, i liked how he went from treating chopper as a random deer, to an apprentice, to straight up treating him like his son (I'd do that too he's just super duper kyuttttte!) Sure he had his shenanigans and moments where he looked bad, but he's an overall good father figure for chopper, seeing how good he was to him and how he was the one who made him decide to become a doctor.

🍘 Sengoku

"no way, Sengoku has no kids!" ahem, did you forget that he literally adopted Corazon? We don't see much about them interacting, but from what we've seen Sengoku loved Rocinante as if he was his own child, he cared for him and would call him every now and then, and cried real hard when he died and at the end of Dressrosa when he was talking to law it felt like he held him real dear to his heart. Rocinante may have been a marine to the other admirals, but to him, he was his son.

🍳 Zeff

move over Judge, Sanji's real father is here!

He sacrificed his leg for Sanji, LITERALLY, just so the little boy won't die of hunger. And even after that, he ditched piracy and took him under his wing to teach him how to cook and be a real gentleman, he might've been harsh a little, but his heart is in the right place!

🍢 Oden

The true definition of the muscle brain trope, Oden is HUGE, kinda dum dum, he likes to goof around, extremely strong but has a soft spot for his family. He's a perfect family guy to his wife and kids, and despite all, he decided to put his family, disciples and friends at his top priorities, and that's why we totally Stan!

🏜️ Cobra

One of the OP characters that i didn't expect to be SO BRAVE for a non-fighting character. I like how he greatly cared for his daughter, but what i didn't like is how pervy he acts at times (bath scene) but other than that, he's such a beloved father, especially whenever he looked out for his daughter (along with Igaram), such a goof.

🐾 Kuma

We still don't know much about Kuma's past and his relationship with Bonney, why he chose to become a cyborg, why he's climbing the redline...etc etc. But from what Oda has shown us, Bonney loved him so much that she was willing to protect a pacifista since it reminded her of him, and ofc that speaks volumes about him.

🖤 Corazon

Ahhhhh, i remember how hard i cried during law's flashback when it first dropped in the manga, Corazon treated like as if he was his own son, he looked like an insane man at first when he kicked and beat buffalo and baby 5 (which i dunno, was uncalled for) but he's a really good father figure. He did all he could to save law, keep him entertained, made him food (they were grilling sweet potatoes in that one manga cover) and gave him all the love he needed. That is one hell of a reason for law to seek revenge against doffy!

🐋Whitebeard

Yep yep, Oyaji is here, i really like Whitebeard for how he would literally take any fatherless child (be them actually fatherless or just mentally) and make them his child. He's a VERY forgiving father as well, even when he got attacked by one of his sons, he just didn't hold it against him and forgave him. GOOOOOOOD that was sad af i cried!

🌻 Kyros

Once someone asks who's the best OP father the first person that comes to mind is Kyros. Trapped inside a toy's body, forgotten by everyone, if he tells his daughter who he is he will be thrown into the scrape heap, he had to organize a revolution. bro never took a break and ALL of this while taking care of his daughter! If this isn't one of OPs peak dad material then i dunno what he is!

And there you have it! The best OP dad's in my book!

Future dads? Take notes please!

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itlivesproject · 1 year

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hello friends! i suppose i should introduce myself now that the game is fully released: my name is sarah, but you will know me as the abel simp anon :) (also, in the q&a when you said you were desperate to find out who i am.. i actually lost my mind slightly because i admire you all so much, i couldn’t stop thinking about it😭, so thank you for being so lovely!)

i wanted to try to keep this as short as possible but i am known to ramble so hopefully that’s not too annoying! (edit: this ask is very very long, i just had so much i wanted to say, apologies in advance!)

firstly, i want to say thank you for being such a welcoming community - i’m pretty quiet and i don’t really share my interests much irl so to have this community means the world to me! i want to give the biggest thank you to you, the it lives project team, because without you guys none of this would’ve happened. i know it’s said a lot (but it’s true) how IMPRESSIVE this whole project has been from start to finish, i am honestly in awe of you all. from perfectly building upon already loved characters to creating your own, to your incredible world building and art (and i don’t even want to think about the nightmare that was programming all the many many variations), your storytelling capabilities are off the charts, seriously! i also want to quickly say that the few people who sent asks in about me made me feel so cool, like a tiny internet micro celebrity😭

i wanted to tell you a little bit about me! first of all, i’m british, so feel free to now read all of my asks in a silly little accent☕️. fun fact: i’ve followed lindsay for quite a long time and saw her original post at the very beginning asking if anyone would be interested in helping to create a third instalment… i actually almost signed up to be a writer on this project as i’m an english student and an avid it lives stan*, but i knew that with my schedule with college i wouldn’t have been able to give it the time it needed and deserved, but retrospectively i definitely couldn’t write anything as incredible as what you guys have produced, and as much as i would’ve loved to be on the team, being a fan has been the best experience i’ve had in a long long time!! *i am actually such an it lives nerd that i once made a powerpoint to tell my friend the entire plot of both ilitw and ilb, and she is eagerly awaiting for when i give her a powerpoint on the plot of ilw😭

i spent so many hours on friday unprivating all my ilw posts as, before this, my blog was completely empty of fandom posts, as like i said before i’ve always been pretty insecure about sharing my interests, and i grew pretty fond of my ~mysterious anonymity~ so feel free to see how long i’ve been secretly reblogging everyone’s posts for now that they’re public lmao

i also finally started speaking more in the discord yesterday (here’s to boosting your self-confidence!) and someone told me that’s how they figured out who i am, so i’m very interested in who that was and how they knew it was me👀

this project has seriously changed my life and i’m so sincerely grateful for everyone involved, you all have such a special place in my heart. thank you for taking care of ali, kassie, and sadie (my devon, harper, and rowan) they could not have been in safer hands🫶 (because i do not have it in me to do a disaster route, they are all ALIVE and HAPPY and abel and sadie will get married and live happily ever after)

so far i have cried 4 times in the last 2 days because i’m so devastated about this project ending, in fact i have an 8 minute long video i sent to one of my best friends just talking and crying about how much i’ll miss the game despite the fact that the community will always still be here (i’m just very dramatic and emotional in case you haven’t noticed that over the past year or so😭)

let me wrap things up because i’ve definitely overstayed my welcome in this ask😭 i don’t think i’ll truly be able to put into words how much this project has meant to me over the last year or so, and it has been an absolute honour to see you and your project grow and flourish. but most of all, it’s been a privilege to be your abel simp anon and it’s safe to say this is an experience i’ll cherish forever and never forget

-forever yours, with so so much love, sarah, aka the abel simp anon💓

(ps. this definitely won’t be the last time you hear from me, i’m clingy as hell😘)

Oh dear Abel simp anon aka Sarah ❤️❤️

First of all, we (especially I) loved getting your asks, it was always fun as hell to read a good chapter liveblog and I was always really excited to see your reaction to the Abel scenes (seriously it made my day) 🥰🥰

Also that’s crazy that you almost applied! I’m glad you enjoyed being a fan so much, we really enjoyed having you as one. And a fellow English major! That’s always so exciting to me 😂

I’m honored we had such a big impact on you and truly we’re so glad you were along for the ride with us, it’s always amazing to know someone has been a fan the entire time. Keep speaking out in the server and posting on your blog, we’d absolutely love to keep hearing from you! And don’t you worry, Abel and Sadie will be happy together forever 🥰🥰

#abel simp anon #mod maggie #ask

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florelia12 · 7 months

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I met up with a childhood friend after like 9 years and the way we just sat there trashing fate and reminiscing about winx club was sooo ooff.

Like this is the girl that introduced me to Winx Club. I vividly remember walking into her house for a playdate and she wasn’t even looking at me because she was staring at the tv. She screamed when this purple haired fairy went swirling into some cave and these other fairies were crying and I was so confused but so freaking intrigued because there was a pink fairy who was so pretty it was love at first sight.

She was not happy about Tecna ‘dying’ and I asked her what was this show and she was like “omg you have to watch it” so we went up and started watching season 1 on her computer and the rest was history. I binged the two seasons just in time for the season 3 finale to air on tv then I remember a long ass break in between season 3 and 4 was it? Idk I was 9 but damn was that was the peak of my childhood.

We were literally talking about how we played Winx Club in the park and how we even watched season 5’s first episode together until I brought up like Tumblr

And she was sooo surprised that there was a Winx Club fandom still alive and thriving. All I said was haha ha i just follow the fandom not much else cause no way was I gonna tell her I’m 20 and writing fanfiction about the show we watched when we were kids

Anyway its so funny to me how she barely remembers a lot of it when she was the one who introduced me to Winx while I’m here just…Chilling with blog and fanfics I havent updated in freaking months and analysing and projecting onto these characters who were just minding their own business. So weird meeting Winx fans irl tho seriously (unless they are fate fans, then it just tells me how low their standards are).

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nevvaraven · 9 months

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one of my irl friends loves marauders and wolfstar and she has only read atyd and her excitement? makes me so happy. like yes, come here and be sad with me but also, no, no love stay away from this shitty fandom, go save yourself.

she found out i am writing fics by accident, she sent me a tiktok and i followed her 💀🤡

I genuinely miss the time when I was first reading atyd, one of my friends rec’d it to me and I got to send them all my reactions whilst reading it it was so fun

I totally get you this fandom is insane 💀 but then it’s so nice having irl fandom friends too especially when you’re reading sad fics, there’s nothing like sending a photo of you crying at 4am and them sending you an identical one back because you’re reading the same fic

Dare you to rec her your own fic…..

#chris tag

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axolozzy · 6 months

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AHHHHHHH ACTUALLY CRYING ITS OVEEERRRRR

IT WAS SO FUCKING FUN I LOVE SPONGEBOB!!!! IM SO SAD ITS OVER BUT BEING A PART OF THAT MUSICAL WAS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS IVE EVER DONE IT WAS AMAZING!

and at the end me and the other three seniors lined up for the bows and OUR FRIENDS GAVE SPEECHES ABOUT US. SOMEONE LITERALLY GAVE A SPEECH ABOUT ME IN FRONT OF LIKE 300 PEOPLE FROM MY SCHOOL IT WAS INSAAANNEEEE I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT I FUCKING CRIEEDDDD /POS SHE WAS SO FUCKING NICE AND WE ALL WERE CRYING ONSTAGE AND THEN HAD TO SING THE SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS THEME SONG RIGHT AFTER HAHAHAHAHAHA

i don’t know why i’m posting this here literally nobody i know irl follows me on tumblr but idc i’m going insane today was so fucking amazing and i gotta talk about it

but also my best friend still didn’t show up to see it and she only saw 30 minutes of it yesterday so she missed literally all my parts except 1. i’m really bummed out like i shouldn’t be upset cuz she feels really bad about it, but i am idk. it’s fine

but AHHHH seriously one of the best things i’ve ever done it was so fun i’m so happy i joined the musical this year. i thought i’d be nervous or something because in school im literally the quiet kid who’s socially awkward and doesn’t talk to anyone, but i was so fucking amazing on stage and did not have stage fright At All it was awesome. im so happy it was so fun

and now i FINALLY HAVE MY FREE TIME BACK. don’t get me wrong i’m gonna be so lost without musical practice every night and i’m gonna miss everyone so much but HEY I FINALLY HAVE TIME TO DRAW (AND WRITE)!!!!! IM GONNA MAKE SOOO MUCH NPMD FANART YOU GUYS!!

okay long post oops i’m just feeling silly i guess

#bluejay says stuff

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spursdontplaybasketball · 6 months

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Talk Hockey to Me

tagged by @giirlinterrupted 🤍💙

Tell me about:

1. The thing that got you hooked on hockey

I grew up in Lancaster County, Pennsylvania, about an hour south of Hershey, PA. My dad grew up going to watch the Hershey Bears play minor league hockey in the American Hockey League, and he continued the tradition with me (and my sister sometimes.) At first, I only really liked to go to the games for an opportunity to spend time with my dad, which was rare sometimes, but in middle school I somehow ended up being really good at floor hockey when we played it in gym class. One day I managed to score a hat trick, even though I was terrible at every other sport. (I also had a crush on one of the players on my school's hockey team at that point.) So I just kinda thought hockey was fun at that point and started enjoying the actual games more. Then I picked a favorite player from the Bears independently for the first time, and it was Mike Green. I didn't know much about him, just thought he was cool. He turned out to be really good, and when he got called up to the NHL to play for the Capitals, I started watching the Caps games on TV. (I was also lucky that we got the sports channel from Washington DC, despite not being all that close to there.)

2. Your first ever fandom friend

I'm not too established in the hockey fandom on here. I have a personal blog that I rarely use anymore that I used to post occasional Caps stuff on and follow a few Capitals people, but that's on a different account that I rarely use. I know hockey has become a lot more popular on footieblr over the years. I remember a few years back when it was more unusual for these fandoms to overlap that I sent a message or two to people who were in both fandoms that I thought it was cool that they liked both sports like I do. Basically my only hockey friend on here is @giirlinterrupted (and I'm so grateful that she doesn't put Sidney Crosby on my dash like so many other footieblr hockey fans seem to do.) IRL I have been surrounded by hockey fans most of my life though, because it's pretty big in my state in general, so the main time I felt a little more alone on that was the 2 1/2 years I was living in San Francisco. Unfortunately I am currently surrounded by Penguins fans :( as I am living in Pittsburgh. My IRL best friend is also into hockey, but she is a Sabres fan since she is from Buffalo and now lives in Rochester, NY.

3. The jersey you would most like to own

I wish I had an old Mike Green or Jay Beagle Caps jersey. Mike Green is now retired, and Jay Beagle, I don't even know.

4. YOUR player (you only get ONE so choose wisely)

I still have an unhealthy attachment to Jay Beagle even though he's been off the Caps for years. None of the current players can live up to that.

5. A pairing that deserves more fic

Don't really read fic much, but Ovi/Backstrom (I'm so out of the loop that I don't even know if they have a ship name) are adorable together, and idk how popular they are, at least outside of Caps fans.

6. Your favourite on-ice moment

6/7/18. What else? I still cry when I think about it sometimes, and I can barely listen to "I Will Wait" by Mumford and Sons without crying due to that "Worth the Wait" video the Caps put out on social media after the Cup win.

link someone else's art/fic/etc that you love & think everyone should check out

He's here on Tumblr (@mxgicdave) but I could only find my favorite pic of his on Twitter:

link something you made & are proud of & want people to see

Got nothing. I tried to write a few things about hockey in the past, but not since I was like 13. I was writing a story about a minor league hockey player whose playing got impacted by past trauma. Didn't get very far, then I was also trying to write a murder mystery featuring the Capitals, and I got even less far with that.

no pressure tagging:

I have no one to tag! :(

#hockey #washington capitals #i need more hockey friends #not soccer

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ghosts-and-blue-sweaters · 7 months

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Name five things you're passionate about.

:D

In no particular order…

1. Music! Lyrics, sounds, ukulele, whatever!! MUSIC!!! I LOVE MUSIC!!! I COULD TALK FOR SO LONG ABOUT MUSIC!!! MUSIC MY BELOVED!!!

2. Dream SMP (hehe) I loooove rambling about this crazy fandom so much <3

3. Star Wars! I was talking about Star Wars with my brother a few days ago and it reminded me of how much I truly love Star Wars. It’s just… wow. It’s so cool. I’m such a Star Wars nerd. I love Star Wars. Yes. Star Wars.

4. Writing!! Ideas for fanfics occupy my mind a Lot lol. And this past year I’ve gotten into writing poetry, and that’s been fun :)

5. Definitely a bit of a turn here, but the whole abortion topic never fails to get me worked up. I’ve researched so much into this topic, and heard so many stories, and talked with so many people, and it’s so… I don’t even know the word for it. It’s such an important thing to discuss. Definitely pretty passionate about this.

What makes you feel at home?

A couple things :)

My own blankets, my stuffed animal, my little pink blanket I’ve had since I was a baby. A bathroom that feels safe (I am very picky when it comes to bathrooms lol). Praying. Chatting with friends. Hanging out with my family and being weird together.

More so that last one, than all the others, I think. I was just in the car earlier with my parents and we just… chatted, and I felt so content and safe and happy :)

Share the last dream you remember.

Unfortunate question, my friend.

Aksgajstajsgajsgajs

OKAY SO

MY MIND IS A STRANGE PLACE

MY DREAMS ARE EVEN MORE STRANGE

HERE IS MY MOST RECENT DREAM

Alrighty, so I was at the beach. But it was like… set up like a video game?? I found this overweight guy and had to follow him—for some reason—because of like… a side quest?? Or something???

Not completely sure lol

Anyways, I followed this random dude for a short while, until he went into this long, cheap-looking trailer. I had no idea what was inside the trailer, but I went in anyway (because of the side quest, I suppose).

It was apparently a black market??? It had a really weird setup, with DIY walls creating suspicious pathways throughout the building; I found like, a whole bunch of stuffed animals (apparently being illegally sold) including some of my very own irl stuffed animals!!

I picked up the ones that were mine, trying to figure out this situation…

And then I turned around and realized I’d been caught :0

There was this older man (not the same one from earlier) standing behind me, and he… had Ghostbur?? 🥺 HE HAD CAPTURED GHOSTBUR!!! I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW GHOSTBUR WAS IN THIS TRAILER!!!

And Ghostbur was really scared and it was sad :’( He may have been crying? I think he was, but I don’t quite remember.

:’(((

The guy holding onto him was basically like, “girl, if you don’t stop messing with the black market stuff, something Bad is going to happen to Ghostbur” and obviously I didn’t want that, so I complied.

Time jump!

Ghostbur wasn’t ever in the dream again (I hope he was okay :’0) but me and the older guy started having this really obscure heart-to-heart lol

He told me that his mom (keep in mind, this guy is like, 50 or 60. I’m not entirely sure how his mom is still alive) wanted to send him and his brother off to an asylum because she no longer felt safe around them?? Which… is weird??? Oh my gosh??????

I pretending to listen genuinely, and I asked questions and nodded my head, and he seemed to trust me.

After a bit, he let me leave, but warned me to not mess with his business again or else he’d alter the US government XD

That dream kinda ended after that lol

#my goodness #ask game answers #Pinestripe tag

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lulu-nightbon · 1 year

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OKAY OKAY SO

im not posting this on the Baleful Melody tumblr because its so bad lmfao BUT it is the pfp

i just wanted to draw a pic of Húlíjīng Xiānzhī (Lulilial/Lulu, the self-insert) with Macaque, Wukong, and Nezha! dont mind the pic in the upper right of the image, its a meme for a different thing

for colors (aside from shirt + shorts) on Lulu, this is the original ref (drawn by a friend who im not able to contact rn due to irl issues with my stuff)

this is post season 3 (the fic follows the original plotline fairly closely), after some spoilery things occur (ill put it at the bottom of the post). these four are thesquad™ in-universe, mainly because Lulu may or may not have. almost killed them. and almost died for them. multiple times. there's other reasons of course but if you don't want spoilers i shall not

if you want to see the meme in the upper right corner (the digitalized version my lovely friend over on twitter did, as it's MUCH cleaner), lmk, this is just a doodle page for my sona and there is one more image, but i can share that one too (basic gist- i saw a sad cat meme and decided to draw them super caked up on a thursday afternoon)

please do not mind the state my sketchbook is in, and thanks for looking at this!

okay

are the non-spoiler people gone?

they are?

okay

here we go!

Lulu was originally named Cháng Zhǐ (Zhouei), and she was just a human girl. sometime post-season 3, haven't decided the EXACT circumstances of this yet (whether they're training, battling, etc), but a spark of the samadhi fire escapes Mei and sets her on fire, burning her alive (for those noticing the pronoun difference- part of her struggle in the story is figuring out she's NOT cis, and also her closeted lesbianism, but that second one is a bit more obvious). the last thing she heard was sirens as no trace was left of her... supposedly. she reincarnated into a demon family (before you get on my ass about time continuity- nezha, in his original legend, was gestated for like 42 months a normal pregnancy is 9, came out as a ball of flesh, and then popped out of said ball at like... age 12. princess iron fan didn't want red son to grow past like 8 in his original mythology he's quite obviously older in lmk, im just trying to prove a point here, and wukong was literally born full-grown from a rock. fast aging isn't unbelievable for a demon), who named them Húlíjīng Xiānzhī. they found the group, and became a large antagonist for that portion of the story due to being mad with revenge, but they also have severe amnesia. however, their soul is still there, and wukong can see them crying out when using his golden eyes of truth on Húlíjīng Xiānzhī. eventually, they do restore their memory and at some point after that is when that image would've taken place. they first met macaque (as mk had to relay the message that wukong said she couldn't watch them train when she was still Cháng Zhǐ), who gave her a place to stay when she was Cháng Zhǐ (she does start out homeless, and was an orphaned child), then wukong either a little before or when going to try to rescue Wukong from Spider Queen (who then smashed the side of her head into the ground while she was simping, severely injuring her. macaque shadowed her away to flower fruit mountain, where he knew they'd both be safe while he took care of her again), and lastly Nezha during the Lady Bone Demon incident (she willingly became a host for lbd, as she wanted to trade herself for macaque, and just ended up upsetting the latter while being used). i will HAPPILY spoil more if you ask, im really excited about this fic!!!!!!!!! ^^

#baleful melody #lmk sun wukong #monkey king #liu er mihou #sun wukong #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #nezha #lmk nezha #Húlíjīng Xiānzhī

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softxsuki · 9 months

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Congratulationson 1000 followers !!! You deserve them all and what to come in the future !! Always wishing you the best !! ♡♡

Here's for the event pls ^^ <3

1. She/her !

2. Obey Me! Haikyuu! And Demon Slayer pls !! ^^

3. Male ^^

4. Romantic Lovers ^^

5. Idk :<

6. Aries >:D

7. Quality time, physical affection, gift giving/receiving

8. Idk uh don't really think I have one ?

9 I have a personality like, well, ok I am VERY introverted, I have low self-esteem and I have horrible anger issues, but I'm also really sensitive(when it comes to arguements, once someone starts yelling or being more aggressive it'll lead me to crying, and I hate crying.). I tend to not be around a lot of people and I stay in my own space, a lot of people irl would describe me as mean and/or cold but I just have a hard time really showing a lot of emotion besides anger :^

10. 1-I like art, it's been something ive enjoyed since- 3? I just always adored it and still pull out some paper and pencils often ^^

2-gaming, I do enjoy playing games, my types of games honestly could be more like, Call Of Duty, Fortnite, Apex Legends etc but I also really enjoy minecraft and sometimes roblo and the sims ^^ !

3‐I could spend a little while watching animes :p I don't really binge as much as I'd want too but I do really enjoy animes ehe

4-I also like listening to music. I don't sing or dance or really do much besides a little lip-syncing when it's playing but I, well, just like it? I have a horrible time explaining and describing tbh...

11. Well, I'm a minor I'm school, I absolutely LOVE plushies, and hugs. <3 I can't live without my family and I love scary stories <3 I love hearing other people's stories and interests (especially if it's similar to mine) I find collections very interesting and I spend a lot of time looking at things to shop for online ^^; I love chocolate but I'm allergic to it >:^ I love overside shirts and hoodies so I WILL steal clothes. I am always/usually cold so I better get my match-ups jacket >:^ I also could get really clingy tbh :°

12. Can it be a walk in the park as friends and then a confession that leads to a café date ? ^^

I'm sorry I'm not the best at describing or anything so idk how good/bad this was ^^; ♡ ty in advance ^^"

1000 Follower Event Matchup #23

This is event is CLOSED. You can view the masterlist here.

Note: Hi Kya <3 thank youuuuu. so sorry it's taken me this long to get to your matchup, but it's finally done :D. Hope you like who I matched you with :)

I match you with: MAMMON, KUROO, TANJIRO

Runner-ups were: Beel, Akaashi, (no one else from ds, tanjiro is perfect heh)

Mammon:

I think Mammon would be a great match for you because he’d make you feel really special

He pays extra close attention to how you react to certain things and makes a mental note of it; such as how easily you cry when someone raises their voice at you, how you don’t show emotions very easily aside from being angry, and how you tend to stick to yourself when in a room with many people

Mammon goes out of his way to adjust himself to fit your own needs (he’d never admit it though)

Whenever you’re at a crowded event with him, he’ll take you to a quiet table and just spend time with you, entertaining you and helping you feel comfortable so you can have a good time!

If you randomly get upset at him, he’d be a little taken aback because he hates that he was the one behind your anger, but he quickly gets over it; he has Satan as a brother after all, and than man is literally the embodiment of anger, so it’s all good

Get all your anger out, Mammon would give you your space and wait for you to reach out to him again when you’re ready

THIS MAN LOVES TO SHARE HIS CLOTHES WITH YOU

Of course he won’t say that, but you’d randomly find one of his shirts or sweaters in your room and you’d just casually slip into it

When you come into the dining room for a meal and Mammon sees you in his clothes, he’d probably die on the spot, but have a proud little smirk on his face as his brothers watch with jealousy

How does Mammon confess to you if you were his friend at first?

It takes a lot to get him to confess

You know he likes you…it’s pretty obvious by how blushy he gets whenever you compliment him

So you might have to step up and be the first one to confess here

Once your initial confessions are out of the way though, Mammon naturally becomes a great boyfriend by spoiling you with beautiful things and getting you things on his way home from RAD

Would try and play it of like it’s no big deal, saying he happened to come across something that made him think of you…Yeah no he definitely scoured many stores to find the perfect gift for you

His favorite type of date with you is just spending quality time together in his room, playing some video games, and ordering food until you eventually fall asleep

SOUNDS PRETTY GREAT TO ME

Kuroo:

I find Kuroo very carefree, so your initial impression of being cold, doesn’t affect him at all, in fact he thinks it’s adorable

He teases you about it sometimes, but he just likes getting a reaction out of you, anything to see some emotion behind those eyes

He truly does help you express yourself a bit more since he’s super expressive himself as an extrovert lol

Your love of gaming is a bit exhausting for him, since he already has Kenma to scold about staying up all night playing games, BUT he’d find himself wanting to play some games with you to see what all the hype is about (he does end up enjoying playing with you)

Kuroo is very observant, he picks up on whenever you’re in a particularly bad mood, or going through a rough time and instantly smothers you in affection

He’d throw one of his hoodies over you (whichever you claimed as your favorite) then cuddle up to you, pressing tons of kisses to your face in hopes that he can kiss away your troubles

One of his favorite things about you aside from your wonderful personality and beauty, is your love for art; if he’s ever around while your drawing, he’d watch you quietly, and perhaps would want to join in on the fun and draw with you

How does Kuroo confess to you, his friend?

Very boldly–as soon as he realizes his feelings for you, he makes it well known, physically by always having an arm around your shoulder or teasing you so he can see you get flustered and upset (not seriously upset, he’d never do that)

I don’t think he’d ever officially ask you out, it kinda just happens one day when he excitedly kisses you after winning a game and it was all smooth sailing after that

His favorite place to take you on a date is a cafe and maybe even a museum; some place he can relax with you and see you happy

Idk I just think you’d be a cute pair

Tanjiro:

Now onto the one I ship you with the most, TANJIRO

Your love for your family is so beautiful to him; we all know he cherishes his family as well, so he loves that you’re very close to yours :D

It helps that you were friends first before dating, it gave Tanjiro an opportunity to truly know you (all the small things that he could have possibly never noticed had he fallen for you as a stranger)

Do you see how cuddly he gets with Nezuko, patting her head and everything? Yeah, he does the same with you, but it’s even better :3 he loves when you cling to him–being close with you like that gives him the chance to show you how much he loves you

Got anger issues? No problem. Tanjiro is friends with one of the most spontaneously angry guys out there, Inosuke, he can definitely handle any anger you have to throw at him

Ever going through a hard time? He can smell the sadness on you before even getting a chance to notice something is wrong, and he’s already running over to you to try and comfort you

HAVE YOU SEEN HIS HEART? HE’S SO KIND AND PURE HEARTED I just know a Tanjiro hug could melt all your problems away as he whispers beautiful things in your ear in an attempt to cheer you up

How did he confess to you, his friend?

He didn’t realize his feelings for you were romantic until one night when he almost lost you to a demon

He could feel the pain in his chest and how abnormal is was to feel that way for someone who was just a friend (of course having anyone in danger was terrible and would worry him, but this was different…)

That whole night and for many days to come, Tanjiro never left your side and eventually confessed to you

Get a little blushy after his confession, and is so overjoyed when you tell him you feel the same way

His favorite place to take you on a date is probably a busy village with many stores so the two of you could enjoy shopping for whatever catches your eye or browsing the many treasures each store has to offer

He loves how excited you look while shopping, one of the rare times he sees your open emotions and he’d never pass up an opportunity to see you happy

HE’S JUST PERFECT FOR YOU. DO YOU SEE MY VISION? IK IM PROB MISSING SOME THINGS BUT ITS 2AM AS I'M WRITING THIS AND I'M FEELING A LITTLE OUT OF IT LOL

EVENT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED

REGULAR REQUESTS ARE OPEN

Posted: 7/24/2023

#obey me matchups #haikyuu matchups #demon slayer matchup #obey me x reader #obey me x mc #haikyuu x reader #demon slayer x reader #mammon x reader #mammon x mc #kuroo x reader #tanjiro x reader

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slayolay · 1 year

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Life Goes On

November 24th, 2022

5 years since i’ve forgotten that I have a tumblr acc, I’m back.

I just remember that I have this acc 10 mins ago when I needed to vent about how my mom got mad at me for not lending her money to buy her stuff for when she travel tomorrow, well I do have friends that I can talk to about this but they’re busy and I don’t want to bother them. And my therapist told me to write a journal about my day or how i feel, but as much as i like to write on my book i don’t want people at my house found out about it. So the next best place to do that is tumblr, since no one irl knows me here, and i know that the people that follows me don’t use their acc anymore.

Lets start with how my day started.

I woke up at 8 feeling anxious as usual because i should’ve text my advisor to talk about my thesis but i’m to afraid and very anxious about it. Why? because i really hate doing it, if there’s any way i can do to avoid it then i’ll fucking do it, i don’t know why i hate it so much but i really don’t wanna do it. I know that i should, people in my year have already finished theirs, but i haven’t and i hate myself for that. But i just can’t bring myself to do it. Guess i’ll just do it tomorrow, lets see.

I’ve been having mixed feeling this past month. Anxiety, fear, excitement, numb, sad, confused, all sorts of things. I can’t explain it and it’s been bugging me so much. I wish i still have my meds and could afford to go to therapy again.

The day went buy just like that. Until tonight my mom ask me if she can lend me money to buy some stuff for her travel tomorrow. Money has always been an issue for us and it’s really tight these days. I do have a bit left but i don’t really want to spend it unless it’s emergency. I didn’t give her an answer the first time. Then a few mins later when i’m about to go out to buy dinner she asked again. I don’t really want to lend her some because she rarely pay me back eventhough i needed the money and have never asked her for money if i want to buy something for myself and i’ve been the one that paid the bills this month. But i’m still trying to be a good child so i said i’d lend her half the amount she asked. Then suddenly she got mad. And when i tell her the reason why i can’t give her the full amount she yelled at me to shut up and don’t want to hear me talk. Man i was baffled, felt mad and upset at the same time. Then i went to out to buy food and cried on the way because i’m that kind of person that cries when something upset me. Then it got me thinking, was i selfish for not lending her money? am i really that weak for crying? is she really mad at me? am i a bad child?. All sorts of thought came into me, and its not the good kind. And now i don’t know what to do. She’s at the kitchen now and i’m here in the bedroom where me and her share a bed.

With the feelings i’ve been having these days, and the situation i’m having, disappearing into thin air or be dead doesn’t sound too bad right now haha.

Anyway despite what happened, thank you for staying alive. You did great today:)

Song recommendation

Langit Abu-Abu by Tulus

https://open.spotify.com/track/2FaquTc3FYvNm7RuO1gD6O?si=dd2af22eac3f4688

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